#dw im good just random anxiety

[kibbits]

Man. Sleep, huh? = w =

[unripe-lemon]

Since i know no one will see this:

1 note and i will email my therapist

ok so for this one,, like since then i have emailed my therapist?? that counts right????? tbh i dont even know what to talk abt anymore, but i do have a session with her so dw

2 notes and ill put my laundry away

ugh….. stupid. internet.. making me do things that will make my life easier…. gugh yeah i put my laundry away!!!!! everyone clap now

5 notes and ill try to brush my teeth more often

ok so like for this one i found this video https://youtu.be/pvutTiPY7q8?si=PASnBmUXZ0xiHzWM imma sing this song to myself every tike i dont feel like brushing my teeth

6 notes and ill try to put on cream for my dermatitis (anxiety hives!!! yayyy!!!!) more often

just did it hehe :) tho it is getting a little worse and my kitten scratched me on top of it 😭

10 notes and ill attempt to learn my timestables

11 notes and ill study for my exams

my exams are over!!!! so idk what to do for this one? maybe ill go do my homework instead

20 notes and ill try to go one day without using my pc/phone

30 notes and ill vaccum (more bc we just adopted kittens) my room entirely

40 notes and ill try to explain my depression to my mom again

50 notes and ill clean my locker out at school

imma do this tmr!!!

i forgot 😭 someone remind me

80 notes and ill fix the posters that are falling off of my wall and are probably going to rip soon

doing this rn! taking dinner break

100 notes and ill REALLY unpack everything with my therapist

maybe tmr?

we talked about medication and kittens, also exams so like success??

200 notes and ill ask my mom if we can go to my go and get! me! medicated!

ill discuss w therapist tmr

discussed with therapist, we are now getting the conversation started with my mom and are going to see what my gp says after that!! :) ty to everyone in the notes rooting for meds

300 notes and ill re organise my bookshelf

400 notes and ill clean all of the mold off of my wall

damn 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ion wannaaaaaaaa

this is a weekend activity tbh, and idk if its even going to BE this weekend :P

500 notes and ill clean the mold off of my roof

600 notes and ill try sewing some new clothes

i crocheted a scarf!!! does that count?

700 notes and ill buy some new shoes

800 notes and ill check out dnd club at school (im scared)

900 notes and ill come up with more goals

edit: bro……. 😭

so im gonna take my time w these bc there is a lot to go thru!! i will try my best to remember to update!!! ty for notes :)

- random internet stranger

edit 2: WTF 1000 NOTES GUYS CHILL

ok so like i have to come up with more goals now???

1500 and ill start taking study notes with a study method (rb with study method that is your fav eg cornell method)

1700 and ill attempt to hype myself up enough to eat at school (long story, germs)

2000 notes and ill start whatever book wins this poll:

[00belle00lovely00]

May I request Bobby x Dogday headcanons please?

OML YES MORE UNDERRATED SHIPS

I LOVE YALL FOR KEEPING IDEAS FLOWINGG

DW YOU GUYS, IM GOING ONE BY ONE. I PROMISE ALL OF YOUR HEADCANONS WILL BE DELIVERED!

❤️☀️❤️☀️❤️☀️❤️☀️❤️☀️❤️☀️❤️☀️❤️☀️❤️☀️❤️☀️❤️☀️

LETS. CALL THIS ONE. LOVEJOY. NO DISCUSSION. LOVEJOY.

Call me corny but I'm a sucker for mushy touchy love.

This ship dynamic is literally every couple's envy or goal in life.

They are going on and on at each other the whole day by going "I love you" "I love you more" "no- I love YOU more" "no I LOVE YOU MORE" "NO NO NO! I LOVE YOU MORE!" "NO, I LOVE YOU MORE" "NO, I LOVE YOU MORE-"

PDA?... you must be joking, right? THEY ARE THE PDA.

Bobby, being the sweetheart of the group, is constantly checkign up on people and making sure taht not only the love she projects is around everyone. But also the self-love that is equally as important in her eyes. And who else in this entire group would be cosntantly forgetting about taking care of himself first before others? That's right, Dogday. My man is constantly worried, concerned or always in the lookout for others that it just DRAINS him a bunch. And due to that, Bobby is always the one to try to make things up and remind him of who is more important!

I like to think they call eachother as their scents like; Dogday would call Bobby "rose-bud" and Bobby to Dogday "vanilla-pup". Which irritates the living HELL out of the entire group by how corny it is. But these two INSTANTLY ignore it.

They are suckers for physical love. Hug, cuddles, you name it.

OML YOU KNOW WHAT THESE TWO WOULD GIVE EACHOTHER AS GIFTS? WELL LET ME JUST TELL YOU THIS: DOGDAY HAVING A ROSE PERFUME AND BOBBY HAVING A BUNCH OF HEARTSHAPED VANILLA CHOCOLATES IS JUST- TOO PERFECT.

They be clinging onto eachother all day long.

OKAY... I HAD COVERED UP THIS TOPIC BEFORE- But my biggest headcanon for Bobby is that, from based of some cutouts, that she had seperation anxiety. Where if she's left alone in a room too long she becomes very lonely, and begin to feel unwanted and in worst case scenerio for her, unloved. DOGDAY. THIS MAN. THE MOMENT HE FINDS OUT ABOUT IT, PRIVACY DOESN'T EXSIST NO MORE. HE BE EVERYWHERE NEAR BOBBY EVEN IF IT MEANS HE GONNA SQUISH HIS BODY INSIDE A TIGHT ROOM.

Okay. it gotta happen. They watch Bluey and Carebears, IT GOTTA HAPPEN. THAT'S LITERALLY THEIR DATE.

THAT or they go to the park for a small walk, and if they're lucky these two will make a small stop by a bench to either hold hands or pick up random roses they find.

OH I GOT A GOOD SCENERIO. Imagine this; Dogday is frustrated today and Bobby comes in to try to reasure him with a hug. But the MOMENT she comes close to wrap her arms aroudn him, he turns around and instantly bites her hand. This, of course, turning into a whole situation of Bobby sobbing by, not even because it hurt, but because Dogday did it to her. AND OF COURSE, DOGDAY INSTANTLY REGRETS IT AND GOING INTO A "omg! I'm so sorry, Bobby! I didn't mean to!" SITUATION. AND THEY- THEY JUST-... they hug it out ❤️

Everytime someone mentions Bobby's name, Dogday's ears go up. Everytime Bobby is mentioned, Dogday's tail wags. And why should you know this? Because Bobby is AWARE of it, and everytime it happens, she brings it up and compliments him about it. That instantly, of course, embarassing Dogday.

[edith-is-a-cat]

OMG!! i love crystals so muchhhhh that's got such a good vibe you captured me perfectly :D

i also love minecraft foxes especially the Rotund Ones in that one mod. i'm so excited to see more arctic foxes in game because those are my favorite :) i would keep your netherite sword safe!!!

also dw i'm not worried :3 i don't mind anxiety, i have it myself. i'm not the most social person in the world but online i tend to be more outgoing. i'm kinda getting back into the tumblr scene after a year or two of neglecting it so i'm a little anxious here and there too lolol. patting your head! don't drink too much energy stuff~

in return, i am telling you to look up blue tiger's eye crystals, since you seem to like blue and you are also a cat. :) they have really cool banding and it's so reflective and pretty. one of my favorite crystals.

THE NOISE I MADE I LOVE READING LONG ASK THEY ARE SO SWEET 💕 (My older sibling made a noise back at me from downstairs 😭)

RAH SINCE I WAS REMINDED I MUST SHARE THW RANDOM CRYSTALS I KEEP IN MY ROOM AND BATHROOM (with many sea shells too)

yes all the photos have flash on because im a "one of those creatures who've evolved to spend their entire existence in a pitch black cave that's closed off from the world" (direct quote from my friend) an i never have any lights on i just run into things

WUGH WHAT MOD EXACTLY??? IM GOING TO WRITE IT DOWN AND HOPEFULLY USE IT ONE DAY!! (I haven't gotten minecraft on my pc yet, ive wanted to mod minecraft for a while but couldn't bc forever on an ipad, but i have modded stardew valley and it wasn't as scary as I thought it was! Now i can live happily with my 6 wives!! Plus ive been wanting to mod Deltarune for the Ribbit mod! but its more scary and complicated since there isn't as big of a modding community around it, ill figure it out though!!!)

also if u were like a little fox in minecraft i would give you a special nametag using my magic §!! (you can get that symbol by holding down &!! idk if your keyboard is the same but that how i get it!! It changes the text color depending on what letter you put by it!!!) Also i would construct you the best enclosure ever (or just plant a forest!!)

WUGH SO REAL if real life was like being online everything would be so cool (and maybe suck a bit more?? people get more voiced online for better and for worse ;~;)

+ I got back into tumblr like!!! October 2022, well i was never really into it but I did have my first blog that i never really did anything with (its now my reblog account)

also on the energy drink note my chem teacher said i had a problem 😭 (I dont!!! I exist like a month without any!! (I love her i showed her my can locker where i had filled my school locker with energy drink cans and shes just like "cool bud" SHE ALSO WAS ONE OF THE TWO TEACHERS TO ASK FOR OUT PREFERRED NAMES I LOVE HER))

On the blue tiger's eye note!!!! Yes. please. give. I need them i have so many things to decorate!!!! I need to put up shelves around my bed so i can look at my random stuff i adore!!!!! (the only thing i have up on my wall is something i drew for my art class and my Undertale heart locket aka one of my most prized possessions... sadly the the music box in it doesn't work anymore i played it so often, cries, it broke when i was trying to wind it for the little kids at my old school)

OKAY DID NOT KNOW I COULD TALK SO MUCH!!! DJFJDB

[zuc6]

HEY! 😎 im a new fic writer, well like- not new but this is my first time writing like a introduction kinda thing so: (not proofread ☠️)

UPDATE AT THE BOTTOM FOR THOSE WHO'VE ALREADY SEEN THIS POST!! 😁😁😁

Hi, im vee. Just vee. Not short for any name or anything, my pronouns are she/they (afab🤙). i like to write oddly specific fan fiction that i dont necessarily see a lot 🦾

Im 17, 6'2 (the hoes gon loooove this), and here are some things im open to writing for

(ALSO feel free to leave requests i love other people's ideas)

Stranger Things

i WILL write for stranger things characters but im open to aging some up but if im uncomfortable im just like..not gonna...do it..

DEFINETLY open to writing like Joyce x Fem!Reader, since i havent seen that yet

Especially Milfs. Milfs 4ever.

CHARACTER POV'S, I've noticed in fics theyre usually from the readers perspective so its like only what the reader thinks of whatever character. Now while i like that i think itd be super fun to throw in what the character thinks of reader. like what they think of you, what they like, what the notice, shit like that!

The Last Of Us

WOOP i love the last of us. by the last of us i mean ellie williams and abby anderson

Im open to Ellie smut, Abby smut, Ellie AND Abby smut, whatever you want fr.

obviously not open to writing smut of minors so if you just so happened to let the thought cross your mind, no 😓

Idk how i feel about Joel x Reader shit considering Joel is like grandpappy but ive seen a lot of people open to it so dont lose hope if u were wondering

Euphoria

OK DONT BUG OUT im not like gonna write shit about underage characters like i said before

If you guys want euphoria shit tho im open to like angst or fluff mainly with like rue because obviously drugs rahrahrah

or like imagine being Fez's younger sister (only by like a year) Like fluff bond with Ash, showing him affection when hes not used to it, being close to rue bc drugs rahrahrah and like sister in law relationship with Lexi ykyk?

(i cant think of shit else)

Random shit ill write:

Reader listening to rock and being an epic hottie

Reader playing instrumentssss

I lean more towards Fem or Gn reader but i will do male reader dw

Reader being emo 😎 jk like metal lover reader

I will of course leave room for imagination but also include like Reader outfit photos

Reader having good sense of music, style, being shy, anxiety, panic attacks, angsty feelings, drama and trauma oooo

pet names

bold, punk, jerk or like asshole reader

Lots of aus, and like modern au bc im annoying

i was thinking of doing like a crossover of like Robin x Vickie but Vickies past is Anne with an E since theyre the same actor yk? it would be difficult to figure out since the timelines in each are so different

anything u want

will NOT write:

age play, baby talk, annoyingly cliche submissive shit, get that shit out of here

i wont romanticize domestic violence or make light of abusive relationship dynamics, hell noooo 🙅🏽‍♀️

Emotional whiplash, i want things to make sense

animal play. if you wanna be a bunny demon angel wolf hybrid please screw off 😭

Any kinks im uncomfy w (ex. piss kink 😦) ill let u know what im not okay with writing

tbp smut ☠️☠️

OKAY HI i wrote this and got extremely busy and just fucking like bonked out so here i am returning. i was gonna delste this account and make a new one because i didnt wanna like write this, disappear, and then come back and act like i never left sooo im back woop woop!

I HAVE GREAT NEWS THO! during my time away i found a new interest to latch myself onto and write about... and that isss...

THE BLACK PHONE

WOOOOOOOO I LOVE THIS MOVIE!!! and rinney is so fucking cool. i love those little gays, man

rinney fluff and angst is needed so bad i love them with my soul, man

gonna say this once again, im not gonna write smut about kids so pLEASE if any minor hunters read all the way down here just for that, take this moment to consider jumping out of the highest window possible 🙏

fix-it au's and modern au's are gonna be my main go to when writing tbp content because i uh... suck...at writing fics that take place in the fucking 70's in denver ☠️

FIX-IT AU, like finney getting another chance is so good im foaming at the mouth. im currently obsessed with @starsthatlinethesky 's fic on that so (PLEASE) go check that shit out its so good!

brance, MAYBE, most likely. i love bruce hes so sweet and vance is cool so i probably will write shit about those little gay men

terrance and finney's mom place swap. i want to write about finney and gwen being able to be happy without terrance and his destruction so hes getting erased at least once or twice 😊

gwen pov fics since i havent seen a lot of that

stranger things x tbp crossovers are so cool. like finney/will where will moves for whatever reason w his dad after season 2 or 3 since itd make the most sense. i love that shit

not writing smut but i probably will age everyone up a bit once or twice 🤘

i dont know if im gonna end up making x reader shit but if i do, reader isnt gonna be a preppy giddy child, theyre gonna be a punk, an asshole, a badass, closed off and overall AWESOME. you're welcome 🤗

other than that its pretty much fine, if u have any other like show ideas i might be open to write for hmu in the requests babeee MWA MWA

-Vee

[yumpty-dumpty-inactive]

ppspspsp anon who asked the question, AND IM SO GLAD TO HEAR THAT- JUST WANTED TO MAKE SURE!! anyways, big big gay crush on Sara rn and wanted to ask for some relationship hcs about her, both sfw and nsfw, if thats alright?? ((note- for the nsfw part can you write about how she is when she's a top and when she's a bottom??? anjnhubHNCDHFHNTHIS PART IS OPTIONAL SO DW)

yumpty talks: aaa hello my love ;___;!! oml i have a big gay crush on her as well...hmu let's be moots. these are SFW headcanons, let me know what you think! <3

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characters included: kujou sara <3

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pronouns: gender-neutral <3

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headcanons below the cut <3

first off, sara loves you with all of her heart. she's dedicated to making you feel safe and happy, and would do anything to protect you, even if it means giving her life

you're a major source of inspiration for her, inspiring her to become a kinder and more considerate person

her favorite part of you is your personality, and how devoted you are to what you love, just like she is

she's also 100% an ass woman fight me.

whether you're a guy or girl, she loves your ass.

she'll lay her face in it, squeeze it, kiss it, goddamn she worships the thing

when cuddling is brought into the picture, she's pretty neutral towards it.

she loves wrapping her arms around you while you sleep, but she won't drag you away just to cuddle at random times

she likes laying with you, but she refers to it as "laying with you",, not cuddling-

dates are pretty rare, but when they happen, they're very carefully planned out, and are really fun

you take turns planning dates, and sara low-key freaks out when it's her turn.

she may not act like it, but thoughts like, "will they like this?" "would they enjoy this?" and "is this good enough for them?" are constantly running through her mind.

sara isn't the biggest on expressing emotion, but with you it's different.

she still talks dryly, but her words are much more caring, and it sounds like she actually cares, rather than fake compassion.

she also low-key wants to start a family with you, and dreams of one day retiring from the army to settle down with you. she wants to have a son and a daughter, and already has names picked out so you don't have to worry about it </3

she also LOVES gift-giving, it's one of her love languages.

when she goes out on missions, she'll bring you small gifts, like some flowers she saw when walking back to camp, a feather of a rare bird she found, or a gemstone she found in a cave <3

if you ever got hurt, well, let's just say they're already dead as soon as you walk in the door. she will do anything to defend you as I said earlier, even if it means giving her life.

her kisses are soft and loving, but also passionate and intimate at the same time

her favorite memory of you two is that date you two went on one spring, and you saw all of the cherry blossoms blooming on the shogun's estate.

you looked so ethereal in the sunlight, skin glowing and hair flowing in the soft breeze.

as for pet names, my love, darling, and my personal favorite, sweet pea are all things she calls you. literally, she calls you sweet pea all the time and it's so damn cute-

she also has NO SHAME in saying it, and has called you sweet pea in front of the shogun before.

it was just out of habit, and she immediately began apologizing but baal low-key thought it was FUNNY-

sara is also a very open lover, and will tell you everything.

one problem she has though, is she lets anxiety build up within her, and once it gets to a breaking point, she'll break down and talk about everything that's bothering her.

she's trying to be even more open, but war stuff can get really stressful for her :(

might as well put this out there, you guys didn't get together for YEARS-

she had no intention of confessing to you until one day it slipped out-

then you agreed to date her, and this was literally her face:

ヽ(ﾟｰﾟ*ヽ)

MEANWHILE, HER SOLDIERS ARE DYING IN THE BACKGROUND HAHA-

sara is also able to read you very well, and takes mental notes of EVERYTHING you like and dislike.

basically, if you're feeling down, she's gotchu </3

she also low-key loves to show you off because she's just like that-

ヽ(ﾟｰﾟ*ヽ) (ﾉ*ﾟｰﾟ)ﾉ

[ukulelewrap]

I’d like to hear you talk about Suitcase! Suitcase and Soap. Suitcase and Fan. Suitcase and Balloon and how season three may affect their friendship. Aromantic Suitcase. Nonbinary Suitcase. Just any random Suitcase headcanons… really, just anything! :)

oh my god suitcase!!! MY BELOVED my everything gosh I love everything about HERRRR <333 ahhh suitcase I personally hc suitcase as a transfem demi girl aroace lesbian!!! gosh she is so <33

RAMBLE UTC

ive always loved her like, she went from being this kind person who was a pushover and honestly not really knowing what to do or say mostly just a background character to being one of those most intelligent people on the show and being able to stand her ground, and by intelligent I mean as in emotionally mostly, she was able to comfort baseball on the docks in episode 14, and was able to point out what the hell was wrong with test tube's handling of the situation with fan before anybody else could, she can read people a lot easier than others can and I love that

I love her soft demeanor so fucking much, with her development in more recent episodes it blends so DAMN PERFECTLY, having a soft nice character that is not ALL nice and is able to stand up for themselves is such a nice fresh breath of air, as most object show characters either have the stereotypical nice character or make the stereotypical nice character a shitty person, which is tiring because "nice character" does not mean "ignorant", it does not mean "Mary sue", it does not mean "blissful", ot never did, a nice character is someone who is genuinely good at heart, has flaws, has made mistakes, but is still able to be a kind person and help others, suitcase has made mistakes like trying to impress the ones who've hurt her in the past, and being a bit too, blunt at times (like with the test tube situation and how she explained to her how she was hurting fan, lightbulb was able to explain in a lot kinder and more understandable way to her), but she's still a good person in general

I've always been one for headcannons and I absolutely adore autistic suitcase so fucking much, as she doesn't comprehend things the way others might (like how she sometimes comprehends nickels sarcasm as genuine, for example episode 10 where she mistook nickels sarcastic comment about making balloons team captain), I feel like a lot of her stims come through her feet abd especially her EYES, A lot of language in the series involving suitcase involves her eyes, rapidly looking away and looking backvwhen she's nervous, stomping her feet when she's happy, examining things a lot closer than some might, JUST AAAAAA, she comprehends the world a lot differently and I think that's why she was so surprised and upset when test tube didn't understand what she meant when talking about the egg and how it hurt fan, she thought test tube would get it that way because SHE got it that way, and textures oh my god I think suitcase would HATE brick texture fsr like shes the number 1 brick hater!!! food textures she doesn't like?? slushy stuff she cannot go out during slushy snow days because it's so eghhuj to her, I would talk about her visions too but honestly idk if I have right to speak on that but GOSHH, autistic suitcase

SUITCASE HAS SO MUCH POTENTIONAL FOR CHARACTER INTERACTIONS, I imagine her and Fan would be like bffs, suitcase would help out on fff bring supplies fan needs (FFF COME HOME), fanbrambling about his special interest on inanimate insanity, another character I would LOVE to see suitcase interact with? Soap oh my gosh these girls are SO UNDERRATED LET THEM SPEAK TOGETGER, let suitcase vent to soap, soap and suitcase are both very blunt people however soap is more openly blunt I feel like soap, would really try and help suitcase with her anxieties, another one is CABBY BC THEY CAN BOTH CARRY STUFF INSIDE them and oh my gosh ,,, suitcase helping cabby with her problems (suitcase; dw cabby it's okay to be gay I'm gay too,, HEYEHEGSGSF HELP IM ), cabby telling suitcase the CORNIEST JOKES!!!!!!! let them be like bffs pleasd....please.....last one would be lightbulb bc like they're both season finalists struggling with mental illness, be mental ill together!! yippie :]]]

OVERALL I love suitcase.........she is so girl shaped I love.......AAA SORRY FOR RAMbling

[f33itan]

hiii! this is an ask for events 1&2 for your 100 follower event👉🏾👈🏾my name is ny! im a pansexual non binary femme (they/she). I’m turning 21 on Friday! I have an Aries sun, pisces moon, venus and mercury, and a Virgo rising! Im kind of short, and I have a low, smooth voice. According to some people I talk kind of like Beyonce, which is one of the best compliments I’ve ever received 💀💀💀

I’m a ballet and contemporary dancer, and I really like to bake! I’m also really into tea, wine, and good food. I like to read, preferably novels and plays. I’m really into moral philosophy and I smoke a LOT of weed. 😂 I like to think I’m very calm, but without being boring. I have anxiety and ocd and it’s mostly manageable, but I do have panic attacks and stuff sometimes 🥺I am 100% a bratty sub, but it doesn’t take much to get me to behave😅 my top 4 favs are Morel, Nobunaga, Phinks and Chrollo, but I’m totally open to being paired w/ other characters too!

I LOVE your blog and I hope I did this right 😬😬

Thank you for the kind words and requesting anon!! 💕‼️

For this request the details you sent work for Event 1, which is the event where I ship you with somebody, but dw you can request for Event 2 as well! I would recommend doing that by “Oh can you write headcanons / a drabble about me and (insert F/O)?” Preferably having a lil prompt I can go off of!

I'M SO SORRY THIS IS FUCKING SHORT GREASY HAIRED JESUS ISN'T MY STRONG POINT IN WRITING 💀✋🏻

Now, the wonderful F33itan says your matchup is...

Chrollo Lucilfer from Hunter x Hunter!

Chrollo just loves you, that's literally it.

I'm just kidding

When he first introduced you to the troupe he made passive aggressive death threats to each and every member that if they disrespect or slip up with your pronouns on purpose they'll go from "bounty, dead or alive" to "missing criminal" in the blink of an eye.

Somebody hate crimes you? They're dead. Torture. Gone. Deceased. Body cannot be found because Churro fed the parts to some wild dogs.

Likes to have you sit in his lap and rest his head on the top of yours, it's cute to him and shows a sign of trust apparently. He also likes the fact how your voice is smooth like his, it makes him feel calm and he hopes it does the same to you.

He ALWAYS goes to your dance practices and likes to play the music coordinating to your dances at random times, pulling you close to him and attempting to dance the same way you do. He fails. Churro also enjoys baking large desserts with you to share with the troupe and brag about how good your baking is. He'll take you to a fancy 5 star restaurant almost once a week, or if publicity isn't your thing then a simple bottle of wine shared over a cozy, comfortable, king sized bed.

Remembers the genres you like to read and brings back books based on those from far away missions. Sometimes they're even signed by the author, but of course Kuroro pulled some strings and maybe cut some heads to get that signature. Doesn't like smoking weed too often, but if you plead and beg him he'll be putty in your hands. He appreciates the fact that you're calm but can still be up for fun activities, whether they be sexual or not.

Whenever you have a panic attack he sends the whole troupe on urgent missions to get your favorite foods, snacks, comfy clothing, soft stuffed animals, some more weed if you've finished yours, and just about everything else you love + a comforting opened-armed Churro ready to take you down hug n kiss lane.

⚠️⬇️ MENTIONS OF NSFW CONTENT ⬇️⚠️

A soft / calm dom but will sometimes be a bit rough, only to the extent you can handle though. Bible man is pretty clingy after the deed and is probably one of the best people to be with for aftercare. He's very gentle overall and really likes to kiss you everywhere, especially areas you used to be / are insecure about.

[imaginethathaikyuu]

WAIT you’d write more bokuaka!!!! i’ve reread both parts so many timesss. could i request a scenario where bokuto feels insecure and like he doesn’t get much attention in the relationship, but he just misread the situation and reader and akaashi are actually planning a big surprise vacation for all 3 of them? super fluffyy and cuddly? thanks so much, dw if u don’t like this scenario for the bokuaka series! 💓💓💓

good morning bokuaka nation, todays forecast calls for angst but there may be a chance fluff on the horizon? stay tuned to em’s 24/7 news to find out 

im just considering all of my poly bokuaka fics a series at this point - and there have been three parts so far! part 1part 2part 3

gender neutral reader

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Koutarou was convinced that he was about to explode. 

He’d been dealing with feeling everything less than great for at least a week now, and something had managed to build up in his chest in the form of an emotion bomb. 

Simply put: Koutarou was jealous, impossibly so. And he couldn’t lie to himself anymore and keep pretending he wasn’t. 

You and Keiji had been acting different recently. Koutarou didn’t understand it - you two had been leaving him out of almost everything. You don’t even go to bed at the same time as he does - you both stay up late together every night while he’s in the cold bed, swearing he can hear you two giggling in the living room. 

And he hates himself for feeling this way - he doesn’t want to be the clingy one. But he never wanted your special relationship to turn into this. He was sure the three of you could love each other equally forever, that none of you would ever be left out, that three wasn’t a crowd. 

But Koutarou felt like an intruder in his own relationship. 

He was tired of you always showing Keiji things on your phone without letting him see them too; he was sick of Keiji handing you random envelopes as if you two were passing notes he wasn’t meant to see. There shouldn’t be any secrets, but you and Keiji seemed to be keeping a lot from him. 

More than anything, though, Koutarou missed you two. He missed your kisses and Akaashi’s cuddles; he missed how warm the two of you always kept him; he missed your random late night talks about silly things. 

And he was afraid you two didn’t miss him. What was there to miss, anyway? His loud voice? His immaturity? His - at times dangerous - forgetful nature?

His timer was about to run out. He couldn’t take it anymore - why couldn’t you two just be honest with him? 

He walked into the kitchen to find you both sitting at the table, you sitting on Akaashi’s lap, with your laptop in front of you. And neither of you even looked up at him. 

That was it. “Do you guys even want me here anymore?!”

That caused your eyes to snap up at him. 

“What?” you asked, unsure if you even heard him correctly. 

Koutarou didn’t know how to voice his frustration, emotion, worry. He was getting overwhelmed, and quite frankly, he felt stupid for even standing there. 

“You’ve both,” he started, trying his hardest not to raise his voice while also keeping his tears in, “You’ve both abandoned me for each other.” 

His words shocked you; you looked over at Keiji and could tell he felt the same. 

Bokuto stood with clenched fists as he waited for either of you to speak, to quell the anxiety he felt. His nails dug into his palm as he tried to calm down, but he just couldn’t. 

Keiji was the first to speak. “Bo…” 

And that’s it. That’s the only explanation either of you could offer him, one word, a stupid nickname that Koutarou didn’t even like being called. 

“Just forget it,” he said as he turned and stormed off. “I’ll just go to bed alone. Again.” 

And the slam of the bedroom door is what finally knocked the air back into your lungs after Koutarou’s words took it away. 

“We… haven’t been good,” Keiji mumbled, now resting his forehead against your shoulder. 

“I didn’t think… I thought…” 

You both thought you were hiding your secret from him well. You only just realized that to do that, you were completely avoiding the man so you didn’t have to lie to him. Keeping a secret from Koutarou wasn’t easy. His kind eyes and smile just seemed to pull it out of you. 

Not only that, but the secret you were keeping was one that took a lot of planning to even exist. So you had to keep it hidden for well over a week. 

You had both been avoiding him for a week. 

You were planning a surprise beach vacation as a way to reward him for all the hard work he had been doing lately; turns out, planning a week long trip to a beach resort for three was a bit more complicated than you first realized. 

“We need to go apologize,” Keiji said. “Hopefully before he does anything irrational.” 

“It’s Bokuto,” you said, standing up and leading the way. “He thinks we don’t want him anymore - he’s probably already got a suitcase packed.” 

“Don’t say that,” Keiji mumbled behind you. 

You knocked on the bedroom door, not expecting to get any response. And you didn’t. 

“You should do the talking,” you said to Keiji.

“Why? He likes you more.” 

“But you’re better at -” 

Suddenly the door opened and a sad Koutarou grumbled, “If you came here to explain why you love each other more than me, you can save it.” And then he walked back to the bed before quite literally flopping down onto it, pulling a pillow over his face so neither of you could see him. 

“Should we tell him, Y/N?” 

“Tell me what?”  he asked into the pillow. 

“Well, considering we just finished planning it, now seems like a good time…” 

“Planning what?!” 

There were so many things running through Bokuto’s mind. He had himself convinced that you two were going to break up with him then and there; he’d go from having two amazing, beautiful, perfect partners to having none; one of his biggest fears was about to come true. The anxiety spread like a wildfire. 

And then he felt the bed dip on either side of him. He felt two hands on his chest; he pulled the pillow off of his head to find you were both lying on either side of him. 

“We haven’t been acting sneaky because we don’t want you anymore,” you said to him. 

“Then why…”

“We were planning something behind your back,” Keiji said. 

“A trip, Kou, we were planning a trip - Keiji, don’t make it sound so ominous.” 

You then explained to Koutarou what the last week and a half had entailed; researching and booking and buying and planning. It was a bit of a last minute idea, and with summer fast approaching, you had to make your reservations while they were still available. It was all more stressful than you originally thought, even with Keiji’s help.  

“You’ve been working too hard for us, Kou,” you said. “We wanted to pay you back in the a way you deserved…” 

“And we wanted it to be a surprise,” Keiji said. “To be fair, that part was Y/N’s idea.”

“How’s that fair?” you asked. “It doesn’t matter - Koutarou… we love you, and we’re sorry for making you feel excluded, and - oof.” 

“You guys… I thought you were going to break up with me, but… this - this is such good news!” 

Bokuto pulled both of you into his chest and hugged you with a crushing grip because he just couldn’t help it - he was so relieved. Not only that, but he couldn’t believe you guys had been doing something so kind just for him. 

He was an idiot to think the worst - he felt really stupid, now, but most of all he felt thankful. 

“I really love you both,” he said happily. “Thank you, Y/N, thank you, Keiji.” 

“You’re crushing us,” Keiji said, and it only made Koutaru’s arm tighten around him even more. “I’m going to suffocate!” 

“Sh, you’re right where you belong,” Bokuto said to him, reaching down to kiss the top of his head. “You owe me these cuddles, you know.” 

“He has a point,” you said, and Bokuto gave your head a kiss, too. 

His arms loosened around you two to let you get comfortable, but he was stern in his request for cuddles. You rested your head on Koutarou’s chest, and Keiji curled into him, hugging his hips and using his stomach as a pillow. 

“I like being in the middle,” he giggled. “Akaashi’s usually here, he never gives me a turn!” 

“‘Cause it’s the warmest place,” Keiji mumbled. 

“And you get too hot,” you added. 

“I am pretty hot,” Bokuto said.

He was comfortable, he was happy. His mood had gone from the lowest low to the highest high so quickly - he was sure only you two could make him feel such extreme emotions; only his love for you both could cause those feelings. 

But in that moment, there was only one question on his mind. “So… when’s our trip?”

[wincore]

AGREEEE, WORKING OVER THE WEEKEND IS THE WORST esp since im in uni full time and i work 9-5 on the weekends which means... no breaks for me ever.. 🥲

MASSIVE CRUSH ON OIKAWA OMGGG I SUPPORT THIS!!!!! but i am unfortunately much older than 15 and still enamored by 2d men 😔 life’s rough like that HDJWKDJ YES ATSUMU CAUSES PROBLEMS ON PURPOSE.. HES THE WORST!! btw.. ive heard that the oikawa to atsumu stan pipeline is very real... so if u get to s4.. u may develop atsumu brain rot like me 👁_👁

OOO alright run on, extracurricular, vincenzo, true beauty, love alarm, & perfect crime. NOTED!! ive actually been meaning to watch extracurricular for a while now, it looks so interesting!! now that it has the wincore seal of approval i must watch 😤 OMGG SAKURADA DORI I SAW HIM IN ALICE IN BORDERLAND!! super good show but really gore heavy at some points 👁

ahh ok thank u for the reccs, ive been thinking about starting demon slayer too!! shoplifters sounds really interesting :oo crime??? i havent watched a full movie in a while so i will def check it out!! THESE R ALL GOING IN MY NOTES APP.

NEXT YEARRR omg it sounds far away but i know time passes so quickly nowadays so I WILL WISH U LUCK ONCE AGAIN 💛 i hope u update us when the time comes!!

UGHWHHD EVEN THIS SYNOPSIS IS MAKING ME MISS UR WRITING?!? I LOVE THE WAY U WORD IT... “given a choice to pretend, you find that jaehyun is the lesser of the two burdens to bear” AHHHHHHH omg “he’s in a relationship and doesn’t rlly care about the soulmate system” THIS IS ALWAYS SUCH A PAINFUL SCENARIO IN SOULMATE AUS PLSS!!! Wait is the soulmate of yn gonna be an oc/vague character or another member :O EITHER WAY... PAIN! THIS IS GETTING ME SO EXCITED AND U HAVENT EVEN MENTIONED ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT JAEHYUN’S LIKE IN THIS FIC YET

RUNWAY CHARACTER CAMEOOOS YESS I LOVE RUNWAY YN!!!! i actually reread it last night and ugh i was reminded how much i love yns personality... just the process of experiencing all tht self doubt with them!!! so real & makes u root for them :’)

“if jeno plays edward i need him to that apple scene like taemin did” WHHHHHWJDJJWJDBW THIS MADE ME CHOKE ON THE WATER I WAS DRINKING LMFAO

GODDDD THESE TROPE/MEMBER PAIRINGS, HARD AGREE HARD AGREE!!! HAECHAN AND RENJUN ARE E2L 100%!!!! i think bc the ppl in the bff2l category cant convincingly hate yn back LOL

“gets complimented on his lyricism often but like every song’s about you” STOPPPPP HES SO PERFDCT FOR THIS TROPE!!!!!

OMG I SEE EXACTLY WHAT U MEAN ABT SICHENG IN ROYALTY/CHAEBOL AUS... i think like u said it’s because of his poise & the way ppl are generally in awe of him but also bc of his reluctance to open up!! more reserved until he trusts u... funny and kind but sometimes perceived as aloof... those r some prince tendencies! “what are corporate businesses but modern day kingdoms” LMFAOOWJDJ SERIOUSLY THO

“mans really said i will not give you any onscreen idol personality to work with” HDJWJDJWJSJ LITERALLYYYY this is why i have trouble reading jaehyun fics sometimes bc sometimes they can feel “inaccurate” but its mostly just bc there’s no Standard Personality Stereotype to go off of. but a random & uncommon trope i think he’d pair well with is exes to lovers!! Yes im basically just a jaehyun + angst advocate.

“i think most of them would pair well with bff2l??” FACTTTTTTT and no im not just saying this bc its one of my favorite tropes.. heh... i think i told u this before?? but ur like the main reason i started enjoying e2l!!! i didnt like it before bc i love the PINING in bff2l but then i started reading ur works n was like OH SHIT! THERES LOADS OF PINING HERE TOO...

i think yangyang is not bff2l or e2l, he is in his own category which is Annoyer2Lover HDJWKDJ ex: troublemaker, wasted nights

OMGGGG I DID NOT EXPECT ROYALTY AU TO HAVE SUCH A LARGE LEAD IN THE SURVEY??? and cryptids is so low 😔😔 cmon guys, vampires r fun!!!

WE R LITERALLY WRITING ESSAYS TO EACH OTHER RN BUT I LOVE IT 🥺🥺 its a such a nice break to read ur response when im burnt out from studying!!

OMG IM GOING THROUGH #moonwrites AND IM LITERALLY AN IDIOTTTT IVE BEEN OFF TUMBLR FOR SO LONG I DIDNT REALIZE THAT ROMEO ROULETTE HAD A PREVIEW OUT????

“And I get what out of this?” “Me?” IM IN LOVE WITH THIS CHARACTERS PERSONALITY ALREADY LMFAOO

“—and when this whole game you’re playing is over, you’re going to say I rejected you.” ?!?!???? THE WAY JAEHYUN IS A LITTLE SHIT! THEIR PERSONALITIES ARE BOTH SO FUN PLSJWJDJEJ IM MORE EXCITED NOW!!

pls disregard the part in my last ask where i asked abt romeo roulette.... i had no idea all of the information i needed was sitting right in front of me 😔😔

- tata

WHAT 9 TO 5 ON EVERY WEEKEND???? the system has failed you this honestly feels like a villain origin story 😭 when does it get better???

ALSO let me answer the other asks separately for better readability lol we really out here writing essays GOOD THING i have practice writing but like. this is infinitely better to write 🥰

PLSSS SOMETIMES I WILL SEE AN EDIT/TIKTOK OF OIKAWA AND BE LIKE DAMN I REALLY NEED TO CATCH UP I MISS THIS MF also are you daring me to ruin my life for 2d men bc i will do it without hesitation. wait till i watch hq again and get that atsumu brainrot with you he seems annoying enough for me to like ^_^

AND YES PLS I WAS SO ABSORBED IN IT!! extracurricular was the most gripping show i’ve watched in a while like yes enough teen romance give me two unhinged teenagers doing crime 🤩 AND OMG??? THAT’S WHERE WE SAW HIM TOO and although niragi was literally vomit-inducing human trash, sakurada dori is like. a good actor. except i hated coffee&vanilla which starred him it was literally so cringe i couldn’t 😭 i blame the writers for that though. IM EXCITED FOR S2 OF ALICE IN BORDERLAND THO i really like horror (and i can tolerate gore if ive been desensitized enough) and like i read the manga too!!! the games were really interesting (although morbid).

😭😭 MY NOTES APP IS FULL OF RECS FROM FRIENDS ALL OF THEM HATE ME FOR NOT WATCHING THE SHOWS BUT LIKE. i binge 3 or 4 at a time and strike them off and then go 6 months without watching a single tv series hhh.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I SURE WILL UPDATE !!! it’s so exciting to think about grad school sometimes :33

AHHH IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT AND THE PREVIEW TOO SGSDJKDS there’s a few differences in the actual fic i think bc i changed up the language (and i dont remember what else bc i refuse to look at my writing) JAEHYUN RLLY IS A LITTLE SHIT he’ll be like hm yeah im pretty chill :) and then proceed to beat yn at her own game at times. (she wins mostly dw) the fact that i made her soulmate cha eunwoo like girl if i were you i’d crash their relationship 🥱 (jk) but like. jaehyun too is 🤩 despite being dry af

ASDKDSKDS YOU REREAD ALL (ALMOST) 19K WORDS ??? IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE THAT FIC SM AAAAHHH IM FEELING LIKE AN ACTUAL AUTHOR 🥰 i loved runway yn too they were like boss attitude with 20% anxiety.

LOOK JENO BETTER BE PULLING MOVES LIKE THAT TO IMPRESS THE GIRLS 😤 if he hits himself in the forehead with the apple, bonus points bc that was true comedy (as invented by taemin)

AND YES. LIKE I KNOW MARK HATED DONGHYUCK SO MUCH HE WANTED TO LEAVE SM BUT LIKE HE’S TOO NICE WITH EVERYONE ELSE 😭😭😭 i cannot picture him pissed off apart from that summer fight </3

thinking about dejun getting rejected by a girl he wrote a song for. rip brother.

IM GLAD YOU PUT THAT INTO WORDS BC THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT IT IS!!! he’s got all of these regal qualities but he’s still human ykyk so it makes for the most amiable person on earth 😌 i love this characterization of him!!

oof exes to lovers with jaehyun... i had a similar idea a while ago (with theme song sincerity is scary by the 1975) that i discarded bc i don’t think i’m cut out to write that 😭 (YET) so i will keep this is mind. u r so right about jaehyun feeling inaccurate bc it’s like he’s very mild in personality onscreen sometimes?? so him having strong personality traits makes me go 🤔🤔 that man is overreacting. (jkjk but like you get the idea)

WAIT RLLY OMG BC OF ME???? i would never enjoy e2l irl bc irl dudes are 🤢🤢 and if they annoy me i will end them. but in fiction the mutual pining and initial disgust at yourself for liking the other??? helllooo 🤩🤩🤩 especially if it’s in a romcom style <3 bff2l is also better in fiction bc if the relationship doesnt work out irl and the person become uncomfortable with me i will just get annoyed jskshdl

LMAO YOU ARE SO RIGHT ABOUT YANGYANG HE’S JUST THAT™ DUDE skgkhs he feels like someone fun to hang out with but he would annoy you the whole time. also he is cute 🥰

AND EXACTLY!!!! IM HAPPY FOR ROYALTY AUS BUT CMON. LOOK AT THOSE VAMPIRE TEETH. feel like media ruined vampires for people 😔 

THIS IS SUCH A NICE BREAK FROM STUDYING HONESTLY!!!! im like working on two semi-large projects AND studying course and out-of-course material simultaneously so my brain is a little fried. thank u for this 😘

[opaleyedprince]

soo uhh i was tagged by @ninja-lanternshark​ and i just found the post in my likes s o figured better do it y eehaw

Rules: answer 21 questions and then tag 21 people who you want to get to know better. except im t ired and big anxiety so imma just answer th questions hhehehe

Nickname: uhhh i respond to eli, but opal also works, and a bunch of petnames too. basically anything so long as someone makes it clear they’re speaking to me

Zodiac: libra / tiger

Height: 5′6″, 5′7″ on a good day

Last movie I saw: spider-verse heck yeah! in general? lilo and stitch

Last thing I googled: orchid mantis

Favorite musician: idk?? i don’t have any favorites per se? but i enjoy florence + the machine, mika, and darren korb

Song stuck in my head: crab rave but slightly edited w/megalovania

Other blogs: well tbh i have two sideblogs b ut neither of them are active rn so :3cc

Do I get asks: more often than i used to kdjcnb 

Following: 224

Amount of sleep: usually anywhere between 4 and 9 hours hhh eheheheh

Lucky number: 13 or 17

What I’m wearing: jeans, flannel, big jacket bc the heat hasn’t kicked in yet

Dream job: hhhhhh making video games. or an animated series

Dream trip: somewhere in the mountains? japan? or just to see my s/o now that is the dream right there-

Favorite food: curry, just in general d on’t make me pick one. also my pa’s french toast

Play any instruments: flute

Languages: english and a bit of french

Favorite songs: hmm all of dw spirit’s ost, we all become by darren korb, glass heart hymn by paper route, the entirety of tchaikovsky's swan lake and nutcracker ballets

Random fact: d id you know that in some old vampire lore putting a rose on the vamp’s coffin could trap them inside?

Describe yourself as aesthetic things: overcast skies that threaten rain but don’t follow through, precariously-balanced piles of unread books, blasting cheesy romance songs and dancing alone while dessert bakes in the oven, running through the woods in hiking boots and an unzipped rain jacket, partly-filled sketchbooks and doodles done on the back of old school papers