#enstars self aware au rambles I guess?????????

[alison-vel]

Decided to do a card edit today while on call with an oomf talking about self-aware Enstars.

This was just to make how I'd see myself in game if I was like suddenly dragged in one day. Though I feel like it'd be gradual preparation before it actually happens whenever I play back these scenarios.

Like... Game is normal at first, gradually has stuff be a bit off like small little 4th wall breaking comments that don't seem like it at first and possibly hearing things while the game is open (I tend to be on call with friends, a lot), more direct 4th wall breaks, and then the eventual being dragged in the game once they think it's time.

Honestly another thing I wanted to think on, since I don't really have the appearance of an idol nor the dancing/performance talents... Would it be possible to be like, the first virtual idol of ES? Like I know we're supposed to be a producer in game, but I would honestly love to be an idol even with how fucked up the industry is ;w;

Like I can't handle people irl, but like through a screen? It's honestly a more seamless transition + I don't need people to see my imperfections like the scarring on my neck or the wounds I have!

Though... they may end up probably putting a crap ton of restrictions on what I can do in that idol persona but hey, at least they don't need to see my face.

[yandere-daze]

Not a request!!! Just a thought;

But will you ever consider writing a full on one-shot of the self aware enstars au? I’ve been reading some of your discussions about it and it’s low-key interesting …I love your work as well so I’m interested in reading your interpretations on it! Because in a lot of yandere stories, it mostly relies on dialogue to tell us all about the character and plot of the story. There’s also physical descriptions of actions which is made very clear cut and just generally straightforward that it is a yandere story. Which I feel like it’s easy to lose interest on such stories because you can usually predict how it’ll go. There’s also the entire POV thing, wether it be 3rd, 1st, or 2nd, I feel like you could use each of these perspectives to throw the readers in a loop. Wether it be being vague to the point everyone is always switching the blame, red herrings with false implications, etc. And I think it’s kinda hard to feel the scary aspect of a yandere story when it’s clearly in front of you. There’s not a lot of room for interpretations for it. I usually like reading a story that’s more “show don’t tell” vibe when it comes to yandere, because as a reader you also feel unnerved not knowing the characters…but they know you, don’t they? But you don’t have to know that yet, don’t lose you head over it silly…It really starts to make you question intentions, second guess, and having to re read each paragraph to find any foreshadowing. Hell, maybe you start to go crazy as well.

Which is why I like the idea of a self aware au, you’d probably just find yourself outright denying everything. That the game is iffy and is worth deleting (aka more complications) or you’d full on always blame the lag or a bug. But specifically self aware au where the mc gets transported into their world, it’d be 100% more harder, considering having to adapt in a new world and slowly realising your entire existence. I feel like it can slowly spiral to an unhinged mc that’s just succumbing to their reality, losing their marbles while at it, and bunch of dudes go crazy for them.

But what do you think of how the mc/reader would react? In a self aware au setting, I think there’s many possibilities and each oprutunity can lead up to some spicy drama lol…

Ps. I love your work! You’ve really worked hard and I hope it continues to pay off! Hope you have a great day <3

First of all, thank you for the very thorough ask, I love seeing what you guys think about certain aspects!

To answer your question, I'd definitely be up for one day writing a one-shot centered around the idea of the yandere self-aware au! All it comes down to is me suddenly getting a good idea on what I could write. The way I go about writing scenarios vs headcanons or rambles is pretty different

For headcanons it's usually good enough to simply start with certain ideas and then it kind of develops from there because I get more ideas as I'm writing and the structure of headcanons or rambles allows me to simply add on any ideas I just had without disrupting the "flow" too much

With scenarios, I usually like to plan out most of what happens beforehand. So I have a certain idea and the steps of what needs to happen in order and at what conclusion I want to end it all on. I can still improvise some of the dialogue or smaller parts but usually I have an outline I need to follow so it all makes sense because it's like an actual story you read from beginning to end that needs to follow a single flowing narrative

It's a lot more work and I need a better idea of what I want to write about, which is why it's usually rarer for me to post a scenario, it just takes a lot of time compared to headcanons.

What I mean to say is that I'm open to the idea of writing a one-shot for the Au, I'm just waiting for the day where an idea suddenly appears in my head and I know exactly what to write. So it may take a while to get to that point but it's definitely not out of the question!

I'm also a fan of "show, don't tell" and subtle foreshadowing and I like trying to incorporate some of that into my writing, though I don't know if I always succeed at that. I particularly throwing in a line and repeating it in the end where it has a different meaning djdjd The "unknown" parts are what keeps me on my toes as I read a yandere story. Of course, having read a lot of these stories over the years you start to get a certain feeling for tropes that might appear so I'm genuinely impressed when something manages to surprise me. I love the slow realization of all the hints the author dropped in the beginning and that it didn't just come out of the blue.

The reader being unaware of what is actually happening, only being able to guess is really interesting and you're right when you say that a self-aware au lends itself well to that!

I feel like no matter how much I think about this kind of AU and how suspicious it would be for a new line to appear or something of the like, irl I would never realize something like that would be happening to be honest djdjdj Like I would sit there and be like " I guess they added a new campaign :)" or think it was some sort of glitch. Knowing of the tropes in writing would not help be in actually realizing the problem if I were in that exact same situation, so I can't blame the readers in these scenarios that only think the app is acting up or something. We as the actual readers might be aware that it's yandere related but no one would actually believe that if they were in the same situation

So yes, the game starts glitching and ominous things happen and yet the player is not aware at all. You just know something is happening but you don't know *what*

But really, imagine something like that happening to you and you're suddenly in the enstars world, you would be so disoriented and scares as hell💀 Like, how would you even get out of there?? How did you get there in the first place?? What is going on??

You'd be so stressed that you'd have an even harder time picking up on any unhealthy behaviors from the characters, too distracted by the fact that you're somehow talking to a living, breathing game character.

Like

Mika: "Oh I'm so so glad to see you! I don't deserve to be in your presence but I would do absolutely anything for you! Just say the word and I will get rid of anyone that bothers you because I love you so much!!"

You: Is that Mika Kagehira from the hit mobile-game Ensemble Stars! Music and Basic, available in the appstore and Google play as well as in qooapp? Oh my god

Like, you're just in utter disbelief that any of this is happening while all the characters go bonkers because you're finally with them. I can definitely see you slowly losing your mind because it's all so surreal and you don't know what to do or who to trust

[cosmosvel]

I've sorta been indulging myself with enstars self aware AUs (mostly the yandere ones) and I always think about how they would react to being put on a team either it be for theming, random groups our of boredom, and ones for my friends.

For context on the one for my friends, it's a team consisting of Kohaku (representing myself), Eichi (representing my friend Kai who we kept meming was Eichi but as a girl), Souma (For my friend/online brother Ryo cause holy shit Ryo started simping for him, Kanata, and Wateru), Mika (For my friend Kazumi who I chose based off her self insert's appearance), and Rinne (He's just there cause uh... Long story shot, me, Kai, and Ryo somehow saw him as a father figure due to a goddamn crack rp and ended up getting the title "Rinne's (headache) chaotic children")

So after reading the self aware AUs I always wonder on how they would react being a group together cause of the player (in this case me) getting reminded of their friends. So sometimes I like to imagine being them somehow getting sentience and able to look through the phone whenever Enstars is still playing in the background, later on somehow able to get access to seeing other apps that are also on in the background. I honestly can imagine how either horrified or whatever else they might feel after seeing an Enstars rp I'm in cause they would see an alternate universe where it looks normal on the surface level but then when you look deeper, it's just a mess. And honestly I have a habit of using the enstars outfits as reference for when trying to draw my rp self-insert wearing something that isn't their usual clothes or if I want to try drawing something out of my comfort zone to expand a bit (Mostly doing this with the cards or home screen outfits that count as kimonos due to me wanting to learn how to draw those before expanding onto another type of outfit I wanna try drawing that of which being street-wear/techwear clothes)

So yeah uh... Hope you enjoyed this random ass ramble??? Feel free to use this if you want though as an idea for when your writing your version of an Enstars self aware AU I guess >-O

Just make sure to credit me for the idea of this random ass scenario