#ej deserves to be with his husband

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Congrats congrats congrats 😘 it's so well deserved!!

Fluffy prompt and Bingo square from me 💙

23. “You’re so cute when you’re half asleep like this.” + decorating the nursery.

Idek if those 2 go together it was a shifty day but they sound really good. 🤷🏻‍♀️🙃

Anyways congrats EJ! I'm so happy for you love and I'm off to read your Tarlos and Jonah fic bc its just what I need on this day! 💙

Thank you so much, Lauren 🖤 I really hope you and everyone who reads enjoy this!

"Why are you still up at 4 am, huh?"

TK startled at his voice, nearly dropping the roller he was painting the wall with. He closed his eyes and let out a huff. "You scared me," he muttered, putting the roller in the tray and stepping around it to get to him.

Carlos opened his arms and TK stepped into them, burying his face in Carlos' neck and letting out a long, deep breath, shoulders relaxing as he slumped into him. Carlos held him tighter. "Everything okay?"

TK nodded.

Carlos didn't let up. "Something's bothering you."

"It's stupid."

Carlos pulled away, eying him closely. He took in the black circles around his eyes, the furrow between his brows, the tense set of his shoulders. "Tell me."

He shook his head. "It's a me thing," his husband told him quietly, playing with the hairs at the nape of Carlos' neck. He leaned down to kiss him, chaste and slow, then rested his forehead against his. "If it's a you thing, then it's a me thing, too," he told him gently, though it was also firm. "Tell me."

"What if I'm not-" he stopped short and took a deep breath, "what if I mess up?"

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As of 2x09

My top love square ships ⬛

1) Portwell

I think this episode showed that though EJ is 17-18, he's still a child playing with sock puppets. 18 is a number given by the government for when you can be held legally accountable. Some states say 17, and for other countries it's 21-22. EJ may be legal but he's still a child that hasn't gone to college. I think the writers made a mistake of making him a senior. He should've been written as a junior. EJ and Gina can legally date but not get overly sexual till she's 18+. So, it's not wrong for them to date.

Gina is extremely mature for her age due to life's experiences. So, imo, they match. For the first time ever, I'm listing Portwell as my number one HSMTMTS ship.🥇

EJ treats her so well. He's literally husband material.🤵💍 They grew separately as characters and now they are joining their arcs. He's the best of the best. And Gina deserves that. I think she got her sign at the end of the episode and she may have realised she liked him back. 😍

I'm completely okay with EJ being her first kiss while on a dinner date with Risotto. Her future husband. Gina literally becoming a part of Caswell family and Ashlyn's cousin in law. They are already besties and room mates. This episode got me to jump ship until I get good enough reasons for Gina to be with Ricky.

But if Gina and EJ do end up dating, she CANNOT leave him for Ricky. If that's the case, I'll lose respect for the show. Like every girl leaves EJ for Ricky? Nope.😑 I don't mind if Portwell goes wrong and Gina even ends up with even a cute stranger like Jack.

But the writers need to get rid of this trope of Ricky >> EJ.

Because to me, EJ >>>>>>> Ricky. Ricky needs to work on himself before he can be with anyone. Period. Boy needs to heal. He needs his mom and consistent parental support.

If Portwell were to be fully established, Rina window has to be closed. Until then, I can't fully jump ship because EJ deserves better than being second to Ricky again. They need to address what happened. Their feelings need to disappear. Or whatever. Like how Nina and EJ's relationship was. Addressed, resolved and closed.

2) Rina

I'm still up for Rina slowburn, but ONLY if they give respect to EJ's character.✅ Because EJ definetely likes Gina as of now and has the biggest character growth.

If Rina happens, EJ and Nina needs to get back together before Rina. Nina chooses EJ and Gina chooses Ricky. I would be fine with that. (And Nina needs to forget that EJ stole her phone and erased Ricky's message because Ricky did much worse, he erased an opportunity for Nina to collab.)

I was a season one Rina and until I get Ricky being better of a choice and treating Gina better, I won't jump back to Rina ship. He needs to understand how insensitive he was towards her if he were to catch feelings. He needs to be the one pining now. I know he's already hurting, but they need to show me that Ricky's feelings for Gina are stronger than what he had for Nini. That if Nina was still an option, he'd still pick Gina. 💜

3) Jackina

Okay they were really cute. More chemistry than even Rina and Portwell. But it's still so hard not to see them as Buffy and Jonah. It's got my brain confused cuz I know it's Jack and Gina who are flirting, but I'm seeing Juffy. And being a huge Muffy shipper (my profile pic is literally them)....I feel like I'm cheating my ship lol. But all shipping aside, Jack needs to be a main character.

Asher and Sofia work so well together, even more so because they've worked together before. I love the idea of Jack and Gina. Jack and Gina can be a plot device. But not EJ or Ricky. Maybe he should date Lily. But I still love Jack and Gina, like he got under her skin. Good shit right there. 🧡

4) Nina and EJ

Them following their dreams and leaving their old lives behind. Moving in together. And now that they've both grown into a better version of themselves. And Nina being the first person EJ confided about Duke....

If Rina were to happen after a Portwell breakup, let it be the leading man choosing the second female lead. And the leading lady choosing the second male lead. Nina dating Gina's primary ex and, Gina dating Nina's primary ex. So, it doesn't come off as Gina dating Nina's exes.🙄

So the love square is balanced. ✅

Ricky and Nina are forever done but remain friends due to sharing mutuals, respecting each other, embracing but letting go of their past and having a soft spot for each other.

But like I've stated a million times, my non canon ship is Gini. The POTENTIAL.😍 That's my OTP. Back to fanfics I go. 😂

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ncis/tiva s8 lb

season 3  |  season 4   |  season 5  |  season 6  |  season 7  |  season 9  |  season 10  |  etc

8x01

mountain mama

I can assure you, I do not have any tan lines

things that would probably get you arrested

sharks circling again

this would have been better as the s7 finale

8x02

I am a younger model

I can hear ya McGee, I got ears

8x03

seriously dinozzo

is this also necessary

husbands

8x04

why is he trying to break into ziva’s computer

you’ve been flirting with the Miami heat

a walking Israeli love machine

handle with care, contents priceless

he loooves her

8x05

dinozzo? turning down a girl in a bikini? the world must be ending

ooooor he’s in love

tony has every iteration of ziva memorized

Compared to the ziva I shared a bed with five years ago

You were just putting on a show…you were putting on a show, right?

they always put ziva in these father & daughter situations

here again

I can tell/that’s just my knee

her daddy taught her to play catch 😖

“my father taught me”

gibbs’ nod is everything

8x06

special Ethel

you’re dating within your age range

why are they always sitting behind each other!! Never at their own desks!!!

if only that shirt fit a little better, tony

it might be slightly less horrifying

are you supposed to be fat Elvis?

8x07

aww ziva’s American passport

wow, you’re in a great mood

ziva is worried

ziver

I’m a federal agent, dad

I very much doubt that senior does anything but lie by default

oh dad, shut up

oh toe-knee

ziva is a grandma name

ugh all these assholes

she sees her dad all the time, Abby, his name is gibbs and he works upstairs

oh ziva

McGee needs to change his pants

I wish they had spent less time on Eli and more on ziva’s mother

we are calm, you’re yelling

tony can tell when she’s getting squirrelly

8x09

I don’t really care about Leon’s flashbacks…

8x10

looks like tony, doesn’t sound like tony

oh gosh, I’m sorry, are you and he-?

the lady doth protest too much

she’s got the eyes of a killer

you feeling okay, dinozzo?

enough! we’re just friends, there’s nothing different about him

oh really ziva

ziva: ????

you are not crazy

and that is why we love you

oh, we?

this coming from the girl who said she barely had a professional relationship with tony yesterday 🤔

but you love him

yeah, sure, “we”

ziva’s gonna shoot the confetti

that was always so hilarious

8x11

duck, call

abbses

that is why it is called a bat nap

May be code for something/yeah, hedonism

men are trash

8x12

McGee noticing tony staring at ziva’s empty desk

tony definitely hasn’t been thinking about her all weekend

I need my inhaler/I want ziva back

I promise you, Ray is a good man

why do you have to reassure tony about him hmm??

8x13

ziva feels bad but not bad enough to get involved

a pool dolphin

late nineties?? That makes you sound so…

ziva was barely a teenie bopper in the late 90s

you know, Tony, you do not wear jealousy well

oh so we’re acknowledging the fact that he is jealous of the guy you might be dating mmhmm okay

I know a bickering couple when I hear one

this reminds Gibbs too much of Shannon and jelly

ziva is endlessly amused by tony

this is all about mcgee but she’s only looking at tony

I like Tony’s maturity around the service people they encounter (usually)

for someone without rank over them, he sure seems to pull it

I’m not sure I wanna open up those wounds, duck

well is she talking about saleem or about Eli

you’re too young to act so old

8x14

I do not want to hear about your threesomes

whyyyyyy do they always have to go back to Kate

which writer was obsessed with her

when confronted with a psychologist, ziva looks to tony

hmm worried about something?

I want something permanent, something that can’t be taken away - is that too much to ask?

oh z bb

I liked Kate but I don’t understand the preoccupation the show has with her

it really rubs me the wrong way, like ziva wasn’t enough even to the writers, she was always just the puppy to kick when they needed drama

8x15

“this new app” it’s the same program you guys have had since season 3 but okay

close your mouth, tony

I miss my blackberry

ziva’s being the nice big sister and Tony’s being a dick

I could never be that energetic

oh mcgoo

the hydrant didn’t deserve such an undignified death

ziver, get the phone

8x16

sometimes the brains sneak out of the hole

tony and ziva stuck together for hours 👀👀👀👀👀

8x17

I cannot smell you from there

oh the sass

ziva is going to eat ej

very territorial

mmhmm thank you thank you

why all the touching ziva

no this one’s problem is definitely her bite

ugh

8x18

tony looks kind of ashamed that ziva is noticing he’s talking to ej

8x19

ziva wants gibbs at her wedding he’s her dad

I should stop this

bickering

8x20

oh yes all the flirtatious looks at tony

I don’t have a special anything and it’s none of your business

the last time ziva has a boyfriend in town, you killed him, tony

I suppose this candlelight dinner may have seemed sweet but it just seems cheesy and try-hard

uh ooooh

if you were fine you wouldn’t be here

oh my god tony said thank you to someone

what about you and ej?

oh christ ouch

the implication being that he…never understood ziva

that is the fakest fucking eyeball I’ve ever seen in my life

8x21

ziva is going to murder ej

dinozzo got some ass and now he thinks he’s hot shit

why don’t you tell him how many sides it has, Tim

I’m pretty sure you don’t like her, z

this stakeout scene is adorable

the writers make very strange choices

why is Tim jealous of the other guy when it’s been three thousand years since he and Abby slept together

like either commit to mcabby or let it go!!!!!

why does ziva look so sad

YOU CANT DO THAT

you can’t make pixels where there are none!!!

stop doin that!!!!

brunch date ft. shared croissant

same

the cia you say

8x22

why don’t you just investigate

and again, ziva is always watching tony

Tony’s hair was never that dark but ok

you can’t outrun me, I’m wearin tube socks!

you’re not just any partner, McGee

you’re her little brother

I don’t think that would count as reading him his rights, tony

8x23

most bottom feeding mudsuckers

franks looks more like a corpse than when he’s actually a corpse

tony and ej is unsettling everyone, not just ziva

that wasn’t even that deep???

poor ziva

there is always another monster

how does tony reconcile this kind of intimacy with his insistence that they have a totally platonic professional relationship

like that is undeniably incredibly intimate

he initiates the hug, and that’s a totally different hug from Abby and McGee

anyways

8x24

gibbs is gonna murder secnav when he finds out

if he wasn’t, I am

Tony’s really wound tight

ej’s patronizing is gonna drive me up the wall

it’s just different for some of us

oh???? Different how, Anthony?????

cause you can’t live without her?????

I hope tony knows ziva’s actually alive post season-whenever

I need to find ziva

supporting each other

no thank you please don’t come back, ej

ziva needs steady, ciray is not steady

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54. Part 2

Chris is awake before me, I must have slept through Junior crying, we do have the photoshoot but yet I am still in bed. I don’t feel like leaving the bed even though my phone is ringing, that will be Jen cussing me out to open the door. Yesterday was so draining, having to explain to people I don’t care about, to people that wanted me to leave Chris. I mean it needed to be done but I didn’t want to do it, I am just glad it’s over “your momma is lazy as hell” looking to the side of me as Chris walked in with Junior in just his diaper “did you take off his night clothes?” Chris and Junior are just a like, Chris walking around in his boxers and now Junior in just his diaper “well he did a stank diaper and I didn’t feel like putting his clothes back on so we chilling in our boxers” smiling at them both “oh I let Jen in” my eyes widened “in your boxers?” I spat, Chris nodded his head smiling “I mean Yusef is gay, Adam is gay, Jen loves me naked. It’s fine. She told me to go away after seeing me” rolling my eyes “my dick won’t stop being semi though” Chris holding Junior in one arm and then his other hand on his junk “like it’s annoying” he placed his hand down his boxers “just give me junior please, don’t be holding him after playing with your balls” holding my arms out “I want to cuddle him” Chris leaned down placing Junior on the bed “hey mommy’s boy” feeling Chris’ hand on my face “I can feel the heat from your dick on your hand, go away” slapping Chris’ hand away “come here” pulling junior up to me so I can cuddle him.

Yusef stared at Junior “he’s a little bald headed, we can probably oil his scalp” frowning at Yusef “you leave him alone” Junior is busy with his feet again “I mean he has hair but just not a lot, I think it’s the Chris Brown effect” why is Yusef annoying Chris “I have more hair than you baldy, the hell” Yusef laughed pointing at Chris “but you are catching up with me, you can just accept it and go bald” shaking my head smiling “and you have horse hair on your head so why are you smiling” I gasped “why are you attacking me Chris? I am just laughing at you both, you know what. My hair is done so you both can leave and take Junior with you, give him a bath Chris” seeing as Chris is walking around trying to annoy people and so is Yusef “come on, out!” I am not having these two here when I am trying to get ready “come on boys, you heard the lady” Jen said walking them out “and you too godson, sorry. Boys are out!” besides Adam he has to stay “Chris you better bath him, he needs to be in the photoshoot with us” Chris always ends up playing.

I breathed out a sigh of relief, silence. Yusef and Chris are both petty, petty and annoying for no reason. Jen closed the bedroom door “god, hear that. Silence, Adam how long till you have altered the dress?” Jen asked him, he is taking his sweet time “not long, perfection takes time. That is not my fault Rihanna decided to lose weight” rolling my eyes “I didn’t decide, it just happened thank you” getting up from my vanity table “so guess what Chris wants for Christmas?” seeing as Chris is not here I can tell my friends “go on? I bet it’s something to do with a car?” Adam said, shaking my head “incorrect” I said as I sat on top of my bed “he wants me on Christmas eve to dress up as Mrs Claus, he wants to role play. So I’m the bad Mrs Claus, being the naughty bitch I am, and he wants to fuck my brains out” Jen’ smile grew “he wants to role play? Have you ever done that before?” shaking my head pulling a face “I mean not like dress up as something else no, I mean I have dressed up sexy for him but he literally wants me to play it out” this is different “oh, like those Pornhub videos, the delivery pizza guy comes along and the girl is half naked. Oh Robyn you will be fine, you just need to figure out how to do this because your family is nosey, but you can do the most with this” she is right I can “I was thinking of Junior’ godmother to have him and then my family to go to Joyce’ house so we can have the whole house, but it’s Christmas eve and it’s difficult. I’m going to bake a cake and” Jen cut me off “and I don’t want to know, just stop” I stifled out a giggle.

I do have ideas but I am just trying to get my family out of the way “you know, it does worry me but not so worried about having another baby. I don’t mind being pregnant again, even though Junior’ head was huge and he was a very big baby but I enjoyed it. I want more kids but it’s taking time. We have sex, the only time I thought I was pregnant was when I went to Barbados but it never happened” Jen sat next to me “why don’t you just relax? You have Junior and I know god will bless you and if not, then there is things out there. How many babies you want crazy?” I smiled “erm, four. Three the least but I want to have more than two. I just feel like Chris and I deserve, Chris is fine now and I know he won’t ever fuck up on me like that again” Adam held up the dress in front of us “look what we have here and Rihanna, stop worrying. God will bless you my beautiful” I sighed out smiling “I am not worried because I have Junior but I do want to know I can have another baby, I want to have a big family, my family. It’s made even more happy to hear Chris is accepting of it” Jen rolled her eyes “you need to think about a tour, you need to work” me and work, I don’t want to work right now, I just have babies.

I froze seeing Junior and Chris “wait” I pointed, is that the photographer already taking the pictures “Yusef did Chris give him a bath, did either of them actually do anything?” Yusef is laughing his ass off “well no, Chris put his jeans on and then he came down. The photographer said let’s take pictures of you both like this, so they are outside” that husband of mine “I bet you think why the hell you are here for EJ” I walked by EJ and outside, my heart melted hearing my son’ giggle “awww there we are, Chris if you can just stand back and look at Junior in awe” this is so cute, look at my son loving it. He is in his zone, Junior loves being in his diaper so he is good and then Princess walking around him, he loves it “look at my baby” I said walking behind the photographer “Ey! No Junior, don’t pull her ears” Chris spat, Junior looked behind him and then fell back onto the pillows luckily “we are editing the pillows out but we just thought we would start, you don’t mind. These are the pictures” the photographer said “sorry, I’m Delray. I am so excited to work with you both but hey” he shook my hand, he seems nervous and happy “nice to meet you, let me see the pictures” he turned the camera to me, taking the camera from him. Sliding across the pictures, the picture of Chris behind Junior as Junior played with Princess, and the scenery. It’s actually nice “awwww, ok I like this. I want this in there” Junior is staring up at Chris giggling.

We are so lucky we got the pictures with Junior out of the way because he fell asleep in my arms “I am shocked at Junior being so good” Jen spat in shock “well yesterday he was moody so he was over it today, also he was having nothing but bottle milk, I gave him breast” Jen let out an oh “he won’t let it go?” shaking my head “Chris and Junior both can’t” Delray waved me over “here, just next to Chris on the couch. I want Chris to be looking into the camera, while you’re resting your head on his shoulder and looking up at him” Chris got changed again “but I think I should look into the camera, I have the eyes” I said as I walked over to Chris “you saying I got nasty eyes?” sitting next to Chris “no, I am just saying. I am joking, sensitive ass” pecking his lips “well the main cover is just going to be you both in your wedding dress and you in your suit on your wedding day. The picture Dennis took was beautiful and because this is about you and your married life it will be perfect” they got a point and it will make good pictures.

Opening my garage door, Lo’ car drove into my garage. Robyn said I need to get rid of these idiots but what can I say when they was outside my home, Robyn is upstairs getting the home set for the family coming “my man, look at you. Shit nigga, I ain’t seen you in weeks!” Lo closed the car door, he hugged me “yeah, I needed to go in hiding after that” seeing Fresh, Hood both come out of the car “good seeing you calm, to see you like this” dapping Fresh and Hood “you look way better than we last saw you” stuffing my hands in my pockets “yeah, I’m just blessed to be in my family home still. To be with my wife” Lo looks so impressed “that night with Mulan was crazy, I thought you was going to punch her. We was like don’t speak on his wife but Robyn has really fixed you up” rubbing the back of my head chuckling “hell yeah, I fucked up. I am a father and one day I will have a daughter and I would kill anyone like that. I fucked up, shit was wild” Fresh laughed “oh hey Mrs Brown” I froze, Robyn is here, she knows everything “hi, Chris I need to speak to you real quick” looking behind me “uuhhh yeah, one second” turning around and walking towards Robyn as she walked back into the home.

I know what she about to tell me, I took in a deep breath “why? I said I don’t want them here, I told you they are banned from our home. I told you that you need to make that decision, they are the people that sat and watched you rot, Chris please. Stop this, I told you and you are not listening to me. They are some bums, talking about you look good now bro, Rihanna really got you looking good, is this what it’s going to be always like? You want your dumbass friends and once they have fucked you over you come to me so I can heal you? It’s not happening and I promise you that. I told you that they are banned from my home because they are the same motherfuckers that bought females near you, don’t get me angry. Fuck! You are so stupid” rubbing my neck not knowing what to say “what now? Is this it huh? After I rode for you in that interview you want me to look like a stupid bitch, you chose them? I left you with that decision and you bring them into our home” shaking my head “I ain’t ever picked them, Robyn listen to me. They was already outside the home, I let them come in and I am about to tell them to go. I ain’t chose them, I want you. You know this, I am sorry. I should have met them outside” Robyn wants to slap me “you know what upsets me the most, I know for a fact they would have been there filling your cup up. They would have even watched you cheat on me and that is what you call friends, get them out of the home now. I mean it” Robyn stormed off, I didn’t think she would have caught me that quickly but she is forever watching me closely.

Sighing out as I walked back into the garage “look like your wife took your balls Chris” Hood spat, he ain’t even wrong “y’all need to go, I need to leave with Robyn somewhere so y’all need to go now” I said waving them off “we just got here bro, it’s been weeks” shaking my head “look, for me. Just go, don’t come to my home” they know for a fact my whole attitude as changed “you mean Rihanna is kicking us out?” I shrugged not answering Fresh “come on, that shit is wack, we had your back. You just letting your wife judge you, we been there when she wasn’t” Fresh said “see this is it with you all, y’all deep down got the same attitude as Sinko. You think my wife is making me do shit, she is pushing me to do things. None of you like my wife because if you did then you would help make sure I was good, you wouldn’t bring females and you wouldn’t egg me on, that’s not what friends do. That’s what people that need a name or a come up do. Least all of you got blog time, just get out” all three of them are ever so silent, they don’t know what to say because I am right.

I was going to go upstairs and see Robyn but she was already walking down with Junior, he is crying and I wonder why “Robyn, let me speak to you please. I didn’t mean it like that, I would never do anything to upset you like that either” she is way angry than I thought “why is he crying!?” I said half shouting over his cries, Robyn placed him in the high chair “we need to go and get my family from the airport and he’s crying because I said no to him” Robyn is angry at me so she may have taken it out on him, I mean she is angry. Robyn walked off “did momma shout at you?” he is having a full blown fit “you can blame me, I got her mad” Robyn came out of nowhere and shoved a pacifier in his mouth and held it there “you wanted to speak?” I breathed out, she is scary mad “well I wanted to say I am sorry, I am not ever going to fuck up. I promise you, I know you have chosen me over everything. I will not let you down, they gone. It was just going to be one minute. You’re a woman so I guess y’all know everything but I am sorry” Robyn moved her hand back from Junior’ mouth and he is quiet “doesn’t matter if it was one minute, they are banned from this home. I don’t want them being a friend of yours, I told you” nodding my head “I understand, I only got Mijo and you. I get it” Robyn ain’t fucking with me, if I fuck up she will leave.

Looking in my rear-view mirror, Robyn is sat in the back with Maurice. He is being annoying “does your boob work?” I questioned “works on you doesn’t it? Well he’s quiet but I really want to stop, I just want to stop this but he won’t let it go. With his teeth pushing through, his cheek are all red and stuff. I just don’t want to do it anymore” he’s attached to her boob “I would be forever on your boob, you can feed me. I won’t bite, promise” I grinned “you have done it before, don’t give me that” stopping behind the SUV “that was because you was annoying me, you holding off on me with sex. You better be doing something bomb as fuck in the bedroom, I want some sex” she won’t have sex with me, well she gives me hand or head but I want pussy “well my dear husband you said you wanted a very different Christmas present, you will get it. You’re rude as hell, you can never let me be in peace. Just can’t cuddle me” looking behind me “what!? That’s a lie, I do cuddle you. I may hump you but that is me, you playing. I can’t help that I have a sexy wife” Robyn waved me off “traffic is moving horny ass” she playing with all of that.

Then Jet has just arrived, running around the car as Robyn just got out. Hugging Robyn out of nowhere “what are you doing!?” She spat “hugging you, you playing. You acting like I don’t show you love when I do, you know I adore you” feeling Robyn push at my chest a little “admit it, you just wanted a hug” I ain’t finna let go “boy bye, I didn’t want no hug from you” squeezing Robyn a little more “say it, I love you Robyn” she needs to say it “fine! I wanted a hug from you” moving back “I knew it” I said, Robyn tried to not smile at me but she did “you’re actually annoying” that means she is happy and loves me “Junior is asleep so I will leave him in the car” she closed the car door, turning around and Monica was already walking down the steps “yes, I am back!! my baby!” Monica shouted, my smile grew seeing Lionel. His old frail self, he waved at the top like he on some king shit. Monica held her arms open for me and I opened my arms to her but walked by her to Lionel “excuse me” she spat, I stopped and turned around “I am playing, I would never do that to you” hugging Monica.

Lionel finally made it down “next time we will parachute you out of the jet, quicker process” he really took his time “come here you” holding my hand out for him to shake “you will end up giving me a heart-attack doing that” I don’t know where the strength came from but he yanked me into a hug “I am glad to see you smiling Chris, remember what I told you on the phone. And I come here and see this” he said in my ear, I smiled moving back. When I see Lionel I feel emotional he just gives me that male figure, he can laugh and joke with me but talks to me “I did it for Robyn, everything I been doing is for her. I learned to forgive like you told me, I ain’t get to forgive my dad” Lionel let my hand go “you only give the title dad to someone that is worthy of it, it will feel a little less painful to speak on it if you call him Clinton. We have lots to speak about, come. Look at my grandbaby” Lionel said seeing Robyn, I be taking all of his attention.

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Jimjeran-Chapter 32 : The American

You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone…

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Previously on Jimjeran- Chapter 31 : Getting Settled Jamie and Claire settle into a routine. Of sex. Lots and lots of sex.

    “Dinna worry about it, Claire,” Jamie urged, out of breath.  We’d gotten distracted mid-way through our afternoon bread baking, and Jamie was currently practicing his bra-removal skills.  But the persistent knock continued, and the little female voice kept calling out “Miss Peachay!”

     “It’s no use, Jamie,” I said, extracting myself from bed and pulling my bra the rest of the way out of the arm holes of my dress.  “I can’t focus right now.”  

     Jamie quickly re-wrapped himself in his sarong and sat back down on the bed as I walked over and opened the door, to find Adina, the little girl who belonged to Plurose and Randy, our other next-door neighbors.

     “Amedkan come,” the little girl said. 

      “What do you need?” I asked in Marshallese.

      “Amedkan atok,” she said, pointing down the road.

      “You want me to come?” I asked.  I was ready to reach for my shoes.

      “No,” Jamie corrected me casually, looking up from the book he had picked up.  “She’s saying an American is coming.”

      “I just can’t get the grammar straight,” I laughed.  “What American?”  I asked, turning back to the little girl. “Won en ej atok?”

      “A man,” she said.  “He look for Claire Beauchamp,” she said, enunciating all the sounds.  “That you, Miss Peachay, right?”

      “Who is he?” I asked.  “E metak?  Is he hurt?”

      “No, he no hurt.  He say him name Prank.”

      “Prank?” 

      “She can’t mean Frank, can she, Ripālle?”

     I felt like I’d been punched in the gut, like I was going to vomit; nauseated and terrified and guilty.  “Frank is here?  Why is Frank here?”

     I looked out in the road, and I saw him, walking with his familiar lanky stride, looking around curiously. He appeared to be in no huge rush, but he saw me, and he lifted up his hand in a wave, a wide smile brightening his face.

     Jamie had come over and was standing behind me.  He put his hands on my shoulders.

      “Oh, my God, Jamie,” I said.  “Stay here.”

     I descended the three steps and walked toward Frank as quickly as I could. He didn’t have a suitcase with him. He was wearing a hat, loafers, shorts, and a tropical print shirt. What a ripālle, I thought with a chuckle, and then I felt sick again.

      “Claire!” Frank exclaimed, rushing to me.  He put his arms around me and bent to kiss me; I turned my cheek to him.

      “Why are you here, Frank?” I asked, though I already knew why.

      “Claire,” he said, holding me about the waist.  “I am so sorry. I was such an asshole.”

     I couldn’t think of anything to say, so I stood there dumbly, my heart pounding.  Back in the house behind me was my husband of 12 days; in front of me my fiancé of 5 years. Well, ex-fiancé.  No matter what happened, this was not going to end pretty.

      “It was a shitty thing to do, breaking our engagement.  I’m so sorry.” He suddenly looked worried, as if perhaps I didn’t even know why he was there.

      “Oh, yeah, I got your break-up letter,” I said. “And I’m assuming the reason you’re here, having travelled thousands of miles, is that you got my letter?”

      “Claire,” he said.  I looked into his repentant, familiar eyes, and my heart broke.  “When I got your letter, I realized I couldn’t wait for another letter to get to you, and then for your response to get back to me.  I needed to talk to you.  I needed to see you.”

      “Frank, I love you,” I said.  “And I have loved you for years, but…”

      “Babe,” he said earnestly, “if you were serious in your letter, and I think you were…” He took my hand. “I’m here to ask you two questions.”

     I started shaking my head, whether in disbelief or to try to stop what was coming next.  I turned toward the apartment, and Frank walked with me.

      “Will you please come home?” he asked, reaching to take my hand as we walked side by side.  “Life just isn’t right without you.”  He pulled us to a stop, turned to me, and looked in my eyes, “And will you please let me finally exchange your engagement ring,” he lifted my hand, kissing my fingers, “for a wedding ring?” 

     How did he not notice the horrified expression on my face?  “It’s too late, Frank,” I said.

      “How can it be too late, Claire?”  Frank responded, clasping my hand to his chest.  “I’ve never known you to hold a grudge before.  In your letter, you said you recognized how wrong this choice had been—that it was cruel and selfish to leave me.  How is it too late?”

     I shook my head.  I was trembling.  “You’re too late,” I repeated, gesturing up at the door of our apartment, where Jamie stood, arms crossed over his muscular chest like a red-haired bouncer at a tiki bar.

      “Who the hell is that?” asked Frank.

      “That’s…Jamie,” I said, in a tone that said of course Frank should know who he was.

      “Who the hell is Jamie?” Frank asked, looking up at Jamie, shirtless, sarong-clad.  Realization started to flush over his face.  He looked at me, then back at Jamie.

     Now Frank looked as horrified as I was feeling. “Damn, Beauchamp, you can’t keep it in your pants, can you?”

      “You will not talk to my wife like that,” said Jamie, taking a step down the stairs, his eyes glinting blue and angry.

     Frank stared at Jamie, open-mouthed.  “You are fucking kidding me.  Tell me he’s kidding me.” He turned to me again, eyes wide.  “You got married?” I stood there dumbly, still astonished that he was on Arno, that he was next to me.

      “When?  When did you get married?”

      “You broke up with me, Frank,” I started.

      “When did you get married?” he repeated, desperation creeping into his voice.

      “A week and a half ago,” I said. 

      “You just wrote me, Claire.  I just got a letter from you five days ago where you asked me to forgive you and you told me that I was the most important thing in the world to you.  I found someone to teach my courses, made plane and hotel reservations, and headed out here. Explain yourself, please.”  Frank’s jaw clenched, and a blood vessel in his temple was visibly throbbing.

     I couldn’t think clearly, but I tried to get some words out.  “Almost two weeks ago I sent that letter in the morning; your break-up letter came that evening. I was devastated, but your choice was clear.  I didn’t have any reason to believe you would change your mind.”

      “That still doesn’t explain it,” Frank insisted.  “I still don’t understand it.  I broke up with you, and you got MARRIED?  I broke up with you, and days later you get fucking married?”  He was shaking his head in astonishment, staring at me with disgust.

      “It’s not that simple, Frank,” I said.

      “No?  It could have been way simpler, Claire.  Couldn’t you just suck his dick or let him fuck you without having to marry him?”  The words had barely gotten out of Frank’s mouth when a ruddy blur passed me on my left and Frank was on his back on the ground, Jamie shaking his hand in pain, standing beside me.

      “I said,” he intoned fiercely, towering over Frank, “Ye canna talk to my wife like that.”

      “You bastard,” said Frank, pushing himself to a seated position and wiping blood from his nose.  “She’s only been here for weeks.  She and I have been together for years.  You have nothing in comparison to what we had.  You’re taking advantage of a woman who’s suffering from culture shock.”

      “Seems to me, yer the one taking advantage of the woman,” Jamie said sternly.  “Keeping her hanging on, not marrying her, year after year.  A woman deserves stability and commitment.  You werena willing to provide it for her.  I am.”

      “I’m right here, dammit!” I exclaimed. 

     Frank was working on standing up.  Jamie offered him his hand, and Frank warily grabbed it, stood, took two steps back, and then said, “Would it be possible to talk to you, Claire, without this ginger giant punching me in the face?”

      “I just helped ye up, man,” said Jamie, scoffing.  “I’m no a monster. If you can keep yerself civil, ye needna worry about any more violence.”  He looked at me.  “Do ye want me to stay, Claire, or would you like me to give the two of ye a chance to talk?”

      “Thanks, Jamie,” I said.  “I think it would probably be better if you weren’t here.”

      “Do ye want the apartment?”  Jamie asked.  “I can go visit Angus and Rupert.  Or catch fish for supper.”

      “Supper,” I said, thankful for his forethought.  I turned to Frank excitedly.  “The fish here is the best stuff ever.  Better than any seafood restaurant you’ve ever been to.” 

     I realized how quickly my sense of familiarity towards him had come back, but Frank did not look equally warm and welcoming.

      “I don’t want to visit you in the apartment where you’ve been fucking this man,” hissed Frank. 

     “Stop, Frank,” I said.

      “Making love with…her husband,” corrected Jamie, his hand on my back a centering source of calm.  He looked fierce, riled up, and angry, but he was gentle with me even in his fierceness.

      “Please,” I said quietly, urging Jamie back into the apartment. 

      “Husband,” scoffed Frank.  “What do you do to get married out here?  Run around a coconut tree three times and throw some sand over your shoulder?

      “No,” said Jamie, stopping in the doorway and turning back to us, a clear look of confidence and a vindictive glint in his eyes.  “Claire’s parents came over from Guam, and Jeff married us.”  I winced at his words, knowing how much they would wound Frank.  He hadn’t even said, ‘her dad,’ or ‘Major Beauchamp.’

     Frank turned to me.  “The Major married the two of you?  Your mom and he approved?” He was dumbfounded, and stood there, mouth gaping like a fish.  Suddenly a light came on in his eyes.  “You’re pregnant,” he exclaimed.

      “No one gets married just because they get pregnant anymore,” I said.  “And, no.”

     Before he closed the door, Jamie raised his eyebrows at me.  “You okay?” he mouthed.  I nodded.

      “Shall we sit?” I asked.  I would have taken Frank’s hand and led him, but I couldn’t touch him right now.  I walked toward the iar, leading us to the grassy area above the beach.  I tucked up my skirts and sat, leaving a spot for Frank next to me.  He wouldn’t sit, though, and stood staring out at the gorgeous turquoise lagoon.

      “Claire,” he said, closing his eyes, breathing slowly.  “What the fuck?”

     I shook my head.  “Go ahead, Frank, talk,” I said. “I can’t even think right now.”

      “Seven years, Claire. Seven years.”  Frank stared out toward the islands on the other side. “We weren’t married, no, but I was committed. Did it really matter so much to you that we weren’t married, that you run into the arms of this infant?”  He saw the look on my face.  “Sorry.  I’ll try not to be insulting.  What happened?”

      “It wasn’t just that we weren’t married, Frank,” I said. “You broke up with me.” I looked at him, hoping he could read my heart.  “I don’t hate you, but you were cruel.  And those had already been my hardest few days out here, even before I read your letter.  Who was I supposed to run to but Jamie? He was my best friend out here.”

      “But, marry him?” Frank said.  “Did you not still see a chance for us?”

      “Your letter left me in little doubt that you didn’t.”

      “Still,” Frank was shaking his head in bewilderment.  “People don’t get married that fast.  They date. They get to know each other.  They get intimate.”

      “I was going to be fired,” I said, “because I spent the night at Jamie’s house. It went against Peace Corps cultural guidelines, and the head wanted to send me home.”

      “So, I broke up with you, you slept with him, got in trouble for it, and then you married him?”

      “I didn’t sleep with him,” I insisted.  “Whatever you think of him, he’s not like that.”

      “You expect me to believe that some hot young guy like that wouldn’t take advantage of a beautiful woman who needs comfort?”

      “He was a virgin when we got married, Frank,” I stated quietly.

     Frank seemed truly taken aback.  “You had never slept with him and you married him?  So this is like a green card marriage, isn’t it?  You just married him to save yourself.  So, get the damn marriage annulled, and come home and marry me.”  He started walking toward the road and I followed him.

     I was feeling confused.  Seeing Frank was bringing back countless memories of years together.  Vacations, dinners with friends, both of us pursuing our educations, homework at the kitchen table.  Cuddling on the couch, shared secret jokes, making love, arguments, resolutions.  Six New Year’s Eve kisses, six Christmases, four engagement anniversaries, countless times sitting in the bathroom together while we waited three minutes for results.  Shared purchases, shared pictures, musicians we both liked, concerts we’d attended.  I didn’t even know what kind of music Jamie liked.  I felt like I was going to hyperventilate.

      “I need to think,” I said, finally. 

      “Well, I feel like a fool,” said Frank turning back toward me as we reached the white gravel of the road.  “But I’m not leaving until we really talk this through.  I’m going to walk back to the Iroij’s house, where the truck dropped me off.  We will wait for you for an hour, then we’re going to go back to my hotel in Arno Arno.   Come and meet me, pack a bag and you can stay with me if you want. The room has two twin beds. We need to talk about this in a place where I don’t feel like he’s staring at me.”"

     I watched Frank walk away, fell on my knees, and vomited in the grass.

      “Mo ghràidh,” Jamie said.  He was holding me in his arms, running his fingers through my hair. He helped me stand up, and then he lifted me, carried me into our apartment, lay me down on the bed and curled himself behind me, wrapping me in his arms.

     I pulled away, stood up, and peeled off my clothes. “Make love to me please, Jamie,” I begged. “I feel like I’m going to break.”

     Jamie looked pained, though he did unwrap his sarong and pulled it over us as he curled up with me. “Wait just a minute,” he said, as I reached for him.  “What’s in your heart right now? What has he said?  What have you decided?”

      “I can’t talk, Jamie, please,” I said. He understood me then, and gently moved over me, whispering and caressing me, until I urged him inside.  Even then he moved inexorably gently; but slowly both of us started to move with more desperation, as if trying to convince ourselves that we were still together, still okay.  Even when we finished I clung to him, not letting him go.

      “Claire, you’re crying,” Jamie whispered.  “What do your tears mean?”

      “I don’t know,” I sobbed.

      “I think yer tears are saying ye feel guilty and torn.   You’re afraid that yer going to hurt one of us or the other.  Ye canna base yer choice on not wanting to hurt anyone.   It’s impossible. And Frank’s right, ye ken.  He has a far greater claim on you.  Ye might actually be married in the eyes of God.  Here, too,” he said, with a faint hand gesture indicating the island. “Common law marriage is accepted, expected even.  Sometimes young couples don’t get married until they have a child.”

      “But, Jamie,” I protested.  “We have something special together. How can you say I should even consider leaving you, losing this?”

      “It’s a kind of affair,” said Jamie.  “Affairs often feel good.  And ours is a hallowed, blessed, married affair, but an affair nonetheless.  I confess I wanted ye.  So bad I was blind to the truth that it might not truly be over with Frank.  So selfish I would keep ye here; tie ye down.  I should have sent ye back.  Or at the least,” he smiled wryly, “encouraged ye to take yerself home.  I ken by now yer a woman that willna be ruled by a man.  But perhaps you should have waited, or gone back to Frank—to see what was salvageable.”

      “Maybe,” I said.  “Maybe I should have given it more time. But I didn’t have that time if I wanted to stay here.”

      “Claire,” said Jamie, holding me closer. “Ye have to stop justifying it and truly think—have ye made a mistake?”

      “This is not a mistake, Jamie,” I wept.  “We are not a mistake.  And we’re married, anyway.  That’s a legal contract.”

      “I’ve been thinking, and there is a way out for you,” said Jamie.  “You didna enter this marriage truly thinking we would have children.  And if ye also entered the marriage without the intent of eternal commitment, it can be annulled by the Catholic Church.  The Catholic marriage covenant is taken when both parties enter with the commitment to be together forever, with an openness to creating new life.”

      “Jamie,” I said.  “I don’t…I can’t…”

      “Claire, I need you to go to Arno Arno with Frank.  You need to talk to each other, far enough away from me that ye don’t feel the burden of this place where we connected, and that Frank doesna feel the pressure of my presence.”

      “But…”

      “If you choose me, then come home.  If you decide to go back to the States with Frank, send word.  I will pack up your things and send them to you on Majuro, or to Boston.  Dinna come back.  I canna imagine my heart could stand seeing you again.”

      “But, Jamie,” I interjected.

      “You need to decide with a clear mind, Claire. Now that ye know Frank wants ye still, ye must make the choice knowing both that I love you, and that Frank wants you, too.  And he has the greater claim.”

      “What if I don’t want to?”

     Jamie leveled his gaze at me. “I canna stay married to ye in good conscience if you don’t at least think this through. I dinna want you to resent me in years to come for holding you back.  But Claire, I love you more than anything.  And I vowed to love you forever.”  He closed his eyes, then, and leaned his forehead to mine.  “I dinna want to lose you,” he whispered, “but I love you enough to let you go.”

Chapter Notes:

My current husband (well, my only husband…my husband currently…or just…my husband?…well, as opposed to my TV and book husband, James Alexander Malcolm MacKenzie Fraser) was my boyfriend at the time of my year overseas. He was great at regularly writing letters to me, and I wrote to him, but at times it felt very frustrating to know that mail would take a week to get to him, and then a week to get back to me. I wouldn’t receive a response to any of my thoughts for two entire weeks, and by the time I did hear back (about something that felt incredibly important at the time), it was just too late.

On to Chapter 33 : The Hotel It’s time to make a decision. What matters most?

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49.

When Maria asked me if I am nervous, well I am feeling it now. I am already missing Rylee, not seen her for two days and I heard that the girls had a good time, I didn’t do shit. I couldn’t be bothered, I have done enough of that for the most part of my life so I didn’t need to go all out. We did drink and stuff but that was it “have you seen my girl?” I asked the photographer, he shrugged “maybe, maybe not. We just don’t know” he is playing with me, he has seen her “is she awake at least? Is she ok?” the photographer looked up from his camera “she is fine, that is it” I really want to see what she looks like “EJ, I thought you would be with the girls, you seem out of your depth with all this dick around” EJ’ head snapped in my direction, taking his shades off slowly “I only came to dress your fat ass” Mijo snorted laughing “if you can get up and actually get dressed I can get back to them” rolling my eyes, I really can’t be bothered.

EJ pressed my suit jacket down “you look like one handsome butler, you really do scrub up. Thank god you shaved that mess on your head” brushing my hair down smiling at myself in the mirror “I can’t help but be handsome as fuck, I really like this three-piece suit. Who made it?” it’s a perfect fit “Dolce, I saw it and was like it will be perfect for you. Oh no Mijo, you take those grills out. We not doing that today” looking at Mijo with his gold grills in “he looks dope as fuck, why don’t we just have gold grills in” that is a great idea “no son, try to be less hood today” a knock on the hotel room door, my dad smiled at me “you look very good” he got up from the couch “this is your big day, your one time you will be getting married. I want you to have the time of your life, you will have the biggest prize on earth which is your wife” he placed his hands on my shoulders “do you think this is your biggest accomplishment?” my dad asked “I do, I don’t class the fame as the biggest accomplishment but being a husband and father” my dad smiled at me “good answer son” he moved his hands away from my shoulders.

“Where is my nigga?” hearing Joe’ voice, what is he even doing here “oh shit, what are you doing here?” Joe got his hand out to me, taking his hand, he pulled me in for a hug “you think I will miss your big day? Seriously? No I am not, I have a few people that have come” he moved back “we ain’t get an invite but we came nigga?” Tyga said “shit, I mean I didn’t think because we going to have a party after” dapping Tyga laughing “appreciate this so much, thank you” I said to him. Trey pointed at me “you sent me that video and said nothing about me coming, you ass!” he hugged me “my bad, I just didn’t want to make it too big. Did y’all bring the family along?” there is a few of them “mom had to come” Trey said looking at his mom “well I need a mom” I said hugging Trey’ mom “you look very handsome Chris, I am so happy for you” pressing a kiss to her cheek “thank you so much” I didn’t expect this at all.

I beamed at my reflection in the mirror, here stood a girl with long curled hair, a slightly uncomfortable tight dress because of this baby but I am so happy with it. Staring at my reflection, I find it oddly weird, I didn’t think of myself being this way. I didn’t think I would be getting married anytime soon, I didn’t think I would be in love either or be pregnant on my wedding day. I get choked up thinking about it, Chris has draped in diamonds. I don’t deserve this but he requested it, he wanted this because I would have been fine with the fake stuff but I have actual diamonds on me just for a wedding day. I can’t process this in my mind that I am actually getting married, I always wanted a big wedding but this whole experience here has made me realise that I have what I need and that is Chris, I love him too much to care about a big wedding.

Sighing out shakily, Rylee Turner is a thing of the past and I will be Rylee Brown in less than an hour. I am in shock that this is me that I keep staring at myself “OH MY GOODNESS! You look absolutely beautiful, sweetie” my mother barged into the room, she interrupted my trance. Turning around seeing my dad and brothers behind her “oh wow” my dad simply said stopping at the door, I didn’t really want to see my family because I feel emotional “grandma, what are you doing here?” I told her no “I am sorry, I was being stupid. Your grandad spoke to me, he said you gave Rylee that Rolex to give it to a guy she loves and she did and now you hate him? You know your grandad doesn’t complain about much but he’s right, I gave you that Rolex thinking you would sell it for a lot of money but you didn’t. You gave it to Chris, I am so sorry please let me come. Look at you, look how beautiful you look” looking down, I don’t want to cry and I don’t want this “I am so sorry Rylee, I won’t ruin your day. I was being stupid and stubborn, I thought he will hurt you and I didn’t want that for you” looking up at my grandma “just please don’t get in the way” I can’t send her away, I don’t want to make the day about her or this.

My parents are an emotional wreck “mom if you cry I am doomed and I don’t think the makeup team will be happy” my mom swallowed hard “just that your dad has taken the bathroom, I have nowhere else to do it but here. I am just so happy Rylee, my baby girl. My daughter is going to be a wife, oh god” my mom cried out “oh stop it” my grandma said patting her shoulder “don’t hug me, I don’t want to ruin your dress” a tear fell and that was it “mom now you made Rylee cry” Blake said, I didn’t want to cry but I am, I knew it would happen with my parents “it’s just I didn’t think I would see this, I actually got to witness one of my kids get married but more importantly my daughter. I am alive, I am here and I am with you. You look so beautiful” smiling at my mom “thank you” Tamia rushed over to me “I was ready for this” luckily she is.

My dad has been staying away from me, he was quick to leave “have you seen Chris? Has he actually turned up?” Maria giggled rushing over to me “yes he has turned up, he is out there. He looks very handsome” my baby looking handsome, I cannot wait to see him now “thank you for keeping Royalty entertained, I know she is dying to make a mess of her dress” I said to Blake “it’s cool, we been to get some food didn’t we?” Royalty grinned at Blake, they both look like they have been up to something. My heart fluttered hearing Chris’ laugh, he must be close “where is he? Why is it I can hear him?” Maria shrugged “he really can’t see you, he is not close either” he does have a stupid loud laugh though “I have butterflies Maria, god. Mom has everyone sat down or not? What is happening!?” I hate being stood around, I am just so nervous.

Taking in a deep breath “Harvey, please be good” my mom said to him “you weren’t so emotional before, what is wrong now?” I find it the hardest with my dad “I am ok Rose, let’s just go” I feel a lump in my throat, I don’t have anyone to clear the mess of my face either “I guess this is it, last time seeing you as Rylee Turner” smiling lightly at my dad “I remember holding you, picking you up when you fell. Walking with you when you started to walk, I must have blinked because now I am walking you down the aisle. Oh Rylee, I am going to miss you” I am fighting back tears “dad, I am still here” placing my hand on his arm “I know, but you’re still my baby, my daughter. I am sorry, I will stop. Can we walk now. I love you so much daughter, don’t ever forget that” nodding my head “you’re my first love” he really is.

Licking my lips smiling at the photographer as he took the picture “this is a bomb location, the scenery is so nice too” Trey complimented “it was so last minute, you think it’s good?” he nodded his head “yeah, it’s so nice. Peaceful too and private, that marquee looks so dope too. Turn up time” nodding my head “you know it, I am so happy you guys came. As you can see I ain’t really got much of my family, it’s full of Rylee’” Trey pulled a face “I can tell, I been heard a few things but what can I say” shaking my head “it’s whatever, I am so excited to see Rylee” stuffing my hands in my pockets “she is coming now” Mijo jogged over to me, this is it “good luck” Trey dapped me, I don’t think I am ready just yet now “did you see her?” I asked him, Mijo looked at me and then shrugged “why you playing me for? Tell a nigga?” he snorted laughing “nigga fuck you, you ain’t about to get shit from me” he is so annoying, placing my hands in front of me. I feel so nervous, what is this. I am sweating, why am I even sweating when I was fine just before.

Why is my daughter like this, honestly. She is a terror but she is just me. She didn’t throw the flowers down the aisle, she placed them all over my shoes and then smiled at me “I swear your daughter is just you” Royalty waved at me, my sister scolding her but I know she don’t care “you look beautiful baby” she really does “silly butt, silly butt, silly butt!” she screamed out loudly as everyone got silent “Royalty, no!” My sister said to her, Rose smiled at me but my heart is racing. I can’t describe it but I am just feeling so excited but nervous and emotional, all at the same time. Swallowing hard looking at Trey he winked at me, nodding my head at him as the Piano started playing.

Looking down the aisle seeing a figure walking and it is Harvey, Trey started singing acoustically and slowly with the piano music “meet me at the altar in your white dress” my breathing almost stopped completely seeing the white dress as she gracefully walked out onto the aisle. For a second, I thought she was an angel. My eyes travelled up to her face, I took in all of her beauty. The beautiful white ball gown dress, the diamonds are shining at me. Rylee’ arm elegantly wrapped around her dad’ arm, everyone is staring at my wife in awe. My mouth opened up gradually, my heart just felt like bursting. Placing my hands on my knees as I sobbed out, looking up seeing Rylee’ hazel eyes gaze into mine “come on bro” standing up straight, Mijo patted shoulder.

My breathing hitched with Rylee stood across me, wiping the tears that fell. Harvey held Rylee’ hand looking at me “you look after her” tears forming in his eyes “I promise I will” I sniffled saying, he grabbed my hand and placed both of our hands together “you got my heart there son” my lower lip quivering “stop it” Rylee said in a whisper “you’re the most beautiful woman I have seen, I don’t deserve you” shaking my head, Rylee smiled at me “baby that is a lie, stop it” the Piano soon stopped and I am still trying to take in what I have just seen in Rylee “dry your eyes” Mijo passed me a tissue, I chuckled drying my eyes. The crowd laughed at Mijo giving me a tissue, seeing Rose in awe holding Harvey’ hand.

I am getting all nervous now, I have to do my vows which is making me all nervous and Rylee is staring at me “I, Christopher Brown, take you Rylee Turner, to be no other than yourself, loving what I know of you. I will respect you as an individual, a partner, and an equal. I promise to laugh with you when times are good, and endure with you when they are bad. I will always adore, honour and encourage you. You are my best friend, and I will love you always” I can’t believe I remembered that but I had so much more to say “Royalty, give daddy the ring now!” turning to see my sister pulling Royalty along “you out here making life hard ain’t you” taking the ring from Royalty “oh my god” Rylee spat, I had to get her something big. Placing the ring on her finger “aww” the crowd said.

Rylee took in a deep breath, she wrote this down with her forgetful ass “I, Rylee Turner, take you Christopher Brown to be mine always until the hour of my death. I look into your eyes and see nothing but pure spirit” biting on my bottom lip “you are the one who encouraged me to live my life freely and to never take any day for granted. I promise to always smile when things are sunny and to hold you when it is cloudy. I know that I cannot see into the future but if I could, I would always be overjoyed to stand by you. You are my angel and I will love you today, tomorrow, and forever. Just know I will always be by your side” that really got to my heart, Royalty actually gave the ring to Rylee like normal person but not me. Rylee placed the ring on my finger.

Sniffling, I feel so emotional “can we go and eat now?” Mijo joked while everyone chuckled “not before kissing the bride” the priest said, looking at Mijo laughing he is so stupid. Turning to look at Rylee, licking my lips smiling. I feel all shy now kissing Rylee “why do you look so goofy” wrapping my arms around Rylee kissing her lips, hearing the claps and cheers from everyone. Moving back from the kiss, Rylee wiped my lips with her hand giggling “congratulations baby brother” my sister hugged me “thank you Tootie” hugging her with my free arm “married man now nigga!” Trey spat hugging me “yeah, don’t be trying to be Mr steal yo girl here. I ain’t with the shits nigga” Trey busted out laughing, pulling Rylee closer “congratulations Rylee” Trey said, Rylee is legit giggling “wow, see what I mean. You done married me and you looking at him” Rylee hit my arm “that was the past, oh my god. I hate you stop it” Trey is loving this “did you ever come to VIP at my shows? I never saw you, I see beauty when I see it” pushing him “this nigga, get the fuck outta here” busting out laughing.

This photographer be making us do some stupid poses but I guess they make good pictures “can you pick Royalty up Chris and stand to the side and both of you just be in the middle with Royalty and kiss her cheek” see what I mean, but whatever. Picking Royalty up and placing her in between Rylee and I “lower her down Chris” Rylee complained, holding Royalty’ arm down. Lowering Roro down and kissing her cheek, hearing Royalty giggling aloud for no reason. She hit my face with her hand “I hope you got that, I ain’t doing it again” placing her down “I did, it turned out well” holding Royalty’ arm so she don’t run into the water like she wants too “shall we go into the Marquee now?” finally, we can go and eat “you good?” I asked Rylee “my feet hurt but if I take my heels off then my dress will get dirty” I shrugged staring at Rylee “get walking then woman” Rylee scoffed hitting my arm.

I couldn’t let Rylee walk, I had to pick her up “don’t you have any other shoes? Do I need to take you inside the marquee” Rylee nodded her head “of course I do, I feel my back is going” I said complaining “good, no sex then” my eyes bulged out “oh, there will be sex. I didn’t eat fruit for a whole two weeks for you to deny me this” Rylee giggled aloud, entering the Marquee. Hearing the wolf whistles and cheers as I walked in holding Rylee “you can put me down, I was just being a bitch” I knew it, I knew she could walk now. Carefully placing Rylee down “thank you baby” waving the photographer “bro” he rushed over “that picture of Royalty and us, send me it” I want to post that, give them something to see.

I think I am ready to go back to the hotel room and have sex, the wedding night needs to happen now “I wanted to ask, you cried the way you did, Why? I thought you collapsed?” Rylee wrapped her arms around my arm “I really thought I was at that moment, the air got caught in my throat. You don’t understand how lucky I am. I am sorry that it’s not the biggest wedding you wanted, we will have another one” Rylee shook her head “no, I realised that I don’t need a big wedding. This is perfect. We have the people we need here, I don’t want it. I don’t want a party, a party for who? The fake people” a smile grew on my face “Chris, I sent the picture” the photographer said, looking over at him “thanks bro” getting my phone out “what picture?” Rylee asked, unlocking my phone and tapping on the message from him “this picture” the photo uploaded, tapping on the picture to make it bigger and turning it to her “aww, look at her happy smile before she hit you. That’s us, and peanut. I think peanut misses you, he made himself known and was being ever so mean to me but he is settled now” I gasped “I missed movements? How could he, I will speak to him later” uploading the picture onto Instagram “be nice with the caption” Rylee warned me, I am always nice with my captions. Tapping the caption box ‘That’s it ladies! Breezy is officially off the market, I am a married man to my beautiful wife Rylee Brown. Words can’t describe what a special moment this is, I am so blessed to have Rylee in my life. This is my family and to the ones that didn’t make it. Well, you missed it. God Bless’ I’ll keep it sweet.

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WilSon Scenes 9/19/12

Will: Look, all you need to know is that I'm not going on a date with Sonny now, and I'm not going on a date with Sonny ever.

Sami: Why? What happened?

Will: Because I'm not good enough for him, Mom! I'm not good enough for him.

Sami: What?

Will: Is that it? You happy?

Sami: What are you talking about? Why would you think such a crazy thing?

Will: It's true. I gotta go. I'm sorry, I've gotta--

Sami: No.

Will: Can you stop? It doesn't matter!

Sami: No. No!

Will: I don't care!

Sami: I'm not stopping! It does matter, and I do care, and I want to know who put that ridiculous idea in your head!

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Sonny: Here you go.

Melanie: Oh, thank you.

Sonny: You're welcome. Cheers.

Melanie: Cheers. Okay, um, you seem excited.

Sonny: I am. I'm just looking forward to my date tonight. I just hope it goes well, you know?

Melanie: That's right. I forgot. You guys are gonna have so much fun. I'm so excited for you and for Will.

Sonny: [Sighs]

Melanie: And for, um... um, sorry. No, I--um, I just--Chad is really late. Yeah, he was supposed to meet me here, like, a long time ago. I just--I hope nothing happened.

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Sami: Will, you were psyched this morning about your date before you went to Maggie's. And Maggie loves you, so obviously she didn't say anything to make you-- did you have a run-in with Victor?

Will: Look at how you're reacting, Mom. Obviously I shouldn't have said anything to you.

Sami: You are my son. I know you are all grown up, but I am still gonna look after you!

Will: What? It wasn't Victor, okay? Stop! God! It doesn't matter anyway because everything she said was right.

Sami: She? Adrienne? That bitch!

Will: Mom--

Sami: What did she say to you?

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Will: Mom, don't go crazy about this, please.

Sami: Oh, I don't understand who Adrienne Kiriakis thinks that she is. How dare she talk to you like that! I can't believe she said that!

Will: She didn't talk to me-- she's right, first of all. She is right!

Sami: She's not right. Not only is she not right, she's out of her mind. Will, you would be a great boyfriend to Sonny, to anybody.

Will: Really? I don't think so. I mean, did you forget that your perfect son, for example, blackmailed EJ?

Sami: Will...

Will: Or that he lies to people, lies to himself, about being gay? Lies to his girlfriend? She's been a great friend to me. And I've just made her miserable.

Sami: That's not true. You were confused. You made a mistake. Who hasn't? You're young, it's okay to--

Will: It's a pattern! I was wrong. I was wrong.

Sami: No--even if you were, you did something about it.

Will: No, I didn't, Mom. You know what was funny? [Chuckles] Even when I was little, I couldn't--I couldn't color in-between the lines, right? Doesn't that kind of seem like a sure sign of future failure?

Sami: You're a great kid. And now you are a great young man.

Will: No, I'm not. Look at my life. I mean, I messed it up. Messed up other people's lives. You know? And it's funny because I was so disrespectful to you... for doing the same things over and over again and making the same mistakes. I do the same thing. I am just like you, you know? I hate that. [Sighs]

[Keys jingling]

[Door slams]

Sami: [Sighs]

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Adrienne: But, um, I almost forgot, Sonny, the reason I came here. You left your phone at home.

Sonny: Oh, my--thank you.

Adrienne: [Chuckles]

Sonny: I was freaking out. I thought I lost this.

Adrienne: Oh, no, I know.

Sonny: I have a voicemail from Will.

Adrienne: Uh, listen, your dad told me that you and Will worked things out. I just wanted to say that I'm happy for you.

Sonny: Well, you're not, but thank you for saying that.

Adrienne: Sonny, please don't say that. I-- honey, what's wrong?

Sonny: Will just canceled the date. Happy now?

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Kate: Hi, Will.

Will: Hello. I'm getting a coffee. I gotta go.

Kate: Okay, the coffee shop's the other way. Okay, I'm gonna make a wild guess here. You're in this mood because of your mother, am I right?

Will: No, I'm in this mood because your grandson is a loser. I did this all to myself.

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Kate: I know that when you're young and you make a mistake, it seems like that's it. It's broken. But I have lived long enough that I can say to you, Will... there isn't anything pretty much that can't be fixed. You know, and if you can't fix it, then you have me and my unlimited resources to fix it for you.

Will: I know you're trying to be funny.

Kate: No, actually I'm not. Whatever it is, I do think you can make it right.

Will: No, I can't. That's not possible. My life is a train wreck. And why isn't anybody surprised, really? I mean, look at my mom, look at my dad--no offense--look at you.

Kate: [Scoffs]

Will: None of us know how to be happy.

Kate: Will, really, for the love of heaven--

Will: Why am I fighting this? You know, why don't I embrace the dysfunction that's been in my family for generations? It's been in my DNA. It's up to me to carry on the proud family legacy of misery, right?

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Sami: Adrienne?

Adrienne: Hello, Sami.

Sami: What the hell is your problem?

Adrienne: My problem?

Sami: You have something to say about me or my family, I'd like you to say it to my face.

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Adrienne: Look, Sami, I don't know exactly what your problem is--

Sami: My problem is that you don't think my son is good enough for your son.

Adrienne: What? Look, initially I was concerned that your son might do something to hurt my son. In fact, he already has. He canceled their date for no reason.

Sami: He has a good reason. His reason is that he heard you saying horrible things about him.

Adrienne: What?

Sami: He heard you talking to Justin, saying that he doesn't deserve to date Sonny, that he's not good enough for Sonny.

Adrienne: Look, first of all, I had no idea Will was there.

Sami: Well, that makes it so much better.

Adrienne: And secondly, I never said I didn't think he was good enough to date Sonny.

Sami: Oh, really? Then where did he come up with that crazy idea? Because he started this morning feeling great about himself, and now he is totally devastated. Adrienne, you owe my son an apology, and you should tell him that you were wrong about him.

Adrienne: Look, I'm sorry that he heard what I said, and I'm sorry that he took it as a personal attack against him.

Sami: How else was he supposed to take it?

Kate: Where do you get off attacking my grandson?

Adrienne: This wasn't about your grandson.

Sami: Oh, the hell it wasn't! He was very upset.

Kate: Yeah, no, I know he was. I just saw him. But he was too proud to tell me what was wrong.

Sami: She's what's wrong.

Kate: I'm telling you, Adrienne, you'd better make this right.

Sami: 'Cause you don't wanna mess with the two of us.

Kate: Believe me, no one in their right mind would want that.

Adrienne: You just don't get it, do you? I can't take back what I said to Will, I can't apologize for it, because every single word of it was true.

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Sami: You could not be more wrong, Adrienne. I don't argue with people when they say how much I've screwed up my life, but the one thing I got right is Will. He is a good, kind, decent young man and anybody would be lucky to be in a relationship with him. She is dead right.

Adrienne: I can't believe you're defending her after what she did to Lucas.

Kate: What? That had nothing to do with Will.

Adrienne: He grew up watching them go back and forth and Sami flitting from one man to another.

Sami: So this is about me?

Adrienne: No, it's about your influence in your son's life.

Kate: Sami was a good mother to Will! And you should count your lucky stars that your son had the good fortune to fall for someone who has the incredible qualities that Will has!

Sami: You're absolutely right, Kate, and you're wrong. If you ruin this for Sonny, he is the one who's gonna lose out on a great guy.

Adrienne: Look, Sonny has a mind of his own. I do not control or interfere in my son's love life.

Sami: She just said that with a straight face.

Kate: Really, after she already tried to break them up.

Adrienne: I was talking to my husband in what I thought was a private conversation. Now I don't know how or why Will felt the need to listen in, but then again, considering the influences in his life, it's you two.

Kate: Oh, I do not think you wanna go there, Adrienne.

Adrienne: Oh, I'm sure you don't. Sami just admitted her mistakes, but I'm sure you're not willing to admit yours.

Kate: [Scoffs]

Adrienne: It's amazing that Will turned out as good as he did.

Sami: Okay, stop. You stop right there.

Kate: You have absolutely no right to weigh Will down with our baggage.

Adrienne: Really? So his recent mistakes had nothing to do with the two of you?

Sami: Oh, my God, get this through your thick skull. This issue is not about us.

Adrienne: Well, I hope you're right, Sami. I really do. Because Sonny and Will might actually end up together. But I think in the long run I'm gonna be the one who's right, that your son is gonna end up doing something to break my son's heart.

Sami: Well, Will is not like that. You are dead wrong about him. [Scoffs] I swear--

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Sami: [Clears throat]

Will: Wow, I can't believe you kept these.

Sami: See? You knew how to color inside the lines.

Will: Yeah, not in these though.

Sami: Hey, you learned. You'll keep on learning.

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hi ej! for the wip ask game: smile, laugh, home, kitchen, and cook :) happy writing!!

Thank you, Laney 😘

Smile

Dark brown hair neatly combed, soft brown eyes, an impressive physique and if all of that wasn't enough, he had to have a smile that lit up the whole damn bar.

Laugh

His husband let out a quiet laugh. "What'd you arrest him for?"

Home

"If it weren't for that big heart of his, I don't know where I would be," he told the older man, "he loved me, he was patient with me- more than I deserved. He gave me a home."

Kitchen and Cook

Carlos had done the cooking, and after they'd eaten their dinner, he and Enzo had settled on the couch while TK, Gwyn and Jonah stayed in the kitchen to bake them cookies.

WIP Guessing Game

[paniccord-ff]

42.

Chris is taking ages in the bathroom, I actually need to pee really badly. Stifling out a yawn stretching out, today is the last day of Chris’ tour and then we are off to New York “Happy twelve weeks!!” Chris spat opening the bathroom door, staring at him dumbfounded. Chris jumped onto the bed “how do you know?” I questioned a little shocked “I listen to you when you talk, the doctor said eight weeks and a few days and I kept that in my mind and count down the days. So I know you are twelve weeks, soon you will be thirteen weeks which means you are pass your first trimester” placing my hand over my mouth ���I have this app thing and it tracks it, I been looking” he shuffled off the bed “I will show you” I am going to cry, not because I am feeling emotional but this. He cares so much “oh, why are you crying?” Chris froze looking at me “look at you, god Chris. You are so caring, you never said you was counting the days and weeks. I say it to you but I complain too much, I just can’t believe I have a man that loves the ground I walk on. I just get emotional because I don’t deserve at times” patting down my cheeks, I need to stop crying “that is because I am so excited for this baby, I just want to be there at every moment” smiling at him “see, I have this app. It counts it down” he turned his phone to me, he is so sweet.

I am just thankful for the last day of this tour, it’s been a pain in the ass. I hate that my clothes are everywhere too, half of them are on the tour bus “Chris, you know we are going New York because of my show thing but Mark said he wanted us to be there for the court date?” folding Chris’ top “so?” he retorted, placing the top in my suitcase “so we need to see him, I don’t care what you say we are getting Royalty” he is ignoring this burden that needs to happen “but it’s stressing you, this shouldn’t be your issue” he can be a pain sometimes “what’s wrong now? I told you that Royalty has not forgotten you, why do you think that? I don’t want to hear that you don’t want to fight for her again, Mark warned you that Nia will bring up shit. I don’t care, you are capable of being a father. Why do you want to be a weekend father? Blake told you that she is allowing drugs around Roro and you sat here” Chris hates it when I say that.

“I get it!” he spat “the fuck you want me to do, I am just a guy” he pointed at himself “a guy with a woman that supports him, we are playing dirty on this. Mark may not like it but this is going to get them good, we are going LA instead and giving them pictures. How dare that hoe serve you saying you have to go to that date, she fucking knew you was here! I am pissed Chris. I have my show the next day, do not worry we will be there but we are going. She thinks we will be no shows but we are going to be there with the evidence” Chris is trying to not be there because Joyce was there at the date but she was in support of Chris, I don’t know why “it hurts me to see a video like that, she don’t care about her but I feel like shit never goes my way” shaking my head “you need to fix yourself up, we will have Royalty before the baby is here or even earlier. Bet my life on it” Chris thinks we won’t get Royalty but I think we will, she is the mother of Chris Brown’ daughter and she was openly just having Royalty around random men, it’s not normal at all.

Being in Europe has been nothing but funny memories with his tour crew, but also it has been too cold, I am used to LA weather now. This reminds me of New York, it’s so everywhere. Wearing a coat is weird for me, Chris doesn’t let me leave the hotel without it because I need to keep Peanut warm, if my child comes out thinking its name is Peanut I will not forgive him “I thought he was coming?” Blake asked, I shrugged walking to the elevator “he decided he needed the toilet I think” I am really not speaking to Blake once again, he cussed me out when I did nothing “you dead ass doing me like that?” I wish to not speak when there is random people around so I will stay quiet, hitting the elevator button “I got annoyed, is that my fault I had to hear my sister having sex shit was not normal!” glaring at him “how else did I get pregnant? The fairies didn’t give me the damn baby, you shouted at me!” the elevator doors opened “oh barely, I only said the fuck you doing at the restaurant. Trust me I regret ever getting a room near you two, disrespectful asses” stepping into the elevator “you didn’t say that to Chris did you? oh no you didn’t, you was all happy and shit with him. I am having sex with my fiancé, so what” the females coming from around the corner stared at me “and I just said what the fuck you doing, you mad fucking sensitive” sadly they decided to come on to the elevator we are on.

Standing in the corner “anyways I am over it, did dad tell you about moving to LA?” I need to get over it, I was being dramatic. Blake barely said a word to me “forreal? No way, why?” I am surprised he doesn’t know “because they want to be close to me, dad keeps on saying it and I said to him don’t because LA is expensive. They have Kyrie out there going to some nice school but now he wants the best, he wants to be down the road from me. He wants to sell the home, I said no but he won’t stop. Do you agree?” looking over at Blake “I mean we are all here but LA is expensive, if I ain’t selling dope then I would be on the streets. We have the wedding coming up, I get Chris is wanting to fly everyone out and shit but he can’t pay for everything. We have the whole family” he is so right, I forgot about the wedding “mom agrees so I am thinking my first paycheque, I am going to get them a home here” Blake pulled a face “how much you think you finna get? Your face don’t sell that much” hitting his arm “you’re such a bitch” the elevator doors opened to the lobby “but Chris explained it to me, think about this. Ok Mark is getting a cut, that would happen but Chris is technically my manager for now, Tamia and EJ get paid by Chris. The money comes to me. They are paying well for both things, a team costs you and I don’t pay that. Chris is my husband so I am getting that money but I think I want to do that for them, get them over here. I need to speak to Chris” Blake placed his arm around me “you always thinking sis, calm down. You out here thinking about Chris, Royalty, mom, dad, Kyrie, me but what about you? Shit will just work out” he doesn’t understand that I need to do all this before the baby.

“Chris finally decides to join us” his manager pointed, Chris doesn’t look happy “did I miss anything?” Chris said pulling his hood up “just me missing you” I said seeing Blake roll his eyes “this is sickening, oh god. I can’t even look at y’all” Blake walked off “anyways, can we all now go to the venue. Can we actually have a concert that starts on time and Chris, if I have find you on the tour bus when it’s a minute left to go onto the stage. I am docking your money, that shit was not funny and Rylee you are a bad influence” the dancers laughed walking off “baby I don’t think anyone likes us anymore, are we that bad” Chris shook his head “I think we are perfect, I love you pregnant. I mean when you are not crying about things, but you have been on it with the sex. And your pussy is so juicy, the fruits of heaven are there. If I can just have a glass of your finest juices Mrs Brown” placing my hand over his mouth “shut up, oh my god. Stop” he is so stupid.

I am so excited that this will hopefully be the last tour bus for a while, I don’t want to see another tour bus “I seriously think nobody likes us, how do we have the bus to ourselves. Where is the bodyguards?” Chris shrugged smiling, I think I have been a bad influence but what can I say. A bitch has her needs too but more then I usually want it and then Chris is on it straight away, that is the only reason why he was late for his concert. His dick is too good, I think I am addicted “oh well, maybe we can have sex, shall we just do it” watching Chris touching his crotch looking at me and then hearing my phone ring “tell who is calling first” I will never say no to sex “erm” Chris picked my phone up from the side “daddy? But wait, I am your dad? So who is this?” busting out laughing “stop it, give me the phone” holding my hand out “but I am your dad? Seriously, who is this” taking the phone from him “my actual dad, your only daddy when you’re eating me out” answering the call “daddy!” I yelped, Chris side eyed me.

I have just been listening to my mom and dad go back and forth arguing, I don’t know why he called “is mom feeling better? She sounds it” she sounds like me with Chris “when was your mother ever ill, yes baby I will do it. Let me talk to Rylee” I love them two so much “where are you now? Are you home yet? They showed the court case of Royalty on the news channel, I thought I would see you both” shaking my head “nothing really happened, it got cancelled anyways because the bitch wasn’t ready but we will be there for the next one. She did this because she knew we was here” this is why I am so angry “she knew nothing would have happened so I don’t know why she tried it, wasting a whole day on nothing” she makes my blood boil “she is a stupid woman, all I can think of is that little girl. She is so sweet” my dad complimented Roro “she is, I hope to see her soon but anything new with you guys?” Chris sat down and pulled my legs up onto his lap “I have been looking at homes in LA” rolling my eyes, I don’t want this for him and I don’t want him paying for a house. This is their time to rest, not working and paying a mortgage, I wish he would hold off “I found where Chris lives and was looking, I can get a condo there” he is really doing this “you searched where Chris lives? Dad please hold off on this, I am sorting something out for you guys” Chris eyeballed me on what the fuck am I even speaking about “no, I can do this. I am paying on my own” he is being stubborn “I refuse for you both to live in a condo ok? Listen to me and wait” my dad sighed out, he doesn’t like me telling him off.

“Fine, Rose told me about your first show. I was thinking of coming? Leaving Kyrie at some family’s home, you think that we could come” smiling a little “of course you can dad, I will get you a spot in the front. We will be in New York so come along” I needed to invite them both anyways “are you both staying with us? You have no choice?” chuckling down the phone “where else would we stay dad? We can speak on homes then” shaking my head, Chris doesn’t even know so let me tell him after this call “I can’t wait, I bet the baby has grown. I will let you go now, talk soon” placing my hand on my stomach “it has and I can’t wait to see you, bye dad” disconnecting the call, throwing my phone to the side of me “so your dad searched where I live? Why?” I have a headache coming along now.

Rubbing my head “so my dad wants to move close to us” Chris blinked at me several times “Your dad got millions?” I chuckled shaking my head “he doesn’t and then he said a condo because I know that is the only thing he can afford in the area you live in and I don’t think so, I needed to speak to you anyways on this. When I get paid I want to get a home for them, if that is something you don’t mind?” Chris shook his head “you do you baby, I will help you. if your parents want to stay at ours then I don’t mind either” shaking my head “no way, we need to decorate that place already and my family are too much. Don’t need it right now, I love them but they will take over everything. They want to move but they haven’t asked Kyrie in this, everything is expensive and my dad doesn’t work. I am worried, I mean I will get the money in but my dad won’t take it. That is his dream home, he is giving that up to come here to who?” I am just worried about them “to be close to us, I think it is sweet. My mom moved here but I wish she didn’t but that is besides the point, they want to be close and I get it. I will help you but LA is a different lifestyle unless we move to New York?” furrowing my eyebrows “I will do anything for you, if we get Royalty it might be a better move” I don’t know what to say, I am shocked he is even saying this.