#dont come up in here acting like you know what antisemitism is lmao.

[snekdood]

welp, at this point if anyone in the crowd of Bad Faith People Who Stalk Me And Hate Me Bc Of Someone Else's Compulsive Lying tries to accuse me of antisemitism bc i have a vampire whos a villain in my comic, i'm gonna ask them what their take was on allll of this going on. if its anything like "israelis and/or zionists are all evil people" then ik i never have to take their opinion seriously bc they dont even know what antisemitism means.

[spot-the-antisemitism]

The ST controversy really showcases how people misinterpret Jewish concerns. It's sad because I know people will look at it and see evil Jews against a peace org and not. A peace org blatantly lying and harming the goal of peace.

Yeah a lot of Jews dont wanna accept the reality of war crimes thats a fact. Ive dealt with them. But its interesting because as a Jew who does accept this reality and criticizes the Israeli goverment regularly, theres some sort of pipeline that happens when Jews do make a habit of condemning Israel especially on goyische terms where they start acting...antisemitic lol. I am aware of it because I started acting like it at a point and so have all my friends. Maybe it's human nature of doing too much or getting too passionate idk but it exists. Because it exists, these fearful Jews start treating all criticisms as attacks. Trauma yes but also because those leading the criticisms and even creating them are antisemitic. I came to an understanding with one of them that its not that they think Israel is perfect and not commiting any crimes but the charges are wrong which angers them.

Either way because people dont understand this, they label it as "zionists" blindly supporting israel when some people just want them to get their facts correct.

Lastly I will continue to respect ST's work. Because there is an important attempt here at peace. But there will come a time where I won't be able to. I mean, all these Israeli peace orgs end up this way: an Islamist's wet dream. It's for "peace" but it feels like the peace people dream of is just getting Israelis to suffer and for the roles to switch because "the wrong people are suffering". Antisemitism is addicting.

It's weird. Haaretz ends up this way so many times theres a whole website dedicated to showcasing when they have to change/"correct" their entire story lmao. I once read an article about an Israeli complaining that an org for peace or the like wasn't inclusive enough for Palestinians and I agree 100%. Im sure a lot of Israeli orgs need to change on that basis. But there was a sense of "hmm Israelis are trying to argue that theyre human against the people who want them dead instead of focusing all their energy on Palestinians". Israelis are being told from every corner that theyre not human and oct 7th is a celebration to many. Naturally theyre going to be a little worked up and focus on fighting to remind ppl that theyre human. Doesnt make it less wrong but. Idk everyone involved is a real living breathing person we should all be more kind.

Dear anon,

I disagree with a few points

"Lastly I will continue to respect ST's work. Because there is an important attempt here at peace." I DON"T. standing together is virtue signally sham, that abuses and tokenises it's members, denies pogroms are pogroms and hate crimes are hate crimes, likes flashy things that do nothing like pretending to get aid into gaza and also one of their founders go thier kid sent to Israeli prison after he encouraged the kid to throw rocks at IDF soldiers, this man robbed his own child of a childhood for clout. I have NO respect for standing together. Do not EVER defend Standing Together in my inbox they are dead to me. ds up this way so many times theres a whole website dedicated to showcasing when they have to change/"correct" their entire story lmao" Are you insunaiting Haaretz is unrealiable. what website? what?!

Other than that yep yep yep

"Yeah a lot of Jews dont wanna accept the reality of war crimes thats a fact. Ive dealt with them." Yeah, me too anon. Me too.

"Either way because people dont understand this, they label it as "zionists" blindly supporting israel when some people just want them to get their facts correct." Exactly!

"It's for "peace" but it feels like the peace people dream of is just getting Israelis to suffer and for the roles to switch because "the wrong people are suffering". Antisemitism is addicting." Yeah and ST is part of that problem already.

"an org for peace or the like wasn't inclusive enough for Palestinians and I agree 100%. Im sure a lot of Israeli orgs need to change on that basis." IDK man I'm sure that's a problem but I'm diaspora and you'd better ask someone else

"Idk everyone involved is a real living breathing person we should all be more kind." THIS

thank you for your long ask,

Cecil

[xz017]

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oof. okay so imma do the latest tea???

got out of shower to hear my mum talkin to Agnes spillin the tea abt their friend/coworker

the one with that Kid my mum wanted to have a playdate with or whatever the annoyingly studious and clearskinned halfasian lookin girl i really envied.

her mum has a live in boyfriend who is basically like...an alcoholic mental case rip god i hate alcohol and i hate people who drink it like i only do it so i hate myself more and die but like this guy basically playin with knives n guns in the house and the kid who is like 19 idk why im callin her kid is so Over it like apparently she hasn’t been coming home and like

basically me in 2016 era when my mum was too generous n Helpful lettin ppl back into our lives and our House so i spent christmas morning 5am walkin in the cold n watchin 3 films until it got dark and stuff like that

girl be actin homeless---mood

so it came to a head today so Agnes is spillin the tea n her husband in the bg(omg it weird hearin him rip he was my military hs instructor wild) n my mUM is so selfrighteous n mad like

‘blablahblah well rosalie is being dumb she should put her daughter first she being sick in the head it her Choice’

n im like eavesdroppin havin warflashbacks of the dumb hypocrisy she has DOne lmao

‘has she no thought like what if Tyler gets raped/sexually abused by that man she’d let her daughter be in that environment???’

i mean it wouldnt be fair of me to be like...eyemoji on this cos she technically doesn’t know? but 19 may 2018 never4get lmao

anyway so my mum’s like our room is for rent and it’ll be far cheaper they dont even have to pay rn!!!

cue me being like...um...Money...generosity...i dont...LIke

i was conflicted here like idk i met the girl like 3-5 times im envious of her work ethic n her better asian disposition than mine cos she obviously prettier but she has better prospects and that’d suck if her life be like that

but also??? like...life be like that it was like that to me like who saved me????????????????????? 

um...no one

like why is that on me or US TO BE NICE n helpful im so tired like damn which is relevant to the next point anyway

cos earlier had a convo with my mum i was eyemojing healthcare profs i was like ‘pls stop bein on ye phone pls tell me info on ye opinion on respiratory therapists...what abt PA’

n deadass she be eyemojing me like STICK TO YOUR COURSE

n i was like...-ugly pleadin emoji eyes- n i was tryin to explain that i didn’t want to be so focused on one thing that if i decide this medical thing is what i want to pursue i’d need 1-2 years just for the PREREQS which is like 5 classes and 1000 clinical hours or minimum 6 month healthcare paid job. like if i decide i want to go to school for that i already have the Stuff and just Apply.

n she was like...you had your chance i bothered you to be a nurse a few years ago you were stubborn if you did as i said you’d be earning good money now but you wasted time

n i was like...oof i can’t say anything to that it’s tru. it real life tea it fax i wasted time n im old n im ruunnin out of time i hate myself alot i hate hate hate

and idk we got to talkin abt money n life cos she was like you have to find something you can learn to LOve

n i was like??? WHY I GOTTA SETTLE N FOOL MYSELF TO DO SO im super annoyed abt that mindset

cos the thing about a bloody Arts degree is there’s too fuckin many broad possibilities n they all aint even that good. like deadass if i was a STEM major ugh like if i was a Bio major prospects are so clear: forensics, research, premed,labtech. Meanwhile polsci for example: uhhh teacher? prelaw? politician? uhhh government work? n there’s like 111 different subdivisions of that n it’s like??? wat the fuck

deadass what am i gonna do with international security is that even gonna pay well like...the fuck do i know is it relevant ??? Doubts

n she was all like...PEOPLE JUST GOTTA DO WHAT THEY HAVE TO TO SURVIVE YOU GOTTA FIND YOURS N STICK WITH IT

n i was lowkey panique n frustrated cos i really REALLY hate being stuck in 1 ting n im like i HAD ACTING YOU SAID NO

n she was like pFF i wanted you to have something REAL cos if you dont make it in acting you’d be on the STREETS

n i was like...lmao lil did she know imma be on the streets next year smh this year actually

n she was like talkin abt the harsh reality of the workforce and how you gotta make do at how ppl treat you (patients) n how you might not even like your coworkers but you gotta deal with it because that’s what ppl do to survive

n she was talkin abt undeserving patients with no healthcare n i was like did you just hear yourself so you want them to die cos they dont got money and she was like 

no??? why get hooked up in the ICU when you’re braindead wasting government money taxes we payed for you don’t understand cos you dont have a job and dont get your salary cut cos of taxes and these people come in acting like they got something to give when they yell at your face acting like they know what they’re talking about they act entitled when they have nothing homeless ppl getting money and illegal immigrants are selfish bringing their kids to be hurt here

n im like...theyre life is ...shitty what are you talkin about n she was like so? why dont they stay and make it better??? one of my very first patients asked me why i was in america and i said i come from a poor country and they said why didn’t you stay and try to make it better? and i couldn’t say anything cos u know what they were right why dont illegal immigrants do that??? n im like...

cos theyre literally...RUNNIN and they want ppl they care abt i.e. children to be far away from that as soon as possible bruh ye think imma wait for change deadass there a reason why we suffer duterte he actually get shit done??? we dont have to wait for change the same way ppl who speak nice n are polite do but is stuck with bureaucracy and lowkey bein corrupt deadass stay in ye lane

n she’s like well i hope you’re right im done bein an idealist im a realist now i believed in good i wanted to help the world now no more

n im like...no you’re not a realist, you’ve just been hangin out with a republican

and she gave me a sideeye 

but deadass im ...scared like i really hate the empathy because when she was being serious n talkin n being honest abt things for once i started to unwillingly see things from her point of view i really felt it n i was scared i’ll be like that im scared she’s right

im scared i’ll end up Real n selfish like...i already am ? n bitter? like i care about so very few Personally and am willin to let others suffer to keep it safe n prioritised?

im scared.

like especially with racism all these years my mum’s been telling me it’s not that im racist just wait til you work with them they act so entitles and loud and make everything about race

n i almost told Her abt it earlier i skyped w her earlier we had a tea spillin moment about our ethnic relations bein racist but then idk we talked alot i guess the text got buried or unseen

like i said i was scared n didn’t get to unpack it like im scared because ive been livin with my roomate and like...ive been excusing it as a personality thing and that if it were anyone else different skin colour id still hate them just the same which i still maintain is true but like?

my RM is loud n she makes everything abt race like deadass me n my FM be just eating dinner and she passes by us and goes on a rant about harvard asians being a Blok to black ppl from getting There n im like...im tryna have dinner so i can get energy to deal with this stressful ass school

n she always talks like she knows what she’s talking about like ‘jewish ppl control the federal bank’ n im like...it 1am in the dark quiet of our shared room deadass i dont wanna tell the binch thats antisemitism cos she gonna be like im black how can i be racist smh

im!!! scared alright like i hate my roomate for proving my mum right when i try so hard to set things right like maybe that’s why i dont tell anyone about my situation other than Her. i never told my parents about the berkeley livin situation they already warn me enough to be careful n i just keep tellin them thats racist

i have so much........THOUGHTS n........DILEMMAS...n FEARS but like i just have this blog i cant trust anyone else to talk abt it n the only person i am willing to talk to abt it will be busy and im so ashamed abt these things but she was so sweet about givin me the heads up about her schedule 

like i hated that i had to get an ugly ass haircut today cos she came back to me n we couldve talked so i guess rip she was complacent n did stuff cos she replied late from then on like that dumbass haircut was 15 minutes ugh. our talkin pattern today was like...dashed lines timereply wise? i asked her if she packed earlier (pre haircut)n she said yes but rip a few hours later she was like...I need to pack 

wat is the truth rip

the tablet bein emo like...mood but my child rip.

my love be packin n spendin time with fam before leavin for london tomorrow

n even after that she doin...Stuff. rip.

which is ye know good for her rip.

i just hope she dont go iceskatin deadass one slip n she can crack her head open or break her neck or paralyse her spine like...??? why do humans wanna do dumb activities

like omg she admitted to me today she a serial jaywalker and WORSE with music n headphones like

binch thats why i didnt wanna enable you further by gettin ye airpods deadass bye

n she was like??? tryna equate it with my risky risk like ummm

mine is for science n validity

hers is just carelessness n chosin lazy convenience over idk...the responsibility of self vigilance like...

bruh ppl shouldnt promise someone 91 years if they be continuin to do dumb stuff consciously oof rip

but other than that like...im...really proud of this resolution she be undertakin officially on the 14th?

im nervous abt it cos i really want it for her too. i want her to get the proper sleep n i always hated her givin excuses like ‘IM FINE ON 4 HOURS OF SLEEP’ ‘I NAPPED 3 HOURS 38293820 HOURS AGO IM FINE I MADE UP FOR IT’ um...blokt. get proper sleep binch i love you tf???

prioritise work cos ye gonna regret not givin it yer all??? n ye payin for this???

what fun??? we capitalists now we want that money rip.

i see that shift you know rip i saw it comin a year ago.

that dont mean we republicans rip we still care about others n the inequality? but like i foresaw us getting acquainted with the harsh reality of the world n how difficult it is to get a job--which she experienced along the way.

n rip she wants many things bookmarkin them n honestly same rip

i want a stable warm home for this family n a shiny diamond to get disassociated by extra im a simple man

meanin im selfish n im ready to prioritise meanin im ready to make the choice for others to fall apart/behind if it means puttin This first rip

god pls dont make me a republican this so ugly

# 1 she’d hate me #2 i’d hate me

now im sad

im dead.

omg rip earlier too as she said goodbye i told her i loved her and she was like ‘i love you more’

DEADASS I WAS LIKE LMAO!!! girL i dont think you understand im literally Ready to put you and our possible future First like...im not messin around what skitrips with rich ppl what friends my love is potent n extreme n COncentrated like im sorry ik you feel love for me but you cant top This rip she not ready 

like the um ‘partially wanna make my life’s work abt knowin what might hurt n kill ye so i can kill it first or blok it well’ kinda love

the ‘im already savin for at least HALF a first month deposit in an overpriced london in case you wanna settle down wit me Mayhaps n im not touching it for ANYTHING’ kinda love

the ‘im thinking of a winter home in the tropics so you suffer less n im plannin the floorplans already rip just in case’ kinda extraness

but anyways the gall of this cute lovely human rip ‘i love you more’ ummm try Again smh

bruh i love her too much i bet that’s scary for her rip it might be a Burden tbh she so young rip 

meanwhile im old n ready to rot but like...

i wanna be mortal wit ye before i do

but ye know wat lads i saw myself in the mirror today like 5 times OOF. this meatform...keepin me...Humble. 

bitter but like...humble

‘like of course sHe not ready not only is my personality like dis but also...my outward form how could she introduce me as a Spouse’

‘wow i look like that oof it good i remembered i am undeservin of full intense love like in the films n fanfiction they always between attractive ppl after all it only 1/2 it not Equal’

‘wow bruh ye really upset she spendin time n resources elsewhere when you be lookin like That? ye dont have much to offer bro take the L’

oof so that’s the personal tea i can think of?

had a meghan marke talk rip i can’t believe i was right??? i had twin vibes!!! but i was hoping for like a variety situation rip im worried a lil abt the whole birthin Late ting but she can afford the highest care rip it fine she rich.

my love was talkin abt how pretty MM was n i was like rip is she triggerin Her a lil rip worrirooni

rip speakin of babies like she was showin me this smol gummybear n im like same das me heart n she was like :( n i was like it only fits you

n she was like so no children then:(

n i was like!!! rip if it Ours of course that Counts n i was a lil shook like rip she said she didn’t want them Really so i always get guilty when i talk abt the future or realise i mentioned kids or carelessly name drop Hyaline n Benzion like...im dead rn just typin that like what if she read this big shame bro

but ye know what this is already long n she gonna be busy maybe that’s the key. TOo Much puts ppl OFF so ye mayhaps we sneaky ! ?

anyway i was tryin to get her thoughts on it rip but like she was all iDK ASK ME IN 13 Yrs n i was like...

sighemoji + sandemoji + resignedemoji

rip we talked FAaC a lil. cos she Dared!!! to liken me to her brother just cos i showed her my cheap youth boy shoes smh

At first i was super offended n disgusted but then i was like rip eyemoji if ye into that

then she was like ew nO

then i was like um ye already play the ‘daddy u like me young huh’ card

which is like idk is like technically? joking but it’s like that post ye know abt ppl bein ‘whether or not im actually jokin or flirtin depends if you into it’ but also like schrodingers racism like ‘it was a joke bro!!!’ but they actually bigots.

so it DIFFICULT for my brain to Confirm rip like...eyemoji what is the truth

but like??? im rip. willin. rip. to. rip. Try. rip.?

really i am rip. it Her. bruh. im only hopin she dont have a golden shower kink but. trust i...Will follow thru.

nO IM REMEMBERIN THE DOO DOO POST DESPAIR

rip anyway that whole thing reminded me of FAaC origins which was porn n then somehow sHe was like imagine if egggsy was a singer he’d sing like ‘age is just a number’ shit n i SPILLED THE TEA ABOUT A TING IN PT 3 im so weak sand

i miss the gays

i wanna give them justice n happiness but the 2027 excuse is rl nice for my ugly procrastination issues oof but i wish them well

add: rip had another talk with my mum i really wanted her to understand my thought process about wanting to get the prereqs for medtraining done beforehand

n she was like...I UNderstand but Normal people--

n i was like ‘IM NOT NORMAL I DONT KNOW HOW TO CHOOSE I HAVE NO IDENTITY’

n she’s just like SHOOKE n mad n clearly dont understand that im fukt up in the head ‘...IC AN’T BELIEVE YOU!!! iF YOU’RE ABNORMAL YOU WONT GET HIRED N YOU WONT HAVE A NICE JOB’

n im like...well i mean what can i say to that it’s not like it’s not tru rip

Big sand honestly.

it gonna be a long few days imma do my best to leave her alone she needs her time rip i love her so much rip sand

i feel like a dumb ugly dog god fljækadfkøad h8

[deadtower]

hello there ! so, as someone whose planning to write a novel in the future and is in the development of said novel - i realized that i wanted to create more characters that were diverse in more than just race so i wanted to make a jewish ( actually, two ) characters who are apart of the main cast but the issue is, i'm not jewish myself. so i was wondering, if it is no problem to you, if you could tell me some things about what it's like to be jewish ? some daily things you do and the sort ?

sorry for the late response anon !! i usually sleep kinda late on days im not in school LOL

also this response got a little long bc im terrible at being brief but dont worry i do answer ur question after i meander all around LMAO

the thing is, you have to figure out how closely you want them tied to their jewishness. for instance, my family has heavy connections to judaism, but i am not (at the moment) a practicing jew because i have a complicated relationship with religion at the moment. i’m a secular Jew, because i dont go to synagogue or anything. but i still observe jewish holidays -- when possible, i have seders with friends or family, i light a hanukkiah for hanukkah, i make some of the traditional foods when i can (i.e. hamantaschen, charoset, etc.), and i try to learn more about my jewish roots. so if you have a character who is a secular jew, you don’t need to worry much about making anything ‘obvious’. maybe a quick reference to one of the jewish holy days? such as, idk, a character being like “hey, let’s get together on sunday” and one of your jewish characters being like “oh man, i can’t, purim is sunday” or something like that. in my experience, at least, being a secular jew isn’t much different from being a christian who doesn’t spend a lot of time witnessing -- ‘secular’ christians just go to church every sunday and try to lead by example, that sort of thing.

if you want them to be any more jewish than that, i’m not the person to ask. @noctisluciz is a good person to ask since they know a lot more than me about that sort of thing.

i also think how jewish a person’s experience is can also depend on their family. if someone lives with non-jewish roommates (like me), they’ll probably just practice quietly and out of the way unless they’re really devoted. so you won’t hear much about it other than a joke or one-off here and there. if they live with a jewish family (whether it’s theirs or someone else’s) it’s much more likely that holidays will be an Event, that traditions will be more upheld, etc. in my education i’ve always been taught that judaism places importance on community --- on family, on friends, on fellow jews. we have been through a lot together, after all !!

so --- first, you should decide whether you want your characters to be secular jews, practicing jews, (and of those, are they ashkenazi or sephardic, etc.) orthodox jews, hasidic jews, etc. (hasidic/orthodox jews, to my knowledge, live in communities of the same for the most part, so it’s unlikely that your everyday teen is going to belong to them, though possible.) then, you’re going to have to find some people who are of that group and ask around to see how frequently they observe their religion / if they do at all. cross-reference, find out what jewish people actually do in everyday life, DON’T MAKE IT CORNY. ya know? like we don’t all wear yarmulke every day (that would be the more orthodox --- though it is used at synagogue iirc and at seders and there’s usually spare ones in store for non-Jews or those who forget theirs), we don’t ... idfk, sing the dreidel song every day or WHATEVER, as a secular Jew i just live my life, celebrate jewish holidays, and go on with my day.

SO BASICALLY TL;DR BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE CONCISE

- as a secular Jew you pretty much can’t tell i’m jewish until i say something like “oh shit, rosh hashanah is next week, i need to buy apples and honey”- i’m aware of jewish traditions (i.e. days start at sunset, plurals of nouns in hebrew end in -im, not -s) bc i see them repeated over and over and have kind of educated myself- i’m very proud of my jewish heritage but it only shows when i have the ability to talk about it- i buy shit that says kosher as kind of a default even though im not required to kind of like how you’ll grab the brand name stuff off the shelf if youre not hurting for money without really having a reason- i think it’d be cool to go to synagogue and hebrew school and all but i havent gone and am kind of a weenie so i wanna go with a jewish friend who’s been going for a while- basically the only time you know i’m jewish is when it comes up in conversation- i refer to myself as a Jew bc i am jewish but other people referring to me as a Jew makes me uncomfortable, be careful with that one, best not to have ur non-Jew characters refer to the jewish characters as Jews- just write your characters with the understanding that if they’re secular jews their ‘default’ is probably going to be hardwired to be hanukkah instead of christmas, passover instead of easter, etc. and they’re obviously going to be upset at antisemitic acts and portrayals and have more awareness of said antisemitic acts and portrayals even if their goyische friends don’t realize that an act or portrayal is antisemitic (since we deal with antisemitism a LOT even from our friends)- i say “goyim” and shake my head like four times a day bc y’all are wild sometimes but not everyone does this im sure but. i do. basically the equivalent of being like “the straights are at it again”- that’s really about it as far as my own life as a secular Jew goes- they’re also probably going to be at least a little funny because we as a people tend to be hilarious imho- also it’d be a good idea to place them close to a jewish community, for instance i live on the mainland but there’s an island five minutes away that has a large jewish community, a synagogue, a JCC, etc. and it comforts me immensely because i know if i ever need resources/kosher/any other kind of holiday food im covered- there u go u wrote a secular Jew

[smarmykemetic]

@amdk62rulez blocked me and i dont give enough of a fuck to go to their blog for a full screencap

first of all, this isn’t about me. this is about intaier not taking responsibility for the shitty things that *she* says. i dont doubt that intaier could be doing things to help that i dont see, but that doesn’t excuse the antisemitic shit she’s said, the culturally appropriative shit she says, or her complete refusal to ever admit any kind if wrongdoing, however minor. it doesnt excuse passive aggressive behavior and calling people "agents of isfet" for holding the kemetic community to higher standards than...none at all, other than some vague "be polite to everyone all the time" shit. it doesnt excuse misrepresenting peoples' grievances to make them sound ridiculous and act like she is always in the right.

if you must know, i live in the middle of nowhere and dont have a car, so i cant go to protests in the nearest actual city (which is about 50 miles away) until i get one. i’ll probably be able to when i get my tax return. for now, i just try to donate whatever money i can afford. i dont talk about that on tumblr, though, because thats tacky. i can show you the receipts if you insist though, lmao. (i personally think that it’s too late to call or write representatives, but thats just me.) just because i do those things, though, doesnt mean that i cant -or dont- ever say problematic shit online and get called out for it; the same goes for intaier.

and i dont block people that i dont like over here?? i have only like four people blocked i think; solo, kamonra, BBSAS, and anubianpagan. i block whoever i want on my *personal* blog.

now if you’re done derailing, let me repeat myself: intaier has been saying some fucked up things, and when i come across those things (because again, i saw the comments that im referring to in the notes of a post i’d already reblogged) im going to continue pointing out that those things are fucked up so long as she continues saying these things. that’s what that “freedom of speech” yall antis love so much means.