#dramaturgy - mock oranges

[nebulousboops]

It's unbelievable how many Vocaloid songs I can associate with Emmy. This specific tracklist includes:

Mesmerizer

Dramaturgy

Magical Girl and Chocolate

SAKURA TATTOO

Fire◎Flower

Eye Examination

Can you tell which of these I spent the most time on

[davidjjohnston3]

'city love' - cd love - [my brother’s kind or leaving afghanistan / leaving america / ‘la dream’ / “make me love you silver”] As he was driving by the zig-zag fire-escape, thinking why two people in love had to be in media res all the time instead of sitting at the selfsame table, why they couldn't commit when they could commit.  He had the sense of holding hands with her in the back of the Catholic Church and they still held hands even though they did not take communion together that day.  Sometimes her voice sounded like a black girl's voice, and in his dream she wore a white veil on her head like a halo of lilies or lilies-of-the-valley.  Springtime was in his heart. People kept trying to get things in the city.  Why had he added "Midwestern novel" to his "repertory?"  Why be acquisitive?  Why had he added "American Korean Literature, AKL," when it wasn't a genre he even liked, and he knew they were going to be like Auratus, and know more about wine and massages than F-22's... whilst making the F-22 the main character(?). “For years I contemplated writing him an explanation about he could have finished ASLS without all this surrogate motherhood and cancer but I didn’t get around to it because I thought my own creations would take precedence.  I feel as if ultimately Auratus did not understand God’s purpose for female artists.” It seemed better when he wrote his novels and read the Joongang, which was free and diamantine, and filled with colors. The man by the crane had “kiln-glazed eyes.”  He was working for a union that supported Biden and abortionists and Marxists but he was just making his bread for his dream, and no one was yet shooting at him. He checked the sky like the girl in “Love Letter.” “If I could make this girl love me, if I had to drink her poisons for a while I would.  If I had to ‘vodka kiss’ and beat someone or get beaten... in exchange for her love, in exchange for making her the kind of mother and artist I believe in... and understanding about Hellfire missiles... discoballs... the meaning of skin.. I would do things like that because I was only serving myself in the days I played ‘ultimate foreigner teacher’ and I was only going to ‘broadly benefit humanity’ on the condition that they gave me a ‘billet’... then I failed and then I added and added.  ‘Midwestern literature’ is OK if you like Wallace Stegner because he is ‘Arietta, C-Natural God-composition’ in the end and doesn’t mock human aspirations or say things are futile.  He was imperfect.  HE does not know every story.  One failing of writers is to not know their own characters, or to peddle the perspective of one character without understanding that God sees ALL points of view. 

Single-breasted jackets or “suits, yangbok” originated in a type of garment used to conveniently draw a sword. Cities were “killzones” sometimes.   “I went to Bryant Park years ago thinking of Wallace Stevens, ‘we in Bryant Park became aa kind of giant.’  Stevens was called ‘The Giant’ at Harvard.’  He said insane things later about atheism and ‘Happiness is an acquisition.’  He said wanting to get rich by working hard was for peasants.  I guess his best habit was taking 20-mile walks, and writing for free.   I didn’t want to be ‘Steven Wallace.’  I admire about him ‘complacencies of the peignoir,’ for some reason.  I felt that black silk represents Eternity.  Coffee and oranges.  But to say ‘the body’s beauty outlives the body’ is insane.  It is like saying you love children but only in Heaven so abort them all.  What is and/or ever was” - this was the phrase he always used - “God’s purpose for beauty?  Why is and/or ever was Eve, woman, the grace of life?  Why the beauty of life at all?  What do you tell an orphan either? - you are beautiful, your life is a gift, given to you.  This is why I said I don’t understand people’s code, their assassination-dramaturgy.  I understand ‘once in my life getting raped for free instead of for Dad’s business’ but I do not understand the idea of giving oneself a gift of another human being as an investment in vegetables.  “The One Fair Thing.”  The question is and/or was what is and/or was fair for someone who was right all along but in the end you can’t just invest love and goodness, or I don’t know.  It is a test of faith and of husbanding God’s gifts, not only Man’s.  “Every good and perfect thing.”  I drove to Groton once and went to the shore; I made a piano-reduction of ‘Butterfly Lovers’ - alacritous and incadescent.  I would need a different piano, capable of “hyperlight toccata.”  Lang Lang even is too watery but this is “lasers.”  Violin and Korean swan-drums.  Violin is to singing like literature is to speaking or so and by literature I mean actual superlative writing which can hit higher purer notes than any talk and the swan-drums are like CAS auto-targeting haptic laser chainguns but I hate talking about stuff like that because the neighbor-boy can probably 3-D print a minigun on to his Wal Mart Drone...  but that is how I was going to denuclearize North Korea using dep-238 rounds and precision to shoot through all their bunkers while flying low over all the hills.  I was listening to “When I’m Alone” and thinking of stealth-transports or something and a person just laying in a cold white icy room with dripping water waiting to be tortured... You can just attack in a day like Revelation, everything changed in the twinkle of an eye.  This is why Covid is “worth it” in away.  The angels arrive. It isn’t a matter of being Gore Vidal or Vonnegut or much less Trainspotting folderol trash or Tao Lin although I too thought E. Asia was like 3-D printing the beauty of the internet and my first love... CAS was also pivotal to Operation Bagration...”