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pyshcic · 2 years ago

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the fact that alice's cheerful and easy-going demeanor is largely due to the permanent damage unregulated & abusive electro-shock therapy did on her while human (turning her completely amnesiac, which is why she doesn't remember her human life) is... horrific, when you remember it. agreeable and kind and fun at most moments due to an extreme physical trauma. happy even when she doesn't really mean to be, and she's completely unsure why!

#medical trauma cw #abuse cw #hospitalization cw #𝐢. footnotes & meta . ﹙ now that 𝘪𝘴 a mystery .#the worst of it is that i think there are moments of not clarity but a #vague understanding that these things are missing –– that it's almost there #but will never be!#she'll never remember her mother's face. her sister.#she won't remember her father and what he did to their family.#she won't remember her second father who saved her life and turned her.#she won't remember why the sight of james tightens her chest and #dredges up this sensation of fear & guilt & anger. and she will #never understand why those feelings are so fleeting ––#why she can't hold onto things very well.#writing a reply and thinking of this ..

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