#eh im not tagging this otherwise

[parisoonic]

Quick sum up of the year as people are doing art roundups on insta rn! It's been very fun getting back into truly self indulgent mainly heavymedic lol personal work this year. I don't think I've drawn this much for myself for...ages and ages...usually I draw BGs and sets with the idea that it's going towards a portfolio but all this work has been truly just for me! I've focused on lineart and learning how to draw people...I think I can see a lot of improvement from where I started at the very beginning of the year with some refinement in later months towards where I'd like to be! Still a long way to go fjkhdfh looking back at my folder of 'fin artwork' from this year i wanna do more colour stuff going forward (even if it's just whacking the characters onto a colour-card bg) they're all my favourites or the most interesting to me 🤔 anyways here's to 2024!

[crustyfloor]

I still feel as though I'm missing something when i see the connection of Luka staring at Ivan and Till staring at Luka but nobody is actually looking at each other.

I know the reason for this homophobic stare was probably Ivan regaining his composure/giving himself a check "damn I really did that"/realizing that still trying to reach out to Till one last time was fruitless after slipping up during the song but. What if he was staring back at Luka? what if he knew what was coming all along.

[icecreampizzer]

Here's a little thing I made as a companion to this thing I wrote, whatever it is. Played around with the idea of Fabby and Prism bonding...Somehow.

[crowned-ladybug]

Draw Everything June is gonna condition me to be okay with posting unpolished things again, I can feel it

Days 1 & 2 ft Darius demanding to be included and "oh shit i forgot the paintbrush is fun to scribble with"

[jefferythejelly]

wait this is kinda good

[the-acid-pear]

today's prompts are spiders and self insert so i've been thinking of drawing nembone and a uh, bunger. but Im still thinking around the uh. ? i cant remember the word HELP the fucking COMPOSITION there.

[orrrgalleamtrue]

Redesigned Orbiton (and spacelanders by proxy)

eh, they don't need arms...its just a stylistic choice...and then then i proceeded to stay up in bed when im supposed to be asleep trying to figure out how floating hands could work biologically. What i came up with was primarily inspired by eusocial insects. Basically what i came up with is that when a space lander is born their also born along with two hands and the spacelander can communicate with the hands via a sound organ in their body (not the same one for speech). this organ can only produce sound within a very narrow range for a reason ill explain in a second. the hands can then pick up on the sound and certain sounds or patterns of sound tell the hand to perform a certain action. to denote the hands current state the hands also have this organ (although they only have one not two), this signal is then picked up by a seperate auditory system/sense than the primary ears, this second pair of ears is only able to hear withing a specific frequency. also the pair of sound organs in the spacelanders main body produce slightly different frequencies so that the two hands can only pick up on one signal at time, the same logic applies to the second ears. now why on earth did i make this convoluted system just to have floating hands? because yes. random trivia, the hand signal frequency thing is kinda like blood type but more varied so it IS possible to just...steal someone else's hands and use them. also since hands can sometimes get lost (rarely but it is possible) its not uncommon have dog-tags or in extreme cases leash the hands to the body. also the hands have mouths on their palm area since their seperate beings kinda? to help with sanitary issue the hands are often wrapped up, gloved, or otherwise covered so that the hand mouth doesnt slobber over what your trying to interact with.

(And yes, all this is why I haven posted in a while. Curse my explanation demanding brain!)

[daydreamgoddess14]

Hiii

Noticed Im equally obsessed w slow horses and I love your FICS soooo I just want to ask if you could do a River x Sid fic bc I love their chemistry but there isn't enough to read ABT them :(((

Prompt: After everything that's happened in Slough house, River and Sid are back at the park (and are kinda legends BC they've been through it and survived etc). New co-worker has a thing for Sid and keeps making a pass at her despite being constantly shot down. He notices River is always in the background fuming whenever he's with her and would comes up to her after he's gone so he clocks that River must be into her too.

So to get him out the picture he tried to embarrass him at a meeting by "accidentally" revealing Rivers interest in her and tries to make him look like a creep by saying that he's noticed that River has some of her possessions/knows personal info ABT Sid that no co-worker should.

At the end of it all Sid raises a hand and points to her engagement ring on her finger while River looks all smug and hot (sorry I couldn't resist) at the end if the table

Turns out the entire office already knew ABT them BC they have functioning eyes, also he's new and didn't know. To make things worse Lady Di calls him out for stalking and harassing his co-workers, turns out the entire office has been watching him make a fool of himself the whole week but they were starved for entertainment so no one said anything.

Later we get a snapshot of River and Sid just laughing ABT it back at home and a little domestic fluff.

Sorry ik it's long and feel free to take any liberties (no smut tho pls) I just miss them SM

Tysm for reading this through, if you don't want to write it pls do lmk BC I'll be at the edge of my seat for weeks waiting in suspense otherwise ❤️❤️

Hi love! I'm so sorry this took so long - thank you for your patience 🥰

Hope you enjoy this cute little one-shot!

River Cartwright x Sid Baker fluff

The Bet

“Got you a tea, Sid,” he smiled earnestly.

“Ah, thanks Luke. Need this,” she inhaled, savoring the warmth on her face. 

“Late night?” He queried. 

“Not especially,” she blushed.

“Not out on the town then?”

“Nah, just a quiet one at home. Got a bit competitive over Monopoly.”

“Flatmates eh, who'd have ‘em.” 

“Yeah,” she looked up briefly as River used the shortcut through her office to the stairs. “Especially when they forget to wash up.”

She didn't miss the glare River shot Luke on his way past. 

“Need anything?” He asked, “just popping to the shop.” 

“No thank you,” Sid arched an eyebrow and River disappeared down the stairs. 

She looked back to Luke, still eagerly perched on the edge of his desk. 

“How about you?”

“Oh, I’m rubbish at Monopoly.”

Sid laughed politely,

“I meant did you do anything?”

“Nah, quiet night. No one's got any money in January anyway.”

“Oh, for sure.” She toyed with her necklace. 

“Better get on, Lamb needs these files sorting.”

“He's all bark and no bite really.”

“Only to you. Loves you, don't he?” Luke settled back at his desk, looking distracted, “and Cartwright,” he added darkly. 

“I'm not sure if I'd stretch to love.” She grinned. “We're just old guard around here, that's all.”

The lower door banged and River bounced up the stairs two at a time. 

He used their office as a shortcut again and dropped a chocolate bar on Sid's desk. 

This time, Luke was the one shooting daggers at River's back as he left. 

“Can I ermm… can I walk you to the tube later?”

“Oh, River and I are going for a drink with Lou, actually.”

“Maybe I could tag along?”

“Maybe not, mate, eh?” River spoke up, appearing in the doorway again. “It's an old guard thing, y'know?” 

Luke frowned. 

“Right.” He turned to Sid. “Another time then, Sid? Yeah?”

She pursed her lips, hiding her smile.

“Yeah, maybe. We'll see.” She checked her watch, “Ah shit, I'm late for Catherine. Play nice you two.” She grabbed her laptop and headed for the top floor. 

“Give up, Lukey. She's not interested,” River warned. 

“You've just been resigned to the friendzone, mate,” Luke stressed. “Time to let someone else have a go.” 

“Have a go? Interesting way of putting it. I'm sure Sid'd like that.”

Luke scoffed.

“Oh come on, as if you know any better than I do what she likes? You just like to think you know.” Luke rose from his desk chair to full height, which was still a couple of inches shorter than River. “You're just another reject, you're no more special than anyone else here.”

River smiled and dragged his hand over his lengthening beard. 

“Including you then, right? Since you're here as well. Be interested to know how you wound up here, I bet that's a story.” 

So far, Luke had managed to persuade Ho to keep the reason he was at Slough House under wraps from everyone else by turning up with a fresh case of Red Bull every few days. 

“You're probably right, though,” River continued “I haven't got a clue, really. About Sid, about this place… just another reject, exactly like you said.”

Luke nodded firmly. Victorious despite his unease. 

Cartwright was a different breed. 

Always watching him, always listening, always there. 

The closer Luke got to asking Sid out, the quicker Cartwright was there to insert himself into the conversation. 

Luke hated having competition. 

Not that Cartwright could ever be considered competition. 

There was something, though. 

The cause of the unease that Luke had been able to pinpoint. 

He didn’t give up.

Tenacious, his mum called him.

Pigheaded. Stubborn. Obstinate. 

Those tended to be the words others banded around instead. 

Ex-girlfriends in particular. 

River was stubborn though. 

And occasionally pigheaded. 

Sid didn’t seem to brush him aside so easily. 

So Luke dug in. 

Tried again.

~~~~~~

“Got you a tea, Sid.” He placed it carefully on her desk amidst the piles of paper dotted around. 

Next to it, he put a chocolate bar. The same one he’d seen River leave for her a few days previously.

“Thanks, Luke. Blimey, I’m slacking on the office tea front. Sorry, just really trying to understand…” her voice trailed off as she continued reading without looking up at him. She held the pendant on the chain around her neck, he hadn’t actually seen the necklace. It was either hidden by her clothes, or she was holding it as if it’d fall right off her. “Yeah,” she looked up at last, “sorry, like I said, this stuff is really detailed. Just trying to get my head around it. Oh! Chocolate. Was that you?” 

He nodded, then realised he probably looked like a puppy or a child.

“Yeah, thought you might need a pick up.”

“God, I really do. Forgot lunch today, no bread.”

“Those bloody flatmates again?”

“Something like that,” she held up her hand, waited, and then sneezed. “Got a cold as well, helpfully.”

“Well, I can always go and get you something -” as Luke extended his offer, River breezed through the office and put a pot of steaming soup on Sid’s desk, along with a box of flu tablets.

“Amazing, I’m dying,” she looked up at him, her nose red.

“I know. It’s from Mrs Li downstairs, she said it’s great for a cold.”

“Maybe this stuff is the reason Lamb is never ill.” She wondered, prising off the lid and inhaling the steam that billowed up.

“More than likely,” he agreed, taking one of the largest piles of paperwork from Sid’s desk. “I’ll take these.”

"Oh, the great Cartwright, always the first to volunteer for extra work. Must be trying to impress someone." Luke grumbled.

"Says the guy who spends more time talking than working. Don't you have something better to do, like staring at the back of Sid's head?"

“Alright you two, I’m too full of cold to deal with your shit today. Another word and I’ll make sure you both get struck down by it as well.”

Luke sunk back in his chair, glaring at River who gave him the finger and took himself back to his own office.

“He’s always skulking around,” he muttered once River had gone.

“Is he?” Sid asked, cautiously taking a sip of her soup.

“You haven’t noticed?”

“We’ve worked together a long time, I guess I don’t notice.” She smiled.

“So, about that drink?”

“What drink?” “The one we were going to get together?”

Sid blinked.

“Honestly Luke, I feel like I’ve been run over. I just want to go to bed and sleep for a week. I’m definitely not up for a drink.”

“Right. Yeah, course. Maybe when you feel better.”

She hummed and went back to her soup.

By mid afternoon, she was, as River put it, ‘on her arse’.

“Go home, get some rest. You’ll feel better tomorrow.” He ordered. 

Luke rolled his eyes.

“She’s not a kid, Cartwright.”

“Thanks for your input, stalker.”

Sid raised a hand to stop the arguing, but dropped it straight away. River held her coat open.

“I’ll walk you to the tube, Sid.” Luke started.

“It’s ok, my car is downstairs. I’ll drive.” River interrupted, his mouth in a firm like. “Come on, you’ll be home in ten minutes, I promise.”

“I live twenty minutes away,” she sighed, her brow furrowed and her voice laced with exhaustion.

“Only when you’re driving,” he teased lightly. Sid leaned into him and he shot a smug grin over her head at Luke, who scowled back. 

By the time River had made the round trip, Luke was making coffee.

He placed a mug next to Luke’s in front of the kettle, helped himself to the instant coffee, and continued through to his office to take off his coat. 

"You really think you stand a chance with Sid?” He asked as he came back.

“Yeah, actually. I do.”

“Bit full of yourself, aren't you?"

"At least I'm not just sitting back and letting her slip through my fingers. I'm actually taking a chance. Unlike you, who's just too afraid to make a move."

River frowned, searching his pockets for something.

"Oh yeah, and how's that working out for you? She's still not interested in you, is she?” He looked victorious as he pulled a delicate gold necklace from his shirt pocket.

Luke stared at what he knew, he knew, was Sid’s necklace.

He watched River put it safely back in his pocket.

“She’s interested. She just don’t want to deal with you having a shitfit over it.”

River shrugged. “If you say so.”

“Can’t wait to see you cry when you find out I got her into bed.” Luke grinned. “Kettle’s boiled.”

“Changed my mind. Just got to go out, actually. Don’t form a harem or anything while I’m gone. Lou, Catherine, even Shirley. I bet they’re all dying to jump into bed with you.”

Luke stepped forward into River’s space.

“You need to be knocked down a bit, mate. Think you’re king of the fuckin’ castle ‘ere, don’t you?”

“Nah, not at all. I’m just not a complete twat.” River sneered.

“Sometimes you are. Friend.” Louise nudged past him to get into the kitchen.

“Thanks, friend.” He acknowledged, turning from Luke with a final glare.

“He’s got Sid’s necklace,” Luke said once he heard the lower door slam.

“Has he?” Louise asked distractedly.

“Yeah, I saw it.”

She looked up at him and stared for a moment before shrugging.

“I didn’t see anything.”

~~~~~~

“Who’s got the traffic offence files?” Shirley asked, reading over Catherine’s shoulder.

“I think Louisa had them,” Sid offered as Louisa nudged the door with her foot and came through with a tray of mugs.

“I did have that one, but I gave it to Ho to run plates.”

“All done,” Ho held up a file and passed it to Catherine with one hand, while reaching for his coffee with the other. “Did ya bring biscuits Guy?”

“Kitchen, get them yourself.”

Their weekly office meeting was in full swing, and the team was discussing the progress on some ongoing projects. 

“Alright, next on the list -” Shirley looked again at Catherine’s list.

“Shirley, could we just wait til everyone’s here and I can go through things properly?”

“Soz, just trying to get this torture over with,” she grumbled, dropping into a chair.

“It’s over when I say so,” Lamb told her firmly, taking a seat at the head of the table. “Right, Standish, let’s get this crap over with.”

“See!” Shirley exclaimed. 

Lamb looked over the top of his glasses.

“Dander has volunteered for the 1992 file.” He told Catherine, who made a note. 

Everyone groaned.

“What’s up with that?” She asked, worriedly.

“1992 files are messed up, everything from ‘92 is filed -” River started.

“Incorrectly.”

“Like shit.”

“In the bin.”

“Fucking wonderful.” Shirley sighed.

Suddenly, Luke spoke up, his tone accusatory.

"Hey, Cartwright," he began, fixing him with a steely gaze. "What's up with that necklace you had the other day? I saw you with it.”

All eyes swivelled to Luke. 

Lamb frowned.

“What exactly does that have to do with this meeting?” He looked up at Cathering, “do I really need to do this? This lot are useless, a weekly meeting is hardly going to fix that.”

“We thought it might make the office more… harmonious.”

“Is that the royal we?” He questioned, picking up his mug and leaning back in his chair. His feet came up to the table, nudging a pile of papers closer to Sid.

"What necklace?” River sighed.

Luke crossed his arms, "don't play dumb. I saw you carrying around Sid's necklace the other day. You know, the one she always wears?”

The attention turned to River.

“Such a creep, you say I’m the stalker but you’re the one nicking her jewelry and buying her lunch, driving her home…”

“If we can get back on topic,” Catherine attempted.

"What are you talking about, Luke?" Sid moved her collar aside, "I'm wearing my necklace now?”

Luke's eyebrows furrowed in confusion as he looked at Sid's neck, realizing she was indeed wearing the necklace he had seen River with. 

He looked back at River, trying to backtrack.

"Wait, what? ... I must have been mistaken," he mumbled, his confidence wavering.

“Standish, give Lukey-boy the ‘92 files. Dander, call this your reprieve.”

“Right, moving on then -”

"Oh, I know what he's on about," River acknowledged, turning to Sid. "The thing, y'know?"

She nodded in understanding. 

"Ah, of course," she said, a hint of recognition in her tone. "The necklace." 

The rest of the office looked back and forth between River, Sid, and Luke, trying to piece together the situation.

Lamb’s mug hit the table with force.

“Can someone just put me out of my misery before I start firing you all?”

"We should probably just…" Sid shrugged, "tell them?" 

"Only if you want to?" River said.

The office fell silent, and all eyes were on Sid and River. 

Sid glanced around at her coworkers, seeing the mixture of confusion and curiosity on their faces. She took a deep breath and nodded.

"Yeah, might as well," she said, her hand instinctively going to touch her necklace, but faltering slightly.

“Might as well?” River grinned, “thanks a lot.”

As Sid’s hand came down from where it had gone to reach for her necklace, Louisa squeaked.

“Oh!” 

Luke frowned, looking around as Louisa, and then Catherine quickly caught onto whatever was going on.

“Oh how lovely!” Catherine exclaimed, rising from her chair and going around the table to them.

“Anyone want to fill me in?” Ho asked, confused.

Sid held up her left hand where a beautiful ring had been noticed by Louisa.

“We got engaged over Christmas,” she beamed, looking over to Lamb.

“Who’s we?” Luke asked. His question was soon answered as Catherine moved from hugging Sid, to River. “Him?!”

“The ring didn’t fit, so I was wearing it on my necklace til River got it resized.” Sid explained from somewhere in Louisa’s arms. “We were just waiting for the right time to tell you all.”

“‘Bout time,” Lamb muttered, not moving his feet from the table. “He asked me bloody ages ago!”

Sid looked up from Louisa’s hug.

“What do you mean?”

“He,” he pointed at River, “asked my permission weeks ago.”

“I did tell you I was going to ask at Christmas,” River pointed out. 

“You asked Lamb for permission?” Sid smiled softly.

River shrugged.

“Work dad.”

“Wait, wait,” Luke spoke up, “so you all knew they were together?”

“Duh,” Shirley looked at him in disgust.

“Oh Luke, you really should pay closer attention.” Louisa sighed, handing him the ‘92 files.

“We do have eyes, Luke.” Catherine added, a little more gently than the others.

“Anyway,” Ho interrupted, “shout out to Cartwright for not twatting Luke earlier,” he raised his mug.

“Here, here,” Shirley joined in. “God, I wouldn’t have lasted a day,” she glared at Luke.

“But… but you’ve got a flatmate, you said they’re annoying? They don’t wash up, they use up all the bread?”

“Who forgets to wash up?” River turned to Sid in outrage.

“Well, that’s me, actually,” she admitted. “But you did use all the bread.”

“Yeah, fair enough.”

“C’mon you lot, enough domesticity. Let’s get this bloody meeting finished,” Lamb sighed. “I’ve got a call with Lady Di in a bit about how Luke’s getting on.”

Luke’s eyes widened, Lamb grimaced.

“Can’t wait to tell her about this.”

~~~~~~

Sid wiggled her toes further underneath River’s thighs while he flicked through TV channels.

“Ow,” he grunted, pulling her feet out from under him and putting them in his lap, warming them with his hand.

“Sorry,” she mumbled, reading on her phone.

“Anything good?” He asked.

“Remember Danni in HR at the Park?”

“Not really,” he shook his head, settling on an old episode of Grand Designs.

“She said Luke was in there earlier for a showdown with Taverner,” his hand stopped rubbing her feet.

“And?”

“She tore him a new one for what happened. Told him his behaviour was out of order and he’s lucky he’s still got a job. She told him the only reason Lamb let it go on for so long was because he had a running bet with everyone in the office over how long it’d take for you to hit him.”

River smiled smugly.

“Told you I could win that.”

“River, no one thought you’d win that. I had you down to hit him in the first week.”

“Oh ye of little faith,” he teased. “How does your mate know all of this anyway?”

“She was the one taking the notes for the investigation,” Sid laughed. “She says he was a mess, crying and apologising. Taverner told him to stop being a child and has recommended him for further training.”

“How not to be a dickhead?”

“Hmm, something like that. Apparently the reason he’s even at Slough House is because he kept harassing women in the office.”

River frowned.

“Shit, really?” 

Sid nodded, reading from her phone, “Three women reported him to HR because he followed them home after work.”

“I should have hit him,” River said decidedly.

“Too late for that now. So, what’re you going to buy with your winnings?”

“Thought I might take my wife-to-be out for dinner.”

“Excellent idea, especially since I forgot to get any food in,” she blushed.

“You make a rubbish flatmate, maybe I should swap you for Luke?” He leaned over her knees and brushed a light kiss over her lips.

“Nahh,” she kissed him back, “he’s shit at Monopoly.”

“Can’t be any worse than you,” River grinned.

[deliciousmicroplastics]

for the ask game: every question number divisible by 3

*goes through several hand exercises* here we GO

ask meme here [link]

3. What was the last song you listened to? 

UHHHHH my itunes is saying Astonished Man by Thao & The Get Down Stay Down

6. Do you prefer drawing or writing? 

VASTLY prefer writing but i like showing off my drawings better more, i don't tend to finish and publish all that much writing

9. When is your birthday? 

September 28th, just like Hilary Duff

12. Who are five (or more) people you want to hug right now?

my cat, annizap, zoë, ppl i have super secret crushes on, you if you want one!

also my cat

15. What’s your favorite season?

Usually autumn but last year's was dogshit so spring

18. Who is the last person you texted?

im guessing my mom let me check

...

...

phone froze

okay yeah my mom

21. How was your day today?

had family dinner that through no major fault of my family's i didn't want to go to. so i was kinda binchy abt that for a lot of the day but otherwise eh it was kinda mid. played animal crossing!

24. When was the last time you cried? Why? 

idk but ive been so fucking sad lately so it could've been sometime this week during a negative spiral

27. What’s your favorite book? Or just one you’ve read a few times?

Gideon the Ninth? Watchmen?

30. What are you looking forward to in the near future? 

making brownies for my friends bday it's today but i had family shit so hopefully that can be a tuesday or wednesday activity

33. Do you sleep with your door open or closed?

CLOSEDDDDDDDDD unless the house is empty i don't always wear a shirt to bed

36. Do you like your middle name?

my early 20's name change was more motivated by the bit and i wish i'd gone with something else but it's okay, i just rarely mention it

39. Do you stay up late?

typically, unfortunately

42. Tag 5 of your favorite blogs

hhhhhh but then five people will feel obligated to read this okayok it's fineeeee @jargon-seeds, @salviasjezabel, @inthelandofthewildthings, @dolichomorph, and of course @xollos

45. Is there anyone you would die for? 

id die for my kitty

49. Who’s someone you can trust with your life? 

i'm a distrustful motherfucker so if you ask it like this my instinct is to say NOBODYYYYYY but like ive had to depend on other people for survival frequently

uhhhhh end of post here's something from my screenshots folder

[chaos-in-the-making]

I'll tag spoilers this time bc i want to be specific. Moments from the first 2 episodes that made me scream:

THE FUCKING FIGHT WITH THE FADES. MORAINE BEING AN ABSOLUTE BOSS. LIKE WTF SHE PROVES OVER AND OVER THAT LAN IS THERE BY CHOICE NOT JUST NECESSITY. but also Lan is a crucial part of her success and safety and he's the goodest boy.

the scene in the village with Perrin. The flies at the table??? Omg that SCENE is iconic from the book. And I love how Perrin's powers are starting to manifest. During the book I thought it was just seen by Rand bc he was the Dragon, but the show is making Perrin's powers sort of manifest like he's already half way in the Dream World. More on that later.

AND THEY ACTUALLY SHOWED THE FUCKING FADE NAILED TO THE DOOR. OH GOD THAT WAS HORRIFYINGLY ACCURATE. PADAN FUCKING FAIN DID THAT. YIKES.

Mat and Min sharing cells next to each other? AGH AWESOME. It was good.

Liandrin trying to break Nynaeve's block. They pretty much changed that moment from The Amyrlin to Liandrin, but I'm not mad about it. Nynaeve is Boss.

things I went huh??:

Selene being there already. No, I won't reveal who she is, but the fact that she and Rand are actually being intimate makes me go Ew. Cuz he NEVER touched her in the books, which made her jealousy all the more funnier bc he keeps fucking other women and she's like "you're mine" despite all the evidence otherwise. So eh. I'm not on board with that change. ALSO HES SUPPOSED TO LOSE HIS VIRGINITY WITH SOMEONE ELSE. IM A LITTLE MAD ABOUT IT.

Liandrin being humanized. I get it, the whole point is that everyone has reasons for what they do, and giving Nynaeve a reason to trust her is there, but it still makes me not like it. I can't say more without giving away spoilers, so I'll leave it at that for now.

So Loial just showing up after being stabbed in the last season made me go HUH??? WASNT HE STABBED?? Yeah that was given no explanation. OH I REMEMBER, WASNT HE STABBED WITH THE RED DAGGER?? thats why I thought he had died! NO ONE SURVIVES BEING STABBED BY THE SHADAR LOGOTH DAGGER. So yeah, I am a confused.

[b4kuch1n]

fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

[nightshade-anura]

annabeth stans be thinking that theyre feminist icons when they're allomonocishet white girls reading ya novels where the protagonist is an allomonocishet blonde girl with a sole personality of girlboss who falls in love with a dark brooding mysterious unintentionally queercoded white boy

[alwayschoppedtaco]

summer break ll c.s.

pairing: carlos sainz x reader

warning: none

summary: summer break with carlos

instagram edit

faceclaim: Taylor Hill

masterlist  

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y/n_l/n back home for the summer break

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carlossainz55 gonna be a fun couple of weeks

y/n_l/n always fun when im with you ❤️

fan1 they are so cute together

ferarrifan ugh they are to cute

taylorswift have fun!

y/n_l/n would be more fun with you

carlossainz55 really feeling the love

fanuser hey god, its me again

carlossainz55

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carlossainz55 she loves the books more than me

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y/n_l/n caption is a lie

carlossainz55 is it?

fanonetwo when will it be my turn

landonorris its okay mate, i love you more than books

carlossainz55 thanks mate

y/n_l/n carlando 4 life

usertwo hahah y/n being a carlando supporter is what i live for

y/n_l/n everyones a carlando fan

y/n_l/n

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y/n_l/n hottest boat driver i could find

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carlossainz stop im blushing

y/n_l/n ❤️

userfour im sleeping on the highway tonight

fanfour they really are the hottest couple

charlesleclerc eh, i’ve seen hotter

landonorris no you haven’t

y/n_l/n no you haven’t

user2two aww, carlos gf and bf defending him

carlossainz55

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carlossainz55 summer break back home

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y/n_l/n aww puppies

carlossainz55 darling, im there too

y/n_l/n yeah but puppies 🙃

fanthreeteen the cutest couple 

usertwenty2 can we take a moment to appreciate how pretty y/n is tho?

userfourtheen y/n was right, carlos is the hottest 

 charlesleclerc more dogs, less carlos

carlossainz55 this is MY instagram page

y/n_l/n

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y/n_l/n new character unlocked: grill master carlos

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carlossainz55 i am the grill master, thanks for noticing

landonorris carlos is cooking? coming to spain right now

y/n_l/n better hurry

fannumber55 dare i say, future dilf?

userf13 babe wake up, a new carlos just dropped

f1fannumber5 this is incredibly attractive, no one can tell me otherwise

usertwentytwo new goal in life: have carlos grill for me

fanthirtyseven future dilf alert

y/n_updates

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y/n_updates y/n arriving to dinner in spain with boyfriend carlos sainz

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y/nfan she so effortlessly pretty

numerf1 i want to marry her

y/nandcarlos they are so cute together ugh

carlosfan don’t know if i want to be y/n, or be with y/n

carlossainzfan they make me want to be sick in a good way

fanoffone hottest couple for real

carlos_y/n if they ever break up, love isn’t real

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thanks for the tag love! doing mine in a reblog because theres no way im remembering all these tropes lol

Age Gap: -2

i feel like this tag just tells you what the author thinks age gap means like sometimes its 5 years and sometimes its 30. not for me if it feels like theres a power imbalance in romantic relationships. i don't think anyone actually tags age gap for friendships

Codependency: 10

im a platonic stobin bitch babeyyy of course a codependency tag is a green flag. fandoms definition of it is more just mutually very clingy as opposed to actual irl or unbalanced codependency

obsession/possessive/jeleous: 0

it can be done well or done really wrong. im all for a good "that's MY funky fella" when related to trauma (again stobin) but a lot of romantic possessiveness has the potential to go really disrespectful to the partner? like they can have friends either calm down or get run over please (its only really that bad if the story pretends this is cute or romantic and not severe dick behavior)

opposites (grumpy/sunshine etc): -1

doesn't really direct my focus but i am wary of making characters one personality trait to fit the aesthetic

Enemies to lovers: 0

eh. depends on the author and can be really good (characters expanding their worldview and growing) or really bad (why are you attracted to them? after everything they did? please just date x side character instead they're actually nice to you)

sex to feelings: nah

i can't handle nsfw anymore so im not reading this but it makes sense to me

fake dating/relationship: -1

honestly didn't expect my own answer but i just can't remember being invested in most fake dating aus (the exception being ones that had a fake relationship between steddie where steve is eddies albi after s4 abd explores the consequences of word getting out)

friends to lovers: 3

super cute but you get tired of hearing "i don't want to mess up our friendship over some feelings" over and over

Found Family: 10 (a million if i could)

im literally writing an au where steve gets adopted by dustins mom. this shit keeps me alive

hurt/comfort: 10

break the bitch and get them some self care and that's what i call storytelling. my default state of mind. im just now realizing all my writing is hurt/comfort

love triangle: -7

ew. the exception is season 2 stranger things stancy vs jancy (AND ONLY S2!! they didn't need it in s1 or s4 at all) because its interesting to explore how nancys trauma crumbles her closest relationship and how she can't say anything interesting she's drunk in a bathroom. really wish that was portrayed as a new thing that stemmed from being unable to shake association with barb and steve and problems with how they both dealt with trauma instead of just. she actually had a crush on Jonathan and he didn't ask her out fast enough. thanks i love a character emotionally cheating for a year before the interesting drama acts on that for her. (but hey thats what fic is for) (also post s1 stoncy fic slays)

open/poly: 0

haven't dipped my toes into that. stoncy is cool tho and love that its the solution to love triangles

mistaken/hidden identity: 3

the logistics can't be too stupid but otherwise love these

monsterfucking: no nsfw. monsterkissing? 0

again no nsfw. kissing vampires is cool but that's also like vanilla mf isn't it. usually don't run into sfw monsterkissing outside that

pregnancy: no.

severe squick. its deeply disturbing to me (not like seeing pregnant people in general just it being a plot in fic. surrogacy and wholesome building a family is fine as long as its kinda a background detail) (just from personal fear, being ace, and inability to handle smut and stuff)

second chance: -3

not impossible to do well but i often find myself asking why they broke up or why it suddenly works now

slow burn: 0

contrivances irritate me but also plenty of good ones where they just take their time falling in love

soulmate aus: 3

i just think they're neat. if platonic stobin aren't also somehow platonic soulmates i edit the worldbuilding in my head and im on my merry way

idk who tf has already been tagged so uhhhhh @stobinesque @spoookysix @wuffgang-ameowdeus-moozart @loser-jpg @nymime and anyone else who wants to join 💕

Trope rating game

I'm so late but I love these! tagged by @zerokrox-blog ❤️❤️❤️

rules: How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic? -10 -> very dissuaded 

0 - don’t care either way 

+10 -> very enticed 

nope -> if it’s a hard no and you’d never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you’d insta click out of the fic if it wasn’t tagged.  Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it’s conditional.

Age gap: 0

Definity depends. I don't seek it out but anything like 10 years or less doesn't freak me out too bad.

Codependency: 10

I love it so much it's ~embarrassing~ But I think thats the funny thing with what I write and what I like in fic in general, it's almost all stuff I'd hate in real life?? What does that say about me?

Obsession/Possessiveness, jealousy: 10

See above!

Opposites (grumpy/sunshine etc): 2

I don't seek it out persay but its almost always cute as hell.

Enemies to lovers, Enemies with benefits: -2

I'm such a true love/fluff addict, I usually dont got the patience. But I have seen sooo many good fics with that trope though, I respect the writers.

Friends with benefits: -2

Just say you love each other already jesus christ 😭😭 (Did I mention I have no patience??)

Sex to feelings: -1

See above

Fake dating/relationship: -1

Same ish with friends and benefits! I'm such a baby gee wiz.

Friends to lovers: +2

It's cute!

Found Family: 10

Love it soooo much. Adore, adore, adore, adore!

Hurt/Comfort: +5

The guarantee of comfort, always gets me going.

Love Triangle: -10

Make em all fuck or get out of my face honestly.

Poly, open relationships: 0

Eh, I like reading the occasional like closed poly relationships or threeway but open ones just dont get me. Maybe because of bad experiences?

Mistaken/hidden identity: 3

I like them....the stupidier it is the better and no i do not know why!

Monsterfucking: +10

Yeahhhhhhhhh, I'm a fan. Definite fan. Mega fan.

Pregnancy: 5

Omegaverse or not, I like it. Which again. actual pregnancy is one of my top 5 fears. Whats up with that?

Second Chance: 0

Eh, don't look for it don't mind it. Im such a little bitch with angst it's not even funny.

Slowburn: 0

Can take or leave.

Soulmates: +5

It's cute!

Tagging with no pressure! @spectrum-spectre @letscrank @devondespresso @jjoesjonas @pearynice @heavenlycrashes @henderdads @hammity-hammer @homosexual-having-tea

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i love yall and like at the end of the day it’s chill if u dont read my rules before following and if u save it for later but truly u should check them out just 2 skim who im exclusive w. bc that does mean im not gonna be following more of that character 

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yo.

i'm soot, hopefully soon continuing my mer!DCA fic ( @whitelakesboys ). also, i have written too many self-insert/savage opress (star wars) fics

if you're here for mando'a, scroll to the end of this post :3 ⬇️⬇️

in addition to self-shipping, this blog contains personal posts, finnish shit, judaism (i'm, eh, ~ yir'ei elokim for now) and the occasional finnish current events, but for the most part no heavy topics. tagging is inconsistent but i try to tag negativity/heavy stuff as #negative.

pillowfort - cohost - bluesky

Mer!DCA fic:

Savalorian AU fic:

(his nickname here is vaash, and that's also his tag (#vaash).)

i also adore:

... and then some?

i don't mind sharing. AUs and polycules exist. ✌️

this is a discourse free zone. i'm not here to indulge infighting.

no dni; i curate my own experience. apply the same principle to me, ty. 👍

i may draw sometimes. and once i wrote the following:

my S/Is:

Gi Kast (Star Wars, with Savage since Aug 2019, married with children) #savalorian au #savagi

Vinnie (SU, with Jasper since July 2019) #serpentineverse

Mikitta (Marvel, in a polyship with Mayhem and Ultron since July 2023, may have a kid or a few in some 'verses) #ultimate mayhem

Bo (Divergent, Eric's fave Dauntless individual since March 2024) #cb2o au #boric

my fankids:

Cuyan Kast - Feral Kast - Nyn Kast - Nuhur Kast

Sidzla Ultron-Karamäki - Satu Ultron-Karamäki

and some more OCs

i also platonically have several emotions about Rocket Raccoon

not a BYF but a FYB (for your benefit)

follow your own dni when considering following me. doing otherwise is just awkward.

updated mar 25th -25

Mando'a resources under the cut!

Karen Traviss' archived mando'a page

searchable version of Traviss' mando'a dictionary on mandoa.org, bummer that it has ads now

My mando'a grammar guide (sources: Traviss' grammar guide, Traviss' dictionary and SW books, Traviss' forum posts, conjecture)

My aggregate mando'a dictionary

tumblr user ranahan's mando'a analysis and more (recommended!)

in particular, ranahan's TAM concept

Peltigaan's aggregate mando'a dictionary

Groxus mando'a translator (do not use for english->mando'a translations unless you know what you're doing!)