#even though im not comfortable thinking about myself pregnant (ew)
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she’s a woman of simple tastes
#when ur too pregnant to pay attention in class so u just think about ur hot bf#god. if i werent desperately asexual i would kill for a pregnant bf are you kidding me#....ok id actually rather date tulip women are lowkey kinda hot tbh#<--(hetero moment)#anyway.#tulip#tulip t#preg#preg kink#preg art#ok but i DO. find it interesting. that generally i find women much more attractive#but in preg i tend more towards (trans) guys#i think its partially because i want to project onto them#even though im not comfortable thinking about myself pregnant (ew)#who knows#mart#gosh i write a lot of bullshit in these tags
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I LIED ~ Mark Tuan x Reader
I know I don't usually post fanfictions, but I guess this is one I thought I should post, so let me know how bad/good it is, and if you guys would even want more in the future idk, but enjoy x
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SHIP/TYPE: Mark tuan x reader
CATEGORY: angst / fluff ??
WORD COUNT: 1,495
WARNINGS: ?? female things
He held my hand as we walked into the waiting room. “Are you okay?” His hand gripped tighter around mine. “Yeah.” I doubted the words that slipped my mouth. “Are you sure?” I squeezed his hand to reassure him. We were here because he was worried about me. It was weird having someone worry about me, it was strange.
Mark came with me to the doctors because I couldn’t speak Korean fluently yet, so he was basically a translator. I feel helpless when he has to do this. I didn’t even want to go to the doctors, but it got to the point where Mark was threatening not to go to practice because he was worried. I didn’t see why it was such a big deal anyways, he shouldn’t risk his job, his life, for me.
I had missed my period here and there, Mark gave the idea that I could have been pregnant, but we both knew that wasn’t it considering he had been on tour for a while, they were getting bad again. Ever since I was younger I always had irregular periods so it was normal to me, I never paid this much attention, until he did.
The doctor walked in holding some forms and he started talking, Mark explained he was going to translate for me. “He asked what seems to be the problem lately.” Mark whispered his hand still glued to me. “Can you just answer for me.” “I don’t know the whole story.” He squeezed my hand again, somehow it was comforting. “Basically, I’ve had irregular periods since childhood, and now Mark’s worried something might be wrong as they’re getting more and more irregular.” Mark explained what I said to the doctor, then the doctor asked more questions. This went on for a good 10 minutes. I didn’t see why it was a big deal.
“You’re going to have to go for some tests.” Mark said to me standing up, while I quickly followed behind. The doctor led us to the front desk giving me some paperwork for blood tests. “He said once they get the results back for this, we’ll have to come back in a week.” I nodded and headed off with Mark to the hospital to get my testing done.
The car ride home was silent, it wasn’t awkward though, it was comforting. His hand sat across my thigh and his other hand on the wheel while my phone played softly in the background, I was looking out the window wondering what he was thinking. I was a burden to him, why did he stay with me?
Later that week Mark and I were laying on the couch watching Weekly Idol, it was a special episode with GOT7 featured because of the new comeback they had just had, we knew Mark would be leaving on Thursday that week. The phone rang and Mark got up to answer it leaving me alone with the popcorn watching him and Jackson dance hand in hand. “You have an appointment on Friday.’ Mark sat back next to me on the couch lifting my feet up, then placing them back on his lap. “Okay..” “They’ll have a translator, so you’ll be fine on that problem.” “Whats the other?” I was worried with how he was acting “I’m leaving before then, I don’t want you to do this alone.” His smile from earlier had faded now. “Mark I’ll be fine, they’ll probably just say its nothing and that I need to take some vitamins or something.” I gave him a reassuring smile shovelling more popcorn in my mouth. “Are you sure?” He eyed the popcorn in my hand off. “Yes I’m sure.” Throwing the popcorn at him, in the back of my mind I knew that I wasn’t going to be fine, but I couldn’t let him know that.
It was Friday, Mark had left to go on tour and I was waiting in the same room with just as much anxiety but without Mark, I was terrified. The doctor called me in and I had a translator with me during the appointment. “Your results are back. We will have to send you off on one more test to make sure of the results, but we will get them back right away.” “So I’ll know the results later this afternoon?’ “Yes.” The doctor had a doubtful tone in his voice, I needed Marks hand.
I came back after one more test, the doctor sat down and lent on the desk taking his glasses off and putting them on the table, I didn’t know what was coming but I knew it had to be bad, theres no way you deliver good news like that. “I have bad news, Miss (Y/L/N)” the doctor started but my heart stopped. “The reason you’ve had irregular periods” blah blah blah. He went on with his explanation but I didn’t hear anything until the translator said. “I’m sorry but you’re infertile, you won’t be able to have kids.” Tears started to form but I held them back as well as I could. The doctor gave me the results and sent me to reception to fill out more paper work.
I couldn’t tell him. It would kill him.
Mark was still on tour and didn’t know, I told him that I was right, low vitamins. We had talked about it here and there, we would go out for walks to the park and see kids. We would mention how amazing it would be, one day. But now it’s never. It hurt, there’s no way he would stay.
He was back. We were walking through a park like old times. “It’s been so long.” He looked at me with his cute smile he has, I missed it and I was glad it was back. “It has.” I leaned my head on his shoulder as we sat on a bench near the playground. Then it happened, “You know we should have kids one day, like not now, but when we’re ready.” He looked at me with his smile again I broke then and there I couldn’t take it I had to tell him. “I’m sorry if you don’t want to we don’t have to.” He held me in his arms trying to comfort me, it wasn’t his fault but he didn’t know that. “How about we head home so you’re not out in public.” I nodded and we headed home. We spent the night cuddling and watching movies, he knew I didn’t want to talk about it. But I needed to, eventually.
“When or if you want to talk about it you know I’m here, right?” He sat down next to me on the bed putting his arm on my leg rubbing it to comfort me. “I know, I need to because it’s important, but I’m afraid you’ll hate me if I do.” Tears started to form again. “Theres no way in the world I could hate you! I love you for you and there’s nothing you could say to cha..” Before he could finish I cut him off. “I lied.” He didn’t reply just stared, I had to explain. “It wasn’t just a lack of vitamins, I’m infertile, I’m never going to have kids Mark.” He looked shocked and I was in tears, it was a mess. I was waiting for him to leave, he stood up I was ready for him to yell. I hid it from him for months. Walking out the room Mark was gone for ten minutes, I thought I heard the front door so I just layed down and tried to cry myself to sleep. I was interrupted when the bedroom door flung open and hit the wall. Mark walked in with almost a life size teddy and chocolate. “What?” I had the most confused look on my face. I could tell he had been crying, but thats to expected with news like that. “Aren’t you going to leave me?” “Why in the world would I leave an amazing girl like you?” He smiled. “Mark seriously don’t play games if you’re going to leave, leave don’t make this worse than it is.” “IM NOT LEAVING.” Mark violently whispered. He grabbed me and pulled me off the bed and embraced me in the best hug in the world. “Why would I leave you.” “Because theres no reason to stay with me we can’t have kids.” “Well here’s reason 1 of 569 of ‘Why you’re amazing and I’m never leaving you’, you..” I covered his mouth with my hand, which he then licked. “EW.” “You put it there, I lick it.” “That sounds wrong Tuan.” I started to smile again, but then it dropped. “But seriously I can’t have kids.” I tried to pull away but he wouldn’t let me. “We can adopt or not have kids, simple. Plus, that isn’t important to me, you are.” Tears streamed down my face, how did I become so lucky?
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All the ones you are willing to answer.
oh man here we go.
1: Name
avery
2: Age
17
3: 3 Fears
everyone hating me, closing my eyes in a group of people, eels
4: 3 things I love
dogs, theatre, lavender
5: 4 turns on
knowing that I’m turning somebody else on, neck kisses, sex voices (u know what i mean idk how to describe that), aaaand idk.6: 4 turns off
people being dumb, people being Problematic™, idk what else.
7: My best friend
lol what?
8: Sexual orientation
queer as heck.
9: My best first date
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
10: How tall am I
5′11″
11: What do I miss
idk man…
12: What time were I born
i were born at 2:11pm.
13: Favorite color
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
14: Do I have a crush
yes :)
15: Favorite quote
“We must risk delight” -A Brief for the Defense by Jack Gilbert
16: Favorite place
The bottom of the grand canyon.
17: Favorite food
who knows
18: Do I use sarcasm
who, me? hell no never.
19: What am I listening to right now
my spanish teacher trying to keep a straight face while talking about promiscuity
20: First thing I notice in new person
probably voice
21: Shoe size
womens 10.5, mens 9
22: Eye color
hazel
23: Hair color
blondish brownish
24: Favorite style of clothing
um. comfortable and black?
25: Ever done a prank call?
yeah in sixth grade.
27: Meaning behind my URL
apparently it’s a euphemism for being on your period and i thought it was amazing.
28: Favorite movie
idk!! currently probably moonlight.
29: Favorite song
idk thats too hard
30: Favorite band
see 29
31: How I feel right now
kinda disappointed kinda stressed kinda happy
32: Someone I love
my dogs
33: My current relationship status
;)
34: My relationship with my parents
pretty decent usually
35: Favorite holiday
idk, halloween?
36: Tattoos and piercing i have
ears, stick-n-poke of a triangle
37: Tattoos and piercing i want
lots!!
38: The reason I joined Tumblr
my ex told me to
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
nah we’re friends!
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
yes :)
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
it’s @thepinkat and nope
42: When did I last hold hands?
I think i held @thee-apocalypto‘s hand after the show on sunday?
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
an hour if I’m being leisurely, 15 minutes if i overslept and I’m rushing
44: Have I shaved your legs in the past three days?
hell nah
45: Where am I right now?
spanish class
46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
dunno
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
loud unless I’m trying to do something else at the same time
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
yep
49: Am I excited for anything?
I’m going on a college tour trip soon! and i have some packages arriving today so i can do more bookbinding
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
i don’t really tell everything to anyone.
51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
yesterday
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
I’d probably be a lil iffy but not really care
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
nah
55: What is something I disliked about today?
my social justice class was dumb and pointless and we just talked about catholic social teaching
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
57: What do I think about most?
a certain person and also theatre and also all the shit i have to get done
58: What’s my strangest talent?
i can whistle a tune through my nose but not my mouth
59: Do I have any strange phobias?
i dont think so
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
behind!!
61: What was the last lie I told?
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
phone! i dont want to see my face.
63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
i dont think I’m in a position to say either one does or doesn’t exist
64: Do I believe in magic?
sure. putting intention toward something can’t hurt.
65: Do I believe in luck?
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
66: What’s the weather like right now?
cloudy
67: What was the last book I’ve read?
im re-reading game of thrones rn
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
ew no.
69: Do I have any nicknames?
my mom calls me Aves, @gayjokes has me in their phone as “the swaggle”
70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?
idk i got nerve damage in my shoulder when i was a kid
71: Do I spend money or save it?
spend it
72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?
nope
73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?
nope
74: Favorite animal?
idk!
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
listening to a podcast with my dog and trying to fall asleep
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
trump
77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
theres a girl by the ditty bops
78: How can you win my heart?
already answered
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
80: What is my favorite word?
hmmmmmm idk rn im really liking eloquence
81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
shit i can’t think of this off the top of my head. but probably “please stop killing people”
83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
i think so yeah but my mom doesn’t talk about him
84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
invisibility
85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
answered
86: What is my current desktop picture?
yosemite
87: Had sex?
yup
88: Bought condoms?
nope
89: Gotten pregnant?
nope
90: Failed a class?
nope
91: Kissed a boy?
only in truth or dare in middle school
92: Kissed a girl?
yep
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
yep
94: Had job?
yep
95: Left the house without my wallet?
yep
96: Bullied someone on the internet?
nope
97: Had sex in public?
nope
98: Played on a sports team?
yep
99: Smoked weed?
no comment
100: Did drugs?
nope
101: Smoked cigarettes?
nope
102: Drank alcohol?
no comment
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
vegetarian
104: Been overweight?
nope
105: Been underweight?
slightly
106: Been to a wedding?
yep
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
probably at some point
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
nope
109: Been outside my home country?
yep
110: Gotten my heart broken?
yep
111: Been to a professional sports game?
yep
112: Broken a bone?
nope
113: Cut myself?
yep
114: Been to prom?
nope
115: Been in airplane?
yep
116: Fly by helicopter?
nope
117: What concerts have I been to?
paramore, metric, fall out boy, panic at the disco, MS MR, twenty one pilots, melissa ethridge (my middle school country phase lmao), death cab for cutie
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
yep
119: Learned another language?
yep
120: Wore make up?
yep
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
yep
122: Had oral sex?
yep
123: Dyed my hair?
yep
124: Voted in a presidential election?
nope
125: Rode in an ambulance?
yep
126: Had a surgery?
do tonsils count
127: Met someone famous?
nope
128: Stalked someone on a social network?
yep
129: Peed outside?
camping, yeah
130: Been fishing?
when i was little
131: Helped with charity?
yep
132: Been rejected by a crush?
yep
133: Broken a mirror?
nope
134: What do I want for birthday?
well shit idk
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