#ebf vs grad school

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Did not realize that "cats are not travel animals!" was a controversial opinion until yesterday.

Like, every time I deal with people at school I do have to remind myself that I'm juuuuust older than most of them enough to have disconnect, but. The girl who apparently has plans to borrow her situationship's stepmom's 14-year-old cat for a sleepover sure is making some life choices.

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Bright side of the day - school library figured out that I do not have a book I'm pretty sure I never actually checked out in the first place / said book is Accounted For now and I do not owe them money. I'm still kinda delighted that this is the first administrative incompetence I've encountered there, but also... wow. Just. Wow.

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"I don't know her well enough for her to see what bra I'm wearing today."

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This really is turning into the semester of "no good deed goes unpunished".

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On the one hand, it is fabulous that I - in my early 30s and after the "at least this will be a new disaster!" string of past emotional entanglements that I've had - have realized that I do apparently have a Type.

On the other hand, there being two people who fit this Type in my under-20-people grad program is... really not a set of problems I had scheduled for this year...

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"The problem is this looks highly illegal."

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Happy Halloween, I am probably going to try to fight someone in my program todaaaaaay.

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"I have never been banned from anywhere and I would not like to change that."

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Have I mentioned lately that I hate academic writing style?

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Welp, it is first day of school and I have boy drama but not the boy drama I expected. This'll be fun!!

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Fair warning for y'all, the personal-life liveblogging is... definitely gonna pick up a bit next week / this year's new cast of characters in the "you don't end up doing a humanities MA at a smaller state school if there's not something Very Wrong With You" are going to be so fun...

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Not about to do anything impulsive (and really CAN'T do anything at the moment because school starts in three weeks / this will all go much better if I at least know whose assistant I am this year if not necessarily the schedule thataway and that's not happening until a week before if I'm lucky), but... probably need to think about job-hunting again.

Like, I like the merch-store job, it's a very chill place, but the fact that yesterday I got to explain a problem to (off-site) maintenance that has been a problem for two months and apparently just got documented this week... not a good sign...

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Welp, now I have three months to have anxiety about doing a conference presentation right after one of my least favorite people on the planet / the closest thing I have to a Professional Nemesis. This is fine.

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If I have accomplished nothing else in this era of my life, at least I've gotten a few sweet little Catholic girlies used to the idea of using neutral pronouns when trying to be really vague about one's personal life while also deeply wanting outside opinions on it.

(The cute part is I probably wouldn't bother to do that if other-person-in-question wasn't someone said girlies know, but... literally none of this mess is gender-specific, so.)

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"No one from our program has gone on to do doctoral work in this time frame that requires any language skills" sounds way too much like a challenge for me.

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person in my program: "I would die of embarrassment if I was mentioned in a book!"

what I wanted to say and didn't: "you're more likely to show up in a true-crime podcast."