#enjoy they are silly bc I don’t want to make myself sad again :D

[marstonandson]

van der linde gang headcanons just because

- kieran sleepwalks. whoever’s keeping watch is also in charge of making sure he doesn’t die

- on many separate occasions, tilly, karen, and mary-beth have all called grimshaw “mom” by accident. while they’re dying inside, susan has a smile for the rest of the day

- sean and lenny have a secret club for young men. only jack is invited to their meetings. no one knows what they talk about

- sadie takes molly out into the woods sometimes and they just scream together

- john only knows the ‘rip van winkle’ story because jack read it to him once

- bill and javier pretend they hate each other in front of everyone else but they gossip when no one is looking

- hosea gave dutch that white and red checkered bandana as a gift

- charles is the only person arthur will show his journal to

- abigail has punched most of the gang members at some point for various reasons

- whenever josiah visits he tries to bring a trinket for jack

- everyone actually loves pearson’s cooking, they just hate to admit it because he makes a big deal out of it

- when dutch praises micah, micah turns around and sticks his tongue out at arthur whenever dutch isn’t looking

[amischiefofmice]

Fanfic Ask Game: F, M, X, Z (ahahahahaha)

F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

OK LETS SEE, this is long but idk, its still a snippet from a longer work!!

“I’ll have you know, if you had not so rudely intruded on me and instead waited for me to find you properly, I would have been much more together. Less of an embarrassing mess. On rare occasions I require some time to… put myself back together.” “I was worried! You just upped and fucking vanished! We’ve already seen people eat up by that shadow curse.” “Really, Karlach, are you lecturing me about horrible curses?” He smirked at her, raising an eyebrow. “Hey, just because you’ve got one doesn't mean you’re an expert in all of ‘em!” “I’m really not an expert in any, my dear, I’m quiet rubbish at being a vampire, honestly, by any real metric. Cazador wanted me a dimber whore more than anything else.” Karlach gave him a mighty squeeze, “I’ve got you now, soldier.” He laughed and mused, “It feels weird to give voice to such thoughts. Talk about it… I don’t think I want to anymore. Not right now, at least.” He coughed awkwardly and shifted topic slightly, “I wasn’t lying when I said I’d never tasted anything but beast blood before now…” “I didn’t think you were, mate.” “I’m a rather disappointing sexy vampire boyfriend, honestly.” Karlach took a moment to tilt her head to the side and inspect him, playing up making thoughtful noises, before nodding decisively “Interesting cute Astarion boyfriend, instead! I think that’s a way fucking better prize.” He briefly kissed her lips again, then rubbed his nose against hers. “Thank you.” He then pushed against her a couple of times. She laughed as she got the message, shifting to lay on her back. He nuzzled into her side, resting his head on her shoulder, right above some of her embedded metal rings, snaking one arm underneath her own. “Might wanna move, Fangs. Those vents let stinky shit out like all the damn time. Well, I can’t fucking smell it, but I’ve heard lots of fucking complaints.” He gave a test sniff and stiffened, his eyes widening and his pupils dilating. She laughed, “See! I told you, fucker!” Astarion coughed and rubbed his face with his free hand. ��No. No, no. It is not foul. I was just not prepared.” He coughed again and then explained, “The smell is that of hot blood mixed with…” he took a bigger sniff and smiled as he licked his lips, “Something a bit… tangy? Spicy? Hard to really place. In any case. I quite like it.” He licked a row of her exhaust ports before using her as a pillow again. She shook with laughter and thumped him on the side a couple of times. “Well, hot damn! Glad somebody likes my shoulder farts!” “Darling, some constructive criticism. Find a better term.” “Shoulder toots?” Astarion made the worst fake snoring sounds that had ever been produced in the realm

from my fic that is a combo of karlach and astarion's act 2 romance scenes.

this just makes me happy still lol idk i just think its a good lil snippet of how i see those 2 interacting and playing off each other, he is silly and jokey in game at the drop of a hat, despite everything that happened to him, and so is she, so like. yah they both have their big piles of trauma and huge uncertain futures buuuut well, they stay silly

also i got to use the phrase 'shoulder farts' :D

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you’d care to share?

laffo. peers at WIPS.

one i keep noodling on in-between other stuff is a fic based on the Karlach origin scene where after you get to riverton she is REALLY BURNING UP AT NIGHT bc she's so ANGIES about Gortash. I thought i'd be cute for Astarion to try to figure out some way to help her and comfort her since she's so much about comforting other people and downplaying what she needs a lot of the time.

X: A character you enjoy making suffer.

*holds up the poor sad vampire boy*

LOOK HOW MUCH TRAUMA YOU CAN FIT IN HERE!!!

Z: Major character death–do you ever write/read it? Is there a character whose death you can’t tolerate?

laffo you butt, rainbowbarnacle!!! though really Karlach dying is just kinda.. the bg to my fic, bc so many problems would not have happened if either she was there or they were both in avernus lol

i like character death a lot if there is a reason for it. if you just kill 'em off for no reason eh. idk, its not a thing i look for or a reason not to read a fic for me, it's just... there.

[dreamtydraw]

hi there!! so I was recently looking for visual novels to occupy my time with, and I came across 21 questions, so I played it. and I loved it. so I played tulipe. and I liked that one a lot too. then I checked out your social media and I was really curious about the ✨️paranormal club lore✨️, so I just played all of them-

I didn't realize it when I was playing the game, but I've seen a lot of your our life art here on tumblr and I can't get over how pretty it is! even when it's just doodles that you do for fun, I still really like your style cause you make everyone look so nice. even if you're just drawing clem in a clown suit, we still love that

I don’t usually draw anymore because even though I used to like it, I feel like I lack all motivation to do it now, but seeing your art is really giving me inspiration to pick up a paper and a pencil and start drawing again :D

I personally share your love for visual novels, and I enjoy replaying yours because they're honestly so nice. I guess I just like seeing the way the story progresses and how relatable the characters feel, especially as a non-binary person who struggles to see themselves represented in games. plus I just like the voice acting in 21 questions

if I'm honest, even if it wasn't my usual genre of romance, night shift was a good play as well, especially for your first game! I can feel the inspiration from horror games and I love those types of things sm. I get why you'd wanna go back and redo it someday, but I think especially in terms of the plot and characters, it had a captivating plot and it was well written... françoise betrayed us tho rip

also this isn't about the games but from what I've seen, it honestly feels like you're a really nice person who happens to be really talented and so you deserve really nice things. even if you haven't been getting them until now, I hope you do start because you deserve it!! I like reading your visual novel rambles bc I agree with a lot of stuff, just me nodding my head in agreement like I wouldn't look crazy if anyone saw me. and it feels nice to see that people still talk about fictif stories to this day cause god they've been collecting dust 😭 I miss those days where I'd be so excited whenever an update was announced... guess I'll never get my rime route now :(

lastly, I just wanna say that I love clem sm. they're literally so cool but still so adorable and I wanna give them all the love and affection. I want us to bake together and then paint each other's nails 💅

and this question has been keeping me awake at night so I just have to ask, I know that at the end of the game he said we'd keep in contact like aurore and her partner, but would they let mc just. follow them to London while he does his thing? there's no point in being in France without your blond french, and I've always wanted to move to an english speaking place anyways... clem can put me in their suitcase, I'll be good 🫶

thank you for listening to my silly rambles, I hope you're having a good day and if not, I really hope it gets better! remember to take care of yourself and take breaks whenever you need them, you're only human so you aren't always gonna be perfect, but at least you know you always try your best even if things don't go the way you want them to <3

Anon whoever you are I love you and I really wish you a wonderful day I started sobbing a bit too hard and now my eyes kinda hurt a bit but your message makes me feel a lot of things and I’m really grateful for such kindness. I’m fucking crying on my poor plushies cause I don’t have tissue, they are all wet and miserable 😭😭😭😭 Words trully can’t explain how much this message means to me, like, this is the kind of message that i’ll keep in my phone gallery to look at when i feel sad and it’s just so sweet and it rassure all the bad things I think about myself so I’m very emotional. It’s 2 am and I had a very long day so I physically and emotionally don’t handle it well but i promise it’s / pos i’m just blabling incoherent thoughts just to say thank you so much and I’m glad you enjoy what I create and I’m glad you draw again and I hope you find joy in making stuff you like + you get soft and cold pillow at night and warm meals in winter anon.

Now i am so sad to spread bad news BUT…. The canon ending of 21 questions is the platonic ending. 21q happens in 2019, Clem move to London in 2021 and ( spoiler alert ) will be spotted in Apple bag which takes place in 2022. Clem’s character and story haven’t entirely been revealed in his game for reasons that I’ll hopefully share in a futur but it’s for the same reasons that realistically… the relationship in 21q is destined to end with distance.

BUT that not the end if you imagine a future with Clem. If your intention is to romance them then there is an open window for the timeline where he’s a bit older. When exactly ? I won’t spoil but all I have to say is that this relationship can work on long term ! It’s just a good person, wrong moment situation and once you know everything about him, then his romance options become more real :}

Mystic talk sorry, like i said i just had an emotional breakdown and it’s late so i will shut my mouth and go to sleep ! Once again thank you so much for your kind words an hopefully you’ll like what I plan to release in the future. Tons of love ❤️

[veenxys]

hi!! i hope you’re having a great day!! i was curious how the bnha boyfies (( deku, bakugo, todoroki, kirishima, denki, sero, shinsou, tamaki, mirio, shindo, monoma, shiggy, dabi + hawks )) would react if their s/o who is selectively clingy w certain people kinda back off suddenly because they just feel.. embarrassed?? like when they were a kid people reacted negatively to their clinginess and would ignore them for it. and they just feel so dumb to show emotion & showing their clinginess? and they feel like they’re being a bother and being annoying too... & suddenly just feel like closing off from the world lol? & like they can just feel really out of place and get negative thoughts that they don’t belong there, X person or a group of ppl in the convo don’t wanna talk to them etc and feel like they don’t belong in the conversation if that makes sense (i get those thoughts especially when i’m in a group i feel like i get overlooked a lot lol and i’ve never really felt included + like i can just feel so overwhelmed sometimes about the amount pf people / crowds or feeling like i’m being judged bc i’m beating myself up mentally abt my insecurities and i just end up most likely having a panic attack and just like tearing up, either crying on the spot or trying to hold it in till i get home). i’ve been feeling like this recently and i’d love to see what they’d do if that’s possible please!! thank you so much!!

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a/n: english is not my first language, sorry if I have a mistake!

Hi my angel, sorry but I don't write to Monoma or Shindo :/ and I loved this request because I feel exactly like this, so I did my best to make you feel comfortable. <3

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⤷ Bakugou

You are the only person who can break Bakugou's shields and he is very grateful for that, but he also wanted to break your shields.

He knows about your insecurities and he identifies with you, so he tries to learn, so he can teach you.

He always starts with small gestures of affection, to show you that you can be comfortable with him because he will not hurt you, quite the contrary, he just wants to make you safe.

And he could spend hours just feeling your touch, he enjoys every second of it.

When you go somewhere with a lot of people, he always stands by your side holding your hand.

If he sees that you are tense or nervous, he will kiss your temple and pull you somewhere more isolated and will start talking about random things with you to try to make you forget your fear.

Whenever you start talking, all of his attention goes to you, it's like he's mesmerized every time you open your mouth.

Sometimes the two of you are talking as if you are in your own world, forgetting everything around you.

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⤷ Deku

Deku never misses an opportunity to show you affection, so he will always have a hand on you, stroking your hair, or holding your hand.

He does everything possible and impossible to make you feel comfortable with him, and if you don't, he doesn't give up trying. Because he wants to help you and he wants to show you how much he loves you.

If you are with a lot of people, he always praises you in front of everyone.

"Y / n is the best hero I have ever seen, they are amazing!"

When you start to say something, he just looks at you with shining eyes and a smile on his face, silently saying that all of his attention is on you.

He always has an arm around you, showing you that you are safe with him.

If you are not feeling well, he will understand and will quickly go somewhere calmer with you.

He caresses your face with affection while you say everything you want.

Deku will do anything to make you feel good and safe in his arms.

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⤷ Kirishima

Kirishima is always the first to show affection, because he wants to show you that he loves you and that you are safe with him.

He knows about your insecurity and your problems, and he is more than ready to help you with that.

If you start showing affection for him and just stop, he'll be sad and have a cute pout on his lips as he snuggles up to you like a child.

‘’ Please continue ’’ he whispers against your neck as he hugs you tight.

If you are somewhere with a lot of people, he will always be on your side, like always.

Just one look from you and he already knows what you need or how you are feeling.

He takes your hand carefully and takes you to a quieter place.

He hugs you and shows you random things from the street to distract you, he makes some silly jokes too.

You are his world, and he will do anything so that you can smile without fear.

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⤷ Todoroki

Todoroki is not much to show affection, but for you he tries.

He wants to show you that you are safe with him, that you are at home with him.

So it is through small gestures that he does this, but they are gestures so pure and unique that I cannot explain.

Anyway, Todoroki is very quiet so he will not say anything if you show affection to him, but he will complain if you stop.

When you are somewhere with a lot of people, he is always looking at you to see if everything is okay.

If not, he'll take you somewhere quiet so he can talk to you peacefully.

He caresses your face while talking to you, about anything you want.

He tries to distract you by saying silly things about his week.

And just seeing your smile makes Todoroki's day complete.

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⤷ Denki

Denki shows affection for you 24/7 after he finds out about your insecurity.

He always wants to know if you're feeling comfortable and well, it's literally all the time.

When you show affection for him, he goes crazy because he never wants you to stop, it's like a drug that he got addicted to.

And if you stop showing affection, this drama queen will cry a lot and will only stop when you show affection for him again.

Anyway, if you are somewhere with a lot of people, Denki always tries to distract you from your bad thoughts.

Honestly Denki is professional at making you laugh

But if you want to leave, he will understand perfectly and will go somewhere empty with you.

He kisses you, hugs you and says cute things to you

Like I said, he always wants to make you comfortable and safe because you are his world, and he will never let anything hurt you.

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⤷ Tamaki

It is very difficult for Tamaki to show affection, but for you he tries anything.

So it starts with small things that you fall in love with more every day.

When you show affection for him for the first time, he melts at your touch.

And through small gestures, he will ask you to continue.

Well, I guess you don't have to worry about going out to places with a lot of people because your boyfriend doesn't like to go out either.

But if you go out, you stay further away from people, isolating yourself in your own little world.

Tamaki always looks to you to make sure you are okay, and if you are sad he will be desperate and will do anything to make you feel good.

Then he will take you home and hug you and caress you as if you are the most precious thing in the world. (because you are, I don't make the rules)

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⤷ Shinsou

It would take a while for Shinsou to be able to open up to you, but when he does, he never stops.

He loves to kiss you and say cute things to you

And when he manages to make you comfortable with him, he feels the greatest happiness in his life.

He could spend the rest of his life just feeling your touch.

If you feel uncomfortable with a lot of people, he will talk to you about random things to distract you.

Or else he will take you home and take care of you like a baby.

So get ready to see the best side of Shinsou.

He will show all his love for you in every way possible, he is completely in love with you and that will never change.

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⤷ Mirio

Mirio is CEO in showing affection for you and making you laugh

Your feelings are his number one priority, so he does everything for you

He shows affection for you 24/7

And he almost cries when he can make you feel comfortable with him

If you are uncomfortable when you are with a lot of people, he will be very worried and will take you somewhere calmer.

He will hug you, tell you random and funny things to cheer you up.

And when you smile at him, he feels his heart melt in your chest, because your smile is the most beautiful thing he has ever seen in his life, and he will fight until the last second so that you never stop smiling.

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⤷ Hawks

Hawks are a needy baby so get ready because he will fill you with love.

You are his priority, so he will always ensure that you are well and comfortable

No matter how long it takes, he will do anything to make you feel safe with him.

And when that happens, he is so proud of you (and himself)

And he shows even more affection, so good luck

Anyway, when you go out, he always has a hand on you, whether it's around your shoulder, your waist or holding your hand.

When you feel uncomfortable, he stops everything he is doing and comes to you, wrapping his wings around you while he strokes your cheek.

He takes you home and lets you say whatever you want while he hugs you and caresses your body.

He wraps his wings around you again, making you feel safe in your own little world.

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⤷ Dabi

Dabi is not the kind of person who shows affection, but after he discovers your insecurity, he will do his best to make you feel loved by him.

He does not say, of course. He prefers to make small gestures that make your heart race

He will never admit it, but the greatest happiness of his life was when he managed to make you feel comfortable with him.

He loves your touch and he could spend eternity just feeling it.

You rarely go out, but when that happens, he always makes sure that you're okay.

He's always looking at you, and just one look from you and he already understands what's going on.

He caresses your cheek and kisses your lips before taking you home.

He hugs you and strokes your back.

He won't talk about what you're feeling because he doesn't want you to remember, so he'll talk about random things from his day, hoping that you feel better in his arms.

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⤷ Shigaraki

Shigaraki is like you, he wants so much to be able to show affection for you, but he is afraid.

But then he tries, with small gestures that you barely notice at first, but then it becomes something constant between you.

It takes a while for Shigaraki to feel comfortable with you, but when he does, he will be on your side 24/7

And trust me, he will do anything to make you feel comfortable and safe with him. Because you are his home, and he wants it to be yours too.

When you go somewhere with a lot of people, Shigaraki doesn't leave your side for even a second.

If you feel uncomfortable or something, he will go out with you in the same second, taking you somewhere calm and peaceful.

He hugs you, kisses your forehead and strokes your back.

Shigaraki would destroy the world to protect his home.

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[dolphin-enthusiast]

hello my beloved morgy!! i'm alive and well! 💌💘💞 awaaaaa,, i missed you a lot darling!! even if its only been a few days, life is way more dull when i can't check in with you here :( i hope you've been doing well during that short absence of mine, and if things aren't going so swell, i'm here to hopefully cheer you up dear!! 😊❤ (1/10)

"i am doing much better now and i'm fully recovered, and thank goodness i didn't wind up hospitalized again!!! apparently my narcolepsy fired up crazily when i started to fall ill, and that ended up confining me to my bed, which was absolutely horrible (especially since i couldn't talk to you 😞💕) we still don't know what the illness was, but luckily i fought it off fast thanks to my family and friend's quick thinking!! i'm much happier now that i'm here again with you 💖 (2/10)

and oh gosh, you finished sbr??? ahhh that makes me so happy and so sad at the same time!! it's actually my favorite part along with vento aureo, and don't worry love, i want gyro back too, so you're not alone on that 😖 oh, and all those picrews?? lovely as always!! i love how much creative liberty you all take,, it astounds me!! and it shocks me that you all remember such miniscule details about me,, like the fact that i love the bahamas, ahhhh i'm so flattered by all of it!! (3/10)

i can never choose a favorite creative piece that any of you send in, i just love them all so much!! once again, thank you for all of your hard work and effort, i adore it each and every day 💕💕💕💕 thank you all for your well wishes and love!! my sister told me that apparently you mentioned something about people freaking out over me,, oh my! that surprised me a lot,, so any of those anons who read this, please don't worry about me!! (5?/10)

i assure you i'm okay, i just have a bad immune system and get sick easily, that's all!! but all of your concern means so much to me, thanks a million 💞 before i got sick, some friends came over since they wanted me to teach them how to ballroom dance for some reason,, it was very sudden but i was happy to do so nonetheless! i haven't danced like that in a long while, so it was quite exciting for me,, i am a dancer after all! (6/10)

i taught them how to do a basic waltz and tango,, they seemed to enjoy it a lot!! i suppose i'm a dance teacher now hehe 💞 oh, and last night, a friend slept over and we spent the night watching different televised comedy shows! stand-up has always held such a special place in my heart,, because when i was very small, i wanted to be a famous comedian for a long period of time,, silly isn't it? (7/10)

i would watch all of these different comedians perform and look up to them as inspirations,, i even wrote a few comedy routines to perform in front of my family when i was 4,, i guess i was really into it! now that i'm older, my aspirations have changed, but i still love to occasionally sit in comedy clubs with a glass of whatever i want, ahhh,, it never gets old ✨ (8/10)

ooh, and my mom and i were finally able to catch the escapee bunny from a while ago!! we brought him back to the garden, and he wouldn't stop following me around! i named him toffee, and he kept trying to jump on me for cuddles,, awaaaa it was so cute!! i can't wait to see him again 🌺 (9/10)

ahhh there's still so much i need to talk about, but its getting late here!! so i'll just continue on tomorrow then hm? goodnight amore, sleep well for me!! sweet dreams! 🌹 - love always, your amorous waifu xoxo 💕💖💘💌💋🌹 ps: you know morgy, like that one anon said, you also live in my brain rent free 💗 also, you are way too nice to me for your own good morgy dear, i swear, i can't stop smiling whenever you pull your sweet one-liners <3 (10/10)"

Im very glad to see ur back and fine darling, i acc forgot to answer all the anons but trust me my inbox was literally b o m b a r d e d w ppl sayin they miss u and wishing that u'd get better soon😳😳😳 if anything i'd say the fact that u didnt end up in the hospital again is very lucky and relieving

I myself cant believe i finally finished sbr yesterday and goddamn dat ending was far from pleasant🤡🤡 imma just say shame on araki for killin off all my homies....no more homies all my homies are D E A D (as a matter of fact my fav is p4 but i think u know that already)

And wow u as a comedian? Ngl i did not see it coming but thats oddly cute?? Like just imagining a tiny waifu creating comedy skits and performing them is really amazing for whatever reason jdhshsn i still see u more on the v o g u e side of things doe👁️👁️

Even if u were hella sicc at least u managed to snatch wigs and teach ppl how to dance (cant relate watch me step on everyone's toes within a 10 mile radius, mine included) a n d summoned ur disney princess powers again in order to get that rabbit😩😩😩 i also love pullin one liners bc really ur reactions are g o l d darling and thats just how it is on this bitch of an earth👀👁️👀👁️

[tracybirds]

For @gumnut-logic bc *pats you* 

First Virgil/Kayo fic I’ve written, it was pretty fun! A little soft and a little sad in parts but overall I’m pretty happy with it :D This fandom’s got me trying all the new things *grins*

Also sorry Scott..... your fic will have to wait ahaha. But you’re the eldest, you know how it is with younger siblings sometimes XD

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Virgil fell onto the couch with a sigh, dragging Kayo down with him.

“Three days,” he murmured, stroking her hair back so he could look into her eyes. “I’m going to enjoy them.”

Kayo wriggled in his arms and kissed him gently.

“I’ve been looking forward to this time off too.” She smiled softly at the peaceful serenity that smoothed his brow and the warm glow in his eyes that melted her worries away.

They lay together, their breathing slow and steady in the late afternoon and their eyes drooping from the long hours of travel.

Six months of long days and precious few stolen hours together had brought them to the beach house where they currently lay. Rescues and work had piled up, their vacation time put off time and time again, with an apologetic look from John whenever they were called upon. Frayed tempers and sharp words replaced the easy connection they usually enjoyed, until the tension that built up between them had no more give and it snapped.

The rest of the family steered well clear for the next few days as they learnt to pick up the pieces of their first major fight together. Virgil approached Scott following the incident to give him two weeks to find the leave they both desperately needed.

Five days later they were here. Alone.

“We should check out the rest of the house.”

“No, stay.” Virgil ran his fingers through Kayo’s hair. “This is all I want to do today.”

Kayo laughed as she sat back on his thighs.

“Tour now, nap later.”

Virgil grumbled as he allowed her to pull him to his feet. The beach house was open and spacious, inviting in the warm, summer breeze. He could taste the salt in the air as he stood still and breathed. Kayo’s hand slipped into his and they climbed the stairs to the master bedroom together.

Kayo gasped in delight as she spotted the balcony, rushing to fling open the French doors and lean out over the railing, her eyes drinking in the shimmering blue of the sun dancing on the ocean. Virgil wrapped his arms around her, smiling as she instinctively leant back against his chest.

“We needed this,” she said, pulling his head down so she could lightly kiss the curve of his lips.

The waves crashed on the shoreline below them. Kayo turned in towards Virgil, nuzzling into his chest as a sigh fell from her lips.

“I didn’t know how much we needed this,” admitted Virgil. “But this is the first time I’ve felt like myself in weeks.”

“Same here,” said Kayo. She parted her lips, a breath that should have contained words leaving her throat. Virgil could see the sudden uncertainty on her face, the way her body stiffened and her eyes flitted about the area, identifying places where her words could be overheard.

He gently guided her inside. The balcony was closed off and the door to the stairs firmly shut. He toed off his shoes and crawled onto the bed where Kayo lay waiting, curled into a ball.

“Thank you,” she whispered.

“Talk to me, Kay,” he whispered back, pulling her close.

Kayo tensed in his arms.

“It’s just me, love. Isn’t it a good thing we feel closer to ourselves again?”

“It is,” she said. “But it’s more than that. We feel right again. We feel good.”

She buried her face in his neck.

“I was scared it wouldn’t come back.”

Virgil felt the world begin to tip sideways as he pressed a kiss into Kayo’s hair.

“What do you mean?” he said softly.

Kayo twitched in his arms and he let her go, his heart aching as she scooted away from him. But he waited, knowing she needed space to sort through what she needed to tell him.

She reached out and gently traced his hairline, her gesture part thanks and part reassurance. He leaned into her touch, keeping his eyes locked on hers although her gaze stayed determinedly on his forehead.

“We didn’t click anymore,” she said finally. “I know it seems silly and ridiculous. I don’t know what I was thinking. But you couldn’t see things from my perspective anymore, you started to feel like a stranger.”

Her eyes met his and he ached at the guilt he saw within them.

“I didn’t want to make any rash decisions but I thought about calling it quits a few times.”

The breath in Virgil’s lungs seemed to evaporate. Kayo wasn’t looking at him and he didn’t know how to react. He could see how easily this moment of honesty could cost her, how vulnerable she was to tell him that truth. How much trust she had in him to offer it to him.

It still hurt.

But he couldn’t deny that he hadn’t felt it. The disconnect she had described had been present for him too. He’d denied it when she was near and obsessed over it on the long hours flying home after a mission, brooding over whether he’d recognise the woman who would greet him on his return.

“How close did it come?”

“Don’t ask that.” Her voice was soft and gently persuasive. “It didn’t happen and I’m so grateful we ended up here together.”

Virgil was silent, Kayo’s revelation still filtering through the different parts of his brain.

“I just want to know how I got it so wrong, to drive you away like that.”

“You didn’t.” One hand cupped his cheek, the other running down his body to tug at his waist. “We both should have talked about it earlier. We should have trusted each other.”

She was right, Virgil knew that. The early days of their relationship had been relaxed and the easy way they’d fit together had lulled them into a false sense of security. They’d already known each other so well, there hadn’t been that awkward newness and sidestepping, it had just felt like the next natural progression. That ease of being together had taken the strain, had hidden a growing problem that neither of them noticed until it had almost been too late.

“God,” muttered Virgil, “I was feeling the same way and I didn’t know how to tell you. If we’d just said something we…”

“We wouldn’t have felt so alone.”

Kayo breathed steadily for them, watching Virgil pull himself together again.

“Okay,” he said, looking determinedly up at her through wet lashes. “Okay Kayo, we need to do better if we want this to work.”

Kayo nodded, snuggling close.

“We need to prioritise our relationship,” she said. “I don’t want to ask you to choose, and I don’t want to have to choose between iR and you either. But we need some guidelines.”

“Guideline one,” murmured Virgil into her hair. “Vacations can’t be delayed more than two weeks.”

Kayo smiled.

“Guideline two,” she said, pressing a kiss into his jaw. “We start talking about the small things. So they don’t become big things.”

“Guideline three,” said Virgil, hopefully. “We keep doing this kissing thing.”

She giggled and rolled over.

“I suppose I can oblige.”

[clovis-enthusiast]

Little thought about The Tyrant’s Tomb. [SPOILERS!!!!]

oKAY, so I’m gonna start off by saying that, as usual, Rick Riordan’s writing style never fails to impress and draw me in to keep reading and not stop until I’ve devoured every last word. I was DESPERATE to read this book because it took me longer to get it than usual, and I was trying to go into it spoiler free (aside from reading the snippets that Uncle Rick posted on his Twitter every now and then.) I pretty much managed to do so, and it made the experience that much more emotional for me. I went into The Burning Maze KNOWING that Jason was going to die, but I had absolutely no idea what I’d be facing in this book.

Camp Jupiter

I’m just gonna flat out say it; I was never really all that interested in Camp Jupiter in the beginning. I didn’t like the majority of the characters (aside from Dakota who is my legal son) and the camp structure (though accurate to the Romans) seemed too strict and harsh to me. The ranking systems confused me, and it all in all just did not appeal to me the way Camp Half-Blood does. However, the more I read, the more attached I grew, and although I still MUCH prefer Camp Half-Blood and would choose it in a heartbeat when choosing between the two camps, it still became an interesting place to read about. I ADORE the idea of New Rome and the sharp contrast of silly demigods like the fifth cohort vs. the strict rules and upbringing of the camp.

When Jason died in The Burning Maze and the next book was set to take place surrounding Camp Jupiter, I grew excited. I REALLY wanted to meet more of the demigods of the Roman camp and explore them more (mostly Dakota but I digress.) Although I knew reading about everyone’s reactions to Jason’s death would be hard, I fought through it and was somewhat surprised by the lack of grieving that was presented. I mean, the ENTIRE first few chapters were ALL about Jason’s coffin and Lester and Meg grieving and trying their best to get it to camp but when it actually got there there really wasn’t that much of an uproar. At first I thought that was strange but looking back at it the Romans are brought up to be strong and not let emotions take over them, and people like Hazel have to show absolute strength. Besides the camp was already in mourning over DOZENS of other campers at the time.

That was another thing that sort of bugged me. I was absolutely ITCHING to meet some new characters and granted I got a few, but the majority of the ‘newer’ characters had already been killed and served only as the undead army.

THAT WAS SO FUCKED UP. It was one thing that I think Rick did a really good job with in upping the deep and darkness of the Riordanverse series. Can you imagine fighting your undead comrades and friends?? Like holy shit, that was emotional. I was super worried I spoiled something for myself on Istagram bc I read a post someone made about Jason trying to get the undead Romans to follow him instead or direct them away from camp, but I should have known it wasn’t true since he was literally burned.

Frank

Speaking of burning, I ACTUALLY thought Rick killed Frank off. Up until this book, I hadn’t really realized how much I loved this man. His character is just so well-written and likable and when he sacrificed the wood, I was like NOOOOOOOOO. I was SO grateful he came back in the end because I was sure Rick would never hear the end of THAT one if he allowed it to really happen. On the bright side, my baby boy can now enjoy his life with a little bit more vigor and less fear now that the stick is gone for good.

New Characters

Lavinia Asimov: Okay, Lavinia is a REALLLLLLLY weird character to me. She reminds me a lot of Lou Ellen to be honest, but for some reason, she doesn’t appeal to me as much as Lou Ellen does. (Maybe it’s just because I tend to prefer minor characters) Her rebelliousness seemed a little too... forced at times?? And her whole thing with the dryads and fauns was kinda weird too, but I guess since she likes Poison Ivy, it makes sense. However, she kinda did grow on me, I suppose, and I wouldn’t mind seeing more of her.

Poison Ivy: I REALLY wished we could have met her even just once. Lavinia would not shut up about her and was CONSTANTLY rebelling against the rules in camp just to see her, so I wanna know just what kind of a character she is. I’m sure she would have been very interesting and sassy to have been Lavinia’s love interest lol

Pranjal: He’s a good boy!!! Not quite sure how to pronounce his name properly, but his appearance is adorable and I LOVE the fact that he’s a son of Aesculapius because he’s one of my favorite gods soooo... I really wish we could have seen more of him!! He’s kinda like Clovis in the way that he has like one important part, gets mentioned like two times afterwards and then never again :^/

Aristophanes: he’s a cat,,, i love him,,, 

Harpocrates: This was SO interesting and out of the blue to me having gone in spoiler free!! He’s earned a new spot up in my favorite gods list because of how interesting and mysterious he is. His concept was great and although i was sad to see him sacrificed, I hope that he and Sibyl are together wherever they are bc that was damn cute and made me so emotional afgkjldg why did Apollo have to be such a dick as a god,,,

New names with little to no info: Carl (Roman demigod,) Reza (Roman demigod,) Reginald (faun,) Felipe (faun,) Harold (faun,) Lotoya (dryad,) Buster (unicorn,) Muffin (unicorn,) Whagadoodle (unicorn,) Shirley (unicorn,) Horatio (unicorn,) One Eye (pegasus,) Small Ears (pegasus,) Boost (pandai,) Ida (Roman demigod,) Caelius (Roman demigod,) Thomas (Roman demigod,) Colum (Roman demigod,) and Terrel (Roman demigod)

Lester/Apollo

MY BOY HAS GROWN!!! He’s so human now, and I’m so proud. He doesn’t even second guess sacrificing himself or humiliating himself to save his friends. I just... I have a lot of feelings over his character development. Rick handles him SO well, and I just,,, I love him,,, i am,,, in love with him,, i would date lester papadopoulos

Meg

She’s grown to be such a doll!! I was SUPER annoyed by her in the first books, but now she’s my daughter. I love that she’s actually expressing emotions other than ‘annoying 12 year old’ now. Like I wanna protect her.

Reyna

She was a pretty good character in this book and her leaving the camp was a HUGE surprise to me. I kinda wish she was still praetor because idk Hazel just doesn’t rlly seem as fit for it as Reyna was, and I like Reyna a lot, but idk i guess it’s coolio. I was also glad Rick cleared up all the romance discourse about her too though the way he did it was kinda weird (she literally was using the word ‘ship’ out loud like wh-- and i don’t remember the venus thing at all so maybe i missed it from a different book? idk it came out of nowhere to me)

Ella and Tyson

I actually like Ella a lot now!! I used to find her quite annoying, and her relationship with Tyson felt forced, but now that I had the time to get used to her and figure out her character a little more, I do like her. She sort of treats Tyson weird, but I think towards the end, I fell for their relationship more. Tyson was literally excellent, show-stopping, breath-taking, amazing,,, like YESSS KING I LOVE YOU AND YOU PEANUT BUTTER-SMELLING SELF (that one scene where he just started dancing and apollo didn’t know if it was for the ritual or just bc he felt like it killed me)

Character Deaths

Dakota: I AM NEVER GOING TO GET OVER THIS ONE FOLKS. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY TIMES I HAD TO REREAD THE SAME SENTENCE TO MAKE SURE THAT I WASN’T HAVING A NIGHTMARE. I PHYSICALLY CANNOT BELIEVE THAT RICK KILLED HIM OFF. I’M STILL EMOTIONAL OVER IT, AND JUST AJSDHF;AMNJ ‘;  NOOOOOOOOOOO THIS IS THE SECOND SIBLING POLLUX HAS LOST IM GOING TO  S C R E A M  HE WAS ONE OF MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS AND HE DESERVED BETTER DAMN IT I’M LITERALLY IN SHOCK LITERALLY DO NOT TALK TO ME LIKE I’M STILL IN SHOCK FROM CREST’S DEATH IN THE LAST BOOK TBH AND NOW THIS??? NOW I’M SCARED CLOVIS IS GONNA DIE JSDKLFKS the only thing that gives me comfort is that Jason can be with his friend in Elysium now fuckkkk,,, rick why did you do this to me,,, I LITERALLY CANNOT EXPRESS HOW UPSET I AM I WILL  N E V E R  HEAL

Don: Don was sort of a comic relief character in SoN, and it was very sad to see him go. He reminded me a lot of Grover, and his death scene with Lavinia ACTUALLY made me tear up. THIS BOOK MADE ME SO EMOTIONAL GOD DAKOTA AND DON WERE LITERAL BABIES RICK GIVE THEM BACK

Bobby: listen,,, we never even met this kid rlly and i was still super sad when lavinia had to kill him again and hannibal is without him and just ughhh whyyy

Julia’s mother, father, AND foster parents: HOLY SHIT RICK WASN’T THAT KIND OF OVERKILL??? I felt so bad for the poor girl, especially cause she’s like six??? But it’s very sweet that Terminus adopted her. I really liked that.

Jacob: AAHHHAHA this one made me sad too!!!! he was such a minor character, but he reminded me of Damien White and Ethan Nakamura (if he were allowed to actually be a kid,) so I think that’s why I was sort of partial to him. The way he died was SUPER horrid too, so I just,,, im big sad for him (on a good hand, he went down F I G H T I N G)

Mentions of anything relating to Hypnos or his children

Yes, i am keeping track, sue me. Somnus was mentioned one time in this book as one of the gods Apollo briefly considered summoning to his aid, and it is presumed he has some sort of tribute at Camp Jupiter had he not before. You’ll make another appearance someday Clovis, I know it :’^D 

Final Thoughts

I literally CANNOT wait for the next book (which I presume is the last one.) From what it seems, we’re returning to New York, so Camp Half-Blood will be present. I can’t wait to see my babes again, and I’m REALLY hoping more minor characters will be allowed to shine (cough clovis cough) but like i KNOW some will die and just,,, im sad,,, dakota’s death has wrecked me,,, but on the side note, the new book is coming out in my last year of school!!! i’m so excited because this series holds emotional value to me like i’ve literally gone through my high school career with trials of apollo like it was with me the whole time and it’s one of the only things that keeps me going. i just,,, i have no words to express how much this series and all the others mean to me...

thank you so much for keeping me going, uncle rick. i can’t wait to see how this all ends :^) <3 

[99centthoughts]

Heyyy Kel!! I just saw your recent post on your main and oh boy I've missed your art tho!! 💘 Since you're back I was wondering, have you seen My hero academia? If so, who's your favorite? We need some good ol' fanart of your babies

HEY!! It feels nice to post again for sure! I HAVE read BnHA but I’m not caught up with it at the moment... AND MY FAVORITE IS KIRISHIMA!!! I’ll try to do more BnHA fanart when I catch up with the new chapters!

MORE ASKS UNDER THE CUT

1) LMSFLK ANON he is just a scruffy dog !!!

2) I LOVE OH WONDER i think i found them through recommended videos on youtube??? Im glad I did bc I really enjoy their music and vibe! I LOVE YOU TOO ANON YOU ARE FAR TOO KIND WITH YOUR WORDS AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD WEEK AHEAD!!

omg hi anon WELCOME BACK TO MY BLOG and oh gosh thank you!!!! I’m rly glad to hear that you still enjoy my art, even though I think I might be blinding people with the colors sometimes HAHA AND YEAH I draw tyler a lot now so it must be strange to the people who knew me back then when I pretty much only drew fay :’D IT’S LIKE WHO IS KEL WITHOUT FAY but I still love my boy a lot !!!!!I’m just at a point where I have a lot of tyler and jc feelings to draw I think LOL THANK YOU FOR SAYING HI ANON U DONT HAVE TO FEEL SORRY i love hearing from people again, it’s like meeting an old friend!! 

1) HELLO RABBIT ANON hmmmmmmm I always think you should find time to do personal work even if you’re a beginner and might find it difficult to execute your ideas 100%! Maybe take some time after doing studies to freely doodle any ideas/ characters you might have! Just to get them down, so don’t worry too much about them being technically perfect. I think doing that also helps to figure out what you might want ot work on more i.e. anatomy/ expressions/ faces etc. Don’t be afraid of drawing any ideas u might have!! Even if you’re not happy wiht the result, you can always redraw it again later when you feel more comfortable with your skill level. I think drawing from your imagination is very important!! No matter what level you’re at!! (if you feel you can’t draw people yet, just practice drawing what you remember from your imagination) ALSO you can try combining studies and personal work i.e. recreate a reference pose you like with an OC/ character you like! HAVE FUN WITH IT!! Don’t feel like you have to study EVERYTHING and have perfect anatomy before you can start creating any sort of personal work

2) Hey!! OH it’s because I used to mistype sparkle into sparkel and it had my name in it so I decided to use sparkeling as my user... I think sparkeling was taken on twitter so I went with im sparkeling there and here! IT’S PRETTY SILLY NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT HAHAHA

aw I’m glad you like them anon!! THEY MAKE ME CRY TOO I LOVE THEM A LOT THANK YOU

HELLO!!! omg sorry for the late-ish reply I HOPE SUMMER ISN’T OVER YET.......... tbh I haven’t been reading/ watching anything new lately bc of school... I’ve gotten back into the fate series though! I THINK THAT’S A RLY GOOD SERIES TO GET INTO !! HMMM manga wise I enjoyed The Top Secret by REIKO SHIMIZU... though I read it a while ago... MP100 & JOJO are also good OH AND REAL by Takehiko Inoue! A movie I watched recently was Kumiko the treasure hunter IT’S KIND OF A SAD MOVIE but I rly liked it! RINKO KIKUCHI IS ALWAYS GREAT... MUSIC WISE, SHINee’s new album, Jaymes Young, Oh Wonder, Sleeping at Last, Seinabo Sey & Seafret are what I’ve been listening to :D SORRY they’re all kinda everywhere in terms of genre but I hope you find something you like in there!! AND IH OPE YOU’VE BEEN HAVING A GOOD SUMMER BREAK!

1) OH I MENTIONED some in the previous ask but I’ll add a couple more here!! I ALSO LIKE TVXQ!, CNBLUE, The Lumineers, Vance joy, Blue October, Tokyo police club and Mumford & sons!

2) YEAH JC IS A GIRAFFE HAHA HES LIKE 6′7″ HES ENORMOUS AND EVERYONE’S TINY IN COMPARISON tyler’s like 6′1″ and fay’s 5′7″ :’) 

Hi Anon! THANK YOU for such a sweet message it really makes me happy to know that I can make you smile!! It’s hard not to reply with enthusiasm bc all the messages I get are so kind and wonderful and I hope the people I’m replying to can feel how thankful I am to get them!!!!!!!!!!!! TBH i haven’t been the most positive towards my art/ posting stuff in general lately but I alway stry to remind myself that drawing and this blog in general is my happy place haha I think I’m happiest doing silly doodles of my OCs and I’m glad that I can share that happiness with you in a positive way!!!!! I HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL EVERYDAY AS WELL ANON thank YOU again for sharing your positive energy with me as well 💗💗

It really is a matter of practicing and getting used to a tablet!! It’s natural that your lines are shaky at first bc it’s definitely very different to drawing on paper. YOU can try practicing drawing lots of arcs/ lines/ circles on your tablet as warm ups, and try using your whole arm to draw instead of just your wrist! KEEP AT IT ANON I BELIEVE YOUR LINES WILL GET BETTER AS YOU KEEP DRAWING MORE!!

[talesfromacrip]

popping off as they say:

ya wanna know some things that suck major ass? well, sit down and let me enlighten you

( a vent/rant post. mute or w.e but I’m gonna go off a bit )

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at this point, I feel like I’ll never get to go out and experience the world.

even when I’m feeling up to it or have too for appointments/shows, etc.

I could, but I’d be risking so fucking much and I hate that a lot. yet,some think it’s not a big deal when it kinda is??

like, I really wanna get the fuck out of this house, but it’s difficult nowadays. it makes me sick at times how some use their abled privileges to go out like nothing is even going the fuck on.

I feel like I’ll just be left here alone in my house till I leave this place with this shit going on. only relying on comments, pictures and silly dreams to get me by which ‘helps’ but it’s not enough

I’ll never be able to explore nature to its fullest and despite how negative I am towards it, I still enjoy it or would like too, without an issue occurring.

I’d need so many aides just to help me and people to watch me while I maneuver through.

can’t fly anywhere bc my only source of mobility would be damaged. can’t even drive.

it’s like traveling with an infant, can’t take me anywhere bc everything is essentially a danger. (an inaccessible one ._.)

plus, everything costs so much money nowadays which is something I can’t have much bc of my disability. love it, great, absolutely r a d!!

tired of missing out on so many opportunities though.

shows, little outings, appointments, vacations, fuck,anything essentially. everyone else gets to flaunt this privilege and it’s irritating bc I can’t interact as I’d like.

I’m literally getting cabin fever being in my own home.

which to some seems like a dream in my condition, when it’s a ‘nightmare’.

even when I do go out, the feeling is still 50/50 but we’ll see how that plays out more in the future

I’m so tired of advocating for disability options for the swancore community.

everyone is so fixated on members or how popular they’re posts are, etc. to give a rats ass about disabled fans.

just want them to be safe and experience a show without risk of getting sick, people standing in front of them, inaccessible venues with stairs, folks pushing them/their aides.

which, I guess is asking too much but I’ll continue even if I’m tired of it.

I enjoy this community so damn much but holy f u c k o-o

can’t stand folks nowadays flaunting their experiences when some haven’t at all or can’t bc of inaccessibility at these shows!! ridiculous

tired of dealing with arguments and yelling from my parents. constant instigating and just absolute chaos daily.

they’re good people but holy fuuuuck do they argue about some absolutely ridiculous shit sometimes.

I love them,but being stuck inside with them constantly is driving me insane.

I don’t feel welcomed in my home or anywhere with them tbh. I don’t get peace and quiet as one should.

I can’t go anywhere either and it’s just, irritating but I have to deal with bc they’re the only family I have.

only times I even get peace/time to myself without them constantly around, is when they both go to the store or do some errands together which is rareish bc they irritate one another at times or when we go to a show; which, who the fuck knows when that will be bc I’ve already missed 2 irl ones so far

no privacy whatsoever either so that’s fucked like, y’all realize why I’m getting cabin fever, which is a stupid thing thing to say but that’s what it is

I want to leave but I can’t and probably never will.

like, who is even gonna take care of me when my parents can’t anymore and all? I’m not going to a home and dealing with people I don’t know well at all.

when you can’t say something ya fave wants to hear or say anything to them that’s out of ordinary bc you don’t want to expose that you have feelings for them.

so, you just sit there in your silly little feelings and hide them yet again bc what’s the point?

can’t go anywhere much with them bc my chair is in the way. I’d be holding them back from so many experiences.-. can’t hug or hold hands or anything like that when I’d like too.

can’t help them when they need it or don’t bc I enjoy helping others more than myself tbh. I’m a homebody though and no one likes to be home it seems. not many wanna spend the day watching shit endlessly or playing games or experience an artist at work. some but it’s not enough bc there’s more to life than just, being stuck inside and all

tired of people thinking I’m this, sexless being bc I’m demi and disabled.

that I’m scared to talk about it or I’m just not interested at all, when I am.

like there have been times when I was more like that but ever since I realized I won’t be getting any procedures done to help me be independent, I just try and keep it to myself but it’s so hard.

don’t want to hookup though or do anything like that with someone I don’t know.

I want a nice relationship with someone I know well not someone I don’t at all.

I explained all this and more on my therapeutic blog thing but I guess no one cared which happens.

I’m sick of hiding these feelings, sick of this place , sick of it all

sick of waking up either sad, horny or just plain empty at times bc I can’t do anything, be with who I’d like.

just,feel even more horrible about myself bc I can’t do anything at all. I have to rely on others for the most simplistic tasks.. how am I going to be with someone , let alone the person I care about??

can’t satisfy  them ,can’t even satisfy myself so why the fuck do I even bother??

I’m tired of these, weird vivid dreams of me at school with people I know online or me doing some activity I thought I’d never do like drive/swim/running with them or by myself.

sick of going places I’ve never been or have in the past which makes me want to leave so bad and I can’t.. idk if I ever even will tbh.

sick of having dreams outside of my house in general and then waking up to the same monotonous life.. makes me feel suicidal at times tbh.

I won’t do anything like that. the thoughts make sad as is so I just continue sitting in silence.

it’s getting hard to mask my moods nowadays and everything just makes me tired /annoyed.

tired of how the dreams tease me by making scenarios where I’m living with someone I care about but will never say anything too bc I ruin things when I open my mouth sometimes :))

like, how can I tell someone we had a whole ass family and sweet gushy moments that I cannot partake in bc I can’t move for fucking shit :)) makes for awkward conversation

also tired of being in another body that isn’t mine and looks better than mine..

just, everything I’ve wished since I’ve been ill and after..

better body with actual features and not the kind that make me look like a fuckin child, pretty and slim face, actual mobility with no pain interference..

these are things I started noticing as I got older and even as young child. knowing I can’t fix whats already done in the process too, fucks with my dysmorphia more..

I hate how I get to see his body dressed in fashion or styles I wish I could do but can’t .-. hair, makeup, accessories, clothes, shoes, tights.. you get it

tired of myself when I shouldn’t be but I am.. so much I wanna do and say and sometimes I can’t. it’s there but the words get stuck. I end up saying something different and just ruin the whole thing I feel

[briteboy]

using the new tag “sunny answers” for these anon ask compilations as per request of an anon who actually enjoys going through these posts! this one’s 4 u bb 💕

omg there’s a lot of questions here, more than i thought there’d be. rando story stuff, leftovers from the Trans Fiasco (and no i will 100% NOT be answering anymore questions about it after this, aside from the non-anons who already messaged me about it), and some astrology questions towards the end! enjoy

I seriously love & understand santi's mind but at the same time I feel so bad for Lou (I love her more ok) and I just wanna hug her and grant all her wishes and fill her void and give her 9999 amazing lovers Idk SANTI Y U LIKE THIS hahahaha ok sorry your story is my bible basically. Other than Ramona to live for Lou needs someone that stays LOU NEEDS HAPPINESS!!!!!

9999 AMAZING LOVERS LMAO will u be the 10,000th tho...that is the question. i think we all relate to santi, so much in fact that his actions are infuriating because it’s like WHYYY but then i’m like oh wait i do dumb shit too when i’m sad/in pain. he still dumb tho she does need happiness, and hopefully she will find it in this story ;__;

I'm so hyped for everything happening w your sims omg! Like I'm so so excited about Lou's story and her family (which I sent asks about before btw so that tells you) and I'm so excited about Rooney and Gianni and bby Ramona going to Japan (which is literally my fav country so my love for you and your blog just deepens with every second) and Santi just getting better somewhere (where? We don't know. And I think that's the beauty of it) I just ugh. Love your blog

OMGGGG AHHHDSGJHD THIS EXCITES ME SO MUCH THANK YOOOOUUUU I’M EXCITED THAT YOU’RE EXCITED!!! i hope you enjoyed her family reveal today, there is much to still divulge in that area so strap the f*ck in. i have a really clear vision of what i want their japan experience to look like and hopefully it translates into the sims!! who freaking knows tho. i’m glad you’re looking forward to it either way. and yeah who tf knows where santi is right now. “going home” my ASS!! but yeah it is all beautiful in a way ;-; thank you so much my love for u deepens every second i reread this message, you’re so sweet ;__;

(TFB anon again aaaa) OKAY SO i could be wrong because you know him much better than i do obvioisly, but Grand Finale from the new album is giving me some santi vibes rn MMMMMM

HEY!!! i finally listened to the album and honestly...idk how i feel about it BUT i actually did like grand finale, and now that i’m listening to it again i can definitely sense the santi vibes!! (he has been listening to it nonstop since it came out ok) i love that u thought of him ;__; 

I got a retail job two weeks ago. And I hate it. I keep telling myself it’ll get better and then it just gets worse. It’s my first job and I just don’t know what to do. Any advice?

oh god. i don’t wanna be a downer but i don’t have much advice for this, retail SUUUUCKS. working in retail opens your eyes to just how stupid, helpless and annoying people can be. it’s not pretty. it CAN get better if you have coworkers you genuinely enjoy spending time with, who can lessen the burden of your responsibilities. joking around can help a lot, so if you’re not friends with them already, try to be!! just talk to them and i’m sure a relationship will grow. also remember it’s not the end of the world if this job doesn’t work out for you. you can find a new one, and you probably will at some point in the future. i’m gonna point you towards @essiesims because she works in retail so she probably has some words of wisdom for you...hopefully...be nice essie

I just realized my new haircut looks exactly like Fiona's hair and I'm 10x happier with it

GOOD!!! i love her hair, mine is sort of like it right now, messy and short lmao. if bby fiona makes you feel more confident by all means OWN dat haircut, you’re sexi

Can I ask if you watch Dan Howell? Bc his new video about his depression actually broke me and I need someone to hug

no i don’t but i googled him and my first thought was “OHH that’s the dan guy who’s gay with phil or whatever” i honestly don’t know who they are but i’ve seen a lot of gifs of them. i’m sorry his vid made you sad :{ U CAN HUG ME I’M ALWAYS HERE FOR U

I just wanted to let you know that I think you're absolutely amazing, and so creative, and your stories are beautiful. I have loved everything you've created, and you're sims are all so beautiful, and the stories are so heart-wrenching, and so well written, and I'm just so absolutely obsessed. I have your notifications on, and I get so excited every time I see you've posted something. :D Keep working hard, and be happy :)

omg ;____________; thank you so soso much ur gonna make me CRY i create everything for myself, but it makes it all feel 1000x more worth it to know it’s affected you this way and you’re enjoying it so much. my heart hurts in the best way. the fact that you have your NOTIFS ON FOR ME OMG i’m so sorry that i probably spam you so much with random asks and stuff. you’re probably like “when will this b*tch shut up” lmfao no but really this is so kind and sweet and it makes me feel warm inside, thank you so much <333

Can I get a link to your story in Chrono order? I'm on my phone and I'm not quite sure how to do it on here ^^'

here u go, or if you can’t click on it, copy and paste this: http://femmesim.tumblr.com/tagged/story/chrono as a general rule, you can go to any tag and add “/chrono” (no quotation marks) at the end and it’ll take you to the beginning.

hi femme! im sorry this is from older posts but how did you get ramona to look the way she did as a baby? thanks in advance!

hello i explained that here!

DEMI GIRL REPRESENTATION YES ILY

HELL YEAH ILY TOOOO

But if you were cisphobic you have a phobia of like a veeeery big part of the population o.o??? Still don't understand that ist even a thing

true! the reason cis people hold the must power in this equation is due large in part to the fact that they are a huge part of the population. so yeah it’s definitely not a thing.

What's cisgender??? Never heard of that

me neither tbh (but if ur not being sarcastic, here)

I love you sunny. Just so you know

Hey Sunny I love you 💕

HEY I LOVE YOU TOOOOO (you both sent this during the Trans Fiasco, and i fully appreciate your kindness in that bleak time)

yikes that anon was obnoxious as hell

this was also during the Trans Fiasco and yeah u right!

What mod do you use to make your sims taller? 😊

this one!

mom why does love hurt so much 😥

no one knows mi childe but i am here for u

^^ me goin after whoever hurt u

I literally just had such a bad nightmare I woke up, scared myself when I tried to reach for my phone and instead accidentally groped my poodle; which resulted in a panic attack. It’s 5am. Please help. I can obviously not take care of myself

GROPED YOUR POODLE OHMDFHOGODFSG I’M SO SORRY POODLE that sucks tho i’m so sorry about the nightmare and the poodle and the panic attack and EVERYTHING, that’s not fun :{ hopefully you got some rest and calmed down since you sent this. if not come to my house we can have a sleepover i will take care of u

I also have a large bra size (32H) and I'm still young so it's still growing.

OH WOOW ARE U OKAY BECAUSE I HAVE A DIFFICULT ENOUGH TIME HAVING DD’S

@that anon - not all trans ppl even experience dysphasia just admit Defeat

right! i think u meant dysphoria tho. maybe. unless you’re talking about something i don’t know about. but yeah you’re right, every trans person is different. a lot of them do want to change things about themselves, but not all.

hey im goin through an assholes blog and reblogging their posts with confusing internet funnyman comments, saw hate for your blog and decided to send you some support. keep doing what you love with your characters and content ❤❤ -♌🌿

LMAO HEY LEO LEAF were u going through that rando dude’s blog when the Trans Fiasco was happening? because there was some super weird ass blog dedicated to reblogging posts from nonbinary folks and people talking about nonbinary shit and just telling them they’re wrong and transphobic for not believing in the gender binary lmao...so anyways...if that’s not what ur talking about tho i’m sorry i just filled ur ears with that nonsense anyway thank you for this message, it’s so sweet ;__; sorry i didn’t answer it right away, i was recovering from the amount of ugly anons i was getting lmao. thank you for supporting me, ily <333

More Avey pls she's the light of my life

ASDFJHHJKSD SHE WILL APPEAR MUCH MORE JUST TO MAKE THE TROLLS MAD OKAY I LOVE U 💕💕

If another dumbass anon messages you about some silly shit regarding transgenders I’m going to scream. No. Not every trans person wants to transition physically— and no they don’t all want to stereotypical versions of whatever gender they identify with. I know a trans-male that wears makeup and twirls in dresses, and I know a trans-female that loves being a butch lesbian. Personally. I am glad that you’ve chosen to go the route that you have with your character. Fuck the ditsy assholes.

HEY I LOVE YOU AND THIS MESSAGE SO MUCH THANK YOU <33333 ur right, fuck them, they’re ugly anyway

Hey so I'm not like these other anons, I'm asking this as someone has next to no experience with trans people and actually wants to be educated instead of attack you. So if there are some trans people who don't transition and are comfortable with how they look, what exactly makes them uncomfortable with their birth gender?

a number of things, mainly just their discomfort with the category they’ve automatically been placed in from birth. but that doesn’t necessarily mean they want to change their body or dress a certain way.

I just wanna applaud you for handling the anons so calmly because I know for certain if they sent me that shit, my trans ass would have acted differently.

LMFAO omg i’m glad you thought i was being calm because i was like “well i guess it’s time to let out my bitchy side” thank you tho, i’m grateful you understand <3

I'm so sorry that Nonnie was such an ass! I wish we had more people speaking up and saying it loud like you did! It was pretty obvious that person has issues that a Tumblr post won't fix but it was nice to see you put them in there place :)

lmao yeah, after a few questions from them i figured it was just pointless. people like that don’t learn even if you’re trying to explain it to them calmly. they just always want to be right by alienating others, and they don’t even realize what they’re doing most of the time. it’s sad really, but i tried my best (and also tried my best not to unleash all my rage lmao) thank you <3

how can Ramona be sooo cute as a toddler?? like how? whats the secret

vitamins

lmao but really IDK i experimented a lot with her face at first and making a custom skin for her definitely helped too. :~}

/post/166031605558/the-pros-cons-of-dating-my-sim-ciarasia *gives Fiona a Beetlejuice & Ghostbusters and a Dexter dolls and stuffed animals and dolls verisons* I like Fiona I think we could get along with each other *gives Lou her fav kind of band shirts and starts counting her freckles* I don't think I'm gonna go mad trying to count

THIS IS SO SWEET AFKJDSKJNGJKLDLGD YOU’RE THEIR SOULMATE i’m gonna write u into the story now u made it

 I know a girl with heterochromia and she also has two different ear shapes. Sometimes I feel like she was meant to be a twin but she absorbed the other one lol. I feel like a weirdo sorry bye.

UR NOT A WEIRDO!!! omg that is funny tho, and very interesting. i wonder if a lot of ppl with heterochromia eyes are like that, with other two different body parts. i’m the twin she absorbed

if you're still doing astrology posts, I'm a Sun-Aries, Moon-Leo and Rising- Scorpio! I'm slowly getting into astrology but i still don't know what that means lol

OOOH SPICY flaming hot cheetos

aries + scorpio are both ruled by mars and then leo is ruled by the sun so holy heck you are probably WAY OUT THERE and by that i mean super outgoing probably, but maybe your scorp rising makes you a bit withdrawn and secretive, so people have to get close to you before they really see you come out. leo moon is one of my favorite placements because it’s so weird, but often i find leo moons can be even more exuberant than leo suns. you probably have a flair for dramatics and love attention even though you might deny it. you really march to the beat of your own drum, but be careful not to be condescending to others about it!!

oh my god all of this astrology stuff is so interesting! idk if you're still doing them, but if you are i'd love to hear about mine: virgo sun, scorpio moon and scorpio rising :) it's totally okay if you're sick of doing these and i'm in no rush to get an answer!

oooooh my mom and beyonce both have virgo sun/scorp moon combos. that’s how u know it’s a good one even tho it seems scary. i find that virgos often have the potential to be very in charge and domineering, but a lot of them bury that potential because they don’t realize they have it inside themselves, and so they let people walk all over them. especially with a scorpio moon, you crave intensity in all forms: through your emotions, relationships, deepest, darkest thoughts, you feel them so powerfully that sometimes it’s too scary and overwhelming for you. learn to trust in that instead of being scared and you will open a new door in your life, especially in combination with your virgo sun, whose inclination is to learn new things and get to the bottom of every mystery. with a scorpio moon AND rising, you are actually that mystery. you might spend a lot of time trying to figure out yourself, but don’t get too introspective because that leads to overthinking and self deprecation.

hey yo i don't need you to do the thing but I'd just like to inform you that i'm a pisces sun leo moon...which is the strangest combo but totally makes sense for my personality. i don't know what any of the other stuff is lmao. but i got a book on astrology so i'm going to learn

OMG i love that combo...it is really weird but somehow the two suit each other. lou and my bff are actually leo sun/pisces moons (so opposite from you lmao, but that’s the reason i like those signs together!) leos have a very active imaginations and pisces just exacerbates that. i feel like in terms of boldness and outgoing nature, it could go either way for you. since pisces suns are usually more understated and quiet, that could fit you. but i often find that leo moons with literally any other placements will make you quite outgoing, sometimes obnoxious. so maybe you flip flop between shyness and outgoingness, especially since pisces focuses on adaptability anyway. 

omg yay yes learn all the things!! report back to me if u find out any cool stuff

I don't know if you're still doing this but if you are please do my birth chart, Virgo sun, Taurus moon, and Rising Sagittarius (if you're not doing them anymore it's fine

oh dang u earthy as F*CK. i would hate to get on your bad side, you are probably stubborn as hell and refuse to move from any position you hold. your sagittarius rising also probably makes you warm and inviting but competitive as heck. these are the two earth signs that i actually think go with sag really well! for some reason they always have a weird connection. i’ve talked about it a bit before. you are probably super chill and people like to hang out with you because you just do nothing and be homebodies but still have a good time. you might be prone to worry and restlessness, but listen to your intuition that tells you to calm down and focus on taking things slow.

Okay so I'm apparently a Leo sun, Scorpio moon and a Leo ascendant. What does this even mean help me lmao

OOH WOW ANOTHER SPICY BOY...honestly the first word that came to mind was “battleborn”. lmao you’re probably always looking for something/someone to keep up with your pace and stimulate your needs, and you probably get discouraged a lot because no one can ever match your wild personality. you can probably be overbearing without even realizing, and because of that, not many people can handle you. like i said before, scorpio moons crave intensity, and leos are already intense in their own way, so these two signs (especially the double leo influence) just really kinda egg each other on. so be careful not to get too carried away with doing The Most all the time.

[jinki-hyung]

Kim Taehyung x Male Reader

By: Admin Sherlock

Relationship ( So Far ;] ) :

Haven't met as of the beginning of the story.

Scenario :

Since you had a week's worth of vacation, you decided to'd be best to spend that time with your daughter, since you have to send her with a babysitter almost everyday. You decide to go to the park, where you watch her play on a playground. You left her alone for a bit to play to take a business, keeping an eye on her. Suspicious, you stand up when you see a tall guy talk to her.

(D/N): Daughter's name

I choose your ex-wife's name: Sunni; I looked up bitchy names and korean names and this popped up.

Abeonim: The really formal way to refer to a guy who is a dad who you don't know, I decided to use it bc I wanted to be a bit more accurate.

Appa: just a regular way to say dad; informal.

~ Kim Taehyung / V x Reader~

Appa (P1)

>Your PoV<

"Excuse me" I said, making the man talking to me daughter turn around, turning out to be someone in their 20's, "I just want to know why you are talking to my daughter?"

I kept a stern face, which he was obviously intimidated by, "A-ah, sorry abeonim, I just wanted to play with her since she was alone," he said, "I'm Kim Taehyung, I work in the music industry."

I eyed him, not to completely convinced, "I swear abeonim, look," he said taking out his phone, scrolling viciously before showing me a picture with an award, "I won this award with my group recently, we are in a group called BTS."

I sighed, "Fame doesn't ensure you to be a good person, you know," I said, making him frown.

He nodded, "I guess we can't play anymore (D/N), I hope you find a new playmate."

As he began to shuffle away, I sighed, "Listen, Taehyung," I said making him turn around, "I'll let you be her playmate, just know I am keeping a close eye on you."

He smiled with a flat grin, almost endearingly, "Thanks abeonim", he said, continuing to play with (D/N), which made her happy, which was one of the most important things to me.

A time passed, and although I would have loved to spend every minute of my vacation with my precious daughter, she was having fun, and we were going to see Cars 3 in a bit so we could enjoy that together anyway.

"Taehyung, (D/N), come over here please", I said, standing up from the bench where I was sitting at, waiting for them to get closer before I continued talking.

"What's up abeonim", Taehyung said, while (D/N) looked up at me innocently.

"(D/N) and I have a movie to catch, I glad you played with her, she seems happy," I said, smiling, "Say thank you to Taehyung, (D/N)."

"Thank you Taehyung-oppa", she said smiling, hugging one of his legs before going back to me, picking her up as she approached me.

"No problem (D/N)," he said, squishing one of her cheeks, smiling so wide that his eyes were almost completely shut, "Oh, and abeonim, thank you for letting me play with her."

He bowed, making me nod, "You know Taehyung, (D/N) seems to like you a lot, if you don't mind, I could set up playdates for you two," I said, making (D/N) squeal with excitement, "What do you say?"

He smiled again, softer this time, "Of course abeonim, give me your phone number and I'll call myself so we can save each others numbers."

I did as he said, giving him my phone, watching him dial his number, and his own phone ringing in his pocket, "Thank you-"

"You can just call me '(Y/N)', thanks Taehyung", I said, taking back my phone, then moving (D/N) to my shoulders.

We said our farewells, and soon, (D/N) and I were on our way to watch a movie she'd been wanting to watch for a long time.

We went to the park earlier today, since she had no preschool that day, so I let Taehyung know we'd be here with some of her friends from school, to which he said he'd be here as soon as he can, an hour at most.

Luckily time slips by fast when it comes to taking care of kids, before we knew it, an hour had passed, and I saw Taehyung walking, looking around, brightening up when he saw me, running over to me.

"Nice to see you again Taehyung", I said, shaking his hand, to which he accepted, bowing.

"Of course," he smiled, "I love playing with (D/N)," he said, walking over to her, with me following suit.

"Aw (D/N), you've replaced me so quickly", he said pretending to cry, making (D/N), go running to him.

"How could I replace you Taehyung-oppa," she said, before turning to me, "Thanks for inviting him Appa."

"Is he your boyfriend?" said one of (D/N)'s little friends.

Taehyung was already smiling, and so was I, but she immediately shook her head, "I like him but he's more like Taehyung-appa," she said innocently.

I looked over at Taehyung, who was just as shocked as I was, but he seemed more touched, "Wouldn't that mean you have two dads?"

I sighed, tempted to take her out of the conversation, but she responded in a better fashion than what I expected, "I already have 2 dads, silly~ another dad would be great!"

I felt a bit of a sting, but technically her step dad was another dad of her's. As I sighed, I felt a gaze, turning to see it was from Taehyung.

By then, the kids had run off somewhere to go play, "Thanks for inviting me hyung... I'll go play with the kids now, see you later", he smiled broadly again, but I could tell that the tips of his ears were red.

I sat at a bench, enjoying watching the kids play, knowing that tomorrow would be the last day we would be able to enjoy a day together like this for a while.

By the time the other kids were beginning to get picked up and brought home, Taehyung walking back with (D/N) riding piggyback, "Appa~ it's so hot, I am too tired to play right now," she whined cutely.

I smiled, "How about we go get some ice cream, that can cool you down, right?" I said, making her head shoot up, making me chuckle at her disheveled pigtails, which managed to match Taehyung's appearance, "Do you want to come with us Taehyung?"

He seemed to have a similar reaction, "Of course hyung, I would love to."

Leading the way to the ice cream shop, (D/N) wouldn't stop exclaiming her excitement to the both of us, earning some looks from passerby's, "(D/N), try to keep your voice down a bit, please."

She whined a bit before complying, and not long after, we arrived at her favorite ice cream shop.

She immediately went to choose her flavor, while I stood behind with Taehyung, looking at the menu from afar, "What do you want Taehyung, it's on me."

He looked at me with shock, "How- hyung I can pay for myself, don't worry about me-"

I patted his back, "No need to worry, you have done so much for (D/N) by playing with her, you deserve it."

We choose our ice cream, and sat down at a table outside of the little shop, each enjoying our distinct flavors.

After a while, we went to wash our hands, going outside, "Should we start heading home?"

(D/N) whined, but eventually agreed, walking along the sidewalk, holding my hand.

"Taehyung, are you going back as well," I asked.

"If it's not too much of a bother, can I accompany you guys before I head back, I want to enjoy more time with you two."

I smiled, "Of course", I said, making (D/N) cheer, taking ahold of Taehyung's hand.

Taehyung turned to look at me, to which I smiled, making him advert his eyes again.

We walked for about a block or so, playing and talking with one another, lifting (D/N) up, causing her to giggle.

Not long after, she began to look more tired, "(D/N), do you want me to carry you on my back," I asked, already knowing she'd say yes.

I knelt down, allowing her to crawl on top of my back providing her legs some support with my hands.

After a while of walking, Taehyung looked back, "She's asleep."

I smiled, "Thanks Taehyung."

"For what... hyung", he said, almost forgetting his formality.

"(D/N) doesn't have a normal situation when it comes to family, so when I heard her say she had 3 dads, I was sad at first, but it just shows that she really appreciates us, and you as well," I said, making Taehyung smile, obviously blushing.

"I am happy, I'll play with her whenever you allow me," he said, obviously already having an established friendship with (D/N).

"Sadly it won't be soon," I said, "I have work again, this was just a vacation I took so I could spend time with her, she'll be back at PreSchool then Daycare starting tomorrow."

He frowned, before brightening up slightly, "If you are okay with it, the days I am free I can play with her, I can pick her up from PreSchool then you can pick her up from my place."

I thought about it, well, this entire week, he's been a good guy, and I already looked him up on google so he seems like a good person who just loves kids, "If it isn't too much of a bother, I am open to the idea."

He smiled his straight smile, making me chuckle again, already knowing his response.

"Hey, Taehyung?"

"Yeah, what's up hyung?"

I finished parking my car, sitting in there to make sure they were up there, "You're home, right? I just got here."

"Of course hyung, (D/N) and I are just freshening up, we just took a bubble bath."

I couldn't help but smiling, cute, "Okay, I am about to go up, are the other guys there?"

He hummed, "Yeah, they were just in the living room so they should answer."

"Okay, see you in a bit."

I entered the building, walking up the stairs to the level where Taehyung lived, already used to going to pick up (D/N) from Taehyung's place.

I knocked on the door, followed by some footsteps on the other side of the door, "Oh hey hyung," Jungkook said, opening the door so that I could enter, "I think Taehyung is still in the bathroom with (D/N), so you can wait with me in the living room."

I nodded, sliding off my shoes at the entrance, smiling when I saw (D/N)'s small shoes next to Taehyung's.

Jungkook sat before me, in front of the tv, and I sat beside him, "What show were you watching?"

"Honestly I was just channel surfing, there was nothing good on so I just put on Music Bank", he said, laying back on the couch, laying on top of my arm.

"Ah-" he said, straightening himself , "Sorry hyung."

"No need to worry about it," I said, petting his head as if he's my child.

"Oh- hey hyung", I heard Taehyung say, coming out with his hair still wet, (D/N) at his side, already wearing her pajamas.

"Excuse me Jungkook," I said, lifting up my arm from behind him, approaching Taehyung, "Thanks again Taehyung, I'm glad I can count on you to watch (D/N)."

He smiled, "No problem hyung, (D/N) and I have a lot of fun, right (D/N)?"

She smiled, baring her teeth and all, nodding quickly, "I love staying with Taehyung-appa!"

I smiled, getting used to his nickname, "Oh, Taehyung- (D/N) told me to ask you if you wanted to come over Saturday, she's having a little birthday party."

"Of course I'll go, how can I let little (D/N) down," he exclaimed, squishing her cheeks.

"Okay, well, we'll be heading home now, thank you again Taehyung."

"Bye Taehyung-appa, bye Jungkook-oppa!"

"Bye!"

I stood in the kitchen cooking, hearing the television playing some of (D/N)'s favorite song's again, Stigma, almost done with the meal.

Suddenly, I hear a knock at the door, making me turn off the stove, going to get the door as soon as I could.

"Hey Taehyung, I just finished making the food, you're right on time," I said, walking back to the stove, ready to serve the food.

"Nice song (D/N)", he said, making me smile, hearing her giggle in the living room.

He walked up behind me, "Hey hyung, I have a question..."

I hummed, "Shoot."

"Am I early? Are (D/N)'s friends not coming?" he asked, confused, "I brought all of these games..."

I smiled, turning around to ruffle up his hair, looking over his head, looking at (D/N) entertained with the music, "I'll tell you one she's fallen asleep, we can still play."

He looked surprised, nodding, going over to her to show her the games.

Soon, we ate, we laughed, and we played a variety of board games that Taehyung had brought, and eventually, (D/N) was passed out on the floor.

"Come here baby," I said, seeing Taehyung flinch from the corner of my eye as I picked (D/N) up, taking her to her room so she could sleep.

When I came back, Taehyung was cleaning up the games from the floor, looking up at me as I approached, before looking back down, with his signature red ears.

"Hey Tae."

He looked up, probably surprised at the nickname I'd just given him, "Hey hyung..."

I licked my lips, taking a seat on the couch, "About what you asked earlier- sorry for not explaining the situation even after so long."

He seemed surprised, but listened intently, "(D/N) is the child of my previous wife and I, we divorced two years ago," I began, Taehyung already looking surprised, "She had been having affairs, and she is currently married to a man who was my coworker, he's a nice man unlike her mother, so she mentions him, she doesn't like talking about her mom though."

I sighed, "Despite this, we have shared custody, my ex-wife can see her once every three weeks, because of (D/N)'s dislike of her, so this time she decided to make her a birthday party with all of her friends, and since I wasn't invited I couldn't invite you," I explained, seeing him nod, "She begged her mom to invite you but she didn't want a friend of mine going, so we made something small, just so you could be invited as well."

"I see", he nodded, looking a bit down.

"Taehyung," I said, catching his attention, making eye contact, "You are her best friend, please take care of her, don't make fun of her situation, and don't talk about her mother, please."

He seemed hurt, "I could never", he mumbled, "I- if I'm honest, I thought you were gay and her second dad was your partner, sorry about the assumption..."

I chuckled, "I guess you can conclude that without enough context," I said, "I haven't dated anyone in a long time though, I couldn't provide the attention I wanted to give my loved one with my little monster, she's my life right now, and probably for the rest of my life."

He frowned, "Hyung, you are too young, you can't give up on love."

I laughed, "I won't, but first I need to make sure (D/N)'s okay with it."

He nodded, "Can I ask you another question hyung?"

I hummed, "Go for it."

"Do you have a sexual preference? You've been rather gender neutral when talking about dating", he asked, obviously blushing.

I smiled, "I'm (sexuality)", I said, "I hope there's no problem with that."

His blush increased, "O-of course not! I was just curious..."

"What about you Taehyungie?" I asked, enjoying his cute reaction.

"U-uh, well I am not too sure yet..."

I patted his head, "That's alright, there's no rush", I said, "You are still young, you have time."

"Hyung, you shouldn't say it like that," he whined, "It makes me feel like a baby- you aren't that much older than me."

I nodded, smiling, "You're so cute I forget sometimes."

His eyes widened, covering his face after making eye contact with me, "Hy-hyung-!"

I chuckled, "Sorry, it just slipped out," I said, waving my hand nonchalantly.

He pouted, holding his face with his cheeks, looking down when he heard a ding coming from his pockets.

He took out his phone, "Oh sorry hyung, I need to go back, I have an interview early tomorrow."

I nodded, getting up so I could walk him to the door, "So tomorrow you can't pick her up right? I'll take her to daycare during my lunch break then."

He pouted, "Sorry hyung, but if you're free, tomorrow I can take the both of you out for ice cream, at the usual place, like at 7:30PM-ish."

I nodded, "Sounds great, see you there Tae", I said, ruffling up his hair, letting him open the door and leave.

As soon as the door shut, I sat on the couch, putting my hand in my hair, how's this guy so cute...

"Taehyung-appa!"

Taehyung turned around, smiling his goofy smile, hugging (D/N) as she ran up to him, "Good to see you kiddo."

We ordered our usual, and right as I was about to pay, I realized the cashier had given Taehyung his card back, "Taehyung- why'd you pay? I told you I should pay since you do so much for us."

He smiled, licking his ice cream with his flat tongue, "It's a thanks for the delicious food yesterday hyung~"

I shook my head, smiling.

We ate our ice cream listening to (D/N) talk about her day, and every once in awhile, I would peek over at Taehyung, either meeting his eyes or watching him listen to (D/N) innocently as he licked his ice cream

"What the fuck is this (Y/N)," I heard Sunni yell over the phone, "I am gonna reopen that god damned custody case if you don't stop influencing (D/N) with your homosexual perversions!"

I furrowed my brows, "What are you even talking about Sunni," I groaned, not wanting to have to deal with her attitude during my break.

"What the fuck do you mean?! You and your friend from Bullet Proof Homosexuals or some shit are all over the news- and my daughter is in the same god damned paparazzi pictures!" she yelled, making me take a deep sigh, feeling worse when I realized that the Paparazzi was viewing Taehyung as a couple, which was exactly why I hadn't pursued him.

"Listen, Sunni, the Bulletproof Boyscouts don't want your slander, and we are all just friends as you said," I said, sighing, "And you can't reinstate the case, you already mentioned my 'homosexual tendencies' the first time."

"Fuck you."

I sighed, trying to enjoy the rest of my lunch in some sort of peace.

>Taehyung's PoV<

"Taehyung-appa!" I heard, looking past the paparazzi, finding (D/N) standing there waving.

I smiled back, waving back.

"Get away from that bastard (D/N), don't talk to such a perverted individual."

I was shocked, and hurt, and I didn't doubt it was obvious, suddenly the flashes started appearing more frequently.

"I hate you! Let me see Taehyung-appa!"

This must be her mom.

"Listen you little brat, he's a bad man- and you only have one dad and one mom- you may have one stepfather but that's it," she scolded, making her cry, making me feel horrible I couldn't say anything.

I couldn't move.

I was angry that she was being so mean to (D/N), but what hurt me most was her cruel words towards me.

>Your PoV<

I sighed, sitting alone in my home, looking through all the tabloids.

I really hope I don't ruin his career.

Suddenly, I heard a knock at the door, making me get up, wondering who in the world it could be.

I saw flashing lights as I opened the door, and a figure hugged me immediately, not bothering to close the door.

Once I realized who it was, I quickly closed the door, pulling Taehyung inside with me.

"What's up Tae?" I asked, finally hugging him back, "I would've thought you'd be staying away to avoid rumors."

Finally, I heard him sniffle, making me push him away, making sure that my intuition was correct.

Despite trying to cover his eyes as fast as he could, it was obvious he was crying.

I instantly pulled him back into a hug, "Tae, what happened?" I asked, "Are you upset because of the tabloids?"

He shook his head into my shoulder, continuing to sniffle.

I felt heartbroken, "I'm gonna go get you some tissues, okay?"

Right as I was about to leave, he held my shirt back, "Stay- please."

I complied, going back to him, wiping away his tears, "Sorry, I'm here, don't worry, I won't leave."

Maybe it's because I've gotten used to comforting (D/N) after nightmares, or maybe it's because I genuinely feel this way, but right now my focus is helping Taehyung feel better.

We stood at the doorway for a long while, stroking Taehyung's hair as he gained his breath and stopped crying.

Even after it took a while for him to pull away, but once he did, I could see his puffy red eyes, finding myself trying to wipe away his tear stains, causing him to lean into my hand.

After that brief moment, I snapped out of it, feeling my heart rate accelerate, "Let me get those tissues, I'll be right back."

I didn't lie, I retrieved the box from the bathroom, then quickly went back to the living room, where Taehyung was now sitting on the couch.

"Hyung... thanks", he mumbled.

I sighed, "Tae, I'm here for you okay," I said, and he nodded slowly, blowing his nose, "If it helps, tell me what happened, you can let it out if it's with me."

He smiled softly, leaning his head on my shoulder, and I took my hand in his.

"I saw (D/N) today," he began, surprising me, since she was with her mom today, "She said 'hi' and I waved back at her, but then-" he said, starting to get choked up, making me stroke his hand with my thumb, calming him a bit.

"I-I saw your ex- she-she was really mean," he began, and right as I was going to apologize, he continued, "She told (D/N) I was a perverted- a bad man- and-and a bastard", he said, crying again, making me rub his back again, letting him cry on my shoulder.

Once he had relaxed a bit again, he spoke up, "She called her a brat- she was just yelling at her and I wanted to stand up for her- she said that she has a mom and a dad only, a step dad on her side- I wanted to cry so bad right there- I couldn't help her- I feel so bad."

He continued weeping into my shoulder, while I rubbed his back, doing the best to calm him in my embrace.

"I'm sorry about my ex, she is a horrible person- I'm really sorry."

After a little more comforting, I heard my phone ring, surprised that it was (D/N)'s step dad, "Hello?"

"Hey, (Y/N), (D/N) is there with you right?"

"No today Sunni was supposed to pick her up from preschool."

"Oh my god- she ran away, we can't find her-"

My heart sank.

I dropped my phone and ran, ignoring the flashes, I had to find my daughter.

I looked everywhere, but she wasn't there.

When I got to our usual spot in the park, I slumped on a bench, feeling numb.

In my peripheral vision, I saw a light, and when I turned to it, I saw Taehyung hand in hand with (D/N), walking towards me, and that sight alone was almost enough to make me cry in relief.

"We figured you'd be here," Taehyung said, voice raspy.

"The ice cream place was going to be next," (D/N) said, making me cry, hugging all of them.

"I'm so glad you two are okay- I-I was so worried."

"Hey! Pick me up so I can hug you two crybabies!"

I smiled, picking her up, Taehyung supporting her as well, continuing the hug.

"Thank you so much Tae", I said, involuntarily kissing him, "Oh- sorry."

"He's so embarrassed", (D/N) laughed, making Taehyung's face go redder.

She smiled, "You are the only two daddies I want- don't make me go with that witch ever again."

We looked at each other, not sure if to laugh at the witch thing, or to be embarrassed about us being her two dads.

But it looks like that court case will be reopened.

The gavel hit the block of wood.

"I now declare full custody of (D/N) (L/N) to (Y/N) (L/N), taking away parental rights from Sunni Park for child neglect and emotional abuse for not only her own daughter but also the people around her."

Thank god.

I exited the courtroom with so much relief, knowing that my daughter and love interest would be safe and happy.

"Sir what were the results."

"Where's Taehyung."

"Are you and Taehyung in a relationship."

"What is Taehyung's sexuality."

"Was this because of the slander on Taehyung."

I continued walking, ignoring the paparazzi's questions, doing my best to ignore me, the last one ticking me off especially.

I got in my car, which was surrounded by paparazzi as well, making me roll down my window, "Please let me go see my daughter, I haven't seen her the entire week."

My quote and my glare seemed to make most of them back off, allowing me to finally leave, rolling up the window as I left.

When I got home, (D/N) was waiting on the couch next to Taehyung, and as soon as I got inside, (D/N) came running towards me.

I kneeled so I'd be at her level, hugging her as she hugged me, "I missed you so much."

I nodded, "I did too sweetie."

"Come here Tae," I said after a while, and it didn't take long for him to join us.

After the long group hug, Taehyung left first, going to the kitchen, "I have something for you guys", he said, pulling out some ice cream cups from the ice cream shop we go to, "For our reunion."

We smiled, going to join him for ice cream.

(D/N) got her ice cream first, and when I went up to get mine, I kissed him, not bothering who would see us or if he was on the verge of dropping my ice cream, grabbing the small of his back and bringing him close, feeling his free hand wrap around my shoulder.

"Ewww~! Appas~" she whined, making me pull away, laughing.

I turned back, looking at Taehyung touch his lips, his face bright red, "You started eating the ice cream without us, right?" I teased, "I could taste it."

He shoved my ice cream towards me, covering his face, "Just appreciate my gift please."

"You didn't like the way I showed my appreciation?" I asked, enjoying his reactions.

He pouted, "Just- let's eat."

I smiled, sitting down at the table and eating my ice cream, sneaking glances at Taehyung every once in awhile.

"So appas are dating now?" (D/N) asked, causing us to look at one another.

Taehyung rubbed his neck nervously, "I am for it Tae, what do you think?"

We looked at him expectantly, "W-well, I like the idea as well..."

(A/N: Another 'one shot' where it's more than one part... again for BTS... but yo, it was already 10 pages on Google Docs.)

[okreadyscenarios]

Astro Ships: literal-ktrash

Hi Hi Nessa~. I'm not good at this but here I go~ hehehe. For ship request: I would say I'm an optimistic person, but if I'm in a bad mood I'm more of a realist. I enjoy all subjects, but my favorites are astronomy, physics, and anything having to do with writing/english. I'm a perfectionist with body-image issues (regarding myself) and am a bit too judgmental/critical of myself. I cry both when I'm sad and frustrated, and I'm a ball of emotions. I love cringey humor and puns, and I laugh a lot!

I wouldn't say I have a hard time making friends when I try, I just get lost in my own head when I'm in public and don't really approach people. I can't go anywhere without music, it's my lifeline (I basically only listen to KPop nowadays, but I used to listen to Pop and Hard Rock).

I really want to be an international english teacher, because I love learning other languages and understanding other cultures, and I believe english is the language that binds people around the world since it's used for business and the like~, so I believe it's important to learn at least some. I also love writing and have a love for poetry and novels - my dream is to write a poetry book in at least 3 languages one day.

I think anything is possible (even aliens! our universe is so big! how could they not be real?) and encourage people to dreams with all their hearts, so they can give their life their all! I care deeply for my friends and constantly worry about them, and I'm usually the "mom friend". I've been through depression and have relapses every now and then.

I know it sounds weird, but I can sense ghosts (O.O) - which is why I'm nervous around hospitals, I get all freaked out, my head hurts and my chest feels heavy when I'm in one. I'm also afraid of driving (which I'm working through now!). I believe people have lived many lives, that our souls get another chance to live if our past lives have been short or have been taken away from us too soon. I'm afraid of never finding love and ending up alone in my old age.

I also think everyone has soulmates - family, friends, and lovers, the people in your life are around you for a reason~ and maybe they've known you in another life! I'm a huge LGBTQ+ supporter. I'm not very religious, but I believe the only way to find god is through all religions - having the ability to see the world through as many people's eyes as possible, and understand those around us.

I think everyone deserves respect, from your grandmother to the local drug addict in jail, we're all just humans trying to figure out how to live ^-^. I love all animals (I actually spent like 10 minutes yesterday holding a lizard and calling him "friend"😂), but my favorites are dogs, cats, and horses. I've been a horseback rider for about 7 years and never get tired of it. I tried every sport under the sun in middle school, but never got the hang of basketball (I'm too short 0w0).

I used to get hit with the ball in soccer and volleyball, so I'm a bit scared of sports balls now. I'd rather be called cute/adorable than hot/sexy any day, and I melt when people give me pet names~. I want to learn to sing, dance, kick box, and pole dance (interesting combo, right?). I couldn't tell you what my favorite color is, I don't like discriminating against other colors (kekeke).

I also can't pin a favorite ice cream flavor, but I think eating ice cream with company makes it taste better (goes for any food honestly!). I want to travel a lot when I get older, taking pictures of scenery and cultures. I ADORE nature, and would choose the mountains over the beach any day! I love winter and I'm not a huge fan of the sun/heat. I'm a huge mommy's girl, she's my best friend and I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her~.  

I blush easy and have never been in a relationship/on a date (^////^) so I'm quite innocent. My spirit animal is Stitch (since my birthday is 6/26 and he is Experiment 626!!) and I also just really love Stitch! I don't think I have an ideal type, but I want someone funny, who loves me for me ^^. Sorry if this was all over the place! I tried my best *hides my face* (I would like to apologize for how long this was~ hehehe ^\\\^)

((It’s quite alright, dear! ^u^ I tried to use as much info from your request as I could, but I was worried to make it too long;; I hope this is alright! <3))

I ship you with JinJin! <3

Explanation + Fluff:

OKAY LISTEN I KNOW WHAT YOU’RE THINKING;;

BUT IT’S NOT JUST BC HE’S YOUR BIAS >o<;;

you guys are just rly good at picking compatible biases??

but honestly JinJin’s perfect for you <3

he reminds you not to be so hard on yourself

and to love yourself, you know~?

you love him unconditionally and he does the same for you~

you two are a good balance for each other

bc JinJin’s rly optimistic too

but sometimes it can blind him a lil bit?

so you help him remember to see things realistically

and he helps you remember to look on the bright side of things

idk it’s just super cute~~ <33

the way you two actually meet is adorable

JinJin really wants to improve his English

since he’s the leader and he wants to be able to communicate with Aroha better and everything

so someone at fantagio hires you

and you’re like YES now I can teach English in Korea this is so cool omg

but PLOT TWIST

you’re teaching English to the members of Astro :D

OH BOy;;

everything’s going great~

but in your sessions with them JinJin just seems to not be getting it?

so you pull him aside after the lesson and ask him if he’s having trouble with anything

and he’s like no no it’s fine

and you don’t believe him for a second bc he’s acting rly weird

and then he just kind of blurts out

“do you wanna go out sometime?”

and you’re like O///O

and he’s like >///>

he starts rambling about how he kept daydreaming in class about going out with you and if you two actually go on a date then maybe he can concentrate

and you cut him off with a small “sure”

and he’s like “... uh, great!”

so he takes you out to a cafe

and you two have coffee and talk about life

and as you talk he just slowly falls for you even more

he thinks your views on life are really beautiful

after a while he offers to walk you home

and you let him

and it’s kind of silent as you’re walking

and then once you get to your place

he says to you (in English) “can we do this again?”

and you’re so surprised

like he said it so fluently

you’re like (in English) “of course we can”

and he smiles and kisses your cheek

and he’s like (in English) “see you tomorrow~”

aaaaand from that day on he does much better in lessons...

and you two kind of have a thing~ <3

alright now time for other cute stufffffff

ok but his sense of humor is right up your alley

like he will absolutely text you puns throughout the day

and cheesy pick-up lines

but he’s actually surprised that you seem to love it?

and text them back??

like i think in that moment he realizes you’re “the one”

he’s also super duper supportive of your writing

like he always says that someday he can’t wait to tell people he knew you before you were a bestselling author <3

don’t think this man won’t buy you a Stitch onesie bc he 100% will;;

or if not a onesie, then he’ll totally get you and himself matching Stitch key chains <3

and sometimes he’ll try and do aegyo by imitating Stitch...

it usually doesn’t go well;;;;

but you find it cute regardless~

bc everything he does is cute lbrh

will oftentimes ask to share earbuds with you

bc it lowkey makes him feel like you’re sharing a part of your mind with each other, you know?

he finds that to be a rly cool thing

and he loves your taste in music

whenever you're in public together he makes sure that you’re as comfortable as possible

whether it be talking to people for you, putting an arm around your waist or your shoulders, or taking a break somewhere secluded

your comfort and happiness is his no. 1 priority

he’s like your cuddly personal bodyguard <3

speaking of cuddly...

he loves wrapping you up in his arms

and resting his head on top of yours

kissing your forehead

he loves hugging you

and being the big spoon~

playing with your hair

and just spending time with you honestly <3

he’s always there to comfort you

whenever you’re sad or frustrated

he’s there with ice cream, hugs, and comfy sweaters~

I AM A FIRM BELIEVER THAT A HUG FROM ACTUAL TEDDY BEAR PARK JINWOO CAN CURE ANY SADNESS IN THE WORLD;;

he also loves it when you “mother” him

like telling him to bundle up or eat dinner

he rly needs a nurturing person like you in his life

and loves getting those reminders that you care~

STARGAZING DATES <3

just laying down together on a blanket spread on the grass

crickets chirping and owls hooting

pointing out different constellations

and you look over

and see him staring at you

so you’re like

“what?”

and he’s like

“nothing, you’re just so much more dazzling than the stars~”

and brushes your hair behind your ear

and you smack his arm and hide your face in his chest

bc HELLO?? >///<

but he just grins and hugs you

and even though it’s cheesy, you know he means it <3

he probably likes calling you silly things~~

like honey bun, cuddle muffin, ladybug, precious, sweet pea, etc...

he’s always told you that once he’s rich and famous, he’ll take you travelling anywhere you want to go

and eventually you do~

one of your destinations is Switzerland, and JinJin books a scenic tour of the Swiss Alps for you two

you two have been together for a while now

and he feels ready

so he bought a ring a few weeks ago

he’s been carrying it around since your world trip started, waiting for the right moment (and place) to do the thing

i’m sorry;; i just love travel proposals okay??? <3

and as you two hike along the trail, he looks over only to find that you’ve gone off the path

and are taking photos of this tiny cluster of purple flowers growing behind a small boulder

tucked away from the world

he comes over and admires your look of concentration while attempting to capture the small burst of beauty on the rocky trail

he thinks it’s just like you to find the good in an otherwise mundane setting

and he just smiles

and gets down on one knee right then and there

because he knows that he’s found his soulmate~ <333

This Astro Ship has the Nessa Seal of Approval ~  ☆

Ships now CLOSED <3

[nagitolovebug]

Star Asks

I’m answering these all for my silly wife whom i love this is for you @angeltendou

-Mercury: What’s your full name? Lmao I know I have like 30 million last names but as far as what most people (and I) know it’s AnaSofia Gonzalez.

-Venus: What’s your first language? Spanish lmao there are videos of me singing as a child in Spanish and I’m just like damn ok

-Earth: Where’s your home? Idk I guess it’s just a feeling but I feel at home wherever I’m safe, warm, and happy and I think I’ve found that with certain people which both terrifies me and makes me wanna cry but thanks to those people

-Mars: What’s your sexuality? Lol, I’m gay as fuck

-Jupiter: Do you have any siblings? Technically, I have one, by blood. If I’m speaking from the heart, I have a person who I consider no less, if anything much more than a sibling, so I’m going to say 2.

-Saturn: Any pets? Yes, a silly little cocker spaniel named Dobby (bc I’m a nerd)

-Uranus: What’s your hobby? Writing, which I do love, but haven’t done much of lately, I’m sad to say

-Neptune: When’s your birthday? September 23

-Pluto: What time is it right now where you are? 11:43 pm

-Moon: What are you currently studying/hope to study? I’ve always wanted to major in writing and write my own novels, although, as of late, I’ve taken to a deep fascination of space and the sky and what lies beyond, and though science is not my forte I may look towards studying that as well. I’m also yearning to learn Italian.

-Sun: Have you ever had alcohol? Once, at a party at my grandparents house, I thought this mysterious drink on the counter was one my favorite sodas, Colombiana, but I wasn’t sure; so, to make sure it was before I poured myself some, I put my finger to the nozzle where there was a drop of it and tasted it. It was disgusting, and certainly not Colombiana. As it turns out, it was beer. Other than that, no.

-Sirius: Have you ever failed a class? Nope

-Rigel: Have you ever gone on a rollercoaster? Yes, several, and I find them quite fun, although the sever anxiety I have before riding them could be left out, preferably. 

-Deneb: Have you ever been out of your home country? Yes, several times. I spent a month in Colombia with my cousins, then returned a year later for a wedding. Also, as a baby, I’ve been told I went to the Dominican Republic. I’m going to England in the summer.

-Arcturus: Have you ever cried out of something other than sadness? Tears are second-nature to me, as free flowing as the blood in my veins. I’ve cried of fear, anger, frustration, happiness, guilt, out of being overwhelmed, out of feeling trapped, out of loss, out of complete gratitude and vulnerability to another person. Yes.

-Betelgeuse: What’s something you can never forget about? I still have petty grudges for people I’ll never see again, real grudges for what someone has done to hurt me. I suppose a profound memory and the one that comes to mind when presented with this question is when I locked myself in the bathroom out of a paralyzation of fear and cried.

-Aldebaran: What’s something you care desperately about? My friends, and their well-being and happiness.

-Canopus: Have you ever broken a bone? No sirree

-Bellatrix: Have you ever been forced to lie/keep a secret? Oh, all the time.

-Alphard: Have you ever lost a friend? Yes, we were incredibly close, and although we still talk it’s like there’s a big cloud above us and you know it’ll never be quite what it once was.

-Vega: What’s something you’ve done that you wish you hadn’t? At the moment I can’t think of any Profound Regrets, but I do wish I were less shy and spoke my mind more often than I do.

-Centaurus: Favorite holiday? Halloween!

-Orion: Favorite month? Honestly, every month past August is Party Time; I particularly love October 

-Cassiopeia? Favorite book? Hoo boy ok. I love all the Harry Potter books and most everything Rick Riordan writes but apart from that (which goes on my Pedestal of Incredible); The Song of Achilles broke my heart but it was gorgeous and I’m in love; also, Rainbow Rowell’s novels sweep my soul away and they too are lovely.

-Delphinus: Favorite study? I love space and the stars + Greek/Roman/Egyptian/Norse/etc myths captivate my soul and I’m infatuated with them

-Hercules: Favorite instrument? Hoooo bOy, ok: the drums are incredible and I love the rhythm and beat they provide, b u t, the violin is incredibly gorgeous and elegant, the piano is hypnotizing, and basically those are my faves.

-Gemini: Favorite song? Idk?? Honestly, it changes depending on what I’m listening to, but as of now I love Dear Theodosia 

-Pegasus: Favorite place to be? I love the space on top of my roof + the warm happy feeling of wherever I am w a friend

-Libra: Favorite color? All colors are beautiful but as of late I love green and mint green and every shade of green; I’m also in love with the infinite blue of the sky

-Phoenix: Favorite thing to wear? Jeans, sweater, socks (if shoes are required, then sneakers)

-Aries: Favorite movie? I don’t really have one because every movie I watch that I like I go “tHIS IS MY FAVE!!” but Captain America; Civil War broke my heart and I loved it, accompanied with Rogue One so I’m going with that

-Cyngus: Favorite weather? I like it when it’s really cold and windy, and light rain with no thunder or lightning is good. I also like cloudy and sunny, or just bright and sunny but not too hot; raining while the sun is shining is perfect

-Hydra: Favorite sound? Friend’s laughter is gorgeous, really pretty music, rain

-Milky Way: Who’s your oldest friend? My (unbiological but still) sister of 9 years

-Andromeda: Do you consider yourself social? Hell no, but with certain people I’ll chat your ear off and they’re the ones who matter

-Black Eye Galaxy: Do you believe in love at first sight? I mean...no? It takes me to get to know someone first and be friends before I develop any sort of remotely romantic feeling, so at least not for me

-Cartwheel Galaxy: When was your first kiss? I’ll get back to you when it happens ;D

-Cigar Galaxy: How’s your flirting skills? I’ve recently discovered that I actually do flirt without realizing, but through texting, so I suppose I’m rather decent,,(?) In a verbal conversation, however, absolute rubbish I guarantee it (not that I’ve tried)

-Comet Galaxy: Have you ever had to leave a relationship because someone changed too much? I’ll get back to you once i’m in or have been in a relationship ;D

-Pinwheel Galaxy: Would you date the last person you talked to? Absolutely

-Sombrero Galaxy: Do you have a crush right now? ;D

-Bode’s Galaxy: Have you ever had a secret admirer? Not that I know of

-Sunflower Galaxy: Would you date/make friends with someone out of pity? Fuck no

-Tadpole Galaxy: Would you deny a relationship/friendship? Does this mean turn someone down? Yes?

-Whirlpool Galaxy: Have you ever cried over a breakup? Yes, but not one of romantic kind

-Comet: What’s your big dream? I have several, however unrealistic they may be. I want to grow up to be happy, to be in a committed, healthy, and loving relationship with another person, and for them to be happy too. I want to write a book, or books, that inspire people and mean something to them, something they love and cherish with characters they’ll fall in love with, something that will make them love reading and do what many authors have done for me. I also wanna make a change in the world, somehow do something profound that’ll make life better for people in need. Lastly, and perhaps the most far-fetched of all, I wanna explore space? Not just our solar system or Mars, but full-on Star Trek explore; I want to be alive when/if portals are made to explore deep space and learn more about what’s out there and contact alien life.

-Meteor: What’s something you wish you could tell, but can’t? I wish I could tell my family, more importantly my immediate family, that I’m gay

-Nebula: if you could undo one thing in your life, what would it be? My birth idk

-Shooting Star: If you could bring back one thing what would it be? Um idk, my motivation to do things? Happiness?

-Pulsar: What do you hope to do in the next 10 years? Experience things and learn more things about myself and who I am, go through my Angsty Teen Discovery moment, and just enjoy life. Vote, drive, fall in love, get into college, graduate highschool.

-Supernova: What’s one thing you want to do before you die? See the world/explore space

-Quasar: If you could spend the rest of your life with only one person, who would it be? nOPE

-Wormhole: What’s something you wish would happen, but know won’t? Portals are invented and my Space Princess and I become astronauts and explore space!

-Black Hole: What’s the last thing you want to see? Everyone safe and happy, no hate, everyone living harmoniously regardless or race, religion, gender or lack thereof, or sexuality

[talesfromacrip]

more ehh thoughts (recent edition):

w o w

can’t even speak my damn mind anymore in this house I guess without getting the whole, ‘get out then if you don’t like it here. look for a section 8 place and blah, blahhhh’ speech.

the signature speech of my parents when I get on their ‘last nerves’..

all just for speaking my mind. lovely

all bc I said something in regards to something political my dad was talking about. then saying black lives matter after bc it was also apart of the conversation

(which is my opinion)

that word doesn’t sit well in my parents ears.. my dad to be specific apparently.

he then started saying I should just look for somewhere else to go and that if I say that again, something will happen. (not anything violent on me,but make me leave to somewhere else type of happen )

guess my parents (specifically my dad) wants me dead if he wants me to go out and find somewhere else to go. it’s not like, idk, i have a fucking immunocompromised system or anything like that ya know?? also.... during a fucking pandemic as well ?? helllloooo, old man?? i just don’t know anymore sometimes with my parents

caught me off guard a bit and hurt really fucking bad.. like, wow. if that’s how you feel, then let me go which you won’t and won’t admit.

used to it though which is silly to say, but I can’t do anything much about it even if i tried. so, I must deal for now anyway I can.

we settled our differences though which, I’m glad, but I hate that I was the first one to do it. shows how it is in my family at times

-

at least my mom and few friends are on my side. ridiculous to be treated like this for having a fucking opinion.  

doesn’t help either to get teased about it. like I haven’t been most of my life already ya know, shit.

sick of this house sometimes. the people in it, I should say.. sigh

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I feel like I’m not, as ‘feminine’ as a lady should be. adds to my existing body probsss

can’t put makeup on. can’t get my nails done. can’t use bath bombs. can’t use facial creams or certain acne products. can’t buy clothes I’d like to shape my body and whatnot.. it goes onnnn. I would like to do what a lady likes to feel/look her absolute best ya know.

I can’t though. trying?????which doesn’t really go anywhere much tbh

I have an unused makeup palette and lippies going to absolute waste in my drawer.

which, cost me gooood money bc gooood brand. treat myself.

to see it go to waste though,is heartbreaking...

I could be using it now during the pandemic,but I have no one to help me with it. I can’t do it myself with my fucked up arms/hands either so that’s a nope.

my mom won’t help me and I’ve asked. she has more important things to do than make me look like a little clowns spawn.

I have so many ideas and I can’t execute them as I’d like. never can and it hurts. maybe on a drawimg, but having it applied to your face is a much better experience. very relaxing as well,but to take off.. that’s a process

doesn’t help that I’m told I’d look better with it as well, which totally helps my self esteem ya know. "it suits your moon face and covers those acne bits.."

fucking hell.. like, let me be.

guess not though it seems :lllllll

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I feel gross about my skin.. dry and flaky at times from my medication and bc my body is a lil ass. it’s fucking oily on occasions as well.. ughhh. a whole nightmare, in my opinion

small acne scars,pimples from an imbalanced body in miscellaneous spots and places where they shouldn’t be.. I hate it.

I cannot look at myself without wanting to scream sometimes. I just stare and flip through a plethora of thoughts until I’m sitting there watching myself cry

I can’t buy the right skin products without suffering a break out or some kind of allergic reaction either. that’s how ‘sensitive’ i am.. ughh and people think it’s sooo fucking easy to take care of your skin.

help me out then and do it for me instead of telling me when I’ve said why I couldn’t in the first place..

fucking shit

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I use to do my nails and paint them different colors almost every other week or so when I was younger. that was when I could move them to a certain extent. now i just can’t much for that. maybe?but I don’t want to risk twisting my wrist again. which, oddly helped a bit, but I’m not risking it

can’t even paint my right hand without leaning into a terrible spine position bc of my curled in fingers. it’s "so easy" though.my big ass it is

so, I just leave them bare nowadays

I have chipped and or broken nails anyway from fidgeting and anxiety. so, that’ll get in the way when they’re colored

sigh

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bath bombs are the most elegant form of hygienic self care. a bubbly concoction for your skin to dip in.. ughhhh. sounds so relaxing and funnn

can’t sit in a fucking tub though to enjoy it and I don’t have the walk in ones. just a plain walk in shower. every time I see someone post about them, I melt inside. so pretty with the glitter fragments and the colorsss...mm

how I wish I could endure a porcelain tub to soak and forget about the world for a moment.

I can dream, but that still hurts as well.

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I used to wear slim fitting tops for my stomach bc I was one of the chubby ones ya know.

now, I want to use them more bc my body doesn’t look how I thought it would be at my age. due to medication and lack of movement, just made it worse and it’s not my fault. feels like it is though and I tried. still am and it’s been hard lately with the pandemic. massive buying spells again so, some healthy goods are not available.

apparently though it seems nowadays being ‘thicc’ is in when years before it was absolutely frowned upon.

I got teased for being ‘thicc’ and now I’m somewhat getting praised for it?? kinda weird circus did I buy tickets for? unless I didn’t??

like, what do y’all mean, now it’s in????? stop being such a rude wad of shit and quit playing with people like this.

I don’t know what to accept much anymore and it’s bothers me so damn much

even if you do get praised,you must meet the standards. with some that is, I should say. must be at least some sort of skinny. some sort of, shaped being that I don’t really want to explain bc I feel it’s obvious.

some disabled folks are almost never in this section and when so, seems very fetishized.

hopefully this paints a small picture or whatever size you prefer your canvas to be. I’ve already talked about my body and more like this just gets me upset

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uggh why are people still making stupid party plans, going to crowded places and doing other irresponsible shit... during a fucking pandemic?? It’s literally s o fucking irritating.

these people do not grasp this it seems, but ooooooohhh. gotta go out and risk it for someone who doesn’t even care about my health,others and even themselves.

fucking dumb

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funny to see them complain about being home and all bc of this. like, how do you think I’ve felt and countless other disabled folks like me? sucks h u h. no freedom to go anywhere for risk of a fucking accident or worse, d e a t h.

it’s easy as hell to stay home and keep yourself occupied but apparently it’s a big ass deal

read, write, draw, cook, c l e a n. go out in your, idk, backyard as your outside relief?? is it really that b a d of a need to go somewhere??

especially when eventually it’ll drain you and you’ll eventually go back h o m e anyway ??t’s ridiculous.

"you should be thankful you can even go out."

yeah, to appointments, groceries, and concerts o n l y.

I don’t have the fucking privilege to go out at my own leisure and when I do, I have to plan like a mf.

it’s not easy. can’t drive. van is always busting on us. parents are my only source of a ride. can’t even generally go out anywhere bc of stupid stairs and all that.

I swear. every time I see a friend, mutual or family put something like that.. irritates me. I wanna comment so bad,but I don’t want to start anymore drama.

maybe soon I will. who fucking knows

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i miss shows and all, but I just don’t as much.

I’m paranoid to think of going to future ones now..

I’ve already missed a majority of concerts my whole childhood and teen years due to my disability.

I don’t want to miss out on my young adult life now that I’m somewhat in a ‘better state’ bc some of y’all don’t want to be cautious and follow rules.

shows are therapeutic for me, but idk anymore now if it’s makimg me like this

disabled folks like myself who enjoy these shows are in so much fucking danger, it’s ridiculous.

we already were anyways with moshing and all.. which I know some act like they don’t know.

y’all are so desperate to go like, what about the other fandom folks who can’t even attend these shows though?? sad

these lives performances some artists have been doing are perfect and we need to support them more with this format. encourage the fuck out of them like the do to us with their music and whatnot.

I was so fucking thankful DGD did one.

it was a great time, but not so great when everyone is like, but what about an ‘actual show’?

it’s just, never enough with some of the fans I swear. irritating

yeahhh ,lets risk the fuckin band/bands getting sick so they can play for us. yasssss. shows how much they read up on the members and care about their health/wellbeing.

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being sober brings back a lot of suppressed memories. nights are bit hard when going through this

makes me remember quite a bit of conversations that others have probably or most likely have forgotten by now as well

irritating and sad. that’s how I get some of my dreams as well which cause lack of sleep at timessss y a y

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I, over share too much at times it seems.. how the hell do people want to know me though????

if I’m making the situation, odd or whatever, fucking tell me instead of ignoring it and trying to move on with some stupid shit

if I can fucking sit through y’alls oversharing.. can with fucking mine

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I hate how everything that’s so wholesome and genuine I see, I can barely even do and say..

I especially hate how I imagine it with someone who deserves better. this is wearing me out I swear to fucking god

I put some of my eggs in the wrong basket.. again

ohhh fucking boooyyy

least it’s a good basket..

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sometimes I feel so uneducated when taking with friends. my mind is like a fucking mad libs book on new game plus.

it’s blanks out and replaces important vocabulary with some silly childish shit instead