#dont feel obligated to respond!

[shadxw-assault]

Talon perched himself in the cover of the trees as he watched his prey. A peculiar violet raven.

@rebelquilled

[moopiter]

I'm being sad on main again I litterally can't stop beating myself up about going to this convention. I'd never feel this way about anyone else, but i feel so bad for being here. I live under my little rock for a reason.

The last few days I've been grappling with the fact that I'm disabled, like actually. Ive got more conditions than i can count and take half a dozen medications just to function. Everything's fine now, nothings really wrong, but my body won't listen.

I don't feel like normal people do, I don't act right or like the same things as anyone else. Im hard on the eyes. I can't even keep up with people, i get overwhelmed and if im having a bad day when my body decides everything hurts and I've lost blood pressure privileges- i'm toast.

I hide because I don't want anyone to have to look at me or deal with me. This is the first real thing I've went and done in a long time, and i really do want to go, but i just feel awful about it. Like I don't deserve to be there, or anywhere like it. I run all over the county to the rivers, caves, mountains, and practically live at some rest stops along the highway, but that's different. I'd crawl off into any of those mountains I've found and stay there forever if i could.

It's not even just the con, I feel like going quiet on here again like i did for the last few years all the time because I'm worried I'm being a bother.

I love everybody on here that's been so nice to me, i just feel annoying and bad.

[8cfc00]

YIPPEEEEEEEEEE it is technically my birthday today. but not for most of yall because of timezones. wait until its actually the 26th please. goodnight

[simplygreenie]

okay who wants to witness my mental breakdowns

[skuntank]

@tenaciousdecapitator

ive been thinking still about Girl's Night At Caitlins Villa lmao the whole thing just delights me so much.

i figure at first if roxie shows up with alcohol and is already drunk, cynthia, probably trying to be responsible, tries to insist that no, this is going to be a chill night, not a party, but marley has already foisted roxie on them and left and cynthia cannot in good faith turn roxie loose into the streets of undella drunk as a skunk.

so like. the intention was there to be responsible, because i figure that even tho she has her own bad habits of trashing caitlin's place, its unintentional and i do think that her disorganization is not within her control, whereas she knows that if there is a party with roxie involved, she may wake up the next morning with one of the bathroom sinks detached from the wall and several decently sized holes in the ceiling.

if skyla isnt going to drink and elesa decides to behave herself, i think between all of them, they could keep things fairly contained, because lenora and shauntal would be fairly responsible and if everyone else is behaving then perhaps cynthia also would be more inclined to behave as well but i also see the potential of it quickly evolving into one of those situations where they all keep getting drunker and drunker and feeding off each other and things getting really silly.

[ittybittybumblebee]

vent, again. sorry. just look away

everywhere i turn in my life im encouraged to be myself and make my own descisions. also from the same people in my life who have said without knowing what i am is wrong and doesnt and shouldnt really exist :']

everywhere i go online i see people talking about how you will suffocate hiding yourself. and you need to find a space and a community. im isolated from community. i am codependant on whats keeping me suffocated. is there really no painless outcome for me to be happy someday. other people do it. they cut ties with the harmful things in their life. other people do it all the time, it is painful, but why cant i do it , im so scared . if i ever tried to do something i would ruin everything and i would be alone or forced to come crawling back and accept my lot and be a good child who doesnt oppose anythng ever again to avoid harrassment and emotionally damaging and stressful interactions on who i want to be . that would put me in the ground. i cant do it. i can never ever be brave, i have countless reasons i cant and every one of them feel like excuses. im being pulverized by myself, i hate me for it deeply . my home life is not bad i promise you they love me and dont understand outside their world views. it is just absolutly , ever unknowingly unintentionally suffocating.

[itsalwaysdark]

i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms

[marinerainbow]

@wicked1will0sparkles I know you suggested Grimhilde could be the Jessica to Poppy's Roger in an AU (and I'm definitely writing something for that!), but imagine if it was Shiny who got to be the Jessica of the relationship (I say that like she isn't already XD)

I'm thinking that maybe the weasels are looking into some case that the girls are somehow related to. Maybe Shiny is the one being convicted of murder after having to 'deal' with a particularly nasty patron from the club, and Poppy is trying to prove her innocence. And they get separated, just like Roger and Jessica did, while they're both trying to figure everything out, too; Shiny taking matters into her own hands, and Poppy teaming up with the people she thinks can help.

Also, just- in general, I can definitely see Popshine in Roger's and Jessica's scenes. Shiny explaining that Poppy makes her laugh. Poppy defending Shiny and finally losing her patience before getting hit by bricks. Poppy writing Shiny a love letter!!! I had to try re-writing some of the scenes with them XD

Warnings for some cursing. And murder mention.

~

Poppy watched from the side of the van as the weasels entered the building, worry written across her face as her fingers dug into her palms despite all the guns and knives the Toon Patrol carried with them. She definitely didn't want to be anywhere near whatever was going to happen to the guy they were after, the one who was supposedly behind Shiny's framing, but being out here on her own acting as a 'look out' didn't sit right, either.

What if Shiny was in there? How could she stay out here while the man who hurt the woman she loved was in there? She couldn't just stand here doing nothing!

'Deep breathes, Poppy.' The rabbit kept reminding herself, taking in the shaky breaths that didn't at all help her anxiety and brimming anger right now, 'They need a look out. You have to help them now... We're just one step closer to proving Shiny isn't a killer. Just focus on that...'

Inhale... Exhale... Inhale... Exhale... Stay calm. Stay rational. beep the horn twice if you see or hear anything. That was all she had to do. She couldn't flake now-

WHACK!

Everything went black for the horror toon, and her unconscious body would have fallen onto the concrete ground. If it weren't for the one responsible for her concussion catching her in her arms.

"I'm sorry, baby!" Shiny whispered, feeling her heart ache for her honey bunny as she carried her body to the red convertible parked around the corner, just out of sight from anybody who might peak outside the windows- which was a good thing, considering the commotion Shiny could hear from the building. She didn't need a stray bullet to hit Poppy, "I promise I'll make it up to you when this is all over."

After securing Poppy in the trunk of her car, the soft look in the performer's eyes turned merciless before she set her sights on the complex where that bastard was. It was high time to clean up this mess.

~

"Come on!"

It wasn't everyday that Smartass took orders from anyone, or let his patrol do the same. But it seemed like tonight was an exception as they all followed her out of the alley, no questions asked.

They all turned a corner, but came to a sudden stop. Shiny's eyes somehow grew wider and flashed a lime green when she saw the state of her wrecked car. Or rather, the fact that her trunk was open and empty, "Poppy? Fuck, where'd she go!?"

"Poppy?" The pink suited weasel repeated, looking at Shiny incredulously as she looked around her car in a panic, as if the rabbit in question was somehow hiding in the rubble, "That dame ran on us back at-"

"No, she didn't!" Shiny whirled around with an even meaner look on her face than before, causing Stupid to step back nervously while Psycho decided to take a sniff around the wreck. She was this close to popping that shrimp a new one, "I was keeping her in the trunk to keep her safe!"

...

"Keep her safe??"

Shiny narrowed her eyes at the smoker before huffing and looking away. She didn't have time to argue about her lack of options. Not with Poppy and the real murderer on the streets, "We ain't getting anywhere in my car. Where's your guys'?"

"Oh! It's gone!"

"WHAT!?" Whipping their heads towards the direction that Stupid was pointing, everyone could see that their van was not only stolen, but the street looked like an utter mess. More so than usual. Like someone was driving like a maniac. Or an idiot. Psycho cackled, finding this situation utterly hilarious for reasons mostly unknown, while Wheezy pulled out a few new smokes with a shaky hand. Greasy groaned and muttered some spanish curses to himself, and the proud smile on Stupid's face melted when he saw his boss' ear twitch, "... SON OF A!-"

"Calm down, Smartass. It looks like it was just Poppy." Shiny, slightly calmer now with her theory, sighed as she glanced to Psycho. To which the loon nodded as he recovered from his laughing fit; either that nose of his was somehow able to conclude this, or he just agreed with her theory. Either way, Shiny was willing to take it, "Pops isn't the best driver. She must be at her wits end if she's stealing."

"THAT'S SUPPOSED 'TA MAKE ME FEEL BETTER HOW!?"

"Mierda. You could say she's a better lover than a driver." Greasy, of course, couldn't stop himself from stepping beside the dancer and making such a comment. Though the lack of a perverse grin on his mug and the more sarcastic tone in his voice showed he was getting just as frustrated as his team was. And was the only reason Shiny only rolled her eyes at him as opposed to sending him a death glare.

"Better than you could possibly be, I assure you."

Apparently though, Greasy wasn't upset enough not to let out an offended huff and look down at the lady weasel incredulously, "I'll admit, senora, she's a cute one. But what could make you say such a thing?!" Was that rabbit not as innocent as she looked?? Oh, he was gonna have to get her secrets when this was all over... It could be part of her payment to all of them for doing this damn job.

For the first time that evening, Shiny's lips quirked up in a small but loving smile before she sighed and crossed her arms. Not at all bothered by Greasy's disbelief as she looked at him straight in the eye, "She makes me smile. That's what."

~

"Tie 'em up! We'll handle 'em later."

Despite Shiny's resistance and Poppy's attempt at a rescue- bursting into the building with the tommy gun she had found in the weasels' van, before getting yet another smack to the head- the two women were forced back to back and bound together. It was that God forsaken proof toon rope too, so neither of them could try to pull any toony tricks up their sleeves to get out of this bind.

Shiny snarled and even tried snapping her teeth at some of the goons, especially at the ones who seemed to enjoy subduing them a bit too much. That didn't stop them, of course, and Poppy's pleading of them to back off of the weasel was only met with mockery. But it wasn't taken any further than that, fortunately. And the two were left alone when the brutes walked away.

Poppy tried to control her fearful trembling. She knew that Shiny was terrified as well, even if she tried to hide it; she had to put on a brave face now while their fate was looking grim. Despite her efforts, though, the only thing that managed to calm her enough was when Shiny's fingers intertwined with her own, "It'll be ok, baby. We still have each other."

Poppy looked over her shoulder to face Shiny as best as she could, her brown eyes filled with dread and heart sinking for her lover. How could Shiny still remain calm and comfort her during this time? Why did any of this have to happen? Why... Why wasn't she able to save the woman she loved? "Shiny... I... I'm so sor-"

"Shh. Don't focus on that." Shiny insisted softly, regarding Poppy with the warmth and care she had just for the rabbit. Though she knew that Poppy must be able to see her own fear as well, and squeezed the rabbits paw lightly for both of their comfort, "... I'll be honest with you, Poppy. I'm not sure how we'll get out of this one. So we can't waste time with unnecessary apologies."

Her ears pinned back at the reminder, but she didn't try to finish her sentence. Shiny was right. She didn't want to spend their possible final minutes in self-pity. Right now, she just needed to take a deep breath, and she had to focus on Shiny now, "I'm sor- I mean... I-I love you. Shiny. You're truly the most amazing woman I've ever met. I mean it." There was no possible way to tell Shiny the depth of her love for her. Not in the small time frame they had at least. But this was a good start, at least.

However, instead of returning the 'I love you', Shiny just raised a single brow down at her, "Hm. That's funny."

"What's funny?"

"You just told me you've never looked in the mirror before, though I swear I've seen you do it every morning."

God. Even after everything, even despite the grim reaper knocking on their door, Shiny still had the time to make her heart sing and illicit laughter from her. Of course, it didn't make her completely forget their situation, but it was enough to get Poppy to look up into her eyes adoringly and let the rest of the world fade away, "How are you so charming and lovely all the time?"

"'Cause I've got the right gal, darling." Shiny's heart felt like it was melting, witnessing the pure joy and love Poppy had for her right now. It always did. But right now, it felt even more impactful than the first time Cupids arrow struck her. Thank God weasels were drawn with long necks; she still had to crane her head back, but it was worth it to be able to plant a kiss on Poppy's temple and hear her happy squeak, "You ready to find out what's on the other side for toons?"

Shiny already knew what Poppys answer was gonna be. Even with the serene look on her honey bunny's face, "No."

At that, Shiny let out a small, dry chuckle. She found no humor, nor was she trying to be sarcastic. It was just all she could do at this point while Poppy held tightly onto her paw. It was all either of them could do now, "Me neither."

~

This is all I've got. I wanted to write more scenes, but I couldn't figure out how to write them! (I STILL don't know what the major plot happening behind the scenes in this AU is or why Shiny was framed. How could I write the scenes that involved all the exposition or Doom?? 😅) but these were still fun to write! ^^

[wrdn-tabris]

a little life update :-)

(pls help i need advice)

so

i have this friend. two friends actually. i went to visit them recently (june)

friend 1, lets call her cat had asked friend two, lets call her bee, to move down with her. bee agreed. issues immediately started. bee was off her meds and didnt want to get back on them, and started picking fights with cat, treating her badly and etc bc thats what bee used to do when she still lived with her mom. pick fights when her mood dropped and get into screaming matches (tho its not like her mom didnt also pick fights with her)

cats telling me abt this at this time and i feel bad bc i feel like i wasnt being a good friend mostly bc i didnt have the energy to hear abt how terrible it was going for her. i was going thru a lot when it started which isnt her fault or my fault, but i feel bad for not being more supportive. so cat stopped telling me abt it, bc i didnt know what to do or how to fix things. i thought stuff resolved itself but i went and visited and it hasnt. really.

so i arrive. bee doesnt come with cat to pick me up, which, ok disappointing but i understood she was tired. she didnt come to eat with us either. which also sad

next day cat asks for some rent money to get herself lunch, bc she forgot to make smth to eat before leaving and cat couldnt and wouldnt give their rent money so she could get lunch. so she asked us to bring her lunch from mcdonalds if she ordered somthing bc she had points on the app, and we had to decide tht if we are driving tht far out to where she works we might as well do something over there. cat asks if we should invite her partner with us and i agreed bc i wanted to meet him. we go to pick up her lunch, she asks me to buy her something rather than ordering smth off the app, which, feels :/ to assume ill just buy it for her. i would have if she asked but she just sent me her order. mybe an asshole move of my to say 'uhhh sure if ur able to order it off the app???'

get the food, fight thru traffic to get to her, have to fight thru parking traffic to get out of where she works. we end up visiting this old military fort and hang out for a few hours and when we come back we think bee is asleep. its like. 7:30? 8:00?

so i try to inflate the blow up bed i got for them to use for when they have other guests sleep over and me and cats bf wake her up while im trying to figure out how to work it so she comes out and snaps at us. i apologize for being loud, promise to be quieter but im inflating the air mattress so i might be loud for a few minutes. the ENTIRE time im inflating it shes standing there arms crossed glaring at us and clearing her throat the entire time. and maybe its just me but??? i find that to be a little fucking rude tbqh. me and the bf are guests and its making me feel unwelcome and regretting the money i spent to come visit her. anyways cat comes out from the bathroom bc bee is still there clearing her throat with her arms crossed even after i finished fixing up the air mattress, and its quiet as hell bc me and bf are both uncomfy. cat gets mad and upset bc were guests in their home and she shouldnt be treating her like tht. shes upset we woke her up but surprise surprise shes even MORE upset i met cats partner before hers bc she wanted it to all be 'together' even tho i agreed to meet bf bc i did! want to meet him! and that we went to the fort without her.

anyways.

i apologize to her abt that bc i wanted to meet him but shes like 'no cat knew i wanted to do this thing' which fair.

the rest of the week goes ok. i get to meet her partner and theyre so nice and funny and i was super excited to meet them. we hit off great. we get lunch with one of cats friends, bee remarks abt 'oh i used to get so upset abt ppl being happier than me, enjoyed making ppl unhappy and would go out of my way to do so, bc i didnt like that they were happy and i wasnt' i buy bee a present for her birthday and u kno week ends i go home, and turns out bees partner comes out to her abt some things and bee freaks out, gets super upset and reacts really poorly. starts crying and going off abt being betrayed and etc.

turns out partner breaks up with her the next day bc they were uncomfortable with the reaction and then she starts crying and going off again abt feeling betrayed and upset and wanting to kill herself and tht they told her they loved her and would never leave and etc etc etc amongst other 'its not faiiiir' reactions. i still hold the opinion she was upset bc they broke up with her first.

cat calls her out for her behavior and that shes saying some very inappropriate things and tht ex isnt an awful person. bee ends up demanding all the gifts she gave ex back and wanted to know what ex would be doing with special gifts they got her before they both broke up.

i honestly end up quite. disgusted? with her behavior bc any time she broke up with someone while she lived separately from cat, shed ghost us and wed only get her side of the story. cat all but ends up moving in with her partner bc bee refuses to clean up after herself and keeps making a mess of things and its just a bad living situation.

cat tells bee tht shes not thinking of renewing their lease at the end of the year bc she cant handle living like this and bee lashes out. ends up making a mess of their kitchen and breaking some of cats things.

she also uses special non stick stuff of cats and uses metal on it (which ur not supposed to do) and keeps using cats own dishes and dishes she got from her grandma and doesnt clean them or anything.

my thing is. i dont know what to do. i kinda wanna stop our friendship bc im upset at how shes treating our other mutual friend. but i dont know if i should talk to her bc ive asked cat if i should try and talk to her to get her to see tht shes not being a good friend and cats told me not to, mostly bc she refuses to see shes wrong. im leaning towards wanting to follow her advice bc she has been living with bee but also it feels so scummy not to say anything esp when i know shes going to be going thru a difficult time in the next few months. however if i talk to her, i dont want to cause her to lash out at bee or have any of her things that are still at their apartment broken bc bees already proven to lash out and break other peoples things when shes upset at them, and i dont want to make it any worse for her.

bee would tend to ghost us when she was stll living with her mother, so much so tht we wouldnt hear from her for weeks or months, esp when she was feeling bad. i would try to reach out to her just to make sure she was fucking alive lmao. im worried if i were to reach out and ask abt all this and end with our friendship splitting off, shed do something drastic like hurt herself. i want to reach out and try to salvage what i feel is a dissolving friendship but i also dont want to be friends with this type of person unless shes worked on herself. i still love and care for her but like i know who i would stick by if i had to which... feels bad to say and sucks but th fact is i am closer with cat, mostly bc when bee would ghost us me and cat would still talk and we have more in common.

i want to talk and ask her why she would do and say these things and treat ppl she loves like this but ive been told not to but it would feel wrong not to at least. reach out. i dont know what to do.

AITA?

[avpdgirlfriend]

day whatever the fuck of thinking abt cutting everyone off

[lilmelvin]

@dementedspeedster cont.

Alright, a pinky promise is a pinky promise. You can't break that. Thad won't laugh at her or think she's dumb. She plopped down to join him, sheepishly showing her left hand. Two fingers had been splinted together with bright pink medical wrap.

"Okay, so I was playing in the Tower cause everyone was on call..." Boredom remained her biggest enemy more than any Jump City Villain. "And, I might have gone into Raven's room at some point to borrow one of her capes. And I know I'm not supposed to do that, because there's dangerous things in her room- but her cape is so much cooler than mine! It's swooshier," she spread her arms to demonstrate her arm twirling for maximum swooshinees.

"I thought I had more time before they came back. I guess I was having too much fun. So I was standing on the edge of the table to be super tall, wearing Raven's cape, fighting my pretend bad guys like 'POW' 'WOOSH'" she mock punched the air, "and then the door opened and it scared me.... I fell off the table on my butt. And a little on my finger." Hence her sad new accessory. Letting out a big sigh she shook her head, softly adding,

"I wish I hurt it doing something cool like actually punching a bad guy."

[leatherforhell]

seeing lots of posts recently about slow replies, whether ic or ooc, here or on disco, so this is me saying definitively once again that I do not give a fuck if you don’t respond to me right away

take a few weeks if you want. hit me up whenever. I will continue to send you links to posts you may like and also whatever I’m currently thinking about and you come talk to me whenever you get to it ✌️

[princessofsacredlight]

[ soft kinda interest check! not really tagging anything, just wants to see if anyone is interested in writing with my zelda! slowly building confidence to actually send asks or respond to open starters ]

[heybobbygirl]

ahdjejwkdje i love you too dude all of you guys have helped me so much😭😭 @losercade you too man you mean the world to me 🫶

2023 is coming to an end so this is my annual I love my online friends so fucking much you wouldn't believe me if I told you post.

[yoakenouta]

moved from x. || @pcrdiseseekers

immense heat surrounded both the moment those arms          desperately cling to his side for his own survival. A small traveler who was known throughout certain regions of Teyvat as brave, the thought of them knowing he’d commit this small deed was embarrassing. Even so no other warriors would dare to venture throughout the land of ice where one could freeze solid. To think the high dense snows would...plague their eyesight, as well as making the blonde’s body shiver in these levels was insane. No wonder Aether could envision the people of Snezhnaya getting accustomed to it while wrapping themselves in heavy clothing. The coat the Harbinger comrade of his brought them was pleasant, yet amber eyes were being threatened with icy droplets that ached. A breath puffed out while embracing Childe closely --- if it were possible then cheeks might blush by the sudden closeness. He realized his form wasn’t being pushed away, merely stepping forth towards the shelter nearby to rest up. Venturing out like this wouldn’t do them wonders as ears attentively heard the other’s words. “I-I figured that...m-might be something y-you’d say...C-Childe...ah...” Although a heated flare appeared on the celestial being’s cheeks, knowing full well of how much warmth ran throughout his body. Being this close towards the tall male brought about a sense of relief and a skipped heartbeat.  Through the light shivers continuing to escape Aether’s body, they finally arrived at the cabin nearby. A dreadful reality where they reached it just before the blizzard hit in left the traveler unable to say anything. Maybe he tried to keep himself warm...at least until the harbinger managed to create a fire, something to keep both warm. Until the blizzard dies down they would be stuck here together which is something the blonde didn’t particularly mind. From all their adventures together, even before knowing he belonged to the Fatui, the male could entrust his life. He didn’t speak a word just yet before stripping away the coat and sat down closely to Tartaglia --- a head exhaustedly rested against those broad shoulders. Combined with the fireplace and the other’s body left him quite content with no fear of catching a cold. “It is better to stay in here after the blizzard dies down for us to continue...I’m just lucky that you are more familiar with these lands, Childe. Hmm...bonding you say?” Plenty could be said or even done for their bonding activities but he’s quite content if they talk about their families. Something about hearing the harbinger, someone who tried to come off as scary, being sentimental of his siblings reminded the traveler of his own nature towards his twin. Either that or some kind of confessions could be spoken without no one spying on them. Whatever the case, Aether didn’t mind as a body grew warmer against the tall male. “How...did you want us to bond, Childe?”

ㅤㅤTHE Harbinger's expression relaxed a bit watching the traveller's shivering form gradually ease into the comforting warmth that the hearth had never failed provide. He leaned back against the heel of his palms behind him, glancing over towards Aether with an expectant look as he awaited his company next to him in the fireplace.

ㅤㅤ" Hmmm — well, it's not as if there's much to do other than wait out the blizzard so why don't we just talk ? " If they weren't snowed in, Tartaglia would've immediately taken the opportunity to kill time through a spar but it wasn't exactly ideal in a small enclosed space. Besides, he doubted Aether had much energy after having his strength sapped by the cold so this was the next best solution. Not that he minded the idea of relaxing by the fireplace and having a leisurely conversation, of course.

ㅤㅤ" I've talked all about my siblings but now that I think about it, I haven't heard a whole lot about yours. " He cocked his head towards the other, a curious smile taking his lips. " So, what is she like ? What sort of places have you seen together ? I'm all ears for the night. " The traveller's goal was certainly no secret to Harbinger much less to everyone he's met along the way but with how long they've been apart, the heartache must've been agonizing with no real leads on how to reunite with their sibling. It didn't seem as if he was keen to share much of his worries either so at the very least, Tartaglia was willing to hear him out. Whether or not it would help his lighten his heart remained to be seen but it wasn't as if his intention was to console him; this was merely a time to share stories.