#dont hug people when they're having a panic attack

[certifiedstarrr]

Open Arms - Matt Sturniolo

warnings: panic attack, kissing, use of y/n, degradation thoughts, use of pet names, & fluffy fluff

POC FRIENDLYYY !!

summary: y/n has a panic attack because she was petrified of falling behind and disappointing people around her. Not wanting to be to annoying or clingy to Matt, and trying not let people down. Matt assists and reassures that she’s not letting people down and she’s doing great.

a/n: sorry if this is bad, but leave reqs in my inbox anytime, ily💕 also i know after party pt.4 has been put off awhile but i’m making time to fix it😭🤞

wc: 1k

not proofread (a bitch dont got no time for that shit)

based off of this song ↓

“when no one’s around me, you lost and found me, i was surrounded, with open, open, open, Open Arms”

y/n’s pov

fucking stupid idiot. you should have done it but look where you are now. from before i had 2 things on my to-do list

・Flashback・

“well, i’ll do it later.”

i wrote it down on my to-do list. i pet my dogーkelani and hug her,

“it’s okay i will get to it.”

i wrote down “get this week’s groceries and kelani’s dog food”

just make sure to get to it y/n.

・Now・

i had well over 7 things on my to-do list. i should’ve just done it while I could. so fucking dumb y/n. why do you let this happen? first it was my college classes, food for my dorm, the triplet’s birthday, my car repairs, my sister’s wedding back in london , my mom wants me to visit her in new york, and I have to study for my literature exam. if I don’t get anything for the triplet’s birthday they’ll definitely be disappointed, if i don’t visit my momーshe’ll definitely be upset; and if I don’t go to my sister’s wedding in london, i’m going to be seen as disrespectful to my elders.

i felt something bad was gonna happen but i wasn’t sure.

I was leaning on my bed, going through the list over and overーscolding myself each time. a sharp pain drilled through my chestーa new type of painーsomething i’d never felt before. but this? this hurt like hell. and all at the same time my vision got blurred and breathing became impossible. i’d decided that i had to call matt. he’d surely know how to deal with this, right? as i continued sobbing repeatedly, with breathing impeccably difficult, and my vision completely shattered. my phone rung a couple times, then,

finally he answered.

“hey baby what’s up?”

“matt i- n-need help”

my voice was in a mid-whisper but he still heard it.

“please help m-“

my voice was cut by me dropping my phone.

all of a sudden, my palms sweat and feel prickly and my clothes are overly tight. i hug myself and get into a fetal position, feeling like everything is wrong and i’m going to let everyone down and be one big disappointment.

matt’s pov

we were filming friday’s car video when i got that call from y/n. her voice sounded like she was crying, but she said help me. what the fuck happened?

“hey guys something is wrong with y/n”

“what happened?” chris questioned.

“her voice was all shaky and it sounded like she was crying or shit”

no questions were asked. nick didn’t yell or go on a rant about leaving. just driving.

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when i got to her room she was laying on the floor in fetal position, weeping, sobbing. god i hate to see her like this. curls laid out around her shoulder and her beautiful face covered in tears.

"matty?"

"yes baby its me"

"i don't know what to do matt," y/n said in between sobs whilst grabbing her chest trying to breathe.

i held y/n against me and tell me what's wrong.

"what's wrong y/n?"

"m-my vision went blurry and breathing became impossible and my palms felt like they were being poked by a million needles, my clothes got too tight and and-"

"you're having a panic attack y/n"

she didn't hear me so she went on about what happened.

"im going to let everyone down mattーthey're never gonna forgive me,"

"i have too much on my to-do list and if i dont do it i'm letting everyone down"

"look baby we're gonna take it one step at a time, one thing at a time."

"o-okay"

"let's breathe in on 3, okay?"

"okay"

y/n’s pov

i took a nice breath in then repeated the same motion, breathing out. my vision got better, my clothes stopped feeling too tight, palms stopped being pricked.

"thank you matt"

"of course y/n"

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we crossed off things of my to-do list, one by one, and before i realized i only had 2 things left on to-do list; like before.

i've never had a panic attack before and that attack could have been worse. but before i could spiral and get lost inside the darkness, i found my light.

matt was my light.

he was there for me, and always there with Open Arms

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extra: first of all, im so so so so so sorry for starving you all to fucking death; this fic took me forever😭😭

but tysm for reading !!

xoxo, riri <3

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(comment here be on the taglist !!)

[rzyraffek]

Could you do Eddie with a short play sise reader? Everytime ppl write for short reader's they're always skinny:(

(GN excluding obvi Eddie being Eddie)

BRO REAL I don't like when fanfic writes add how s/o should look like, it should be up for readers imagination in my opinion (and person requesting obviously)

She/her, sfw mostly, Request open if u want some eddie

Eddie gluskin with short plus size s/o

Okay let's start with her height.... o my gosh s/o is soo cute!!! Eddie can't get enough of you!

He is also extremely tall so most of people are short in comparison anyways

He totally picks her up, HE DOESNT CARE HOW MUCH SHE WEIGHTS dude litteraly picked up grown ass man up in game

Totally thinks that s/o is his lil cute darling🥰

Even more protective than normal, cuz not only s/o is in abandoned psyh ward but also so smol

Headpats, cupping s/o face, yoinking s/o of the ground and just carring her where he wants

Feeds her well😊😊 dont ask what kind of meat is that and why is it still moving please, but except that its a Good meal!

Loves when she sits on his lap and hug him, he loves wrapping his arms around her chubby thise and round hips

Also loves how squshy they are! He could just spend whole day cuddling and humming and complementing and giggling

Bro does not care, honestly he loves them so much, no matter how tall and what size she is. He is starstruck and so much in love

Playfully bites them

Cooking together😊

In some places in this psychic ward its cold dark and scary. I can see eddie accidentally losing her and having lil panic attack (with lil tantrum too meow) and just litteraly not noticing s/o who is like 3meters away from him cuz shes difficult to spot due to her height.

Also future!s/o just hiding under desk or in some spaces when he looks around the whole floor

Also on wedding he makes her custom dress, with cute white flowers (insert some wedding dress themed stuff, idk I never been married)

[tonberry-yoda]

Hello, Tonberry. May I ask a Genos x femreader, and it's about fluff alphabet, the letters are C, J, U, and Y. Could be these four be related to each other, on the same situation? Thanks for read.

hi anon!! omg i almost never write for one punch man, so i love seeing requests for it!!! also genos is such a cute, i absolutely love this idea and love the fluff alphabet, so I hope you enjoy!!! <3 thanks for the request anon!

Genos fluff alphabet (C, J, U, Y)

Pairing - Genos x reader

Warnings - none!!

Notes - (inspired by this post) i am so sorry i couldnt find a way to connect them, so it's just fluff alphabet, but i think it's so cute nonetheless and i hope you agree. also, my apologies for not posting writing in a while and not getting to my requests, i had a bit of a block lol, but i should be getting to more of them!!! have a good day everyone and stay hydrated!!! <333

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

man doesnt know how to react to your feelings at first tbh

he would be sweet and considerate, but definitely confused

you would run into his arms, sobbing

he would freeze a little confused and then you pull his arms around you and from then on he knows that tears means a hug

unless you said otherwise ofc

he would rub your back and just hold you silently

no words have to be said unless you want to talk about it

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

i dont think he would

he knows that you know other people and have friends

HOWEVER

if he sees you talking to another guy for too long and sees that cute giggle of your slip out, he would rush over to you and stand by you the entirety of the conversation lol

but other than that, i just dont think he would get that jealous

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

it took him a while, but he knows you better than most people

he knows that you're strong, but can also have a hard time doing that for too long

he knows when you need a hug

he knows when you need to talk

he understands and loves you with all of his heart and will listen to you better than anyone ever has

Y earning - How will they cope when they're missing their partner?

he would be fine at first

and then he's be a huge baby

i mean, do you see how he is around Saitama??? like he's his mama or smthn smh

he would just wait for you to get back, cleaning your house

if anyone else is around he would pout that you arent home while making food or something lol

its like that spongebob and patrick meme where patrick is like "wait for you to get back" lmao

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

i have been crying on and off for the past twelve hours because no one wants to play with my hair.

In this essay, I will explain to you why starving someone with adhd of physical touch is SO detrimental.

HA

YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T GOING TO WRITE THE ESSAY HUH

WELL HERE IT IS BITCHES

People with adhd suffer from what is commonly known as 'object impermanence'. This being the case, it kinda narrows down our potential list of love languages (btw this is by no way all encompassing to the adhd community, but this is based off both personal experience and a lot of research) Soooo that leaves us with words of affirmation, quality time, and physical touch. And you know what goes hand in hand? Quality time and physical touch. SO for the purpose of this essay/dissertation/rant, we're going to consider those as one and the same (yes i am completely aware how different they can be BUT FOR THE PURPOSE OF THIS ESSAY-). Take words of affirmation away- those go away pretty quickly anyway- and you're basically left with physical touch.

If you deprive someone who REGULARLY and CHRONICALLY lacks dopamine, the chemical needed in order for their brain and body to function, be happy, basically be human, and then deprive them of the medium in which they prefer to experience affection in, I'll be damned if they're NOT crying non stop for the next twelve hours only to go numb from the overstimulation and raging swells of emotion. Not to mention, rejection sensitivity dysphoria, or RSD, is SUPER common with people who have adhd and is kinda hard to combat once they're already in a swing of dysphoria, so when you 'reject' them (deprive them of their affection) you're basically telling them, "nope, you're lying to me about your needs, you don't need this affection right now, or ever, and you're just a clingy little bitch."

Ahem.

Of course, it's completely understandable when the person who is supposed to be physical with the adhder isn't in the mood for hugs or hair playing or cuddling, but if you consciously have an adhder and they need that kind of affection, then BOTh of you need to be equipped with strategies and mechanisms to 1) combat the RSD 2) meet both people's needs 3) BE FUNCTIONAL HUMAN BEINGS

the worst part is, because people with adhd experience such strong and crippling RSD, a lot of the time they can't even bring themselves to ASK for affection which them leads them into a further pid of dysphoria and depression which then leads to a NON FUNCTIONAL HUMAN BEING.

So. What am I saying? Cuddle your peeps with adhd (consensually.) And play with their hair. Especially if they explicitly asked for it, because that shit is hard. Give them a hug. Hold their hand. We're touched starved out here, people, do fluffy domestic shit or smth. Pull us by the belt loops and give us crushing hugs that could end panic attacks I DONT KNOW GET CREATIVE

[the-s1lly-corner]

.....i hate that you converted me. Fine, you win, may i please request Itward comforting reader? The post about matchmaking(specifically the bit where they get locked up) made me feel. Things.

I just think it would be interesting to see usually laidback and chill reader crumble a little at this. Specifically because i hate hate hate things going out of control when i expect them to be predictable. Outside? Yeah, i cannot control the world, it's not my burden. In a group of people? Well am a part of it only, so i can only do my thing and socialize, not police what they're doing.(althrough i do so.. sometimes.. i just like being reliable..) But in MY LIVING ROOM? Nah, if something unusual is happening i'm stressed. Oh the door is closed? Well fuck, just gonna have to sit here and panic, then rage for a bit and try not to cry. And if its a tight/dark space? OHOOHOOO, a panic attack is waiting!

Itward comforting reader !

Yahoo I'm finally getting to this ehehehe!! Hope you enjoy this!

As for the converting

Giggles

Evilly smiles

The evil spell has worked (evil spell is my writing and character interpretations)

Also that last bit gave me an idea so this post is gonna tackle two settings, in terms of where you guys get locked up >:)

Side note today today by jack stauber reminds me of itward idk why

So it may have.. left my mind.. but I forgot that itward can kinda. Teleport. Or at least make little portals, as seen in chapter 1... as well as being able to just vanish as seen when he opens the window for fran in the twins house (not sure if that was him becoming invisible or teleporting, both seem in character)

But let's say, for the sake of plot and perhaps some character stuff... there are rules for his abilities, which can prevent him from using them. Mostly cooldown stuff, which.. wouldnt prevent it much unless hes doing it a lot but.. hush, I dont have many ideas!!

With that said, let's get on with the post!

Assuming you guys are locked in a room within the ship:

At first only you notice the door shutting. Itward doesnt notice it wont open until he goes to exit, only to find you're both stuck. Lets also say this is the only room with one exit; so the chemistry room most likely. Though if it were any of the other rooms, we can assume the second exit is also locked down

Itward would likely think that it's a malfunction of sorts, thanks to the doors not being manual push/pull doors... probably silently curses himself for not thinking about the possibility of a jam

Though, hes very clearly a skilled mechanic and engineer, so hes already thinking of what could be the issue and how to fix it

Probably gets way too sucked in taking off the button panel thing to get into the mechanics and wiring... it's not until he notices you quietly freaking out that he looks over his shoulder to check on you

Oh..

Oh dear..

Slowly drops the spare tools he keeps on him (I mean.. we DID see him pull a wrench out of no where when he started working on his ship during the fire berry thing... perhaps he keeps them within his bones? Like his rib cage? Like obviously it was just the game trying to save time from hydt having him pull one out rather than animate him picking one up from the ground buuuuut I'm silly)

Quietly asks if youre alright

A silly question, he can admit, hes been around many people and this is no new sight for him..

Barely refrains from putting a hand on your shoulder but stops before he reaches you, afterall hes never seen you like this and he doesnt know if you're okay with touch

Assures you that he will have the door open soon, correctly assumes that that is the issue... I mean, he can understand why it's scary, I mean, to be trapped like that. No one would like that

(Ignore that he did the same to fran, albeit non maliciously)

Refuses to get to work on the door (doesnt even realize hes prolonging the issue) until he can get through to you and help you

Hangs onto every word you say, and delivers anything you need

Need a hug? He will wrap his arms around you, and perhaps even purr. Need reassurance? He'll let you know the door is just jammed and he will fix it soon enough. Need to fill the silence? Itward will rattle on about things to keep it from going wuirt5

As soon as the door is opened he steps out of the way, letting you exit first

Keeps a close eye on you for a few hours after the fact

If you guys get locked in a closet

This one is already way worse thanks to the limited wiggle room as well as the darkness. The only light is coming from itwards eyes, and even then its not a lot

You guys are pressed up against each other, but this little scenario is not at cheesy or romantic... itward can feel your heart beating against him, so he immediately knows something is wrong

How did you guys even end up trapped here?

I dunno :3

It's too tight and cramped to move, so itward trying to force the door open or mess with the button panel is a no go.. really, of all the doors to have a manual door, the broom closet should have been the one to have it..

Honestly I think he tries 1 of 3 things

Force the door open with his strength (can he do that? We know that in terms of his powers hes packs a bit of a punch, he managed to face off remor to buy fran time in chapter 1, but I'm unsure of how strong he is physically)..though hed have to try to twist around to face the door

Knock on the door with his foot to try to get someones attention for help, and perhaps guide them through how to open the door

Or three, try his little teleporting trick and take you with him

Regardless of what option he goes through, he can't deny that theres something wrong with you

Unfortunately of you need a hug he cant, given the limited room.. plus you may feel claustrophobic enough..

Tries to give nervous reassurances as he tries to come up with an idea

Most likely case is the teleporting thing, assuming he has the capabilities of doing so in that moment

But just know as soon as you guys are free hes sitting you down at the table in the main area of his ship and making you a cup of tea

Quietly asks you if everythings alright

Similarly, he keeps a close eye on you for a while after this

[mooodyblue]

I would love another caregiver!Austin ficlet or headcanons because they’re super comforting! maybe Aus finds out about the reader’s regression for the first time and is just… SOOO sweet about it because he really would be

i love love looove writing about cg!austin!!! literally one of my favorite things to write about, here's some headcannons for ya! 💗 said i was taking a break from writing today but i love writing headcannons okay!! this is gonna be a long one

cg!austin h.cs | finding out you're a little

masterlist

you've been a little like .. prior to dating/meeting austin. you'd never really been open about it to many people, not even austin

you always regressed by yourself at the end of the day, even after you spend the day with him

sometimes you wished you had the courage to tell austin. you spend too many nights crying to your plushie friends about it.

"what if aus thinks 'm weird? s'he gonna leave me?"

one time he comes over and finds one of your paci's laying on the kitchen counter. he asks you about it and you say "oh, my friend brought her baby over" none of your friends have babies

when he asks you to move in, panic arises. how are you going to be little when you're living with austin?

when you do move in, you keep all your little stuff in a box and always wait until he's not home to be little.

it happens when you have a really bad day. like really bad. all you wanted to do was be little and to hug your stuffie and watch your cartoons but austin was home, so you couldn't do any of that.

you were super on edge the whole day, making snide remarks and being very snarky towards him. that causes an argument, your first argument actually, and he leaves for a little bit to blow off some steam

that was your breaking point. you dug out your stuffie and emotional support blanket and curled up on the floor, crying, scared he wasn't going to come back and that he was going to leave you. you didn't want him to be upset with you, you didn't mean to make him angry.

he's very confused when he comes home and sees you in the bedroom looking lost in a childlike state of mind. he crouches down on the floor in front of you, "what's going on?"

"aus hates me. gonna leave me, thinks 'm mean."

austin looks at you confused. the sudden babytalk, the tone and all....he didn't find it weird, but he didn't really know what was going on. he went along with it though.

"i don't hate you and i'm definitely not gonna leave you." he replied with a soft tone, the same tone he used with his friends kids. his more 'fatherly' voice.

it was soothing/comforting having him speak to you in that way.

he asks you about the plushie in your hand, asking if they have a name and what they're like. all while he pulls out his phone and tries to figure out what's going on with you.

when he does figure it out, he's kinda bummed out that you kept this from him but he definitely understands.

he spends the rest of the day watching over you, snuggling up to you and overall just being the caregiver you always wanted. he decided to wait until he knew you were out of your headspace before asking you questions.

"baby? you still little?" "oh god. you weren't supposed to find out like this."

you have a slight panic attack but austin assures you that it's okay, he's here for you and he's not going to leave you

he lets you tell him when you're ready, he doesn't force it out of you or anything (although he's a little impatient about it, he just doesn't want you to slip again and he doesn't know what to do)

you sit him down and explain it all to him. why you regress, when it first started, what ages you typically regress to and all the dos and donts for when you're regressed. he takes notes in his phone so he can write it down later, which is very sweet of him!!! of course, he agrees to be your caregiver and apologizes in advance if he messes anything up

you show him all the things you've been keeping in your box, introducing your plushies one by one and him asking you about each one. he loves how excited you get when you talk about when and where you got each of your little plushie friends.

he always refers to your stuffies as "friends"

it was a rough start at first, but he got the hang of it very quickly!!

he ends up spoiling you rotten and you have no regrets about opening up to him about this side of you. he absolutely loves taking care of you and learns all your little triggers and such immediately. you couldn't have asked for a better cg 💗

i could go on and on abt cg!austin but lemme shut up now

[galaxae]

HIIII could you do the ship questionnaire for my bestest friends sebastian and tariq specifically the love section :3

you are so fucking epic thank you for asking. it's been a while since i've done anything for those two but rest assured they are on the brain

ship questionnaire can be found here (pls send me asks! or dont! my oc ships are charity/ace, sebastian/tariq, and uhh lucia/v but those two are not as well developed as the first two ships)

Who said “I love you” first?

tariq did! it was on sebastian's birthday, december 28, the first birthday for either of them since they started dating about 3 months prior. sebastian invited him over to his house for it. he usually had huge birthday bashes, and he was going to the next day, but for his actual birthday he just wanted a nice dinner with his bf and brothers. as tariq was leaving after the dinner (which was a bit awkward, but very sweet regardless), he hugged and kissed sebastian and said "i love you". sebastian was silent for a moment and then said it back :) and then tariq went home and had a panic attack about saying it, lmao

What are their primary love languages?

tariq likes gift giving and he likes receiving words of affirmation. physical touch is also very nice half the time, and the other half the time he'd rather die. sebastian likes giving words of affirmation as a more shallow and performative expression of love, but when he really falls for tariq, he does his true expression of love which is quality time. he's also a physical touch enjoyer

Who uses cheesy pick-up lines?

sebastian uses cheesy pickup lines at first, which flatters and charms tariq "the only people who've ever complimented me are my parents, and one of those parents is dead" al-amin so much. once tariq gains enough confidence, that flips. and oh boy, sebastian can dish it out, but he really can't take it. he is rendered speechless by tariq's attempts at pickup lines, even if they're really bad or awkwardly delivered, seb just loves it

How often do they cuddle/engage in PDA?

not very often at all. tariq is way too socially anxious to agree to pda, and sebastian wants to keep their relationship under wraps as much as he can so the media doesn't get all weird (seb is a celebrity, whoops)

Who initiates kisses?

sebastian does at first. but like with the pickup lines, tariq eventually gains some confidence and is the one to initiate more often instead

Who’s the big and little spoon?

tariq is the little spoon 100%, and sebastian is the big spoon 100%, it works out

What are their favorite things to do together?

honestly? just kinda hang out and chat. the beginning of their relationship involves a lot of Dates(TM), to fancy restaurants, cafes, the movie theater, etc. but they soon calm down a little as their relationship becomes less performative on both ends. they sit in the same room while tariq does his coursework and sebastian trains, and they'll play video games or listen to music together too. just the simple things.

Who’s better at comforting the other?

sebastian is better at that. he's got such a good charisma stat. tariq has like -2 charisma BUT he soon learns that just being a gentle, quiet, calming presence that doesn't expect a performance will be super comforting to seb, so tariq's not half bad at that either

Who’s more protective?

they have a goddamn competition going or something to see who can be more protective. sebastian is like, i'm gonna track down beat up that one girl who pranked you in 7th grade, and also i'm gonna make sure this relationship stays as secret as possible because i don't want you to suffer from fame, and if someone tries to question why you're next to me i will use my ice powers to freeze their mouth shut. and tariq is like, i will straightup break my whole body to go help if you seem even a little in danger, i don't care if i'm useless in a fight, i'm gonna beat up the supervillain that hurt you and murdered one of your brothers and no you can't stop me. fuck you. their mutual friends are so tired of their bullshit.

Do they prefer verbal or physical affection?

mostly physical, in many forms. unless tariq is having a bad sensory day, or bad symptoms from his chronic illness, in which case verbal affection is the way to go

What are some songs that apply to their relationship, in-universe or otherwise?

idk many, but i know um, it's kind of a lot by will wood honestly reflects both of their perspectives, they're both afraid of losing each other for many many reasons. particularly sebastian, he's not used to genuinely falling in love with the guys he asks out

What kind of nicknames do they call each other?

tariq calls sebastian "habibi", and eventually he takes to calling him "sebby" too, a nickname usually only reserved for sebastian's brothers. sebastian calls tariq things like "babe" or "baby" at first, but as they get closer, he starts calling tariq "my songbird".

Who remembers the little things?

they both do, but tariq especially, he has a keen eye for details and a sharp memory when it comes to things he's actually interested in (i.e. his boyfriend), so he remembers and points out those things all the time. sebastian notices the little things too, but he's unused to being this deeply in love, and he struggles to articulate those little things that he notices -- he can't fall back on his rehearsed, more generic compliments, and this causes discomfort, so he doesn't really say or do anything about those details

gawd this was fun i miss these two :3 thank you again!!

[darkbluekies]

☁️  (1/3) hey! im back ^__^ sorry ive been away for quite a while. irl stuff has been taking up most of my time lately T__T ... but i still try and check up on your blog when i can. i have a lot to say hehe >:] so now FIRST OF ALL... lets talk about my previous ask.

— I CANT BELIEVE PEOPLE USED TO COPY YOUR STORIES WTF... what happened if you dont mind me asking 😓

— OML THE HUGGING DR KRY FROM BEHIND. IM SO HAPPY YOU WROTE IT TBH LIKE THAT WAS SO GOOD. i didnt know how much i needed a oneshot where his darling gets a panic attack but here we are 😭 THE CONFRONTATION TOO!!

— ... you shouldnt have said that. YOU SHOULDNT HAVE SAID THATTT!!!!HSJKS!!!JS!!SKD!!!! sqUEEZING dr kry's ARMS ? BUFF ARMS ? MAN WHAT IF I BITE IT TOO HUH??? WHAT IF I WHAT IF I (dashes to my secret stash of dr kry ideas)

AAAAAAAAA MY CHILD IS HOME I WAS THINKING ABOUT YOU EARLIER TODAY

Don't apologize!!! Please make sure to take care of yourself<333333

Im she/her!!

I have a wattpad, and my readers send in when they find someone copying my stories. When I see that someone does, I message them and ask them to change or put me as the cred. I usually help them with a new idea and with the writing if they're understanding. One time someone copied a oneshot of mine and uploaded it to YouTube and took all the cred ... so mh readers helped me get it down!!

DR KRY SUPREMACY I LOVE WRITING ABOUT HIM. he's such a cold character to other people than his darling <333 ID SAY BITE IT, HED PROBABLY LIKE THAT-

The cynical playhouse is probably my favorite oneshot I've made to date (it contaisn EVRRYTHING FROM GORE TO FLUFF). I've finally started to find my old style again. When I was like 10-15 I wrote in a very graphic and violent way which I lost when I was writing fanfiction because I have limits when it comes to real humans :/ but now that i have made my own characters, I've managed to let lose and found back to the old style, especially with the cynical playhouse!!!

Please show me your drawing someday :((( I see the room in my mind and it's basically a rectangular space with the bed I the middle towards the bed, windows and Dr Krys desk on the readers right (when they're in bed), the door out to the corridor on the left and the door to the bathroom in front of them!! The bookshelf is on the empty wall to the left!!

PLEASE SHARE YOUR DR KRY IDEAS WITH ME IM DYING FOR IT</3

For me it really doesn't matter how people see my characters!! If you think he's blonde, make him blonde haha, I have the OG design but if you think he looks hotter in another way, imagine him however you want :>>

I KNOW IM SO SHOCKED, I LOOKED AF THE GROWTH THJNG AND WEVE GROWNED IVER 260 FOLLOWERS OR EVEN MORE IN A MONTH. I REACHES 300 A FEW DAYS AGO😭❤️

Blue is so cute :(((( my favorite color is dark blue (hence my username) and sadly, I don't have a lot of nicknames. My friend calls me (my name)-cita my family has a joined nickname for me but it's so ugly that I won't tell you haha. I'm perfectly fine with Blue, it's so cute :>>

I'VE MISSED YOU NOW TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND GET SOME WELL DESERVED SLEEP

[moonscarsandstars]

this is my first time writing a trans character, and as someone who’s cis, i’ve never experienced dysphoria. so please call me out if i got anything wrong, and if i did, i’m really sorry.

tw; dysphoria, anxiety / panic.

~~~

“What’s in that letter?”

Regulus looked up from his book, eyes meeting Sirius’s. Sirius hastily crushed a browning piece of paper, and stuffed it in his pocket.

“None of your business,” snarled Sirius, slouching back in his seat.

In Regulus’s opinion, this event was too glamorous to be considered a funeral- really just an excuse to match up more cousins, and produce more heirs. The large hall had been cleared of Uncle Alphard’s hoards of collections.

It seemed so foreign, not like something uncle Alphard would’ve been a part of.

“What is it? There’s something, and I know it,” he said through gritted teeth, trying to dull out the noise as more people came in.

“It’s nothing,” Sirius spat out like poison, glaring at Regulus. “Even if it was something, you’d go and blab about it to Mother and Father, wouldn’t you?”

Regulus tried to swallow the guilty feeling that rose up in his throat. “I’d only tell for your safety.”

“Safety?” Sirius barked out a loud, bitter laugh.

“Shh!”

“They’d kill me! They’d kill me if you told half the shit you cant keep inside your mouth.”

“That’s not true,” whispered Regulus, wishing the ground would swallow him whole as piercing glares turned towards the two of them.

“It’s true and you fucking know it,” he growled.

“Why don’t you give them a chance, Sirius? Y’know they’re actually human too.”

“Human?! They’re fucking monsters. You wouldn’t know, would you? You’re the perfect son, aren’t you?”

Regulus felt that familiar pang of emotion, and twist in his stomach. He swallowed thickly, biting his lip to keep tears or shouts escape him.

Something felt wrong. Something was wrong.

Sirius slipped the paper in between a book with a purple cover, before storming off outside. Regulus sighed, staring back up at the giant crystal chandelier hanging off the ceiling, and trying to shake off that feeling of dread, along with his chest tightening.

~~~

That tightening feeling didn’t go away, and by night, Regulus could barely keep from screaming. He let his nails travel over his dry skin for maybe a second of being able to fucking breathe.

“Fucking Sirius,” he muttered to himself, getting up from the bed and stretching fingers through his hair, feeling another wrench in his gut.

A sudden creek made him jump out of his skin, as he jumped back to bed and tried to keep as still as possible.

Peering through a think gap in the blanket, he saw his mother walk quickly down the corridor. He caught a glimpse of her black earrings- the ones that cost more than the house they lived in. She always wore them when going out.

Where could she be going now?

Regulus walked softly, avoiding the unsteady planks of polished wood, as he slowly followed her.

“Reg?”

Regulus snapped his neck around, to see an exhausted Sirius in his pajamas, a large, blackening gash across his cheekbone.

“What happened?” Whispered Regulus, moving closer.

“Dear mother,” he mumbled, irking a “sh!” from Regulus. He went back to whispering. “She wants me to get married.”

“Married? You’re fifteen!”

"When I’m sixteen. Didn’t you know that the bitch- Bella got betrothed at fifteen?”

“What?!”

“I know, brother, this family is a little fucked up.”

There was that unexplainable wrench in his gut, that made him nauseous again. He swallowed, willing for it to go again.

“Please don’t say that.”

“What? That this family’s dysfunctional, fucking abusive-”

Why was he feeling dread? Why was he feeling uncomfortable? Why was his skin crawling?

“-but of course, you’d never know, would you? You’re just going to grow up to be the producer to the next heirs-”

Ounces of anger were building up in him.

“-because you’re the perfect boy, aren’t you? You’re just their model, to show to the rest of the world-”

Rage that Regulus couldn’t explain was filling him, almost erasing the itching feeling that made him want to scream.

“-son, aren’t you? The perfect inbred father to-”

“Don’t call me a him!”

If there was any calm between the brothers before, it had completely disappeared now.

“What did you say?”

Sirius didn’t sound snarky, nor did he sound angry. Instead, in a way... confused? Gentle? Regulus couldn’t tell. Especially not with the growing fear that was piercing through his veins.

Ice was travelling through him, and suddenly everything was rotating round him. There was no oxygen in the air.

Suddenly, a bony, uncomfortable hand landed on his shoulder, grounding him back.

“I will not have my son acting weak. Pull yourself together.”

That was it.

Regulus didn’t know what was happening, but before he knew it, he was running faster than he’d ever before. Breaths were tearing at his lungs, and his legs were burning.

Cold, icy air hit him like a wall, and he suddenly stopped to see the tall gates of the entrance to the manor. 

“Reg! Reg, wait up!”

Sirius’s voice only further made the fear in his chest multiply. Suddenly, he was being hugged, trapped, and he couldn’t breathe.

“Get- get off me!”

The tight arms let go of him, and he could breathe. He could see tears in Sirius’s eyes, running down his cheek. Both of them were shaking in the cold, and Regulus couldn’t keep his jaw from clattering.

“Reg,” he sobbed. Sobbed- something Sirius never did.

“What, Sirius?”

Fear crept slowly up inside him.

Sirius’s arms wrapped around him, and he swallowed tightly, begging for tears to keep themselves from rising.

~~~

Sirius’s bed was much softer than Regulus’s, and it felt like he was sinking in the mattress.

“D’you honestly sleep in this?”

“I’d rather sleep in this than that plank of wood you call a bed,” snorted Sirius, as Regulus felt his hands over the mattress.

A few moments of silence that felt strained against Regulus.

“Do you want to talk about it?”

No he didn’t. Yes he did. Did he?

That feeling rose up again. Might as well get this over with.

“It irritates me when you and mother call me a boy.”

Sirius’s eyebrows shot up. Regulus’s heart skipped a beat. 

This wasn’t a good idea.

“So... you don’t want to be a boy?”

“I- uh- I-” the words were stuck in his throat. It was such a simple question, yet it meant everything to Regulus. “I don’t know! No?!”

“You- you aren’t a boy, then? So are you a girl?”

“No!”

Now Regulus was just being stupid. What else was he supposed to be? He was just overreacting now. He was going to apologise, go to bed and-

“So you’re non binary?”

Regulus’s heart skipped a beat.

“What?”

“Are you non binary?”

“What does that mean?” Regulus asked cautiously, keeping himself as guarded as he could.

“It means you aren’t a girl or a boy. Aren’t you?” Sirius looked at Regulus, whose heart was beating rapidly against his chest. 

“I- I think I am,” he whispered, trying to keep his voice from breaking. “I’m non binary?” He asked, almost as if he was trying the word out on his tongue.

“Are you?”

“Yes- I- I am.”

“So do you want to be a ‘they’ and ‘them’?”

“What?”

“Instead of people calling you ‘he’, I meant.”

“Yes,” muttered Regulus, as realisation dawned on him. Though he felt scared sick, that feeling of tension had never disappeared, leaving him feel so... clear before.

“Mother won’t be okay with this,” he said with a laugh.

There it was. There was the part where Regulus would realise that nothing would work out for them.

Them.

It felt right. Like something finally clicked in place.

“What if mother finds out?” Asked Regulus, not sure if they wanted the answer.

“She won’t. I promise.”

Neither of them knew who started it, but in a second, Regulus and Sirius were hugging tighter than they’d ever before.

“Thanks, Sirius. Thank you so much,” they muttered between sobs.

“Your welcome. Don’t ever forget- I love you.” 

[ablackfangirlwrites]

Jealous ll

Part 2!!!! I linked the sone again cause its a bop and I love it also heres pt one!

You had had enough

Thats what you kept telling yourself

As you got ready tonight

You weren't going sit in the house anymore waiting for keigo to show up whenever he felt like it

Tonight you were going out for you

You thought about how you used to have fun, how you used to be happy

And how miserable you had been lately and you decided

If Keigo didnt appreciate you anymore

Then you'd find someone who would

So thats why you found yourself looking in the mirror admiring how well you dressed up tonight to go out

You almost forgot how hot you were when you put in a little effort

You had originally stopped because keigo would tell you how beautiful and perfect you were without make up or anything

But now you were on the prowl for someone new to notice you and keigo's words meant little to nothing to you right now

Tonight you were gonna find someone to show you just a little bit of attention you craved so much and it wasnt going to be keigo

Just then you saw keigo staring at you from the reflection in mirror

he was home unusually eailer

"Dont you have to work?" You asked bitterly

"Where are you going?" He asked ignoring your statement

Sighed and rolling your eyes and picking up your purse you turned to him before leaving the bedroom, "Out. You don't have to wait up for me."

"You're being ridiculous y/n."

He said following you but you ignored him

"Y/n? Y/n?" He kept calling you, "You cant just go out an-"

"And why not?" You turned to him before you left the apartment, "according to you were not even really dating-"

"You know why that is." He told you seriously

You huffed out a fake laugh, "yeah, but its still okay for you to flirt with anyone?"

Keigo didnt respond to that making you chuckle, "Exactly...like I said im going out dont wait up." Then you slammed the door leaving.

You knew you were being unreasonable with him

You knew the two of you needed to just talk and make up

But you kept letting your anger from all your arguments cloud your judgment

Because you just wanted him to feel the same hurt and jealously you had been feeling more then anything

Keigo stared at the door you had just slammed

Things somehow got worse in the following days after your argument on your anniversary

You refused to talk to him

He tried to apologize to you but you basically brushed him off

Keigo wasn't sure what to think you said you hated him, you wouldnt sleep in the bed with him

Yet you hadn't packed up and left so that was good right?

But that distance that was growing between the two of you was wider then before

And he didnt know what to do to fix it

And now you were going out clearly dressed to find someone else

Did you really hate him? Had you really had enough of him?

Hell, he couldnt even blame you if you did he thought

You had put up with so much of him up until now

And maybe some of what you said the other night was true? Had he gotten too comfortable with you always being there?

But that was only because he loved you

Keigo was truly in love with you, and dispite you suspensions he never cheated on you

And he would never do that, you were the only one he wanted even now when you two seemed to be at each others throats

He still wanted you, and he couldn't picture his life without you

So thats why he ended up following you to the bar you were currently at

He made sure you hadnt noticed him staying in the back out of your sight

And he hated what he saw

He saw you having fun

You had met up with some of your girlfriends the three of you all laughing and drinking

You acting like you didnt have a care in the world, like the two of you didnt argue before you left out

Having a good time as if you didnt leave him alone in the house

He watched you dancing as though you were having the time of your life as other mean stared and gawked at you

He watched as a guy singled you out and was clearly flirting with you

And worst you let him and was encouraging him

You kept touching his shoulder laughing at his jokes letting him dance against you

Words couldnt describe the irritation he felt watching

He wanted nothing more then to rip that mans hands off you and fly away with you in his arms

But part of him felt like he deserved this

This feeling he had, was it how you felt?

If so he needed to fix this, was all that he could think

And he was about to go to you, but before he could someone called out his name

"Hey! Hawks is here!"

Fuck he said to himself when a crowd started to form around him

His eyes then connected with yours knowing you heard he was here

And for a moment he thought you were gonna come up to him

But instead you kept talking to the random guy ignoring him

Hawks wanted to go to you and talk to just take you back home

But was having trouble getting away from the crowd

He was all smiles talking to his fans but the whole time he kept his eyes on you

But somehow it became a battle to see who was going to be more stubborn

You continued to dance with the random guy, but now you knew keigo was here watching you

You convinced yourself not to care, you came here to have fun and he wasnt going to ruin it for you

But thats just what he was doing as you watched him talk to some random girl now

He was here to get under you skin, you were sure of it

But two could play this little game

Both of you having this little war with each other watching each other from across the room

And you couldnt lie you were enjoying it a bit

Seeing his eyes watching you, knowing he had to be feeling the sting of jealousy as another man held you close

But It all came to a head when you saw the girl he was dancing with lips on his neck

He wasnt looking at you when you saw that all his attention clearly on her

You couldn't deny the sharp feeling in your chest at the sight

And not wanting to see anymore you left the dance floor telling the guy you needed to go to the bathroom

Hawks pulled away from the handsy fan

Denying anymore of her advances

Yeah he had been trying to get under your skin now but thats was a bit much

But now when he looked up to find you again, only to see you were gone

His stomach sank

Where did you go? You had to had just seen that?

Did you leave with that guy? Hawks started to panic when he didnt seem him either

Where did you go? Why was he being so stupid just now? He should have just went to talk to you

Just then keigo noticed the guy you had been flirting with at the bar and went up to him

"The girl you were dancing with? Where'd she go?"

The guy looked at him like he was crazy "whats it too you?" He challenged him

But keigo wasnt in a playful mood and grabbed the man by the collar, "Answer the question asshole."

The guy quickly put his hands up in defeat, "she just said-

"Hawks?"

He heard his name called out and looked behing him to see you

"What are- you are so unbelievable." Yku shook your head storming off

You couldn't believe him he had the audacity to attack the guy you had been talking to

It didnt take much thought to figure out why

And it annoyed you to no end

So keigo could flirt and let girls kiss all over him but if you had a guy around you that was too much

He was such a hypocrite

You were angry your whole way back home

You stood in the mirror once you got back

But with a different feeling in your stomach then the feeling you had before you left

You felt defeated your plans of fun had been ruined and you felt like your back in the same spot you had been in

Hawks was giving you a little bit of space taking his time getting back home

Because now you were probably madder than before at him

When hr got in he saw you had just got out the shower

"Y/n..."

You heard him call out your name But you ignored him

Y/n, you have to listen to me."

You werent going to turned around but before you knew it he hugged you from behind

"Im sorry."

"Let go of me hawks." You spat out but he didnt budge

"Just listen to me y/n..."

"Why are we doing this to each other?" You asked quietly, "Why do you keep hurting me? What are we even doing? It clearly isnt wor-"

"Ive been an idiot, y/n."

Keigo buried his face in your neck, "I've been so stupid, but please please dont leave me."

You were trying to fight back tears, "I dont want to leave you keigo....but I cant-"

"Dont say you can't with me anymore. I need you." Keigo pleaded holding you tighter

You were so frustrated

You still loved him, you still wanted to be with him, because when things are good between you they're great

But the way your relationship had been it was becoming too much

But you wanted to stay with him

Because you loved him

You moved your hands and held on to his arms secretly enjoying his embrace that you missed so much

"I know you mean well keigo-"

"I love you so much y/n," keigo cut you off again, "I know ive been an asshole, ive been neglectful, ive been the worst, but dont give up on me. Please."

You finally turned around to face him and hugged him back

You could see the sincerity in his eyes as you did "I love you too keigo but I just cant do this- we keep hurting each other...thats not what your supposed to do to the people you love."

Keigo pulled back "You want me to tell everyone about us? I will." He told you, "You want me to tell you everything ive been doing I will, I promise you Ill to whatever it takes to fix us. I dont want to live the way we have anymore."

You knew he was serious and your heart leaped hearing his words but you werent sure

"You're the only one I want y/n" he said giving you a light kiss

Almost like he was asking for permission

"Ill do whatever it takes for you to forgive me."

He said inbetween kisses, "you're so important to me, im sorry i made you think you weren't."

You couldnt lie he was finally saying everything you wanted to hear

And you wanted to believe him

"You promise?" You asked him

"I promise."

[clonepa3]

love these ppl harassing a gay person in the name of gay rights. like good job guys u have bullied another member of the lgbt community! maybe the cishets will love u now!! (they wont)

anyway I hope u have a wonderful day despite them

literally, it honestly really sad to see, when i was in the shower i was thinking about if this would of happen to me when i was at the start of my transition when i was like 14, i had just cut my braids off and was socially transitioning. and i was like "yeah, back then i would of had a panic attack" but then i thought like, "and then after i would go and get a hug from my mom, or talk to my friends about it" and for me it kinda clicked. the thing that alot of transmeds and terfs have alike is that they dont generally have a support system like i do, they dont feel like they can vent or cry to someone like a parent or a teacher because they're mentally isolated. the fact that the person was contacting me with a throw away blog also says it all, theyre somewhat ashamed of themselves or afraid if their face were attached to the situation that the people they do have in real life would reject them. i just hope some day, they find love and support and learn that its okay to be whatever or whoever you want, and that they dont need to invalidate others to make themselves feel bigger.

also i am having a good day :D my mom brang me a breakfast sandwich in bed and were gonna prepare for our small thanksgiving. im still looking for a good bread roll recipe!

[fairycosmos]

qnxiety is really never taken seriously the amount of times I've been literally breaking down and just been given a condescending eye roll and told to calm down. Like you don't think if I could i would??? Oh you seem anxious just relax!!!! Literally leaving my house or sitting in the driver's seat of a car feels me with never ending dread but thanks. It's treated like an immaturity thing and not like an actually illness and i hate it

ugh so trueeeee ever since i was a kid my anxiety has been minimized and brushed off like it isn't a literal mental disorder so i hear you completely. i think u really nailed it with the whole "treated like an immaturity thing not an actual illness" bit because that's exactly what it is. people would never say it in so many words but they get tired of being around someone who has frequent panic attacks and bursts of irrational thinking really fast. and it's much easier for them to just pretend you're overreacting/to just skim over the issue entirely and at the end of the day that's all they care about - their own convenience. plus anxiety is so normalized at this point that ppl literally just think ur feeling nervous and they dont get that ur in a completely heightened state of almost primal fear. i hate the looks i get when mine is bad TBH, it's like i can feel how sick of me everyone is, it just radiates off them. it's like you said, idk how they don't grasp that nobody would choose to live like this and it's simply not possible to just turn it off. feels like the world is ending all of the time so ofc ur going to have a reaction to that!!

i'm really sorry this has been ur experience with the ppl around you nd ur mental illness so far - having a good support system is such a key factor in learning to cope and it's not fair that they're all just dismissing you so thoughtlessly. you genuinely deserve so much better and i really hope ur able to find it, even if it takes a while to find those who really do get it. and i definitely do, so even though im prob miles away from u know that ur definitely not alone in feeling this way!! sending a big hug. x

[tonberry-yoda]

*runs up to you full speed and looks right into your eyes*

Do the entire fluff alphabet with Skeptic 🤨 🙏 💻

*runs away*

*pops head back out* please 👀 *runs away again*

thank goodness i have a fellow skeptic fiend like myself. thanks gurl, i can always rely on you (srsly tho i want more skeptic request fr fr). i hope this is a banger and that you have a radical day

Fluff Alphabet with Skeptic (Tomoyasu Chikazoku)

Pairing - Skeptic x reader

Warnings - none!

Notes - (image below not mine) (post inspired by this) sorry this took forever omg. but I love it! I dont get to write for this man enough, so thank you so so much! enjoy and stay hydrated!! <333

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

he just likes to sit and have you there in the background

he literally wont even talk to you, you just need be there

yall dont go out much together (i mean look at this cockroach of a man fr)

when you guys hang out the most it's usually at his place in your pjs just sitting and working in silence

sometimes you'll find his arm draped around your shoulder tho

and y'all definitely listen to music as you work and he builds a PC or something

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

he loves you

hecc yeah he does

he just like... doesnt admit it all the time

he will secretly admire you from afar

and stare at your thighs respectfully

he thinks you're really hot

like REALLY HOT

he just wont say that out loud of course

he also admires that you're a strong independent person who can tell him where to shove it

thinks its hot when you're telling him or other people what to do

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

stares at you while you're crying on your bed

walks out

man dont know how to comfort are you for real??!

like he will tell you to get over it and then reluctantly pull you in for a hug

then he'll just sit next to you and pop an earbud in your ear and listen to Gorillaz while you're pressed against him

he cares, he's just bad at emotions fr

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

marriage.

marriage or nothin

no kids tho

he just wants to be the hot married couple

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

he likes to think he's dominant when yall are just on equal footing

he'll try to tell you what to do and you'll just sit there and slow blink before tilting your head and going... "really?"

but he does the same to you, so yall do your own thing while being equal and happy

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

fighting with Tomoyasu would last DAYS

LIKE WEEKS EVEN

he just likes to pick fights tbh

he'll complain about little things and y'all will be crossing your arms at each other for weeks but still holding each other at night

they're never bad, just nit picky bullshit

you both end up just forgetting about it and go on with normal life

your'e never really mad at each other just cranky. married couples cant be in the honeymoon phase forever

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

he cares a lot about you and knows that you care a lot about him

he always has that why do they love me mindset whenever he looks at himself for too long in the mirror

he knows that you love him because even though he looks like a cockroach that just crawled out of your sink drain, you still press yourself against him and take him on dates and make him feel... worthy of love tbh and no one has ever made him feel that way

he will never admit this to you tho because he doesnt want to show you how cheesy he is

he will show you through a hug every blue moon and a cuddle every night

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

he shares everything, but he just doesnt hide anything

it's not like he's trying to hide anything from you, if what he needs to say comes along in a convo, he'll tell you

he just doesnt care to hide anything, but wont spill his whole life on you

if you didnt know about it it's because it was never brought up in conversation

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

he finds himself smiling more and taking to more people

like he became a little less introverted since you met him

he hates it but you love it

you actually came to love staying at home more because you get to spend that time with him, so you never feel like you constantly have to be out and about to be happy

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

yes

you're a very friendly person so if he sees you bring a little too friendly with someone, he will walk over to you, wrap his arm around your shoulders and dead stare that person in the eyes

then he'll complain about it later blaming how pretty you are and then a stupid argument ensues that ends with kisses and cuddles ;)

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

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DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED

this man's kisses would be like silk

like omg he's gorgeous

he would pull you in slowly and place his lips on yours softly turning into the hottest make out session in the world

AWOOOOGA

the first kiss: you kissed him

you just pecked him on the lips and he pulled you closer, asked if that's all you got and then y'all were kissin night

wish that were me frfr

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

he just told you

better to just say something

you were just walking on your college campus when he was like "i want to date you"

simple

easy

thank god it was fast because you wanted to tell him that for weeks, but didnt know how to say it

what a savior

M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

YES

as stated before lol

he would walk up to you, hand you the ring box and just sit and wait

you look up at him confused when you open the box and he eyes you, waiting for a response.

"tomo... what is this?"

"marriage. you wanted it, didnt you?"

"oh!" you laughed, slipping on the black ring and looking it over. "of course i will!"

you're wedding would be during fall and it would be all black. black clothes, black tables, black flowers, etc. it would be awesome

N icknames - What do they call their s/o?

darling

doll

dear

love

O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

he just stares at you

a lot

it's hard for him to say his feelings in words so instead he just stares at you

would hold your hand more often when he is really feeling in love with you

it is not obvious for others

the entire MLA has no idea that he has been married for over six years

it's just a run on joke at this point

P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

NO NO NO NO NO

he hates PDA with a passion

the most he will do is hold your hand or kiss you on the forehead, but he hates is so so much

i mean, if he's feeling jealous, he will purposely get handsy with you in front of other people to show that you're in a relationship, but other than that he doesnt want your lips touching his while you're out

that's for home and for home only

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that's beneficial in a relationship.

really good at cuddling somehow

also just makes you feel pretty and loved without him having to say anything

and back to those 400/10 kisses

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

you mostly have at home dates just sitting together and cuddling because he wants his hands on you and he cant do that in public

but if you do go out, he takes you to some fancy shit

nice resteraunts

like 5 star shit

expensive man

and yall always dress up as the power couple you are

S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

yeah, but in secret

he doesnt need to be up your ass when you're working on stuff, but he will definitely be supportive of your dreams

he knows you can do it by yourself tho so you're all good

T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

this man NEEDS a routine

none of that try new stuff shit

he needs to wake up and do his morning routine with you in the bathroom with him doing yours

he needs you both to head out to work at the same time with a kiss goodbye

he needs at home dates and occasional dinner dates

maybe a walk every now and again and a run every other day, but really, nothing changes all that much in his routine, only for trips, which are rare

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

he knows you like the back of his hand

he may not be good with emotions, but that doesnt mean he automatically doesnt know what you're going through

he knows what makes you sad and what doesnt

he knows when you need to be left alone

he knows you well enough to take a break every now and again

and he knows when you just need a hug

he loves you, he just doesnt vocalize it

V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

he could not live without you

breaking up with you would be a crime

he needs you

like literally NEEDS you

it's in his routine that you're there and without you... he would be nothing

you make him feel like he's worth life and he didnt realize how much he needed that until he met you

W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

he loves taking you on midnight drives in his nice car when neither of you can sleep

he also loves pressing kisses all over your face when you're asleep and dont notice

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

oh very much so

but tell anyone that and you're dead

he loves the feeling of his body pressed against yours

he literally purrs like a cat when y'all cuddle

and he's really good at cuddling

but you dont say any of this because you dont want him to stop

Y earning - How will they cope when they're missing their partner?

he just gets really stressed out

a huge part of his routine is missing so he is lost for the first part of his day if you arent there

its also too quiet for his liking

he likes hearing you complain that there's no more milk in the fridge and that you have to go to the store or get on his ass for not doing the dishes, but if you arent there, it's dead quiet and he's not a fan

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lenghts for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

he wants to keep you.

he would do anything to keep you in his life.

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@tonberry-yoda

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

the person talking abt how they have to hide being queer from their family just like same that hit home so hard, and also same to learning so much abt queer history I started learning from harry and louis (through the bears bc of course, duh) and I took up reading the books rbb and sbb hv had on them and hv been mentioned (judy garland!!) anyway so I learnt sooo much more than like I knew existed? idk if that makes sense and it also made me realise that i hv a lot of internalised homophobia and it does feel incredibly lonely sometimes, because I hv no friends that are out and proud and the group of ppl at my school who are, are so nice and friendly and polite and i love talking to them in the hallways or in class when we get paired up but im so scared of like actually integrating myself into their crowd (the one time i tired to attend a meeting I had a panic attack in the bathroom) and i dont know why im telling u all this

and I dont think ppl fully understand what its like everywhere else in the world because im never going to forget this one time at a party where a girl and her girlfriend got shouted and leered at by all those boys (and their girlfriends who just let it happen, I've literally heard one of those girls talk abt how amazing it is to have a gay best friend) and how when one of them responded back by telling them off for their disgusting behaviour the boys physically started approaching them in a threatening manner

theres also these rumours that circulate sometimes abt why some ppl arent coming to school for days at a time and when they do finally show up they're slightly bruised and its bc [insert person] did smth to them and so many ppl will just casually throw into the conversation their sexuality, like everyone will be talking abt what happened and what they heard and some random dumbass will quip "I heard they're gay" and they'll whisper it, like its forbidden or smth and everyone will nod their heads like yes I understand now, like it fucking makes sense that this happened and it makes me want to punch someone

and its so fucking scary to think abt how these things just happen and ppl pretend they dont see it and everytime someone tells me i can trust an adult i think of the 3 teachers who all passed by a student who was very rainbow (it was pride month) and watched some dude basically bang his shoulder into him and the dude laughed and walked away when the guy in rainbow tripped and they did nothing

and online I see so many ppl talk abt how its ok to be gay in all these big cities and how everyone so open now! and everythigns ok! and yay to gay! gay ppl are privileged! fucking bullshit I say

because all these memories of horrific things come to mind evertyime someone says that and I dont know where ppl are getting the idea its ok everywhere now

and the first time I heard a group of ppl talk abt harry styles in a dress on the cover of vogue i got so excited bc i had secretly gone out and bought my younger brother (he likes to wear dresses and nail polish) a copy and how I had done that so damn discreetly and how damn hard it was to get it to him through my parents to him, it was so exciting and we were !!! jumping for joy and the next day at school some girl by the lockers and she called him queer like it was an insult and that got so deep in my soul and its still there, the way she said it, the way she phrased it

and im sorry this is so long ik that persons post wasnt even abt how ppl say thats 'its cool to be gay now' and that it still very much isnt but it got that out of me and u dont hv to read all this im just having a bad day im sorry :((

i hope u hv a good day tho ella u're lovely and v kind nd u make me happier and i love reading ur thoughts and I'll stop typing now <3

kind anon!! i wanna hug you so tight!!!!!

i'm so sorry you're in a place rn where you don't feel safe, where you aren't safe, where people around you are actively hostile. truly truly sorry.

you're right, the world has not caught up at all, it's a nonexistent reality that being queer has been accepted, let alone embraced everywhere. hell, i live in brussels and if i hold a girl's hand we're gaped at. when i first wore my pride pin on my bag i was terrified. when i lived in my smaller town growing up it was very much like how you describe it (tho less violent, thankfully, which really breaks my heart to read about your situation).

it can be a lonely place to grow up, and really hateful, and you saying you have a lot of internalised homophobia also hits home for me. i'm still unlearning every day. it's all the hostility surrounding us that makes us conform so as not to be the target of it, yk. nothing to ever be ashamed of, bc it's not our fault we were raised to hate ourselves.

same with the queer ppl in your neighborhood, don't be ashamed of being afraid. take your time, go at your own pace, and slowly take some steps towards them. it'll be worth your while, but i know it can be scary. be kind to yourself above all <3

you sound like a wonderful sibling to your brother - goes to show how we'll always find a way to stick together and find our role models, despite the limits others put up!!

stay queer (laudatory), baby!!!

[i-may-be]

hey could i request a a match up?

i am a pan or demisexual girls

prefered pronouns: any pronouns

platonic or romantic: both

characters i wish not to be paired with: dainsleif or kaeya

my love languages: physical touch + words of affirmation ( im touch starve😭😭)

personality traits: as per my MBTI i am an ISTJ. I am introverted indeed(unless its related to work or studies somehow) I've been told that i am intimidating to people or have a resting bitch face. I can be mean to people I'm close with. I like staying mellow places like libraries, cafes and sometimes arcade. i like getting lost in my own world mostly. I am often very sarcastic. I have anxiety. I only like being around few people, the kinds of people who can be in silence without making it awkward. I tend to say random stuff alot that doesn't really make much sense. i make alot of awkward and dark jokes when im nervous or scared.

Whether i want multiple partner: sure

How i present myself: I tend to be that silent kid in back of the room at first, who somehow gets roped into some group and goes along with the dumb shit and ends up having even at the cost of being annoyed.I love being invested in a good book , manga or manhua. The kind of kid who's interests no one really understands , ya know? I just dont let anyones bullshit involve me ig. in terms of style i like dabbling in different aesthetic, mostly it involves autumn colours or blacks and greys, definitely chunky boots and alot of silver jewellery.

How I am when I'm comfortable with someone:

I am: It really depends, i can be very moody. Either I am very noisy , crack alot of jokes . I can be very outgoing. Or i can be that one person who often acts like a mom or has no energy to do anything.

Hobbies: i love listening to music , playing drums and guitar, reading books, watching anime.

likes : hugs and cuddles. ( i tend to hang on my tall close friends 😃. im smoll), Snakes( can see myself as having a pet)

dislike : being cut off when im talking, Spiders ( i get panic attacks when i see em) people being stupid in general.

Type: no specific type tbh, just not very cocky people. Someone who can be intimate without it being sexual in anything. someone who does little things that matter. someone who would ahow some amount of interest in things i like thats all ig

hello! thank you for choosing this blog for your matchup <3

GENSHIN IMPACT PLATONIC MATCHUP: Xinyan

HOW YOU MET

You were looking for new music to listen to, low and behold, Xinyan was performing for you to hear just a few twists and turns away!

This was before she had gained a big following, with only a few regulars at her concerts, so she absolutely lit up when she caught sight of you and boom pow- her music is heightened with happiness!!!

After the show, you stuck around a little without much to do, and she popped down to say thank you and hello! She was so enthusiastic and friendly it was hard to turn her down.

You both spoke a little about music; you ask questions, she asks questions, all in all a fun time. She asked you how she could improve her music or her appearance.

You become a regular supporter and you both grow closer over time! You both have fun and go to Wangmin for food sometimes.

RELATIONSHIP HEADCANONS

She likes to give gifts! She can be pretty crafty too, she did make her guitar after all. She makes such cute birthday gifts and they're always so thoughtful!!! Sometimes you wonder how she made such a gorgeous present with how much time she dedicates to music

Very very cuddly. Likes to hold hands and cuddle in a /p kinda way. She likes her pda and showing her friends she loves them with a little fist bump and shoulder taps.

I feel like she sometimes goes quiet, probably humming a tune or tapping her foot. She has a lot of thoughts, and she kinda goes and wallows in them randomly. Don't be worried if she falls silent during a conversation, she just thought of a super cool beat or lyric and needs to note in before you go back to your regularly scheduled content.

honestly your contrasts>>>> you as someone who doesn't tend to draw attention to themself and Xinyan, who's a passionate and well-known musician. A lot of people might not suspect you two to be friend; but you're both like two peas in a pod.

HANGING OUT

Music!!! She'd defo go to you for some exclusive sneak-peaks for her songs. She'd probably asked for you to play drums or guitar with her on stage!!! She really loves to share her rock n' roll with you if you're willing to listen to her!!! She's a sweetheart :]

Shopping!! By the sounds of it you both have a somewhat similar style, and who doesn't like a second input when shopping? Even just sharing clothes+jewlery is a thing you'd both do. She probably has something you picked out for her as a lucky charm too!

You telling her what's happening in your books. She isn't a bbig reader, but she loves hearing about the stories, and she is entirely up for- practically jumping at the idea of- you explaining the book to her! She also loves to listen to you talking about your favourite character or just something your pissed off about in it, she may not always understand but she's so here for it.

Cuddles and just relaxing. She overworks herself a lil, and doesn't allow herself much time to breath. To her; you're a very calming presence that kinda encourages her to relax. You both don't have to do anything in particular- just not anything too face paced!

ROMANTIC MATCHUP: Diluc Ragnvindr

HOW YOU MET

You heard rumors about him before you actually met him, but it's the same with most people, I guess that's just rich tavern owner things innit

But you properly met him while having a drink at the tavern- alcoholic or not, they've got a variety- but he was serving you and whatnot because he just does that I guess, not sure if that's the owner's job but hey, if the fandom wills it.

So you were having a drink, and it was a fairly slow night- week-day and whatnot- so you both kept each other company. He seemed like a fairly polite man, though getting more sarcastic as the night went on. You found he was prone to gossip too.

All in all, you enjoyed the company alomg with the drinks. With some thought, you decided to make this a regular thing; popping into the tavern on your chosen day to catch up with Diluc, and it was very nice for him too.

So, your friendship started at the tavern before slowly progressing further into your regular life when you met him while traveling outside of Monstadt's central city type range.

RELATIONSHIP HEADCANONS

Takes him a hot minute to be the one who initiates anything intimate, but he's got you 9/10. His intamacy is so strange cause like- he'll learn about your favourite things and dance to your favourite songs with you, but it takes him a month or so of you two being official for him to feel comfortable holding hands in public. Not to say that he'll never get physicall intimate, but he's a lit(very) insecure about doing something you're not comfortable with; maybe he'll touch you elbow in a way you won't like, who's to say.

He's memorised a lot of your favourite things. You're favourite drink, maybe a few favourite books(there are a lot and I'm not sure if you're decisive, bc I amn't), favourite comfort thing. He can remember things well- even if he sometimes pretends he doesn't at all.

He's actually smooth when he doesn't mean to be. Like he'll say some super poetic shit like "you are my stars, moon and sun combined" unknowingly, but the SECOND someone calls him out on it or he somehow becomes concious of it, he's a fumbling mess. When he's fumbling he's all nervous like "You- umh- you look nice. I like what you've done with you're well- hair" It's sweet though.

He is the most patient man when he wants to be. We've seen him be impatient(think when he and the traveler were tryna get info from the cryo(?) mage) but he can be so patient. He likes to time things right, give them the attention they deserve- especially when he's invested. Just expect him to be a patient dude, in most situations.

HANGING OUT

He doesn't even seem like the type of guy to hang out- he's too much of an "ah romance" type of partner to even consider simply hanging out. He has money he's gonna spend it. Ok well that's just a long way to say that he's here to treat you to anything you wish!! A new resturaunt just opened and you want to eat there? Best seats in the house! There's a musician you like having a concert nearby? Front row tickets!(is that what you call them? I've never been to a concert)

Dates to the library!! I honestly believe he's lowkey afraid of Lisa(though he'll never admit it) so don't be surprised when he peaks around his shoulder if he hears a slight creak. Either way, he loves going to the library with you! He has one at the Winery too, filled with classics since it hasn't been updated in years, but he's willing to open it up for you to take over!!

Not sure which universe this'd take place on(c/r or gi/r) but he would watch animes with you. The type to focus on characters; like if someone proposes a theory the only reason he'd ever disagree is bc "kinda ooc :/" and that's funny to me. He would like demon slayer I think, not sure why.

This one is going to be a little random but you two playing random browser games>>>>> You two playing lavaboy and watergirl<3 I also feel like he'd be strangely skilled at Papas Pizzaria or that one penguin waitress game. Anyway, I think the prompt for this one is as clear as day(fireboy!!) but I genuinely think it would be a lot of fun and a cute couple thing!!!

[cottoncandyjester]

Your blog is an absolute delight to browse through <33333

I adore your OCs. They all have their individual quirks and seeing you write them is a treat.

If you are accepting requests, I was wondering if you could do some reverse comfort for your OCs? Where they're not having a good day and their s/o comforts them.

I love yandere content but I am still a sucker for that good wholesome stuff :).

I absolutely love this

Also Was unsure if I should add salem in this cause a lot of people sent hate about him since i Introduced him cause he's disgusting but i did add him cause I love him and he needs love and support

Story contains: some angst, talk of self harm, fluffy fluff, soft boys

Theodore

You've never seen theo angry ever since you two got together but today he seemed to be stressed out, he was studying for a test and from the sounds of it he was going crazy. You walked towards the room only to hear a loud crash which made you jump and you rushed in

Theo had thrown his glasses across the room now sitting in the chair with his head in his hands a shaky sigh escaping him.

"im never going to get it, damn it.."

You looked at the papers scattered about and it looked like some intense stuff, you walked towards theo and hugged him from behind.

"take a break.."

Theo chuckled lightly before he leaned back looking in your eyes, it was clear he hasn't slept in a while.

"you know i can't do that angel, you get to bed though it's late"

You moved onto theo's lap which he allowed, he shivered lightly at the stern look in your eyes since he never seen you look this serious. He tried to settle your worries by giving you soft kisses on your neck but it seems you weren't easy to sway.

"theodore, I want you to get into bed with me and sleep right now."

The male sighed and looked at the clock on the study desk seeing it was about 2am, he did want sleep but he was far too worried about not passing to even think about it.

"sweetie, I have to study. How will I be a good husband if I don't finish college?"

"who says you arent already a good husband?"

Your words shocked him and he stared at you with a confused look before you lovingly wrap your arms around his neck and planting a soft kiss onto his lips.

"you're perfect theo, you don't have to constantly prove it okay? Don't ever doubt that."

Theodore was silent after that and he buried his face in your neck with a low hum, he truly didn't deserve you.

"you think I'm perfect?"

"of course I do, I love you so come and get some rest"

Theo decided to give in and lay down with you and for some reason when he did all those worries drifted away.

Hikaru

Hikaru didnt have time feeling sad, he was a model not to mention a public figure. He never lets you see that side of him unless it's to lash out at you but he onky does that in anger. Today was different, he was quiet today which Definitely wasn't like him

"hey, [y/n]?"

You looked up from your phone to look at the male who just got out the shower his hair still damp and he only wore sweatpants

"what's wrong? Want me to dry your hair again? You should put on a shirt before you get sick"

Hikaru said nothing and simply walked towards you and hugged you close making you both fall back on the bed, the shocked you and you started to pat hikaru on the back trying to get him off.

"h-hey! Are you okay? Are you sick?! Hikaru?!"

"I'm..sorry I'm really sorry, [y/n] dont leave cause I'm really sorry"

He was making zero sense and it only concerned you more but you heard sniffling which made you now freaked out so you softly pulled him back seeing tears rolling down his face.

"hey, why are you crying? What's wrong hikaru?"

The male sat up now sittinf on his knees and he kept his head down letting his hair cover his face as he tried to stop crying.

"I know you dont really love me, I'm mean and cold and awful. You want to leave don't you? But- but I don't want you to go! Im sorry I don't know how to love you i just don't know!"

Hikaru sounded an absolute mess and you didn't know where this was coming from but he simply out the male close into a hug letting him nuzzle his face into your chest as you played with his slightly damp hair.

"yeah, you are mean and cold..but I love you. You can be so sweet and really fun to be with, hikaru Im not going to leave no matter what"

"r-really? No matter what?"

"of course! After all without you my sense of style would be a mess!"

You heard a muffled chuckle escaping him as he hugged you tightly now resting his head on your chest

"you're an idiot."

With a cocky grin you poked his cheek earning a hushed whine of discomfort from you which you found adorable

"but I'm your idiot, so you're stuck with me!"

Axis

Axis is the type where he will tell you when he's sad, he's a crybaby so he will absolutely let you know when he needs comfort. So when the male popped up while you were thinking about what to do for dinner you figured he was feeling down

"what's wrong ax?"

"artblock..I have to come up with a new piece but i have nothing"

You gave a small hum before stopping and turned around wrapping your arms around him.

"well, how about we go on a date tonight we can go out to eat and do a bunch of fun stuff.."

"like fireworks?!"

You sighed loudly at your boyfriend's obsession with fireworks and decided to please him and his wishes

"we can get sparklers and small stuff okay?"

Axis smiled brightly and kissed your cheek over and over.

"date night date night!"

He started chanting like a child and you couldn't help but laugh at his antics but you were glad he wasn't sad anymore.

Prince

Prince hides his insecurities very well with flirting and smooth words, he likes you to think that he's all okay. you noticed he was far more clumsy today with things, it went from simply dropping things to full on tripping and falling.

Prince winced as he tripped and fell ontop of you earning an annoyed huff from you as you glared up at him for of his weird behavior that he brushes aside like its nothing

"prince what the hell is going on? You're being weird today"

Prince looked down at you before letting out a loud groan before nuzzling his face into your neck feeling quite embarrassed

"I'm scared..of our future"

"why would that scare you?"

Prince picked his head up and had a slight pout before he glanced away being unsure of how to put his words together.

"you're my first real serious relationship..what if I screw up?"

"oh princey.."

Your soft cooing made him even more embarrassed and he groaned while laying his face in your chest.

"you're amazing and great and I'm just..me!"

You simply messed with his hair finding his remark to be pretty dumb but you excused it cause he looked far too cute when pouty.

"prince, I love you forever and ever you aren't going to screw it up"

After a few minutes of silence he popped up and hopped to his feet with newfound energy

"you're right! I mean I'm pretty great! I bet you wanna marry me cause I'm so handsome!"

Well he was definitely back to normal

Yuki

It honestly took you weeks to figure out yuki was upset cause he is the master of hiding his emotions. He never shows many emotions besides a smile when around you or a glare when around strangers.

of course he doesn't talk about his feelings at all either so you are blissfully unaware of how he feels, until he slipped up and finally broke.

You had come home from shopping when you noticed how quiet the house was which was normal but it had an eerie feeling to it.

"is he taking a nap? Hmm.."

You went to the room and opened the door to see yuki curled up in the bed, the light were off and he was pretty quiet so you assumed he was sleeping but as you started to get ready for a shower when a muffled sniffle made you turn back to yuki and you walked to him before softly moving the blankets only to get a slight sight of tears before he buried himself deeper into the pillow to hide.

"y-yuki?"

"go."

You sat on the bed now fully invested in helping him but you had a feeling you knew what was wrong, you softly rubbed his back seeing that he was sweaty and slightly shaking.

"you have a nightmare?"

There was silence before he nodded and you simply laid next to him facing his back and softly touching his back your gentle touch being enough to cheer him up.

When he turned to face you his eyes were puffy yet had bags under them, his hair was a mess and he was breathing harshly from fear.

"wanna talk about i-"

"no."

You gave a sigh and simply cuddled against him and closed your eyes, his body stiffened but quickly relaxed before he held you close and closed his eyes

"just rest then. I'm here now okay?"

"mhm.."

Yuki smiled as he buried his face in your hair taking in your scent and feeling his body settle against yours. He didn't need words of comfort or huge signs of affection this was all he needed..you being here helped him far more than any words can.

Salem

When salem breaks down it's heartbreaking and intense, he gets into these PTSD triggered panic attacks to the point where he just loses it.

You had left the house and left him alone, it was only for a few hours but when you came back the bedroom was trashed and salem was freaking out curled up in the corner.

"b-bad boy, very bad super bad..I've been so bad I'm so sorry sorry sorry sorry"

"salem!"

You rushed to him and sat on your knees infront of him seeing fresh bruises and marks on his face, he probably hurt himself again.

"salem, baby look at me"

"b-bad boy..bad boys deserve death"

He was definitely not listening and you totally needed to snap him out of it so you did the one thing you could think of...you slapped him.

It wasn't too hard but he definitely looked up at you in shock now focused on what you had to say.

"you're not in that dark place anymore salem, you're here with me and no one is dying okay?"

"b-but I'm a sinner, I'm disgusting, revolting, i-"

You cut him off by selling your lips against his roughly kissing him and settling him down.

When you pulled back you gave him a stern gaze not letting him spill anymore degrading words out.

"listen to me salem. I love you and all your weird quirks! I don't care what anyone else says you're my boyfriend and I love you more than anything okay?"

"y-your lips t-taste like sugar.."

With that he leaned forward trailing his tongue over your lips with a shaky laugh

"thank you, [y/n]"