#eva anderson ― 𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓽𝓪𝓰

[blckbarbree]

📲 BREEVA

BREE: yes i know it's been a while and i was going to continue you to give you space to... let's go with, process for the next couple of days but i just saw something on my dash BREE: https://www.tumblr.com/serenaxsmythe/765615688972959744/it-depends-the-answer-is-no-if-youre-involved?source=share BREE: is she talking about you? @anderseva

[blckbarbree]

📲 BREVA

BREE: my parents are doing the absolute fucking most right now bc they hate this potential new image BREE: i told them it wasn't new it was just the actual me and somehow that was more wrath inducing BREE: i'm both mad at and pleased with you, mostly pleased though BREE: anyway, you might need to know about Jake Puckerman @anderseva

[blckbarbree]

📲 BREEVA

BREE: so i'm not going to be doing those brand deals this weekend [ undelivered ] BREE: and this isn't a complaint but I don't love the timing of this earthquake [ undelivered ] BREE: i hope you're safe and okay although i'm sure whoever you're stuck with is driving you insane [ undelivered ] BREE: Morgan is with me in the PSU caf, apparently he comes every week for fruit and vegtable scraps for his horses [ undelivered ] BREE: he's okay btw [ undelivered ] BREE: text me when you get these just so i know you're not dead or anything @anderseva [ undelivered ]

[blckbarbree]

Truths 1-4

What’s your biggest regret to date? I've answered this twice but lucky for you I have enough regret to go around. The way I treated my ex while we were together. I have to admit that keeping him a secret for a year was not my finest moment. @puckjake

Which PSU couple do you think can go the distance? The professor I TA for, Delilah Rose, and her boyfriend seem pretty smitten so for their sake, I'll say them.

Which PSU couple do you think is most likely to break up? I genuinely have no clue, the only other couple I know is Penny and Logan and I think I already answered them for who I thought would go the distance last time, so we'll be a beacon of positivity today and say no one.

Who is someone you’d like to get closer to in the new year? I wouldn't mind seeing my sister a little more often and I've enjoyed spending time with Morgan and despite being my professor and the head of my PR, Eva is actually enjoyable to talk to and maybe Avery. @goodkingbonnie @anderseva @morgan-weston @averydunn

[blckbarbree]

― private;

Although, if my parents actually make good on their threads and disown me, I might need the income until I become the Elle Woods of Mathematics at NASA. I would say better late than never, but I'm never late, everyone else is just early. Does this mean I get an automatic A in your class? I think being the lesson should at least guarantee me a B.

I agree, and in the end so did Shep, so it was an easy thing to dissolve, which I appreciate because I've heard horror stories. Thank you. Is this line of questioning relevant or are you just curious?

PRIVATE:

Trust me, I know you'd be killing it if you went that route, but luckily we're not doing it. Your twin was 100% right, I feel like I said that already, but at least you've come to your senses. And I've decided that I'm gonna kill two birds with one stone and turn helping you out into a lesson for my class. Between me, you, and your peers, this new roll out is gonna be phenomenal.

You did mention that, and I'm flattered. I'm glad you had a decent partner but the shit was dumb and unfair to who you really are. I'll correct that though. You sure that's over? Better question: is that what you even want?

[blckbarbree]

― private;

How much for an hour of your time. I have questions but you deserve to get paid if I'm going to use your expertise. I am in no position to turn down a once in a lifetime offer. After my professional questions, might be a good time for you to entertain my unprofessional ones. Make a whole day out of it.

PRIVATE:

Then get drunk with some hot women and let nature take it's course. Problem solved. It's never too late to make up for the shit you should have done as a teen. I won't keep repeating the same shit I'm sure you've heard over and over, so just think about my offer. You can contact me for whatever, whenever. Don't let that head get too big, Bree. You're just the first one I've extended this once in a lifetime experience to before classes start.

[blckbarbree]

― private;

OnlyFans isn't for me. Although I would absolutely clean up on there if I wanted to. Yeah that is where I am at with it and them. I just want to exist like I was suppose to. I think my twin might have had a valid point with that one.

I love and hot and confident woman, but I think I've mentioned that before. In the end, I think he probably got more out of that set up an situation than I did, but at least he was nice and respectful. I definitely could have had worse, but I also could have had something genuine. No, that's done done. What you saw at the mixer is basically where it ended. But I love a that is 100% over so...just single.

PRIVATE:

You've gotta look out for yourself for once so I'm glad that you are now. And don't worry, I'm not gonna start you up an OnlyFans or have you showing out in public. Not like that anyways. But seriously, you're a grown woman and they're gonna have to let you live your life so they'll come around. Or not but fuck em if not.

Kinda hard not to be confident when I've done it for so long and tend to be very good at it. But fucking finally! No offense, but PR relationships never do what they're meant to do. And aren't you kinda sorta in bed with Puck's brother anyways? Do I need to be putting together a rollout plan for that situation?

[blckbarbree]

― private;

Your praise is what I live for, Professor Anderson. Now that was sarcasm, but I'm proud of myself. I don't want to ruin the family name or anything so dramatic, I'm not my twin, but I also don't think me being me should be that detrimental to the family. My parents aren't pleased, but then they never are, but I think they'll get over it and if they don't I've decided that's their problem and not mine. All of that to say, you can trust that I will see your plan through and I won't back out like or being convinced to back out.

You seem very confident which I like in my PR team. It would be a nice change from the lackies my parents had in place for me that last, god knows how long. I posted a picture on instagram with the caption, 'single 💜', and if the comments and my DMs are anything to go by, that PR relationship is officially dissolved. I look forward to working with you and hearing about this plan.

PRIVATE:

I would, actually. But anyways, on to more important matters. You actually fired your team? Holy shit! I'm actually very proud of you, Bree. I was starting to think that you'd never do anything for yourself, but it's about damn time. Just for you, I won't even charge you...yet. So go ahead and kill that little PR stunt if you haven't already, and give me the weekend to formulate a new game plan for your brand.

[blckbarbree]

You wouldn't fail me just for a little sarcasm. Besides it wasn't sarcastic, a little sassy maybe, but not sarcastic.

― private;

I think talking to my parents about this would kind of defeat the purpose, but they are aware I'm making changes, considering I fired a few people from my old team. The people who only answered to my parents and couldn't care less about what I wanted. So that was step one of what I assume will be a very expensive plan, the rest of your making of course.

I feel like there was a hint of sarcasm in here, and now that classes have started, I'm gonna need you to talk to me nice unless you wanna fail my class.

Now, before I draw up this paperwork, do you need to talk to your parents?

[blckbarbree]

Then consider yourself hired. Let's see how good you really are.

See why you should break away from your parents' control and let me help you? This wouldn't happen if the marketing for you and your brand was....well, better.

[blckbarbree]

― private;

Intellectually I know you're right, but in every other way my body is telling me it just isn't that simple. Maybe if i was fifteen and could have gone through all this shit during puberty like everyone else. I do think, sometimes, that it would be worth it to say fuck it just for my parents reaction. Well I guess having your contact information can be used for more than a you up? text. I'll think about it. No you didn't, but I'm not surprised you made that point clear. Does that make me special?

PRIVATE:

Baby girl, that right there is why you have a team, but it's also why you give no fucks. People are going to talk regardless, nothing we can do about it, but what you can do is tell them to kiss your ass. Simple as that. But look, if you want to keep playing it safe, go ahead. Just hit me up when you're done pretending and actually want to take control of your own life. I won't tell your sister that she's smart, but her and I are right, in case you needed me to point that out again. And shut up, no. You're the only student I've offered that to, but Eva then and now wouldn't be opposed to it either.

[blckbarbree]

― private;

And I would do that but haveming to read and watch and listen to people's opinions on it all would drive me over the edge. Plus, I think my parents might actually disown me and unlike my twin I don't want that. I don't enjoy the unknown of it all. I have worked hard to appear the way I do and I don't know if I'm ready to destroy all of that. God, I hope you never tell her that, nine of us will ever hear the end of it and my eyes can only roll back so far. So you plan on having sexy hands in learning with multiple students. Sounds like something Eva ten years ago would have loved.

PRIVATE:

First of all, rude. I never had a coming out YouTube either, I just started kissing guys and girls in videos and let people figure it out themselves. You can't keep up the same image forever, you know? People expect us to change, or to grow, I guess. Your sister must be smart as hell if we're saying the same shit. But yes, the sexual hands on stuff would only be for educational purposes, of course. Gotta appeal to my students in any way that helps the material stick. I'm such a great teacher.

[blckbarbree]

― private;

I don't know. That's not the image of me people are use to and I really don't want to be another influencer with a coming out YouTube video. I just want to be without having to make an announcement about it. Yes, the public do love to see the lives abd the rich and famous, especially in blog form. Those have always been my best performing videos on any platform. You sound like my sister. Which is starting to make me think she might have a point. Is the hands on sexual for educational purposes?

PRIVATE:

That mindset has started to change in recent years, BB. You also have to remember that today's audience is more supportive if you're queer and fully authentic. My YouTube videos where I complained about shit regular kids could only have dreamed of are still some of my highest rated videos. Yes we should be grateful for the lives our parents' success provided, but we're still allowed to want things, especially the freedom to live our lives how we want. Listen, I also said I retired from being an influencer yet I still do ads from time to time, so anything is possible. But I am teaching this stuff now so if you wanted my services, I would offer them to you. And no, I didn't mean that sexually too but if you're a hands on learner, I could be convinced that it's for educational purposes.

[blckbarbree]

― private

It's not exactly my favorite either, but it is the world we live in and if I'm caught drunk, or too cozy with a woman or eating processed foods, it's treated like the end of the world. Would I like my life to be mine, yes, but it seems ungrateful to complain about anything when I have more than most could even dream of. I thought you were taking a break from that life or are you saying you would come out of retirement for me?

Private:

I hate tropes, I hate cliches, and I hate the narrative that a woman of color can't be just as free and unfiltered as the little palm-colored creators. Hence me building a career out of marketing everyone based off of their authentic selves. If you ever want to change teams, and stand up to your parents, let me know. If anyone can pull this off the right way for you, it's me and my old team. I didn't dub myself Influeva for nothing.

[blckbarbree]

― private

I tried that. It has not been successful. My parents and the team they've hired, are nothing if not well versed in cliche's. I mean they literally chose Shep for me because it's the country boy and city girl trope. Tha fully, he's not an asshole but they wouldn't have cared if he was. My parents have worked really hard to reach the level of success they have in an industry that has never been kind to... people like us. Maintaining perfection isn't easy or fair but they don't believe I'll be given the same grace as my peers and I think they might be right. My image may be boring but it stops me from being the topic of controversy and tarnishing the Brown name.

PRIVATE:

Nothing wrong with a moment of weakness, and if the sex is good, just take feelings out. That shit is dumb anyways. I'm not saying you have to tell everyone your business, but being forced to do the PR relationship thing to hide your true self to sell this charade is boring and so fucking cliche. You are a grown ass woman, why do you still care what your parents want?

[blckbarbree]

― private

Okay, fine, you saw what you saw, but it was a moment of weakness that I feel immense shame for. That's why I haven't told anyone, and it doesn't matter anymore bc he's blocked. It won't happen again. Maybe I just like to test boundaries and see where other people stand. That wasn't believable even to me, but I omdobt want people to know everything about me, its not their business. My sexuality is mine, not the public. It's probably because I hook up with cheating exes in bathrooms and hit on women. To my parents, my behavior is poor when left to my own devices, so they don't trust me nit to ruin what they've built, and I don't want to ruin it. It's bad enough that I went for an academic path instead of a performing one, but they let that happen because they assume I'll let it go once I'm done with school.

My eyes work just fine, princess. I know what I saw, and I know were you two ended up, but I'll let you pretend I didn't see what I saw. You can't control who you make drool, but the way you offered to let me stroke you spoke volumes. Everything you do has to go through your parents? Oh hell no, that's even worse than I thought. You're the creator here, so why aren't you making any decisions?