#even sebagni has more fics

[dlldior]

chat icl i'm SO tempted rn to write a sebataker fic because there is virtually nothing on ao3

[questionablemorally]

Sebagni hcs that nobody asked for but I will provide:

Sebastian probably fell first, though Agni fell harder

At first noticing his… strangely more intense feelings towards Agni, Seb tried to ignore it best he could. This could be seen as weak, something demons are NOT, clearly. Eventually, he comes to terms with it and doesn’t think of it as a weakness as much anymore (in his mind it doesn’t stop him from performing his duties, so it shouldn’t matter)

When Agni realised he’d fallen in love, he basically cried for 3 hours straight out of happiness, and immediately went to tell his prince on how best to confess

Agni is the only human that Seb decently enjoys cooking with, everyone else he’ll push out to have the space to himself (cough cough Bard)

When Agni sees Seb having a particularly rough day, he’ll give him a thoughtful gift or combine the efforts of the servants to give him a break from chores… even if just for an evening

Seb doesn’t fluster easily at all, but Agni’s sweet/soft, out of the blue comments just don’t mix with his demon brain used to hardcore flirting, so he trips over his words or has to look away… small things, but big for him (the servants, especially, have never seen him act like that)

As soon as Soma heard of Agni’s affection towards Sebastian, he was obnoxious about it. Trying to be sneaky by leaving them alone as often as possible, or talking loudly about how amazing Agni is whenever Seb is nearby, or almost confessing to Seb for Agni… needless to say, he’s over the moon about it and is very intense

On the other hand, Ciel hardly noticed until Seb almost missed an order from him while engaged in conversation with Agni, and then he loved to tease him about it. Anything used to embarrass or gain the upper hand on Seb is useful, in his mind, so he uses it to his advantage to practically blackmail the demon occasionally (not that he needs to, he just enjoys it, and Seb goes along with it to please him)

Marriage isn’t something that really appeals to Seb all that much, but Agni sometimes mentions wanting to get married in passing, and Seb would bring him the universe on a plate if he asked, so he wouldn’t mind so long as it made Agni happy… besides the ‘eternal bond’ thing sounds somewhat nice

Sebastian likes his personal space, so it’s a huge sign of trust for him to let someone into his space willingly or see him in a vulnerable way. He appreciates Agni’s respect for boundaries, and so Agni is one of the few people he actually lets be in his personal space and/or see him vulnerably

Classic Sun/Moon dynamic in my opinion

They definitely share recipes from English/Indian cuisine with each other, and Seb sometimes makes Agni some of his comfort foods as a gift

I love the idea that Seb brings little shiny things he finds to the people he loves the most, so when Agni keeps finding coins and other random trinkets in his room…

If you want more please lmk! I try to keep them within character (to a degree, obviously it’s unlikely any of these would happen) and if you have any requests for other ships for me to do, lmk too. (Also I WILL write a sebagni fic… at some point)

[plague-of-insomnia]

Ask game: A ship you like, but others don't?

A ship you dislike but others do?

This one is easy.

A Ship I Like Others Don't: All of them? lol.

Honestly, most of the ships I love are uncommon. Some I am literally the ONLY person who has written about them here or on AO3, including BardAgni and Vintaka, which makes me so sad bc they're suchhhh good ships.

Even Sebard has very few followers. And sadly, sebagni is almost all antis </3. I'm like... the only one posting about them here (who I don't have blocked or doesn't have me blocked, anyway). There's a couple non-anti artists who still draw sebard occasionally.... sebagni is almost never seen anymore outside anti circles... and it's not a popular ship in Japan so there's no content in that fandom, either.

There's a lot of other rare ships I like but haven't been able to write for yet, like Bardlau, or Sebataker (one of the more popular ships I like)*.

*Correction, I *have* written Sebataker, in WDH, but not as its own story. Yet.

But I love trying out different combinations. If I had had more spoons in my years in the fandom I probably would have written at least one little thing for every ship I felt like trying out.... maybe someday. I still want to do that Vintaka vampire fic eventually....

Ofc I haven’t mentioned every ship I like, bc we'd be here all day, lol, but yeah, I really, really wish I could get a few people into BardAgni and Vintaka (and more into Sebardgani)..... maybe someday.

A Ship I Don't Like Others Do: Sebaciel

I don't really DISLIKE it, but it just... doesn't do much for me. I enjoy their dynamic in canon. It gives me ENORMOUS glee when they're working and scheming together, like in the Murder arc or Weston arcs (partly why those are my top two fave arcs). But they don't... spark much in me the way other ships do. I don't.... get that buzz of emotion when I imagine Seb and Ciel the way a lot of people do. I WISH I DID SOMETIMES because there is SO MUCH CONTENT for them in canon and ofc fan made.... But.... as much as I like Ciel in canon and admire him as a survivor and a character, he just... doesn't really connect with me out of canon in the same way that other characters do. I don't even include him in most of my stories lmao. He just... doesn't really interest me outside of the manga.

Thank you again for the asks. I'm sorry for the delay in replaying.

[delusinaldreamer19]

Hello!! I wanted to say that I catch myself thinking about of all the unexpected more than once a day, the chokehold that this fanfic has on me is insane! i just love it so much, i’ve recommended it to my friends who are also super big Sebagni and Dadbastian fans and they love it just as much as I do! I am also very very curious if you happen to know when the next chapter will be out, though I hope I’m not annoying you with this question I just really can’t help it lol!! I’ve never been so invested in a fanfic before. I hope you’re doing well <3

Well, given that the next chapter is currently over 9k words I am HOPING it’ll be done soon 🥲.

But thank you so much!!! The thought of my fanfic being shared through word of mouth makes me so giddy eh he. (Even though the fic hasn’t been updated for a little, I feel like I’ve gotten an influx of messages recently of ppl expressing their enjoyment of it. Not sure why but I’ll take it!) Apparently I have I way of getting into peoples heads 🤭. But I totally embrace others coming up with their own little scenarios within my AU. (I’d die to hear about them!!)

To answer your question of when the next chap will be out, while I don’t have an exact answer, I’m hoping to get it finished in the next 3ish weeks, but it depends on my free time and energy. Trust I’m just as eager to get this chapter posted as you are to read it!

[grelleswife]

Hiiii ummm just really was curious.. will you get back to the Sebagni fic when that Sebamey fic is done?? 👉👈 I really look forward to seeing it again so I really hope so!! Sorry if its annoying to ask and you get stuff like this all the time >< I just miss that fic so much, cause it was the best sebagni fic!! Ok bye!!

Hi, anon! Thank you for the kind words! 🥰🖤 Although I fully intend to revisit Metanoia someday, that’s unlikely to happen at present because I need to concentrate on finishing my degree. Making progress on the Sebamey rp has been difficult enough as it is due to a combination of low energy, stress, and (if I’m being frank) tenuous mental health, and I wouldn’t be able to produce my best work if I attempted to tackle multiple projects simultaneously. Since the manuscript for The Owl and the Raven is positively massive (there are still over 100,000 words that remain to be edited and uploaded to the AO3 version), most of my long-term fic writing will be occupied with that story for the time being.

While this slower pace is deeply frustrating, I think it’s the wiser, more sustainable option for me. However, I’m holding out hope that I’ll be able to finish my poor WIPs someday, even if it takes longer than originally anticipated. 🙏

[cangrellesteponme]

Maybe “you’re my favorite” for Sebagni? 🖤

so, thinking about this, i wanted fluff, but my brain hit me with character death and grief and shit (but not agni. never agni.) with like. so little sebagni here. so. if i wrote a short fic about this it'd be fairly simple:

(one rambly semi-narrated idea with bad dialogue, coming right up!)

Imagine one of those "everything goes smoothly contrary to the intense and unbearable pain of canon" AUs. Sebastian still ends up eating our favourite blue boy's soul, but their relationship was just overall better because this version of Seb is not as much of a dick. The secret twin drama resolves itself WITH NO DEATHS and everyone lives a nice little life, vengeance is achieved, contracts are fulfilled, souls are consumed, all that good stuff.

Even years later, Sebastian keeps his current name and appearance ("Just for a moment," he probably says, "I liked that one, so there's no need to leave it behind, yet.") and settles down with the greatest man and softest husband, Agni, in the cliché little house everyone imagines when they think of calm, happy days, away from the troubles of a conflicted life. They're the grossly smitten couple that never moves past the honeymoon phase, even though their version of it is not endless passion, but more of a consistent, certain and reliable kind of love. Overall adorable, as these two are.

Their daily life is all the nice shit you could ever imagine. Soma visits on (most) weekends, they get to be annoying parents with him, and it's great. Really. Even though it does, sometimes, remind Sebastian of another young boy he had gotten used to caring for, and of how empty the house can feel, and of how much he misses days that were less peaceful, less pleasant, and other things he can't find the words for because he never bothered to think about it when the brat was still alive. Because yes, all of this is nice, but grief isn't something that ever goes away when you're not even used to loving things enough to miss them when they're gone.

(also i love making characters suffer in ways they cannot ever fix. i'm mean like that.)

So the routine has one more step. Regular visits to the Phantomhive manor, and to the neat little stone in what i assume would be a backyard-turned-graveyard (or is it cemetary... i do not know), become a thing.

(and this is where we get ridiculously dramatic and mostly one-sided dialogue! agni is my fave but i never let him say a word istg, my man's a dearly beloved plot device)

During one particular visit, Agni notices that his trash demon's eyes simply won't leave the building, rather than the gravestone, which is unusual. (or as unusual as it can be, considering that there's no real habit here, since the only thing these visits have in common is that they're definitely not fun! like, not fun at all. agni's out there being a supportive husband but this is depressing as fuck)

(anyway basically he's like, "what's up" and seb is like *dramatic pause* bc he's just Like That and eventually he actually opens his damn mouth)

"Human life is so ridiculously fragile," he starts, and his tone is so casual it makes it sound like a boring scientific fact that has no incidence on actual people's lives, "I should know better than to let it affect me. Yet so many of them have. And most of them belong, or belonged in that manor."

"Most of them?"

"Not all of them, obviously. Don't you know?"

(and here we would have some comment about seb's completely ridiculous tendency to be the sassiest little bitch at the worst possible times, and about how that cheeky little "don't you know?" is not as ckeey as it should be, actually, and agni thinks he kind of looks like he's about to turn into a sobbing mess right then and there, even though he knows demons can't cry, but before he gets to voice any of that concern, seb decides to hit him with more dramatic dialogue.)

"You're my favourite. And I think you will always hold that title, as a boring old man, or as worthlessly precious ashes on a shelf," he rushes through some of the words, taken by an uncharacteristic agitation, hands held out in front of him in some meaningless gesture, "and even just as you, right now, listening to me like you always do, because for some odd reason you still love me."

"And I'll love you forever."

It's all Agni says, because sometimes people only need someone to listen and to remind them of simple things to soothe complex pains.

(he's a saint and i love him)

"I don't doubt that you will."

(and seb will definitely love his sweet husband because that man. that man. and he's the only person he hasn't failed to care for, have a nice day)

[silverware-and-glasses]

Missing You (SebAgni)

Chapters: 1/1 

Rating: Explicit (Seb takes matters into his own hands if you know what I mean)

Relationships: Agni/Sebastian Michaelis 

Characters: Sebastian Michaelis, Agni (Kuroshitsuji) 

Summary:

Whenever Sebastian has to leave London, Agni's absence weighs down on him in the long, empty nights. Alone with nothing but his imagination, Sebastian tries to make his own company.

Full fic under the cut or on Ao3:

The hardest thing about being back at the main household was the lack of Agni. Sebastian found he didn’t know what to do with himself. Once his master was in bed and his daily duties were finished there were hours of empty time bleakly blotting his schedule. At the London manor Sebastian had no issue filling these empty hours. Agni was there. He could talk to Agni, hold him, lie by his side as he drifted off to sleep. In fact, in London Agni filled Sebastian as often as he filled Sebastian’s time. The thought caused a wry smile to cross Sebastian’s face, unseen by all but the night.

Here in the main household he was alone. Sebastian had never equated being alone to being lonely, but without Agni the silence was less pleasurable than it had once been. He felt that there was something missing.

And he was pent-up.

He hated to admit it, even to himself, but Sebastian had adjusted himself to a certain lifestyle with Agni around, one that granted him satisfaction every evening and—if Agni was up for it—during stolen moments throughout the day. Sebastian didn’t like to dwell on the absence of pleasure. It made him feel needy, and feeling needy made him feel human. However, he couldn’t deny that he felt Agni’s absence. Especially at night, when lying alone on his bed with nothing to do made Sebastian’s thoughts spiral into places they never dared explore before.

What would he do if Agni was there? He wouldn’t give him a moment to speak, that was for certain. If Agni happened to walk in the room that moment Sebastian would drag him to bed, and ravish him. He’d pin him down and strip him of every last scrap of clothing that blocked his view of Agni’s perfect body, and sink onto his warm, pulsating flesh before either of them could have a moment to process the situation. They’d both come too quickly, desperate from their long absence, but that was fine. It would only draw out their next round, and the indescribable pleasure that would—

Sebastian clenched his legs together and rolled to his side, trembling all over. His body was aflame, as though Agni really had been there touching him. At some point his breathing had become rugged. He let his hand fall between his legs, barely daring to face what he was about to find. And there it was. Sebastian let out a groan of humiliation at the realisation that thoughts alone could make him like this. Agni was ruining him.

There were two ways he could deal with this problem. He could leave it and wait for it to go away. The idea of pleasuring himself, debasing himself, conflicted entirely with Sebastian’s sensibilities. He could have anyone, why would he settle for his own hands? But he was already too far gone for that. The idea of denying himself was more than he could bear. There wasn't a choice, not really.

He tried not to think about what he was doing as his hand met his own flesh. He stroked along his length, squeezing his eyes shut and trying to conjure up the fantasy that left him in this writhing state. But now that pleasure was available to him the fantasy kept slipping away. He tried to picture Agni’s form, how his flesh felt against him, but all he felt was his hand. There was no wondrous life filling the room, only Sebastian’s static breathing.

It wasn’t going to work. Not like this. Sebastian rolled from his bed and crossed the room, flushing at the feeling of his erection on display, even though no one was there to see it. No. Because no one was there to see it. Alone he couldn’t pretend to himself that his weeping arousal was for his partner’s benefit. He had to face the fact that there were parts of him he could no longer control.

He kept a drawer in his room filled with a few of Agni’s effects. An undershirt; some trinkets; a bottle of the oil he used on his hair: bits and pieces that had fallen into Sebastian’s possession after their shared nights together. He opened it now, sighing as the faintest scent of Agni drifted towards him.

He took the hair oil first and released a few droplets onto his hand, then breathed in deeply. Agni’s scent. Of course, there was so much more to the real Agni, from the particular flavours of his blood, to the lingering scent on his skin of the delicate soap he favoured. This was only one piece of that delightfully intricate puzzle. With his non-oily hand Sebastian gently ran his fingers over the soft cotton of Agni’s shirt. There was nothing remarkable about it; it was just an undershirt. An undershirt that had touched Agni. Sebastian pulled it out, held it to his chest and inhaled the ever fading scent of him. If Agni ever knew Sebastian was doing this he’d be disgusted. Sebastian knew that. He knew that. But he needed something to fill his emptiness, to plug up the void Agni had left in his absence.

Sebastian leaned against the wall and sank to the ground, shirt in one hand, oil in the other. For a moment he second guessed himself, hardly believing he was about to do this, but feelings spoke louder than thoughts. He closed his eyes once more and let his oil slicked hand find his cock, then buried his face in Agni’s shirt as though to conceal his humiliation. With his vision cut off, he was almost able to convince himself that the slick heat of his hand was Agni’s mouth, that the scent of the oil was only Agni’s hair. That Agni was really there.

He began to pump his length, curling in on himself and grunting into the shirt. The oil made his movements slick, each stroke more intense than the last. He groaned, but Agni’s shirt muffled the sound. He dove into the fantasy. This time it didn’t slip away. He felt himself trembling, slipping to the brink faster than he anticipated. Agni. It was Agni’s mouth around him. It was Agni he was feeling. It was Agni who had torn his mind to shreds.

When he finally came he stifled his cries, mouthing Agni’s name over and over into the waiting silence. He shuddered, his seed spilling between his fingers, then gradually slowed his movements, Agni’s name still swirling in his mind. Chest heaving, he dropped back against the wall, imagining that Agni was picking himself up between his legs. There was no one to see, so Sebastian vanished the mess with a lazy wave of his hand, but he imagined it was Agni cleaning him off, as sweet in his aftercare as he was in all other moments of their courting.  

Even then Sebastian didn’t move from his spot. Slumped against the wall, the very image of indecency, he hugged the shirt to his chest once more, just as Agni would have done to him if he were here. Sebastian was never usually one for cuddling, but in that brief moment he could see the appeal. Sebastian would have given anything to be in Agni’s arms again.

“I miss you,” he whispered aloud.

But the only answer was silence.

[questionablemorally]

Okay, I lied, I’m sorry. I’ve been trying to do something for a Sebagni fic but I genuinely have no energy…

Instead how about some more Sebagni HCs so I can make up for it? And I will get to ACTUALLY writing a modern au for them… eventually!

So, as always, here’s some HCs for the ship that has my heart currently - warning: this one contains nsfw under the cut.

Agni is a very affectionate person everywhere - he loves showering Sebastian with compliments and talking about him to everyone, and he’s a fan of PDA. However, Sebastian is a lot more reserved on this - he will absolutely speak well on Agni if he’s brought up in conversation, and he will lean into Agni’s touch, but he’s mainly affectionate in privacy, to maintain his aesthetic. He has no problem teasing the other in public, though.

They barely ever argue or disagree, as they have similar opinions on the things they normally talk about, and what Seb does disagree with Agni on, he is instead shown a new perspective that leaves him thinking more deeply about it.

Saying this, when they do argue (which, again, I couldn’t see them doing often. It would be a very rare and unfortunate occurrence), everyone notices how Agni is a lot more anxious and a little impatient, and Seb is a LOT more irritable and snappy.

Ciel and Soma are like their adopted children. Whenever the two get into trouble as kids do, Sebastian is the one they face lecturing from. Agni makes sure they are okay, but isn’t ever harsh on them, so Seb has to be strict for the both of them.

They are very protective over one another. Agni in the sense that he really cares for everyone in his life, and Seb in the sense that it’s ‘his human’. So if somebody insults/upsets one of them, they should watch their back.

As far as relationships in kuroshitsuji go, theirs is genuinely pretty healthy (or as healthy as it can be). I feel like if Agni did actually know Sebastian is a demon, he might be surprised, sure, but otherwise not really bothered about it. He is of the firm belief that anyone can change and be a good person - just as he did - so, even if Seb is a being of sin, he would still love and protect him.

One time, Soma flung the doors to Agni’s room open in the morning, and was shocked to see Sebastian sitting in Agni's bed, wrapped in his khansama's arms as they had been enjoying the early hours together. The prince may be young and energetic, but he wasn't about to separate the two - who he thought were so clearly soulmates - so he immediately apologised and left.

In terms of their sex life, Agni is really soft. He likes praising his partners, kissing them gently, taking his time, and I could see him doing body worship. Sebastian sometimes manages to convince Agni to be a bit more rough with him but, surprisingly (to himself too), he enjoys the praise a lot more than he’d expected...

Aftercare is Agni’s expertise. He tends to feel really guilty if Seb mentions any pain after their nights together, and is so sweet with him right afterwards - cuddling, bringing him water, cleaning them both up, immediately tending to any wounds… even just light bruises.

Agni loves it when Sebastian rides him. To him, it’s like the ideal position - facing each other, close proximity to allow for kisses or touches, etc. As soon as Seb learnt this, he also found out that, to get Agni flustered and heated quickly, he just had to straddle him. He uses this way too much, and it still works every time.

Sebastian doesn’t have many stand-out preferences, but there are a few that catch him off guard. One of these, Agni learnt, is fingering - especially while kissing. Seb prides himself on his physical self-control, so both were just a little concerned when he started shaking and gasping into the kiss. It also helps that Agni has his blessed right hand…

Last, quick one: Agni often cries in the act, and Seb finds this incredibly endearing.

That’s it for now, thank you for reading and I will write the modern au fic soon! Let me know me if you want it super sweet or angsty or nsfw etc. I don’t mind, I need to practise more lol.

[plague-of-insomnia]

I really wish there were more people who weren’t antis/assholes in the fandom rn who like some of the rare pairs like sebagni and sebard or Sebataker or sebawolf. Or even Lau or Vindee.

There’s almost no content for any of these ships anymore, and it’s so rare to see fan art for Bard or Wolf or Agni.

I haven’t been able to write in weeks and god damn could I use some content.

I really wish I liked more popular ships like sc or grelliam…. Like there’s less than a dozen fics this year for the ships I like, half are by antis or are one of those stupid combo fics, or their only a tiny side pair in a huge multi chap focused on another pairing. Or they were written by me, or @apocalypticromantic666, with only a very rare exception.

I just. It’s been disillusioning lately, bc while I feel like the SC part of the fandom has been more active lately, the rest of it is more dead than ever.

Honestly it feels like I’m the only one who ships any of these ships anymore…

Like even when I try to create content like headcanons and ideas no one interacts or reblogs, so it really does feel like welp. Guess it’s me and maybe one other person left who care about this ship/character.

It’s just…. Lonely.

😞

[plague-of-insomnia]

never tell me i can send u asks about kuro ill abuse that power :)

anyway thoughts on the canon sebastian & tanaka relationship?? i kinda see it as like a halfway father/son thing bc of the mentor/mentee relationship & seb actually respecting him

maybe also bc of fortius quo fidelius by Idonquixote

Hey, anon. I’ll confess I hadn’t given too much thought to their relationship before I got this ask. I have not read Idonquixote’s Seb/Tanaka fics (yet), but I am a huge fan of their sebard series and have read it a few times.

But this ask did inspire me to incorporate Tanaka into my new sebagni story, Synchronize. It’s not canon, so not directly in response to this ask, but in that fic, Tanaka is definitely a father/grandfather figure to Seb. He raised him and cares for him like his own child. I really adore their relationship in that story. (I’ll be posting the first chapter on AO3 soon, either today or maybe after Valentine’s Day so it’s not lost in the deluge lol.)

As for canon, I do think Tanaka is a very interesting character who isn’t talked about much. I suspect he’s not entirely human himself (how many old men can cut a bullet in half or easily flip a grown man twice his size and half his age?). And I’ve always thought that he knows a lot more than it may seem.

Like, I think he knew OC wasn’t “Ciel” and was truly glad to see he was alive, not bc he thought he was the heir but just bc he loved him and was relieved he had survived. I also think he knows that Sebastian isn’t just some butler. Whether he knows he’s not human or that he’s a demon, ofc I can’t say. But he definitely seems to have suspicions.

For example, when Seb comes back to life he doesn’t seem surprised, and even scoffs, “A Phantomhive butler dying before his master…unheard of” or something to that effect, but in a way that it’s like he was saying “yeah I know this whole thing was a setup.”

Even though I had not given it too much thought, I do think Sebastian does respect Tanaka as “the epitome of a butler” and as such has looked to him for advice and such. Even if he doesn’t always take it (like in the Green Witch arc), I think he acknowledges that Tanaka has served the Phantomhives well and loyally for years and that means something.

Since he’s a demon, I’m not sure if I could describe a relationship with anyone in familial terms bc I don’t think Seb would look at it that way. But I do think there aren’t many humans that have earned his respect, and I suspect Tanaka is one of them. I think part of why he knew he could be “dead” and unable to directly protect Ciel was because Tanaka would be there. Not only as protector but to keep the household running as well.

I think it’s also significant that Tanaka is the one who Seb will allow to do whatever while the other servants are always being yelled at.

Thanks for the ask, Anon. It was fun to think about. Im sorry I couldn’t respond sooner. At first it was bc I was genuinely taking time to process it and think and then bc life got in the way.

I don’t mind asks like this at all, so feel free to send any and I’ll respond when I can. (^_^)

[plague-of-insomnia]

WIP LIST GAME

rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

(Started a new post bc last one was long)

My energy levels have been abysmal due to my chronic illness getting worse (damn insurance), so I’m not able to write hardly at all, sadly. But these are my current and future projects:

I am so bad with titles so I almost never figure that out until the last minute so you’ll have to make do with working titles for most of these 😅.

Fan fic

Where Demons Hide (Sebaciel, et al, modern mafia au) - multichapter, currently at 10/?? chapters {priority #1} Read here.

The Promise AU (Sebard, modern AU) - multipart series of related oneshots; currently 3 published and 1-3 more are in the works Read here.

Deadly Nightshade (Sebaciel, slow burn coming of age mystery, set a few years after canon) - multichapter, currently at 5/?? chapters Read here.

Modern AU Eruri WIP (Not Kuro: AoT, Eruri, CEO Erwin and Personal Assistant Levi; Levi must convince Erwin to finally live for himself and not his guilt and others’ expectations) - not yet published; planning stage, probably ~5 chapters

Mute Sebastian WIP (Sebagni, slow burn modern au with a mute sebastian and an ASL interpreter Agni) - not yet published, planned, 1 ch partly written; probably ~5-10 chapters

Canon Sebard WIP (Sebard, enemies to lovers, showing the development of their relationship from their meeting to the present of the manga) - not yet published (except some ficlets); planning stage

Dadbastian Crack (Sebaciel, enemies to lovers; Sebastian is a successful—if eccentric— YouTuber who dresses his cats in elaborate Victorian costumes and serves them as their butler. Ciel has business with him, even if he’s convinced Sebastian’s nuts) - not yet published; partly written; probably a oneshot

Artist Sebastian (Sebardagni, Sebagni, Bardagni, enemies to lovers; mafia au/bodyguard au; epileptic Sebastian) - Sebastian is a reclusive artist famous for his disturbing oil paintings, but FBI agent Bard is suspicious he’s involved with his brother Claude’s drug business and goes undercover to find out, joining his security team. But Seb doesn’t trust easily, only allowing Agni—his personal bodyguard—close, not making the job easy... It doesn’t help that Claude is still obsessed with his little brother and wants him for himself... - not yet published; in planning stages

Maneater (Sebard(Agni), enemies to... well, still enemies, but they fuck; demon incubus Sebastian and corrupt cop Bard) - ch 2 written but needs revision {taken over from @chromehoplite } Read here.

Undertaker’s Tales of Terror - intended to be a series of spooky tales, but I’ve only been able to write one so far (“The Cabin”). I have ideas for plenty more, but don’t know when I’ll be able to write them

Sequels to existing oneshots: like “Haunted & Horny” (Sebardciel) and “Voyeur,” (Sebard) I plan to write a second fic for each of these eventually.

I also have a lot of other ideas that are in the deep freezer, like a few crossovers (Pet Shop of Horrors, Kamisama Kiss) and Bard as a 40s defective that I hope to someday bring to life, but they may sadly never happen...

OW - only listing my most active priorities atm

In/Exhale: S4 - Continues where S3 left off. Kai is forced to deal with the possibility of life without his brother, and managing his mental illness crisis amidst it all. Does he choose himself or his brother/family? {delayed} Read (S1) here.

Love UnSeen - M/M romance with blind history professor MC and photographer/HS art teacher love interest set in New Orleans amidst a mystery involving the MC’s father and his family Mardi Gras Krewe {~50% written, first draft; on hold for now}

Thank you @wicked-game-black-butler and @princeofdarkness00 for the tag. I tag:

...it’s been so long, anyone can do this! Maybe @cielpansyhive and @aralezinspace and anyone else interested!

Also, feel free to send me asks about any of these any time...! I know I can be slow to respond as my energy levels are so low, but I will when I’m able :). I love seeing people excited about my writing...!

[plague-of-insomnia]

I'm intrigued in this SebAgni idea! I was wondering how mute is Seb? Is he completely (no sounds) or just non-speaking? Is it physical or due to mental/emotional reasons? How do they meet each other? Also cause of sinday, any naughty headcanons? I don't know how much you have for this AU yet, but I'm just really excited! 💖💖💖

First of all I can’t tell you how thrilled I was to get this ask!! I mention mute Seb and most people are just like 🤷🏻. 😂 As far as I know, there are only 2 fics on AO3 with a mute Seb!! 😭

(I think I’ll go ahead and answer this ask in 2 parts, so this one will cover the mute Seb ask and the next will cover the sin.day one.)

So I recently read an old Kuro fic I had never read before that had a mute Seb, and it reminded me of an old abandoned OW WIP of mine with a mute character I loved. I re-read the chapters I had written and knew I wanted to resurrect it somehow.

The more I thought about it, the more I saw Sebagni in it, and once that happened, I was like “omg I wanna read this!!” (Followed by the realization that I have to write it first. 😅)

How mute is Seb?

So I’m changing a lot from the original, but this Seb is mute due to an accident that caused his vocal chords to be paralyzed on one side. This means he can’t make any sounds with them, and it also affects his ability to eat and cough (and thus, his breathing if he isn’t careful).

As of right now, I’m thinking he was injured about 10 years ago, so he was born hearing and speaking but now can’t talk. I think he’s probably gonna be like 26-28 in the present of the story, so he was around 16 when he was hurt.

Since then, he’s adjusted—he communicates with ASL, pre-made cards with key words/phrases he always carries with him, pen and paper, or texting/email. He also has an app on his phone that will speak the text he writes, but that isn’t is preferred method. When necessary, he uses video relay for phone calls (he signs and an interpreter voices for him for the other person), but he avoids that as much as possible.

Though he’s “silent,” he can make sounds without his vocal chords, like clicking his tongue, clapping or snapping his fingers. His breathing can also sometimes be a little “loud” since his chords don’t work right, so it can sometimes make people think he’s asthmatic when he’s not.

He’s become very expressive (he already was before he was hurt and now even more so).

He only eats liquids bc he can manage swallowing them easier, but it also means he’s shy about eating around other people/going out to eat with others bc his diet and how he has to swallow (he has to tuck his chin to his chest) are so different from everyone else.

How do they meet?

As of now, Agni is a CODA (someone whose parents were Deaf, and used sign language as their primary means of communication) and an interpreter, so he travels all over the city interpreting for various Deaf people in different situations, and is very active in the Deaf community. He’s very outgoing and amiable so everyone knows him and likes him.

Seb is new to the area (it will likely be set in Houston but I’m not sure yet) and decides that he needs to meet people he can easily communicate with so he goes to a Deaf social, and that’s where he meets Agni, who immediately recognizes him as a newbie and introduces himself.

I think that Seb (who works in IT) will end up doing some work for the agency/relay operator where Agni works, and Agni ends up inviting him to his house for a game night, sort of forcing Seb to accept. (It helps that Agni is hot af and Seb has been lonely for awhile, for reasons...)

So they’re both a little dorky... Seb is probably gonna be very “adorkable” in this story bc I love characters/people like that, lol.

Anyway, I hope that answers your questions!!! My hope is to make this a short multichap around 9-15 chapters and actually pre-plan the basic story skeleton before I start (though I just wanna get to writing). That’s not how I usually work and I haven’t had much success with it before but I’m also tired of having a ton of half finished novels that I’m not sure how to finish!

If anyone else has any questions about this story, I would love to hear them!

I know this is an obscure idea and a ship that isn’t super popular at that, but I’m very excited about this and I would love to answer more questions as I start fleshing the story out!

[grelleswife]

Sebagni for the meme?

When I started shipping it if I did: After reading Godspeed and Reasonable Expectations by liketolaugh. These beautiful fics made me realize that I'd been sleeping on this OTP, and now it's one of my favorites. My thoughts: Like other beloved OTPs of mine (Nezushi, Vanoe), the relationship is characterized by balance, a mingling of darkness and light. The upright man with a sinful past and the devious demon masquerading as an elegant butler...they're like yin and yang, opposing yet equally matched. Together, they form a harmonious whole. What makes me happy about them: How (in AUs where Sebastian is capable of love) the relationship is stable, healthy, and founded on mutual respect and admiration. And how, just maybe, Agni can guide Seb down the path to being a better person. What makes me sad about them: YANA DID AGNI SO DIRTY!!!! TwT Things done in fanfic that annoy me: You don't see this too often in the handful of Sebagni fics out there, but scenarios that are excessively kinky. I have no objections to that in general, but I just don't think it works well with this specific OTP. Since Agni's a softhearted, loving soul, I can't imagine him going all "50 Shades" on Sebastian, even if that's what the demon wanted. XD Things I look for in fanfic: Agni lives, fluff, Sebastian bottoms, more fluff Who I'd be comfortable with them ending up with, if not each other: I don't have any other Agni OTPs at this time (he and Bassy were made for each other). For the trash demon, Sebagrelle, Sebamey, Sebard, Sebwolf, etc. are all possibilities! My happily ever after for them: Knife dude? Who's that? Never heard of him. Sebastian stays on after consuming O!Ciel's soul and lives with Agni for the duration of his husband's mortal lifespan. Through supernatural means (*coughs* Grelle calls in some favors at the dispatch) Agni is reincarnated indefinitely, so the demon never has to say goodbye forever. <3 Who is the big spoon/little spoon: Agni's the big spoon! Sebastian adores being cuddled. What is their favorite non-sexual activity: Cooking together. Sebastian normally finds humans a hindrance in the kitchen, but working alongside Agni is one of his greatest pleasures.

[grelleswife]

Ooo ooo any Agni headcanons?? ;w;

Absolutely! Some of these are going to be a be a bit shippy since I’ve been planning for my Sebagni fic.

Agni’s hands get cold fairly easily, so he wears mittens or gloves most of the time when it’s winter. He also loves wearing scarves. This is great news for Sebastian, who has ample excuses to engage in Very Platonic Touching (i.e. hand-holding and ”let me fix your scarf, dear” situations).

Is an excellent ice skater.

Enjoys stargazing. Will sometimes sit outside, Sebastian resting his head on his chest. They swap stories about the different constellations from their respective cultures.

Becomes extremely emotional (moved to the point of tears) around cute baby animals.

Amazing dancer. Sebastian teaches him how to waltz, and the trash demon promptly falls even more in love with him when he sees just how good Agni is.

Can make do with relatively little sleep. Occasionally has nightmares about his past. Sebastian will cuddle with him until he goes back to sleep.

Carves little wooden elephants, which he’ll give out as trinkets to people. Each one has a unique design. He makes special ones for Sebastian in celebration of certain holidays or milestones in their relationship. Sebas tries to act like they’re not a big deal, but they’re treasured possessions, and he keeps them carefully arranged on his nightstand.

Thanks for the ask! :3

[grelleswife]

Writer Asks

Tagged by: @lawliet-imagines Thanks so much for the mention!

Author name: I'm still grelleswife over on AO3. Very creative, I know. :D

Fandoms you write for: Primarily Kuroshitsuji, but I also recently wrote a Death Note drabble and would like to write more content for the Death Note ladies. Still have a BSD request I need to get to, and I'd love to write for Vanitas no Carte at some point!

Where you post:  AO3. I usually include links to my fics on Tumblr, as well.

Most popular oneshot:  If we’re going by number of kudos, that would be my Sebagrelle oneshot Mending.

Most popular multichap: My Sebagni fic, Metanoia

Favourite story: Oh dang...maybe my Grellefellows fic Ar Hyd Y Nos. It’s very special to me. <3

Story you were most nervous to post: Probably my Grellefellows fic The Battleground. Although I can be rather shameless, I’m often a little shy about pressing post on more “adult” works. XD

How you pick your titles: It depends, to be honest. Sometimes, a title will make itself apparent almost as soon as I start writing (or even before then), which was the case with A certain je ne sais quoi, Measure for Measure, Le toucher, and Embers, to name just a few. In other cases, I have to really wrack my brains to come up with a fitting title. For example, I was initially going to call Metanoia “Chiaroscuro” to reflect the way Sebastian’s and Agni’s relationship is a melding of darkness and light. The more I thought about it, though, I realized that I wanted the title to reflect how Agni’s love transforms the demon, and the Greek Orthodox concept of “metanoia” fit beautifully! Chiaroscuro eventually became the title for Chapter 1.

I don’t have a hard and fast rule for chapter titles, though I try to stick to a certain pattern within a work. For example, the Rosethorn chapters have more ornate titles (”The Queen’s Seal,” “Silver Masks and Solemn Oaths”). For Metanoia, on the other hand, it felt right to use single words; maybe to emphasize the concepts of union and wholeness?

Do you outline?  Yes, but mostly in my head, and I will occasionally shuffle the order of events if the characters take me in that direction. In the actual Word docs for my multichaps, I have very skeletal outlines indicating the sequence of events-- though, again, this is subject to change during the writing process, and I often fill in the blanks as I go. For example, the Metanoia outline currently looks like this:

Bard and other servants figure out something is going on (Sebastian and Agni ain’t slick)

Ask for masters’ permission (O!Ciel is a little snarkmeister and says that Agni has his “deepest sympathy”)

Agni and Soma stay at townhouse while everyone else returns to the estate. Massive amounts of pining ensue. Poor Sebastian doesn’t know what’s happened to him. :(

Reunion. Yay!

Some sort of autumn date (Scarf/gentle touching)

Need to work in murder arc at some point

Agni accidentally burns Sebastian with his blessed hand

Waltz. There has to be a waltz. Seeing Agni in a suit kills Sebastian dead.

Jealous Sebastian?

 Rings

So, as you can see, very minimalist compared to the finished product!

Complete stories:  40 one shots (please don’t judge, y’all; I’m just a sad girl with a special interest)

In Progress:  3 multichaps (Metanoia, Rosethorn, and Coffee and Kismet) + a ridiculous number of ideas for future oneshots and multichaps!

Coming Soon: Your guess is as good as mine. XD Hopefully a Halle x Kiyomi coffee break/date for a request, then Chapter 4 of Metanioa, then the BSD request. Can’t make promises about the timeline for that, though. D:

Prompts: Feel free! I already have several stored away, but I’m a masochist who will happily accept more.

Upcoming story you are most excited for: I’m really hyped for the works I’ve started to plan for @cosmic--lion ‘s platonic Sebastian and Ciel week. UwU

I’m also excited about the Sebagrelle roleswap AU and the Fembastian requests some of you sent me!

Five authors: Only if you want to, of course! @red-butler @deadly-safety-scissors @weywyrdsis @bemused-writer @misas-biggest-fan

[grelleswife]

1 for the writer asks? ♥

Of the fics you've written, which was your favorite and why?

Arrrg...A lot of passion goes into all my fics, so it's hard to pick just one, but my top three would be:

Ar Hyd Y Nos, because it features Hannah comforting Grelle and showing her the love and kindness that she so desperately needs.

Mending, because it gave me an opportunity to explore how Sebastian might process guilt after accidentally hurting someone he loves (Grelle). I also feel that I used my prose more efficiently than usual and was able to capture Sebas's emotional state without becoming too florid (a constant struggle for your local pretentious writer!)

Metanoia, because writing it fills my heart with sunbeams. Sebagni has the potential to be such a beautiful, tender OTP, and I'd like to think I actually capture a hint of that in this fic. Working on it (even just "daydream planning") is therapeutic for me.

Thanks for the ask!