#eating disorder ment //

[genderfluid-and-confuzled]

I think for Yom Kippur I'm going to try and eat. Which feels impossible, and also shitty bc like. i have ALWAYS fasted on Yom Kippur. But also, as a kid, I was in part doing it as a precursor to all this bs. SO I think it would be more of a repentance, more of a hard act, to do this act of kindness for myself.

[batjpeg]

got an email that was like warning!! this account you have on a calorie counter website has been inactive for 3 years!! we're gonna close your account!!!! like ok . You can do this 👍

[mogai-headcanons]

Ellen/Eli from To the Bone is a sapphic coffeegender faungender balletgender angelcoric lattegender person who uses she/her, it/its, and ☕️/☕️s pronouns!

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[glambots]

come to think of it, Chica eating out of the trash kind of has a sadder implication in the human au. While there’s nothing wrong with dumpster diving it’s still generally not a good sign

Also all the staff bots in the daycare are a little darker-

Yeah, there are a few details in canon that are really hard to translate over into specific AUs because, as wild as it would be, I do not imagine Human!Sun/Moon's room is full of Actual-Factual corpses.

Take Eclipse, for example! Would he still be a virus? If they're all characterized to be separate people, would he be their sibling or something similar? Where does he live? And what's his fucking deal?

[fagboysupreme]

2D for the No Band AU. Other wacky facts:

Notable coworkers are Paula, Ace, Tony Chopper and his dad

Addicted to opioids/heroin so he started doing coke to offset the sleepiness and now he’s addicted to that also

bisexual but refuses to admit it to himself

really hates his jobs and isn’t very good at them. half cause he has bran damage and there’s no accessibility measures taken and half because he genuinely just likes giving girls free ride tickets if they take their shirts off

he has a teeny tiny band called Man Research with Ace and Tony but it’s basically just an excuse to bang out tunes in Ace’s garage

he actually has one eight-ball fracture from getting hit with a bumper car so he just hides it behind his fringe

literally just moved out of his parents’ house because he genuinely felt like a freeloader even though he was paying rent

got a DUI so he’s riding a bicycle everywhere rn

has some kind of EDNOS

chronic self-harm

Ace is literally the only stable human being in his life besides his mom and dad and he’s more or less resigned to dying before he turns 30

[myshredda]

hc/idea based on some art i saw: Pink with chronic pain issues [same girl, same]

like, she gets pain in her legs and hips bad sometimes and she just casually brings it up one day and duck and red are like *VISIBLE CONCERN*

they get her a cane for when she wants to be more independent on bad pain days, but a lot of the time she's being carried around [she out here living my dreams damn]

Aw :( Yeah I think she might have been kind of malnourished in the time she was in the cult because A. some cults keep people in a state of malnourishment/dehydration to make them easier to control and B. a cult based around purity culture and child marriage would most likely instill really fucked up disordered eating because girls are supposed to be 'thin' or whatever bullshit they spew so she might have some issues with her muscles being slightly underdeveloped and now that she's getting the nutrients she needs in the house it might make her muscles hurt (from what I'm reading online)

Red would absolutely carry her wherever she wants to go (and Yellow and Green so they don't feel left out) and Duck says he's spoiling them but then brings her apples he cut up and grapes he washed and bananas cut into medallions because he read online that potassium is good for your muscles and milky tea with sugar for energy and little bites of whatever meat he's cooking that night and a biscuit and an ice lolly and whole wheat bread with butter on it and she's like 'i physically cannot eat all of this' and gives a lot of it to Green and Yellow but she's very happy he even offered it to her in the first place bc in the cult girls aren't supposed to eat that many carbs all at once and Duck's just here like EAT WHATEVER YOU WANT!!!!! PLEASE!!! YOU'RE SO SKINNY IT MAKES ME NERVOUS!!! GOD!!!

[kingstooth]

every time i see ppl equating eating w being fat i want you to understand my fat ass has had an eating disorder my entire life that means i've gone long stretches of just not eating and i am still fat. i struggle to consume enough of any nutrient on a day to day basis and only in the past year has my calorie intake been anywhere close to the daily recommendations and i am still fat.

how much someone eats actually has nothing to do w how fat they are and i'm no longer asking people to expand their knowledge i'm just telling you to do it lmao

[tigersorange]

hey guys i hate to have to say this but please do not reply to my posts or reblog my posts talking about ed stuff. i have those tags filtered and if u reply to me saying stuff even with a tw i still have to see that bc it doesnt get filtered.

[meowreblog]

had a dream last night that Orange Oasis was a lot creepier and it was based on Sunny's eating disorder. kind of devastating to think about

[trans-leek-cookie]

Doing my regular search of hypothyroidism of Tumblr bc I like seeing ppl talk about it. First post is pro ED and says their hyperthyroidism becoming hypothyroidism would be horrific bc it would make them fat. Anyway how's everyone else

[genderfluid-and-confuzled]

just thought id drop this bc i like it and want to save it and my blog is like a bulletin board for me

[depressed-celestial-body]

Things I think my mom should stop doing:

1) Telling people I have a double major when I do not

2) Imposing her anorexia on me (I do need three decent meals a day to function normally sorry)

[blualt]

i hate the taste and texture of meat and get Really Fucking Stressed if i have to eat it (woo arfid yayy /sar) so i just decided to be a vegetarian a few years ago since the only meat i ate was hotdogs and chicken nuggets and even then i didnt like them that much

i do, however, like the taste of blood. like whenever i get hurt (which thankfully doesnt happen often) i just stick whatever is bleeding in my mouth bcus 1. apparently saliva has motherfucking painkillers in it?? idk i have heard it a handful of times in different places, and 2. mmmm blood

so imagine how fucking funny it would be if i was a vampire

“oh im a vegetarian, anyways let me drink your fucking blood”

[glambots]

TW for disordered eating behaviors. If you’re uncomfortable with that feel free to just delete this.

Consider; In the human au they probably all have some nasty food habits since the environment seems like it would foster them, such as food hoarding, defensive eating, binge eating, or just not eating at all unless forced to.

While Chica seems obvious, I wouldn’t put it past the plex to restrict all of them to eating at certain times or charge them for it during the times they are allowed to eat. I also wouldn’t be surprised if they enforced a ‘no outside food’ rule for those of them living in the plex to the point of taking it from them.

You’d probably see a lot of eating things just because it’s there and they don’t want it to be taken from them or refusing to eat because when they do it makes them feel hungry again.

With sun and moon in particular you’d probably see them sneaking food from whatever the kids are allowed to have on occasion, or avoidance of eating. (If you go long enough being hungry, you’ll eventually get used to it, at least until you eat something and feel the need for more, which can quickly turn into binging. Neither are good for you) you’d probably see them only eating in private as well because kids can be grabby. They also give me food paranoia vibes but that’s probably because I have it.

The glams would probably fall into the category of food frequently being taken from them or restricted, especially Chica based on her existing behavior. You’d probably expect a lot of binging just for food being there(Chica), eating just so no one can take it from them(Monty or Roxy), and eating exclusively in private(Freddy, for reasons)

I feel like the plex would probably also chastise them for that sort of thing but still encourage it via their policy.

TFW you have all of these issues:

[tangledinink]

whining. pouting. sulking, even. he better not use my NICE body wash...

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[tchaikovsgay]

gonna bitch about this more under the cut

the lowest i ever weighed in high school was 145, and this was in my peak eating disorder days. i was sickly and barely functioning, eating just a bag or two of sun chips a day. and my average in hs was around ~180. photo on the left was ~145, where i was categorized as overweight. photo on the right was when i hit the "obese" bmi range.

so many medical decisions were made for me based on that bmi alone. so many diets were recommended. and its so deeply fucked up. it got worse when i got up to 235 in college (thanks antidepressants) but now that I'm down to 190ish and feeling amazing, i just want to go hug my high school self so badly. she was an athlete, she needed that body weight and she needed to eat food to fuel her activities. no one should have been scrutinizing her body the way they did. and even if she was fat, theres nothing inherently wrong with that and people should have shut the fuck up. teenage girls dont deserve to feel like this.

but now my problem is, i have no idea what i even look like. i see pictures of myself and am so thrown by how small i look because in my head i feel SO much bigger. just because of the number on the scale and that stupid bmi range. as my body has changed again, it feels so fucking alien. I'm worried about the rammies of my bmi with finding a top surgeon. I'm worried the number on the scale will make insurance go "eh, we'll cover top surgery but only after you lose weight". its even more scary because I'm trying to lift weights to help my dysphoria, and muscle weighs a lot, so even as inches disappear, I'm always going to be a heavier person. my body was designed to be dense and frankly i love it for that. i love being strong and sturdy. i just wish the medical world was less hostile

did any other #girlathlete have the experience of being rewarded for putting on muscle while simultaneously criticized for having a high/overweight/obese bmi? yeah. this experience haunts me and has given me irreparable body dysmorphia