#eclipse: absolutely not. I will never forgive this

[cheuby]

i just know that soap is absolutely messy when eating his sweetheart out, like, it’s so messy and gross but, it’s one of the only (many, but he insists theres only a few) ways he can express how much he loves you.

afab reader, overuse of you/you’re (whoopsies), no gendered pronouns, first post (m’ trying to get the hang to this), cunnilingus, soap being the munchiest munch to ever munch, headcanons!

a/n: oof, feeling a little nervy, first post. hope you beautiful people love it, likes and reblogs appreciated!

soap just always gets so pussydrunk and it’s all because of one thing. you’re just so warm, wet, n’ sticky, you’re akin to a dessert in his mind; you’re just so warm and soft down here, pillowy wet folds. when he gets his fingers and mouth on you, he loves how he has to lick away your sweetness, it’s all the more better when it strings between his fingers or makes a milky sheen on his lips. you are exactly like a dessert in his mind: you’re fulfilling, messy, and he definitely probably shouldn’t have you as often as he should (he’s getting addicted).

he has the nasty habit of making sure he’s just the noisiest thing between your legs, every slurp, flick of his tongue, and groan of earnest enjoyment audible - you’re probably lucky if you can hear yourself over him. (soap definitely babbles murmured encouragement into your wetness when you’re getting close)

i’m so sorry but, he always has to make a mess on you. that’s the rule, the golden rule of soap eating you out. the mess is obviously his drool all over your cunt and thighs (or your underwear, he will attempt to eat you out through your underwear). soap wants it to be like a situation where he doesn’t know where he begins and where you end, not only entangled in how you feel but when he looks down between your thighs, he genuinely can’t tell if eating you out has made you make a mess all over yourself or if he’s managed to salivate so much to the point of drooling over you like some rabid, foaming at the mouth animal.

he never wants to come up for air, i mean never. being between your thighs and lapping at you mindlessly gets him so high, and the lack of air that has his lungs nearly burning just gets him higher. he treats coming up for air like it’s a punishment, looking up at you through dark, long lashes as he rubs at your clit like he’s saying he’s sorry baby, won’t you forgive him? at least he has the decency to rub at your clit to make up for the lost seconds, right :(? i would absolutely die, his puppy dog eyes are lethal, baby blue eyes glossed over and pupils eclipsing the color of them; soap would most definitely play it up with a pout.

okay, hear me out: he gets so into it that he absentmindedly starts humping the mattress whilst eating you out. it’s not noticeable at first, maybe just a slight shift of the hips when he has to pry your thighs apart for the umpteenth time or when your fingers are curled into the roots of his hair, keeping him planted between your thighs. sometimes, soap isn’t even sure if it’s the act of eating you out or the fact he’s most definitely subconsciously imagining his tongue was his cock. either way, dry humping the sheets turns into not so dry humping with how leaky his cock is, a deep groan being let out into your folds when he grinds the underside of his cock just right. full on encourage it, will definitely lead to a moment of him attempting to chase after your orgasm with not only his tongue but with his cock as well.

[codenamesazanka]

more Deku bashing, if you'll forgive me

Seeing lots of shocked tweets and posts that Deku seems so cold and distant about Shigaraki dying in front of him; that Deku doesn't seem to care much at all; that Deku isn't devastated he wasn't able to save that little boy.

I have to point out that Deku never cared in the first place. He really didn't! It's why he needed to see The Crying Child to feel any bit of empathy for Shigaraki, and why ever since then, he only yammers on about saving the Crying Child and only the little boy. He never gave a shit about the Shigaraki in front of him. Never treated Shigaraki like someone real to engage with. That Shigaraki is unforgivable; and it was impossible to have ever bring the Crying Child into reality because the Crying Child was a memory, it happened 15 years in the past that cannot be changed, so all Deku can do is comfort the Crying Child then beat the shit out of Shigaraki.

I mean, just look at the imagery and the word choices:

Are those the words and expressions of someone who's trying to be careful about not hurting Shigaraki? Actually trying to help someone in pain? I remember when people were excited that Danger Sense would tell Shigaraki that Deku doesn't want to hurt him - turns out nah. He was so ready to make Shigaraki throw up blood.

Deku never tried to talk to Shigaraki. He never asked any questions during the whole time they were fighting. Mirio asked a question and got a response; but Deku? Nothing. Even in the memory-realm, when Shigaraki via memory-villains ask Deku what his plan was, Deku just shouted 'No!' and that was that.

When Deku said 'Somewhere inside of you is a person' he literally meant that. Inside of Shigaraki is the Crying Child, who is the actual person. Did he catch Shigaraki saying 'Spinner will be looking forward to this' and think, 'huh, Shigaraki has someone he cares about, I think? Then he wouldn't want to destroy Spinner, would he?' No. The fan-translation got everyone's hopes up that Deku wants to 'shred the rug' of societal failures, but the official translation was correct - Deku wanted to pry the lid off Shigaraki's trauma, accusing Shigaraki of repressing himself.

If he cared about Shigaraki at all, he would've protested when Gran told him he might have to kill Shigaraki. Instead:

He would've opposed the construction of something called a SKY COFFIN DEATH ARENA. He would've spoken up when Heroes talked strategy about how AFO is the better opponent to fight, implying that it's better if AFO had taken over Shigaraki, despite Shigaraki being the victim of AFO here.

Even when he ends up saving Tenko from Decaying the Shimuras, he's utterly lackluster there. Tenko's in tears, saying that he must have wanted to kill his family, he was born with a quirk like Decay, who could ever validate his existence the way he is??? And Deku's response? "Well. Holding my hand might make you feel better. So here." Saying something like, 'No, you're a child! It's not your fault!' or 'Your quirk isn't meant for harm, it can be useful too' or 'It's okay. You're not an evil existence' seems obvious, but Deku doesn't.

and really, all this has been obvious since the Mall Encounter in Chapter 69. Remember when Shigaraki point blank told him that All Might's smile is stupid because he acts like there's no one he can't save? And it's clearly full of resentment? And Deku picked up on this, which is why next chapter he asks All Might if it's true there are times where All Might couldn't save someone.

But once Tsukauchi said, don't worry about it, Deku did just that. When he does think about it one time, it's this absolutely nothing of a reflection

"I guess we just have to agree to disagree!" Come on. And this kid has a 'drive to save that eclipses all common understanding'??? for real?????

Deku has never given a crap about Shigaraki or Villains. Honestly, him wanting to save that sad little boy might as well be just Horikoshi putting lines in his mouth to move the story along.

If Deku really did care, I think he would've wanted to save the entire person that is Shigaraki. The Crying Child is a phantom - Shigaraki is real and solid and there. The Crying Child is innocent and easy to care about because it's a cute baby and it's openly weepy; saving hand-monster junji ito twink Shigaraki who laughs and talks about destroying everything Deku loves would've been an actual challenge. But clearly we couldn't have that because even the Crying Child was too far gone for Deku to save.

[ssatorussuguru]

hey!! absolutely adore your batfam fics!!! any chance you have any fic recs? especially for steph <33

BOY DO I!!

i made a grave mistake in middle school privating every bookmark because now it's habit and way too much work to sort through. apologies it haunts me too

seriously though it's making me so unbelievably happy u like my work, mwah love u <33

very sorry if it's overwhelming under the cut, i tried to organize it but it's still crazy, i couldn't choose!!

dick

dick pt.2

tim+dick

tim

Favs!!!

yeah, dad, maybe no one is perfect - It's a story about murder, it's a story about motive, it's a story about mommy issues. Or: Stephanie Brown kills her dad!

the shark was calling to express his feelings on his ugliness and his mortality - Stephanie does not ask Bruce to buy her pads, which causes some problems, solves another, and ends with Bruce buying her some anyways.

(i love luvo's fics just read them all honestly)

prove that i'm worth something - Dick Grayson has never had much time for Stephanie Brown. But when the two of them find themselves stranded without a line to the outside world, he finds that they might have more in common than he thought.

their arms are extended (my eyes start to close) - In which Dick Grayson gets hit with fear toxin, Stephanie Brown imparts some wisdom, and Damian Al Ghul Wayne learns to forgive himself.

don't you cry, dry your eyes - ALSO read all orpheusaki fics theyre incredible

I Used to Be an Adventurer Like You, Then I Took an Arrow to the Knee - Stephanie was just on patrol and now she’s stuck somewhere, sometime, with Bruce. They bleed and bond and mostly try to keep each other alive— you know, just a Tuesday.

Steph and fam:

touch the sky - tragedy strikes, the batfam is left to pick up the pieces, and once again steph finds herself having to prove to the world that she can do anything she wants.

steph's batman - A brief look at Steph, Damian, and Dick learning to become a family. Even after Bruce comes home. Even after they all die. Even after Dick comes home, he is still her Batman.

have you been half asleep, and have you heard voices? - AU where Tim was never Robin and Stephanie reminds everyone of Jason

steph!robin verse - After Jason Todd dies, Stephanie Brown becomes Robin.

bitty batty baby vigilante crew - the story of two kids conning their way across gotham, and (mostly) inadvertently into the batman family.

Steph and Bruce centric:

the hall in the back of wayne manor - "Somewhere in the Wayne Manor there is a wall of pictures, each with Bruce in a suit and one of the kids in a suit or a dress, standing in a courtroom at the end of an adoption hearing." --audreycritter

and i've been cold since you left - Stephanie Brown is dead. And yet, Bruce Wayne can’t stop seeing her out of the corner of his eye. He’s used to being haunted by his mistakes, but this is the first time that it’s literal.

though your eyes will need some time to adjust - stephanie and bruce, figuring it out

carpe diem (today fish) - [Bruce doesn't see what the problem is, honestly. It's a college tuition, how much can it cost?, a hundred grands?]

(don't) compare similar species - Batman and Robin have a night on patrol. Bruce is trying to be better about trusting Stephanie as Robin, and making it clear that he does. Stephanie might be working just as hard.

calming notion, perpetual in motion - (What it means to be a legacy, even for those you don't wish to carry.)

we could have had anything else - Stephanie and Bruce take a road trip to see the solar eclipse, featuring: Stephanie Brown and her Stephanie Brown-ness, Bruce Wayne and his Bruce-ness, and grief.

Steph and Dami:

in this quiet company (i forget sometimes, just how to breathe) - Steph and Damian kill time in Gotham and Damian tries his best not to experience Emotions. Oh, and there's ice cream.

coming clean

the gentleness that comes (despite the violence) - how steph and damian sleepovers became a regular occurrence

Steph and Jason:

this time, the loser wins - They were two sides of the same coin. They understood each other. It was nice. It was a downright relief. She’d never had a big brother before.

too young to be taken seriously, too old to believe all this hypocrisy - When Crystal Brown goes into rehab, leaving Stephanie in the sole custody of her father, Steph decides to run away from home, and meets Jason Todd, who decides that she is the best little sister ever.

the great birthday heist - Stephanie Brown, age 6, didn’t want to come to this kid Jason’s birthday party, especially since she figured out it was just a front for their dads to discuss crime. She’s especially cranky about the fact that her dad made her give her favorite new stuffed animal as a gift and plans a one-girl heist to get it back. Then a dozen-odd years later, they meet again.

bringin' home the rain - After Jason digs his way out of his grave, he lives a broken existence in the city unable (and unwilling) to remember his life before. That changes one night when he sees Robin flying overhead and follows her home.

Silly Steph!!

hanging around

always look where you throw the brick

most girls never win if they're polite

Misc:

who they could have been (who they'll never be) - In which Bruce is haunted by several ghosts, who unbeknownst to him are his future kids from a timeline that will never come to be.

have i told you about minnie? - After you’ve known Matches Malone long enough, you get used to him telling you about his kids. Not that his kids know about it.

told the world i had a plan - loosely connected series in which jason lives after ethopia, steph succeeds him as robin and tim is...around here. somewhere.

cheese viking has taken over damian's life - Damian has gotten (really) invested in this little arcade game called ‘Cheese Viking’. And he has to let everyone in his family know. Everyone.

think how great it is to fall asleep (and how terrible it is to wake up) - (Or: 5 times a Bat noticed/discovered jason's body dysmorphia post resurrection)

[vectorisheree]

The relationship / dynamic between TSAMS Sun and Solar is so important to me I'm going to explode like you're really just going to drop the fact that Solar's mindscape is literally shaped after a scene from Charlie and the chocolate factory not because he likes the movie (well, he off handily comments on it 'I did like the mike TV section I guess' but last part comes off as him trying to justify why his mind is based off of it rather than him actually confirming that he enjoys the movie) but because he watched it with ,assumedly, his Sun?? Solar doesn’t specify which Sun he is speaking of (technically, he normally does clarify if he's talking about his home dimension so he's probably talking about our Sun rather than his but let me pretend)

(Putting a cut because this ended up way longer than I thought it was)

Also, personal head cannon for why Sun hasn't really been around on TSAMS since Eclipse came back is because Solar would never forgive himself if he even let the possibility of his brother/cousin getting hurt by himself happen again. Solar has already expressed guilt about how he believes his Sun’s fate is his fault (which it totally wasn’t!! His Sun knew the risks and chose to put himself at risk for Solar’s sake, which honestly shows how close they were that they’d both sacrifice themselves for each other), there’s absolutely no way he’d let another Eclipse hurt a Sun. Like Solar would have literally sacrificed himself for the chance of his Sun getting better as seen back when Eclipse came back the first time and Moon wanted to blow him up with the satellite where he only asks Moon to try to fix his Sun in return for him litterally dying (Which I'm pretty sure Moon never does??) and the fact that he was (sort of) willing to have his original body taken apart by his Moon in the hopes that his Sun would be able to use it

Sun and Solar rarely have one on one interactions (honestly, the only time that really comes to mind is the candy corn video but even then Solar was sort of forced into that situation as he probably wouldn’t be able to get out of the day care without getting eaten or something lol) which I personally think is because of Solar’s guilt, whether it’s because seeing Sun reminds him of his Sun and what happened to him or if he feels like he doesn’t deserve to be friends with Sun after what he feels he did (which could also be why he distances himself from the rest of the family by making himself the ‘cousin’ even though the others see him as close, Moon calls him 'family' when he gives Solar his house address (which is obviously very important and personal information, showing how much he trusts him) and Earth and Lunar list him as their ‘sibling’ in their tier list video) or both

(Apologies if this comes off as very sporadic, it's just the first time putting it into words JFAWJKFKJWAKFJ Like every time I think about this I have to go pace around to calm down like ???? hello???)

[rainyraisin]

Movie Gerald Robotnik: An analysis on how sympathetic does not equate to forgiveable and the differences between redeemability and forgiveability

Redemption is a possibility for every person. To be redeemed is to change for the better. And as Sonic states within this film, "You always have a choice". Choosing to be better is an integral theme within this franchise and has so far been shown through Knuckles, Shadow, and Robotnik, and the movies make a point of illustrating that anybody has this choice. Everyone can be redeemed.

But not everyone can be forgiven.

There is no threshold for where redemption no longer becomes a possibility, because being better is always a possibility, after all its well known that when you're at rock bottom, you can only go up. But when it comes to forgiveness, there is a threshold where granting that forgiveness brings your own morality into question. If you're willing to forgive something that bad, what else are you willing to forgive? The characters that Sonic forgives in these movies only ever get close to doing what they aim to, and these instances only occur because of manipulation, both Knuckles and Shadow being manipulated by one of the Robotniks to aid them in their plan, along with Eggman being manipulated by Gerald. The one character that does go forward with it yet still gets redeemed, Sonic doesn't even outright forgive like he does the other two. Eggman and Sonic never make amends or properly team up together. The one time they do team up is begrudgingly and it is incredibly clear that both sides still despise each other. Despite Ivo's redemption, there is no forgiveness there. Redeemability and forgiveability are not outright intertwined with one another. Being deserving of one does not automatically grant you the other.

Something else that most would assume is interwined with forgiveness is sympathy. You understand why someone has done something, so you forgive them for doing it. That's how the majority of people assume forgiveness to work. If you do not understand why someone has done something, then on what grounds can you forgive them? But sympathising with someone does not mean that their actions are no longer inherently bad or morally wrong, nor that they should be forgiven. And in my opinion, the perfect example of this concept is Gerald Robotnik.

Outside of the movies, Gerald Robotnik had never really been a character I'd thought much about. But something that is a trend with these movies is that they tend to bring characters I wouldn't expect to have liked or didn't previously think about any interpretations of to the forefront of my brain, and that's what happened with Movie Gerald.

The character of Movie Gerald is objectively sympathetic, yes. This man has been torn apart by his grief, losing the person he cared most about, someone he took everywhere and did everything for, and imprisoned for 50 years at the hands of the people who took her from him, only able to escape by giving them more power than they deserve to have (although I do believe that this incarnation of Gerald didn't expect GUN to have the chance to use it, he was incredibly quick to enact his plans and seemed very confident within them). But the movie makes a point to display how he is in no way a character that you should respect or care about, because he will not change. He will not care about others, and so you should not care about him.

One of the best examples of this is one of the first scenes within the eclipse canon, where Gerald forces Shadow to relive Maria's death in order to power the eclipse canon. This event was the downfall of both he and Shadow, the thing that led to the paths they are currently on and the entire reason that all of this is happening right now, but despite how emotionally charged this memory is for the both of them, despite him being the one other person who knows how damaging and absolutely devastating this moment was for the both of them, despite being the only person Shadow has left, he uses it against Shadow anyway for his own personal gain.

And yet, in that same scene, it visually displays how destroyed Gerald was by it. In one look, you can see the moment where this man was broken to the point of irrepability, a point of no return, and in that moment you sympathise with him. Because why wouldn't you? But as soon as that flashback is over, you remember how he has just used what caused that change to hurt the one person who understands, and suddenly all that sympathy is gone, because he does not care.

Gerald Robotnik is a manipulator. He is cold and calculating and any sense of sympathy or care he himself shows at this point is only there to serve his own personal goals. The people around him, the people you expect him to care about (Ivo), and the people he has cared about (Shadow), are only there to be tools for his ultimate plan. He does not care if they live or die, in fact his entire plan revolves around the fact that they will die. Every single human life is completely irrelevant to him. Is utterly disgusting to him. So why should you care? Why should you sympathise? When this man would vaporise you in an instant simply because you exist? For something that may have happened before you were even alive. Before your parents were even alive, in some cases. A small group of people caused this pain, and yet Gerald wishes to take revenge on everyone, no matter how innocent they are.

And the thing that hurts the most is that this change is so perfectly displayed through the flashbacks within this movie. One line that has stuck with me the most is "They want to take Shadow from us, Maria". From US. He cared about Shadow just as much as Maria did. Yet now, when Shadow betrays him, he does not show hurt. He does not speak of how much he trusted Shadow, and how he is saddened by the fact that he would act against him. No. He simply laments how Shadow was once so useful to him. He pratically raised Shadow, he knows he is a child, he refers to him as a child, a kid, yet now he only cares about how useful he can be. Someone he considered his child just as much as Maria is now pratically dead to him.

This man does not care about anyone and never will again. He cannot be forgiven, because he will not forgive anyone. He cannot be sympathised with, because he refuses to sympathise with anyone. He cannot be allowed to live, because if he does everyone else's lives will be forfeit. The choices he has made have led to him being completely unforgiveable, and whilst that sympathy is still somewhat there, it gets harder to provide the further on the movie goes, the more you see of just how little Gerald cares anymore.

I really love how his death was not given a single ounce of seriousness or importance. Every other death or near death experience in this franchise is treated with the severity and intense emotional charge that is necessary within these scenes. Even Walters, a character most people do not even like, is treated with respect during his death, and he is allowed to have his last words.

Yet Gerald doesn't get any last words. Nope, he gets a quill to the ass and get launched into a fucking bugzapper and is never mentioned again. It is utterly perfect for this interpretation of the character because he got the death that he would've provided everyone on earth. No last words, no chance to properly come to terms with the fact that they are going to die. Some may have not even noticed what was happening. Half the world wouldve been asleep. They wouldve all been there one moment, and gone the next. Just like Gerald. And I think that is the death he deserves, or at least it is at this point in his life. The point of no return.

Gerald had multiple chances to change. He always had a choice. He had 50 years to make that choice. He had people there who wanted to help him make that choice, tried to help him make that choice. *Ivo*, his grandson, the last family he had left other than Shadow, tried to help him make that choice. Yet Gerald rejects him. Because he is no Maria.

Gerald is completely hung up on something that happened so long ago, and he will never let that go. He would rather vaporise every living being, including his loved ones, because he lost one person. And whilst Shadow was going to make that same choice, he chose to change.

Some people may even be of the opinion that he had been put through more than Gerald had. Gerald had more family than just Maria and Shadow. Yet they were all Shadow had. Shadow was forced to relive that exact moment for 50 years whilst he was in statis because he had no other choice.

But Gerald did. Gerald always had that choice, as soon as he got out of prison he had that choice, because he had the freedom to do what Shadow could not on his own. He had the choice to not let his anger consume him. Other characters in this franchise have displayed not letting their grief ruin them. Shadow, someone who went through the exact same thing Gerald did, possibly something even worse, makes the choice to not let his grief ruin him, and to do the right thing. To redeem himself. To not let himself get to the point where forgiveness is no longer an option, because deep down he knows that that isn't what he wants. That isn't what Maria would've wanted. She wouldn't want him to reach that threshold, something that Gerald shows he doesn't even care about anymore when he states that it isn't about what Maria would've wanted, it's about what they deserve. Maria is now only the vehicle for his anger, something that pushes it forward but no longer the reason for its presence, because anger has consumed all that remained of him. Even though he says it is in the name of Maria, he isn't doing it for her. Not anymore.

Gerald is the example of someone who allowed themselves to pass the threshold to a point where they could no longer be forgiven, the complete opposite of Shadow. And what does he receive for this? Nothing. He does not get the revenge he wanted. He does not get an honourable death like Shadow does, and unlike Shadow, nobody cares when he dies. Because he always had a choice. He just refused to make it.

He didn't choose to be redeemed.

And whilst he is sympathetic, and always will be, he didn't choose to be able to be forgiven.

Gerald Robotnik is the perfect example of how sympathetic does not mean forgiveable, and is, in my opinion, the perfect villain for the Sonic Cinematic Universe. Because he openly rejects every theme that the movies uphold. He rejects family. He rejects being redeemed or forgiven. He rejects that he can change. He goes against everything that these movies and characters stand for, and all he has to show for it is a meangingless demise that only served to make people laugh. Gerald Robotnik is made out to be a joke. And that is the only part of him that will persist in death.

[pluck-heartstrings]

🎵📓💕💖

One of these? Or all of these (QwQ);; I am curious

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🎵 Do you have a particular song/playlist that you associate with your au? If so, share it!

I don’t have a playlist, but I do listen to a lot of moody dark medieval lofi when I’m writing. I cant have words in a language I understand while I’m writing otherwise it distracts me haha. But as for specific song, I’ve been listening to a lot of Ghost lately and Cirice has a lot of elements that vibe well with what I have planned for the story.

📓Show us a current WIP for your AU!

I have a queue full of upcoming CM art in the works that’ll appear over the next two weeks, but I’ll give you a little literary taste from chap 6 😎

💕 Time for a shout-out! What are some of your fav AUs from other creators in the fandom?

I am constantly hungry for DCA AUs, I’m ravenous for them. This answer might be long, forgive me.

. @overly-dramatic-artist ‘s Labyrinth AU is absolutely stunning and I love Goblin King Eclipse so much

@bearitt-creations ‘s Nag’na let you go Naga AU is absolutely precious and the designs are so clean and fun, I’m constantly wiggling with excitement after every chapter.

@wyervan ‘s Slasher AU is absolutely iconic and I love the expressions of all the characters but mostly Sun’s FRECKLES I LOVE THEM

@melanirana ‘s Ocean Symphony Fiasco mer AU has some truly stunning mer designs and THEYRE BIIIIG

@authormeat ‘s Alien AU because I cannot resist a non-human yn insert, especially a dangerous one.

Every single one of @vacantfields ‘s designs has me in pieces, every au is so dear to me

@fudgernutter ‘s Medieval AU will have me in a chokehold forever

@moon-buggg ‘s AUs all have a colour palette that I want to EAT and I know for sure would give me a tummy ache. 10/10

@toucheholland23 ‘s CM AU because…TV. I LOVE TV. Please go look at TV.

There’s probably a billion more on this list and I feel terrible for not adding more but if I did I’d be here forever. If I added all the AUs I love I’d be here all day and this ask would never get answered.

💖 Do you prefer your Y/N to be a blank slate for the reader to project on or do you prefer them to be more like an OC in their own right?

This is actually such an interesting question. CM Princess (the current YN) is clearly based off of the PMH Princess YN. PMH Princess was made to be (mostly) a blank slate, with a few backstory elements thrown in to make them a bit more solid in the world. As the story progressed, they became more and more their own person, and kinda blossomed into my first ever OC. I still treat them like a reader character, but I find that over time I’ve enjoyed playing around with the limitations a reader character can bestow. Such as, keeping their pronouns GN (you/I written) and allowing me to keep certain things hidden.

So our current Princess is definitely more of an OC, but she didn’t start that way. Once we get to Princess POV in CM you’ll understand them more.

[respectthepetty]

10 Anticipated BLs for 2024

Since I'm excited for ALL the GLs (Pluto, 23.5, Sunshine in the Wind, Chaser Game, Be Mine, y todo!), I'm making my list of the 10 BLs I'm excited for this year with brief reasons why I'm looking forward to them. In my normal fashion, I cheat my way into having more. All except one is Thai because Thailand loves to tease series three years in advance, then never make them, but I strongly believe these are coming:

The Next Prince

Zee continues to never play a poor person, and a trailer is supposed to drop in the first quarter of this year. I never knew there was so many fencers on BL Tumblr, so I'm looking forward to everyone's commentary on how well the characters poke with their sticks or whatever fencers do.

Jack & Joker: U Steal My Heart

It's a heist BL. It has YinWar. It has Prom x Mark. It has Bonz. It's Dee Hup House (we got beef). It's Director Tee and probably Cinematographer Jim. It might have color coding. There is not one thing I can find wrong with this series. It's perfect on paper, and I'm praying that translates well to the screen.

Spare Me Your Mercy

Like that lady in Titanic, I've been waiting 80 years for this series (give me a minute to cry about MaxTul), and it's finally near! I'm getting JJ & Tor in a Dr. Sammon piece, who I feel writes "Be Gay, Do Crime" very well, so I'll be forgiving any of these two gays' wrongs including murder, attempted murder, contemplating murder, and murdering each other in the bedroom (ahhhh!).

Wandee Goodday

Golf from The Eclipse is directing. It's about Muay Thai. It has an older doctor and a younger boxer who start off as bed friends (and I think one is actually a virgin). It has color coding. It has me already seated and waiting with popcorn, and I think it might be the first offering that will be delivered from GMMTV's 2024 lineup.

Sequels: Choco Milk Shake 2, Unintentional Love Story 2, My Doctor

Is Choco Milk Shake 2 gonna finally give me poly? Probably not, but I hope My Doctor brings the same heat the side couple did in Be Mine, Superstar, and the side couple getting the spotlight in Unintentional Love Story 2 will also make my side-couple-supremacy heart very happy this year.

Live in Love

It looks color coded. That's it. That's the reason. Keeping my expectations low because it might not get made since this is Thailand's favorite game.

Red Peafowl

The character reveals were absolute chaos, so I'm hoping that chaos transfers over to the actual series because it can either be a mess or a masterpiece, but it cannot be mediocre with Max, Cooheart, Boun, Mek, and Yacht as supports. Plus, it has color coding and a bird that is quickly becoming a Tumblr god.

Love Upon a Time

Even though it is a historical queer series, which means it could be sad, I think Domundi will keep the sass, so James' character won't be crying in the 1600s club but instead eating fruit seductively to encourage Net's character to put his homosexual skills into practice instead of simply theorizing about them, which is something I need more of. Plus, it has color coding.

Love Puzzle

This is one that might not get made because . . . Thailand. It's connected to Chains of Heart, but I don't care because the cast looks good and Poppy is gonna finally get to kiss a homie. If this doesn't get made, I will cry thug tears. It's 2024. Poppy deserves to kiss a man already.

My Stand-In

I don't understand the plot, but it doesn't matter because Pepzi and Khom are directing, and in case that means nothing, those were KinnPorsche's directors! Then, it has Up and Poom as the leads, plus a stacked supporting cast. I'm here. I'm queer. And I'm ready to be served.

Honorable Mention: Peaceful Property

It's about los espookys and features Tay and New. Will it be a QL? The streets are saying no, but all the characters are color coded, and all's I'm saying is what would be the point of color coding them if I ain't getting a BL main couple and a GL side couple? It's already canon to me.

Bonus: MosBank & JoongDunk

MosBank had like eighty projects announced for 2023, and I got NONE! Big Dragon 2, Big Dragon: The Movie, SunsetxVibes, where you at?! Y Journey: Stay Like a Local and Club Friday do not count. I don't want to watch their horror movie, but gosh darnit, if that comes out before everything else, I just might.

And I am a JoongDunk fan first, and a human second. Give my boys a gym BL already, GMMTV!

[astrifer777]

GUYS GUYS GUYS

I hate to say this but it finally clicked.

WHAT CLICKED YOU ASK? NO YOU DIDNT BUT HERE WE GOOOO

Now before we start (we meaning me and my rotten brain), this sword is associated with Miquella. We know this because the symbol used in this animation:

Has the symbol associated with Miquella and his Haligtree:

And while scrolling on tumbler I read it's description for the the 30th time. And I quote

A sword made to commemorate the death of Godwyn the Golden, first of the demigods to die.

Infused with the humble prayer of a young boy; "O brother, lord brother, please die a true death."

And it made something click for me that has felt... Odd since the trailer of the DLC dropped. Something that felt wrong.

From bandai namcos elden ring page:

"And now Miquella awaits the return of his promised lord".

And I know obviously this is referring to the player... But wait a minute. Is it? We have never interacted with or met Miquella what so ever. why we he be awaiting our "return"? Why are we his "promised lord"?

Because... We aren't. We don't need to return to a place we've never been. This has bugged me SO MUCH because it feels so... weird for it to be the tarnished. It doesn't make sense even. But if he's awaiting his "Lord Brother".... who has been dead since the before the shattering. He is absolutely waiting for the return of Godwyn... I don't think it's a stretch to say Godwyn is his promised lord.

And we know how Godwyn is gonna come back, or at least miquellas plan from some random ghost:

Lord Miquella, forgive me. The sun has not been swallowed. Our prayers were lacking. Your comrade remains soulless... I will never set my eyes upon it now... Your divine Haligtree.

Soooooo yeah. I think Miquella is awaiting the return of Godwyn. What does this means?

The DLC rotted my brain and I'm probably wrong, but it's what feels right.

(Also also the shadow looks so white and black.... And the sun is much brighter in the background?? And is being eclipsed by the tree, while MIQUELLA POINTS AT IT?????)

ok done now bye bye

[love---mandy]

A Fairy Tail Rant About Lucy in the Grand Magic Games.

So me and my sister have been rewatching Fairy Tail, and it’s been an up and down of enjoyment and infuriation. I love the characters in this series, especially Lucy. Like when I first watched the series I didn’t have very strong opinions on her. I enjoyed her, and I never disliked seeing her on screen. Flash forward a few years I rewatch Fairy Tail, and she’s become my favorite character. Like I love so much about her I swear I devolve into incoherent sounds when I talk about her. Which is why her treatment during the Grand Magic Games pisses me off to no end.

In the only fights she participates in she gets relentlessly abused, and for what?! She looses both of the major fights she’s in. In her first battle Asuka is used as hostage and that allows Flare to beat the daylights out of her (which in my opinion there should’ve been a barrier of some kind in place to prevent things like that from happening, but whatever). Even when Natsu gets rid of the thing preventing Lucy from fighting back, she still looses. Her magic energy gets forcibly taken from her, and Flare wins by default.

Now I could almost forgive this fight, if the same damn thing hadn’t happened in Lucy’s 2nd fight. The next fight feels even more gross cause Lucy’s in a swimsuit the whole time, and there is constant fan service which adds this extra layer of mixed emotions to the fight.

The Lucy vs Minerva fight is my least favorite in the whole GMG arc, and maybe in the whole series because it only serves as a means for us to hate Sabertooth, much in the way Lucy vs Flare made us hate Raventail. Once again Lucy is physically beaten to no end, and in this particular fight it’s, in my opinion, so much worse, and it’s because Minerva won’t let Lucy fall out of the water arena. She pulls her back again and again. And we’re forced to watch this take place just like the rest of the guild. Once again I ask, What is the purpose?! We already dislike both guilds before either of these fights take place. Raventail targets Gray in his battle, and Sabertooth humiliates Yukino, and forces her to leave. So please explain to me why Lucy, and why twice in a row?

Aside from making us hate both guilds, Lucy loosing the way she did served absolutely no purpose. My sister and I constantly talk about how Mashima loves to humiliate his women, especially the strong ones like Erza, which I won’t even start on cause that’s a whole other rabbit hole I do not want to think about. So if you look at Lucys fights with that angle, it all makes sense. I could just be blinded by my anger, but I swear nothing like this ever happens to any other character in the whole series (And I what I mean is being beaten to hell, only to lose).

Lucy is used as a device for anger in her fights. And she doesn’t even get to prove herself. Both moments where she is able to show off what she’s got, get forcibly taken from her.

I know she does helm the Eclipse Gate stuff, but her fights in The Games left such a sour taste that it almost over shadows so much of what she does.

This post is very all over so forgive me, but I just needed to be mad that in the Games themselves, she doesn’t get to do anything cool. She gets tortured, and robbed of any chance at a victory.

I love Lucy so so much, and i think she deserved better then loosing all of her fights.

[craftingcreatures]

So this post said it way more eloquently and comprehensively than I ever could, but I've been mulling it over for a while and I wanna talk about it anyway.

I've been watching the Owl House lately and honestly I'm kinda in love with the way the show handles redemption. I see so many people in the fandom complaining about how the multiple villain redemption arcs are unearned, or that they get forgiven too easily, but like... isn't that the whole point? Redemption isn't earned, it's given. And I love the characters in the Owl House because they are brilliant examples of this principle.

Take Lilith, for example - she cursed her sister out of petty jealousy and in doing so subjected her to a life of ostracization, broken relationships, and suffering. Multiple people got seriously hurt because of Lilith's choice, most notably her own father. And instead of owning up to her mistakes she kept her involvement secret for decades, pledging loyalty to an oppressive dictator and climbing the ranks of the dictator's private army/police force in pursuit of her own ambition. Instead of confronting her own mistakes, she tried to cover them up. She attempted to absolve herself of guilt by quietly removing the consequences of her own choices (convincing Belos to remove the curse) without compromising her own goals. And she continued to hurt people in pursuit of this goal (leading multiple coven scouts to their deaths at the hands of an eldritch nightmare demon bird worm, using Luz as a human shield while attempting to subdue Eda). So when she eventually does confront her own guilt and turns a 180 on her character, a lot of people can't quite comprehend just how quickly Eda and Luz accept her, as if forgiveness was a foregone conclusion. In fact I don't think the word "forgive" was even mentioned.

Pretty much the same thing could be said for Amity, or Hunter, or the Collector. (There are a lot of redeemed villains in this show and I absolutely love it; redemptions are definitely my favourite trope in media.) The moment a villain confronts their villainy and chooses to change their behaviour, the protagonists welcome them with open arms. Often the protagonists begin reaching out to them even before they start to show signs of remorse, like with Luz and Amity in Lost in Language, or Luz and Hunter in Hunting Palismen and Hollow Mind, or Amity and Hunter in Eclipse Lake, or Amity and Luz in Reaching Out. As I said before, forgiveness is a foregone conclusion; the only thing preventing it is the villain's genuine decision to stop being a villain (which is neatly illustrated by the season 3 finale; Luz tells the Collector that he "did good" when he tries to extend forgiveness to an unrepentant Belos, and when Belos later feigns innocence Luz and the others see right through him. Belos' repentance wasn't genuine, and so couldn't be met with forgiveness).

A kind of inversion of this principle can be seen in Luz' character arc in season 2b and season 3. Luz blames herself for Belos' meeting the Collector, leading to Belos learning the draining spell and later the Collector's awesome and uncontrolled power being unleashed on the Boiling Isles while Luz and her friends are trapped in the human realm. From Luz' point of view, she is directly responsible for the rise of a despot and the probable deaths of almost everyone she loves. And she hates herself for it. In Thanks to Them she has an outburst where she basically wishes she'd never been born. One of the most heartbreaking moments in the entire show, for me, was when Luz asked her mother "why aren't you mad at me?". She clearly expects the people around her to reject her, to hate her, to treat her with the performative expectations that she explicitly doesn't expect from the antagonists in the show, even the ones who have acted far worse than she has (see Lilith, above), and she can't understand why they don't. Luz thinks she doesn't deserve forgiveness, when she has freely offered forgiveness to everyone she's ever met regardless of whether they deserved it. And once again The Owl House displays the theme of redemption by all the people around her working to reach out to her, to give her a redemption that Luz doesn't think she's earned. Once again, redemption is given, not worked for.

Look, I make no secret of the fact that I'm a Christian on this blog. And I understand that the overlap between "people who are Christians" and "people who watch The Owl House" is probably very small. But I just can't help but see something so profoundly beautiful in this show, so profoundly Christian, because this repeated motif of freely offered redemption to anyone who wants it is a perfect illustration of one of Christianity's core tenets. Redemption is not earned - it is given. The offer of total forgiveness and reconciliation is already extended, even to the worst offenders, even before the offender acknowledges their offense. There's nothing I can do to earn it; no self-flagellation needed to prove that I'm in earnest, no great deed I have to do to convince God that I'm worthy of forgiveness. The forgiveness is already there, waiting.

Kinda makes you think, doesn't it? The Owl House is a show about witchcraft, with very prominent and positively depicted LGBT+ relationships, and with a primary antagonist who is heavily implied to be a conservative Christian. It would be hard to have a piece of media that more explicitly rejects the normal cultural values of North American conservative Christianity. And yet this show displays a better understanding and celebration of Christian redemptive ethics than a significant proportion of actual Christians. I'm sure a lot of people would clutch their pearls and call it anti-Christian propaganda, but at its heart the Owl House is built on the fundamental Christian value of radical love.

I dunno. I just really like the Owl House.

[lunabug2004]

I watched The Eclipse (the series) and OMG I'm in Love?!?! ⚠️ SPOILERS ⚠️

Ya'll I watched The Eclipse the series over the last few days and... omg. I have so much to say so buckle up. Obv there will be spoilers! I also wanna mention that this will be full of very biased takes because I absolutely fell in love with Akk soooo imma be defending him.

Now that that's out of the way, first, can we talk about the couples? FirstKhao's chemistry?! I know I'm late to the game but man they blew me out of the water!!! They were so cute and wholesome (dw I've seen the OF edits, ik they're not always this way lol) and Akk and Ayan just pulled me all the way in! They both deserve the world and I will not hear otherwise! Now, the side couple, KanThua, were not my cuppa tea. I love Neo, I haven't seen anything with Louis in it but he's a good actor from what I've seen, and they look cute together, but they just didn't snatch me up unfortunately.

That leads me into the second topic, the plot (this is where it gets long, strap in). I believe this is the main reason the side didn't snatch me. They were definitely given the short end of the stick (this is before I found out that I hate Thua with a passion but we'll get to that). I would've loved so much more buildup than what we got from them. Thua's storyline just felt kinda off to me. We saw his stepdad say one or two messed up things to him, which ya eff him for that, but every other time he was pretty nice??? Maybe I'm just missing something but idk. Also the whole "Bruce Wayne" thing was eh to me. Kinda cute, kinda weird.

Now, Akk and Ayan's storyline???? Sign me uppppp! I love everything about it! I love that they are so there for eachother and literally picked eachother up off the ground mentally so many times. They need eachother and you can absolutely feel it. Then, also their individual storylines are just amazing. My poor babies. Ayan and dealing with his uncle's death and witnessing the terrible things at the school and getting bullied by the teachers and his declining mental health. Akk dealing with the manipulation of the teachers and his need to prove himself and his need to put everyone above himself and his declining mental health and ugh... sorry I could talk about Akk for ages, ya'll know how I get with my babies lol. All this to say I definitely came not knowing what to expect but stayed for Akk & Ayan.

The general storyline is... a doozy. The whole curse thing was so interesting and then it just... wasn't. But at the same time it was??? Idk it's so hard to place how I feel about this part of the plot. I don't understand the whole thing with Teacher Chadock's confession and that somehow affecting what was going on? Like sir, you still manipulated kids (specifically Akk) into doing awful things, I don't think all that happened is an excuse for that at all? Yes, it sucks and never shoulda happened but like... why act like that towards the students this whole time? And he didn't seem to show much, if any, remorse for his behavior either so... idk.

Now... let's get into ep 11 and Thua's whole thing. I will never ever ever forgive the character of Thua for what he did. I don't care how right he was (which he mostly wasn't), I don't care if he was speaking some facts, you don't ever out somebody like that!!! Esp as a character who we know has faced such bad discrimination and bullying for the same effing thing!!! It makes absolutely no sense and there are no excuses! The fear in Akk's eyes... ugh I wanted to punch Thua so bad ngl. The way that he also isn't even right about Akk 'creating the curse' and doesn't mention that he himself continued it after Akk saw the error of his ways and stopped. He made himself out to be squeaky clean when he honestly had the most blood on his hands after this whole thing. When he was cheering the episode before about finding the "one responsible for the curse" IT WAS HIM! AKK HAD STOPPED AT THAT POINT SO IT WAS ALL HIM! He also wasn't telling the truth when he said Aye was covering for Akk using their love as a cover! At first Ayan wanted Akk to tell everyone what he did... but then he saw what a fragile state of mind Akk was in and decided to try a different approach. Thua should've gone to Akk and Aye himself, he had no right to say anything he said without knowing the full story!!! THEN HE JUST IS FORGIVEN!!! NOO! I know that it's because of the cuts they had to make that we don't get to see the characters forgive him and whatnot but I don't care. He. did. not. deserve. to. be. forgiven. No one is changing my mind!

I could go on forever tbh so let's move onto the third topic... the pacing. I know this is the main complaint for this show and rightfully so. I really really wish they would've gotten the 14 episodes they were hoping for instead of the 12 they got. The pacing is just out of wack. The first half-ish is beautiful.... then it drags (slightly).... then it's rushed. Just disappointing, but not anyone's fault. The crew apparently thought they were working with 14 eps, we can't blame them, and we definitely cannot blame the actors.

Fourth, and final, topic: the acting!!! Uuuugh, ya'll! I'd seen Khao in a couple things and First in Not Me, but this is by far the best I've seen of them! They showed all the emotions and omg these dudes are professional criers, how are they both so good at it?! Btw, I see people talk about Khao's acting more than First's I feel like (could just be what I see idk), but First snatched me up! He killed every single scene, give me chills multiple times (Khao too obv) and showed Akk's character development flawlessly! All the supporting actors were obviously amazing too (special shoutout to my boy AJ cuz I love the twins)!

Anyways, if you sat through this half-rant, half-review, congrats! I honestly love this show and it's for sure going to be one I rewatch all the time and try to dig deeper into Akk's mind every time lol. Also if you read all of this and I didn't touch on something you wanted or you're just curious about my thoughts on anything (seriously anything at all), feel free to comment or repost or send me an ask, I don't mind!

[urspiritualnurse]

I'm an obscene creature,

and the Lord will never forgive me,

neither will you, my unblemished flower.

Your divine existence mortifies my disappointment,

for you are a flesh full of hope.

In your presence, the unsettled quarrel I have had with life since birth rests in peace.

Your one command, and I will annihilate my prideful feets, forever crawling the earth like an infant, all over again.

I'm infuriated by my own bottomless need that doesn't ever seem to reach an end.

But your abundant soul, ignites such lengthy greed within me.

I wish to hoard your alive flesh, and even if death breaks in, in the broad daylight, and carries you far away, I'll relinquish every nightfall and begin everyday, haunting your ghost.

I'll capture you in any form that you will ever take.

Whether you're fully fleshed or a hollowed spirit.

I grieve my once absolute but now lost independence,

I've become a boneless parasite devoid of any distance, latching on your pleasant back.

My instinct that is utterly influenced by my inhumane urges.

As every room once occupied by decency dries, flooded now by only selfish desires.

I cross the threshold of sanity and tackle my withering morality, everyday.

You've become the grains and greens that settles my long, overdued famine.

I wish to consume you in such grave ways that will inevitably lead your entirety eclipsing mine.

As every consumed part of you within me grows an appetite of its own, I wish to be a lump of flesh that it feeds on.

Devour me into non-existence and leave nothing of me in piece.

Such vile eruption occurs within me.

Can you smell my foul intentions?

I'm unclean, I'm so unclean my dear.

I dread your disapproval, yet a sick gratification dances under my skin at every scornful expression you declare.

I'm helplessly bound by the pleasures that I steal from the rivers of rejection you bid my way, I cross all of it with maddening intensity and touch, all that you hide and take all that you deprive me of.

This fixation to be near you is depraved and shocking, even to me.

I'm as surprised as you are, but not nearly appalled.

Do you understand my longing?

Can you speak the same urgency as me?

Do you lose to the same panic as me?

Or am i the only deranged one here?

If granted, I would crawl underneath your skin, no matter how small the space, to earn a place in it, I would separate even the most entangled bones out of my flesh.

Shrivel up my all into a tiny matter to fit in every unwelcomed corners of you.

I want to be one with all your senses and see what you see, hear what you hear, smell what you smell, taste what you taste....

I must invade your very being and witness your thoughts unfold itself to your mind.

I must witness your emotions unravel itself to your heart.

I must close this unfortunate distance.

Infact,

I must become you.

I must become, entirely you my beloved.

For that seems to be the only sense of intimacy that can silence these outrageous desires.

-the orphaned lover, (my mother is to blame),2000notes.

[nerdasaurus1200]

So I’m on Southern Raiders and I have thoughts.

While I do agree that Katara killing her mom’s murderer would not have been the right call whatsoever, Aang needed to shush up about forgiveness. It’s not remotely his place to preach forgiveness at Katara regardless of the circumstances. Yes he has an understanding of what he’s going through cause he lost his entire people, but if anything that should make him more sympathetic because just like Katara and her mother, the Airbenders were slaughtered because of him. And the Fire Nation isn’t sorry for doing that during the show. That soldier isn’t sorry for robbing a woman from her family. He just goes about his life as if it never even happened until his past comes to confront him.

And that’s the thing I think Aang doesn’t understand, is forgiveness has to be earned. Nobody is entitled to anybody’s forgiveness, especially if they aren’t even sorry. And honestly…it’s a little rich him bringing up the Sandbenders stealing Appa when he absolutely did not forgive them. Katara was well within her rights to show no forgiveness to that soldier.

And to a certain extent I don’t even think Sokka truly understands what Katara is going through. To a certain extent Katara was somewhat right to say Sokka didn’t love their mother the way she did. Yes he absolutely feels the pain and grief of losing his mother, and he too is entitled to go through that pain however he wants. But the way Katara sees it, she is responsible for her mother’s death. If Katara had not been born the way she is, there’s a good chance their mother would still be around. Katara has to live with that deeper level of pain every single day of her life, but Sokka does not.

Honestly I think Zuko would have been totally fine with either outcome cause I’m sure even if it was for just a split second he thought about killing Ozai during the eclipse. I think he knew whatever happened, it was what Katara needed. He wanted to give her that choice of deciding for herself what to do instead of preaching forgiveness at her.

[dana-chan-the-control-brain]

What are your favourite TSAMS duo/duos?

Unsure on that one.

I loved N!Moon and Solar when they worked together.

I am also fond of Jack and Solar.

Jack and Dazzle can be fine.

Lunar and Bloodmoon is a very early and underrated duo and I wish Lunar and Bloodmoon actually saw eachother as brothers back then instead of a means to an end. (like they both did) but I think of the missed potentional of the dynamic of a Wounded Abused Child with an Attack Dog that listens to his every wish. Lunar being very careless and ignorant with the damage he does as lashing out. It could have been really interesting. But... eh.. that duo was very short lived.

I also loved KC and Bloodmoon1.0. Bloodmoon just adored the man. Because someone was actually encouraging his sickness. It was weirdly wholesome in a twisted way.

I did Love Lunarv1 and Eclipse's v1 old dymanic. Yes, while Lunar was abused, not arguing he wasn't.... Eclipse did care. He pretty much only hit Lunar once, and regretted it. He did constant system updates because he was terrified of Moon coming back. He did call him an idiot, but when you saw Lunar alone, or even in the gameplay, there's a twisted fondness there.... Eclipse made Bloodmoon and Lunar because he didn't want to be alone.... and his itterations past that v2 especially felt he was betrayed and that's why he felt he had to kill him.

But it was a relationship that couldn't continue. Lunar either had to grow up, or Eclipse had to grow and change.... which... both happened, just far too little and far to late for the both of them to have any semblance of a "good" relationship.

v4 and Lunar2.0 tolerate each other. But that is all they will ever get.

Which is fine. Lunar is not expected to forgive his abuser.

Eclipse is not expected to forgive his "traitor"

They can just be neutral on eachother. And Lunar will probably dig at him all the while and never stop bullying him when they are in contact. Just cus of the amount of shit Lunar went through with Eclipse.

But I do miss for those very early early days at times. But there was absolutely no other way that they could develop. The dynamic just wasn't sustainable long term.

Lol I noticed all my favorite dynamics are Season 1 or Season 2 dynamics. (i know tsams doesn't have seasons but you can measure the show in arcs/seasons all most by what the antagonist is and what's the most important thing in that era.)

[baa-whatever]

Ruin acted like he did no wrong when he killed Solar. He practically threw him to the wolves along with everybody else. I don't care if it was for 'the greater good' in his mind he caused both physical and mental harm on Nexus and everybody else. He took more lives than what he should've and that all could've been easily avoided.

You want to know what the main issue is with Ruin? Why I like Eclipse more than Ruin?

Eclipse understands he did wrong and is trying to make up for it. He isn't avoiding anything. He understands that Lunar doesn't have to forgive him for what he did. His way of trying to make it up to him is not being around him or the others since they've said they hate him and want him dead.

Ruin was trying to avoid it. Trying to make excuses for killing Solar and still did when he met up with Nexus on Dark Sun's ship. It was a half ass apology. That's why Nexus was like 'I don't care' the way he sounds you can tell he was rolling his eyes at that. Even Jack knew it was BS. Hell Moon called him out on it and he thought he could manipulate them again before he left.

I don't want Ruin dead I just want him to actually understand what he did to all of them. Especially what he did to Nexus. I want him to give Nexus a REAL apology and THEN to everyone else.

EDIT: I want to add that Nexus shouldn't be taking his anger out on Moon because of the expectations everybody else had on him, I think they should've talked first. Maybe Moon would've just told him to screw off like he did with Eclipse at the time but who knows.

I will say I can understand his anger towards everyone. Nothing like crippling and abandoning someone's brother in another dimension to bring back the original Moon...great idea Monty. And then Sun not doing anything about it. He kinda did but I would've flipped if someone suggested that. I'm pretty sure Moon would've beat up Monty for bringing that up if this was about Sun. This is why I feel sorry for Nexus because he's made it very clear he would make an absolute fool of himself to protect his family. Earth never knew that Monty said that taking Moon would leave Nexus in permanent pain and then abandon him. That might be why he's angry at Earth because she's dating Monty. He probably wouldn't be going after her if she wasn't.

[julie09tarot]

Hi! 2024 was incredibly tumultous (relationship issues, got fired, mental health at the absolute lowest) for me and I actually had a nasty breakup/betrayal on my birthday in october (coincided with the eclipse cycle in libra). I simply blocked the person and moved on because I understood it was a lesson (Sr chart and transits reflected this). I am in no way interested in opening past doors but I feel IMPALED (imagine the 10 of swords lady from rws), I simply cannot function with this constant pit in my chest, my question is How do I get past the hurt...its been months and I still feel hurt

Ps - I am sorry if this was lengthy

Hey there my dear. I am so, so sorry you're going through something like this. I took the liberty of doing a full spread instead if a mini spread hoping to bring you a bit more clarity and comfort. I hope that's okay.

There are some interesting messages here.

Let's start with the past/present/future (top 3 cards).

Nine of Swords (Past) This is the card of sleepless nights, nightmares, regret, and torment. This was a time of great overwhelm and perhaps even silent suffering. The pain here isn’t just what happened, bu probably it’s how you held it all alone.

Justice (Present) This card asks not for punishment, but truth. Maybe it's about some (stupid, messed up) karmic alignment: perhaps what felt cruel was part of a painful rebalancing. Or even a necessary letting go. OR maybe you're now in a moment of choice. What would it look like to you to tell the truth about this pain - to yourself, with compassion?

Ten of Pentacles (Future) A great comforting card here!! This suggests that you're on a longer arc toward stability - emotionally, spiritually, even materially. This pain may still be present, but it does not define your future.

The Ten of Pentacles shows up here not as a promise, as fortune-telling, but as a finger pointing gently in a direction. You’re not broken,, you never were - you are becoming new now. Let each small choice you make (to rest, to forgive yourself, to not text them back) each be a brick in the "house" of the new life you’re creating.

As for the Oracles,

Slowing Down (Osho Zen) You don't have to heal at the speed of lightning. You don't even have to "move on" in a way that matches ANYONE's expectations. Slowing down is a radical act. Healing happens in seasons and spirals, not by force. What part of you is asking to be held, not hurried?

Control (Osho Zen) Sometimes, we try to control how we feel pain, right? We stay busy, we intellectualize it, we manage (even micromanage) grief instead of surrendering to it. But this only hardens the wound. Let go of the tight grip. What would it look like to release control and feel these emotions without judgment, however horrid they may feel?

Shadow Work Card - Resistance This echoes the others perfectly: don’t resist your pain, your story, or the slow pace of healing. "What we resist persists", right? But what we meet with curiosity, opens. Are you perhaps resisting a change you secretly need? Are you perhaps afraid of who you might be without your pain? I know I've been there.

The Cat and Lavender (Woodland Wardens - Final Message) Independence is not cold detachment <, nor isolation, nor rugged individuality - it’s peaceful fucking sovereignty. You are becoming someone whose life no longer depends on other people’s treatment or absence. This pain is part of your ultimate Becoming. Hells yeah.

Affirmations

I do not need to rush my healing. I am allowed to take the time I need.

My pain does not make me weak — it means I loved deeply.

I trust that I am slowly returning home to myself.

I don’t need to control my grief. I only need to meet it with softness.

For what it's worth - and it's so easy to speak from the outside looking in - "let suffering be your teacher, not your master". Your pain is so very real, but it will NOT become your identity. Do not allow it! You are not the hurt; you are the one observing the hurt. Sit with the part of you that is still breathing, still walking. Treat this as grief, and hold it gently. If necessary, seek the help of friends or even a therapist. This was trauma, in every meaning of the word, but trauma can be walked through. You're going to be okay.

I really hope this helped somewhat. Sending the best of vibes.