#dropping this bad boy before bed and before i overthink it

[blistering-typhoons]

jupiter knocked out of orbit

Mycroft Holmes comes to visit his brother with an account of a most vexing incident.

[nichoswrld]

first time with &team

pairing boyfriend!&team legal line x afab reader

warnings protected sex, virginity loss, foreplay, aftercare, making out, one mention of food (breakfast), oral (f receiving), dry humping, showering together (non-sexual), i got carried away with some of these oops !!

playlist a little death - the neighborhood

note requested here, don’t be shy and go drop an ask !!

kei

kei may give off demon in the bedroom vibes, but he’s really just a sweetheart who wants to give you a good time. he’s such a gentleman, he takes you to a nice candlelit dinner at a restaurant, but you two don’t make it to the bedroom before the foreplay starts. right when you get home you find yourself pressed against the door, kei’s mouth pressed against yours. his teeth and tongue make you dizzy and disoriented so you don’t pay much mind when he lifts you into his strong arms and carries you to the bedroom. he lays you down gently, and kisses down your body with fervor. he gives you multiple orgasms that night, cleaning you up while you lay exhausted on the bed before coming back to hold you until you both fall asleep.

fuma

fuma doesn’t have sex with you until well after the first “i love you.” don’t get him wrong, he wants you every moment he’s with you, but the man has incredible restraint. he needs to make sure you’re absolutely certain you want him to take your virginity. when the night finally comes, he surely makes it special. there’s flower petals leading up to the bed, fresh satin sheets, vanilla-scented candles, the whole shebang. he eats you out as foreplay, and is gentle and sweet the whole way through. he asks you if you’re doing okay a few times and makes sure you know it’s perfectly okay to want to stop at any time. gives the best aftercare as well, carrying you to the bath and washing you both before tucking you into bed for cuddles.

nicholas

oh he jumps right into it. it happens randomly one night while you’re both listening to music, you on his lap while he probably games, and the lyrics turn sexual and you’re both turned on. you share one look and your lips are locked. he spins you around so that you’re straddling him and you grind against each other for a bit. when you move to the bed, he eats you out like a starved man. you literally have to remind him to take it slow because he nearly rips your clothes off. he does nottt care, he just wants you so bad. he remembers to be gentle, though, it’s your first time and he would never want to hurt you (unless it’s pleasurable but we’ll cover that another time). nearly forgets aftercare pt1 because he’s so tired after, but he makes sure to at least get you in the shower and change the sheets so you both can sleep in a clean bed (just to dirty it again the next morning pls).

euijoo

euijoo is the sweetest boy. he overthinks the whole thing- changing the sheets several times to make sure the color is just right, keeping wine on hand in case you need a bit of liquid courage, and even buying color changing led lights to set the mood. he loves you so so so much and just wants the night to be perfect for you both. when you get to the room, he lays you down and you make out for a while before he gives you head that leaves you within an inch of your life (biggest ej munch enthusiast!!). he’s so serious while taking the your clothes off after, you may have to crack a few jokes to release the tension. once he’s inside of you, he’s the softest man alive. he whispers words of praise in your ears like “you feel so good.” “so tight for me.” is serious about aftercare too, makes sure you get a nice warm shower after and you do skincare together afterwards. expect the warmest cuddles after, and to wake up to breakfast in bed.

yuma

yuma finds it so hard to hold back and be gentle once you’re undressed. that’s why he’ll make sure you have some foreplay - something like over-the-clothes dry humping, or kissing down your body so you can get used to his touch. when it’s finally time to have sex, he softens up a bit, remembering you’re very inexperienced yourself, and is gentle with every touch. every thrust, ever caress, and every handhold- all soft, to the point where you literally have to verbalize that you want more. from then on, he’s the opposite of soft. almost forgets about aftercare pt2 because he’s so happy. says “i love you” about a million times. you can’t walk the next day, but it’s okay because it was the night of your life.

jo

jo is so very nervous, you’d probably have to take the lead most of the time. he’s just really large, as we know (in multiple ways…) and doesn’t want to hurt you. you’d be watching a movie or something on the couch, and having discussed beforehand that this was the night, you grow impatient and end up straddling his lap before the movie even ends. you’d make out for a bit, and probably end up making love on the couch for the first time, then again on the bed. jo definitely has good stamina (inspired by the waterbomb pics) and can go multiple rounds. for aftercare, he’d do things differently than the rest and try eating you out to bring you to your third orgasm of the night. probably cums himself too because it’s such a sight, you all fucked out for him on the bed. then, you take a shower and eat some ice cream, drink plenty of water, and finish the movie in bed finally (you both probably knock out before the end but it’s okay).

©nichoswrld | do not copy my work or repost onto any other platform.

[ophanum]

' DO I WANNA KNOW ? — Alice in Borderland

ft. Yandere! Suguru Niragi, Shuntaro Chishiya, Morizono Aguni, Takeru Danma, Mira Kano, Rizuna An, Hikari Kuina, Ryohei Arisu x Male! reader

Synopsis: Alice in Borderland cast if they were yandere. All except for Usagi because she's an angel in my eyes.

tags & tw/cw: Yandere, smut, porn without plot, AIB-typical violence, bondage, kidnapping, manipulation.

notes: This is inspired by my work in progress in wattpad called King, you should go check it out here.

❝Cause there's this tune I found that makes me think of you somehow and I play it on repeat until I fall asleep.❞ -- Do I wanna know? by Arctic Monkeys.

NIRAGI

Niragi will be a bit of the type of person (yandere) to be clingy all the time, which is always ten feet away from you, either stalking or trying to impress you by belittling you. Yep, bullying you s/o so they think your cool, nice going Niragi. But you don't conform, just stare at him with an undersmirk that keeps him weak and falter for some reason. But under all that, he just really want to eat your validations when it happens. It makes him into a pathetic fool and he kinda of hates it, but because of you he'll do anything. Blood on his hands if anything. Praise kink. Sucks at your dick and let his own dangle out and untouched and red because he doesn't want to be a bad boy. And he'd have that puppy eyes, wanting your approval.

CHISHIYA

Chishiya is the type of person to be flirty around you, dropping his smirks and mysterious glances at you like a fox. Because of the situation where you are in with blood gore and suffering in borderlands, he hates it when you suddenly leave the conversation (albeit uncomfortable) and leave him there to overthink where he did wrong in the conversation. He will keep you close though, not wandering too far from his radar. He would tie you up to the bed. Stare you down with those cat-slit eyes fileld with those deep knowledge but right now, just right now, everything is reserved just for you. You smirked under the cloth tied around your mouth. He would kiss you passionately, taking it off, but when you suddenly bite the corner of his neck, his eyes shoot up, whimpering as he does so. He gasp and stared at you like you offended him, surprised that you did that. He backed to your legs. "You're such a tease." He whispered. Looking down at you at the same time rubbing his clothes dick. It didn't take long for him to fully undress his bottom part and expose all of it to you as he whimpered, moaned, and growled until he comes. Always stare dazing-ly at you, like he can't seem to think when you are in his line of sight. Shower thoughts.

AGUNI

Aguni was firstly impressed how you survived the whole thing. Seeing you in one game and thought you were going to die in a day but you didn't. He wanted to recruit you in the military, but before that, he wants to test you first. Hatter was the first one to see how he was the one who keeps smiling at you and tries to create bad situations a bit loose so he could swoop in and make himself known to your peripheral, even for just one glance, when usually he would be in control of the situation far more earlier until it becomes a bad one. All he wants you to do is watch him as he undress himself and do it to amuse you. When you compliment his muscles he would flex it without shame. Wear clothes that would reveal it more. Kiss you under a tree at night while forehead touching, his eyes gazing into you, but even so, He would masturbate behind you while you sleep. He would like vanilla sex but at the same time he is a dom that love you with all his heart.

HATTER

He would be the type of person to keep you to himself wherever he goes. Not flaunting you in public, but he would always be five feet away from you. He would flirt with you nonstop but when it comes when you're the one flirting, he would be flustered and on his knees. He can share you, but if there would be someone who would cross the line, anything above sexual, he would immediately be furious and fuck you senseless. Keeping you in line. Call him daddy and shit. Licking his fingers while mentioning eye contact his mouth wide open as he feels a twitch on his pants. A moan leaving his lips and eyes hooded. Aguni would be trying to calm him down whenever there's someone touching his man. Hatter would be crossed armed while glaring blankly at a wall, while Aguni is beside him standing with his hands on his pockets, talking to hatter out of the thought of murdering he person who touched you wrongly. Oh, and he's hesitant for you to go to dangerous places. But now that you got the hardest challenges, it make him turn on and keep you to himself even more. Another night of pleasure and praise, ruffle his hair and let you suck his dick. He would always be turned on whenever you lick your fingers.

ANN

She would absolutely love to tie you up against the bed and take you for herself. A lot of teasing and banter at first, but when she started smiling around you and protecting you from harm in games, then the other could think it was already obvious. What was interesting is, she may be a tsundere. But there will be moments where she will be the one to tease you, and sometimes it's not really teasing, she would just be enjoying herself on top of you. Grinding her ass on you and sometimes masturbates when you aren't around. If the yandere goes too hard, she will be very VERY desperate and will and ultimately-- wear bunny clothes to seduce you. Probably smell your underwear and masturbate to that. She loves to enjoy herself when you're not looking, undress herself while you sleep and enjoy herself.

MIRA

she will try to seduce you at first, rub her hands on your clothed dick and winks. But now where the yandere begins. You go to a game and she's there. she protects you, even if it's not obvious, since she's too busy. But when she's covered in blood, she will lick it up from her fingers and shove her fingers onto your mouth. You try and run away and you did. She's fine and just sighed at you with a dreamy look. When you wake up, you'll realise you are in a dungeon, you are tied up to a chair. And Mira will strip herself while lap dancing, and enjoying you. Sucks your dick. She is a sadist, so she'll probably drown you while riding your dick. and if you are a woman, then grinding I guess.

In the kitchen, she would just probably just smear herself with sweet food or honey and masturbate to you, using whatever she can find in the kitchen.

KUINA

work out sex. period. So aggressive with you. A lot of makeout sessions. Will let you suck her off. And she would be on the moon. Yandere her will be just her own self except the intensity of sensitivity she has when you give her affection. She would literally be a dog to you if you ignore her. Naive and so intent to what you're going to do to her.

ARISU

Acts innocent but really is dirty minded. Will hump the pillow and say "Please, not there—!" And you would laugh in the background. and he would do anything to please you, like anything, he would kill, but also he would be fine if you want to kill him. He's literally a doormat that you can step on whenever you'd like.

[solitude4chiron]

Besties, right?

Miles 1610 x Black!fem!Artist reader

A/n: I know I’m wild for promising y’all this fic and just now dropping it 🤦🏾‍♀️ I had some crazy writers block ngl but I’m back 🙏🏾 I’ll be debating if I want to do a pt.2 for this 🫣

🎧- Love Galore- SZA, Travis Scott

Sometimes you questioned you and Miles’s relationship. Not in a bad way though. He was the sweetest boy you knew, at times he was too sweet, but that was just how he showed he cared. You both had been friends since elementary. Yeah, maybe you shared a kiss under the slide, or used to crush on each other, but you both left that in the past. There was no feelings there anymore..Right?

Millimeters 🙄: “You eat today y/n”

“nah 🥲 I’m sketching rn I’ll eat later”

Millimeters 🙄: “whatchu want for dinner 🤦🏾‍♂️”

“nothing”

Millimeters 🙄: “ight gimme a minute”

He always did little stuff like that, but after he’d always clarify it was in a best friend way, just incase.

Before you could get back to drawing there was a knock at your window, and a boy with a bag of food in his hand.

“Miles I told you I wasn’t hungry.” You said with a bit of a frown on your face. You couldn’t help but feel guilty when people did stuff for you, even if they didn’t mind.

“You said you weren’t hungry but you be lying soo…” He came into your room and closed the window, placing the food on your desk and flopping back on your bed.

“So what’s been up witchu y/n? You still talking to that boy from art?”

“I was never talking to him, we literally just sit next to each other in class.” You shrugged turning your back to him at your desk. He came over your shoulder to look at your sketchbook.

“You know you can take breaks right? Arts supposed to be fun.”

“I know, I’m tryna get this scholarship.”

“You will. Just chill with me for now.” He responded, closing your sketch book and getting his food out of the bag.

You both started eating and talking together, completely ignoring the time. Miles was right though, art had been consuming you at this point. He just didn’t want you to lose the fun in being creative.

“Anyways, I got us some tickets to a concert, guess who?” He looked up at you with a faint smirk and a mouthful of food.

“Miles you didn’t have to.”

“But I did. Now guess.” He responded quickly.

“I dunno? You really didn’t have to though..”

“Oh well, guess you’ll see who when we go on Friday.” He shrugged and smiled. “Just know you’ll love it.”

For some reason the room had a bit of tension in it, you couldn’t put your finger on why, and you wondered if miles felt the same way.

“Who you lookin cute for?” He said quickly, still looking down at his plate.

“Whatchu mean I’m just wearin pajamas?”

“Oh. You just look really pretty.” He said looking up from his plate with a faint smile.

“Mhm, thank you miles.” You chuckled a little, playing with your food with your fork. “Why you really come over here?” You said, looking up from your plate this time.

“What I can’t see my bestie?” He laughed, raising an eyebrow.

“No like…nevermind.” You said shaking your head a bit.

“You said you was hungry so I brung you food.” He shrugged quickly.

You genuinely couldn’t tell if miles had feelings for you or not. Honestly he acted like this to everyone, not on this scale obviously but he was a sweet person. Your brain was scrambled at this point, anybody looking at you could tell you had something on your mind.

He reached for his phone and sighed, the time was 12pm and his mom wanted him to come home.

“I gotta go, it’s getting mad late.”

“I wanted to ask you..nevermind it’s nothing.” You quickly said, sighing a little.

He got up from your bed and leaned down to press a kiss on your cheek.

“Stop overthinking it y/n.” He said before climbing out of your window.

You sat on your desk chair frozen in place. What just happened? What did he mean by that? A heavy sigh left your lips as you fell back on your bed and clutched your pillow in your arms.

A text pinged through your phone before you fell asleep.

Millimeters 🙄: “Hope you enjoyed the food :)”

“Night miles ❤️”

[ilobehwanghyunjin]

I'll wait for you

Warnings:: Sad fluff🙏

::He has to go somewhere but she can't go with him..

Warnings: Basically a fluff and angst 😋

I'll wait for you.

(Best friends to distant lovers./ Puppy love in the beginning)

You and I.n were friends since you guys were born. Your mom's were best friends since the beginning. You guys go to school with each other, you guys do homework or go over each others houses and more. This was all willingly. You guys were literally inseparable. You liked him, liked liked him, loved him, but didn't want to ruin your relationship. What if he didn't like you back? What if your mom's don't approve? You didn't know what he would say, or what everyone would think. It would ache your heart knowing that you'll have to mostly live with your crush without him knowing that he was the crush.

The bell rang. You were heading out of the school while I.N catches up. You guys rode the same bus. "Hey Y/n-ah!" He puts his hand on your shoulder while you guys walk. "Hi!" You say while you guys were getting on the bus. He sat by you and you guys were talking about your day. You could see him stealing glances or your imagination making you feel that way.

"Bye!!" You say as he gets off the bus first. His walk was screaming fuck boy. You wanted him so bad. He waves at you. Then, your best friend sits by you. "Awee, your lover boy left~~" they knew about your crush more than you did. They shipped you all the time. "Shut up." You punch their shoulder. As only you guys were in elementary. "Y/N and jeongin sitting in a tree! k.i.s.s.i-" "Don't even finish that" As you were finally getting off the bus, you get an urgent text from your mom. "Y/n, this is urgent. Come home as quickly as you can." You didn't care. She probably just wanted you to clean your room.

As soon as you get there. You see I.N, his mom, and your mom standing there. "Hi! What happened?" You were so confused . "Y/n..." Jeongin's mom says. "We have- we have to move very, very far away." Your heart dropped. You didn't know what you were hearing. "Wha-" suddenly, I.N tells his mom that you and him have to finish homework. This was a lie. It was Friday. A mix of emotions twirl around your stomach. Everything his you really, really fast.

He pulls you upstair, into your room. He sits on your bed and starts sobbing. This made your heart ache really bad. "Hey, it's okay. I'll always be your best friend, I won't forget you!" You try to make him feel better before you start sobbing. He starts trying to talk, but gets choked by his sobs. "Y/n, I -I like you!" "Alot.." He starts to gamble ,"I've liked you since 1st grade. Your so amazing, everything about you. Your so pretty and skillful. I don't know how you do it. I fell over heels with you..." He sees your stunned face and says "Forget it. I'll just be get going now."

"Wait, don't go." You started to poor out words, telling him how much you liked him. Sobs come from the both of you. He suddenly pulls you into a hug. A long hug. Comfort comes to the air. Sobs still seeking through. You guys wait a bit , before heading back downstairs to your mom's. "We are leaving tomorrow." You choked back the tears that wanted to stream. As soon as he left you ran to your room and cried. Sobbing into your pillow. You fell asleep crying.

Your mom wakes you up early. Rushing to the air port. There you see I.N and his mom. You run to him. You guys give each other a long hug before his flight gets called. He whispers in your ear. "I'll wait for you~" he pulls the hug away , getting his bags and boarding the plane. You head back home. Wondering what you will do without him.

It's been over 10 years. "I'll wait for you." those words replaying your mind like a song on rewind. Sobbing into the same pillow you cried in years ago overthinking about the him. Everything reminded you of him, He was everywhere. It's not that you wanted to forget him. Well

Attempting to get him off of your mind you scroll through TikTok. OH.MY.GOD. you swear thats him. Scared as ever you wanted to do more research about the idol for more confirmation. It was him.. you couldn't believe it. Crying harder than before. It wasn't because you were mad. No, never. It was because you were proud. You decided to learn more about his group and updates about him.

The next day, you decide to leave your house in what felt like forever. Slipping into a hoodie that reminded you of him, tights and some random shoes. During the car ride, you thought about him. You saw him on billboards, cars, the internet. You saw him everywhere. Your mom knew about this, she was scared what you were gonna think about it if you found out. "Mom.." "yes sweetheart?" "I wanna see him, jeongin" " that's not pos-" "yes it is, him and his group are performing here."

Umm part two?

Collaboration with @happilydeepestwonderland

[vinnival]

I think I will now drop my Jonah HCs !!

Buckle in, boys, there's a reason why I call myself the CEO of him/hj

Things he likes

Drums!! He used to always sneak to the band room in high school in order to practice on them. At least, before he got a set of his own and all.

Honeybuns! Always loved them. He in general has a sweet tooth (blame weed brownies) but always catered to honeybuns. Any time he shoplifts you'll most definitely find him pocketing a honeybun somewhere.

Weed. This is canon, yes, but he's also tried out many of the other drug methods and hated them, simply stuck to weed.

Physical affection. He's prone to hugging and cuddling. He will hold his friends' hands if they're cold, or flop on top of them if they're stretched out on a bed (all strictly platonically). This is more pronounced when he's high.

Things he dislikes

Authority. You've never seen a man be so spiteful towards the law before/hj

Going back on promises.

Cats. Not even in the funny cat alternate way he's just allergic.

Littering. He always makes sure to pick up after himself and will make sure no one he knows/sees litters.

Social

Whenever he meets someone- unless in a formal or professional setting- he will make a nickname up for them almost immediately. Nicknames include Ads, Sar, Eevee (Adam, Sarah, and Evelin respectively), and so on and so forth.

ASK HIM ABOUT ANIMAL FACTS.

He has DEFINITELY learned some whale facts as a kid just to spite his namesake. So y'know. If you ever happen to find yourself swallowed by a whale--

"Trust me on this. You get eaten by a whale. End of the world, right? NO. Curl into a ball, reduce your surface area. That way, those whales with teeth won't chomp you as easily and you'll just make a harder time for the whale."

He has a wonderful ability to make friends, but most times he chooses not to in favor of hanging out with the ones he cares for most.

Fiercely cares for his friends. This one's a given.

Sceeeene !! Of course, in order to avoid standing out in the era of Being Wanted By The Fucking Feds, he toned down his fashion taste and looks to dark greys and blacks. But before then, he was very much an eyesore. Taste the rainbow mothafuckaaa

He's the type to goof around a lot, so he will poke-poke teasingly or start impromptu pillow fights. This gets even more pronounced when he's high.

Easy-going.

Very... dog-like in personality. Golden retriever of a man/hj

He can and will start impromptu road games while on a drive. Expect him to spot a Volkswagon Bug and LAUNCH A PUNCH—

Mental

He has anxiety. This causes him to overthink... a lot.

He has a tendency to try and blanket his negative emotions or play down bad situations by joking about them. Sometimes it helps him process it! But most times this essentially turns into bottling up his frustrations, which... well. We all saw how that turned out in v2.

He's convinced himself that most times it's just better to walk away than to face things head-on. I repeat, we all saw how that turned o

Educational

Fucking LOVES biology. Always had an interest in animals and plants. He went to college to study biology :)

Keeps a few bugs at his place. Names them after celebrities so he can say shit like "Beyoncé's new roommate Madonna arrived yesterday. They immediately started fighting." and not provide any context to it.

His dad (mentioned up next) wanted him to go to law school. He just ignored that

Familial

His father, Mervin, is a lawyer. He was rarely home.

This left him with his mother, Clementine (OC), who was... eh. She was the bare minimum.

One fateful day, she ran away from them with 50k from Mervin's savings and never returned. In a panic, Mervin sent Jonah off to his grandpa to live with him while the lawyer strained himself to regain the money.

This left Jonah essentially without proper parents, only his abuelo. This is where he learned Spanish, at least!

He has a younger brother he doesn't know about, named Lucas (OC).

Miscellaneous

Peruvian. Obligatory

Will always be overtly dramatic about going to lay in bed. He'll usually do some extravagant dive onto it or something.

Bouncing off the last one, this man LOVES to sleep.

He's always had a hyperfixation on ghosts and the phenomena of spirits, even before he met Adam. Of course, any time too much fuckery happens, you bet your ass he's out of the place and back in their vehicle/observation area, on the cams for other evidence (ghost orbs, etc), or reviewing spirit box recordings.

He shoplifts. He knows all the good tips and tricks of stealing small items.

He's a goddamn furnace. He can have a simple t-shirt and sweatpants on and he'd still feel like he just hopped out of the Sahara.

Very proud of his hair! He loves it. In my HC it's a silver-ish, with just a hint of purple in there.

Has read the JJBA manga.

His favorite movie is The Lion King! He's basically adopted the hakuna matata ideology for his own

He's a big optimist. He'll always try and see the good in things, because... well, it's gotten him this far, hasn't it?

Whenever he listens to music he finds catchy, you'll likely see him tapping out a drum beat, whether it be with his hands or feet.

Likely has ranted before about how common 2/4 beats are in music and how annoying it is.

Likely has ranted about many other things- silly and serious- relating to his interests. He can just do that. Good for him <3

He can and will find ways to always joke about things, whether it be good or bad

Listens to a variety of music, he likes stuff ranging from breakcore to metal. Anything with a good beat.

He usually drives the car but sometimes he takes shotgun so he can watch the scenery fly by.

Demisexual+biromantic, he/him+they/them (when he feels more fluid.)

Started smoking weed because of getting MAD as a kid. He's since forgotten why.

Convinced himself Always believed alternates didn't exist.

Ended up dying via alternate.

[pentagonieslut]

24/7

kinda shitty...i apologize..i tried but idk.

oral sex, fem body, brother's one of many bestfriends, biker!chris, badboy!chris, little sibling of a bad boy, eating out, face sitting, partying, cheating by an ex, chris blitzers

24/7 - Haylee joe

you pounded on the door of your brother's dorm, crying from your heartbreak from your now ex. it didn't help that you were in a mini dress and it was pouring outside, you were drenched.

falling onto your knees and crying even harder, you pounded on the door even harder, screaming his name out loud. "jinhwa!" you sobbed loudly, the sound of four different pairs of feet thudding inside the apartment as the door yanked open and a shocked gyeongseok quickly dropping to your level and hugging you tightly.

junyoung had ran to the kitchen to make you a cup of tea as wooju prepared the shower for you, chris going to make his room comfortable enough, and jinhwa storming out only to soften at the sight of you sobbing hard. getting you to enter the apartment and use the towel to dry off and drink the tea, you cried again as you drank the tea, walking off to take a shower.

while the boys were in the kitchen drinking tea waiting, jinhwa's anger could be felt as he brewed over what could have possibly happened. "don't overthink too much bro, we have to get the story from her first." chris said calmly as he looked towards his shared room, the door now closed. "how about i talk to her first to cheer her up?" jinhwa nodded as chris walked over to the room and knocked on the door, slipping inside quickly.

as chris smiled at you, you returned the shaky smile and tears filled your eyes again. hugging you tightly, chris sighed. "i told you that you didn't need a dumb newbie biker boy. you have your brother and us. he probably couldn't stop talking about how fast it is compared to a maserati and how he souped up the 'baby' with a chrome extended exhaust, a decal, and it's comparison to your brother's kawasaki."

giggling and calming down, you nodded. "to the T." you said as chris released the hug and dramatically sighed, falling back onto the bed. "how are we going to tell your brother? he might kill the poor guy before we finish blinking." laughing even harder you shrugged. "i don't tell him anything really for a reason."

sitting on the couch with 12 eyes staring at you intently and the inclusion of the 'judgement beer' that sat in the middle of the coffee table, you sighed and looked down at the blanket.

"i walked in on him eating out some girl who said she was his girlfriend. she showed me the messages where he had told her she was better and that they've been dating a month after he got with me. so basically, he was screwing her behind my back. now he's mad at me for catching him eating her out on my fucking couch i bought.. oh and he told me i was too dumb to know anything about cars or bikes. also told me that if a female rode a motorcycle and wasn't just the backpack, it was so "butch" of them.." you trailed off as sya covered his shocked gasp.

"he...ate another girl out? in front of my sister? butch?" jinhwa started getting angry as the air changed and the six males chuckled. "don't worry. he's going to try to join my bike club soon." chris said as you shook your head. "i'm going home." you mumbled after you finshed your third cup of tea, making your way back to your apartment.

a few weeks had passed and you were still moping around a bit, the sadness still hitting you as you ate your second bag of gushers. chris had been over several times on behalf of your brother who was busy with his soccer championships.

chris had let himself into your apartment and sat on the couch opposite of you, his sudden thoughts of how hot you looked in his hoodie taking over him as he studied your body. clearing his throat, you looked up at him as his eye smile and gummy smile donned his face instantly. "to make you feel better, how about you hang with me and my bike club? you're protected by me of course."

thinking for a bit, you nodded after a bit of hesitation. a shock factor for the school of seeing you hanging out with bad boys wouldn't hurt too bad.

so that's what happened. a week later, you were walking from the main building to the mechanic shop your brother owned, only to see chris with his vape up to his mouth and leg crossed over the other as he leaned against his bike with the rest of the crew, watching for any signs of you. "walk any slower and i'm ditching you with your brother!" you heard chris shout, causing you to run over quickly and pant a bit from the sprint you just did.

laughing, wooju shook his head. "i don't know if i would like to see you get your ass kicked by jinhwa hyung." grinning chris looked over at the younger. "he can't get mad at me. his sister is under our protection." shaking your head, you hugged the two with a grin. "so who lost the race?" groaning wooju held out his wallet. "at least leave me some money to go see the strippers." placing you to sit on his bike, chris turned with a raised brow. "bro you have got to stop going to the strip club. you waste more money on that than you do on video games." snickering, you looked at wooju. "she makes me call her noona by the way. sway does. sway noona said she was going to stop at my place tonight to cook some food for me." wooju's eyes lit up at your statement and he smiled. "anything you want on me for a month."

you laughing at wooju's excitement and chris taking a deep puff of his vape, he sighed. "you two should be siblings instead..the influence of us" he mumbled at what he knew was soon to come chaos.

"now that you're not dating that boy, you can wear the clothes you actually like." chris said as the two of you had sat on a park bench eating ice cream, graciously bought by wooju who was on his way to his dick sucked by his not so sneaky link.

"i can but then you don't want me to be harassed by the boys." chuckling he nodded. "that's true. want to go clubbing tonight? we can have some fun together and you won't get caught by jinhwa drinking." snorting, you playfully glared at the older. "i only get caught because the rest of you are so bad at keeping him away or timing his arrivals." rolling his eyes, chris stood up and held a hand out for you to grab as you gave him the last bit of your cone, not wanting it anymore.

eating the cone from your hands, chris pulled you behind him a bit and glanced back at you. "that's your ex with his friends right?" he asked in a stern voice as you looked around his arm and nodded. "yeah, that's him. why is he coming this way?" shrugging chris chuckled and watched as kian walked away. "advantages of having a mean brother and best friends." he said cheesily as you laughed and he kept you close to him as you made your way to get dressed.

the two of you were partying it up and getting drunk. chris was taking shots and winning every bar game he was asked to play. you were on the dance floor and drinking from the peach ciroc bottle you had shown your boobs for.

noticing how shit faced you were becoming, chris had gotten up and came behind you, a hand snaking to your waist as he danced with you and you leaned into his touch, a grin appearing on your face. "please don't dance any harder..literally." he had whispered as you giggled. chris only hoped that you would forget what you had done when you woke up in the morning.

next thing you knew, you were dragged out of the club, sobered up, and sitting on chris's bed. "you can't be going that hard." he said in frustration as you tilted your head to the side. "what did i do?"

"you flirted with so many guys, they were all feeling on you before i got there. when i went to get a drink, there was a guy trying to lift your skirt! i would have been in deep shit and in jail for letting someone touch you like that." nodding your head, you only grinned at chris, your impulsive thoughts taking over.

"you look so hot frustrated." shaking his head chris mumbled. "no."

after silent conversation, chris sat next to you and sighed. "to forget him once and for all?" he asked as you nodded. "to get him out of my mind. please?" you spoke softly as he grabbed your face gently and kissed your lips, pulling you into his lap as your arms wrapped around his neck.

chris was groaning as you had licked up the side of his cock, taking it into your mouth entirely, deep throating him as he felt you suck his soul out. his moans growing louder as he bucked his hips up and fucked your mouth, hearing you gag a bit as he chuckled and snapped.

pushing you down and moving your panties to the side and with no hesitation or warning, shoved a finger in as he sucked on your clit, the whines leaving your lips and chris locking in as he removed his fingers and held a tight grip on your thighs, eating you out and his tongue darting in and out your folds.

grinding your cunt down on his face, he was slowly losing himself.

the two of you had switched positions, you now sitting on his face and suffocating the life out of him. "chris.." you had whined out, cumming the second you felt his grip on you tighten.

the two of you cleaned up and made sure everything was normal. chris had gotten a message that the boys were coming back and the two of you didn't want to find yourselves in the shit hole with jinhwa.

waving goodbye and kissing his cheek, you quickly ran out, leaving chris smiling stupid.

after calming down and popping open a beer, chris groaned and slammed his head on the fridge door. he lost himself in his thoughts, mad that he had done oral with you. never in a million years would he have thought he would be eating out his best friend's little sister.

chugging the beer, he heard a laugh. "slow down bucko, didn't you come back from the club?" junyoung said as chris only sighed. "yeah.." sya raised a brow in suspicion, a grin on his face immediately.

"the precious princess finally got one of us to fuck her, huh?" junyoung teased as chris glared. "i only ate her out. fuck you, how did you know?" laughing junyoung only pointed to the kiss mark on his jaw line. rubbing it off, chris lifted a finger to his lips to keep it a secret.

[i-didnt-do-1t]

Thinkingg about how Davey probably hasn't had much exposure/experience with how the newsies have been impacted by their life experiences/conditions. Like he knows the scientific details of what polio is, but he doesn't understand the mental/emotional impact it would've had on Crutchie. He understands Finch is a runaway, but doesn't get why he's run away from the lodging house on occasion, even when he's safe there. He tries to be subtle if one of the boys is having difficulty with something, letting Jack handle things but it's very hard for him not to stare, or take subtle glances. Jack starts educating him. Davey clearly gets a lot of the Facts when it comes to conditions the newsies might have, but he's not had the opportunity to understand the emotional side, and he wants to. The boys always try and him if he's overthinking things or getting stressed, he wants to help them too.

ahhh I love this so much omg because it’s so true, like there’s such a wild difference between hearing or reading about something as a hypothetical and experiencing it, and how everyone’s reactions to things are different and it could totally throw David off because any experience he has with a lot of things the boys were subjected to has been entirely hypothetical to him, like the refuge.

I think that’s one of the reasons why Pulitzer threatened davey by name when he was blackmailing Jack, because we know Jack would’ve done the same had any of the boys been mentioned but it hits particularly hard because David is smart as hell but he is So Naive when it comes to hardships like that, and of course he has had and will have his own troubles but not the same ones the boys have faced. Like it would be an entirely different world for him and none of them want him to have to face that.

And yeah, he gets it on a factual level, he understands how illness works and how trauma works to some degree and he knows even seeing his father injured is bad so he can’t imagine what it was like for any of the boys to watch their parents die but he gets it all on a very hypothetical objective level.

Like some mornings he’ll wake up and hear Jack pacing on the top of his roof; he’ll head up and ask if he’s alright and Jack’ll tell him the lodging house felt a little too claustrophobic and he didn’t want to bother crutchie in his penthouse - and David doesn’t really get it, why Jack has nights where the lodging house is too like the refuge, because the lodging house is safe, and it’s filled with his friends- but he’ll never comment on it it, because he knows Jack will send him that look, the one that means Davey is missing something but doesn’t know what.

Or He’s at the lodging house one night, playing cards with the boys and someone will slam the door a little too hard, send the bang reverberating through the room, and skittery whose been a little off all day flinches too obviously for anyone to ignore. race is halfway through asking him if he’s alright before skittery drops his cards and leaves the circle, heads to his bunk on the other side of the room where his hands white knuckle the bed frame and his breathing gets more and more laboured, sounding louder amongst the silence, and mush is the first to stand up, to head over to help, stopped by another violent flinch, the low hiss of a ‘don’t touch me’ when he’s still a distance away, except mush turns and sends them a nod like it’s an instruction and sits on the bottom bunk a few feet down from skittery instead while suddenly race corrals them all back into a game. David knows he’s not meant to be paying attention, that it’s not his place but he can’t help but sneak glances at them over Elmer’s shoulder, can’t help but notice the soft way Mush’s mouth is moving as he talks to skittery, the way skitterys shoulders are still tensed, the way his hands are shaking slightly and he realises that he has no idea how to do that, has no idea about the history behind half of these boys

“Will he be alright?” He asks and he hopes it’s quiet enough that only race hears. Race looks at him, shrugs him off while dealing him another round of cards,

“Skittery gets like this sometimes. Stop staring.”

He never meant to stare. He just wishes he knew how to help

[nikatyler]

Zeph 1.0 ✨

Surprise. I wanna archive my very first bg3 run over here also, because it's pain in the ass to revisit it on twitter. I didn't quite live tweet this one, but I tweeted it a bunch too. The usual applies, spoilers are inevitable*, do with that what you want, and as per usual, if you haven't played this game yet: Go. Play. It. NOW. 😡

*but also this one is wayyyy less spoilery than my livetweeting of later runs haha

So let's go back to the beginning, March 7. Little Nika had no idea she's about to unleash her greatest hyperfixation since her Winx Club days.

I'm feeling like. Proper shy about this game 💀 It's just a game these people are fake no need to feel shy you'll hurt no one's feelings dammit

(it's still installing btw, because apparently my internet hates me today of all days)

Still about 80 minutes to go 💀 my own stupid ass anxiety will kill me before that

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nice

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FIVE MINUTES UNTIL I LOSE THE LAST SHRED OF MY SANITY BESTIES

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friends i'm too shy to click the play button

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See this is why I have zero friends because I'm too intimidated to even open a game with people who DON'T ACTUALLY EXIST alright alright i'll go do it you know i want to and i know i want to but i'm gonna sit here blushing like a fool the entire time

I also need to yell before I do a new thing

I'm in

Being a complicated asexual means I have no ducking idea if I want it or not Eh we're going with it

Yes I suppose this will now be the live thread of my initial thoughts and shenanigans, welcome welcome, or use that cute little mute button if you don't care ✨

I can already tell I'll have only two facial expressions playing this game: 👁️👄👁️ and 👁️🫦👁️

That was some fucked up asmr right there in the beginning. 10/10

Fuck it whomst do we create now chat Do we do it Do I do that thing we talked about

I'm overwhelmed by the amount of ways I could go about this, I think I'll create a random character at first and then when I play some other time I'll bring my boi in when I know better what to do and how 🫣

Girl help I don't know what kind of character I want to play with

As someone who dropped out of university I kinda feel like I need to have this hair 💀

them need a name (idk why i said it like that but i'm keeping it my brain is mush ok)

aintnoway it's been 15 minutes and i still haven't picked a name, am i possibly overthinking this? does anyone get the vibe that i'm overthinking this because i certainly feel like there may be a chance that i'm overthinking this

BUT I AM HAVING FUN I PROMISE

I'm still playing I just have nothing to say, I'm learning, and I'm waiting to meet you know who

Here we go 😗

Had dinner irl and I feel like I should take a break but so far I'm loving this! I'm a bit dumb but eh we'll get there. Would love to try out the multiplayer at some point (but don't count on it, I say that now and then I'll be too anxious to play with you 💀)

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I just realized my guy Zeph (they/them) looks like a yassified Ladislaus the Posthumous and idk what to do with that information

here's a slightly better look at my guy. do i need to say i'd die for them

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babes the minecraft hole will be abandoned for another game i'm afraid

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That little thingy that tells you the character approves will ruin my life. Pathological people-pleaser reporting for duty 🫡

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Y'all weren't lying this game is addicting

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i'm so fucking weak already he just lays there like that and i fgjklsdfsjkljdsf thoughts i will not handle this game well

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i'm so schoolgirl with a crush coded at the moment it's so embarrassing

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I haven't played bg3 since before lunch

Midnight and I still haven't played it's been like almost 12 hours at this point I'm completely normal abt this

I'm too tired but I want to play but it would be a bad idea but I mean I'm dumb at this game anyway so what's the harm but I don't want to mess up but ok bed first ig

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did someone ask for homemade niche memes that only apply to me

(he would get it though)

wait that picture is even funnier than i intended for it to be bc like this happened canonically in the nsb legacy, he burned because i was too busy doing something else

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I killed my character 💀 whoopsie it's reload time sorry bud

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Teehee won a battle and knew what I was doing most of the time, maybe I'm getting better at this

I'll go put some lasagna in the oven and continue playing

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Chanting "eat shit, eat shit, eat shit" in a very squeaky voice every time an enemy goes down

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all too well you say?? wind in my hair i was there i remember it all too well?? did you leave your scarf at his sister's house???

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lemme tell you how to make my simple bi ass happy

i'm bi first and people pleaser second. or vice versa. dunno

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Oh yissss the bite scene here we go :3

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oh don't you worry i will so be on my vigilante shit for you

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Not to be weird again but this game is unlocking emotions I didn't know I had

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You know how I thought I was getting better 💀 yeah nvm it's reload after reload today 💀

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Oop I'm already on 14 hours 🫢

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Okay I'm gonna play for just like five minutes and then go to bed If I'm still online at 2am you're allowed to yell at me

lord save me I said five minutes

I'm showing great restraint right now

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Oh something is happening ohhh something is happening can my laptop catch up and stop lagging pls

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You know it's gonna be so jover for me and I'm gonna be so beyond saving when I start putting together detailed information about my boi Zeph

(they/them btw, I call them boi or bud but in a nonbinary way)

Also can't decide what Zeph is short for. Was their deadname Joseph and they kept just half of it? Is their full first name Zephyros or something? What's their full full name? See it starts with little things like this but give me an hour and I'll have their full history 💀

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Big spiders...big fucking spiders ;----;

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hELLO

fuck that's not the best screenshot i could've taken 💀 I PANICKED OKAY

live nika reaction

Why do I get the feeling *everybody* wants to have fun with me

i didn't click it yet guys i'm 💀💀💀

so do i torture myself and leave it to tomorrow or do i go back in the game now? 👀

Fuck it let's go asexuality leaving my body as we speak

Oh boy

👁️👄👁️ gnight

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My sibling: *sends me a picture of their blorbo* Me: THAT'S NEAT, ALSO I F🤭CKED MY BLORBO YESTERDAY

And yes, those are our first messages today. No "good morning, have a nice day", more like "so this fictional man dammit", straight to the point 😌

Asking the real questions (abt their blorbo)

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Having an Annabeth Chase in Mark of Athena moment (and I don't mean that I'm doing something smart, I mean there's spiders)

FUCK YEAHHHHH WE WON (and almost died) (and in Zeph's case literally died) (but we're so back) (seriously though why do I always manage to kill just my character) (this was the worst battle I hate spiders I hate spiders so much)

I'm still shaking 😭

Having a real dummy day, besides the spider fight I'm not doing well 💀

nvm we got the pwetty book, it only took me like an hour to get here, it's fine😂

the blood, i like it 😌😏

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Oop I've got over 24 hours in the game already 🤭

btw I don't think I ever told you, my savefile name is "girl help"

Also I just quickly hopped in again now but I didn't really do much, I'm too tired to think at this point, I'll probably go to bed soon. I thought I figured something but nah not really and then I accidentally crashed the game oops 💀 my bad

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bi panic intensifies

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Something about me forgetting there could be traps and letting Zeph run straight through them over and over again…no wonder they're always on the verge of death ����🤣

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um yeah i guess we weren't supposed to do that huh 💀

Don't worry, I reloaded 💀

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I miss my boi Zeph I wish I could be playing rn

They are so getting a backstory and like actual development once I get more into the lore and everything, just watch. And then we'll come full circle and I'll create them in ts4

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we are here

sorry not sorry but also occasionally i'm too self aware so i will be sorry but most of the time i will just not be sorry. sorry about that. but actually not sorry. sorry --

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[threadsun]

Anonymous Asks: "Hello! I just read your latest headcannons on our 80s boys as brothers!

I feel sad at the potential of Joseph never getting his sibling out of that house because he died before he could 🥺 If you’re up for it could I have a part 2 for Joseph? Maybe a little happy reunion scenario where his teenage sibling finally gets to live with him after he becomes Sunny Day Jack?

You’re writing was also amazing in your Jean scenario! Keep it up and can’t wait for more!"

Of course!!! I feel bad that they got so sad, I really didn’t mean for them to. They deserve some happiness!!

“So, uh… welcome to your new home!” Joseph sweeps his arm grandly, gesturing to the decently sized apartment.

It isn’t anything fancy by most standards, but it has running water and he doesn’t have to constantly refill a generator, so he thinks it’s pretty damned nice.

“Welcome home!” He tries again, grimacing at his own face in the mirror. “You, uh… you live here now! Oh, fuckin’ hell.”

He’s buzzing with feelings. Nerves, anticipation, excitement… what will his sibling think of their new home? He made sure their room was all set up how he knew they’d like it! But… would they still like it? He’d been gone for years now… how much had they changed since he last saw them?

The buzzer interrupts his spiral, and he quickly fumbles with the button to unlock the door. It’s them. They’re here. And he looks… probably like an idiot. He tried to dress up nice, but he’s not used to it still. Anything more formal than jeans and a t-shirt is a bit much for him.

He opens the door, peeking into the hallway. They’re not there yet. It’s a three flight walk up the stairs, of course they’re not. He closes the door again and paces up and down the little entryway of the apartment before opening the door again.

This time, they’re there. At the far end of the hallway. Awkwardly jogging towards the door now that it’s open.

They look… different. Taller. No longer the child he’d left behind, but an awkward teenager just starting to come into their own.

Before he can even begin the process of overthinking his greeting, they drop their things by the door and launch themself at him. He catches them in a tight hug, their feet dangling in the air as he crushes them.

“ok…ay…. d o…..wn…..” They wheeze out, patting his back.

When they’ve caught their breath and dragged their bags through the door, they grin at him. “Long time no see, huh? This place is sick!”

There’s no formality, no awkwardness, just his sibling throwing themself onto the couch with their shoes still on. They fit right in, like they’ve lived here their whole life.

“Shoes off the couch,” he scolds, dragging their bags towards their room. “Got it for forty bucks at the flea market, I don’t want it getting gross.”

He can hear their affectionate sigh and the familiar sound of them shuffling their shoes off from where they’re sitting. They fall to the floor with two solid thunks. “It’s nice to have a dad again.”

They’re teasing him. It’s… so familiar. So comforting. Joseph can’t even remember why he’d been worried. He heaves their bags onto their bed and then joins them in the living room, pushing their feet off the couch so he can sit too. Their feet promptly fall into his lap instead.

“So, tell me about this gig. You’re a clown now?”

Joseph rolls his eyes. “I’m not a clown, I’m on a children’s show. But yeah, it’s pretty cool. I get free lunch on set and everything…”

They talk long into the night, catching up on the years they’ve missed. It feels so… right. To have them back by his side. To be able to watch over them and care for them. He’s certain, he’s the luckiest big brother in the world.

[frederickkatz]

Texts: Sparky (Cameron) & Freddie

@cameronslaw

Cam: so I was wondering

Cam: I never asked what you like

Cam: in bed I mean

Freddie: you're right, you didn't

Freddie: why so curious now?

Cam: well bc I’ve been thinking

Cam: and thinking makes me curious

Cam: so are you gonna tell me?

Freddie: that's true, I've noticed you overthinking makes you curious

Freddie: Are you gonna ask me something specific?

Cam: I'm not over!

Cam: just thinking!

Cam: idk well the whole thing started in my head with what happened the other night so

Cam: do you like to be bitten?

Freddie: ok, just thinking. That's definitively better than overthinking

Freddie: have you been thinking about the other night much?

Freddie: I do enjoy a little pain, yes

Cam: a little

Cam: so biting is a yes?

Freddie: A good thinking I hope. And not worrying about anything that happened right?

Freddie: Yes, it's a yes. Preferably not ripping a piece of flesh, but yes XD

Freddie: JK! Don't panic

Cam: ... right

Cam: not ripping a piece of flesh got it lol

Cam: what about

Cam: I mean it's not really stuff we do in bed

Cam: but it kinda is

Cam: when I sleep over

Cam: is it something you like?

Cam: bc we never talked about it, and I always ended up just STAYING

Cam: bc we always end up going to your place

Cam: but we're friends now and if you don't like it you can just tell me and I can leave right afterwards

Freddie: ok so this isn't you overthinking right?

Freddie: what brought this up? did you talk to Warren again?

Freddie: I told you why I rather you to stay, it's part of the whole deal we have, it's part of the aftercare and like you said, we're friends, why should I kick you out?

Cam: you know, not everything that's wrong in the world is Warren's fault, right? lol

Cam: yeah but that's an aftercare thing, not necessarily something that you like

Cam: like

Cam: what about cuddling?

Cam: a big no? somewhat no? kinda yes?

Freddie: most of the bad things that have happened in the world's history are his fault so 😋

Freddie: well I like aftercare. I told you it's a way to build trust and to show you I care about you

Freddie: why does it feels like you're thinking you're forcing me to do things you think I don't like?

Freddie: it's not something I tried before but it's not as terrible as I thought. Especially with a fucking panda with a great ass

Cam: ...fair point lol

Cam: ...bc maybe I am

Cam: but okay then (: I'll believe you

Cam: oh I'm not a koala anymore?

Freddie: See? I'm right more often than not

Freddie: do you think I'm someone who accept to do something he's not comfortable with?

Freddie: or who can be forced to do anything?

Freddie: good, as you should

Freddie: That was a typo, sorry, someone was talking to me. You are a fucking koala 🐨

Cam: that's so not what I said lol

Cam: I know you're not like that, but still I worry

Cam: that's more like it 🐨🫰🏻

Cam: what are you up to?

Cam: am I interrupting?

Freddie: it doesn't make it any less true

Freddie: then don't worry 🙃

Freddie: 🙄  only you get excited about that nickname

Freddie: not much. I was out for a ride with Stardust. Just dropped him off at Warren's

Freddie: not at all but I figured you'd be busy working a lot

Freddie: how are things going with your foster home project¡

Cam: it's a cute nickname, you bet your ass I get excited about it, I worked hard to get it!

Cam: wait you were with stardust?!

Cam: was he a good boy? (:

Cam: I was working in the afternoon, now I'm free

Cam: oh it's going good

Cam: did I tell you about Cassidy?

Freddie: good point

Freddie: I was

Freddie: I try to visit him once a week at least

Freddie: he always is

Freddie: I see

Freddie: No. Who is that?

Cam: that's very thoughtful of you, I bet he enjoys your visits (:

Cam: tho if he's made out of a part of you, does that mean you're always a good boy too? 😏

Cam: OKAY SO

Cam: Cassidy is this 13 yo

Cam: she's amazing

Cam: super nice and smart

Cam: she might be the first one to enroll in my foster home

Freddie: He likes running so he likes it when I visit him.

Freddie: ha ha! Not funny

Freddie: well that's sounds nice. What makes her so special to be the first one to get a place at your foster home?

Cam: is he fast?

Cam: well I found it HILARIOUS 😛

Cam: she's a nephilim who managed to keep her human mother alive for 13 years

Cam: and she was about to fall into the foster system when her case got to my firm

Cam: so I had to do something

Cam: you'd like her, she's your kind of smart

Freddie: he's very fast

Freddie: 🤨

Freddie: wow! That's definitely special

Freddie: then it's a good thing her case got to the right hands

Freddie: I'm not particularly fond of nephilims or kids

Freddie: kids are this weird thing I decided to stay away from

Cam: how fast is very fast?

Cam: 🙃

Cam: tbh I'm not very good with kids either

Cam: but she's not a normal kid, she's super smart and cunning

Cam: idk

Cam: wait, rewind

Cam: Warren's stables are nearby right? so you're back in hollows?

Cam: I figured you were still out of town

Freddie: probably the fastest in the world along with Thor and now other siblings horses.

Freddie: how is that you're planning to work with kids when you think you're not good with kids?

Freddie: still a kid tho

Freddie: Yes. Just on the outskirts of the town.

Freddie: I came back this morning after the meeting.

Freddie: you do remember I just appear around right?

Cam: oh wow

Cam: does he like sugar cubes?

Cam: oh I'm not good with kids, that's a fact, but I don't need to be good WITH them to be good FOR them

Cam: you sound like you're afraid of kids

Cam: BUT I'M NOT ASSUMING

Cam: ✋🏻🙂‍↕️✋🏻

Cam: I... might forget you do that sometimes

Cam: any plans for tonight?

Freddie: He does like them. And apples and carrots

Freddie: good point

Freddie: I just don't like them. They have no self-control, make a lot of questions, have no respect, don't listen and sometimes they stink

Freddie: lol it happens. Especially when it's something you don't usually do

Freddie: not really. Why?

Cam: ✍🏻

Cam: 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Cam: you're correct on all of those accounts

Cam: so they're basically me + stinky 😛

Cam: appearing around isn't in my skill set, sadly 💔 I still need to Uber to places like a peasant

Cam: just wondering

Cam: don't wanna keep you talking to me if you're supposed to be doing something else

Cam: oh btw I saw your friends the other day

Freddie: why are you taking notes?

Freddie: pretty much, yeah. I really can't stand you 🙄

Freddie: it's not for everyone. Sorry

Freddie: no, it's ok. If I couldn't reply I would've told you

Freddie: which friends?

Cam: they might be important idk

Cam: I know, I’m insufferable, you're such a saint for dealing with me lol

Cam: the merman and the witch from the club

Cam: Rose and Tony, I think?

Freddie: I don't see how but ok

Freddie: Ew! Not a saint

Freddie: they aren't my friends

Freddie: where did you see them?

Cam: what if I ever meet him? I need to know what he likes

Cam: lmao ok no saint, you just have a never-ending patience then

Cam: they're not?

Cam: at the club

Cam: I was angry the other day and went there to go to the fight club

Cam: don't worry tho, I changed my plans before I got there

Cam: and ended up staying at the bar upstairs

Cam: at your VIP slot actually

Cam: so thanks for that?

Freddie: Ok. I don't wanna break your heart, but he rarely likes anyone

Freddie: just so you know in case he's not nice

Freddie: no. They're just creatures I fucked, and I planned to fuck again but it didn't happen

Freddie: well it's good you changed your plans

Freddie: hope you enjoyed it

Freddie: anytime

Cam: neither do you, as far as I know, and here I am 🙃

Cam: thanks for the heads-up tho!

Cam: oh

Cam: welp

Cam: they seemed upset you weren't there

Cam: also the spiked mimosas are SO MUCH BETTER at VIP, I was almost offended

Freddie: touché

Freddie: anytime

Freddie: I don't think they really  care if I was there or not. They probably were just looking for some fun

Freddie: I'm not the only person they can have fun with

Freddie: Obviously. Preferential treatment is real

Cam: 🙃

Cam: maybe

Cam: you are a special kind of fun, so I get them

Cam: can't say I relate tho 💅🏻

Cam: it seems like preferential treatment is very real, yeah

Cam: which reminds me you said you'd take me clubbing

Freddie: I'm fantastic in bed, that's what you mean to say? 😎

Freddie: you weren't looking for some fun?

Freddie: it is. What's the fun to be treated like everybody else?

Freddie: I did, yeah but we didn't really talk much about it

Freddie: do you want to go clubbing with me?

Cam: yes that's what I mean

Cam: you're also very humble 🙄

Cam: no, I meant I can't relate to them being upset for not seeing you

Cam: since you know

Cam: I see you quite often

Cam: I do, yeah (:

Freddie: I know

Freddie: lol I know but you don't seem very turned off about it

Freddie: wait. Did you talk to them and that's why you started asking?

Freddie: exactly. Talking about special treatment

Freddie: then we can go next time we both have a day off

Cam: unless you start kicking puppies for fun, I doubt you could do something to turn me off, Freddie

Cam: I didn't talk TO them

Cam: I just

Cam: overheard them talking

Cam: they mentioned some stuff about you

Cam: so of course it made me think

Cam: ok (:

Freddie: and we established before that I don't enjoy hurting others, so I guess I'm good

Freddie: they were gossiping about me and you were snooping 😆

Freddie: did you hear something interesting?

Freddie: were you comparing notes mentally?

Freddie: ok! It's set then

Cam: exactly, your turning on abilities are safe with me lol

Cam: you can't really blame me, it's very rare for me to see people commenting on the sex they had with people I have sex with

Cam: I actually was lol

Cam: they had big complaints about you not letting them bite or mark you, and about you not taking them to your place and just leaving while they were asleep

Cam: so you can see why I was confused

Freddie: well that's good

Freddie: really? I thought that was really common

Freddie: well they don't seem to understand what sleeping around means then

Freddie: I don't see why you were confused

Cam: did you find someone who had sex with me to compare notes? 👀

Cam: bc that's not common at all lmao

Cam: I was confused bc they were complaining about stuff that you never did

Cam: not with me at least

Cam: they even talked about how you never let them choose anything in bed, when I get to pick something pretty much every time

Cam: WHICH I'M NOT COMPLAINING ABOUT

Cam: it just

Cam: idk

Cam: made me feel kinda special lol

Freddie: not really. But I'm not one to compare notes with

Freddie: well I've heard people talk about sex so openly that I thought they did

Freddie: well that's cause I don't do scenes with them. I don't need communication or build trust with someone I'm just planning to fuck once

Freddie: didn't I tell you since we met that you are special

Freddie: there's literally no other fae like you in the world

Cam: yeah, but there's usually this gentleman's rule where you don't fuck your friend's booty call, so it's hard to be close to someone who fucks your hookups

Cam: oh I didn't know that

Cam: I figured the scenes were just something you did, like part of the hookup thing

Cam: yeah but you said it in a "you can make fire come out of your hands, not everyone can do that" kind of special

Cam: and I highly doubt that, there's a very limited number of elements for fae to control, it's a 1 in 5 to 7 chance they're like me

Freddie: I wasn't aware of that rule. I also wasn't a gentleman before this vessel

Freddie: no. Scenes are more complicated than just hookups. The first time we had sex was a test. To see if it could work with you to build trust and find a scene partner. It doesn't always work

Freddie: most creatures don't listen. Not only me but to themselves. To the needs they deny

Freddie: what I mean is that you're the only fire fae who wasn't born in the realm that I've ever met. You're not like born faes. So yes, Cameron. You're pretty unique and special

Cam: that's fair! It's one of those unspoken rules of society, very annoying and kinda monogamic-normative if you'd ask me

Cam: do you test people you hook up with? like, all of them?

Cam: wait, so you're saying that I, Cameron Collins, listen?! :oooooooo

Cam: oh

Cam: I hadn't thought of it that way

Freddie: I don't respond to society rules 😈

Freddie: just the ones who respond to me being dominant towards them

Freddie: sometimes

Freddie: I know

Freddie: you tend to be a little self-deprecating, but it makes sense since you were raised as a human

Cam: you are part of the baddest of boy bands of the apocalypse lol

Cam: and how's that worked out for you since you got this vessel?

Cam: self-deprecating? but hadn't we agreed I had a huge ego??

Freddie: I am. Obviously I'm the handsome one 😎

Freddie: as good as it can be expected

Freddie: that's the facade you put on for everyone else. I can see through it

Cam: undoubtedly 😉

Cam: no idea how good it is to be expected sorry lol

Cam: maybe the self-deprecating is the facade and I'm just super full of myself?

Freddie: thank you 😘

Freddie: it's good

Freddie: ok

Freddie: my mistake for assuming it wasn't just dark humor

Freddie: Sorry

Cam: you get very short lipped when you don't wanna talk about something you know?

Cam: it's fine I won't ask

Cam: it's not

Cam: I just

Cam: it's scary sometimes how easy it is for you to read me

Cam: I'm not used to that

Freddie: it's not that I don't wanna talk about it. It's just that I already answered honestly, and you asked again and I'm not sure what kind of answer you're expecting. Sorry

Freddie: I know. It's part of the skill set I was created with. Sorry

Freddie: you're more used to do the reading and adjust to the response before it happens

Freddie: that's why it was so hard for you to really  trust me before?

Cam: you apologized three times in the last five minutes, what's going on?

Cam: I get it, it's ok

Cam: yeah and when I don't get to do the reading, I can't prepare and adjust

Cam: so whenever I talk to you I have to make it up as I go and adjust things on the fly

Cam: which is kinda scary sometimes

Cam: especially when I don't know you so well, it's hard to trust someone just because they say you should trust them

Cam: I trust you now, though

Cam: so we're fine (:

Freddie: I'm working on the being more mindful

Freddie: Am I doing it wrong?

Freddie: well yeah but that keeps things more honest don't you think?

Freddie: most creatures are used to adjust to fit in

Freddie: others like me are just the way they are

Freddie: I like it when you are just you and don't try to be someone else or fit in

Freddie: I understand

Freddie: earning someone's trust takes time

Freddie: ok. Good. I'm glad we are

Cam: no no! You did it right, I'm just not used to it, but being mindful is good!

Cam: I suppose it is more honest

Cam: I guess I'm also not used to being honest around people

Cam: it might take some reminding me at first, but I'll try to remember that I can be myself around you (:

Cam: do you trust me?

Freddie: ok good. I thought I was fucking it up

Freddie: Warren told me I needed to work on that

Freddie: it's understandable

Freddie: good. I'll remind you

Freddie: I let you sleep beside me and into my place

Freddie: I thought that was a clear indication than I do

Freddie: you might need me to elaborate on the letting you sleep beside me

Freddie: someone tried to assassinate one of my siblings once when they were asleep

Freddie: they obviously didn't know all it died was the vessel, so he found another vessel soon after and took revenge

Freddie: as a general rule after that is that we don't allow anyone to sleep near us or with us

Cam: I'm glad you're listening to Warren, even if just a little bit

Cam: oh

Cam: OH!

Cam: I'm so sorry that happened, it seems traumatizing

Cam: I had no idea

Cam: thank you

Freddie: you do realize you're saying you're glad I'm listening to the most violent of my siblings?

Freddie: I don't know about traumatizing, but it was upsetting at least. Lots of people paid for that

Freddie: why are you thanking me?

Cam: lol yeah but he's also the one who's been around people the most, right?

Cam: he knows what he's talking about when it's about people at least

Cam: I can imagine

Cam: for trusting me

Cam: for telling me

Cam: and actually making sure I understand what you're saying, bc those are two very different things

Cam: now whenever I sleep over I'll feel 1% more special (:

Freddie: That's true. He has more experience

Freddie: you're welcome

Freddie: as if your ego needed that boost 😋

Cam: told ya I'm just an egotistical little guy 😛

Freddie: I'm noticing

Cam: too late now tho

Cam: it is already said

Cam: no takesees backsies

Cam: ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

Freddie: I'm not taking it back

Freddie: you don't have plans to go out tonight?

Freddie: not that I don't wanna keep talking to you. I'm just curious

Cam: (:

Cam: nope

Cam: contrary to public belief, I don't really make it a HABIT of going out on my own lol

Cam: I haven't really been on the hunt for extracurricular nightly activities for a couple of months now

Cam: and since I wasn't invited anywhere

Cam: I'll just stay at my place

Cam: oh so lonely

Cam: 🙃

Freddie: wait! You haven't been sleeping around for a couple of months?

Freddie: is that a complaint?

Freddie: you don't sound that sad tho

Cam: why would I go out to find some rando to screw if I have a couple of slightly mean but perfectly hot guys I can regularly have sex with?

Cam: it wasn't a complaint lol

Cam: I'm pretty happy with it, I promise (:

Cam: is it surprising?

Freddie: why slightly mean? Is everything ok with Trevor?

Freddie: it's unexpected

Cam: lmao yeah

Cam: he just shares your opinion about eating in bed

Cam: which makes you both equally mean about it

Cam: you seriously thought I'd go out to try and find someone to up you in bed? XD

Freddie: ha! Ok I think I like him a bit more now

Freddie: well I'm aware there's no comparison but I thought you were still sleeping around for the fun of it

Cam: see you both have a lot of things in common

Cam: 1) despise eating in bed

Cam: 2) great taste in fae men

Cam: that's enough for an hour of conversation lol

Cam: tbh I've never found the process of sleeping around all that fun

Cam: the hit and miss aspect ratio was never in my side, and I always ended up getting the wrong kind of attention

Cam: specially now in spn clubs

Cam: so most of the times I only went out when I was thinking about bottoming and even then it was 50/50

Cam: BUT LIKE

Cam: super happy for you if you're having fun sleeping around buddy 👍👍👍

Freddie: that's not a lot but it's enough I guess

Freddie: I figured it was something you enjoyed but I see why you wouldn't

Freddie: yeah it's probably a bit dangerous for you now in the spn clubs. Vampires are all around

Freddie: thanks I guess

Cam: true lol but tbh I've never compared you both to see if you have things in common

Cam: I'm not a damsel in distress, you know? I wasn't talking about the vamps

Cam: I've told you I could handle them

Cam: I'm talking about guys who see a fae and think that OBVIOUSLY we're soft bottoms who need to be manhandled and 'taught a lesson'

Cam: you think faes are strong, but most guys don't, you know

Freddie: good. It's not like you can compare a nephilim with a horseman

Freddie: I didn't mean it like that but it's still a risk. You realize there's vampires old enough to want revenge on your kind for some stupid fight from the past?

Freddie: I really  dislike it when you assume I say those things because I don't think you can handle things

Freddie: especially when I've been very vocal on my thought about you being a fae

Freddie: most guys are stupid. That's a fact

Cam: now who's sounding full of himself?

Cam: there's also a bunch of people I sent to jail back home, if I stay afraid of everyone who could want to hurt me I'd never leave my house

Cam: that's not why I said it

Cam: I was just stating again that yes, I can handle vamps

Cam: I know you know I can handle things, you said it before and I believe you, I promise

Cam: ok?

Cam: ...can't argue with that lol

Cam: so when you go out hunting, you go looking for women? Since most guys are stupid

Freddie: I'm just saying it's no compassion cause we're very different kinds of creature in every  way

Freddie: still. Is it bad that I care about your well-being?

Freddie: ok

Freddie: not exactly. I don't need to make lots of conversation to fuck a guy

Cam: that's more like it (:

Cam: not bad at all

Cam: I cherish it, in fact

Cam: lmao that's very very true, I suppose not every guy has a mouth like mine

Freddie: ok. Good

Freddie: that's definitely true

Freddie: nor the charm obviously

Cam: obviously

Cam: wait I was talking about me talking!!!!

Freddie: sure you were 😏

Cam: I mean, I'll take the compliments on my head-giving abilities lol

Freddie: as if you didn't know how good you are

Cam: do I know? 🤔

Cam: uhmmm idk

Cam: 🙃

Freddie: stop fishing for compliments

Freddie: it's very unlike you

Cam: that's bc I'm not fishing for compliments!

Cam: I don't have to when they're so willingly given to me (:

Cam: so you're staying home tonight?

Freddie: sometimes you're really annoying. Have I told you that?

Freddie: probably yes

Cam: I know

Cam: it's a gift (:

Cam: still deciding?

Freddie: you should return it 😋

Freddie: yeah

Freddie: I mean, I'm in the mood but not sure if I wanna make the effort

Cam: you think you're so funny 😛

Cam: what are you in the mood for?

Freddie: I know I am

Freddie: to fuck

Cam: so eloquent

Cam: a real charmer

Cam: too bad you don't have someone at your disposal who's also free tonight and willing to be fucked by that wonderful cock of yours

Cam: so sad 🙃

Freddie: it works

Freddie: I know I could just ask you over but I just wanna fuck someone and dump them and get done with it

Freddie: and we don't do that

Freddie: and we agreed I wouldn't treat you like a slut

Freddie: and I hope that didn't sound as bad as it probably did

Freddie: and I'm gonna shut up now

Cam: that's

Cam: actually weirdly thoughtful?

Cam: don't worry! I understood (:

Cam: if you decide to act on it, I bet rose and tony would be thrilled to find you at the club

Cam: if you decide against it, Netflix has a new romcom that sounds funny, you might like it

Freddie: ok good

Freddie: nah it might get to their heads if I fuck them again

Freddie: I'm done with them

Freddie: what romcom is it?

Cam: they had a good run lol

Cam: it's called purple hearts

Cam: the synopsis actually sounds really interesting

Cam: and the main characters are portrayed by really hot people

Freddie: it was ok

Freddie: I'll check it out

Freddie: we'll see if it's entertaining enough

Cam: yeesh, not a 10/10?

Cam: ok

[10min later]

Cam: the guy is a douche btw

Freddie: definitely not

Freddie: I'm saving it to watch it later

Freddie: don't spoil me

Freddie: gonna watch How to lose a man in 10 days cause I saw the trailer and it seems funny

Cam: lmao

Cam: ok!!

Cam: oh that's a good one!

Cam: I might just do that too

Freddie: why do I have the feeling you've watched all the romcom movies on Netflix

Cam: I live alone, and I have a lot of free time lol

Cam: I wouldn't say I've watched ALL of them tho

Cam: specially bc some of them are available only on specific countries

Cam: and my VPN is a bit limited

Freddie: that's a poor excuse

Freddie: just accept that you really  enjoy watching movies and that's cool

Cam: I'm not saying I don't!

Cam: I just don't pay much attention to what I watch

Cam: I usually leave it on while I'm revising papers, so I've gone over most of the catalogue

Freddie: what's the fun to watch a movie if you're not giving it proper attention?

Freddie: nope. That's not how you should watch movies

Cam: maybe I just don't give my paperwork proper attention lol

Cam: aren't you watching a movie rn and texting me at the same time?

Freddie: well that could be it but it's not ideal either

Freddie: no. I ordered dinner before I also said you'd have my undivided attention so

Cam: it's not ideal, no, but hey, if I realize the movie is good I can always just bring it up later and rewatch it

Cam: wait, so everything you're doing rn is talking to me?

Cam: I figured I'd only have your undivided attention when I was under you lol

Freddie: that's a good point but still not ideal

Freddie: Yes

Freddie: well now you know it's not just then

Cam: what's your ideal movie-watching experience then?

Freddie: uninterrupted watching

Cam: alone?

Freddie: I didn't dislike watching a movie with you the other day. You talked a little too much, but the commentary was appreciated

Cam: I always talk too much

Cam: but I'm glad I didn't screw the experience

Freddie: that you do

Freddie: not at all. It was nice

Cam: I was going to say I can't see you complaining but yup, you're quite vocal about it lol

Cam: so uh

Cam: there's a festival coming up

Cam: have you heard of it?

Freddie: that I am ☺️ and you don't really seem to complain about my complaining

Freddie: I heard about it

Freddie: Warren also told me I should pay my respects to the dragon

Cam: I like your complaining, it leaves a precedent for me to complain more 😛

Cam: ah yes that could be a good idea, since he's getting married and all

Cam: but there's a bunch of other things happening around town for the festival

Cam: are you planning on attending?

Freddie: that's not the idea

Freddie: I didn't know that

Freddie: I saw a flyer. Looks like it'll be an interesting weekend

Freddie: no

Cam: yeah he's been dating this angel for a couple of years now, Dev told me about it

Cam: they're disgustingly in love from what I gathered

Cam: the angel fell bc of it, it was a whole thing

Cam: wait, why not?

Freddie: look at you being a gossiper

Freddie: that make sense. Angels aren't meant to fall in love

Freddie: too many people and too loud for my liking

Cam: oh I am a HUGE gossip

Cam: I like to think it comes with the job lol

Cam: but I can stop sending you such hot goss if you'd rather talk to people and find out for yourself  😛

Cam: there are some activities that seem super chill, some at the park even

Cam: but I get it if you're not into it

Freddie: true. You do need to know about people's lives for your job

Freddie: when have I shown interest on talking to people to get to know them?

Freddie: I don't mind if you wanna tell gossips you know about

Freddie: I saw but still not really  my kind of fun

Freddie: I just don't see the point of going

Cam: that's what I thought lol I can be your gossip supplier

Cam: and I won't charge any additional for it :3

Cam: I understand

Cam: it's supposed to be a yearly thing I think, so if you're planning on hanging around town for a while you'll have other opportunities if you change your mind

Freddie: that's much appreciated

Freddie: wow I feel special now

Freddie: we'll see if I stick around for that long

Freddie: this is the longest I've stayed in one place

Cam: you are special ✨

Cam: really?!

Cam: but didn't you arrive like just two months ago?

Cam: you really are a hermit, aren't you?

Freddie: or so you say

Freddie: six months ago actually

Freddie: yeap

Cam: just take the compliment Freddie 😛

Cam: oh

Cam: please don't take this the wrong way but

Cam: why did you decide to stay?

Freddie: thank you Cameron

Freddie: I haven't gotten bored or annoyed yet

Cam: I'm gonna take that as a compliment

Cam: and leave you to your movie

Cam: let me know what you think of it after you watch it?

Freddie: it kinda was one

Freddie: ok. Want me to text you even if it's already late?

Cam: (:

Cam: sure! I don't sleep very early

Freddie: ok. I'll text you later 😊

[surveysand]

four.

How much did your senior prom dress cost you? i think $150? i honestly don't remember.

What dreams have stuck with you since childhood? the very first dream i ever remember having has always stuck with me, but that's it.

Have you ever been in a serious romantic relationship? yes.

Did you ever take your dog to school? no.

If you had had a baby in high school, what would you have named him or her? ella. i was absolutely obsessed with that name, lol.

If you had a baby now, what would you name him or her? caroline for a girl, noah for a boy.

Have you ever seen someone throw up on a plane? no.

Do you get motion sickness? i have been more recently only in the car, but nowhere else.

Has God ever healed you of anything? If so, what? i don't believe in god.

What is the most boring church you have ever attended? the church i grew up in. i've only been in a few, but i think that one seemed the most boring because it's the one i went to the most.

What is the most lively church you have ever attended? literally none. they've all been roman catholic churches where everything is so orderly and monotonous.

Do you find church fun or boring? boring.

What do you hate the most about summer? being hot all the time.

Which part of your body is the most muscular? my legs.

Did you ever take Latin in school? no.

Which major holiday is closest to your birthday? does halloween count? i'm counting it, lol.

What is your favorite Japanese name? i have no idea. i'm not knowledgeable in that area, lol.

Have you ever ran a cash register? no.

Did you collect Bratz dolls when you were younger? i had one or two, but i was much more of a barbie girl. i had hundreds of barbies.

Do you think your mom is attractive? yes, i will always think my mom is beautiful.

What was the last thing that disappointed you? realizing i forgot to refill the brita before going to bed, lol.

Do you like the feeling in your stomach on a big drop on a roller coaster? yes.

Skeletons or scarecrows? skeletons.

Do you own pumpkin earrings? no.

What computer game did you used to play all the time? webkinz. i still play it every now and then when i'm bored.

When was the last time you read a book? a few weeks ago.

Would you allow your children to date prior to 16? (assuming you want any) no, i don't think so.

What was the last restaurant you made a reservation at? i have no idea.

Which app on your phone do you tend to get the most notifications from? instagram.

What is something you gave up on after many failed attempts? probably trying to format a presentation for a class some way, lol.

Do you watch political shows? no.

Do you play any fantasy/roleplaying games? What? no.

Do you like salami? it's okay.

When was the last time you ate meat? a few days ago.

What was the last hot drink you drank? i have no idea.

Have your parents met your boyfriend/exes? yes.

How about your boyfriend’s parents? Met them? yes.

Do you know how to say I love you in at least 4 languages? i don't think so.

Do you find the sound of a cat’s purr relaxing? yes.

Do you know your mum’s first pet’s name? ugh, it's right on the tip of my tongue, but i can't remember. i know it was a sheepdog, though.

Would you ever want to be famous? If so, for what? only if it was for research accomplishments. i'm too insecure to do anything like signing/acting/etc.

Would you ever get a heart tattoo or your back? probably not.

What fruit can’t you stand? none. i love every fruit i've tried so far.

Do you know anyone autistic? yes.

How about someone bipolar? yes.

What do you consider private to you? health issues and finances.

Name somebody you know who deserves a better life than they have: one of my close friends.

Name something that you’re good at but don’t like: overthinking, lol.

Name something that you’re bad at but DO like: sleeping at a normal time. i love being a night owl.

Name somebody who has tried to help you and ended up hurting you: one of my old therapists. she was awful.

Name a date that has a lot of significance to you: august 7.

Name something in your life that was a blessing in disguise: my dog. i knew i would love him and he would be important to me, but he came into my life right before a very traumatic event and saved my life in so many ways.

Name something that you’ve done that would be considered rebellious: smoke weed.

Name something you wish you had enough money to do: travel.

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A Love So True

Pairing: Chris Evans x Fem!Reader

Warnings: none so far, fluff, meet-cute (eventual smut, angst, fluff, 18+ in later chapters)

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The leaves crunched under your heels, the chill in air making you shiver a tad. It was a gloomy day, with little light and little brightness. The walk reminded you of the numerous times you'd walked to school, taken the same road, walked along the same path, seen the same trees, albeit with newer leaves.

Yet, there was something missing. And you knew what it was, but you couldn't pinpoint it.

The accident. That day, that cursed day, which had changed everything, which was responsible for this feeling. You don't remember anything before that, it's all a haze. All you remember is waking up in a hospital bed, your mother's tearful gaze settling upon you.

Your parents had never said a word. They loved you, nurtured you, kept you safe and sound. And yet, they never filled in the blanks, walking on eggshells in every conversation you'd have. But there was something just nagging at you, day in and day out. It was like an itch, but you couldn't scratch it. A melody on the tip of your tongue, which you couldn't name. And that was your life now.

You walked into the café, grateful for the warmth and the aroma of coffee beans engulfing you. You placed your order at the counter, texting your brother in the meantime.

You took your place in the cozy armchair, opening up your laptop. You'd sent out resumés months ago, but in vain. All good things take time, right? Atleast you hoped so. There was only so much you could do to distract yourself; to keep yourself from overthinking and trying to make yourself remember. Bad as it may sound, you kind of didn't want to remember anymore. It was exhausting, terrifying and draining. You hated the phrase but maybe ignorance was bliss.

With that thought, you got back to the task at hand, feeling around for your charger, but couldn't find it. That was weird. You never left home without it.

"Excuse me? Are you looking for your charger?" A voice asked.

You looked up, and boy were you thankful you'd dropped it. Deep blue eyes, long lashes and pink full lips, a smile adorning them. It hit you like a ton of bricks.

"Oh..thanks.." you mumbled, aware that you were staring but it was involuntary at this point. It wasn't just his looks. Something felt familiar about him, like you'd met him somewhere before, but you couldn't place him.

"May I...sit here? There aren't any good spots left and I don't really like sitting alone." He said, rubbing his neck, awkwardly.

"Ahh..sure."

He took a seat, carefully keeping his coffee cup down. Pulling out his laptop, he set it down before speaking again.

"Thanks, I hope you don't mind. It's just that sitting alone just seems so awkward. People give you these judgy looks and I get kinda weirded out by that."

"Oh, I totally get that. You're welcome to stay." You smiled. He extended his hand, after a beat.

"Chris." You shook his hand, giving him your name. His hand was warm, electric jolts running through your body as he grasped your hand. What was happening? Why did a sense of deja vu just hit you? Had you met him before?

"Is there...something on my face?" He grinned.

"Huh? Oh no...sorry, I..I didn't mean to stare. It's just that I felt like I've seen you or met you...somewhere. Do you come here often?"

"Uhhh first time actually. It's funny, I pass by this place so many friggin' times, but never really had the chance to come in. The day I do, I meet a pretty lady, so I guess it was all for a reason." He said, a slight grin adorning his lips.

You smiled at that. So he was a charmer. And a good-looking guy. Huh.

"How many times has that line worked?" You asked, mischievously. He was too good to be true, he had to get flustered by that.

"If it works on you, the number will be one. And by the end of this conversation, I hope I'll get a different number...perhaps...from you." He trailed off, giving the shyest smiled you'd ever seen.

Your eyes widened at that. Jesus Christ, he really was smooth. Buckle up, you thought to yourself, taking a sip from your cup. This was a ride worth taking.

It was probably 6, 6:30, 7ish by the time you'd wrapped up and started leaving the café. Time stood still with him, you noticed. He didn't seem like the type of guy you'd even pursue, let alone have a date with. But you were glad enough to admit that your judgement was hasty and wrong. He was different. Smart, funny, shy, handsome, dreamy. Did you have a crush on him already? After a few hours? That was sooo..not possible....Was it?

You'd talked about so many things, some of which would have made no sense to a third person. He was charmingly witty, his jokes keeping you in splits. He asked you about your job, where you were from, why you chose your major. He listened attentively, hanging on every word you said, as if committing it to his memory.

And his eyes. They were blue with hints of green, which sparkled every time he talked to you. Those eyes beckoned to you, called to you. You could happily drown in those eyes and it would be worth it. But there was a hint of familiarity in them; like he knew you. Like you knew him. They shone with an intensity you'd never seen before; certainly not from a stranger.

You walked home, your head in the clouds, a slight skip in your step. It had been an okay day, but he'd made it a good day. Wasn't it weird, how one person, one incident, could literally change your entire day?

You knew you'd be dreaming about him at night. And his eyes. And his smile. And his hair. And him.

Kicking your boots off, you chirped, "I'm home!!!", knowing for a fact that your mom would definitely notice the change in your mood and ask you a million questions. You didn't know if you would tell her just yet, but maybe after a few dates.

Dates, as in plural. How did that happen, you ask? Well, he must be a goddamn psychic, because what he said did end up happening. You gave him your number, with the promise of him calling or texting hanging in the air.

That night, you drifted off and indeed dreamt about him, whisking you off on a white horse, like a Prince, his blue eyes haunting your dreams.

Chris stood before the window, watching the city lights and silhouttes light up the night sky. It had been a few hours since he came back home, dropping the keys on the table, as he trudged inside. He felt drained, both physically and emotionally. Seeing you had lit him up from inside. Talking to you...oh God, it had to be the best thing ever. He felt like he would burst, seeing your eyes on him as he talked. It didn't feel weird, it felt natural. It felt normal.It felt like nothing had ever changed.

But it had. And it killed him. Every moment, every second of every day he spent away from you, killed him slowly, minute by minute. He couldn't believe it. He was mourning the loss of somebody who was still alive.

A whine caught his attention. Turning around, he saw Dodger, bringing him his pet lion. Chris smiled through the sheen of tears that had formed. Sitting down, he adjusted Dodger on his lap, stroking his fur gently.

"Hey buddy. I saw your mommy today. She still looks as pretty as she did when you last saw her. I know you miss her a lot, I do too. Bet she'd remember you, bud-" he stopped, his voice cracking as he choked up. No, no. He musn't cry. He couldn't cry. Showing even a hint of weakness would break his resolve. He knew it would be tough, but he had to fight for you.

You never really know what you have until you lose it, he realised, tears flowing freely. He hugged Dodger, holding onto him with all his might, afraid that he too, might leave if he let go of him.

He wouldn't lose you, he couldn't lose you. He would die if he did.

Chris felt a touch on his head, the feel of a hand stroking his hair. For a split second, he wished, hoped, prayed it was you. But it was just Lisa.

Pulling him up, she made him sit on the sofa, as he hugged her and cried, the tears wracking his entire body. She held him, keeping her tears at bay. She hated seeing him like this, and it killed her to see her baby like this. She felt helpless, and rightly so. Mothers can make everything right in the world, but this was one thing she couldn't remedy. So she let him cry.

"You met her today, didn't you?" He nodded, wiping his nose on his shirt.

"Did she recognize you at all?"

"No...she said she thought she saw me somewhere...but that was it." He murmured. He felt weary, his soul heavier than his body weight.

"I miss her, ma." he croaked, his tears starting afresh.

"Don't do this to yourself Chris. You're only gonna end up getting hurt. Tell her the truth."

"You saw what happened in the hospital, ma. She didn't remember me, not even a bit. Telling her might overwhelm her, and I don't want that. If she can't remember me, I'll make her fall in love with me again. Even if it takes me decades, I will. Because she is my wife, my soulmate, and the only person I want to grow old with. I will move Heaven and Earth to bring her back to me."

Lisa simply nodded. She understood. She loved you like a daughter too. This loss was a big blow to the whole family, not only Chris.

That night, as she watched Chris sleep, she made up her mind. She would help her son in whatever means necessary, to bring you back. To bring his happiness back. To make this family whole again.

And no, I've not watched The Notebook, ever (yea sue me lolol). But I read a real life story about a woman who lost her memory and her husband wooed her back afterwards and I was like, ugh.😭

I hope y'all liked it, tried to do something different.🥺😅 Feedback is welcome. Likes are good, reblogs are appreciated!

-love, Lexi.💓

[mayaflowerxs]

hii !! can i request for angry sex with jeno or jaemin , it's because you talk back to him so he's not happy with it.

ANGRY SEX

Warning: Smut! Creampie, swear words usage, oral, daddy kink, degrading and more

Pairing: Jeno x reader

You see your boyfriend is currently busy with his new album out and the constant performances he has to do with the group. You understand, truly but it gets tiring, especially when he promises to spend the time he had off with you.

It even got to the point where he cancels dates, says he won’t be able to make it to dinner, he’ll be coming home late and so many other excuses you lost count. Currently, he was home with you now. But he wasn’t there to spend the evening with you. Going up to him and peck his lips, the excitement of getting him all to yourself for the rest of the day slowly decaying when he says he won’t be staying for long. You were too shocked that he actually is blowing you off again and in your face. You were planning on yelling at him and calling him out but you had your own little game in mind. “Okay have fun!” Eyeing you, he tilts his head and walks forward towards you. “You sure?” “Uh huh, have fun babe!” Laying down on your queen size bed, his clothes laid out on it as well. He would’ve stayed longer to figure out what you were on about but when his phone kept ringing, he quickly let it go and got to showering.

When he was on his way out he told you he loved you like usual but you didn’t answer him. “What the hell” About to make his way to your guys room, he rolls his eyes when yet another text is notifying his phone. “Damn impatient boys” During his time out he couldn’t stop thinking about you. Were you mad? Upset? Was he being too selfish? Because of his overthinking, he couldn’t enjoy his night. He’s not blaming you for it but he is wondering why you didn’t say you loved him back. “I’m sorry boys I really got to go” the chorus of whines coming from them had him shrugging his shoulders and waving them off. Making his way home, he found himself getting more and more excited to see you. He was beginning to feel bad for ditching you especially since he has barely anytime to hang out with you.

When arriving, he quickly pays and runs over to the door. Unlocking it, “Babe! I’m home!” But the house was dark, only small movements coming from upstairs was all the silent house held. Furrowing his brow, he drops his keys on the small table near the door and made his way upstairs. “Babe?” Walking into your guys room, he sees you sitting in front of your vanity. Nicely dressed, hair done and with music playing. “What are you doing?” He asks you confusedly. “Going out” “Now? It’s almost dark” “I know” “And you’re still going?” “Jeno I want to go out so I’m going out.” You tell him. Trying to keep your calm state to get the plan to work but the more he asks you more stupid questions only irritates you more. Finishing up the last bit of your makeup, you spray your perfume and get up. Turning your music off and grabbing your purse.

Jeno stayed quiet, feeling hurt that you were going to leave him when he just got back. He didn’t realize he had turned into a sulking puppy, following your every step. “You want something Jeno?” “Why are you calling me Jeno?” “That’s your name isn’t it?” Before he can answer you with another question, you grab your keys and proceed to open the door. “Alright I’ll be back around 11 maybe 3 if I feel like getting drunk okay? Bye!” “Wait hold on!” Ignoring him, he close the door behind you. Well try because he grabbed it before it fully closed on him. Making your way over to your car, your door gets closed when a frustrated Jeno slams it shut, making sure you see him and nothing else.

“Wait a minute. You didn’t even tell me where you are going or who you’re going with. I don’t even know why you’re going out now. You never done that before.” “Jeno I’m bored and feel lonely-“ “Well you have me-“ “No Jeno I don’t. The boys have you and my girls have me now move the hell out of my way” “No” “For fucks sake Jeno what do you want?! To join me?!”

And that’s exactly what had happened. Currently in the club with your two best friends, a sulking Jeno sitting next to you quietly. He did try speaking to you in the car but you only turned up the music to block his voice out. He knew you were pissed at him. When you mentioned his and your friends he knew he fucked up when he decided to blow you off once again to hang out with the boys. Now here he is, you having fun without glancing an eye at him. It stung a bit. He felt selfish really, how he didn’t care if you stayed home bored or not. He’ll be out with his friends having fun. But now that it’s you having fun and you are having it without Jeno be apart of it hurt him. He began to miss you even more and want to show you how sorry he is. But no matter how many times he’s tried putting his hand on your thigh you always shoved it off of you.

When it got time for you to go to the dance floor with your friends, Jeno stayed behind and kept an eye at your guys drinks. Taking another swig at his drink, scoffing when your friends are all over you. Yep, Lee Jeno is jealous of your friends. It annoys him how they’re all over you. Almost like they know you’re not letting him touch you so their shoving it in his face that they can and he can’t. Scoffing, he gets up to get himself another drink. When turning around he scrunches his brows when he no longer sees you with them. Searching for you, his eyes begin to see red when he sees you a little too close to a stranger. “Here you go” ignoring the bartender, he walks over to the direction you were currently in. He sees that you’re trying to push him away but not hard enough to get clear in this sickos head that you’re not interested.

“Let’s go somewhere private, I’d loved to fuck that pussy of yours.”

“The only one about to get fucked up is your damn face if you don’t back the hell off my girl.” Jeno says angrily, shoving the man’s hands off of you. Pushing him hard enough that he even knocked into a few people who gave him dirty looks. “Y/n let’s go-“ “No!” “Now!” Gripping your arms, he doesn’t give you a chance to say goodbye to your friends. Going through crowds of people, he grip on you never seizing. When getting to the car, he turns around and grabs your purse.

“Jeno let go of me-“ “Shut up and give me the keys” huffing, you give it to him and let him open the car. “Get inside. Now!” Jumping a little at his shout, you get in the passenger seat. Since when were the roles reversed? You wanted him to feel how you did not for him to turn it around and yell at you. Scoffing, you cross your arms and look out the window. “Got something to say?” Jeno tells you coldly. “Shut the hell up” you say without thinking, immediately regretting the second it fell out of your mouth. Feeling the car immediately pulls over to the side of the road. Already dark and only trees are surrounding the lonely road. “Get in the back y/n” “Oh wow angry sex. That’s definitely going to solve shit” Not facing him and still looking out of the window, you hear his seatbelt unbuckle and the door open and close.

A few second pass and your door opens. “Jeno!” Unbuckling your seatbelt, he carries you out of the car. Closing the door, he lays you on top of the trunk. Arms hooking onto your legs and pulling them closer. “Stop it Jeno! We’re in public-“ “You don’t get a fucking say where I should fuck some sense into you. You pissed me off and if I want to fuck that damn cunt of yours right here right now then that’s what I’ll do.” Unbuttoning your pants and zipper, he pulls down your pants along with your panties. Gasping when you feel the coolness of the trunk hit your skin. Pushing your legs back, his head goes down and gets to work. “Oh shit!” A hard smack in your ass causes you to hiss. Tongue swirling all over your clit, sucking and teasing. Smacking your ass and thighs each time you let out a moan.

“Shut up slut” “M-Me? A slu- of fuck!” Feeling his tongue dip deep into you has you rolling your eyes back. Hating how you have nothing to hold onto and when you try to grip Jeno’s hair he only gets even more angrier and grips them. Pulling back, he grabs your legs and flips you around until your ass was in full display for him. “Shut the fuck up and take it.” Parting your cheeks he goes back to licking each and every crevice of your pussy. Using his thumb to stimulate your clit, feeling your orgasm build up, he goes faster and faster. Sucking on your bud and not letting go until your practically screaming through your orgasm. “What the fuck did I just say.” He says irritated, arms wrapping around your waist. He pulls you down til your legs land on the rocky road. Pulling his pants down, he doesn’t give you a warning. Immediately ramming into your soaked cunt. “Shit!” Wrapping a hand over your throat, he brings your head closer to him. Using his other hand to shove his fingers down your throat.

“Maybe this will shut your fucking ass up”

Sucking each and every finger of his like they were a popsicle, eyes rolling back by how hard Jeno pounded your little pussy. You were mad at him, mad he ditched you. Mad he was so damn clueless as to why you were mad at him. Mad at how he managed to turn it around and now have you sucking on his fingers like a fucking baby. Mad how now here you are loving how well you take his cock, how well he fucks you and all you want is for him to never pull out. God you love his fucking cock and it pissed you off and you can’t stop yourself from not liking it especially now that you’re upset with him. “God dammit y/n you piss me off so much yet here I am, close to cumming into that slutty cunt of yours. You take me so fucking well, my little cock hole never knows when to shut up. You gonna be a good girl. I’ll make sure I fuck the bitchiness out of you. And if I have to I’ll have you sucking my cock the ride home if that mouth still doesn’t behave after this.” Going faster, determined to finish inside you he groans and lays his head on your shoulder.

Your moans grow louder and louder. Fingers digging into the trunk, the car moving a bit by how hard his thrusts go into you. Feeling yourself arch closer to him, his balls slapping into you harder. The slapping sound getting louder. You couldn’t focus on anything anymore. It all got out of hand when he removed his fingers in your mouth and used that to finger your fucked out cunt. “You gonna cum baby?” Nodding as you moan lowly, Jeno didn’t appreciate that and slaps you with his hand that was once previously wrapped around your throat. “Answer me!” “Yes! Fuck yes!” Tilting your head back to look up at him, he taps your cheek to have you open them. Doing so, he spits into your mouth. Pounding into you harder, groaning when he feels himself releasing inside your pussy. “Take. Every. Last. Fucking. Drop.” He says, pounding his cum deeper and deeper inside you with every word. Feeling your orgasm building up as well, Jeno knew this and didn’t pull away. Pulling your head back up, he pushes your upper body until it was on top of the trunk. Picking up your lower body and ramming faster into you. His breath becoming heavy, sweat building as his hair starts to stick to his forehead.

“Look at you. You’re this stupid girl getting fucked on your trunk. Where everyone can fucking see. For someone who has a mouth on you, you certainly have nothing to say but be a greedy bitch and take all of your daddy’s cock. Every single fucking inch.”

“Fuck! Oh shit daddy yes! I’m cumming!” “Fucking cum on your daddy’s cock!” Not slowing down as he fucks you through your orgasm. You find it difficult to breath. Gripping your hair by how hard your orgasm hit you. “Shit!” You yell out. Pulling out, he puts on his pants back. Licking his lips when he sees his cum pouring out of you. Moaning a little too loud when you feel his tongue lap on your folds and into your hole. Your arm reaching back to hold onto his hair. Head hid into your other as it felt way to good. You love his tongue and even if you two are out in public you couldn’t care as long as he had his tongue eating you out like his life depends on it. “Fuck you y/n swear to god. I hate how hot and bothered you make me even when I’m supposed to be mad at you. How dare you let that prick touch you in ways only I can. Get in the fucking car!”

Even after the amazing sex it seems Jeno is still angry. He seems to be angry at the same thing you are. That your crazy for your partner even when you’re suppose to be mad at them. “What are you going to do?” You ask him, going to pull up your underwear and pants. “Oh no not me baby. You. You’re going to suck daddy’s cock all the way back to the house and you’re going to take every single drop.” Gulping, he moves forward to you. Not being able to step back without bucking your knees because of the car being in the way. Cupping your face, he leans closer to you. Kissing you softly. A part of him showing up. His loving soft side. Almost like a silent telling that he still loves you and is sorry for tonight. Pulling away, having you yearn for more. He moves past your lips and over to your ear. His telling you lowly.

“And you’re not going to spill any of it out. Today you’re not to be a spitter sweetheart.”

[ichigomis]

I want more of your Haikyuu boys first time meeting your parents. Thank you so much for that fic, It made my 12:46 am. Anyways, You can choose which characters you will put in it, thank you again

HAIKYUU BOYS MEETING YOUR FAMILY FOR THE FIRST TIME

with: atsumu, iwaizumi, suna

notes: i am so glad and honored i made your 12:46 am :')

part one - part two

❊ ATSUMU checks his reflection in the mirror, pondering whether he should have dyed his hair black for the meeting with your parents. older folks don't like dyed hair, right? or was he just overthinking this? maybe he is. even his twin brother noticed a change in his usual confident aura.

"it's good ya'r nervous. it means this is important to 'ya." osamu pointed out that morning when he came over to drop off onigiris. onigiris he now holds as he greets you at your front door. and onigiris he gives to your family with the biggest smile he can muster through his nerves.

and his brother was right, this is important to him. for as he laughs at all your father's cliché jokes, and entertains all your mother's many questions, all he wants is for them to like him. to like him for you. because, frankly, he would do anything just to be with you.

❊ IWAIZUMI never thought he'd call up oikawa for any advice, let alone ones for dating. but as he sees the huge grin on you and your mother's face when he hands the bouquet of flowers he brought, he couldn't help but mentally thank his best friend. for he was nervous, really nervous.

but he doesn't appear to be, well, at least to your parents. he seems like his usual self: endearing, sociable, dependable. he talks business with your father and listens to your mother's stories. a perfect boyfriend you bring home to your parents.

but you knew better. for you noticed the slight shaking of his hands, the way he almost immediately laughs at everything, and perhaps the fact that oikawa called you up right after iwaizumi asked for advice. he was nervous, and it was almost too cute.

after goodbyes and promises of more lunch outs, you walk him to his car, both tired yet happy with today's outcome. and just before he gets in, you cup his cheeks and give him a kiss, one you've been wanting to give all day. "thank you," you whisper, for you know how hard he's worked.

❊ SUNA wishes the ground would just swallow him right now. for nothing, not even a last-minute scientific discovery, could reverse what he just said. he just called your mom, "mom".

"it's alright, you can call me that if you want." your mother giggles as your boyfriend turns an impossible shade of pink. he quickly mumbles another apology, bowing his head as if he committed some crime.

he is somewhat quiet through dinner but speaks when spoken to. the table is filled with chit-chats about his work and volleyball, how the two of you met, and his plans for the future. which were, after doing some research, topics he can easily discuss. and after pushing back the bad start he had earlier to the back of his mind, he is able to woo your parents and earn their approving nods.

but as he lies down in bed that night, with you slowly snoozing off by his side, he ponders on whether he did enough. "did i do good?" he asks, not even sure if you were still awake. and as you sleepily nod onto his chest, assuring him of a job well done, he lets out a big sigh of relief.

note: hiyaaa omg i am so sorry this took so long ;-; i was planning to post this before my event but it got buried somewhere and for that i am so so sorry ;-;

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[hiimkay]

I Was Worried (Imagine)

Pairing: Josh Kiszka x reader

Word Count: 1.3k words

Summary: You wake up in the middle of the night to a voicemail that leaves you with a bad feeling.

WARNINGS: sloppy writing, overthinking and/or mentions of anxiety? it's really just a short fluff, with a happier ending than the last one! Sorry if the writing isn't great, I wrote this one up really quickly!

Love him <3 I'll try to start writing for the other boys too, I just have a whole list of ideas for Josh right now.

It's not unusual for you to wake up in the middle of the night for one reason or another, but it is unusual for you to sit straight up in your bed for no reason. You hadn't been having a bad dream, there wasn't a loud noise echoing through your house, there was really no rhyme or reason for the sudden awakening.

The only thing that catches your attention is the soft glow of your phone screen on your nightstand. After rubbing some of the sleep from your eyes, you lean over with a soft groan and pull your phone toward you, trying not to tangle yourself in the charging cable. You squint at the sudden bright light in your eyes and make out Josh's name next to a voicemail notification. You wonder if maybe you woke up to your phone buzzing against the nightstand and just didn't realize it. The digital clock beside you reads 3:07 am, and you wonder what Josh could possibly be doing up so late that he needed to drag you into it as well. Slowly, you unlock your phone and navigate to the voicemail list.

"Hey, sunshine, sorry to call you so late. I hope I didn't wake you, and if you're already awake for some reason, I hope I didn't interrupt anything. I just wanted to tell you that I miss you. It's funny, we hang out at least once a week and it still sucks every time you leave. I think part of me is afraid that I'll never see you again. Ridiculous, right? I don't know... it's just that... you're my person, you have been ever since we met during theater back in high school and I don't ever want to lose that. I want you to be my person forever, because you get me and you always know what to say in any situation," his voice falters for just a moment before he clears his throat. You start to feel a mix of emotions bubbling in your chest, you're not sure how to feel about any of what he just said. "I shouldn't have said any of this, should I? Now it's probably weird, and now I wish there was an option to cancel a voicemail. Well, goodnight, I hope to see you soon, I miss you, I love you! Bye."

You drop your phone down onto your comforter, a chill climbing up your spine as everything sinks in. Sure, Josh is very expressive and honest about his emotions when he wants to be, but something about that voicemail feels off to you. Either he's drunk and making bad decisions, or he's overthinking.

Before you can stop to think too much about it, you're climbing out of your bed and shuddering as your feet hit the cool wood floor. You grab your hoodie from the back of your desk chair and slip it over your head, grabbing your phone and heading out into the hallway. You pull up your messaging app and send Jake a text, asking if he's awake. He responds as you grab your keys from the hook, asking why. You tell him that you'll explain if he unlocks his front door for you, and he sends a quick agreement back. After you've slipped on some shoes and locked your door behind you, you slide into your car and try to refrain from speeding all the way to the Kiszka household. Half of you wants to full on panic, the other half wants to be rational and assume that Josh is fine. You can't tell which half is winning.

Jake is already standing on the front porch when you pull into their driveway, dressed in an old t-shirt and his favorite pajama pants that he always wears. You shut the car off and hop out, moving quickly to get out of the cold fall air.

"What's going on?" Jake asks. You instantly feel bad, by the sound of his voice he must've been either asleep or almost there when you texted him.

"I don't know, to be honest. I woke up twenty minutes ago to a completely random voicemail from Josh. He said a bunch of stuff that normally I wouldn't worry about, but the way he said it kinda freaked me out and I just wanna make sure he's okay." You follow Jake into the house and slip your shoes off, trying to be as quiet as possible. The door clicks shut behind you and Jake sighs.

"Hey, let me know if he's okay, please." You nod, offering him a small smile.

"I will, I promise." He nods in return and you head up the stairs, wincing as the old wood creaks under you. You can hear the boys' dad snoring lightly from the end of the hallway, which oddly eases your nerves a little.

When you reach Josh's door, you knock a few times and press your ear to it, listening for any kind of greeting or protest. After a few seconds of silence, you knock again and wait. Again, you receive no answer. Your hand finds the doorknob and you turn it, finding it unlocked. The door slowly swings open and you peek inside, eyes adjusting to the darkness of Josh's room.

His back is turned to the door as he lays in his bed with the blankets almost covering him entirely, just his curls peeking out. You close the door behind you before making your way around the bed. You can't tell if he's awake or not until you sit on the edge of the bed and he pulls the blanket down just enough to look at you.

"Josh?" You whisper, reaching up to pull the blanket away from his face. His eyes stay trained on your face as you do. "Are you okay?" He seems to release the breath he was holding at your words, like he was expecting you to be angry with him.

"I shouldn't have called you, I'm sorry-"

"Joshua Michael, don't you ever apologize for telling me how you feel," you interrupt, shaking your head. He sits up a little bit, and you sigh. "Honestly, I was scared. It was just so random, I thought you were having a bad night and I got worried." Josh's eyes widen slightly.

"Oh, I didn't mean to scare you. I don't really know what I meant to do, sorry," he chuckles half-heartedly. You lean forward and wrap your arms around his shoulders, feeling his loosely wrap around your waist.

"It's okay," you mumble, closing your eyes. "You're my person too, Josh. I don't know what made you think that you'd lose me, but there's no way in hell that will ever happen." When you pull out of the hug, you expect to be able to see the features of his face under the moonlight. Instead, you're unable to make out any specific features as he leans in toward you. His soft lips pull you in, and the comfort of his scent keeps you close. The kiss lasts longer than you expect it to, but not near as long as you want it to.

When you open your eyes, you find Josh's dusky eyes staring back at you expectantly. Your brain can't build a full sentence, so you settle on smiling instead. He instantly smiles back at you, the flush of his cheeks completely noticeable even in the dark.

"As much as I hate to ruin this really beautiful moment, can we please go to sleep now?" You ask through a yawn. Josh chuckles at you, pushing back the covers so you can climb in beside him. His arm wraps around you and pulls you into his side like it's second-nature and you rest your head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat as it slows into a state of slumber.