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Sen Çal Kapımı Episode 13 : Eda x Serkan

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Happy Sen Çal Kapımı Saturday!

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The One That Got Away

Summary: Serkan Bolat didn't stop or confess his love to Eda in episode 11 and she left for Italy. Two years later, she's back and this time he has different plans.

A/N: Okay, first I want to make it clear while I do write Edser this one is not my story. This gem was written by @lalehbalefire on twitter who has written these amazing concepts. This one was the first I read and just made me want to expand it a little by putting it in a fanfic form.

All credit for this work of art goes to @lalehbalefire.

I hope you enjoy her story as much as I did.

Businessman, Serkan Bolat who recently took over his dad's firm, now successfully handles two companies, but all he feels is empty. He could have anything in the world, but he stands like somebody stole every penny of his. Eyes with no light, heart with no peace, and like a walking dead body.

An empty shell.

Looking up at the stars from the garden in his home only makes Serkan think of what he lost.

“Iyi geceler, Eda Yıldız,” he murmured, regret and guilt for not stopping her have been eating him alive. Two years since she left, two years of wishing he had a time machine so he could go back, hold her hand and hold her in his arms. Missing her and wanting her every minute for two years.

Looking at the stars and wishing he would’ve done things differently. Done whatever he had to do to keep the most important star of all.

He knew she loved him. He was no fool to misread her brown eyes but a fool to surrender and let his logic win. She was a risk and his heart wanted it but he felt like a coward. Or maybe he didn't stop her because what if he stopped her and she'd still abandon him? Like everyone else?

Staring at the photo from their fake engagement, he didn’t think he would have survived a rejection after opening his heart.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“Melek?” Serkan had rushed over after Melo had ended a call with him abruptly. It hadn’t sat right with him. For obvious reasons.

“Enişte…” Melo said in surprise to see him outside the office at this time.

“What happened? You said something about Eda and hung up? I canceled all my meetings & came. What happened?” Serkan asked.

“Your Eda is coming back,” Melo told him, her smile wide.

“Shh-..e-..WHAT?” Serkan couldn’t believe it. He smiled. FINALLY. The day he has been waiting for. He will get his ‘the one that got away’ back.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Serkan Bolat has been in contact with Melek and Ceren for the last two years.

For what? For Eda. He calls them, they meet up for lunch every week to discuss when she's coming and the best friends fill him in on what she's been up to.

He had grown close to the both of them in that time, feeling connected to Eda through her friends.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

When he arrived at her garden, there she was looking even more beautiful than he remembered. Her hair was pulled back with a few tendrils of her hair, falling around her face.

Deli Kız, he thought, smiled, looking at her beautiful self, talking to her plants.

The first time he saw her after two years and she left him breathless. He couldn't even utter a hi. He just stood there looking at her for ten minutes, gathering the courage to talk to her.

Eda looked up, feeling a prickling sensation, something telling her she wasn’t alone and couldn’t believe her eyes. “S..-Serkan?”

“Meraba.” Serkan greeted, not moving, afraid if he did, he would stumble at her feet like a nervous schoolboy.

A long pause, she stared at him and couldn't believe he was right in front of her. “How did you find me?”

“I have my sources,” Serkan answered.

“Why are you here?” Eda asked, standing, dusting dirt from her clothes.

“You wished maybe one day we would meet in one of your gardens. Here I am.” Serkan smiled, his eyes intensely on her. He took a step toward her, finally feeling like he could move closer without embarrassing himself.

darn! he remembered, her heart flipped.

She took a step away from him as he drew closer.

“Where are you going?” Serkan questioned.

“Uh..-I have a meeting.” Eda turns to leave.

She was running away from him. Her heart was beating like a freaking manic and she feared he might hear it.

The more distance she put between them, the better.

“No, you're coming with me,” Serkan informed her, quickly catching up with her.

“Serkan! Don't you have meetings?” Eda said in protest.

“Cancelled them all. PLEASE?” he insisted, falling into step with her.

“WHAT?”

Eda couldn’t believe it, the shock of it had her surrendering, allowing Serkan to take her by the arm and lead her toward his car. A car she was very familiar with and brought back memories.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda soon found herself in the passenger seat of Serkan’s car, the top-down just how she had always liked it.

“So, my Eda, where do you want to go?” Serkan inquired.

She stared at him in disbelief.

My Eda? With that smile on his face? Was she dreaming?

“Eda?” Serkan said, not sure if she heard him.

“What did you say before?” Eda asked.

“My Eda, where do you want to go?” Serkan repeated his earlier question.

“Uh...anywhere,” Eda answered, her mind elsewhere.

MY EDA? TWICE? Would you look at his confidence? She thought.

Twenty minutes later, Eda sat across from Serkan in a high-class cafe.

“You remember the time we had lunch in a similar place?” Eda asked. “You were asking me to not talk all the time but I agree I talked too much.”

“And now I wish you'd never stop talking to me,” said Serkan.

“Serkan?” Eda looked at him in concern. He was so different, it was unusual.

“Yeah?” Serkan asked.

“Are you alright?” Eda questioned.

“Why?” Serkan asked, not understanding why she would be asking him that.

“You seem different,” Eda answered, speaking her thoughts.

“I have changed,” Serkan told her.

Eda was unsure how to respond and said nothing.

“So, do you have a boyfriend?” Serkan asked, after a beat of silence.

“How is Selin?” Eda asked in return..

“Selin?” Serkan repeated. “I don't know.”

“Last time I left you were with her.” Eda reminded.

“I was not and I am not with her,” Serkan said, wanting to make that clear.

“Why?” Eda asked, frowning. Hadn’t that been the whole point of their arrangement in the past?

“Is there anyone in your life?” Serkan asked instead of answering, not wanting to talk about Selin. She was unimportant.

“You have no right to ask me that.” Eda declared, looking out at the ocean from the window view.

“I want to know who's against me, I mean who is my replacement.” Serkan insisted.

Eda looked back at him, away from the water. “Replacement? Serkan, we were never real.”

“But do you wish we were?” Serkan wondered. Did she think about how things could be different if they had been real?

“I was never your perfect woman,” Eda answered, forcing down the sadness of the truth she believed.

Her words hurt him like a slap to the face. “Are you trying to hurt me?”

It wasn’t humanly possible for any woman to be more perfect than her, let alone perfect for him.

“I am answering your question, Serkan. We're sitting here like nothing ever happened and being so friendly. Why?” Eda questioned. “The two months ended two years ago!...” Eda’s voice grew stronger with the anger coursing through her body. “We shouldn't be sitting here. You said, after two months we won't ever see each other again. Stand with your words, Serkan!”

“I know you're angry with me. I know I shouldn't have sto-”

“Stop.” Eda cut him off, the emotion in her voice closing off. “Please. Go home. Forget we ever met.”

She stood not giving Serkan a chance to say anything else and left, leaving Serkan behind.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Later Serkan got together with Engin, needing someone to talk to.

“What are your plans?” Engin asked as they played a round of pool.

“There are no plans. There is only one plan. Making her forgive me and then making her happy with me.” Serkan answered, taking a shot and sinking the ball in the pocket.

“It's gonna be hard. She's still mad at you.” Engin reminded him unnecessarily.

“Exactly. Mad at me because she still cares, and that was what I wanted to see. That's what Ceren said.” Serkan said. After seeing her anger he is more determined than ever.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda was out with her girls, needing something to take her mind off Serkan.

“What are your plans now?” Ceren asked her friend.

“Only one plan. Stay away from him at any cost. I won't fall for that pretty face again.” said Eda determined. She would not let him break her heart for a second time.

“Pretty face?” Ceren grinned. “Admit that you're happy to see him.”

“Yani sure. It was good. He's more handsome now. I almost lost myself.” Eda admitted. “So, fresh, young, and sweet.”

It would be hard to resist him but she was strong-willed she believed she could do it.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

The next morning, it did not surprise Eda to see Serkan. She was sitting outside in a hotel garden she was working the landscaping on when she spotted him.

“Are you following me?” She accused.

“Coincidence,” Serkan answered, coming toward her.

“Who is feeding you my information? Melo?” Eda questioned, eyes narrowing suspiciously.

“Oh yeah, how's Melek?” Serkan asked, pretending not to have spoken to her recently.. “It's been a while since we talked.”

“Liar,” Eda said, sending him a flat glare.

“You know I love how we keep meeting. Must be fate,” said Serkan with a grin.

“Must be stalking,” Eda corrected.

“Allah Allah. Now you're hurting me.” Said Serkan.

“What do you want?” Eda asked, forcing a tired sigh.

“Work with me,” Serkan responded.

“Hell no,” Eda’s answer was immediate.

“Eda, please. I need you.” Serkan pleaded.

“I knew you were gonna do this. You always do this to make me stay closer,” said Eda in exasperation.

“I don't have a landscape architect. I need one immediately and you're my best option.” Serkan told her, hoping to persuade her.

“Nope. I can't,” said Eda, turning him down.

“So you're not willing to work with someone who always supported your work, appreciated it, and taught you?” Serkan questioned.

“What? Are you trying to emotionally blackmail me?” Eda asked in disbelief.

“Are you rejecting me?” Serkan asked in return.

“Serkan. Don't do this.” Eda protested. “We're not in contract anymore. We shouldn't do this.”

Serkan felt a wave of irritation. “Stop bringing up the contract.”

“Fine,” Eda replies.

“Let's try again,” said Serkan, surprising her.

“T-..ry what?” Eda stammered.

“Our relationship.” Serkan clarified.

“W-.hat.” Eda looked at him, taken aback. He couldn’t be serious.

“I mean, let's work together. Let's be civil to each other and mend this cold relationship between us? Be friends?” Serkan suggested.

“You're definitely not okay,” said Eda, certain of this. No one person could change so much.

Serkan gently picked the flower from her hair, surprising her further.

There was a fluttering in her stomach like butterflies that could not be trusted. .

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Later that night, Eda spent the night at home with her friends, telling them about her recent encounters with the ever frustrating Serkan Bolat.

“He is driving me crazy. He calls me MY EDA TWICE, says all the sweetest things, he's being so gentle, he has this beautiful, I mean, weird smile on his face all the time and he gently picks a FLOWER from MY hair. WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM? WHY ISN'T HE BEING SERKAN BOLAT?” Eda demanded. He was nothing like the man she remembered him to be and it was frustrating.

Melo listened as she ranted, letting her friend get it off her chest.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Later, Eda was in the kitchen with her friend Ceren.

“If I stay in a room with him for more than an hour, my heart will be screaming his name again and I don't want that,” said Eda, sitting on the counter as Ceren made tea.

“Serkan has been through a lot since you left. I know it's hard but help him this time, please. He has started to smile for the first time in two years. Please.” said Ceren, pleading with her friend. In the years that had passed, Serkan had become a good friend to her and Melo. He was a good man and she wanted her friend to give him a chance.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“I heard she's back.” Aydan Bolat said to her son when she saw him at home.

“She is,” Serkan confirmed. He didn’t need his mother to use Eda’s name to know who she meant. Her eyes said it all and he knew from her pinched expression that she wasn’t happy about it.

“You should stay aw-..”

“No, I won't.” Serkan cut her off abruptly. His mother had never liked Eda and preferred Selin but he no longer cared for her opinion where Eda was concerned. “I will not stay away from Eda. You have always disliked her, tried to keep me away from her. I listened to you the last time but I won't anymore. I don't care about your opinions about her, I care about mine now.”

Aydan stared at her son in disbelief but it was clear by the stony look in his eyes and the stubborn set of his jaw that he meant every word he said.

Aydan wasn’t sure what more she could say or do to convince him Eda wasn’t right for him. She hoped he didn’t come to regret his choices.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda and Serkan meet again in the park. Completely coincidental.

She tries to hide, but he still catches her like old times. With Sirius’s help, of course.

“I am surprised to see you here,” Eda said in greeting.

“We come here every week,” said Serkan, rubbing the top of Sirius’s head affectionately.

“Every week for two years?” Eda asked.

“Yes? Sirius misses you a lot and loves this place. I think it reminds him of you.” Serkan told her, a smile playing on his lips.

“Wow.” Eda knelt down to show Sirius some affection, much to the dog’s happiness.

“Sometimes we sit here for hours. I have actually fallen asleep on this bench many times,” said Serkan, sitting down on the bench, Sirius settling at his feet.

“You slept here?” Eda asked in surprise, taking the seat next to him on the bench. She tried to imagine it but couldn’t picture him, sleeping in a park even by accident. “Serkan...”

“Why are you surprised?” Serkan asked.

“Because it's not like you,” answered Eda. “And I thought you'd forget everything, me and my things,”

“I remember everything. I can't forget you ever.” Serkan swore, his voice quiet in his honesty.

Eda admitted to herself that this new Serkan she was getting to know had a way with words and knew just what to say. “Good night, Serkan. I'll see you tomorrow,”

“Tomorrow?” he couldn’t hide his surprise and Eda smiled. “See you,” he said and watched her go. He wanted to sit and talk to her, never stop talking to her like in Antalya where they talked into the night, but she was being distant and it was bothering him.

The next morning she arrived at Art Life as promised.

“You're here,” Serkan said, standing to greet her.

“I am.” she smiled.

“Thank you,” Serkan ducked his head, feeling his cheeks heat.

“Are you blushing?” Eda smiled wider.

“Maybe,” Serkan admitted.

“I came to work with you but I have four rules,” Eda informed him, she needed him to know she had conditions. It was the only way this would work.

“Should I make a contract?” Serkan asked, with a glint in his eyes.

“Serkan, I am serious.” Eda insisted. “#1 We will behave as professionally as we can.”

“Agreed,” said Serkan.

“#2 you will stop looking at me like that,” said Eda.

“Like what?” Asked Serkan.

“Like the way, you're looking at me now,” said Eda, her pulse thumping from the heat of his gaze.

“What way?” asked Serkan, the look only intensifying.

“The look that confuses me,” Eda answered.

“Are you scared to be confused?” asked Serkan, stepping closer to her, invading her space. “Don't be.”

“#3 When I ask you something, you will answer me honestly. Promise?” Said Eda, trying not to let his close proximity affect her.

“Promise.” Serkan agreed.

“#4 This is temporary. I will only stay until you find someone or I find someone for you. You will not stop me.” Eda told him firmly.

“When we find someone, where will you go?” Serkan questioned with a frown.

“I am only here for two months,” Eda told him.

His face fell and his heart sank. Time was ticking and she could clearly read his sadness.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

As they started to work she was shocked as he constantly tried to touch her softly.

Well, who could blame him? It's been two years.

Constantly making jokes, making her laugh, and flirting with her. Serkan Bolat? And? Flirting? Shivers were running down her spine.

“Come on. Let's have dinner.” Serkan suggested, after a long day of working side by side.

“I am not hungry,” Eda said, declining the offer.

“I ordered fries.” he insisted.

She stared at him with a beautiful smile on her. “You what?”

“I ordered fries for you?” Serkan replied.

“But you always stopped me from eating them?” Said Eda.

“Maybe I love them now?” replied Serkan with a charming smile.

More shock, more surprises. He plays his finest game.

Serkan led her up to his office and it had been completely transformed with a long table with lit candles and beautifully arranged flowers.

“Serkan?” Eda looked up at him.

“Efendim,” said Serkan.

“What is this?” Eda asked.

“Dinner?” Serkan answered uncertainly.

“Dim lighting, flowers, and candles?” Eda questioned. “Looks like a date.”

A beautifully romantic one.

“Do you want a date?” Serkan asked without missing a beat.

“N..-o I mean this is beautiful,” said Eda.

“This is nowhere near how we will go on a date. This is nothing. Consider it a welcome dinner.” said Serkan, pulling her chair out for her.

If this was nothing Eda didn’t think her resolve could survive against him.

The dinner goes amazing and Eda feels her heart pull her closer to Serkan despite all her reservations.

Over the next few days, they begin the search for a landscape architect and he rejected every candidate but he noticed how she possessively sat closer to him and was jealous of every girl. And well, his heart did flips. Logic, mind, and whatever was buried somewhere and his heart was living its best.

“You're jealous,” said Serkan when they were alone again. An amused smile pulled at his lips.

“What? No.” Eda denied. “Okay, first of all, stop being so direct and straightforward. What happened to never speaking up about your emotions? You're being weird.”

“And you're avoiding my statement.” Serkan pointed out.

“I AM NOT JEALOUS.” Eda denied vehemently.

“Bet? If I prove you're jealous. You will go to dinner with me “bet” Serkan challenged and moved behind her, his body almost pressing against hers. “You don't need to be jealous, Eda Yildiz. Nobody ever took your place and nobody ever can. Your hold is stronger than you think and the only hold I'd like to tightly hold me.” he whispered these words in her ear and walked away.

The shivers? Oh yeah.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“I need your password, Serkan,” said Eda, needing to log into his laptop.

They were at Art Life working on a project for a new client.

“Give it to me,” Serkan said, gesturing for her to pass his laptop to him.

“You don't trust me?” asked Eda.

“I do but it's..-personal?” said Serkan.

“Tell. Me. Now.” Eda said, looking him dead in the eye. Now needing to know what it was.

“July nine is the password,” Serkan answered, never able to deny her.

“July nine?” Eda repeated. “What happened on July nine?”

Why was it so significant?

Then she remembered. It's the date of when they met for the first time in the university.

She smiled. Oh Serkan Bolat, what are you up to? She thought. That date is his password? She felt confused but so special. He knows how to make a woman feel on top of the world. The little details were capturing her heart again, and he knew it.

And by the look in his eyes, the smile pulling at his lips, he loved it.

He was good. Too good.

“Where is Selin?” Eda asked, needing to remind herself there were reasons she was protecting her heart.

“Selin?” Serkan repeated. “I don't know.”

“Why aren't you guys together? Leyla said, she left as soon as I left.” Eda inquired.

“Yeah,” Serkan answered.

“Didn’t you go after her the day I left?” Eda prodded.

“No, I didn't. She was waiting in the restaurant. I was somewhere else,” he told her.

“Where?” Eda inquired.

“Outside the airport,” Serkan answered.

“You came after me?” Eda asked in complete surprise.

“I sat in the parking for hours until your plane landed in Italy,” Serkan confessed..

“Why?” asked Eda.

“Didn't have the courage to stop you, so I waited. Maybe you didn't leave. Maybe you'll come out of the airport.” Serkan continued.

“But I didn't. Why did you want me to stop?” asked Eda.

“How long will you pretend like you don't know?” Serkan asked her. He had done everything to make his feelings clear. She had to know and was now only choosing not to acknowledge it.

Eda didn’t answer. She couldn’t. It was better to pretend as if she hadn’t heard him.

The next day Serkan met with Melo and Ceren at Art Life.

“What's the progress?” Serkan asked.

Ceren and Melo wanted their friends to be happy and were more than willing to help Serkan win Eda’s heart.

“She's impressed but confused.” Answered Ceren. “So it's time to take a big step.”

“What should I do?” Serkan questioned.

“Kiss her,” Melo answered with a wide smile.

“Ask her out,” answered Ceren.

“KISS HER ON A HOT BALLOON,” Melo answered, her excitement growing.

“Melo? Calm down,” said Serkan, though her excitement was infectious.. “We have wasted enough years. This time, jump straight to marriage.”

“WHAT!” Ceren exclaimed.

“YES!” Melo exclaimed, jumping up and down in her excitement.

”Serkan, NO.” Ceren protested.

“Ceren, why?” Serkan asked, not understanding why she wasn’t on board. “I think it's a good idea. My intentions are pure, so why waste time on dating?” Serkan rationalized.

“Serkan, please, first confess your feelings, explain why you didn't stop her, ask her out on a date, take it slow and easy?” Ceren suggested, believing moving too fast would be a mistake on Serkan's behalf. “Alright. You'll scare her this way.”

“Fine. Thank you!” said Serkan. He appreciated input even if he didn’t agree with it but the last thing he wanted to do was scare Eda away.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Serkan had managed to convince Eda to come over to his home and was making her a meal. It was a little hard to focus, she was dressed in a little black dress that left him speechless when she first arrived.

“Eda, would you taste this?” Serkan asked. He was cooking a sauce, he held a spoon with the sauce on it out toward her.

Eda leaned over, taking a bite from the spoon he held. “It's delicious,”

And he eats the rest of the sauce from the spoon she ate with.

“Wh..-what are you doing?” Eda asked.

“Eating?” Serkan answered uncertainly.

“From the same spoon?” asked Eda. “You hate doing that.”

“I still do, but not with you.” answered Serkan. She was the exception. She would always be the exception.

Goosebumps? Yeah, she needed a doctor at this point.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda was with her friend, confiding in Melo. She was finding it harder and harder to keep up her walls of protection.

“There are days when he's always smiling for absolutely no reason. He even smiles at Erdem sometimes. Can you believe it? But then sometimes I would find him looking at me with sad, broken eyes like he has lost something. Like it's hurting him but he covers it up.” Said Eda, her heart pulling just thinking about Serkan.

“He did lose,” said Melo, the two friends at home, having a heart to heart.

“What did he lose?” Eda asked, sitting across from her.

“So much.” Melo answered but not saying more, she didn’t want to betray Serkan’s confidence.

“Melo, tell me,” Eda insisted. It was clear to her that Melo and Serkan had a close bond of friendship.

“It's not my story to tell but be easy on him, will you?” Melo requested of her oldest friend.

“Tell me something, has he been talking to you in these two years?” Eda wondered, wanting confirmation of her suspicion of their closeness.

“Every day. You know, I have been really alone. Ceren was here, but she was really busy with her cases,...” Melo began. “You were gone, but he was here for me. You know, Enişte went with me for my interview. He sat outside for more than two hours without complaining. When I didn't get the job, he actually shouted ‘you lost a gem’. He was there for aunt, for Ceren and we were there for him.”

Serkan had become one of Melo’s closest friends.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Serkan went to a business dinner. He was not expecting to see Eda out with another man. His stomach twisted with something dark and ugly.

Meeting Eda’s eyes across the room, and seeing the way her own eyes had narrowed when they landed on his business associate.

Serkan approached her when she was alone, excusing himself from his own companion.

“Who's that man?” Serkan asked

“Who's that girl?” Eda asked, the sight of the woman made her want to pull Serkan out of the woman’s reach.

“She is a journalist. We're doing an interview.” Serkan answered.

“With cocktails?” Eda questioned, doubtfully.

“Who's that man?” Serkan asked again, needing an answer.

“A client. I am designing his garden.” Eda answered.

“So, it's not a date?” Serkan asked.

“Are you jealous, Serkan?” Eda's eyes narrowed. “I thought the bet was about me? Maybe dinner will turn into a date who knows,”

There was a challenge in her eyes. One Serkan was ready to answer.

“You're playing a dangerous game, Eda Yıldız,” Serkan warned, seeing her smirk.

“I am not scared of burning,” Eda said, her eyes shining with a challenge for him to say something, do something, anything.

“But you will be after I put ice on the burns,” said Serkan, his voice filled with intent. Low and seductive and dark.

“Uh-...you will w-..what?” Eda replies, his words throwing her.

And he walked away, leaving her heart to beat against her ribs like a drum.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

As she started to dance with the client, he saw red. Gone was the sweet smiley understanding boy. He couldn’t stand to see the man touching her, even if it was just to dance. It was too much. Serkan Bolat got up, punched the man, and stormed out because he feared he would do worse.

Eda stared after him, shocked. Serkan had never been a violent man. She didn’t know it was possible to push him so far.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

The next day Serkan came to see Eda. “I need to talk to you.”

“Talk? You have any idea what you did last night?” Eda demanded. “What was that behavior?”

“I apologize. I shouldn't have done that but-”

“BUT WHAT?” Eda cut him off, not wanting excuses. “I come back here after two years, you pull me into working with you, you're all sweet and good with me and now you're jealous?”

“With what right are you doing this? Pretending like nothing ever happened?” Eda continued. “Let me go, I can't stay in one place with a man who can't make someone stay because of his big ego,”

“If I didn't let you go, you wouldn't have lived your dream in Italy.” Serkan argued.

“So you did me a favor?” Eda asked, bristling.

“I admit that letting you go was the biggest mistake and yes I am jealous. I was jealous because he was looking at you the way…” Serkan trailed off.

“Complete your sentence.” Eda told him.

“The way I look at you.” Serkan finished.

Ceren's words ‘take it slow’ were ringing in his head, he uttered fuck it and kissed her, pulling her in close.

It was better than he remembered. Her lips were soft and the feel of her against him was like coming home.

A five-second pause as they broke the kiss, Serkan waited holding his breath for her reaction. Eda touch a hand to her lips, they were tingling.

Screw it, she thought and grabbed and kissed him just as passionately.

Serkan’s arm bounded around her waist as their lips moved in a dance only they knew, her soft curves pressing into his hard ones.

Eda’s arms came around his neck as he tangled his hand in her hair, surrendering to the passion inside of them.

Goosebumps? Fireworks!

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

And here came the disappearing part. Eda Yıldız completely disappeared for days which really scared him thinking what if he was wrong and she didn't have feelings for him but why did she kiss back? Confusion, sadness, and whatnot!

Eda was quiet when she was out with friends, Serkan let the loneliness take hold of him, seeping deep in his soul.

Neither could stop thinking about the other, about the way that kiss had felt right. Felt like their souls had finally come home.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

-

“Eda?” Serkan said into his phone, the distance between them becoming too much for him to bear. He had to do something.

“Serkan, meraba,” Eda greeted over the line, her voice contained, even though her heart ached just to hear him.

“Can you come over?” Serkan requested.

“Serkan I can't,” Eda told him. She couldn’t trust herself to be alone with him. Just hearing his voice was too much, feeling her chest tightened at just the sound of it.

“Please.” Serkan pleaded, his green eyes shining, a ball of emotion threatening to clog his throat. “I have to show you something.”

“I am only coming over because your voice sounds bad,” Eda told him. He sounded so broken. So lost. It worried her.

“I am waiting.” replied Serkan, ending the call.

Eda looked at her phone, feeling a sense of urgency in her heart.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda arrived at Serkan's home and he led her into his home.

“Serkan, What is this?” Eda asked, walking into a room. She was stunned to see it is filled with things related to her and their previous relationship.

“I call this ‘the Yıldız room’ . I kept everything about you in this room. The things you left in my house, your gifts, the cards of the restaurant we went to etc etc. In the last two years, I couldn't find peace anywhere but here. I slept here some nights…” Serkan stood in the doorway.

Eda continued to stare around in disbelief and awe. She couldn’t believe he had kept everything.

“Staying close to you, your things was good to me,” Serkan confessed..

“Why?” asked Eda, turning around to face him.

“Ceren said to take it slow and I already messed that up by kissing you. I don't want to scare you. I never showed this room to anyone but showed this to you to tell you that’s how important you're to me. Don't run from me please.” Serkan pleaded. Needing her to see how much he cared for her, how much he needed and loved her.

“Thank you, Serkan, for being open with me.” Eda wrapped her arms around him and Serkan welcomed the embrace.

And they sat down and talked about an hour or two about his work, her work, Italy, and all about the last two years. With his flirty comments and shy smiles, they communicated and Eda felt her heart opening up to Serkan and she welcomed it.

She no longer felt like she needed to protect her heart from him.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Art Life threw a party and Serkan Bolat threw a big surprise for Eda Yıldız. He might have taken a step back a while ago but he was ready to take two steps ahead now.

He shocked everyone when he got on stage with the live band and took control.

If the sun's upset and the sky goes cold then if the clouds get heavy and start to fall I really need somebody to call my own. I wanna be somebody to someone someone to you.

Eda stared on in wonder as he controlled the stage, pointing towards her as he played and sang the someone to you part on stage in front of everyone for her. His voice sang to her soul.

Never in a million years did she ever think he would play his music on stage for everyone to hear.

When he came off the stage he walked right for her. She was all he could see.

“I am surprised. Didn't you hate playing guitar and singing in front of people?” Eda wondered.

“It was for you.” Serkan answered. Everything he did was for her.

“You're surprising me more and more everyday,” said Eda. She was falling for him with every new moment.

“I can do anything for a smile on your face, Eda,” Serkan replies.

“Am I that important for you?” Eda questioned.

“The most.” he answered, he gripped her waist lightly. “Come with me. I have to tell you something.”

Serkan took her somewhere private so they could be alone.

“I didn't want to tell you like this. I had planned a big gesture but I can't take it anymore. I will definitely buy you millions of flowers after this. But remember this, you're not forced to answer me now. Take your time alright?” said Serkan.

“Okay,” said Eda, unsure what he was going to do next. This Serkan had become unpredictable. She never knew what he was planning.

“I..-..I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU.” Serkan confessed with all the love in his heart. “I have always been in love with you since the day I first saw you. I didn't stop you, I know. I was scared of rejection. I didn't have the courage. I considered myself not worthy of you. My childhood fears, traumas, and insecurities stopped me but they don't anymore.” said Serkan, pouring his heart out.

“You're the crown to my heart. I want to love you, I want you to love me, I want to kiss you, hold you, protect you, be a companion in your happiness and sorrows. Until death I want you to be the first person I see when I open my eyes every morning. You understand?” Serkan spoke, every word pulled from his chest.

Tears filled Eda’s eyes, her heart soaring with every word he spoke.

“I will walk away now because I want to give you the space to think but first please allow me to kiss you because otherwise, I will go fucking crazy. Please.” Serkan pleaded like he would die if he didn’t kiss her.

“Kiss me you idiot,” she said, wanting nothing more and so he did.

Eda cupped his face in her hands, her lips moving in sync with hers, pouring every emotion she was feeling into that one soulful kiss that she felt would consume her and she would gladly welcome it.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

The next day Aptekin had come to Art Life to see his son and discuss things he heard. Serkan couldn’t say he was happy to see his father. He wasn’t.

“She's back.” said Aptekin.

“She has a name. It's Eda.” Serkan defended, his jaw clenching.

“You shouldn't be pulling her into your life again. You did two years ago, lost yourself, got distracted from work when work should be your life.” Aptekin lectured, making his disapproval clear.

“Work is my passion, not my life. You ignored your family and loved one's for work but I won't.” Serkan declared, jaw clenching in anger.

“I love her, baba.” Serkan told his father. “I will build a home, a family with her. I will keep her and my children on my top priorities unlike you.”

“You have changed.” Aptekin accused.

“Maybe this was my real self. My inner self which I have been suppressing for years. This is the real me.” Said Serkan.

Serkan refused to be the man that his father was.

And Eda heard everything, standing behind the conference door. The words Serkan spoke, blowing the door to her heart wide open.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda found a gift waiting for her with a note attached sitting in on her garden table.

“Günaydın Peri Kız. I know how much you love roses so I am sending a rose for my rose. Hey, light of my world, we are on borrowed time from the creator so allow me to make this little time magical for you. P.S: i know it's unbelievable but I wrote this note by my hand ;) love you!”

Serkan had written in the note.

The smile it brought to her face was soft, affectionate.

Oh, how she loved this man and could no longer deny it.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda sat on her couch with Melo, leaning into her friend a smile pulling at her lips.

“He sent me a rose with a handwritten note. He called me his rose. His rose. Serkan Bolat's rose. I can't believe all my dreams are coming true.” said Eda happily to Melo.

“What are you gonna do now?” Melo wondered, enjoying seeing her friend so happy.

“He loves me I love him, it's time for me to take a step this time,” said Eda, ready to accept love into her heart.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“Meraba,” Eda greeted, walking into Serkan’s office the next day with a smile that radiated warmth.

“Selam.” Serkan returned, standing to greet her.

“i loved the rose....-” Eda told him.

“And I love mine,” he replies gazing adoringly at her.

“Uh..-and the note as well. Thank you,” said Eda with a soft smile, pulling at her lips.

“Anything for you,” Serkan responded.

“Don't you owe me a meal?” Eda asked.

“I do?” Serkan questioned, his brow furrowing in confusion.

“We were both jealous, right?” asked Eda. “So...”

“You're admitting you were jealous?” Serkan asked a grin threatening to break forth.

“Why would I kiss you back if I wasn't?” asked Eda, a smile pulling at her lips.

“My house.” Serkan told her with a charming grin. “7pm.”

Eda smiled so full of happiness it took Serkan’s breath away. Breathtaking.

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“You're so beautiful,” Serkan complimented when Eda arrived at his home. He led her inside where there was a table spread of food.

“I can't believe you made all of this for me with your own hands. Are you sure Seyfi didn't help?” Eda questioned, impressed.

“Seyfi is on vacation and I can do anything for you,” Serkan responded, taking a seat next to her on the couch.

“For example?” Eda inquired, turning her body toward him.

“I can make you breakfast for the rest of my life, I can buy you flowers…” Serkan told her, leaning in close, his warm breath fanning out against her neck.

“Even if I have no money. I can do things that you have never imagined for you...with you.” Serkan whispered, seductively.

“Serkan!” Eda exclaimed, desire coursing through her.

“Efendim?” replied Serkan.

“Now I am getting shy,” said Eda, her cheeks flushing with color.

“Allah Allah. Am I giving you butterflies, Eda Yıldız?” Serkan kisses her cheek, continues to her neck, and nuzzles softly. “Should I continue?”

“Ye..-n..-o.” Eda was flustered and couldn’t think straight.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“Why did you take down my hair?” Asked Eda, as she and Serkan held Eda beneath the stars in his arms.

“Because I love it when it’s free when I run my fingers through those silky shiny hairs when they fall on your shoulders when they fall on your face giving me the opportunity to tuck them behind your ear.” Said Serkan.

“I never imagined you a romantic,” Eda commented, breathing him in, his nose brushing hers.

“I am only romantic for one woman in this whole world and that's you,” replied Serkan, his lips skimming her cheek.

“Serkan, I am not the perfect woman, why do you love me so much?” Eda questioned.

“Perfect?” Serkan repeated. “You're magnificent. You're a wonder and my heart has decided to beat for you. I can't explain it.”

“I turned back on the airport....” Eda confessed, gazing into his eyes, the love there encouraging her to spill all the secrets she held back from him.

“I almost reached the door but then,... I madly loved you but I thought even if you loved me, I wasn't the one for you but now I am here.” she smiled up at him as the back of his knuckles trailed across the soft skin of her cheek. “I am never leaving you because being in your arms is my place only, sevgilim. I love you, always have, and always will.” Eda confessed as he stared back at her lovingly.

“S...-Serkan...-uh be-d...-ro..om.” Eda breathed, the look in his eyes had her wanting for more. For everything from him and wanting to give him every piece of her.

“Don't worry baby, we'll go there too. Let's move to the couch for now.” Serkan told her.

And Serkan Bolat got to live his fantasies and dreams as Eda Yildız got on top of him as he lay on the couch, their mouths fusing together in a heated kiss, hands worshipping, expressing their love.

The End.

A/N: If you enjoyed this, I encourage you to go give @lalehbalefire some love for her brilliant mind and Edser concepts!

[originalhybridloverfics]

Serkan's Fairy Girl, Eda's Robot - Give In To Love

Summary: This is just my take on what happened in between Edser officially getting back together.

A/N: Warning for Smut and emotions.

This is roughly edited because I had to take my mom to her doctor's appointment.

“I need to see the tattoo.”

Serkan’s words echoed in her head, her heart pounded against her chest. 

If she showed him the tattoo that was it. There was no turning back? 

Was she ready for that? Was she ready to forget the pain, the anger, the regret? Was she ready to leave it all behind and embrace the love in her heart? Was she ready to let her fear go and trust him not to break her? 

Yes, she was. 

Keeping her eyes locked with his she held her hand out to him. 

Serkan slid his hand into hers, and allowed her to pull him inside, he shut the door behind him. His hand tightened around hers, lacing their fingers together as they started up the stairs. 

Eda led him into her room and shut the door behind her. Serkan released her hand to draw her into the circle of his arms. 

One arm circled her waist while the other cup her cheek, his rubbing across her smooth cheek. 

God, she was even more beautiful than the day he first saw her, and her eyes, those beautiful eyes captivated his soul. She had his heart, mind, body, and soul to do whatever she wanted with. 

Eda cupped his face, her nails scratching through his beard. 

Serkan closed his eyes at the feeling, letting himself just be taken over by her closeness and her touch. 

Serkan pulled her more against him, arms wrapping her in a warm embrace. Eda wrapped her arms around his neck, clinging tightly to him. 

Serkan tucked his face in her neck and breathed her intoxicating scent in. 

“I know we have a lot to talk about,” Serkan said, pulling back, his fingers trailing through her soft hair. “And we can’t just sweep everything under the rug but can we just have tonight? Can we keep it simple and just be two people in love spending the night in each other’s arms?” 

Eda leaned up, pressing her lips against his, she pulled back a moment later, a soft smile playing on her lips. “Let it just be us tonight, following our hearts.” 

Serkan's lips met hers in a slow kiss, her hands traced his arms while his smooth over her back down to her hip and back up, his hand slipping beneath the fabric of her shirt. 

Eda had almost forgotten the way his hand could nearly expand her entire back, the heat from his hand was sinking into her skin. Her lips parted on a sigh and Serkan took the opportunity to deepen the kiss, his tongue slipping inside and plundering her mouth. 

Sher gripped him tighter, arching into him. She felt like she couldn’t get close enough, breaking the kiss she held his face in her hands, her forehead pressed to his. “Do you still want to see it?”

“See it?” Serkan’s mind was muddled and all he could think about was Eda’s warm skin beneath the palm of his hand, and the taste of her lips, her soft body pressing into his. 

“Our tattoo.” Eda's smile widened as his clear confusion. 

Serkan nodded abruptly. 

Eda reached for the hem of her shirt and lift it slowly, pulling it over her head. Her breasts were encased in a black bra and just beneath her left breast was their tattoo. 

Serkan reached out his thumb brushing against the mark, he scooped her in his arms without warning. 

“Serkan,” Eda exclaimed, her arms going around his neck, 

He gently laid her on the bed and climbed over her, his lips immediately finding the tattoo. 

Eda ran her hands over his shoulders, arching into his mouth as his tongue traced the curved of the tattoo. 

Serkan’s lips slowly moved over the top of her breast, her collarbone, her neck, beneath her jawbone before finally finding her lips again, his body settling perfectly against hers. 

Eda’s fingers found the buttons of his shirt as the kiss deepened. 

Neither broke the kiss when she pushed the shirt off his shoulders, Serkan quickly discarded the shirt and was back to pulling her against him, the skin-to-skin contact like a balm for his lonely soul. 

Eda pushed at his chest and he leaned up on his knees, she followed, reaching for his buckle. 

Serkan watched as she pulled his belt free then reached behind her unfastening her bra and sliding it down her arms and tossing it aside. 

His hands found her breast as she unfastens his jeans, pushing at the material. 

With a groan he moved his hand away from her body and stood, kicking off his shoes and yanking his boxers and pants down. 

He moved toward her and leaned down pressing a kiss to her navel before unfastening her pants, removing her heels, and pulling the fabric down her legs, leaving her in a pair of black lace panties. 

Serkan fought back a groaned. 

Serkan circled her ankles and slid his hands slowly, up her legs, squeezing her calves and thighs, and moving higher until he reaches the thin fabric of her panties resting on her hips. His thumb hooked in the sides and he dragged the small scrap of lace down her legs, tossing it over his shoulder. 

Eda moved further up the bed, holding her arms out to him. 

Serkan follows kissing up her body, starting with her hipbone and working his way up, sucking and nipping at her skin as he went. 

Eda’s breath was labored by the time he reached her, heart-pounding and Eda couldn’t take it anymore, she grasps his face in her hands and pulled back to her mouth. 

Her kiss was needy, a whine leaving the back of her throat. 

Serkan deepened the kiss his mouth plundering hers as his hands mapped out every inch of her skin. 

Eda clenched her thighs as her sex clamped on emptiness. She needed him. Needed to feel him being one with her. Needed to express their love in the most physically intimate way possible. “Please,” 

It was one word but it matched the need and want clawing to the surface inside him. 

His hands gripped the back of her thighs and moved them higher on his hips, he reached between them, sliding the length of his cock between her folds, coating himself in her arousal. 

Eda gasped, her need increasing. "Serkan." 

Serkan positioned the head of his cock at her entrance but didn't push inside of her. His right hand slid back up her body, stopping on her breast to palm it and roll her nipple between his thumbs. 

Eda lifted her hips and the head of his cock slip inside her.

Serkan groaned, his hand on her breast slid higher, gripping her hand he laced their fingers and pinned it to the bed, his other hand held tightly to her hip. "I love you,"

A warmth spread through her, cooling down her desperation. She cupped his cheek. "I love you, too." 

Serkan’s heart felt lighter than it had in years hearing her say the words he longed to hear, the words he dreamed of her saying to him again. 

He kissed her softly before pulling back to lock their gazes and he sunk into her. She wrapped around him tightly, squeezing, he pushed further inside her until he was unsure where she began and he ended. 

Eda’s mouth parted, her chest rising and falling. She felt full and complete with him buried inside her, their fingers laced, his weight over her, his scent surrounding her. 

Serkan kept still, not ready to move, giving her time to adjust and just relishing the feel of being one with her again. 

He leaned forward, placing kisses against her jaw down her neck and over every inch of skin he could reach, his tongue darting out to taste her. 

Eda gasped as his teeth nipped at her collarbone. She buried her hands in his hair and tugged him back to her mouth, kissing him deeply. 

Serkan groaned as she used the back of heels to dig into his ass, trying to push him in deeper. 

He ripped his mouth from her skin and withdrew slowly, before pushing back inside her just as slow. 

Eda gasped, she could feel every inch of him pushing back inside, every thrust, every push, the grind of hips against hers. He built her up slowly, tenderly, and seeing the pleasure on his face, the love in his eyes, God, she couldn’t remember it ever being this intense. 

It was unbelievable and amazing, soon, she was writhing beneath him, saying his name again and again. The coil of heat inside of her pulling tighter and tighter. 

She was so close, but she needed more. Somehow, he wasn’t close enough. How was that possible when he was buried so deep inside her? 

“Serkan, please, Serkan,” She pleaded. 

“Eda,” Serkan groaned, he released his grip on her and arm, bracing himself on his elbows, he gathered her in his arms and Eda shifted her legs higher, her thighs squeezing around him, hands clinging tightly to his back. 

Much to Eda’s dismay, Serkan kept up the slow thrust, but it was somehow worse as her chest was pressed so tightly against his, she could feel the beat of his heart against her breast, his body hard against her soft one. 

When Serkan’s mouth found her neck as he kept up with his thrust she lost it, she writhed beneath him, needy whimpers pulled from the back of her throat. “Please.” She clamped down on him, trying to pull him in deeper. 

“Fuck,” It was Serkan’s undoing, he pulled back and snapped his hips back against hers driving into her hard and fast. 

Eda threw her head back in pleasure, she met him thrust for thrust as he drove into her deeper and deeper. 

Her eyes slid shut, losing sight of everything else as the pleasure consumed her. When his teeth grazed across her skin, he grounded his hips against her, his cock pushing against a spot inside her that had her seeing stars behind her closed eyelids, she came without warning, his name pulled from her chest.

Serkan groaned as she came around him, her walls sucking him in deeper, squeezing his dick, he felt a tingle in his balls. His cock pulsing, losing his rhythm he came a few thrusts later as she squeezed him for every drop he had, his face buried in her neck as he groaned her name over and over.

Serkan kept his weight, braced on his arms as Eda’s hand smooth through his hair and slid down his back, her touch loving. He pressed his lips to her neck, just breathing her in.  

Eda pressed a kiss to his shoulder and whimpered when he eased out of her.

Eda turned over onto her side and reached behind her for him, Serkan came willingly wrapping himself around her, his arm curling around her waist and holding her against him. 

Eda grabbed his hand, lacing their fingers together and holding it to her chest. 

“I missed you.” Serkan pressed his lips against her neck. 

Eda, tired, lifted his hand to her lips and kiss each knuckle before burrowing back against him, struggling to keep her eyes open. 

Serkan tightened his arm around her dragging her back against him and tuck his face into her neck, letting his own body finally rest. 

When morning came Serkan felt like he was living a dream, Eda was in his arms, her naked skin pressed against his, and somehow how she was even more beautiful in the morning than the night before. 

A/N: Thanks for reading.

Carefully abstracting himself from around her, he went to the bathroom, relieved himself, washed his hands, and pulled on his boxers. 

He returned minutes later with a rose in hand, he placed it on the nightstand, removed his boxers, liting the bed cover he slid back under and gently pulled Eda back into his arms, relaxing as she curled into him, her breast pressed into his side, her head on his chest and her hand resting over his heart. He grabbed the rose and held it, waiting for her to open those beautiful brown eyes, hoping it will be the start of their lives together. 

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[acertainsomeone]

Surrendered-EdSer OS

Eda did not know what she was doing, or why she was doing it. This was the first time in 25 years of her life that she had felt defeated and helpless. Caught in a series of unfortunate circumstances, and life’s treacherous ploughs, she was once again left alone. Her parent's untimely death had left scars on her soul, she could not escape the demons of her past. When Serkan entered her life, she believed that life would be easier. She will finally have someone, who will help her to breathe in the confines of a dark, closed room.

Little did she know, life does not work according to our beliefs. Destiny had plans for her, thrilling yet gruesome. She had imagined getting graduated, with a degree in landscape architect with hope and happiness in eyes. She did graduate, but there was nothing instead of anguish, and loneliness in her eyes.

Not even in her wildest dreams she had imagined to lose Serkan, her first true love. She was so used to be pampered by his love and affection that for once not being on the receiving end broke her into pieces.

It had been eight months since that fateful day. They heard that his plane went missing, they were supposed to get married. Once she had waited for her parents to come and take her away, but they never came back. This time she waited for Serkan to come and make her his lawful wife but he never.

If this trauma wasn’t enough already, she was met by another volcano that hit her so hard that she couldn’t believe she had managed to survive that pain.

He forgot her.

He didn’t have any memories of her.

He hated her.

Serkan Bolat was no longer her Robot Bolat.

After his arrival to Art Life, Eda had imagined it would be difficult to revive those memories he had forgotten but she hadn’t imagined that it would be nearly impossible to win back his love. It was as if he had returned with a stone instead of heart.

Her numerous attempts, pleadings, actions, could not move him. She wondered what was missing that he could not see her as his soulmate anymore.

She tried and tried and one fine day, Eda gave up, for his sake. It took a great deal of courage for her to accept the fact that he was not in love with her, and he won’t fall for her again. It was useless to torment him with her forceful behavior.

He wanted the holding. Of course

It was exactly why he had borne her existence around him for six months otherwise, he would have kicked her out of his life the moment he back to Art Life that day.

Yes, she was giving up on love. Not because she was a coward but because she was selfless, and she chose his happiness over hers. His happiness lied with his work and Selin.

Selin was his logical decision. She was the one, who fitted his lifestyle.

After the failure of her attempts, Eda decided to accept the job proposal from a renowned architect company in Paris, Alcmea.

She had been disregarding it for his sake but eventually Eda decided that it was meant for her. She was longer meant for Serkan or Istanbul. She had to leave for his peace and her sanity. There was no point of living in Istanbul after selling her shares to Serkan, there was no point of breathing the same air after losing him to Selin.

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One last time

She breathed nervously, wearing her silver earrings gifted by Aydan Bolat herself as a graduation present. Ferit and Ceren had thrown her a part before her farewell party, there was no excuse to avoid for otherwise they all would have thought that she is leaving with a sad heart.

Not that they were believing her otherwise.

She had to wear the mask of a jubilated Eda, who finally got the chance to work abroad, and make her dreams come true. She had a long way to go and Eda had decided that she won’t allow her failed love story to come in the way of her career. That’s something she was assertive of.

Clad in a long black evening gown, she looked breathtaking like always.

Yet he won’t notice. Neither her dress nor the charm bracelet she was wearing tonight. Not as a hope but as a way to get rid of some memories.

If she had decided to move on, and leave everything behind, she had to let go.

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Eda arrived late at the party; it was her way to avoid him. She wanted to meet everyone one last time for few minutes and leave as soon as possible.

He was looking for someone, her heart did not skip a beat because it wasn’t her. His eyes immediately caught Selin’s and she could tell his eyes only searched her.

Ferit announced everyone to get on the floor with their respective partners for a dance. Well, she didn’t have one so he offered her his hand immediately. Probably to save her from the embarrassment.

“You don’t have to, I’m fine.” She muttered shyly.

“Oh, come on! By the way, I wasn’t going to invite Selin, Ceren insisted because then it would’ve been odd.”

“That wouldn’t have changed anything! There’s no way he’s coming back even if Selin isn’t around.”

“He’s brainwashed by her Eda-”

Eda cut him off immediately, “Don’t- Ferit please Don’t. Have you brought the ring? Ceren is anticipating the proposal, if you’re late this time she will probably fly to Paris with me.” She joked, hiding the pain behind her eyes.

“All’s set. It will be soon, and you’ll be the first person to hear about it.” He winked and twirled her.

He caught her.

She was in his arms just like old times.

Breathe Eda. Not Anymore.

She held her head high in defiance, acting unaffected by his touch. She didn’t blame him for anything. It did hurt her though that he didn’t keep his promise of falling in love with her hundred times.

He had said that if he was born a hundred times, he will fall for her. He couldn’t live up to his words in the same life. Yet, she had no complaints, she accepted this as destiny’s decision and decided to remain determine in her stance.

She was acting good enough, not even for a second he could feel her nervousness or accelerated heartbeat.

She remained silent, closely following their twirling feet, and entwined hands. Acting as if perfecting this dance was the only thing she was interested.

He broke the silence by clearing his throat. “When is your flight?”

“Tonight” Her reply was simple, devoid of any emotions.

“have a safe flight Eda Yildiz.”

“Sao” She passed an awfully professional smile, avoiding to look at him in the eye. Though she could feel his gaze on her. His eyes hadn’t left her face for a second.

Why does he want now?

He placed his hands on her waist, his masculine hands perfectly fitted her petite waist like always.

Her arms were entwined around his neck securely. One last time, she wished to touch him. There were boundaries by inhaling his wood scent was more than enough.

Gladly, he pulled her closer by himself. She didn’t have to struggle. There was nothing intimate about that gesture. He was just dancing.

‘You look beautiful.’ He uttered silently. Eda knew him enough to tell that his compliment escaped his lips without taking permission from his mind.

It doesn’t matter.

“You too.”

“Beautiful? Me?” He raised his eyebrow in curiosity.

“Pardon if you don’t appreciate to be referred with a feminine adjective.” He was trying to be funny but Eda was beyond exhausted to indulge in a friendly conversation. She was not going to surrender.

‘I- I didn’t mean that.” He attempted to explain himself. “Where would you be staying in Paris?”

Eda wanted to tell him that she had chosen the apartment that he had bought for them few days before their wedding. She wanted to tell him that their apartment in Paris was waiting for them but she decided against it.

“Deniz arranged a place.” Something inside her pushed her to say that.

“His place?” He asked incredulously, tightening his grip around her waist.

“You need not to know.” She denied him simply. A part of her knew that he wasn’t affected by these childish jealousy stunts but yet her impulsive self couldn’t from being so open about it.

“I’m sorry, it wasn’t my place to ask you about it.”

He waited for her to say anything but she remained awfully quiet. He was not used to this. He was not used to her ignoring him.

Eda began to feel suffocated, the tips of his fingers were drumming against her bare back, synching with the music of piano. She had to let go or she would faint in his arms or breakdown into tears immediately.

“Excuse me.”

She distanced herself from his embrace, they hadn’t realized in the darkness of the room that they had been barely inches away from each other.

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This place was special, they had their contract right at this spot, fought, expressed love, he broke up wit her here, and the last beautiful memory was, when he gifted her that charm bracelet.

She was wearing it tonight.. Of course, he hadn’t noticed that too.

Eda was staring at the stars, this was her last night in Istanbul. She didn’t plan to come back ever.

“It must be hard for you eda hanim” Her thought process was disrupted by Erdem. Their bond had strengthened over the course of eight months.

“You know very well that I have seen experienced something even harder than this Erdem.” She replied in misery but both knew that Eda was talking about something. Something that was known by him but not anyone else in that office.

“Don’t you think he should know?” Erdem said, scared of her reaction

“There is nothing he should know, as if what he knows already had made any difference”

“I always wonder if I had told fifi about my feelings in a much serious manner, she might had stayed.” Erdem sighed. This side of Erdem was only known to Eda, even she was amazed that this one existed.

“We can't stop the ones who want to leave”

“But he deserves to know- at least- about the baby” Erdem hesitated, he did not want to bring this up but considering this as her last night in Istanbul he wished she’d listen to him.

“Erdem git.” Eda looked at him surprised. Her eyes brimmed with tears and pain. She wasn’t mad at him but surprised that he chose to remind her of that night.

“I’m stupid, an absolute fool but I do know one thing that no father deserves-” He wasn’t stopping, he mustered the courage to finish his sentence.

“I’ve already burdened him with the forgotten memories of our love. I can’t make him think about a baby who died before coming to this world.” Hiding her pain behind her mask, she took a sip from her wine. Showing as if talking about this wasn’t shattering her soul into a million pieces.

“Erdem, You and leyla are the only ones who know about my miscarriage. You have kept your word till now, I expect that both of you will keep your word and continue to hide this truth from everyone.”

“Till my last breath, Eda hanim.” Erdem’s voice broke, he hugged Eda instantly. She led out a chuckle and hugged him back.

Erdem was indeed annoying but he had been there for her at a very crucial stage of her life. His support helped her through the most difficult phase of her life.

She had kept her pregnancy as a secret. She was not in the condition to come to terms with the fact herself.

It was only leyla and erdem, who knew. They were there, that night when it happened.

“I have to go.” She sniffed.

Erdem bid her goodbye and turned his back to find a stumped figure of none other than Serkan Bolat himself.

They froze.

What do you know about pain?

It never ends

What do you about healing?

It takes time

What do you know about realizations?

They arrive when it’s too late

[to-come-alive]

EdSer holding hands in episode 13

[giulsherondale]

"Now she is so glad that we are fighting because we give her what she wants."

I loved how Serkan tried to calm down Eda when they meet Semiha. And he's so intelligent that he knows exactly that grandma is only waiting that Eda go mad and make mistakes. She enjoy seeing her angry and Serkan knows that. My smart baby boy.

"Serkan will be mine."

Balca make me laugh... Dear... Serkan will be your only in your dreams... Perhaps...

"Eda Bolat... Eda Bolat. See how beautiful you smile. This is what we must do in the office in front of your grandmother."

"Serkan..."

"I'm listening..."

"You make me angry."

"Great. That's exactly what I wanted. Therefore I asked to write so. So that you get a little angry, splash out the negative, fell on me and then calm down. But you're not as angry as I expected."

"Because before that, you had already done what I should have been more angry with."

"But still... It's nice to hear that right? Eda Bolat."

"Serkan are we going to talk about this now?"

"No. But face it, I know what I'm doing. Eda Bolat. Anyways... I think this should be our topic for discussion."

Honestly... How many times did Serkan said Eda Bolat? Too many... But... I'm not complaining... On the contrary I loved that. And Eda Bolat sounds actually really good.

"Your grandmother is now a partner of the company, came here and finally show her face, and she will take revenge on me for my father. She wants to bankrupt me, devide us and ruin my life. Right? She won't succeed, so calm down. She can't do that."

I'm not so sure about that but I love that Serkan is so determined and sicure about himself, and I think that he doesn't want to show his worries at Eda.

"She will do what she did to my parents Serkan. But I'm not strong as you."

In this exact moment Eda shoe us that she is only 23. I often forget this because she is so mature but she is actually so young.

"You are the one who destroyed my family."

Semiha broke the flower holder where Serkan has put Eda's flower. I'm so mad and broken. Maybe I read too much in this scene but I think that this is a metaphor to Edser love. So Semiha will destroy Eda and Serkan love.

Aydan and Ayfer are the duo that I didn't know I needed. They are so hilarious, love them.

"What is her problem?"

"The problem is of course me. She came because of me. She will heal my wounds, change, you see. It turns out that you blinded me... She said so."

"Serkan blinded you? She said that."

"Yes."

"So everyone can see that you are madly in love with me except you."

"If you scoff, then I'm leaving."

"Don't go."

"Serkan I'm taking about..."

"What are you talking about?"

"I thought... If I leave the company..."

"What?"

"If I move away from the company, she may change her mind."

"That's it... You quit?"

"I do not quit, but move away."

"I understand you very well."

"Then why are you looking at me like that? What?"

"In this life you can so easily give up on me, is that so?"

"I didn't say that. You misunderstood."

"Yes. Maybe I misunderstood you from the very beginning Eda..."

I felt so sorry for Serkan in this moment. Serkan has always fought for Eda and their love. And now he feels that she is abandoning him, and we know that everyone he loves, in his life abandoned him. My poor babe. Sorry but Eda this time you are sooo wrong.

"Try to understand me. Before you I was like a machine. I was a flesh and blood man who went to work. Then you came and touched my heart and a lot has changed for me. And then you abruptly removed your hand from my heart. I cannot be as automated now as I used to be. And without you I can't bear the burden on my heart. Eda... Let it be your grandmother or any other problem... If your hand is on my heart... Then I'm ready for anything."

THIS SCENE WAS HOTTT🔥

Serkan was so sad in this scene, because he thinks that when there will be a problem Eda will always run away from him. She is his air, he cannot live without her. And he wants to spend the new year night with her😍.

I think that everyone should listen to Leyla, if she doesn't trust Balca and Semiha there is a reason. I repeat we should all listen to Leyla.

Balca make me laugh pt. 2. She is completely crazy, she admits that she knows Serkan only for a few days and says to Semiha that she is not in love with him... But she is right because she is not in love... But now that I think about it she is right... Because she is not in love with him... She is completely obsessed with him. She is so cringe.

"Eda... Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. I'm fine... Tonight I will have nightmares again."

"Nightmares? Why?"

"Because... When I was little my mother bought me a wishes bracelet."

"What is it?"

"On it there are figures, symbols, such as a star or a heart."

"Ah ok, got it."

"These are symbols of your desires. After my parents died, my grandmother came to pick me up, I told you. She wanted to take me to Mardin. At home she talked to my aunt, and I heard everything. I was very young but I remember. They were talking very loudly, I... I run away from home. I run away and began to run. I ran, I ran... There was a hill behind our house. I rolled head over heels from this hill... And when I fell... I broke my bracelet. Lost it. I cried, not because of my wounds, but because I had lost it. And then... In every nightmare I did, I did the same thing. I escaped from somewhere... I run, I run as if someone is following me. All the time I run away and I'm so scared to see the same thing."

"Come here. Come. The Eda Yildiz I know... Doesn't run from anything. So I'm sure you won't run away."

My poor baby Eda. She really has a tough life.

Honestly... The suits scene doesn't has any sense... But the chemistry was on fire🔥

"Serkan doesn't like to spend special days with everyone. Only with the loved ones."

That means not you Balca. So back off thank you.

Serkan face when he sees the throne😂

And obviously Serkan has a plans for grandma situation. I love my smart and calculating boy.

"One time, the most beautiful, the smartes and at the same time the woman who I liked the most told me that lemon reduces stress."

Loving and caring Serkan is the best.

"I'm not an easy target for you Mrs. Semiha. You will give your shares to Serkan and leave."

"So you decide when I have to leave Eda? The time I spend here depends on you."

"How does it depend on me?"

"Are you the lover of this Serkan Bolat?"

"No."

"You are interested in each other."

"We have a past. These are the connections of the past."

"There is nothing stronger than blood ties. In time you will understand this. You deserve better than Serkan Bolat."

"You know me very well. Bravo!"

"I'm trying to find out. I have great ideas for you."

"None of them interests me."

"Okay. I'll ask the questions differently. Are you interested in Serkan Bolat?"

"Let's say I'm interested. What will you do? What will happen?"

"Then I will not beat around the blush. If I notice that you have a relationship with Serkan Bolat I will destroy this holding. Neither his mom nor he himself can handle the failure of the firm. I will destroy their company, disgrace their name, reputation, everything. Overnight. If you don't believe me ask Alptekin Bolat. If he's able to answer you of course."

"Don't underestimate me. I'm not afraid of you Semiha Yildirim."

THAT'S MY GIRL🔥

"How do you understand that I'm interested in astrology? Are you too?"

"I'm interested in ASTRONOMY."

Serkan Bolat ended Balca.

"Eda come in."

"I won't Serkan. Grandmother moved in with us. She will drive me completely crazy. She is an unbalanced, very dangerous woman. Therefore do not be polite to her, just attack."

"Calm down."

"Grandma moved in with us. I'll stay with Ceren. I came to tell you something."

"Good. If you want we'll talk inside."

"No I won't come in. I'll tell you here."

"Okay. What do you want to say to me?"

"Serkan listen... We cannot be together. It doesn't work. We can't. I don't seem to able to. It's all the same, someday we will part. I'm bothering you. You are already tired. Grandma will tear us apart, she will do something."

"Eda..."

"What?"

"Stay here."

"What?"

"Stay here tonight."

"Serkan we cannot be together and you are saying 'stay here'?"

"Nothing will happen Eda. We won't spend the new year together so stay here tonight."

"Okay then. Last time..."

"Last time."

The cuteness of this scene, I was melting.

"We are going to look at the stars."

"I'm already looking at the most beautiful star."

Serkan bought chocolate for Eda. If that's not love I don know what it is. And obviously Balca has to interrupt the romantic moment.

"Eda? Are you okay?"

"Serkan? What are you doing here? It's not been 10 minutes yet."

"She lives close. Candles and all that... Are you comfortable?"

"I decided to take a bath."

"You did the right thing."

"If you leave, I'll come."

"Of course... Give me 10 seconds."

"Serkan... Can you hear me?"

"Okay... I'll remember this moment."

"Enjoy. Do not rush."

CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE... TOO CUTE💞

The whole bust scene made mi laugh, but someone can explain to me why Serkan did not for once looked at Eda? I don't understand.

Serkan brings her the breakfast to bed. My caring babe.

"Small steps towards a big goal."

Eda's gift to Serkan is so beautiful. She has this unique capacity to make every gift unique and original.

We don't deserve Leyla, she is too pure and angelic for us. She helped Ferit with Ceren's gift.

Engin has organized all the wedding with just the two of them. I love himmm.

Sorry but we have to take a moment to speak about Kerem speaking in Italian... I'm Italian so when I listened to him speaking in Italian I fainted. He's so sexy🔥

I'm an Ayfer and Alexander stan.

Even Serkan can't stand Balca anymore. She really is a snake, she's worst than Selin. What kind of crazy person are you?

"Serkan where are you?"

"In the place where I should be. Next to you."

"Where have you been?"

"You are so beautiful."

This scene was so beautiful. His gift was so meaningful. There's this thing that I've always noticed, he really listened and pay attention to what she say or do. He never do something by casualties, he's so carefully about her. This is one of the many thing that I love about Serkan. And obviously this beautiful and romantic moment is ruined by the arrival of the police... Arghh grandma what have you done?!

[yourpakichic]

Episode 11 thoughts ⁃ A hand hold and a cheek kiss all within the opening scene? Someone call me an ambulance cause I’m dead. Also peep that smug smile on Serkan’s face after grabbing her hand. Sir sit down, you are already doing too much! That’s the most natural skinship scene I’ve seen between these two. Serkan has always looked a little bit uncomfortable with hand holding and other things but that was just so natural and just flowed! ⁃ The lyrics of that song and their expressions throughout were absolute perfection! ⁃ Gosh I really have a love and hate relationship with Aydan. She keeps pushing Selin and Serkan to be together I’m like so over it but on the other hand, she’s had such sweet and heartbreaking scenes and moments and my heart goes out to her. I know she’s a complex character and I love that about her but it’s also so frustrating to watch. ⁃ The similarities and contrasts in Eda/Ceren and Serkan/Engin conversation were so cute. The way Eda is so hopeful and Serkan is still in denial, like y’all need to get it together! Ceren being very straight about Serkan and Eda’s journey and feelings while Engin uses reverse psychology to get Serkan to understand was interesting cause being straight with Serkan never works out. ⁃ Serkan gets his pettiness, attitude, and jealousy tendencies from Aydan and no one can tell me otherwise. ⁃ I will forever love and cherish scenes where he comes to pick her up/drop her off. They might be the smallest scenes but they are the true evidence of their chemistry/attraction. Not to mention they always are witty and playful and shows the way their conversations flow and the little hints of magic their words contain! ⁃ So the grandmother is Ayfer’s mother and clearly they blame her for, I’m assuming, Eda’s parents death which is why they have kept their distance. But from the call Ayfer made, it seems that the grandmother still loves and cares for Ayfer and Eda and will do anything for them. Her entry will absolutely change everything for the family and Serkan/Eda as well! ⁃ “You never worked for me, Eda Yildiz.” Those words. I had to pause and just think. Serkan never considered Eda as his subordinate. She was his equal. To him, she was always a free bird. To come and go as she pleases. He never could or will cage her and I think that is absolutely beautiful and powerful. He acknowledges and accepts her carefree nature and presence and understands that she will fly as she pleases. For Eda, that freedom is necessary and core of her being. To be limited was never Eda’s style. So can you imagine? Being in a relationship where you have complete freedom to be what and who you are without any hesitation with a man who appreciates and loves your talent/knowledge and is always supportive of your endeavors. And that too with Serkan Bolat who has a controlling nature and being. Just need a moment to process that. ⁃ THAT IS GOING TO BE THEIR HOUSE. I’m calling it now. The show NEEDS to end with them in that house with their two robot-like children playing in garden designed by Eda and them over looking that beautiful view from their bedroom. ⁃ Serkan going FULL PANIC over Eda leaving and telling Engin to make her offer was the most pleasing to my eyes. That man out here creating a crisis over this. ⁃ The defeat in his eyes when she tells him to leave her alone. ⁃ Eda claiming her man in front of Selin was top notch! She said girl, I can take care of my man, no need for you. ⁃ The entire Serkan’s sickness scene was just heartbreaking. We knew Serkan had a tragic past and was still suffering because of it but to find out about his trauma was just... I have no words. To be so young, sent away abroad without knowledge about your brother, away from your family. To be left alone so young to grow and work through your trauma all by yourself. No wonder he doesn’t trust anyone. No wonder he doesn’t let anyone in. His own parents abandoned him so young, how is he supposed to rely on anyone else . And he has clearly internalized everything really deep. It’s one thing to have traumatic childhood experiences, but in Serkan’s case, he never worked through it at all. And now as an adult, due to that fact, it manifests itself into actual physical sickness. I literally just wanna give him a hug and make all his problems go away. ⁃ One more thing on this scene, one of my favorite things about their relationship is that despite their differences and previous conflicts, Eda and Serkan can both be easily open and vulnerable with each other when the other needs it. Just how they were sad/angry at the office early, but Eda came to take care of him and not only that, they had a conversation and were so open with each other as they read from the book. To have that openness with someone is just absolutely precious. ⁃ NOT THE WAKING UP WITH EACH OTHER SCENE I WANTED. I DESERVE BETTER! ⁃ Okay. That’s it. I’m never forgiving Aydan for breaking Eda’s heart like that. After everything Eda has done, she deserved to be said goodbye to properly. She made my girl cry after getting what she wants from her. I hope Ayfer goes in on her as their relationship progresses. ⁃ I FUCKING HAD A FEELING LAST WEEK AND THE FACT THAT  AND THEY JUST CONFIRMED IT. So last week when we found out about Eda’s parents death, Serkan’s face reaction made a small little voice inside my head go “that’s gonna be related to their relationship and be an obstacle in some way” BUT I DID NOT EXPECT IT TO BE TRUE LIKE THIS! Alptekin is responsible for Eda’s parents death. That is going to be the breaking point for these Eda/Serkan. Serkan already has issues with Alptekin but this is gonna push him over the edge. Also, I do not like the fact Ferit has this vital information. At this moment, I absolutely do not trust Ferit. ⁃ That was Ferit’s breaking point. Being left all alone while prepping for the wedding. I’m pretty sure he’s not gonna go through the wedding and he will blame Serkan for that I can already tell he’s gonna use his position as a shareholder and the secret about Eda’s parents to destroy Serkan. Not to mention, he’s probably gonna find a way to use the fact that Eda covered for him and Selin about the contract leaking to create a conflict. And here I was thinking Kaan would be our biggest problem.  ⁃ THAT FINAL SCENE WAS ICONIC AND EVERYTHING. I don’t think they could’ve chosen a more EdSer style to do the confession! After everything they’ve been through and the situation, it would’ve been totally weird to have a sweet, slow confession (yet at least). The arguing, the sunset, the slight hint of humor WERE ABSOLUTE PERFECT DIRECTION FOR THIS CONFESSION! the way he stopped the cab, got her suitcase, straight up told her to not go like multiple times and then said those magic words we’ve been dying to hear AND THEN GRABBED HER AND KISSED HER! Perfection. Just literally got goosebumps and was giggling like a child throughout it! 

Overall: THEY ARE OFFICIALLY TOGETHER. That is literally all that matters in the end. Hands off to Kerem and Hande for their amazing acting and expressions, cause this episode was strong solely due to their performance. There was no room for weakness or downplaying any emotion, and man did they deliver every line and every emotion absolutely perfect. We’re finally onto the next phase, which will be going through conflicts and working through family issues which is going to very exciting but also filled with angst. As per the 2 previews, the next episode seems to have a lot to offer: their romantic scenes, the bolats learning about Eda, Ayfer confronting Serkan, and of course Selin/Ferit wedding. Tbh, I am no nervous for this next part because how they choose to handle Serkan/Eda and  portray their relationship at this new starting point is so important in solidifying their bond and their love. 

I’m going to be mess until all these issues resolve and I already don’t have good coping mechanisms!

[lizacstuff]

Edser + holding hands when they were really together

requested by @disisphlebotinum

[ladylillianrose]

Thoughts on Episode 11 (take 2):

SPOILERS BELOW!!

Alright I’ll get this out there right now…OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! AHHHHHHHH!!! ASDFGHJKL!!!

I haven’t fangirl squeed like this since the Max/Zoey moments in Episode 12 (Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist)!!

*deep breaths* okay I’m calm….for the moment.

I’ll go into everything else before I touch on Serkan and Eda.

I really really really hate how Selin treats Ferit, he deserves better, someone who truly loves him. Honestly I’m kind of hoping he will decide to leave Selin at the altar. A man can only be ignored for another man so many times before he’s done!

Ayfer’s reaction to the contract is a bit over the top, granted she didn’t have all the facts, but still it’s not as though they eloped and are actually married. Especially because she is now deceiving Eda with the scholarship money, which we all know Eda will find out the truth about.

Aydan’s talk with Eda is not terribly surprising all things considered. Yes they’ve grown close and Eda has helped them all, but Aydan is not a woman who embraces change. Selin is the model wife for Serkan, she will listen to whatever Aydan says and wants (something Eda does not do), and because Serkan is not in love with Selin their marriage should ve “safe” from heartaches. Aydan wants to keep her only child close and to protect him from the world, even at the cost of losing the woman he loves.

I’m glad all the girls know the truth now, it was hard for Eda to deceive everyone, though in the end she wasn’t acting anymore, she does love Serkan. But it was causing a strain on the friendship so I’m pleased that they all made up.

I love Eda and Leyla’s relationship. Eda has helped Leyla grow and Leyla has gotten easier and I’m 100% here for sassy/snarky Leyla!

I really do love Engin, he’s just so sweet but clueless when it comes to the women in his life.

So I realized writing my last post that Engin is in a similar situation to Sekan with the two women in his life. On the one hand there is the woman who they’ve known, worked with a d been friends with for years, who has feelings for them (Piril/Selin). And on the other you have the newcomer who helps pull them out of their shell, gets to know the real them outside of work (Engin claims to have a life outside of work, but we have yet to see proof if it), and they are so different from the other women in their lives like a breath of fresh air (Ceren/Eda).

I hope that Engin forgives Ceren because I like them together, they’re adorable and sweet together.

Alptekin’s bombshell, wow, I mean WOW! It definitely sheds light onto why Eda doesn’t want her grandmother’s money. They say the money is Eda’s by right, which it would be since she lost both her parents. It would also explain why Eda and her grandmother do not speak, Eda would see taking the money as a betrayal to her parent’s memories. If Alptekin covered it all up, he would have paid an exorbitant amount of money to the family to keep it from being investigated or in the news (something neither family would want as it would be unseemly). Eda views the money as blood/hush money, gotten at the cost of her parent’s lives, so she wants no part of it. I think this will make the fact that Ayfer went to her mother for the money for Eda, a bigger issue for Eda, with Ayfer going behind her back against her wishes.

The way Ayfer insists that Eda have nothing to do with any of the Bolat’s makes me wonder if she knows that the holding is responsible for the death of Eda’s parents and that Alptekin is the one who arranged to have it covered up.

Now onto our favorite couple!!

The interlocked hands and cheek kiss in front of Selin and Ferit were just so natural, they both forgot that they were just playing parts.🥰🥰

Telling Serkan’s fortune with the song? Oh yes most assuredly, and of course now we have the reason for the show name (apparently it is also Piril’s actress doing the singing, which is lovely and awesome)

I love Ceren and Engin offering advice and the parallel shots/dialogue. Engin is really trying to get Serkan to realise that Eda does love him!

Ugh and the sleeping on “their” sides of the bed with the picture and guitar pick?😭😭😭 Also I love that the picture is from when they had to “make up” after a “fight” on the balcony while the girls listened in. You know Melo was the one to take the picture, print it out and give it to him (I love her and Serkan’s relationship!)

Lmao at the watch coming back! Always beeping around Eda, despite his claims that the watch is broken he still wears it 🤣����😉

The doctor’s rose house and story were so lovely and beautiful. That is totally going to be their home together, he had her designing the house and gardens to what she would want. She even said she would want to live in a house like that (so would I!). He could use it once it’s all fixed as the place to truly propose!🥰🥰🥰

Serkan desperately trying to keep Eda at his side in the office. He’s just so sure that she wants to get away from him because she doesn’t like him. 🥺🥺🥺

Bless Seyfi for always looking out for team Edser! He knows who and what Serkan needs! (If this was Shakespeare, Seyfi would be Robin Goodfellow/Puck bringingnour lovers together). And Eda dropping everything to be at his side.

Also Eda telling Selin she would stay with him, despite Selin saying that Serkan likes to be alone when he is sick. Selin may have known him for longer, but she only knows the facade that Serkan puts up to keep people at a distance. Eda knows the real Serkan, he trusts her and is open with her in a way he isn’t with anyone else.

Telling one another’s fortunes with pages from The Little Prince was so sweet (made me want to go back and read it again since it’s been at least 20 years since I last read it).

Serkan’s painful memories 😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺. My heart aches for him so. I feel for the whole family, but he was so young and he needed love and support, but instead was sent away. It sheds light on why he’s so reserved with his emotions and trust, and I hope he will be able to share the whole story with Eda (and us) someday.

“Eda do not leave me.” “I’ll go too. Wherever you want.” 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰 Serkan is so vulnerable here. And of course he doesn’t remember any of it until it’s almost too late!!!

Eda telling Selin the truth, ugh my heart 💔💔💔. And then looking like she might faint from the stress and heartbreak of it (though she’s fainted less and less with Serkan around to help with her anxiety/stress, though he has caused his fair share too!)

I was wondering when we would get to see Sirius again! Sweet boy just wants Mom and Dad to be happy together. And Serkan trying to use Sirius as an excuse to see Eda again😭😭😭

Serkan giving us a heart attack calling Selin to meet him. I don’t think he ever intended to say yes to Selin, he was just stalling for more time till he could come up with a different solution. I certainly hope Selin gets a bit of a backbone after this realizing that she needs to stop dropping everything for Serkan (even when it isn’t him doing the calling/asking).

Serkan making the taxi pullover, declaring that Eda is his bride, and taking charge!😍😍😍🔥🔥🔥 Serkan is always hot, but there is something about him taking control that is just 🔥🔥🔥🥵🥵🥵

Asking about packing flip flops in her suitcase because it is so light 🤣🤣🤣. Serkan mark my words she will get you in a pair of flip flops someday!

The confession🥰🥰🥰 so complete them, arguing, talking about how Serkan can’t get her out of his head! ❤❤

And finally a real kiss!!! All their other almost kisses (and the first kiss) are so charged with UST (which I love), but this one was so sweet, loving and romantic!😍😍😍😍

Now I’m off to watch the end of the episode and the fragman for 12 on repeat until next Wednesday!!

Alright I think that was everything I had written before. If not I’m sure I’ll add some random posts later lol.

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This week on Sen Çal Kapımı

Serkan's inability to articulate his feelings for Eda has him literally man down, while Eda contemplates their kinda, sorta, maybe mutual feelings and her future. Other stuff happens, but come on, with this episode, Edser takes centre stage as the ship sets sail on the high seas.

Before we jump right into it, last week in this post, I bulleted the things all of us expected was coming. 

Let’s take one moment to note the glorious ways in which all of these things unfolded?

Nursing back to health

Pining

Severe angst

Breaking point

Dear writers of this show, we appreciate you. We are truly blessed.

Now, on to this week. The episode picks up where we left off, with Selin giving Serkan 2 days to decide whether she drops Ferit like a hot potato on the eve of their wedding. Let’s be clear, she wants to dump a man she is supposed to marry in two days to resume a logical and clinical relationship? Is Selin even in love with Serkan? It doesn’t seem like he treated her very well – but then again, it seems their relationship had a very logical genesis – no sweeping romantic gestures, no sweet words, no compliments it would seem! etc. So objectively I’m not sure what exactly makes that prospect better than the one with Ferit – who clearly does love and care for her. But I digress. 

Essentially, this is how it plays out:

Selin: “Let me know in max 2 days if you want to be with me, k.”

Serkan: ...

Eda: Simply exists.

Serkan: Stares directly at Selin as he deliberately grasps Eda’s hand and holds on for dear life.

Now, they say actions speak louder than words... so how is Selin still not clear on the fact that Serkan not rushing to end her marriage means he’s not interested???

Anyhoo, Serkan and Eda spend most of the episode circling around the same.

Did you say yes to Selin?

What is your opinion on my situation with Selin?

Would you stay?

I can’t stay because… reasons

If either one of these to love-struck puppies took a second to reflect, they would realise that they actually have the answers already. Eda in fact, does consider for a minute that Serkan might actually have feelings for her. Serkan however, is convinced Eda cannot wait to get out of his life - which makes his bold move at the end of the episode a great moment for his own growth as a character. He was operating on his feelings and taking an emotional risk, having no idea how she actually felt. Yes, he had the note she left, but up until 20 minutes earlier, he was still fighting Engin on the notion that she could genuinely have feelings for him.

Speaking on Engin, writers, I have faith that we will see Engin mercilessly tease Serkan in the next episode about his heart eyes and his newfound familiarity with the language of love. This is likely going to bring great comedic gold. Its also not lost on me that Engin can so easily see the love between Serkan and Eda, but is totally clueless about his own romantic entanglements. To be honest, I’m not invested in this romance, so whomever he ends up with - or doesn’t - is fine by me.

Listen, I’m high key bursting at the fact that Eda and Serkan both already see the other in their bed(s). Them facing “each other” with longing was one of the smaller moments of the episode, but one of my favourites. And because this show is so good at parallels, I’m putting it out there that we will get a scene of them sharing a bed without Serkan needing to turn his back to her, but also without Serkan ruining the mood once daybreak arrives. Eda is a snuggler and she loves to sleep. I’m looking forward to bedroom shenanigans. Also, can Eda (and Engin) find the pictures of them he’s clearly carrying around in his wallet at this point? Please and thank you.

SIDE NOTE: according to Laila, Serkan has a conference in London “next week” which has been reserved for two people. Since I’m going out on a limb and saying Serkan won’t be travelling with Selin, will Eda accompany him to the UK? One can only hope for a honeymoon romantic getaway business trip.

Adore the “don’t leave” parallels that the show has been dropping like golden nuggets for the past few weeks. Serkan has spent multiple episodes in a struggle with himself. If Eda wants to leave, he insists its not his style to ask her to stay. But by episodes end he is so frenzied at the thought of his life without her, he’s ready and willing to say it m u l t i p l e times. We love a glow up.

Things I loved about this episode:

The handhold 5 seconds in & Eda’s impulsive kiss on his cheek.

The super cheesy let’s-randomly-turn-on-the-radio-and-awkwardly-listen-to-the-exact-song-describing-our entire-love-story. The way I was lapping it up with shovel. Also, Başak Gümülcinelioğlu’s (aka the actress playing Piril) song Sen Çal Kapımı is beautiful. All the fanvids, all the time please oh talented vidders.

Serkan’s meltdown at the office the minute he realised she’s about to leave. Hilarious. I truly enjoy seeing him a little off kilter and a lot out of control. Just looking at how his employees have relaxed since he’s been more relaxed - due to Eda’s influence - is a great subtle storytelling mechanism as well.

Immensely enjoyed Nurse Eda - especially her traditional approach to checking temperatures. LOL. Just a comment that despite Eda believing Serkan and Selin are most likely a thing, she refuses to leave his side in deference to Selin. I totally loved seeing her stake her claim. And judging by the never-you-mind, irritated way with which Serkan basically told Selin to move along, Serkan doesn’t want people around when he’s sick - but he certainly wants Eda.

Serkan going from unable to communicate to “you’re constantly in my head, in my every thought! You’ve taken over my brain! You’ve taken over my entire life!” #FlingsSelfIntoTheSun

THE KISS. Beautiful cinematography, beautiful direction, gorgeous cast, amazing script. Loved everything about it.

Things that broke/confused me

Serkan being a complete dolt and instead of enjoying the woman he loves cuddled up beside him, he takes the time to reiterate that he doesn’t remember their conversation from the night before. SMH. Eda was about to risk it all one last time, and Serkan’s poorly timed dose of realness is the final straw.

The tears in his eyes when she left the office. He was still fighting being vulnerable, even after Eda basically gave him the roadmap with an x for how to achieve success. Thankfully, by episodes end his own desperation at potentially losing her outweighed his “logic” and self preservation. Eda is teaching Serkan that its okay to need other people and that he doesn’t have to shoulder everything alone. #MyEndlessFloodOfTears

Aydan being unable to see how very much Serkan loves Eda and her - bordering on delusional at this point - push for Serkan to marry a woman who inspires no passion, no interest, no life, no spark in him! I understood it initially. But now it’s just comical. Seyfi is clearly team #Edser. I know the Bolat’s have a history of trauma. But pushing Serkan into a loveless marriage, while hurting Ferit and potentially Eda (and Serkan himself) seems absurd to me.

Ayfer’s reaction to the contract was OOT IMO. The show has been quite light handed with drama and this was the first time I thought the hysterics was over done. I understand that it was a shock, I understand that feelings of betrayal and hurt are natural. But a moment of reflection - as well as allowing Eda to explain - would have easily highlighted what Ayfer already knows - that there is a lot more happening between Eda and Serkan than a mere contract. Furthermore, this “Serkan Bolat is the devil incarnate here to take advantage of our poor Eda” is ridiculous. Serkan is a good person - logical and sometimes aloof - but he isn’t devious. If anything, Ayfer getting to know him during their terrarium creating afternoon left her with a good impression of who he is. So unless there are missing scenes somewhere, her suddenly being anti-Serkan feels like a necessity to serve the upcoming plot, as opposed to an organic happenstance. Not my favourite development. This includes her orchestrating Eda’s scholarship in Italy. Feels out of character. But let’s see how it all plays out.

Things I know is coming:

From the fragman, Serkan names a star or something after her #squee

Selin finally getting it

Aydan not getting it

Seyfi being over the moon - along with Melo no doubt

D R A M A about parents and death and cover-ups but I’m ignoring that for now

And most importantly:

Dating

Kissing

Hugging

Giggles

#FlingsSelfIntoTheEverLovingSun #NotPrepared

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Eda's Robot, Serkan's Fairy Girl - A Beautiful Change

Summary: Serkan finds an injured puppy unaware that puppy would be the reason he meets the woman of his dreams.

A/N: This is a complete AU, meet/cute Edser One-shot. I wrote this fluff piece to make up for the pain of my Edser angst filled One-Shot. Enjoy!

The wind caressed Serkan’s face as he ran, his legs pumping as fast as his body allowed. His heart thundered in his chest and he reveled in the feeling of exertion that traveled through his body. 

He rarely went for runs through the park. While Serkan maintains his exercise, his health is something very important to him. He usually kept to the gym in his home. 

But lately he had been feeling restless, and he wanted to go for a run underneath the cover of the stars. 

And so one night he found himself in a park far from his neighborhood, running through a bike trail that was empty because of the late hour. 

He expected his run to be uneventful. He was proven wrong. 

A low whine sounded through the trees that surrounded the bike path and though Serkan knew it was unwise to wander through the trees at night, he couldn’t ignore the sound he heard. 

Cutting through the trees and following the sound he heard, he used his phone to guide him and soon came across a small trail of blood on the fallen leaves. 

Concern filling him, Serkan followed the trail and came across what appeared to be a puppy. 

He knelt down on the forest floor and the small puppy couldn’t be more than 14 weeks, judging by his size. The little guy tried to get up but couldn’t. 

Serkan frowned, noting his dark fur was wet with blood and when he tried to stand, he would wobble, unable to stand. 

Serkan slowly placed his hand in front of the dog, allowing him to smell his scent before slowly touching him. 

“Hey, boy,” Serkan spoke quietly as he slowly reached to pet him. “You’re hurt. How about we take care of your injuries?” 

The small puppy leaned his head against Serkan’s palm before licking it.  

Serkan carefully lifted the puppy in his arms when he knew he had his trust and took it home. 

For the next two days, Serkan took care of the puppy’s injuries and while the puppy was in good spirits, the wound did not appear to be healing. 

Fearing it would get infected. Serkan informed Engin he would be out of the office until further notice and took the puppy to the highest recommended vet for pet injuries. 

Serkan hated waiting in the waiting room. His annoyance was on high the longer he waited. 

When they finally called his name, he was ready to make his ire known as a vet assistant led him to a back room.

He waited another 10 minutes, and he was ready to shout. 

He was not a patient man, and he swore this clinic was trying to test his patience. 

“I’m sorry about the wait. We’re running a little behind and it can’t really be helped.” 

Serkan was ready to lecture her on punctuality but stopped short at the sight of the veterinarian. 

She was beautiful. The most beautiful woman he ever had the honor of looking upon. 

Tanned skin, long black hair, dark enchanting eyes, a welcoming smile on her lips that was wiping away his anger. 

“I’m sure you’re doing the best you can.” Serkan found himself saying, holding the puppy close to him. 

“We are. We’re a bit shorthanded today and had to make the best of it.” She extended her hand. “Eda Yildiz.”

Serkan’s hand engulfed hers. Her hands were so small, so delicate, it sent a wave of protectiveness rushing through Serkan. “Serkan Bolat.” 

Eda waited for him to release her hand and it was only after the puppy in his arm started squirming did he realize it. Flushing, Serkan let go of her hand. 

“And who do we have here?” Eda reached out to scratch the puppy behind its ears and it leaned into her hand. 

“I don’t know.” Serkan continued off her confused look. “I was out for a run with Sirius two nights ago when I found this little guy bleeding and injured. I tried to nurse him back to health, but his wound is not healing.”

Eda nodded and gently took the puppy in her arms and removed the wrap that was covering the puppy’s torso. 

Eda winced, seeing the puppy’s mangled side. There were four puncture wounds, like from a bite. The skin and hair appear to have been torn from the body, making it look like his side been scalped, the red bloody meat showing. “Oh, you poor thing.” 

“I would have brought him in sooner if I had known it would not heal without help.” Serkan said as he watched her examine the wound, calming the puppy by stroking his head. 

“You did good.” Eda shot him a distracted smile. “The wound is clean and not infected, but he requires stitches. You said he’s a stray you found? Do you intend to keep him, or would you like me to contact the local animal shelter?” 

“That won’t be necessary. I can’t just let him go now.” Serkan said. 

Eda turned a bright smile on him. “Good, I’ll get him his stitches and run a full workup and we’ll go from there. I can also give him his shots to be on the safe side. Sound good?” 

“Yes.” Serkan nodded. 

“Okay, wait here and the two of us will be back shortly.” Eda carefully scooped the puppy up in her arms and disappeared into a back room. 

Serkan waited. He hadn’t been sure if he was going to keep the puppy, but Eda had looked at him with that bright smile and all he could think about was doing everything he could not to disappoint her. 

He had never been affected by a woman like this.

What in the world was she doing to him? 

He had seen plenty of beautiful women; he had beautiful girlfriends.

Why was this any different?

He didn’t date much, more focus on his work than on his dating life.

His last real relationship had been with Selin and that ended because she wanted to get married and he did not. He didn’t have time for a wife. He barely had time for a girlfriend. 

He was grateful when she ended things. Still working with her left things awkward, but he was professional and he could deal. 

Maybe his lack of dating was the cause for his reaction to Eda Yildiz. 

He hated to admit it but maybe Engin was right in saying he needed to balance his work and professional life better. 

Serkan was interrupted from his thoughts when Eda entered the room again with the puppy in her arms, with a fresh bandage over the wound. 

“You should consider giving him a name.” Eda recommended. “I would like to put a name to his file.”

Serkan floundered.

What was he going to call the puppy?

He looked around the room and caught sight of the wall that was covered with pet pics and names. “Levi.” he said the first name he read. 

“Levi?” Eda repeated. “Are you certain?”

“Yes.” No, he really wasn’t, but he would not admit that to the goddess in front of him. 

“Okay,” Eda placed Levi on the exam table and picked up a folder on the counter and began writing things down. She then filled a script. “I am prescribing a pain medication.” 

Serkan listened carefully as she instructed on the dosage and when to give it to him. The importance of changing the bandage and keeping the area clean. “When should I bring him back to get his stitches removed?” 

“Bring him back in a week and we will take it from there, Serkan Bey.” Eda smiled. 

Serkan was not prepared for the surge of desire flowing through him from hearing her call him Serkan Bey. 

What the hell is wrong with him?

Serkan forced a smile. “I’ll do that. Thank you.” 

Eda nodded and offered one more smile before disappearing back into the back room. 

Serkan watched her go, feeling off kilter. 

~*~ ~*~ ~*~ 

The next week felt agonizing. Serkan cared for Levi and, surprisingly enough, Sirius was protective of the puppy. 

Serkan could not stop thinking about Eda and her beautiful smile, her eyes that enchanted him. He counted down the days until he would see her again. 

When the time finally came, Serkan dressed in his best suit, wanting to look good. 

Eda greeted him and Levi with a bright smile that had his heart pounding against his ribs at a fast tempo. 

“How are we doing today?” Eda asked, setting Levi’s file down. 

“Good. He’s been doing really well. He’s gained a lot more energy as he’s healed.” 

“That’s exactly what I wanted to hear.” Eda carefully unwrapped the wound, examining the stitches.

“Can they come out today?” Serkan questioned. 

“Yes, and while you are here, I would like to do a wellness check up, if that’s okay with you?” 

“Whatever you think is best.” Serkan replies. 

“Now that’s just what any woman wants to hear from a man.” Eda scooped Levi into her arms and disappeared into the back room before Serkan could respond. 

Not that he would have. She left him speechless.

Was she just flirting with him now?

 Or was he reading too much into it? 

Serkan tried to ignore the way his stomach flipped, hoping Eda was flirting with him. 

Eda returned nearly ten minutes later, setting Levi down. “His wound has healed nicely. No need to bandage it again. His fur will grow back. His weight is good, his heart and lungs sound perfect, and his teeth look healthy.”

“When should I bring him back?” Serkan asked, wanting to know when he could see her again. 

“Most wellness visits are every 6 months.” Eda answered. 

Serkan fought to keep a neutral expression and not show his disappointment. He couldn’t believe he wouldn’t be able to see her again for another 6 months. 

~*~ ~*~ ~*~ 

Sirius greeted Serkan at the door when he got home, when it hit him. He could see her again before 6 months. 

He told himself he would wait a few days, but failed miserably. The next day, he was calling to make an appointment with Eda for Sirius.

Sirius was perfectly healthy and already had his wellness check but Eda didn’t need to know that. 

~*~ ~*~ ~*~ 

Eda fell in love with Sirius from the moment she saw the large dog crouching down to shower him in affection. 

Serkan never thought he would ever want to be a dog before, but watching her hug Sirius, obviously taken with the dog, he wished he was Sirius. 

Oh God, he needed help.

Serkan was sure of it. 

Serkan couldn’t take his eyes off Eda the entire time she was giving Sirius his check up. 

“You have a perfectly healthy dog here,” Eda smiled. 

“Great.” Serkan said, and watched as Sirius tried to rub against Eda. “He really likes you,”

“I like him, too.” Eda grinned down at the dog. “You’re just a beautiful boy, aren’t you?” 

Serkan found he couldn’t look away as Eda spent extra time with Sirius just talking and giving him her affection. 

~*~ ~*~ ~*~ 

Serkan didn’t know how to stay away after that. 

He needed to see Eda. She drew him in like a moth to a flame. 

He tried not to be obvious about it, but he was sure he failed when he found any excuse to bring Levi and Sirius in. 

Sirius swallowed a flower. 

Levi cut his gum on a sharp bone. 

Sirius sneezed. 

Levi got a rock between his paws. 

Sirius’ bark sounded off. Lie. 

Levi was being picky about what he ate. Another Lie. 

~*~ ~*~ ~*~ 

“Serkan!” 

Serkan turned to see Eda had followed him to his car after his latest excuse to come see her. 

“Can we talk for a minute?” Eda requested. 

“Of course,” Serkan got Levi into the back seat before focusing all his attention on Eda. “Did you need something?” 

“I need you to be honest.” Eda told him. 

“I’m sorry?” Serkan felt his heart pound in his chest. 

Did she figure him out? The twinkle in her eye told him she did. 

“Levi and Sirius are perfectly healthy. There is no need for you to bring them in every week.” Eda said. 

“I’m just being cautious.” Serkan protested. 

Eda pushed her hair back and stepped closer to him, close enough that Serkan could smell that intoxicating floral scent of hers. 

“I see the way you look at me, Serkan. It’s hard not to. Instead of making excuses to come see me. Why don’t you just ask me out for coffee sometime?”

“Would you say yes?” Serkan felt hope flutter in his chest. 

“Only one way to find out.” Eda responded. 

She started to turn away, but Serkan stopped her, gripping her hand in his. “Would you like to have dinner with me, Eda Yildiz?”

“I would like that very much, Serkan Bolat.” Eda tugged her hand out of his and placed it on his chest, directly over his heart. 

Serkan was sure she could feel every beat, giving himself away. 

She leaned up and pressed a kiss to his cheek. “Meet me at 7?”

Serkan watched her go, entranced. She was almost at the door when he realized he didn’t have her number. “Where?”

“I’ll text you. I got your number on file.” she called back. 

Serkan felt this joy in his heart that he couldn’t ever remember experiencing before.

Tonight couldn’t come fast enough. 

He had a feeling his life was about to change and for once he didn’t care that he didn’t like change if it meant Eda was going to become a bigger part of his life. 

If that was the case, he welcomed the changes in his life to come wholeheartedly.