#during all those years of uni always thought i was just a lil stressed :) brother that bitch was mentally ill as fuck
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when i was still in uni and i was very stressed and anxious the morning of whatever exam i used to look at my own reflection straight in the eyes and then slap myself as hard as possible two or three times depending on how bad i was feeling and shout get it together while i did that and when done i'd just go out and pretend i was a normal human being. like. that shit was crazy
#rena.txt#i remember when i did my second attempt for latin literature i had a very big panic attack and i was crying while doing this and my parents#during all those years of uni always thought i was just a lil stressed :) brother that bitch was mentally ill as fuck#what made it all worse for me is that here we don't do written tests and we don't do papers (not many anyway). in my case all my exams#have been like interviews and the anxiety was sooo bad bc i knew i had to speak with these asshole. the idea of sitting and writing down#stuff was so comforting bc i could have my time to think but instead i got hell and to try and like. psych myself up. i'd do shit like this#uni was really a moment huh
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18 - What was the most surprising moment for you in Sunny history?
oh man, probably charlie and dee getting together + dennis having a kid. i remember being so SHOOK at those moments, like full on gasping to myself out loud. i had my suspicions abt charlie and dee during that ep but when they actually kissed i- bro. i was so shocked. and my heart nearly fucking dropped outta my ass when dennis said "my son" i thought it was gonna be a joke😭 then when he left at the end... phew. did not expect that. but tbh i was probably equally surprised when he came back with no explanation, like i really thought he was serious about being a dad and making an effort and it really surprised me that he gave up on it. he didn't have to disappoint me like that lmao
19 - How has sunny impacted your irl life?
omg, i can't even word it. like, it's my whole life lmao. i constantly have it on in the house and while my dad loves it my mum despises it and always makes me turn it off lmao but they associate me with it so much and i kinda love that. it's helped me connect w ppl, ive introduced a bunch of friends and my brother to it and its brought us so much closer and always acts as something we have in common and can always talk about. it's gotten me through some tough times - i started watching it during my gcses and now im in uni, so all those stressful academic years i don't think i could have got through without the relief of sunny and always having it to look forward to as a reward for finishing my revision for the night or a motivation to go back to school in september knowing a new season would be coming. i just love the show so fucking much, it feels like it's been a part of my life for longer than it has bc i can always rely on it as a comfort show and so much of my identity is in it. it's like my lil buddy, u know? as sad as it sounds my life would be so empty and so quiet without it. ive also made a tonne of friends and great experiences from the fandom that i'll always be grateful for.
27 - Who is ur fave in RCG?
charlie!! i love them all and would always be enthusiastic about any of their projects but charlie has a special place in my heart. he was the only one i knew before starting sunny ("omg it's that guy from horrible bosses") and charlie has always been my favourite character so im always gonna have a special connection to him. rob is a close second i think mainly because of how much he's on social media so i feel like i see him all the time (which is a good thing!!!) then glenn last lmao i absolutely adore him but dennis is my least fave and he rarely posts anything so sorry my dude!!
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I’m kinda mad that Miklos didn’t grow up with his uncle(s???) and dad, bc that would have been a very unconventional, weird as all get out but Pure lil’ family unit.
If Vadim had gone to see Katya again when Miklos was a toddler he might have gotten the sense that she really wasn’t into the whole child rearing thing and would have offered to take the boy. Tbh at that age when kids are the most demanding, inquisitive and needy she would have shoved Miklos at him with more than a little relief. Adoption papers and bureaucracy would have been hell, and he would have showed up back at his and Milan’s flat three weeks after his supposed return date.
Miklos wouldn’t have cried on the long train ride back to Moscow, but he wouldn’t have said a word to his father or anyone else trying to be all coochie coochie at the cute kid. Vadim wouldn’t have pushed him to talk or tried to be friendly with him, just offered him food and a blanket or a pen and notebook at the right moments. Not unlike bringing a dog home tbh.
“I was beginning to think you might have eloped without telling me, it’s fine, I never wanted to be present at your wedding anyway–– WHAT IS THAT?”
Milan, more of a mischievous older sibling than an uncle, or if he was avuncular at all, Affectionate Vodka Uncle
“I don’t know anything about children!! What do you know about children?” “I raised you didn’t I?” “That’s not any kind of positive endorsement of your child raising capabilities.”
Vadim has a lot of thorny, Dark, unsorted feelings about fatherhood, family, obligation, intimacy, the irresponsibility of bringing children into the world etc but for the most part he doesn’t let those show in any obvious way while dealing with his kids (lol that includes Milan). He figures he can take the same approach towards Miklos that he did towards Milan which I think would work pretty well with Miklos’ personality. Hands off, affectionate, non judgmental, encourages independent thought and self responsibility while being clear about what’s expected of everyone at home. Vadim doesn’t scold over trivial things and most of the time he doesn't have to bc he has this quality about him that shames people into doing their best around him so he isn’t disappointed in them. Vadim is also low-key v intellectually demanding, but playful. Neither Vadim nor Milan would push Miklos to be more outgoing or talkative (lmao an introvert’s pipe dream), but he’s fairly talkative with them once he gets used to his new home. Miklos and Milan argue/talk a lot. Mostly it’s Milan cheerfully taking the piss and inventing wilder and wilder stories while Miklos tells him he’s an idiot.
“Don’t talk to your uncle like that” “I wouldn’t have to if he acted like one and spoke like a grown up.”
Miklos still would have gotten in judo, but he wouldn’t have abruptly quit without explanation. Vadim v. mildly disapproves of him getting into MMA, systema etc but has said nothing definitive on the subject. Miklos ignores him where that is concerned (not like his opinion would have mattered much, he was in prison lol). Milan is Obnoxiously Supportive (also a good way for Miklos to vent his teenage Angst and abandonment issues, in his opinion).
Vadim still would have gone to prison when Miklos is about...9 or 10. Milan takes over raising him; they quarrel often at first out of the stress of having their world flipped on its side (again, in Miklos’ case), plus Milan was never the Authority Figure at home, just the shit eating instigator of trouble.
Milan takes Miklos with him to visit Vadim while he’s incarcerated. They only visit together twice before Vadim tells Milan he doesn’t want Miklos coming to see him anymore, and Milan shouldn’t be visiting either (it’s probably a shitty 7 or 8 hour train trip with a couple of switches to idfk, a work camp in the Urals or fucking Siberia just to see him for forty minutes). This instigates one of their biggest and bitterest fights and Milan mulishly visits him a few more times before Vadim kills three inmates and goes into the high security block.
Miklos has to go live with Avenir when Milan goes into the military and into the GRU. Milan is never sure if Miklos held that against him or was indifferent. Avenir isn’t a bad guy, really, just distant with the younger boys and strict and old fashioned. He’s kind to his nephew in a stiff sort of way and worries about him and his brothers a lot, although he never gives voice to these worries. They fight a lot bc of differing views on discipline and what should and shouldn’t be allowed. Miklos treats Avenir’s home like a boarding house and is only in and out to sleep and eat. At his worst he’s sneeringly ‘respectful’ towards Avenir and some things of value around Avenir’s flat disappear. Somehow they both survive Miklos’ last years in high school and during their occasional truces they have conversations about music, writers and go to the ballet.
Gangster Vad is released in time to see Miklos go into uni. Family reunion and Huge Fight n.2 over Vadim’s horrible life choices and how that would affect the rest of his family and his son etc, why didn’t he come to see them immediately after his release. Vadim continues to work for the Bratva while it’s decided that Miklos continues to live with Avenir while at uni. Vadim, unwilling to taint his family with his new life, tries to avoid seeing them as much as possible. Presumably Miklos is low key resentful about all these departures and being shuffled around so often.
Huge fight n.3 is probably several years down the line (after huge fight n.2.5 when Miklos announces his plans to go into the special forces) re: Miklos’ questionable forays into intelligence work and assassination and the family coming together more or less to start working with Vadim. Probably. With the exception of Avenir who is a moralistic stick in the mud and Always Worried (tm).
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