#even tho i look very clearly like a fag. almost miss the street harassment lol - it gave me a gauge for how i was being read in the world

[theplantqueer]

just clicked in my head that all these years of being called a faggot/dyke/poofta/tr*nny on the street, my subconscious has been adding - spoken or unspoken - a rly fucken unnecessary cushioning to it: "obviously it makes sense tho, is to be expected, and is preventable if i stop being so visibly a freak"

like where does that come from lol, it's rly not what i actually think. i know queer-coding how i look will inevitably get Reactions but like. after being out for like 14yrs I've still only just pieced together that that doesn't make queerphobic insults partly my fault? lmao this shit is insidious.