#especially considering real life has been mean to me and I haven't had much time to write this year!!!

[corolune]

WIP game

Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then, and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it.

I saw @afewbulbsshortofatanningbed​ doing this and it looked so fun! These are mostly AR fics, and a couple original story ideas!

Selkie story 🦭

Yassenfrog 🐸

Raksha Bandhan ficlet

Yassen’s Nemesis

Alex rescues a cat-spy

Space Hotel

🧸 Paddington + Alex in jail

Tom + Yassen detective agency

Tintin crossover

Victorian AU 🧐

Canadian AU 🍁

Jungle Book AU

The Carpet Weaver

Never Do These Things if You’re A Vampire!

Sci-fi mermaids

[eyesore-boi]

You think that you're alone but

We are waiting for you every night...

You're mine.

Close ups and other stuff below!

...so....10 years, huh?

I cannot understate how much FNaF means to me in my life, and yeah...know that sounds a b i t much considering it's the funny har har bear games, but lemme explain-

Truth is, i was actually terrified of FNaF when it first came out! I remember my first introduction to it was when i was having a sleepover at my friend's place and he was both playing and watching other people play the first game, and when i was watching it with him, i got scared and tried to avoid the game as much as i could, even claiming to hate the game despite just knowing the first game. I was young and was prone to sheltering myself from stuff i didn't understand, and that being the first scary game i've ever seen caused that reaction, but over time...that changed.

It happened when i was watching YT and clicked on a comic dub i never seen before, thinking it was an AU for a fandom i was in (probably Undertale i dunno), but lo and behold, it was actually a fandub/animatic for the missing kids incident, and that...peaked my interest. I got curious on how this scary game actually had an interesting story to it and not just some game that goes boo. So, soon after that, i decided to look up simply "FNaF Story", found the Game Theory videos, and...the rest is history.

I was amazed and hooked, got invested in how the games explained the story in ways i've never seen before, got excited when i saw everything click together in real time, and pair that with how i got into the series r i g h t when Sister Location came out, arguably when the lore really started to kick off, i knew there was no going back now. I stuck with the series since. I watched all the animatics and dubs, listened to all the songs, tried drawing the characters, made OC's, and even talked to other people about this franchise.

And now look- Not gonna pretened this whole time it's been sunshine and (Chica's) rainbows, especially in recent times. The drop off SB caused, the lore getting more and more complicated and convoluted, the divide between older and newer fans, being the founder of Mascot Horror (for every Poppy Playtime there i s a Garten of Ban Ban) and course the IRL drama, but in all seriousness...i still wouldn't trade it for anything.

FNaF, this series, is my very first experience connecting me with a community like this, both good and bad, helping me understand how to properly enjoy media and even learn/take things from it, and i think without it i wouldn't be in the fandoms i'd be in now. The scary, horror ones, the niche, hard to find ones, story driven, character rich, and of course...more importantly...getting me into Markiplier, which further influenced the "outside the box" kind of thinking cause my g o d for these two stories you need too-

And speaking of, because of those two stories, it lead to me branching out more creativily and even creating my own webcomic for an AU combining both of them, so regardless on how that'll go, i'm just glad this series has influenced me enough to create something for others to see, since that's all i ever want to give.

But really, this franchise will forever be with me, and though i don't always agree with all of it (i haven't read any of the books in y e a r s and i refuse to do so), it only makes some of the stuff it does do right completely worth it (like the movie, peak cinema), and for where ever this bear shaped train is going next, well, i'll be here for the ride for all of it. No matter how many burning buildings it goes through.

...oh and um- Right yeah. The actual art piece. Uh....it crashed multiple times when drawing it. It's even a miracle i was able to export it. I can't even open it up anymore. So even if i wanted to change anything about it, i c a n 't -

But still pretty happy with how it came together! Was run drawing these robos, some being kinda redraws from the past, while other's i've n e v e r drawn before, so that was interesting! But still, tried to draw the "main character" so to say from each of the main FNaF games, and just kinda be...walking along through the series, nothing too deep or complex, but still interesting enough! ....unlike the fnaf storyline cause g o d how many restaurants wERE THEIR S C O T T -

But for real this is going long enough, so ima head out and do my own FNaF related things thay you don't need to worry about shush *commits arson*

HAPPY 10TH FNAF BIRTHDAY EVERYBODY!! >:DD

[skyemagica]

Skye's DIY HRT survival guide

After making a comment about DIY HRT on another post I've been helping a lot of people with supplying (and if you need help with that, shoot me a message!), while also pointing them in the direction of the DIY HRT Directory for other important info/tips, but I thought it would be nice to have the information readily available on Tumblr. (Especially considering the increased need I expect in the next four years. Stay safe.)

I can only speak from personal experience on transfem dosing, effects, etc., but I've tried my best to make this guide thorough for transmasc and transfem people!

How should I dose? Ultimately, it's up to you, but there are some helpful pointers as to where to start. Starting with testosterone, a low, medium and high dose of gel and injections:

And for estrogen - many girls going the legitimate route get started on an extremely low dose of estrogen (such as 1mg a day), but I can say that I started sublingually on 6mg, haven't had any nasty side effects and after only 4 months am having both visible and psychological/emotional changes. However, there is the rare but real possibility of your body having a negative reaction to your method of application, so going slow even for just a day or two might be worth your while. I got 6mg from the DIY HRT Directory, assuming you're also taking an anti-androgen. (More on those later.) As for injections:

What do I dose with? Again, it's up to you, though there are considerably more estrogen options than testosterone. Testosterone is typically available in injection and gel form, while you can get estrogen in pill, spray, gel, patch, or injection form. The reason injections are often recommended for estrogen is because of their affordability versus other methods, plus the ability to do monotherapy and not need an anti-androgen. (Anti-androgens are pills that block testosterone - extra cost, extra potential side effects. It is theoretical to reach monotherapy with other forms, but you should be aware of what a higher dose of E does to your body before attempting it.)

This does not mean you have to do injections for an effective transition. Thousands of trans people have met the goals you have in your head without injections - it is possible. We have technology! Er...pills, rather.

If you are in an unsafe environment, or even if any little thing makes you doubt your safety - lock up your medicine. Whether you have to hide it inside a sock, stuffed animal, or can afford an actual safe/lockbox, no one else has the right to interfere with your medicine. Life unfortunately doesn't always follow the linear patterns in our heads of wanting to be safe before we can start HRT - sometimes the noise in your brain gets so loud you run out of other options and have to take the risk.

If you think that your safety or shelter could be put at risk by starting HRT, look into resources in your area for queer and unhoused people. Have a go bag ready with your necessities. Set aside some extra money on an "emergency" prepaid debit card, especially if anyone who affects your safety also has access to your money.

Blood tests are ideal, but not required. I would be a hypocrite to encourage them too much, as I'm unable to get any right now without raising suspicion. Unfortunately, a lot of trans people are going to be in this same boat, or similar boats due to cost, inability to purchase in their area, etc. If this is an option for you, Private MD Labs, LabsMD, and Walk-In Lab provide private blood tests in the US without having to go through a doctor.

There are still visible ways to see that your dosage is working - they may not all be immediately recognizable, but within a few months you should have several signs. In my transfem experience, random erections were the first thing to go away, followed by a sudden emotional change (why am I crying at The Lion King for the first time when I've seen it many times?) and the starting of breast development. Transmasc individuals might notice some stubble growing, their voice getting lower, an increase in acne, increased appetite and sex drive, etc.

Where do I want my levels? Generally, you'll want your levels in the expected area for an adult cis male or female.

Transmasc: Total testosterone (T) 300-1000 ng/dL, estradiol (E2) lower than 50 pg/ml

Transfem: Total testosterone (T) below 50 ng/dL, estradiol (E2) above 100pg/mL

Rome wasn't built in a day. Neither are beards and boobs. It's very easy to get impatient with the results of HRT, but much like your first puberty, it's a process that takes several years. DIY does give you the advantage of adjusting your own dosage at your will, but if you don't have blood tests easily available, you're taking a shot in the dark. Here are some charts that give an estimate of the time range you should expect the changes of T and E, but everyone's body is different!

Can HRT make you gay? You may have heard of the phenomenon of people suddenly becoming attracted to men, women, or both when they start their hormone therapy, even if they weren't before. (There's not a real scientific backing for this, but it's documented enough to be listed as a side effect in some places.) And no, the HRT didn't make them gay - but it can change your sexual urges, and as you become more in tune with your true self, you may be more willing to notice or just accept things that you hadn't in the past.

I'm sure I'm missing things so there may be a part 2 later, but for any pressing questions just reply or shoot me a message! (This is how I've decided to try to help others through the upcoming unprecedented hell, for now. And if no one's told you this recently - you're not a burden, thank you for being you, and thank you fur trusting me to help!)

(Of course, don't just listen to me, I'm a dodo. I highly recommend reading through everything on the DIY HRT Directory when you have the chance! It is the main source for the info here, as well as my own personal experience, /r/TransDIY and GenderGP.)

[thatswhatsushesaid]

this watershed moment between nie mingjue and meng yao is from cql, obviously, but imo it highlights the fundamental conflict between these two characters in all versions of the canon:

i am once again re-reading the entirety of the empathy flashback chapters because once i start, i just can't stop! there's just too much important information overflowing from this sequence of events! and considering this is the only lens through which we are able to look back at jin guangyao's past as meng yao--and considering how much that lens hates him at this point in canon--so much of what is presented to us as objective fact has to be examined more critically.

so, it bears repeating: all of this is nie mingjue's resentment-addled fierce corpse's recollection of events at least fourteen years in the past, communicated to the reader through two additional filters--empathy, and wei wuxian himself.

Meng Yao had probably carefully worked out how to avoid the vital areas. With both caution and composure, he pulled the sword out of his stomach, producing a string of small, bloody splashes, and pressed the wound—this was all he did to treat it. Nie MingJue, on the other hand, still remained in the posture that he used when trying to help Meng Yao. Half-kneeling with his head raised, their eyes met.

i mean. sure, i guess? this is related to an ask currently hanging out in my inbox that i haven't been able to answer yet (there are so many asks), but i think we really ought to consider just what a life-threatening gamble this was regardless. also painful! it is painful to stab yourself, and then to mash your hand against an open wound to stop the bleeding! why would anyone choose to do something like this unless they felt they had no other choice?

Nie MingJue didn’t say anything. Meng Yao didn’t say anything either. He sheathed his sword, bowed toward Nie MingJue, and sprinted away without looking back.

i've read a few posts criticizing meng yao in this moment either implying or flat out stating that if he can bow and sprint away, he clearly couldn't have been that injured. leaving aside that nie mingjue is perfectly capable of recognizing a serious injury when he sees one, wei wuxian also sees the blood splashing onto meng yao's body and clothes as he withdraws the sword from himself. so, he's hurt. he has seriously injured himself. that he still forces himself to bow before fleeing does seem significant to me. what else could he possibly have said? what would nie mingjue have wanted to hear him say anyway?

He had just acknowledged his mistake and agreed to receiving his punishment before feigning suicide and setting up a trap. Now, he was already long gone. It was probably Nie MingJue’s first time seeing such a shameless person, especially one that had just been the trusted aide whom he promoted himself.

i could live the rest of my life in this sentence (exaggeration. but only slightly), there is so much going on here--first, that wei wuxian feels confident enough in his understanding and interpretation of nie mingjue via empathy to presume that this is nie mingjue's first exposure to such 'shameless' behaviour, because let's be real, how can he possibly know that? like leaving aside the fact that he is the older brother of the jianghu's most dedicated and shameless drama queen, he's been a sect leader for years at this point. beyond that, he is a sect leader during a time of war. mingjue-xiong has seen some shit, ok? i think it is specifically because this supposed shamelessness comes from someone that he himself trusted and promoted, as wei wuxian next points out, that he is so furious.

this part is key, for me, because it emphasizes not the shamelessness (is it tho?) of meng yao's trickery, but that such trickery could be carried out by someone that nie mingjue himself had invested with such trust. he doesn't just feel betrayed by meng yao, though of course that is part of it. his pride has been injured. which makes sense, given the next part of the text:

For this, he flew into a terrible rage, being especially fierce during the Wen Sect’s battles. Even when Lan XiChen had the time to assist Langya, a few days later, his anger hadn’t died down one bit. As soon as he came, Lan XiChen laughed, “MingJue-xiong, what a temper you seem to be in. Where is Meng Yao? Why does he not come and douse your flames?”

i'm not sure i actually want to know what a 'terrible rage' from nie mingjue looks like given what we already know about his brutality on the battlefield. like... this is after he has decapitated wen ruohan's son, wen xu, and made a brutal display of his head and remains to send a message to qishan. meng yao's betrayal has triggered truly unprecedented levels of rage and fury from nie mingjue, something that was already escalating due to his focused cultivation with the sabre, but it results in a man who absolutely cannot handle hearing meng yao's name.

Nie MingJue, “Don’t mention such a person!”

see? (mingjue-xiong don't snap at lan xichen like that 🥺)

Without any exaggeration, he told Lan XiChen of how Meng Yao killed and planned to blame someone else, then feigned death and ran away. After he heard the story, Lan XiChen was also surprised, “How could this be? Maybe there was a misunderstanding?”

Nie MingJue, “I caught him right on the spot. What misunderstandings could there be?”

Lan XiChen thought for a moment, “Judging from his words, the person whom he killed had definitely done wrong. However, he should not have taken his life either. We are in harsh times, so it is quite difficult to determine who was at fault. I wonder where he is now.”

Nie MingJue spoke in a harsh tone, “He should hope that I don’t catch him. If I do, I’ll offer him as sacrifice to my saber!”

(where's a good theresalottounpackhere.gif when you need one)

first: "without any exaggeration" is doing quite a lot of narrative work! even if we accept that what nie mingjue recounts to lan xichen broadly conforms to what wei wuxian witnessed via empathy, what wei wuxian witnessed in the first place was still nie mingjue's recollection of the events as they transpired. wei wuxian did not witness these events himself with his own eyes. sure, i trust that nie mingjue is telling the truth when he shares this information with lan xichen, but he cannot be an objective source of information for wei wuxian--and i think it is significant that wei wuxian doesn't clock this.

second: i think this is why there is an understandable impulse to respond to lan xichen's circumspection with 'hey what the fuck??' when he says 'maybe there was a misunderstanding.' because we are right in the moment alongside wei wuxian, who does not recognize his own bias. and so we end up like, what do you mean, lan xichen! nie mingjue caught meng yao red-handed! wei wuxian-via-empathy told us so! how could we misunderstand any of this when wei wuxian confirmed for us that nie mingjue did not exaggerate any of his explanation?

but lan xichen's thoughtfulness and his instinct to pause, to seek out additional clarification and understanding, are perfectly rational responses given the circumstances, and ideally what he says is something any equally rational person would say in his position. two people he has invested with a great deal of his trust and esteem are at significantly crossed purposes, and he only has one half of the story. lan xichen obviously trusts that nie mingjue is telling him the truth as he recalls it; he just understands, as wei wuxian clearly cannot, that his understanding of this situation is incomplete until he hears the other half of the story from meng yao himself.

However, as though his words turned into a prophecy, during the next few years, it was almost as if Meng Yao had suddenly disappeared, as if he had sunk like a rock into the ocean. No trace of him was left.

Now, Nie MingJue loathed him in the same manner that he had once valued him. Whenever the name was mentioned, he put on an angered face, expressing things hard to explain in speech. When he was certain that no information could be found, he refused to discuss Meng Yao with another person ever again.

i'll wrap this post up shortly because i've already written much more than i initially intended, but i just want to highlight that literal years pass between their confrontation on the langya front and their bloody reunion in nightless city. that is a long time for nie mingjue to spend "loathing [Meng Yao] in the same manner that he had once valued him"--plenty of time for resentment brought on by his sabre cultivation technique to thoroughly sink its claws into his judgment, and his wounded pride.

[redstringraven]

TMNT’s 40th anniversary ask game ~ May I ask for number 22) , 26) and 35) ? Lots of love <3

TuT!!!! THANK u, cherry. loves of love to you, too 💜✨

(please excuse that this ask is visually a bit more of a mess. i wrote too much again for tumblr to be chill with my usual formatting. why am i like this.)

TMNT's 40th anniversary ask game!

22.) what is your favorite kind of pizza?

terrible news, everyone: i'm a pro-pineapple bitch. you may block and unfollow me now; i forgive you for being incorrect (/lh). i tend to be pescatarian if i can help it (i'm flexible due to money, and also i hate inconveniencing others especially if i'm a guest), so i prefer pizza without meats. i'm happy to eat any kind of veggie combination with the exception of banana peppers. never liked those for some reason. i also really like mushroom and eggs as pizza toppings. i'm kind of just an egg fiend in general; i love the taste of a well-made egg.

26.) what is one of your favorite pieces of TMNT fan art?

these things keep asking for one, but i'm gonna continue responding with however many i feel like. because it's not my dad. the scarf, by @hamsterandturtlesoup weakness is a sickness and a virtue, by @tatortart various candid illustrations by richard chen vis dev by kellan jett

35.) which character relationships are your favorite to write/draw?

...since we're both OC people, i'm gonna take this as an opportunity to gush about canon and OC relationships: two of my favorite brotps. because they're character relationships i adore writing with all my heart and soul.

mikey, gwyn & ash i mentioned previously that @plantdonutwrites (jenn) writes for mikey in our RPs, so i consulted her for mikey's perspective on this brot3. i will paraphrase her answer in this paragraph:

"all his life, mikey's been used to only having his bros as company; they're family in a way that puts the rest of us to shame. but as they grew older they met all sorts of people, some became an extension of that family. raph has casey or maybe angel when he wants to dip for a bit. don has leatherhead or the professor (bree, too), and leo has usagi even if he's not 'as regular' (and min-ji, too). his brothers have their separate circles of friends, but, against all odds, mikey doesn't seem to have that (at least not until cassia shoved her foot in the loneliness door). then he bonded with gwyn and ash... but then they left. he realized that it wasn't just that they didn't treat him like 'the annoying brother who tags along' but because they'd actually become friends, and they were friends who didn't humor him. they liked the comics he talked about, they love klunk, and they're interested in his art and ideas. it meant a lot to him to have that--to know what it was like--and when they weren't around, he really felt the difference. in an odd way they helped him become a more empathetic person, too."

it's harder to answer in ash's perspective because she has a lot less agency than gwyn and, because gwyn's paranoid/won't let ash out of her own hands much less her line of sight, ash doesn't get a lot of one-on-one time with mikey. she's interacted with him a LOT more than she's interacted with most people--which absofuckinglutely means something--but since she does consider herself 'dead' and is at peace with the possibility she'll be a literal shapeshifting weapon for the rest of her sentience, i think a lot of his meaning to her (right now) is very rooted in what he means for gwyn. THAT being said.

mikey is gwyn's first real friend. like. ever. in all the time she's been alive. very much in the same way that the brothers only had each other for most of their lives, gwyn only ever had ash. her community considered her a parasite and an omen, so she was essentially outcast. gwyn grew up feeling she wasn't wanted, had to earn any love she received, and when ash died and became trapped in the weapon, all that transpired and followed afterward re-enforced that. i haven't talked about darach a lot--deliberately--but know that he's a masterful manipulator in more ways than one. if ch'rell was brute force and intimidation, darach is more like the pot you put a frog in and slowly turn up the heat. you don't realize you're being boiled alive until it's too late. thanks to his influence, gwyn's been tricked, back-stabbed, cornered, and watched people suffer 'because of her' countless times. when i said she was paranoid, i wasn't really being hyperbolic. she has SEVERE trust issues. ...then came mikey. someone who, unknowingly, had already given them a taste of his character.

gwyn and ash had heard of mikey's rematch with kluh during their travels--that the match was made mortal, that mikey had not only won but had spared kluh's life when he had every reason not to. darach wouldn't approach someone like him, they figured. and as time passed, mikey continued to not just be open and kind with them, but again and again he's emphasized to gwyn that they just... CARE. to quote him "we don't keep you guys around for any benefits other than being able to know you". which, in so many ways, is unheard of for gwyn. she still struggles to believe him sometimes, but she trusts him. mikey is her first and best friend, he's someone she admires, and he's proven time and time again that ash isn't the only person capable of loving her, and that she's worthy of that love by just being herself. i had to spend a lot of this answer on exposition because OC, but... i earnestly can't emphasize enough how much mikey's come to mean to gwyn. he asked her not to leave again without them, and she promised she wouldn't. that promise to him has kept her from running away and isolating. even though she's terrified--for herself, for ash, for them--she trusts him. writing them makes me so happy. it's been such a delight to see their relationship evolve and the influences they've had on each other and their worldviews. i love this brot3 so goshdang much.

min-ji & raph min-ji belongs to jenn and, oh my god, i love her relationship with raph so, SO much. when we rp, jenn's obviously writing for min, and i write for raph.

again! consulted jenn! her answer paraphrased below:

"raph's pretty much the first assertive person in her life that had her back early on? her home life is complex; her family DOES love her but sometimes that love can veer controlling and toxic (responsibilities/obligations). raph was a type of personality she'd never been around before, and he cared about her well-being in a way that was unconditional. hanging out with him more helped her become more assertive and in touch with parts of herself she was forced to suppress to be more palatable to her family. she's found that being angry about something that happened to her, or something that was said to her, doesn't make her bad or a burden. raph doesn't expect her to shy away from her flaws or nuances. he lets her be a person."

as for raph's end, it's kind of hard to put into words. but i love that min-ji has become one of the very few people he will allow himself moments of vulnerability around. like. instead of it just happening, he makes the choice to let a wall or six down. they've created a mutual safe space between each other.

i think this has cultivated from a lot of things. min was much more timid when they met--raph even made a bit of a point, initially, to not interact with her so much because she was skittish and on-edge thanks to surrounding events. but through the events of our writing, he's watched her grow in self-confidence, be more open, and allow herself to 'take up' more space. she's also survived two major threats to her life, now, both of which have scarred her physically and emotionally, yet she persists and continues to extend kindness to people who, in his opinion, don't deserve it. but that's HER business (while he makes his feelings known, he stays out of it unless she signals him otherwise). she may not be a fighter in a literal sense, but he sees her as an equal. like, he's still protective of her in dangerous situations since she's not trained to fight--obviously--but... i dunno, i guess it's more like "i've been through shit; you've been through shit; if i say things look bad right now, you won't like it but you also won't give up". he doesn't feel a pull to coddle her if things are looking grim, i guess is what i'm trying to say?; he'll shoot straight with her because he knows she IS a fighter. even if she doesn't fight. does THAT make sense?

like i said, it's hard to put into words. but i think it's a combination of min-ji's emotional strength and kindness as a person, as well as the fact she's not an immediate family member, that make it easier for him to let those barriers down around her and have severely needed moments of vulnerability where he doesn't dismiss pain or fear or anything else he might be feeling. he knows min would never lash out at him, physically, emotionally, or however else. min-ji is kind, and she's strong, and she's safe. he trusts her, values and respects her judgment and input. much in the same way his presence lets her feel like a person, she's extended that grace to him. just in a different way. i love getting to write interactions between them. there's always something warm and comforting in their exchanges, light-hearted or more melancholic. it's nice. the love is very much there.

[beevean]

Having Thought again about Hector (and this time I'm talking about the real Hector) being called a child, or implicitly called naive - and how this is an important trait of his character.

Under cut because it's image heavy. Because I cannot and will not shut up :P

The laundry hanging scene is mostly there for fluff after the harrowing Hector vs. Isaac fight, but you can infer a lot from it.

Hector? Oh, you're in the shade again. It's not healthy. Come on! I need your help with something. The clothesline has broken, and I need a man's help. Ahh, you're pulling too hard, Hector! The branch will break!

Rosaly asks for a "man's help", but discovers that Hector can't do so much as hang laundry. He pulls too hard: Hector is a former fighter, so his first instinct is to use a lot of his strength (and he may even be superhumanly strong due to his powers). He probably never had to calibrate it in his life.

Rosaly: You’ve never done laundry before, have you? Well, this should be fine, thank you. Hector: Let me help you… Rosaly: No! Stop! That’s my…!

Then he takes Rosaly's clothes without permission: he really wants to help after that first embarrassment, but he doesn't seem to think that maybe it's a bit rude to rummage through a woman's underwear :P

It's all played for laughs, but it's also sad. Hector didn't have the chance to live a normal life. No one taught him how to live in human society, and then he wasted half of his life under Dracula's service. It's all new to him.

Haha, you’re so funny, Hector. With such pretty silver hair and such a pretty face…

But Rosaly doesn't judge him, doesn't think he's weird: she's honestly endeared by his clumsiness. (get yourself a so that doesn't make you feel bad for being different in common things 🥺) As I said in an older post:

He's not naive in the "easily trusting" sense: he hasn't lived in the human world enough to learn about it, except for hatred and rejection, and even simple things like hanging laundry don't come easy to him. But he wants to learn and he wants to help, much like a child would. And well. Rosaly knows how to take care of children without a home :) Where Hector sees nothing but a curse and sin, Rosaly sees innocence. She's idealistic, perhaps to a fault, but perhaps believing in the inherent goodness of others can pay off.

Rosaly: You’re just like a child… Hector: Where are my armor and sword? Rosaly: No. You've been bedridden for a week and only woke up yesterday. Hector: But I can't stay here.

Yet, interesting that this is when Hector asks for his sword and armor. He explains that he's afraid of attracting monsters again like the werewolf, but I also read shame in his expression. Rosaly means well, but I can imagine Hector doesn't like being compared to a child (especially if he associated childhood with being weak and hated). Maybe part of him even resents that she is right, and his instinct is to wanting to go back, to hide, to fight.

(or maybe he's just hella embarrassed that he was called "pretty" out of nowhere lol rosaly has excellent tastes)

It's also worth mentioning that, while Rosaly is never explicitly called a "womanchild" or naive, she seems to be considered as such by the others. She is called "too nice", because she overworks herself for little, and most importantly because she is allowing a complete stranger inside her home without knowing anything about him, ignoring the danger.

(in fact, Ted here calls Rosaly お人好し, which means "good-natured person" but with connotations of being a fool. This is after she brushed off Ted's concerns about Hector because "he has pretty eyes and birds seem to like him" :P)

Even Hector is unnerved by her attitude.

Rosaly: You were worried about us. Thank you, you are such a kind person. Hector: You take everything as a good thing... No, I'm sorry. Why don't you ask me? Haven't you heard anything from that kid? What did I do, what did I escape from? How did I kill that werewolf? …Who am I and where did I come from?

Rosaly's lack of curiosity and tendency to always assume the best of Hector is terrifying for him. He's waiting for the other shoe to drop, so that she'll know him and then hate him like everyone else. Who does this? Who just allows anyone to help with chores, and then finds cute when they can't do it? Who just welcomes someone in their home without caring about where they came from? It's weird. Rosaly is weird. Just as weird as Hector, a grown man who can't stay with other people and hasn't learned basic matters.

Being in touch with the blessings of the earth, feeling the seasons in the cold water... Seeing everyone’s smiles, having a meal with someone, going to bed grateful that the day has ended safely... All of these are wonderful things that are hard to come by. I have received everything I want from everyone.

Of course, the difference is that Rosaly is not naive due to lack of experience. She chooses to be stubbornly optimistic. She will love everyone to death. You have no choice.

And her relentless optimism is what allows her to see past Hector's barriers and mistery. He's just a good person to her, nothing more and nothing less.

Your name is Hector, you have beautiful silver hair, you were injured, you never did laundry, and you helped me and Ted. That's enough for me.

Another thing is that, Rosaly doesn't need Hector for household chores. She seems to be living alone just fine, and in fact she is the one who always helps others. So this is not really for her benefit: it's for Hector's. It's to give him something to do instead of drowning in his own thoughts. It's to make him feel less alone. There is symbolism in how Hector is still standing in the shadow, not hiding but still not ready to face the human world, and Rosaly says it's not healthy and drags him out to enjoy the sunlight, which he eventually accepts.

Hector is a proud, competent, intelligent man and warrior, but he's also a stunted child who has cowered from the world for years. Rosaly, without knowing anything about him and his upbringing, but sensing that something is different about him, is happy to show him the world and let him grow. Not because Hector is needed, but because he is wanted and welcomed.

My adoptive parents died a long time ago, so now I'm the only one here. So yeah, I would really love it if you stayed here.

Rosaly is used to live alone... but what if two lonely people lived together and helped each other?

In case it wasn't clear, the parallels between the beloveds fill me with warmth and joy :)

PtR gives us a similar concept, but with different characterizations:

"The unspent ferry fare for the Nether Rivers... to make up for it…"

"Worn-out and shiny? Thank you for the thought, but they'll think I stole it... I wonder if you don't know the world..."

Interestingly, here Hector's naiveté is painted in a more traditional manner. Sure, there's the heartbreaking part of him paying Rosaly for her basic kindness, because he is that foreign to the idea that he can be cared for without giving anything in return; and there's the symbolic part where he refers to the belt as pretty much the Charon's obol he had failed to pay, because he had planned to die but Rosaly saved his life so she is the one who gets to be paid. But Rosaly can't accept the gift for sensible reasons: it's too ostentatious, and she can't go around with it without drawing unwanted attention. Remember that this is also a time of witch hunts, and people are growing angrier and more suspicious, secretly due to the Curse.

Hector wouldn't know it. He lived isolated in the castle for years, so isolated that he couldn't hear the scream inside the stone walls. So for him it's a very straightforward reasoning: this woman is showing kindness to me, so I'll pay her with the most precious thing I own. (and even then I have my own ideas about that belt and why he has it)

Btw, this naiveté is not completely gone by CoD. He's surprisingly earnest with Julia when he meets her, revealing his background to a stranger. Thankfully nothing bad comes from it, but she seems to be much more guarded than him. I like to see this as a sign that he mellowed out after Rosaly :) or maybe he's just a gentleman lol.

Anyway I love Hector so much and I find it a more complex, vulnerable and relatable character than most assume 💖

[lemonhemlock]

If Viserys wanted Rhaenyra on the Iron Throne so bad and change the unwritten rule that woman cannot sit on this throne he should have made an actual order. In show called magnificent century, Kosem sultan changes cruel rule in Ottoman Empire that says the one who ascends the throne has to kill all his brothers. How she did that? Seconds after her husband, Sultan Ahmed died she wrote on piece of paper that this rule no longer exist and the throne will go to the oldest son (before even the youngest son could have a throne if he managed to kill all of his older brothers) so brothers murdering each other for throne rule ended. And after writing this on piece of paper she put sultan seal there so it was basically an edyct, a new rule to apply to, ordered by sultan (even though he was dead at that moment but no one except Kosem knew). And by this she made sure her sons won't brutally execute each other. Viserys could have done it basically in episode 1 or even after Aegon was born. Saying Rhaenyra is heir means nothing after sons were born. He should have solidified her right to rule by writing something like this and showing it to every lord so they would all know it was king's order that Rhaenyra will be Queen not King's whim based on the fact he didn't want Daemon to be his heir.

Between the point in time where I received this ask and today, I think I managed to answer something similar here and here (including @duxbelisarius' addition about Dorne, which I had forgotten to mention).

I have heard of Magnificent Century, but I haven't had the chance to watch it, so I can't really comment on what Kosem did. Unfortunately, I am not versed in Ottoman sultanate inheritance either, beyond the basic premise of brothers killing each other for the throne. :)) So I don't really feel confident in performing a comparative analysis between Kosem's fake edict and 12th Century England (Anarchy time - the civil war the Dance is based off).

My main concern with this is that I don't think the solution would have been as simple as "writing a piece of paper", otherwise Viserys would have done it and, most importantly, the real-life king Henry I would have done it for his real-life daughter Matilda, whom he very much wanted to succeed him. The fact that the Anarchy still happened leads me to believe that common law (especially regarding such an important topic as inheritance to the throne) couldn't really be changed that easily.

There are so many different types of feudal societies that some historians dispute the use of the term, but for Westeros specifically we seem to be operating on the basic understanding of a politically weak(-ish) King* with a collection of very powerful vassals. I say this because the King only seems to have the Crownlands + Dragonstone as his own personal lands, from which to derive his own resources & taxes, which are of questionable profitability (as highlighted in the linked posts). Everything else seems to be based on what his vassals agree to give him. eg. they should be in charge of tax collection in their own lands; if the King raises taxes to (what they consider to be an) unfair level, who is to say they won't just skim off their tributes and lie about it? The King imposing his own tax collectors who worked directly for the Crown was one of the steps towards dismantling feudalism and creating a more centralised state, if I am not mistaken. Similarly, if the King tries to impose a certain law that proves to be unpopular, who is to say that his vassals will just agree to it?

*Ofc, Targaryen Kings have something no one really does - dragons - which gives them an important power advantage. But they still have to haggle and please their vassals to a certain extent because going on dragonback and burning down the subjects who disagree with you every time is not only Not A Good Look, it's also not feasible. You can't go to war every time you have a disagreement.

Also, important to note that at the time of Rhaenyra being made heir, Viserys' Balerion had been long dead. Rhaenyra was teenage girl, he wasn't going to send her off in any kind of military expeditions. Daemon was the only actual dragon threat, yet he was hardly willing to be fighting any battles that invalidated his claim to the throne.

Anyway, not to digress too much, this is only to imagine a scenario in which Viserys issued such an edict after Aegon's birth, confirming Rhaenyra as heir and trying to pass it off as law -> disgruntled vassals -> need for military reprisals to subjugate them into accepting this new law. I think Viserys realised this really was a pain in the arse and decided to not complicate his life too much and leave things vague in the hopes that "everyone will get along in the end" (he really is non-confrontational if he can avoid it).

But, obviously, enough people in Westeros disagreed that the original oaths were still valid after Aegon's birth* - a complication Viserys had no idea how to solve, so he just avoided it as much as possible. It's also historical fact that two different sets of oath-taking were not enough to ensure Matilda's crown after her father died, so I would really question the practical impact these vows had as a legal instrument. It's very easy as a noble lord to nod your head whenever the King verbally insists his eldest daughter will succeed him, while planning to throw your support to her brother anyway after he dies.

*In addition, a contract cannot be enforced if the terms that lead to the signing of that contract no longer exist; there are legal concepts such as force majeure that account for this. When those oaths were taken, Rhaenyra was an only child, and their options as heir were Rhaenyra or Daemon. When Viserys died, Rhaenyra had three legitimate younger brothers.

[espeonkin]

Honest question: Why do you refuse to speak a word or even share anything against Israel during this time as someone who has connections to it? Why does defending your view of otherkin and furry drama come before defending the real lives of innocent people being killed?

Your online space is ultimately yours to choose what you do with, but this silence is deafening. Pouring blood sweat and tears fighting against some dumb kin jokes made by a few young teens, yet refusing to make a peep over real life genocide and ethnic cleansing being done by a place you frequently visit, is concerning, to say the very least. Please think about this and do better.

hi, i want to preface this response with the fact that while i am going to try to be as eloquent as possible in this response, this is a stressful topic, and i'm probably going to misspeak or forget to include certain things i mean to say because this was an additionally stressful message to receive. i don't want to come off as though i'm refusing to speak at all, though, which is why i'm responding now, instead of after I've had a bit more time to process everything you've said to me.

first, i'd like to address you saying that i "have connections" to israel and "frequently visit" it. i have absolutely no connection to israel. i have no family that lives there, and i have only been there once, four years ago. the only "connection" i have is that i'm jewish, which i don't consider to be a legitimate reason to say i have a connection to israel or especially its government. is that what you're insinuating here? because i'm jewish i'm connected to the state of israel? when i was there, i was personally very uncomfortable with how militarized everything was and frankly wanted nothing more than to leave, but it was a vacation with my family and rabbi, so i couldn't very well leave and go home on my own. and again. this was four years ago and before i was better informed on what the state of israel has done and is continuing to do.

on that note, the reason why i haven't been speaking on the current events related to israel is because it's a very stressful topic for me and i've been going through a rough mental health patch as is already. i can't begin to describe how horrible it feels to hear the constant claims that these are being taken in the name of the religion that i was born into and holds such deep personal value to me even still. i never asked for this. my jewish friends never asked for this. do you know how it feels to have your parents so thoroughly indoctrinated by propaganda that they call you a traitor to your religion for not believing every word that comes from the israeli government? to try so hard to help them unlearn the propaganda only to be met with such thorough resistance? so. please forgive me if i'm trying to make my little corner of the internet just a bit less stressful for me to exist in.

as for the "why is it more important to you to defend your views of otherkin" part, it's because it's less emotionally taxing for me than a literal real world genocide. it's something personal to me, and i'd like to be able to talk about it when possible, but I would like to emphasize that there have been periods where even this has been too much for me to handle and i've had to back off from the topic at points.

i don't like being told to "do better" here. because the fact of the matter is that i know my limits and talking about a literal genocide for weeks on end is frankly not within them. continually exposing myself to travesty when i know it's not within my limits isn't activism, it's emotional self harm. i also would like to know where you heard that i "frequently visit" and "have connections to" israel. or is that something you just came up with because i'm jewish?

i hope i addressed things eloquently enough. sorry if this isn't what you wanted to hear, or if i forgot anything in efforts to make a faster response. i hope this answer is sincere to you.

[allycat75]

Hey Boston Dumb Fuck! Still don't hate you, but thought I would remind you in a bit more detail why many of us are (justifiably) upset with your continued shitty behavior.

Does it feel good to be coddled and worshiped again for putting on a few pounds of muscle?

And based on the vetting your crack (head) team did with the little wifey, I am sure they researched those trainers and nutritionists thoroughly and didn't just use their brother-in-law or someone who had some compromising information about one of those folks suckling at your recently buffed up teat.

Never forget, however, you have consistenly lied, manipulated and contorted yourself into whatever ridiculous shape your handlers required you to, character and morals be damned. There is no gym or supplement you can take that will replace your soul. That will take much more work, and for much longer, with no one thirsting over you. Just you examining and cleaning out the disgusting goo on the inside.

For example, you tacitly approved of antisemitism, that will not be erased by an eventual breakup from the precious little wifey, quite a come down from standing up to David Duke just a few years ago. And at a time when the slightest provocation could lead to a powder keg explosion.

You furthered the Karmic deficit by, instead if shuttering your pointless and corruptible political site, ASP, you leaned in, with the full might of a shameless hypocrite, accepting accolades in DC, the only place with less integrity than Hollywood, even though you arrogantly declared a few years ago you moved back to Mass. to get away from that vibe, and look where that got you- the biggest phony Chris in the town. Hey, remember at that DC Q&A, they asked you and Mark about how you monitor for truth in the content you post, and you stuttered through an answer about how it is "tricky' but it is critcal (or some nonsense like that). Well, that is obvious, considering the transparency provided about your highly qualified staff, forget about the priority you give it in your personal life. I have to ask- did it hurt, when your soul decided to peace out on you in that moment? Has telling lies been easier since it did? I keep waiting for your nose to grow or your pants to catch on fire, you completley untrustworthy son of a bitch.

Not at all sure what is real and what is artifice anymore. If you were a baked good, I couldn't sell you at Whole Foods, because there is nothing organic about you.

But you have a puppy face and we have "known" you for 20 years so people like me, we look like the cruel assholes if we are actually angry and hurt, questioning the veracity of an innocent fan interaction discovered and posted (passive voice used for sarcasm). Once again, making your fans who pay attention look stupid and crazy. I have two eyes and a brain and I don't appreciate the continued gaslighting, especially by a cadre of fools. And I do not suffer fools.

So, if you aren't going to work toward authentic redemption and amends, and keep fucking around, you are going to find out. Just like all the other privleged, rich white boys, I will call you out on your bullshit. You haven't earned a free pass with me. You do know what "earned" means, right? Charm isn't enough. In fact it pisses me off when you rely on that lazy tactic.

But as I often say, prove me wrong, your prick! Truly, nothing would make me happier.

[venusiancarbondioxide]

11 and 18

hi, i COMPLETELY FORGOT THIS WAS IN MY INBOX but these questions are fun, so enjoy a late answer!

link to the questions, in case anyone wants more fun answers

11. what do you consider to be romance?

a tough one right out of the gate! it's hard to define a concept that's so nebulous and dependent on context; the easiest answer is just "i know it when i see it." and that's very much the case, but the pattern in what i see as romantic is intentionality. someone deciding, "yes, i actively want to be with you and am willing to do xyz to make our relationship better/make your life easier/just to let you know that i love you," just hits me. videos of proposals have me going insane every time. i sometimes think the most romantic thing in the world would be someone cooking dinner when i've had a long day and don't want to do it. feeling is important, of course, a necessary ingredient (i wouldn't want anyone doing all of that out of obligation), but someone else's feelings can only be understood through action (i'm including speaking and writing as actions here). and someone taking clear, decisive action towards the goal of "i want to be with you?" that's what's up, especially since a lot of the modern dating scene seems very opposed to that. it's all situationships and pretending not to be invested and bullshit that i think is very anti-romance in general.

18. do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?

i definitely believe in aliens in the sense that there is life that's not human out in the universe; the universe is simply too big for that not to be the case. do i think that aliens are little green men in ufos? definitely not. whatever aliens are out there are probably a few different types of moss on a planet so far away that we can't even see it yet. and i love that moss! yay, aliens! i don't think we'll find them in my lifetime, unfortunately, but maybe i'll have a great-great-great granddaughter who finds a space moss one day. as for ghosts, i logically don't believe in them, but i am superstitious about them. there are things i wouldn't do because on the off chance that ghosts are real, it would get you so fucking haunted; for example, this video i saw of a woman who threw the ashes of her sister-in-law's dead baby out of a window because she was mad at her. on the off chance that ghosts are real, that woman is going to be followed by that baby ghost for the rest of her life, and along with that being a shitty and mean trick, who would want to risk a haunting? any kind of disrespect to grave sites, dead bodies, and that kind of thing really makes me think that a ghost is going to come out and get somebody; my first thought is always, "oh, whoever does that is so going to get haunted." i also think places where terrible things have happened are haunted, but not in the traditional ghost sense. i think the knowledge weighs on the human heart in a way that makes people act differently in haunted spots, and that causes all kinds of nonsense. i also believe that thinking there a ghosts in a certain spot makes people more liable to see things there. fun fact, i actually have a co-worker who does ghost-hunting in his off time and has a whole bunch of equipment and it's all very cool, i love hearing about his ghost adventures, but i personally am not sure it's real. i'd have to see a ghost to 100% believe, and even though i've been to a few places that are rumored to be haunted, i haven't seen shit.

[blackhakumen]

Mini Fanfic #1114: Morning Text with GF (RWBY)

Ruby: So you n Pyrrha are gonna take some therapy sessions for mow on?

Oscar: Yep. And get this.

Oscar: Turns out that Ms. Goodwitch has been psychologist thus whole time

Ruby: No surprise there really

Ruby: She did had the side job of being academy psychologist on some occasions

Ruby: Which is kinda funny considering she used to scare the crap out of a lot of students with the death glare alone lol

Oscar: Kinda makes me glad I haven't gotten on her worse side yet

Ruby: Oh I wouldn't worry about that too much

Ruby: Can't imagine Mother Goodwitch ever being mad at her baby farmboi for long!~

Oscar: Yeah, unless I get involved with your antics.

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Ruby let's out a loud, dramatic gasps before pouting and texting back.

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Ruby: Excuuuuuse u!?

Ruby: I'll have u know that I have been a wonderful influence over the years

Oscar: Yeah, tell that to the ghost of Ozpin

Oscar: Last I checked, you were a real piece of work in the acemdey days lol

Ruby: Um correction! Yang was a real piece of work

Ruby: I had been nothing but an innocent, angel- 😇

Oscar: Sure you are, Rose. Sure you are.

Ruby: Oh forget it! This shouldn't even be about right now.

Ruby: What I REALLY wanna talk about is how you've gotten so lucky into having an aunt, two dads, and three moms in ur life

Ruby: U kno, besides being the the biggest sweetheart on the face of this planet~

Ruby: Also, Emerald too I guess

Oscar: Hey, you actually include her for something for once lol

Ruby: Yeah, yeah how nice of me. She's still on my "I Don't Trust" List.

Oscar: I know, but at least try to get along one another, even if it's for a tiny bit

Ruby: I try for u

Ruby: Just don't expect us to be the bestest friends 9r whatever, 'kay?

Ruby: I already have a lot of besties as it is and one of them is my sweetheart of a boyfriend 😘

Oscar: Best friend and Boyfriend? I'm already feel honored already~

Oscar: But to answer your question, I guess is as good as mines on thar one really lol

Oscar: I'm just happy to have them all in my life right now

Oscar: That includes you too, Ruby ;)

Ruby: D'awwwww!~ Now I'm feeling honored~

Ruby: And I'm really glad things are going well for you guys as of late, especially after all the hell we've all been through in the past.

Oscar: Thanks. I can say the same for you guys as well.

Oscar: Hang on. I have to take a call for a sec.

Ruby: At 8 in the morning?

Oscar: It's technically 8: 54 am right now, but yeah. BRB!

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Oscar: (Quickly Answers the Call) Hello? Oscar's speaking.

Glynda: (On the Other Line) Good Morning, Oscar.

Oscar: Morning, mom- I-I mean! Ms.... Goodwitch.

Glynda: (Giggles Softly) Honestly~ There's no need for to be formal every time we talk to another. We agreed that I would take role of your mother figure and I really don't mind you treating me as such.

Oscar: ('Sigh') I know. Force of habits can do that to you sometimes. Anyways, how are you today?

Glynda: I'm doing well all things considered. How about you and the others?

Oscar: We're doing alright....for the most part.

Glynda: Oscar.....Your voice is sounding troubled right now. Is something the matter?

Oscar: It's.....(Takes a Deep Breath Before Speaking Again) Okay, so....try not to freak out or anything, but....Pyrrha and I had bad dreams last night.

Glynda: Oh no..... A-Are you two okay? What were you dreaming about if you don't mind me asking.

Oscar: We were dreaming about the past. And how unpleasant it truly was for both of us......... B-But don't worry! We were able keep each other company or the night along with Jaune, Ren, and Nora and everything went smoothly from there. Also, we gave it some thought and.....We figured it's about time we give your therapy sessions a try.

Glynda: You will? Truly?

Oscar: Yep. (Starts Rubbing The Back of his Head Back and Forth) Though, to be honest, I'm.....starting to get nervous about the whole thing.

Glynda: It's normal to feel anxious about taking part in this sort of ordeal. But I will do everything I can to make sure that our sessions would be more calming and less Intimidating.

Oscar: (Smiles Sheepishly) You really don't have to go out of your way to do that for me. Bur I appreciate it all the time.

Nora: (In the Kitchen) Is that Glynda on the phone!Phone!? Tell her we're making pancakes!!!!

Ren: And Good Morning!

Nora: Oh yeah and that too. MOOOOORNING!!~

Oscar: You heard that right-

Glynda: ('Sigh') I've heard it, yes. It's somewhat nice to see some things haven't changed.

Oscar: Was Nora always a troublemaker back at the acemdey?

Glynda: She wasn't as bad as Ms. Rose in comparison, but she is a close second. I swear, after all these years, she still goes around claiming she's queen of some castle or whatever.

Oscar: Yeah l, she tends to do that here. But anyways, do you wanna eat breakfast with us? I know you have busy schedule on your hands, but-

Glynda: Actually, I'm free for the rest of thr day.

Oscar: You don't say? If that's the case, why not spend the rest of the day with us? You are part of this family after all.

Glynda: And I'm very honored to be here~ In the meantime, I'll get myself ready. You make sure your queen doesn't try eating all the pancakes.

Oscar: I'm sure Ren has it covered from here.

Ren: Nora, I told you not to taste the batter!

Nora: And I told you that my tummy has no knowledge of being patient!

Oscar:........Hopefully. I'll be sure to tell the others that you're coming over.

Glynda: Very well. I'll see you in a few. I love you.

Oscar: I love you too, mom. Later.

As the call comes to an end, Oscar resume back to texting his girlfriend.

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Oscar: I've returned!!

Ruby: Welcome back, stranger!~

Ruby: How's the calling session?

Oscar: Pretty good. Ms Goodwitch is coming over to our house for breakfast

Ruby: No way. She finally got herself a free day today?

Oscar: Yep. And she's gonna spend it with us for the rest of the day

Ruby: Awww~ Bet you're real excited about that now, huh?

Oscar: Yeah, it's been a while since we've hangout with one another, so there's no way i couldn't be anymore excited about it than I am now lol

Runy: Neat!

Ruby: Mind if I tag along with u guys? I'm free too~

Oscar: Sure, but try to behave yourself, yeah?

Oscar: We don't want your former professor to blow a casket over your troublemaking

Ruby: I am a good student damnit!

Ruby: I swear, you get involved in one measly food fight in the cafeteria abd you're suddenly labeled for life! It's blows! 😡

Oscar: Hey, that's what happens when you make history. Everyone will remember what you did no matter how hard you want them to forget.

Ruby: Uh huh.

Ruby: In the meantime, I'd better get myself ready to come to your house in a while

Ruby: Why don't you get yourself nice and handsome for me, will ya?

Oscar: Why? So you could kiss me all over?

Ruby: Damn right!~ :D

Ruby: ...........Or rather, I hope I could do that without getting caught by ur moms.....

Oscar: Is the great huntress Ruby Rose, getting scared of a couple of moms already?~

Ruby: NO!

Ruby: I just...

Ruby: Wanted to make a good impression on them is all.

Oscar: Lol right

Oscar: I wish you the best of luck with that, dear~

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[piethemoon]

In defense of Abby Clark

I've been watching 911 for 3 years now, but I've always kept to myself and haven't interacted with a lot of people from the fandom. This changed recently because of my excitement for canon bisexual Buck (and the very real chance of canon Buddie) and my for you page on Twitter is now full of tweets about 911. It made me realize how many people hate Abby, to the point of sometimes advising people on skipping season 1 entirely (which I don't get because why would you willingly miss an entire season, especially one that set most of the characters and their relationships with each other?).

I think it's totally fine to dislike her but sadly, some people seems to need to twist the reality in order to look good while doing it.

As of today, I have watched the entire first season again (and the first few episodes of season 2) and thought I'd question some stuff that are presented as facts to new fans :

She was abusive/toxic toward Buck:

Where ? Like, really guys.. Where ?

First of all, I think some people are turned off by the age gap. Nothing wrong with having your own preferences. But there's no reason to make it into something it's not. Nothing in the show even hint that Abby targets younger men. There's also no scene where she tries to use his age against him. When we can hear her thoughts about him, she's never thinking about him in a predatory way and while she does seems to be a bit self conscious about her age, that's it. It's not even an important part of the plot.

Also, you know. Relationships with a big age gap between two (or more) consenting adults aren't inherently harmful, especially when the characters are fictionnal. Buck is absolutely not "too young" to date her. He's an adult man who's considered adult enough by people around him to take decisions about people's lives every day.

Sure, the way she gets his number is very questionnable, but she tells him the truth very openly. I think it's one of the many times in the show where the characters are shown being unprofessional and we're supposed to suspend our beliefs about it.

Also, if you consider this preying on Buck, do you realize the amount of women he has preyed on by using his status as firefighters? We know he dated or had sex with women he saved before, which is pretty creepy when you keep in mind that it means they might feel like they owe him a date (or more). And yet we all know his intentions are absolutely not to manipulate them into anything. So why is it so difficult to also assume Abby's intentions were absolutely not to prey on him? She seems to be happy to see someone in their work field recognize her skills, and feel like she understands him. She seems to just wants to connect with him, whether you interpret it as a romantic interest from the beginning or not.

She went away to Dubling at a key point of their relationship :

That's because she's a well written character, who's personnality doesn't revolve around her romantic relationship! That's a good thing! She's a normal woman, who spend years taking care of her mom, pretty much on her own for the most part, and she not only watched her mom's state worsen, but she also watched her suffer and loose her sense of self. And it's so tragic that her mom dying is the only thing that can truly make her free. She seems to have given up many things (including a relationship) to care for her mom.

Obviously leaving to go to Dublin wasn't the best thing to do for her relationship but to be fair, she certainly seems adamant that she's going to come back. Also, I think it's good writing! This is a woman who's far more than her romantic relationship, who lost her mom and who's realizing she doesn't know herself. It's only natural that a person like her, with self respect and a lot of life experiences would understand the importance of some selfishness, especially because she's been selfless for so long. Her mom sacrificied many things and she doesn't want to do the same!

She ghosted Buck

Well, actually... She didn't? I actually remembered that too since it's often presented as fact by some fans but she seems to have broken up with him in a way that is obvious enough that (at least) Chimney realizes. I'm not saying it was well done, of course and she probably should have been a thousand times clearer but it does seems she tried to end things. We can't be a hundred percent sure of what was said between them so it's difficult to know if part of it isn't also Buck not having the experience of a serious relationship ending/being a little bit in denial. But interestingly, certain fans seems to think it's completely her responsability.

We can assume she might have been a bit careless with it, but again, I think it makes sense for her character, who cared for her mom & her job so much that maybe she's becoming a lot more selfish now.

But no matter what you think about it.. This is absolutely not the proof of a toxic or abuse relationship. It doesn't erase the actual happy moments they shared together, the way they both improved through that relationship and it's literally the only time she messed up in their relationship, that was obviously about to end anyway. And if you can forgive/understand Buck for cheating on Taylor.. Why can't you at least not rewrite their actual relationship?

She didn't trust Buck when he was accused of being a cheater:

Again, she's not written as one dimensional character who's existence only rely on her romantic interest. Sure, she trusts Buck (and she does end up believing him) but it's understandable that, while she's going through the first stage of grief, she might not have the patience or energy to listen to her boyfriend defend himself in the very public place where everyone saw him being accused of cheating on you. It was very brief and she wasn't even mean about it. Come on.

Athena hates her:

I see people making edits of out of context moments to try and say that Athena (and the others) always disliked Abby.

To be honest, that one feels a bit sexist. So because Athena is not jumping to hug her it means she hates her? Female characters (and real women) can be not super close without hating each other. Honestly, they both don't look like they really care about the other, and that's all. And that's really not a big deal.

And I think it's the same for the other characters. Bobby seems to respect her a lot and actually helps Buck improve his relationship with her. The other characters don't seems to care for Abby and it's not like they really interact with each other anyway.

Conclusion :

Basically, I wish people would just say they don't like her instead of using moral reasons to make themselves look good for disliking her. And I would also add.. I've seen some of those people says they want complex female characters. Are you sure this is what you want or do you just want female characters who are easily disposable when they're not needed for your favorite male character? (it's not a judgement, I just think people should be honest about that)

And personnally.. I kind of like her. She's always very tired and we don't necessarily see the best moments of her life but I think that's the point of her story in the show. And I'm so glad 911 gave us so many women who are in their 40s or older (Athena, Hen, Karen, Abby...) and who are living full and rich lives. It's so very refreshing and I love that they never tried to make Abby look younger. She has wrinkles! She never tried to convince herself or other people that she was young! It's not even something she really cares about!

And I do think that, as much as she messed up in the end, she was a very good influence for Buck, and it's pretty sad to deny that part of his story. Her age actually helped with that because her life experience means she wasn't too impressed with him and was able to stand her ground which I think Buck liked. She challenged him! It helped him see that he is able to have a serious relationship (which I hope will be used for Buddie hehe) It's pretty great imo and I'm glad she was a part of the show.

[thetruthlsoutthere]

Came across you blog here. Thought I should leave an ask.

Honestly admit I've always believed in the strange and weird so the idea of the Doctor and the Master and all of that to being honestly real, yeah I believe. I mean have you seen the thing about the NASA telescope getting the picture of the question mark up in space. I bet the Doctor did that on purpose.

I mean like the idea of Time Lords and the Doctor and all of that being a real thing isn't too far fetched for me. I mean for the longest time I believe transformers were real and hey they could still be out there we don't know, we can barely make it past our own solar system when it comes to exploring space. Lol

Anyways love this blog you got here. ✨💙

I'm glad you did :)

Glad you don't think of me as crazy or having screws loose in my brain then, haha. NO, I haven't seen that but you're welcome to send me a picture here in messages if you want send a picture of that question mark up in space, i haven't seen that yet. I could see the Doctor doing that though, on purpose to pull some silly shenanigans. Love that word, shenanigans.

It isn't too far fetched to me either, not when i have seen and heard so much but especially experienced so much to believe otherwise and i always try and think logically first, if anything logical and realistic could make the strange or weird seeming thing and what else am i supposed to think or believe if the logical doesn't add up to make the weird thing happen? Away from logical, the weird and strange come into question.

I mean who knows if transformers are real, you know? You never know and don't get me wrong, i agree with anyone on how of if this was real or if that was real, we would know because any of this stuff would happen. I get any person's point of view who thinks like that but not everything is always what it seems. That is why strange, weird, unknown, and unexplainable things happen and even exist because it's nothing that can be logically explained away because when you try, it doesn't add up or make sense.

Plus when you consider the fact that not everything on our own planet has even been fully explored and discovered yet, especially OUR OWN DAMN OCEANS that apparently people have had conspiracy theories was stopped being explored and now looking for space 'as if Nasa wants to try and get us off the planet* and obviously most of space has not even been discovered yet, no one can say with absolutely positivity that something is or is not real BECAUSE WE DONT KNOW, it could be or it could not be but because you don't know, you can't assume it's not. Things can be hidden, kept secret, and private with the deliberate intention so that people don't know, lol. So whose to say that Gallifrey is not real? or The Doctor, Master, Rani, Romana, the Corsair, Rassilon, Daleks, Torchwood, UNIT, Jack Harkness, River Song, and etc everything else from Doctor Who, Torchwood, and other shows, movies, supernatural, paranormal, aliens, etc.?

ALSO ALSO? I kept seeing around that according to scientists or researchers, that the Tardis could somehow be possible? Plus, the quote of "We are either alone in this universe or we are not. Both are equally terrifying'** is obviously true and i agree with it. You honestly expect me to believe that Earth and it's humans are the only living beings, aside from animals, that exist in all of creation, on the only life habitable planet ever? Bullshit.

This blog is mainly for the believe that anything doctor who and torchwood, etc. can be real but it can also be for if anything is real too: supernatural, paranormal, mythological creatures and beings, etc. the paranormal, ufos, aliens, conspiracies, conspiracy theories, other 'shows' and 'movies' being real.

So when it comes to proof or experiences as far as personal or what's happened for other people through hearing and seeing, whether experiencing themselves or not, proof they can catch that seems like it couldn't be faked through pictures and videos, Don't hesitate to send them my way.

Just because i haven't posted in awhile and even if i don't post in awhile, I am STILL here actively. When i am not busy doing anything in my personal life, i am dedicating myself to these beliefs as far as keeping an ear and eye out, researching, investigating, trying to contact, looking for proof, logging my own experiences, and answering any asks i hopefully get. This blog is NEVER going to disappear and if anyone were to try to make me get rid of it or any back ups i make, it would be over my dead body, lmao.

Thank you so much for sending me an ask, i miss getting them! Don't hesitate to send me anything whenever you feel like it :)

&& and it makes me happy that you love this blog. I would hope anyone would. My messages and asks are always open.

-A

[kkemtal]

April 19, 2023

20 Days To Go

Today marks the 1st anniversary with my special favorite person who has been one of my answered prayers that I desperately manifested since before. I'm very grateful amidst the brewing numbness of my mind exhausted from work. Although I get a dose of affection from my significant other and showered loving support from my family, most especially from my mother, I sometimes feel mellow.

You know, something feels lacking and I know deeply there's a huge loophole from one of my aspects that needs to be filled in. Right now, I'm writing my thoughts and feelings as my free expression of solace. Thoughts that spiral from me being a problem in a certain circumstance to a myriad of 'what ifs' of my future.

Who's going to be the right people where I feel like I truly belong? Who are still gonna be my genuine friends in each year passed as I aged? Who's going to be my support system in moments of a cry for help or something that's gonna happen, may it be from scams, hospital bills, delayed loan payments? Although I have not come to reach at this level yet nor do I ever want to step into that real test of adulting, I have to acknowledge to the possibility that someday I would come to a point similar to those aforementioned scenarios. I must have the right practical resources to combat these unfavorable possibilities.

It's the sense of belongingness that's lost in me. The friends I had since high school and college we drifted apart by not being acknowledged especially everytime if we posted rarely at social media. At those points, it is a test of who matters the most by just hitting the chat and ask how's life doing then hoping am invite to catch around. None of that happens to me. Probably, I could see why. It's the pace and the level where I am compared to them in terms of career and settlement.

This just paints me as the sad girl who's robotic at work. I put boundaries to keep me fully sane. As much as possible, not getting myself in troubles or any sort of mischief. I feel like I am the problem. I just keep most of my relationships superficial or is it the different people I deal with at my everyday job doesn't somehow reach at a level of our rapport to be considered as friends? Or whom we feel or relate to outside business?

The pivot of my unending overthinking drains me mentally. No wonder I, probably most of time, feel so droggy early in the morning. This is exhausting. And hurting. Subtly. Overthinking what my counterparts who are three times the rank more than me perceive me based on what they hear about me or saw me somewhere that I do not display as a professional at my leisure times. Thinking they don't like me because of those possible situations and gosh, I hate formulating on how to make people or someone you know you haven't spoken with like me for first impressions. I could feel if someone ain't the same wave as me jiving from work or outside of that aspect.

I feel like a nobody. Just someone who's got superficial relationships harvested from work. It is business, the offers and close dealings. No time to make in hanging around with the clients or some coworkers you want to grow closer outside business. It's sad because we are all gonna run and spend time at our special haven - the ones we considered as priority, the family. Elimination round is the place where I'm always feeling to be by the means of spending energy to who truly deserves it. Who deserves to be inserted on a busy schedule and despite everything.

I feel like I am the least favorite and it hurts thinking about it. Being so pensive about due to my quirkiness and my crooked dialect. Doing my best to talk normally with people by avoiding to come out sounding like a foreigner who's trying hard to speak our local language. I really hate this flaw about myself, besides looking so androgynous - my secondary insecurity but learned to be proud and embrace my physical flaw.

I just wanna cry, pondering what route God is going to direct me before I hit the cusp of 30s? If I am still going to continue at my sales career? Going on the flow that is how passive I do while there's no any door of opportunity to help me get out from this place I am stuck at. Sales is a love-hate relationship. You feel stuck at it the more you get yourself loaded accounts from referrals and endorsements. That's great! However, the whole cycle drains me alot, especially being your most passive self to entertain business clients.

I'm so tired. I wish and pray and manifest the all things in balance to keep me abundantly happy that produces more high quality results from the craft I am innately so great for. Something brand new but it wouldn't take away the very core from my soft skills or anything that aligns with that. Alot of new experiences, new people as instant friends outside business. New level of comfort like staying in a condo for awhile long whilst being with significant partner for business/work. Generating more booming income. And travels like no other.

Manifesting, gradually each subject of full hearts desire will be aligning to reality from just dreams we so desperate to have.

Ciao!

-kkemtal

[sonderwrit]

C101: Memory

I Have to Be a Great Villain - Masterpost

Is this what you call a foursome?

Wang Yi: X!

WY: HAVEN'T YOU COME TO YOUR SENSES YET!

WY: You're not planning to eat me, right?

WY: If you don't wake up, I'll get dissolved!

WY: !

Slime: *hesitates*

WY: (It worked!)

WY: X! Can you hear me? X!

WY (trying to reason logically): You said before, the energy in human meat is equal to pork, and not very tasty. Leaving me alive means you'll get easier solutions to digest. Don't just eat me carelessly!

X: Hm…though the meat's so-so, emotions are exquisite flavors.

X: Right. Especially…when they've been agitated.

WY: (What's he talking about?) *exhales*

WY: (Did the thing that crawled into my ear and play with my brain do it to enhance the flavor?)

[Flashback]

Wang Yi: I, I don't know.

Wang Yi: Feels like something's touching my brain.

[End Flashback]

WY: (But can you really eat something like emotions? If you eat it all…will there be any negative effects?)

Slime: Big brother isn't paying attention.

WY: AH?!

WY: (A…again.)

WY: (That feeling spreading throughout my nerves, like the throes of endless ecstasy.)

WY: (My body has no more strength…)

WY: Hel…help me…

WY: (Am I gonna die here?)

WY: (Will I become a part of the body that belongs to…the "person" who resembles Qin most?)

WY: Qin…

WY: (Huh? Why do I feel more clearheaded while on the verge of death?)

WY: Sorry.

WY: (I said we'd be together, but time and again—)

WY: (I go back on my words.)

WY: It's not bad being eaten…

WY: (At least I can consider this to be….)

WY: (Being "by your side" forever.)

[Flashback]

System(?) Wang Yi: Qin…

System: Do you want me to be by your side forever?

[End Flashback]

Slime: *opens eyes*

Slime: WANG YI!

*FOOM*

WY: ?!

*CRASH*

Slime: YOU WANT TO ANGER ME TO DEATH?!

Slime: ARE YOU PLANNING TO DIE AND LEAVE ME ALONE AGAIN?!

WY: You—

WY: (It—feels like Qin Xian?)

WY: (Right, X was acting way too much like Qin from the apocalypse world when he lost his temper.)

WY: *cough, cough cough!*

WY: X, you…who's controlling your consciousness right now?

Slime: Me? Of course it's still X.

Slime: It's just that I've remembered—

Slime: All of my memories of the past.

WY: Memories…of the past?

Slime: Mm, but I'll explain that later. Right now X…is furious.

WY: I, I'm not angry even though you almost ate me.

WY: (Ahhhh! Why do those two suddenly look like real people!) [They were clearly slime just then.]

Slime: Don't be afraid. Although I couldn't control my appetite just then and created those illusions instinctively from your memories,

Slime: X knows that those two bodies should be…

Slime: A part of myself.

Qin Xian 2: Wang Yi.

Qin Xian 1: Big brother.

WY: (!?)

WY: (Their language is indistinguishable from ordinary people after the transformation. It's not as crackly as before.)

WY: Then…

Qin Xian 1: Yi bro.

Qin Xian 1: Don't you have anything else to say to me?

Qin Xian 2: That's right. 

Qin Xian 2: For the sake of playing hero, you forced the one who loved you dearly to watch you be torn to pieces?

Qin Xian 1: Do you know how sad I felt after waking up in that cave!

WY: Urk…

WY: I had no other choice…

Qin Xian 1: WHAT 'NO OTHER CHOICE'?!

Qin Xian 2: THE CITY LORD LOOKED LIKE HE WAS HAVING THE TIME OF HIS LIFE!

X: ….

WY: (X! Save me…!)

X: They're both a part of me, so whatever they say is what X truly feels deep down inside. (We just look like separate bodies, that's all.)

[Extra Body] [Original Body] [Extra Body]

X: X came to Earth in the first place because I knew of Wang Yi's existence as soon as I gained sentience and wanted to be by your side. But it was impossible for me to determine why I was so fixated on you.

WY: Sorry….

Qin Xians: Is "sorry" all you're going to say?

X: It's not easy stepping into other universes. After using up tons of energy and stamina, X ended up like this. 

X: Soon…I was captured and brought here. 

WY: In other words, X relied on your "feeling" to find me?

X: Mm.

X: But to X, all humans look the same. It wasn't until I snuck into your ear and stimulated your emotions that I recognized you via your memories.

WY: So that's what happened.

X: ?

WY: (How strange. I always thought Qin Xian would transmigrate as the male lead.) 

[He can finally confirm X's identity now]

Qin Xian 1: Big brother!

Qin Xian 1: Why are you ignoring me?

Qin Xian 1: If you don't pay me any attention, I'll kiss you.

WY: !

WY: Sorry, I think the relationships between us all are kinda a mess…

Qin Xian 2: WHY SHOULD YOU GO FIRST! *SLAP*

Qin Xian: I was the one who made a promise to stay together with Wang Yi. So I should be the one to kiss him.

Qin Xian 1: Since we're all the same person, there should be first come, first serve right?

[NOTE: Qin Xian has a portion of Qin Xian's memory fragments]

Qin Xian 2: Since you know we're the same, why are you still trying to snatch it from me?

WY: Don't fight…

X: Don't worry, we all understand that we're one body, but it's like a person's youth, adulthood, and middle-age. It's just easy for things to get chaotic when the memories are separated.

WY: Okay you two, don't be like that…

WY: !

X: *chu~*

X: If it's annoying, I'll call them back.

[iamyounicorn]

Music asks: 5, 6, 7, 9, 20, and a blanket request for any of these questions you're especially excited to answer but haven't been asked!

5. A song that needs to be played LOUD: all of them I can't hear shit (joke) but for reals uhh songs where I like the bass, like The Chain by Fleetwood Mac

6. A song that makes you want to dance: I am not much of a dancer really but Deixa Ser by O Teatro Mágico makes me wanna spin and jump around

7. A song to drive to: I don't drive so idk but when it's just me and my sister in the car we like to listen to old rock, like The Chain (mentioned above) or Carry On Wayward Son

9. A song that makes you happy: hmmm I think music makes me more calm than happy but within that. Amarela Paixão is a peaceful/calm happy. This Must Be The Place by Talking Heads is a chill happy. Deixa Ser (mentioned above) is like a more excited but slightly melancholic happy. Laço also by O Teatro Mágico is a happy happy I think.

20. A song that has many meanings to you: I have the autism trait of reading stuff pretty literally so I don't really have a good answer but one that I can tell you has at least two meanings for me is Valsinha by Chico Buarque.

The literal translation of the song is like. One day the man went home and instead of his usual bad mood and ignoring his wife and cursing life he called her to go out and they danced in the city square and they were so happy that the whole neighborhood came out to dance and party and be happy too and the day woke up peaceful.

So the first and most literal meaning is just that. The man had a change of heart and decided to have fun with his wife instead of being miserable as usual. But considering the song that titles the album it was released in (Construção, a song about a construction worker falling off a building he was working on, the story is repeated three times changing the words at the end of each sentence and getting progressively faster and more nonsensical, it's ambiguous if the fall was an accident or a suicide) it can also be read as the songs are about the same man and the events in Valsinha are him deciding to have one good last night before dying.

[Bonus] 18. A song from the year that you were born: :)

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