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unopenablebox · 5 months

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my mom recently reminded me that when i was in 5th grade my teacher would periodically report to her that i was "sneaky" because i would ask to use the bathroom during class and instead go retrieve things from my locker that i had forgotten to bring with me

and even at the time she thought this was ridiculous and obviously not representative of an intrinsically deceitful nature, fortunately for me. but it's really extra ridiculous looking back on it now as a 28-year-old research professional who has to double back into the room i just left for some combination of gloves, tube rack, ice bucket, or samples at least once a day, a quality absolutely no one cares about or would ever make me justify to another person and which i therefore don't have to tell contrived lies about

#i did eventually develop more capacity to check for an essential list of items before going somewhere less accessible #e.g. if i am going to teach or to a meeting across campus i don't like. forget my laptop #but something that's down the hallway??? for a non-time-bounded activity?#i am probably never going to develop the capacity to have 100% of those things every time i go somewhere and it just. doesn't matter.#my school was less weird about this stuff than a lot of places i hear about and most teachers would e.g. enter negotiations about a way #for me to hand things in that i would actually consistently remember was happening and could show up to. so usually i was fine.#but it just made it more notable that this person thought i was like. an inveterate liar. because i wanted to go get the 1 notebook i forgo #out of the six books and notebooks i was supposed to be carrying around that day #without getting publicly scolded for being too disorganized to adapt to future life stages.#box opener

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