#even got myself a sona so they could have something to draw for me

[chelledoggo]

I AM GOING TO FUCKING VOMIT FOR REAL I FEEL SO VIOLATED

CW: fetish farming, gaslighting

i've been completely and utterly betrayed and dehumanized by someone i considered a friend and now i'm going to be sick...

so i had this "friend," we'll call them "D."

"D" never really struck me as hostile or predatory. however, they did commission me a lot to draw genderbent verisons of my own fursona.

and at the time i didn't say anything because he wasn't requesting anything pornographic, or like a "transformation" sequence or anything.

but i still felt... kinda weird? like... this felt like something vaguely fetishy, but i didn't want to assume. after all, i know what it's like to have a weird special interest that could be misinterpreted as a fetish/kink (non-erotic hypnosis).

but i obliged with their requests. i just assumed i'd been overthinking things.

today i got a message from a long-time friend of mine, who we'll call "A."

"A" told me that "D" had been acting really weird towards them and their partner (i'll call them "J")

"A" sent me this screenshot of a message "D" had sent to "J"

my response:

now i'm thoroughly pissed at this point and decided to confront "D" about this myself.

"D" started trying to gaslight me and claim that the screenshot was "faked." like... their condescending and defensive tone says it all.

naturally, i blocked him. i was so done.

i went back to "A" and told them about "D's" response.

God just...

i feel so dehumanized. like who the fuck can i even trust anymore?

i'm so sick...

needless to say i'm gonna be a lot more discerning when vetting commission requests from now on. if i get the feeling this might be fuelling a fetish for the requester, i reserve the right to decline... ESPECIALLY if it involves my sona or one of my OCs.

AND FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DON'T FUCKING COMMISSION ART OF OTHER PEOPLES' OCS WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION, UNLESS YOU'RE A FRIEND OF THEIRS AND YOU'RE SPECIFICALLY REQUESTING A GIFT FOR THEM!!!!

UGHHHHHH

UPDATE: OH WOW COOL THEY'RE STILL TRYING TO HARRASS AND GASLIGHT ME ON TUMBLR!!!

LEAVE ME ALONE YOU FUCKING PSYCHO!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kredenakrejn]

Last update: 03d.02m.25y.

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My name here is Kredena or Krejn I love nicknames too :3

Multifandom artist Mostly UTMV stuff for now But I also like: RotTMNT, LMK, HelluvaVerse, MLP, Tadc and many more!

B-Day on 13 of April

She / They

I am Aroace (Aromatic / Asexual) Maybe a bit Pan and Demiromatic too..? 'Am not sure

I will die / bite for my friends (they are like a family to me.)

Sometimes I use "we" but I am just one person here It's just sometimes more comfortable to write like that

I sometimes have problems with knowing what emotions I feel at the moment I sometimes over-react just to be silly Or sometimes I just feel empty

I work at McDonalds (save me) on Monday, Wednesday, Friday and every other Sunday

No problem with saying stuff about myself, just someone needs to ask

✦ Boundaries

If I say "I love you" I don't say it in a romantic way I only say it in a platonic way. So don't you dare think 'am flirting with you.

DO NOT USE OR REPOST MY ART ANYWHERE You may reblog it (some people think it's the same as reposting, but it's not.) You may use it if it was a gift for you You may use it if you asked me before that (but you NEED to credit me.)

If something is not clear about me Plz just ask I get sad when people just assume stuff about me

Plz do not use any images, gifs, or videos with smol children, when you talk with me They just disgust me, I can't help it

If you gonna hurt even one of my friends, you gonna have a bad time buddy.

Plz, don't add ship tags when there is none of 'em on the original post

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Before donating, plz note:

I have work, so I will not be able to draw the same secound you send me a donation, but I will draw something for you! (Just tell me what, in my DM's on Ko-Fi)

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Yes I am kredenadark Some may be curious why I will no longer be active there Well, my old discord account got hacked, tho I was able to buy my data back (*cries*) I did not feel safe on my old accounts, so I decided to make new ones where I could, or change every emile and password I had I tried to recover form my old blog whatever I could, for some time, I will be just rebloging my old stuff, so I will not lose it too Becouse of the fact that before re-instalating my windows, I saved my files on the pendrive the wrong way, all the stuff from my laptop is gone, so all my WIP's are lost, sorry, I was not able to show them to you

[hattiestgal]

What led to your furry awakening?

Ooh, this is actually something that happened in two parts!

So- this was around the time of when I was making a youtube channel as a kid. My brother was having his furry awakening at the time for one reason or another, and being as close as we were, I wanted in. There were definitely things I didn't realize at the time as to why furries as a whole were clicking with me so much, but it just felt fun (and... right) to draw silly animal creatures! Especially having a fursona made me happy.

I think another reason I enjoyed it so much is that it sorta just felt like a thing where you could be... you, y'know? I saw the furry youtubers my brother was watching at the time, and it was one of the first times I had seen an openly gay person beyond overdramatizations of those folks on tv. And even beyond that, these were folks who wanted to portray themselves as animals! They'd talk about being bullied and the likes, but still holding onto their identities regardless.. it was very inspiring.

That is until I hit a pretty dark period in my life. I won't go into the specifics here, but there was a lotta tension and trouble among my family at the time, and then later my entire life as a whole was uprooted and moved away, and well... I sorta just felt like I had to become a featureless mannequin for a while. I didn't wanna worry anyone by being anything other than as approachable as possible, no matter what. Especially as my minor attempts at expressing myself got shut down, things.. got put on the back burner for a long time.

It was only a few years back when everything finally clicked again. Deltarune had been out for a little while, and I had finally gotten some exposure to it at a friends house. I was an undertale kid when I was younger- obsessed with the game, and it's fandom for the longest time- so it just reawoke something in me. Seeing toby's writing again, the complete lack of fear to depict characters that drastically went against gender roles, characters who were gay, the whole big deal. And a good deal of em were silly animals! When chapter two came out, I was neck deep in the games fandom for a long while. I was drawing fanart, looking at others' interpretation of the story at hand, started reading fanfiction, and it all just clicked again.

Soon, I took a dip back into drawing regular old furry art again, inspired by my friends asking me to make a snake thief character, which eventually turned into my first sona after so many years.. Sydney.

Not only did this goofball help solifidy a lot of my still VERY developing queer identity at the time-

But it led to me making this little shit >:3

[mantabanter]

Martch 1: self portrait

Reflection and thoughts down below!

I enjoyed doing this. I dont really have a "sona" that I've actually stuck to for the past couple years, which is strange cuz I was very committed to having one when I was younger! Oh well. I decided to try and do something that symbolized me, but the concept ended up too wavy and... nothingy. I find that happens when I try and rely on my head too much to draw. I'm discovering more of the joy of transformational art, as in, mixing real life and imagination rather than feeling like I have to rely on imagination only. Incorporating real life still feels like cheating.

So anyway, I thought, whats more me than me right now? And so I took a picture of myself for reference and just added some more conceptual bits on top. SO no, my signature earrings and my leather jacket and the rest of the bits and bobs I usually think of as aspects of my external personality didn't all make it. But it is me, a version of me, a softer and low effort version of me, which I'll take. Using the colours from the pictures was also funny, because my hair is actually blond right now, but the lighting was so sparse that it just turned out dark again.

For the more conceptual bits, the wolf ears are deeply symbolic of my lone wolf nature and-- haha no thats bullshit I just like wolves. As you'll notice I also have vampire bites on my neck because -- i like vampires too. The skeleton hand I thought looked kinda cool and also my hands been hurting a lot lately and I hate drawing hands. The shirt is a new sweater I got recently. It kinda looks like the lesbian flag and the trans flag had a baby, and was born jumbled with all the colours out of order.

In other self portraits I might have added a bunch of little pins or bubbles to mind map out all my little identity markers - queer flags, age, personality type, random bullshit like zodiacs that i dont even care about - but I think I'm moving away from that kind of thing lately. The concept of the self is more murky than that, and while that kind of clarity brought me comfort once, I've since found it limiting. There are a million versions of me. This gets to be one of them, and thats enough. What it shows and what it conceals is all circumstantial today. I could even argue its a bit uncomfortable because I drew myself more feminine than I would have liked - but theres something in me that responds to it and so I think I'll go with it despite my discomfort. My femininity is apart of me whether I like it or not, and I am determined to like it one day.

Anyway. That's me today. And probably me tomorrow. But probably not me a week from now.

[ofironandivory]

I want to know more about your non main f/os!!

Hi hi nonny!!

Ooooh, there's so many fun ones to talk about, but I feel like it's a good time to showcase my other soulmates, since I've been so focused on Viktor and a few others throughout this blog's existence (⁠〃ﾟ⁠3ﾟ⁠〃⁠)

Fair warning: this will sound very emotional and personal because each of these characters are very important to me and helped me out through some complicated parts of my life

Zuko was one of my first ficto crushes, but I was very little when I first fell for him, so I had no clue about selfshipping and I wasn't even able to draw properly just yet!

I wasn't always able to watch the episodes in order and I remember being VERY confused when he suddenly showed up with a head full of hair instead of his usual hairdo, but that just made me like him more XD

I remember spending most of my free time just daydreaming about him teaching me how to firebend and protecting me from the mean kids at school!

Zebruh was the one who introduced me to the selfship community, back in 2018! At first I was just keeping an eye out because Homestuck had risen from it's grave because of Hiveswap and Friendsim, but when I decided to check FS for myself I was immediately obsessed with this awful, awful, scumbag of a troll

Since the game was releasing new content, the fandom was extremely active and most people absolutely HATED Zebruh... It was a wild time for me, because I would make posts simping for him and having two types of people show up in my inbox:

OMG have you heard of selfshipping? There's a whole community that loves characters n stuff, just like you love Zeb! By the way, y'all are my OTP!

How can you like a disgusting piece of shit like Zebruh? You're an abuse apologist, I hope you die

So there were straight up just Zebruh antis, it was so bad that I remember a few call outs made about me by some very popular accounts, at the time, warning people about me for selfshipping with him lol

On one hand, it was a very stressful thing and since I was still a teen I was horrified whenever I found out I was blocked by someone, or I'd get really hurt when I received hate about something that made me so happy... On the other hand I met some awesome people and had a blast for a very long time!

My other blog, that focuses on him and my sona, still exists! Primarily for memes now, but it got SO MUCH BIGGER than what I had planned that I just enjoy keeping it around for fun and for the nostalgia of it all!

Zebby got me through some really rough shit and everything about him still brings me comfort, and when I feel like no one else cares about me, I know he does. And I have the reminder etched into my skin, forever looking out for me

Tadano is honestly the main reason I even survived getting out of my old house... I was pretty much raised to be my family's therapist since I was a toddler and it genuinely took me YEARS to make my mom realize that my father was a piece of shit and that we had to get out of that place.

When they finally decided to divorce, Aggretsuko season two had just come out, and it was one of the only things that helped me keep my sanity, honestly.. School was stressful as hell and coming home was even worse for so many reasons... My only escape was getting to watch that silly show with my mom after she got home from work.

When I first saw him it felt like life regained all the color it lost throughout the years, not even exaggerating. I rewatched all the scenes he was in multiple times, both in English and in Portuguese, just so I could hear his voice over and over again

Devil Jin is another childhood F/O! I got into Tekken 3 when I was super small and I've loved the franchise ever since, especially because of Devil Jin!

I've always been a maladaptive daydreamer and I remember going through the ringtones of my flip phone on the bus ride to school and just coming up with random scenarios of him and me

As silly as it may sound, I'm pretty sure that's what made way for me to use music and daydreaming to come up with my self inserts, original characters, universes, selfship lores and everything else! He sparked my creative force and it genuinely means the world to me

Yoosung showed up for me when I was struggling with an eating disorder and neglect from my father. My mom would work after I got home from school and I was obsessed with my appearance in the worst way possible...

I was making myself fade away and over exercising to the point where it constantly felt like I was about to faint. My old house was 2.5 kilometers away from the town center, and one day when I was walking to the gym (my father refused to drive me), I got robbed.

I was very disoriented and just rushed anywhere where I could call for help. A lot of awful things happened that day, but later on I got a new phone, and Mystic Messenger was at the peak of its popularity, so I decided to give it a shot, since I was very scared to leave the house.

Needless to say the game had me in a chokehold and I fell for Yoosung almost immediately. The way he would talk, the little reminders to eat and the calls with him gave me a reason to keep going when I felt like I was at my lowest.

He's the reason I beat my eating disorder AND the reason I have my sideways bangs, as a little tribute to the game's MC!

Nathaniel was responsible for my obsession with dating sims and visual novels! Certain fandoms are way more popular here than they are in the US; like Static Shock, Everybody Hates Chris and My Candy Love!

I got very invested in the game, to the point where I'd even spend some of my allowance on action points for it! I was very dedicated to him, he was the only character I would romance and I had all of his CGs!

I kept up with the game for years, but as the prices got less manageable, the community got more toxic and the characters and story changed while I wasn't around, the spark for the game slowly faded.

I never fell out of love with Nath and I honestly feel very nostalgic whenever I look at his CGs, oldest to newest!

[dia-smthidk]

So hiiii Diaaa!! IM the anon that dropped Sethe lore and I wanted to know something about the mafia thing Thats going on, what is your mafia about? (if I can explain myself well)

I mean, if its an organized crime, sure thing all your sonas are enough CAOTIC to Just make caos and destrucion because ✨yes✨, but you (as the mafia boss) must setle WHAT is the thing you do that is ilegal.

Assuming this mafia thingamajick happens in the 1920's, the golden era of animation and mafias, here are your options:

1- Alcohol traficking: With the Drougth law (a law prohibiting alcohol and its sale), a large part of the mafias took advantage of it to illegally sell alcohol, (which was relatively easy to get and make) and create speakeasies where they sold their alcohol and played music. The pros of this is that ALL kinds of people were involved, from the neighborhood rat to the puritanical politician, so you had them all tied up so that no one would talk about it too much. The cons are that, being the most well-known crime of that era, it was much more likely to turn the Police against you, plus it's an easy crime to charge.

2- Money laundering: A crime so popular that even now it is still being done. Although I don't know its mechanisms, you are all artists, so copying Ben Frankling face and printing it can't be more difficult than drawing Pomni demogorgon, or Corrupted Gangle. The pros are that it's easy, it's hard to identify (if you do it right), and that it has a lot of facades that are very easy to put up (e.g. the classic laundromat). The cons are that if you don't do it right, you're going to get caught right away and it got some REALLY hard punishment.

3- Drug dealing: This is one of the most popular crimes where I live in (if you can guess ;). Easy to do (growing marijuana or tobacco is ridiculously easy, trust me I have experience) this is one of the must-haves for beginner mafias. The pros are that, by making your clients addicted, no one is going to talk at all. The Cons are that (just like alcohol trafficking) it's super wanted, and there are entire institutions after you.

4- Cabarets & Pleasure Houses: *sigh* Do I really have to put this guys? (Yes, we're paying you for this!) As you can imagine, these are houses where people offer their "services", which are usually sexual. I don't want to say anything else, but technically it's legal in many countries and it's almost the same as with drug trafficking and addiction, no one wants to snitch. The Cons are, by having lots of workers, there are more probabilities that some one It's going to talk.

5- Hitmen: Although not very accessible to the common human, it produces far more profit than the rest of the crimes on this list. The pros are that your sonas are so violent and strong that they will clean the floor with the other shoddy killers. The Cons is that if your agency's existence is publicly known, you screwed up.

6- Trafficking in favors: The very foundation of the mafias, this "trafficking" consists of: You, a poor person, want to pay for your university or get a job, or whatever. This kind and wealthy mafia offers you money, help, or whatever you need, in exchange for you returning the favor in a while. The favor you return may be to give money, asylum, weapons, sell what your mafia sells, or not tell the police that the money your community uses is fake. And so, the rest of the poor people, taking pity on their own friend, don't speak out to protect and help him, and just like that, you, the mafia, become untouchable. You already know the pros, and the Cons is that, if some foreigners who doesent have debts to pay tries to do something, Maybe, just Maybe, they could defeat you (in a VERY unlikely scenario)

So, tthese are the options! What do you want your Majesty? Its up to you to decide! If this is a question already answered Im really really Sorry for Messing with you. And if your mafia happens in the actual times, you still can use all of them (except the alcohol traficking)

Goodbye, and good crimes!

I’m really busy at the moment so uh-

I’ll look over these in my freetime 👍

[thepaintedsable]

Two spreads this time! Plus a reference sheet for a character and some other artfight prep in the form of my thumbnail marker! I guess I could use a digital one, but I think it’s more fun if I use a silly little physical note to keep them consistent. :)

Close-ups, character design/ref, and general AF prep under the cut!

FOWLE R!!! This guy is like… a derivative of a character I’ve had in my head forever. He got created in my scribbles room draw the other guy (who is a lot more human. A LOT. I can’t draw him lmfaoo.), and even though it wasn’t good enough for the other character I really, really liked this design. I’ve posted about him here, and I might post his original sketch page after I complete Sketchbook 29. I’m still deciding if I should go back and post all the other spreads, or just continue with my new sketchbooks only.

His story is still a work in progress, but I’m leaning towards guy who got trapped in a spell because he worked in the castle of a king who pissed some very magic monster off (think the Beauty and the Beast curse? Kinda.), probably because the king was low key pulling a Gaston and decorating his castle with monster mounts or something (general asshat too. Treats his people like dogs.), and while everyone is dealing with this poorly, Fowler takes it as a chance to fly off and actually take the chance to have a better life for himself. He was being treated very poorly as a person, and he ends up adapting very well to the change. :) Also the curse can’t be broken unless everyone works together, and he is so ready to tell the king to kick rocks. Irony probably comes into the fact he was named for his family’s profession of hunting bird monsters. If he was born this way, I think he’d been named Blackberry or something.

Art fight thumbnail thing!!! I’m team Stardust!!! I made one of these last year, but it was just a little sticky note that said the year and my handle. I’m not into the whole “OLD ART” thumbnails (although I don’t mind when others do it!), so I’d rather just put one of these on top of the art for the thumbnail right off the bat.

Art fight thing again, Dubwool, sheared Dubwool, some reference prep for Fowler, bird?????, and journaling stuff.

Dubwool is my buddy in Pokémon Go, because I think it is very funny that he is absolutely huge. He is just one big sheep, y’s-sir. I only play because a couple of my friends use it to keep in touch, in a way. Dubwool replaced my shiny shadow scyther because I really, really want to evolve that mf into scizor to make his shiny more obvious (scyther shiny really is just olive green vs piss green) and I have enough candies but I need an object thing and it’s very tragic. Needed to replace it with something that brings more joy, even though I barely open that game on my own accord.

Plush drawing! That mushroom cap was sewn in :) Also “The Moss” slaps. More Fowler stuff. And I finally broke down an drew a spider-sona-thing; don’t ask, but I had a Spider-Man nightmare and it put the thought in my brain. He does not have a name, but he is based on a spiny orb weaver and is not beating the villain accusations. Worm, who was surprisingly not birthed from a nightmare, is just a little guy. Then more journaling, but emotional edition™. Stress + boredom yum yum wonderful combo that should not exist. These feelings shouldn’t even overlap, but they sure do yes-sir-e. I have not touched a video game and enjoyed it in months and I think a good horror game I haven’t spoiled myself to might fix whatever is going on with me rn. I am drawing too much.

[ghostydrawsstuff]

Alright so since I can't really draw anything I thought I'd get a little something else outta the way.

How my Sona meet the Slender brothers and why I'd be staying/hanging out with them! General warning for a lotta self directed hatred and poor mental health!

But with no further ado, let the story begin :)

I sat under the willow tree, its low hanging branches and the vine-like leaves hid me enough so that I allowed myself to curl into a sort of ball and cry. I just wanted- no I needed to let it all out, I'd be able to properly compose myself afterwards and continue on with my shitty day. Just as always.

But something felt different, it was probably just because of my surroundings. I couldn't remember the last time I had cried in the forest or perhaps it was just an animal, watching from somewhere close by. I was washing away the tears when they came, even if it was useless, they just kept coming. It was my fault, I could've been better, I shouldn't have forgotten about something so important. Not again, not ever.

I felt so useless, but also angry, like I could just scream or punch a wall… or myself. I would deserve it. I need to be punished, need to learn, need to be better. Make no mistakes, be perfect. Be worth something. I hiccuped as my crying got worse, I could barely even see, but then suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was warm, almost comforting and it was big. I felt my heart skip a beat, no, no, no, no one can see me like this! This can't be happening.

I felt shame burn me from the inside as I held my breath, just don't cry, don't cry, you'll be fine just don't fucking cry. “Hey, are you okay? Do you need someone to talk to?” A soft, gentle voice, it was like a melody, intruding my mind and calming it down. It was… strange, but nice. I let go of the breath I was holding, sucking in air before I could even try to speak.

“I-I’m fine, just… leave me alone.” I said, I didn't mean how harsh I sounded, of course I messed that up too. He was just a concerned stranger and I was being rude, I already made him notice me. I should at least be nice, but noo of course I can't even manage that.

I sighed deeply, digging my fingernails into my arms, the slight twinge of pain almost felt like nothing, but it reminded me that I was here, this was real and not a dream. “Ugh, I'm sorry fo-” I apologized, but my voice caught in my throat when I looked up. What I saw made me doubt if this was actually real, how could he be here? Right before me? He was fiction. A figment of imagination that got popular on the internet.

And who was he exactly? Splendorman. His smile was soft, concerned. I made him worry, he shouldn't worry about someone like me. He was almost kneeling before me and he was still about two heads taller than me. “It's fine, don't worry about it.” He assured me and squeezed my shoulder gently.

I looked back down to the ground for a moment, feeling the ember of embarrassment again. "Can… Can I hug you?” I asked quietly. It felt dumb asking for something like that, but I needed comfort and I knew he'd be happy to offer it.

It almost seemed like his face lit up and he nodded enthusiastically. “Of course!” He said and quickly wrapped his arms around me, pulling me close until my face was against his chest. I drew in a sharp breath, but relaxed just as quickly. His comforting warmth engulfed me, calmed me, made me feel okay, like maybe it wasn't all too bad. Maybe, just maybe it would be okay.

I closed my eyes and hugged him back, I tried not to cry, but I hadn't realized how lonely I felt, how much I wanted to just be held, how much that aching hole in myself ate away at me. It was so nice, I wished it could've lasted forever, but after some time he pulled away.

I tried washing away the rest of my tears before looking at him again. “A little better now?” He asked and I nodded. “Thank you.” I mumbled and his smile grew wider. “Are you okay enough to go back home?” He asked and I felt another sting of sadness. That fight had been way too intense, I doubt she would want to see me again.

I looked away and hugged myself, it felt like coldness was creeping into my body and numbing me from the inside out. “I don't think I'm welcomed there anymore.” I answered honestly, even though it hurt, badly.

He patted my shoulder and stood up, for a moment I thought he would just leave me as well, but he extended a hand to me, offering me to take it. I didn't hesitate, honestly right now just being with him would be a thousand times better than anything else I could think of.

“You could come with me, I don't know if it's the best idea, but you could meet my siblings.” He said after a moment and I thought for a moment. It would be nice and where else could I go anyways? Besides I did kinda wanna meet them, I never thought they'd be real, but now I had the chance to literally hang out with them.

I felt almost buzzing with excitement, even if I still felt the emptiness it tried to cover up, I just tried to ignore it. At least for once I could enjoy something good and not feel like I didn't deserve it. At least that's what I hoped for. “Sure.” I said quietly, I wanted to say more, but I would definitely stumble over my words and embarasse myself in front of him, then he'd just go away. And I'd just be alone again and it would all be my fault and-

Suddenly I felt like I was falling into a void, filled with thousands of tiny needles, prickling my skin. It felt like the sensation when you sat on the toilet too long and your legs had fallen asleep. But just as fast as the feeling started, it stopped and I was in a different place.

It looked like a sort of foyer, I saw dark red wallpaper and a hanger for coats and other jackets nearby. I noticed the soft, muffled noises of a conversation in a different room. Splendorman turned to me and told me to stay here while he told his siblings that I was here now. I nodded, he went away with a little pep in his steps and I saw a red cushioned chair to my left and decided to go over to it and take a seat.

Then I decided to try and overhear the conversation. There was a set of a double door opening to another room, which judging by the muffled conversation was the room they were in. I strained my ears and it worked somewhat, I could understand some words, but not even half of what was being said.

“Why… bring… You know better… what if… something… wrong… is even… name” the last part sounded like it was part of a question. I lightly shook my head to redirect my focus again, I wanted to know what was being said, especially since it was about me.

“Are… sure?... Responsibility…on… I… mind… Bring… in. Okay.” Then I heard footsteps and silence. He peaked in from the double door and motioned for me to come to him.

I felt a little nervous, but followed him as he turned around and walked into a living room. On the other side of the room was a couch along with some sort of pillow like stools, they looked cute. Well I did notice the three other extremely tall beings in the room. And of course I recognised them pretty much instantly. Both Slenderman and Trenderman were sitting on the couch and to my left was a wooden table, Offenderman sitting on one of the four chairs with a glass of something. Probably wine or another kind of alcohol.

A shiver ran down my spine as I felt like I was watched very intently by all four of them. I stepped closer to Splendor as my anxiety was rising like crazy. God I hated being watched, I would do something wrong, make a fool of myself, ruin my opportunity. Luckily he extended his arm and I grabbed his hand, holding it like it could somehow save me.

What had I been thinking? It wouldn't be easy or anything to meet them, fuck I had probably made just another stupid mistake. He leaned down and quietly asked me to introduce myself. I felt like I was about to explode, I honestly just wanted to turn around and run away or conveniently melt into the ground.

And then I took a deep breath, I could use a nickname I like much more than my actual name, that was at least something good. “H-hi, you can call me Fin.” I say, feeling a light blush burn at my cheeks, goddammit I stuttered. They'll think I'm stupid now, why can't I ever do things right?!

I heard a dark and amused chuckle that made me wanna curl up and die of shame. “Sure cutie, I'm Sexual Offenderman, but ya can just shorten it if you want.” He said and I glanced at him for a moment, how could someone be so confident and just… relaxed?!

“I am Slenderman, and please if you must shorten it, just use Slender.” Slender introduced himself with a hint of a sigh at the end. I caught myself just in time to not snicker, sounds like he's had some interesting nicknames. “I'm Trenderman, welcome, I like your clothes.” My gaze shifted over to him.

Suddenly I couldn't remember just what exactly I was wearing, I tried to subtly glance down and for the second time wanted to just die on the spot. Of course this sort of thing happened when I was wearing my most emo stuff, if I wasn't blushing before I sure was now. “Thanks.” I muttered and looked away, rubbing the back of my neck.

I felt Splendor’s hand I had been holding onto move to my back. “Well I hope you'll enjoy staying with us for now!” He exclaimed happily, his joy was almost infectious and I caught myself grinning, maybe it wouldn't be too bad.

That was it for now, hope y'all enjoyed it. I'll be back home so then I can work on getting my asks done :3

[popironrye]

General Selfship Ask Game

8, 20, 24

8. How closely do you identify with/as your s/i's, if you have any? 🪞

When it comes to my sonas, they fall into three camps.

1. Literally me in drawing form. This applies to Rye, my fursona. She's a lonely little gremlin of a character that looks like she eats trash. XD She can't drive, got no rizz and no bitches, and is dumb as a brick. She is me. XD

2. Slightly more ideal versions of myself. This applies to Erin (tlb) and Emma (imp) is which case they're still me if not a little enhanced like more confidence and a much better grasp on their lives than me.

3. Finally we got me but they're so far removed they might as well be original characters with red hair slapped on them. XD This applies to Eden, a me that might as well be a goddess. Eileen is if I were talented, skilled and super rich. And Elaine is me if I was a complete sociopath with no value to life. Not even my own. Funny enough the three characters in this camp are also where I explore my sexual kinks and questionable themes.

20. Are you a polyselfshipper? If yes, are all your ships poly? 💕

Technically all my self ships are monogamous, but I'm not opposed to a poly self ship. Like Erin for example. She's with Dwayne, but I could pair her with the other boys too in the right circumstances.

24. Are there any sort of power dynamics in your selfships? If yes, who tends to be more dominant, and who less so? 🥒

Oh you have no idea! XD I am a more submissive person by nature, and I certainly take the submissive one in the bedroom as well. Playing the dominate part is something I can certainly try, but I might just get laughed at. XD Remember when I said some sonas are used for questionable themes?

Well the most questionable ones are Eden and Elaine. Who border on pretty extreme unhealthy power dynamics to say the least. For Eden is controlling and manipulative and Elaine is that PLUS murder, animal death and sadomasochism.

[charrfie]

oh also because you did the oc one can we see the evolution of ur sona(s)?

I LOVEEEE SEEING PEOPLES OC/SONA EVOLUTIONS SO OF COURSE I'M DOWN TO ANSWER MORE ASKS LIKE THIS!!!

Putting it under a read more like I did with my last one! Because arrfs comes with a lot of long history I want to write down >:^D

A couple years ago I noticed that the disconnect I had with my old sona Charlie (who was my sona throughout middle-high school as well as being the oc I got my online alias from) was getting far too great. I couldn't really see myself being represented by them at all... they were more of a mascot than anything else. So I started the journey of figuring out a new sona design! This was the very first sketch I did of arrfs (some time in 2021 I believe?)

This design didn't stick very long because I really didn't like the shape language or colors. But I liked the concept a lot! A dog with a bunch of different colors on it! Thus came iteration two, where I rounded out shapes and colors a little more as well as added hair/accessories!

The final version of this part of the design stage has the most life I think. Lots of stripes and dots and a generally bubbly appearance. Plus the cool raccoon tails I had for a minute there. But ultimately... it wasn't enough. I couldn't see myself in what I had made and what I had poured so much time into.

It's worth mentioning that it was during this time I was struggling with my gender a lot. I had recently discovered that I was trans after rebelling against the idea that I wasn't "trans enough" for years and years. All my efforts put towards creating a sona that really felt like me were deeply rooted in this convoluted internal monologue I was having with myself concerning how I was perceived, femininity, and fitting into the bubble that was expected of me. That I expected of me. As much as I love and celebrate my transness today, change was scary to me then. Getting hit by such a gigantic realization was fully reflected in the art I made at the time. I latched onto the "me" that was constantly projected onto me in my work.

Acceptance changed a lot of things. And once again, that was not only reflected in my art, but in my depictions of myself in general. Kazoo, the name I temporarily gave to this iteration of arrfs, was the first time I truly saw myself in a sona. This time, the only reason I changed their design was because I felt like I could push it even further rather than because it didn't feel like me.

And then comes the final iteration. The arrfs you all know today! One of my dearest friends (+18 content warning, if you're a kid do not check their account) helped me figure out some aspects of their design. There's lots of meaning I could tie into their design choices, but a lot of it is something I'd rather keep close (that is, unless I ever decide to write a whole long post about it in the future).

One fun fact I WILL give you though: while its not depicted in this drawing due to stylistic choices, current arrfs has connected eyes to integrate the feeling of glasses rather than directly giving them glasses (as all past designs have had). Always thought that was a cute concept ^_^

SPACE'S MOST SWAGGED OUT BUG DOG!!!!!

[patchdotexe]

i wish i had a sona of some sort but every time i try designing one it's like. i cannot perceive myself and if i try i will be struck by lightning and explode.

the closest thing i have to a sona is my fictionkintype which is. Not a sona that's a kintype. but if i could represent myself with her i would.

yeah thats . thats a mood. my fursona was a.. gift from somebody? i think? our memory's fuzzy, but after something happened where i was too afraid to draw myself somebody got me an adoptable that looked a lot like i do and it was. a nice gesture

(and then i didnt draw it much because of the whole "i will be struck by lightning and explode" thing applying to that also. oops.)

i think you should be allowed to represent yourself as you, even if you is a fictionkintype. pat used to use tails reaction images a lot and present kirself as tails and i think other people do that too so i am declaring it legal and my word is law (source: dude trust me)

[taffywabbit]

really warms my heart to see how many ppl have reblogged this with tags or comments about how having a fursona has improved their life in some way, or (even cooler!) how this post gave them enough of a push to start thinking about creating one! i kinda just wrote this post on a random whim and didn't expect such a widely positive response.

for me personally, my sona often fluctuates between being a very personal and euphoric self-insert that i can project ideas and emotions onto, and just sort of a funny little art mascot i can use to represent myself online, so sometimes i kinda forget just how dearly beloved these little personalized critters are by a lot of people. like "making a fursona and having that as an emotional outlet saved my life" type stories. it's cool as hell and i'm really happy for them!

however, a lot of folks who are in the "i don't have a fursona but now i might wanna make one" camp seem to frequently be unsure where to start with this stuff, though, so i thought i'd offer a little advice for that!

first thing is that this process is gonna come down to a little trial and error most of the time. none of your decisions are set in stone, you can always change things up later as you see fit (and hell, you can even have multiple fursonas for varying moods/purposes/etc if you want! people do it all the time. also, lots of folks give their fursonas hybrid traits, like a cat-dragon or a shark-wolf or a griffin or whatever, so that's an option too! mix-n-match)! people are complicated and a fursona always serves as a great canvas for personal experimentation and expression, whether you've had them for a decade or a day already.

focusing specifically on the choice of animal tho, it's handy if you already have a favourite animal for one reason or another (maybe aesthetically, behaviorally, symbolically, or some mix of these) but your favourite animal isn't always gonna be one that you think really represents you personally. that's fine! i adore cats IRL but i could never really see myself having a cat fursona. the important thing is that now you're THINKING about making a fursona, so now you can keep your eyes and ears open to inspiration when it comes along. i originally just picked a bunny because they're cute and cartoon bunnies are pretty easy/fun to draw, but as time went on i picked up loose knowledge about their traits and behaviors and realized "hey, i'm quiet and polite and loud noises make me anxious, i'm happiest sleeping and waking up at unusual hours, i like to feel small and cozy and safe, i'm a little bit mischievous but bad at serious confrontation... maybe this was a better fit than i thought!" and now i can't really imagine myself picking anything else. got it in one. but if i HADN'T lucked into that on the first try, those kinds of observations would've helped me get there eventually. look at animals, learn things about animals, and keep the thought in the back of your mind of "do i feel a connection to any of this?" as you do so. something might just click into place one day!

failing all that, idk, just pick a critter you think looks neat, give it a couple colours and some cool hair or whatever, and see what happens from there! not everyone's fursona has personal meaning to them and that's fine too! also, if you have a friend who knows you decently well (especially if they're an artist) you can usually ask them for creative input and bounce ideas off them. friends are often really good at putting a finger on unique defining qualities that you may not have noticed about yourself, and that can help a LOT with this stuff.

anyways that's all the advice i got, hope it helps! even if you don't end up actually settling on a fursona, or feeling like this is right for you in general, you might still benefit in some way from the process of reaching that conclusion and i sincerely encourage you to give it some thought if it sounds interesting to you. have fun out there!

I think more people should make fursonas and I'm dead serious. the process of self-exploration that naturally comes along with creating a funny little critter to represent yourself is SO valuable, as you consider the types of animals you vibe with and what kind of aesthetic/colours/personality/etc suit you and stuff like that (fun fact this process is how I figured out I was transgender lol. not saying that will happen to you but just proving that you can learn a LOT about yourself through this design process and any subsequent design changes)

and then when you're all done, you have a little freak you can do whatever you want with! edit them poorly into memes, commission lavish oil paintings of them to hang in your mansion, use them as a personal online mascot, design a fucked up evil twin for them to fight, soak them in milk and throw them at the wall, anything really. same stuff some people do with fandom characters they really like, except it's 100% yours and nobody can tell you you're doing it wrong! also now you have an animal your friends can associate with you and they'll send you funny pics/videos of that animal that make them think of you. literally it's just wins all the way down for you and everybody you associate with. everyone should have one of these things!!

[primordialprehistoria]

I saw your sona this morning and I really like the design and the color pallete! Could you share some of your inspirations when creating them? (No pressure of course. I’d love any sort of yapping on them if you have the energy.)

Have a fantabulous day, and I LOVE your artwork so much! Your bettyjuices have a special place in my heart, though I really enjoy the artistic fingerprint of anything you touch. Hope you’re having a warm winter, and eat something yummy today :)

first off, oh my god I'm so sorry this took me so long to answer!!!! you just happen to send it right when I kind of stopped using Tumblr.( I've just been working mostly on personal art and not fandom stuff, which I get no interaction on here so I haven't been posting, I'll include some In this just for fun though) 😭 but THANK YOU!!!? truly. I adore your art style so much, I was so shocked to see this in my inbox, it means so much to me to know other people enjoy any of the content I create.

i would LOVE to talk about my sona, I've actually had her since I was in 5th grade!! she wasn't originally based on anything, I was just always drawing in the margins of my schoolwork instead of paying attention and made her up. I've changed her design a million times since then too, currently I'd say a lot of the inspo in her design is just influence of some of my favorite artists, Julia pott and Sam Hensley! her color palette is actually a bit different from how she looks here, I was just trying to make the colors look fun on that piece. that was based the music video to the song silver by waterparks, its in black grey and army green since the video is just them wearing camo having a water gun fight with a bunch of kids. :)!!

she has. incredibly incredibly complex lore which feels almost silly to talk about here since that drawing of her is so cartoony, but at one point I got ridiculously into my own oc world so now somewhere I have like 60 pages of written down info and diagrams LOL. ( never give me permission to yap I've only ever even spoken about this to like 1 other person I could go on for 6 straight hours...even this Is incredibly condensed I have multiple pages just about the species blood types and the way their solar system works) she lives in a ringworld, in a kind of dystopian society with very advanced technology. her parents work for the government, they have her enrolled in a bunch of specialized classes for her to go into a high position working in a technology based department. so she has very little free time, but she does have one hobby, old-world biotech! computer systems with hardware based on early earth technology, and hyper advanced hardware that runs off her physical input! the design of her I made in middle school, when she got her name, she had a VHS tv imbedded into her stomach. thats what her first name came from, teli. her last name is cosmonaut, (like an astronaut) a family name, they have always been directly involved in the government and were part of the group to build the colony they live in. venturing across space to expand the reach of their species! so, blah blah blah, far future in her story she ends up being captain of an explorer ship sailing the stars once more after acidentally becoming the catalyst of a revolution and overthrowing the tyrannical government..

so she kind of became an oc in a way. but I still consider her my sona and use her to represent myself!

here is some very old and poor quality concept art I have of her biotech.. and a page of some personal stuff I did for a project!

[frost-bites-slushies]

x

sometimes i forget that im never allowed to go back, that i cant participate over there anymore as much as id love to. i cant post anything about that anymore and its just my fault. im scared what people are saying about me there, i dont know and its so very scary.

i dont know how i couldve stayed in that fandom after what i did, but i want to, but i also know id only open myself up to reminding them of me after they likely started to move on. i dont want to be that selfish, i hurt people, i affected people, but i still like to just. fantasize over what i would do.

i'd love to have made a little fan character, based on one of my cute little plushies maybe, probably the apprentice to my favorite character in that au. probably shit at cooking just like me too, but they keep em around cuz theyre sweet eheeh

iunno, i can only dream though, as much as i wish i could make it real. i know the people there and i know they know eachother, theres no doubt at least one warned their friends about me. my favorite creator from that fandom blocked me, i still see snippets of their work through reblogs, but. i know they told the other creators in that fandom about me. to look out for me maybe. i dont know why some of those creators havent blocked me yet, but i can count my blessings i suppose, but i wouldnt complain if they did block me, because i deserve it entirely.

i dont know, i just. wish. maybe if i changed my name? maybe if i tried to change everything about myself so i wasnt recognizable? so much about me would be lost, the characters i developed for years before now, the name i got from nice memories with past friends of mine. but i would be free. i would be able to go back, to do what i want to do, to come back smarter and more informed as someone new.

but that would just be lying. and lying got me here. i would lose so much, and would it be worth it? to be able to participate in something i love if i have to limit myself forever? i can never talk how i want, draw how i want, ill have to get rid of my sona and make it unique enough that they couldnt track me down. but if i do reenter that fandom, ill be found out by them as quick as a heartbeat, because i talked with them so often and shared so much of myself.

and they put all that information i trusted them with into making a post about me. they put the art that i gave to them as gifts in the post so people could recognize how i draw, they put the details of how i interact with others and how i use my account online so people could figure me out even if i didnt post art, and im damn sure if i didnt delete it, my discord would be in the post too. if i showed my face, im sure they would have slapped that in there. im surprised they didnt try and detail what my fucking voice sounded like.

because of a stupid dingy little post they made, im restricted from things i love, because even after knowing me for months, they think i didnt feel guilt. that i wanted to hurt them and i did it on purpose. that i didnt learn from what i did to them. they think i was so immature that i didnt know what i did wrong.

do they still think that? do they believe i am really so immature and stupid that i wouldnt learn? i was their best friend. i was so close to all of them. i believed them all to be sweet people, but they made me terrified of coming back to the internet at all. I didnt run away for my own selfishness, i ran so they didnt have to see my face again, but the very person i listened to them fucking shit talk about behind closed doors found my account and outed me.

do you know how much shit i have on them? the things i could say about them? how awful they are in private? i believe only two people of the group are genuinely nice people, and even then they still cut me off, like they had every right to do. but they didnt make me terrified, they didnt yell and scream at me, they didnt call me a "slippery rat" and a manipulative lying bastard. They wanted to believe in me, but they rightfully took the victim side and cut me out. one figured out a bit later that they were wrong for trying to keep contact with me, the other was only dissapointed in me, which hurt significantly more than hateful words.

only two people of the whole group were respectful to me. they treated me like a human that did something awful, and not just a sick, twisted and manipulative monster. one of the group tried to manipulate one of the two people that were willing to keep contact and help me change. this person told my friend to just pretend to be my friend, and ghost me once i got new friends or felt better, to be my fake friend and dissapear once "everything was fine".

another ranted and called me hateful things in a reblog of the stupid post on me. they said i was a rat, that i "got away before they could get to me", assumedly to curse at me in dms like in that reblog. they told me to never come back, that nobody likes me, that i no longer had a place in that fandom.

i was scared, and i still am. but ive said that enough times. I've been scared for a while, and the people that are still beside me know that.

i just wish i could do what i love, but as they said, i dont have a place there anymore.

i think ill come back as someone new.

[kyrodo]

Overall competency level with making an avatar look nice. I'm gradually getting comfortable with all the bells and whistles here and there. Even the bones and weight painting side of things, it was noticeably easier and faster this time around. I already had a less than vague idea of how to approach it and I got the straps redone. Rounded the khnfucat trinket, no problem. I could still stand to go through the donut tutorial in its entirety to iron out my knowledge of all the capabilities of blender and how to do it, including the stuff I don't do right now like renders.

But yeah. Originally the trenchcoat idea was off of watching kippicat's community showcase at furality. He has that heartless looking avvie with the organization style jacket. I thought I could find it myself and found something else instead, and I made it work. I learned so much out of it, I padded out the identity of my mayu sona with it. I even get commissioned for a retexture. My power and knowledge grows and I'm able to keep making these small additions here and there, and people definitely notice it. I love that so much. People will never fully understand or appreciate all the little things I've done for the avatar especially the less noticeable stuff but they appreciate it as a whole and that's enough for me to keep at it. Azuki himself recognizes it, I'm one of the mayus with custom clothing that many never learn that far to do, and that makes me recognizable, that makes me stand out. And the fact that beyond gumroad assets and shaders the rest of my work is pretty much all me, it feels like I've earned it. I feel accomplished as someone who works on avatars, even if it's mostly just my own.

Also I guess the fun thing about avatar work is community content. You can shop around for stuff on gumroad for things like clothing, based, accessories, whatever, but you don't just stick with what you get. You gotta tweak it to fit your colors, you have free reign to make whatever edits you want after you get the asset. So it's legalized art theft in a way. You're editing someone else's work, or your editing a base someone else made, or you're using a shader someone else made. It is a very collaborative process, and while it is useful to be able to do things like make your own assets and models, especially for small things that are easy to make, generally most people look for what's available before they start making something themselves. There is a lot of work sharing that makes avatar work more accessible than regular artwork. And there's so much you can do with tweaks to material settings that is significantly easier than drawing. It's helpful to know how to draw to make your own textures more customized, but beyond that it's more knowledge based. Knowing how the different features of poiyomi work, knowing how the masks behave, knowing how to get vrc fury to behave the way you want it to. It is much more accessible for a non artist to be able to get somewhere and make things look nice under their own power than be dealing with clip studio or whatever art program and trying to draw precise lines or build anatomy from scratch on an empty canvas with a drawing tablet you might not even have. No, instead I am able to thrive here.

[rainyjackalope]

I've been extra in love with my sonas lately so gladly!!

I have multiple so...putting under a read more because I'm about to get wordy with it. Very, very, very wordy. Anyone looking has been warned.

I'm going to start with my most recent one.

Dezrin

They came about because for years now I've had an affinity for chickens. I feel like it started a long time ago when I was experimenting with what animals I thought suited me over the course of many months. I had this transitional phase in my art and inspirations where I went from feeling very much like the only thing in the whole world that could possibly be representative of me was some kind of canine/vulpine, to knowing that wasn't really true anymore. It was a weird time. Ever since I started drawing more seriously at ten years old I was drawing wolves and dogs, and they stayed as my main thing for years.

At some point I got into other stuff and my interests shifted, and I kept coming back trying to make some sort of dog or fox work as a sona again. In the meantime I had gotten into My Little Pony and then later Starbound, and I was drawing different subjects, using new styles, and learning how to portray bipedal, humanoid animals. I was drawing all these new things and learning so much and changing.

Starbound got me drawing birds and bird furries a whole bunch which is where I finally took that leap to being a furry the way most people think of them (I definitely always have been one, but outside of silly doodles I did not usually draw my characters as actual true bipeds who wore clothes and I was more into furry media with animals still otherwise looking/acting like animals. You know, Lion King and Balto and all that.)

After I got more comfortable with it, I made a few bird fursonas over time. I would pick a bird species I thought was cute and try to make it a character, but they never stuck for long. They never....felt right? I stayed emotionally distant from them. They were all species of sparrows or songbirds or other small seed-eating birds. I would draw them maybe a few times, pair them with my partner's sona who was a bird at that point, and then never draw them again.

At some point, I remember in my sketchbook I was playing around and I asked myself, "If you were to pick a kind of bird you would really like a sona to be, what do you feel fits? Or that is just fun to draw?" I was pretty into owls in the moment, and I drew some kind of owl-chicken hybrid creature. I thought chickens would suit me because they're usually pretty flightless and unassuming, and I just...liked owls. I still do but they were a specific favorite for a while. Honestly I think the Guardians of Ga'Hoole movie did something to me for a long time (no I did not read the books unfortunately, but I do want to as an adult sometime. That movie was gorgeous though.)

That character I drew did not become anything more. I'd show it if I had it but it's buried in old sketchbooks in a box I don't even have access to at the moment. I drew it maybe a few times on a page and moved on. Something about it stuck with me though. I think I even drew it with a fairly large build and gave it a menacing beastliness.

I don't know when my chicken infatuation really took hold but at some point in the last several years I fell super in love with chickens. Maybe I had seen some in person or something. Or honestly, most realistically, my guess is that it was the Instagram accounts I followed that posted them sometimes, then later tumblr blogs that would share them too. I don't use Instagram anymore but I believe I followed someone for their art, and they also posted about chicken-keeping sometimes. They're really cute and special animals! I also fell super in love with pigeons as a separate incident and a lot of people that keep pigeons seem to keep chickens, so you'd often see both.

Anyway, they've been on my mind for a long time now. I was no good at drawing them however so I think that kept me from doing much with it. I started drawing them in my sketchbook sometimes for fun, and I also got really into cockatrices. I mean...it's basically a big chicken-dragon. That rules. Then I thought....what if a chicken had lycanthropy but for turning into a cockatrice?

(As an aside, part of my cockatrice obsession was entirely the fault of the RLCraft pack. I already thought they were neat, but I was playing it with my partner for a while some time ago. I started a chicken farm because it's me playing Minecraft so of course my priorities included chicken farming. They always do. Also it was the one thing I felt like I had any control of in that hellscape. I loved playing it but I died 500 times. Anyway, a chicken laid a rotten egg and I had no idea what that was about. I picked it up and chucked it and a baby cockatrice came out. I think I yelped and was like OH GOD WHAT IS THAT AM I GOING TO DIE?? But then realized it was just chilling and it followed me around. I raised it to be an adult and I loved this thing more than anything else in that pack. I was protecting this girl with my life. I ended up with a shack full of like 5 cockatrices that I never let out because I didn't want them to blow up, and their models are so cute!!!! It gave me a brain parasite that made me obsessed with them really really bad.)

The concepts I started with were for an OC who is a very sweet hen lady that gardens and wouldn't hurt anything, but is cursed to turn into a horrible beast uncontrollably. Classic werewolf-styled stuff. She was going to be a salmon faverolles chicken, if you're wondering. She had a big fluffy face beard and a light coloring. I've never posted her or even fully concepted her, she just lived in my head. Maybe there's a sketchbook doodle of her somewhere.

However, I am terrible at making OC's with backstories that stick these days. I don't know why, I think I just lose interest in their specific stories too quickly. I loved the idea of the character more than the particular way it was being portrayed. I think she would make a great OC but I just never got into it enough to see the concept through as it was.

I believe when I started the concepts for Dez that I actually had not given up on the OC idea, but had decided that a chicken becoming a cockatrice was so fucking cool that I wanted to make a sona that does that as well. Dez is my most recent finalized design for a sona, and before zem, I had mostly soft and cute sonas. My other current ones aren't particularly rowdy or aggressive or scary in any way, as I don't see myself as such, but I do also have a side to me that fucking loves horror and monsters and sometimes I just really love drawing a little maiming and killing as a treat. I wanted Dez to connect to that.

Not to mention the gender vibes. I learned that a lot of chickens have some fun gender stuff about them such as hens starting to crow and develop spurs, and roosters that lay eggs. As someone with characteristics that don't align with expectations myself, I always think that's cool as fuck. I also just generally love a visibly androgynous sort of look in a character if I can achieve it, and chicken traits play into that extremely well.

I think that mainly sums up why zeir species is what it is. Have some concept art starting from the end of 2022 for making it this far.

Vitri

The sketches shown are actually more how I draw them now but I have not had time to update the reference.

Vee's story is a lot shorter. I've always liked dragons. I love dragons. I was basically born loving dragons. No matter what phases I've gone through or what stage of life I find myself at, I love dragons. This is just a truth of my soul.

That, and also the fact that when I started playing Roblox in late 2021, I eventually realized there were ways to make your avatar entirely an anthro character. At the time there were a lot less options than there are if you look at the marketplace right now, but one of the few furry creators of the moment had made some fluffy dragon heads. Vee was the first anthro character I made. I combined a dragon head with anthro shark ears and added horns I liked (the tail was in the set with the head) and I got attached to what I put together.

The reason for choosing what I did was because out of the few furry accessories I could get, the dragon heads were some of my favorites. I liked how they looked, and I liked their versatility. There were only a few color choices so Vee was grey. I gravitate towards greys and less saturation so that was an easy pick.

They weren't initially meant to represent me or be a fursona, but by nature of representing me in a game and me imprinting on them they became one of sorts.

Anyway....dragon good.

Zaedys

Similarly short, similar explanation: I always loved dragons. Naturally, I played Spyro since the PS1 was one of my main systems growing up. I played it a lot! Specifically the first one, it's my lifelong favorite.

A lot of areas of it are home to me so at one point I made a self-insert for the world. I'm a bitch who loves a fluffy character so I made them be the same species/type as the dragons that you find in the cold ice caverns of the desert realm because they read as having fur to me from their textures.

Easily summed up with 'I love dragons and I love Spyro so what if I was something like Spyro?'

Rainy

My beloved little bunny. My darling creature. I love this thing.

I made them in 2017. My thought process was something like, "Well shit. Every attempt I make at making a new fursona is failing miserably. I don't vibe with being a fox or a dog anymore. I don't even know what the hell I am now. I like deer but I made a deersona and they still don't feel truly correct. I'm a quiet, anxious creature. What fits that??"

I had been going with deer and deer traits in my concepts for a while, and that seemed almost correct. It was so close. There was just something missing.

I started sketching in my sketchbook, as I always do when I can't figure something out, and I ended up with an anthro deer-rabbit. They had lop ears because I think droopy ears are just the cutest, a little bunny nose and face, and antlers and hooves with deer inspired dapple spots. I really, really liked that. I realized I had made a weird jackalope of sorts, which made it even better. Jackalopes are cool! I love bunnies, I love antlers, I love cryptids and weird little beasts. That felt closer to being right than anything had in years.

Then I took that idea and that feeling and I made this:

I had realized I really preferred giving them paws, and that the dapple spots weren't fitting the kind of stormy vibes I wanted out of it. The rest is history. I kid you not, those two colored in ones are the only attempts I ever made at giving them markings with color. Before that I only had maybe a page or two of pencil drawings and they focused more on possible characteristics than patterns.

I saw what I made in the middle and something...clicked. I spent so much time flailing about trying to figure out who I was and how to convey what I was in a simple way online, and they just sort of showed up to take the role. I have since altered minor things about them, but really they are almost entirely the same as they were to start. Notably, the paw pads became blueish-purple in color and took on the shape of clouds and rain. Very small color tweaks may have happened to them but I don't think it went beyond the paws, antlers, eyebrows, and eyelids. It has mostly been to simplify things even more.

It is entirely possible that in my hopefully long time left in this world that one day they might stop feeling like me in the future, but 7 whole years have passed and they still feel like home.

I don't know exactly why they fit so well, to be honest. I guess I just see myself in bunnies a lot. They're quick to startle, find it anxiety-inducing to be outside in the open for long periods, and they spend a lot of time resting in their burrows. When they sleep, they can get really comfortable, and despite being a prey animal with every reason to stay alert and scared, they find themselves flopping over without a care in the world. My rabbit always looked so peaceful when he rested. It was such a stark contrast from his waking demeanor.

As a chronically anxious animal that loves a good sleep myself, they simply seem right. I love making sonas and exploring other designs, but I have yet to make something that gave me the same feeling. I've been established as a rabbit for so long that my friends love to send me bunny memes and tell me that when they see rabbits in person they think of me, and that makes me really happy. When I see bunnies, I do feel some kinship with them I can't explain. Their big ears and little wiggly noses are everything to me.

I have other sona designs I've done before but these are the main ones I use at the moment. I fucking love fursonas.

tell me why you chose your fursona's species :03c