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“It helps when you have ears like mine.” She chuckled, lifting her head to give her furry ears a wiggle. Her faded back into a lazy smirk, amber eyes blinked slowly as she watched Zen’s face. It was times like these that she wished she had smaller antlers. It was clear they were being particularly bothersome, not just for him, but for herself. 

The Kirinite shifted slightly with a soft grunt, pushing herself a bit lower and settled her crossed hands and chin back atop his chest. “You really can’t hear it?” 

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"ah, damn it - another one’ve you guys?? i’m runnin’ outta things for you time dweebs to do fer me. get me a soda, no - a beer! i’ve been chasin’ after you nerds all damn day.”

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💋🚫💔🔥

💋 Do you think those that ERP are not as good at role playing than those that don’t? 

Uff da. 

As someone who has done both ERP and avoided it, it really depends on how a person writes it. Unfortunately, it seems that most who do ERP focus on quantity rather than quality, if that makes sense? Like, some will do tons of ERPs and there’s honestly not a lot...going on. Like just a line or two of moaning and thrusting over and over, and it’s one of the many reasons why I tend to avoid ERP-ing. Like, it’s possible to write ERP well, like focusing on the sensations a character is going through, their thoughts, how their actions are affecting the environment, but a lot of the time, I don’t see a lot of effort in these kinds of RPs, so it kinda perpetuates the bad rep. 

🚫Are there blogs you just won’t follow or characters you won’t interact with?

There is, and that’s most FFVII blogs. There are a couple I do try to keep contact with because I grew close to them at one point and still see them as friends. I have a bad habit of trying to run far away from things, and the FFVII RPC is one of them. 

💔 Have you ever been jealous of a ship, group, plot, that wasn’t yours?

Oh hell yeah. It’s honestly one of the main reasons why I’m so miserable. I’m a jealous person, or I guess, envious is more appropriate, since I have no part in those things. I give up and try to run when I feel that jealousy, because I know it’s an ugly feeling, and I don’t want to hurt people. Also it’s just easier to isolate myself than risk rejection. 

🔥 What is your hottest take on your fandom?

I’ve...kind of given up on it. I stick around to keep contact with you and a few other friends, and I have been trying to get re-connected with DBZ. It’s just after the shit I caused, and the feeling of rejection and just not belonging, I’m exhausted from trying to chase others for their approval and friendship. I’m selfish for expecting these things from others. I want to run because running is easy, it opens up the hope that I could be someone else, someone worth being friends with. Start over. But I also don’t want to cause more pain by just vanishing again. I’m trapped. 

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MAUVE LAVENDER CINNAMON TIMBERWOLF CHARTREUSE

MAUVE = You are really talented

LAVENDER = You inspire me

CINNAMON = You’re a really cool person and admire you from afar.

TIMBERWOLF = I trust you

CHARTREUSE = You’re my homie

Ooc: Ct, I don’t know what to say. This is all so sweet, and… Fuck, what do I say? I said this before, but I always mean it when I say I don’t deserve this, but appreciate each kind message on this ask. I am honored, flattered, I could be an inspiration and your friend. Trust is incredibly valuable to me, and to hear that you trust me actually moves me to speechlessness and near-tears. I actually struggled to come up with a response for this.

Ct, know that you have an inspiration for me too. I know you also struggle with the negative feelings tumblr’s environment tends to generate, yet you keep doing the best you can. It motivates me to keep going. You are an amazing person and I tend to admire from afar because I worry I’ll make myself look like an idiot if I reach out outside of RPing. Please know I trust you too. We’ve told each other before we got each other’s backs, and that still rings true today. I’m right by ya for as long as you want me!

You’re my homie, part of my pack, and I am always grateful to know you and be your friend. *Hugs*

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❤ - voice

Ooc: As a good friend described it, her voice is smoky. It’s dark, warm, and ignites an alluring eerie sensation within those who hear it. Her accent is rich and sounds similar to earthlings hailing from Nigeria. Eden is aware that her voice has a tendency to lure others and uses it to her advantage whenever the potential for benefit arises. 

Beware to those who anger her, however, as that velvet voice can easily contort into a fierce mix of a lion’s and red deer’s roar. It’s the celestial kirin in her. 

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drxgons-fists replied to your post: Ooc: What if I made a mutant...

(Sounds like a fun character! There aren’t enough tuffle ocs so I’d say give it a shot!)

Ooc: Thank you! I’m already thinking up her design and backstory. I’ll have kind of a different interpretation for her. Like make her vaguely more insect-like? Not sure if I’d give her a sideblog or a blog of her own though.

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✔

Send me ✔ and I will bold my preferences for your muse!

Do I know your muse(s): yes | no | a little | tell me about your muse

Setting: our verse | my verse | your verse | modern | alternate universe | other

Pre-established relationships? yes | no | depends on the relationship

Possible relationships: friends | classmate | co-worker | roommate | family, real or adopted | dating or blind date | married | friends with benefits | unrequited love | lending a hand | teacher - student | rivals | allies | partner-in-crime | enemies | protecter - guarded | business partners | spy - infiltrated | manipulator - manipulated | star-crossed | first meeting | other

I’m in the mood for: fluff | angst | horror | romance | humor | crime | hurt / comfort | action | supernatural | slice of life | crack | dark threads | light threads | any genre | multi-para | shorter para | one-line | any length | plotted threads | unplotted threads | other

Feel free to: message me ooc | message me ic | tell me your ideas | write a starter | answer one of my opens | send a meme | reblog this with your preferences - let’s find common interests!

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❤' + my url?

send ‘❤’ + a url & i’ll write positivity / what i think abt them.

Ooc: Ct, you’re an incredible person, and I’m so glad I’ve had the blessing to be your friend. I love seeing both your characters on my dashboard, hell I love seeing you on the dash in general! I know spending time on here is difficult, but every time I see musings, a rp reply, an ask, or headcanon from you, it makes my day better. You have wonderful characters. All interactions I had with Zen always bring a smile to my face and I want to do more. I wish I interacted more with Kyuri, but that is something I can fix, I need to shake off stuff and send a thing. You’re so supportive and level-headed. I know I can count on you when I’m not sure about something. While we don’t talk very often, I know you got your back and I got your’s for sure. 

You’re creative, you’re a brilliant writer, and you have a heart of gold. Thank you for being here and being you.

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╰☆╮

Send me a ╰☆╮ if your muse thinks my muse is attractive

“You do?” It seemed that now it was Zen’s turn to catch her by surprise. Furry ears fell back into her hair and her ember-like eyes darted away from him and towards the rosy, early morning sky.

 It was all fun and games teasing the Saiyan, but once he spoke his words, she paused to reflect on them and how she truly felt towards him. He was gentle and had been her lifesaver since her fall into this world. Would he still see her as attractive, as worthy of his affection if he knew what blood stained her hands? Such unknowns unnerved her, and she roughly shoved them to the back of her already cluttered mind. Don’t ruin this, that silent warning rippled throughout her. Don’t ruin this. 

Her eyes fell to her fidgeting hands. Before it had been so easy to touch him; to stroke his hair or grasp his hand, but now, things felt different. She didn’t want to break that. “I find you attractive as well, Zen.” 

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Kiss or diss?

“Kiss.” She quickly replied, a small, deviant grin broke between her lips. “It can be quite fun to see him flustered.” It’s almost endearing. The secret thought echoed, the sting of humility struck heavier and heavier with each replay of those unspoken words. It made her smile falter, but only for a brief moment. She couldn’t afford to show a break of confidence. 

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If I Think They Are: Ugly || Plain || Alright || Cute || Freaking Adorable || Pretty || Beautiful || Hot || Stunning

If I Would Go On A Date With Them: Not even if we were the last two one earth || No || Maybe || Eh….Sure || Yes || WILL YOU MARRY ME

If I Trust Them: Not At All || Not Really || Kind of || Yes || With My Life

If I Care About Them: Not At All || Not Really || Kind of || Yes || Deeply

If I Would Sleep With Them: Not Enough Alcohol in the World || No || Maybe if I were wasted || Maybe || Eh…Sure || Yes || TAKE YOUR CLOTHES OFF NOW!

My Comfort Level With Your Muse: Keep a Distance || Okay You Can Stand There, But Don’t Touch Me || Let’s Get Coffee and Talk || Let’s Cuddle || I Can Change In Front of You || Let’s Take a Bath Together

If I See You As: A Stranger || An Acquaintance || A Friend || A Close Friend || My Best Friend || A Crush || The Love of My Life

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The sight of his blood covered companion had made Zen worried, it looked as though she had been wounded or maybe even attacked with all that coated her clothing and body. He did feel incredibly relieved that it wasn’t hers, but then that rose the next important question.

“If it doesn’t belong to you then who does it belong to…?”

“A creature, called a wolf.” Her voice was a low murmur, hazed glowing eyes darted upward to meet with Zen’s blue. The Kirinite heard of these creatures, they seemed quite popular in earthling culture. The name sounded fitting as well, for the mourning, ghostly wails its soul cried out. Food had become scarce now that winter took hold of this land; and it was Eden’s restlessness to feel the earth beneath her hooves, no matter how the ice-encased grasses whipped at her ankles, that took her that led her out of Zen’s home for an early morning run. 

Starvation and slumber overtook the creatures of the now skeletal stand of trees, and it was then she felt the pull of teeth against her scale-covered arm. Luckily the hungry animal’s jaws did not break into them, but the rest of her wasn’t so lucky as Eden lashed back with a sharp kick.  Crimson colored cold crystal as they toppled and charged at one another, and with a jerk upward over the shoved wolf, the huntress sank her jaws around its thick neck, thrashed it about to tear into fur and muscle, and tossed the limp body into the dead grasses with bloodied antlers.

“It made a jump at me, while I was scouting the area.” Her hands rose up, hurriedly rubbing the red-brown trails staining the corners of her lips and nostrils. “It...was desperate, but it was either it or me.” She searched in Zen’s eyes then, wondering how this revelation would affect him. “I did what I had to do.” 

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@drxgons-fists || Continued from here

“Me? Tired?” Eden chuckled between her breaths, pronking to keep up with Zen’s side. “Hunters and myself clan did this every day! It was how we provided to our clan.” 

The initial question had been asked out of exhilaration than exasperation. Running alongside someone, someone she felt her trust bloom for. It reminded her of Shihab, exploring their lands for hours on end. She could almost imagine the rugged peaks of the badlands and the haloed suns overhead. 

“Let’s go! I’ll race you!” The Kirinite grinned, before darting forward.

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❥ (sorta kinda

Ooc: Hi there! Aaaa thank you so much! Yeah! I can kinda sorta see it too. I’m interested in seeing how it turns out!! 

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“Eden...” The Saiyan stood in front of her, one hand on his hip and the other holding a small, see-through plastic box that was supposed to have small little treats in them. Instead, it was empty. “Did you eat the last of the doughnut holes while I was sleeping?”

Her eyes darted towards his face before widening at the container in his hand. “No...” That was her first response. If she admitted to sneaking in and eating some of his food, he could chase her out, driving her away from the comforting warmth in the quiet house and the hope of not going hungry. “I’ve been out here, looking for my own breakfast in the woods.” She tilted her head towards the patch of trees, hoping the story would be convincing enough for him to believe. 

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(Speaking from experience, I’ve honestly felt left out and sometimes jealous when I see everyone else getting a bunch of fun rps. It does suck, it makes me feel like my oc isn’t good enough. If I’m not thinking that then I think I’m overreacting. But the thing is, everyone has times like that, everyone feels a little left out at some point. It’ll get to you for awhile but it pass eventually, as everything does. Just know that we all care about you, your feelings, and your oc, no matter what.)

Ooc: Hey. *Hugs* 

I totally understand feeling like the odd one out, and the jealousy it can cause. It’s that jealousy that turns a lot of the anger onto myself and I try to hide away and sleep it off. I intended to tonight, but taking tranquilizers during the day fucks up your ability to sleep at night. Should have thought that one through more. 

But, I want to thank you for these words. Although it’s been a common feeling that comes and goes for most people on this site, I don’t like that people have to feel it. Though it’s something we all go through and it does pass, it doesn’t make it any less painful. 

It also shows me that I need to be working harder at being more inclusive. While I am selective and everyone has the right to be so, I should be interacting more with my followers and friends. I’m sorry I haven’t been. I let myself go slack on trying to help the people in this community. I do want to do better, though, so I can prevent people from feeling like this, or at least, not make it be so painful.

I know I owe you an ask still, and perhaps we can turn it into a thread. I’ve been brainstorming on how they could meet by booping noses. I care about you too, and I know many people who also care. I will be a better friend and RP partner, I’m sorry.