#ellie speaks

[celestie0]

guys its seriously not the end of the world that ihm gojo has an ex wife like fr 😭 he’s a 34 y/o financially stable & attractive grown ass man, i’d be more concerned if he DIDNT have past serious relationships up to this point

some asks i’ve received ab it have been borderline really rude to me about my creative decision to give him the plotline of a past wife who he, yes, was very in love with (or else why tf would he marry her lmfao)

i have received asks of people saying they find it gross, they think that it’s “bullfuckery”, that they actively ignore that aspect of the fic because they disagree/dislike it (like ffs how rude to admit that to me lol), that they don’t think it makes sense for him to be with someone that isn’t reader, that he “loses aura points” for having an ex wife…etc

please think about how that feels to me, as an author, to have my creative decision constantly belittled, questioned, and made irrelevant like that…there are ACTUAL toxic shit you could call a character out for n i wouldnt be mad ab it bc, yknow, that’s warranted. BUT A GROWN MAN HAVING AN EX WIFE? 😭😭

😅 i only really speak up about things when it gets to being too much, and i’m now doing so bc i’ve probably received 15+ asks with these sorts of rhetoric so far and i’m getting kind of sick of it

if you think a 34 y/o man having a prior relationship is “gross” just because it wasn’t with YOU (aka the reader), then i feel like there’s a difference in maturity between you & i and i’d rather not interact w you on that regard

and i’m sorry to say this, but there will be a LOT of ihm gojo’s ex wife in future chapters. there will be an extensive backstory chapter of their marriage too, where i will not shy away from themes of love and sex between them even if it’s not “with the reader”…if you’re gonna feel some type of way about that, then ihm is not the story for you

i don’t resonate with that level of jealousy or possessiveness over a character, hence why i’m comfortable writing about it. if you’re not comfortable reading it, then you’re not going to enjoy what i have planned for ihm

and if you think your passive aggressive words will get me to change my mind about what i choose to do with the story, then you’re wrong

of COURSE he is going to end up with reader in the end, but that doesn’t discount the person that he was before he met her. i want him to stand in ihm as one of the main characters in his own right, n not just as the “love interest”

like idk i just feel awful bc it’s like every month i have to come on here and make some type of boundaries over these sorts of asks that i get n idk if it’s a me problem at this point lmfao?? but i just don’t understand the entitled and rude language that is often thrown my way w regards to my works 😅 but i can’t sit by and pretend like i’m ok with it hence why i’m speaking up and will continue to speak up if it teaches some of you about fanfic author/reader etiquette

as always ily to all my other readers obv this just applies to the rude few n not to all my other beautiful angels 😃😃 much love 💕 and i’m gonna take a bit of a break from here so hope you all have a nice week ahead of you

[lovelystarkersworld]

Pepper leaving him during this scene definitely gave him some form of insecurity about his PTSD. i get that she was also spooked because of the suit but to just leave him and then MOCK him afterwards as if she didn't just wake him from a night terror was cruel imo.

And once Peter find out what happened, his heart is broken. Almost as broken as when Tony found out that Peter had an entire building collapse above him one time.

The first time it happens Peter immediately wraps his arms around Tony and pulls him close to his chest, whispering sweet nothings into the older man's ear. Tony sobs because he'd never had someone hold him when he was most vulnerable, soaking the boys t shirt in tears.

i don't dislike pepper btw. i dislike this scene

[duchessas]

I have the plague (a virus) and I’m in bed with Criminal Minds season 2 (and lemsip, tea, ibroprufen and the wild tiger I keep in my house) and when I tell you my husband rolled his eyes SO HARD when he found out that I am rewatching this season for the 28th time. Honor among thieves what an episode, what a time x

[formerlyemo]

I won't lie to y'all, I would fuck Father Paul from Midnight Mass.

[delicatebluebirdruins]

lockwood and co 3

hallmarks I love seeing inscriptions on things

imagine if after the conversation with Fairfax where he hires them one of our trio just goes something smells fishy

stress cleaning with George (imagine him doing one of those clean with me videos ft my annoying housemate/ landlord Lockwood?)

RIP towel scene gone but hysterical no matter the context (I want an explanation for why it was cut)

they could have come up with a hilarious name for Fairfax and tell the world they solved Annies murder and blamed it on fairfax

on the one hand sad the screaming staircase isn't you know screaming but on the other my ear drums are glad that they toned it down a lot

goggles in action= barely a thought as to what goggles actually do

I was watching this episode with sister and when Kipps says "nice knowing you" I said "you're gonna take a knife for him at some point Kipps" and I happened to see my sisters face when I said that and it was basically this gif (doesn't even know which book)

i love Lucy's funeral fit

how Fairfax's death in the show is handled is one of the changes I most want to know the reason behind because I think (only read the book once) the way it happened in the book could have worked here as well.

This is so sweet giving Lucy her certificate (George beaming in the background) and the conversation between George and Lockwood

[not-twst-enough]

Hey guys!

Long time no see….👀👋🏻

[ellie-jade-harper]

Haiiiii Ellie!!! :D -@bannythelesbianbunny

Haii!!!^^ i missed you !

[moonymuses]

₊⊹ guidelines

requests are currently . . . open!

who i write for . . .

finnick odair tobias “four” eaton james potter regulus black remus lupin peter parker (mcu & tasm) ravi singh steve harrington tangerine hobie brown steve rogers pietro maximoff

and many more! feel free to send in characters not listed on here, i’ll write it if i like it!

what i will & won’t write . . .

will write: angst, fluff, hurt/comfort, canon-typical-violence/intensity (like in THG, MCU, divergent, etc), specific-reader-trait reqs (i.e shy!reader), female characters,

won’t write: nsfw, smut, dark themes, male!reader, inappropriate age gaps, weird tropes (see trope list for more info), real people,

request guidelines . . .

do not send in NSFW, weird reqs, dark themes, male!reader, or generally weird reqs that don’t fit my guidelines!

if i’m uncomfortable with your request, i will delete it.

forgive me for slow responses, i lead an annoyingly busy life and sometimes forget what apps are on my phone. and sometimes i’m just not in a writing mood.

i’ll always try my best to deliver with requests! have some grace please if i don’t get it exactly right, i’m just a girl

please be kind!

trope list . . .

no

- inappropriate age gaps

- pregnancy/surprise pregnancy tropes

- love triangle

- weird power dynamics

- forced marriage

[floof-writes]

Oh good god I just finished reading the latest chapter of your fic The Scientific Method. And I open tumblr to find. you? reblogged the sketch I made after reading the first chapter of your fic last summer? Holy moly. Please know that your writing is amazing and is quite the drug.

<3

Oh my god!! Gah that’s so cool! Your sketch was so good!! (‘The idiot’s gone’ also killed me in both a funny and sad way) Thank you so much!!

[celestie0]

Are we gonna have smut in ihm soon?🤭

man it’s really fuckin disappointing and sad to spend 10 hrs out of my week to try to create a meaningful story, one that resonates a lot with me and the things i’ve been through in my life, one that i hope my readers can resonate with and see themselves in, just to get asks like this.

like, picture this. you get super excited to write this story of yours, you plan aaaaaall these secondary plot lines, introduce new characters, create different character dynamics, try to include scenes that strengthen relationships with already existing character dynamics. plan out an ENTIRE story on paper (my ideas doc ALONE for ihm has 13k+ words) and try to leave subtle clues here and there in your chapters to support a build up of tensions that’ll lead to a payoff later on in the series. oh, and this is just the planning part. did you know that it takes the average person 1-2 hrs to write 1k words? the last ihm chapter was 14.1k words. go ahead and do the math, and try to figure out how long it must’ve taken me to write it. without even counting the time spent i spent editing it.

i know that this fandom is so horny brainrot fucked up to the nines, i’ve sincerely never seen a fandom that needs to touch grass more than the jjk fandom. and admittedly, i am also super excited to write more smut in my stories! sex is fuckin cool n sexy! but let me just get one thing straight to you horny anons that send me asks like this: my stories are STORIES first and foremost. they are not VESSELS for your FANTASIES. they are not PORN with PLOT. they are my stories, that i write drawing from my real life experiences. and, hey, news flash, they mean a fuckin lot to me! i’m assuming you didn’t do the math on the 14.1k word chapter thing, but i’ll tell you right now: it took me maybe 20 hours to write ch3 of ihm. something that probs took you 1 hour to read, and then ten seconds to send me this ask. surely your tonedeaf brain can at least understand that i wouldn’t spend that much fuckin’ time writing something if it was just supposed to be porn with plot.

listen, i know that i’m not the best writer. i understand that, after reading all of this, you might be thinking “shut the fuck up bitch, your writing aint alla that for me to respect you. we only care about the smut, don’t you understand?” that’s valid. i’ll respect that. i never claimed to be a great author, or deserving of anything meaningful from you in return. ultimately, it’s my choice to spend the time that i do writing, no one’s forcing me, and i would never expect people to support me either (although i am always infinitely grateful for it and tbh the support is what keeps me writing). but what i don’t deserve is to be sent careless asks that make me feel like you see no purpose in my stories other than sex. other than smut. other than a penis going inside a fucking vagina.

anon, you know what would make me excited to continue writing my story? excited to get to the parts where characters ARE intimate with one another? is if you maybe threw in something as simple as a fuckin “hey i loved that part in ihm ch3 where [x]. thought it was a cool thing to do. btw, looking forward to the smut!” would’ve taken you a solid 30 seconds. it just took me 30 seconds to type that. or? you know what else you can do? go sit the fuck down, shut the fuck up, and spend 20+ hrs writing a 14k+ oneshot on the smut that you so badly wanna see. it’s your choice. really! i mean it. go be the change you wanna see in this world.

i have never once felt like i deserved any of the support that i’ve gotten. idk how to write pretty prose. or moving stories. i read some other people’s work on this app and i’m genuinely gobsmacked by how talented they are and constantly think how shitty my writing is in comparison. but my thing is that i am at least trying my best to write stories that people feel worthy of reading, because i feel like that’s the kind of respect that an audience deserves. i am trying my best to put my character and integrity into things that i write, even if what i produce ends up falling flat or doesn’t come across. but this ask isn’t an isolated issue. this issue has come up multiple times in the time i’ve had my blog, where people just reduce my stories down to smut smut smut smut smut when are we gonna get smut when are they gonna fuck write more smut in kickoff you should make ihm couple fuck like rabbits in the next chapter oh we better see them do [redacted redacted redacted] or else imma [redacted redacted redacted]. my fics are literally TAGGED with "slow burn romance"...i am fully transparent about it. and while i’ve also gotten so many meaningful heartfelt reactions to my stories (which, btw, were tastefully horny…yes, there is a way to send an author an ask that is tastefully horny while also appreciating their work!! insane wild concept!! /sarcasm), unfortunately these bad interactions will always stick.

like. would you ask someone you knew irl that was writing a novel, when they're gonna write the smut for it? would you tell them to hurry tf up and finish their novel just so that you can read the smut? would you send them your smut fantasies and be like "include this in your novel for ME because I want it "? no. because they'd think you're creepy n weird asf n overbearing then drop you. so why is it okay to do that to an author on tumblr? what happened to manners? what happened to decorum? especially for creators who are making you content for FREE.

if i was an author that wrote purely smut oneshots, i’d maybe kinda sorta understand (still think it's wrong asf, regardless of the content of stories that you write). but i feel like, after the 200k+ words that i’ve poured into my two stories (including the chapters i’ve written that i haven’t yet released) where it’s CLEARLY evident that these stories are much more than smut, i’d think that i deserve treatment a little bit better than this.

i’m done. i’m done trying to be nice. i’m done just silently deleting rude asf asks because i don’t wanna cause a scene. i’m done worrying about hurting people’s feelings, when I’M the one that is getting my feelings hurt while you just get to hide behind an anon.

i. am. just. fucking. done.

[lovelystarkersworld]

"Tony had no reason looking as fine as he did while being kidnapped" -Peter probably

[duchessas]

DOES ANYONE WANT TO KNOW WHAT MY DRAFT NAME FOR EXPOSURE WAS BEFORE I NAMED IT CAUSE I JUST FOUND MY OG DRAFT AND IM CRYING 😭🤣

[tvccreator]

YouTube is being stupid.

Warning: Foul language under the cut because this is just pathetic.

TL;DR: YouTube has a stupid new feature that yells at you if you have ad blockers on. Your options are 1) Allow ads; 2) Buy YouTube Premium; or 3) YouTube will block you from watching videos on that platform. I hate it.

YouTube, buddy...

If you think those ad-block blockers are an effective way of keeping your user base, you're sorely mistaken. You're just going to lead more people away to other platforms. Hell, my old Spotify account is just begging to have the dust removed from it, and right now, it's looking pretty damn tempting.

People keep going to ad blockers because the ads you have are super annoying. People who listen to ASMR don't want to be interrupted by two back-to-back thirty-second unskippable ads that blow out their fucking eardrums. People watching videos don't want to be interrupted by ads that show off NSFW shit.

YouTube, if you're going to go down the ad-block blocker route, you're going to lose a large part of your viewers to other websites.

Or, y'know, you're going to cause an influx of sailors on the seven seas. That's always a possibility, too, and you're making it so much easier to resort to that.

So kindly fuck off with your stupid "We don't allow ad blockers here so buy YouTube Premium or allow the ads or we'll block you from watching videos" shit. You're a multi-billion dollar company. You don't need any more fucking cash.

[formerlyemo]

The second most attractive woman on Dropout is Mike Trapp

[delicatebluebirdruins]

initial reaction and thoughts of tbosas trailer 2

hello dogs?

the hanging tree both visual and the song used in the trailer

Lucy calling Snow a rebel and him cringing

ooh yeah the cannibalism

rainbow noodles (this user was very scared of the snakes in this book so I am going to be cringing)

baby boy Sejanus screaming

old snow quote time yeah baby

that last note of the hanging tree song (can't wait to get the soundtrack)

lot of scenes that seem taken from the book

not sure on some of the casting as yet (pretty much everyone but snow as I wanna deck him)

that use of the quote from old snow is really good

[ellieohno]

Hello! I hope I’m not prying or just spewing shit you’ve heard too often on tumblr or ao3 but do you plan on continuing “At least it was here?” I literally fell in love with the story as a whole and it introduced me to Dutch x Jimmy as a pairing which I’ve come to enjoy SO MUCH. I get it if you don’t continue because writing can be taxing and time consuming, just wanted to know! Tyyy <3

hi!!

omg, no, please always come yell into the void at me!! I love to know these stories actually exist in other people’s minds and not just my own lmao

as every writer that came before me has said at least once - life just got away from me. and to answer your question: yes! unless I mark a story completed, it’s always living in my docs and begging to be finished. but I think about this story ALL the time, and it will be updated eventually (hopefully sooner than later)

Dutch x Jimmy, my beloved!! I cannot tell you how this random ship even started, but I’m like fully obsessed with them now and even began their own little drabble outside of At Least It Was Here. they’re a pairing that’s so odd, but so good!

thank you for reaching out!! I always say it, and I always mean it, but please feel free to come chat with me any time!