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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐑: it’ll be okay

𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘: as time starts ticking down to his last day, an argument sparks uo between you and eren. this argument felt like deja vu. despite the argument, eren still has a smile on his face. this whole time he’s been nothing but smiles, until tonight for a brief moment he confessed that he was scared. while you cry about losing him again, he reminds you that every is going to be okay, but will it? tomorrow you’ll be miserable again..tomorrow you’ll see the world differently without the person who made you see it through his eyes; beautiful and full of life. but how can you do that without him?

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒: implied aot ch. 139 manga spoilers!!, suggestive smut (in flashback), angst, cliche romance. gut wrenching fluff.

𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓: ~ 2k

𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄: it’s been a month since i updated, and i’m really sorry about that. life has been a lot for me, but i’m fine now. anyways..see y’all next chapter for 5/6!!! and here is the song based off of this chapter!!

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 | 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

previous chapter

it’s crazy how memories work, right?

the human mind picks and chooses what it wants to believe or what it wants to remember, and your mind chooses to keep all the happy memories of you and eren, and only those. you live off of them. your brain fuels and runs off of them.

so, when the arguments happened, you taught yourself how to forgive and forget. you would say your sorries, and you would spend the rest of the night talking it out, making sure you were both on the same page.

you also made use you would always say i love you before bed, and never go to bed angry, even if you had to stay up all night to make sure.

and the one time you didn't do either, it resulted in the death of eren.

you watched him walk out that same door twice now. the first time he never returned, and you weren't sure if he was going to this time.

it was almost like deja vu, or a blast from the past. you got that same gut wrenching feeling you did a year ago. and this time, you were going to chase after him.

you ran to the front door, not caring if it was cold, not thinking about anything but.. him.

as soon as you stepped out the door, it was pouring. you saw eren walking on the sidewalk, "eren, wait!" you shouted. he kept walking, not turning around.

you finally caught up with him, grabbing a hold of his arm, "eren!" you sobbed. "i didn't...i didn't mean it, i swear." if you could go back to fifteen minutes ago and undo what you said..you would in a heartbeat. you didn't mean it.

before he could open his mouth, you stopped him, "please..just hear me out. i'm so mad, eren." you sobbed, "i hate that i lost you, and t-tomorrow, i'll be losing you all over again. and tomorrow, i-i'm going to be reliving the same nightmare i did a year ago. not only did i suffer, but you did as well." you watched eren's head fall in sadness, "a year ago, we both lost something." you commented, placing your hand on his cheek, gently brushing your thumb on his cheekbone. "we lost each other, eren." you replied with a shaky voice. he looked up slowly, "i'm sorry for walking out," eren say softly as he took a step closer to you. you moved your hand, just for eren to place it back on his cheek.

"i'm sorry for saying that i hated you." he moved your hand, leaning in to kiss the top of your head, "i'm scared, y/n." he silently sobbed, that was the first time he actually said how he felt about this. and it broke you. his arms then wrap around you so tight, you felt like you couldn't breathe. but you didn't care, cause tomorrow is going to be the worse pain you've experienced.

after a couple moments of standing in the rain, you both decided to go back inside. it was silent, not anger, not awkward, it was just silent. you both didn't know what to say, there were no words that could make tomorrow feel any less painful.

the only thing you both wanted to do was hold each other. you wanted to be able to feel alive for one more time before the world turns dull and grey again.

every time a tear fell from your eye, eren would be right there to wipe it up. eren still has a smile on his face, despite everything that happened today, and what's going to happen tomorrow, he still has that smile on his face. that smile you fell in love with.

it wasn't a painful smile, it was a smile..his smile, letting you know that everything is going to be okay.

and that smile was right, cause even though he wasn't going to be there, physically next to you, you both know that somehow he'll still be with you.

"let's go to bed, hm?" eren said softly as he kissed the top of your head. and for the final time, you followed him up the stairs. his hand never left yours, and you knew why, and you didn't dare to question it. you couldn't handle what he would have to say. you knew that whatever he had to say would damage you both.

you were both dreading to close your eyes, you didn't want this final night to end. you wanted to stay up all night and venture the night, living it like it was your last. but, at the same time, you both didn't want to do much besides laying in bed.

there were no words while you both were crawling into bed. you didn’t even know what time it was, but all you knew that it was grey and gloomy outside.

it didn’t matter what time it was, you were both tired. you were both mentally and physically tired.

after you both changed and got out of your damp clothes, you started walking towards the bed, when you heard something. it was a soft laugh..from eren. it was the first time today that you heard something come from him that wasn’t a silent sob. he was smiling. and just like always, his smile spread on yours, “what’s so funny?” you said as you fixed the bed, “n-nothing..” you rolled your eyes, the smile never leaving your cheeks, “mhm, sure.”

“the sweater you’re wearing.” you look down, realizing it was the same sweater you wore —well more like stole,— when he said he loved you for the first time.

flashback; december fifth twenty-sixteen

“hm, let’s go get some ice cream.” you suggested. hearing eren sigh softly, “at this point we should own an ice cream place.” you playfully slapped his arm, he quickly glanced a smile, then focusing back on driving. he placed his hand on your thigh, and that same feeling that you felt when you first met him came back. butterflies.

it’s never ending butterflies with him.

every moment is like you’re floating.

every moment with him, you live it like it’s your last.

every moment with him, it’s never end smiles and laughs.

every moment with him..was special.

he caved in, pulling a u-turn to drive back to the nearest grocery store.

“please tell me you’re going to get something different this time, y/n.” you rolled your eyes with a smile, “hey! it’s not my fault vanilla is my favorite flavor.” he laughed, while pulling into the plaza, “you need to expand your horizons!” he would always make jokes about you liking that flavor. you liked other flavors, but there was something about vanilla that hit the spot like no other.

after eren turned off the car, there was this lustful moment. you couldn’t explain that feeling but it felt right. like as if all these moments with him were supposed to happen and all these core memories with him were just the start.

he leaned in closer, his nose gently bumping into yours, your lips brush against each other, it was perfect.

he placed his hand on your cheek, slowly and sweetly deepening the kiss. it wasn’t a sexual kiss, it was a kiss filled with a life long promise of lust.

that kiss defined your future with eren, just like your first kiss. as his lips left yours, the feeling still lingered. "let's go get your ice cream, "kay?"

you nod with smile, giving him another quick peck. the smile that was on his face, was mesmerizing.

"Whatcha smiling about, hm?" you teased. still being close to him, watching his eyes wandering all over your face. his eyes moved towards your lips, then to your eyes,

“you're so beautiful, you know that right?" he always reminds you. whether it's three a.m. or twelve p.m. he always reminds you.

you cup his cheek giving him another kiss, "yes, and i'm thankful i have you to remind me." there's these moments where you don't feel like yourself for some odd reason, and just him alone makes you feel a million times better. he's the reason why you smile the way you do, he's the reason why you became more confident in yourself. he's the reason why you're…you.

those moments where you don't feel like yourself, eren would notice right away. it could be the simple things, like you wouldn't text him back the way you usually do, or you're more quiet than you usually are. you've never had anyone in your life care for you as much as eren has. it scared you at first, and you were also very confused. you didn't understand how he could care for you this much in such little time.

you and him just had your first kiss -which was also your first time meeting, almost three months ago. in between that time, you grew as a person. who knew you could find yourself because of someone. he opened your world, showing you to follow your dreams, and live life to the fullest.

with a couple more shared kisses, you two were on your way to get some ice cream. this slowly became a tradition..in a sense. you both tend to learn more about each other when you have a bowl of ice cream. you got eren to open up about his past. his dad left him, leaving only him and his mom, and for years, he's had issues with trusting and opening up. in the little time you've known him, he's opened up more than he ever has with anyone.

it took him months to open up to the rest of his friends, but to him, there was something about you. with you, he felt safe. with you, he felt he could finally breathe for once without having to fake anything. every smile eren has with you is nothing but honesty.

everything felt like it was pulled out of a cliche love story.

"fine, i won't get vanilla this time." you say, ending in a slight giggle. you open the freezer door to grab mint-chip. when you closed it, eren smiled, "go on, get the vanilla." he rolled his eyes with a smile, you quickly put down the other flavor to grab vanilla, "god, i love you.." he mumbled, with a slight laughter. you almost dropped the pint, "you, what?"

eren's eyes widened, "n-nothing." he said quickly, as he walked to the next freezer case to grab his flavor while you stood there in shock.

he said that he loved you.

he loves..you?

"eren, do you love me?" you coughed up, walking towards him, "y-you. you said that you loved me." there was this brief moment where everything —background music, people talking, etc., went silent. it was just you and him. the space between you both slowly became smaller, watching a small smile grow on his face, his cheeks and ears turned a slight rosy color. "eren, did you say—” he cut off your words with his lips against yours, your heart started racing, chills were sent through out your whole body, your cheeks were getting warm.just from a kiss.

"i love you, y/n."

three words can change everything. those three words can define a future, it can change the way you see the person who says it. and your past taught and haunted you with.

eren said those three words in the middle of an ice cream aisle.

"love you so much." he replied. you dropped the pint of ice cream, placing your cold hands on his warm cheeks. you kissed him this time, his hands moved to your waist, his thumbs finding their place in the dips of your hips, "i love you more, eren." you whispered against his lips.

you kissed him again, for a slight second. eren looked around, "let's get outta here." you laughed, "why?"

you watched him pick up the dented pint — not caring about much of anything at this point but you, and putting it back on the shelf.

one moment you were in the frozen aisle, and the next you and eren were parked behind the grocery store.

you weren't dong anything sexual..yet, but right now, you were in the back seat of his car.

your lips collided with his, and it was this never ending feeling of love fueling your veins. "say it again," eren mumbled against your lips. you rolled your eyes, "eren, come on. i've said it like five times!" you giggled, giving him a quick peck, then feeling his thumb caress your cheekbone, "and i want to hear it over and over again. cause it still doesn't feel real." you grabbed his hand from your cheek, then placing it over your heart, "i love you, eren." this time, when you said it, you watched his eyes lit up. your heart started racing while repeating.

you finally got your cliche romance movie, and never in a million years did you think that your boyfriend would say that he loved you in the middle of an ice cream aisle. but he did. now, this moment, it was a memory. this moment in time will stick with you 'til the day you die.

maybe cliches aren't a bad thing after all…

present time; december eleventh, twenty-twenty-one

laying in bed with him feels different. it's not a bad different, it's knowing that tomorrow. you'll be sleeping alone again that brings this empty feeling in you. every time you tried to close your eyes, they would shoot right back open.

your mind wouldn't stop racing. what if he actually wasn't here in the morning? what if by time you wake up, these past days were just a memory? "hey, eren?" you whisper, watching his eyes flutter open.

shit. you woke him up, "hm?" he hummed. "no, no. go back to sleep." you whispered again. you began to roll over when his hand stopped you, "what's up?" gren said in a half sleep voice. you took a deep breath, "-can you hold me?" you said faintly.

he moved closer to you, you then place your head on his chest, feeling him wrapping his arm around you, "of course." he whispered, kissing the top of your head. you look up at him, "in case you're not here in the morning, i just. i just wanted to let you know that i love you so so much, eren." your eyes started to water, eren placed his hand on your cheek, his thumb collecting your tears, "i love you, y/n. i always have and i always will, i promise." you reached up and kissed him on the lips, "thank you for bringing me back."

waking up this morning was different to say the least, one moment you were in his arms, falling asleep to the sound of his heart beating, feeling your head rise up and down with the sound of him breathing, and next you were waking up to an empty bed.

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Sinner Man

Minors and ageless blogs DNI

Authors note: Might make this into a series idk but I liked how it turned out so I figured why not post it

Reblogs are appreciated as well as comments so if you liked it please say so!

Pairing: Eventual Eren Jaeger x Angel Female reader (enemies to lovers)

Warnings: Violence, car crash, cursing, religious themes (Annie is a demon, Eren is a demon and reader is an Angel) and I think that’s it, please lmk if I missed anything though!

Summary: Eren’s luck sucked. After terminating a contract he finds himself being hunted after both beings of Heaven and Hell. Just when he’s about to call it quits, an Angel saves him. Can he trust this new reluctant ally or is there something deeper hiding just beyond the surface?

Eren knew he shouldn’t have terminated that contract. Driving through the city he couldn’t help but check his rear view mirror more than necessary. He had to escape, he couldn’t be here any longer or else They would find him.

The lights from passing cars caused him to jump. He never jumped or didn’t anyway, but this was more than a screw up. This was detrimental. A rogue angel was something everybody heard about. The number of fallen ones was common, but a rogue demon? One who didn’t accept payment? That was unheard of.

Keeping his eyes transfixed on the road he patted around the passenger side of the car only to feel the red leather. He cursed under his breath. He could’ve sworn he brought it. Where was it? He leaned closer to the passenger side door only for his seat belt to stop him halfway. He cursed under his breath as he unbuckled it. Reaching over once more he kept one hand on the wheel. The light in front of him turned red. He glanced between the light and the seat. Shit.

He took his eyes off the road for half a second to focus on where he was reaching. He located the red phone case and grabbed it. Before he could even turn the screen on, a car crashed into him. It almost went in slow motion the way the car crashed and began to roll onto the empty street. When it finally stopped he was upside down. He cracked his eyes open slowly only to notice he was outside of the vehicle.

His eyes widened while his body exploded into waves of pain. He took a deep breath in, concentrating all his energy. He could feel the steam rolling off his shoulders as his legs twisted back to normal. He bit his lips to hold a scream in. How he hated human vessels, they were always too much work than they were worth.

He searched the area only to find a phone up ahead. Slowly, he began to inch towards it with his good arm. The other laid limpy at his side. The healing would take time, especially now that he was weakened.

He could hear heels clicking against the pavement behind him and rolled his eyes. Of course they’d bring Annie in. Today was really not his lucky day. He reached for the phone only for a heel to come crashing down on his hand.

He cursed, glaring up at the blonde. She only gave him a sadistic smile in return. “I’m starting to think you plan this.”

He growled lowly in his throat. Even her voice pissed him off. “Yeah? Well I sure as hell didn’t plan on getting hit by a car and going through a windshield.” He spat. The pain in his hand became a throbbing ache as she twisted her heel. He clenched his jaw. She’d kill him if they continued like this. He needed a plan, an escape route. The only things he could see were closed shops and the traffic lights. Dammit.

Almost like she knew he was planning an escape, her grin became wider while the crimson under her shoe began to pool down Eren’s hand.

“There’s no getting out of this one you traitor. You really think you have a place to go to? Heaven and Hell will both be after your ass.” Laughter began to bubble from her lips like frothing. It only built until it was ripped from her throat, echoing in the empty street. “You’ll always be running, there’s no escape. You’ll always be running.”

Black mist began to swirl around her while her wings stretched behind her back. Decorating the well lit road into a bath of darkness. Shit, if he didn’t find a way to escape now everything would be over.

Before Annie could demolish him there was a burst of light as well as a gust of wind. Annie was sent backwards. He heard her scream before the sound of glass shattering covered it. Steam rose from the newly freed wound causing him to shield his eyes.

When it all fell away a person was standing where the light used to be. She wore white while her expression was completely blank.

His eyes widened. “An Angel?”

What the hell was an angel doing here?

Instead of explaining anything, she only walked to Annie’s car and pressed a palm to the hood. Within a second it was fixed. Eren furrowed his eyebrows, since when could they do that? He could only stare on, dumbfounded like he was locked in place on the ground. She moved to the driver’s side and opened it before turning to the demon.

“Get in,” was all she said before slamming the door closed.

Eren weighed his options. On the one hand, stay with Annie and probably die, or on the other hand go with the angel who could be leading him to his death, or the final option; stay here and try his luck with outrunning her.

If it wasn’t clear before, it was certainly clear now; his luck sucked.

With a huff he got off of the ground and gazed at his wounded hand. Smoke was dancing in the air while only a small part had healed. Judging by that, he wouldn’t be fully healed for a few more hours. Shit.

The sound of a car honking snapped him out of his thoughts.

“You coming?!” She shouted, rolling the window down. He weighed his options once more before walking towards the car.

Fuck it, if he was going to die it might as well be on his terms. He closed the passenger side door after hopping in expecting her to head out, but instead she didn’t.

“What? Are you going or not?”

She glanced at the seatbelt back to Eren with a raised eyebrow.

“You really want to have another incident?”

Catching on, he rolled his eyes before slinging the seat belt over himself with a click. He turned back to her with green eyes filled with fury.

“You happy now?” He snapped, crossing his arms over his chest.

“Ecstatic,” she responded, but her tone showed anything but.

With that, she put the car in drive and drove off. With one final look towards Annie laying on the ground knocked out, only one thought crossed Eren’s mind. Friend or foe it didn’t matter; he was now an outlaw of both worlds. It wouldn’t matter where he’d go. This was his life now.

He’d spend an eternity running and eventually his time would run out.

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