#even vacation can’t stop the tub pics sorry

[eversweetflowerpot]

bath pics, vacation edition

[virginpornstar]

What I Learned From All Of My Hookups In 2020

I knew 2020 would be less slutty than 2017-2019 due to the fact I wasn’t living in ATL. I still had plans to travel monthly, discover new cities and new men, and be a slut everywhere I go. Covid-19 ruined that. So 2020 was far less slutty than I had anticipated, but I still had a lot of fun this year. We have to roll with the punches, and readjust our plans when the plague strikes. I still learned a lot about myself and my sexual interests with each new penis that entered my body. Here’s what I learned from all of my hookups i n 2020! 

1. GUYS THAT DELETE AND CONSTANTY REMAKE NEW DATING APP PROFILES HAVE MENTAL ISSUES

Hooking up with New Castle started off fun, but then he kept acting weird. I asked him why he’d always delete his Grindr profile then make a new one every other week, then he’d go off on me for asking why. I did realize he’d make profiles advertising himself as a top, then ones as vers, then others as a bottom. A clear sign the man didn’t even know what he wants. We had some good times until he started acting crazy, and then randomly blocking men when I couldn’t hookup. 

2. GUYS TREAT ME DIFFERENTLY NOW THAT I’VE LIVED IN ATL

Left Tackle and I had been hooking up off and on since 2016. Yet suddenly in 2020 he wanted to start acting differently, like he’s too good for me. Um what? He also acted grossed out and disgusted after following all my ATL sexual adventures, and I think he started to think I was tainted after reading about me hooking up with a poz guy while on vacation. Oh well. Fuck buddies aren’t meant to last forever. I will not have a guy treating me like he’s too good for me, when in fact I’ve always been too good for him. 

3. I NEED TO STOP HOOKING UP THE NIGHT BEFORE VACATION

I noticed a pattern of when I’m supposed to have a slutty vacation weekend I end up hooking up the night before I leave. Which either makes me dickmatized and not horny on the trip, or I get my hole ripped and then I can’t even fully enjoy hooking up while away. I’m still gonna fuck, just not as much or as enjoyably if I hadn’t gotten fucked the night before. I still enjoyed my encounter with Big D, even if he did rip me. 

4. I CAN’T STAND VIRGOS

Philly Jawn and I had been following each other online and flirting here and there for years. Then when I was staying the weekend in Philly he and I finally made up. it started off well at first, and we even fucked, only for him to act distant and start ghosting me afterwards. Fuck that nigga. I can’t stand Virgo men since they always do this distant shit, and are terrible communicators. If you’re not interested then say so. Don’t waste my fucking time. 

5. FORT LAUDERDALE WAS MORE FUN THAN MIAMI

Miami was my last vacation before Covid-19 plagued the earth. It’s also the last time I flew anywhere. I was so excited to hookup with all these hot Miami men, yet somehow Fort Lauderdale was way better than Miami. The bathhouse was definitely far superior in Fort Lauderdale than Miami at least, and I had way more fun hooking up with guys there than the bathhouse in Miami. 

6. MIAMI IS TO LATINO GAYS WHAT ATL IS TO BLACK GAYS

I hooked up with so many latino men in Miami/Fort Lauderdale. They are the dominant population. It made me nostalgic for my younger years. I didn’t really get with many latinos in ATL, since black men rule that city. I had many latino lovers in the past, so it made me a little nostalgic. Sometimes a latin lover is all you need to give you great vacation sex. 

7. I’M STILL NOT POZ FRIENDLY BUT MAKING PROGRESS

Miami has long been the biggest HiV hot spot in America. Their infection rates are far worse than Atlanta. So it did seem a bit fitting to hookup with a poz guy for the first time while in the HIV capital. When in Rome...granted I only hooked up with him because he was the only cute guy at the bathhouse at the time. If there was anyone more appealing, I wouldn’t have settled for a poz guy. I also wasn’t comfortable enough to do anal, but it’s still progress to have hooked up with a poz guy without penetration. 

8. THE PHILLY BATHHOUSE WAS MORE FUN THAN I EXPECTED

I love checking out the bathhouses in every city I travel to. I didn’t have high expectations for the Philly bathhouse since I knew there wasn’t going to be a pool or hot tub, and those are my favorrite amenities at bathhouses. Yet surprisingly the Philly bathhouse was poppin, and I went on a Wednesday afternoon. It was very diverse, and although I didn’t fuck anyone, I still had a good time. 

9. IT’S FUN TOPPING SOMEONE’S DAD

I always thought it was hot hooking up with a dick that’s created life. I hooked up with this DL divorced father of 2, he was young and around my age, but still hot knowing he had kids. I topped him, and then he became my plug. I do miss the weed provided more than I miss him. 

10. I DON’T MISS THE BUMS IN THE SOUTH

My northern hookups have come bearing gifts. Weed, money, etc...I don’t miss the bums in Atlanta always begging for handouts. Asking for money, transportation, asking for shit. I’ve had so many guys give me shit without even asking like my DL Latino lover. Maybe I should remain in the north, although ATL keeps calling my name. 

11. WHITE MEN LOVE BLOWJOBS

One thing I miss about Atlanta is the men there loved to fuck. Being in the suburbs with mostly old white men and DL guys I’ve realized most of them just want head. I used to be oral only, until I got on PrEP and lost a relationship to never wanting to fuck. So now I love to fuck, but keep encountering guys, like Mushroom Man, where all they want to do is get their dick sucked. Sorry, oral only isn’t enough for me to have a good time. 

12. SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO CATFISH A GUY TO GET THE DICK THAT GHOSTED YOU

Chubby Chaster and I spent hours talking one night on Grindr, then he started ignoring me the next day. Oh hell no! I will not be ignored. I got into the whole anonymous profile thing briefly after my friend encouraged me, and weirdly so many guys are into that. I did end up getting Chubby Chaser to come over, and I kenw as soon as he saw me he must’ve been pissed to realize it was me. Oh well. I still made him cum. 

13. WAY TOO MANY DL BOTTOMS IN THE SUBURBS

When I think of DL guys, at least the ones that turn me on, I think of guys with girlfriends/wives that are masc men you’d never be able to tell fuck guys on the DL. They’re also tops. Yet somehow all the DL guys with wives/girlfriends/baby mamas where I am now seem to all be bottoms. WTF! How can you fuck your girlfriend’s pussy, but somehow can’t use your dick to fuck a guy’s ass? Yet you want to let guys fuck you in the ass? That’s not fun for me. I top like once or twice a year, yet hooked up with so many DL bottoms this year. 

14. I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR OTHER PEOPLE’S TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS

Gorilla and I have hooked up off and on for years. He’s a Scorpio too, and we never get along. Yet the sex is good. He’s been in an off/on relationshp for years, and seems to only hit me up whenever they’re off. Yet we fucked, then suddenly he started being distant afterwards, and then posting his man on social media. Ugh. I can’t stand that shit. I’ve been in that shit where I fuck new guys whenever my ex and I were off, and then when we’re on again ignore the new guys. I hate that cycle, and it’s not fair to the new people I got involved with. So I hate getting involved in that cycle in other people’s relationships since I wanted consistent dick. 

15. NEVER KNOW WHEN YOU’LL MEET YOUR FUTURE SUGAR DADDY

I kinda only hooked up with Gasolina because i’d not had dick in months. I was a little desperate. I wasn’t that attracted to his pics, but he had a big dick, and I’m glad we did end up hooking up. Since he turned into my sugar daddy and I had many fun times this summer with him. 

16. INVITING OVER A THIRD CAN SALVAGE A TERRIBLE HOOKUP

Panty Man got on my damn nerves. We rented a hotel together for the night, even though we barely knew each other and had only texted/talked on a dating app before. I knew as soon as we began talking, this wasn’t going to work, but I didn’t feel like leaving since I paid for half. I invited over New Castle, and then things turned into a threesome. They didn’t touch each other, but both fucked me. I had a good time, because I invited over another guy. I wouldn’t recommend inviting over a third to salvage terrible sex with your boyfriend, but it works for random hookups. 

17. I LIKE CORRUPTING GOOD BOYS

I knew Rocky and I didn’t have any long term potential. He lived too far for me, and his health issues were something I don’t think I could deal with. But we still had some nice times together. He was such a good church boy so I had fun getting him to drink, try edibles, and even wanted him to try poppers. I love introducing men to new things. 

18. I DON’T THINK I’LL EVER DATE A WHITE MAN AGAIN

It’s crazy to think I wasn’t even really attracted to black men until 4 years ago, and now I don’t see myself getting serious with any man that isn’t black. Farmer J was the last white boy I went out with/hooked up with, and he will hopefully be the last for the foreseeable future. I’ve had great encounters with white men before, but I never came close to an actual relationship with a white guy. Now after the ignorant comments Farmer J said, and it’s a lot of the ignorance that comes with dating a white man that is attracted to black people, but knows nothing about black people. His offensive comments that he never would’ve realized are offensive, and his voting history were a complete deal breaker for me. Completely reminded me why once you go black, you never go back. 

19. GUYS ACT SKEPTICAL ABOUT FILMING YOUR SEXUAL ENCOUNTERS THEN GET SUPER INTO ONCE THE CAMERA IS ON

I saw The Reverend again for the first time in 4 years. I wanted to record more content for my OnlyFans. I knew he’d be skeptical due to the nature of his career, but I have masks and know what I’m doing. I’m surprised how into he got when the camera was on. I always turn my tops into the director since I’m too high on poppers to worry about angles, but it was a fun time. We got some really good footage for my channel. 

20. A RANDOM HOOKUP CAN LEAD TO A RELATIONSHIP

Before BMore Bae entered my life I wasn’t looking for love. I had just launched my OnlyFans, wanted to record content, make money, enjoy life, save up before moving to ATL, and then boom. He comes over, he’s cuter than expected, and I caught feelings. I caught feelings fast. It’s been an roller coaster, but it’s so true. Love enters your life when you least expect it. I’m so glad it did. We’ve already made so many beautiful memories together, and I can’t wait to see what the future has in store for us. 

[crownedbyluke]

Long Road Ahead (Chapter Eleven)

Estelle Finley has been friends with Ashton Irwin and Luke Hemmings for three years. When the boys bring her along on a jam-packed road trip to Cape Cod with the rest of the band, their adventures are just beginning. Through long hours driving, exploring cities, and hidden secrets, something more is bound to happen on this journey. How will this road trip change Estelle’s friendship with the friends she’s come to love so dearly?

Word Count: 3,200

{Chapter One} {Chapter Two} {Chapter Three} {Chapter Four}{Chapter Five} {Chapter Six} {Chapter Seven} {Chapter Eight} {Chapter Nine} {Chapter Ten}

My eyes hurt from crying last night. My dad’s words echoed through my head once again as I came out of sleep.

Make another mistake Estelle and I will not hesitate to end his career.

The threat against Luke had me questioning things again. Why was my dad not trusting me? Had I really broken our relationship to that point? I had always done what he asked of me. Calum had done his best to comfort me, but Luke’s shirt had brought me the most comfort. Despite my anger towards him, the smell of his cologne was the one thing that made my tears stop. There was a hope that came with the gesture that we could make it through this. I looked at the material as it laid on my dresser. Last night, I hadn’t brought myself to pull it on, my head still fighting with my heart. I sighed, walking over to my closet. My eyes settled on the red button up that was slightly cropped, something Ashton bought me to match his own shirt a year ago. I grabbed a pair of jean shorts for the trip to Brooklyn. It was supposed to be humid today so I might as well be prepared for it. After fastening the button on my shorts, my eyes went back to Luke’s shirt. A part of me hoped he was in his room so we could talk, but the bigger part of me wanted to yell at him. How was I supposed to trust him now?

His door was partially opened when I left my room. My knuckles rapped against the door, hoping for a response. I waited for a minute before I walked in. Luke’s physical presence wasn’t there, but his stuff was strewn everywhere. If I didn’t know that this was an airbnb, I would have thought that he’d lived here for years. My thoughts went wild as I stood there, a flash of what could be coming before my eyes. Before I let my thoughts go there, I placed the shirt on his bed. My feet carried me down the stairs, hearing everyone’s laughter in the kitchen. I paused before walking in, needing a second to clear my head. The moment I turned the corner, Ashton was giving me a smile.

“Morning bugs!” he said, causing everyone to look at me.

The way Luke’s shoulders tensed as he saw me wasn’t lost on me. Was it something I was wearing? Or had I really ruined this relationship too?

“Morning,” I said softly.

I found a place between Calum and Ashton, not wanting to make Luke anymore uncomfortable. My anger might have been present, but I still hated the fact that I was causing him discomfort on his vacation.

“So, Brooklyn Bridge and then let the city decide where else we go?” Calum asked.

“Sounds perfect to me,” Luke said, his voice having a slight rasp to it.

His voice made me wonder if everything was okay. Luke’s voice was never raspy past him just waking up. The only other time I had heard it this way was on tour after four back to back shows. Worry came over my thoughts, but my father’s words came back to me. We left without me asking if he was okay. I felt stupid that I was suddenly unable to talk to him. This wasn’t the way our friendship was supposed to work. Even if I was in love with him and we were unable to be together, that shouldn’t have changed our friendship. My anger with the situation and my behavior must have caused a scowl to come across my face.

“Everything okay Elle?” Calum asked quietly.

His voice snapped me out of my thoughts, making me look up to meet his brown eyes.

“Yeah. Just thinking,” I said.

Calum gave me a look and I knew that I was caught. I glanced over at luke, noticing the headphones he had in.

“I was worried about him,” I whispered.

“Was?” he asked, looking at me curiously.

“I still can’t get the image of him kissing that girl out of my head, so my worry went away,” I said.

“Elle, he made a mistake,” Calum argued.

“A mistake that makes me question if I can trust him.”

Calum’s eyes went wide, clearly not expecting me to say that. Was it really that surprising that I was upset? It had only been two days. When it came to matters of the heart and putting my trust in someone, the boys knew that it was a serious matter for me. For Calum to question me on that was ridiculous.

“Well, he was up late writing last night,” he said, changing the subject.

I nodded, my eyes looking past Calum to the profile of Luke’s face. His curls seemed to be more knotted than styled, his jaw a little clenched. He was playing with the rings on his fingers, the nervous tick giving him away. It was obvious that he was frustrated and I knew that a part of it was my fault. There was a part of me that felt bad for causing the distress, but the more prominent part of me wasn’t bothered. Luke had brought this on himself by kissing that random girl. Now, he had to face the consequences of the action.

“Bugs, you brought your camera right?” Ashton asked from the backseat.

My thoughts came back to reality. I turned to face the golden haired man.

“Course. Why?” I asked.

“We need some quality band pics to boast about each other.”

I laughed a little, turning back around. They liked to make me their personal photographer whenever I was around. I had no problem with it, but it sometimes made me wonder.

“I’ll never understand why you guys don’t just bring Andy on vacation with you,” I teased.

In my peripheral, I caught Luke take out his headphones to listen to our conversation.

“You’re cuter than him,” Calum said, winking a little.

Luke tensed again. Was he seriously intimidated by Calum’s flirting? At this point, it was just how Calum and I acted around each other. Everyone knew that it meant nothing. I wanted him to look at me, see the dismissal of Calum’s words, but he kept looking forward. Were we really being this way towards each other? If I really wanted to, I could have flirted back, but I refused to stoop to that level.

“Maybe, but I’m never taking pictures of you in a bathtub with your ass on display,” I fired back, making Calum laugh.

Luke’s shoulders shook from a small chuckle. My own body eased from his reaction.

“You’re not better Hemmings! The pictures of you in that tub are far more sexual than mine!” Calum argued.

The car erupted in laughter and Luke raised his hands in surrender. Crystal parked the car before nodding to us to get out. Luke helped me step out of the Ranger Rover, the small touch causing my body to heat up. The way my body reacted to him caused frustration to run through me. I was supposed to be angry and here I was, acting like a teenager with a crush. His eyes refused to meet mine causing my heart to sink a little.

“Estelle!” Ashton called.

I pulled my hand away from Luke before looking over at Ashton. He was practically dancing over to the bridge. I distanced myself from Luke and laughed at my best friend ahead of me. My camera captured a few moments that brought a smile to my face, Ashton dancing around without a care in the world, Michael giving Crystal a piggy back ride, and Calum pretending to be an airplane while attempting to balance himself on a curb. I snapped a few more shots before Ashton bounded over to me.

“Let me see!” he cheered.

I laughed and stopped walking so he could look. My eyes caught Luke walking ahead of us, almost at a brisk pace. Was he really trying to get away from me that fast? Ashton looked over my shoulder as I showed him the pictures.

“Are you okay?” he asked after a moment.

“What? Yeah,” I lied.

Ashton glared at me before lifting my camera from my hands and centering the viewfinder on Luke.

“Liar.”

“Well, what am I supposed to say Ash? Oh, I’m sorry that you kissed someone else and by the way, my dad wants to ruin your life?” I asked sarcastically.

I caught him rolling his eyes. He lowered my camera and placed an arm around my shoulders. We started walking again, keeping a slow pace together.

“If you love him then get through the obstacles together instead of apart,” he said.

“How am I supposed to trust him not to hurt me again?” I asked.

My real worries were out there now and there was no taking them back. Ashton stopped walking, turning me to face him. His hazel eyes were full of concern and hope.

“You have to at least give him the chance to show you why,” he said.

He brought a hand to my cheek, making me look at him. Ashton knew me better than anyone else and he could tell when I was afraid or lying just from my eyes.

“I don’t want to feel that pain again Ash.”

“I know bugs, but he deserves an opportunity to win you back.”

My eyes drifted towards Luke. I focused only on him for a long moment, feeling the way my heartbeat sped up and my palms started to sweat. Ashton was right yet again.

“Okay,” I said with a nod.

“Yeah?” he asked just to double check.

“Yeah.”

“Great. Now, let’s go force our friends to take dorky pictures with us.”

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The ferris wheel and roller coasters looked gigantic as we walked into Coney Island. My eyes were overwhelmed with the colors and people that were everywhere. I squeezed Ashton’s shoulders as he carried me towards the boardwalk.

“What do you think bugs?” he asked with a laugh.

“It’s spectacular,” I said, slightly out of breath.

It was unlike our visit to the Santa Monica pier. Ashton laughed and continued towards the end of the pier. He set me down and stood with his arms out. I laughed, but captured the moment anyways.

“Who’s in for the cyclone?” Calum asked, excitement in his tone.

“I’m in!” Ashton cheered.

“I’ll go too,” Luke said.

I was a little surprised by him, knowing that he rarely enjoyed roller coasters. My heart sank a little as I watched him walk away with Ashton and Calum.

“Es, there’s an art wall,” Michael said.

My excitement returned almost instantly as I heard him. Michael laughed at my reaction before leading me and Crystal towards it. My eyes were again overwhelmed by the splatter of colors. I snapped a few shots of the art before looking back at Michael and Crystal. It was easy to see how much they loved each other. From one look, it was plastered all over their faces. I felt like I was slightly intruding on their moment. My finger twitched on my camera before I raised it. As I looked at the small copy of the picture, a smile came to my face. The emotion was conveyed on their faces perfectly in the shot. It made me wonder if Luke and I looked at each other that way.

“Give me the camera for a moment,” I heard Calum whisper.

His voice made me jump, not expecting them to be done yet. I slowly handed it over, confused by what he was after.

“Luke,” he called, getting the blonde’s attention.

He walked over and let Calum whisper in his ear. Luke’s ocean eyes met mine as he listened intently. Without speaking, Luke made his way over to me and took my hand. It was a random move and had me reeling. He stopped in front of one of the pieces that caught my eye. Before I had the chance to ask what was going on, Luke dipped me. He laughed as I grabbed onto his arms. The act was out of nowhere and I knew it was just for a picture, but it still made my breath hitch.

“Don’t you dare drop me!” I warned, making him laugh more.

“Wouldn’t dream of it little dove,” he whispered.

He slowly pulled me up, our bodies touching slightly. The tension between us felt like it could be cut with a knife. My mind went blank as we stood there. I felt the familiar electricity thrumming in the space between us. The image of him with the girl from the club flashed before my eyes making me pull away from him. My feet carried me back to Calum, quickly taking my camera back.

“Elle-”

“Not now,” I said cutting him off.

My mouth stayed closed as I walked away from them, the anger radiating off me. What made them think that forcing a picture would make everything better? That I wouldn’t mind being close to him that way? It wasn’t that simple.

“Es, wait up!” Crystal called.

I heard her footsteps as she ran to catch up to me. My pace never slowed.

“They were just goofing around,” she said.

I kept walking, not wanting to have an outburst or breakdown in front of all these people. Crystal stayed with me, even getting in line for the ferris wheel with me. I waited until we were in a car before saying anything.

“They were out of line!” I said finally.

“Calum probably didn’t think it would bother you that much,” she defended.

“That doesn’t change the fact that being that way with Luke hurts me,” I admitted, hanging my head after the words had left my mouth.

Crystal took one of my hands in her’s.

“I know. They don’t understand the damage he caused by kissing that other girl. Talk to him about it,” she said.

She was echoing what Ashton said. They were right, but I still wasn’t sure how I would even start the conversation. Yelling? Calling him an asshole? All were good options at this point.

“How about we hit up the sweet shoppe after this? You don’t have to talk to him until we go back okay?” she asked.

I nodded, giving her a small smile. My eyes caught the view from the top of wheel. I snapped a few shots of it before looking back at her.

“What if we still can’t work this out by the art gallery opening?” I asked.

“Leave that problem to me,” she said.

There was a look in her eyes that worried me a little. Crystal smiled at me, easing my worries a little. She clearly had something up her sleeve, but I trusted her to not put me in an uncomfortable position.

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My stomach felt like it was sinking as I sat on my bed. Everything was packed so we could leave tomorrow morning. Luke and I were driving tomorrow and the looming conversation was making me nervous. I was so lost in my head that I hadn’t heard Luke knock.

“You okay in here?” he asked, standing in the doorway.

“Fine,” I lied, refusing to look at him.

“Look about earlier-”

“You were out of line,” I blurted.

There was an audible hitch in his breath before I heard him sigh. My head turned to look at him, catching the storm of guilt and pain in his eyes.

“I know.”

“Do you really though because I don’t think you do. Do you realize how much pain you’ve caused Luke? What you did wasn’t just a little mistake. You were kissing someone else while I was here devastated because the man I love had decided I wasn’t worth the fight,” I almost yelled.

I wanted my words to cut him the way his actions had done to me. My eyes caught how he hung his head like a dog caught in the middle of tearing up a pillow.

“I didn’t mean for it to happen,” he said quietly.

My anger boiled from his words, bringing me to my feet to stand in front of him.

“Is that supposed to make it better? News flash Luke, it still happened. It’s still burned in my brain.”

“I know! Even though I was drunk and barely remember doing it, I know what it meant. I’m trying to make up for it, he argued.

I was unable to stop myself from rolling my eyes.

“By doing what? Forcing yourself into my personal space?” I fired.

His eyes widened, jaw clenching along with his fists by his sides.

“Yeah well you had the top of my best friend’s dick in you. I at least stopped at a kiss!” he yelled.

I felt the bite of my nails as they dug into my palms. I took a step closer, not backing down from him.

“Is that why you did it then? To get back at me for almost sleeping with Calum when you were dating someone else and didn’t even look at me that way?”

He stepped closer to me, our chests almost touching. It was close enough that I could feel his breath on my skin.

“Would that make it better for you Estelle? If I was so consumed with jealousy that I had to kiss someone else?” he asked.

Part of me wanted to slap him while another part of me wanted to kiss him to shut him up.

“No,” I said quietly.

“You said that we can’t do this, so I won’t force you to love someone against your will,” he said, voice barely audible.

My eyes searched his face as we stood there. Some of my anger dissipated with his words. I came to the realization that I wanted this with him. The fights, the love, the laughter. There was a tether to him that I wasn’t capable of getting rid of.

“You aren’t forcing me to love you,” I said softly.

“Could have fooled me,” he fired, causing my anger to resurface.

My fists clenched again, his words igniting me again.

“Get out.”

“Estelle,” he tried as he reached for me.

“No Luke. Get out,” I repeated, moving away from him.

“Wait, I-”

“I can’t trust you right now!” I yelled, a fire ablaze in my eyes as I glared at him.

I was on the brink of forgiving him, of talking this out with him, telling him about my dad and he took all that away with four words. My words rang in the silence as he stared at me in shock. Luke slowly backed away until he was closing my bedroom door. The anger let my body the moment he was gone. I sank into one of the chairs, exhaustion taking over from being so tense the whole time he was here. Against my better judgement, I pulled up the picture Calum took. We looked like a happy couple in it. It reminded me of the picture I took of Michael and Crystal. Luke had a smile on his face and he was looking at me like I was his entire world. My expression was one of surprise, but the love was evident in my eyes. It was the perfect picture, but right now, we weren’t that perfect couple and it hurt my heart to be reminded of that.

Oh I am going for it now. Here goes nothing on this journey that I’m taking Estelle and Luke on. I promise it’ll end well....just gonna take a while first.

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[myvalzpival]

The Summer In Prague

My gift for the lovely @caren-ortensia for the @emimikeweek exchange thingy! I sent this gift privately for the giftee to enjoy beforehand, so now it’s time to show it to the world, too!  Because of the wonky format I decided to make this at, I had 0 idea how to publish it, but, here we go :D 

Dear Mila,

We’re finally in Prague! But the ride was terrible. The AC in the bus stopped working shortly after we left and the weather is crazy here. Is it so fucking hot in Saint Petersburg, too? It was like 36 °C all day, Mickey almost fainted at one point.

But we’re finally here and that’s important! The hotel is bomb. I was angry at first since Mickey chose a really expensive one, but after the ride we’re so glad to have such a comfy room with GIANT beds and an ENORMOUS bathtub! Mickey is soaking in the tub right now, so I have a bit of time for myself here, unpacking and stuff. You know, this girl’s dresses have to hang!

We’re having dinner in the hotel restaurant tonight and tomorrow we’re starting our adventure! I booked us a guide because I’m pretty sure we would get lost here in no time. Prague has so many back alleys and side alleys, it’s insane. Besides, we don’t want to spend money on overpriced stuff and the guide should help us with that!

But I’ll tell you more tomorrow. Super sleepy now. Talk to you soon!

Love you,

Sara <3

Dear Mila,

Today was, um, very interesting, I’d say??? If you want to know what we had for breakfast and lunch, just go to Mickey’s Instagram he’s got everything there, you know him. The real deal was the sightseeing today!

You know how I told you about booking a guide? Turned out he’s the cutest thingy ever! His name is Emil and he’s tall and all goofy! Such a sweetheart. His English sounds funny, it’s adorable, and his Italian is even better hahaha he’s trying so hard! He’s friendly and helps us with everything. And he took us to places that are not even in our guide books! Prague is full of surprises, I love it here so much.

On the other hand, Mickey’s been really quiet today. He tried to growl at the guide at first, as always, but it just slid down on Emil as if he said nothing. The boy keeps smiling and smiling and smiling, it’s contagious! Well, for me, not for Mickey, unfortunately. He really didn’t seem like himself today. But maybe he was just hungry or something, who knows. I just hope he likes it here and isn’t suffering through it just because of me.

How is your vacation? Are you enjoying time with your parents? Can’t wait to see you boo!

Love you,

Sara <3

 Dear Mila,

I hope your dad feels better. But, as I know your mom, he definitely will. One or two cups of her chicken soup and he’s gonna be as healthy as ever! Woah, your grandma sounds so cool! At 70 in a hot air balloon?! FIERCE!!!!

Today I forced Mickey to pose for a few pictures. We took it a little easier because Emil figured out we were tired after all the walking we did the day before, and so he took us mostly to famous restaurants, cafés and pubs! He said he would look into the event schedule and maybe he’d be able to get us some concert tickets for the end of the week, if he finds something that we’d like and that’s not sold out.

He spends so much time with us! I actually have him booked for only a few hours a day, but he just keeps hanging out with us for the rest of the day, he doesn’t mind! Such a nice boy. I will have to give him a big tip or something, even though he does seem to enjoy spending time with us. I think you’d like him, too, he’s so happy and bouncy all the time and you’d love love love his stupid sense of humour. I even caught Mickey to fight laughter and that’s something!

But he still looks kinda… sad? I don’t know, I’ve never seen him like this. He’s kinda annoyed, too, whenever Emil tries to talk to him, Michele starts cursing in Italian and I really don’t know what the deal is. But, other than that, everything is absolutely beautiful and so much fun!

Take care and say hi to your mom and dad from me!

Love you,

Sara <3

Dear Mila,

I THINK I KNOW WHAT THE DEAL WITH MICKEY THE GRUMPY PANTS IS!!!

Mila, no kidding, I think he’s got a crush on Emil. I know, weird, right? But I think he really might??? Apparently, he’s been taking pics of Emil secretly the whole time. I caught him in the morning just sitting on his bed and going through the album full of smudgy Emil pics, it was so funny, but, I don’t know, kinda cute? Hahahaha that poor kid. Any time I try to talk about Emil, he starts blushing and tries to change the topic. I think I’ll try to hook those two up, even if it was just for one night. It’s our vacation, Mickey deserves some fun after working so hard all year. And Emil is a real sweetheart, I don’t think he’d want to use Mickey or anything like that. We’ll see.

He took us to the Faust House and told us the story about it. Honestly, he knows the most badass and scary stories about Prague ever, I love it! He promised to take us to some night sightseeing, I can’t wait!

Please, send me more pics of your family dog! She’s so cute and chubby, I love her~

Love you,

Sara <3

Dear Mila,

I’m sorry for not getting to you sooner, hope you’re not too worried, I know sending an e-mail at 3am is not very responsible. But holy shit we had a blast of a day! Emil surprised us and took us to a steamboat to sail on Vltava! So beautiful and refreshing. Emil is still trying to talk to Mickey, but my brother is a stubborn old fart. So, I decided to just leave them alone and go talk to some older Italian couple who happened to be there with us haha they were really nice and I got a recipe for what sounds like the best cake ever, you just wait when you come visit me!

Mickey looked so much more relaxed when I came back, they talked about skating and we found out Emil is actually trying to get back into figure skating after an injury. It’s so weird we’ve never met him before! But it’s so sweet, they finally found something they have in common that they can talk about. I knew it was serious when Mickey decided to add Emil on facebook. Savage.

We didn’t do much more, but then Emil called us if we wanted to go clubbing. I’ve never seen Michele get out of the bed this quickly. He was so cute trying to brush his teeth, get into his jeans and comb his hair at the same time. Let me tell you, Czechs are party animals. I’ve never been to a party like this, we definitely have to go here together one day, it was lit! At one point Mickey and Emil disappeared, I think I saw them kissing near the restrooms, but I’m not sure. Either way, Mickey looked really happy (and slightly tipsy) when we got back to the hotel. I think he’s starting to feel Prague finally.

Could you ask Georgi what the eyeshadow he used on his last Instagram pic is? I need it. Like, right now.

Love you,

Sara <3

 Dear Mila,

Thanks for the pictures! Also, I think the blue dress looks better than the pink one. Not that you don’t look hot in pink, but it’s a wedding, I think the bride would appreciate if you didn’t try to outshine her.

As of Mickey, he had some hard time this morning. He’s really confused. He’s never even done anything with a girl, yet alone with a guy. I don’t think he’s sure what he wants at this point. At least he decided to talk about it and doesn’t try to keep it in as always. He’s uh… Quite shook by the discovery that he might be gay and I think the fact that it seemed totally natural to Emil made it just worse. He feels better now, though. He seems to really care about Emil and that’s what’s important.

He wasn’t talking much the whole day, not even to me, but the smiles and looks the two of them shared were so precious. They look adorable together, have you seen the pictures? It’s so funny to see someone taller next to my brother. Mickey spent all his life protecting me, but had no one to do the same for him. I think Emil would be the best candidate for that, but, you know. He’s Czech and all that jazz… Not that Italy is that far away (says the girl dating a Russian), but you know how Mickey gets jealous over me all the time? I don’t think he’d be able to take that with a boyfriend so far away. But I’m thinking about the future too much, it’s irrelevant now.

The important thing is that we went to the concert Emil promised us and he went with us, of course. It was a really good Czech band, I’m not even sure what their name was, but it was amazing, definitely something you would enjoy! They held hands on the way home. I think Mickey is still a bit too shy to show any affection on the day light, but the night makes him feel safe. He tried to stop me from taking a picture, buuuuut I made it! B)

Sleep well, love you!

Sara <3

Dear Mila,

I love the new haircut! As always, you look cute and badass at the same time. Can’t wait to see it in person, the new red is super adorable on you, too. Only two weeks and we’ll be together! How amazing is that?

I got so lost in everything I forgot yesterday was the last day we had Emil booked for us. We’d already seen everything Prague has to offer, so we went shopping today instead of sightseeing! Got you a reeeeeally cute top and a few more things I’m sure you’ll appreciate. Mickey had been quiet for most of the day again. It was as if he was missing a limb without Emil around. So strange! I wanted to take him to the movies or something, but he wouldn’t go anywhere.

At about 7 pm, though, he suddenly got up and told me he was going out. I’m not his mom to keep an eye on him 24/7, but I was a bit worried, so I tried to ask Emil on facebook. Turned out he invited Mickey over to his place. Those two have something going on, I’m telling you. Not complaining, though, as long as they’re happy, I’m happy too.

The fun part is that it’s almost 11 pm and Mickey’s still not here hehe. But it means I can watch some of my favourite movies without being bothered! It’s a total win.

I can’t believe our vacation is almost over. We’re leaving tomorrow evening, I’ll miss it here so much. But, oh well, home is home. And I can’t miss Prague more than my girlfriend, that’s for sure!

Take care, love you!

Sara <3

 Dear Mila,

Sorry for not messaging you yesterday. It was all so hectic and I’m just so glad the ride is over and I can rest back at home!

Anyway, Mickey came back to the hotel in the morning. I was starting to worry, Emil said the streets can be pretty dangerous at night. But, instead of coming home with an empty wallet and a beaten up face, he came home with… wait for it… a boyfriend! Well, not literally. Emil wasn’t with him. But I tried to carefully ask what happened that night and it seems like they had a really nice talk and they seem to just click, you know? I’d never think someone so goofy and lively would click with my grumpy brother, or that my brother would ever let anyone touch him. I’m so happy for them. I just tried to make sure Mickey did think it through, I mean, they’ve known each other for what, a week? But he seems to be sure, so I trust him.

We ended up making big snack and water supplies for the long ride home in the morning, had our last huuuuge Czech lunch in a restaurant (pics, again, on Mickey’s Instagram) and then we hang out with Emil for the last time. I don’t know what they talked about the previous night, but holy shit. I’ve never seen Mickey so happy and sad at the same time.

Emil even came to meet us at the bus. I think it was the first time I saw him really sad. He was hugging Mickey for solid ten minutes and didn’t want to let go, it was heart-breaking (and reminded me of you and that was even worse, curse you, you damn gays!). Mickey was very quiet and sad the whole ride home, but that goofy Czech idjit kept sending him dog pics, it was adorable.

Soooo I decided to invite Emil over! For the two weeks you will be in Italy, too. I think Michele would be too embarrassed to have someone over alone, a double vacation will feel safer for him. And you’ll get to meet Emil! I’m so sure you’re gonna love him. He was saying something about a lifting-your-partner competition, so you might want to start working out again, we’re noT LOSING TO THESE TWO WIMPS!!!!!

Well, I think that’s all from our vacation. It was lovely, Prague is stunning and Mickey seems so happy after a very long time. I think it was a success. Message me when you get back to Saint Petersburg, let’s skype when you have time. I miss you so much!!!

Love you,

Sara <3