#eliza my beloved thank you 🥺💗✨

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its been a hot second so

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eliza!!! my sweet!!! my darling!!!! my beloved!!!! oh how i’ve missed you!!!!

thank you so so much for this i really needed it 🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰💗💗💗💗💗💗✨✨✨✨✨

i hate that i’ve been so inactive on here for a while 😢 it’s really such a happy fuckin place for me on here, but i’ve been frustratingly busy and bogged down with work that i’ve fallen behind on from going through rough patches and fuck life is difficult right now. so this really means a lot, thank you 🥺💖

i think about you and everyone else i love on here all the fucking time and how i miss talking to y’all.

✨i’ve been able to be more active on discord lately if anyone wants to reach me there! ☺️ (raeisgae#0581)✨

and there’s so so much that i want to work on that i haven’t been able to but i think about daily, so to give myself a little boost of serotonin i’m just gonna gush about all the things i miss and the projects i want to work on soon (oh that ambiguous little devil word):

fanboy chapter 2!! i know so many of y’all are waiting in agony for it (bot nearly as much as me tho!!) and i have been thinking about it incessantly lately. i managed to get a little bit of edits started a little while ago, but this is a huge priority for when i get caught up with work!!

restoring my glorious dignity of being the yearniest bitch on the whole fucking blockg and getting back into weekly yearning spams!!

spamming y’all with all the tagged posts & asks i have chilling collecting dust and waiting for the light of day

reflections in blood analysis!! i now have rib printed out on paper to make annotating easier and i’m so fucking excited to write a wholeass essay about my own fic like it’s a 16th century text i have to decipher

more fanmixes!! in particular: a buck growth(?) mix, a pining era eddie mix, & a firefam chosen family mix

buddie one shot?! there’s this new idea floating around my brain that i’ve been wanting to pick at but haven’t had the chance to yet (i know nothing about it essentially, except that it gives me rib vibes, but only the prose and style, it’s not sad ahskdk,,,,, i think,,,,,,?)

911 characters as my favorite albums! this is an idea i’ve had for a while for a series of some sort, and i think it’ll be something collage-esque

i’ve finally finally finally been able to fucking read again so i desperately want to get to reading all the incredible fics my beautiful and talented friends have been posting so i can support y’all!!!!

addendum to the above item, specifically for my beloved drish @bazgallaghermilkovich: i have been thinking about it nonstop for fucking weeks and all i fucking want is a chance to catch up with cg and spam your ask box with my reactions but i cant. catch. a break. and it. is. infuriating. but fucking soon!!!! i desperately desperately want to get back to reading it soon!!!!!! i fucking miss screaming about it with you!!!!!!!!

also, music mondays have been falling behind and it makes me quite sad, so i want to get back to doing those regularly too. (i’m hoping to do a three parter this week to make up for missing the last couple, but who knows if/when that’ll happen, but i can guarantee it won’t be on monday ahskfkf)

so that’s where i’m at lovelies!!!! i miss you all immensely and i think about you all the time!!!!!! i thought about tagging a bunch of you specifically to tell you i’ve been thinking about you but i don’t want to tag a bunch of people if they maybe don’t want to be tagged in this post that’s basically just me rambling on about nonsense alakdjfjsj so i’m just gonna pin it lmaoo

✨💕love you all!!! miss you all!!! i hope i’ll be more active soon!!!💕✨