#esp less useful since it doesn't show living people at all...

[softgrungeprophet]

genealogy always one of those things i'm curious about but is too much of a pain in the ass to bother with

[emeritus-fuckers]

hello i was wondering if i could participate in the match up event?

I am afab and nb, I use any pronouns :) I'm cool with being any gender or being with any gender neither matters much to me

I lov the ghouls and their silly little shenanigans :)

I'm pretty feminine looking, I'm 5'1 and I'm built like a comic book male superhero like broad chest and shoulders but a straight line from the ribs down like a upside down dorito w legs

I'm asian so my eyes and hair are dark, my hair's like a shoulder-length wolf cut ish thing... idk I just hack at it. sometimes I wear glasses, but sometimes I just feel like being blind. When I get dressed I pretend like im dressing up in a fun little costume so my day is more whimsical and silly my go-to is like sailor uranus prince-type girl crush but a wizard or a wizard who is going on an epic expedition to recover lost artifacts but no matter the outfit the key is that I look like I'm secretly a merlin-style cartoonishly evil wizard. So i guess maybe like goth grunge academia something something pinterest buzzword Oh and I have major rbf, and it makes ppl scared of me

I'm an introverted person and I tend to be very logical but. I think different from a lot of ppl apparently. I've been described, to paraphrase, as "sort of ominous and mysterious but actually funny", "uncanny and unsettling in a good way", and "awkward and weird but its endearing" which just sound like insults. I like to live in my head and make silly stories and things to play with. Like every tumblr user I've got fucked up mental health and bad parents so I am kind of like one of those freaky ass chihuahuas that is always scared and shakes and bites people and has digestive issues. I tend to be hard to read or sort of deadpan so I like fucking w people since they can't tell if I'm joking bc i love mischeif and japes. I want to be a silly not-quite-supervillain like Dr doofinshmirtz or like a trickster archetype sort yk

I was a pretty intense synchronized swimmer for like 9 years I competed at like opens and nationals and all that when I was in school but my university doesn't have :( I'm on the rowing team now but I would rather do synchro esp since being my main thing was being flexible and it has no advantages in rowing lmaooo I've been a huge vocaloid fan since elementary school so I've been around in that community for a while (I am so well-adjusted). I like to make vocal synth covers and draw, especially when I'm able to work with producers to provide art for their vids it's so cool hehehehhe I mostly listen to vocaloid music but I like a lot of metal stuff as well that's how I found out abt gonst. I also like 2 play video gamez, I'm so fucking bad at them but I think it's rly funny so I just spend hours giggling and watching myself get mauled over and over.

I love horror a lot but I'm less a slasher girlie and more of a supernatural psychological tormet girlie esp if its got mythology or religions shit involved. Im majoring in history bc all good history ppl like silly metal and I wrote this instead of my abstract that's due in like an hour bc I have no idea what to do for the topic 🥲🥲

- the fuckin wizard

This post is part of the 1000 followers match up event. Entries for the event are now closed.

Your match is... Zephyr

They like listening to you talk about your major and interests. He's a very good listener.

While they might not be the best swimmer, they enjoy the activity and if you want to show off, they'll absolutely let you and be super proud.

He doesn't mind how unique your style is. He probably wouldn't really try to match clothes with you, but they'd try their best to buy you stuff you'd enjoy.

Since he doesn't really walk much, they picked up drawing and started doing it with you. They're surprisingly good at it for someone who just randomly said "I'm bored, maybe I should start drawing".

Also, horror movie date nights! They're also much more of a psychological horror person, but his favorite is of course the paranormal (he finds it hilarious) so you two take turns picking the movies.

Video game dates included, too. He's got a PS3 and the first three Uncharted games, as well as some others. Their favorite is Uncharted 3.

He'll insist you wear your glasses. He knows the consequences of ignoring his health. It's not fun.

~

Written by Nosferatu with the help of the wonderful and of @ask-zephyr-ghoul (ilysm pookie).

[verdemint]

Okay but what exactly is the cultural influence of Vale? I'd love to hear a first person Italian pov. Also what's Ferrari's influence like?

heiiii, so thank u for asking me! I'm gonna try to explain vale and Ferrari based also on my specific perspective.

In italy formula 1 and Motogp are really popular (not on the level of football) but how and why they're so popular is a little bit different esp in recent years. If we look at the beginning of formula 1 a lot of the drivers were Italians and thats coz in Italy there's always being this "cultura del motore", literally means "culture" for cars and motors as a whole. Thats because we have a lot of companies and factories specialised in this since the 60s/70s, for example the tyres that are used in formula 1 are all Pirelli tyres (an italian company that has always worked on this from like the 70's). From the 90s/00s the italian motor industries started to focus more on the luxury industries, where they don't produce products for everyday use but just for excellence and Italians have become very proud of this heritage of excellence (this also apply to fashion and design with brands like Gucci, Versace,...). So in motors we have brands like Ferrari, Lamborghini, Ducati, Moto Guzzi.

So in formula 1 you have a country that loves motors, where a lot of people work with motors and are very patriotic and u put there an Italian team thats also a team of "excellence" that stands for luxury and elite > people do get obsessed for it!

Thats how the whole obsession for Ferrari started, they became this iconic team so much now that the color red is basically associated with just them, a red car is a Ferrari in the mind of most children I think, it became an obvious association. Also Ferrari has been in formula 1 from the very beginning basically and helped shape how we see formula 1 now and for Italians they're not watching f1 they're watching Ferrari.

In recent years the Schumacher dominance era in a Ferrari car really did make everyone go even crazier for Ferrari, what's better than seeing your team win?

Motogp is a little bit different. We have the same culture of motor obsessed people in Italy but motorcycles esp in the 70s/80s were less associated with the idea of luxury and elite and more with crazy riders risking their life and the whole Americana culture about motorcycles that was really popular in Italy as well. Thats why even tho ducati has been participating in Motogp for a long time they're way less iconic than Ferrari, their idea of luxury didn't really match with the vibes of the motorcycling world (and still doesn't really). So till the 90s Motogp was about this crazy guys risking their lives through horrific injuries and it was a very much "macho man" type of sport (toxic masculinity ofc) and then u have Valentino Rossi. he's young, he looks like a boyish girl, he's charismatic and knows how to play with the cameras to make fun of others, of himself and of the audience (look at the Polleria Osvaldo joke) as well. He has this boyish attitude to the sport that really contrast with a lot of older more stoic riders > people went crazy about him. But thats the story we all know, about how he completely transform the entire sport as a whole, how he put on a show where he was and still IS the main character and the main narrator as well. Motogp became FUN but for Italians he became an idol!

Most of his sketches and little scenes were in italian and they were aired on the national public broadcasting company in Italy: RAI. He was more well known than Motogp as a whole, the news only talked about him every Sunday, he made people start to watch an entire new sport just to see him being silly lol

for example my mom has never watched a single Motogp race but she knows all about the little sketches Valentino used to make after the races, like the running to bathroom moment, or riding with the blond doll...

Vale was not only a master of communication but he was a master of communication to young people, he was just like them! , he influenced an entire generation to get the stupid little earring and all his haircuts lol

Boys saw themself in him, a young silly boy who loved to announce to everyone that he loved women and having fun! Girls loved him because he was a funny guy, a nice guy and a little bit of a loser!

Anyway I grew up in a family not particularly fan of neither Motogp or formula 1 or even football (my dad is more of a basketball guy), with the only exception being my cousin that at like 13 became a super fan of motorcycles in general and he bought his first motocross, why? because of Valentino ofc

Motorcycles as a whole concept became associated with just Valentino (not with a company name like Ferrari)> people started to buy bikes and everything, even now every time I see someone with a helmet like half of the time they have the little 46 sticker on it.

I don't know when I learned who Valentino Rossi is, because I've always know his name, I didn't even know what Motogp was or even what is a race, but as a little child I knew about Valentino Rossi, didn't know what he was doing, didn't know he was a rider but I knew him!

Also funfact: rossi is the most common surname in Italy, but nowadays if someone is called Rossi the first thing people say is "Rossi? Come Valentino?" > he took the most common name in Italy and made it HIS.

soo thats it, Italians feel free to add stuff! sorry it became a super long rant about Italians, upsi

[redundantz]

What are your thoughts on how the characters were written for stampede? You sounded kind of :/ about Meryl at one point.

Hello! Yeah it was a bit of a rollercoaster for me personally. ⚠ STAMPEDE SPOILERS ⚠ BUT they really pulled it together in the end i think (for the most part) Since we now know for sure this is a prequel and where its now going after the finale it puts more perspective on things. I have OG Trigun brain so take my own opinions with a grain of salt. I think if people enjoy this new series on its own merits thats wonderful. HOWEVER I still think the series has severe pacing issues and we miss a ton of important character moments imo. And I wish we got to see more interaction with uhh actual humans. After the first 3 eps and then the one with Rollo we basically dont interact with any other humans who live on the planet and its so weird. (also my god we need more fun time in this show was a depression speedrun istg) Have a graph of my emotional journey:

Vash: oh man haha this one is tough. now that the season is over and we got a HUGE payoff with him so I am very happy now but yeahhh. Some parts I was like wow this is Vash he's perfect. But then as the episodes went on I was getting so frustrated. Because he just would stand there giving everyone UwU eyes and not do anything. Especially for his flashback with Knives. Which I understand it was "shock" but he basically stood there with a blank expression the whole time and it was so...??? Being a pacifist didn't mean he is a limp noodle and doesn't take action. Like don't get me wrong he did have a few moments where he fought Livio and the Badlads but that was about it. I think a lot of my frustration might be because he kept using hand to hand combat compared to using his gun which I am used to. again though, they really brought it back in the end 10000% and brought it into perspective so I can forgive some of the previous stuff. Meryl: She was made more cutesy and naïve. Which definitely got on my nerves here and there. But I was okay with it for the most part ( im not immune to cute lol) They got the most important part of her character where she is touched by Vash's convictions, and his love for humanity. She didn't start off jaded and roughened by the planet this time so I think it has a bit less impact in that regard. But I think the best thing they did for her is she is basically the stand in ambassador for humanity and its strength of character. Wolfwood: I don't have to much to say for him personally. but dude needs to have some fun. First ep with him was pretty great but after that was just a lot of angry yelling and nasty looks. Like...for awhile I couldnt even see how him and Vash are friends besides the fact that Vash is nice to him. Him and Meryl almost had more nice moments than both of them. I LOVED finally getting to see more of his backstory though esp with Livio that was so great. But I really wish we got to see how much he cares about kids and him interacting with them. All we would get is NOT THE ORPHANAGE!! but we never get to see it in action really. Besides him giving Zazie a lollypop that one time and the flashbacks but those only included Livio for the most part. Roberto: NGL I loved him he was cynical and grumpy LOL I was pretty offput at first because it felt like he was replacing Milly. I dont think he wasnt really utilized to his full potential though. Especially because he dies later. I feel like we didnt get enough time with him or character moments. I think it could have made his death hit harder. Also just a shame that he was just there to further Meryls arc. But i think he was meant to mirror Meryls drive to help against his pessimism. Milly: millyseason2millyseason2millyseason2!! That's the main group anyway. Thank you for the ask!

[kylejsugarman]

Please don’t ever feel like you’re annoying us w your au! It really makes me feel like I’m watching Jesse live out his Happily Ever After in Alaska which is all I’ve ever wanted, your characters are so drawn out they’re basically canon to me now <3 Baby esp speaks to the Weird Little Girl I used to be who was also obsessed w marine biology (I esp love Orcas… Baby hit me w some Orca facts pls??) also would love to hear more ab this au + Mike lives w Jesse in Alaska au bc you know that’s my favorite 🥺👉👈

IM 🥺 literally i just need to know that things will be ok for him in the end, ill make the spinoff sequel show, ill build his little alaska world. it really means a lot to hear that people actually Like the au and the characters because its super special to me!! we all need some love and warmth and a little kid who pretends to be coral and fact checked the "blackfish" documentary, and no one deserves all that more than jesse tbh 💕

and u also know that my love for the mike + jesse dynamic got dialed up to 11 the first time i got within 10 feet of ur blog, so of COURSE i was going to figure out a way to get them back together. it just makes me so emotional to think of jesse not only having the closest thing he ever had to a positive male role model back in his life, but having someone who Knows what exactly he went through and how specifically, granularly fucked up it was. someone who knows what he means when he says "i thought i saw Him in a crowd today", someone who will listen and understand the extent of the depravity when he talks about his captivity. that just feels so important, to have one positive connection to his past that jesse can bring into his new life and also that connection gets to be mike!!! best friend mike!! who was already getting soft for the kid and seeing him here—free, in control of his life, no one telling him what to do—and with a soft place to land in his family just makes the heart grow fonder. mike is of course cursed to always be a crusty old man, but that doesn't mean he can't take the family fishing (towards the end, before everything fell apart, he'd started thinking about maybe teaching jesse to fish. it'd probably be too boring for the kid but its a good skill to have) and get baby one of those plastic "my first fishing pole" poles. it just really makes that aching emptiness in his chest that he's been trying to fill ever since matty feel smaller when mike comes up the cabin and opens the door to demi instantly taking his jacket and telling him that she recorded the toronto game for him since he was driving up during it, to baby solemnly informing him about how salmon migration patterns have changed in the area where they usually fish, and to jesse who always looks at him like that first time they first crossed paths in alaska, with that kind of pitiful, kind of heartwarming combo of disbelief and childlike glee. like he's afraid this is all a dream but doesn't want to wake up and found out. mike's less stingy with hugs these days.

[mcalhenwrites]

hmm...

So I'm kind of in love with Coral Island, and I wish I could play it more... (But I need to edit Geckos and finish my library books first.) It has some quality of life stuff that I so wish games like Animal Crossing took into consideration. Like, crafting isn't perfect, but even though my seaweed is in my storage box at the farm, I can craft it while I'm diving or in the cavern. Buuut if I want to get a remodel or update equipment, I have to have those items on hand/in my bag. (And I don't really love that they keep the tools for 1+ days. So far I've never waited more than 2 days, but... well, we'll see. I'm hard pressed to part with my net for a couple of days when I use it religiously lmao) Another one I really like is that it tells me if I've donated or offered items when I glance at them in my inventory, and it'll even show that something can be donated/offered. This is super fucking helpful for me. I love bulking up my museum, but it's nice to just drop it in the donation box after checking that I haven't donated it already. No ten fucking dialogue boxes from Blathers. (I love Blathers, but goddamn, AC is really bad about characters not shutting the fuck up over little things. GULLIVER.) This game is massive and gorgeous and the music for diving especially gets me so wrapped up. I gotta thank a game that lets me dive without being terrifying for me. I freaked out about some of the aquatic stuff about the cloud sea in Xenoblade Chronicles 2, especially the tunnels through the cloud sea that had the fish swimming above my head. For the record, I have a rather bad phobia of fish that sucks bc fish are pretty! It's irrational af, it's a phobia duh, but it bums me out that I can't appreciate fish IRL or in most games. But in Coral Island, I find it really calming and diving is one of my favorite things to do. Catching sea critters and exploring and cleaning up the trash is all very soothing. (Did I mention the music?) I don't seem to be keeping up with the farming much bc I'm so busy trying to dive and catch things and forage and break rocks and I love the little sea dragon Naga and omfg the spirits are so cute, I could squish 'em. Oh, and the merfolk designs? A+ Love the diversity of the farming aspects, love the wild seeds tbh (they're so fun and nice little suprises come out of them!), and I just... I'm in love with everyone, including people who are not marriagable. Oof. It's unusual for me. In Rune Factory and Story of Seasons and other farming games, I usually don't really go, "I want to date you!" I just pick a favorite character. (Okay, lies. In RF4, I wanted to fucking marry Ventuswill, and it wouldn't fucking let me. And yes I wanted her dragon form, we're not gonna talk about the loli form.) (I might date Raj, I'm super into them and got a scene where they were talking about barely staying afloat, so now I keep trying to buy something daily whenever I remember, even though I'm sure it doesn't make a difference. I want them to be happy, also they are so hot. ;A; ) I could ramble forever about the cute little sea critters... I suck at fishing in this game, I updated my fishing rod finally (didn't realize where I needed to go, I'm really bad about socializing and checking out the shops on the regular) so hopefully that makes it less painful... XD; Okay, time to go work on my library books so I can return them asap (esp since I may have treated myself to some indie spanking erotica books with my Trans Lives Fest money...) :')

[ashtraythief]

So, firstly, I just have to say, I mcfreaking LOVE your work. The Underneath series? Mwuah, chef’s kiss, changed my brain chemistry. I will forever be inspired by and cherish your work. Perhaps I can’t properly express my appreciation for your writing and the characterizations and world-building you’ve done, but please know that I appreciate your work dearly and it never fails to inspire me to write better every time that I read something of yours.

That being said, I was re-reading the Underneath series, yes? And I’m on the second chapter of Pressure Point where Busy tells Jared that Alona was the one to reach out to her. And I realized something. Although you’ve never touched upon it explicitly in your fics from what I can remember, I realized that, just like the other agents that aren’t on a case, her information is accessible on the FBI’s database, something of which we know Jared has access to. We also know that Alona is Jensen’s make-believe sister. In True Lies Jared mentions that Jensen had once told him that he and his sister look similar. What if Jared wants a photo of her? Or even just wants to know concretely how she looks like? I can’t remember if Jensen had actually ever shown Jared a photo of her — being that he was extremely protective of her because as we know he can’t let Jared get any sort of close to Jensen’s real identity which includes Alona in herself — but if he hasn’t yet, it makes me wonder (and scared!) how that might bring upon the beginning of the end for them. Because then Jared would be able to connect the dots. “Your sister looks like Special Agent Alona Tal? Your sister IS Special Agent Alona Tal???” And see the thing is, even Jensen doesn’t know that it was Alona that approached Busy. He just knows it was Morgan who set everything up. So he wouldn’t know showing Jared a picture of his “sister” is a deadly mistake.

Of course I’m not actually sure if Alona’s information is even on the database or if Jensen would ever show Jared a picture of his “sister,” but it was a possibility I realized while re-reading Pressure Point and rediscovering that it was Alona that approached Busy, not Morgan or one of the other agents.

Truthfully I’m scared of the possibility because obviously I love the boys and want them to live a happily ever after together! But I suppose I had to share my horrified thoughts with you and get some insight on this possibility.

Thank you again for all the work you do! I’ve gained so much from you allowing us to read your creations and I’m all the better for it. Keep doing what your doing and be proud of the work you are doing!

- An avid fan <3

Omg *flails wildly* nonnie, thank you so so much for your kind words, I'm kind of speechless. Obviously it means a lot to me when people enjoy my writing but knowing that it inspired someone is insane? And lovely? It's all the things and I have all the feelings now, and I can express them properly like the good writer I am lol.

As for your question, omg, that is a deep dive. And I get the anxiety, but I think the simple answer is that Jensen will never allow them to meet and never plans to show Jared a picture. Mostly it's because Jensen never thought the charade would go that far. I think Jensen never expected to be with Jared for years and that Jared wanting to see/meet his sister would eventually become a real problem. It could be now, but I think the longer Jensen is with Jared, the less he pretends to be in contact with his sister and as someone who doesn't have a lot of contact with his own family, I don't think that Jared finds it very strange. Esp bc Jensen's reasons for keeping her away from all the crime stuff are solid. So I think Alona/Jensen's sister aren't a problem. Jensen has other problems and liabilities that might be much more dangerous in the future 😅

And I can only return your sentiment, nonnie. My life has become so much better since I've started writing and sharing my stories. Sometimes knowing that people enjoy my fics so much they take the time to send me tumblr messages still feels absolutely batshit. In the best possible way. And while I am proud of (most lol) of my writing, l am most proud that I can write something that brings other people joy.

Thank you so so much 💙

[eiseryn]

So they got busy*

*It's actually me, who designed their youngest son. (clown emoji only 🤡🤡🤡)

Anyways for now his name is tentatively Ceres (I wonder who he is named after. Hmmmmm sure is a mystery isn't it?🤔)

Main design features

Green eyes with very sharp pupils (green eyes like his older sis + mother)

Fangs!!!! All the sibilings have fangs because I draw Vail with fangs and I love fangs in characters. I'm pretty sure 75% of my chars have fangs in them as their character design thing.

Dyed purple hair (natural hair colour is black. He often dyes his hair, usually in cool tones as well, right now he's in his purple phase. He's done white a few times, but he usually likes to make it a gradient.)

Purple as his main colour (since I already used up green + blue for his sisters and I wanted to continue with the cool tones).

Green accessories that match his eyes, including his mother's necklace which is a gift from the original Ceres 👀

Mint lollipop (he has a sweet tooth like his father + mint lollipops is what Ceres like(s/d))

Slightly sheer sleeveless turtleneck 👀 Shows off pecs and abs LOL.

Similar to his mother he has green diamonds in his design. Otherwise he looks like a carbon copy of his father XD just with his mother's colours... In my defense Vail's design is already so good why would I change it XD

Personality wise? He's probably pretty chill and laid-back (just like his dad 💅). As the youngest child (4-6 years younger than his sisters) he's pretty doted upon by his older sisters, although he feels like he needs to take care of his less reliable older sister Yuelan sometimes. But either way, people don't really have expectations for him and he's free to do as he likes. He has a fierce sweet tooth (all his siblings do, but his is prob the strongest, and YL close after. MX also has a sweet tooth but she will let her siblings take the last piece of cake as the oldest sis even if she wants it). What does he do? I have not decided but he is definitely a driver of some sort. I'd give him a drive of at least 70, hopefully 80 and he probably mostly drives motorbikes but would totally drift in a racecar. He is also more muscle and a fighter than his sisters. I imagine he's pretty similar to his father so they're like yup… that's his son alright XD

More notes

I don't know if we can get Ceres back... so if she doesn't come back he is simply Ceres. If we have Ceres back then she is one of his many aunties (Elise is the other main one) and he is called Ceres Jr. or Ceres the son. Maybe even Ceres (M)

I also don't know if his parents are alive in the time [esp Vail... haven't been told his reduced life span yet :') ] but the 3 siblings take care of each other! They might still live together in this time when Ceres (M) is in his early 20s!

I love the three of them so much 🥺 I hope the DM will let them be canon but I'm too scaredge to ask directly 🥺

[itgirlwritingsonthewall]

Finding Self-Worth through Belittling

I came a fourth of the way around the world to explore a potential love-interest. What was revealed to me has been anything and everything short of romance. Instead, I found myself stripped of some layers of expectation, entitlement and faced with false identities (my own) that showed up in somewhat subtle, but none-the-less a little cringy ways for me to notice. Long had these personas been there, lingering since my twenties perhaps longer, but they first made their appearance when I set out to re-invent myself when I moved abroad as an ex-pat to Beijing, China.

I discovered when visiting my love interest that this whole false-persona flex was the norm in beijing at the time. I was there circa 2005-7. My intention to go to Beijing was two fold. First and foremost, I wanted to transition from non-profit to for-profit work and I thought this little hiatus would be the perfect resume gap. The second reason was that on my bucket list (at 25) was what I thought was a nearly impossible goal- to live in another country. I studied abroad in Chiba, Japan (an hour an some change outside of Tokyo) my junior year of college- and while I loved the experience, the vast sea of loneliness I experienced probably highlighted my neediness and solidified my desire of closeness to loved ones (friends and family) as my need for connection- emotional, physical etc rose by the day.

Now to the spiritual more deeply personal reasons. I visited Beijing China (as well as 4 other parts of the country) that summer with 18 of my relatives on my mothers side. I felt myself inextricably drawn to Beijing. I felt pulled in by the city, I felt I belonged here for no real reason. This reason I would later find out through many past life healings and regressions would make sense. The only other city that people refer to as really having that pulse and aliveness is New York, where I currently reside. I have never felt this aliveness or this je ne sais quoi about New York, but Beijing- there really was just something about it. Anyway, back to my Berlin adventure.

I met my love interest in Beijing. It was fleeting- I was attracted to his intelligence, sense of humor and his passion for rooftop greenspaces- his vision has stayed with me all these years. Other conversations we had as well spanned into the esoteric and spiritual, and I never really forgot him- but not in that nostalgic way- just a we had a nice connection but it didnt work out because I moved back to the states and we both moved on.

16 years later, he visited me in NYC- connection is still there, so I decide to face my fears, put the possibility of love on one of the front burners- still hedging my bets, but definitely doing a lot more than dipping my toe in the water. I mean, at 43, 45 is just around the corner and theres about as many years behind me as in front of me at this stage in life. Still single, still not looking and this possibility presents itself to me.

So, here I am in Berlin facing my biggest fears. My childhood traumas, still alive, my illusions and behaviors to cope with my past still as active as the day they were created- ready and on stand by to insert themselves should my core-identities and world views be threatened by contrary information. My inner world view too fragile to sustain a slight crack - lest that crack become a sliver that develops into a micro-canyon and implodes my sense of self. So what is this world view, what are these identities that have held be prisoner for all these years.

The first has to do with how little I think of myself. I thought I had dealt with this previously. But sometimes, we don't get what we want, we get where we are. How we are being treated by others (esp in romantic, work or other intimate relationships) can be a reflection of how we experience ourselves. Doesn't matter how messed up, archaic, self-harming or shameful. Most of us can't even fathom having such a poor view of the self- yet it keeps showing up. Repeatedly. To the point where it can't be ignored. How did it show up for me? I didn't feel like he took my feelings and needs into consideration into importance. Or what I wanted. As hard as it was to swallow this, it was easier to write him off as selfish, belittling and unavailable. But when I really thought about it, wasn't I the one who was disregarding my own feelings in relationship to him (yes). Wasn't I the one who wasn't meeting my own needs (yes). What were these needs in this context: needs for some of the basics- water (he helped me see Im dehydrated most of the time), and is the second person to point out how little water I drink. I also needed sunlight and I couldnt seem to shake this brain/head fog which part of which might have been jet lag, but a lot of it was from not sleeping in my own bed, recently a major life changing living situation, and yes getting closer to facing my fears (although i didnt know it). Perhaps some of this brain fog, not being as mentally (and physically present) was my body's way of gearing itself up for battle, to defend my long held core beliefs about my unworthiness. As I write this, I feel sadness. Sadness for myself. Sadness for this little girl who felt unworthiness her whole life, but masked it (I created in beijing as this carefree girl who was problem free). It was easy to be that was performatively in Beijing as everything was so affordable. The part of me that so deeply wanted to be carefree was really not. She was burdened emotionally, weighed down by 25 years of neglect, abuse and self-abuse (CPTSD), but didn't know.

I realized as this carefree persona as someone who has a full life, who is happy, who doesnt need a man to take care of her but desires it was a partial truth. It was performative, but not embodied because left unexamined and separate from it - this identity and relationship goal was built on top of bodies of hurt, unprocessed pain and unfelt feelings. And that my friend, is a foundation made of unstable, ungrounded and unfounded fakeness. Inauthenticities. Facades. Costumes. Disconnectedness. It was the do to get, cheap, temporary fixes, the fast food of connection. Short lived and easily forgotten to the other party, but with the scars and hurt to unfurl for months if not years until another man came along to rip off the festering wound, and cut a little deeper, pour a little more salt. Times that by 25 years and not in the linear way. In the most non-sensical fucked up mathematical way where something is cubed and compounded kind of way. All the while thinking, I'm a good catch, what is wrong with these men. I never thought about my impact on them. They took and they ran. And they never didn't think once.

It was only once I looked up the definition of belittling (to make the other person feel small) that i realized that i make myself small. And I continued to make myself small in so many interactions. It looks like being easy going or not caring because the greater need is companionship, company, not being alone (but not admitting this). It's the road paved to cheapening your own desires and experiences. It was a guaranteed way to ensure my invalidation of showing up more fully while validating the crumbs. As I said to myself before I had this awareness, "I didn't come all the way to Berlin to chase the bread crumbing champion." What I found instead was the low self-worth and I merged with it. Merged with the illusions, merged with the smallness, merged with my insignificance and my redundancies, my passivity, and my self-silencing. Because when these ways of being are flaunting the 5% consciousness costume of "I'm a bad-ass B*, "I deserve better", or the blame game, it's self-belief trap set by the dominant mainstream advice that seeks to empower other women, without being truly present to what may lay beneath the skin-deep surface of a deeper feeling embodiement, what is behind the veil - which is for women, where the experiencer of experiences has her value. She is value and worth because she gets to have her own experiences. They are her's and her's alone unless she chooses to express them and share them, but because they are hers, and they belong to her, she has her value, her worth and that my friends is what I call "self-worth".

[thesimpsbasement]

Request for Mod Betty! Can I ask for headcanons for dating Edgeworth, Apollo, and Phoenix please?

𝕲𝖊𝖓𝖊𝖗𝖆𝖑 𝖉𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖈𝖆𝖓𝖔𝖓𝖘 𝖕.2

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Fandom: Ace Attorney 

Characters: Miles Edgeworth,Apollo Justice, Phoenix Wright, Godot, Simon Blackquill, Klavier Gavin

Author: Mod Betty 

Warnings: mentioned spoilers for AA3, AA4(esp on AA4)

Reader is gender neutral 

Words count: 1,181 words 

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𝕄𝕚𝕝𝕖𝕤 𝔼𝕕𝕘𝕖𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕥𝕙

•He's a reserved person, mainly keeping things to himself and is generally calm 

•He was deprived of affection eve since his father's death so when receiving affection he does stiffen up but does eventually relax and get used to your touch as the real progresses 

•But please don't hug or kiss him when his friends are around ( ESPECIALLY Larry) they will never let him live that down 

when he isn't as busy he likes to invite you to his office and drink some tea together as you talk about whatever in on your mind 

•He appreciates moments like these, it's like he can forget about all the bad stuff in the world and just be there with you 

•If you are a defense attorney he won't go easy on you if you 2 are assigned the same case , but if you aren't he might give you some advice or possibilities but nothing too detailed 

•He doesn't exactly have much experience or knowledge with relationships but he tries his best yo make dates enjoyable for the both of you , usually you 2 either go to some restaurant and enjoy a nice meal or just take a stroll around the city 

𝔸𝕡𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕠 𝕁𝕦𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕔𝕖

•Nervous wreck 2.0 

•He can get easily flustered by anything you do, be complimenting him or kissing him 

•In public he likes holding your hand as you 2 walk around and talk 

•Phoenix often teases him and jokingly gives him relationship advice 

•He enjoys the fact that you are always there to support him in the gallery and come to congratulate him on winning a case after a tough trial 

•Apollo has been through a lot in his life, with many losses of people dear to him, so he does worry about your safety,clinging to you when you 2 are at home probably trying to sleep 

•Dates are pretty simple , nothing too dramatic not that you minded, in fact you enjoyed being with him and his silly antics 

•Also please save him from being Trucy's magic assistant 

ℙ𝕙𝕠𝕖𝕟𝕚𝕩 𝕎𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥

•Lowkey has trust issues for a bit due to the whole Dahlia incident but he does eventually warm up to you when you showed no signs of lying about your love for him( thanks magatama) 

• during his lawyer days he is more shy and doesn't always pull the first move but he is more bold when it comes to affection unlike Edgeworth 

•He loves spending time with you and sorta acts a bit like his college days but less naive and probably won't give you a silly nickname 

•Dates are also nothing too much out of the ordinary ( mans be broke half the time) but usually prefers to stay at home with you his arms watching TV or something 

•Also he will be really happy with you get along with Trucy and you 2 definitely go to her magic shows 

•When he lost his badge he did get more depressive but thanks to you and the now new addition to the family, Trucy , helped him get through that dark time in his life

•Also hobo Phoenix was definitely a lot more flirtatious during that time compared to his usual self 

•He personally doesn't mind PDA but will probably get nagged by a teasing Maya or a sobbing Larry 

𝔾𝕠𝕕𝕠𝕥

•Godot is more of a flirtatious type of partner that keeps to himself most of the time

•Also teases you a lot, he just can't get enough of your flustered face 

•At the beginning of the relationship he doesn't open up at all, wants to make sure you don't have any ill intent but when you 2 grew close enough he would slowly open up to you which means a lot 

•If you like coffee , he'd definitely make a special blend just for you but if you don't like it he'd still make your drink of choice 

•He always makes his coffee himself to make sure no one poisons it like a certain redhead did so if he lets you make his coffee take it as a compliment because that means he trusts you a lot

•He is sort of affectionate, more with words than physical touch and is pretty open about it unless you tell him you feel uncomfortable with it he'll stop dw

•Coffee shop dates, no more needs to be said 

•During his time in prison you did often visit him , which he does appreciate ( even if he is ashamed at the fact you had to see him behind bars) 

•When he gets released he wants to do nothing more than to lay beside you and hold you close to him.

𝕊𝕚𝕞𝕠𝕟 𝔹𝕝𝕒𝕔𝕜𝕢𝕦𝕚𝕝𝕝

•It mostly depends when you 2 started dating 

•If it was before the UR-1 incident he's more calm and less reserved, and he's more affectionate with you when it comes to PDA 

•if it was after the UR-1 incident he was a bit more cold and reserved in the beginning of the relationship but will eventually break his walls as you 2 grow closer 

•He likes to tease you playfully, nothing too bad, he especially likes to fluster you, he just can't help it when you look at him with that embarrassed look but if you are uncomfortable with things he'll stop immediately 

•Simon is also stubborn with things and does stay up late sometimes which you have to literally drag him to bed 

•Simon is a bit stiff when receiving affection but he'll get used to it and actually crave it, spending 7 years in prison being a huge influence 

•Also if Taka likes you then Simon will be delighted and probably have a soft smile on his face as you feed his pet bird 

𝕂𝕝𝕒𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕣 𝔾𝕒𝕧𝕚𝕟

•He's definitely flirtatious, he knows how to use words to charm you 

•He enjoys complimenting you and giving you hugs but only in private , in public he'd just hold your hand but since he is quite popular you two have to run off from the huge crowd into a more quiet place 

•Dates are also in more quiet and less crowded places to not get bombarded by the press, even though he does enjoy the attention by his fans he does prefer his private time with you 

•He does have a very busy schedule being a prosecutor and famous singer so when he comes back home he's practically worked to the bone, luckily you're there to welcome him every time 

•There are times where Klavier isn't feeling his best self, more specifically during his guitar getting lit on fire and the string of other bad things happening after that and his brother's conviction, he did need some time to himself to cool down before just plopping besides you hug you , burying his face into the crook of your neck , a sigh escaping his lips.

•If you do speak a foreign language he'd love for you to teach some stuff about it and he'll teach you German ( if you don't know it, if you do he'd probably talk more in German on purpose) 

[deadmunds-ghostbee]

If Anthony can’t have a beard in S3, I hope there’s a scene with Kate shaving him. I won’t get my hopes up for any sex scenes since they won’t want them upstaging the main couple, but I hope we still get a lot of tender, domestic scenes between Kanthony.

I'm coming out as team no-beard bc it really doesn't seem in character for him (I think I've discussed this before) unless he's away from society for a while or later in his life as a father! Anthonys uptight and all about appearances. That doesn't suddenly go away since he's found the love of his life.

I think there are some fanfics out there where she shaves him? And they're so cute even tho that's not the kind of domestic moments I think we'll see in the show.

As for sex scenes, upstaging, etc: I think Shondaland is probably shelling out for old leads and will put their money to good use. I think we can be pretty confident in saying kathony will be in s3 more than Daph in s2. And based on viewier feedback (and despite some questionable promo decisions and cutting important things out for Kate), I think they do know how much people like/want to see more of Kathony. Why else would shonda herself tweet about them when all that "deleted scenes" stuff on twitter was going around?

But this is all cautiously optimistic. I don't know how much of a worry "upstaging" is from productions perspective because i do think they view polin as an /it/ couple who will be won over by people regardless. I also don't expect kathony sex scenes ofc. A tender kiss here and there for sure, and at the very very most a fade to black. Maybe a morning kisses right when they wake up on the day of fran's debut before the house falls into chaos? Who knows?

Despite this, I'm actually maybe a little weird here in that i don't mind if a lot of Kathony screentime is separate. I'd be very happy to see them continuing with their lives parallel to/supporting each other while dealing with separate things. Most of all I'd like to see Kate develop more! Get to know her better, esp in a viscountess role! With Anthony its less urgent but I'd love to see him supporting his brothers and being less burdened. Of course any development or babies in their relationship is very very welcome, but I don't require whatever subplots each of them are in to be so intertwined. I don't require a kathony only subplot either (which is ambitious imo). As long as their happiness/support of each other is evident in the way they act and talk, and we get a few cute moments, I'll be very happy.

If they do have a lot of scenes together i expect a little bit of drama which isn't necessarily a terrible thing either. I want them to be happy of course, but developing their characters (especially Kate) is so so important to me so if a lil bit of conflict is how we get that then that's okay w me. As long as its not some overdone tropey shit where shes miserable and insecure the whole time (you know what im talking about im not gonna list em off) and we never see them happy until the end. That will piss me off.

Anyway. this was very long. The best kathony content imo is on ao3 so i advise hanging out there before getting too specific about theories for s3!

[cardboard-aliens]

I REALLY hope they don’t remake Bioshock 1 since the remastered version is as good as it’s going to get (in my eyes at least), but if they did remake it whats something you’d like to see changed?

ME NEITHER- They're not just gonna repackage the game and update the graphics and mechanics, if they're gonna remake it, it'll end up being a whole new game in a BioShock skin.

There are small tweaks to the base game I wouldn't mind tho: - bring back the ethnic little sisters cowards

- less serious note but let me carry the girls to the vents 2K!!!!

- All named characters getting their own unique models (yeah like Tenenbaum and Atlas- BUT ALSO Jasmine and Diane, if they've got a name they should have their own model. I think it would be really good if characters like the Lutz family and Anya Andersdotter had their own models so we could follow minor characters better)

- a REAL neutral ending (harvest pre-reveal, rescue post-reveal) so when Tenenbaum beckons Bad End!Jack to change he can.

- also if you harvest there are less sisters in the sanctuary- and if you go full bad end the sisters don't show up to finish Fontaine and Jack would take care of it on his own.

- Model Jack some legs and feet- so i can see his fancy shoes

- Add in some extra accuvoxs: give us more Jasmine and Anna Culpepper logs they are GREAT and Jasmine is so important she deserves to have more than one log and a ghost. Also I'd like some more logs post reveal from Tenenbaum and Fontaine's perspective on working on Project WYK instead of just Suchong's- I REALLY want to hear some of Tenenabaum's thoughts and eventual guilt over Jack.

- TBH if we lived in a timeline where we got Anna Culpepper running the fort frolic level instead of Cohen I would not complain

- make the game PLAYABLE so it doesn't CRASH EVERYTIME I TRY TO SAV-

- I actually don't hate the final boss fight and it has a lot of good narrative meaning for the story and character arcs- but the fight 100% need to be balanced and reworked to make it more challenge, along with some better pacing in Point Prometheus to build up to seeing Fontaine all big and blue

- Redo the pacing on the ending scene, the stuff there is 10/10 but you can blink and miss it.

- Maybe lay down a nod on why Sisters got left behind for BS2 (This is the only thing that trips me up about BS2- I can't picture Tenenbaum leaving Rapture for 8 years if there was a chance there were still girls left, ESP if its Good End and she knows she has a place she could send girls too on the surface- and I think Jack would be more than willing to stick around in the city to pick up any children that got missed [personal HC is that when Lamb took over Persephone her and her followers also abducted some little sisters in the chaos of the riots and then locked down the prison- so they'd have their own stable source of ADAM while being safely disconnected from the city, and then those girls grow up into the big sisters- and that's why Tenenbaum leaves, because she thinks they got all the girls and the one's lamb took are dead after all this time])

- Never acknowledge BaS, don't even touch that stuff with a 10 yard pole unless its to subtly retcon it with Atlas being like "we were only ever cooped up in Apollo Square- What department store"

- tweaking Tenenbaum's character so the holocaust survivor isn't also a Nazi Scientist- I'd have her pick up science after the fact as a way to cope with what she saw in the camps.

Thats most of the stuff I can think of atm- i wouldn't mind them adding variety to the skin tones of the cast though I can already hear people complaining about 'forcing politics into my video games'- same with LGBT characters to balance out Cohen.

REALLY tho I'd want to keep most of the story beats and characters the same because thats what creates the narrative i enjoy from this game.

[eldritch-araneae]

A bit of social media vent.

After limiting my Twitter time, I feel better. I'm cleaning up my dash by unfollowing some ppl there, simply bc this site got so much worse with an algorithm that you can't follow many ppl without completely losing posts from big chunk of them!

Also, some big artists talk about how "social media is inheritly bad to artists, and it designed to punish us, so go join discord communities and interact a lot to have growing," which by itself is partly right.

I'm saying partly bc it wasn't like this before. All this stupid algorithm and punishing ppl for not making content every day is a thing of recent years! So this advice would work back then perfectly, but it's not really working now!

And this is what infuriates me, bc many ( who also white) big artists don't feel the effect of those changes. They have shit ton of engagement since they grew when this site was much less hostile, while small artists struggle so damn much right now. I can tell that past 2 years the situation on Twitter got from shitty to worse. Small artists keep talking about this, but big artists don't want to hear any of this. It feels like they're saying "shut up and accept your fate bc every platform is like this".

Which is not true, bc Tumblr doesn't hide my posts from my followers, KO-Fi also doesn't hide anything, Picarto doesn't hide posts as far as I can see. Only Twitter and Instagramm decided to screw ppl over that I have to cull my following list so I have higher chances of seeing art from ppl I really want!

Only on Twitter you will miss posts EVEN if you set your dash to "Latest Tweets" that supposed to show all tweets in chronological order. Twitter will hide your posts if you mention ANYTHING with money, words like commission, Patreon, sales etc. Twitters will hide tweets if it has a link in them. Twitter will hide your posts for tags. Twitter will hide your posts for nothing!

And playing by those rules is exhausting and discouraging, bc they constantly change! Your only chance in luck, like if a big artist RT your art, but with help the result won't stick since you start losing followers shortly after, so in order to grow consistently, you need this luck all the time. Which is not possible.

I know they try to help, but like they unknowingly play into "big vs small artist" Twitter culture too. Following number badly distorts the image how people see you.

So that why I want to be more active here now, while keep Twitter like some sort of hub? Like an official account or something. Idk how this gonna work, but I'm willing to try bc I'm stuck with no progress for a long time and shit got harder. Twitter became extremely hostile, esp for artists.

I'm just really curious what gonna happen if I put my attention on Tumblr for example.

I know that numbers aren't anything and they don't guarantee a lot of money, but they rise changes to get some business bc you have higher visibility and higher chance that someone will commission you or join your Patreon. It's extremely important for ppl like me, who do art, but live in a country where art means nothing and doesn't sell well. We can't go and network with peers outside of the internet.

Social media is the only source of income in our case, please understand this!

[zendyval]

Also it's easier to call your SO your bff when you are a teen than when you are an adult. It's also harder to claim to be just besties when you are some of the most popular actors in the world, live 6000 miles from each other and you are spotted frequently staying at each other houses. Continued denials under these circumstances just foster more surveillance from paps looking to get the money shots. To occasionally post each other also reduces the chances of stalking because you are confirming that you are still together. Going public doesn't reduce all stalking since Tom and Z are still extremely famous, but it definitely reduces it. There was a period when Z couldn't leave her house without having paps following her. Both Tom and Z have been more local with their fandoms when the stalking expanded from Tom and Zs own houses to their parents' houses. For example, they follow fan accounts that pledged not to post the most intrusive pap pics and like posts that criticize fans sharing intrusive pap pics. All this is the downside of fame and they are learning how best to navigate that life

Besides dealing with paps is the matter of trying to enjoy life. Having to stay indoors all the time and denying yourself any show of affection in public can be very tough on relationships. Tom and Z are frequently using private clubs that ban members from taking pics of others like the SOHO Houses or the place near Palm Springs they spent the last holidays. But also they are allowing themselves permission to hold each other hands in public. Life is too short to stress about constantly hiding your love for another person

Yep, I definitely think they have taken some of these member only places because yeah of course they are rich and fancy and boo hoo you belong to exclusive clubs, but I also think it gives them a modicum of privacy they don't get elsewhere. Yes people see them but people are less likely to approach them or attempt to take pics so it's a little safer.

And for all people say, they still are fairly tame in public. They hold hands but it's not like they are giving extensive PDA.

But I also agree it's harder to hide the older you get, esp when both parties are super famous. Because eventually you are going to want to live with the person and do adult things and go on vacations. Whereas when Z was a teen her boyfriend would go on vacation with her, but so would her whole family and maybe some other friends so she could pretend she brought all her friends along.

[madmadmilk]

I want to be excited about the Eternals SO BADLY but I just can't... I don't think I ever got over Endgame and what a shoddy job the MCU did with time travel and the fallout/recovery of the "blip." The concept of the blip itself irks me so much and I wish they had come up with some other explanation.

But all the mcu content lately (with the exception of tfatws) does so little to dazzle me. And I wish that wasn't the case. I want the excitement back!

OH. MY. GOD. I totally agreeeee!! I wish there was another Avengers ensemble movie to like, solidify what the fuck happened??? I feel like i still have so many questions.... like, where do we stand with "the avengers?" The movies and shows we've seen recently have only scratched the surface...

like,, I'm so happy and excited that the MCU is expanding, but yeah i still feel like there are a few loose threads...

I'm gonna list some thoughts below lol (spoilers ahead!)

Spider-Man: Far From Home (movie)– obviously, we were anxious for a "first look" of what the state of the world was like... but i think they glossed over it too quickly? It was like, the whole world (and peter) mourned FOR iron-man, rather than the lives they lost etc. etc. It was a little bit too rosy, in terms of the world at large. We did kind of get to see Peter stand alone, but not quite. It hints at a bigger multiverse, but ya that doesn't wrap up the one we are already in

WandaVision (Series) - yeah, this was kind of an individual experience, so we didn't really get to learn much about the state of the world. we do know that they picked up vision and just did whatever the fuck they wanted with his body???? meaning??? they either took him when everyone snapped (so the OG6 avengers just let them do that??) OR they waited till tony?? died to take him?? WHAT??????????? i do appreciate that they emphasized her grief, it was cathartic and welcome esp. since i still hadn't gotten over what we lost in endgame.

The Falcon and The Winter Soldier (series) - NOW we're getting into it. they introduced soooo many new topics, issues of race in the MCU, more corrupt governments, displaced peoples from The Blip, and the fact that The Avengers can't even get a fuckin' loan??? (much less other people??) i appreciate seeing how fucked the world is... i don't want it to come together easily. I'm glad to see Sam take Captain America's title and that he is a new and refreshing model for hope. It just feels good lol. THAT BEING SAID–... i'm a little frustrated that they didn't talk about steve's predicament?? like, i just want to know more idk

Black Widow (movie)- uhhhh..... i don't think this will show us much about the current affairs of the world. all i hope is that we see a fucking funeral or memorial to her, cos she's the one who held The Avengers together through the blip?????? hello?????

Loki (series) - I'm pretty sure they're going to rewrite how time travel works with this series. we may get more clarification?? on how it works, but i doubt it'll change anything retrospectively???????? But also this reiterates that Loki, and Gamora are not the same people that we've grown to know. They're the older versions and that is SO. SAD. lol. but we'll see!

Shang-Chi (movie) - hmm it will tie in some places we learned about from TFATWS, but i'm not sure what they'd address about The Blip?? I am excited to watch this and learn more thoooo

Eternals (movie) - LMAO THEY REALLY JUST LET HUMANS DO WHATEVER THEY WANTED, AND THEN THEY LET THEM BE THE ONLY PPL WHO STOOD BETWEEN THANOS AND MASS GENOCIDE AHHAHA (idk much about them, so pls don't spoil anything from the comics). lmao i kinda love how smug they might be about it hahhaha i bet some of them got snapped away and they were like :o....... SHIT. interested to see this new genre/style in the MCU tho! so looking forward to it!!

Yeah, i would say that...... i'm always excited for the new films, but..... i do wish certain things were addressed. Like steve fucking up timelines and leaving everyone behind, what happens to stark industries now?, funeral for nat...., hawkeye? who?, i hate what they did to the hulk......, new asgard?, how is cassie that old now???.... ect.....

let me know what you guys still have questions about lmaoooo

[noona96n]

1. I have a couple things to say. Warning - it may be long. I’ll try to break it into parts but honestly you don’t have to read or respond to it. I’ll start off by saying I couldn’t care less about what the casts are doing outside of the show. I think shipping is fun too. But nobody can force anything on somebody and you have to understand that everyone is their own person. Also, NEVER SEND ANY HATE. To anybody. EVER.

^^^^^^^ 1. LOUDER PLEASE

2. the thing is, Joyce shouldn't have to know what 'she's getting into' when she post that vid, ya know? my heart goes to her bcs she probably did it to support her bf and it's sad that ppl don't understand that...

3. to me, it's still an invasion of privacy... just bcs Zihong gave an inch doesn't mean we (& the media) can take a mile

i think Meghan Markle said it best in her latest interview w/ Oprah 

i think everyone has basic rights to privacy and we’re not talking about anything that anybody else wouldn’t expect. 

so, if ure at work & u have a photograph of a child on ur desk, & ur coworker says ‘oh my gosh, ur kid’s so cute, that’s fantastic! can i see all the pictures of ur child?’. u go, ‘no, this is the picture im comfortable sharing with u.’

and then, if they double down & say, ‘no, but u already showed me that one so u have to show me everything. u know what, im just gonna hire someone to sit in front of ur house, or hide in the bushes and take pictures into ur backyard, because u've lost your right to privacy...because u shared one image with me’.

that’s sort of the flawed argument & it’s operating mechanism that they’re confusing people to think. i think life is about being able to share our stories & share parts of our lives that we’re comfortable with. 

there's no one who's on ig or social media that would say, 'because i shared this one picture, that entitles you to have my entire camera roll. go ahead and look through it.' no one would want that. so it's about boundaries. and it's about respect.

(honestly, i love her, been a fan of her since her time on Suits)

privacy is a blurry thing to discuss when talking about celebrities but i really don’t think we have any rights to pry into their private life... what they tell us is what we get, we shouldn’t ask for more. we’re not their families or friends... even as family or friends, we shouldn’t feel like we’re entitled to know what they’re doing. (and this is a mindset that i apply to everyone, my parents, my brother, my best friends... not just ppl that i stan.)

again, Zihong’s a public figure so i understand that people would have different expectations of what privacy should be like for him. but again... he shouldn’t have to share what he’s not comfortable with. 

4. pls, Yu laughed so hard w/ Chihtian!! Chihtian is soooooo annoying (affectionate) (RayTian are so annoying and i love them so much! they embody peak older sibling energy)

i agree that Yu had wayyyy more fun w/ Chihtian! he seem to have more with with RayTian around, i mean... RayTian are both so witty and outspoken! esp Chihtian! meanwhile, Zihong's a quiet person, and very weird... all of my favs are so weird tbh haha

though i must say i think we can’t really judge the level of closeness that SamYu have thru the live they broadcasted ya know? sometimes, there’s much more companionship in the silence (definitely me, an introvert, speaking HAHA)

also, Zihong revealed in his Weibo live the other day that they call each other by their full names in private (Lin Zihong + Yang Yu Teng) and he said that that’s how he refer to ppl he’s close with... so they're pretty close from Zihong's POV (and from my POV too bcs i put a lot of emphasis on my name and who get to call me what ya know?)

(also also, Chihtian was so upset that Zihong & Yu don't have cute nicknames for each other AHHAHA he’s such a SamYu shipper... i won’t be surprised if he has a SamYu fan acc lol)

also, ur opinion made perfect sense! thanks for dropping by and talking with me! and honestly, i wasn't joking when i said i that i want to provide a safe space for discussion on WBL in general... so feel free to drop by anytime... we can have more discussion on this topic (or any other topics!)

and , last but not least, thank u for breaking up the asks into smaller, more digestible pieces!!