#ellis watches bb

[seethesunny]

Baby Ellie would soooo love to call herself a dinosaur so some days when she wakes up, either Tess or Joel ask her if it's "an Ellie or a dinosaur" and sometimes she's like "I'm a Stegosauros today!"

[satellitespinner]

🂱 GET HER BACK ! (02)

content warnings: SHIT GETS JUICY. we attend the club!!! so much yet so little happens. a TAD of writing at the end because i’m messy✨ mentions of sex, ellie and reader are toxic, ellie is a DOUCHEEEEE. swearing (obvi) angsty (just a tad) lmk if there’s anything else bbs !

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your moans echo through ellie’s room as she watches the video of you and abby over and over. she knew it was wrong but she couldn’t pull her eyes away from the screen. it must’ve been sent from abby’s number because eden went and blocked yours.

the more she watches the angrier she gets. light bruises that she left there still linger between your thighs. how fucked is that. thoughts of revenge, guilt and anger swarm her mind.

two can play at that game.

[seattlesellie]

hi angelll 🦋 I was wondering if you could write something about ellie having a dacryphilia kink, if not that’s okay I know it’s a little bit out there 🩵

not out there at all bb <3

ellie fucking loves in when you cry.

warnings: darcyphilia, public sex

fucking titanic. so cheesy, too.

little muffled soft sobs were escaping your mouth. sometimes watching a film in the theater made it feel… well, real. eyes locked on the screen, you couldnt help but feel pain. why did it have to happen to them? and that little old couple holding hands? and oh god - jack and rose were on that fucking door now too? youve watched that shit about a million times already, and it never failed to make you act like this. is the salty taste on your tongue from the buttery popcorn or from your flood of tears?

“mmph” you scrunched your nose, sniffling, trying to hold the snot inside.

and then there was ellie. munching on that popcorn, eyes focused on the screen, caressing your thigh, comforting you. did she just - hold in a giggle?

“s’not- not funny” you sniffled, josteled her, making her head bob.

“know its not, babe- just, so cute” she whispered, her lip curling into a sly smile. “so cute, youre so cute” she while smiling, and shoved another popcorn in her mouth.

“how are you not crying?!” you blurted out, utterly flabbergasted. how was she so calm about this? you could feel your own body trembling, tears clinging to your cheeks like pesky little irritants, and she didn't seem remotely fazed? It's rose and jack, for christs sake! theyre destined for a tragic end! not to mention the sinking ship, the countless lives at stake, and, oh my god, what if there were innocent animals aboard? what if there's a helpless puppy trapped in that chaos? that thought alone is just...

you let out a loud sob. what if?!

“shh… shh… gonna get us kicked out” she cooed, gently brushing away yet another warm tear from your cheek.

you turned your gaze back to the screen, desperately attempting to swallow the lump lodged in your throat. “els- cant not cry” you whimpered, followed by a sniffle and another plaintive whine.

ellie didnt turn her head back, however. ellie was staring at you, squinting her brows. ellie was supposed to watch the movie. but ellie had a different one playing in her head.

the way you uttered her name, a soft, pleading whine, oh… the way that sweet voice made her feel. your words spun her mind in dizzying circles.. “els… too tight” sniffle. she almost heard it echoing in her head. “hurting me, els” oh god. “s’too much ellie…” shit. she felt like she was writing a script. jack and rose didnt have shit on her.

she gulped. you didnt notice.

her left hand reached out to caress the dampness you had left upon her shoulder. she lightly pinched the fabric, witnessing a small droplet of moisture emerge, wetting her fingertip.

she was sick.

she shifted in her sit, slid off it slightly, and started shaking her leg.

focus on the movie, ellie. theres people around.

it was suddenly too hot, and her heart was beating too fast. why did she… like this? why did those tears, why did those whines… why were her boxers feeling tighter on her body?

she cleared her throat silently. eyes on the screen, ellie.

“hug me ellie” you whined.

can you stop fucking whining?

“of course” she whispered, and shifted to get closer. she wiped a tear from your eye. she wasnt laughing now. “put your head on my chest” she commanded. stay close right there, right there.

your tears continued to flow unabated. a wet patch had formed on her white tank top, marking the spot where your emotions had spilled over. one of your tears trickled down her chest, forging a path akin to a meandering river.

she felt like scratching herself. like slapping herself in the face. she listened to your soft breaths, and occasional sniffs.

she wondered if she could make you cry like that. wondered if youd sniff like that, if youd whine like that, when she was buried deep inside. could she circle your little clit with her thumb? and then could she wipe that tear off your cheek - with that same finger?

she gulped again. it was way too uncomfortable now, and why did you have to wear that top? why did you have to bring her here? why did your whines sound so cute, and why did she need to touch you right now and be the only reason for your tears?

fuck rose and jack. and fuck that ship.

her hand was still resting on your thigh. but it was moving now, ever so slightly, caressing it. she wanted to push it, push your buttons. she traced little circles on your thigh, and pretended to watch the flick playing on the screen.

her hand climbed futher up, and she was observing you intently from the corner of her eye.

your breath hitched up. “tickles” you murmured, in between sniffles.

“sorry” she whispered. she wasnt.

“you really are cute, though” she smirked.

every time she talked - its like you missed a scene. what if jack just died? what it he died and then your girlfriend called you cute and now you missed it?

“watch the movie, ellie” you warned.

like you could ever fucking warn her.

“m’watching it” she responded. “watching the movie.” if you were the movie you referred to, yeah, she was watching.

she planted a little kiss on your cheek. the old man sitting besides you sniffed. oh man, was he crying? the thought triggered yet another tear to cascade down your face. it felt as if someone had left a faucet running, the tears flowing without restraint.

her hand was caressing higher on your thigh now, and she squished the fat on the side. it almost hurt. ellie was wheezing now, she tried to hold her breath, but she couldnt.

she cupped your cunt, without warning.

shit.

her gaze adverted to the people sitting on the sits next to you. she was checking if theyd notice if she fucked you with her fingers right now.

the sudden contact made you jump. her hand was so warm, and it somehow managed to press right on your clit, and it tickled, but it felt so so good… but jack- but oh, ellie.

“what are you doing?” you whispered frantically. the lady sitting next to you cleared her throat. you didnt really whisper, apparently.

“i told you… youre cute” ellie whispered into your ear, her warm breath gently caressing your skin.

“and i like it when you cry”

oh.

you didnt respond. was the movie still rolling? your cheeks were still wet. your breathing got heavier.

she caressed your cunt through your jeans, and crossed her legs. she needed her own type of friction, too. her index finger went up and down the hem of the jeans located right on your clit. she was teasing it, pressing slightly. you spread your legs, involuntarily, almost. you looked at her with this look, it was filled with doubt, but god did you look needy, and pathetic, eyes glistening and cheeks burning. it drove her crazy.

“dont look at me, look at the screen” she commanded, brought her hand to your chin, pinched it and forced your face to shift towards the screen again. you tried to, tried to fixate on the moving characters, but fuck - it felt too good, and you needed more.

“gonna fuck you right here, gonna give you a real reason to cry, yeah?” she whispered, and you shivered. her pupils were blown out. for all she knew the movie was over and the credits rolled up. for all she knew a mall cop was standing right in front of you, she didnt really give a fuck.

“mm- yeah?” you whimpered, and slapped your hand on your mouth. fuck, you needed to stay quiet. this could definitely put you on a list.

ellie took the popcorn container and placed it on your crotch.

“shut up” she whispered in your ear, making you moan a string of curse words.

she shifted her eyes towards the screen, and pretended to watch.

her hand skillfully opened the button of your jeans, and fuck, you were shaking.

she played with the band of your panties with her veiny hand, gave it a twist and started pulling it up. it was grazing over your clit so good. you held back a moan, eyes rolling back.

your heart was beating so fast. what if people saw? what if-

ellie let go of your panties, and slid her hand right in. god, you were soaking, and you didnt even notice. she chuckled. shed give you shit for it later. “how are you always so wet for me?” its like you could read her thoughts.

her middle finger played with your sleek, brushing it up and down so slowly. she wanted to fucking taste it. pull your pants down, and start licking your pussy in front of everyone, giving them a real good fucking show. your mind went blank. ellie, ellie, ellie. that was the name of the movie playing now.

she bit her knuckle. she fucking loved teasing you, but fuck did she need to put a finger in, fuck- did she need to feel how tight you swallow it in, how your hole just clenches, how it owns her, holding her locked inside.

she wanted to - but she couldnt. make her cry.

her finger merely grazed your tight hole, teasing it. she wouldnt go inside, absolutely not. she caressed it up and down, and side to side, and then almost, almost let it slip inside, but pulled back. your mouth was watering, you wanted to chase that climax - you felt like you could come right then and there, just from knowing, just from feeling her hand on your cunt. the noise that came out was disgusting, her hand was covered in your sweet juices, creating obscene squelching sounds.

you whimpered in your sit, and tried pushing your hips forward. if she didnt put it inside, you needed to feel at least something on your clit. she was purposely avoiding it. its like you were cockwarming her hand. “m’god” you gulped.

“yeah?” she whispered into your ear and cupped your cunt again, and you turned your needy gaze to her for just a second. her eyes were closed and her eyebrows were squinting, you could hear her heavy unsteady breaths.

you whimpered, and bit your lips so hard they bled slightly. keep fucking quiet, she told you to shut up.

with her hand cupping your cunt, she began moving it up and down, grabbing your entire pussy with her hand. the popcorn container moved with it, bobbing up and down. fuck, thank god its dark.

she gave your clit a pinch, and it fucking hurt, but it felt so good, sending small jolts of pleasure to your body. she wouldnt let it go, just pinched it, and then released, and pinched it again. you needed to cum so bad, you almost cried. “m’ellie… ellie” you whispered while moaning her name, chanting it like a prayer. almost there, almost exploded all over her warm hand,

its like she read your mind. “dont cum” she whispered in your ear, making you let out a muffled moan.

you nodded your head frantically, trying to swallow the moans threatening to leave your mouth.

a tear formed in your eye. you needed it so bad.

she formed circles with her cupped hand again. you could feel everything. you took your sweater covered hand and bit it down.

she was panting in her sit.

“thats it” she whispered in your ear, and pinched your pussy lips together, so swollen, so pathetic.

the hot tear came down so fast, dropping on your cheek, and then sledding down on your neck, on your chest now.

“cry about it” she commanded, whispering in your ear, trying to hold back her own sounds of pleasure.

so you did.

[messitydepressity]

tw for suicide / self harm

Hi, I'm very sorry to bother you with this, but I'm im desperate need of fic recs where Ellie deals with suicidal ideation/suicide attempt/self harm, do you maybe have any recs? 😭

Love your fics so much, thanks for all you gift us!

Hi anon! 🖤

Bother me all ya’ like, I LOVE sharing Fics!

And boy oh boy am I about to unload a fuckton of them on you.

Brace yourself, bud.

There’s enough that I am going to break them down into categories; make it a little easier to navigate for your tastes.

Not all of them will have self-harm/suicide ideation, but will have the undertone/vibe (there’s actually not a lot of that for tlou pertaining to Ellie.)

And thanks for loving my Fics, I appreciate it!🖤🖤🖤

‼️TW - MENTIONS OF SUICIDE AND SELF HARM‼️

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In universe (cannon or cannon-adjacent)

‘The Anotomy of A Broken Girl’ by @paigegonerogue

-Ellie and Joel meet in silver lake, follows the aftermath of David’s assault and details her trauma in a three part series beginning with ‘skin’ (self-harm/hatred, non-con/sexual assault)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/54426145

‘Frayed’ by @penandinkprincess

-A ‘what if’ for the firefly hospital, Ellie and Joel stay for their wicked experiments and it drives her to seek out a hurt she can control (self-harm, medical trauma)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/45733363

‘Lessons in wayfinding’ by @penandinkprincess

-Ellie becomes convinced the Cordyceps are slowly turning her which leads her to make a plan for her own death to protect her people. (Suicidal thoughts, suicide attempt)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/47500969

‘A half step to the left’ by @penandinkprincess (listen, they know how to whump)

-Firefly medical experimentation where every time Ellie’s put under she thinks it’ll be the end of her life but doesn’t tell Joel and Tess. (Not really suicide ideation, but girl accepts that her death must be inevitable)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/45438397

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Chemical burn specific (not as heavy)

‘Half light’ by @midnight-society-tlou

-Ellie burns off her bite in the middle of the night and scares The Shit™️ out of Joel with a side of obvious medical whump. (Self-harm and hurt/comfort)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/53208898

‘A small price to pay for forever’ by @boopernatural

-Ellie’s scar is almost spotted, Tommy and Joel help her burn it off (self-harm adjacent)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/48030379

‘Subdermal’ by (surprise) @penandinkprincess (I’m so sorry I’ve tagged you in this a billion times)

-Ellie sears off several layers of skin while under Tommy’s watch (def self harm but low on Ellie angst)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/46541149

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Angsty Fics That Vibe

‘Migrating Monarchs’ by ao3 ciaconnaa (I can’t find a tumblr)

- Joel fosters Ellie twenty years after losing Sarah, her last foster placement was David and bb has lots of trauma. (Past self harm & non-con)

No link for this bad boy 😭

‘I may have drew blood (that was true love)’ by @captainredspade

-both Ellie and Joel get angsty in this one, and the imagery is beautiful.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/61773802

‘Enough of a dying species’ by @march-flowerr

-I cannot explain the love I have for this angsty, visceral, gorgeous piece. (Spoiler!) Joel almost succumbs to Abby’s attack, and will never be the same (a realistic take on what if he survived)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/60164254

‘Alabaster in the evening’ by @boopernatural

-Ellie runs a podcast that solves murders, she figures out Sarah’s killer and nearly gets her ass whacked.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/57336517

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A little off the beaten path of your request, but Fics I’d recommend in general

‘Static’ by @stumbling-away

-Ellie goes on patrol with Tommy and some men get a little handsy (feral Tommy activated.)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/62111386

‘Ten mile stilts’ by @march-flowerr

-a blizzard hits Jackson while Joel is sick and Ellie spirals.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/61739575

‘Irreplaceable’ by @captainredspade

-Ellie takes a bite for Tommy and sends them all into an angsty little hole.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/47229964

‘And I’m tired of taking orders’ by @piqu3d

-FEDRA whips Ellie for trespassing in the mall with Riley, Joel doesn’t take it kindly.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/46720096

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I hope you find something to scratch the itch on this list, and take care yourself out there.

I know life gets shitty, and sometimes reading someone else heal helps.

*if anybody sees this and has recs, feel free to drop them in the comments.

[elliezlils11utt]

Could you do some ellie fluff where the reader has autism?

a/n: hey love! 𐙚 I gotcu ! I did this in a headcannon format bc i couldn’t think of a plot. I hope you don’t mind bb !! ☆

‧₊˚🖇️ ₊˚🎧⊹♡

 ♡₊˚ i think it takes a while for ellie to get used to and understand your type of autism and will work to figure out how to care and love for you. she wants to make sure your comfortable all the time. 

♡₊˚ when your overstimulated, ellie will do everything in her power to calm you down. if you do non verbal she is most definitely silently figuring out the problem !! she will turn down the volume on the tv or music, dim the lights, change the temperature in the room if needed !! she js wants you to be comfortable!! and if you guys are in a public setting she will ask if you need to leave to cool down.

“hey my love, wanna get out of here?”

♡₊˚ speaking of going non verbal, ellie is the best at communicating with you when you go nonverbal. she’ll talk to you even if you don’t reply, ellie is a professional yapperrr !! she will continue to talk and make you feel comfortable. or sometimes she can read you, and figure out if you even want to be spoken to at that moment. if not she’ll js sit with u, on her phone, reading a book, watching a show. you guys will sit in comfortable silence if you don’t want to talk. 

♡₊˚ she’s js a sweetheart !! ^^she’s so precious and gentle with you !! she knows sometimes it’s hard to have conversations or maintain eye contact but she really don’t give two shits. she will yap away and smother you in love in a way she’s adapted to you. 💕

♡₊˚ when you want to talk about your special interests she will sit there and listen. watching your face light up as you explain small details about your hyperfixations. she loves listening to you. she loves watching you get excited over the small things. 

“oh yeah baby? tell me more”

“then what happened?”

“keep going im listening” 

(RAHH SHES SO PRECIOUS!!) 

‧₊˚🖇️ ₊˚🎧⊹♡

A/n: sorry this is short anon, I didn’t really know what to do for this! I only know so much about autism. I tried to fit into a lot of different categories of autism bc I know every autistic person is different! I hope this was good enough. I love you all babes !!💗

[mistressandry]

🔪 WIP Wednesday 🎣

@aldisobey very fairly tagged me after I made her make DELIGHTFUL art but now I must share.... creations I am not exactly confident in. But this is good!! This is a good push!!

I've been working on this for about a month! Hiding from it for about 2 weeks!

Honestly I just figured if fanfic is by it's very nature self-indulgent, why not go all in and just use it for introspection and therapy? 🙈 So I've writteeeeeenn 5k words on Ellie and Emmrich's relationships with death. + dwarf shit, because you know I can not resist!!

The ever lovely @bharv got first dibs on my mess of a WIP and gave such good notes!! Which I will act on!!!!!!! ... Eventually!!!! Here is an exert of 456 words that had limited "needs fixing things":

He watched her gutting a fish. Provisions were tight at the Veil Jumper camp and “every little bit of sustenance helped”, he was told. Compelling as the argument had been, Emmrich had still chosen not to partake and instead opted to work on his notes at a safe distance.

Rook had been excited reeling her fish in, but was clearly upset as she gripped it against the cold, hard rock. He watched its beautiful red scales glitter in the sunlight as it flailed against her hold. “Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry!” she told the fish, while she fetched her knife. Emmrich was well practiced and looked away just in time.

A calm seemed to wash over Rook after the killing. She removed the hook from the fish’s mouth and picked it up to examine her prize.

“Now that… is a big fish!” Rook celebrated, beaming with pride. Emmrich noted a train of scales where Rook must have swiped her brow. The fish continued to twitch, muscles still unaware they had expired.

Brutality out of the way, now came the part he actually liked. Filleting was just another type of autopsy with purpose. A clean cut was a show of reverence, and only possible by a devoted understanding of the recipient's anatomy. He watched as Rook cut along the fish’s spine towards its tail, biting her lip as she focused, only snagging on a bone once.

It reminded Emmrich of when he used to watch his father as a boy. Butchery was not a respected line of work in Nevarra, though the demand for it persisted. It was many years later that he truly came to appreciate his father’s choice of profession. It was work that others wouldn’t do, but it was work. It was a means to provide for their family, and his father was a great man for that. Though he was often spared from helping with exsanguination, everything that followed after the loss of life had fascinated him. His father would point out the arteries, bones and various muscle groups, and Emmrich would wonder at the miracle of life.

For some reason, Rook had taken out the fish’s heart and held it daintily in her palm., it was still beating. It was quite.. Curious. After a moment of examination, she tossed it into the water and sectioned the rest of the fish’s leftovers into small pouches.

Rook must have noticed his confusion as she was overcome with a need to explain herself. “It’s not weird! It's for crab traps.”

“How very utilitarian.” Mildly impressed and curiosity somewhat sated, he returned to his notes while Rook flung another cast with her rod. He supposed this was one way to help support their comrades while killing time.

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AAAAND SCENE!

... It's winter and I miss fishing and I don't like killing fish, but it is... amazing seeing how they work. Always gotta be grateful though!! Whisper thank you to their still beating hearts Be super normal and just use everything you can + help their habitats!

I think I'm writing Emmrich too closed off. IDK does his perspective of this feel out of character? Grand scheme of things, it's not the worst thing I could do... but happy for insights!!

I'M NOT SURE WHAT THE WRITING STATUS IS FOR PEOPLE RIGHT NOW BUT UHM, UH,

@bharv bb girl if you've got anything to share, and the pressure does not make you overheat, please do!!!!

@black-rose4 Do you have anything cooking??

@hot-elf hbu??

I hope these tags are welcome 🥹

[thisismeracing]

bonnington-schumi kiddos 

pls include the bono-schumi mood board i sent ya over email in your response

ok i’ve mentioned them enough, lets dig into the bonnington-schumi kiddos

history has a funny way of repeating itself and for bon and mick it manifests in their kids birth order and gender

because much like when corrina had gina and mick, bon had her daughter first and son second. and both came out looking like two more schumacher clones to add to the collection 

but bon isn't complaining because how could she be mad when her two babies share those unmistakable blue eyes 

their first born is named: Eloise “Ellie” Suzanne Bonnington-Schumacher 

and their second born is: Mike “Mikey” Sebastian Bonnington-Schumacher 

imagine bon and mick introducing little ellie to susie in the hospital and when susie asks what her name is and bon goes “eloise suzanne” susie just melts because this little bundle of joy is named after her. 

and the same goes for sebastian when mikey is born 

the f1 crew just going though the cycle of watching another kid grow up in the paddock start up again with miss ellie. but this time it’s the kid of the original kid you watched grow up, and this time around there’s two of them because mikey is born a few years after 

and everyone jokes about how “oh ellie is going to be an engineer like her mama” and “oh mikey is a future f1 champ like his papa” 

but the opposite happens where ellie is the driver, and mikey is an engineer 

And imagine the timelapse of the headphones to protect their little ears and how they look so giant on them cause they’re so small, but give it a few years and now they look proportionate to their bodies 

(i feel like that would make a lot of people just so soft and heartbroken because their favorite little kids are growing up and so fast, like pls make it stop 😢) 

[also the people who watched bon grow up just get deja vu whenever they are interacting with ellie, because wow does she act just like bon when she was this age]

and best believe these two are championship babies. you can't tell me no on this one. 

When they announced they were pregnant with ellie, people both in real life and online are so quick to do the math on when she could’ve been conceived, and they all land on the fact she was conceived around the time of abu dhabi 

and after mikey is born, toto sits the both of them down and says “i love that the team is winning championships with mick, and i love the kids. but next time you two do it after winning a championship please for the love of god put a condom on. because two little kids are going to be enough with them running around the paddock.”

and mick is just mortified, while bon is laughing her ass off and she’s the one to reassure him that they wont be having anymore kids anytime soon

[i told myself i had to finish this before showering and i did! also it breached the second page of the google doc so quickly]

☕

skjgksdjg OMG I LOVED LOVED IT!!! <3<3

totally agree on mikey engineer and ellie driver!!! espec bc I think ellie is more of a social butterfly while mikey is a bit shy like mick, he's funny and friendly, but usually he'll only talk if you talk to him first (the paddock experience helps it a little with this, but he keeps a bit of the shyness, its so cute and bb loves it bc he's such a momma's boy - its makes up for ellie being dada's girl)

adding more: ellie's first word will be angie while mikey's will probably be something from bb's work because she'll work with him on her hips sometimes so his big blue eyes are always watching the engineers go around and listening to everything, she'll only connect the dots bc he says it right after a meeting (to which he was silent throughout it all, only munching on a pencil and grabbing things from the table to curiously analyse)

[wordsofvelvet]

PHBC Deleted Scene: Chapter 7

The idea was Red slipped after theyd gone to bed and Chloe wakes up.

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Chloe felt incredibly disappointed when she woke up in the middle of the night to find the other side of her bed empty.

After she’d brought Red back to her place, she had set the girl up with a shower and loaned her some pajamas while she made them a nice home cooked meal that Red had scarfed down so quickly Chloe had been worried the girl was going to choke.

Afterwards of course Chloe had made good on her promise and the redhead got to happily munch away on some cookies while Chloe decided they should watch a movie.

She’d put on something random that they hardly paid attention to as they chatted and cracked jokes about what was on the screen throughout its duration, and then Chloe had worked on some homework while Red had borrowed a pen and some paper to spend some time sketching.

Chloe was blown away by the girl’s talent and was ecstatic when the redhead told her she could keep her drawings, making the redhead blush yet again.

Eventually it got late enough for Chloe to convince Red to stay the night and they two climbed into Chloe’s bed where they both were able to drift off into sleep pretty quickly.

Now she was frowning through the dark as her hand ran across the now cold surface of where Red had been laying and as she worried about whether or not the rebel was staying warm.

She froze when she heard some soft rustling coming from her living room.

Warily, the bluenette crept across her room and down the hall towards the sound and peaked her head around the corner to finally sigh in relief when she spotted the messy head or red hair behind the couch.

“Red? What are you doing?” The girl turned her head and even through the dark room with only the soft glow of city lights bleeding through the curtains, she was instantly able to recognize the innocent look in her wide gaze.

“Bluey!” The girl exclaimed happily as the taller girl came closer, walking around her couch to finally see what the girl had in her lap.

It was her notebook that held her homework that she’d finished last night. The girl had the same pen she’d been drawing with the night before clenched in her fist as she scribbled across the open pages of her work.

Chloe ran her hands through her own hair as she took a calming breath and reminded herself that the girl didn’t currently know any better and thus, she couldn’t get mad.

“Red honey, can I have that please?” She asked sweetly, gently taking the pen and notebook away from her as she noticed the pen marks that were now going up and down her arms as well. “Oh Sweetie, come here.”

After she set aside the other stuff she reached down and lifted the Little off the couch to carry her back into her room where she set her gently on the bed.

Red whined at being set down but Chloe gently shushed her telling her to stay put while she went into her bathroom to wet a washcloth with a little bit of soap and warm water before going back to the bed.

She pulled Red into her lap much to the girl’s delight and got to work carefully trying to wash the ink smudges off her skin without rubbing her arm raw.

“Red Sweetie, do you think you can tell me what you were doing out of bed? It’s really late for Littles to not be sleeping.”

“Red widdwe, sposed ta fin’ Bb.” The toddler slowly brought up her hand that Chloe wasn’t actively working on cleaning to stick her fingers in her mouth as she watched the rag that was wiping at her other arm.

“Oh honey, Bb wants you to go to her when you're Little because it’s not safe for a Little outside on the streets, but you’re safe here with me, so I think she’d rather you stay put if you're Little and already with me or Ella, does that make sense?”

The blank stare she gave Chloe told the bluenette that she didn’t understand.

“Okay how can I put this… Sweetheart being with Bb, Elly, or Bluey is safe, but leaving on your own when Little is not. If you want your Bb I can take you to her, but you shouldn’t be wandering off on your own. Do you understand?” She finished with her first arm and moved to clean the second one, finding it slightly more difficult to do while the toddler had her fingers in her mouth.

“Red s’ay wif Bluey?”

[toooldtotobedoingthis]

So I fell into TL0U fandom a month ago, and hyperfixed HARD. I fell in via fanfiction and have no plans to watch the show or play the game. (I don't do horror in a visual medium) But the fics hit my love of stories about Dads and Daughters hard. So hyperfixation.

But the one way TLOU fandom has let me down big time is the unfathomable lack of Speaks To The Dead fic. Specifically Ellie Speaks to the Dead fic.

* Just imagine a tiny BB Ellie growing up in FEDRA with a mother no one else can see popping in randomly to tell her she was wanted and loved.

* A Mom who tries to help her avoid the more dangerous guards and carers, but also cheers on her sass because Anna knows Ellie needs her spirit to survive this world.

* Ellie can't hear a lot of what Marlene is saying to her over the sound of her Mom screaming at Marlene for breaking her promise."What the fuck Marlene? Dumping her at FEDRA is keeping her safe? This is why I got detention in 9ᵗʰ Grade, so you could turn around and pretend my kid doesn't exist until she's useful to you. I'm really regretting that time I kneed Simon Anstey in the balls for you."

* Ellie befriending Sarah, even as Joel is a dick to her. Sarah egging her on when Ellie sasses Joel, because Sarah knows it's good for Joel. (Much later, before Ellie is willing to admit to herself she wishes Joel could be her Dad, she is willing to admit to herself she wishes Sarah could be her sister)

I am very disappointed TL0U fandom.

(I am normally a proponent of write what you want to read, but I really don't want to be that bitch that writes in a fandom without having seen or played the source material, and I don't think gif sets are going to cut it.)

[bunkoos-mole-enthusiast]

Weekly Jungkook Fanfic Recs

Some fine JK fics for your reading pleasure. 🔞 Please show your appreciation to all the wonderful authors :)

A Date With Destiny: You are a boss lady in the tech industry travelling to world for work. He is a chart-topping artist touring the globe to perform in front of millions of fans. In the cosmos of life, you are not likely to cross paths. Luckily, fate has a different plan for you two. https://missgeniality.tumblr.com/post/641160701485907969/a-date-with-destiny-m

Strip Lawyer: Years ago, as Jungkook’s tutor, you played a game – but not to completion. Today, he does the teaching. And he’s intent on reaching the finale. https://missgeniality.tumblr.com/post/707124480570490880/strip-lawyer-m

Adore: What's the worst that can happen when you go to your favorite local drive-thru coffee shack? I'm glad you asked. A lot. A lot can happen. https://www.tumblr.com/mochilatae/697973958002327552/adore?source=shareBoohttps://www.tumblr.com/mochilatae/699599856704061440/boo?source=share What Now?: For as long as you and Jungkook have been friends, your feelings for him have been unrequited. Or have they? https://theharrowing.tumblr.com/post/711375653144084480/what-now

Sea: A chance encounter, or a twist of fate? https://www.wattpad.com/1264268562-sea-~-part-1 Dark Tide: It is one year on from her chance meeting with Jungkook on the Goseong coast, and the last thing she expected was that they would meet again in Seoul. https://www.wattpad.com/1364231203-dark-tide-author%27s-notes Bittersweet: Ellie is at a party with her friends when they give her her crushes phone number. Saying she'll never talk to him, she refuses it. Though, the alcohol she's been drinking gives her a boost of confidence. But when she dials the wrong number and ends up calling Jeon Jungkook, things spiral out of control. https://www.wattpad.com/739872382-bittersweet-%C2%BB-j-jk-%E2%9C%93-1-hello Esta Danada: Life through the eyes of someone who watches you fall apart and helps gather the shards of your heart, only for you to make the same mistake time and time again, but he refuses to accept the truth because to him, you’re infallible. https://aquagustd.tumblr.com/post/666143278078558208/est%C3%A1-da%C3%B1ada-jjk Last Call: Jeon Jungkook is the hottest bartender in the city. Everyone has their sights set on him, but it seems he has his sights set on you. https://xjoonchildx.tumblr.com/post/621953156746706944/last-call-jjk-x-reader Netflix & Chill:  If you planned things right, you could rain down your raging displeasure on Jeon Jungkook right after the meal but before this proposed ‘Netflix and chilling,’ maybe dramatically throw your glass of wine at him, before storming out of his place and reporting him to the authorities (Namjoon) for his douchebag personality. https://1kook.tumblr.com/post/620748965092212736/netflix-chill

[celestie0]

hallooo ellie!!!

hope u are doing great! I’ve been wondering how would kickoff gojo propose to reader for prom?? I’ve been seeing those promposals on tiktok and they get me more sappy like 🥹🥹

—Frank ocean anon

hiii bb <33 AW promposals r sooo cute i never had one so whenever i watch them i live thru them vicariously 💀💀💀

but also i wonder if kickoff couple would’ve been friends or in a relationship in high school 🤔 like yknow when couples speculate on if they would’ve been in eachother’s type back then hahaha

this video is honestly how kickoff gojo would prompose 😭😭😭

[codename-adler]

🌻🌻🌻

woo! thank you bb!

PREPARE FOR LEVELS OF HYPERFIXATION.

does anybody remember that other ask i answered about wanting to do an aftg x tlou fic with Wymack as Joel and Neil as Ellie?

Yeah well. I’m still on that. So deeply, actually.

I’ve got pages of notes, casting, outline, etc. The playlist dump is currently 5h42 long.

I have rewritten the entire itinerary. I’ve never actually played the game, only watched playthroughs + watch the beloved HBO series of mine, but I think I made it work so it fits familiar places and characters from AFTG? Took me a whole day. And I’m not from the US! I’m very proud of what I worked out. I wanted to show the map I drew but the locations are on it and I’m not ready to spoil yet!

At the moment, I’m stressing over a musical piece that could replace Max Richter’s On the Nature of Daylight that played in episode 3 for Bill and Frank’s finale. To this day I cannot put into words the feeling that hit me when the first notes played out. This was my song. My favorite musical piece, my most beloved. And it was in tlou. For that scene. Absolutely nothing ever can top that.

I’ve got a few pieces in mind, but idk if i should stick with the original piece. If you’ve got any suggestions, i’d like to hear them! But don’t take it personally if I’m not convinced, I’m very picky… That’s on me.

As for the casting, I’m making… interesting choices? All I’ll say is, I’m having a lot of fun. I’m really, really indulging myself. Of course it won’t be fun later when I have to kill people, but later is later. For now we ball.

Haven’t got a title for y’all yet.

[rainandandy]

I’ve got comic con in a literal week and have literally only decided to do a lil rain carradine cosplay for it😨

I ordered a local shop to print my her T-shirt but they won’t have it done till Thursday, which is the day before I travel up to comic con 🙈 I have Nike low dunks black and white….. not reeboks bb 4000 ii mid (tho I got them ordered, and they might not here on time either 😞) so we improvising with the Nikes 🤷🏻

I got black cargo pants and I know she wears like baggy grey jeans tucked into her sneakers but I can’t find a pair of jeans that are that flexible so I’m going with the cargo ones because they baggy and they cuffed and I can tuck them into my Nikes…. It should be a look

I ordered her little red sweat band and my dad is helping me look for her bandage arm thing (we should have one in the first aid kit… if we could find it)

Hair wise, my hair is ever so slightly longer, a tad more Ellie from tlou rather than rain but I’ll mess it up a little and go from there. I gotta find a little vintage watch I can use but if not my good old reliable Apple Watch will suffice.

I’m not sure whether to distress my pants a little bit, I’m gonna have to mess with the T-shirt because it’s gonna be brand spanking new and it’s not going to be giving ✨alien✨

But yeah, any cosplay tips or rain costume additions that I haven’t mentioned please let me know…. No one will probably know who I’m going as BUT I WILL and that’s all that matters

[psychologeek]

Not-Yet-Written-Fics Game

So, uh, a month ago @byrambles has tagged me about it.

(of COURSE I started writing it, then got distracted, and only remembered now.)

Below are fics that I don't-currently-write (,which includes unwritten ideas, but also fics on hiatus.)

(feel free to tell me if you find something interesting, or you'd like to hear more about it. Who knows? It might give me serotonin and make me write it!)

Fandom: Batman, Superman, DP*DC

Batman

Sweet Dreams 3 - Keep Your Head Up (movin' on):

What happened in the Bad!verse before and after the kids were taken.

Include bb!Jay's background, Shadow, Quizlet, Renegade, and more.

Sweet Dreams 4 - Travel the World (and the multiverse):

the end of the series, in which some characters move between universes, others don't, some misunderstandings are solved and there's a lot of found family.

Baby Bird Search& Rescue (BBS&R) -

maybe, one day. I love the idea, I have some clever and funny scenes, but who knows?

Belonging - M/E rated, tw: csa, underage prostitution (mentioned) and LOTS of Trauma.

one day, things would get better for Timmy.

(When Jason attack the Titan's tower, the replacement doesn't fight back. Some things are not as they seem. This must be some mind game, right?

Right?

Or: a story of the in-between. What we remember (or don't), choosing to look away (or act), and a lot of trauma.)

maybe - part 2 of "17, 42" ? (Tim in a Tim loop)

He isn't the only one in the time loop.

(none of them know it.)

This is about to change.

DC (Superman)

We keep our love in a photograph (temp. name) - M for grief and death of (oc) children.

A character research of Martha Kent's character.

What kind of person takes in a baby alien and doesn't tell anybody?

How could they do that? What was the community's reaction to a surprise baby?

For that, we need to start 16 years earlier, on their wedding, and watch the pain and beauty in Martha and Jonathan's life and marriage.

(this fic contains a lot of minor characters' deaths, including death of children, dying kids, stillborn and miscarriages.)

Dp*DC:

Core Skills (chapter 9-12)

One day I'll get there. Things are just... not so well rn.

Lost& Found series

Lab Rat -

Jazz's parents found out about Danny. Few days later, she finds her brother bleeding in their lab.

This is the worst case scenario, and as they run for their (half)lives, she call the only person she can think of.

Jason, freshly named Red Hood, just wanted to beat up some sense into the Replacement (and get the clown killed).

He didn't expect a call from an old friend.

Not Broken (just bent):

Jazz managed it.

Finally, she got to college and moved out of that house. She got her siblings with her, by blood and heart - they have a small apartment in a not so good part of this city, but they are OUT. Dan can exist as a person. There's no need to hide Ellie anymore. They can live.

It's hard, but things are always hard. This is just how it is.

And maybe money's tight and she's working double shifts and she feels like she's a step away from the edge - but that's life.

(Jazz is not okay. A mysterious costumer, a long lost friend, and a scholarship might change her life.)

The Red Parade (series)

Following the Batarang Incident TM.

In which actions have CONSEQUENCES, Red Hood's goons make a deal with... (A god? A demon? A Fae? Idk Jeff, that's what the boss said to do!), and Danny is a very reluctant king.

Months later, Dick is Not OK, but there's a world-ending thrreat, and the watchtower need everyone as they summon the King of the Dead for help.

(The Red Knight is not what they expected.)

Tagging:

@gilbirda @muffinlance @Gghost-bxrd @a-witch-in-endor @enigmaris

@envysparkler ? Only if you got time for it, of course!

[eldrith]

o wonderful eldrith… might i trouble you for more recommendations on books with “unreliable narrators”, and the themes/what they're about? if it's not too much, i want to read more but don’t know where to start

bb yes!! i listed 12 that i could remember below. i think another aspect that i loveee in unreliable narrators is when they slowly slip into some kind of madness throughout – so the books with a '*' also include aspects like that! [sorry there are repeats on this list from a previous post]

if any1 else has recommendations PLEASE lmk! im looking for some new winter reads rn :)

→ the secret history – donna tartt *

think: small liberal arts college. new kid. proficient liars. obsession. murder. moral decay. the tragedy of intellect & privilege. greek classic philosophy. enduring new england winters alone. snobby rich kids. set in the 80's but they dress like it's the 50's. sexuality & perceptions. archaic rituals. blood-soaked hair and deer running in the forest. alcoholism & pills. "why, looking for new ferns." a mansion in the hills. coke mirror. burger king parking lots. subtle descent into madness. the mask of class-divided friendship, and the dangers of idolizing friends. subtle critique on the 'intellectual upper class'. isolation & superficiality of appearance. reality & illusion.

→ the remains of the day – kazuo ishiguro

think: sacrifices made for ideals that do not hold true. post-wwii. solemn, hopeful, almost tragic. large english manor. an aging butler watching life slip away in the wake of a changed society. restraint, regret, unspoken desire. "i have been responsible for a series of small errors in the carrying out of my duties.” lost love. watching aristocratic elegance fade away. traveling to find a long-lost friend. beautiful and cruel. themes of class difference. history & retrospection. politics& loyalty. performance & self-deception.

→ american psycho – bret easton ellis *

think: manhattan high-rises. designer labels & pressed suits. blood-stained sheets at the dry cleaners. obsession with status & wealth. concealed violence beneath pristine surfaces. cocaine, clubbing, and j&b rare. horrible horrible people. panic attacks over business cards. sheer, stark violence. "i have to return some video tapes." moral decay & emptiness of excess. socialite classes of the wall street boom in the 80's. a very dark satire & critique of capitalism & toxic masculinity. loss of individual identity.

→ invisible man – ralph ellison

think: shadowed basements, harlem renaissance streets. struggling for identity in a world that does not see you. alienation. "i yam what i yam." racial injustice & racism. the search for meaning & nihilism. limitations of ideologies. moral decay disguised as a 'world of social progress'. jazz rhythms. blinding lightbulbs & liberty optic-white paint. culture and diaspora. racism as an obstacle to individual identity. critique of race, power, and the false promise of the 'american dream.'

→ rebecca – daphne du maurier

think: windswept coast. eerie estate. a young bride and the shadow of her husband's first wife. obsession, death, jealousy. "i wish i was a woman of about thirty-six dressed in black satin with a string of pearls." secrets and identity lost in memory. sinister housekeeper. sailboats with punctured holes. cousins. gothic england. subtle critique on love, power, and the illusions of marriage.

→ the yellow wallpaper – charlotte perkins gilman * (if you didnt read this in us highschool then you should def check it out)

think: yellow walls (sorry lmao). solitary room. obsession, madness. barred windows. haunting patterns within a prison. "i never saw a worse paper in my life." identity stifled by control. the lapse between reality and illusion. critique on gender & autonomy, silence and isolation.

→ one flew over the cuckoo's nest – ken kesey *

think: sterile hospital walls. obsession with freedom, conformity. rebellion. the crushing weight of institutional power. "man, when you lose your laugh you lose your footing." 1960's asylum. violence & tragedy. mistreatment of mental illness & loss of individuality. critique on the dehumanizing nature of institutionalized systems & the fragility of sanity.

→ wuthering heights – emily brontë *

think: love so consuming that it becomes vengeful. the tragedy of passion. doomed from the start. love. "he's more myself than i am." the pull of the past. crumbling gothic mansions. love, hate, madness. abuse & toxicity. subtle critique on class, desire, and social mobility.

→ crime and punishment – fyodor dostoevsky * (can u tell i like russian lit lol) **this one is third person omniscient pov, but i included it bc of its use of characters to challenge the reader's certainty in the plot.**

think: oppressive streets of 19th-century st. petersburg. cold and relentless. burdened by poverty and ambition. "it takes something more than intelligence to act intelligently." contemplating murder as an act for a greater cause. obsession with guilt and the human psyche. moral decay, isolation. dark alleys, wet streets. the unrelenting pull of fate. critique on redemption, power, morality, and the fragility of a soul.

→ l'étranger – albert camus *

think: the blistering heat of the algerian sun. detached from emotions. drifting through the motions of existence. obsession with identity, absurdism, and meaninglessness. "if something is going to happen to me, i want to be there." the dangers of a life without remorse or attachment. gunshots, stark beaches. a world that will not give answers & life as a series of meaningless events that lead nowhere. a critique on societal norms, existentialism, and the abstract of truth.

→ bunny – mona awad *

think: small & exclusive art program. cliques. privilege and obsession. power & the dark side of creativity. "why do you lie so much? and about the weirdest little things?" losing yourself to pretense and manipulation. glittery masks. bunnies. art & forests. rituals. obsession with friendship. an exploration of femininity. a subtle critique on envy, art, cult-like groups, and the price of fitting in.

→ the catcher in the rye – j.d salinger (another high school classic but a good example of an unreliable narrator)

think: flickering lights in the cold streets of new york. cynicism and longing. stumbling through the world and denying the sheer pain of growing up. a red hunting cap. loss & grief. lonely hotel rooms, sunny's smile. a soul too young and lost in the disconnection. "almost every time somebody gives me a present, it ends up making me sad." trauma of abuse, loss. boarding school. museums. 1950's. obsession with innocence and alienation. a carousel bright in the city while the rain pours. themes of alienation as a form of self-protection. resisting maturity. performance & appearance. religion and the phoniness of the adult world.

i hope you havent read all of these yet hehe :) lmk what u think!!

[thisismeracing]

BABE

i just realised we can make it so that ellie and mick can drive side by side with each other when she makes it to f1. and mikey is her race engineer and by the time she gets to f1 bon has made it to being chief aerodynamicist instead of just a lead. 

imagine the meeting of designing her first f1 helmet and it being a whole family ordeal. imagine her first race win is dedicated to mikey because first of all he's her sister and second that he is her race engineer, and wouldn't have gotten her first win without him. imagine the battles mick and bon will have at the front of the grid, and when asked about it after the race concludes and what sparked it they'll say something like "i wanted ice cream for dinner" or "dad left his laundry on the floor and mama got mad at him" 

imagine her first silverstone gp (her first home race!), her helmet is covered in her childhood crayon drawings on lined paper and the sponsors logos are redone to match the crayon aesthetic that's going on. 

imagine her and mick just complaining on radio during a race and mikey and bon just looking at each other so done with the other half of their family and mikey takes off his headphones and takes a coffee break (just like his opa bono did with uncle lew) and when he gets back he has a coffee in hand for his mama and when he hands it to her she just goes “they’re still complaining”

☕

omgggg *sobs gently into my hands*

I think they would race together for only a year though because mick would decide to retire, stay inside the garage more, working on the sim here and there and helping mikey and bb with his experience after winning his own line of wcs he'll believe its time to rest a bit and also watch his girl keep the legacy

no bc the way mikey and ells would have their own form of communicating, their own language to the point that sometimes even bb gets confused because they would understand each other just by the tone of their voices on radios, and fans and journalists would def pick on it and ask them how does this work, how did it start, and they would just shrug because its like second nature, they've been around cars and watching the other interact in their preferred habitat since kids so its only normal to understand, plus the whole sibling connection of course (lots of banter -thats when people get to see mikey outside of his shell more- but also lots of love because they're each other's besties and yes mikey will get a bit jealous of the other drivers interacting with HIS older sister <3 will def hold a grudge over any driver that hits her)