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avpdpossum · 2 years ago

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psych assessment: do you ever feel like your thoughts aren’t actually your own?

me: no, never, absolutely not

also me: *regularly saying “shut up” out loud to my own thoughts because sometimes when i think bad things about myself i don’t actually mean to think them and they catch me off guard and it feels like someone else using my mind’s voice and i don’t like it so i have to tell the angry brain gremlin that now’s not the time*

#is this an avpd-is-maybe-schizospec thing or a schizotypal traits thing? the world may never know #either way my avoidance does tend to be...far more schizospec-flavored than i sometimes realize #and it took me way too long to realize that this counts as Thoughts Arent My Own shit #poss.speaks #avpd #actually avpd #actually avoidant #avoidant pd #avoidant personality disorder #cluster c #stpd #stpd traits #schizotypal traits #cluster a #schizotaxic #(<- that feels relevant since this is like. avpd/stpd ipseity disturbance related shit)

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