#donotfollowmewhereyoucantbreathe

[cravingwitandwisdom]

SPILL THE BEANS ON MISTER BOYFRIEND! Yes someone to make you happy!

Girl, you sure you want me to talk about my baby? Because when I start I can hardly stop. Ok, here we go.. 

We met on the 5th of may, this year, our national day of freedom. Covid bound us all home with beautiful weather and cold beers. A group of lost souls formed in the garden of our apartment building and soon we all became fast friends. We used to spend every Friday eve drunk and coked up, everyone was bored so we turned the music up loud. He was interesting but then he had an accident. He ended up in the hospital due to his diabetes. Braindamage. Being the smart one was always his thing (still is) It fucked him up. He had grown feelings for one of our friends but that didn’t work out. The next couple of months we grew close as friends, I didn’t thought about him like that until august. We started to hang out one-on-one more often. I guess that made him think about me as well.. But you know, that pussy that I am and how much I value friendship I didn’t make a move hahahah pathetic. So, forward to the end op September.. He invited me for stew and after dinner we talk for a while, about dating and how things were going horrible for the both of us. He asked the obvious, we had sex both with intentions of this being a FWB situation but soon I realised that my mind was contastly going back to him, and so was my body. He was, and still is, so sure about me, about us. 

He later told me that the first time he saw me on that mayday the sunlight caught my eye and reflected golden. He said that he knew back then, he wanted me. And then again the last day of summer. Do you remember that last day of really hot wheather mid September?  We blew up a kiddy pool and carried buckets of water, just to cool of a little. It was perfect. See picture below.

But yeah, that was our story so far. Now a little about him. He’s too smart for his own good; bachelor in philosophy just because he loves it, he’s very passionate about that. He sells tubes at this Dutch company, aspires to be chef while doing a master. But he’s not there yet with his health. Eyes like stars. Sly smile. Stupid dorky ass cum face. I love that. He’s sweet and blunt and at times even a little cheesy. On our first date he bought me sunflowers because like the world spins aroun the sun, his world spins around me. lol. So cute. Then he fingered me at the movies. hahaha. Our sex is heaven, btw. What I like about our relationship most is that he’s emotionally stimulating, he makes me put my feeling to words. He makes me think about why I feel the way I feel, what my reference for love is and what I want it to be; him. I can see my whole ass future with this guy. 

How are you, my dear? Are you happy?

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donotfollowmewhereyoucantbreathe

You should try In Other Lands by Sarah Rees Brennan!!! 

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