#either way it’s tender and devastating and yes a little hilarious

[augustatheghost]

thinking about “beloved mother” in all caps times new roman size 900 font and…do we think olivia chose this epitaph or did serena specify it in her will

[himluv]

The Morning After

Have a little ficlet to tide you over :) This is set the day after Indulgence. Enjoy!

The sudden flash of sunlight on her eyelids made Riallan groan.

“Ah, yes, my dulcet darling,” said Dorian, entirely too loud. “Rise and shine. I’ve brought you breakfast, though it’s well past the hour.”

She sat up, her nose scrunched and eyes blinking against the sun. “Dorian? What are you--”

He sat at the little table next to the windows, the gauzy drapes thrown wide to let in the light and show off the Orlesian countryside. The de Chalons manor was exquisite in its expensive austerity, and though the room felt almost as barren as her quarters back in Skyhold, she had to admit the bed was comfy.

Dorian glared at her, arms crossed and one leg hanging over his knee. His foot bounced with either agitation or anticipation, she couldn’t quite tell. “You’ve been keeping secrets from me,” he said.  

She scrubbed her hands over her face. “Is that what this is about?”

“Obviously.” He gave a pointed look at the chair across from him. “Now, will you join me for a, albeit late, breakfast?”

It seemed she had little choice in the matter, and besides, the coffee and jam on the platter smelled lovely.  She stood from the bed and stretched, uncaring that she wore only her small clothes, then pulled on a large linen tunic. It was worn, one of her favorites, and hung down to her mid-thigh.

Dorian gave her a critical look as she joined him at the table. “Is that one of his shirts?”

She rolled her eyes. “No. I’ve had this for years.” She poured a cup of coffee and spread jam on a delicate little biscuit. She even managed to take a bite before Dorian’s impatient silence became deafening.

She sighed. “What do you want to know?”

“Everything.” He took a strand of grapes and plucked them from the vine one by one. “Why don’t you start at the beginning?”

“The beginning…” When even was that? She’d had feelings for Solas before they’d started visiting one another in the Fade. So, maybe the beginning was when he started showing an interest. But he’d flirted with her in Haven, commented on her indomitable focus and made the tips of her ears burn with the force of her blush.

“That long ago, was it?”

“No. I mean, yes?” She shrugged. “We just sort of fell into it.”

“You fell into tangling tongues in the Winter Palace?”

She glared at him. “No. That was very much on purpose.” She took another bite of her biscuit and used it as an excuse to find something to say. “We always got along. We flirted, talked, he was someone I trusted.”

“A confidant.”

Riallan nodded. “Exactly. It wasn’t until we got to Skyhold that we kissed.” She left out that it had happened in the Fade. She didn’t really want to discuss the details of that. “But then he asked for time.”

“Time for what?” Dorian sipped his coffee, careful not to splash any on his mustache.

“I think he’s been alone for a really long time and he needed to think about whether or not he wanted a relationship.”

“Well he obviously made up his mind,” he said with a wicked little smile.

“Yeah. After two months.”

Dorian dropped his biscuit, it fell against the porcelain plate with a heavy thunk. “Two months?”

She nodded.

“And you didn’t come talk to me?”

She hadn’t even considered it. “What was there to talk about? We kissed, it was good, I wanted more but he wasn’t sure. Until he made up his mind, there wasn’t anything to say.”

He gave her a bewildered look. “Do the Dalish not gossip?”

“Of course we do,” she laughed. “But, we’re both private people. He had doubts, which for Solas is a big deal. I wasn’t going to betray his trust by talking about it with someone.”

“Maker, I forget what a good person you are sometimes.” He took a bite of hs biscuit and moaned. “This country might be full of backstabbing assholes, but kaffas, the food is good!”

They laughed at that, and she took advantage of the break in their conversation to eat a few grapes and a slice of cheese.

“So… he made up his mind?”

“Obviously,” she said, smiling when he rolled her eyes.

“You’re going to make me drag it out of you, aren’t you?”

She sipped her coffee. “I know how much you like interrogating your friends.”

He grinned. “How long have you been together?”

She had to think about it. “Just over a month.”

His eyebrows climbed up his forehead. “And no one knows?”

She tilted her head back and forth. “I think Varric suspects, but we haven’t told anyone.” She gave him a stern look. “We’d like to keep it that way.”

“Probably shouldn’t makeout in public spaces, then.” He took a drink of his coffee, his face suddenly serious. “You know you can tell me things, right?”

“Dorian, I—”

“It’s just, you’re my best friend. Possibly my only friend. I know I’m not good at,” he waved the fingers of one hand, “emotions, but I am here for you when you need me.”

She reached across the table and put her hand on his. “I know, Dorian. I’m sorry, I wasn’t trying to cut you out.”

“All right, then.” He settled back into his chair, doing a little shoulder shimmy to get comfortable. “Tell me, under that stoic, apostate hobo appearance, is there a fiery passion?”

“Dorian!”

“That’s a yes, then?”

She laughed. “You’re disgusting.”

“That Dalish accent is so cute, you pronounced hilarious wrong. Now answer the question!” His smile was infectious, even if the subject matter embarrassed her to speak of.

“I don’t know. I think so.”

“You don’t know?”

Riallan looked down into her mug. “We haven’t… you know.” She cleared her throat. “We’re taking it slow.”

“What I saw last night did not look ‘slow’.” He spread jam on two more biscuits and handed one to her.

“Yes. It was new territory for us. Thank you so much for interrupting.” She glared at him, then popped a grape into her mouth.

“Ah. So he’s taking it slow, while you slowly go insane.” He smirked.

“No,” she lied. “I’m respecting his boundaries, just like I would expect him to respect mine.”

Dorian raised a brow at her. “You have boundaries?”

She feigned offense, a hand to her chest. “A few!” Riallan might blush and stumble over her words in social situations, but once she connected with someone, that anxiety fell away. She wasn’t shy about her preferences when it came to sharing a bed, just shy getting someone to come to bed with her in the first place.

“What do you think is holding him back?”

She had no idea how to answer that question. There was so much about Solas she didn’t know. She knew the important things, the things that made up a person. She knew he was kind, intelligent, artistic, and passionate. She knew he cared about her, more than she had ever dared hope for, and she knew he could be tender and terrifying in turns. She’d heard his laughter and witnessed his grief, and she’d shared the times in between.

But she didn’t know the facts of the man. He was so good at avoiding the details of his life, glossing over them with stories of the Fade and vague responses to any pointed questions. She didn’t know where he was really from, when he was born, Creators she didn’t even know how old he was! And all of that suggested something traumatic he wanted to escape.

“I think it has to be something from his past,” she said. “Even with me he hesitates to give any concrete details about his life before the Inquisition.”

“That doesn’t bother you?” Dorian said it in a way that made it clear that it would very much bother him.

She thought about it, but ultimately shrugged. “No? We all have pasts, we have things we regret or are ashamed of. I know I like the person here, now.” She smiled, but fought the urge to look away. “And I do like him, a lot.”

“Oh, that is a dangerous look, dearest.” He dabbed at his mouth with the cloth napkin. “Poor Blackwall’s going to be devastated.”

She winced. Riallan knew the Warden had an interest in her, and while she appreciated the man as a friend and fighter, she didn’t have any feelings for him in that way. “Blackwall suffers from an ill-placed sense of hero worship,” she said. “He’ll recover. Besides,” she gave Dorian the sternest look she could muster. “He’s not going to know, because no one is going to tell him. Or anyone else for that matter.”

“Oh, please.” He rolled his eyes. “You don’t have to threaten me.”

She blinked. “I don’t?”

“Maker, no!” The grin he gave her then was positively wicked. “The longer I keep this secret, the longer I get to tease Solas with no one the wiser.” He raised his mug in salute to her. “It might as well be Satinalia!”

She groaned, but it turned into a chuckle halfway through. She had to admit, the potential comedy might be worth Solas’ slight discomfort. She was about to say as much when a knock came at the door.

“Inquisitor?” Josephine called. “We are preparing to leave shortly. Do you require assistance?”

Dorian snorted and tossed his napkin onto the table. “That’s my cue.” He stood from the table and paused to kiss Riallan on the forehead. “Well, I suppose I’m happy for you. Just, guard that heart a little, will you? I don’t want to have to curse our resident Fade expert.”

She laughed and shooed him out of the room. She couldn’t wait to get back to Skyhold and have some proper privacy. And if last night’s indulgence was any indication, maybe she’d be able to convince Solas to join her.

And this time not just in her dreams.

[zukadiary]

Hoshigumi Small Theaters ~ Spring 2019

I am five entire shows behind on reviews and I hate it!!

But I finally make it to Kansai!! I conveniently managed to see these guys on back to back days upstairs and downstairs in the same building. If nothing else I think I am 500% more educated on Hoshigumi after this trip.

Man from Algiers / Estrellas 2.0

Man from Algiers ticks all the National Tour buttons—old, done many times, ambiguous time period (useful for traveling costume recycling, i.e. why not just use the rainbow sports jackets we need for Estrellas anyway!)—and while I’m not surprised that Coto can make just about anything good, I was a bit surprised at how much I enjoyed the show itself (this was the first time I’d seen it at all, which was a blessing as the surprise ending was my favorite part). 

I can definitely envision it in all its original 70s glory, and it made me wonder if they really just wanted to exploit a West Side Story aesthetic’s swoon-inducing abilities and came up with the plot later; the opening looks and choreography were awfully familiar. Am I saying it didn’t work?

No I am not saying that.

(And the resulting prologue number was really cool).

The story, while dated, was simple and easy to follow, and does a great job of making sure you understand each character’s motivation with minimal info (difficult AND clutch for one-acts). There’s a good summary on the wiki, I’m including spoilers not mentioned there.

Team National Tour is definitely the lighter side of the troupe split, especially with regard to upperclassmen, but I thought Algiers was a good fit for this particular arrangement of members, and everyone really nailed their characters. Most notable: 

Julien is a despicable person, and it’s a testament to Coto’s pure heart and brimming talent that she made him a totally valid protagonist, complete with moments that made my heart lurch a little (when his old friends are bullying him in his cute little chauffeur outfit; how quickly he abandons everything to stand by Sabine when everything goes to hell at the end). 

It was very weird first not to see Aichan in Ocean’s and then to see her hanging out with a percentage of Hoshigumi, but this cast needed her. Her Jacques (albeit very reminiscent of her Bernardo) was a good balance for Coto; they both played unsavory people, but Aichan playing bad has kind of a darker streak that suits the more evil friend well, whereas Coto playing bad still has an undercurrent of goodness that gets you fully on board with his journey to reform.

Otoha Minori as Sabine was a good choice not only for her abs in the gold night club bikini dress, but for her maturity, which lended sincerity to Sabine’s fantasy-level selflessness in her concern for Julien and her desire to watch over him. When she shoots Jacques in her dressing room to get him out of the way so he can’t interfere with Julien’s new life, I was so impressed that it read as an act of sacrifice (however excessive and stupid) purely out of love and desire to see Julien continue to grow and succeed, instead of “look at what I did for you, come back to me!”

Asamizu Ryou played Bollinger, the dude who takes Julien in and grooms him for upper-crust success, opposite not just Coto (her senpai) but Shirotae Natsu (her mega-senpai), and she did it with a surprising amount of gravitas. She’s got that face which definitely helps, but she was a little scary and exuded a lot of authority. Shirotae Natsu was hilarious as the extraordinarily airheaded wife, and her interjections may have even been singlehandedly responsible for keeping the pacing of the show brisk and entertaining. 

Sakuraba Mai played the Bollingers’ daughter Elizabeth. She was detestable, but in the way that indicates a great acting job. She’s at that awkward spot where it looks like she’s getting almost heroine weight roles in small theaters and disappearing in grand theaters. I hope they keep pushing her because she’s very strong.

Number one heartbreaker Kozakura Honoka (voice of an angel!) played blind Annabel, daughter of Kumichou/a very influential duchess. She mostly stays inside alone, and then Julien woos her with the intention of climbing the social/political ladder (while developing feelings for Elizabeth and also really never getting over Sabine). Annabel overhears Julien confessing his feelings to Elizabeth and asks her attendant Andre (Kiwami Shin, in love with Annabel) to let her kill herself. Honoka apparently put an immense amount of time and research into acting blind and it showed. 

Fellow American Sayaka Rin had probably the most lines she’s had yet, in a role formerly held by both Takashio Tomoe and Hyuuga Kaoru <3 

My personal MVPs of this show were Shidou Ryuu and Kiwami Shin, Shidou not even for doing anything particularly spectacular, but just just for having grown so much since I first became aware of her existence via the Koumori shinko 3+ years ago. She’s always going to be on the cute side rather than the devastating side IMO, but she’s developed enough confidence and control in her acting that she’s become a really lovable best friend/brother type; her character’s relationship with Julien and secret-but-obvious admiration of his far superior coolness was really adorable. Andre (Shin) isn’t a super juicy role until the very end, but the way Shin did Andre’s quiet breakdown when Annabel was explaining she didn’t want to live anymore, and then her poise when Andre came out of nowhere and shot Julien just as he and Sabine were trying to run away from shooting Jacques (?!??!) was like, my jaw actually dropped. Granted she’s still super young, but Shin isn’t someone who has thus far impressed me proportionately to the amount they’re pushing her, so this mini breakout was nice to see. 

Estrellas (a revue that I loved!), like all tour revues with less than half the cast and no staircase, felt quite small, at least from the B-seki side box. But in the smallness, normally unseen people get to shine, and there were moments that had me bouncing in my chair. Amato Kanon is going to grow up dangerous (if Tennis Daughter doesn’t just consume all the otokoyaku below 98th); in the opening with everyone else beaming she was smoldering. Aichan and Anru took Kai’s medley (with different songs) and made it a very cute douki thing. Sazanami Reira needs to dance closer to the front more often. Ruri Hanaka (who, bless her heart, cannot sing, at least not like a musumeyaku) somehow snagged Airi’s part in Tonight is What it Means to be Young, and despite the singing, absolutely killed it; that girl can DANCE and she’s got sass and arm muscles for days and a look in her eye like she’ll superglue you to your makeup table if you cross her. 

And boy, Coto looks good in that top position. The talent is really stupid, but on top of that she has such warmth. I’m really excited for her Hoshigumi.

Kamatari

Kamatari accomplished a feat, because admittedly I went in having already biased myself against it; I thought Beni and Airi getting a weird nihonmono for their last small theater was dumb and just about as NOT THEM as you can get.

But I take it back! It was lovely!

For starters it was visually stunning, which feels like the thing you say when you’re trying to convince yourself that you liked a nihonmono you didn’t actually understand a word of... but in this case, it really was just a bonus. The story (summary here) is not actually all that complicated, and the dialogue was even on the friendly side for nihonmono—no weird dialects (beyond what it always takes to decipher Beni), no 12th level keigo. 

Act 1 introduces Kamatari (Beni) and Soga no Iruka (Hanagata Hikaru) meeting as youths in school and developing a friendship, and then takes us, as far as I can tell, fairly historically accurately through the events leading up to and including the Isshi Incident. Act 2 was a little harder for me to follow; but it seems to be just a progression of Kamatari’s struggles living under the new post-incident emperor Naka no Oe (Seocchi), with whom he’d conspired to eliminate Soga no Iruka, and the former empress/Naka no Oe’s mother (Kuracchi), who wants to see Kamatari suffer, because she both loved Iruka and couldn’t side against her son. 

Most of the roles were pretty small so there are fewer standouts, but here they are:

This was the third in a progression of Hoshi shows I saw live (the other two being Another World and Elbe) that really helped cement my respect for Beni and Airi’s brand of chemistry. At the beginning of her top run, I was skeptical about Beni’s ability to generate romantic chemistry with anyone at all (Scarlet Pimpernel didn’t really help me with that, and I haven’t seen anything between that and Another World). They definitely don’t have sizzling hot chemistry, and they don’t have that cute newlywed chemistry either, but I noticed watching Kamatari that in the last few Hoshi things I’ve seen, I’ve found it very easy to believe how deeply Beni loves Airi in whatever world they’re portraying. They have like, comfortable old married couple chemistry (yes, even when they’re playing love at first sight). Their moments in Kamatari were very tender, but in a wholesome “aw, she cooked for him” kind of way. Yoshiko (Airi) also had a lovely part at the end, where the two of them are old, and Kamatari’s health is failing, and they go back to the spot where they met, and she says their life wasn’t always easy, and they suffered, and they struggled, but in the end she can honestly say she had fun, and she’s truly happy. I teared up! It was sweet and meta! That alone convinced me it wasn’t a bad last small theater for them.

Hanagata Hikaru was SO much the star of Act 1 that it had me wondering if this was gonna turn out to be HER taidan present (but then she died and didn’t appear in Act 2 at all). I can’t complain because she kicked ass. I feel like I said this exact thing re: Another World, but Mitsuru is normally about as vanilla as it gets for me, but she blew me away. The pompous genius school kid to the idealistic young man to the uncertainty that comes with the reality of seizing power to the change to tyranny mixed with love for the empress and complicated feelings for his childhood friend all flowed seamlessly.

Not that I’ve watched a ton of Hoshi recently, but this was the best role Tenju Mitsuki has gotten in GOD I can’t even remember how long. Esaka is in service of the (state? empire?) as a historical record keeper, and serves kind of as a narrator as well (along with Itsuki Chihiro). I don’t even know how to describe how she characterized him... he’s odd? Maybe a little off? Regardless, she was brilliant. Watch it.

Arisa Hitomi has that empress energy for sure. I read up on the history of the events afterwards, and the explanation of why she had to give up the throne after witnessing such violence (the idea back then that an empress couldn’t be sullied by such things), and that made the sensitivity with which Kuracchi portrayed her feel even more poignant the more I sat with it afterwards.

This was the first show where to me Seocchi felt like she belonged up there with Beni and Mitsuru. She definitely put some weight behind Naka no Oe and was very princely. NOW I wanna see her tackle a more interesting/challenging (and tbh more Hoshigumi) role from up in this spot. 

All in all now I’m a little sad I won’t be around for God of Stars.

[thesorrowfulknight-blog]

Okaayyyy, so! Apparently tumblr was being a shitforbrains again and didn't post my answers from a few days ago, so I'm gonna combine both get-to-know-me q&a's in one post! Sorry for the wait you guys.

1st set of q's was tagged by @legendarybitch 😘

Relationship status: Single AF

Favourite colours: Blue and green, hands down. I'm partial to he more vibrant blues and more earthy greens; especially hunter green with gold accenting. But it has to be a nice gold, not that yucky orangey-yellow some folks use

Lipstick or chapstick: Chapstiiiick! Anything else I get annoyed and scrape it off with my teeth

3 favourite foods: Oh god, I have to choose? I guess... Any pizza really though I have a weakness for deepdish (especially double cheese smothered in sriracha 😍), suicide hot wings (I want to choke on the fumes and feel like my face is melting), aannnnd a nice tender rare steak. You can't see it but I'm drooling now thx guys

Song stuck in my head: The Next Episode by Dr. Dre feat. Snoop Dogg

Last song I listened to: Zombies by The Cranberries (the cover done by Bad Wolves is fucking bomb too)

Last movie I watched: Galaxy Quest (1999) Worth every goddamn penny

Top 3 tv shows: Tough call, but I think the closest would have to be Hannibal, Final Space, and Voltron: Legendary Defender

Books I'm currently reading: The Rowan by Anne McCaffrey and Burial Rites by Hannah Kent

Last thing I googled: Biomedical Technology

Time: 11:04pm

How many blankets do you sleep in: Primarily just my one big galaxy comforter

Dream trip: Phew, that one's a pretty tall order! About 9/10ths of my clan/extended familar are still in europe (mostly Germany and the Netherlands), so I'd like to be able to visit everyone! I haven't met most of them because of distance but we're all still very tightly knit accross continents. So a dream trip would somehow entail being able to get to visit everyone and possibly even go with my Oma before she can't fly anymore (she hasn't seen her sisters in many years). If somehow this all timed itself right so that I could also attend the Trakehner Verband approvals at Neumünster, I would legitimately weep with joy. My opa and I had always planned to go together as he hadn't been since immigrating to Canada, but now that he's passed I want to go for the both of us. It's a family legacy thing, I suppose. My second choice would be to visit either Spain or Portugal for a riding vacation 😍

Anything you really want: To have a prosperous and fulfilling life brimming with true friendship, laughter, and love.

2nd set of q's tagged by @vecchiasignoras 😙

Name: Kate, though I consider it to be quite intimate so only my immediate family calls me by this name. Everyone else refers to me as Kat

Height: 5'9"

Middle name(s): I have two! Their initials are E.M.

Put your music on shuffle. What are the first four songs that come on?

September by Earth, Wind & Fire

In the Middle by Jimmy Eat World

Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana

Something Like This by The Chainsmokers

Bonus: Become the Beast by Karliene

Grab the book nearest you and turn to page 23. What is on line 17? (I counted them as the beginning/end of dialogue and whole sentences)

"She'll... she'll die! You know as well as I do," and Siglen's words crowded each other out of her mouth, "what happens to the truly Talented in space... I mean, look at how ill David became. Remember how devastated Capella was. To subject an infant... of unknown potential... to such mind-destroying trauma! Why you must be mad, Interior. You cannot! I will not permit it!"

Ever had a song or poem written about you? Not to my knowledge! Though the only thing they might draw inspiration from is how big my feet are lmao

When was the last time you played air guitar? Mmm, a few weeks I think? That Mötley Crüe riff was impossible to resist. As for a real guitar, I think it's going on almost 4 or 5 years now? Jesus time flies.

Who is your celebrity crush? They would have to be Tom Holland and Chris Hemsworth. I definitely have a thing for their personality type 😘

What's a sound you hate + a sound you love?

A sound I hate would 12/10 have to be my mother's voice, even just saying my name. It always sounds accusatory and condescending in the kind of way that's like nails on a chalkboard but under your skin. Also the sound of unexpected people WALKING UP ONTO MY PORCH AND KNOCKING ON THE DOOR INVADING MY SANCTUARY. (I loathe unannounced visitors. Hate hate hate them).

A sound that I love would hands down have to be the ambient noises my horse makes when he's just doing... whatever. When he's doing him-stuff. Slurping up electrolyte water like a messy kid, heaving these great big sighs because life amiright? I especially find his annoyed growling to be hilarious, because he is VERY loud and dramatic about it, but only does it when you ask him to do something relatively low effort that he finds tedious. Like flat work, or walking to and from the barn and paddock. Completely droll and lackluster. But going for a friendly gallop in the back field? You'd think we'd just gotten rallied by fucking Théoden to ride to our deaths at the Pelennor Fields. He makes this hard little growly-grunt when he shifts up into the next gear and then boom, you're gone. Just fucking gone. Then he's a happy springy boi. It isn't like his annoyed growling though; it's different. When he's annoyed it's more like verbal complaining; all in the throat. But when he revs it it's much shorter and takes on a hard edge. Comes up deep from the core. I can't really explain it any better than that. I just fucking love sprinting a 1700lbs war machine in general, now that I've re-learned how the hell to ride it 😂 I'm babbling now

Do you believe in ghosts? I believe in spirits and other things, yes.

How about aliens? We've only discovered and understand, what, 0.4% of the known universe? To not be widely open to and fully accepting of the notion that we are not alone would be pure folly. Even from a mathematical standpoint it would be wildly ridiculous not to. That doesn't mean I have any specific theories or "truths" about it, though. It would just be very stupid of me to be closed-minded.

Besides, if it does turn out to be true it would explain a lot of things. I think my favourite wild theory out there is that Mary, mother of Jesus, was artificially inseminated. Like we do with livestock. If nothing else it's fascinating to ponder the implications.

Do you drive? Yes. Pretty gutsy too, if I say so myself. My mum used to drag race so I guess it's both a hereditary as well as a learned thing.

If so, have you ever crashed? Only once, and that was an actual accident. The conditions were super icy so we were already going 20km below the limit, and I was hanging back, but what happened was the car infront of me hit the car infront of them, and when I slammed on the brakes I just slid about 15-20 feet right into their rear end anyways. Nobody got hurt except for my car; she took the worst of it. The car I hit basically just had to pop the dent back out and it was like I hadn't made contact. Lucky badstards. There were a ton of similar accidents that day so everything got wrapped up pretty quick.

What was the last book you read?

It's been so long since I've completed one, mostly because everything these days sucks ass, so I don't remember what it was. The ones I'm currently reading however are The Rowan by Anne McCaffrey and Burial Rites by Hannah Kent

Do you like the smell of gasoline? Clean, quality gasoline? Yes. Dirty low quality gasoline? No.

What was the last movie you saw?

Galaxy Quest (1999)

Do you have any obsessions right now? Not really, no. I mean, technically all things Bioware and my pony, but those are more of a glowering embers kind of love. Not the raging wildfire kind that overtakes the mind and turns you into a fanatic

Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

Eeeehhhhhh, yes and no. Like I won't actively hate you cause why tf would I waste the energy, so it's whatever, but I will also always keep you at arm's length so idk

Are you in a relationship? No, nor do I want to be. I'm enjoying just being on my own and allowing myself to grow as a person. I don't do relationships just for the sake of being in one, or because of this ridiculous notion people seem to have that you aren't complete/a whole person without a significant other. I'm only interested in end-game, and I'm not ready to be open for that right now ✌

Bonus: What's an annoying/bad habit that you have? Talking the shit out of everything. And I swear. A lot. More in my head than out loud, though.