#dont bring that shit into my livingroom.

[forestryfae]

ough i need groceries, i also have the money for a shelf i dont know how ill bring back home but i still want and need. and i have atleast two or three loads of laundry i really need to get done so im finally done with them and can put the shit in storage, i dont need christmas curtains in may but i need them to not be dusty and gross when i pack them away.

this all sounds v easy and like a fun time going outside ngl but i have dishes too and i lowkey need a shower before i go anywhere but i left the clothes i need to wash in the shower area so everything is blocked until i do the laundry lmao

i also did very much manage to move all the laundry and the laundrybasket OUT of the livingroom so thats very very neat, i can actually reach the tv and i was able to grab some paintings i had lying there too so now i can finally hang those up and if i can figure out where the last part of a tv stand went i can in theory put together my tv and put it up in the livingroom. i do have that wall hanger for it but i dont wanna deal with drilling it into the walls and i dont think i even can? i think the place i want it to be is a brick wall.

there is a chance that the last part of the stand is at the thrift store and it got misplaced while i was moving out tho so i might have to check with them or see if i can get a replacement

[kindnessoverperfection]

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[ushiwakaout]

A merry little christmas

Iwaizumi x Fem!Reader

Summary: Durring the holidays all of Iwaizumi, Oikawa, Matukawa and Hanakami gathered around with their former teamates, but you, their former manager have been pretty quiet for the past two years. Nothing would go wrong if the main four just happen to come to your home unanounced, right?

word count: 2K +

warnings: some angst? some crack? fluff ending! and bad spelling

On a winter day, Iwaizumi Hajime had been contacted by Oikawa Toru of his sudden holiday arrival and had to pick him up at the airport. “You couldn’t call someone else to pick you up?” He teased, bringing his best friend into a hug. “No one else had answered the phone but you Iwa.” The two laughed into the hug, knowing for fact that, that was not true. “How’s Brazil?” Iwaizumi asked his best friend. “Good! Miss her already. It way to cold in Japan.” Iwaizumi rolled his eyes, “I told you, don’t know why you thought a long sleeve and shorts would be a good idea.” He patted Oikawa on the back and pushed him towards his car, “Come on, lets get going, i’m freezing my balls off here.” Oikawa winced at his words, “How vulgar...” He noted before climbing on the passanger seat.

Oikawa arrived late on the 23, meaning that the next morning they would get ready to celebrate christmas. “What are our plans for tonight?” Oikawa asked, blow drying his hair in the bathroom, as Iwaizumi got dressed in his room. “Matsukawa and Hanakami arranged some kind of reunion with the team, we are heading to a bar tonight.”

Oikawa nodded, fixing his har to the side, “It better be fancy.”

And fancy it was. By a miracle, Matsukawa was able to get the last private room due to his good looks (or so he says). Iwaizumi patted him on the back and raised a glass for the small christmas miracle.

Meanwhile you raised the last cup that needed to be cleaned at your local bar. Your christmast miracle was that you had a stable job and where able to leave work early today. “Mori- thank you so much for covering for me.” Mori nodded and patter your hair. “Of course y/n, go on and head home for the night and say hello you your little bug for me.” You nodded and quickly handed him a boxed gift and a kiss on the cheek. “Marry christmas Mori!” You called while running out the door to rush home. 

“Kiyoshi? Where are you bug?” You locked the door behind you and looked around your small apartment. Kiyoshi peeked his head out of his bedroom and his eyes glistened. “Mommy! You’re early!” He cheered running up full sprint for you to pick him up and twirl him around. “Of course! Mommy need’s to shower first and then she’ll start making dinner, alright?” Kiyoshi quickly nodded and ran into the livingroom where he had seemed to be hanging out in until you unlocked the door. You locked yourself in the bathroom and sighed happily, seeing the smile on Kiyos cute little face was enough to brighten your day. You stripped from your clothes and heated up the water for a second before you got in.

“Thank god.” Oikawa cheered as the appetizers came rolling in. “This looks delicious.” He thanked the cute waitress and winked at her. Iwaizumi rolled his eyes and smacked him behind the head. “What? Y/n-chan isn’t here to tease so I just picked the next big thing.” All of the teams head popped up at the name. “Y/n- where is she to be exact?” Oikawa asked, and all the boy’s kinda tensed up while looking at Iwaizumi. “What arou guys looking at?”

“IWA-CHAN WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY SWEET Y/N?!”

“I didn’t do jack shit!” Iwaizumi barked back before Hanakami cleared his throat. “She’s been hiding from him for the past four years because-” Matsukawa and Kunimi elbowed his hip. “-Ow! Fucking hell-”

“-She has her hands full.”Matsukawa and Kunimi both said at the same time. Iwaizumi raised a brow, what the hell is that supposed to meam? “On christmas? I don’t think so.” Oikawa shook his head and sat up, “Can I get the check please?!” Matsukawas eyes widened and pulled on Oikawas shirt to sit back down, “What are you doing?” He hissed. “Us five are going to see Y/N while the rest enjoy their food, let’s go now.” 

Matsukawa and Kunimi both looked at eachother, the knew for a fact that once they got their- Y/N was gonna give them a good scolding.

“Kiyo! Come on, dinner’s ready!” You carried a hot bowl of soup to his little place on the dinner table and he quickly sat down. “Cold soba noodles?” For some odd reason, Kiyo very much liked to have cold soba on the side and then dip his noodles so they arent super hot. “Thank you momma.”

“Of course bug.” You ruffled his dark hair and kissed the crown of his head. 

You sat down momentarily before your doorbell rang. You rose a brow, the only person that was supposed to be coming was Kunimi and Matsukawa, but not until later tonight. “Y/n-chan! Open the door!” Oikawa sang from the outside and your heart dropped. “C-coming!” 

“Who is it mommy?”

Oikawa and Iwaizumi both rose a brow. “Mommy? Who the hell-”

You swung the door open and smiled, “I’m sorry.” Matsukawa mouthed before giving you a good squeez and slipping past you. “We tried.” Kunimi and Hanakami both muttered, patting you on the back, Kunimi giving your arm a small squeez. “Y/n-chan! Where’s my hug?” You chuckled as he picked you up to twirl you around. “It’s been so long!” You giggled in his ear. “Yeah it has.” The brunett dropped you on your feet and smiled. “You look good, mind if i come in?”

“My home is your home...” Oikawa ruffled your hair leaving you outside the hall with Iwaizumi. The second you had opened the door, he was fasinated by the way you looked. You hair was cleaned up nice and your white sweater dropped close to your chest, complimeting the red necklace you wore. “Hey ‘Waizumi...”

“H-Hi... Hello. It’s been a while.” He tumbled over his words, making you more nervous. He leaned in and gave you a hug. Had your breast gotten bigger from the last time you saw eachother. Iwaizumi fought the urge to squeez you closer to feel you but he could tell that you where a little different. You let go of him and leaned back, “You wanna come in? We go a lot of catching up to-”

“Mommy Uncle Issei is being mean!” You chest thightened before turnign around quickly as if Iwaizumi wasn’t there. “Ah- ah Kiyo, what did I tell you about running.” The little boy that wrapped his arms around your legs peeked up to look at the man who stood in front of your door. “Who’s that?” Kiyo pulled on your jeans before picking him up. “Just a friend bug, come on, ask uncle Kunimi to rough him up, yeah?” Kiyo nodded and pushed himself away from you to jump to the floor and run to Kunimi and then run to punch Issei- before running away giggling and hiding behind Oikawa. “Y/n....” 

Your chest tightened again before turning around to see that Iwaizumis eyes followed Kiyo around the room. “How old is he?” He asked, not knowing if he wanted the answer to be what he thought it was. You sighed and leaned against the neerest wall, smiling at Kiyo as he giggled with Issei. “He just turned four in November.” You muttered, “He’s getting really big- and he’s getting really restless too... He’s been running around trying to fight bugs and get ditry at the park.... He uh- he.....” you chuckled at yourself, “He reminds me of his dad...” You glanced at Iwaizumi who was already looking at you. “Four years.” He spoke, you can see that he had already connected the dotts. 

“Iwaizumi you where leaving to California I couldn’t have-”

“I-I know.... I get it, I just... I just need some time.”

“Iwaizumi-”

“Merry Christmas, Y/n.” Iwaizumi turned around and walked out down the hall towards the exit, leaving you at the front door. You sighed, rubbing the bridge of your nose before entering the door. “Where’s Iwaizumi?” Matsukawa asked with Kiyo upside down in his arms. “He uh- he left... When running out the door, basically.” You laughed sadly. “I shouldn’t have kept it a secret... I’m so stupid.” The four boys heart sank when you began to lightly sob. Kiyo wiggled in Matsukawas arms and ran to bring his small arms around you, “Mommy don’t cry, it’s christmas! No one cries of christmas!” Slowly Kiyo began to cry, “I- I dont wanna see m-mommy c-cry!” He hiccuped, seconds before you picked him up from the floor. “You really are a sponge for emotions huh, kiyo...” The boy began to cry uncontrollably in your arms. “I’m gonna go talk to him.” Matsukawa informed, ruffling Kiyos hair and then kissing your head. “You don’t have to- I know it’s a lot to take in.”

“Y/n you literraly told me the day you gave birth- I think he’ll be fine.” You shook your head at him and continued to coo Kiyo as he calmed down in your arms. “Would you like to inform me into all of this?” Oikawa asked sitting next to you with a soft smile. “Sure...”

While you told Oikawa your side of the story, Matsukawa watched at Iwaizumi paced back and forth otuside in the cold weather. “Iwaizumi-”

“Four years... Four fucking years Issei... She hid this from me.”

“I know-”

“How could she? Four..... What do you mean, you know?”

“I mean, I knew.... I’ve known.... The whole time.” Matsukawa shoved his hands into his pockets. “Why didn’t you tell me?” Matsukawa scoffed, “How could I? She begged me not too because you where out living the california dream while she stayed at home.” Iwaizumi shook his head, he couldn’t even be mad, he was glad you had him to confide to. “The bugger is a lot like you, so don’t worry, she’s not lying.” Iwaizumi laughed, “I knew the second I looked at the kid... Looks exactly like a replica of me and her... just really small.” He laughed again, crounching down on his knees. “I have a kid... I have a fucking kid.”

“You won’t have a fucking kid or a damn partnert who would love you as much as she would- if you don’t go back into her appartment, and tell her that you want to be apart of that kids life.” Matsukawa said, pointing back at the apartment complex. “What if she doesn’t-”

“Stop right there- Iwaizumi, she was crying the second you left... She still loves you-”

“She loves me?”

Matsukawa looked at him widded eyed, “I didn’t say that-”

“You just said she loves me, not LOVED but loves- two completely different things... She loves me?”

“I swear you’re the stupidist mother fucker alive. God she’s gonna hate me and take away my Kiyo rights but.... She’s been in love with you since highschool and-”

“You knew?”

“Yeah... I knew.”

“Issei, your so fucking lucky I don’t punch you right here- right now.”

“I know.....”

The two of them stood quietly before Iwaizumi pulled him into a hug. “Thank you for taking care of her... I don’t deserve this.” He muettered a Matsukawa scoffed, “You absolutely don’t.... But I’m sure she’s willing to give you a chance.”

Iwaizumi and Matsukawa walked back to the apartment with minimal chatter before they stood back in front of her door. When the walked in, Oikawa, Hanakami and Komori laughed to themselves quietly as you sat in front of the christmas tree with a dead asleep Kiyo in your arms. Matsukawa looked at the three and nodded to them, they caught on and once walking out the door, patted Iwaizumi for some sort of confidense. You turned and caught a glance at Matsukawa before the closed the door, he winked at you and mouthed ‘good luck’ before dashing out.

 Iwaizumi slowly made his hay towards you and sat down... “So... He’s my kid?” You lightly glared at him. “Sorry, I- I had to ask.”

“I think you know the answer.”

“Y/n-”

“You don’t have to stay... I know Cali-”

“I’m not going back to California, y/n... And if you’d let me... I’d like to say.”

Your chest thightened up like the first time you saw him at school... His green eyes where inticing as ever. “I’d- I.... I’d like that.” You felt a wiggle on your shoulder. “Does this mean I get a dad for christmas?” Kiyo muttered lazily, rubbing his eyes from being in a deep sleep. “Kiyo! What did I tell you about snooping?”

“Don’t do it... Unless it’s juicy?”

“No Kiyo-”

“What the hell have you been teaching him?”

“That wasn’t me! Matsukawa comes over way too often and teaches him this shit.”

“Shit!”

“NO! KIYO! BAD MOUTH! I’m gonna put soap in your mouth mister!”

“MMMMM... SHIT!”

“Oh god....” Kiyo rushed out of your arms and ran hiding into his room before yelling shit one more time. “I’ll just blame it on Issei...” You laughed, looking back at the christmas tree. “Speaking of Issei... He told me something while he came out?”

“Did he finally tell you that I love you?”

“No he.... What did you just say?”

“I love you? You really didn’t know? I thought I was being blunt in highschool?” Iwaizmi shook his head. “God, you’re so stupid... I hope Kiyo doesn’t have your thick skull.” The two of you sat in silence. “I’m sorry I hid him for so long... If it weren’t for this, I think I would have never told you....” Iwaizumi rose a brow, “Really?” You nodded, “Um... Issei was doing a pretty good job being his dad for the time being..... I think he told Kiyo about you, he just knows how to pretend really well thanks to him...”

“I’m sorry I wasn’t there.” Iwaizumi apologized, reaching out for your hand and kissing your fingers. “I wasn’t your fault... you didn’t know.” You informed, “But I know now and I’m not going anywhere.”

You smiled softly at him as he kissed your cold fingertips again, “Merry Chirstmas Hajime....” A blush crept on his tan skin, it’s been a while since you called him by his first name. “Merry christmas Y/N.”

a/n: definetly didn’t go as planned but I wanted to put something out for christmas :)

[sweater-daddiesdumbdork]

i just watched this video of chris drunk during an interview and omg he is the cutest bean ever😍 so here comes another request, chris is out, drinking with friends and he calls you because he is clingy with you more so when drunk and he is just spilling everything, how much he loves you and the whole wedding vows and promises and then he comes home but doesn’t recognize you and he is like ‘no, i don’t wike you, i have a girlfriend’😂 i know very specific but omg i’m so in love with him💕

Babes, he is the Sweetest cutest drunk man ever, if its the video where he goes on about how hes not a tap dancer, but lets lay claim to that fame, cause why the hell not. XD haha. I loved trying to picture what he would do. And absolutely he would get so gushy for his girl, needing to tell her how much he loved her. Awww. Love this one, thank you so much! 

“God I need a break”

Chris’s arm slung over his eyes as he tipped his head back, taking a deep chest raising breath. You glanced up from your seat across the room, watching him from over your book. A frown playing on your lips at the sight of him being so tensed and stressed out. Everything about him right now was taunt and rigid. And with a sigh he moved back into a sit, leaning over his documents spread on the coffee table. Setting your book aside, you grabbed your phone and headed into the kitchen, pulling up a group chat with all of Chris’s closest friends.

‘Hey what you guys all doing tonight?’ You chewed your lip a bit waiting. They were rather quick though, sending you a quick fire replies.

‘Nothing!’

‘Staying home on the couch watching trash tv’

‘Suggestions?’

‘Whats up Buttercup?’ Last one came from Scott, he started giving you teasing nicknames simply cause you were practically his sister in law at this point.

‘Chris desperately needs a night out with all of you, and wont ask for it himself. Help him (and me) out?’

You peeked back out of the room, to see Dodger huffing at Chris with a ball in his mouth, shoving into his lap. Chris absently with a flick of the wrist tossed it across the room. The fact he wouldnt even look up, but the crease deepened in his forehead as his eyes scanned the words, rubbing his chin let you know he needed this. He kept up like that, his beard you adored so much was gonna be rubbed off. Come on guys, you thought. It was then you heard the ping, and it popped up on your screen.

‘Say no more, we will take care of it’

They were the best. Seconds later Chris’s phone started buzzing, rattling across the coffee table, jarring him at the noise. It was persistent, as he reached to grasp it, going through the ‘Buddy, Julios, 8 pm tonight!’ messages, Scott sending a private one later ‘Picking you up tonight’ Leaving it so Chris didnt have to worry about driving.

“Y/N, the guys want to go out tonight... “ He pushed off the sofa and went in search of you, finding you standing at the kitchen counter, selecting an apple out of the fruit bowl and start slicing it up. “Hmm, whats that Chris?” You ask while coring your fruit, asting as if you didnt know what he was gonna ask.

“Guys want to go out tonight, you want to come? They are apparently not taking im to busy as an answer. Scotts driving.”

You act surprised, and give a shake of the head. “No, Im gonna stay home tonight. Working on a work project, and I want to finish it up.” You gather your fruit in a bowl and come around to reach him. “But I will leave the porch light on for you Handsome.” You lean up as if to kiss him and when he went to meet you, you stuff an apple in his mouth, grinning as you pluck up another piece and snip of the tip of it.

“Just dont forget your keys cause I will be sleeping.” You smirk, after swallowing, moving to go around him. He wasnt about to let you get away though, catching you around your hips and pulling you in close, using his beard to tickle your neck. “Oh I know you had something to do with this Baby!”

You are laughing and squealing, denying your guilt as you try to escape. “No way! It wasnt--- CHRIS!” he was relentless though and chased you into the livingroom once you broke free, already he was starting to relax more.

That night, you did as you promised and left the porch light on, making sure the door was locked and headed into the bathroom to brush your teeth. Your phone sat nearby, and right in the middle of you scrubbing for those pearly whites, Chris’s ring tone popped up, the phone lighting up the picture of the three of you. Picking it up, you had to chuckle at the message.

‘Baby, I miss you so much. What are you doing? Do you miss me yet.(sad face sad face heart)’

You typed out ‘Brushing my teeth and heading to bed. Sounds like your having a good time. (wink)’

It wasnt even seconds before you got another one, this time it was ‘But do you MISS me?’ Yea he was tipsy, he always got a bit needy once he had some liquor in him.

‘Yes, course I do. Sleeping all alone is tough without you to cuddle up with.’ You knew that would make him smile. Snapping off the light, you go into the bedroom and turn down the bed, setting about doing the rest of your nightly routine when it pings again. This time there is a video, which you move to sit up against the headboard, hitting play.

It starts out all wonky, like Chris didnt have the camera still, and then it turns to him, at an odd angle, he must not be holding it high enough, and hes shouting over the music. “Y/N, I couldnt type anymore, the keys are to small.” he lifts it higher and you can see the others in the background, goofing off and shouting at him to return to the party, he waves them off and steps away further, away from the music, so you can hear him properly now. “I just wanted to tell you how much I fucking love you. Oh so much baby.” He rubs his face quickly, you can tell what hes saying is important to him, something that hes kept for a while, but finally had to get it out. Whenever he gets emotional, he rubs and touches his face. “I just need you always in my life, and I know you will tell me not to be silly, but listen. I love you so much, I just need to tell you. When we get married, im writing my own vows, your worth so much baby, I cant wait to make you all mine. I still need to go buy that ring though. How do I open up reminders?” His finger slammed down on the phone and its here he accidentally hit send, making you laugh hard enough that tears start streaming down your face.

It was no hidden fact that Chris wanted to tie the knot, he had mentioned it several times, so you couldnt wait to show this to him to see that flush rise up his cheeks and him shrugging as if he confessed some big secret. “Dont pay attention to that, I have to do it right!” Little did he know that you didnt even need the ring. If he just asked, you would in a heartbeat agree. But as he said, he wanted to do it right, and you were fine with waiting for him to be ready.

You send a message to Scott. ‘Please bring Chris home safe, hes so liquored!’ Which Scott just sent back a laughing emoji, clearly amused with his brother. It went quiet, and you pull the blankets up, falling asleep shortly after.

It was a couple hours later when you heard Dodger shuffle out of the bedroom and give a soft bark. Chris must be home, you thought as you rolled to get up, and wearing nothing but his oversized tee, you pad out to see where he was. Ahh, the kitchen. On the counter was several bags of what looked like taco bell, and he was rummaging for something. You lean in the doorway and say his name “Chris, honey, what are you looking for?”

From in the fridge he remarks “more cheese, I need more cheese” Between his legs, Dodger also has his head stuck in the fridge, the two of them quite the pair. You open a cupboard and take out some nacho cheese, unscrewing the top for Chris. In this state of mind, you didnt want him to try for himself. “Here Handsome, I got you a jar.” He turned suddenly, half tripping over Dodger as he went for the bag of tacos, and dumping out a pile of food. “Your the best... “ drizzling cheese all over his taco and taking a big bite, he gave what could only be described as a dirty moan, his eyes rolling back. “This is the best, besides Y/N’s tacos. I miss my baby” 

“Im right here” You state, but he ignores you, going back to his taco. While hes eating, you go back to lock the door, pick up his shoes, and leave the rest of his chaos for the morning.

Getting back, you see hes left behind his meal, and with a roll of your eyes you pick that up to. He would make it up to you tomorrow. You would be sure of it. Heading towards the bedroom, you saw him collapsed on the bed, groaning. You bite your lip to keep from laughing, going to set on your side of the bed. “Chris, do you want to get undressed?”

His eyes slanted open as he looked up at you, and he groaned, turning away. “Go away, wheres Y/N?”

Well this was a first for you, your hand touches Chris’s back. “Baby, its me.”

He shifted once more to turn on his side facing away from you, muttering “I dont wike it, Stop, go away, your not Y/N”

“Chris?” You move to lean over him, your hand braced on his shoulder for leverage to glance over his half sleeping form, and he half slapped at your hand touching him, grumbling into his pillow. “Stop, I dont wike it. Wheres Y/N?” It wasnt often Chris resorted back to placing his W’s in place of the L’s.  

You pull back and study him a moment, getting your phone and texting Scott.

‘How much did you guys give Chris?’

‘Oh honey, that boy is out of commission when I dropped him off at home. He should be passed out by now.’

No shit Scott, you think. Setting your phone aside. Chris has shifted again, to his back, and gives a smile seeing you and sighing. “Y/N is so beautiful, I cant wait till we have all the babies. Little Y/N all over the place.”

You pat his chest and lay down next to him. “Yes sir, all the babies, and Chris can change all the dirty diapers, and car pool them back and forth to soccer camp.”

He loped an arm around you and cuddled you in close to him, humming. “Yup. Tell Y/N that when she comes home that I miss her.”

“Oh of course, she will be very happy to see your home safe.”

That made him smile and he buried his face in your hair. Within minutes he started snoring softly, and you moved his arm from over your chest to settle at your waist. Finally you to drift off for the night.

The next morning came to you waking up first, bleary eyed, Chris came into focus, having moved during the night. Now he was on his back, head tipped back into the pillows, and mouth wide open. You were pretty tempted to take a picture, but before you could move, he slung an arm around you and twisted to his side, muttering against your shoulder.

“What Handsome?”

“I want... to die. Ugh” He lifted his head enough to rub the sleep out of his eyes and rubbed his chin against your neck, resettling himself against you. “How bad was I?”

Your hand comes up to card your fingers through his hair, light and gentle, he started humming softly at the soothing feeling.

“Well... You insisted on eating tacos, left a whirlwind of stuff in our livingroom, and you didnt remember who I was.” That shot his head up, in confusion.

“What?”

“Yea, you were convinced I was another woman and everytime I tried to like touch you to make sure you were okay, You brush me off and demand to know where I was.” You giggled softly at the memory, and he dropped his head groaning.

“Shit baby Im so sorry if I was an ass.”

“No no, you werent. It was more like you just wanted to see me, and you werent gonna accept another woman. It was kind of cute. You kept saying I dont wike it whenever i touched you. Oh and you um... sent me a video.”

He grumbled against your shoulder. “Course I did... I dont even want to know what was on it.”

You bring your hand to slide down the back of his neck, to his shoulders and rub along his upper back. “Well, it was all good stuff Chris. It was about how much you missed me, and loved me, then there was talks about a wedding ring.” Again he groaned against you, lifting his head up.

“Listen Y/N, when I said all that... “ He started and you cupped your hand over his mouth.

“Stop Babes, you were drunk. You really dont have to say anything. It was a cute video, and thats all I took it for.”

His eyes flashed in a touch of relief, another less sure woman might have been hurt at her mans relief, but you knew better. Chris was a man who ‘wanted to do it right’. You tilted your head up and nuzzled your nose against his. “How about you jump in the shower, and I will go make us a hangover cure?”

“And whats that?”

“Why more alcohol of course.”

He seemed to ponder a bit on your offer, and rolled to sit up, stretching. “Your on baby. Can you stay in my shirt though?” His blue eyes darkened in desire. “Cause your so fucken sexy in my clothes and I have plans for us later.”

You move to get off the bed, cupping his face once you stand and kiss his lips playfully. “Of course” As you turn to leave, his hand snaps playfully across your bare ass, and you smirk leaving the room.

Party is just getting started now.

[angelsswirl]

Vellichor

The One With Shit and The Fan

A.N. Yall are about to be very mad at me, but it must be read.

~•~

Oh and I know

And you know that we've been here before

I think I know how it should end

We got an audience calling us crazy

You feel like a white suburban mom.

The ones that hoot and howl over every little thing in preparation for company.

You feel like that, because that's exactly what you're doing right now.

Hooting and howling over every little thing in preparation for company.

"If you move a pillow to sit on the couch, what do you do with the pillow when you're done sitting on the couch? YOU PUT THE PILLOW BACK! HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU GUYS?!"

You had finally managed to convince Jisoo to agree to a civilized dinner with Taylor's parents. It involved a lot of placating and a lot of sex.

So naturally, you had to make sure the house was spic and span, because you wouldn't be caught dead in a filthy home.

Luckily, your children had pulled their own weight and helped, you were now just doing the finishing touches, like putting throw pillows in their proper place and screwing the cap on the milk jug tighter.

You also made sure to keep an eye on Jisoo just in case she decided to booby trap the place. At this point you wouldnt put it pass her.

Ryland came bouncing into the kitchen excitedly, "What did you make for dinner tonight, mommy? You got my text about the Bae-Park's dietary restrictions right?"

Despite being the second oldest, Ryland still called you 'mommy' occasionally. Especially, when she was excited or wanted something.

"Yes. Suzy and Jackson are allergic to peanuts and Taylor won't eat anything with a face. We'll see how long that lasts because you're a carnivore like your mom. And I passed it along to Lia because she cooked." You fussed around the kitchen. Dusting and swatting at imaginary dust.

"But what if mama convinced Lia to poison Chaeyoung?!"

You rolled your eyes. Did your daughter really think her mother would do something like that? Or better question. Did she really think you would let her mother do something like that?

"Jisoo has been here all day and I have her phone. I talked with Lia about everyone's needs and she made something suitable for everyone. Everything is going to be okay. Calm down, baby."

Ryland pouted, "How do you know if Chaeyoung has any restrictions? I didn't text you about her."

"We dated, remember?"

"No. I wasn't there."

"...Everything is going to be okay. Now, get out of my kitchen and set the dining room table. You might have to bring some more chairs in from the garage."

Ryland nodded.

~•~

Jisoo stared at her wife with a partially unreadable expression on her face.

She had been tricked into this. Bribed, if you will. Maybe even conned.

Sure, she was more or less fine with Taylor dating her daughter, but she wasn't really fine with spending more than an hour in a room with one of the only other people on the planet who knows what her wife looks like naked.

Great.

Her wife looks great naked. And Park Chaeyoung knew that.

She was doing her best to hide her blatant jealousy and anger but Jisoo wasn't an oscar winning actress for a reason.

"Are you getting all primped up for me or for her?" It sort of just slipped out. You had been putting on makeup for the past hour and Jisoo couldn't help but wonder.

You had never rolled your eyes harder in your life, "I'm not about to start this with you."

"You're avoiding the question."

"Because you should know the answer by now."

"For me?"

You put the finishing touches on your dark tinted red lip. Smacking them dramatically, then placing the tube of lipstick back onto the vanity.

You turned toward Jisoo with a smirk, "Oh no. For me."

Jisoo could only watch you walk out the door and into the main living area of the house.

Jisoo would try to keep the snarkiness to a minimum. If only because she's sure if she doesn't she'll never get to see your great nakedness again.

~•~

Dinner, to everyone's surprise, isn't that awkward. Probably due to the fact that Taylor easily dominated the conversation, you're a bit preoccupied with fussing over Kaleb, and Jisoo has had a full glass of red wine.

"Tay tay! How did your parents react to you telling them Ryland was your mate? Did they throw a tantrum like mama did?" Peyton asked, her mischievous smile poorly hidden behind her glass of lemonade.

Sometimes, you think Peyton forgets she still lives with you unlike her older siblings and can most definitely still be grounded. You had to resort to your signature glare, but it did the trick as Peyton slumped into her chair, thoroughly frightened.

Taylor looked confused at the question. Peyton knew the answer. They're literally best friends. She was the first one she told.

"No. Mom just mumbled that it probably made sense and then I went to go play soccer."

Ryland smiled lovingly across the table at Taylor. Lia made a gagging sound.

You thanked whatever being was listening that Peyton's chaos energy hadn't prevailed. If you thought, Ryland was your demon child while you were pregnant with her, you surely hadn't seen anything yet.

"Okay, why don't all of you kids, go do whatever it is you do in the livingroom. Mom doesn't need you to see her scarf down an entire bottle of merlot in one gulp." You mumbled that last part under your breath.

Everyone but Lia left the table, happy to be excused.

You stared at her blankly.

"I'm 22."

You're not exactly sure why but your patience is wearing thin quickly.

"Did I ask how old you were?"

"No, ma'am. Excuse me." She bowed her head dramatically before grabbing Kaleb and scurrying from the table.

"Kids. So....interesting." Chaeyoung said in an attempt to break the silence.

"Yeah. I keep telling myself that my reward for not killing them are future grandchildren. Well, actually. I'm already terrified of whatever Peyton procreates."

Both Chaeyoung and Suzy laugh at your joke.

"So, how'd you two meet?" Jisoo asked inbetween sips of her wine. She wasn't even looking in Chaeyoung and Suzy's direction, if only because it was sort of hard to peer around you in their positions.

You tried to listen for answers, you really did, but your reasoning for the irritability comes to light. You're sweating and almost slumped over into Jisoo, but you somehow managed to keep yourself upright.

Jisoo and Chaeyoung's eyes snapped to you at the same time. And the last time you felt this much dread, was when you found out that Jisoo and Chaeyoung found out about each other.

It's almost like you see Chaeyoung's mouth move in slow motion. You will her not to say anything, just let you silently excuse yourself from the table and take your suppressants, but no. Things were never easy when it came to Chaeyoung and Jisoo.

Chaeyoung offhandedly mumbled "That's familiar." She doesn't really mean anything by it. You knew that, hell even Suzy knew that.

But you can see the glass in Jisoo's hand start to shake.

"What did you just say?"

"Huh? Oh nothing. I didn't mean anything by it, Jisoo. I swear."

"Chu...let it go." You do your best to calm her down with a light touch to her thigh.

"It's no big deal. It was stupid I shouldn't have said it."

"You fucking my wife isn't a big deal?"

"Jisoo! What the hell?" You stared at your alpha who seemed to be looking right through you to Chaeyoung. The pent up anger in her eyes was quite astonishing.

"What's your problem, Jisoo? It's been years and the only one who still fucking cares is you." Chaeyoung said with a shake of her head.

"My problem is you."

Chaeyoung rolled her eyes, "I'm married with two beautiful kids. I don't want y/n and she doesn't want me. Grow up."

Chaeyoung gathered her belongings and gestured for her wife to follow her. Suzy did so reluctantly, she shot a glance of sympathy toward you but otherwise didn't say anything.

The family left, two confused children in tow.

You swallowed harshly, it was surprisingly easy to fight off your heat instincts considering you wanted very little to do with the person that's supposed to help you through that.

"Well. Congratulations."

Jisoo's brows furrowed, not in the least bit surprised when you dont elaborate.

You got up from the table without a word. You headed to the livingroom and poked your head in, "Peyton, do you mind cleaning up the table. You don't have to do the dishes, just put them in the sink. Thank you." Abigail and Ryland stared after you.

Peyton set about doing the task without any fan fare.

You then hurried into your bedroom. Wiping at your eyes and your makeup.

You knew Jisoo had followed you. Probably wanting an explanation about what you said.

"Why can't you just let it go? It's been twenty years. You said you were over it, but every time you're even slightly reminded you blow up. You know how sorry I am but it feels like I'm still being punished."

"You slept with her. You're mine and you slept with her." Jisoo looked at you like she didn't understand how you didn't get that.

"I'm yours now. I wasn't back then. Even if you imprinted on me I wasn't your mate. I wasn't even your girlfriend. I didn't cheat on you. Why does everything I did have to be some slight against you?"

Jisoo huffed, "You knew I loved you. You led me on you made me think that it was only me. That you were only going to choose me."

"What did I ever say to make you think that? Was marrying you not enough? Is being your mate not enough? Those three beautiful babies not enough?"

"We have four kids."

"Oh, hop off it. You know that's not what I meant."

Jisoo doesn't say anything further. She only stares at some point passed your head.

"Am I not enough for you, Jisoo? Because I don't know what else I can give you. I gave you my life, my love, my womb. But it's still not enough for you. What else do you want from me?!" You tried not to raise your voice too much, but it was sort of a hard feat to accomplish around your tears.

"To go back in time and not sleep with her. To say she never meant anything to you."

"Oh. You want the impossible." You nodded slowly, not agreeing in the slightest. But you got it now.

"Say it."

"You know I can't."

"Say it, y/n."

"We told each other that we would never lie to each other, and I'll be damned if I start now."

"...Then tell me to leave."

"Jisoo."

"I need to go, but I can't do it unless you tell me to."

You choked on a sob, "Fine. Go. Just know, if you walk out of that front door everything that I have said tonight, will be proven right."

That got Jisoo to hesitate. To rethink breifly. But the alpha is telling her to go before she does something she really regrets. So, she leaves. And the pain that encompasses her heart is nothing like she had ever felt in her life.

You heard the door slam shut and with it, Peyton walked into the room. You pretend that you dont see the tears in each other's eyes, "Mommy?" Her omega is calling out to yours, probably more than she realized.

She's technically a pup and she needs comfort, so even though you felt like curling up into a ball and dying you give it to her.

She practically falls into your lap and she sniffled. Your and Jisoo's bond isn't broken by any means, but even the children can tell there's something not quite right.

"I didn't mean for you to hear that, baby girl."

"Are you two going to be okay? I've never seen mama that mad before."

And that question coming from her daughter seemed to hurt the most, "I hope so, Pey. I hope so."

[voidselfshipp]

Sirens song

The woodlands were tiredsome,they really were, every now and then something lightened it up,but every day was the damn same.

Specially for bigby.

But a since last week,every afternoon,after five Pm he would hear this soft melodie,and Someone,who sounded like a girl would sing.

It would lure him to sleep,sometimes he did,sometimes he didnt,but when he managed to ,his dreams wouldnt be nightmares,they would be filled with joy,often times he forgets them , and when he remembered them,they would loose its string And make no sense a couple of hours later.

This afternoon however,was different,the sheriff wasnt in his appartment,he was going to the bussines Office when he heard her.

" Oh little sunflower,rest your petals,the sun is gone,and your time to sleep has come

Oh little sunflower lay your head to rest,for tomorrow awaits."

To this point,he knew the song by far.

He slowly crept up the stairs , appartment 149.

" Dream of clouds and spirits,they'll guide you to tomorrow.

Lay down little sunflower no time for sorrow.

Dream of plenty and love,remember home is never gone,mother is waiting and father is watching,the sun Will greet you with its shining.

Lay down little sunflower rest and tomorrow watch the sun until its time to wake."

He opened the door softly,as the song started again, he walks down the corridor,yes he should have had knocked but it would disturb that soothing melody

He peeks over a wall,looking at the resident of the house lean on their balcony's handrail.

-if I knew you'd like my singing so much I would have made a song for you specially bigby

She turns around.

No,she cant be...

Jerico!

The wolf goes and hugs her tightly.

--Holy shit,jerico,how are you still alive?!

The other fable laughs and puts her hands on her hips,her usual stance,as the wolf remembered correctly.

--Its a long story, but if youre not in a rush youre more than welcome to stay here for as long as you'd like

--Sorry sweetheart but I gotta go with Snow

Jeri lets a grumble out.

--I know you dont like her

--damn princesses, all they do is sit soundly on their glass coffins and there goes their prince charming to the rescue, ill brew some coffee

Yeah,dragons and princes dont mix well...

Bigby sighs and takes a look at her.

_its been so long since they last seen eachother_

--i guess,it can wait c'mon

He sits with her on the livingroom,she sips from her tea,silent.

--I never got why you hated snow so much,ever since we were in the woodlands,I know princesses and dragons dont mix,But this is ridiculous

The dragon Slams the cup on the coffee table and looks at the wolf with a piercing stare.

--You wanna know what my damn problem with snow is? You wanna know?, then ill fucking tell you!-She stands up with tears forming in the corner of her emerald eyes--You have a crush on her!thats the problem,you Like her-she bits her lip with a shaky breath- I have been harboring feelings for you since the old times, when you would swing by my cave to hear me sing,then snow comes in and i-- ....

Jerico walks over her balcony,leaning on the handrails and covering her face with her hands,clawy fingers gripped her luscius brown hair-- I love you too much bigby,thats the damn problem...

Bigby sighs with a heavy chest,leaving the coffee on the table,and walking over her,putting a hand on her Lower back.

--Do you remember the song you made for me?

--The northen wolf ,yeah...why?

--jerico,I have been singing that lullaby for years,your singing could never be forgotten by those that loved you,thats why we met remember?I couldnt get that song out of my brain and I would beg you to sing it...,look what im trying to say is...I love you,whatever Is up with me and snow its nothing compared to us,all these years you have been off the radar and i-- I feared the worst..im so sorry

Jeri looks at him,still red from the anger and crying,she takes his hands putting them to her chest.

--There sweetheart,breathe, there you go

The dragon sighs finally recomposing,the wolf looks away in shame.

-- " Oh hide di ho,hide from the northen wolf..."

Bigby looks up to meet her warm gaze.

--" Hide from him and his fatal blow"

He continued.

--" He who comes from the northen wind and the pale she-wolf, youngest of Seven and deadliest of them all"

The Man snorts as jeri kept singing " Oh the big bad wolf,hes here to kill the herd and leave your lord_

pray to who you May,no god can save you now"

-- " For he is not alone" -bigby sang with her,jeri gasps, he does know the whole song-- " for he brings along the southern echo of the caves,the Beauty in the beast,and her song wont leave you be"

Both join,pressing their foreheads togheter.

" oh hide di ho,hide from the winding echoes in the halls, oh hide thee from the wolf and the dragon of the nightgale in the storm

Oh hide and tremble for them bring the sambles of the life as you know

oh hide thee from,the Wonders of the dragon and the wolf,for there is no magic as powerful as their love "

They look into eachothers eyes.

--You remember....

--of course I do,your singing is not known for it to not be catchy...

Jerico chuckles and leans down to kiss him,hugging his neck as his arms eneveloped her waist.

--See?,we are bound togheter--The sheriff says hiding his face on the crook of her neck-- As we did before

--So we do now

--Exactly

Both stay togheter as the storm that came as jerico cried clears.

--Do you mind telling your fable again dear?

Both laid on the bed,a thunderous storm hit the Bronx as both lovers had finally reunited.

-Sure...get Comfy,Its a long one

The wolf huddles closer and leaves a peck on her lips.

"A long time ago,when the Winds could only sing, a young dragon Cub sat on the edge of a cliff.

-Oh dear mother sun- the cub cried- I want to sing like the humans do, I want to feel the music in my soul and dance free,meet the love of my life,one that can see through the scales on my back

'Is that what you wish for my child?' The sun asked, the dragon nodded ' Then so be it, you Will sing like a siren,and those who hear it Will be enchanted,but only those who fall in love with you Will Keep your Song on their soul for ever

And so,it happened,during Many Centuries,the dragon sang, men Fell to her feet but as soon as the saw who she was they fled.

It made her poor heart break,until one night, a wolf Walked to the cave, to stalk something to eat,but instead he found the dragon singing in her pool of riches,and most importantly food.

Though it did matter not to the wolf,who had Fallen for the creature before him.

So each day,before sunset, the dragon would sing,and her loyal fan,the wolf,would listen.

Until one day, the dragon noticed the wolf.

--You are not afraid of how I look?

The creature asked.

--Of course not,your beauty matches your ability my dear .."

-I dont remember saying it quite like that...

--Shut it and let me continue

"The dragon felt flattered,and every day before sunset they would meet and hear her beautiful singing.

Ocassionally the wolf would bring trinkets to her,and finally the tedious courting payed off.

As both united in one,they swore to lay on the humans and other fables all the hurt that they made to them.

And so they became known as 'the northern wolf and the windious echoe'.

They swore to be togheter until the end,if they would ever be separated,upon their meeting a thunderous storm would hit the world,as a reminder of them and What they become"

Bigby looks out the Window and sighs-- Yep,theres the storm...

--well its not my fault you were so handsome back then

--Back then?, and what about me now huh?

--Make love to me and maybe ill change my mind~

--I forgot you have no filter...

--And I forgot how easily flustered you get,now come on northen wolf,make my moans echo in the wind~

The storm pounded outside,it drowned the noise in the house,but finally both reunited,and it was going to be a long while before they did part.

[akalover19]

Could you write a hc with the line "I remember everything"? 💜

Hi! Thanks for the ask, I hope you like it :)

Ermal opens his eyes, looking out on a white wall

He could feel something heavy and warm against his back

He tried to think back and that’s when everything from last night came flooding back

Hitting him like a lightning bolt

Ermal was invited by Fabrizio to his house. ‘’The kids are at Giada’s and the wine won’t drink itself.’’

Fabrizio and him had been making music, drinking wine, talking and just enjoying themselves

Their conversation went deeper and deeper as the day turned into night

2 glasses of wine turned into 2 bottles

You could say they were more than a bit tipsy

At some point Ermal mentioned the recent rumours about them having a secret relationship

Fabrizio tried to joke about it a bit, not wanting to bring the mood down

But once the joking began, it didn’t stop

‘’They would freak out if we would get together.’’

‘’Haha yes I would love to see those stunned faces.’’

Somehow the jokes became more intimate and then it happened

One thing led to another and suddenly they were making out

Soon after they made their way to Fabrizio’s bedroom

Clothes flew around and lips were inseparable

Exploring each other bodies with passion and lust

Fabrizio fell back into the bed as they reached their highest point

Only heavy breathing was to be heard by both men

And almost instantly they fell asleep from exhaustion 

Ermal slowly turned around, looking at the older man sleeping peacefully

His mouth was slightly open, hair even messier then usual and on his neck a hickey

A hickey he left behind

This was also the point that he realises that they are both naked

It became too much for him, he had to leave. Now.

He quickly collected his clothes throughout the room and put them on

Once last glance over his shoulder to Fabrizio and he fled the house 

Fabrizio woke up by the sound of footsteps

He was a bit disorientated, he didn’t know what was going on

When he opened his eyes he could only see a head of curls leaving the room

It’s Ermal

Ermal slept here last night. In his room, in his bed

God, everything from last night came back to him

He drank much but could still recall last night’s event

His mind went back to Ermal

He assumed that Ermal also enjoyed it

So why did he leave?

Is he embarrassed? Ashamed? Does he have regrets?

He decided to call him later today, give him some space

He held himself busy with chores like cleaning and doing the washing

But Ermal didn’t leave his mind

He needed answers, needed to know how Ermal feels about last night

So he dialled his number

Though Ermal didn’t pick up

And it went on  like this. Fabrizio tried to call practically every hour

But no sign of Ermal

He didn’t answer texts or calls

Fabrizio tried to reach him for days, asking people if they knew if anything happened to Ermal

But no one knew anything

Not his bandmates, not his manager, not even his family

Worries grew in his stomach

Fear, angst, assumptions and sadness nestled in his head

Ermal hates him, is disgusted by him and never wants to see him again, he thought

So he stopped calling, stopped texting and tried to get Ermal out of his head

Until one night, two months later

He was hoovering under his bed when something got caught up

It’s a watch, Ermal’s watch

It must have rolled under there when- when it happened

He sighed deep

After these months of forcing himself to get Ermal out of his head

It got the better of him, he broke down crying

He couldn’t take it anymore

He misses their contact, their friendship, their bond

He needs answers, even if it means that these answers will destroy him

The next day he went to Milan

His heart started racing as he rang the doorbell

He haven’t thought about what to say or what to do

Besides that, he wasn’t even sure if Ermal would be home

Though after a minute the door opened

Ermal stared at him with big eyes without saying a word

As if he just seen two cars crash into each other

‘’This is yours I think.’’ He showed Ermal the watch

‘’C- can I come in?’’ He said with a shaking voice

Ermal nodded but avoided eye contact

Fabrizio sat down on the couch, looking at Ermal standing uncomfortably in front of him

‘’We need to talk.’’

Ermal nodded again and finally sat down next to Fabrizio, though he kept his distance

‘’Why Ermal? Why did you avoid me? You clearly didn’t forget what has happened…you could have just told me that you hate me.’’

‘’I remember everything’’ He said quietly first, but then anger got the better of him

‘’I REMEMBER EVERYTHING FABRIZIO!’’ He raised his voice as he stood up again, in front of Fabrizio

‘’Dont you get it?! I REMEMBER EVERYTHING! I REMEMBER HOW YOU KISSED ME. HOW WE STUMBLED THROUGH YOUR ROOM. HOW YOU PINNED ME DOWN TO YOUR BED. HOW YOU KISSED ME AGAIN, HOW YOU CARESSED ME, TOUCHED ME . HOW IT FELT, HOW YOU FELT, HOW I FELT. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? IT SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME! NOT BECAUSE IT WAS BAD, BUT BECAUSE IT WAS GOOD. IT FELT AMAZING AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE!’’

Ermal broke down, falling with his knees to the ground

Fabrizio shot up and held him close, trying to comfort him and making circles on his back

Ermal held onto him for dear life, sobbing into his shoulder

It took some time to calm down but eventually the tears stopped

‘’I’m so sorry for everything Bizio. For ignoring you, for not saying anything. I was too scared to talk to you, to see you, to get confronted with my feelings. I didn’t how to handle them. I still don’t as you could have seen.’’

‘’It’s alright, it was- hard for me too you know. I thought that you hated me, that were disgusted by me, that you…that you never wanted to see me again.’’

‘’I can never hate you Bizio.’’

‘’And what you just said Ermal, I feel the same. What happened that night…I never felt like that with someone. It was truly mind-blowing.’’

Ermal laid his head on Fabrizio’s shoulder

‘’I would have contacted you again if you didn’t show up today. I just had to get my head straight before I could do so.’’

‘’Straight?’’ Fabrizio looked up and showed a cheeky smile

‘’Stronzo.’’ Ermal laughed

‘’It’s good to see you smile again, it makes you even more handsome.’’ Ermal blushed

Fabrizio puts his hand on Ermal’s cheek and wipes the last tear away that has almost dried

‘’So what now?’’

‘’We can do whatever we want. If you’d rather stay friends, then I get it. If you want to take it slow, then I’m more than happy with that too. Just tell me, what do you want?’’

‘’I want to kiss you.’’

Fabrizio puts his forehead against Ermal’s

‘’I wouldn’t mind that.’’

Ermal puts his lips to Fabrizio’s

This morning he could have never imagined to kiss Fabrizio in his livingroom just now

But it feels as amazing as he remembers, maybe even better

<3 lang leve de liefde

Sorry thisis not the best thing ever

[hela2romantikos]

MM me contó que había peleado con Antonio y Samuel. que empezó a hablarse con Daniela Botero, me contó muchas cosas que suenan a venganza. Al mismo tiempo empezó a salir con Esteban mi ex, que fue re abusivo emocionalmente. ayer prefirió incluso irse de fiesta con el, que hacer algo en mi cumpleaños. Esteban me contó que a el no le gusta ella casi. A casi ningún hombre le termina de gustar MM porque lo que yo percibo es que es bastante desesperada.

Me contaron que Estebann,mmm he sent her to sleep in a sofa in the livingroom while he had sex in his room with some other girl. I talked with Esteban in a party last weekend. a party she invited me without telling me he was going. at some point i think he was talking to me a lot, being as stupid as usual and MM is a really jealous person. i know that.

that time he told me shamelessly he didtn like her really. he was kind of flirty also and as soon i got drunk, she sent me home. Like saying: bitch, get out of my way.

AS IF.

i dont do fuckers like him. i really love myself.

she is just in a rush to be liked by a lot of men who really dont like her and get bored of her ASAP. THATS SAD.

So yesterday she sent me a birthday message coughing a lot, like if she was sick or something, but really fake. for me it was an excuse for not hanging out with me, but with the fabulous guy who doesnt like her.

So SAD. i saw her in a lot of stories with him and in her desperate unfabulous sad performance.

Whatever.

i had a happy lovely night. Juanita knitted me a cute little wool hat.

i dont care about hurting Samuel, i think hes not good, but i still appreciate him in some little distanced way. I really like Antonio and i wont be making public shaming on anybody because two silly selfish bitches decided so, right now

. i was invited to do so. okay? thats why im bringing it up.

Fuck. How annoying people can be. fuck. Fuck them all with their stupid ridiculous stories pretending to be people nobody really cares about, and not doing shit. just thinking about some other stupid bitches and socialmedia and clothes and actually not doing anything relevant.

like: go get pregnant, take stupid pictures and die. or, go impregnate 12 ladies per city you stupid silly latin lovers and get drawn on guaro.

WHATEVER

Fuck them all.

ANd you too.

FUCK YOU!

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[the-devils-weakness]

I am starting a story. They guys in the story are based off of the sexy Leto brothers.. Hope yall like it.. Please be nice just starting this up.

This is a story about best friends , Langston and Lyric... Music brought them together. Welcome to their life of love, music ,and a little madness and darkness..

THE FIRST PART OF THE STORY IS HOW THE GIRLS FEEL ABOUT EACH OTHER

Lyric oh goodness she is my partner in crime my rock. I watch her as we are sitting outside on my porch.. Shes my dark beauty her Raven like hair in a mess singing our song " Cuts deep "by Inferno... I think... What the hell i would do without her. We came into each other's life at the perfect time... she's my soulmate my shoulder to cry on. My best friend til the end of time.. We have been best friends since we were 16...i love her with all my heart.

My little Lang.. Langston my rainbow bright straight from hell... Shes my everything... She has saved me she is my riot,my soulmate..without her i wouldnt be here i watch her download new songs from Inferno... Huge smile on her face our story is just beginning ooh what a ride it will be...

chapter one

7am Saturday , Lyric will kill me for waking her up this early. But oh well its my right as a best friend to attack her with awesome news! I open the door of her house run and jump on her bed RIC WAKE UP!!!! she screams and kicks me off her bed . Dammit Lang what the hell? Why are you trying to kill me? I have to laugh she's so dramatic at times.. Well buttercup your bestie has won us tickets and backstage passes to Inferno. Before i can say anything else, she jumps off the bed and wraps me in a huge hug. Oh Lang im sorry for kicking you. Her trying to sound sweet makes me laugh.. So darlin in 3 weeks we will be in front of Inferno!!!!!!

Our screams make her older brother Sam, and his friends Nick and luke, run into the room. They are watching us freak out . What the hell is going on in her Lyric? We stop our happy dance, Sam why do you care? And if you must know Langston won tickets and backstage passes to Inferno in 3 weeks ! He looks at us like we are crazy, his asshole of a friend Luke looks at Langston, like she some kind of science experiment. I knew he was going to say something horrible, and i was right he slowly walks over to her and then it happens..

Wow what the hell are you? Did Halloween forget you when the holiday was over? You look like a part of the addams family,that a rainbow puked on.. Couldn't just pick one color? I see you love skulls ... I watched her face as he broke her down her green eyes filling with tears that she holding back. She plays with her bracelets that hide the scars from her past .

i look at my brother begging him to do something about his friend , he just stands there laughing he knows about her past , he was there the last time she cut , he was at the hospital . she looks at me like she is lost and i begin to cry for her. she looks at Sam and starts to yell at him

What the fuck is wrong with you sam ? i never thought you would be this much of a asshole! he looks at her and dont say a word, luke thinks this is the best thing in the world and he is now laughing right in her face . then i see it the look of no return she is going to freak out. she looks a luke and without warning she punches him right in the face , he falls to the ground . i ran over to her and wrap her up in a huge hug lets get out of here Lang .

we sit in her car for what seems like hours , she finally talks , lyric can we just run away ?i am sick of this shit i am so done with your brother and his friends . your brother can kiss my ass i dont want anything to do with him at all. i know she is hurt he has been like her big brother she loves him to death and he treats her like she is nothing when he is with his friends he dont care much for me either and i get why she is hurt .

she wipes her tears and smiles that smile that makes my heart happy. guess what i did darlin. she hands me a set of keys , i look at her kinda lost because she is the type to do something without warning . what the hell are these to ? well my dear they are the keys to our new apartment i signed the paper work last night and wanted to surprise you . we move in this weekend you little creep when did you have the time to do this without me knowing ? Lyric i am just that good she laughs ..

moving day moving day bitches look out we are here i cant help it i am so excited. Lyric is trying not to drop a huge box she claims she didnt need help with. i get my cat carrier that is far to large for no reason with my cat who is less then impressed to be in it . Oh Cinder we are home , she makes a noise to which i take as get me the hell out of here .i walk up the stairs cussing myself out for getting this huge cat carrier . i finally get get to the door i walk in and set the carrier down . the second i open it Cinder runs out and jumps in the window. The diva has found her spot Lyric, and she is pleased with her new home . lyric comes out of her room.

she looks at my cat , yes she looks very happy to be out of her hell box . she walks over to her and pets her , Lyric got her for me, three years ago for my birthday she was a little black fluff ball with a big red bow . Both of them help me thur the hardest times and i dont know what i would do without them. hey Lang before i forget i have to tell you we have another four legged critter in the house .oh really and who would that be? she smiles and says come her boy the next thing i know her huge black great dane beast dog knocks me over . Well hello Zane so happy you are here , Zane we got out of a shelter last year he was mistreated and Ric had to have him . he gives me a million kisses and goes over to the window by Cinder she licks his nose and goes to sleep . They are besties as well we finish getting the place unpacked for the most part . we end up passing out in the living room watching friday the 13th .

fucking nightmares , i get up to go get some water , i hope lyric didnt hear me she wishes she that there was something she could do .i havent been the same since my step dad told me he wanted nothing to do with me .he has been in my life since i was 3 years old . he could careless if i was dead or alive. i have always had issues with myself but him saying he didnt love me hurt alot . the day he wrote me off was when the cutting got worse . i wish i wasnt fucked up. i really dont know what i would do with Langston. i have my mom and my awesome sisters that are always there for me , and my real dad and his wife are amazing. i dont want to sound like a some sad girl with no family, but Lyric is different . i just wish i wasnt out of my mind , i know she would never leave me or stop wanting to be my best friend. damn sometimes i just wish i would just stop over thinking everything . i am wide awake there is no way i can go back to bed . i sit in the window with a book and turn the music on, Inferno's song "devil within " fills the room and i am relaxed i love this band to death they are how me and Lyric met . we know every word to all of the songs , we have Inferno stuff all over the house .. And we are in love with the singer Jace and his sexy drummer brother shane.

out of the corner of my eye i see a guy with and pink mohawk and ripped up jeans , going into the upstairs apartment across from me . i see him in the livingroom window the lights are low and he is talking to someone sitting in the livingroom with dark hair . then it hits me .. i am going crazy ! that it not Jace and Shane what the hell why would they have a place here ? its 4:30 in the morning . the more i look the more i freak out. no fucking way i must have said this way to loud and they both look out the window right at me and smile ... i wave like a huge nerd and run into Lyrics room. wake the the hell up! i think i am going insane . she looks at me like i have lost my mind , What is wrong Lang ? Dude i swear on everything i believe in that Jace and Shane Morgan are staying in the upstairs apartment across the way from us !!!! i tell her what i saw and she is looking at me like i have really lost it . please Ric come see i swear i am not seeing things . i take her to the window look babe please tell me i am not insane . she looks and sees Shane outside with no shirt on , she looks at me like she has seen a ghost .he notices and waves she looks at me and drags me into the hallway.

Langston what do we do now they are right there. i look at her and smile we get them to notice us more .

CHAPTER 2

4 days before the concert , langston and i havent seen the guys since that night we stayed up hoping to see them again . its midnight when i finally have a idea , Lang get the dog we are going for a walk . we change into one of our awesome outfits , langston is in her famous ripped up jeans that and her skull tank top . i am wearing my new skirt and red lust love shirt , we are gonna see the guys again if it kills us, we get zane outside and walk around grass area between the buidlings . Zane is running around like a lunatic langston has his ball but before she can do anything he runs at her and knocks her on her ass , and i start to laugh . she is on her back with the beast of a dog standing over her . then i hear them, nice dog sweetie, there Shane is standing there in his army pants and his black hoodie. I forgot how to talk so I just smile. Langston Relazies what is going on and gets off the ground and is met by jaces hand to help her up. She take it and looks at me in shock he smiles and walks her over to me holding her hand he is still holding it when Shane brings Zane back over he hands me his ball, and he grabs my arm and says how about you ladies come hang out? I smile and say sure I am sure I am sure I have a insane look on my face . Jace brings Langston to me take the dog home and come over. He smiles and they both walk away .

We run back to the apartment,we stand there looking at each other. Lyric please tell me this isn't a dream.. No Langston it's real I can't fucking believe it. I look out the window and there they are watching us and smiling. I give and shy wave and we walk out the door. We  walk up to the door and knock and I feel i Am going to puke.  Jace opens the door with a killer smile and let's us in,  Shane is on the couch he also smiles,  hey Lyric come shot next to me she moves over just enough for her to cuddle up next to him I.  I still can't believe this is going on.,  I feel  a arm around my waist come sit with me Langston Jace says in a low sexy voice.

So ladies how are you doing today?  Shane asks as he puts his arm around Lyric.  She turns her self against him well Shane we are pretty good got everything finally unpacked and now we are here with you guys   I would say we are pretty good.  And we are actually seeing you guys play in a few days.  His eyes light up well I am happy you will be there Lyric we will have to hang out after the show.   I couldn't agree more Shane she said,  her and I make eye contact she knows I am freaking out but hiding it very well.  She looks down at my wrists and seeing me playing with my bracelets. She winks at me silently telling me i got this,  I look at Jace who has moved a lot closer to me.  You excited about the show Langston?  He says my name and makes me wanna say take me now.  I can't wait for the show we actually won the tickets and backstage passes.  So it looks like we will have some one on one time for  a few minutes  .  He smiles and whispers I am looking forward to it.  And he holds my hand,  we hang out for hours talking and getting to know each other  .  It's 5am when we realize the time. 

Oh wow I can't believe we talked all night Jace says.  It feels like you ladies just got here,  thank you for having us over guys we say we needbro get going, men and lyric have to work in two hours and need lots of coffee.  Sorry to keep you ladies all night Shane says his arms still around Lyric.  It's more then alright Shane she smiles.  Jace pulls me into a huge.  See you later Langston and they both give us a kiss on the cheek. 

We walk in the house we are greeted  by cinder and Zane who act like they haven't seen us in years. We feed them and we get the coffee started.  lang look out the window lyric says softy,  Jace and Shane blow us a kiss and wave.

I can't believe this is happening and the look on lyrics face she can't either.  Can't wait to see where this goes.. 

Work is going by so slow , we are so hyper off coffee and just thinking about last night, i cant believe  

we hung out with jace and shane. Me and Langston dont tell anyone at work about the night , they would not believe us any way, We work at HIdeaway its a cool little shop that sells everything from music ,clothes and  jewelry ,  we have been the managers here for two years . we love it here we also get to look at Jace and shane all  day this store sells the most Inferno merchandise . The only bad part about this store is Lacy and katie , they think they run the place and think they are hot shit . they are only fans of guys in bands for the looks and money the kind of girls you want to punch the fuck out , and i have to say i am so shocked that Langston has not kicked lacys ass yet . Lacy and katie will also be at the concert and they are dead set on hooking up with the guys and they like to tell us what they have planed all the time just to piss us off. 

the phone rings 

 Hello this is Lacy , how can i help you? OOOH LANGSTON , you have a phone call.

Hello this is Langston , what can i do for you today ? hmm well that is loaded question, i can think of a few things you can do for me, right away i smile  well  hello you how are you doing ? I would be better if you were next to me  i bet you are tired from being up all night .Well you  amd your brother kept us up til 6am ! The second i say that Lyric looks at me with huge eyes  and smiles  lacy and katie are watching us and trying to figure out what is going on . Well we are sorry about that how about we bring you ladies some lunch? You guys wanna come here are you insane ! Jace laughs , well yeah  is that alright? Oh yeah it is you know where we work just be ready for the madness .  Everything will be okay baby  Shane and I will be there in like a hour , Shane is making sure he is all sexy for Lyric . Dude shut the  fuck up , i hear Shane yell  i can not help but laugh. See you guys soon we can eat lunch in our office text me when you guys are almost here . will do babe see you soon  . i hang up the phone 

Lyric is looking at me like she is dying to now what is going on . Lyric we have a lunch date in a hour , she looks like she is going to jump out of her skin  they are going to let us know when they are almost here . 

who is coming to have lunch with you freaks ? katie says in  her stuck up voice ,Lacy laughs . Ladies if you keep up being little brats i will treat you both like one and you wont be working here any more. You dont have to be so mean Lyric katie wines ,  A hour passes and still no word from Jace  i hope that everything is okay .Lyric is folding shirts in the corner and  i am tying to hang up posters, i am short and need a latte i cuss for having short legs , katie and Lacy are acting like they are working . i hear the front door open but dont think to much about it , i look over at Lyric just in time to see Shane wrap his arms around her . Hey Sweets , miss me she turns around and hugs him back , i am in a panic i dont see Jace at all ,  i get off the latter turn around and i am face to face with him , hey baby he picks me up and i wrap my legs around him. At that moment Lacy says . what the hell is going on here ?  she cant see Jace  his back is facing her and shane has Lyric in the corner of the store kissing her , katie is watching them in shock. I roll my eyes lacy our lunch is here we are gonna close up for lunch see you back in lets say two hours ?

Aww how cute Katie look  they need alone time with their fake dates . whats the matter guys dont want to be seen with the little freaks . they bust into laugher , jace holds me tighter and he turns around so now he is facing them. Do i look fake ? he says they have no idea what the hell is going on . Shane walks over holding Lyrics hand , what is going on man? katie and Lacy look at Shane then at Lyric . lyric gets a huge smile on her face she holds shanes hand tighter. 

jace kisses my neck still holding me against him, 

I will be writting more very soon... The next few days there will be more added

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"WE ARE NOT AFRAID"(It Fanfic)

Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3

chapter four-"i dont know maybe because we know a killer clown is back"

ritchie was the first one to get up he saw billy and beverly sleeping together on the bed and same with him and eddie.

(there was a couch in billys bedroom.)

he got up and he pushed easily eddie off of him the couch was big he went into the bathroom.

he didnt know what he felt with eddie it was something because he loves everything about eddie his smile, the way he says stop calling me eds, or the way he plays with richies hair.

"richie can you hurry in there!" he hears billy yell.

"we are home!! billy!...oh.. i didnt know the boys were spending the night" billys mom said.

eddie woke up and same with beverly they walked into the livingroom same as ritchie and billy.

"well we are not going to be here all day because we are going to bens"

"oh..okay you guys have fun me and your father we are going on this couples vacation thing i know i have been gone lately well here is 100 bucks bye sweet heart" as she kissed billy on the cheek and left.

(only if this happened in real life xd)

"hell i wish my mom would do that" eddie said.

they all laughed

richie invited mike and billy invited stanley a course he back out but then he said yes took time but he said yes.

they were walking to bens house.

they all havent really talked since the whole thing happend.

mike started to ignore the losers  but the only ones that he didnt was richie and eddie

and stanley he hangs out more with billy.

and ben he doesnt talk to them because he has been more focus on his school work and clubs.

they walked up the stairs to bens house beverly with her red painted nails pressed the door buzzer.

"who are you kids?" his mom said with an attuide.

"we are his friends can we see ben?" beverly said.

and plus his mom said that he couldnt hang out with them because she saw his reseach on "it" and thought he was going crazy.

"oh i remeber you kids you are the kids that told my baby about that "it" shit"

"its true you.." richie started to say but eddie covered his mouth.

"get the hell off my porch!"

"n.no m.miss p.please can we s.see h.him s.sorry a.about richie"

"whatever six mintues then you guys are out hes up stairs in his room"

they all ran up those stairs and went into his room.

beverly hugged him she notice he lost alot of weight but she didnt say anything about it.

"hey ben we thought you were dead"

"why would you guys think that?" as he pulled the hug away.

"oh i dont know ben maybe because you ignored us after we got rid of the fucking clown" ritchie said upset.

"rich shut up" eddie said.

"no im tired of everyone suger coding shit"

"okay im sorry i have been ignoring you guys its because after the whole "it" thing i freaked out and i guess i was trying to forget"

"well we could have helped you forget" beverly said while smiling at him.

billy getting jealous but he just doesnt know.

stanley hugged ben and they all had a group hug its been forever since they had one.

"not trying to be mean i actually like you guys around but why are you here"

"w.well d.dont f.freak w.we saw 'it'"

he looked scared

"well last night i was at the library  studying for the finals and i saw this baloon like i did when i was younger last time i was there but i ran out of there."

"oh shit..shit"eddie said nervous

"okay lets not fucking panic we put it down once we can do it agian"

"lets go to the quarry " beverly said.

"yeah" they all said.

they were walking to the quarry because it wasnt far.

"okay why are we quiet?" mike said.

"i dont know maybe because we know a killer clown is back" stanley said sarcasticly.

richie was behind the group because he saw a sewer and what he said.

"you better not hurt any of them fucker or my eds i will fuck you up i beated your ass with a baseball bat agian i will do it agian fucker"

"hey rich are you comming?"

"yeah! dropped my lighter!"

"just stay away from that sewer" eddie said while pulling richie along with them.

they sat on the rocks where they sat when they were little.

but eddie was in between richies legs and richie was cuddled up to him to warm him.

"so im just going to bring it up what are we going to do to 'it'?"

"maybe if we ignore 'it' then he will leave" eddie said

"yeah we never tried that" ritchie said.

"i dont think we can ignore 'it' remeber what happened to those bullys they werent kids"

"shit! shit why couldnt he just stay away"

and ritchie just cuddled eddie to calm him down

he whispered in eddies ear "its going to be okay eds"

and eddie felt safe.

"do you guys want to come to my fight tonight?"

"your fighting tonight but we have school tommrrow" eddie said.

"well we need money and my moms job sucks" ritchie said.

"well lets hope you dont turn out like that richie" stanley said laughing

"well i got to get out of here i have to get ready"

"w.well we s.still h.have to talk a.about 'it'"

"well im not scared of a fucking clown we got rid of him once we can get rid of him again"

"yeah hes right guys we did get rid of him" mike said.

everyone followed him to the devils place.

richie was getting pump while mike was getting high and drunk.

billy just getting drunk same with all of them except for eddie and ben.

they all got there seats and eddie was eating popcorn.

"im kinda scared bev"

"you are always scared eddie"

"let me have some of that" eddie said he was tired of being that innocent guy.

so he gulpped it.

"hey slow down eddie"

eddie could feel a pain in his throat.

"how can people drink this bev"

"they drink it and then it gets better"

then eddie drinks more of the alchol that he is regreting because he knows he has school tommrrow and he cant go back home because his mom would freak.

then eddie saw richie punch this guy in the face and eddie yelled.

"get him babe!!"

and the guy punched richie and he punched the guy in the face over and over again and he fell backwards.

"richie toizer!!! is the winner!!"

all the losers got up and hugged ritchie.

"good win bro" mike said and they did that guy handshake

"wow i didnt know you could fight like that" beverly said.

eddie knew he could fight ever since sixth grade when this guy name nick wanted to fight him lets just say richie won.

richie collected his money and a guy who owned the place said.

"you should come back agian your dad was good here before he died".

yeah his dad died here but the guy that was beating him was his step dad.

"yeah ill be back"

"the toizers have always had our back til they died"

eddie didnt like the sound of that.

"yeah..yeah uncle bill i get it" the uncle isnt on his side of this family hes on his moms side.

"rich what did he mean til you die?"

"oh its nothing eds"

eddie knew he was lying did it mean he had to fight til he died.

ritchie grabbed eddies hand and went out of that place mike stayed and same with stanley.

ritchie, eddie, billy.ben, and beverly walked out of the devils place

"how can you guys go there everyday?" ben asked

"well we just do...you should come with us everytime i missed you"

and yes billy was jealous he hated that she loved ben he wanted her love.

"well guys im going home"

"oh okay billy"

"oh shit he didnt studder thats great!" eddie yelled.

"is there something wrong with him?"beverly said.

"how about you go check then princess" richie said annoyed he hated how she played with ben and billy like pick he thought she did this when she was younger.

"oh fuck you richie" she walked away and ran after billy

"you wish" richie said.

"billy stop!..what did i do?"

"y.you...w.why d.do you like b.ben? he ignored you but i s.stuck by you"

"really are you jealous and i never said anything about liking ben"

"we all know you do bev you dont have to say anything!..you really made me fall for you i.i was so stupid"

"billy you said that sentance so well"

"maybe because its the truth" now billy was crying and it was raining the girl he liked didnt like him as he thought.

"wait you fell in love with me?"

"yes bev do i have to say it louder hell! i will i love beverly marsh!!!..and im ashamed because she likes someone else"

you are thinking they are drunk well billy is he wouldnt have said all of this she grabs his face and says.

"well billy i love you to"

and they kiss in the rain

"get that snack girl get it!!" eddie yells smiling and richie kissed eddie.

beverly heard that and laughed while kissing billy.

and ben saw the kiss to he was upset because he thought beverky liked him he walked home.

"where the fuck did ben go?" ritchie said

"probably home babe because he did like her"

"he'll get over it"

"yeah lets hope because we need more info on it"

"can we ever stop talking about that clown?"

"no rich because we need to be careful"

"eddie you know i will never let that fucking clown hurt you...i love you to much eds"

"i love you to rich"

beverly and billy ran back over.

"hey guys on friday do you want to go on a dubble date"

"yeah that sounds fun..rich you wanna go?"

"yeah whatever but im not paying b.billy you wanna pay?"

"its billy and your p.paying for your d.date

"oh fuck it we are going"

"okay see you two tommrrow"

"yeah..yeah bye bev" eddie hugged her.

"awe eds you are making me jealous"

"oh shut up rich"

then they walk to richies house eddie had a unbrella richie took the unbrella because he was taller then eddie.

"i think you are the only person i know who carrys a unbrealla everywhere he goes"

"i dont carry it everywhere rich"

they went to richies house because richie's mom is at work.

"do i sleep in your room or the living room"

"eds your sleeping in my room"

"what if your mom suspect something"

"its not like she'll know that my eds spent the night"

he said while walking in his room with eddie richie grabbed eddie whast and put eddie on his chest while they lay in bed.

"rich going to school is going to hell tommrrow everyone is going to have questions about us the group back together its like the ghostbusters if they would have split and came back"

richie chuckled and said" well i dont care what people have to say about us and the group who cares what people say about it and we are not like the ghostbusters we are losers"

"well you did.."

"its time for bed eds"

as he turns off the lights eddie could here richies heartbeat maybe he still didnt like clowns.

[forestryfae]

found an important legal letter i havent touched until now OPENED in the windowsill. mom straight up opened it, read it, didnt tell me id gotten it, and just left it wherever. the fuck is wrong with her.

like i got a text and a phonecall from her about MY BROTHERS birthday but about a legal document she illegally opened? on top of her refusing to give me the spare key to the house and taking my passport for?? i dont even remember what it was but it was done so i wouldnt have to take the train for a quick errand like that so now MY passport is at HER house

my passport she should have fucking brought back here, my spare key she refuses to give back to me, illegally opening my mail, using my money without my permission or input or knowledge when she was still my legal guardian, not allowing me to talk to a lawyer, not helping me with the house but also not letting me do anything to the house beyond painting it and living here, starting like 50 projects on the house and never finished even one

but in the meantime theyve upgraded their own terrace, built a hot tub floor out of materials found on my property, upgraded the livingroom, bought a bunch of new furniture, they regularly bring my little sister here so she can play with the neighbours kid, she regularly helps my brother clean his apartment and helped him move out

they cant be bothered to come help me renovate the house they promised to help me with and refused to let me have any input in the process, not letting me know how much money i have or what things would cost or just fucking telling me what they were planning to do and when. just randomly showing up instead. last year i was at home alone and the only time they showed up to help was after id left. they removed an oven from the chimney and didnt patch it up and mom was supposed to talk to an electrician 9 months ago now but she never did so half the house isnt even useable. it was so fucking cold i couldnt live here and i didnt even know theyd fucked up the chimney until i got here

and when i did bring it up during a family dinner the only response i got was that "they hadny gotten to it" theh built a deck for an outdoor hot tub and a whole roof for their terrace and they bring my little sister here for sleepovers with her friend but they couldnt change a lid on the chimney and patch a hole in the 6 months they had before winter? its been two fucking years since i found out i cant use the chimney at all because of those two things

holy shit

mom is supposed to come help me clean tomorrow and help me with the lawn and all im thinking is im fucking done with her. i never want to talk to her again like what the fuck. is she trying to let me freeze to dwath? starve? i asked her to call the doctor for me Once and she never did. shes fucked in the head

oh but why didnt i just fix those things? i wasnt allowed to know how much money was in my bank accounts and i wasnt allowed to start any projects. i was barely allowed to paint the fucking walls. obviously i couldnt do much beyond sit here and hope things would work out. its kind of hard to fix shit when your own mom treats you like an unwanted dog

[writeanddelight-blog]

Mirror #1

⚠️Trigger warning : this story includes sensitive topics ⚠️ "So, this is honestly very uncomfortable too do but let's give it try. Well, uhm hello me? My god this is so weird. Im not going to talk to myself in the mirror i dont care what mrs. x thinks. This wont work and it will only make me feel even more weird." She says while looking at her own reflection. Hazel eyes and blonde hair pale sickish looking skin and a tired stare. "I truly look even more like shit than I thought, lovely" " okay listen up Riley, this is what my therapist suggested and we both know that we hate her but i assume she has her job for a reason so we got to give this a real try" she glanced at herself in her mirror observing her face. "Why do i always look so angry" Riley looked at herself again and stared into her own eyes and then tilted her head slightly to the right. "Alright then weirdo" She looked again and wiggled her eyebrows "Hey girl" She slightly chuckled and shook her head . " what am I doing with my life " "Talking to a mirror duh cant you fucking see you fat stupid bitch" Rileys heart dropped to her stomach and she felt it skip a beat. She felt extremely nauseous. "What The ...." "Well hello to you too" the girl in the mirror responded Riley just stared. So in shock she couldnt say a single word. "You got some real issues" the girl said. Riley slowly sank to the ground and sat herself down with her back to the door and looked up at the mirror. The girl was gone. Riley looked infront of her and saw that the girl was sitting right there, right infront of her on the floor. very calm and reserved and looking forward into her own eyes. Riley was paralyzed. " oh c'mon im not that bad, atleast youve got someone to talk to know, right? What were you going to say anyways?" The girl said and looked at Riley as if she expected an answer. Riley didnt respond and just stayed as still as humanly possible. " so..? What were you planning to say? Oh wait let me guess. Some pathetic self love encouragement style bullshit wasnt it? " "Uh" is all Riley could say. "Yeah right i get it, you want to motivate yourself into thinking it will all get better in the end. Let me tell you this right now. Talking into the mirror wont help for shit. It wont make you feel better. You know damn well what would make you feel better" "No.." riley mumbled "Oh yeah you do" the girl said Riley slowly stood up with her back still pressed against the door. Holding onto anything in her reach to make sure she wouldnt fall. She felt so dizzy that she felt like she might actually pass out. "Well that feels horrible " the girl said while pressing her hands oh her forehead and stomach. "Why so nervous Riley?" "I dont know what to do okay, i dont know anything anymore. I cant fucking do anything to help myself" Riley said ready for a breakdown. "Hey hey Riley dont cry i know how you feel, and we know there is a way to feel better because that is what we want right? And what will make us feel better? Mmm? " Riley looked at the girl and the girl looked right back slowly coming closer. They both stood up. Rikey Walked to her mothers room and opened the closet door and leaned down to reach for the scale. She took it with her and walked back to the bathroom mirror and looked in it. " so, good job big girl. This is the best for you i just want to make sure youre happy and after all, talking to your reflection surely wont help anything, am I right? Now c'mon lets see what theyve done to you" said the girl who was back into the mirror. Riley slowly undressed and stepped on the scale. She felt tears well up in her eyes and with only blinking once she felt teardrops falling down on her feet. She looked down and tried to process what she saw. The numbers. "We gained weight didnt we " said the girl. "I..I.I .guess?" Said riley. "I said you gained weight, Riley. You let yourself go. Do you have any idea what kind of things will happen now huh? With your big thighs. Not so skinny anymore dont you think. I dont even think anyone will think you're sick. You sure as hell dont look like you are anymore." "Please I'm not okay" said riley breaking down in tears. "What do you want ? What do you really want?Cmon! Say it! " The girl shouted "I want them to care for me. I want to be loved. They're not going to care about me anymore. I have to be skinny" cried Riley. "Fucking exactly, so now you know, theyre trying to help you they say. No. Theyre trying to bring you back to how you were, how it all started. The lonely fat girl. Is that what you want? There is a reason you wanted to loose weight" said the girl in a soft and gentle tone. "I just never want to feel like that again.." riley said. "I know i know sweetheart. So thats why im here. To make sure you stay in control of your happiness" the girl said while giving Riley a smile. Riley looked up and saw that the girl was standing next to her holding her hand out. Riley took her hand and the girl pulled her up. "You know im just here to help, i know that you know" said the girl while she walked out the bathroom thru the hallway and down the stairs to the livingroom. Riley followed her. Riley saw her mom working on her laptop. She didnt see the girl anymore. Riley felt absolutely horrible. " mom can i talk to you im really upset "Not now riley im busy! -Okay" She felt that punch that she always feels when this happens. I never seem to ever pick the right moment Riley thought to herself. She felt so incredibly confused and sad. What to do. Does she listen to the girl. Or does she listen to the others? "Yeah uhm the others are the one you felt horrible in the first place and im here to help you. You know that." The girl appeared in the spot Rileys mom just sat a few seconds ago and started talking to her again. "Look i told you so" the girl said. " she's just busy with her job she workes really hard okay" "Bullshit" "She loves me " "Bullshit" Riley blinked and the girl was gone and her mom was back. Riley ran to her room. She sat down on her bed and started to cry She felt an arm around her slowly rubbing her back. "Hey dont cry, we can fix this" said the girl." You know what to do to make them love you" "Why dont you just leave me alone" " if you really wanted me to leave i wouldnt be here at all" "Please stay you're all i have left to come back to" said Riley "And that my dear is why ill always be here for you, they wouldnt love you without me. You dont know what happens without me. Its not safe without me. Who knows what happens." Said the girl while smiling "I just want to have people who love me and care about me" said riley softly "Isnt that all i have ever got people to do, sweetheart. So why would you let me go? "