#dujour13

[faepixel]

two beautiful men are about to ruin your day..........😳 do you let them?

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woljif and knight commander sia for @dujour13 !!!

[loderlied]

Missing Ollie so these are for him ❤️

Eros 4, Philia 3, Agape 2, Philautia 2

Eros 4: Do they believe in love at first sight? Have they ever developed a crush or romantic (or erotic) fixation upon a stranger based on their appearance alone?

i think oleander is absolutely the kind of person who believes in love at first sight, that very romantic and twisted-idealistic worldview is kinda the perfect space for that i think lmao. it’s not necessarily that you have to know that it’s love immediately, aka how it was for him with camellia, but he felt that she was special and that she would play a special role in his life.

however based on appearance is a hard pass. his feelings for camellia were based on a sense of wanting to help her, fan the flames of her darkness and such.

Philia 3: What qualities does your OC most value in a friend? Loyalty? Shared sense of humour? Or something else?

ooh difficult one for oleander. it’s sort of that ‘if everyone is your friend, do you really have no friends at all?”thing, as in he views everyone as a friend, or as he would describe it, has love for everyone. so what qualities matter to him most? being alive (being able to rot)? i guess lol. like it’s certainly not an act and his friendship (on his side) is certainly not less strong than your average one, but he just genuinely and sincerely enjoys the company of everyone, if they love him or especially if they hate him.

Agape 2: Does your OC feel a spiritual connection to the world around them? Do they have a particular love for nature or living things?

absolutely! to all three of those! i think he’s the sort of person to view it all as one connected thing, not only a shared space but sort of. truly that everyone and everything is connected through string-like fate and love and whatever esoteric bullshit you can think of. but that connection to him is certainly the rot of body, mind and soul.

this and the answer above are actually why he acts so familiar and vulnerable with people he just met. you could know him for five seconds and he would treat you like an old friend he just hasn’t seen in 47 years lol. because again, not an act—to him, that’s exactly what it is.

Philautia 2: Does your OC believe that it is important to love themselves in the first instance? Perhaps in order to be able to give and receive love authentically? Or because they believe first and foremost in "looking after number one"?

well. another difficult one. no. this is actually the biggest problem he and camellia ever have in their relationship and the reason she eventually leaves him. i know calling someone an empath has sort of become a meme but if there’s one it’s ollie. what i’m trying to say is that he not only understands but especially feels for and with them so much, and yet, he does not understand why camellia does not want to kill him. he offers himself up to her/ makes countless promises of saving his death for her which makes her more uncomfortable as time goes on each time he does it and he just becomes more insistent on it as a result. he ultimately views himself as not only as disposable, but as something for which death through the right person/the ultimate evil he nourishes (camellia) would be the best end to ever be. if he doesn’t die like this his entire existence would be a waste. this is the guy who when he was a small malnourished kid barely surviving in the wilderness let parasites and other various animals eat away at him because he couldn’t bear it otherwise. he’s someone that fans the flames of evil and rot, the breeding ground of sin and malice, and when all his hatchlings are conceived and fully grown it would be his greatest honour to have them devour him.

but back to him and camellia—in the end with how much love he carries for others he could never make room for hers for him. he doesn’t understand why she doesn’t want to and desperately tries to keep herself from loving him the way he loves her. it’s why her biggest complaint about him is and always has been that he cares too much.

(ask game)

[camelliagwerm]

I know there was a potential thing between Valerius & Sosiel but I need to know more

Dujour I love you because I think about their relationship a lot.

It was very much a potential thing, but Valerius chose that moment to be a decent person for once and stopped toying with his heart in act 3 before he took what I presumed would be Sosiel's first kiss.

I think the easiest way to describe what would happen if he had chosen to kiss Sosiel (and subsequently entered a relationship with him over Camellia), is that there's two forks in the path, depending on whether Trever is alive or not.

The first is, much the same as with Camellia, he would find his heart thawing (although this time, even more so against his better judgment as Shelynites and Urgathoans don't usually get along) and he would choose to go Legend. I'm not sure whether Sosiel would ever be able to fully redeem him , butI think Sosiel's plea for him to turn back on Lichdom would hit far closer to home. Valerius is, at his core, a lover who would do anything for his partner in the right circumstance. He wouldn't leave the Urgathoan church entirely, but I think he would at least be more willing to accept his loss of his goddess' favour as he is so close to someone with experience in spiritual comfort. Valerius tempered his expectations regarding Trever in the Abyss and as a result Sosiel isn't as idealistic in act 5, and thus I could see Valerius recognising that he and Sosiel might stand a chance because some of that idealism has faded away — to quote Too Sweet: "if you can sit in a barrel maybe I'll wait."

The other route is that Sosiel believes Trever is still a hero (and died one), and Valerius manages to strengthen his resolve and he manages to remain detached enough to end up sacrificing Sosiel to become a Lich. It's a lot bleaker, and the first comparison I can think of is that scene in Revenge of the Sith where Padmé is begging Anakin to stop going down the path he's on. Sosiel doing his best to dissuade him from going down that path even after the choice has been locked in, in the hope that there's something left of his lover. In a twisted form of sentimentality, he would make sure Sosiel's spirit remains tied to the ziggurat after the sacrifice. Urgathoan moment.

[undyingembers]

For Len 💕 12, 14, 16

12. How does their mythic path synergize with their personality - does it augment it, or is it in contrast? Something in-between?

Len's anal-retentive tendencies really shot up when s/he went Aeon. S/he already possessed great attention to detail before, but now s/he can see every crack and every flaw. S/he got to learn secrets that s/he never dreamed of learning before, which was fantastic. Sadly, the Aeon also threatened to squash the passions and personality that s/he had hidden beneath the surface. Though s/he performed his/her duties up to par, it would have been a loss if s/he went full Aeon.

Legend was confusing for Lenarius/Leonosa. S/he was at a complete loss for what to do next now that the Aeon's rigid structure was gone and s/he was free to choose his/her own path for once. Doesn't stop him/her from still trying to impose his/her own order on the Crusade though!

14. What about another mythic path that they did not take? Is there one that would fit them, build or personality wise, and what might that have looked like?

I could not see Len in any path other than Aeon or Legend at all. Len stubbornly refused all of them to the point where the only paths available to him/her in Chapter 3 were Aeon, and the default Angel and Demon. And the only late-game path s/he could take was Legend. None of them could meet his/her standards. Honestly, part of the reason s/he went Legend could be that Aeon didn't meet his/her finicky standards, either. The galaxy aesthetic was gorgeous, but how will s/he be able to read poetry in outer space! In the end, s/he decided to go with neither.

However, Lenarius/Leonosa on the Trickster path would be so funny. Imagine the nightmare it would be if Len could peer under the hood of the game mechanics and scathingly critique every aspect and tweak it to make things more "balanced". S/he would make life such hell for Socothbenoth and the Council. S/he would demand timetables for meetings and meeting minutes and a detailed plan for closing the Worldwound. Probably the biggest joke the universe can play!

16. How well do they play mechanically with their romance, if any? If not, which party member do they synchronize best with?

S/he and Daeran are the backline pair. Breathe on either of them and they would go down.

Len and Daeran have many overlapping roles. Both are casters, and I built both of them with offensive capabilities, just blasting at the enemy from the backlines. They both also have good buffing spells for the party. Len having access to Haste, Protection from Energy, Blur, etc, and Daeran having Protection from Evil, Bless, Delay Poison is a great combination to have. When Len starts taking Witch levels, s/he can also be a backup healer for Daeran. I will say Daeran is the primary healer, though, and Len focuses a bit more on control, especially later in the game.

[sadruru]

Knight-Commander asks for Melissa:

Do they think they're going to make it out alive?

8. What do they desire the most?

20. Which event of the crusade traumatized them?

Okay, I should have answered that a long time ago. Sorry and thanks for the ask! 😥I'll definitely answer them all…

1. Do they think they're going to make it out alive?

Not so much at the beginning of the game. For Melissa, many factors and coincidences seemed too crazy. And it seemed to get worse and worse each time (what a fun adventure in the Abyss). I'm glad that at the end of the game she finally had hope for a better outcome and the strength to keep fighting, not only for the sake of others, but for herself.

2. What do they desire most?

Freedom. She desires many things. Especially freedom. I think it's a theme that would make her a good friend to Daeran. After his quest, they will sit down together and have a glass of wine, having a good time over private conversation and the future. He was the second of the companions to learn such interesting details about her. For her, freedom is the absence of enemies, adventures and travels to distant lands, as well as a life without unnecessary worries and without burden on the soul. Bonus: in the Areelu Vorlesh Laboratory we get trapped, as I recall, and each of the companions would see their dreams and desires. So why shouldn't the Commander see his illusions as well? In a way, Melissa also desires a quiet life. Her illusions took place in the family tavern where she served both guests and all her acquaintances with friends. What brought her to her senses, however, was the realization that one of her best friends was long dead.

3.Which event of the crusade traumatized them?

I've already written that Baphomet got into her head when Melissa was on a mission to save Hand of the Inheritor. The tragedy is that the demon lord really didn't have to traumatize her as much as just remind her of the past, which she still hasn't come to terms with. No magic here, just psychology. I have a little story about that on AO3. But I can tell you about other traumatic events. For example, about one quest in the Abyss. I didn't save that quest, but I remember an aasimar appearing in the Abyss and asking me to bring him some poor aasimar girls to help them (yeah yeah of course). Some time ago I drew two pages of a small comic on the subject. It would remind her of a few sad months with a special collar from Numeria for slaves.

She doesn't dislike the aasimars, but she is incredibly angry at this difference in attitude based on appearance and background. Oh no Melissa, are you being stalked by a psychotic aasimar who has severely damaged your psyche with his obsession? ;D He knows where you are, what you're doing in Mendeve, and periodically makes hints about himself. Tieflings and aasimars, it's an old story….. That's probably too cliché, right?

[arrow-alrakis]

Alrakis - Lily

Big thanks to @dujour13's editing help!! We finally have a chapter of the Alrakis translated into English! A little angst in the beginning, and then tooth-rotting fluff! Hope you all enjoy it!

Words: 7,335

Rating: M

Ship: Larksharius (archlich) / Rimerock (silver dragon)

Summary: As the Knight Commander marched towards the Worldwound, something happened between their archlich advisor and dragon companion. An accident, a mark, and a promise.

"I don't like you doing this...! "Rimerock hadn’t expected to lose his temper. He wanted to shut up, but he couldn't help but feel humiliated. His anger boiled over and poured forth in Draconic. "Yes, that's right, my cover-up failed. I do care about you, but can you just stop using your algorithm to calculate how to treat me? We did have a history hundreds of years ago, but you don’t owe me anything, understand? I'm not some demon or devil with a price tag or a contract. I'm not a businessman. I don't want anything. You already know that you are much more than an ordinary friend to me... Apsu forgive me, I don't even know what I'm talking about…" The tall knight finally couldn't hold it back anymore. In annoyance and frustration, he thrust the long sword in his hand deep into the ground. The old wooden floor of the abandoned cabin they used as a temporary resting place near the Worldwound made a creaking and splintering sound. Rimerock immediately regretted the movement. The lingering symptoms of corruption made his hands tremble. The dragon gritted his teeth and turned away in silence. The clanking sound of his heavy armor covered his pain. Uncomfortably, the dragon's furious blue gaze landed on his necromancer companion. 

Illustration of this chapter was done by 礦 (No worries! The dragon did not lose his wing in the fic! Things are way less aggressive. ^^)

Thank you so much again Dujour!!! Working with you on Lily brings me SO MUCH JOY!!! You honor us with your love and insights! Thank you so so much! This gift will be my forever treasure and placed in the safest part of my dragon den.

[cassynite]

Silaena Goes Home please!

Aaah thank you for the ask Dujour! I saw you already noticed I did already talk about this piece here but I'll share another snippet below the cut!

When she'd told the queen of her plans to run away it had been a test, will you prevent me from leaving, but it had also been a plea: make me want to stay. And her queen had passed the test but failed the entreaty, and Silaena had disappeared into the wilds, remade as Laena the Bard, and even if that freedom was a heady drought it still tasted bitter in her mouth. It was senseless, of course. Galfrey was only the queen, her entire life dedicated to emulating her own glinting profile seen in the paintings done of her leading the charge against the demons. There was no room for the actual human hidden underneath the horrendous weight of her station, the flashes of woman Silaena had seen, impressions of weak light filtering through a thick canopy of trees.

[spyridonya]

Top 5 denizens of the Hells (from any setting)

Okay, besides me fawning over Raphael on @archcambion, I felt I should talk about my top five favorite loves of the Hells.

Thank you so much, @dujour13, for letting me info dump!

5. Glasya, the Archdevil of Malbolge (D&D)

The only child of Asmodeus, Glasya has always been in the side lines of D&D since it's inception, a bit of a minor player with she severing as a consort for an edition or two for Mammon. In late 2e and in 3.Xe, Glasya became such a political issue for Asmodeus, he bumped her to Archdevil to give her more work and to use in political maneuvering. Glasya still is the most chaotic of the Archdevils, focusing on her criminal empire within the Hells, and befriending her peer Fierna in a manner that suggest they were best friends.

4. Enecura, the Queen of Dis (PF)

The concept of Enecura bit me while learning more about the Archdevils in Pathfinder. This moral woman stole immorality from one of the most powerful gods in Pathfinder, got sent to hell, managed to thrive in this setting, and either fell in love or manipulated another demi-deity to fall in love with her. Not only does this woman have ovaries of steel, she and Dispater are a Hades and Persephone romance in disguise without any problematic tropes.

3. Dispater, Lord of Dis (PF)

I liked Dispater when I first read about him in D&D, but became less impressed with 5e lore of making him paranoid and yet easily manipulated. It wasn't so much the sexuality it suggested for Dispater as is making a feared Archdevil a little weak - though most Archdevils in D&D have more obvious flaws. When reading about PF, I liked this depiction of Dispater even more. I could see the bones of D&D's Dispater in the character, built into a logical way with unique details. A fast friend of Asmodeus, loyal and focused on law and order, he willingly fell with his wife to follow his leader. And during that fall, something happened to his wife. And no one knows what. Regardless, it brought out genuine puppy dog eyes from a design that is particularly kinky. His story with his son, the trouble second marriage, and the third marriage is also quite intresting. He might not have the 40 years of backstory as his counterpart, but what he has is amazing.

2. Mephistopheles, Lord of Cania (D&D and PF)

Mephistopheles is the one that got me really interested in DnD planar lore, leading me to Planescape Torment. When I was younger, my first DnD interest began with BG1 and it grew from there with BG2 and then Neverwinter Nights. Mephistopheles was an NPC Villain that caught my attention quicker than the game's intended villain and got me to reading more about him and his comrades. A Starcream with delusions of grandeur that he could almost back up, Mephistopheles was my favorite for a long time with a DnD campaign that brought his attention to me again. It was also around the time I was playing Pathfinder CRPGs, but I didn't get poking into that until he showed up, again, in WotR. Of course, Pathfinder Mephistopheles is very different from DnD Mephistopheles. The incarnation of Hell itself with a deeply loyalty to anyone that advances Hell cause, Mephistopheles beloved by Asmodeus, and Mephistopheles is very much his right hand person. He also has a gorgeous design that does take nods from his 3e depiction.

And oddly, a blend of both depictions with a unique twist of UST make Mephistopheles even more fun.

Asmodeus, Lord of Nessus, God of Indulgence (D&D)

Although I find myself favoring the Pathfinder takes of the Archdevils, this doesn't hold true to Asmodeus. Pathfinder Asmodeus is great, but the only advantage he might have over his D&D counterpart was always being a god, and yet he lacks the same prestige as D&D Asmodeus for that role. D&D Asmodeus has been apart of the brand since it's inception as the ruler of Hell through all the five editions, with the 2nd edition only using bare descriptions to indicate who he was when you couldn't use devils or demons in D&D. He has several origin stories inspired from Christianity and Zoroastrianism and he's gone through several crises, always rising on the top. I think that's why I love him a bit more than his counterpart. Asmodeus has scraped and crawled from being a devil to becoming a greater Deity if only due to 4e deciding it was about fucking time he become one. He's earned this status, you've seen how he's earned it, and while how they cement his godhood in Forgotten Realms is super dumb, he should be a God - he who is more crafty and chaotic than anyone realizes.

[milk-crafting]

Bust commission for @dujour13 of her oc Siavash!

I loved drawing the little glowy butterflies heheh

If you'd like a commission like this dm me!

[wonda-ch]

@dujour13 I had to take a screenshot to get it out of the sideblog. Sorry.💕 Thanks for asking. 😊

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The lake lies quietly in the orange glow of the setting sun as Daeran approaches its shore with a blanket, a bottle of wine, and two glasses. He pauses when he recognizes Tishlia's silhouette, sitting near the shore with her arms wrapped around her knees, gazing into the water. She shouldn't be here. She should be looking for the animals, losing track of time as usual, and then finding him waiting on the shore, wine in hand, smiling at her.

The closer he gets, the more his stomach clenches when she does not turn her eyes to him, despite the fact that it should be impossible to approach her unnoticed. The slight trembling of her shoulders makes his gaze freeze for a moment. If she's crying, there must be a reason, one he doesn't know. As he continues to approach, he feverishly ponders what could be making her sad, and even more so, what could be keeping her from coming to him with that sadness.

Daeran is on the last steps to his wife when she wipes her eyes and sits up straighter, but she still doesn't look back at him. Shadowy, evil thoughts are already troubling him, and he tries to push them away until he can talk to her and get some clarity. "Tisha? What's wrong?"

"Nothing Dae, everything is fine."

The cramp in his stomach intensifies at this all too obvious lie. He sits down next to her, inverted so she can't avoid his gaze. When he tries to grab her hand, she reflexively pulls it away and the feeling of being rejected sends a chill down his spine and he tries hard not to let it affect his voice. "It doesn't look like all is well, why the tears, my love?"

"I'm grieving for my friend." Her voice is cold and dismissive.

"Midnight is gone, not dead. When Jax finds him and they settle their stupid argument, he'll be back." He relaxes a bit when he hears her reasoning, he doesn't quite understand it, but at least it doesn't seem threatening.

"You have no idea, Dae. They are dragons, I haven't heard any news from him, I have no idea where he is, he doesn't contact me. They are dragons, Dae, they have a different sense of time than we do. It could be years before he comes back." Without a sob, tears run down her cheeks again, but she doesn't try to hide them.

"If he wants to miss years with us, that's his choice and his loss. He won't risk it for long. Don't be sad, it wasn't you who argued with him. Until they return, we will be happy without them, you still have my most delightful company." Hoping that his motivating, light tone will brighten her mood, he tries to reach out his hand in her direction, but again she flinches from his touch.

Her reaction hits him like a low blow, and he drops his eyes to the ground. Hurt. Unsettled. He takes a deep breath, trying to control his voice, but the uncertainty clearly resonates in his next question. "What did I do wrong, Tisha?"

"It's not about you. It's nothing you've done, but it's not going to be all right because you decide so, Dae! Things do not come to you just because you want them to. You're not the center of the world." Her eyes pierce him and the anger in her sharp voice increases with every word.

The fury she makes him feel makes him flinch as if he had been physically hit. He quivers, angry at himself for not knowing where her anger comes from. His insecurity increases, he has no idea what words he can use now without making things worse.

A moment passes in which only the soft wind rustling the reeds can be heard. She has turned her eyes back to the water and he can see her holding back her anger, but he can't see why. The silence does not answer his questions and Tishlia seems unwilling to break it again.

His voice barely above a whisper, he makes a cautious approach. "I never wanted to be the center of the world. I only want to be the center of your world."

The wind continues to whisper, as if continuing his thoughts. When Tishlia looks into his eyes, he can see the sadness in the dark blue depths. For a moment, she stares at him as if to tell him her thoughts, and he chides himself for not understanding her. His self-reproach is interrupted when she finally speaks to him, calm and tender.

"That's what you are, you stupid idiot. That's why I'm sitting here, because of what you are." Her gaze returns to the water and more tears glisten on her cheeks. Hesitantly, as if trying to touch a burning log, he makes another attempt to take her hand. As she allows him to touch her, he finds himself holding his breath as he exhales in relief.

The warmth of her body suddenly leaning against his shoulder gently loosens the tense knot in his stomach. His free hand begins to gently brush her back, calming the renewed trembling of her shoulders. Without further questions, he waits patiently for her to explain what this is all about.

The setting sun bathes the lake in a reddish glow, the wind dies down so that even the whispering in the reeds seems to await her next words. "He wanted me to go with him. I tried to change his mind so he would stay. But he couldn't, he had to leave, and he wanted us to go together. I had to make a decision. I decided. And now… I miss him, Dae. It's like a part of me is gone. I don't regret my decision, I belong by your side, but sometimes… like today, it tears me apart".

He is glad that she can't see his face, in which his eyes now shine after her revelation. He holds her tighter in his arms, feeling the restless rhythm of her breathing and hearing the slight sob that has come over her again. His lips press tenderly against her temple as he says, "We'll look for him, everywhere, and we won't give up until we find him, I promise you, Tisha." She hears his promise and snuggles closer into his arms. These are the last words the lake will hear until the darkness falls.

[desnas]

△ Taro, if you could bring back your moms and tell them one thing each, what would it be?

from this ask prompt!

invasiveness: 7/10. taro really is an open book about most things, though this is just... difficult for them to talk about!

The commander's bright eyes are on you for a moment before they fall to the floor immediately. "Oh... ah, well..." A smile plays on their lips, but it melts away, replaced by a quiet kind of melancholy.

The grief has never been easy, but there is a difference, Taro thinks, to offering memorial and respects, to cling to the fond and beautiful memories before their two mothers were taken from them. It is less... complex and more instinctive.

He doesn't have to linger on all the why's and the what's. He wants them back in his life, and he knows that like he knows the Mwangi Expanse-- truly and deeply. But... this... "One thing each," He parrots your words, hunching over in thought. "What would I tell them?"

Well, it's clear by Taro's deflating disposition that traversing into this territory of thought is... especially painful. "So many things. You expect me to decide? Tch." A laugh, to break their own tension. "Very well, then."

They resolve, their face softening with joy. Perhaps it would be wise start with their Bonuwat mother. "My human mama-- her name is Ngozi. She was a very serious woman." They giggle. "I suppose I would tell her thank you-- for balancing a life of adventure and excitement with ... stability."

Taro straightens a bit. She seems to have found the words she was looking for. "My upbringing was all the right kinds of chaotic, but... she always knew when it was too much for me." The commander nods at you, as if to provide affirmation to herself. "She always knew how to ground me. Taught me patience and self-control. I have carried it with me, the entire way. When the world around me becomes too loud, I think of her words. Her presence... calming me."

Blinking slowly, the half-elf looks up, now speaking to someone else-- someone incorporeal and far away. "Thank you for being my rock in such a wild world."

There's a long pause, Taro's posture tightening as they lower their head. "Imana." They say it with finality, and though the ease they once possessed has dimmed, there is still a fondness in their words. "I want to forgive her someday, for not telling mama and I.... about..."

A sharp inhale.

"About the curse. I wish I could ask her why she'd lied to us, but a part of me already knows. I know because I am more like her than I am my mama, in many ways." They swallow dryly, smile fading. "It's still hard to forgive her, but never for a moment have I stopped fiercely loving my elven mother. Such a vibrant woman full of life. That's all she wanted, at the end of the day-- to make the world a bit more colorful and beautiful."

Taro chews at their lip, tears springing to their eyes. "I miss them both ardently. I hope they are proud of me."

[loderlied]

For Zeke: 💍 🚫 😊 please!

💍 RING — does your oc have any piercings? do they want any (more) piercings?

yes!! so many. here you can see them all. i could see him getting a few more for sure, especially around the mouth area. but y’know. tadpole and all that so there’s not really time lmao. he probably sloppily pierced himself tbh

🚫 PROHIBITED — does your oc drink/smoke? do they do it regularly, or is it more on occasion or for special events?

zeke is a disgustingly heavy chainsmoker yes. smokes when he’s stressed, which is pretty much 24/7, so you can imagine how that goes lmao. i think he started super young, so probably can thank this habit for his super raspy voice lol.

😊 SMILING FACE WITH SMILING EYES — what are your oc's career/general life desires? what do they want to get the most out of life?

there’s three main things!

what he’s supposed to be striving towards: ending every single living being and then slit his throat in the name of bhaal.

his personal passion: being a private investigator, solving cases.

and what kinda overtook those other two: killing gortash.

while he has a very nihilistic edgelord worldview, i think that isn’t the reason he pretends and tells himself that everything he does is for his father—he simply wants to please him so desperately, like a regular child wants from approval from their parents, bhaal’s drop of gore wants his love. of course, zeke understands that he won’t be loved if he isn’t perfect, if he doesn’t make him proud, so he works desperately to be deserving of his father’s approval every single day.

but there are cracks in this passion, leading to him eventually convincing the temple that he should be able to, under the supervision of sceleritas, leave for assassin work, which is his only a half-truth, as he starts his detective career too. this is his first act of defiance against bhaal, even if he doesn’t perceive it as such.

and of course, there’s someone who would love digging his claws into those cracks and ruining zeke even more. zeke’s obsession with gortash is absolutely insane. his desire to kill him overtook everything else. he stopped sleeping in fear of him, stopped eating, his entire room is probably just filled with gortash related articles, things that he stole from him, etc. it’s truly sick. orin and sceleritas both notice this of course but can’t really do anything to stop it as gortash has essentially made zeke believe that he is completely alone in the world and can’t trust anyone. he severed his connection to the person who raised him and ruined what little good things were still between zeke and orin too. gortash believes that zeke ought to belong to him first before bhaal, and while he is a delusional megalomaniac, he sadly seems to be right in that aspect to zeke’s absolute terror.

which is also why that “prayer for forgiveness” is so fitting for zeke. he tries to do anything to be rid of him, to clear his mind, but that obsessive rage, gortash’s venom flowing through his veins is overtaking everything else. that letter was written in zeke’s own blood—he ripped his arm open and dipped his pen in there to show Father his devotion.

[camelliagwerm]

Something Urgathoan for Valerius: hc + 👻 for a headcanon about supernatural occurrences

thanks!

hc + 👻 for a headcanon about supernatural occurrences

honestly it might be supernatural for us but it's positively mundane to Valerius that his childhood home is haunted. Specifically, by the ghosts of his namesake - his great-grandmother Valeria - and several other members of the family in the family crypt. It's the result of his mother performing various rituals, seeking information and guidance from her ancestors. Or sometimes it is to simply torment them for being cowards who knelt to the Whispering Tyrant and brought their family to ruin. The spirits of the dead still have their uses, and this way they live on beyond their inevitable death. He's gotten quite used to it to the point it doesn't bother him in the slighest if the spirits were around him at any point.

[undyingembers]

For Lenarius/Leonosa:

13. What is their biggest regret regarding their time as the KC?

17. Which non-companion NPC do they really like?

21. Did they actually like something about being the KC?

13. What is their biggest regret regarding their time as the KC?

Probably that s/he might have ruined a few of her companion's character development before s/he had her own growth. S/he was the one who encouraged Ember to be harder and to take the wrong message that some people need to be frightened into redemption. His/her by-the-book tendencies while not really being willing to chastise or blame Seelah led Seelah to the Indecisive route (oops). If s/he had been in a better place, s/he might have been in a better position to give people better advice when they needed him/her the most.

S/he also constantly questions whether letting Liotr live was the right thing to do and if it would not have been better for Daeran to have his freedom, but unlike the examples above, s/he would not change her answer on that one.

17. Which non-companion NPC do they really like?

S/he really took a shine to Xorges. All the similarities between the two was what urged him/her to ignore the Aeon's directive and not punish the boy. S/he also got along very well with Irabeth and was very touched by hers and everyone's loyalty when s/he came back from the Abyss.

S/he will never, ever admit it, but s/he also resonated very well with Areelu Vorlesh, but I'll save that for when I get asked the Areelu question.

21. Did they actually like something about being the KC?

S/he loved playing tactician and managing the Crusade (I'm probably one of the very very few people who actually enjoyed Crusade mode!). S/he was so glad for the chance to put his/her mind to use and being appreciated for his/her efforts. S/he enjoyed the trials for the same reason. Even though s/he gave up the Aeon, s/he was glad for the limited time s/he got to spend being one.

[sadruru]

For Melissa! Eros 5, Ludus 5, Pragma 2, Philautia 1 please ❤️

Thank you, thank you very much 💘 !!!Disclaimer!!! I may not be able to answer some questions correctly because of the language barrier. I'm sorry 😥

Eros 5

How closely is their opinion of their own beauty (or lack thereof) linked to their confidence? Do they see themselves as more or less worthy of love or sex based on how attractive they feel?

Melissa has never doubted her beauty, in terms of ego she can safely rival Daeran! She is very proud, and this is reinforced every time she uses her looks, and she usually succeeds. After one “specific” incident in the past, she's only gotten more promiscuous and wild. I'm not going to say what it was... But it was a very wrong way to experience “love”. This is definitely not an incident Melissa would want to talk about. Does Melissa consider herself worthy of sex? Yes. She's beautiful and experienced. It's her usual method of relaxing and forgetting herself, like alcohol. Does Melissa consider herself worthy of love? No, never. She stopped expecting to be loved for who she is a long time ago, so she behaves as she pleases, even if no one likes it. What does it matter what others think of you, when everyone has already made up their own mind at first sight?

Ludus 5

What seduction techniques are most likely to be effective when it comes to your OC? Are there some things guaranteed to get them going? Or are they immune to such things?

No cringe during seduction and making yourself look like the king of the world ;D Then you'll just make her laugh. Don't be too assertive if she's not really interested. And if you try to force her... Worst case scenario, you're already dead. In fact, Melissa is open to any kind of flirting. She likes directness and confidence. She might be attracted to an unusual partner. Serious. For example, for her a person is very boring, but if a person has, for example, a lot of scars, it already becomes more interesting. She also likes guys who look tough and strong. ...But then Woljif bursts through the door, breaks her system and steals her heart.ХD

Pragma 2

What is the biggest challenge that your OC has had to overcome in a long-term relationship or friendship? What helped them get through this?

Good question. The biggest challenge for her is trust and faith in a positive outcome. Fear of tomorrow and the future. It's easier to destroy everything herself than to wait for others to do it. Because of this mindset, she almost ruined her life forever. In that case, she would have had a very sad but expected end after the game when she closed the World Wound. Immediately then, no one would ever see the commander again after the battle, and victory for all would be overshadowed by Melissa's sudden disappearance. Maybe someday I'll reveal that ending, but there's a lot of glass in there... You can try to guess what happened to her and where she disappeared to. It's pretty easy. Melissa is often compared to stone or iron for her character and actions, but stone has a tendency to break down over time and iron has a tendency to rust. Let's be honest: Melissa is a funny pessimist with years of severe depression and a self-destructive lifestyle. She doesn't want to appear vulnerable or she'll become unnecessary dead weight. But I try not to give bad endings! Faithful friends will be there to show that they can be trusted and will always help. Time and events will present challenges that will force her to rethink her own life, to stop being afraid and running away, to face her problems head-on instead of hiding behind another drink. And her favorite thief will prove that she is also worthy of love and affection, that he needs her always and he is ready to listen to all her thoughts and problems.

Philautia 1

Does your OC have a healthy sense of their own worth and value? Or do they see themselves as failing to live up to their original potential? Perhaps they are convinced of their own sinful or inadequate nature?

It's the other side of the coin. She thinks she's beautiful, but she has absolutely no appreciation for herself. It's like she's not a diamond, but a copper coin for barter. That's normal for her. Even death hasn't taught her to care about herself, her body or her health. If you cut off Melissa's arm, she wouldn't be too upset. If need be, she will be ready to die for someone very close to her. Before her death she tried to save her friends in this way, it's better not to know what was done to her… But she didn't care. Periodically Melissa and her gang will be caught by inept robbers and murderers. Every time she found a feather from them, as if someone was reminding her of herself on purpose. Never show her the azure feather. It'll blow her mind. I'll try to explain why later. But she's being hunted... It's not uncommon for her to jokingly or seriously say how bad she is, even though the same Ember claims it's not true. In time, that will be corrected. For Woljif's sake, she will become more careful and start to appreciate and take care of herself, because she has someone and something to live for (he will often tell her off). But she will still have a hard time staying unharmed in battle.

A little bonus:

[likeyua]

List 5 things that make you happy and send this to the last 10 people who liked/reblogged something from you. Get to know your followers and mutuals! ☺️

Thank you for the ask 💖

1 - rainy weather and the cold

2 - my cats 🐈

3 - books 📚📚📚

4 - cooking! I read some days ago a new recipe for a chocolate cake that I want to try 🍫

5 - Travelling: I went to Padova, Venezia and Verona last month and this summer I'm probably going to visit Verona again!