#even tho i'm tired😂✨

[morgana-larkin]

another whole ass detailed prompt from me😂

Abbott staff finding out r is single during the little game at the library. Say after Janine walked out, she came back and continued the game. Happy that r being single since birth is the new hot topic and not her relationship with Tariq. They all decided to set up r into dates,even Melissa set her up with someone. They are not aware r is gay, and Mel didn't know r has some sort of crush on her. During the process, Mel caught feelings* and the staff notices it but r failed to do so. However, she sees r is enjoying the company of the person they set her up with. Sort of angst, because I eat that sht. Idiotic type of angst tbh 'cause turns out the only reason why r and her date* are getting along is because the first date* they had they both confessed they're just agreed to it because of their friends and coworkers, and they're both gay. They became some sort of besties. Whenever they have a date*, they would just talk about each other's crush, and plotting how they would tell each other's cowerkers what is really happening between them. Then he notices that Mel is being jealous and suggested to keep up with their set up* a little bit more until Melissa snaps and make a move on her, to which r disagreed 'cause she fails to notice that she and Mel share mutual feelings. He still continued the plan, he surprised* r in school day, and r gave him a glare of "what the hell are you doing?" and Melissa finally snaps walking out slamming the door. He then smiled to r and said "go get your girl and calm her down before she retrieve her bat and hit my deeply moisturized face". The staff looked at them flabbergasted, they both panicked and confessed they're gay. R tried to talk to Mel after that but she became distant (she didn't know what happened in the break room) so distant r felt she was the plague and it hurt her. It continued for about two weeks until r gets tired and angry of it, decided to show up in the redhead's door step unannounced, and confronts her why was she ignoring her and how she felt about her and sort of.

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If you're going to write about this, can I suggest you post it seperately 🥹 and not bind into this question like the usual layout, prompt*and then below is the fic itself because I'm afraid I hyper detailed this prompt and gave off the whole twist 😭and it's so long lololol sorry. I don't know if it makes sense tho, this just shows off my poor construction of sentences 😐 Anyway, I always look forward to your works 🤌🏼✨. You are amazing and thank you for writing. I feel like you're a genie 🧞‍♂️ granting our wishes everytime.

—🧍🏻‍♀️

Hiya! It made perfect sense! This was a really fun prompt and glad you sent it! Thank you so much for loving my writing ❤️ when I first read the genie part I actually laughed, never thought someone would say that but it’s sweet. But I do standby: what the people want, the people get.

Anyway, here’s the prompt for ‘I Feel A Rainbow In You’!

[swissboyhisch]

Perth Exploration

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catherineletang: A family breakfast before a full day of exploring 🇦🇺🇦🇺 tagged: ivylemieux, verofleury, annamalkin and kathyleutner

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user: all the photos of Ivy and the kiddos... she's such a great aunt

krisletang: why only the women tagged?

genomalkin: feels rude

crosby87: definitely

user: the families also went! That's so cute

user: Sid and Kathy included with the Malkins!

pittsburghpenguins: Our stars living it up in Australia

ivylemieux: Missing Pitt tho!

user: this family makes me so happy. I love seeing their little updates.

user: 🥹🥹

ivylemieux: Aunty loves all her kiddos

crosby87: I'm still the favourite

ivylemieux: keep dreaming squidnee 🫢

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nhl: Some of our favourite players are getting up to mischief during their free time in Perth today

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user: even in another country the boys play golf

user: Aww poor pookie, he's looking a little tired next to Jack

user: Mat what are you doing sir? 🤔

user: he's such a hottie

user: Sid and Nate being on the same team is the best. No doubt Canada will win

user: 🤤🤤🤤🤤

user: Thank you admin

user: truly did a service for the fans

user: the Mat pic as well as the Nico. Damn

user: Freddie 🥵🥵🥵

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amatthews34: The crowd in Oz is really something special 🇦🇺

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user: Look! The Wizard of Oz!

marner16: Imagine being American 🤢

matbarzal: right? I wonder what it's like to be on a losing team?

morgnreilly: You do have experience with it Barzy. It's called the Islanders.

user: I love that the leafs' three headed dragon had split. One on each team

user: Nice seeing you back in the uniform

torontomapleleafs: Our 4 goal king 👑

user: Holding up this team!

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tkachuk19: Gotta love going out for dinner with everyone ✨ tagged: ivylemieux

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user: thE miDDLE PIC 😍😩

user: The last picture of Tkachuk, McDavid and baby Lemieux 😂 They would party it up so hard!

user: imagine the parties

ivylemieux: Dang we are a hot group of people

emmafarinacci: right? No-one is hotter than us

user: Team USAAAAAA! 🇺🇸

user: TEAM CANADA! 🇨🇦 Liked by ivylemieux

bradytkachuk: I see you bro 😏

user: is that quinn in there too?

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[hl-obsessed]

when did you become a fan and how? If you don't mind me asking! He IS so cute in them 😂 I love seeing different eras/ages mixed, really just love any and all kinds of manips 💕😂

I'm relieved to hear that, I'm happy to wait however long always, it's always meant for fun!

Hope you had a good day, and enjoy Louis' show if you're watching a livestream 💕

I don't mind at all! 😄

it was somewhere around middle of 2022. i've found night changes acoustic version through some instagram reel and well... life i knew to that moment was gone.

from the first notes i knew it's one of the most beautiful songs i've ever heard. then i saw 5 beautiful angels with even more beautiful voices and it was over for me.

what get me the most tho, grabbed my heart and never let go, was why the fuck that angels looked so fucking sad. almost like they tried to hold themselves back from crying. (maybe it was trick of the studio lighting, but it done it for me.)

i watched live lounge infinity and torn videos and i saw the same patterns: side glances from Harry and Louis, their glassy eyes and there's just so many things, that i can't touch i'm torn and there's nothing where he used to lay.

i started to search comments to find the answer to all my questions and i found so many things i was not ready for but at least i knew i wasn't delusional with imagining things that wasn't there. i learned about HarryandLouis, fucking menagment, closeting, supposedly drunk Liam during performances and Zayn leaving.

then it was probably some yt videos and finally tumblr where i started to post so much that i annoyed people at my main blog - which is Merlin blog - and that's how i ended up here.

And omg i was so fucking tired yesterday (today for me, but well, technicalities) that i actually couldn't stay up to watch the show! it was at 4am and i gave up trying to keep my eyes open at 2:30am. it was one few shows i missed on this tour and it feels so weird, rebloging things hours later and not live blogging while it's all happening.

I do hope you have/had/will have also good day and that you enjoyed the show!

And I'm always open for all the asks and request and ideas so don't hesitate sending them whenever you want! 💕✨

[pia-writes-things]

✨Tag 9 people to get to know better!✨

I was tagged by @tragicotps and @three-atoms, tysm to both of you !!

Last Song: "Circus" by Britney Spears (it was in a fanvid but let's say it counts ^^)

Currently Watching: I'm still on my on-and-off rewatch of ER and Doctor Who. Otherwise, I started watching season 3 of Abbott Elementary when it came out, but that's it, I'm not in the mood for much atm.

Three Ships: River and The Doctor (Doctor Who), Siuaraine (Wheel of Time) and Masriel (His Dark Materials) are probably the big three lately. Honorary mentions to Susan and Kerry (ER), Thornélie (The Mirror Visitor) and Pendranièvre (Kaamelott), I circle back to them regurlaly ^^

Favorite Color: I want to say I don't have one but my phone case is burgundy, my favourite scarf is burgundy, one of my favourite sweaters is burgundy and even tho it's not really visible anymore, my hair is technically dyed burgundy so 😂😂

Currently Consuming: Nothing, I've had breakfast an hour ago more or less ^^

First Ship: Uuum, I don't know ? Probably something HP related (unfortunately) or something from a middle-grade book I was reading when I was in primary school, but I honestly couldn't say...

Current Location: My bed ! I'm tired and in pain so it's perfect rn

Relationship Status: Single

tag: I don't really have the energy to tag anyone, but if you see this post, consider yourself tagged !

[zephersspace]

Heeey theeereee spooky ones!!! 🥸✨

I've been running from one site to another doing this and that and I haven't even had time to fucking breath! 😂🍄

No complains tho' (xD), it was bc of my b'day (which is going to have a full fucking post of it's own). I felt very appreciated and thankful for everyone I know 🥰

I have a finish line to meet today for a valentine's exchange and the idea it's just sooo cute! I hope the one I am doing this for likes it 🤭🫰

I'm on my way to school (if you were somehow wondering xD), I'm tired but excited to see my friends again; we're reading El Zarco now (by Manuel Altamirano) and it's pure gossip I swear this thing it's super easy to read!!!

Also I read El prefacio de Cromwell, by Víctor Hugo... that thing's super interesting, he had some theories about the segmentation of poetic history, it's very cool.

I think I'll leave it there, strangers.

☁️Hope y'all have a great day. Don't forget to drink water and be kind to yourselves. Hugs your way!☁️

Yours truly, Zepher. 🖤

[lamonnaie]

hi!! gmmtv anon again ✨. i’m sorry for disappearing but real life was kicking my ass

the amount of fanmeets a lot of them do in general is insane. i do understand that this is how the company and the actors make a lot of their money, but come on they are overdoing it at this point. they are actors after all and not idols even tho p’tha called them “idols” 🗡️🗡️🗡️

i remember gem saying that he will have two shows next year, but idk if they will pair him up with a girl for the second one or if it will be another show with fourth. tbh before part 1 aired i was so sure they were gonna give winnysatang their own show with gemfourth as a side couple plus their own show as mains lol

i might check out some of joong’s scenes, but since it’s focused on the girls those scenes will very likely always involve film in one way or another. ugh it’s so annoying 😩

oh speaking of joong, a fan asked him at a fansign if he will have a show with dunk next year and he was like “no <3. Or maybe?” (https://x.com/allaboutnia_jd/status/1716433598008684595?s=46). i know they can’t spoil anything but this made me want to fight him hahahahah

so true! i’m glad we got a lot of new faces and that they’re actually giving them lead roles!!! you go gmmtv!!!

yeah mark was doing the most this year, and i love that for us and because i do5 think i would ever get tired of seeing his face. i’m still a bit sad about him having to drop out of cooking crush because getting more of neomark would’ve been epic. but it was also understandable because he had OF promo and shooting for last twilight going on at the same time. anyways, i do hope he will get offered more serious and maybe even lead roles now that he’s established himself an actor who can do more than just play the comic relief.

i’m praying for part 2 having even better shows than part 1 and pls it would be so funny if they gave taynew and offgun another show 😭😭😭

Hii!! :) Don't worry about it anon, no pressure at all to reply, life happens sometimes <3

nah the idol thing is so funny actually 😭😭 like some of these people are amazing actors, but extremely mediocre singers/dancers/etc at best hajskdj. i swear as soon as someone is even slightly marketable, off they go. i remember there were a couple markford intl fanmeets, even though i dont think they're gonna pair up again for a show

I definitely was expecting a het show for one or both of gem4th, but since the lineup's in 2 parts, it would make sense to save that for the 2nd installment (can already see the delulu fans not being too keen on it... gemini hung out with bimbeam recently and some people on twitter were.. yeah 😬) hopefully we get my love mix up soon after to kinda calm that 😂 (and then i'm completely wrong and we get another gem4th show 👀 i wouldn't be opposed either)

and another gem4th wnst show sounds so cute actually !!! i was honestly expecting a wnst leads show (not an ensemble), is it bad to still have hope for pt 2 🥺 at the very least, they seem to be going the full established cp route with wnst, they're gonna be in LOL next year + the logo. soooo if not pt 2, at the very least we'll surely get a wnst show in gmm2025 🤞

real, and given how many characters there are in ploy's yearbook, i can't imagine they're all gonna get a lot of screentime anyway. Also i didn't realise joong was paired up with film?? not the biggest fan of film (i'm sure she's lovely, i just don't vibe), sooo not looking too good for me 😅

JOONG WHYY 😭😭 he looks so smug, i dont know what to make of that <//3 ppw essentially spilled everything about their series before pt 1, surely he can give us some crumbs, not cryptic nonsense like that LMAO althoughh we've technically gotten a jd show 2 years in a row so maybe they're giving it a rest??

(also i was so confused by the person repeating himself in the background in english, took me way too long to realise it was dunk 😭😂)

(also anon, my bestie, this is kinda embarassing so keep it a secret for me <3 but i've been watching way too many of those jd tiktok compilations on yt lately 😭😭 i am the fan and i am being serviced 😌😅 hopefully we get another show soon tho)

i'm so glad mark's managing to make that jump!! he's such a good actor, both in comedy and more serious stuff :) i do hope we get more neomark at some point, i wouldnt want them to become a fixed pairing but i do wanna see them act together again

yesss i always see people not too happy about the lineups, maybe my expectations are too low but i'm pretty optimistic for pt 2 !! i rlly loved a lot of the shows in part 1, so hopefully they can match or top that :]

also anon did u see the last twilight trailer getting delayed 😭😭 gmm why (seem to be asking that a lot lately ajskdj) i rlly like jimmysea but i know they aren't as popular as other cps, and this isn't helping :((

[zaptrap]

i also want to ramble a tiny bit abt jay becuz yolo lmao it will also be under the cut (it's mostly replying to stuff u said) (sorry if there's typos)

Jay is such an interesting case of a character for me because I started out the show not liking him. Which is. Stares at my entire account I think my feelings have changed somewhat

DUDE SAME LIKE i barely even thought of jay and then ONE DAY something just? changed?? and ive been obsessed with jay ever since (i wanna say it was either ep8 or rebooted but honestly who knows at this point). like i still love cole, and my 2 favs being besties is so cute 🥺, but jays just like a lil rat and i lov him... Although I do wonder if my favs would be different if i'd gotten into the show at a different time, like if i'd had more time with newer seasons and less nostalgia chaining me to the older ones lmao.

Jay starts out as an asshole I don’t think anyone can disagree with me there (although honestly they’re all assholes in early ninjago they bullied a ten year old and left him dangling several feet off the ground)

I FORGOT THYE DID THAT TO LLOYD LMAOOOOO THAT POOR KID.... THAT WAS PROBABLY THE 3rd MOST TRAUMATIZING THING FOR HIM AT THE TIME, after his mom leaving him and his dad becoming lego satan

but over the course of the show you can see him start developing into a much more interesting character. He goes from being so insecure he's faking everything about himself to someone who knows who he is and is so genuine about it

dude i love characters who put on a mask/act to hide their problems its so fun digging into why they do that and whats the mask and what isnt and what masks are used for who and how people react to them and etc etc

now yea we could argue about whether his character was too uwu-ified post-season 10 but this is the FUN HAN POST SO WE'RE NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT THAT

jokes on you we ARE TALKING ABOUT THAT, MUHUAHAHAHAHAHA. my personal headcanon is that he just mellowed out after getting older and engaged lmao. or maybe its just his ✨latest persona✨ he's trying out or smth. the whole uwu-jay thing is really funny to me cuz both "whiny comedic relief bastard" and "uwu babu" are some of my fav archetypes in characters so the fact that jay gets to be both is like "yay! 2 cakes!" LMFAO. it was fun seeing him be a lil shit again in DR tho

(i was gonna grab a screenshot for that like i did with the hunted scene but netflix has bloCKED THE ABILITY TO TAKE SCREENSHOTS THE WAY I USED TO and i don't have them already and i'm too lazy to grab them from elsewhere so alas trust me he says it)

(netflix is so annoying dude like omfg)

i don't have any comments on the skybound-to-prime empire pipeline stuff, its all interesting stuff owo. emotional security+role model arc...

Also how was [jay] supposed to know literally all the rest of the groups parents were either dead, presumed dead, or had a toxic relationship with their kid lmao

Jay: ugh parents SUCK am i right? Everyone else: you have parents?

Jay's just fallen from the sky with a messed up eye and is incredibly distraught that all his friends are captured. And his dad just. The woRLD IS FALLING APART AND HE'S EATIN' SOUP-

LMFAO what ep was this from, im assuming skybound?

yea i think that's enough for a tumblr post anyways! If anyone wants any like. More logically thought out and direct thoughts about characters feel free to send me asks this was fun thank u zaptrap for this opportunity to scream about jay

you're very welcome! now make another 🔫/lh also i like how you wrote an entire additional essay in the tags LOL. idk what season lives rent free in my brain but its probably rebooted cuz...well yknow 😂. i like the scifi seasonssssss

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I do wonder how Jay's gonna be in DR though like, he went from "insecure bastard" to "actually im ok" to "stuck in an eternal office" so like, is he gonna relapse?? does he just need some fresh air?? is nya gonna show up and all his problems are solved??? is he just, still ok but tired from gaming office "work"???? who can say. dude though, with nya already being sora's mentor, and jay already being an inventor, i could totally see them eventually just being her new parents. that'd be so fukin cute 🥺🥺🥺taking in a stray cat

god like there just isnt enough to definitively determine what's up with jay in DR. theres SO many reasons he could be ornery, between the office and annoying coworkers and presumably not seeing nya for what, 5 years????????????????????????????? wait has it actually been 5 years, icr if they ran into each other sooner or not. i think nya said smth about- ok yeah she did [DR1 ep4]

dude what happened to her the past 5 years

ramble about ur favs i wanna hear abt ur thoughts -zaptrap

HAN’S INFODUMPING ABOUT JAY... START!!!!

so like sgdkdhdkdhd I say Jay and Lloyd are my “favorites” but honestly it’s so hard to pick favorites out of this skittles squad like I love EVERY character for a variety of different reasons. I was going to also infodump about Lloyd but then I started talking about Prime Empire and then this post got. Long. So. it's just Jay I may infodump about Lloyd another day especially since I'm very Conduit Brained Rn but yea yea!

this is long so i'm putting most of it under the cut so y'all don't kill me for making a huge long post

I considered putting Zane and Sora on here as well since I’d also consider them my “favs” but like this is already gonna be. A lot of. Infodumping (also i typed THIS part before I even started and decided not to yell about Lloyd because this already got long enough). Maybe I’ll make a separate post for those two hmm hmm much to consider but for now MY (technically) FAVORITE NINJAGO CHARACTER: JAY WALKER

THE SPARKPLUG WHO INVADED MY BRAIN LIKE A PARASITE

so hey his name is a pun this makes me laugh ridiculously hard every time I remember he is named. After a misdemeanor HSKSHDKFH

Jay is such an interesting case of a character for me because I started out the show not liking him. Which is. Stares at my entire account I think my feelings have changed somewhat

Jay starts out as an asshole I don’t think anyone can disagree with me there (although honestly they’re all assholes in early ninjago they bullied a ten year old and left him dangling several feet off the ground) but over the course of the show you can see him start developing into a much more interesting character. He goes from being so insecure he's faking everything about himself to someone who knows who he is and is so genuine about it

now yea we could argue about whether his character was too uwu-ified post-season 10 but this is the FUN HAN POST SO WE'RE NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT THAT the point is you can SEE the growth that Jay has gone through and I am going to show you that growth through what I call

✨ The Skybound to Prime Empire Effect ✨

I AM SO PASSIONATE ABOUT THE IDEA THAT PRIME EMPIRE WAS WRITTEN TO BE A DIRECT PARALLEL OF SKYBOUND AND WAS CENTERED ON SHOWING HOW THE NINJA ESPECIALLY JAY HAVE GROWN THROUGHOUT THE SEASON

when season 12 rolls around we are at the point in Jay's development where he is CONFIDENT in who he is. He's a fun-loving jokester with the power of lightning and the drive to help people whenever he can. He uses jokes and humor to help alleviate tension and get people through whatever's happening. And when on his own what does he do?

BECOME AN ENTERTAINER BABEY

i like to think jay's club in prime empire was a safe haven for anyone stuck in the game who figured out hey. we Can't Leave and felt freaked about it. Also Jay would generally try and spread the word that hey something ISN'T RIGHT HERE which would lead people to want to stay with him

(totally plugging my friend's fic but this kind of thing is explored in would you like to enter prime empire by @finn-m-corvex y'all should check it out cool cool)

also the prime empire shorts which i watched all of in the midst of typing this video cuz i love them go watch them please please please jay was publically fighting the red visors which I imagine may have raised some red flags for some players

THIS SOMEHOW TURNED INTO PRIME EMPIRE INFODUMPING LMAO ANYWAYS Jay's confident! He becomes an entertainer because it's who he knows he is! And it's something that will get people hyped and having fun, which is very in-character for Jay to do! He uses those kinds of things to mask the Bad Things going on and get people remembering what's good

I've talked about this sort of thing before but that's Jay's whole philosophy as early as season 9! Which is a DIRECT contrast to how he views it in season 6, as Nadakhan puts it scarily accurately

"You make jokes to mask the fact that you're afraid"

(i was gonna grab a screenshot for that like i did with the hunted scene but netflix has bloCKED THE ABILITY TO TAKE SCREENSHOTS THE WAY I USED TO and i don't have them already and i'm too lazy to grab them from elsewhere so alas trust me he says it)

making jokes to hide your fear and using humor to remind yourself of what's good and coping with the bad are two VERY different outlooks on it

so I think this outlook is what drives him to make this glamrock persona in the first place - this is a bad situation, one he's in with other civilians, and what better way to keep him and themself safe until the others get there than throwing a big performance at a safe place!

also it's just so gender okay I want to look like Superstar Rockin' Jay so badly

it's also interesting to see his outlook on his parents change over time! In season six he finds out Ed and Edna aren't his birth parents and feels upset about it, not understanding why his birth parents would've abandoned him. In season twelve, that outlook changing is EXACTLY why Jay's able to get through to Unagami

"I was abandoned by my parents, too!... I never understood why, and I never had the chance to even ask. But I always hoped there was a good reason. What if there's a reason?"

(again curse you netflix i wanted SCREENSHOTS whatever whatever)

It's this scene that gets Unagami to calm down long enough for Milton Dyer to get there, and presumably is what stops him from just. Flattening him and Jay like a pancake.

to piggyback off of this i absolutely adore how Unagami and Jay consider each other adopted brothers in that one book I still haven't read and I hope he's in Dragons Rising at some point Unagami is my favorite "villain" (no longer a villain) in the whole show he deserves more screentime

like this is where i found out about this and it's plagued my mind ever since. i need to read. this book just for them

SO YEA OKAY Prime Empire is "Who is Jay as a Person Post-Skybound" to me also it opens up so many fascinating things about Jay. I rest my case

so backpedaling a little bit. JAY CARES SO MUCH ABOUT HIS PARENTS GUYS IT'S SO SOFT AND I'M sobs

like yea the first episode with Ed and Edna in it has Jay avoiding them like the plague but this gets explained very easily when you remember he was bullied for his home life before he became a ninja. It makes a lot more sense why he wouldn't want them around his new friends, assuming they'd react the same way. Also how was he supposed to know literally all the rest of the groups parents were either dead, presumed dead, or had a toxic relationship with their kid lmao

(Cole calling his mom kills me. Cole's mom is dead. I know they probably just didn't think that far ahead when writing the dialogue but it's so funny mans pretended to call his dead mom to get on Jay for not appreciating his parents iconic behavior)

anyways literally every episode Ed and Edna are central to (except like the one in skybound) Jay stops at nothing to protect his parents and it means the absolute world to me he's so much like them!! They raised an inventive little nerd and he will stop at nothing to make sure they're safe and it's. It's SO IMPORTANT TO ME OKAY

ALSO this is an excuse to clip my favorite piece of dialogue possibly in the entire show. Except Netflix won't let me now. So you just get the text dialogue

Jay's just fallen from the sky with a messed up eye and is incredibly distraught that all his friends are captured. And his dad just. The woRLD IS FALLING APART AND HE'S EATIN' SOUP-

Ed i love you

anyways

anways anyways this just turned into me rambling about prime empire and then Ed and Edna and a lot of disjointed other stuff but thank you for this opportunity i was going to also ramble about lloyd but i put this post in a word count and

yea i think that's enough for a tumblr post anyways! If anyone wants any like. More logically thought out and direct thoughts about characters feel free to send me asks this was fun thank u @zaptrap for this opportunity to scream about jay

[gxtzeizm]

Ciao

Sorry about not having a good night, it’s probably because your feeling the stress of your test, but everything will be okay

Haha I can relate to you about watering the plants, sadly for me in one years it only rain 10 or less times in the whole year…

Yea BVB vs Chelsea and I love both teams… it’s always like this, usually BVB it’s always against the teams I like the most, but I’m always rooting for them

I’m pretty sure everything went well with your test!! ✨

Sorry for the late message I’m so tired it’s been a long week (and for me it’s still Tuesday, just imagine)

Hey are you going to watch the new avatar movie? Or maybe The Pinocchio that it’s on Netflix???

Hope your having a good day and that you’re feeling better!

-Your secret Santa

hello there <33

well thanks a lot bestie!! good that last night i was able to sleep well....even it costs me to miss the yesterday match accidently 😭😭 (literally me once again against the timezone). but yeah, also about yesterday's test, idk if i say that i was doing well or not, maybe on the middle i guess lmaooo....i guess the past is past, i'm just moving on from it right now.

my goddd, i can feel you tho about the climate at your place. it must be a full bless and joyful if it's raining there am i right?

well it same goes to me tho when bayern against some teams that i'm also like as well. idk but somehow i'm always imagine if this season's ucl final would be bayern vs eintracht frankfurt....well i'm not prepared for this if that happens lmaoooo

and dw about you sending message to me a bit late etc etc. well i'm believe here we are always against the timezones i said what i said 😂😂.

omg thanks for reminding me about avatar movie. i just found out that tonight is the premiere watch for some of the cinemas here in my country (literally every movies will released in my country during thursday). i'm planning to watch it but idk if can watch during this and next week (yeah right assignments, test, etc), but i hope that i'm able to watch it in the cinemas.

for the pinocchio, maybe i'll watch it later as well. thanks a lot for the suggestions ☺️☺️.

i hope you're having a great day <33

[delirious-donna]

Oh boi, I just finished The Darkest Reflection with Megumi and HOLY FUCKING FUCK!

I swear your Kinktober it's been soooo amazing, I will refrain myself from picking favorites till it's over, BUT, since I requested the Kento one I can't help but be biased, I mean that man deserves everything, I know you agree 😌

I just wanted to say that it's been truly something so far, I have read every post even tho I'm not familiar with some of the fandoms lmao, I have to look up the characters to get a little bit familiar, but even so, you're so good I feel like I know them! Crazy right?! You are truly something else my beautiful Donna 💘

Anyways, just wanted to say hi, hope you're doing amazing, oh and also wanted to ask you, do you do the headers for your posts? (Are they called headers? I really don't know, I don't know much of Tumblr slang (that probably made me sound like a million years old 😂)) because they are sooo cool! And If you do then you're so talented! ✨

Oh darling Yael, you are so sweet! 💗😭

It makes me so happy that you’ve enjoyed my kinktober so far, and especially so to hear that you’ve read every story even if they are for fandoms you aren’t familiar with. Literally, you are the sweetest thing and I am kissing your cheeks until they are entirely covered!!

There are most definitely some real good stories still to come so keep your eyes peeled, plus another Nanami one which I’m looking forward to writing!

Honestly, I can’t stress enough how much of a mood lifter this message has been. I won’t lie, I’m close to exhaustion but the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter! Once I finish 24, which should happen tonight, I only have 7 left and I could spread them out if I wanted or needed to. I’ll also say that although I am tired and it has been demanding, I’ve really enjoyed every second of it! 🥰💗

Oh, I nearly forgot about the headers questions!! Yep, they are called headers and I edit them myself. I find the photos from hentai accounts on twitter, crop out the worst of the porn then use an app called picsart to colour them all to the same shade of grey, add the text and all done!! I hope this helps but if you need anything specific answering, let me know!! 💗💗

[promoxie]

Y'all it's time to talk about Nabi and how much of a totally sassy bitch this boy is. I'll try and be light on the spoilers but like, I just feel that the sheer amount of "I listen to Avril Lavingne. There's one gay club here and I go there often." vibes are frankly not being appreciated by my fellow fam so here we go let's rant.

Ok so, by the time you get to this point in the story, you been playing for about 5 minutes. Already, Nabi's personality of 😒 personified is showing. Sure "Sure", is an option that you can give as well, but if that's the nice option and the other is something as direct and rude as "I don't wanna hang with y'all", you've already got a precedent going lmao.

Now we're getting to the real stuff tho. The FIRST TIME he runs into demons? This is his reaction, and it's beautiful:

No "OMG there are DEMONS HERE" naw. He looks at these monsters like "Who are these yeeyee ass looking children. Bald headed ass. Your mama let you go out like that? Girl." And bro, I'm living for that. Yeah when they attack him, THEN he's like, "Oh damn" but his initial reaction? Priceless.

^ This here is a really prevalent trend. So when Nahobino finally starts fighting things, right? He quickly adapts this suuuper sassy attitude and EVERYTHING. How he acts and just carries himself simply Emanates "That one gay bitch" energy. They come up and disrupt his day, and he's giving that side eye like "Are you fuckin serious rn?" Most likey, he thinks he's better than everyone. Frankly? He's kinda right ngl ngl.

That moment when a girl you barely know wants you to see her after school: gay spirit activate

This one has tiny spoilers, but when [REDACTED] happens right? The fact that this is even an OPTION just kills me. Like, goddamn, Nabi had to have STARTED cold to even be like this. Epitome of "You know what lemme just mind my own business actually."

(I also have SO many feelings about [REDACTED] that I wanna talk about so bad. They correlate to Nabi's personality and how similar he is to Sayori and why he behaved like he did in [REDACTED] but her arc is full of spoilers so another time.)

I cropped these for spoiler reasons but time and time again Nabi's dialogue options really express his sassy personality, especially the further you get into the game. There are more than these, but again, spoilers, so I'm gonna refrain. Assumedly, they get less nice as you progress because Nabi is getting more and more tired of everybody's shit, as he absolutely should.

In the end, options available like "I don't want to" and "I could always use more power" being so consistently available and/or the only options you can choose from really sell to me this idea of a snarky and kinda toxic little gay boy 😂 The only character that I HAVEN'T seen these kinds of options available with (thus far, I have not finished the game yet) has been with Aogami so uh. Make with that what you will 😂

✨Post over have this pic of Nabi looking fine✨

💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[ghosteddy]

I didn't think any chapter could be more heartbreaking then 11.5 but....🤡🤡🤡

I just....dont even know what to say😭I did think everything was going a bit too well considering this wasn't the last chapter but I stiLL DIDN'T EXPECT MIGUEL TO MAKE THAT STTTUUUUPID CHOICE ARGH👹HGFSG👹TEYFD👹(tho, in all honesty, it's very in character of him😔)

I mean, how could he ever allow her to go through a life like that? Constantly jumping dimensions, never being able to be at ease for too long...worrying about the universe's getting potentially destroyed ...sure, there's an uncountable number of universes to visit but I'm sure it still gets all tiring eventually😭

BUT IM STILL SO!SO! PISSED AT HIM UGH, i KNEW there was something off when the idiot shushed the reader before she could say I love you back😭😭

YOU DID SUCH AN AMAZING JOURNEY ON THIS CHAPTER THO, chef's kiss, it had me mumbling out curses in my mother tongue at 4 am😂 the fact I can curse him but still understand his reasoning is just so✨😭✨😭✨

Ooh and don't even get me STARTED on the other Miguel😭😭😭😭😭😭 poor baby😭, I'm sure it was as heartbreak as it was healing for him to hear that from the reader😭

This chapter has me in all the feels and I think I'm gonna go eat some chocolate to make myself feel better 😭, once again I loved it so much, thank you!!!!!🥺💕

P.s: I'm pretty sure someone else already mentioned D4VD's song "Here with me" but this was all I could hear in the background of my mind when Cielo was talking to ATSV Miguel 😭

EYEM #13

Pairing: Miguel O'Hara x female reader

Summary: You meet another version of the man you love and finally find out why the Universe is trying to kill you.

Word count: 5,800

Warning: violence, pain hurt and angst. Be prepared.

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[Previous] [TBC]

Everything hurts. You don’t know where you are, you’re disorientated and queasy.

The first sight that greets you is the glow of scarlet eyes so piercing they cut through the blurriness of your vision.

They're familiar, but also different. Even though they’re identical to his, you know this is not your Miguel.

It takes you a while to make sense of your surroundings. Long moments for the nausea to dissipate enough that you can take in the dark moody blues of the space and recognize that you’re in the same sparse room as before.

Takes a few longer moments still before you register that your wrists and arms are restrained by strange threads made of an unknown material that glow up in an alarming neon red and you’re strung up and suspended in an intricate web from the ceiling.

You try to pull against your restraints, but it’s useless, your body won’t listen to you. You can’t even get your little finger to budge. You can’t fucking move.

“You’re alright,” The man who looks exactly like your Miguel says. “Try not to move. It’ll be better that way.”

You don’t listen to him, because why the hell would you. This is not your Miguel. You try again and pain sears through your muscles.

Shit! He bit you and now you’re paralyzed.

Panic races through your spine. You need to get out of this situation, now. Need to get out. Need to get to Miguel. Even if you can’t move, there has to be a solution somehow.

Lyla is meant to protect you right? She was built for that purpose. If you summon her then surely, “Ly–”

You can't get the second syllable out. Sharp pain stings inside your throat as you try to speak.

“Lyla’s not going to attack me," he says as if he can read your mind and knows what you were planning to do. "It’s a safety feature built in to make sure she doesn’t go rogue. The only time that gets overridden is if I’m a threat to your life."

Irritation crawls under your skin.

Fuck’s sake Lyla. Does this not count as a threat? Do fangs poised against your throat and taking a chomp out of you not qualify? The man bit and paralyzed you!

Despite two failed attempts, you try to move again, straining against the impossible heaviness of your numb limbs. Another jolt of pain shoots through your limbs as you do.

Miguel flinches at the sight of you as if there was an invisible thread connecting your body to his and he was able to feel every ounce of your pain.

His hand reaches up to cup your cheek to stop you.

“Don’t move,” he tells you again. “My toxins have paralyzed you and it will hurt you if you try to move. Stay still, nena. Please. You’re safe.”

If this was your Miguel, he would have been curt and snappy with you for being so stupid to move when it hurts. But this Miguel says it like a plea. Soft and gentle all at once.

His other hand comes to your collarbone, thumb gently wiping away the dried blood that’s pooled there. There’s an unreadable expression on his face as he stares at the dark stain of red on his fingers.

“This is the last time you’ll be hurt. You’re not going to die this time. I know how to fix this so you won’t die ever again."

Fix...it? What does he mean? Like make the universe stop trying to kill you for good?

You blink up at the man, unsure of what to make of his words. You don't trust this version of Miguel any further than you can throw him. The man knocked you out and tied you up...

But if he can fix it, even if the chance is small and far-fetched, what would be the harm in listening?

Your tongue is heavy and dry in your mouth and it feels like you’ve swallowed fistfuls of sand when you try to speak again. “Ho-how?”

“I just have to eliminate the root cause of why the Universe keeps trying to kill you.”

You prepare yourself for the pain that’s going to come again to ask him what he means. But luckily you don’t have to, this Miguel spares you of that.

“You’ve encountered another me in your dimension, right?” he asks.

You don’t answer him. But it doesn't seem to matter, because he already seems to have decided on the answer as he continues.

“It’s his fault,” he says with anger, his red eyes burn with an unnatural glow that sets your teeth on edge. “It’s his fault that this keeps happening to you. He’s the reason the universe keeps trying to kill you.”

No. No that’s not– You don’t know what he’s getting at. Don’t know what has happened to this version of Miguel that makes him believe this.

But you do know one thing. You don't need to listen to the rest of it to know. He is wrong.

Your Miguel has saved you. Protected you again and again. Put himself in harm’s way and nearly died to keep you safe. He would never hurt you.

“No,” you ignore the spasm of pain across your diaphragm as you speak. “He s-saved me.”

His mouth furls into a feral snarl, flashing the corner of his fangs. “You wouldn’t need to be saved if it wasn’t for him.”

“That’s not–”

“He’s an anomaly! Every Miguel O’Hara is!”

You blink up at him at loss for words. You don’t understand what he’s trying to tell you.

In front of you, this Miguel visibly grits his teeth, grinding down on his jaw, as he continues to speak in that low tone that simmers with fury.

“Humans are not meant to travel between dimensions. When I invented inter-dimensional travel, I violated that natural order without knowing it. Everyone I come across, everyone I saved, I’ve doomed, because that event was never supposed to take place.”

“You– you don’t know–”

He cuts you off before you can finish, “I’ve seen it!” he shouts. His hands curl into agitated fists at his sides. “After I lost you, I–I...”

He looks back at you and the words seem to die on his tongue.

As you hold his gaze you begin to see what you missed before. You were too focused on this Miguel’s anger to notice the grief pouring out of every inch of him.

“I lost myself,” he says, quieter now. “Lyla showed me a version of us in another dimension and it was the only thing that kept me going. We had a life together there. A daughter. You were happy there... Then that version of me died.”

He pauses again, lost in some memory that you are not a part of. Shame sinks into the hollowness of his sunken eyes and he looks away from you again.

“... And I replaced him. I thought it was harmless, that I was just replacing a version of me and the universe wouldn’t know any better. But I was wrong. He was never supposed to be in that dimension either. That whole universe collapsed because of me and our daughter and you died with it.”

Making a broad gesture through the empty air, amber light brightens up the space.

From behind him, a myriad of holographic screens flicker into existence, and you see images of yourself repeated and illuminated in all of them. You with pink hair. Another you with piercings. A you with tattoos and shaved cuts. Hundreds of variants of you wearing pieces of clothing that you’ve never owned. All of them, a different you, living their everyday life.

“Since then I’ve observed hundreds and thousands of versions of you in every dimension,” this Miguel tells you, as he gazes longingly at the screens that float above.

“All of them get to live full and healthy long lives. Do you know what every one of those versions of you have in common?”

He turns back towards you, closing the distance between you. “We never met. The reason you keep dying is because you meet me.”

His face is so close that a lock of his curl falls on your temple. Had this been your Miguel, you’d been tingling with warmth and excitement, now all you feel is a cold shiver.

“Every time we meet is because something I did inadvertently puts you in danger, and then I save you from it, starting the chain of events.”

Your mind flashes to that first moment you fell out of the Chrysler building. The blur of blue and red that came crashing into your life in pursuit of a villain and knocked you out of a skyscraper window.

“The universe is trying to erase your existence because of me. To try to correct the balance.”

Your face feels numb. Your mind is reeling from the revelation.

The question that you’ve had since this all began has finally been answered. Why this universe seemingly has it out for you. Why it has repeatedly tried to kill you. Why your world literally was about to end after you kissed him… It all makes a tragic sense now.

It’s because of Miguel.

You don’t know how long you remain frozen, crushed under the weight of the realization, before the sound of footfall joins the room, echoing in this empty space.

You hear him before you see him. Your Miguel. He calls your name and the familiar tone of it sends warm shivers through your spine.

Searching the space, your eyes land on his familiar silhouette in the dim light.

Miguel is struggling to walk, hunched over and limping forward despite his injuries. He looks so much smaller than what you are used to. There's blood dripping down his face and ugly red gashes ripping into his protective suit where one arm is clutching to the gaping raw wound.

Parting your mouth, you desperately try to warn him and scream that he needs to run. But the noise is garbled and choked. Nothing remotely close to a word comes out of your mouth. Even if it did, it wouldn’t have helped.

Miguel is too distracted by the sight of you. Too focused on reaching you that he barely registers the sight of his other self standing beside you, and then it’s too late.

It happens so fast, your eyes aren’t able to register it. One second his cosmic Doppelgänger is beside you. The next he is gone.

He leaps into the air with a ferocity that chills your bones. His claws slashes through the air and he pounces on Miguel with the entirety of his body weight.

Miguel doesn’t stand a chance. He’s already wounded and weakened. There’s been no time to heal. He’s still heavily bleeding from his abdomen and the bone-deep wounds where the damage meant for you had torn through him instead.

His body lands on the floor with a painful heavy thud. Even from this distance, you can hear the air rush out of his lungs with a pained and choked wheeze.

“Do you know what you have done?” His voice drips with venom as he fists his hand into Miguel’s hair, yanking his head upwards, level with his. “Why couldn’t you just have left her alone?”

Miguel snarls with an ugly grimace as he tries to wrangle himself free to no avail, pinned as he is on the ground. He meets the man’s stare without cowering even as he is unable to stand upright, wounded and bleeding out.

“The fuck are you on about?” Miguel spits out. He surges forward, ramming his forehead into the other man.

The blow of it sends the Doppelgänger reeling back. But it doesn’t last. He snarls in anger before he lunges forward, grabbing for Miguel’s head to slam it back down into the ground.

All you can do is helplessly watch the scene unfold before you.

“You still don’t get it do you?” he growls, raising his arm in the air to deliver another forceful blow.

There’s a nauseating bone-crushing sound that makes you sick to your stomach when his fist connects to Miguel’s jaw.

“You should never have gone to her world. You didn’t belong!”

He clasps around Miguel’s throat in a painfully hard hold, pinning him there against the ground.

Miguel’s tanned skin bleeds white around the dented imprints of that talon grip, cutting off blood circulation until you’re sure he can no longer breathe.

“She died because of you!”

The words make Miguel freeze. The whole of his back stiffening.

A fisted hand hammers down on Miguel’s face and you squeeze your eyes shut before you see it connect. All you hear behind your closed eyelids is a sickening crack that you know means something is broken.

Silence follows, and you barely dare to squint your eyes open, terrified of what you will see. Even though you’re bracing yourself, you’re still not prepared at the sight that greets you.

Miguel's body is slumped and motionless on the ground. The other him towers over his defeated form. There’s an eerie calm to his movements as he gets up and steps back.

On the ground, Miguel looks so much smaller than when he's lying in bed next to you under the covers and your heart beats painfully fast in your chest, unable to intervene.

The other man raises one leg above Miguel’s still form, poised like a sledge-hammer and holds there.

His foot comes down, delivering a shattering stomp that reverberates through the space. You swear you can feel the suspended webs holding you, shake and tremble against your skin from the after shock.

The air thins in your lungs. Hot, wet tears spill down your cheeks. For a long and dreadful second, you’re not sure if Miguel is still alive.

Then you hear a tiny, pained whimper, from the ground.

You don’t know what you feel anymore. Fear. Sadness. Anger. Relief. Everything inside you is drawn in a tight knot and aches at the pitiful sound of how much pain Miguel must be in. But there’s also the tiniest of hope, because as doomed as this all may seem, at the very least he’s still alive.

That's all you care about right now.

In front of you, his other self cocks his head to the side. He narrows his eyes as he looks down at the defenseless body on the ground with a disdain that you've never seen on those features before.

“You intervened with the canon when you jumped into her dimension. Do you understand?” he says with a quiet barely contained anger. “The universe keeps trying to kill her, because you, an anomaly, entered into the picture and altered the course of her life."

Something sharp protrudes from the back of his arms, as he speaks.

"But I can make it right," he says and you see the sharp long appendages extend from both sides of his upper arms.

You stare at them with a growing fear, as they grow sharp and menacing, into blades that glow ominously red.

No. Nononono.

This can't be happening. This can't be real.

You wrench against the restraints around your limbs and pain sears through every single cell of your body. But right now it doesn't matter. You have to move. Because you know what’s going to happen if you don’t.

"I can save her. If you die, she gets to live. All you need to do is stay down,” he says.

To your horror Miguel does. Miguel doesn’t move. Doesn’t resist. Doesn’t fight back. The tight tension in his muscles go slack, and his arms drop at his sides.

The most stubborn man in the universe has stopped fighting. He’s given up.

That man is going to kill Miguel. You can’t stay still and let it happen. You have to move. God, please please, you need to–

“I have to do this to keep her safe,” the Doppelgänger says, “You want that too. It’s all we ever wanted.”

Pain tears at the seams of your skin, sharp and fractured like broken shards and glass splitting through your skull until you’re sure you are going to vomit. You ignore it.

In front of you, he raises his arm above Miguel’s head until it looms over him like a reaper's scythe.

Ripping through the last of the hindrance holding you down, adrenaline and pain mix into a sickening concoction until you lose sense of your surroundings.

It's only a few feet away.

You can’t stop, even if it hurts. Can’t stop even though your vision flickers white with bright dotted spots. Can’t stop, because if you do– you’ll lose him.

You leap, throwing yourself in front of Miguel's slumped form on the floor.

Everything hurts. Pain sears through your insides, scraping every inch of our flesh. It burns and crackles in the marrow of your bones.

You spread your arms out in an attempt to make yourself bigger, trying to shield as much of your Miguel as you are physically capable of.

“Nena…” the man above stares down at you, wide-eyed and frozen.

He's stopped, the sharp blade protruding from his arm suspended inches from your face.

“Cielo! Move,” Miguel barks from under you.

“No!”

There’s no fear in this moment as you say the word. Even with the honed blade looming over your head. Even though all it’d take is one swift downward movement to end it all, you’ve never felt surer of your safety.

Because this close, you can see it now.

This other Miguel, different as he may be, is still Miguel. If there’s one thing you learnt in these last few months it's that more than anything, no matter how hard-headed and wrong he might go about it in his methods. This man will always choose your safety over everything else. Your survival. Your life.

That’s why Lyla still hasn’t overridden her safety protocol. Because your life is not in danger, not by his hands.

If he has to go through you to get to Miguel… He wouldn’t. You can tell that much.

And if your life is the only shield you have to offer the man you love, then you’d gladly lay it down under the guillotine.

“I won’t let you lay another finger on him,” you say as you stare up at the other Miguel defiantly. “Not as long as I’m alive.”

The man narrows his eyes, seething with an anger that radiates from every inch of his body as he spits out the syllables.

“He is killing you.”

His lips quiver, hands trembling as he looks down at you. You recognize that expression. It's the same one Miguel held when he was looming over you, vowing to eliminate the Avengers in order to protect you.

The same pain in his eyes, whenever he fears for your survival... because he's already lost you once.

That's what this is...

You see this for what it is now.

Despite the fact that he’s a stranger, in spite of all the differences, you see him for who he is. The anger, the blame on his own other self, on your Miguel. The haunting guilt he has towards himself.

When he says, ‘he,’ he's not just referring to the man behind you. He's talking about himself.

Kneeling upwards, you move towards this man, ignoring the burning pain that shudders through your trembling arms as you reach up to cup those all too familiar sharp cheeks. He flinches at the touch, as if he didn’t expect it.

“It’s not your fault. You didn’t know. You didn’t kill me,” you tell him.

His eyes widen and he turns his face the tiniest fraction into the palm of your hand, chasing after your touch.

“Maybe you and him are the reason the universe tries to kill me. But I’m still glad I was able to meet you."

At your words, you can see the determination in his eyes waver. The way something in him cracks open and falls apart at your words.

"I'm sorry," he says, and the words bleed with guilt. "I'm so sorry. It's all my fault."

“It's not your fault," you tell him again. "It’s okay, Miguel, I don't blame you. Even with all the near deaths and the end of the world, meeting you is the best thing that happened to me."

He’s not your Miguel. You know that. But despite everything that preceded this moment, your heart still hurts for this man.

All you know is that you want to make him feel better. You just want to make his hurt a little bit less painful.

“If it was my choice. If it were for me to decide. I would still want us to meet. I’m going to choose that every time. And I think that’s what she would’ve done too."

A glossy wetness shines over his scarlet eyes that threatens to spill and you ache for him.

Even if the man in front of you is not your Miguel. He’s still Miguel.

You will always recognize him, not in the identical physical features of his face. Not the stubborn angle of his ridiculously sharp jaw. Nor his obscenely large build.

No. It’s in the sadness of his eyes. The longing that he holds for you whenever he looks at you. The love you can plainly see there, no matter how hard he tries to hide it from you.

You are the woman he loves above all else. In every universe.

You can see that now.

“I think that’s what I’d always choose, Miguel. There are many versions of me but I know that every me will love every you in every universe if given the chance.”

His shoulders slump, the burning anger in him dims as his chest visibly deflates in front of you. Then he stands there, staring down at you with that aching defeat etched into the corners of his weary eyes.

“If I let you go,” he starts, voice so quiet it almost sounds like a whisper. “Where would you go from here?”

You stop to consider his question.

If you leave here with Miguel, your life as you know it is never going to be the same.

The comforts of your everyday life in New York will be lost. No more Netflix, or fancy lemony cupcakes, or the barista that knows your order before you open your mouth.

You will never know what your life will look like from one day to the next. What the world itself is going to be, jumping from one foreign universe to another. That should be terrifying to you.

But somehow it isn't.

What's scary is the thought of going back to the life you had without Miguel there. The life that was so painfully mundane and ordinary that you had no moments of importance worth remembering seconds before falling to your death. The life you spent that was trapped in the machinery of habit, without a speck of color and excitement in your life.

As confusing and downright scary every day has been since you met him, you’ve never felt more alive. Never felt safer than when Miguel is by your side. You wouldn't give it up for anything.

In your mind, there’s only one choice you want to make.

“I am going to leave my dimension with him,” you say. “The world won't have to end and we’d be together.”

He shakes his head, disbelieving. Those sad eyes, still pinned on yours.

“No matter where you run to, it would start up all over again," he says, biting down on his bottom lip with worry. "The universe will eventually try to erase you because it thinks you're an anomaly. That would be the rest of your life, running from dimension to dimension.”

He throws a look behind you where Miguel is lying on the ground, the disdain and anger coming to life again, before he continues. “If he dies, if I kill him, then that connection is severed, you could go back to your normal life.”

You turn behind to look at your Miguel. He has an expression on his face that mirrors his other self. One of defeat and sadness and disbelief.

“I don’t want that. I don’t want a life he’s not a part of.” You turn back to the other him, squarely meeting his eyes. “Please.”

Other Miguel looks like his world is ending as he looks at you. For the longest moment he doesn't say anything, and you aren't sure what his answer is going to be or what he is going to do. If he's going to hold you here against your will and kill Miguel despite your pleas.

Then he drops his gaze to the floor and you can see that he’s holding back tears.

“Go,” he whispers.

He steps back from you, retreating step by step to widen the physical distance between yourself and him, and turns away with his back towards you.

You immediately scramble towards your Miguel, arms reaching for him. It’s not graceful, your limbs still hurt and your movements are clumsy. But you try to ignore it so you can loop Miguel’s arm over your shoulder and try to haul him up on his feet.

Predictably, Miguel is already starting to protest and scold you, “Cielo, you can’t–”

“Not now, Miguel,” you cut him off, and for once he listens.

His mouth presses into a firm line as he strains to stand upright, trying not to lean on you for support to get up, but failing to do so, leg buckling under his own weight.

Your hand shoots out around his waist to hold him steady, the slick blood from his wounds painting your fingers a bright red. You swallow down the worry, prioritizing getting away above all else for now.

“Let’s go,” you tell him, and he gives you a curt, almost compliant nod as the two of you move together with clumsy steps and rely on each other for support.

Behind you, the other Miguel is still standing turned away from you. You stare at his wide back as you walk away.

With each step that broadness looks smaller and smaller in the distance. The lonely and grief-struck silhouette of another version of the man that you love, that so clearly loves you, disappears out of sight as you leave him behind.

Miguel is quiet. He won’t look you in the eye as both of you try to hobble your way to the corridor you had landed in when you first came to this dimension.

It takes you both an eternity. It's nothing short of a miracle Miguel is still alive and even though the toxin is wearing off in your system, you still feel sore. Every muscle in your body is cramping, worse than any time of the month you’ve had to endure so far in your life.

You gain an entirely new appreciation of what Wong must’ve gone through and if there is a way to send interdimensional gift baskets, you remind yourself you should get one for him as an apology.

“This should be safe enough,” Miguel tells you as you reach the secluded space.

You both slump down to the ground, catching your breath with your backs leaning against the wall behind to hold you upright.

“Are you okay?” you ask him, which is a silly question for a man that probably has at least half a dozen broken ribs, internal bleeding, and a fractured jaw from the looks of it.

Despite all those bodily injuries though, Miguel is acting unbothered.

“Yeah, give me a minute and I’ll get us out of here.”

He wastes no time as he reaches over for your wrist and fiddles with the dials on your watch,

A hologram appears above, but there’s no sighting of Lyla. He hasn’t summoned her and as far as you can see it’s all just gibberish coding that he’s inputting. You have no idea what he’s doing but if you had to take a guess, it looks like he’s manually inserting the programming of the next jump to ensure it’s the right location this time.

He’s quiet and concentrated like always, eyebrows furrowed, as he works. Then out of nowhere, without looking up from what he’s doing, he speaks.

“What do you want to do once you get out of here?”

"Sleep,” is your immediate answer and Miguel laughs quietly at that as you continue. “Recover, just... rest, for a while, I guess"

"Sounds nice.” He shuts down the illuminated screen, presumably already done.

Then he’s quiet for a long moment, just sitting there next to you.

“...and after that?” he asks, breaking the silence.

“I guess since I’m going to be traveling different dimensions now for the rest of my life, I’d want to go to all the cool places? Like one where there’s talking raccoons. Or a dimension where we all have sausages for fingers, or one where all life forms are rock based.”

He pays close attention to you, face resting in the palm of his hand, as you tell him of these made up otherworldly dimensions.

“If we happen to jump into another dimension that’s similar to my old one I wouldn’t turn down Beyoncé tickets, provided Lyla could get them or we could just have her hack into restaurant booking systems and get us into all the exclusive places.”

There’s a small smile on his face as you speak, and your chest feels warm at the sight of it. Somehow after the day you have had, barely escaping the end of the world, going through an assassination attempt by the Avengers, being ambushed by another version of Miguel, you both made it through.

That tiny smile of his feels like a prize at the finishing line.

You slide your fingers across the space between you, until you find his knuckles, interlacing his fingers with yours.

"Anything would be okay, really. As long as I get to be with you," you tell him.

His smile turns wistful, as he nods back at you, squeezing your fingers back between his. “Yeah, that would be nice.”

There’s a lingering moment that you share in the comfortable silence. It’s unlike him. The Miguel you know would have wanted to make the jump five minutes ago, but you figure he must be tired.

He’s been shot at, thrown off buildings and beaten half to death by his own Doppelgänger today. He’s more than earned a minute or two of rest.

His head tips up staring into the moody blue ceiling above. “I love you,” he says.

It’s sudden and a bit out of nowhere but your face tingles. Warmth fills your chest until there's so much of it you're not sure you can contain it inside you. Then he continues.

“If there was any doubt. I love you, this you. Even if I find you to be absolutely batshit insane sometimes.”

You can’t help the silly grin tugging at your lips. The dopey feeling that buzzes bright in your veins. You feel slightly lightheaded and you aren’t sure if it’s a side effect of the toxins or just his words.

“Miguel, I lov–” you start, but he cuts you off.

“I know,” he says, turning his gaze to you, as he squeezes your hand gently in his. “You don’t have to say anything. Let’s just stay here for a while. Just like this.”

He doesn’t say anything after that.

The two of you stay like that in the moody darkness, his thumb smoothing over the front of your hand in soothing motions, as he looks down at you like he doesn’t want to take his eyes off of you. It’s a while longer still, before finally Miguel seems ready. He takes your hand that he’s holding and brings it close.

“Lyla,” he summons. “Take us to the next location.”

At the command, there's a bright burst of strobed colored lights surrounding you. It’s blinding your vision as it throws you into motion even as you’re sitting still.

Then before you know it they fade into a bright sterile whiteness. You wait for your surroundings to reform. To see a skyline and buildings and city lights.

But there’s nothing.

“Wait, where are we?” you ask.

Everything is blank and white and endless here. Empty space as far as the eye can see. Dread seizes you. You’re in the void again.

Why are you here?

How… Is the watch broken? Did the two of you fail? But it worked before. You shouldn’t be here, how–fuck, your vision starts to flatten. The ground underneath you is unsteady. Everything blurs. You can’t breathe.

“Hey, hey, you’re okay,” Miguel says, taking your hand in his as he squeezes down. “I sent us here.”

He says it so casually, your brain doesn't quite register the meaning. What does he mean he sent you here? On purpose, why would he–

“What do you mean? I don’t understand, Miguel, why would you–”

He hushes you soothingly. One hand comes to cup the back of your head, stopping you mid-sentence. “You’re not going to stay here. We’re just doing a drop off.”

“Miguel, what–”

He leans down, forehead pressing intimately against yours, there’s a sad smile on his face as he meets your eyes. They’re soft and gentle, and your chest squeezes painfully tight just looking at him.

“I already told you, didn't I?” he tells you, both hands coming to cup your cheeks. “I’m not going to let you die.”

Without missing a beat, he’s already moving on before you even have a chance to retort.

“Lyla,” he calls, and you hear the ping from your wrist. Can feel the slight vibration as the hologram takes form. “Run the updated protocol."

There’s a bright glow that forms all around you. Bright light crackles at the edges of your vision and there’s a delayed reaction in your brain as you try to process everything that’s happening around you.

He lets you go, taking a step back. “I love you, Cielito. I will always love you.”

Shit! He wouldn’t. Why?

“Take her home for me,” he orders.

You step forward trying to grab hold of him but it’s already too late. Your fingers grasp for him, but it sinks into nothingness, Miguel is already gone and so are you.

You find yourself inside a small studio apartment.

There’s no one besides you.

There’s a sole window sill where the view of New York City is entirely obscured by the neighboring building and its ugly brick wall. Not an inch of the skyline is visible.

You’re surrounded by clutter and second hand furniture that is all too familiar. A cheap IKEA Ingatorp dining table. Laundry still piled up on the bed. Dirty dishes stacked up in a tower over the sink.

You know this place.

You’re home.

Dedication & Credits: To my favorite moose @thirstworldproblemss. Thank you as always for listen to my insane ramblings and machinations, even though you literally do not even go here.

To @guruan who I have been dying to share this chapter with for so long! Thank you for all the amazing art, thank you for your help looking through dialogues to make sure the Spanish used reads right. Thank you for crying about this man with me.

And last but not least big hug loves and smooches to @djarinsbeskar who gave this a second pair of eyes in the eleventh minute when I was freaking out about the copious use of Doppelganger, her advice was invaluable to me and without her I probably would've put this on ice over the weekend. Please send her all the loves! cause she is amazing and beautiful and gorgeous. Also do you know that she has her DEBUT NOVEL SENSUAL SUMMONING coming out soon? please check it out and sign up to her newsletter.

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[khaleesiofalicante]

Verament ma kontx naf liema lingwa nagħżel għalih, għalhekk nagħżel waħda b'"M" fuqha

Good news, I have a week of vacations!! Yay!! Bad news: I need to clean my whole room bc I need to pain it smh. Anyway, how are you btw? Have you finished all the documents you needed?

I'm kinda scared, but lets go!! Also I will try to keep it short bc it was just a fucking great chapter and I loved every single thing, but we would be here all day if I told you how much I ADORE it 💙

"He wasn’t historically great at talking about things anyway." SAME BRO

FEEL YOU. Honestly why is he so relatable?? The dreams, the ocean, the difficult talks.... I relate to him a lot!!!

YES TO CLEANING THE OCEAN AND GETTING GREAT ARMS😎

ELYASS YAS!!

“If it’s there when I check, I am locking you inside the closet.” “That’s homophobic,” Max pointed out. (my parents ALWAYS say that to me, but I cant tell that joke yet😂)

CLARY IS SUCH A LOVE🥺💙

We'd love to see David in basketball short👀

Simon, Lexi, Jace and David playing>>>

Jace be like: You can take whatever you want, BUT I DRAW THE LINE AT CUDDLING PRIVILEGES

HE. FUCKING. KISSED. HIS. WRIST🥺

Max be like: Mark me down as horny and sad😎

Shopping!! Hell yeah!!! (Also who gave David the right to look so good?? I'm looking respectfully...)

Ok, that boy was weird ngl....

My bby scared of his power🥺

THEY GOT HIM A FUCKING JAGUAR.

“So, they got you a car?” Max grumbled. “Mine are trying to get me to go to therapy.” (Is it the worst idea tho....?)

No one can blame Max.. He must look HOT

Not the child fault, I know but WHAT ARE YOU DOING? Look at him!! He's got anxiety and self-seem issues already!!!

NO HONEY YOU ARE NOT A DEMON YOU ARE PRECIOUS AND WITH A GOOD HEART!!!!!

I love how David gets him💙 Also he is sweet and gentleman and basically owns my heart

BLOOD DOESN'T DEFINE YOU BABY?!!!

"When shit happened, the insecurities and anxieties came rushing up again. And he was back where he started." Ugh, thats the worst. Its so tiring sometimes...

Ok, but ✨ANJALI✨ My smart, funny beautiful love😍😍

They are both in love idiots💙💙

Omg him crying 😭😭and Rafe comforting him in a sec😭😭😭 and Rafe holding him as he cries😭😭

COMUNICATION IS THE SEXIEST BITCH

“People have scary dreams when they are going through a lot. Dreams are manifestations of our deepest fears or desires" I know he is not talking to me, but I feel called out...

“Ours is the history of Lightwood-Banes. We don’t kill. We create. We don’t hurt. We love. Do you hear me?” FUCK YEAH!!! THEM >>>>>>

“Or talk to dad,” Rafael said. “They are our parents. It’s literally what they are there for.” (he is so wise and sexy ngl)

Why do I love that Rafe apologised for calling him demon even tho he is used to it and instead uses other words??? I'm emo🥺🥺

"But the fact that he could if he wanted…It scared him. The potential. The possibility. It terrified him." I mean, it makes sense... But I want to hold him and protect him and jsjdjdhdlakjsj

Love the "only my brother is allowed to try to kill me" 🥺 and Selena

THE CURSE AND THE CRIMINAL. WOW. I'M JUST JDJDJSBDJDB LITERALLY ✨THEM✨

Anjali is su fucking beautiful!!!! Also Rafe is definetly the one that cries the most😂

“You should,” Anjali said then. “There is nothing wrong with it.” “I know,” Max said. “I just…I guess I am not good at it.” (my common sense says Anjali but insecurities says Max🙂)

She is the most efficient person and badass woman😎😎

OMG the are all wasted af😂😂😂

“Which one are you talking about?” “Both,” (Valid)

My inmortal gang 😍😍

Mina is such a badass also😎😎 I LOVE HER YOUR HONOR💙💙

“You saw bapak?” “Yeah. He was the one who got everyone drunk,” (Why am I not surprised?)

Also them>>>>>

"Where you thou dumbeth, there I will dumb.” ok but when can they add this to the parabatai oath?

“Would you like to go on an adventure?” Bapak grinned. “Yes please.” “Do you trust me?” Bapak smiled. “Always.” 💙💙💙💙💙

PERÚ!!!!!

✨Comunication my beloved✨

See?? He is not mad at you!!!

"It hurt me, yes. But it didn’t make me hate you,” bapak said softly. "I don't hate you." “Even now?” Max asked. “Always,” (BRO🥺🥺🥺 I'M SERIOUSLY CRYING)

"Everyone…Everyone looks at you like you are some sort of God. But you are just a person. People fuck up. I know that better than anyone. So, I won’t hold it against you. I promise.” He is so wise and they are beautiful and wholesome<3

The fact that Max DID sell his clothes once and Rafael bought them back is gold😂😂

“When you say you mastered it, do you mean you drove people – and some llamas – insane?” Yeah, pretty much...

Dude seriously I'm crying with this conversation😭 is so damm great

If I was to quote the things I LOVED, I would say EVERYTHING bc SERIOUSLY THOSE TWO!!

"Because you gave me something I never thought I could have. You gave me a family. You scared the shit out of me, Max. I was so scared of you. Never of who you are, but of who you turned me into. A father.”

“But then I got to know you. I fell in love with you slowly, day after day, every day a little bit more, but never any less. But you are right. You don’t make it easy. You don't make it easy to love you, Max. You’ve always been a challenge. But I like a good challenge. I like loving you.”

“So, don’t ever think I will hate you,” the man said seriously. “Because I don’t know how to do that. I don’t know how to look at you with anything but love.”

“That’s the boy I raised. Whoever is in your dream, that’s not you. That’s not my blueberry” I'M FUCKING DONE WITH THIS CUTENESS🥺😭

"Magic" FUCK YEAH NDJSKSJS

YES THEY WILL ALWAYS HAVE EACH OTHER AND MAGNUS WILL ALWAYS BE RIGHT THERE

All the things he remember of David.... I'm love them so much💙💙💙

"But whatever happens, remember that I love you. I will always love you.” IS IT THEIR GOAL TO MAKE ME DIE OF EMOTIONS??? 😭😭🥺💙

The hug!!! holy fuck I'm gonna die!!!

✨Malec✨

"Dad was so...dad sometimes." I love this man so fucking much its not ok!!!

“Don't do that,” dad said. “Talk to me.” (I was gonna say "The only one with braincells in this family" but then I remember that he hide the fact he was dying😂)

“Why does that asshole keep haunting me even after death?” Because he is a bitch (derogatory)

"No one gets to hurt bapak. If the nephilim ever fucking dare to try, I won’t hesitate to set the Clave on fire. I will burn it all down.” as you should babe

My man really say: I'm Magnus Bane stan first, in love dork second and Consul at some point of the list and thats iconic behaviour😌

This man. Alec Lightwood-Bane is taking no one shit if they hurt Magnus

I can only imagine someone in the future telling Max: "This is not what your father would have wanted" if he burns down the Clave for hurting Magnus and him just saying shit like "He was actually the one who gave me green light. And actually left a list of stepts to follow. Did you even knew him???"

“Burn it down, my baby. Burn it all down,” his father smiled. “You have my blessing.” (He really is unhinged and  crazy and I love him so fucking much hdjdjsjsj💙💙 we can really see where Max and Rafe got it from )

"I was thinking, you could, like, buy me a car?” He has no chill istg😂😂

Wait, is it THE seashell???? Omg omg omg

"The hard thing about talking was not the talking itself. It was the fact that someone else was listening." THIS

HE IS FUCKING WRITING ALL THE THINGS HE WANTS TO REMEMBER OF DAVID!! HOW FUCKING BEAUTIFUL IS THAT SHIT??? 🥺💙

"He would keep David inside a book. In between the pages." Thats the most romantic shit ever don't @ me

No but honestly THANK Ragnor for Max’s look👀

Ok, David definetly has a suit thing lmao😂

David walked over to the office door and locked it. “Technically, that’s not necessary.” Oh shit. Oh fuck. (HOLY SHIT I CANT JDHDYDID MY BABY IS WILD AF)

Jsidjdi I cant with them😂😂

No honey David didn't believe Asmodeus for a sec!!! 🥺🥺

Both of them feeling blessed to be loved by the other hdjdkdjsksnsk 

“I keep you there, Max. I keep you inside my heart. You earned the right to be there.” MAVID SUPREMACY FIRST, HUMAN SECOND

✨DAVID BEING SO IN LOVE✨

Yeah, its easier said than done to not listen what people say....

All of the "you are the boy who" is making me cry, no shit 😭💙💙💙💙

“It doesn’t matter how much demon blood you have. Your heart is the purest thing I know.” THIS FUCKING LINE ISTG!!!!!

“Then we will wake up in the morning. And I will tell you all of it all over again.” what can I say beside the fact they own my heart bc they are the purest beings here!???! 💙💙

This was the most relatable and emotional chapter for me tbh. Max is such a complex character and I relate to him on a personal level. love him, I love them. I love you

Goodbye!!  Narawkom il-kapitlu li jmiss!  Qed nibgħat l-aħjar vibes tiegħi għax-xogħol tiegħek💙

Maltese? Interesting decision. Also, Malta is an island, which really suits Max too!!

ALSO.

I love cleaning rooms/houses! Drop the location!!!! Something that makes it super fun for me is a really good playlist. Let me know an aesthetic (or vibe/ship/character/genre) and I will make one for you bebe.

LET ME DO THIS FOR YOU!!!! 💙

Also I had just moved on from Max's chapter (it was a lot) and now I am right back again in the feels (but in a good way no worries)

I'm so glad you find Max relatable because me fucking too 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Enjoy your vacation days or else ;)

[inkofyoonkoo]

I'm sorry that you've been feeling this way :< Maybe a break isn't such a bad idea...tho I would be sad if it was the last straw to fully lose interest in writing at all. You just have a way with words and it makes your fics just so much better. The ideas are amazing, the style is marvelous and I just can't help but love all of it oof. 😫💕

I may not be an author, but I was a full on artist, so I totally get it that it can be very tiring in not receiving any feedback or interaction from your readers. It seriously sucks. So a break wouldn't be such a bad idea...taking a step back, thinking things through, maybe write for just yourself from time to time (If you find the motivation to do so, if not then not 💕)

I believe you have so much potential and it's really saddening to see that this platform slowly sucks out all the energy from content creators. :<

Keep voicing your concerns and insecurities tho, they are very much valid!

I'm very amazed by you and how you still found the energy to write even tho there wasn't any motivation. You still kept fighting to bring joy to others and I want to thank you for that! 🖤 I know it may not be much, but I seriously appreciate your efforts and I hope that you feel the spark on your journey again ~ ✨

Sorry for the long ask haha I tend to write...a lot 😵💕(or I just don't know when to shut my mouth 😂)

~ ☁️ anon

I've boundless patience. I'm living this same situation at work -I lived this same situation with friends (you know, when something you like doesn't make you happy but you have to let it go to feel good) and it took me AGES to take the final step. I don't know if this is the very last straw, but I admit that I'm so tired that I can't brush the disappointment away so easily, this time. Maybe a break will help -the point is that is a never ending story: I'll come back, I'll post something, there will be lack of feedback, etc, etc... I don’t know, I sometimes feel pretty stupid for keeping on trying. Anyway, I've already bought myself some videogames and I'm LOVING THEM and they're so good they distract me from this issue, so there's the chance that I'll dedicate less time to writing for a while 😊

I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for your kind words and messages! You put a huge smile on my face and you made me feel "heard" and not stupid for expressing something that's notching my mood 🤗 also, I'm truly grateful for your compliments toward my writing, it means a lot to know that you love it 🥰 Thank you so so so much for everything! For sure my mind will run toward you when I'll go back to writing something ❤

[kdramaxoxo]

Hello! I've seen u rec Run On several times and it's been in my "plan to watch" for a while and I finally started it I think Friday and I'm on ep 9 and OBSESSED - I've stayed up til like 4 all weekend ksksksks a. I also paused last night to watch devil judge and idk - I think I'm too stupid and/or tired for it - like it's interesting but also meh 😂 I fell asleep 20mins into the 2nd ep so I went back to Run On *Chef kiss* but then again vincezo bored me for 4 eps til I stuck to it lololol

You + Me + RUN ON 🌈 💖✨

I didn't realize just how much I loved Run On until I started rewatching it. I swear it's even better the 2nd time around! The mains are soft weirdos and I the OST is just perfect! I love how everyone has these wildly different jobs and interests and act so chaotically with one another? Yes please!

I'm supposed to start The Devil Judge tonight! (Tho I did hear it's kinda hard to get into so you aren't alone ;-)

[bangchanswolfpelt]

Vetting potential sugar daddies? You need to tell me more about that 👀 And you're going glutenfree !! That's actually much more difficult than, really, it should be--i'm speaking from experience </3

Tbz and sf9 are amazing, i'm wholeheartedly supporting you getting sucked into the bottomless abyss that is their charms :)) and i don't think me praying for you will be able to change that. Any (potential) biases yet?? 👀

And i'm doing good! Although it still feels as if 2022 has just started yesterday, so i don't really have any feelings about it yet lmao. Let's see how this year will turn out, i'm in good spirits, however ✨

-🍒

hahaha, it's honestly just kinda like chatting people up on tinder, except i'm slightly more motivated to entertain actually talking to complete strangers 😂 i made a profile on one of the more ""reputable"" sites, ignored a lot of the messages i've gotten, but i've had a couple guys i'm talking to on-and-off. it's entertaining in the way that tinder or any other kind of online dating is—skimming through what people decide to put in their profiles is always entertaining, and maybe

going gluten free actually isn't as rough as i would've imagined it would be a couple years ago?? but i've also realized that i could just. live on rice and eggs, so that helps a lot 😅 plus, i've heard the lettuce wraps at In-n-Out are actually decent, so that'll be nice when the drive-thru line isn't two miles long. i do miss the hell out of bread, tho 😔

re: The Boyz, i'm still getting to know all of them, but Sunwoo caught the hell out of my attention during Kingdom and is definitely in the lead (see: car wash porn parody promo, Rich Brian cover, getting jealous on vlive, his taste in fucking anime ohmygod i wanna sit this boy down and make him mainline so much anime with me and the fact that i can't actuallly makes me a lil mad forreals) ((he might be my lockscreen rn, but shhhhhhhh, don't tell Eunkwang))

Sangyeon was the other one who caught my eye during kingdom and i'm still pretty 😵‍💫 over him; the vocal parts that make me perk up when they're on always seem to be his, and seeing him complain about his dumbfuck children during mafia was sooooooo good for me—i have a soft spot for tired leaders and it's serving him very well. i'm also growing distinctly fond of Kevin and Jacob, as well, and Q seems like a delightfully evil little genius.

as for SF9: i've been dipping into their music more than anything that shows off their personality, so we're still hovering around the main four that caught my eye during Kingdom.

Taeyang — this shouldn't be a surprise, if he's not the one that regularly drags people into this fandom the way Kim 'i just wanted to know who the one with blue hair was!!' Taehyung and Lee 'when did this kid hit puberty??' Felix do, i will put ketchup on my slipper and eat it. seeing his outfit for that one Teardrop stage was what dragged me back into this hell, actually, so 🥲

Hwiyoung — i thought he was pretty generically handsome and stiff at the start of the rap unit collab, but seeing him try to loosen up and have fun was really endearing. and then their kcon performance came and kicked me in the fucking chest—i'm sorry, shirt with more buttons undone than done, hair in a messy bun, that totally relaxed, loose-limbed vibe??? stick a fork in me, i'm fuckin done

Inseong — i noticed him from the very start of Kingdom, he had such a playful, impish vibe the whole time; it was the vocal unit collab that fucking got me, tho, you can't make a boy cry on this show and expect me to not want to take him 😔

Jaeyoon — i don't even know what it is about him, because looks-wise, he's not the type i'm usually into? and i usually have to have some prior investment before things like a firm b-cup get to me honestly. i think it was the vocal unit collab, actually, he and Inseong both were so tall and so handsomely awkward when the iKon boys showed up, it was truly delightful. plus, despite the tragic ending, i did really enjoy that particular stage.

aside from them, the only ones i can even match a name to a face with are Zuho (will i ever stop being unhornily mad about the line "I'm the male version of Venus"? probably not) and Chani (babbyyyyyyy 🥺).

i'm so glad you're doing well!! honestly, 2022 still feels like an extension of 2021, in the same way last year just felt like an extension of 2020, but we'll see how long that lasts. regardless of how it turns out, we have each other<3

[astrxlis-archive]

Hi Fox!! I missed you too 🥺<33 it just so happens that i was recharging my social battery so i kinda don't have enough energy to compose asks 😂 i'm doing alright but not my untouched assignments lmao tho i still do group assignments of course, thanks for asking :D Hm, i was also reflecting as to why on earth am i planning to start a writing blog during the most inappropriate time so i thought of just making it as a reward for myself hoping it'll motivate me (this is more like a joke tbh *facepalm*) How did your midterms went? Anything new you'd like to share? 👀💖 i just found out i could format asks in desktop too so while i'm charging my phone, i'm typing this on my laptop 💪 Well, now you don't really have to worry about tagging stuff i did 👌 either way i still think you're really kind for thinking about boundaries like that's really nice 🥺 i don't mind you asking me about confirmations too, it's totally okay :D Could the Irodori Quest be the culprit for making you think more about Scara? 😂👀 I wanna know your thoughts about the event (main story, side quests or even the minigames is up to you!) too, but please indicate spoiler warnings for other people in case :DD You did well for your first piece about Kazuha!!💗🌹 It's actually fine to delve into the basic known things about the character(s) before tackling down the deeper side of them. I might be lowkey scared by him too, he's just too pretty and such an ethereal person for me to approach 😂 You can keep trying to get a whole grasp on them, so it's not like the world's ending with a mistake😂😘😋 dw about Scara's part, i can definitely see the way how he have power over the reader with the certain part as the neck. TW: mentions of suicide— It's the same site where people try to cut off their life too + the neck connects the body from the head(please do actually correct me if i'm wrong in this 😂 im just describing how i see it sorry,,, this is truly from a perspective of a non-med student so 😅) , which is more like a center point or a bridge for the brain and the heart (the main organs who control our life). I really loved how you connected their fav places to kiss the reader is something that can be related to the characters themselves too (mouth for speaking poetry = Kazuha for lips; hands = Diluc's covered hands with gloves that possibly have burnt marks and are the same hands who wields his claymore to protect Mondstadt, bartend the tavern and do his Dawn Winery work.) It might be unintentional for you, but here i am already giving you a more concrete back-up explanation as to why you chose those certain body parts 😂😂😂

But hey, i was thinking what if you put more of your med student knowledge into writing 👀 like, that's possible and you know the actual stuff so it can also be more accurate 💪

this part you mentioned for kaeya's: "idk how he survives honestly" got me cackling 😂 he'll just tell us "wouldn't you like to know weather boy?" i'm betting on this so hard. I'm wishing you the best of luck for your presentation on Monday!! <333 Stuff must be really tiring but i'm supplying you some energy to get through it all !! ✨✨✨ i'm lookin forward to whatever you have in store for us! 🤭 — 🍰.

hi 🍰!!! 💖

edit: i just noticed i forgot to write my opinion on the event oops.

i totally get it. i noticed you’ve been absent in other blogs as well, so i figured something was up. take your time to rest and recharge!! ✨ also dude, it’s never a bad time to be part of something you enjoy! you’re the one in charge of your schedule, and you can def use it to motivate yourself 💪

my midterms… honestly they could’ve gone worse 🥹 like way worse. all things considered, i might have a fighting chance. as for new things i’d like to share, hmmm… a boba shop recently opened in my city, so i’ve been very happy about that, even though the drinks are kinda expensive because it’s sort of a novelty around here? i’m a basic b tch with my flavor choice tho 😂 other than that my life is quite boring honestly, not a lot of new things happen because i’m always dealing with college stuff 🥸

about scara, here’s the funny thing: i hadn’t even played the irodori festival quests when i had my scara brainrots 😂 i spedrun the entire event in the last two days (along with the minigames/side quests) so i could get the lore and my xingqiu const (C1!!! FINALLY!!!!!). i honestly think scara lives in my head rent free and occasionally likes to remind me he’s there, usually at inconvenient times, which is very in character for him 🙄🥴

as for the irodori festival itself - i had a lot of fun with it!! learning that scara had a lot do to with the kaedehara clan's downfall was very interesting. i wonder how kazuha will react when he finds out the one responsible for it is still alive. a lot of people assume that he'll be fine with it, but i don't know. also, seeing the kamisato siblings interact!!!!! made my day!!!!! i wish we got to see other characters interactions more, like venti and ayaka. that seemed so random but fit so well at the same time.

i wish i had more time to truly enjoy it, because it was a really nice and chill event if you look at it. the poem clues ayato came up with had me invested, honestly.

thank you so much for telling me i did well!! 🥹🤩 dude, he is, isn’t he? i really do want to get a better grasp on him bc everything i read with him involved warms my heart 🤭

you're not wrong! the neck is one of the most important parts of the body, literally everything goes through there. sure, blood vessels and nerves are well protected by the layers of muscle (especially the sternocleidomastoid, a superficial muscle), but at the same time it's such a fragile place???

it was unintentional, but i did think about it later on 😂 and then when you sent this message i was "oh, so my subconscious really went there huh" 🤯 i'm glad you're able to pick up even the little things i don't notice at first when i write things 🫣

dude i read that in kaeya's eng voice 🤡 the way i laughed istg– but yes, i would like to know, teach me your ways kaeya—

i've though about adding some medical knowledge into my writing, but at the same time i'm here like "what if i say something wrong and get called out 💀💀💀💀" so i'm still working through the idea 😂 and my presentation went fine! it was a lot of stuff but in the end it all worked out 🥹 at least now i know why carpal tunnel syndrome gets worse over time lmao

see you soon!! 💕💕