#doubly bc headache

[imaginesomethingrand]

today felt better. mind fog annoying rather than almost impossible to work with. despite waking up a bit early and lying in bed a while feeling like 0 energy, I had some energy to start with even tho my mind was prone to wander and did without me realizing it. had enough mental energy to write! coherently. some thoughts were popping out of my mind, ideas, which often happens after it's been fallow for a bit. with this new energy of mind healing from whatever that was...

then winding down in the afternoon. to the point mind seems fuzzy again and i think maybe i should rest bc i don't want it to go back to how it was

[fridayyy-13th]

tragic: tma fan finds that tannins are in fact a proven headache trigger (tea's been giving me headaches and i'm sad bc it tastes good otherwise :'()

[daytonasand]

i hate bars guys i really do i hate how loud they are i hate how many people there are i hate the smell of alcohol i hate everything about them

[15-lizards]

I'm not the genderswap Robb ask but can you genderswap the rest of the stark children? Fashion or not you're just so good at headcanons

Anon can we kiss

Male Sansa you are so beloved my sweet boy. The heir to winterfell but everyone thinks he’s a little bit ridiculous bc of his adherence to gentlemanly, frivolous southern customs despite being the future warden of the north. However he’s still courteous and charming enough to win over his fathers men. So he’s the odd one out but everyone still enjoys him. All the girls love how much of a sweet gentleman he is, and they love to watch him ride gracefully, dance gracefully, and spar gracefully. However he can be a bit snotty at times, despite his good intentions. So this means he frequently buts heads w/ Arry bc he doesn’t behave properly for his rank. Begging his father to betroth him to the princess (Joffahina? Idfk) so that he can become king consort and live in the south like he wants to, which Ned reluctantly agrees to. And we all know how that turns out…

Arry my bad ass little kid who I raised…also I know he’s aged up but Harry Gilby is so perfect for this idk just imagine him as a child. A true wild Northman, he fits in more than his brother does, but he’s not as physically imposing as others, nor does he respect authority enough (which is very northern behavior in some cases, but also very disrespectful in most others). He’s the classic ASOIAF unruly second son. Everyone’s headache, constantly shrugging off his duties to go riding or sparing or exploring, ignoring social conventions to make friends with every kitchen boy and serving girl. Thinks his brother is a stuffy ass of course. Once his brother gets engaged to the princess, Arry is suddenly the new heir. Goes south to court and avoids every betrothal his father tries to make for him, learning the braavosi style with his dancing teacher instead. Once all hell breaks loose he certainly has A Time trying to get home and eventually going to Braavos to shrug off his identity as heir to winterfell to become Nobody

Baby Branwen my child. Curious and stubborn little girl who isn’t quite at the age where she needs to start acting like a proper lady, leaving her mostly free to climb and explore and generally do whatever she wants. She’s quite taken with the idea of how the queen became a renowned female warrior, and has dreams of becoming one too someday, begging her father for riding and sword lessons, of which he only gives her the first at the moment. Her fall ruins the widely expected idea of ever getting her married, and her own idea of becoming a warrior, thus leading most people to believe she has become a generally useless burden. After her and the Reeds escape from winterfell and beyond the wall, she starts leaning more and more into her greenseer and skin changing abilities with aid from the three eyed raven, but despite this slow loss of morality she’s still just a scared child

Tiny Rina. Not much to say besides the fact that she’s still a feral three year old. No big changes from her male counterpart. However she IS riding back to winterfell on that damn unicorn I am making that canon in my head.

Joanna Snow the most hard headed ambitious stubborn teenage girl in the world with a superiority AND inferiority complex she’s everything to me. Doubly ignored and scorned for not only being a bastard but a female bastard. Useless in Westeros’ eyes. To her she only has one option, and gets shipped off to like an “elite” woman’s fighting force instead of the wall but surprise surprise this place also sucks balls and it’s still as cold. It’s mostly full of other bastards, former prostitutes convicted of crimes, and third and fourth daughters who didn’t want to join the faith. Total asshole at first but is eventually ride or die for most of her girls and the organization they’re in bc she is nothing if not loyal to her word.

[trashcanwithsprinkles]

How many people do you think would’ve bet restaurant? And like. At that point the empty plot feels almost historic and notable so like. How much more attention would Wanmin restaurant have because of these shenanigans?

Also this is making me think of. So many more of the deity shenanigans. Raiden never loses Makoto, Orobashi might not piss off celestia (or at least it’s handled in a different way to murder), but like. The things surrounding Sumeru and Fontaine are now intriguing like. Goddess of Flowers has some link to Seelie and stuff, she and Rukkadevata and Deshret? There isn’t as much of a reason for the whole. Forbidden knowledge and war against celestia. No withering zones? No Nahida? And the whole deal with Egeria and the Oceanid people, Focalors with the looming punishment of Celestia and Neuvillette the dragon like- holy shit Childes wall has to be so fucking intense with all the stuff he’s trying to work out. So much changes. Mondstadt was built from Venti throwing a mountaintop into cider lake- my brains melting a bit. It’s so cool, but history also changes so much

yeah, thinkig of the butterfly effect caused by not having the archon war and not having celestia be dicks is a bit of a headache. like i'm pretty sure childe could still get some things to happen? as in- hey decarabian wouldn't it be cool to set up a city in the lake? wym how, we could recicle one of the mountains. the plains left behind could also be used for other stuff. but obviously some things would simply end up being different and i think ajax would just accept it at some point. like there's just no way to get some things to happen without the archon war, so

and like- once he gets over that, he's probably going to be doubly excited for all that will come bc like- he basically gets to play genshin 2 - the au LMAO

[crimeronan]

Quick question about your Princess Luz AU, does Raine still try to fake brainwash like in the show?

right now i don't THINK that the events of eda's requiem happen in the same way. i'm playing fast and loose with the canon timeline, i've basically postponed or overwritten all of the canon events that Should have happened (eda's curse overtaking her completely when the elixirs stop working, the day of unity, raine and eda reuniting, etc).

so with my current timeline, raine and eda haven't reconciled until after belos's death. i'm not sure how darius and raine find each other out in this timeline, but i think it's less dramatic than the canon.

but it IS possible for the events of eda's requiem to happen, in an alternate timeline of this AU. the only reason i'm saying they haven't happened in the main timeline is because i think that the luz POV fic would have referenced it, especially if luz and raine are close.

(the fic really only involves luz's relationships with belos and hunter because that was the only way to keep it from being a complexly plotted monstrosity.)

it's interesting and compelling as HELL to think about, though. ESPECIALLY if the events happen during luz's Year Of Hell. aka when she's sixteen and belos is still alive.

at that point, belos trusts her a lot more with the truth about his Atrocities, he fully believes that she's on his side and is just as nasty as he is. so i think he might just straight-up tell her the truth about raine being drugged bc of rebel antics.

and like. wow TALK ABOUT YET ANOTHER THING TO FEEL HORRIFIC ABOUTTT WHUFF

like. luz knowing that the music teacher that she likes So Much is getting all of these headaches for a reason.... that maybe they're developing an illness that will last even after the drugs wear off... when she's already so hypervigilant about looking for chronic illness symptoms in hunter...

knowing that she could tell raine the truth about what's happening to them. and being scared to do so because she can't risk any personal rebellion getting back to belos. and having to choose what matters most to her. and knowing that no matter what choice she makes, she'll feel horrible about the risks and potential consequences

and then RAINE becoming distant from luz, because they're scared they'll blow their cover if they don't. similarly to how they pulled away from hunter and started acting weird and quiet around him in the canon. that goes doubly if they clock that luz knows what's going on. raine wouldn't want to make her feel more guilty and also wouldn't be able to stand it if she Didn't feel guilty and would feel bad about that.

and raine can't risk telling luz the truth either. bc if she lets something slip to belos (or goes to belos on purpose) then raine is Fucked

HOOOO BOY. what a horrible horrible horrible mess for both of them. it's honestly good that i didn't concept it back when writing the OG fic bc it would have been too delicious not to write. and poor luz has been through Enough. omg.

[thegeminisage]

i was worried my prescription hadnt changed much and 1. id be getting these expensive ass glasses for nothing 2. it wouldnt fix my headaches but i really alarmed the nurse bc apparently the prescription is too strong but the correction for my astigmatism is too weak so im getting doubly fucked. i was like i think my glasses are causing my headaches and she was like Uh Yeah

[kurtkunkleismybbg]

THiTR SPNAU

Grymmid!Dean holds a special place in my heart like- 

He’s so fun to write about!

Like he turns into a Boelen Python², which is fucking huge btw, and it totally freaks out Sam the first time he sees him shift, bc ‘wholly shit that is a bigass snake’.

But it’s just Dean with that derpy little look pythons have. And Zephyr eats it UP. Even though Grimics are reclusive (which makes Grymmids exceedingly rare), they know that as a species they are hardly likely to attack.

That's not to say he's not badass- bc he totally is!

Despite his derpy little face, he is a deadly efficient hunter, doubly so in his snake form.

He can hear demons from miles away due to low vibrations they emit. Angels emit higher vibrations, but they are strong, and it rattles his bones in a way that is most uncomfortable.

Regular monsters are no match for Dean, bc his reflexes are as quick as a pythons' and his grip is near impossible to escape with the way he constricts.

He also brunates!

When fall begins, he starts sleeping longer and deeper, depending on where in the USA they are. By November, he's waking up less, but a few hours can be coaxed out of him if they bury him in blankets and warm clothes.

And by the time December rolls around he only wakes up once every 48-36 hours to sip some water before falling back asleep.

Sam absolutely loses it the first time it happens, despite both Dean and Zephyr saying that it'll be over when the weather warms up.

Speaking of angels; let's mention one of our favorites: Cas!

While he doesn't get the chance to raise Dean from hell, he does get to meet the Winchesters and Zephyr.

Heaven sends him to spy on the brothers and help figure out what went wrong and how to get things Back On Track.

Zephyr and Sam are immediately suspicious of this rookie hunter that no one's heard of wanting to join them but Dean? Dean is takes to him instantly.

Ofc, it's just before brumation, so Sam sends him up to Bobby's so Cas doesn't notice him sleeping like the almost-dead all winter. The moment the frost melts, Dean is raring to go, and totally not because he's looking forward to see Cas again, nope!

Sam and Zephyr still don't trust him that much, but Dean still likes him just as much as he did before brumating, if not a little more.

As Dean sees it, Cas is warm like a perfect rock to sun on, he tastes like thunderstorms, and his voice is the most perfect thing he's ever heard. Who cares that he's probably a spy?

This leaves Zephyr and Sam baffled, because loverboy and Dean just don't correlate well together. It's to the point that Zeph flies back to Fearielynd just to ask her half brother's mom what's going on. (they may be Destined)

Gabriel also gets to meet Dean, but his experience isn't as fun as Cas's.

The moment they get to the same town the trickster's in, Dean just shifts (higher ranking angels are loud, which gives humunoid!Dean headaches) without an explanation.

Poor Gabe gets his own just desserts from the 8 foot long python in the form of tricks and scares.

¹ Grymmids are half Grimic (a creature I created) and you can read about them here:

² Grimics look like snakes and function similarly, so I use snake terminology.

(for reference)

[babyvillkas]

THiTR SPNAU

¹Grymmid!Dean holds a special place in my heart like- 

He’s so fun to write about!

Like he turns into a Boelen Python², which is fucking huge btw, and it totally freaks out Sam the first time he sees him shift, bc ‘wholly shit that is a bigass snake’.

But it’s just Dean with that derpy little look pythons have. And Zephyr eats it UP. Even though Grimics are reclusive (which makes Grymmids exceedingly rare), they know that as a species they are hardly likely to attack.

That's not to say he's not badass- bc he totally is!

Despite his derpy little face, he is a deadly efficient hunter, doubly so in his snake form.

He can hear demons from miles away due to low vibrations they emit. Angels emit higher vibrations, but they are strong, and it rattles his bones in a way that is most uncomfortable.

Regular monsters are no match for Dean, bc his reflexes are as quick as a pythons' and his grip is near impossible to escape with the way he constricts.

He also brunates!

When fall begins, he starts sleeping longer and deeper, depending on where in the USA they are. By November, he's waking up less, but a few hours can be coaxed out of him if they bury him in blankets and warm clothes.

And by the time December rolls around he only wakes up once every 48-36 hours to sip some water before falling back asleep.

Sam absolutely loses it the first time it happens, despite both Dean and Zephyr saying that it'll be over when the weather warms up.

Speaking of angels; let's mention one of our favorites: Cas!

While he doesn't get the chance to raise Dean from hell, he does get to meet the Winchesters and Zephyr.

Heaven sends him to spy on the brothers and help figure out what went wrong and how to get things Back On Track.

Zephyr and Sam are immediately suspicious of this rookie hunter that no one's heard of wanting to join them but Dean? Dean is takes to him instantly.

Ofc, it's just before brumation, so Sam sends him up to Bobby's so Cas doesn't notice him sleeping like the almost-dead all winter. The moment the frost melts, Dean is raring to go, and totally not because he's looking forward to see Cas again, nope!

Sam and Zephyr still don't trust him that much, but Dean still likes him just as much as he did before brumating, if not a little more.

As Dean sees it, Cas is warm like a perfect rock to sun on, he tastes like thunderstorms, and his voice is the most perfect thing he's ever heard. Who cares that he's probably a spy?

This leaves Zephyr and Sam baffled, because loverboy and Dean just don't correlate well together. It's to the point that Zeph flies back to Fearielynd just to ask the few Grymmids what is going on. (It's a Grimic thing)

Gabriel also gets to meet Dean, but his experience isn't as fun as Cas's.

The moment they get to the same town the trickster's in, Dean just shifts (higher ranking angels are loud, which gives humunoid!Dean headaches) without an explanation.

Poor Gabe gets his own just desserts from the 8 foot long python in the form of tricks and scares.

¹ Grymmids are half Grimic (a creature I created) and you can read about them here:

² Grimics look like snakes and function similarly, so I use snake terminology.

(for reference)

[acowardinmordor]

genuinely love that it looks like you kept getting so excited you lost the ability to spell, and I had thoughts, so.

Things that will help you envision more pain bc I love angst:

His parents know but treated him worse about it. Not 'forced to use it' just acted like he was a freak. He figured it out in kindergarten bc he wanted his friends to stop hurting. Maybe Steve tried to use it bc his dad left bruises on his mom before an event, and he saw she was upset, and is like, seven, and didn't want her to be sad, so he made sure she would be beautiful for the party.

He doesn't take injuries often, nothing noticeable. Headaches are easy, and yes, the fact that his dates seem to magically feel better around him gives him a reputation. 'he kissed me so good I swear it cleared my headache and my cramps'

He's annoyed with Barb though, and she made it too obvious she got cut, so he doesn't heal her hand. Steve won't tell Nancy, bc then she'll know that Steve could have saved her best friend and didn't.

So not everyone knows. That's important. Dustin knows for sure, probably learned in S2, and Steve thought that Dustin just wouldn't notice bc the kid hadn't seen the bite/scratch yet. But Dustin knows he got hurt, and afterwards won't shut up about it until Steve shows him and explains. Dustin is probably also the one who sorted out all the details and limits.

The UD is when Steve thinks he knows why he's got this Gift. At this point, you can start taking his injuries, and assume he pulled them off the others. So Lucas does get hit by Billy, but Steve takes away the concussion. He figured he already had one last year, has one now, its a twofer special, no reason for the kid to hurt too.

Robin finds out in the bathroom of Starcourt, and she realizes why he looks like shit, while she's basically uninjured. She is not pleased.

It has to be those two bc that way Dustin sort of know what he's asking, but also he understands better than Steve what it means -- but. He isn't thinking. At all. He's a kid, and he's watching a friend die, and he'd have begged Steve to 'fix it, save him, help him, save him,' even if Steve had no gift. He didn't want to trade them, he just wanted his older brother to make it better.

And you need Robin to know, bc when she and Nancy catch up, it takes Robin about a quarter second to realize. Eddie is confused bc he was highly confident that he was toast. Nancy is trying to figure out how the shit Steve got hurt this bad in the last ten seconds. Dustin is now doubly hysterical, and sorta useless.

Robin is the one who knows that whatever happened to Eddie, Steve has restarted the clock before it will kill him. And honestly? I'm a Stobin Stan, so I'd rather have adrenaline kick Robin in the teeth, and she's the one who gets him out. Like the stories of mom's lifting cars off their child. She wraps the worst of it, and then just picks him up and moves. My girl isn't even fully conscious, pure adrenaline, single goal.

And THAT is the setting you have while Steve is in a coma and Eddie is in hiding, and Dustin is halfway to catatonic because he told Steve to kill himself saving Eddie, and Robin is on a shit ton of meds in a bed next to Steve bc yeah, she got him out, but she strained pretty much her entire body doing it. She has no regrets.

Just. Angst is my happy place. For me, it's not about having many many times that he's been very stupid. He's done it before, and it was fine. It really was. It's not about people treating him as expendable. He knows he isn't, because he can't protect them if he's dead, but he has known since 83 that something like this would happen one day -- he thought it would be for El. He made his peace with it.

So it isn't that he was trying to die for Eddie. He just reacted. You can't really blame him for that. All of that is the build up. The sharp point of the angst isn't Eddie.

The real blow is when he wakes up and finds out about Max, and knows exactly what he's doing, exactly what it will cost when he tries to get across the hall to reach her.

There is a fic in the hobbit fandom where Bilbo has a Gift and he can take someone's injury from them. Aka. They scrape open their shin, he holds onto them a sec, and they're completely fine, but his leg is now bleeding. Direct transfer. This came about because that fandom really enjoys killing Bilbo in myriad horrifying ways.

So I was thinking about ST fandom, and how much we love to see Steve be insecure and self sacrificing. And If I'd watched the show maybe I'd have the details to do it right and talk about him taking head trauma from Lucas in 2, and undoing the damage to Robin before she wakes up and knows about it, but I don't know much more than that.

So just consider Dustin begging Steve to help Eddie after the bats. Dustin, who knows that Steve doesn't heal the injury, he takes it on. Dustin who would never ever ask for this if he was thinking straight. But Dustin is hysterical, and Steve is desperate, so he tries, and he succeeds. Steve sort of falls sideways after its done. For a second, Dustin is too focused on the color coming back to Eddie's face, and the way his eyes are focusing again to notice.

[fluentisonus]

I was going to skip my latin class tomorrow (headache) but now my professor just mentioned in an email we're going to be talking abt catullus and sappho...... pain misery loathing etc

[ladyespera]

i was skimming a book about an ethnographer's experience in japan (bc instead of stress-eating i stress-browse-library-shelves), and while they recorded all kinds of struggles with complex vocab meanwhile i remain forever haunted by the fact that once i went to the same place i had gone to for months intending to order the exact same thing i always order but i accidentally changed it into a question and after about 10 seconds of sounding like a fool i became so embarrassed at the prospect of inconveniencing the people queueing behind me that i literally fled the line LOL~

[lastoneout]

Untapped comedic potential regarding stories about Demons living on Earth: So like Demons can’t touch bibles and crosses and holy water and they can’t go in Churches and stuff right?? Bcs ya know God and all that.

What’s the most important holiday for Christians? A holiday that takes up like two straight months in most western countries? Where it’s basically fucking impossible to avoid stuff having to do with Jesus and God and all that?

Christmas.

Now I’m not saying it should be bad enough for them that they can’t go places or do things, but I am saying it would be funny if we kinda have a Crowley in Good Omens tip-toe-ing through a Church because walking on consecrated ground burns like if a human was barefoot on hot sand situation. Just low-key misery, like they have a light sunburn or a little headache or something. Bcs it’s funny.

Doubly funny for my own Demon boi Eugene who REALLY LOVES Earth and humans and totally would hate to be a buzzkill around anyone who does like Christmas and he honestly even enjoys the idea of giving people gifts and baking stuff and visiting family and all that, because that would mean from Nov 1st-Jan 1st our poor boy is basically like:

[jigenstits]

aight have a 'jeeg is alone and busy with draining a whiskey bottle' headcanon situation thing. i'll try to keep this from getting too dark. or heavy. because my headcanons tend to go there. if you feel like this got too heavy, feel free to trash this ask.

so i dunno how was your experience with alcohol, or if you ever had one. but alcohol doesn't drown out the pain, it just. makes you not care, it removes the filters, it snuffs out the reasonable, thinking parts of you. it robs you of your defenses, it allows every single repressed thought to bubble up to the surface and forces you to face it.

now how does this apply to jigen. well. i like to thing he has Issues™️. we've all seen his exes. there's a pattern. and it's not a good one (look at crazy mash, for example). so imagine one night, nothing is happening, lupin is gone for whatever reason (laying low, out to get groceries, chaisng tail, etc.) and jigen is alone with his thoughts and a bottle of whiskey, 40% abv, just like any other whiskey. many people drink out of boredom, but i don't think jigen does that, i think he respects the alcohol as an object, something of value. he pours himself a shot, just like any other night. for him it's a ritual, he does it because he doesn't feel right without it (behold, a functional alcoholic. mostly functional.)

But the more he drinks, the more he relaxes, loosens up, allows the Thoughts™️ to trickle back. he starts reminiscing about things he'd rather not remember. so he drinks more. maybe he spirals, maybe he doesn't, but his thought process gets really, really negative and he no longer drinks for the enjoyment of it. at its core, alcohol is a poison. jigen keeps pouring himself shot after shot, at some point when his coordination leaves the building, he decides to drink straight out of the bottle. he's hurting, and it just doesn't stop, so he keeps going and going, knowing very well he's past his limit but the thoughts are still there and it hurts and it just doesn't stop. he pretty much gives himself alcohol poisoning over the course of the night, having drank a bit over a bottle of whiskey. maybe he threw a beer or two into the mix. or he found another bottle and went with that. anyway he doesn't have a good time. his body had enough of his bs, he drags himself into the bathroom, lets everything run its course, he crawls to bed and falls asleep within minutes, as opposed to the usual hours.

and the hangover he got from this, oh man. he swears he'll quit, but deep down, he knows he won't. such is the vicious cycle. he pretty much spends the day in bed or in the shower, eating foods he knows are safe. 'safe' as in 'will not cause me to vomit uncontrollably because i fucked up my stomach last night'. headache/feeling of rubber bands around his skull, light sensitivity, touch sensitivity, he got the usual going on. his hat spares him of even greater suffering. And all this could've been avoided if he drank water along with the liquor.

man alcoholism is my jam, i could go on and on about it. doubly so because i see small things in jeeg that make me go 👀, but not necessarily in a good way. he shows The Patterns™️ imo.

- 🥃🚬

oh yeah he is definitely a (barely) functioning alcoholic

i think lupin is secretly really worried about it but doesnt wanna bring it up bc like. jigen knows he has a problem, he doesnt need to be told that he does

[evisxerate]

Gonna use this acc/site to talk abt body stuff bc I don't rly feel as comfortable anywhere else and it's bothering me a lot, but like. I've gotten to the point where I have to be sitting pretty much my entire shift at work and this progression or whatever has kinda been stressing me out. I can't stand for v long in general w/o numbness, pain, pinching(?) (feels like my feet/ankles are covered in fire ants), swaying, nausea, exhaustion, shit like that. Standing is literally so fucking exhausting, and I can't even deny it or try to push through it at this point. A couple times lately I've tried to stand at the beginning of my shift but it's pretty much instant pain, and it all gets worse until I have to sit after like 10 minutes, usually even sooner and 30 minutes tops if I try to power through. I can still get up and walk around the store when I need to but my legs have been either numb/stiff or strained (something that's been happening in general w/ walking lately, it feels like I pulled the muscles in both my legs or something, and I can't stay balanced) when doing it lately? :') it's super not fun to come to the realization that this isn't just going away, and it seems like it's getting worse, along w/ my hip/knee/ankle pain being worse and more frequent

This all doubly sucks bc the only way I can sit at work is on the counter. I have to use our stepladder to get up to it and off of it, and even when I'm sitting the pain is genuinely excruciating. My back it totally fucked and the pain doesn't go away, it's been giving me headaches, and my legs continuously go numb or get tingly, especially bc I have to have them crossed somehow

This all just sucks rly fucking bad and its really confusing bc I don't know why this is happening? A friend tried to say it's bc I don't get up and move around a lot but that's incredibly untrue. I've been moving more lately than I have in a long time, I'm constantly going up and down stairs, I have to cross the mall I work at often, I'm out and about way more, I'm almost never in bed unless I'm sleeping. I'm so much more active and in some ways it's actually been helpful. I genuinely don't think it would make any sense for the explanation for this shit to be bc I'm "not moving around enough". I know myself and I know what I've been doing even if it doesn't look that way on the outside?? Like I'm fucking moving and doing things fucking constantly, and I'd sit/lay down more if I could. Its hard for me to wanna blame the pain and problems on being more active too tho

This shit is all just so frustrating, and there's not even rly anything I can do. My cane doesn't really help anymore, it hurts my wrist more than anything, and I have no other aid or medication or anything that helps. I fr don't know how to deal w/ this lol

And I'm still sitting here being like "I don't think my pain is enough to warrant calling myself disabled" and "because I'm not diagnosed w/ anything it doesn't count" which is honestly probably bullshit?

Anyways I have like 3 1/2 hours left of this shift and I feel like death lmao

[realtalk-tj]

i have a c in jones ap chem and a c+ in ab calc. i don't do well with virtual learning, i mean i did fine last spring but that's when there were no grades to be spoken of and grade bumps saved me. i really need help bc i don't want to do bad in these stem ap classes cuz that'll look really bad on my transcript when i apply to college. any advice?

Response from Shacklebolt:

Mood. I’m still struggling with some of the same problems that you have, although it’s been (kind of) getting better. Here’s what’s working for me (a lot of the stuff is general advice):

Consistency with time management— Key word is consistency. It’s easy to get lost in a virtual environment with everything being in different places (Blackboard, Google Classroom, etc.), so it’s important to find an organizing system that works for you and stick to it. It’s easy to forget pressing tasks if you rely only on your brain as an agenda.

Eliminating distractions— I’m also guilty of muting the tab for an uninteresting class and doing whatever. But that’s also made me miss important class material. Now, I only do that if class is just a work period. Otherwise, I take notes when I can (normally on paper because staring at the screen too much gives me headaches). Since I get easily distracted, I use website blockers, uninstall distracting apps, and place my phone far away from me during class. I highly recommend the extension LeechBlock for Chrome/Firefox.

Doing all assignments— Even the optional ones. They help cement the material in your head so you don’t get lost during tests (doubly so for more self-paced courses). What I do a lot of the time is using the keys to study since they show how to do difficult problems. 

Spaced repetition— Cramming only works so much until it fries your brain. Set aside time each day to solely focus on one of your difficult subjects as much as you need to. During this time, I use outside resources to study. The LibreTexts and Openstax online textbooks have worked wonders for me (Khan Academy’s okay, but it doesn’t work as well for TJ math in my opinion). I also do extra textbook problems/problems from thick notes packets if available. Depending on your learning style, you also might want to spice things up a bit. Watching straightforward videos from channels Bozeman Science and Organic Chemistry Tutor has helped me understand a lot of chemistry concepts in AP Chem.

Student advocacy— Ask for help! Teachers have office hours and eighth periods for a reason. If none of the above work, ask a smart (and can also explain concepts well) friend who’s in your class or has already taken the class.

Hope all this helps!