#dont rly have a solid friend group

[itsalwaysdark]

i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

[phagodyke]

ok moment over its all good

oh who am I fucking kidding. I'm not gonna go am I.

[interpoleroo]

okay sorry I didn’t really spend time thinking thru this and posting on here abt it bc god knows I post abt my life way too much online.

Anyway, there’s a girl at my gym who knows some of the details of a big topic of gossip that happened last year. Lots of loose ends there—many many unknowns that I need to be known for my own purposes. I guess Ill see how much I’ll end up elaborating on that. For context, I happen to be very nosy and that event starred my closest friend and a random girl. I was never involved nor was the friend I had this conversation with.

Now, Ive been in this friend’s group for two months or so and only now have I decided to actually ask her about it. Ive only heard one side of it (my friend’s who’s technically in the wrong), and I dont have a solid timeline or details of what actually went down and who all was involved. So yesterday I decided to ask her about it and pry a little bit bc things are starting to escalate between me and aforementioned friend a bit and i feel like I should tread carefully, aka why I am fishing for information— I gotta know exactly what I could be getting into yk. I honestly haven’t decided whether he’s in the wrong or not in this situation, but he did get punished and is certainly (i miss my first crush…that was his nickname… :() not innocent.

Apparently he hasn’t told me any of what happened before he got told on and holy hell. It’s kinda bad. It’s very bad actually. well. Its js that I dont like it. I had a very adverse reaction to hearing about it second hand from the friend of the other girl involved— and not cause of jealousy or whatever, which is what I thought it’d be bc I do in fact have jealousy issues. So I got whipped into shifting perspective of not just that girl, but her friends. It’s like bad bad. I am desensitized to a lot okay but that desensitization comes from excessive internet exposure. Anything irl really rubs me the wrong way. I am uncomfortable and weird about a lot of it and that’s what this happens to involve.

So Im kinda reeling from that information bc my supposed best friend hasn’t told me anything. But he low key has idea the severity of what I went thru w my first except that was js us making eachother’s mental illnesses worse and not like whatever this is.

Well and then my friend told me to reach out to the other girl directly involved bc she has a unique perspective on it as well and could hopefully help me figure out what to do with this. And i was like WOAH. New option unlocked that I literally have never ever thought about. And its bc I think hes using me as a replacement that I’d talk to her. I mean, all the same shit is happening to me in the same way. He's doing the same stuff to me as he did to her but Im way more hesitant. She and I have basically had the same experience but she felt differently about it in a positive way and handled it differently. She was smart enough to have blocked him later on and so I have done some casual stalking in past to try to put together puzzle pieces, to no avail though.

I would gladly talk to her but 1) Ive built up a slight grudge overtime (idk why though), 2) I dont want to reawaken some long lost feelings in her or something cause then I get left behind, 3) We’re basically strangers and I rly don’t know what her personality is like so it’d be kinda weird to start talking now, and 4) I did that thing where I liked one of her posts from two years ago so she probably knows about the slight stalking and we’ve never spoken so its like extra creepy and weird.

But now talking to her is an option. And it would totally be purely for selfish reasons. I would not do anything to get her back with my friend even though according to friend code Im supposed to be on his side. Realistically knowing myself, I’d probably talk shit and all that bc I have an innate ability to see all sides and manipulate my opinions to get what I want out of certain people. It’s all about the ability to relate, appeals to emotion, and feigned ignorance. I often know a lot more than what I say I do but I want different opinions and any extra details that could be relevant. Yk what, it might be nice for her to talk to me actually. Simmering on this now, I’m sure she’s had to go thru the same judgement I’ve had to when mentioning anything related to him and we’re probably the few people in this who could honestly chat in detail about it bc we get it. Cause I know that Im the kind of person who likes to talk about my drama to get it off my chest and hopefully a realistic opinion, and maybe shes the same? See, she may not be—its not like I know her and thats why Im a bit hesitant. Sorry this is me cycling thru the pros and cons of taking action on this in a very long winded, content heavy way. It helps.

Sorry this was low key be hella vague but i know what it means and I needed to get it down.

I may add more later as I overthink it all. Thanks.

[irlbkgs]

for the s/i ask game! (sorry this had taken so long, i kinda forgot to send you an ask sksjdj)

rose, lily, poppy, iris, chrysanthemum! for anyone who you wanna talk about <3

- @stevieselfships

no worries at all!! i get it lul

doing this for kennie and nicky bc they're basically my only two solid s/i's and the rest are abandoned or like rly half baked with the exception of tatum who is like...just an oc really, she isn't for selfship purposes and she's not really a version of me either so shrug (one day ill yap about her tho...)

lily ✦ do you try to fit your s/i into canon, or do you just do whatever you'd like with them?

for nicky, absolutely, i think that's pretty obvious with how ive talked about him in the past. for twd specifically and especially bc his other half is daryl, it's pretty easy to add another character without it seeming weird AND give them romance bc daryl doesn't really have a love interest besides carol who he Still isn't with post twd soooo

but yeah, nicky has his whole back story and whatnot from before but besides that i basically just envision him as having been there with the group at the quarry before rick even shows up and he exists within the group as like an obnoxious little brother to most bc he is like. an adult but clearly an adult who is In College and works a Part Time Job. very much a 24 year old who operates like a 24 year old. rly the only people who didn't treat him like that were the kids for obvious reasons, glenn bc they're basically the same age and daryl who has basically always just seen 18+ as ur an adult i will treat u like an adult bc that's how he was raised (/neg bc he has to unlearn that. also to be clear i dont mean this in regards to relationships or sex, i mean in regards to having to act grown, if that makes sense. for daryl as soon as he was 18 ((and rly before that)) he was expected to have a job, provide for himself and for his family and be a stereotypical man who can fend for himself and bc of that he expects everyone else who is over 18 to have their shit together, even if most are not expected to. he understands there is a maturity gap bc of the age thing tho and can understand, to a certain extent, that this thing that was forced on him is not normal or okay, but it causes friction between him and nicky at first bc nicky is functionally useless in an apocalypse setting before the farm. he is physically weak, cant shoot for shit, isnt a great cook, cant sew or clean well. he's a fucking rich kid, he knows fuckall and his years away from home didnt teach him much except how to live off buttered noodles and tap water for months on end. he's book smart to a certain extent, but he's no eugene, so again, not much to offer. daryl finds this frustrating but they eventually find middle ground yada yada im rambling about unrelated shit SORRY!!!)

with kennie it's the opposite, i don't personally love g*n v's execution of everything plotwise, i don't love a lot of the characters and the only one i do love besides my f/o, sam, is emma, who is his love interest so. while sometimes i toy with the idea of shipping all three, i don't selfship with emma so it's easier to just skew far away from canon and do what i want.

rose ✦ is your s/i more like yourself, or are they more of an oc you project on?

for both id say closer to an oc, but nicky definitely is more of a version of me that ive like exaggerated parts of to make Better, but i also include my flaws and stuff in his character at times, whereas kennie is one singular aspect of me that i wish i was less shy about and i turned up to the max on her. nicky is sloppy and loud and confrontational with people he doesn't like but avoids confrontation like the plague with people he does like, he lies and manipulates people if he thinks it'll help him or his friends out, he is a ball of energy and sometimes that leads him to outbursts that hurts himself or others but he is also like the fucking sun. he is me if i was more confident but also still flawed in a way that people find more appealing because it gives him character and fuck, everyone lies, he just happens to be really good at it and uses that to his advantage in situations that don't always call for it. i am also a manipulative cunt but it is less fun when i do it bc well. i am a real person and its something i need to work on. im also loud and sloppy but its less fun when i do it, moreso annoying. nicky is witty and quick with jokes, i am not. im generally not a confrontational person either, regardless of who's involved. kennie on the other hand is just like. quiet and stern and very focused and on top of things, which im not. really the only thing we share is wanting to top boys twice our size and that's like 90% of why i made her. i wanted a s/i that was physically similar to me in most ways to get sam on his knees bc he is the most obvious sub ever 🤷‍♀️ and i figured for once id make a character who wasn't so similar to me bc i do that a lot so i made her my opposite. unfortunately this did result in me liking her less, hence her not having a doc linked in my pinned like nicky and tatum do, but i do still enjoy her.

poppy ✦ do you have lore surrounding your s/i, or is your s/i more or less just there to project on with your f/o(s)?

for nicky yes there is a lot of lore, ive planned out a lot of stuff before canon and a lot of stuff during canon for him so there is most definitely lore there. the tldr of it is rich parents who were never there, adopted a girl who they used to look good to their rich peers bc nicky wasn't well behaved enough in their eyes to bring to functions, he moves out as soon as he can and lives the college life off and on until 24 when he drops out for good, but the apocalypse also starts so that doesn't really matter. meets the quarry group, falls for daryl pretty early on, spends years head over heels before they finally get together during alexandria era. everything after that is unplanned bc quite frankly i do not Like those seasons nor do i think i could make the relationship between nicky and daryl worth talking about when daryl is with the saviors for such a huge portion of that era or he just gets no fucking lines/screen time. maybe one day ill plan out commonwealth stuff bc that stuff gets interesting again, but i doubt it. id be more likely to do the france stuff than anything but again it wouldn't really make sense without me making up a bunch of shit.

for kennie she doesn't really have a lot of lore. really all i have for her is like the basics and her going to supe college more for marketing than to be a supe herself. less likely to get offed that way, she figures.

iris ✦ do you associate any animals with your s/i? which one(s), and why?

nicky is def a raccoon. i feel like everything about him makes this obvious.

kennie is more like a hairless cat. feels fancy but is also just some weird fucking guy at the end of the day.

chrysanthemum ✦ free question! tell us anything you'd like to say about your s/i!

hrmmm nicky would be a big fan of the dare in a modern au. he would've found him pre brat summer and been a snobbbb about being there first (but he would also be all over that brat album, he is a party boy at heart unlike daryl who, in this au, would hate nicky going out to party but still pick him up from the club like a dutiful boyfriend. nicky is a sloppy drunk but very loving and cuddly so daryl at worst finds him annoying in an endearing way when he gets plastered)

kennie would nottttt like any of the main characters in g*n v besides emma and i need this to be known. she could spend time with jordan without biting their head off but besides that she wouldnt be able to stand marie, andre or cate. luke and her wouldve gotten along just fine before the whole mess and him dying, but they were never close. emma and her probably got closer After sam getting out of the woods, but i havent rly planned out the specifics.

[youhaveyourfits]

just went to dad's for dinner. it was actually nice (it always has been since this started) but what struck me was the solid comfortable feeling of familiarity, the anxiety was there too but just knowing something and having been known is a comfortable safe feeling in itself. and the cognitive dissonance.. why is visiting so nice but living there not? is that the way it always will be with me and people, anyone?

what was nice: playing games w my lil sister (and brother), laughing w her, the house itself, the garden, the rooms full of things and history, the fact that there is life there at all (whereas living by yourself means its only you changing things - also is that an unnatural way to live ?), my dad smiling at me and asking how i was when i came (uncommon), the fact that they made a nice dinner cos it was a family dinner, my dad thanking me for coming, seeing the cats, the smell of the garden, talking abt my uncle w my dad

what wasn't so nice: they weren't around when i came so i went into a room to hang out w lil sis and when they came back out they start being like 'didnt she say she'd be here...?' and talking lowly saying some shit in that tone they have. fucking UGH it fucks me up but anyways, also my stepmum did her thing where my lil sis was talking abt a funny video at dinner and my stepmum did her fucking 'okay.' in her tone! she has a nasty tone! the thought condensed at dinner. thats how i could say it to be understood by anyone. she always has and if we ever talked to her like that she'd be the victim. anyways.. also just the way its always (become) so clear to me at dinners that the group never rly coheres, ever

anyway. i miss that comfortable feeling. i feel more stablised now and i know what i need is friends. even just a few, just some regulars.. i need people in me life .

and i was also thinking on the drive home: i do love my dad, and even tho he cant ever really say anything, like.. emotionally vulnerable or anything, he tried for me, and i do still wanna try to say the things i need to one day when i can bc theyre standing in our way and i dont want them too bc it is worth having him in my life

[nurseangelririka-sos]

reflecting on what happened 24 hours earlier where my friends actually surprised me for my birthday while im mid-fortnite game and live on twitch too. i feel so grateful to have an amazing core group and thinking about it i met every single one of them in different moments of my life and seeing them become friends with each other is honestly a dream come true for me. to think that i have a solid group of friends who feel the same way to me like i do to them is something i never thought i would have honestly… like i know ive met a lot of people in my life, and im always leaving them because im always away or whatever. idk. i cherish all the people i met in my lifetime but i feel like this time it feels different because the past few years ive had a lot of breakthroughs with myself feelings wise and how i essentially tore down all the walls ive made because of past traumas. like this time around i feel like ive healed and im finally able to accept people’s love to me wholeheartedly and its a new feeling for me. before its always impostor syndrome making me doubt everyone’s feelings towards me thinking its all negative and i end up pushing people away and i will always feel awful about it like…. ive lost a lot of friendships because i chickened out on deepening the bond bc i basically convinced myself that these people actually dont like me. this time around i was brave enough to tell friend A that i feel that way sometimes and to have them scold me being like “hey, what if i tell you that ur only friends w me because u pity me that would suck right” and idk to have my bestie say that to me rly punched some big prespective to me…….. uwe. idk im just feeling very grateful atm. its not my bday anymore here in jakarta but it still is somewhere out there and im just feeling nice even tho im lowkey freaking out about my solo show ;w; i wanna bother the dudes now but i know they’d want me to work lol. i hope they never open my tumblr lmfaooo this is actually embarrassing if they find out i wrote this 🙃

[xx-psych0-rabbit-xx]

we finally watched season 1 episode 8 (in my defense it came out way after season 2 started so i decided to let it wait as was released) n Its Fine.bit of a nothing burger but the good kind imo.i was rly not into the beelzebub design at first but eh she actually grew on me shes chill shes cute.the last bits were actually kinda sweet its Overall Alright

now season 2 episode 7 was GOOD.gee fizzarolli how come vivziepop lets you have all the good touching episodes? just generally solid everyone was enjoyable i fucking love fizz sm oh my goddd.funniest guy.it deserved to be half an hour long its just good.istg fizz is the only character in a vivziepop show that feels like a whole character he exists beyond his basic role or one established depth point n even beyond his relationship w blitzo.just good episode i liked that v nice it bought me joy

season 2 episode 8 is another nothing burger but its just a bad one.the cherubs were a fun one time group as "the heaven equivalent of IMP" theyre just unfunny here n the handling of stolas is just.Bad.more on episode 9 but yeah its just.Nothing its just not interesting or funny its like episode 3 where only like.one part mattered we didnt need a whole episode of absolutely nothing

now episode 9.while we were watching it i just kept describing it to my friend as "feels like im being gaslighted" bc oh my god.listen blitzos a cunt ik ik BUT JESUS CHRIST stolas is NOT some poor wittle guy ?? literally everything bad he did during season 1 just suddenly didnt happen.like hes now this misunderstood dude for never establishing communication w the guy he liked as a fantasy.its literally just 20 minutes of a pity party for this guy bc oh no the guy he constantly established a sex only relationship w filled w unwanted comments doesnt know he was total secret romantic love w him this whole time ! how dare he ! just generally a shitty watch jesus fucking christ.these shows have no issues establishing characters as scumbags i dont understand why for stolas he has to be this poor little sympathetic thing.just let him suck ! literally just let him be a scumbag he was literally established as one the entire first season i dont understand the resistance abt it !

anyways despite episode 9 easily being my least favorite of Every Vivziepop Show i actually get out of this happy bc episode 7 was just that good.literally so lovely.i dont even know what to compliment specifically bc the whole thing is just a solid character focused episode fizz is a good character lol

urghhhhh me n the bestie got done watching all the helluva episodes we had left n the feelings r so mixed chat

[peri]

here's your reminder that mutuals are free to ask for my discord or invite me to their servers .... <3

[jxmbi]

finally found a group of guys that i can be just another regular dumb guy with

[hhomunculus]

Mmm I think I found who you are! Your very excited and passionate. Just from the way you speak I can tell you probably love making new friends and love the ones you have! You probably just cheer for things you think are cool, Or if your watching a video with two people you dont know fighting you'll cheer for whoever is winning! Your adventurous and try not to be a burden. And you either really care what people think of you or don't give a shit at all!

Your... Butters!

Butters is a smart little guy who likes making friends and always cherishes the ones he has! He isn't dumb, Though, He knows who his true friends are and who aren't. He doesn't always see what people's true intentions are at first he always learns eventually. He knows what to do when people mess with him and he's great st making plans! He is probably the most sane character in Southpark considering how normal he is compared to everyone else! He overcomes all of his challenges and knows how to persuade people into doing things, And he's very brave too! He sees past people's fake masks qnd we know this because when he was in Hawaii with Kenny he defended him and even said that he was the only one he actually liked out of everyone because Kenny is the only one who doesn't bully people for the sake of it, Which Butters could see.

Out of the main cast, Your... KYLE!

Kyle is sympathetic but knows how to get under people's skin. He's probably the most popular of the group and he's very energetic. He's also a smart kid, He hates when people make fun of him for what he can't control or try and bully him about what he likes despite also not caring at the same time! He's probably the most excitable out of them and no doubt the most empathetic.

Please rate the explanation and characters I've given on a scale to 1-10! Don't be afraid to give me a bad score!

😳

…huh, I mean your analysis on me and butters individually is accurate asf and everything makes sense, but I really wouldn’t have thought to pin myself as butters (but with your reasoning, it’s hard to say I rly disagree). the part about either not caring about what ppl think at all, or caring a lot was like shockingly dead on lmao. I can’t say I’m surprised with my Kyle result, tho

over all, you did a great job w this!! tysm, and as far as my online persona goes, this is fs a solid like 8.5/10 analysis

[mistymark]

nct dream as college kids

RENJUN

works on campus til late

always asleep

likes to study in the library because its the only place he can get some bloody peace

texts jaemin to bring him food

went to the on-campus gym once and never went back

complains about parking on campus

complains about his friends on campus

but he loves them and always organises activities and catch ups

the glue that keeps everyone in touch despite their different degrees and campuses

laughs too loud and always gets stared at for doing it in class

once got kicked out of the library for his loudness

to be fair, he did accidentally fall out of his chair... and pull the table down with him

his id actually looks good

does half the pre-reading then just listens to lectures to understand the rest

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still maintains a brilliant GPA

his project group members always love him

JENO

wears hoodies and sweats to every class

still looks really good though

and distracts everyone in his classes

lives off free food at parties and tight-ass tuesdays specials

is in advanced classes bc he had the grades for them but doesnt understand shit

still manages to look bored in class even when hes confused and/or focused

sits in the back and then squints at the board bc mans cant see

carries like three things with him to every class

owns one (1) pen

he doesnt even write anything with it he just chews on it during class

everyone thinks its hot but the guy sitting beside him (jaemin) looks disgusted the entire time

has received many anonymous love letters on facebook but hasn't read any of them

not to be mean - he just doesnt find it interesting

drafted a love letter to someone in one of his lectures and then deleted it

hasn't looked at the page since

actually does the pre-reading

then gets bored in lectures when they just go over what he read about

JAEMIN

smiles 24/7 even when hes stressed

supportive af tho

always sporting the Cozy aesthetic

wears sweaters and vests in temperatures you'd think wouldnt be suitable but the boy doesnt appear to sweat???

wears rly cute glasses sometimes and !!!!!!!!

waves at people he knows

does not hesitate to run up to people and start conversations with them out of nowhere

attends Donghyuck’s parties to SpEnD TimE WiTh HiS fRieNdS

has never lost a game of beer pong

girls say he gets 10x hotter when hes drunk because hes way more flirtatious and fun

but he probably just flirts w Jeno the whole time

walks into lectures with sunglasses on and everyone knows what happened the night before

never leaves the house without food

his backpack is 30% necessities like laptop, books, phone, keys etc.

and 70% granola bars and fruit

doesnt want to spend money on food on campus

drinks way too much boba tho

is in Disney society and probably becomes co-president after a year

DONGHYUCK

throws parties for every no reason

wears the same outfit every day bc he knows he looks good

youngest kid in his frat

talks a lot of shit about how hes a player and can get any girl he wants but the second a girl looks at him hes a blubbering mess

in fact, hes probably got a huge crush on someone in his lecture that hes never talked to

attends online lectures so he can play video games at the same time

has to be told to turn his mic off during group discussions because hes eating really loudly

isn't afraid to talk in class

sometimes rocks up wearing something outside of his normal dress code because hes still discovering his style

but everything he tries suits him

basically started the bucket hat trend - he claims so anyway

won't let anybody touch his student id

no one has seen the photo but many speculations have been made over how bad it is

the only person who has seen it is one of the librarians

Chenle and Jisung made it their mission to see it but to this day they havent been able to get it

its a series on Chenle’s tiktok bET

CHENLE

became famous on tiktok over the summer so now everyone knows who he is ??

does wild shit bro

does vlogs with his friends

‘I joined the kpop dance club at my college and it went like this”

lots of videos of him and his friends going batshit crazy at night

wears expensive yet extremely tasteful clothing

catch him walking around campus in pressed shirts

never looks tired ??????? how does he cope ??????

tags jisung in love letters that are definitely not for him

tags jisung in love letters that are definitely for him

probably wants to start a youtube channel when he graduates

girls want to date him but more often guys want to be him

is super nice but

glares at anyone who says he doesnt need a degree to take over daddy’s business

did a kiss or slap challenge once and everyone kissed him and its very pure

maintains solid grades

everyone knows who he is whether they know him from tiktok or not

probably on really good terms with his professors

loves to send emails ?

JISUNG

that one kid in high school that became super hot over the summer

people from his school dont even recognise him

makes the older kids feel gross when they realise hes younger than they are and they've been thirsting over him for ages

people who wouldnt even glance in his direction in high school now want to be his friend

mostly keeps to himself and his studies

joins a few clubs and societies

got roped into Disney society by jaemin

had to attend the ball and wanted to die when he got crowned as the official prince

I dont think he did Disney society the year after

though he did think the dancing at the ball was fun and joined a dance troupe

gives his number to people in his project group then forgets to respond when they text him

does his work tho so who can complain

dies of embarrassment whenever he sees chenle has tagged him in love letters on facebook

at some point chenle has downloaded tinder onto his phone and tried to match him with people

[ghostlypawn]

Okay so if they were to make a movie musical of ABH who would you cast if you couldn't cast the original company?

im gonna be honest i dont think i know enough actors to cast this well/in a way that i like. 

i wouldnt rly care if they were american as long as they can do the accent well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

ik u said no original company but the way molly gordon and noah galvin r part of the ben platt/beanie feldstein nepotism friend group would have me believe that they would in fact be in the movie jkfdksj

look. ik this is the most basic pairing ever. but i think sadie sink and caleb mclaughlin could be a solid alice/alfred duo. rachel zegler would also be a good alice or tabatha if old enough.

um john krasinski as dr butridge??

feel free to send some ppl who u would like to see tho im listening...

[ja-khajay]

2020-2021 Animation Watch(ed)list

I haven’t posted about animation in a while that I remember, and I know a lot of my followers are into it as much as me so I decided to make a list of the animated movies and series I watched on the past year or so, coupled with my short, spoilerless take on them. Enjoy!

Organized by

Things I saw for the first time

Things I rewatched

Under a cut for the sake of your dashboards! PS: I have not added any images yet. If you are interested in knowing more about the visuals of these movies, I might make an old fashion ask-prompted imageset list.

Part One: Things I saw for the first time

The Bear’s Famous Invasion of Sicily

Movie, 2019, Italian/French

9/10, a delightful little movie with amazing visuals. It feels like an animated picture book.

One of those “plot is in the title” media! I had never heard of this before but was heavily recommended it by my family members, who all loved it! It’s a sweet story, nothing groundbreaking but the unique colorful visual style alone makes it worth it.

The Castle of Cagliostro

Movie, 1979, Japanese

10/10. Reminded me of all the books i loved reading as a child

I assume its because it’s so old and the art style and themes are so different that it gets little to no love compared to other Ghibli movies, which is a shame! It’s fun with an endearing cast and as always, great animation and music

Mushishi

Series, 2006, Japanese

10/10 three episodes in I knew it was going to be my favorite series ever

One of the few things I’ve seen I’ll describe as life-changing. It’s absolutely lovely but never toots its own horn about it. Humble, calming, emotional and surprisingly mature. It’s pretty impossible to binge due to how intense the experience is. I just want to walk in the forest now...

FMA: Brotherhood

Series, 2009, Japanese

6/10 Dissapointing adaptation of a classic story

I read the manga for this when I was in middle school and remembered loving it. The animated version does an ok job of presenting the characters and worldbuilding and has some nice action scenes but overall looks really damn cheap and just. Not very good. Seeing I already knew most of the plot I did not have the element of discovery that made me marvel so much reading the original. It’s still a nice series but I really recommend reading it instead.

Code Lyoko (s1+2)

Series, 2003, french

3/10. 1.5 being for the opening song alone

This show sucks ass if I hadn’t been watching this with my bestie I would have dropped it two episodes in. The art style is ugly the stories are always the same and the first season has a (later removed thank fucking god) LITERAL “erase any consequences” button as a plot device in every episode. If you watch it for one thing let it be the nostalgia factor of early 00s Vidya Game Plot

The Legend of Hei

Movie, 2019, Chinese

7/10. Impressive visuals and a poor story

I finally watched this, peer pressured by the load of gifsets on my dashboard! It’s a sweet movie with really impressive animation, sometimes a bit too flashy for my taste (the action sequences go so ham they become not very readable...) but the story was just ok? The setting is barely explained and you are instead bombarded with vague epicspeech about powers and stuff that made me fondly remember Kingdom Hearts lol but that asides it’s a really good time! I need to watch more Chinese movies the few I know are just delightfully off the shits in how they approach action and I love that

Hunter x Hunter

Series, 1999, Japanese

9/10. Superior to the recent one!

I first got introduced to the series via the 2011 one. Comparatively, the 99 series focuses way less on action and way more on the characters, which I love because that fits my personal preferences! Despite mediocre filler episodes and some weird slight pointless plot changes, what it changes from the original manga doesn’t have much of an impact on the characters. The animation quality isn’t always consistent including a huge art style change for an arc (???) but it’s overall pretty nice. The series really shines in the last arc it adapts.

Oban Star-racers

Series, 2006, Japanese/french

9/10 a lovely surprise

This series is completly obscure despite having been created by people famous for their other series (Cowboy Bebop, Code Lyoko that i can name) and it’s a crime! It’s a kids show but without being stupid about it who tells the story of an inter-planetary race. If you liked that one scene in the star wars prequels you know what I mean. It’s got surprisingly nice animation for a TV series, and some truly great character design. The art style is a bit unique in a not for everyone sense, but I didn’t mind it much. It’s also THE most offensively 2000s series i’ve seen in terms of visuals. y2k kids assemble

The Little Prince and the Eight-Headed Dragon

Movie, 1963, japanese

8/10. Classic fairytale format with incredible visuals

Watched this for the art style because I know it inspired Samurai Jack, and it delievered! I dont’ have much to say about this one, it’s a very simply film but it’s sweet. For my pirates out there if you want to find it in good quality with english subtitles it’s VERY hard to find. If you just want to see the looks of it, it’s on Youtube with portugese subs.

We now enter the Gobelins Shorts Zone....!

My Friend Who Glows In The Dark

10/10 makes me cry each time

Pure delight...great animation writing everything. A little short about death and friendship but not in the way you imagine!

Colza

9/10

Visual treat...homely and nice :) not far from a 10 but a 9 because nothing about it is that groundbreaking

Sundown

9/10

If you’ve ever been ten minutes from failing a group project because of a single dude you will REALLY enjoy this. Loved the colors and personality

T’as vendu mes rollers?

10/10

It’s SUCH a sweet little short I loved that one so much

Dix-huit kilomètres trois

10/10

Surprisingly well written dialog. Visuals are great but the humanity of the characters carries this to another level

Un diable dans la poche

9/10

Amazing visuals and the most tense/creepy of Gobelin shorts i’ve ever seen. Chilling

La bestia

8/10

I had some issues with the pacing. Interesting story and visuals choices but I was not fond of the art style

Goodbye Robin

5/10

Confusing but predictable. Both at once??? Yes!

Le retour des vagues

6/10

Cool animation stuff but felt pretty pointless

                                                                ***

Part Two: Things I rewatched

Ruben Brandt: Collector

Movie, 2018, Hungarian

10/10. Underrated as hell

Watched this fully blind for the first time in an animated festival and rewatched it with friends. It’s a crime I never see anyone talking about it given the amount of whining I see about the lack of both adult animation and 2D movies? This film is a unique love letter to art in the form of a weird mix of charming crime story and psychological horror with amazing visuals. I recommend watching it blind and also buying it to show appreciation for how nice it is!!! WATCH THIS MOVIE...

Mononoke

Series, 2007, Japanese

10/10 Visual/storytelling masterpiece in the weird shit departement

If you can stomach intense stuff watch this. The visuals are incredibly unique and beautiful and under the jewel tones and art direction high takes it’s a really cool horror series. My only obstacle to enjoying it the first time I saw it was how dense it is - simply put, it’s so...culturally Japanese it’s not very accessible to me who doesn’t know anything about the culture? Watching it for the second time helped understanding the stories more! 

Corto Maltese in Siberia

Movie, 2002, french

9/10 but really close to ten. A great adaptation!

I’m a huge fan of the original comic so I entered this a biiiittttt suspicious it would suck but it was a really pleasant surprise! It has all the wonder and charm of the original and the animation was surprisingly good for the little budget. If you’re not familiar with the series, it’s a sort of geopolitical action/adventure movie but with it’s own really poetic vibe to it. It’s almost impossible to find online but happens to be fully on YouTube so go ham I guess?

Redline

Movie, 2009, Japanese

10/10 cinema was invented for this, actually

Every review of this movie i’ve seen gives it five stars and starts by talking about how immensly stupid it is. I’m no different. It’s a masterpiece of escalating energy with the depth of a puddle and it fucking rules. It’s free on YouTube too so there really is no excuse to not watch it. Watched it for the first time on a huge cinema screen and despite this my second rewatch on my small laptop was as/even more enjoyable. If you watch this stoned with friends you might travel to another dimension

Spirited Away

Movie, 2001, Japan

10/10 deserves the love it gets

I watched this a single time as a kid and had little memory of it! I mean it’s Ghibli you know it’s going to be good as hell but this one rly shines in how colorful and detailed it is and in it’s world! It made me remember I had a huge crush on the dragonboy as a kid. I’m gay now

Kung-fu Panda (1&2)

Movie, Usa

10/10. KFP fucking rules

Honestly my favorite franchise of the whole disney/dreamworks/pixar hydra. It’s fun as hell, doesn’t skip a single beat and has amazing animation and character designs. If something is a good time I will not care if it’s deep or not and boy I fucking love these movies

Sinbad, Legend of the Seven Seas

Movie, 2003, Usa

5/10 Some great some really bad and overall generic

I tend to hate american cinema and this includes that era of animation I have no nostalgia for. Sinbad is in a weird place because I love adventure stories and the visuals of the movie absolutely deliver but it’s very predictable and TANKED by the addition of the female character, pushed in your face as “look we have woman!!!” despite her writing being misogynistic as hell lol. The evil goddess rules tho. This movie would have been a solid 9 if instead of the girl the two dudes had kissed

[seunqs]

[ a long get to know me tag ]

tagged by: losers @woosohn @yeonjuins

what day is your birthday?

27th june! it’ll be on a monday next year

what’s your favourite colour?

blue! a rather specific shade of light sky blue but i also like dark blue! might be misleading because everyone would think beige/black since that’s the aesthetic i like + almost everything i own is black...

what’s your lucky number?

i don’t have one i think but i tend to say 7 if i’m asked?

do you have any pets?

sadly no >:( will get one in the future idc idc

how tall are you?

158cm tiny i wna be abit taller

how many pairs of shoes do you own?

off my head i think 3 pairs...? just 2 black and 1 white that i rotate depending on the outfit i’m wearing

favorite song?

asdjekw i don’t think i have one specific one but recently i’ve been listening to maniac by nct doyoung & haechan!

other honourable mentions: a book of love by ha hyunsang, wide eyed blind by saint raymond, irreplaceable by nct dream, lmly by jackson wang. that’s all i have off my head

favorite movie?

surprisingly i’m not big on movies... but i’ll always answer parent trap when someone asks! why do i sound like i always have prepared answers in my head for various questions... okay that’s bc i do.

what would be your ideal partner?

@june look away i already know you’re gna say this sounds a lot like someone..

shy... is the main characteristics lmao idky it’s not even like i’m outgoing but i tend to find myself liking shy-er boys over the outgoing ones! aaa those with very obvious leadership qualities and quietly cares and looks out for those around them :’) tsundere! i think shy may appear cold sometimes but i’m rly :’) when the shy ones become very affectionate in private or when you get to know them better :’) or shy with strangers but very goofy and silly with their closer social circle heh those that are more cat-like than dog-like, only approaches you when they’re comfy. okay also shy but willing to speak up when necessary! doesn’t let themselves get bullied for being quiet and also pls speak up for me i hate ordering food pls do it for me HAHAHHA also if they’re passionate about something they like/are good at! good listeners too heh doesn’t need to always have the best advice, just if they would sit with me silently and listen to me and give me a hug afterwards :’’’’’) i think i’m on the touchier side too so if they don’t dislike that it’ll be nice! OH someone who’s good at cooking too bc i hate cooking and the kitchen in general.. i’ll do the dishes though HAHAHAH ok that is all there is a certain idol in my head that is the embodiment of my ideal type and i hate him >:(

do you want children?

no... not so much bc i don’t find them cute or i can’t handle them but i think it’s a commitment that scares me! bringing up the child well with the right character and values ajksdbwkje i don’t know if i’m up to that HAHAHAH

have you gotten in trouble with the law?

nope @woosohn @yeonjuins pls be proud of my direct no why are the two of you......... 

bath or shower?

shower! i don’t know if i’ve actually taken a bath before... probably when i was younger HAHAH i think i’ll get bored in the bath and i much rather be relaxing in bed than in the tub

what color socks are you wearing?

barefoot at the moment! the socks i own are mostly solid colour socks / simple cartoon or animal patterns but all ankle socks that can’t be seen with my shoes

favorite type of music?

i listen to pop, r&b and indie! that’s about all and favourite depends on the mood!

how many pillows do you sleep with?

just 1! and a bolster too

what position do you sleep in?

either on my back with hand over my head lmao or turned to either sides while hugging my bolster and face buried into the bolster

what you don’t like when you’re sleeping?

when it’s too hot! canNOT sleep if the weather is too hot. also if i get woken up rudely, by screaming or someone smacking me awake LMAO just tell me nicely to get up and i’ll be out of bed in 10mins pls give me awhile my brain is turning on HAHAHA

what do you have for breakfast?

recently i haven’t woken up early enough for bfast or my family is just about to go out to buy lunch by the time i’m up hahaha but on the days that i’m alive for bfast, iced coffee and any pastry sitting in the fridge! my family is big on pastries like croissants and cakes like banana and carrot cakes! so one of those but the iced coffee is a constant in my first meal of the day

have you ever tried archery?

nope and idt i’ll be good at it tbh....

favorite fruit?

strawberries, apples, peaches! there are some seasonal favs where i rly like them for a period of time and then suddenly not anymore but these 3 are the constants

favorite swear word?

hahahaha i dont think i have a favourite one..... but i say tf a lot and mf for kpop boys who make me more flustered than they should

do you have any scars?

i don’t think so! i have a few stretch marks around my waist and tummy tho 

are you a good liar?

yes... HAHAH i used to get scolded so much for lying as a kid lmfao

what’s your personality type?

isfj-t has probably only dipped to isfp-t once but if not constant isfj!

what’s your favorite type of girl?

HAHAHAH uh.... okay with all kinds i think? except people in general who try too hard

innie or outie?

innie. was this question necessary tho AHHAHAHA

left or right-handed?

right-handed

favorite food?

ramen! but i like lots of food lmfao tiramisu, pork belly, lots of noodles, also lots of rice, beef, cakes, ice cream, i think i’m more salty > sweet!

favorite foreign food?

japanese ramen, korean cuisine!, lasagne

are you clean or messy?

clean

most used phrase?

i think alot of keyboard smashes, lmao, wtf, HAHAHAHHAHA, sigh, i’m tired LOL

how long does it take for you to get ready?

depends! fastest i think i can get out of the house 20mins after i’ve woken up. longest probably an hour where outfit is taking a while and accessories needs to be chosen

do you talk to yourself?

in my head yes.

do you sing to yourself?

not often but i sing out loud for the family to hear LOL in my head very often a song is playing up there

are you a good singer?

nop. i don’t think i’m a BAD singer but wouldn’t classify as good either HAHHAHA

biggest fear?

wow so many things but i think biggest is complete darkness, i need to see and know what is going on around me. i sleep with a night light on heh 

are you a gossip?

with closer friends yes def HAHAH my school culture tends to have lots of tea that my friends and i don’t like to get too involved in but we do talk about the gossips that goes around hahaha have also been in the center of gossip way too often

do you like long or short hair?

long! can’t imagine myself with short hair.. used to have reallllyyy long hair that goes beyond my waist and cried when i cut it to slightly below shoulder length. that’s the shortest i’ll ever go

favourite school subject?

wow nothing i don’t like school lmfao but humanities and language are way more bearable than math and sciences

extrovert or introvert?

introverted

what makes you nervous?

unpredictable situations, being alone in public (contradictory because in private i would strongly prefer to be alone but i don’t enjoy being alone in public i feel judged HAHAHA), also currently waiting on a reply for something and that’s been keeping me anxious the past 2 days :’)

who was your first real crush?

when i was 13/14, tablemate in school that was kinda shy and had very limited social circle but talked to me endlessly in class lmfao he apparently liked me too but we never dated and went to different schools at 16 y/o. we’re still kinda in touch though! we talked quite a fair bit last month just catching up but he’s more of an acquaintance now

how many piercings do you have?

2! just one normal lobe piercing on either ears, don’t think i’ll get anymore

how fast can you run?

back in school i used to be one of the fastest girls in my class LMFAO i could clock 12.5 minutes for a 2.4km run. stamina came from dancing since i had to run laps before dance class 2 times a week. but that is long in the past and now i get tired from climbing more than 4 flights of stairs pls spare me

what color is your hair?

naturally black but dyed brown! my hair has grown quite abit since i dyed it though now its black at the top and brown from above my ears onwards

what color are your eyes?

a very dark brown lmfao almost black

what makes you angry?

irresponsible people. just pushing responsibility to others or avoiding their responsibilities. don’t need you to do a good job with your responsibilities, just don’t make your issues my issues. and if its a shared responsibility like group projects, then do your part to contribute and don’t expect others to cover you

selfish people, in many ways. just being self-centred, not caring about how others feel, doing things for personal gain at the expense of others

speaking in a passive-aggressive/sarcastic manner. i say this even though i’m afraid of confrontation but i much rather someone outright tells me they’re unhappy about something or wants to get a point across. i hate when they talk about it sarcastically or tries to sugar-coat their words to make themselves look less aggressive about their words. tell me straight as it is, if you’re already gonna talk about something bad don’t piss me off with your attitude at the same time

do you like your own name?

rae is nice! has a very nice ring to it and looks pretty!

do you want a boy or a girl as a child?

i don’t.. want one.. but both have their good and bad i can’t decide.. i want a puppy

what are your strengths?

is this an interview question i have had a few interviews over the past weeks i am well-prepared for this HAHAHA

i think i’m pretty resilient! i bounce back from bad times pretty quickly or i psycho myself to see the situation positively. but it is ofc coupled with a lot of complaining to the people around me first

although i hate unpredictable situations and having to quickly adapt to new settings, i think i adapt pretty quickly too. flexible? easy-going? idk what’s the right way to call it but yeah something along those lines. good at it but i still enjoy my stability and calm don’t want to have to quickly adapt to new situations.

what are your weaknesses?

very emotional HAHAH used to be much worse but i often let my emotions rule my head. i think i’ve improved A LOT though i used to be so bad but i think i’m now able to make rational decisions even if im bawling LMFAO

this sounds like a compliment but i’ve been told this too often as well. i tend to be way too nice to people who don’t deserve it. even if the person doesn’t deserve it or they’ve pushed all my buttons in the wrong way possible, i would still try to be as nice and polite as i can. really helps with me working in the f&b industry lmfao.

what’s the colour of your bedspread?

dark blue / grey! 

colour(s) of your room?

white & wood (throughout my house actually + green from the plants in the living room) @yeonjuins says i live in a muji showroom

[watermelonsugawara]

relationships with the hq boys!

—a tag game! choose 4 (or less) schools and describe what type of relationship (platonic or romantic) you’d have with 1-2 characters from those schools!

from @deerixiie // love this tag, thank u @iintemperiae and @peach-pops :) the post was getting long so heres a new one JFJDJJFN

god i enjoyed this too much heheheh

tagging: @keijisangels @k-eijiakaashi @sugawara-sweetheart @ceo-of-daichi @applepienation @miyangel @bakatenshii / anyone who wants to or hasnt yet :))

karasuno - asahi

OK LISTENNNN its not just bc hes my og fave ok maybe it is WHATEVER ,,, but irl im really loud and rambunctious, quite literally like noya, and i somehow attract the quiter, more timid guys LMFAO (aka my literal bf rn) and i honestly think we’d make a great couple. i dont wanna say i was popular? but i just mixed well w a lot of people in hs and i feel like asahi would admire that? or like ... like that? IDKK whatever but we deffff balance each other out, he keeps my loud and cocky ass grounded when inneed to slow down, while i help him become more confident and open with others. lots of library study dates, poorly made coffee, naps, n picnics! we both have sewing machines and randomly make each other stuff <3 solid couple imo hehehe ya ik this is my other self ship lit rally shuddup i dont wanna HEAR IT

aoba johsai - iwaizumi

okokokok.... me thinkin hes half filo is canon for me but thats not the point here lmfaooo. honestly i rly think we’d be the pairing where EVERYONEEE CAN FEEL THE SEXUAL/ROMANTIC TENSION BUT WE JUST .... dont do anything ab it JDKSJDJDJ like hella flirty FOR NO REASON!!!! im a flirty bitch and iwa loves to fuel that fire, what can i say!!!! we always look good together when we take pics at formal dances n shit, everyones like surprised we arent the other’s date. i have a few of his sweaters, prob has one of my hats or a bracelet from me. we both thinkin dating fr but we fully choose to suppress it :) LMFAOOO,,, prob hooked up once but got SHY and just continued the stupid flirting game instead bc we’re idiots:)

nekoma - kuroo

honestly i think hes like a solidddd guy bff. like the kind where we can hang and its not rly awkward even when its quiet, or questionable like if we r dating. we r both in a big friend group of like 10 people, his gf is super chill ab us hanging bc the group just WORKS, the lil pairings between friends all work rly well. lets me study at his place all the time bc its much quieter, shitty at cooking but always chooses good movies to watch when we wanna take a break. always down to give rides whenever i need somethin from the store. whack ass clothing style but def willing to coach his ass bc he knows im stylish hehe, also makes up for it w good study playlists and a comfy ass couch to nap in whenever im too lazy to go home

shiratorizawa - ushijima

please just lemme have this one.... im not self shipping i promise .....we r the childhood friends/neighbors that can probably go MONTHS without seeing each other but hang out like no time has passed by. being friends @ a young age is rly the only commonality we have - artist, tiny, loud, self expressive girl and GIGANTIC, quiet, volleyball star boy bein friends ?? people r like ??? Error 404. but again it just works, i always went to his family parties n he went to mine. cooks good food and brings snacks over whenever. prob had a small phase of liking each other but we were either too scared or just in middle school and unsure. he jogs while i ride my bike beside him, we sync our airpods to be listening to the same playlist<3 hates my driving bc i drive like im in a sports car<3

[transrightsjimin]

big question, is the q word something that most of the community avoids or is it just wrong for cishet people to use? I'm not cis and not het and I've always used the word to identify myself. similarly, i have many many lgbt friends and we all use it about ourselves/each other and also to title the community in general. it proves to be easier to say than a string of letters. i guess i just don't know if we're behind the times or is it just dependent on the person?

i rly can’t speak for what most of the community wants or doesnt bc that’s hard to measure. it’s in general just difficult to speak of one true global LGBT community, considering LGBT was never intended as a solid group with rigid identities, but moreso referring to a coalition of different marginalized groups that sought to fight for equal rights. the labels and discourses surrounding it only make sense in “western“ or colonial cisheteronormative societies in which a gender binary is the norm. i tend to use lgbt for ease, but i wanted to emphasize here that there is not one universal understanding of / equal amount of relevance across cultures to the term LGBT. i understand that ppl prefer a different word for personal use for reasons such as this.

that aside, i’m afraid the trend is heading towards the q slur being used as umbrella term, or on the other hand, to use a long acronym despite not all groups in additions unanimously agreeing with being included, nor being faced with similar degrees of stigma and violence. ive seen both of these trends start to show years ago on tumblr and by now it has reached outside it and it’s rly tiresome bc other perspectives aren’t considered as much, and it allows in people w power over others who reinforce prejudice and make spaces unsafe, e.g. with asexuals joining GSAs in the US and pushing for PDA being banned in the groups bc it makes them uncomfortable.

i’ve been told by some dutch people that the q slur somehow isn’t considered a slur to ppl here bc it got introduced through academia while gay was introduced here as insult. but idk what to think of that, considering i don’t like the loose use of the q slur in academia (to the point where it’s used to refer to inanimate objects and random shit) nd i have not been introduced to it this way but knew it as a slur first and foremost.

and of course the ppl i spoke to who like the term and use it so liberally didn’t consider other views when they only engaged w other ppl who id more as q***r. and i’m just kinda iffy w local groups w the word in the name anyway since my impression thus far has been that these groups pose having less common genders or sexualities (and often include things tht are not oppressed in the same way tht being lgbt is, and invite in cishets) in itself as a very radical thing, even more than different labels, and i just cringe at that bc it says nothing abt politics at this point.

if anything it’s downright insulting to call everyone the slur despite being asked for years and years by others to not to do it. i dont think you followed me for a long time bc otherwise it wouldn’t be so shocking to you to come across the criticism. people keep asking again and again to not call them the q slur, nor refer to a community as a whole this way. i know ppl on tumblr have 0 reading comprehension but i get really tired of people responding in defense, as if personally attacked, time and again, “should i not call myself this then?? are you saying i’m not valid??“ (i cant see the word valid anymore since like 7 years ago, but thats another topic).

and like no, people simply ask to not be called this by strangers or have whole communities be called a slur. you can reclaim words that might’ve been used against you, but that nor the fact that it’s been reclaimed by more people over the past few years doesn’t make it not a slur anymore suddenly.

like just say LGBT for others, if it deems relevant to the context, and stop referring to strangers or a community at large with a slur that’s used against people to this day.