#dreambuildrepeat

[reallyfinghonest-blog]

Attention fellow dreamers, survivors and makers, for the next 100 days, my super dope partner in crime @christymakes and yours truly are participating in the #100dayproject. We'll be chronicling #100days of the steps we take to build a life we love @amightylight. (Go follow to see my wife's much better photography) . 100 days ago I could not even fathom having the energy or mental capacity to build anything, let alone a new life designed around our values. We were just surviving and reacting to the world around us. Trying to get through the hardest time of our lives. The trauma of discovering rampant abuse in my extended family made my ptsd blossom like mold on damp wood. My own childhood and the knowledge of abuse suffered by those I loved invaded my mind day and night. I was fucked up, to say the least. I dove into therapy head first. And guess what? It works. #emdr is no joke and if you suffer from ptsd (no matter why) , you should try it out. (and give it a few months to sink in) Now slowly as the fog clears in my head and I am getting back my mind it's like starting to run after being paralyzed. The shackles are off and although I may not be at my full capacity yet, the dawn is here and we are so fucking ready to make a new life. Turning my back on parts of my family was the hardest thing I could imagine, but protecting our kids and knowing they are safe and always will be is absolutely worth it. So now we'll build and play and heal and share the journey. In hopes that someone who is hurting will be encouraged. Someone who feels hopeless will keep going. Someone who needs therapy, will go. (if you need help with any of those things DM me. I'm a ptsd encyclopedia at this point) . I think I have never been so ready to #gettowork in my life. . #100daysofbuildingalifewelove #dreamitbuildit #dreambuildrepeat #hope #ptsd #makers #dreamers #woodworking #carpentry #realestate #design #interiordesign #traumarecovery #bestwife #instagood #barnwood #tinyhouse #tinyliving #bendoregon #oregonartist #oregonmaker #petemakes #heropiece #amightylight #grateful #gratitude #thankful #building #thankfulness #hardwork #play #goodtimes