#erik lehnsherr is crushing harder than a 12 yr old girl

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Imagine a cherik sugar baby/daddy fic all Charles' pov. He and Erik have had the arrangement for a couple of years, yet Erik starts pulling away, Charles knowing that he's in love with Erik forcing himself to stay out of Erik's mind in fear that he'll see Erik wanting to break things off or he'll just push his own feelings into Erik making Erik think it's reciprocal when it's not.

Charles breaks it off still allowing Erik to live with him, Charles moving into a guest room bc to him Erik deserves the world. Erik finds a new place and on the day he leaves both hope for the other to say something. Neither does. Charles continues to stay out of the master bed bc of his memories with Erik, he considers getting a new place of his own and renting the place he shared with Erik or giving it to Raven. He and Erik throwing themselves into their studies/jobs as to not focus on what happened. (Maybe someone gets Charles into full blown alcoholism and drugs).

One night Azazel visits cause he's sick and tired of Erik being a sleep deprived dick but he sees Charles also sleep deprived and worse off than Erik, Charles isn't entirely sure Azazel is real. Azazel goes back to Erik not even talking to Charles. Then some days/weeks later Azazel drags a furious Erik (Erik having no idea where they were going and refused to go no matter where or to who) and Erik sees Charles in the worst stupper he has ever seen/known about. Erik stops Charles from taking another sip/injecting himself, Charles already out of his mind confesses that he knows that Erik is a hallucination but admits that he tried so much to get over Erik bc Erik doesn't want him (possibly never has) and the only way to get Erik off his mind was to be high/drunk all the time

Erik helps get Charles some food and water. Upon waking up the next day Charles finds out Erik wasn't a hallucination and Charles fears that after his confession Erik definitely doesn't want to be around him anymore and that he only stayed to make sure Charles woke-up. They talk, Charles wanting to avoid the subject - bc Erik out right rejecting him will only crush Charles even further - Erik is having none of it and wonders if Charles even loved him why didn't Charles reach out? Ask him what was going on instead of just breaking up? Charles doesn't speak for a moment. Erik decides to let Charles into his mind to see why he avoided Charles.

We see Erik coming to terms with being in love with Charles a few months after they started their arrangement, that love growing the more they're around each other, then a few weeks/a month or two prior to the break-up where Erik was planning an actual date for Charles after which he'd properly ask Charles out but then Charles broke-up with him and Erik felt that Charles found out and didn't want him despite Charles offering to let Erik still stay in their shared room, wanting Charles to confess the day he moved out. The days after going into a mind numbing pace of school/work/study. Erik asks to see Charles' thoughts, Charles shares, after which Erik kisses Charles and they start a new