#emotionall rollercoaster

[eldhuug]

Yesterday, after three attempts with various setbacks, I had to give up donating blood. Ive attempted for the past 9 months to go back and give blood again after a first successfull tapping. But due to low iron levels, or low blood precentage, or even the doctors being unable to find a vein they could use, I finally got tapped again. As someone with really deep and hidden little bloodpaths, It hurt. The puncturing of the needle was worse than I remembered and I got scared. I told the doctor I was beginning to get a little dizzy, and it was getting really hard to breathe. At first I suspected that something had gone wrong again in the sense that I reacted badly to the blood preassure dropping, but no. For the first time in ages I was having a panic attack and I clock it as one because it was so slow moving and I managed to communicate my discomfort and remained in control. As upset and emberrased as it made me when I started crying after catching my breath again, I was mostly just pissed. I have spent! So long! trying to donate blood, and my body wont let me??? It fucking sucked! I dont like crying in public, and I have worked very hard to be healthy for a lot of reasons but primarily, yeah, being able to donate blood was a pretty good motivator. HOWEVER. the very first time I went to see if I was able to donate blood, when I had my first and only successful outing to the clinic, the doctor told me “ so no traveling, no piercings and no tattoos recently? thats kinda boring isnt it?” WELL. now im gonna fucking go get tattooed and travel and not be a fucking loser anymore. Went to the hospital and got diagnozed with cool guy syndrome so now I cant donate blood anymore. 

[bbarican]

today was an emotional rollercoaster

in the morning, i attended a meeting that was so full of technical terms na i just felt so out of place and also it made me wish i was doing something else at that moment

in the afternoon, it was okay, had a few laughs here and there cause of tiktok and cause of my family in general, we just like playing jokes with each other alot

then the evening came - i was excited to watch a movie that was part of my childhood but at the same time i was heartbroken to learn about the sudden passing of my tita

you can see where the term rollercoaster really shines through; death is always going to be such a weird...thing - there's so much that goes on in your mind when someone dies and im at a point right kow where i am just mentally and emotionall exhausted and i wish i was by my cousin's and nephews' sides to hug them all tightly

and its just wednesday

[lunasilversworld]

Wie schreibt man enemies-to-lovers?

Insta: @_lunasilver__

Bei Verwendung meiner Inhalte bitte credits geben! <3

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1. Lasst eure Leser warten! Achtung: Das Warten muss sich lohnen!

Die größten Fehler beim schreiben von enemies-to-lovers sind, wenn die Figuren ihren Hass zu schnell beiseitelegen und man keinerlei Chemie zwischen den Beiden spüren kann. Eure Leser wollen mitfühlen und im Laufe der Geschichte immer wieder Gedanken und Gefühle der Figuren gezeigt bekommen; kreiert ein unterhaltsames slow burn. Überstürzt nichts! Im echten Leben werfen zwei Feinde ihren Hass auch nicht innerhalb weniger Tage/Stunden über Bord, um sich dann zu verlieben. Versucht die Dynamik zwischen euren Figuren auch später noch beizubehalten (wenn sie schon verliebt sind), gerade dieses hitzige und prickelnde macht einen guten enemies-to-lovers Roman aus.

2. Emotionale Achterbahnfahrt

Werft eure Leser in einen sogenannten emotional rollercoaster. Enemies-to-lovers ist sehr komplex und ihr müsst es hinbekommen, dass eure Leser mit euren Figuren mitfühlen. Die Gefühlswandlung von Hass zu Liebe ist wichtig und sollte nachvollziehbar rübergebracht werden. Es ist unverzichtbar, dass eure Leser den Hass (am Anfang) spüren und den Gegenpart am besten selbst aus vollem Herzen hassen. Sobald Gefühle ins Spiel kommen sollten eure Leser in der Lage sein, diese Wandlung zu fühlen und zu verstehen.

3. Gebt euren Figuren einen guten Grund sich zu hassen

Eure Leser müssen verstehen, warum die Figuren so empfinden. Unterschiedliche Moralvorstellungen, verschiedene Werte, andere Meinungen oder vielleicht auch ein Konkurrenzkampf im Job? Überlegt euch etwas realistisches und tiefergehendes, sodass der vermeintliche Hass gerechtfertigt ist. Weiterhin muss es nachvollziehbar sein, dass dieser Hass über einige Zeit anhält. Den Konflikt könnt ihr mit mehr Problemen anheizen (z.B. Feind bekommt eine Beförderung etc.), sodass die Dynamik eurer Figuren klar zum Vorschein tritt. Arbeitet diese Differenzen und Unterschiede, die eure Figuren voneinander trennen, sauber heraus. Immer daran denken: der Leser kann nicht in euer Gehirn hineinschauen, ihr müsst alles beschreiben!

4. Richtiger Zeitpunkt um Gefühle zu entwickeln

Was bringt diese beiden Feinde denn nun dazu, sich zu mögen? Es muss etwas realistisches sein. Haben sie z.B. ein gemeinsames Ziel? Oder treffen sie in einem Moment der Verletzlichkeit aufeinander? Vielleicht ist es auch ein Moment erzwungener Nähe (forced proximity)? Egal was es ist, überlegt euch diesen Grund gut! Die Figuren sollten die Chance bekommen offen zu reden und Missverständnisse und Ähnliches zu klären. Optimal wäre es, wenn eure Figuren den jeweiligen Gegenspieler dann aus „anderen Augen“ sehen würden, sodass man als Autor darauf aufbauen kann.

5. Achtung: Die beiden werden kein perfektes Liebespaar sein

Von Hass zu Liebe? Das geht nicht ohne ein paar kleine Streitereien. Wenn bei euren Figuren sofort alles prima ist und die beiden im siebten Himmel schweben, dann wird es eines: und zwar langweilig. Eure Figuren zeichnen sich ja gerade durch unterschiedliche Meinungen oä. aus, also ist es nur normal, wenn es in einer Beziehung auch mal „knallt“. Diskussionen, Meinungsverschiedenheiten und Konflikte sind vollkommen normal in jeder (!) Beziehung. Es wäre also ziemlich unrealistisch, wenn zwei ehemalige Feinde aus dem nichts ein Herz und eine Seele sind. Lasst die beiden an ihrer Beziehung arbeiten und greift vielleicht frühere Differenzen erneut auf.

[quelquunberlin]

Bin nach Funeral for a dog alles andere als okay.

[nackteseelen]

13.11.2021

Es ist Okay wie es gekommen ist. Vollkommen okay. Wir wussten beide das es passiert. Und wenn ich ehrlich bin, bin ich auch erleichtert. Erleichtert und tieftraurig. Passt das zusammen?

Vielleicht hätte es schon eher aufhören sollen mit uns. Vielleicht war es jetzt sehr spät. Und man kann nicht sagen dass es ein knisterndes, emotionales, aufwühlendes Wiedersehen gibt, indem man sich umschlingt und fast aufisst. Das wird es nicht geben, das ist okay. Ich hab mich sowieso gelangweilt. Das einzige was wir hatten waren das große Drama und die vielen Tränen, die wut aufeinander, die Schmerzen kurz danach. Ein Rollercoaster voller Gefühle und wir beide mittendrin.

Es gab immer etwas was nicht okay war. Jeder Tag war ein Kampf damit es jetzt ganz spät ist. Dass du so dezente Spuren hinterlässt nachdem du mir eine Brandmarke verpasst hast und ich laufe damit durch die Welt und sie erinnert mich an all den Schmerz und die Wut die wegen dir in mir sitzt. Vielleicht hab ich es so verdient. Ein kaputtes Bett, ein schmerzendes Bein, ein gebrochenes Herz, einsamsein. Ich glaube du bist vollkommen okay damit, mehr als ich. Du bist entschlossen über mich, du warst es sonst nie über Dinge. Ich weiß nur das ich mich erniedrigt fühle. Erniedrigt und klein gemacht. Zerquetscht und belächelt. Du wärst mir einiges schuldig gewesen. Aber das ist auch okay. Ich mach es für mich aus. Das ist sowieso besser und aufrichtiger als du es je warst.

[the-thorster]

Gebetskreis um den tatort emotional zu verdauen

Bro ich kann immer noch nicht richtig atmen, was war das für ein fucking emotionaler Rollercoaster eben

[today-in-abeltownship]

An actual thorough report on the Musical

(Spoiler warning - the ZR:TM follows the events of S1 and S2 of ZR, and so I will be talking about those here)

Disclaimer: I know nothing about music, or musicals, and am in no way qualified to have a valid opinion

(also this is going to be v long so rip)

First of all, Act One is just a whole beautiful emotional rollercoaster. Just amazingly done.

1.1 - Overture: The feels. The beginning! JUST RUN! the piece of accompanying music is absolutely beautiful, big fat stunning and I will be listening to this next time I replay the first mission. The orchestral part honestly made my heart flutter. Such a beautiful opening song. 

1.2 - Welcome to Abel: The hope. The cacophony (thx Caity for using this word yesterday I’ve now used it a dozen times and it’s your fault) of characters is just so so in character! The multiple singing really encapsulating the overwhelming time of Runner Five. 

1.3 - Run For You Life: Sara. I love this character. Yet somehow, this song makes me love her more. The lyrics really really really encapsulate her. The voice of Sara is so on point i can’t even put into words. I know this one is going to be stuck in my head and I’m living for it. I know nothing about music or musicals so i don’t know the technical word for this but the whole atmosphere(???) ambiance (???) of this song is so so Sara. 

1.4 - Raise The Gates: A Bop. This one was so upbeat i honestly forgot how the mission actually ended for a minute there, and then was surprised. The back and fourth between Sam and Janine was so funny and so perfect. DON’T SHOUT Then the twist had my heart like -OH no!!! The instruments really snapped like damn, atmosphere change. I felt that urgency.

1.5 - A Voice In The Dark: More feels. Two lines in and I’ve got tears in my eyes. SO SOFT. I cannot put into words how this one affects my heart but it’s something along the lines of mushy and pain and love and all that good stuff. Hearing the line “for just one friend, would you run?” honestly made me want to start going for a jog. Really tugging at my heart strings here. Just when you think the heartbreak is over Sam gets more and more emotional until it ends with both him (and me) being heartbroken. 10/10 would recommend.

1.6 - Cain and Abel: Villain. The vibes are so unreal. This song made me hate Van Ark more and i mean that as the most sincere compliment to the writers and singers. Top tier villain vibes. Also it’s so Van Ark to blatantly not answer Paula’s question and just end up rambling dramatically. 

1.7 - Archie To The Rescue: My Gal. The pep! MY GAL! The accent! Blue! Wait, are we a cult?! The atmosphere, ambiance, general vibe is so accurate! The voice is so so good and I really hear the spirit of Archie coming through (not a pun but also a pun)

1.8 - Morning Run: King of the Apocalypse. Oh goodness the beginning had me cackling. SIMON! How is a song about the apocalypse so cheery? The answer is beautiful craftmanship and a wonderful voice. And a ukulele. With a smidge of Abba. I’m currently looking to make this song my alarm. (also the foreshadowing had me 👀)

1.9 - Reunion: Tears. Just in case you had any liquid left in your body from the first 8 songs of laughter and crying, this song is guaranteed to make you dehydrated. These gals (the characters and the singers) are magical. The feels. The backstory. SO SO SOFT. when they both start singing at the same time I started shrieking bc it was so so emotional. And then when they get to the last bit and just ????? I just???? *combusts into tears*

1.10 - You Haven’t Met My Friends: Ouch. My GAL *crying*. Her birthday *crying*. Her gusto *crying*. I! CAN! HEAR! THE! FEELING! Evening knowing what happens to Archie, this one caught by offguard and I love it. The reverse use of the piano and the lower notes (idk if that’s the right musical term) compared to 1.7 just soo soo good. Genuinely think my heart stopped at the last bit. 

1.11 - Oh, Look At That: Ahhhhhh. One of the great things about this musical series is not knowing which plot points are going to be covered in which stage. The title of this one had me clueless, and even the art was a bit mystifying. So when the tone changed????? AHHHH. The piano had me amped up in this one. Oh, look at that - OH SNAPP!!!!!!! BETRAYAL! I wasn’t expecting it and yet I was! AHHH

1.12 - There’s Still Time: Drama. Van Ark’s theme is just so supervillainy. Big Love That. Love Sara interrupting him about to solo again. And then the twist! The Music! The Beat! The do doo doo do do! All Fast! All Drama! ITS ALL GO! Then the drama in the comms shack, the back and fourth again, Janine’s desperate denial... AAAHHH

1.13 - I’ll Be Waiting: Sobbing. The artwork for this one had me crying. The notes. The Slow pacing. Hearing the singer’s voice break made me break. The turmoil. The whole Sara attitude in trying to be strong and also... THAT. Sara and Paula being SO SOFT. I honestly had to take a pause after this one ended because THE EMOTION

1.14 - Close Your Eyes: AcTiOn. The fallen king of the apocalypse. This song really, really, really, does such a good look into Simon’s character and motivations! I don’t know what you call the bit when they all start singing and Simon sings in response but SO GOOD! SO EMOTIONALL! and then the softening and regret.... and then the return of Van Ark! THE COUNTDOWN! The music in this one was so paced and changing and atmospheric and good and just so good and so very really good. FIRE! (the S3 foreshadowing omgosh) 

1.15 - To the Fallen, And To Freedom: Grief. THE GRIEF. Janine’s solo had me crying (not that I had stopped crying throughout). AND THEN WHEN THE ENSEMBLE HIT????? ARGHHH!!! Listen that bit definitely changed my BPM and idk how. We’re Not Alone <3 AND THEN MOONY COMES IN. THE TONE SHIFT. this part was haunting and ethereal and so so so fitting. AND THEN THE PANIC. ARGGHHH

This whole act was just a wild ride of heartbreak and healing and heartbreak and action. I am literally in awe of how much talent has gone into this. The Music. The Lyrics. The Voices. I have been put into a blender, with all these songs thrown in, blitzed up and now i am just a pile of emotional crumbs. To everyone that put work in to this I cannot put into words how amazing this musical you’ve created is. tbh i can’t believe i still have words to describe it at all because i think i’ve been emotionally beaten up. 

TL;DR - AHHHHH GO AND LISTEN TO THE MUSICAL

[aceteling]

rewatching mp100 and boy how I love this show. a spectacle for an animation fan. an emotionall rollercoaster. your personal therapist. be kind, be kind, be kind

[worshippingmendes-blog]

what could have been was amazing omg!! i definitely didn’t expect that to happen!! no pressure but hopefully you make a part 2 in the future i need a happy ending or if anything maybe an alternative ending!! 💘

Thank you so much! And I really is an emotionall rollercoaster haha. I don’t think I’ll make a part 2.

What Could Have Been

[joseh]

An emotionaler rollercoaster ride! Still 4 days to go and only 9%! We need your help now more than ever in our #crowdfunding at @startnext ! https://www.startnext.com/joseh-entropy-2019 https://www.instagram.com/p/B1V9VUCIprL/?igshid=1hc1hcb2d8kn8

[joseh]

An emotionaler rollercoaster ride! Still 4 days to go and only 9%! We need your help now more than ever in our #crowdfunding at @startnext ! https://www.startnext.com/joseh-entropy-2019 https://www.instagram.com/p/B1V9T7Vo24N/?igshid=19yduq35ok966

[joseh]

An emotionaler rollercoaster ride! Still 4 days to go and only 9%! We need your help now more than ever in our #crowdfunding at @startnext ! https://www.startnext.com/joseh-entropy-2019 https://www.instagram.com/p/B1V9SVKIhiP/?igshid=ka8yirzvo8xa