#emeraldgreengodessrants

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Its been so long since Ive been on this account!

My main socials are very positive & uplifting & so i come here to cry.

Updated me moved across the country to more sunshine 🌞

Got a waay better career job 🤑

Getting comfortable going places on my own!

The friend girl thing still isnt working out but that's ohkay. I get im intimidating so the best i can hope for is a bf who isnt angry at me for being myself.

I hope everyone here is doing better than they were.

Please please pat yourself on the back, you need to know how much good progress youre making even if no one else is happy for you ☺️

Ive made so SO much great progress & Im very proud of myself 🥰

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Some people don't know how to let things go, but Ive always been happy (maybe too much so) to leave things behind.

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Too much time alone w my thoughts & i be ready to end it all

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I make a point to ask people close to me what are things about my personality that they don't like. Feel like should be changed, or are negative. Ive gotten answers like "Nothing. You used to give up too easy. Critical" I have an odd pull of coming in contact w| people who exhibit toxic behavior. People who like to manipulate shit & are full of themselves. Which is annoying but I have had the habit of letting the lil shit slide. I know that people aren't perfect & Im always working to improve myself. I live here on earth & want to make the world a better place. I don't understand why I, as far as I can tell, am the only one.

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I made a salad & didnt realize till after the shit was already chopped & in the bowl together that I didnt have any dressing. I fashioned a very hot fire flames raspberry vinaigrette & I am xtra proud of myself . Cause any reg bitch would've ate the shit dry or gave up on it all together but im not just any bitch 😊.

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I

Watched my film back & its actually good ommmggg. Im always doubting myself & overthinking shit. Im super lit. Can't wait to chop these up 🤘🤞🧡🤘🧡🤘🤘🥳🥰💕

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What in the hell lmao

This deserves a whole title. Ohkay so I just started catching the bus to & from the train station cause my car is dunzo. Alright this morning I missed the bus. That's a different story. So I went back in the house & waited on the next one. So I was getting restless watching house tours on yt & was like fuck it Ill catch it going the wrong way & see if it stops at the grocery store I frequent. So I get on the bus right. Soon as I step on the bus the driver chick is like ARE YOU GOING TO 'Next City Over' im like no Im going to the train station but Im just gnna ride it all the way down. Shes like you can't do that! Dead yelling at me. Lmao. She's like you gotta get off & catch it across the street. Im like ohkay but do you go to'The Grocery Store' i frequent up the street? She cuts me off. She's like 'Yeah ohkay' starts driving Lmao. So im looking around tryna figure out if I can get to the store on this route like she said. I can't lol. Meanwhile some dude is tryna sell me blk soap 🤣🤣🤣 thats a different story. So we get to the end of the line & I get up & ask her like where is this bus going cause Ive never caught it TO the station before. Bro she freaks out. Starts y e l l i n g at me. Talking about since we're at the end of the line Im supposed to pay again, I knew what I was doing, & she was tryna tell me what I was supposed to do. Get off & go across the street. Im like Oh I can swipe the card again like its fine. Shes like just sit down. Lmao. I turn around to sit & everybody looking lol cause she was yelling. I didnt know like if I needed to switch busses or not. She really spazed out on me cause she thought I was tryna avoid paying again. I buy a 30 day card. I can swipe it however many x i want in the 30 days it doesn't matter. I dont even know how much it cost individually to ride cause I buy the card. She yelled at me for nothing. Didnt even answer my question. The gag is she blk as shit & has this wet & wavy curly lace front on. This is what dudes talk about 'they don't like blk girls.' Its a beautiful Saturday morning & this bitxh is mad. Ive never had a white lady be mean to me like this or even a different race. I really hate to reiterate it but blk girls are not nice to me. Lol . Ever since middle sschool. & im not even all that! I swear on everything lmao. I hate it here.

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Lots of times, I don't feel like im rlly here. All too often i looked up & ive zoned out. Deep in my thoughts i can go anywhere i want. I can feel the breeze in my face i can feel my adrenaline start to pump . Coming out of my zone feels like coming up from under water. You know how hard it is to get out of the pool.

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Ate an unhealthy amount of shrimp fried rice & worked two 13 hour shifts back to back. Like stop w the extremes why dont i

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So hard being patient w myself. Feels like Im running in circles.

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Love & Basketball

Is on Netflix & these mfs passing NOTES. Oh the Xs lol. This movie kinda depressing lowkey. Lol is his name zeke? Cheating on his wife for idk how long. & Monicas dad idk his name but he made his wife iron both his shirts after he asked her which one. Bitchhh

& if quincy mom or monica call another sexual active female a hoe ass tramp ass. Like damn we've come a long way since 199_ lmao

At least quincy asked for consent before fucking monica after their little dance prom thing. Progress

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Idk

Whats happening to me but I watch nba basketball now. Lololol. First I was just watching highlights. Then google started like alerting me everytime there was a game the night before & giving me scores. Now my ass SUBSCRIBED to nba tv. I watch the live games & I talk shit lmao. WHO AM I 🤣🤣🤣

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Working towards what I want & asking the unvierse and spirit to help me with this. Continue to lead me in the right direction. Show me the way. I want to work from home doing something i love. I want to be able to put my bb down for a nap & get my work done. Stick lil bb in the play pen, stick lil bb in the high chair while im getting my work done. I want to stay at home and make enough money to sustain myself & my bb. I want my partner to be happy healty and in love with our family in love with me to be committed to our family, to me. I want to be on my own schedule and pace. I want to live in a city i love with my partner and our offspring. I want to wake up every morning happy healthy and loving life. I want my work to afford me a healthy lifestyle to travel with my family for vacation or relocation move. I want friends we can trust and learn from. People who can help elevate our lives. I want myself and the people around me to thrive. Thank you spirit so grateful in advance 🙏🙏🙏

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What

Do people get out of unfollowing you on one platform & stalking you on another. Like hi, i can see you.

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Twitter

Bout like the fucking news right now. Like i get everything that's going on is fucked up cop dude needs to be sentenced to death. But i I meeean goddamn. I go on twitter or any social media honestly, to get tf away. Now i cant even do that.

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2020

Feels like it's going to be very special. Im very xtra excited.