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mejomonster · 2 years ago

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Silent Reading, chapter 52. First, I could quote the entire chapter. This interrogation is how far I'd read up to the novel last time and I remembering being impressed with priests writing of the girls pov. Second, I find it enticing that Fei Du gives a clichéd speech and Tao Ran says "wow that's so long winded I thought you were possessing him Luo Wenzhou." Because for one, Fei Du just came into the station having followed Luo Wenzhous recent "clichéd long winded" similar advice, and Luo Wenzhou recently gave thar advice to Fei Du on his birthday. It's a quick turnaround on how much Fei Du picks up from Luo Wenzhou, copies in his own behavior, thinks about and remembers. And also... directed at a child recently traumatized? I suspect maybe Police Officer Luo said a similar clichéd speech to Fei Du when he was young. And Fei Du, paralleling this girl? Well on some level since his own tragedy he's certainly thought about hurting people from then on (like this girl has actually done), and he may even have hurt people as a child like she was made to (i don't have full details yes but he clearly blames himself for his moms death and... the show implied dad was having him abuse animals and people). So he's probably thinking about how condescending Luos speeches felt when he was a child, how it made him lash out and say "I'll kill X, I'll Strangle you this way!" Etc and now he's hoping it'll push the girl to reveal her anger at being considered this way similarly. I did not catch this last time I read the scene...

Likewise, for Tao Ran probably and Captain Luo for sure, that clichéd speech to the child MUST ring familiar as stuff they've said to Fei Du. (And if I wanted to go super speculative about it... what are the odds teen Fei Du felt that Officer Luo also "ignored" him and focused on work or his own life instead of him, like Fei Du was just "the job", like he was just "a pitiful victim" to wrap up... the way Fei Du is treating her now to provoke her. Potentially because it provoked him as a teen too? Now we know secretly Officer Luo was constantly asking Tao Ran do X do Y give Fei Du this, and even rhe simple act of being in his life and taking him with Luo and Tao instead of leaving Fei Du with his dad was a monumental decision and probably not exactly normal - not supposed to get wrapped up in victims private lives for years. So we know in retrospect teen Fei Du felt Luo Wenzhou was distant cause he was trying to minimize the fights and figured Fei Du would be even angrier if he tried to be closer, because they probably weren't even supposed to be basically raising this teen victim - it's not normal procedure at ALL and Luo was NOT supposed to be looking into fei dus moms case as long as he did either. So he had many reasons to be distant and seem the way he did - and frankly who knows if some fights were precisely him NOT understanding Fei Dus mentality was like this girl's, that fei du felt a monster and wanted it acknowledged which was incompatible with Luo trying to raise him to be a certain way and so they'd argue. The difference being at least Fei Du HAD Luo Wenzhou, had him nonstop for years to encourage him to want other things than what this girl wants now, was encouraging Tao Ran to do the same for Fei Du. And once Fei Du could be moderately gentle, bejng around Tao Ran and able to accept him was also bringing in really kind constructive viewpoints and behavior. Like... at once Fei Du entirely unfortunately relates to this girl's anger at an adult dismissing her anger and actions and pitying her and treating her like a job. He's been there. But unlike this girl he had those people bugging him, Raising him practically, for years, steering him out of acting on those impulses - quite strictly as far as Luo could from what we know- and giving him nonstop acceptance and love where this girl... Lang qiao can't even stand to be near. Was Fei Du like that. Would someone besides Luo Wenzhou have abandoned him, hated to be near him? It's an intense level of tragedy. And what is going to happen to her now.

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Luo Wenzhou took a deep breath, looked at Fei Du for a while, then wordlessly went towards Director Lu’s office.

Twenty minutes later, Fei Du, holding two cartons of ice cream, walked into the room temporarily being used to hold Su Luozhan. He put the cartons on a little table. “Do you want some? Which one?”

Su Luozhan looked at him, hesitating a moment, then pointed to the strawberry one.

Fei Du left her the strawberry, taking the other carton himself. He got his earbuds and phone out of his pocket, opened a livestream of a basketball game, crossed his legs, and watched while he ate, ignoring her.

The two sat in mutual silence for a while. At first Su Luozhan was calm, not making any eye-contact with him. When she’d eaten half the ice cream and found the other party showed no signs of speaking, she finally couldn’t resist giving Fei Du a look on her own initiative. Her gaze swept over Fei Du’s shirt and phone, finally falling on his wrist laying on the table.

Her head tilted, Su Luozhan considered his watch for a moment, then gently tapped the floor twice with the tip of her foot. “Is your watch real?”

Fei Du may not have heard; he made no response.

Su Luozhan waited a while, then reached a finger across the table and lightly tapped twice on the side of his phone.

Finally alerted, Fei Du pulled out one earbud. “Yes, what is it?”

The volume on his phone was very loud. In the quiet room, you could hear the shouting of the commentator leaking out of the earbud.

Su Luozhan bit a corner of her plastic spoon. “What are you doing here? Aren’t you going to question me?”

“Oh, my colleagues are busy, they made me come over to keep an eye on you.” Fei Du seemed unwilling to tear himself away from the screen. He spared her only a second’s glance before turning back to the game, answering very absently.

When others asked her this and that, this girl would play the fool; but when others weren’t interested in her, she seemed to feel dissatisfied.

At first Su Luozhan looked at Fei Du from time to time. When she finished her ice cream, she simply stared at him, voluntarily opening a conversation. “Are you also with the police?”

“A trainee,” Fei Du answered indolently.

“Are trainees very rich?” Su Luozhan raised her brows in a very adult fashion. “Your watch looks pretty expensive. Is it the real deal, or a quality fake?”

Fei Du seemed to think her words were very funny. First he raised his brows in astonishment; then he spoke, unable to hold back a smile. “You know what a ‘quality fake’ is? Little girl, who taught you that?”

Su Luozhan’s expression hardened at once, clearly affronted by his disrespectful attitude of teasing a small child.

She remembered this man with the wounded left arm. At the old Su residence, he’d also treated her like this. It seemed like he didn’t believe that she could do anything, and didn’t believe she could pose any threat, either.

Finding you’d successfully practiced a deception would generally cause satisfaction. But this satisfaction couldn’t endure, because in “acting the swine to eat the tiger,” the important point was generally to “eat the tiger.” There was no pleasure in always acting the swine, especially when people treated you like one.

Su Luozhan bit her lip, carefully assessing whether he really wasn’t interested in her or whether he was only putting it on. After a while, she couldn’t resist half-seriously throwing out some bait. She answered, “Those uncles taught me.”

Fei Du paused, but he didn’t ask her, “Which uncles?” He only very pityingly, with some placating perfunctoriness, said to her, “It’ll be all right now, rest assured.”

This manner made Su Luozhan feel like she’d put a foot wrong going downstairs. She couldn’t resist following up, “You mean I’ll be all right?”

“I mean, there won’t be anymore bad guys hurting you. As for the question of how to deal with you now, we’ll have to see, although the problem isn’t serious, and you’re still young. You won’t have to bear criminal responsibility. I would guess you’ll be taken into care.” Fei Du thought about it, then finally paused his damned basketball game, seeming to remember his “police” duties. He opened his beautiful peach blossom eyes wide, but out of his mouth came a string of clichés addressed to the girl: “You children have no self-awareness. You get used by people and don’t know what’s happened. Child, the past is past. When you get out, you have to study hard, not think of these messy things anymore. The road ahead of you is still long…”

Tao Ran had taken advantage of their mutual delays to take a nap in front of the surveillance feed. He’d just woken up when he heard this string and hastily rubbed his eyes. “Heavens, that’s Fei Du… With this long-windedness, I thought you were possessing him!”

Luo Wenzhou kicked his chair.

#silent reading #lb #meta

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trials-of-a-spirit-worker · 2 months ago

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I want to add to this as a huge Azula fan myself.

Seeing her defeated was kind of like watching Killmonger be defeated. It's meant to be a relief and a sense of tragedy. You are allowed to feel pity for a villainous character and still want to see them beat by the heroes.

Both of these characters are lost in their own anger, their own extremisms and are so far gone from self awareness the only thing to stop them is defeat. It just be like that sometimes.

And that's not to say neither were incapable of stepping back and realizing "oh shit... This is not the way." I think in both senses of the character if you wrote it right, if you swung it right, you could write a damn good redemption. Not a heroic turn; but one where they understand it's time to atone and reflect. Realistically I could never see either Azula or Killmonger turning over completely but maybe, just maybe realizing "Holy fuck was I wrong for this shit I did". But this is about Azula specifically. Besides, anytime I talk about Killmonger and shit I get yelled at anyway for slightly pitying the angry fucker.

Azula needed to face her inner demons and it's the act of running from them that pushes her into the familiarity of the illusion of her superiority. It's so easy to be Ozai's champion child, the prodigy, etc. She must be perfect, she must be worthy of the love her father places on her because deep down she knows what it looks like when that love is stripped away. To be "loved" by that man and the fucked up society of the Fire Nation is to be safe.

Zuko is living proof of his love abandoned. The "you can't treat me like Zuko" line is DAMNING. There is a point of awareness where she knows falling in line will keep her safe.

Does that excuse any of her actions? Fuck. No. She knew what the fuck she was doing and took joy in it. There's no way to negate that. She thrived on conquering, she thrived on being the ruthless princess and the power she snatched. To say she's some tortured soul who doesn't know what she's doing is very diminishing to the amazing character she is. To say she had to because of Ozai is to kill her agency as a terrifying villain. And Azula is a horrific villain. That's why I love her. To me, her most powerful moments were her taking control of situations without having to bend. The beating Long Feng with turning of the Dai Li, getting in Sokka's head during the Day of Black Sun and wasting time; the scariest thing is she knows how to take control and bend things to her will. That's what makes her such a great villain and what makes her downfall so damn good. She's losing control, bit by bit and it's slowly driving her mad because control is all she knows. And yes, you can argue this is Ozai's fault. I'm sure Ozai was no doubt a shit father and mentor to Azula. But she is not some UwU babygirl who was forced by her father to do some terrible things. No, she was raised by a horrible person and became a horrible person herself. Point blank.

To be an Azula apologist is to diminish her character.

To me, Azula has an arc. It's a downward spiral and damn is it a good one. She is made to foil Zuko in the terms of parental abuse. Some people learn and thrive in spite of the pain of abuse and others succumb to the abuse and continue the cycle. It's very clear who is representing what. She is meant to fall apart being so close to true familial love and yet pushing herself so far from it. That's why it's Ursa who haunts her at the end. "My mother thinks I'm a monster", "My mother fears me", "Fear is the only way", these thoughts are all she knows and it's been blinding her to making meaningful relationships. In the end, Azula winds up alone, and unloved because of her own making. Somewhere, she knew or even hoped, that she could be loved too, she wants the love that to her only Zuko seems to have since that love is what makes people defy Ozai and her. She never saw that she was deserving of unconditional love or even had it through Ursa and was robbed of that from Ozai. That talk with herself shows that she knows enough that she's got a problem and she shoves that shit down. To hear Ursa tell her she loved her even in her imagination is so contradictory to who she's supposed to be or even who she's trying to be that she has to shatter the suggestion of her mother just to quiet her swirling thoughts.

That conversation with Ursa is a huge inner fight with herself and ultimately a fight she loses as she sobs.

I think a lot of the case of "Azula is still a child" gets conflated with she's innocent. Which is not true. Azula is a child soldier and that is true and tragic, however, she's got massive power due to her upbringing and title. Plus, she's old enough to know her actions have massive consequences. She's a person who thinks for the long term. She's a child, but a brilliant and evil one.

I honestly believe in other AUs where Ursa took both the kids successfully or her being away from her father she would've been an entirely different person maybe even a good person. I do acknowledge where Ozai has his claws in her but I refuse to absolve her for her own actions.

To this day, Azula is one of my favorite characters in Avatar hands down. There are so many different layers to her and I honestly wish sometimes people would truly break down her character like they do her brother, because you would find some great means of how to write a tragic yet arguably irredeemable villain.

Not every villain should be redeemed, should be fixed. But I think every character should be understood.

Azula stans really need to stop projecting the tough childhoods they had unto her. She is not some helpless little girl who never did anything bad on her own accord. Her fangirls are nothing but toxic terfs who think any criticism for them are sins from the patriarchy, please.

Idk enough Azula apologists to say they are all terfs or not, but I think the larger issue is people aren't comfortable rooting for the bad guy anymore. I, personally blame Wicked. I love the show, and I really liked the book, but it kickstarted this trend of What If stories that make villains more sympathetic. In a lot of cases, they just outright flip who was the villain and who was the hero, which is the least interesting thing you could do in terms of exploring a villain character's motives (glaring daggers at you, Maleficent).

No one is all black or all white. Everyone exists in shades of grey, and that includes villains. There's nothing wrong with exploring the grey areas of villains. Some of the best villains in literature are multi-dimensional. Some of them are even sympathetic, but at the end of the day, they are villains and nothing justifies their destruction. The best recent example I can think of is Killmonger from the Black Panther movie. He wasn't wrong to criticize the exploitation of Africa and the Black Diaspora by the West. He wasn't wrong for thinking that Wakanda should've stepped up and intervened. His anger was absolutely justified, but his methods absolutely were not. As an audience we can both love and empathize with Killmonger but also admit he was the villain.

That is, unfortunately, not how a lot of Azula's staunchest defenders approach her. Instead of allowing themselves to feel empathy for her, even though she is definitely in the wrong and has definitely made decisions on her own accord that show her own moral compass is broken, they have to turn her into a victim of circumstance. I think that is actually a very sexist way to look at Azula, though I don't really think for the most part her defenders are trying to be. Azula made choices she didn't have to. She was a child who was likely abused (albeit in a different way from Zuko). She was also an abuser herself, and very ruthless and cunning in her own right. All those things can be true at the same time, but Azula defenders can't seem to accept that.

Now I could speculate on why this is, and personally, I think it's because of this really annoying trend of needing your fandom opinions to align with your morals. I don't have much to base that on, though. I don't spend a ton of time engaging with a lot of people on the opposite end of the fandom from me, so I haven't heard directly from the more rational Azula defenders on why they think the way they do (the ones I've interacted with have been just...the worst and I didn't care to engage with them for long). Even if I did, who is self aware enough to say "my need to defend this villain is because I don't feel comfortable liking them if they are truly bad"? My opinion is based entirely on the posts that I see on my feed sometimes of mutuals getting asks that accuse them of terrible things because of the characters and tropes they like. Also, on the metas I sometimes see explaining how rather than being the villain, Azula was a broken little thing who had been failed by everyone around her, including her brother- who was a child himself, and her uncle- who couldn't have intervened even if he wanted because Azula wouldn't have ever accepted his help.

I could be right, or I could be way off base, but I think if we're ever going to see a decline in the rabid defenders of characters like Azula, we have to get to a point where we can admit we like bad guys without trying to make them heroes. It's okay to like a character and still want to see them defeated in the end. Or to want to see them win, even if it means that evil has triumphed. It doesn't mean anything about you as a person. It just means that you like a good story.

#atla azula #princess azula #she's such an underrated character in some senses #villains #anti Azula stans #not witchcraft #character analysis

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fairestofall · 2 years ago

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In my headcanon, which is confirmed in 1937 novelizations of the Disney film, Snow White attends a finishing school. This aligns with how Snow White seems to have intensive knowledge of how to “ properly “ eat soup, which spoon to use, how to sit, etc. She also seems to have very beautiful manners that have been instilled in her through an education of some sort; there’s an appearance of being learned. I also think there were nuns in this school, for Snow White knows how to perfectly recite prayers, as seen in the “Bless the Seven Little Men” scene, where she’s kneeling beside the bed in superlative form.

I think Snow White has an interesting relationship with religion. I don’t think she has the intensely personal and deep connection with her maker that Aurora, for instance, does. This doesn’t mean I think Snow White is an atheist, or even an agonistic though, but I don’t think she’s a very contemplative person. I think she takes the pleasures of life as they come and she accepts and loves all those around her. She doesn’t harbor animosity or even allow herself to get into patterns of thought where she’s reflecting on her past or the tragedies that have befallen her. When such moments do inflict themselves upon her, they’re as passing clouds. For a moment, they dim her spirits and natural emotions emerge, but then they dissipate and don’t remain in Snow White’s soul. That’s why she would never begrudge another, and why she never journeys through her existence as others might, full of anger and apathy for her fellow human. Such a beautiful pity and empathy for human life remains in her, which otherwise would’ve long been tainted by the horrors of her young life.

Another reason why I think Snow White recites her prayers nightly, despite the fact that whether or not she believes in the potency of them is neither here nor there, is because of upholding tradition and respecting the education that had been afforded to her. Going away to school was the last entreaty she had of her father, and the fact that he consented, and honoring that allowance, seems to be paying her dues to him in a way. Snow White also thinks there’s a reason for tradition, and she abides by it. It connects her with her ancestors she’s never met before. She also does believe in the commandments and think they make for a good human and a good life- ie honor thy neighbor, don’t steal, etc.

#( and she fell in love ).#snow white and the seven dwarfs #if you like snow white 1937 i'd love to talk to you! :)

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puckrph · 4 years ago

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HADESTOWN SENTENCE STARTERS - PT II

taken from the broadway cast album. feel free to change pronouns, etc.

IF IT’S TRUE

‘ is this how the world is? ’ ‘ if it’s true what they say, i’ll be on my way. ’ ‘ everybody knows that walls have ears. ’ ‘ what’s the purpose of a man? ’ ‘ what’s the use of your backbone if you never stand upright? ’ ‘ but who are they to say what the truth is anyway? ’ ‘ the ones who tell the lies are the solemnest to swear. ’ ‘ the ones who load the dice always say the toss is fair. ’ ‘ i’m asking if it’s true. ’ ‘ i believe in us together more than anyone alone. i believe that with each other, we are stronger than we know. ’

HOW LONG?

‘ what are you afraid of? ’ ‘ have a drink, why don’t you? ’ ‘ he has the kind of love for her that you and i once had. ’ ‘ she means nothing to me. ’ ‘ ____, my light. ____, my darkness. ’ ‘ all of my sorrow won’t fit in my chest. it just burns like a fire in the pit of my chest. ’ ‘ nothing comes of wishing on stars. and nothing comes of the songs people sing, however sorry they are. ’ ‘ give them a piece, and they’ll take it all. ’ ‘ what do i care for the logic of kings? ’ ‘ you and your pity don’t fit in my bed. you just burn like a fire in the pit of my bed, and i turn like a bird on a spit in my bed. ’ ‘ how long? just as long as i am your wife. ’ ‘ it’s true, the earth must die. but then the earth comes back to life, and the sun must go on rising. ’

CHANT (REPRISE)

‘ you gotta keep your head low if you wanna keep your head. ’ ‘ if we’re free, tell me why i can’t look in my bother’s eye. ’ ‘ got to hand it to you: guess you don’t scare easy, do you? ’ ‘ are you brave, or stupid? ’ ‘ it takes more than singing songs to keep a woman in your arms. ’ ‘ if you want to hold a woman, hang a chain around her throat made of many carat gold; shackle her from wrist to wrist with sterling silver bracelets; fill her pockets full of stones, precious ones, diamonds; bind her with a golden band. ’ ‘ could i change my fate? ’ ‘ i was left behind. turned on one too many times. ’ ‘ give me one more song. ’ ‘ sing a song for me. make me laugh, make me weep. ’

EPIC III

‘ oh, it’s about me? ’ ‘ i know how it was, because he was like me: a man in love with a woman. ’ ‘ where’d you get that melody? ’ ‘ i didn’t know how, and i didn’t know why, but i knew that i wanted to take you home. ’ ‘ i saw you alone there, against the sky; it was like you were someone i’d always known. ’ ‘ it was like i was holding the world when i held you. like mine were the arms that the whole world was in. ’ ‘ what has become of the heart of that man now that he has everything? ’ ‘ the more you have, the more you hold, the greater the weight of the world on your shoulders; see how you labor beneath that load? afraid to look up, and afraid to let go. ’ ‘ you’ve grown so afraid that he’ll lose what you own. but what you don’t know is that what you’re defending is already gone. ’ ‘ where is the treasure inside of your chest? where is your pleasure? where is your youth? ’ ‘ where is the man with his arms outstretched to the woman he loves with nothing to lose? ’ ‘ you brought the world back into tune is what you did. ’ ‘ you know what they did? they danced. ’

PROMISES

‘ now what do i do? ’ ‘ take me home with you. ’ ‘ let’s go, let’s go right now! ’ ‘ it’s a long road. it’s a long walk. are you sure you wanna go? ’ ‘ i have no ring for your finger. i have no banquet table to lay. i have no bed of feathers, whatever promises i made. ’ ‘ i can’t promise you fair sky above. i can’t promise you kind road below. but i’ll walk beside you, love, any way the wind blows. ’ ‘ i don’t need a ring for my finger. i just need a steady hand to hold. ’ ‘ he can’t say no. ’ ‘ i don’t know where this road will end, but i’ll walk it with you, hand in hand. ’ ‘ do you let me walk with you? and keep on walking, come what will? ’

WORD TO THE WISE

‘ can we go? ’ ‘ gotta think quick, gotta save face. you’re caught between a rock and a hard place. ’ ‘ whatche gonna do now? ’ ‘ if you tell him no, you’re a heartless man. ‘ ‘ you’re gonna have a martyr on your hands. ’ ‘ if you let him go, you’re a spineless king, and you’re never going to get them in line again. ’ ‘ damned if you don’t, damned if you do. the whole damn nation’s watching you. ’ ‘ men are fools. men are frail. give them the rope, and they’ll hang themselves. ’

HIS KISS, THE RIOT

‘ with your kiss, the riot starts. ’ ‘ all my children came here poor, clamoring for bed and board. ’ ‘ have i made myself their lord just to fall upon the sword? ’ ‘ who will lead them? ’ ‘ who lays all our best-laid plans? ’ ‘ she’s out of sight, and he’s out of his mind. ’ ‘ every coward seems courageous in the safety of a crowd. ’ ‘ nothing makes a man so bold as a woman’s smile and a hand to hold. ’

WAIT FOR ME (REPRISE)

‘ well, the good news is, he said that you can go. ’ ‘ it’s a test. ’ ‘ the meanest dog you’ll ever meet, he ain’t the hound dog in the street. he bares some teeth and tears some skin, but that’s the worst of him. the dog you really got to dread is the one that howls inside your head. it’s him whose howling drives men mad, and a mind to its undoing. ’ ‘ wait for me, i’m coming with you. ’ ‘ show the way so we can see. show the way the world could be. ’ ‘ we will follow where you lead. ’ ‘ think they’ll make it? ’ ‘ you let them go. ’ ‘ are we gonna try again? ’ ‘ it’s time for spring. we’ll try again next fall. ’ ‘ wait for me? ’ ‘ you’ve got a lonesome road to walk. ’ ‘ i’ll tell you where the real road lies: between your ears, behind your eyes. that is the path to paradise, and likewise, the road to ruin. ’ ‘ we are not alone. ’

DOUBT COMES IN

‘ the wind is changing. ’ ‘ who am i? ’ ‘ why am i all alone? ’ ‘ are you listening? ’ ‘ i’m right here, and i will be to the end. ’ ‘ who am i against him? why would he let me win? ’ ‘ who am i to think that he wouldn’t deceive me just to make me leave alone? ’ ‘ i used to see the way the world could be, but now the way it is is all i see. ’

ROAD TO HELL (REPRISE)

‘ it’s an old song, and that is how it ends. that’s how it goes. ’ ‘ don’t ask how he could have come so close. the song was written long ago. ’ ‘ it’s a tragedy. ‘ ‘ here’s the thing: to know how it ends, and still begin to sing it again, as if it might turn out this time? i learned that from a friend of mine. ’ ‘ got a match? ’ ‘ he could make you see how the world could be in spite of the way that it is. can you see it? can you hear it? can you feel it like a train? is it coming? is it coming this way? ’

WE RAISE OUR CUPS

‘ pour the wine and raise a cup. ’ ‘ some birds sing when the sun shines bright. my praise is not for them, but the ones who sing in the dead of night: i raise my cup to them. ’ ‘ let all my singing follow you and bring you comfort. ’ ‘ goodnight. ’

#memes.#sentence starters #rp meme #askbox meme #askbox memes #hadestown sentence starters

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surveys-at-your-service · 3 years ago

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Survey #428

“there’s more money in tragedy, more net worth in self-pity / so you’re doubling down inside of your screen, hiding behind attention you seek”

Have you ever told someone, besides family, that you love them and meant it? Yeah. I've told friends that platonically, and I've said it to two people and romantically meant it. Are the blankets that are on your bed now made by someone you know in life? No. Have you seen all The Lord of the Rings movies? I haven't even seen one. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had in 2014? I had one. Can you walk in heels? I mean I can, but I don't like to. What does your mom say about the pictures on your Myspace? First the '14 question, now this... I don't think Mom ever had a Myspace, but I can answer for Facebook. She's always the person to "heart" react them and say something about how "beautiful" I am or something. ;x; What was the last thing you and your parents argued about? Idr. Do you feel your life is at its best? Fuck no. There better be better times than this. What do you worry about the most? The most? That's hard to say... but probably my career future. Or really just the future in general. Have you ever let someone be your everything? "Everything" still feels like an understatement. He was my source of happiness, a massive part of my own identity, and my promise for a better future. It was so, so unhealthy. Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in their arms? Two times, I wanna say? What are some things you do when you’re mad? I get snappy and try to isolate myself to cry it out. How do you feel about your hair right now? I hate itttt. It's getting too long and just boring. I'm hoping I can get up with my hairdresser soon for a trim. What’s an interesting fact about you that not many people know? Uhhhh... I guess that I was a dancer for many years. I feel like I don't really fit the general "aesthetic" of dancers, so people have definitely been surprised to find out I was one. Do you do anything embarrassing when no one is home? No. Just because no one ELSE is there, I'd embarrass my damn self lol. If you had the chance to move to a completely different state/county, would you? Fuck yes I would. Could you ever be friends with someone that broke your heart? It's funny, because that's what the traumatized, overly-attached part of me wants (at the bare minimum), but my common sense knows that's dumb as fuck. I could never healthily be friends with him. Are you scared of fireworks? No, but others are terrified by them, so keep that in mind. Does anyone know every little detail about you? No. You woke up one day and discovered that you were only able to see in black and white… as well as one other colour. What colour would that be and why? I guess red? It sounds morbid for it to be the first thing my mind goes to, but that way, I'd be able to see blood and therefore be able to detect a symptom of danger. What is your favourite soundtrack for a film/video game/television show? (Though feel free to name as many!) Silent Hill 2 and Shadow of the Colossus have fucking LEGENDARY soundtracks. What is your favourite Pokémon? Ninetales! I also really love Espeon and Umbreon, too. And Charmander. And Pikachu. And Skitty. And... well, too many, ha ha. What is something your best friend of the opposite sex does that you can’t stand? He calls me "kid" a lot. Is the last book you read a really well-known book? It's not world-famous or anything, but it seems relatively known by teens/young adults. At least, I follow a lot of artists who make fanart for it. Do you have anything besides just songs downloaded on your iPod? No. When at the beach, do you spend more time on the beach or in the ocean? In the water. I hate the beach itself. Do you have any siblings you absolutely despise? Why do you despise them? No. Have you ever babysat before? Did you enjoy this job? Yes, and no, not at all. Have you ever busted a window before? Why did you bust it? No. Do you still get scared watching old horror movies? You watch them alone? Horror movies pretty much never scare me, never mind old cheesy ones. I don't mind watching them alone. Do knives scare you? Is it from watching scary movies? I'm terrified of big knives, and it has nothing to do with movies. It's a fear that started after Mom stopped me from a suicide attempt where I was going to slit my throat with one. They just radiate danger for me. Have you ever tried to sing opera? Did it work out for you or no? No. What was the last piece of furniture you purchased? I've never bought any furniture, and I don't recall the last thing Mom bought. Have you ever broken up with someone for a reason other than lack of feelings (ex. moving away, etc.)? Yeah; we split because we were essentially two shaky towers leaning against one another. We have to learn to straighten ourselves up independently before that relationship even becomes a "maybe" again. Has anyone ever told you that you are too picky when it comes to the people you date? What about not picky enough? Neither. Was there anything unusual or unique about your birth? Nothing really, besides being born in an icestorm. My birth itself was totally normal, as far as I know. Mom considers it pretty extraordinary though because according to her, I took one look at her and smiled so big. Says a lot about our relationship now. What was the best conversation you’ve had recently? *shrug* What is the next book you are going to read? The book that comes next in the series I'm reading. Who was the last person to do something nice for you? My mom does nice things for me every day, like making dinner, letting me live under her roof... a lot of stuff. Is there any artwork in the room you’re in? Yeah, some of my stuff. Have you ever made out on a couch? Yeah. Someone asks you what you want; what do you say? Happiness. Direction. What was the last thing you complained about? Just being incredibly sore. The gym's kicking my ass, but it needs to, so I'm fine with it. How do you feel when you hear other people complaining? It depends on how frequently and about what. It can become overwhelming sometimes, especially if it's over something truly trivial. Has your name been in someone’s Facebook status lately? No. Do you own any Sims games? Which ones? I have the original animals one, as well as the African animals one (which I surprisingly like less). What was your first job? I was a sales associate at GameStop. Do people praise you for your looks? Yeah, definitely not. Do you like your eyes? No. I wish they were bluer and wider. Tell me what your back pack looks like: My last one was a galaxy texture. What celebrity do you think is hot? HMMMMMMMMMMMM I DON'T KNOW????????????? NEVER SEEN ONE IN MY LIFE O: O: O: Last movie you saw in theatre: The The Lion King remake. Has someone you were dating ever cheated on you? No. What’s the cutest thing someone’s ever done for you? I'd rather not dig through the memories to find what I'd consider the "cutest." What was the last thing you heated up in your microwave? A chicken pesto bowl for lunch. Did you ever watch Phil of the Future? Occasionally, but I was never big on it. Do you have an online game that you play often? I play World of Warcraft pretty much daily. Do you prefer regular or electric toothbrushes? Electric. What was the last thing to piss you off? Truly piss me off, I'm not sure. When and where was the last time you took a picture of yourself? Months ago in my room. I want to take a new one to update my Facebook profile pic, because I think I'm ready to return there. Who was the last person to pay you a compliment or praise? The first day at the gym, Mom told me she was extremely proud of me, and it meant a lot. I truly think I can stick to this, and it's a fucking phenomenal feeling. What’s one thought you have regarding the subject of love? It can be the most beautiful thing in the world, yet simultaneously has the capability to be one of the most painful. Do you think that it’s possible to fall in love at a young age like eleven or twelve? Who am I to say, honestly. I lean towards no because at the age of puberty, you're really all over the place with your hormones and emotions, and I just don't know if it's possible for two pre-teens to have the maturity level to grasp what it truly means to be in love with someone. But again, what do I really know? Everyone is different. Are sex and sexual activities something you enjoy? Yeah sure, if it's something I'm in the mood to engage in and I'm in love with the person. What’s an interesting fact about the state in which you were born? We're the home of Pepsi products. I know, of course I would share a fact about soda, ha ha. What’s one aspect of your life that did not turn out as you expected? Where I am now as far as "adult development" goes. I don't drive. I don't have a job. I still live with my mother. I could go on and on... By this point, I definitely expected something much, much different when I was younger. What was the last event to cause you any sort of heartache? Hm. I don't know. What was the worst phase you’ve ever gone through? *shrug* What excuse did you use most often to skip school? There were times I'd pretend to have a really bad cough. I could fake a nasty cough, man. Are you shy about singing in front of people? Very. Honestly, do you put your elbows on the dinner table? Yes, because why the fuck would that matter. I don't get how something so simple and harmless is "bad manners." Have you ever taken a picture in a public bathroom? No. Yes or no: corsets? I. FUCKING. LOVE. CORSETS. UGH I wish I could pull one off, omfg. In your opinion, is money the root of all evil? All evil? No. There are some horrible crimes people can commit that have nothing to do with money. Do you own a pair of overalls? Ew, no. I hate overalls. What is the best game to play while in the car? Uh, idk. Has a movie ever made you jump in fear? I'm sure at some point. Jumpscares are hard to be unfazed by; it's just a natural reaction to something sudden. Yes or no: pickles? Bro I LOVE pickles. Yes or no: strawberry ice cream? Ugh, no. Do you know what your mom’s favorite movie is? No, actually. Are you a role model to anybody? No fucking way I am. Do you know how much you weighed at birth? Somewhere around six or seven pounds. Look outside the nearest window. What can you see? From where I'm at, I can just see the shed. What are you interested in that most people would be surprised to know? Cutesy, pastel stuff, probably. How many bathrooms are in your house? Two. Do you prefer stripes or polka dots? Polka dots. Are you considered a very sensitive person? Very. Have you ever told someone you never wanted to speak to them again? Yes. What’s the weather like today? Is it nice enough to go outside? It's hot as fuck outside. You will NOT see me outside today. What does your last text message say and who is it from? It's just a thumbs up emoji from the woman who works at my psychiatrist's office. She schedules my phone appointments with him. Do you listen to any podcasts? How do you listen to them? No. Why did you leave your last job? It was WAY too fast-paced with lots of responsibilities that I just couldn't handle. Have you ever eaten at a restaurant and left without paying? No, that's awful. What’s your favorite scent of air freshener? Probably something floral and subtle. Are your hands and feet in good condition or could you do with a mani-pedi? Ugh. I pick my fingernails off badly, so they're a mess rn. I also DISDAIN my feet because they are horribly callused from when I used to walk like crazy. It's so weird how I can exfoliate the area and scrub (... and sometimes tear) them off, but they're pretty much immediately back. When was the last time you played a board game? What did you play? A couple years ago with Girt and Sara, I think. We played Scrabble. How old were you when you first became sexually active? Do you mean like, doing anything sexual? In which case that would be 16. I woulda been 16 or 17 when I actually lost my virginity, though. Do you know anyone who has been through a divorce? A load of people. Does anyone not know somebody? Have you ever done a juice cleanse? No. Do you have to pay for parking in most places in the town/city you live in? No. That's a foreign concept here. It's one of the very alien things I experienced in Chicago; I don't really think I knew it was a thing (save for massive attractions, like Disney Word and stuff) before then. Can you hear lots of traffic from your house? Does it bother you? No. We live in a cul-de-sac, and our road is further into it, away from the main road.

#survey #surveys #random questions #lyrics: ''thoughts & prayers" by motionless in white

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gayregis · 4 years ago

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Do you have any thoughts on TWN using non polish actors to portray characters from polish fantasy book with dense polish culture and roots? And on how most of the cast apperereance are drastically different than in the books? Like Foltest, Renfri, Fringilla or Calanthe? (Sorry this is the correct one, i forgot to add Fringilla on my previous question.)

i feel like the witcher should not be handled by a large american company like netflix. it is clear that a lot of decisions were made to “dumb the series down” in a manner that would make it more of a pop culture phenomenon that could be used to profit off of from viewership, subscriptions, social buzz, and merchandise, instead of an opportunity to demonstrate actual artistry, storytelling, character depth, and poignant messages. the company that handles it CAN be american or another nationality besides polish, but it shouldn’t be a huge one focused on making as much money and social sharability as possible, that will ruin things. (i also feel like the witcher should not be a live-action adaptation, but this is kind of besides the point... to better gauge how i think the feel of a visual-audial witcher adaptation should look, my dream adaptation would be that of a more “adult version” (”adult” meaning in themes like war and despair) studio ghibli or laika).

in regards to casting, i feel like it’s fine to not use an all polish cast as long as they fit the character description in a way that is actually relevant to the plot. so many people in response to people of color being cast in the witcher were volalitely racist and demanded a “polish cast” - as if polish MUST = white. even though poland is not as ethically diverse as some other european countries, people of color do exist in poland, as they/we exist everywhere. if you want an “all-polish cast and production,” that’s fine to me, i don’t think it’s inherently necessary, but i think if one is doing so, that doesn’t mean that it would be wrong to cast actors of color in roles.

i think the issue lies more with storytellng, for two reasons. one is that eastern european people involved on set seem to actually understand the witcher and what it’s about way better than any of the british cast, and by that i mean sakharov and baginski, who have demonstrated more understanding of like, the style of storytelling (not every scene needs to be jammed with action, drama, sex, gore), what the characters actually mean to each other, and the lore in general. this makes sense because i have read some articles and such before about how the witcher was and is important to its fans in poland and eastern europe because very little “slavic fantasy” ever gets exported and represented internationally, and of course sapkowski involved many cultural references in the series, so it’s recognizable to people from those regions (or are diaspora from those regions) who grew up hearing these fairytales, etc. it’s more of a meaningful callback and less of a “foreign curiosity,” if that makes sense. so for those reasons, i think it’s important to have a majority polish and/or slavic writing room/directors/etc, people behind the story and how the story is told - but that doesn’t mean the writer’s room should be all white men, though. diversity in gender, race, etc should be considered.

the other reason is that the casting for the netflix is inaccurate, but not for reasons of race. the issue with anya chalotra as yennefer isn’t that she is indian, it’s that her hair is incredibly straight and flat and not like yennefer’s curly stormy hair at all, and that her face is so soft and childlike, she doesn’t look stern and cold like yennefer at all. there are many casting issues amongst the white members of cast, such as henry cavill, who doesn’t fit the description of geralt at all because geralt looks like he’s starved constantly, and joey batey, who ... well, dandelion is supposed to be blonde and curly long-haired... but of course, these are the appearances which don’t really “matter” in regards to the story. except i think geralt’s build, as well as yennefer and ciri’s proximity in age, which makes me nauseous to think about how they only have a 6 year age difference

one physical description which does actually matter to the plot/lore is that of calanthe, pavetta, and ciri, as they are a matrelineal line, but in netflix, they don’t look related at all. i saw so many people complaining that they should have chosen a white actress for calanthe, but why is she the problem? why not cast people of color for calanthe, pavetta, and ciri altogether? they should look related and have the ashen grey hair/green eyes, but that doesn’t mean they have to be white. it’s a similar issue with yennefer and fringilla. they are supposed to look similar, and i saw many people complaining that they chose mimi who is black to be fringilla, they are just using “they need to look similar” as an excuse to hide their racism and anti-blackness, because anya is more white-passing than mimi is. from my perspective, why not then cast a black actress who looks similar to mimi as yennefer, then? “they need to look similar” again does not mean “they need to all be white or white-passing.”

we should have cast actors that both fit the descriptions of the characters in the books AND are diverse, without it being “random diversity to appeal to a diverse audience.” lauren thought she was so clever by throwing the actors of color in the roles of background characters, stereotypes, forgettable and disposable aides to the white leads, or super evil villains... i see what you did... why not center actors of color in an actually proud and leading light, with lead roles, where the casting makes sense and isn’t there for tokenization that does nothing to empower people of color? actually incorporate people of color into your artistic projects in a way that respects them and makes sense and not just so you can get more views to make more money

other divergences from canon like foltest were just piss-poor and demonstrated the lack of understanding about the messages of the story. foltest was supposed to be handsome, elegant, and as a refined a king as any, to show how those in power are actually corrupt and as prone to disgusting acts as any other human being, that foltest is not a better man than geralt because he is beautiful and sits on a throne. by making him disgusting on the outside, they totally missed the point that he is supposed to mask his disgustingness on the inside with beauty on the outside. also i feel like (maybe related) twn really made a whole joke out of foltest and his relationship to his sister because in one of the flashbacks (in the sorcerer? gala? party?) foltest is shown as a kid with his sister and his mom grabs his arm or whatever and is like “foltest stop bothering your sister” as like some kind of fucking joke... literally they made a “funny ahaha incest joke” like seriously wtf. the story of the striga in particular should be taken seriously imo because of how rawly the tragedy is depicted... this is probably why it’s one of my least favorite short stories... its so sad and also incest disgusts me horribly

for renfri i feel like she was just sooooo ... more “likable” as a character, a lot like how yennefer’s character was changed. you feel feelings of pity and curiosity towards her rather than actually being intimidated by her. renfri in the books actually made me so mad because i think she represents something like what ciri goes through across the saga, just how when you have the choice on how to respond to your abuse, you can easily become consumed with revenge, and i think renfri made me think of myself in that way so i really disliked it when they changed this terrifying raw aspect of her anguish and hunger for retrubution that made her lose her humanity into like, more of a palatable manner of killing... it really was just “girl with sword” and it was so boring. the lesser evil literally makes my stomach turn and that’s why i only read the story like once as well...

also to return to fringilla, i liked mimi and i thought she should have been cast for yennefer instead maybe.... i just was really upset at how much they changed fringilla’s character in the writing to be a “generic evil villain” when in the series she actually is kind of unique in my opinion. she is like, not allied at all with the main characters, but ends up saving both yennefer and geralt’s lives. she’s not good or bad, she’s not super loyal to the empire but she is still nilfgaardian/beauclairoise, and she just exists as a character and that’s why i actually like her in the books (asides from all of the unnecessary library nonsense). i thought mimi could have handled that complex role really well but they totally took that away from her and just made her a flat boring forgettable “evil” character that does “forbidden black magic” and is super loyal to an empire that brought her purpose because yennefer was mean to her once or smth ig... yeah ok. also i fucking hate how they had cahir of all fucking people order her around. idk how old cahir is supposed to be in netflix because he’s obviously not like 16-20 as he would be in canon during this time period, but to have him be the boss of fringilla... that is dumb as hell. i just try and think about that ever occuring with books verse cahir and fringilla and i think she would smack him off of his horse and into the mud. she’d tell assire and assire would get mawr to drag him off by his ear as he tries not to cry. also of course i hate cahir’s casting and the fact that they showed his face. why. it ruins like every message that his character had...

oh also because i HAVE to talk about it. i hate how they tried to make jaskier more masculine/boyish with not giving joey a wig or flamboyant setting-appropriate garb, i think they are allergic to men with long hair that’s not a grime, dirt-covered mess... literally just give half of the production wigs or better wigs i swear to god ... also like this is totally for another post but i don’t think making jaskier a flirt is inherently misogynistic like he acts in the books at times. like just write the misogynistic bits out and it’s fine... flirtatiousness is not evil when it’s consensual and appreciated ... i think they just really wanted geralt to be the one that gets large amounts of p*ssy because he’s muscular or w/e and jaskier became this sort of helpless annoying barnacle on his side instead of a real character and friend to him. and to bring this point back to the main point , i think character appearance really affects their characterization: jaskier in twn has short, boyish hair with no facial hair, which makes him look kind of juvenile, jaskier in the books has curly long hair with some light facial hair, which kind of brings up ehhh what would you call it... 70s casanova energies maybe, a man that puts oils in his hair and such, male thottery...

#the witcher netflix #anon #ask

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underceruleanwater · 5 years ago

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You know why I dont sympathize with Oh Soo Ah? She used someone’s pain, misery and struggle in life to gain her position today. I guess my conscience and my “realistic” personality do not give me enough sympathy to accept (not to be mistaken with understanding) her decisions. For me she has none of conscience, but a lot of pity for herself. And then she looks to the guy, whom’s tragedy in life brought her “golden ticket” right in the eyes and has guts to hear him consoling her, understanding her, not blaming her, saying she just lives her life and etc. And actually agreeing with him. I’m sorry, but just lol. In my opinion person with real conscience would never let any of those words escape from his mouth. She would never mislead him in any way, that there is something about their nostalgic past left between them. Person with real “guilt” would make it clear, that she was never on his side and never will be. And I don’t think she has enough excuses in her life to turn out to be the way she is. I don’t feel anything appealing in person, who puts face and smiles, to just then go and “flash your belongings in the toilet” and then makes you feel bad and guilty for trying to be nice, because of her own problems. I wouldn’t wanna that type of person beside me. Probably that’s why while I appreciate her as a character in the story, I don’t sympathize with her, I don’t like her or accept her decisions. And I don’t think everything can be justified as “she is surviving”, when she had plenty of other options and she could’ve done just as good, if not better in her life. Also I don’t like, when people who like Oh Soo Ah tries to shift blame on Park Sae Roy either. That’s just big no-no.

#itaewon class #park seo joon #park seo jun #kwon nara #kim dami #oh soo ah #jo yi seo

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inknose · 4 years ago

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mdzs read diary part IV, the end

It’s inspiring how much self care wwx is gonna finally get now that his husband will go along with whatever he does, so he’s gotta look out for lwj’s well being if not his own. that is emphatically the STUFF

dragging my hands down I face as I read this, after all these chapters of getting up close and personal with ghouls bleeding from every orifice, slaying ancient beasts, rebelling against the entire cultivation world, the two of them are absolutely paralyzed by middle school crush sleepover math

chicken

he actually drew kissy doodles .... he....

IDK I THINK I JUST DOCUMENTED THIS PART CUZ I WAS STILL SCREAMING you cant expect me to have very useful things to say at this point

this is torture you are both so mushy you are so GONE

This part really stood out to me, it’s an attitude I feel like wwx implies with his inner narration a few times but most clearly says here: he’s not one for allowing himself to exaggerate how bad his circumstances are/could be even a little bit - he’s already lived through some extreme low points and found a way to keep going, so he never makes sweeping statements about what he couldn’t live without (Inner JingYi: you’re supposed to say you’d be lost without him here!!!) Instead he seems to accept as a given that being alive doesn’t guarantee him any pleasantness or joy at all, and as a result his feelings toward being in TRUE LOVE are surprisingly pragmatic, but also colored with such gratitude. There are a lot of things in the novel that struck me, like this, as being just a little to the left of familiar tropes/sentiments, and were more touching for it. Whether it be the influence of culture difference as opposed to what I’m used to reading in most western romance stories, or MXTX’s unique outlook, or a combination of both, it was really refreshing and made me pause over it. Not “I can’t imagine living without you” but “I could be living without you, but instead I get to be with you and I think that’s the best thing that could happen.”

ADJFDKFJ THE UST BEING SO STRONG THAT EVEN THE VILLAIN COMMENTS ON IT IN THE MIDDLE OF EXECUTING HIS EVIL PLANS IS ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT WILL NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME LAUGH MY ASS OFF. hes like god damn! here I thought I had problems

it was at this moment that I realized we were doing this Now... I’m still recovering. What a scene. I am so glad I saw the most incredible fanart soon afterwards, bc the fact that someone has already drawn a perfect comic of this part means I don’t have to

I love you so much, you are so annoying, you are perfect... I like how he’s been experiencing openly requited love for all of ten minutes but he’s already figured out how to weaponize it to piss people off

doing!!! his!!! job!!!!!

ahh... it’s a really good story. JGY is a great character. One of the most interesting differences for me between drama watching vs. novel reading experience is that without an actor to bat his vulnerable doe eyes at you and smile faintly with his cute dimples, the book does not go much out of its way to try to lull the reader into a false sense of security around him or *endear* him to you the way the show does. But just by seeing events through wei wuxian’s POV, its still enough to evoke pity or understanding towards him. The overall impression is a bit more detached though, there’s less emphasis on the spectacle of how he could manipulate everyone closest to him and more of a general feeling of resigned tragedy that everyones the worst on this bitch of an earth.

I CANNOT DEAL WITH YOU FOR EVEN ONE MORE SECOND!!!!

I clearly paused to take note of less and less parts at the end & the extras due to: a) too excited to reach the end b) too spicy to photograph and c) too sleepy cuz I kept reading in the middle of the night. but I absolutely took the time for Bro We Are Teens appreciation corner:

I’d absolutely read 40 more extra chapters of their monster-of-the-week field trip antics.

god... poor Jin Ling now basically has to deal with divorced parents that talk shit about each other to him whenever he is saying with one of them. except they are both his uncles. just a disasterhood of all uncles from start to finish. AUUUGH wei wuxian and jiang cheng have fucked me up completely, I dream of them reconciling but I also REFUSE to believe it would ever be easy. let me know if theres a fanfic that absolutely tortures you for decades before they hug

HAHAHA oh no this man ain’t making it to immortality thats for damn sure. HE’S JUST GONNA TRY AS HARD AS HE CAN HIS WHOLE LIFE NOT TO LOOK AT HIM BUT THEYRE *MARRIED* SDLKFJSF ohhhh it’s too funny, like... the mundane domestic family drama IN the fantastical swords and sorcery setting is what really ratchets up these things from amusing to fucking hilarious I think

aaaa the end... final random thoughts? No not final, I would like to please keep discussing at length and exhaustively, all the time please - CQL has gotta be one of the best TV adaptations I’ve seen. ANY adaptation of anything would be lucky to be so good!! reading the novel has just made me appreciate it even more.

- I don’t think I can do justice to what I find most fascinating about comparing the two versions briefly, to do that I need to get drunk and ramble at my friends for hours but... the condensed version is something like this. Really all the significant differences between the two versions (besides the ones which can be attributed to censorship and therefore aren’t worth discussing) are a side effect of the structure of how the story is told - there’s barely anything changed arbitrarily. Aside from having a cold opening, the drama sticks to a very linear version of the story, and I think for a TV show or film, that’s probably the best way to do it. We see everything, we get shocked and tricked and betrayed and surprised along with the characters, we feel the biggest impact at the climactic scenes having experienced all the build-up. The novel on the other hand is not only much more non-linear in WHEN we learn bits and pieces of information, but that information is also obfuscated under wei wuxian’s multiple layers of Unreliable Narratoritis, which are as follows: 1) difficulty remembering things because of personality/avoiding painful memories/actual memory loss, 2) No Homo Goggles still on, and 3) a wry sense of humor that makes the reader unsure of how much they can trust his attitude toward things, especially near the beginning. The experience of reading is a puzzle the reader has to mentally piece together through all of the above listed camouflage, and the puzzle itself is a three-sided mystery: One - How Bad of a guy was Wei WuXian really, and how exactly did all the bad stuff in his life go down; Two - wangxian epic pride & prejudice gambits; Three - political murder mystery. (I love stories like this btw... though I fully admit I’m glad I watched first this time bc it might have taken me a long time to tackle otherwise.) Because of this, where the drama wants to pull you in and submerge you in all the most potent emotional parts, the novel in direct contrast deliberately side-steps around these things and asks that you hurt yourself by filling in the blanks. In fact the more intense emotions and painful memories involved, whether it be his relationship with jiang yanli, his DEATH, the darkest days of war times etc, the more the novel evasively withholds details. I actually really like both styles of storytelling but each one is obviously way better suited to its medium. ANYWAY.... THATS BASICALLY WHERE MY BRAINS AT WHILE IM READING GAY SWORD WIZARD BOOKS

- The extras are so saturated with domestic married bliss that it’s a good thing I stopped taking pictures because I’d just take a picture of every page. this is too much for me to take... I did jump the gun a few times and read a few fanfics while I was still mid-read of the book (I tried to hold out but alas I am mortal) and at one point after finishing I was like “wow what fic was it in where lwj says something cute and wwx kisses him in public but they’re in the corner of the restaurant so no one really sees... OH NO WAIT that was actually in there.” and ... and that’s the LEAST OF IT... *stares into the distance* theyre married wow

- I ofc couldn’t help but see a few vague blogs beforehand so honestly I was braced for something like, wildly ooc for the sake of porn to happen in the extras... I definitely appreciate how the incense burner porn interludes could be uhhh a lot for many people and not my personal cup of tea in terms of smut however [here follows the words of a poisonous frog who has dwelt her whole life in the rainforests of BL] the concept is also surprisingly SWEET SDFLKJF like wwx sees lan wangji’s darkest mixed-up violent teenage fantasies and he’s just like aww babe you had a crush on me!! just... good for them

- I swear I’m not gonna rehash every cute married thing they do but wei wuxian grading papers in the tub........................rEALLY GOT ME

- I want to Draw - ok thats enough if I keep going I’ll just write “wei wuxian grading papers in the tub” seven more times probably

#mdzs readthru #this obviously has many spoilers

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dulcetminds · 5 years ago

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some (concept) playlists

find my spotify here ✨ & my fandom character/ship playlists

this page is updated monthly!!!!

💫 monthly, yearly & get to know me playlists:

monthly mixtape: updated daily and refreshed every month with no correlation to anything what so ever.

twentytwenty: a song for each day of the year

the soundtrack to my life

my favourites

pass the aux cord, fool: car vibes

🍾🌉 playlists based off cliché concepts:

coming of age indie romcom soundtrack: cigeratte burns on film, a first kiss that tastes like beer and chapstick, and laughter falling on train tracks

not another coming of age soundtrack: red party cups and the never-ending feeling of nostalgia

Mother Nature reclaims: a soft apocalypse mix

tragedy in the dark: set in the 90's, you're driving at night on the highway, passing under street signs and street lights that illuminate your lovers tired face as they trace circles on your thigh

rise up!: (a futuristic teenage rebellion playlist) you live in a world full of holograms and plastic food, the government is corrupt and somewhere out there is a bunch of rebels that are fighting back

an angels kiss in spring: it’s the roaring 40′s and you hit the town in bold red lipstick, curled hair, flared dresses & traditional swing

a wispy field of sunshine: there's something alluring about falling in love under the sun, sipping on raspberry lemonade & kissing someone who tastes like chapstick

the air is fresh out here: i am lost beneath the earth; dirt and moss fill my lungs and i cough up ivy and rose petals as the trees whisper my name so soft, it gets caught in the wing of a butterfly floating by

3am dancing with my lover: fairylights are hung low around the kitchen, my lover has tired eyes full of wonder and we trip over our own two feet, laughter pumping our hearts alive

the last dancers at midnight: my prom could have been better so we're gonna visualise it like a teen romance movie; tired feet, starry eyes & a tender kiss under the disco ball in your high-schools' hall

even my phone misses your call: 'hey, this is [redacted] please leave your message after the beep!'

you’re so nice to come home to: finally moving into a small apartment with your lover; succulents adorn the windowsills and you both have a love for vintage polaroids and dream catchers — a dreamers dream

I've been in love with you forever: best friends that live next door to each other & know one another like the back of their hand, connected windows, rooftop talks, sleepovers, & everything that comes along with we're best friends & i don't want that to change but i am definitely in love with you

found you in this life: my mother once told me that some of the people we meet in this life, we knew in a past life and it’s up to us to decide where it goes from here

raspberry stains: spring flings includes squashing raspberries between finger & thumb, and dancing under the sun

rollerskating disco rink fever: we're twelve years young & there's a disco ball highlighting our hair as we dance the night away & i'm pretty sure we've happened to scuff the linoleum floor

endless summer afternoon: hopping from shadow to shadow, blisters on our feet; summer, summer, summer!

summer ate me alive: and I want nothing more than to sleep through the next three seasons

ragtag band of misfits from the year ‘87: group of four trying to solve the murder mystery of their late best friend / everyone’s hiding something / he might be in love with the boy he’s known since childhood

[our hands are brushing against each other as we walk]: i want to slow dance with you in the middle of the street

hey, new kid!: its highschool and life is full of rumours and giggling girls & boys with sharp teeth and then english class rolls around ━━ and did the principal just introduce a new student?

🧚🏻‍♀️ specific concept playlists (mostly based on moments and emotions that I've experienced & can’t get over):

head’s a buzz!: stoned out of my mind, I'm pretty sure I met the girl of my dreams last night

I should be sleeping: but i am walking aimlessly under street lights trying to forget your face, your taste, your voice; with vodka stained cheeks and chipped nail polish

pity party for two: the sudden realisation that the future is scary and we're two lost souls stuck in love with people who helped us grow

we’re under the same stars: It’s talking under the stars till the sun breaks through the trees with him, who makes your stomach ache full of laughter and although the wind is cold against your skin and the sleeping bag is thin, he burns just as brightly as the stars in the night sky, and you want to exist between 3 and 4am forever.

I fell in love for one night: he kissed my shoulder & held me tight

moments left unsaid: I love every part of you when it’s loud, when it’s silent, when you don’t know it at all (basically falling in love with your friends in the moment over the smallest of things like the way they dip their head back to laugh or hide their smile behind their hand or when they slow down waiting for you to catch up or pull you aside to ask if you’re doing okay, etc)

angel in disguise: can angels fall in love?

skate park shenanigans: I spent a the hours 8-11pm at a skatepark with my friends and we don’t even skate but this is the specific energy those hours gave off

you’re dreaming beside me: & I’m dreaming of you

how to be soft, sad & content at 4pm

I wish we could live forever: knowing someone you love is gonna die is the one of the hardest things you’re ever gonna witness

remember when we were in love?: 2015: yellow. open roads. a boy. a girl. my house. high school musical. clouds. stars. a pillow. sunflowers. beauty and the beast. skype calls. a bear. / 2017: a girl. blue, blue, blue. / 2019: a girl. a boy. picnics. skateboards. burgers. your house. an empty promise.

the pretty reckless: my friends fall in love too easily

the ceiling is staring back at me: it’s 1am and I'm thinking about everything and anything

me against the world, vol. 1

me & my apathetic brain: basically Russian roulette with I’ll die anyway by girl in red & just a girl by no doubt

🏳️‍🌈🌈 lgbt+ playlists:

this is for the gays!: for pride month 2019, gay bops to rock your socks to

all I see is her: girls r great!

we should fall in love or something: just kidding... haha... unless?

I don’t wanna b ur friend, I wanna kiss ur neck: yeah, it’s based off I wanna be your girlfriend by girl in red & also my ex but we’re gonna take the former

please look at me the same!: my bisexual teen angst

🦋🏹 ‘old groovy, 70′s, 80′s, 90′s etc music’ playlists:

butterfly dust: old time music that goes together

groovy, groovy: 70′s, 80′s, 90′s

lovestrucklovestruck: nothing goes wrong when you live in your head

she’s gold dipped & cherry wine kisses

funky glow

🥁🍒 genre specific playlists:

metamorphic: rock n roll

devils advocate: it’s like white noise before you enter hell (mostly ghostemane)

you’re not indie till: you skate, own a pair of hot converses, have good fashion taste, drink ice coffee and and and

monsters live amongst us: hiding in plain sight, the people we call our friends / a horror pop playlist

hazy affection: anxiety reducing songs and study beats

softly, sweetly: relax your eyes & dream of simpler times

bubblegum pop: the radio is overrated but here we are

glazed eyes, cherry skies

darkness looms overhead

magic under fingernails / under veins

state of mind: kinda like rap but not, definitely an easy listen to while stoned

moon rockets: fly me to outer space where we’ll become another star in the night sky.

dream & folk pop

my dreams reach the stars: my mind is far away from here / starry-eyed and captivated

local neighbourhood party: songs I'd bang my head to at a party

heavenly hymns

fluorescent heartbeats

take me away, into the night

if you see me listening to this, look away: literally Disney musicals mainly Disney’s descendants & zombies

autumnal breeze: a mix of bedroom pop & 80′s tunes

blueberry feelings: is this soundlcoud or tiktok?

untamed glory: the songs dont vibe together as well as they should but i guess thats ironic given the name of this mixtape

all strung up: my favourite female pop songs & then there's sunflower, vol. 6 by harry styles

candyfloss kisses: baby pop

and that’s on tiktok luv: literally what it says

candle lit afternoons: candles + rain = a gentle quiet in it’s purest form

tenderness: soft, quiet, yielding; murmurs at dusk & the playing of hair

my bed is the warmest place: for rainy days & the chill in your nose

🚀🍁🍓 playlists to listen to when your doing this specific thing:

classic picnic bitch: (cute songs that give me picnic vibes) and we bond over a pack of UNO cards and strawberry-filled desserts

beach bums, baby!: a beach-y playlist

hotboxing ur friends car: get high w/ me!

🥺💫🌞🌻🤩🐝 playlists to grow & fall in love with yourself to:

falling in love w/ myself !!!!!: I'm still learning how I work

then I defy you, stars!

seventeen: I made this when I was seventeen and getting over my first heartbreak and realising that I should never wait for people who can only give half back

no negative vibes here!

💌💖 my romance / love centred playlists:

dancing in my room to the sound of you, you, you (middle school crush vibes)

love cluster: and i guess there are lot of love songs out there but there are also a lot of songs that aren't about love that got me feeling like i'm in love so which is it

lovelorn: (a unrequited love playlist) and we yearn for the hearts we cannot hold; lovelorn, lovelorn, lovelorn

our love has gone cold: I love & I loved

whimsical lovers falling out of love

baby boy blues: fell in love for a day with a boy whose smile is contagious and ever-lasting

you gave me panic attacks & I called it love: unsure if you’re in an unhealthy relationship? leave them.

regret in the simplest of forms: I could have loved you / I think a small part of me did

my favourite ‘what if’: soulmates who weren’t meant to be

seeking love among cruel hearts: perhaps we were friends first and lovers second. but then perhaps this is what lovers are.

it’s a long way down from your window: everyone’s favourite secret relationship trope

heartbreak hotel

i’m yearning for his heart while he gives me his body: I love you, don’t you love me too?

make out w/ me?: songs I'd kill to make out with someone too

miss you forever: sad pop love letter

I liked you better in my dreams: the idea of them has taken root in your mind and it’s much different to how they really are

little bit in love with u: alterous attraction? we KNOW her

drowsy cacophony of love

tracing you back to the roots of my house: I'm sifting through the memories of us, where did we go wrong?

love; a choice or a feeling?: and it is both I suppose, it is a feeling, it’s happiness and soft giggles, faint blush. and then it is a choice, a choice to stay with them or leave. it is a choice to not only love them, but yourself too.

tenderly, tragically: this used to be a collab playlist with someone who loved me fully and unconditionally, things have changed since, but this is whats left; it's our story compiled into a playlist

second chance at love: you make me hard, but she makes me weak

lonely in love: (it was supposed to be just casual sex but fuck, I think I'm in love with you)

silent lovers: skinny love (n.) a type of love where two people are in love with each other but are too shy to admit it

my first love: they say your first love never dies, and love, they’re right

my lover is a liar: victim to broken promises and false truths by a boy who died when he gave me his heart

love locket type of love: I loved you in secret !!

the charms of love: don’t fall in love with the moment & think your in love with the girl! (yes, she’s american by the 1975 lyrics)

almost lovers

💸💄💅🏻⛓ playlists that give off bad bitch energy:

rich girl$: my cash flow will never ever end

kiss the boys n make em die!: femme fatale, girl revolution, girl power

GIRLS. FOOD. GEAR: loosely inspired by people by the 1975

girl, interrupted

you’re like a rhinestone pick-up line: picture this — a girl with a hard attitude that you can’t just seem to get off your mind

back on my bullshit: just got my heartbroken; revamped!

👻👽 my halloween inspired playlists:

hallohalloween: basic halloween playlist

the fae know my name: humans beware the manic pixies & lip curling fae for although they don't lie they are cunning creatures with kind eyes!

frothy vampire chick meets soft green witch: red fanged lover & a green house full of potions, spells & succulents

sirens lament: sharp teeth hidden under a pretty face

murder at the casino: (in breaking news: monster hunters just cant seem to catch a break!)

the howling

witchy renaissance

fuckin vampires, man!

🥀 if I were series (playlists that only feature one artist based off something specific):

if I were to dance in a faerie ring to hozier songs: maybe I want to fall in love with a faerie and be under Hozier’s rule

if I were to live my teenage years to Lorde songs

if I were to get high by the beach to skeggs songs: BIG greening out energy

if I were to fall in love to tom rosenthal songs: tom rosenthal songs that make me feel like I'm in love!!

if I were to reminisce about heartbreak to LANY songs:

Hogwarts Houses:

🌻 Hufflepuff

🥊 Gryffindor

🐍 Slytherin

📘 Ravenclaw

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maladaptive-ninja-returns · 5 years ago

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Devil’s No 1(10)

Chapter 10: Present

Loki x fem!Reader, Bucky x fem!Reader

Theme: The definitions of devils, angels, demons etc. are twisted here in this world. But some things remain the same.

Series: Will contain violence, death, destruction, softness, fluff, smut, everything that my mind can conjure, really.

Chapter warnings: Alcohol, smoking, effects of depression, broken hearts.

A/N: This was written two years ago (I think) on @phantomrose96 ‘s prompt/situation of a shy girl summoning the devil to be friends with him (and something else that he does but I’ll leave that part out for you guys to have fun with). But I- being thirsty for tragedies- twisted things a little.

Word Count: I don’t have anything today

MASTERLIST in bio, love. Tags are open

Hearts.

Accelerated breaths.

Synched beats.

Sweat and smoke.

Gazes running up and down you and your companion, taking you apart layer by layer.

Times like these, you were glad to have him by your side. In the sea of strangers, bringing your gaze back to him again and again, making sure he was right behind you, as close as you could keep him.

A brief brush of fingers on your waist and you felt- what felt like the very first time- these miniature sparks light your back at the thought of the devil's touch.

"Loki."

Your breathy whisper could not be heard over the music, that was for sure. But you did not bother. He was powerful enough to hear your heart rate at this point, right?

The grasp of the those fingers seemed to start running low on your waist, down your spine, making you catch your breath and turn around to face him but finding a stranger in his stead, pulling you to him, bringing your bodies closer than possible, your nostrils flaring at the smell of alcohol spilling from him ruthlessly on to you.

This time your breaths were getting faster for a completely different reason. "Loki!" You heard yourself shouting over the loud music, trying to pull yourself away from that stranger.

"Is that your safeword, sweet cheeks?" The husky voice- too rough for your nerves- sang in your ears, not budging even a little against your weak body.

Oh, the irony, your inner couldn't help but laugh at this. Safewords that are deadly? Indeed.

"Let me go," you wanted to rage but the moisture welling up in your eyes was betraying you. So was the aching shiver that your body was feeling. But that stranger ground into you, never bothering with the punches and withering anger in your words.

"You have to be worse than me to touch a woman without her consent."

Head whipped towards the source of that siren voice- one in relief, other in annoyance. Green eyes glowed in the darkness of this dull place while thin lips smirked at the scared Y/E/C eyes.

This time it did not take much to leave the unwanted embrace of this unruly excuse of a man to skip to Loki's side. "Do not leave me like that," you spewed at him while glaring at those smaragdines.

Anger. Loki could taste that around you along with those minty grains of relief. He liked it- that flavour. It left a good aftertaste on his taste buds. This made a part of him wonder if you'd taste the same. Or better? Another part of him glared down this unriveted feeling. She is just another soul. A little different, but a soul for his consumption nonetheless.

What he did not want to register to his multidimensional being was this flurry he felt whenever you intentionally came close to him; as you did right now, opening your tightly shut fist to run your fingers over his long coat, gripping hard on the seams, your back right into his chest not caring much for boundaries in the moment when you looked at that gruff stranger. He watched you- something he wanted to do while pausing time but right now he had something he wanted to take care of. Curse these pitiful humans.

There was a sudden chill in the stuffy club, sauntering onto the floor out of nowhere, greeting that stranger before wrapping itself all over him, making him curl into a ball on the floor, throwing curses at the barely amused angel before wobbling to the exit.

"Now," Loki declared softly, "shall we?"

One moment he was right next to you; the very next he vanished. So did the music hammering pins inside your skull, to be replaced by silence, humans paused on the dance floor, at the bar, in the lounge. No soul moved. None except the devil sitting high on the most comfortable sofa with a view of everything.

"Play however you like it." His voice echoed through the building.

...what.

Music. Drinks. Crowd. Everything was in your hands. At first, it was a mixture of shock and fear to witness the room filled with the music you wanted, the fragrance you preferred, the drinks you wanted to be served, the crowd that was decent enough. But as the night progressed, the lo-fi jazzy beats seemed to be simmering the heating waves of the place just the right amount. Loki sat on his throne, observing you, never moving a muscle- a surprise for you if you were honest. You thought he would be bored out of this dimension by now. Even if he was, he wasn't giving it away.

The whiplash this place was giving you had been too much; and so, the four drinks had been taken as a remedy.

I bet my liver hates me right now, you thought for a second before taking down a shot of tequila, letting the expensive brand go down your throat relatively smoothly, making the entire building swerve.

Better. So much better.

Wait, your inner voice popped out, I know what can make this ten times better.

The next thing you knew, a man was sitting beside you, a thin sheet of paper kept on the counter while he crushed and mixed this concoction in another before transferring it onto the paper, rolling it, lighting it up and offering it to you.

"...I-"

"It's the cleanest stuff," the man said, handing you the blunt before walking off.

"I don't...I don't know how to smoke," you declared softly, more for yourself than for him, before taking a drag, letting it go inside your lungs and coughing them out while cursing yourself. But that didn't stop you from trying again. And again. And again, till the swerving room seemed lighter and brighter than before. The once dull lights now glowed with shimmering rainbows, creating kaleidoscopic patterns, the dust falling with the tunes around you, the liquids in the bar creating music of their own.

Everything felt so...light.

Your insides seemed less tighter, relaxing you for the first time in a long while. You could feel the heat in your cheeks, the rusty taste of that blunt, the coldness of that marble of the counter. You could feel it all.

Giggles erupted involuntarily, surprising you and the angel sitting in the dark.

"Ohhh, so this what you wanted, huh?" You stated in Loki's direction- even though you couldn't see him clearly, courtesy of that herb you just offered your lungs. "Me doing stuff I wouldn't normally do. Mm. You really are the devil. God! I cannot believe for the first time in ages I feel-" you inhaled and close your eyes, the look almost orgasmic- "so good. So. Good. And I cannot believe it's when I meet the Devil! I hate myself so much right now. I hate that this is the first time I can see myself thinking straight even though I can't stand straight enough. I hate that I'm at the brink of my end I get to come back-" you looked around at the place in tones of melancholic nostalgia- "here. I hate that my life is in ruins and I do not have one ounce of energy to make it right." Your voice rose higher despite you still riding on that wave of relaxation, the frustration pouring out from your words. "And I hate that I brought you here and I HATE THAT IT FEELS SO GOOD!"

Your words rang through the walls, almost silencing everything. You tried to catch your breath. "I hate you, Loki," your broken voice stated between blurry eyes, "I hate it so much that I like it."

You never heard the footsteps but you did feel his presence. It was not hard to notice the void that came to surround you whenever he was around. And his void seemed much more expendable than your own.

"There's no need to seed the guilt in the ground, my love."

His voice sends your neurons into current of bliss. Why? Why of all the damned things in this world, does he feel so...

"This world created complexities to keep your soul in check." He removed that one wild strand of your hair away from your face, letting your skin feel his cold touch; the coldness you were already leaning into. "Pity that it takes so many cracks to realise nothing is holding you back from living like they don't want you to."

His thumb ran over your excessively heated cheeks, taking that single tear falling down, absorbing it.

"I don't like this world," you sobbed through the pieces of your heart, never wanting that cool touch to be separated from your skin, "I cannot take the hurt anymore. It's too much. I'm not made for this. Take me."

Loki tsked while stroking you cheek, taking the other one in his other hand, feeling you heave a sigh of exhaustion. "No, my love," he rendered softly, "this world is not made for you." And it is high time those ethereal beings realised that.

Your hands curled around his wrists, letting his bitter skin drink in their scorched surfaces. "What am I supposed to do, Loki?"

‘Twas a flutter. A flutter seen in those green eyes as their prolonged gaze on you shivers. The cause? The breathy exhale of his name through those swollen lips. What in heaven is this unexplainable curiosity towards this woman?

"You're supposed to do what your heart desires," he announced just for you, making you look up towards his face that was nothing but flawless in your eyes, incomparable to anything in this world, "you're supposed to break away the chains of that which hurts and stops you. You are meant to soar through the galaxies, darling. But for now, you just have to wish. I will do and undo that which you seek, my precious mortal."

You eyes were a dark pool that the devil felt obliged to dive into; scour the deepest trenches and find the welcoming darkness to play with, find out what your deepest fears were, discover those human chains formed inside you to break them with a snap and watch the world burn as you broke free. He wanted to witness it all. Because if anyone he had seen be worthy of bringing chaos down on this world, it was y-

"Sing for me."

Silence. The devil blinked.

"...I beg your pardon?"

The man standing behind the marimba pulled up his sleeves and readied his bars, turning towards the spotlight.

Loki walked on the platform into the light, standing close to the microphone, basking in the attention of the crowd patiently waiting to hear him. But he was concerned with the one who had just walked through the crowd, gone up a few steps to sit right where he had; something inside him feeling a positive trepidation at the sight of you sitting up there. He was already imagining you in a fashion much more suitable to his drive.

Green eyes gave one look to the man, who nodded and inhaled before striking his marimba to produce a low rhythm of beats that were alleviating to the ears till one stressed long enough to hear the ominous note they carried.

Loki smiled in your direction, letting his pale slender finger wrap around the mic and inhale for the first verse.

I'm in too deep You're the fix I've come to need Ooh no, look what you've done to me

Magic. Pure magic poured from those lips. A waterfall you were willing to drown in.

You caught me off guard Then tore my world apart Ooh no, this thing has gone too far

You forgot how to breathe. This was nothing your ears had heard before. And those words directed at you were not helping at all. Is that what sirens sounded to the pirates?

It's too late I can't escape

Was that supposed to mean something? You did not know. You could only wait and find out. A blink later there was nothing on the platform but a presence right next to you.

Only a devil like you Could make me sin like I do I've got a weakness I am a fool For a devil For a devil like you For a devil like you

A finger teased your skin, almost making you curl back into your private space. But that didn't stop the devil from making you arch your back at the presence of his fingers on your back, with him sitting behind you- you in between his legs. Curse those magical hands. Curse that devious brain.

You're guilty, as charged My soul bares the marks Ooh no, I'm just as bad as you are You are my wicked thrill

The words were whispered right into your ears, while hands wrap themselves around your waist, your own fingers digging into the cushion of the seat to stop you from doing something you might regret.

I just can't get my fill Ooh no, this kind of living could kill It's too late I can't escape

You turned to face him, wanting to breathe in more of that face up close. But just as you did, he disappeared again, to come back on the platform, those green eyes lighting up on watching you trying to find him.

Only a devil like you Could make me sin like I do I've got a weakness I am a fool For a devil For a devil like you For a devil like you

He was mocking you. Watching you trying your best to bring your breathing back to normal- something you had long forgotten. But what surprised him midst the performance was you getting up, staring him down to your fill, never letting your stare waver even as you came down the steps, the crowd dispersing to make way for you, watching go for the stairs of the platform, stepping up and walking towards him.

Only a devil like you Could make me sin like I do I've got a weakness I am a fool For a devil For a devil like you

With every step closer to him, the resolve in your eyes got stronger.

For a devil like you

Loki could see you not stop. Those slow and steady steps of your testing the Devil's patience. He turned towards the crowd, the grip on the mic getting a tad tighter.

For a devil like you

He did not see it coming. Your thoughts unknown to him. Your eyes an opaque curtain for anyone who was trying to look beneath. And you? You were done calculating. What would one more regret do to me tonight. He can't kill me twice.

For a devil like you

The verse barely ended from his lips when your fingers were grasping his chin, bringing your lips onto his. Even though time worked differently for Hell's Overlord, it seemed to let out a muted gasp and make everything still for the Devil to register the voluntary taste of those lips on his vessel, finding the true sweetness underneath the wretched alcohol and smoke. And when that wasn't enough, he was stirred by the unnamed introduction of your tongue on his lips, leaving time to cower in fear for what was to happen next.

For the first time in the history of mankind, the Devil had been shut up for good.

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kuronekonerochan · 5 years ago

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Very messy thoughts about a very messy kdrama: Melting Me Softly

Overall:

I loved the premise...it looked like the kind of ridiculous over the top kdrama that could make for an interesting entertaining watch...unfortunately it is just badly executed. It doesn't know what it wants to be. The action syfy part is confusing, there is no emotional weigh over the tragedy of losing 20 years of life on the part of the Male Lead, although we feel it with the FL(who, by the way, is the only good part of the drama as far as acting goes, despite having little to work with), and even the jokes don't land because the supposed funny side characters are either too annoying and terrible people or they are too pathetic and I pity them instead of finding any of it funny (like the scenes with his family).

Melting me softly is a mess. Honestly with only just how all over the place the pilot was most ppl would have drop it then, but ji chang wook is soooo pretty and it's his comeback after military, still.... lord, is the drama bad.

The syfy element is a mess, the characters are all shallow and unlikable in the few scenes we had with them so far (except the FL who seems nice enough but hasn't had that much to do yet).

The Characters:

JCW is surprisingly unlikable for me and it's not even that he's the cliche jerk. Surprisingly it’s even worse because he’s just boring as a character. He’s not nice, but he doesn’t go out of his way to be cruel so that he can be redeemable later.

Nope, he’s just arrogant and entitled and he interacts with everyone mostly by casting judgmental side eye and being kind of uninterested in anyone else. Not in a charming megalo centric way (like the Lead from What’s Wrong With Secretary Kim, who was a good person despite his ego), but in a dismissive everyday style that makes him all the more unlikable. What’s worse is that it’s even more evident with his family, who are problematic and a bit clingly and “golddigging/leaching” but still they seem to like each other enough in their own weird way. The lead though, treats his family coldly, like a disgusted spectator and it’s hard to watch. There is no chemistry between him and the rest of the cast because the character treats everyone like they’re not worthy of his respect.

That scene where the leads meet and she’s upset over losing 20 years of her life? - I automatically went: *eyeroll Ugh, Men... It's not all about you everytime. You convinced her, effed up her life, own it and stop making excuses! The right thing to do is apologize and shut the f up!

The side characters, as I said are all either pathetic or terrible people, with the exception of the female lead’s family, who seem to be in a different, better acted drama. The shift in tone is jarring.

The Plot:

The plot is a complete mess and the main conflict so far is stupid. His producing team (that ended up convincing his gf) decided to hush things up in the past because outrage, audience ratings, yada yada and that's it! Yet it’s super confusing bc it seems like they are hiding what they did from him and scheming behind his back, while at the same time it's obvious he knows they threw him under the bus back them, so where’s the conflict? Also it's petty and the real villains involved with the cryoproject and the attack on the scientist are still just a vague concept that the drama clearly wont go into anytime soon, so it all seems like filler.

To top it all, last episode's cliffhanger is about their previous romantic interests (who are now in their 40s) reconnecting when one of them is married and the other cover up the ML's disappearance, so it's all just more annoying filler I have no interest in watching...

The production design/ technical aspects:

The technical aspects are also bad, especially the editing...scenes are chopped off and put together and seem cut short or pointless. Time is also weird, they mix office scenes with home scenes from ML and random FL scenes without parallels and it's impossible to make out when the days start and end. It's been a while since I saw such messy execution from the production. Usually it's stuff like plot or characters or acting that bothers me, at most camera work, but here it really is the production as a whole.

What I meant by parallels is that when you are starting to tell a narrative with two leads from their separate povs before they are onscreen together, there's usually an editing order:

Both leads wake up, both leads wander away. Ok so far. Both leads reconnect with family. Scene of FL at home with family followed by scene with ML with family. New day starts. Day 1: looking for answers: contacting the police, talking to the last ppl involved in the experience, etc. Sequencial scenes showing how each go about finding answers in their own way (the method helps to start establishing character and personality differences between the leads). ML does that, but for some reason the FL doesn't? (Maybe here a nightime scene each with the family to further develop feelings/angst and exposition of changes in family dinamics and events that happened while they were gone.) Next is trying to get back the life they left behind. Again, sequencial scenes of his workplace and in this case her university.

And with that we get the feeling a few days have passed and they went around on their parallel journeys. But here it's all jumbled and mashed together. He keeps talking to the people from his network in random chopped talks where it feels like he doesn't ask everything logically just so the drama can have another different scene with them later, he is home, his family is a mess but that isn't even edited in contrast to the scenes of her family for juxtaposition...and he seems to have more scenes than her and hers fall randomly out of nowhere and without logic. After being discharged from the hospital and talking to her family, why wouldn't her first reaction be trying to find him and ask what the hell happened? Instead she goes around, even returns to college before going to him? The drama and the leads seem to walk around in circles without purpose. The transitions are also lowsy...usually all the driving in kdramas is too much but here it is lacking. The ML jumping around from the hospital, to the network, to the (most baffling) secret patient room where the scientist is without us knowing how he got there is distracting. Besides, those small driving scenes are important for character interaction and development: either with phone calls that allow us to see a more intimate side of the characters, how he takes things when nobody is watching, or with another person in the car communicating, or even just silent rides with body language and expression giving us a glimpse of their state of mind.... without any of this, by just appearing in places and doing things, the characters seem shallow and incomplete.

Minor complaints:

They made the choice to make the 2nd Female lead kind of bitchy, greedy and backstabbing by having her agree to the cover up and her decision of not telling him immediately what she had done now and apologize (when her younger self seemed much sweeter than that). I feel like the drama has barely begun and they already did her dirty by choosing to go that way with her character after her introduction on the pilot. Also, typecast of the actress playing her older self... she always plays a bitch (she's very good at it but I wanted to see her on a softer role). I wouldn’t mind if this were a noona romance, since so far the leads have zero chemistry together. To be fair, there wasn’t any with the 2nd female lead, or JCW and any other character in a non romatic way either, in fact, except for the kid niece who actually seems to get a genuine reaction out of him.

Plus we know from K2 that JCW and noonas have better chemistry ;)

At least I wish they had given her a better arc, for example, the girlfriend who was left behind, because of how it went down, never got over her love for him. They could have a romantic interest for her who she met after the lead was frozen, and the two had become very close over the years but she couldn't move on... they could give her closure so she'd finally realize in her heart how she felt about her own romantic interest without it being clouded with guilt and unresolved feelings for the lead.

@kdramaxoxo

#kdrama #kdrama rant #kdrama edit #melting me softly #ji chang wook

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the-loststone · 6 years ago

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The Tragedy of Daenerys

So to start off, I do want to say I’ve read a lot of comments and analysis of Daenerys’ character, both in the books and in the shows, so I’ll be referencing many of those.

Daenerys is a phenomenal character. She’s one of the greatest literary characters and on screen you can’t help but admire her. She’s done so many incredible things. She survived the Dothraki and earned their respect and love. She freed thousands of slaves and earned their loyalty and devotion. She survived abuse from her brother and being on the run throughout her childhood. She’s someone who the minute we are introduced to her, we sympathize with her. We pity her and then grow to admire her strength.

It’s a clear change from other female characters when first introduced in the series. We either hate Cersei the moment we meet her, feel compassion for Catelyn’s grief, adore Arya’s grit and rebellious nature, or are annoyed with Sansa’s preteen behavior. Daenerys is a clear favorite among many when compared.

So that’s why we are frustrated to see this change in direction in the shows. But it is sadly the direction they have always intended on going. D&D are on their final season and they are clearly rushing things, and packing as much in as possible. Their mistake is not giving us enough time to really see the transition of Daenerys going from liberator to conqueror. We see instances of it in other seasons, but it is subtle so many people brush it off. Who cares that she doesn’t respect Meereenese when they were slavers, or that her attitude of the end justifies the means isn’t really cohesive with her agenda to break the wheel.

But the truth has been staring at us in the face the entire time. Daenerys is a conqueror. She learned to lead from the Dothraki, and while she rightly was against the atrocities they committed (in the show more than in the books) she still exemplifies their nomadic behavior.

Her character has a background of seeking home. At one point we thought it was with the Dothraki, but then Drogo dies and the comet that appears when the eggs hatch gives her a new purpose/destination. From there she keeps moving. All the while, her goal is to the Iron Throne/Westeros. A place that she’s never actually been, and knows little about besides what she heard from her brother. But it’s her last tie to what she believes is home and family (especially since the house with the red door isn’t something she believes she can return to).

She passes through cities, liberating slaves in Astapor and Yunkai, before settling for a moment in Meereen. The decision to settle in Meereen is based on the fact that she learns the cities she did liberate have fallen to chaos. So she stays to try to rule. Only she’s frustrated because she believes this isn’t her purpose. Daily governance isn’t what she believes she should be doing, and her eye is constantly on the horizon, towards Westeros.

And that’s the tragedy.

In Meereen, she had a purpose. She was bring freedom to slaves, she had the love of the people, the love of a man. Peace was something she could achieve if she applied herself. If she started acting less like a conqueror and more like the queen she claims she is. She could have had everything she wanted. But she rejects it for the illusion of a place that had moved on without her.

Arriving in Westeros, she was not foolish enough to believe that she would be greeted by the common folk with open arms like her brother was. However, she continues her quest for the throne because that is what she believes is her destiny.

But the main issue is this: there are no slaves to free in Westeros. There is only the terrible legacy her father and house left her with.

So Daenerys realizes (her advisors tell her) she can’t pull an Aegon the Conqueror on the people, because then that will just make them unite against her as it would confirm she’s there to reestablish the same pattern of either madness or greatness that her ancestors did (and madness usually was something people remembered more than greatness). But she’s there to convince them she will break the wheel, end the cycle of tyranny. Only she’s using dragons and intimidation to do it. Using the “live in my new world, or die in your old one” slogan that she used in Meereen. And Jon said it himself (paraphrasing) that you’re not something new if people are afraid of you.

So why are we still on her side. Because she’s not entirely wrong. The Tarly’s, for instance took up arms against her, killed her allies and are with her enemies. But they were her prisoners and she chose to execute them when they didn’t kneel. Right now everyone is pissed at Cersei for killing Missandei (and rightly, fuck Cersei), but Missandei didn’t kneel to Cersei, they took up arms against her and etc. Hindsight, would have been great for a trade of hostages if either of them were still alive. But that’s one of the things about game of thrones that people need to remember (and that D&D did admittedly kind of drop the ball on it in S7), actions have consequences. And Daenerys, thanks to her dragons, hasn’t felt the consequences of many of her actions for a while.

But we are still on her side because we know she’s not evil. She certainly didn’t start that way. And she just help save the North, despite their frosty attitude towards her and her people. Which is another distinction. She doesn’t consider the people of Westeros HER people. The ones who follow her are, but everyone else is either an ally or an enemy. She’s still not familiar enough with Westeros to properly call it that. Or to even call it home. (Something she said upon arriving on Dragonstone is that it didn’t feel like home despite her expectations, and she hopes arriving in the Red Keep would. But why? Both are Targaryen holdfasts, so why would the Red Keep be home and Dragonstone isn’t?)

This season we’ve only seen Daenerys lose. It’s not something we’re used to. She’s alienated by the people, her closest advisors are dead, her Westerosi advisors doubt her, and two of her children are dead. She’s falling on a path that many are uncomfortable with, and we’re wondering why the change of pace, why let Cersei have more victories right now. But Cersei fell down this path too (at least in the show, the books is TBD). Yes we hated her the entire time, but she lost her children, she’s gone absolutely insane with grief, and lust for power that had been beyond her reach for most of her life. She’s been obsessed with the Iron Throne most of her life because she thinks it will bring her the happiness she wants and the control over her life, just like Daenerys. And it’s sad.

Even if Daenerys wins, she’ll be completely changed by these events, what she had to go through to achieve the Iron Throne that she’ll be unhinged. Even if she hadn’t endured that loss, Daenerys wouldn’t have found the home or happiness she wanted on the Iron Throne. Westeros is too vast, the people are too different from one another, different cultures everywhere, that it can’t be ruled effectively by one person. This is why there have been so many rebellions during the Targaryen rule, and why the North wants its independence. The Iron Throne is toxic and kingdoms deserve their independence. No matter Daenerys’ intentions of creating a new form of governance (one which the show has never actually given us an actual description of or even really talked about besides ‘breaking the wheel’) it can’t be done with all 7 kingdoms unified under one banner. And with Daenerys’ struggles in Meereen, it will be even harder with 7 kingdoms to manage, something I personally don’t think she’s capable of.

I saw a review (can’t remember who but it was on Youtube and after episode 4) that compared Daenerys to Anakin Skywalker. I think that’s really true. Anakin was a good child, he was raised a slave, treated brutally, emotionally abused by the Jedi order when he was constantly told he was too emotional and to suppress his nature. He experienced his mother dying in his dreams for weeks and told to ignore it and when he finally couldn’t he held his mother die in his arms. He becomes obsessed with never having to experience that again and determine to grow more powerful to avoid it, only to fulfill the next prophecy by being a leading cause to his secret wife’s death and murdering a bunch of children. ... I still love Anakin and I love the trashbag that is Darth Vader, no matter how much of a complete drama queen psychopath that guy is. Just as I love Daenerys and even when she becomes unhinged I’ll still love her to some respect but I can’t hide from myself that this has been her journey.

Are D&D rushing it, most certainly. I would have liked maybe another few seasons so we can actually see the progression more clearly instead of having her lose everything in a matter of weeks (show times it was minutes for us). But I’ve accepted the inevitable a while ago (something I think more people would if they read the books too.)

By the way, it’s okay to love a conqueror if you want. Just maybe don’t be in denial about it and paint her out to be some innocent victim in everything. Because she’s not.

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makeste · 6 years ago

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BnHA Chapter 172: Festival Planning and New Attack Training

Previously on BnHA: We spent some time with Gentle, our New Villain who commits chivalrous crimes to punish the worst scum of society, such as guys who sell expired pudding. He’s not as popular as that trendy League of Villains because he’s not big on violence. But he does have a new project up his sleeves! Meanwhile at U.A., class A got to work planning their cultural festival program. Jirou was in need of a drummer, and Bakugou somehow ended up getting volunteered. Turns out he’s actually pretty good, but he was reluctant to perform because he overheard some jerks from the department of gen ed talking shit about class A and blaming them for starting trouble all the time. So he wasn’t keen on the idea of performing to indulge these people. However he is on board to aggressively “knock them dead with his sound”, whatever that means! Everyone was like “...well all right then!” And everything was looking up. And then we found out that Gentle plans to invade U.A. during the festival. Because apparently we can never have nice things.

Today on BnHA: Jirou recruits the rest of the band members: Momo on keyboard, Tokoyami and Kaminari on guitar, and her own self on vocals. A handful of kids -- Todoroki, Kirishima, Sero, Kouda, and Aoyama -- are assigned to the “staging” team in charge of making everything look cool. And the rest of the kids are assigned to the Dance Team, including IIDA FUCKING TENYA, because when I tell you guys this manga always delivers everything I want, I mean ev.ery.thing. With that settled, Deku meets with All Might the next day and discusses his recent progress (or lack thereof) with One for All. All Might tells Deku he needs to develop a long-range attack, and they head out to the woods for some training. Deku learns that 20% Full Cowl gives him enough power to unleash wind pressure attacks. And with a little nudging, All Might gets Deku to realize he can create a new attack by activating 20% OFA in specific parts of his body, the way he did back before he mastered Full Cowl. Then to end the chapter, we cut to Aizawa and Mirio, who are bringing Eri to visit U.A. for the very first time.

(As always, all comments not marked with an ETA are my unspoiled reactions from my first readthrough of this chapter. I’ve read up through chapter 199 now, so any ETAs will reflect that.)

look who knows how to play the piano because she’s so stinkin’ rich!

MOMOJIROU IS ALIVE AND WELL, PEOPLE

oh my god look how cute she is

look how cute they are. GOD THIS IS THE BEST

Jirou says she’s gonna be on bass, so they just have guitar and vocals left!

cool cool. they can get literally anyone to do those and I’ll be happy. anyone EXCEPT Iida, that is. because Iida needs to be on that dance floor you guys

lol Todoroki

I’m fucking dying. Todoroki is nailing that space alien combination of “knows just enough to ask oddly specific questions while still somehow being totally naive and clueless”

Mina is explaining to those unaware that “staging” refers to things that set the atmosphere, such as disco balls, sparklers, streamers, etc.

I wonder if putting Aoyama in charge of that would lead to success or disaster

ooh, apparently Aizawa made arrangements to borrow the gym! so they’ll really have room to go nuts

I have no idea what’s going on in Mina’s head you guys but omg

yes. yes. I can see it now

this girl has a fucking VISION and she will not be deterred

TEAM SNOWMAN

okay so I’m fairly convinced now that Mina might actually be a creative genius and they should really let her loose more often in training. let that imagination go wild and see where it takes you. she could come up with some extremely unpredictable strategies. I’m serious

amazingly, no one is even arguing this except for Aoyama lol. he’s standing there all “I’m the disco ball?” while the rest of them are all “oh is this what you meant by teaming up? cool beans”

(ETA: no one argued it because this is literally what they ended up doing. pretty sure the staging team had one planning meeting and were all “okay, so basically just do all that stuff Mina said?” and agreed on it and then spent the rest of the month playing on their phones while pretending to work real hard. they didn’t even bother to work out the actual logistics of it until basically the night before. this is why Deku hadn’t checked that fucking rope you guys.)

I want to save this panel and use it as a meme reaction image omg

and that clack you see is the sound of the intern kids finally returning from their supplementary courses!

they’re excited to also get in on this!

Ochako is surprised that Jirou’s not singing!

-- oh no

when I said “literally anyone” I should have been just slightly more specific huh

oh thank god they’re making these guys try out first

I can’t fucking wait to see this in the anime omg

Hagakure says that Jirou’s singing is actually amazing and she thinks she should be on vocals

but Jirou really doesn’t want to and says it’s just gonna complicate things

but they’re all encouraging her!

oh my god she’s gonna do it!

AND THEY ALL LOVE IT

can’t fucking wait. omg. it’s gonna be like a whole year, but hopefully it’ll be worth it

so now Jirou says they need two guitarists

Kaminari is volunteering which is GREAT because Jirou and Momo are already there, so yeah

but Mineta is also volunteering which is. less great

oh my god

at this point the list of people I ship Bakugou with is significantly longer than the list of people I don’t ship him with, I think

OH NO MINETA CAN’T REACH THE FRET BOARD “BECAUSE OF HIS CHARACTER DESIGN.” OH WHAT A TRAGEDY. OH WELL

sometimes Horikoshi does nice things. I’ll admit

GASP

YESSSSSSSSSSS

THIS IS AMAZINGGGG. DREAM BAND. RIGHT HERE

Mineta is sulking and the girls are taking pity on him, and honestly I don’t mind it. weirdly. because it’s one of the few times he’s not being a little troll. he just looks small and sad

MAYBE I’M JUST FEELING GENEROUS TODAY. Mineta, you can exist today

like, even when Mina offers him a “harem part”, he doesn’t turn completely gross, he just kind of goes red a bit. I’m completely fine with this. Horikoshi can write this toned down version of Mineta and I’m cool with it. but I’m sure it won’t last though. alas

(ETA: my biggest problem with Mineta is that he beat Mirio in that goddamn poll his character has no purpose other than being obnoxious. he literally has no other personality traits besides “pervert.” if Horikoshi made even the slightest attempt to tone down that bullshit and actually try to do more with him I’d probably make more of an effort to at least tolerate him. but alas, that ship has sailed I think.)

holy shit how late did they stay up planning this??

you actually got Bakugou to stay up 5 whole hours past his bedtime. incredible

AND HERE THEY ARE

do you guys think Bakugou knows how to do that thing where you twirl the drumstick around on your fingers

also if he doesn’t get to shout “WE ARE SEX BOB-OMB!!!! ONE TWO THREE FOUR!” then I will forever be upset about the opportunity wasted. in fact, it’s happening in my mind whether Horikoshi likes it or not. that is canon. prove me wrong

(ETA: I have my own mental version of this entire performance and let me tell you, it is very specific)

AND IIDA FUCKING TENYA IS ON THE DANCE TEAM! WE DID IT TUMBLR

I’m gonna play some Yeah Yeah Yeahs because right now that’s kind of my mental image for what the band might sound like lol

so now we’re cutting to the break room the next day and Izuku is having some tea with dad

it’s very cute but also All Might’s wondering if Deku had something he specifically wanted to talk to him about, since he’s meeting up with him at such a busy time

geez All Might can’t a boy just have some TEA with his DAD without being INTERROGATED, GEEZ

but also he’s 100% right to ask, and he does it so gently so that Deku can either take the invitation to talk, or decline politely if he so chooses. All Might really is the best

sure enough, Deku does have something on his mind!

he’s telling All Might about how he was able to bring out 20% of OFA under duress, but only for a short time, and even then it put a ton of strain on his body. not only that but it wasn’t even enough to win

so he’s trying to figure out how he should fight in the current situation, since he can’t master 100% yet

um whoa

say what now??

I mean like, obviously yes, that would be ideal. but are you implying that there’s some sort of obvious long-range move he should be able to figure out?

Izuku says he wants to learn how to do a weather-altering technique (and I forgot All Might could do those; has he even done it since the opening chapter?), but right now he’s not able yet

but All Might says he has “a few other...” and then he trails off

and he’s saying they should change locations

omg. I’m so hyped!?!

so now they’re in a forested area on the school grounds, and Deku has changed into his gym uniform

is this still during school hours. and Deku still has those supplemental lessons on top of that. All Might doesn’t have any classes he’s supposed to be teaching either? just drop all of your fucking responsibilities then why don’t you

All Might is telling Deku to break out 20% full cowl, and Deku is hesitating

“YEAH!! IT’S FINE!” lol okay then

so here we go!

this is always so badass. and I appreciate it so much more when it’s not in the context of a super dragged out fight coming on the tail end of 40 chapters of nonsense

:D what’s he gonna doooo

WHOA

UH, DAMN!?

DEKU DID YOU NOT REALIZE THAT YOU HAD BECOME A TOTAL FUCKING BADASS??!

Deku is wincing though and he’s saying “but in any case, my body’s...”

but All Might is wagging a finger in a knowing way and he’s telling Deku to look back at his journey

damn we got like a powerpoint and everything

does Deku’s mind just naturally think this way. because he’s trained it through all of that obsessive note-taking. I realize this is mostly for our benefit, but it really wouldn’t surprise me if his thoughts actually were this organized

anyways his eyes are widening, because he’s clearly drawn some conclusion from this pattern that I have yet to see! I don’t have a big hero brain like you Deku

GASP

All Might says he wasn’t always bringing out 100% himself??

oh shit

so since he is capable of holding 20% briefly without doing permanent damage to himself, then if he combines points two and six -- drawing out 20% OFA to a specific part of his body -- then he can utilize this badass new air attack!

though All Might says it’s gonna be harder than it sounds, and that it requires significantly more nuanced control

so Deku’s thinking that he’s gonna practice with his fingers

oh god

I’m still traumatized from that fight against Todoroki honestly. I look at this and can’t help but think “oh shit he’s gonna snap them all one by one” oh my god. it’s making me very uncomfortable even though I’m fully aware it’s not actually going to happen. Deku you’ve fucked me up

oh snap and we’re fast-forwarding to the day of the cultural fest!!

(ETA: lol no, I just thought this because I saw Eri there. jumped the gun just a bit)

OH MY GODDD

MIRIO IS THE SWEETEST, PUREST, GENTLEST, KINDEST SOUL ON PLANET EARTH AND IT’S SO DAMN GREAT

DON’T THINK I DIDN’T NOTICE THE BACK OF YOUR HEAD THERE, AIZAWA SHOUTA. OBVIOUSLY YOU HAD TO BE THERE WHEN THEY WENT TO PICK HER UP

ERIIIIII

SHE’S SO CUTE!! WEARING DIFFERENT CLOTHES FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER!! DID THEY GET HER FUCKING SHOES OMG

SHE’S GONNA HAVE SUCH A GREAT TIME AT CLASS A’S DANCE PARTY. OR AT LEAST SHE FUCKING BETTER. GENTLE I S2G IF YOU FUCK THIS UP... [THROAT-SLITTING GESTURE!!!]

oh my god. I’m so excited oh shit

BONUS:

IT’S ERI’S PROFILE YOU GUYSSSSS. I’m gonna link to it over on aitaikimochi’s tumblr! here!

THIS OUTFIT IS THE CUTEST EVER. I’m gonna gush over it some more in tomorrow’s recap too. it’s just so cute

the clothes Aizawa got her just go to prove that no one is perfect. having some flaws just adds to his charm though

I also want to see Eri eating apples with Tokoyami now

so she is indeed six! my approximate guess was right! however as of where the manga currently is, she’s just about to turn seven. she’s getting so big! they have to figure out what to do about school for her. although her dad is a teacher so

#bnha #boku no hero academia #ashido mina #jirou kyouka #class 1-a #midoriya izuku #all might #bnha spoilers #mha spoilers #makeste reads bnha #tag yourself #I'm the staging team #none of that 'hard work' and 'practicing' nonsense for me #procrastinating all the way until the night before is where it's at

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ashes-ofariandel · 6 years ago

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My uncle has died and while looking for a way to distract my sad brain, i found this post with da oc asks and i decided to do them all lol

For reference, this is the post. All credit goes to this person!!! My oc is Valynne Mahariel, Hunter of the Sabrae Clan, Grey Warden, Hero of Ferelden, Warden-Commander of Amaranthine, and one Spymaster’s girlfriend

Elfroot: What is a small, mundane thing that brings your character great comfort?:: Valynne carries two pendants around her neck at all times, if possible. One is the amulet filled with Darkspawn blood from her Joining, a constant reminder of her oath as a Grey Warden. Then she carries another amulet- a locket with a small painting of her dearly beloved Ashra. And while Valynne has moved on, she still carries the picture close to her heart so that she may never forget her. Whenever Valynne feels weak; be it mentally, physically, or emotionally, she tends to stroke the small amulet because the small gesture gives her strength to carry on.

Blood Lotus: Is your character a lightweight when it comes to intoxicating substances? How did they come across this fact?:: Valynne considers herself a heavyweight when it comes to spirits. However, it only takes a few shots to really loosen the Elf up to have a good time. Maybe too much of a good time. Depending on circumstances, i.e. Is she drinking on an empty stomach?? Drinking too fast?? She also has a small body and it really doesn’t take much for her to lose her inhibitions. In her younger years, with her Dalish brothers and sisters, they’d steal casks of liquors from either Shem settlements or from their elders, and they’d all get drunk in the forest in the middle of the night. Valynne couldn’t recall the events of that might to this day, though from other accounts she ended up vomiting while hanging upside down from a branch.... She’s obviously improved her tolerance with age and experience.

Spindleweed: Had your character ever been grievously wounded or ill before? What was their memory of that occasion?:: In her line of jobs, Valynne has never not gotten injured. A jab here, a slash there, it never ended and so what was the point of remembering? Her worst, however, was when she had been captured in Fort Drakon and underwent this harrowing torture that lasted weeks before she had been found by Alistair and his companions after they escaped Lothering. Valynne had miraculously survived daily lashings, beatings, and other various tortures while captured. And unfortunately, the Elf remembers each and every second of those weeks in that dungeon vividly. And she wants to forget- Creators, she begs for release from these memories, yet they remain. Her worst is when they tore her left ear off with a serrated knife unevenly.

Deathroot: What is the most horrifying thing the Nightmare can cause your character to see?:: Valynne doesn’t see more then she hears them. The voices of her clan, of Ashra and of Duncan. All those who she feels like she has failed. She hears the disappointment in their voices as they call out to her. “Vhenen.” Ashra’s voice carries into her ear. “Why didn’t you save me? Look what I’ve become. It’s your fault.” And while Valynne knows without a doubt that Ashra would never put such blame on her shoulders, her voice is too real to shake off and forget. Even afterwards Valynne is haunted by Ashra’s voice, too real and too recent, like she had never died over a decade ago.

Deep Mushroom: What act does your character consider morally foul but practically necessary? Does your character condone morally foul actions for practicality’s or necessity’s sake at all?:: Valynne believes that any methods are acceptable to get a job done. For example, she doesn’t see the concern in blood magic to get something done, though she only finds blood magic acceptable if the blood is taken from a willing victim.

Embrium: What is the kindest thing anyone had ever done to your character, and do they remember or even know it happened?:: Duncan’s patience with her was possibly the kindest that Valynne has ever experienced from someone outside of her clan. As a junior Grey Warden Valynne was headstrong and unflinchingly arrogant. She thought that she knew everything there was to know and was unstoppable. Valynne had survived the Joining! She killed dangerous Darkspawn! She was a force to be reckoned with, and the young Elf let anyone and everyone know. And boy, did this get her into some nasty confrontations with others, and Duncan had always been there to bail her out. Even up to the very end, after she had practically spit on him and called him every insult she had known back then, the Shemlen was patient and accepting, never blowing up at her or losing his patience. If only Valynne could have voiced her thanks to him, or even better, had apologized for her behavior back then.

Rashvine: Who/what is the one thing or person your character simply cannot stand?:: She hates pity. Pitying looks, actions, it doesn't matter. Pity comes from vulnerability, and while there are always good times for tender moments, pity is never good in her opinion. It always comes because a person doesn't know how to react or respond. She also can't stand frivolous loyalty. It's hard to understand the idea that someone can just switch sides as soon as a few sovereigns are dangled in front of their face. She likes to do what is right overall, and this is probably why she has such low standards for Zevran, because she expects him to stab them all in their necks in their sleep as soon as he's offered a few more gold pieces.

Arbor Blessing :: What is the happiest ending you can think of for your character?:: Simply put, a future where she has cured the Taint and is beside her Nightingale until the very end. In the time of the Fifth Blight, the two women would often spend their nights together, talking about their futures. One of the possibilities was children, though naturally the two women know that they can't biologically have children, the two had briefly went over the idea of taking in war-orphaned children. Perhaps, in some parallel universe, all of these things and more come true

Vandal Aria :: How well can your character bounce back from personal tragedies?:: Poorly. For such a small body, Valynne has a lot of pent up anger. She's short-tempered, vengeful, and also a little melodramatic. Instead of correctly going through the emotions that have come with said personal tragedy, Valynne bottles them all up and then it becomes too much to bear. This often leads to times of unexpected bouts of emotions: Crying, mourning, denial, etc. It's like she has never correctly gone through the different phases of a tragedy like death. The older she gets, the more she tries to "bounce back" by means of alcohol.

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