#don't mind me it's just difficult to ignore such a feeling when it persists

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Chaeri as the 8th and youngest member of BTS.

CHAERI'S MASTERLIST

Check CHAERI'S LOVE LIFE'S TIMELINE to discover when this event takes place

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August, 2023

Anyone who loves and follow KPOP, which has become a global phenomenon, cannot ignore the increasingly persistent rumors about a possible breakup between Chaeri, the only female member of BTS, and Hongjoong, the leader of ATEEZ. The two, long considered one of the most iconic couples in the music industry, seem to have taken separate paths: no more sightings together, absence of interactions on social media, and now a new very personal song by Hongjoong that has raised many suspicions.

Signs of a possible crisis are not lacking. Recently, Chaeri ended her contract as the choreographer of ATEEZ, a role in which she was considered the creative mind behind many of their breathtaking choreographies. A choice that many interpret as a signal of the young artist's desire to distance herself not only professionally but also personally. Even though Chaeri explained in a recent live broadcast that the collaboration with ATEEZ was always intended to be temporary and that she now wishes to focus on new projects with girl groups, fans remain puzzled and find it hard to fully believe her. The timing of the contract's end and the alleged distancing between her and Hongjoong appears to many as too strong a signal to be ignored.

As if that were not enough, Hongjoong has released a new song that seems to be an open confession, and perhaps an implicit accusation. The lyrics of the song, titled “Why Do You Love?”, enigmatically address someone who seems to have “replaced” or “forgotten” him. With intense phrases like “You can’t be with anyone else, only me” fans are hypothesizing that the ATEEZ leader is expressing his pain over the possible end of his relationship with Chaeri.

In the most dramatic lines of the song, Hongjoong sings: “You said you couldn’t imagine yourself with anyone else but me… I hope this is just a misunderstanding.” Words that leave no doubt about the artist's suffering and confusion, as if he is struggling to accept the reality of a lost love that he perhaps believed was to last.

Fans on social media have been very active about the matter, with many wondering if there really is another love in Chaeri's life, if the song is a desperate call from Hongjoong to win her back, or if the two things are not related at all.

For now, neither of them has made any official statements. The uncertainty about the truth behind these signals is splitting the fandom: some hope for a return to the spotlight for the couple, others ardently wish that their relationship is really over.

If confirmed, the end of Chaeri and Hongjoong's relationship would leave a bitter taste in the mouths of many fans, who considered them to be THE couple of K-pop, among the first to expose themselves so much and so naturally to the public. Are these just rumors or are they really going through a difficult time? While awaiting an answer, we advise fans, for those who haven't already done so, to listen to “Why Do You Love?” by Hongjoong.

Not only could the song offer some more clues about his emotions, but it is also an incredibly well-produced track. The song has already won the hearts of many listeners for the artistic skill with which Hongjoong has voiced his (alleged) feelings.

Twitter / X after the article:

💭 If Chaeri really started a relationship with someone else, I am sorry for Hongjoong. He doesn't deserve this

💭 Chaeri always seems too focused on herself, and now Hongjoong loses out. It's a shame

💭 Hongjoong, atinys are here to support you, whatever is going on. No one should see you like this.

💭 I hope Hongjoong is not hurting too much, honestly don't know what he found in her. I hope he finds someone who really appreciates him!

💭 I've listened to 'Why Do You Love?' a thousand times, and there are details that suggest it's really dedicated to her…

💭 Ok, maybe Hongjoong is really suffering and has dedicated an entire song to her, but am I the only one annoyed by this? I mean, it's already enough to have had their relationship thrown in our faces all this time, and now we fans are also forced to listen to music written for her?

💭 No matter what happens in his personal life, Hongjoong is an extraordinary artist and his music is always powerful.

💭 He so beautiful even without makeup and completely au naturel, if Chaeri doesn't want him I will volunteer very gladly.

💭 I don't understand all the hate for Chaeri. Being a female idol is hard enough; criticizing her for something we don't know is unfair

💭 They are human, and couples break up all the time on a daily basis. If they did, I don't understand why we should care so much about it. It's their own business

💭 Leave Chaeri alone.

💭 As a BTS fan for years, I knew that the relationship with him for Chaeri would only be a problem. He clearly never lived up to her standards and if she realized this now, all the better!!!

💭 This song makes me realize more and more that I am probably a child of divorce 🥺 Chaejoong, you were THE couple.

Last conversation on Chaeri's phone

**I know that Hongjoong's song was released this August, but for storyline reasons, I indicated the release date as August 2023

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[eorzeashan]

it does bother me a little that my dumb jokes will always get more traction than any of my writing, but there's not a bad thing and it's fun to poke and make fun so I can't complain. I like doing it! it shouldn't be compared to making fic! though I still have to remind myself not to fall into the trap of only wanting to joke around and never make anything substantial out of the dread for posting...

[pinkchrissysposts]

It's time to persist

Hello my dears your cringe motivator is back🧍‍♀️.

Are you not tired of this app giving you same advice every time you open it? You come here opening the app check for any post from your favorite bloggers and seeing them repeat the same word "persist". What are they telling you to persist in? In your assumption,they are telling you to stand firm to your decision of having your desires. What are you doing? Read the post and move on to another that's not how it works🧎‍♀️‍➡️.

Take a moment about 10 minutes or more or less,after this post this done instead of quickly moving on to another post.

Keep your phone down,take a deep and let go,think of your desire example you want a new iphone 15 pro.

Now imagine yourself using the phone NO do NOT and I mean DONOT think about the 3D now,think of your desire as a new addition in your doll house i.e your imagination.

Now that you have imagine it,affirm/assume it to be true,it's okay if it feels fake or delusional at first just,keep going and persist,opposing thought might come but stand firm. Ignore the how's and when.

When you do this don't think you're doing it for 3d,do it to remind that you have it in your imagination.

If you desire it close your eyes as you affirm that it's your and only you're,if you find it hard to believe then do eft tapping.

No matter how you feel do it you have cried enough my loves,it's time to embrace that state,yes you don't have it but still enjoy it in the 4d first enjoy get in the state,when you read about "affirm and persist",you probably think "Oh I guess we don't have to do the embody shit,I can affirm worrying about my 3d",no my dear that's not right,when say affirm and persist mean stand firm to the affirmation,the brat mentality very important here.

Example you want iphone 15,you are affirming "i have iphone 15,i have iphone 15" for hours,but this whole time your mind was "no I don't no I dont",it's not gonna work.

When it comes to robotic affirmation,if you ask me why it works even when people say they didn't got in the state or embody state,is because they don't even let any negative thought to occupy their mind,until it start to feel real.

Neville had a student who used robotic affirming for 16 hours,shutting out the world and next day won a Nobel price and you think manifesting an sp,or new phone is difficult 🗣.

Persistence IS IMPORTANT. It's time to take your desires seriously instead of crying about it. Ignore all how,where and when,it's not your job to worry about it your job is simply enjoy your desires don't worry how it's gonna come to your 3D. Simply affirm/assume and persist don't wait for a specific or perfect time. Do it RIGHT NOW.

[idkwhatimd0ingatall]

Will Story Event Translation (forgot the name)

// - is an alternate translation T/N: ignore my changing translation style, trying different things out to see what works. Also these translations aren’t accurate so the official translation will most likely be different T/N: Gave up on trying to fix the images

"I want you to kiss me."

The moment I entered the room and pleaded with Will, he gave me exactly what I desired.

After sitting on the bed together, Will traced my palate with his gentle tongue, and my body trembled with joy.

However,

William: ...

Suddenly, Will stopped kissing, and my body, left hanging, throbbed with a sense of longing.

Kate: Will?

William: For someone who pleaded for a kiss with such intensity, you seem distracted, Kate.

Kate: N-no, it's just...

William: Can't focus on kissing me, got some other 'business' on your mind?

Kate: No, it's not that! There's no other business... but...

I hesitated to tell him about the unfortunate incident.

(...Oh, but sooner or later, Will will find out.)

(Given Will's nature, he might already know... maybe he's deliberately asking to hear it from my mouth.)

Above all, because I want to face Will with a free and unburdened heart, I decided to confess today's events.

Kate: Actually...

William: ...'Kissed by a stranger'?

Kate: Yes, on my way back from today's mission, I was confronted... unable to escape it, just once.

The man I encountered on the roadside seemed drunk, persistently bothering me.

No matter how clearly I rejected him, he forcibly took my hand and brought his lips close.

Kate: Harrison and Liam, who came later, managed to drive him away, so there were no further consequences.

Kate: But... I can't forgive myself for allowing anyone other than Will to touch me.

I washed my hands repeatedly when I got home, to the point where my skin felt irritated.

Yet, the disgust from being touched couldn't be completely washed away, tormenting me.

Kate: ...I want to dedicate my life to Will as his servant.

Kate: My body and heart exist for Will alone, and I don't want to surrender them to anyone else. But... I allowed a kiss, and I regret it.

Feeling frustrated with myself, my fingertips trembled as I tightly clenched my fist on my knee.

William: Did you plead for a kiss to forget?

Kate: Yes... I'm sorry. I made you deal with my own issues.

William: No need to apologize. The one at fault is the man who forced himself on you, isn't it?

Will took my hand firmly and laid a kiss on the palm.

(...I heard somewhere that a kiss on the palm is a plea.)

Not something taken by force, but a kiss filled with respect, like showing that I have value worth pleading for. It warmed my heart.

(Even without using the cursed ability, Will's words have a mysterious power.)

(The inability to resist, the discomfort from being touched, all slowly melted away...)

The man who forcibly approached me is the only one at fault, and I finally forgave myself.

Kate: ...Thank you, Will.

William: Just stating the obvious. Now, there's nothing to cloud your mind, right?

Kate: ...Can I ask for a little selfishness?

Kate: I want you to kiss me. Many times, enough to make today's events fade away.

In truth, my heart is already healed with the words Will gave me.

I won't even notice if that man passes by me in the city; Will must understand my inner thoughts.

(So this is just... an invitation, a line used just to kiss my lover.)

William: If you wish, as much as you want.

With a seductive smile, Will embraced me from behind.

Kate: Will...?

In this position, isn’t it difficult for our lips to meet?

I tried to turn around, calling his name in confusion, but

William: Stay like this.

I was restrained, and a kiss was dropped behind my ear.

Will's tongue crawled along the curve, making a wet sound.

Kate: ...Ah, n-no.

William: Kate... don't suppress your voice.

William: After hearing it so many times, there's nothing embarrassing about it now, is there?

Kate: But... to feel so much from just the ear... isn't it strange?

Just being embraced from behind and kissed on the ear, warmth accumulated inside my body.

William: It's not strange. Kate, it's cute how you react so honestly to your feelings.

Will lightly nibbled on my ear, and his tongue slid into my ear canal.

William: Mmm... haah...

Kate: Mm... ah... haah...

Trying to endure the sweet throbbing, I hugged the cushion tightly against my knees.

William: ...Should have changed the position.

Kate: Eh...?

William: If our bodies were facing the other way, you would have clung to me, right?

Kate: Hehe... it's like you're jealous of the cushion.

William: I can get jealous. I can't catch you as softly as a cushion.

// I get jealous too. Softly catching you like a feather is something my body can't do.

As Will joked, I couldn't help but laugh.

(Normally, if someone is jealous, it would be of a person, not a cushion, right?)

(I can't imagine Will being jealous, but that's okay.)

Will's jealousy will probably remain forever unexplored, and that's fine.

As long as we understand that we love each other more than anyone else, there's no need for jealousy.

Releasing the cushion that became the target of jealousy, I faced Will directly.

William: Do you know this saying?

William: A kiss on the hand is a kiss of respect. On the forehead, a kiss of friendship. On the cheek, a kiss of satisfaction.

William: On the lips, a kiss of love. On closed eyes, a kiss of admiration/yearning. On the palm, a kiss of pleading.

William: On the arm and neck, a kiss of desire... any other kiss is considered 'madness,' according to the whims of the poet.

Kate: I heard this in a play once. It was titled 'Kiss,' wasn't it?

Will nodded and pulled me close again.

William: When I remembered this poem, I thought of choosing one and giving it to you, Kate... but I decided against it.

William: Narrowing down my feelings for you to just one is more challenging than any mission.

Kate: ...In that case, give me all of them.

William: Of course. That's the plan.

William: Whether you're ready to accept all those emotions... there's no need to ask.

As if engraving all the emotions into me, Will continued to kiss me following the poem.

Liam: Mission complete! ...Although, we probably didn't need to come. Will pretty much took care of everything.

Harrison: The illegal organization has been completely wiped out. Whether the headcount matches or not, let's count the bodies.

Liam: Okay! 1, 2, 3, 4... 4?

Liam: ...Huh? Hey, Harry, doesn't this guy look familiar from somewhere?

Harrison: Even if you say he looks familiar... His face is all messed up, isn't it impossible to identify him?

Liam: Hmm... this build, the shape of the head, that plain-patterned shirt... I feel like I've seen him somewhere, though...

Liam: ...Ah, got it! This is the guy who was pestering Kate not too long ago!

Liam: You know, grabbed her hand forcibly, made a loud smooching sound, kissed her forcefully!

Harrison: Oh yeah, I remember now. That guy...

Liam: Will, you didn't say anything when you saw the target's information. But did you know about him?

Harrison: Knowing Will, he probably planned this method of killing, right?

The man had used a knife to cut off his own lips, leaving a gruesome sight.

Liam: Kate, you're loved.

Harrison: To speak of love in this situation... not the best sight, I think...

FIN~

[justlemmeadoreyou]

babee, could you write an angst about Harry being bullied but he kept it a secret from his girlfriend and one day she ended up seeing him being bullied by his colleagues? and then she helps him and when they get home she asks "why didn't you tell me before?" but then she comforts him and helps him

words: 2.4k

warnings: mentions of bullying, cursing, kissing.

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"Babe, I'm heading out for work. Love you!" Y/N called out cheerfully as she grabbed her bag.

Harry poked his head out of the kitchen, a strained smile on his face. "Love you too. Have a good day."

Y/N leaned in to give him a quick peck on the lips before heading out the door. As soon as it clicked shut behind her, Harry's smile faded. He sighed deeply, dreading going into the office again.

For the past few months, Harry had been dealing with a group of co-workers who seemed to have it out for him. It started with little things - hiding his stapler, moving his desk supplies, that kind of thing. Harmless pranks that Harry tried to laugh off. But it quickly escalated into verbal taunts and nasty rumors being spread about him around the office.

"Hey Styles, where'd you get that ratty tie? The dumpster behind the Chinese buffet?" Andy, the ringleader, would sneer as Harry walked by.

His buddies Marc and Kyle would then chime in with cruel laughter and childish nicknames like "hairy" or "wanker"

At first, Harry tried his best to ignore it, not wanting to come across as weak or overly sensitive. But as the bullying persisted and intensified, it began to really wear him down. He started dreading going into work each day, feeling anxious and depressed.

The worst part was, he couldn't even vent to his loving girlfriend Y/N about what was happening. He was too ashamed and embarrassed to admit he was being bullied at his age. So he kept it all bottled up inside, putting on a brave face whenever he was around her.

Y/N, meanwhile, had no idea about the turmoil her boyfriend was going through at the office…

"Well, well, if it isn't the Idiot," Andy's grating voice rang out as soon as Harry stepped through the door.

Here we go again, Harry thought miserably as he made his way to his desk, avoiding eye contact.

"Having another bad hair day, Hairy?" Kyle taunted, sticking a foot out to try and trip Harry as he passed.

Marc joined in, making exaggerated gestures of tripping and falling down. "Oooh, better be careful! Wouldn't want to take a tumble and mess up that ridiculous mop!"

The three bullies cackled amongst themselves as Harry silently seethed, keeping his head down and continuing on to his workspace. He tried to focus on his computer and drown out their irritating voices, but it was difficult.

A few hours later, Andy sauntered over, Marc and Kyle in tow. He leaned obnoxiously on Harry's desk.

"So Idiot, word around the office is you've been putting in some long hours," Andy said with a nasty grin. "Trying to make up for being such an incompetent pretty boy?"

Harry felt his face flush but didn't respond, staring stoically at his monitor.

Andy continued his taunting. "What, cat got your tongue? Or are you just too stupid to form a decent comeback?"

"Hey babe!"

Harry's head snapped up at the familiar voice. To his horror, he saw Y/N walking towards his desk, holding a bagged lunch with a bright smile.

"Thought I'd stop by and have a cute little lunch date with my hardworking man," she said happily.

Andy, Marc and Kyle immediately stopped their jeering, putting on fake polite smiles as Y/N approached. Harry wanted to die right there on the spot.

"Oh hey Y/N, didn't realize you were stopping in today," Andy said in a saccharine tone. "Always a pleasure to see you."

He threw a conspicuous wink at Harry, whose face was burning red with humiliation. Y/N remained oblivious to the tension, giving the three men a friendly wave.

"Hi guys! I hope you don't mind if I steal Harry away for a half hour or so?" she said brightly.

"Not at all, not at all!" Marc replied jovially. "You two lovebirds have fun now."

Y/N looped her arm through Harry's and began leading him away towards the breakroom, completely missing the obscene hand gestures and mouthed taunts the three bullies were directing at her boyfriend.

Once they were alone, Y/N beamed up at Harry. "Surpriiiise! I know how hard you've been working lately, so I wanted to bring you a little pick-me-up."

She held up the bagged lunch enticingly. Harry felt a rush of love for his sweet, caring girlfriend…immediately followed by another wave of shame for not being honest with her.

"Babe, you're the best," he mumbled, forcing a smile as they sat down at a small table. "Thank you for this."

"Of course!" Y/N replied happily, unpacking the lunch she'd prepared. "Now eat up, I don't want those jerks working you too hard. Oh, speaking of which…"

Harry tensed, worried she was about to reveal that she'd picked up on Andy, Marc and Kyle's cruel behavior. But Y/N just laughed lightly and waved a dismissive hand.

"Kyle was going on about how he pulled a muscle in his back this weekend, such a drama queen. Anyway, enough boring office gossip! How's your day been so far?"

"Fine," Harry lied quickly, keeping his eyes down. "Just…y'know, the usual grind."

And so their "lunch date" continued, with Harry putting on an increasingly strained front as Y/N cheerfully chatted away, oblivious to his inner anguish. All too soon, it was time for her to leave.

"Thanks again for the amazing lunch, babe," Harry said, pulling her in for a loving hug and kiss. "I needed that."

"I'm glad I could provide a little light in your day," Y/N murmured, hugging him tightly. "I love you so much, Harry."

"Love you too," Harry replied softly, dreading having to return to his desk and face his tormentors once again.

After Y/N departed, Harry took a deep, steadying breath and made his way back out to the main office area. He had just sat down at his desk, trying to seem focused on his work, when he was roughly bumped from behind.

"Well, well, if it isn't the Princess herself," Andy's mocking voice rang out.

Spinning around, Harry saw the trio smirking at him, clearly intent on resuming their bullying now that Y/N was gone.

"Can't step away from your little girlfriend for even an hour without getting misted eyes," Kyle taunted. "So pathetic."

"Yeah, we were taking it easy before because the lady was around," Marc chimed in. "But now that she's gone…"

The three closed in on Harry menacingly until he felt backed into his desk, heart pounding with dread. This was not going to end well.

But to Harry's shock and the bullies' surprise, a familiar voice suddenly rang out.

"That's enough!"

They all whipped around to see Y/N marching back over to Harry's desk, fire flashing in her eyes. She had returned after forgetting her thermos, only to stumble upon the confrontation.

"Leave him alone, you jerks!" Y/N shouted angrily, storming up to the stunned trio before Harry could stop her. "I saw and heard everything! How dare you treat my boyfriend that way?"

Andy, Marc and Kyle exchanged uncomfortable looks, clearly not anticipating being called out by Harry's girlfriend. They quickly tried to regroup and reassert control.

"Listen sweetheart, this is just a bit of guy humor," Andy said in a patronizing tone, putting on an unconvincing smile. "You know how it is, we were just razzing Harry a little, all in good fun."

"Oh yeah, shoving him and calling him pathetic names? That's just real hilarious banter!" Y/N shot back, furious. She stepped protectively in front of Harry, staring the three bullies down defiantly.

Though his heart had leapt at her fierce defense of him, Harry also felt a surge of dread and embarrassment that she'd witnessed him being tormented like that.

But there was no deterring Y/N once her protective instincts kicked in. She jabbed an accusatory finger squarely into Andy's chest.

"How about this, asshole? From now on you treat MY boyfriend with respect, or you'll have me to answer to. Got it?"

The three men looked taken aback by Y/N's unexpected anger, exchanging uneasy glances. Andy quickly regained his bravado, puffing out his chest in an attempt to seem intimidating.

"Listen little lady, this doesn't concern you-"

"The hell it doesn't!" Y/N shot back, not backing down an inch. "Harry is the love of my life, which means anyone who messes with him messes with me. You got that?"

There was a tense silence as the confrontation reached a boiling point. Harry could only watch in amazed disbelief as his normally sweet girlfriend transformed into a fierce protector before his eyes.

Finally, Andy seemed to think better of prolonging the confrontation any further. With a snort, he shrugged and turned to walk away, motioning for Marc and Kyle to follow.

"Whatever, it was just a laugh. No need to get your panties in a twist, lady," he muttered in a feeble last attempt to save face.

As the three bullies skulked off, Y/N remained rooted in place, chest heaving with anger and adrenaline. It wasn't until they disappeared around a corner that she allowed some of the tension to finally leave her body.

She immediately whirled around to face Harry, grabbing his hands in hers as concern flooded her features.

"Are you okay? Did they hurt you at all?" she asked urgently, searching his face.

Harry could only mutely shake his head, speechless at the ocean of emotions swirling within him - shame, humiliation, but also love and gratitude for the woman before him.

Y/N studied him briefly before speaking again, her voice taking on a softer edge.

"Babe…why didn't you tell me this was happening? That those jerks were bullying you like that?"

Harry's gaze dropped to the floor, unable to meet the caring worry in her eyes. He shrugged helplessly.

"I…I don't know," he mumbled. "I guess I was just too embarrassed. Letting a bunch of immature pricks get to me like that…"

He trailed off, unsure how to properly  put into words the complicated emotions he'd been dealing with. How could he admit that their cruel taunting and harassment had left him feeling utterly powerless and insignificant? Like he was a useless joke not worthy of basic human respect?

Y/N seemed to sense the complicated inner turmoil raging inside her boyfriend. Gently, she reached up and cradled his face in her soft hands, forcing Harry to meet her tender gaze.

"Hey, listen to me," she said, "There is nothing, absolutely nothing, to be embarrassed about. You were being bullied and tormented by cowards who get their sad kicks out of tearing people down."

She paused, searching his eyes intently to make sure he was absorbing her words.

"You are the kindest, most caring, respectful man I know," Y/N continued. "And I'll be damned if I just stand by while some pathetic losers try to make you feel less than that."

Harry felt his throat constrict with emotion at her passionate defense of him. He blinked rapidly to stave off the burn of shameful tears threatening to fall.

"I…I should have told you," he croaked out remorsefully. "I just…I couldn't stand the thought of you seeing me like that. So weak and…"

"Hey." Y/N cut him off by gently pressing her fingers to his lips. "You are anything but weak, Harry Styles. Keeping something like that bottled up, dealing with harassment and staying strong through it all? That's not weakness, babe. That's courage."

She stroked his cheek tenderly, her loving gaze never wavering.

"I'm just sorry you felt like you had to go through any of that alone," Y/N said softly. "From now on, I need you to promise me - if anything like that ever happens again, you tell me right away so I can be there for you. So I can fight those assholes off and put them in their place." Y/N said this fiercely, protectiveness blazing in her eyes.

Harry couldn't help but crack a small smile at her ferocity, his heart swelling with love for this amazing woman. He nodded slowly. "I promise. No more secrets, no more hiding it. Although…" He raised an eyebrow teasingly. "I have to admit, watching you take those jerks down a few notches was pretty hot."

Y/N tried to maintain a stern expression, but her lips twitched with amusement. "Oh, you liked that, did you? Should I invest in a tight leather bodysuit then? Really play up the whole avenging girlfriend superhero vibe?"

Harry threw his head back with a loud laugh at the imagery, finally allowing the last lingering traces of shame and tension to bleed out of him. He pulled Y/N close, holding her tenderly as he nuzzled against her hair.

"You're my hero, no matter what you wear," he murmured, utterly sincere. "Just…please don't storm any buildings in a cape or anything. I don't think my poor nerves could take it."

Y/N giggled, tilting her face up to brush her nose against his affectionately. "No capes, got it. But I make no promises about keeping those bullies in line if they try anything again."

She punctuated her teasing vow with a slow, heated kiss that left Harry's head spinning. When they finally parted, he was looking at his girlfriend with unmeasurable adoration.

"What did I ever do to deserve someone as amazing as you?" Harry asked

Y/N smirked and poked his chest playfully. "Well, for starters, you can take me out for a fancy dinner to make it up to me. I did just save your scrawny ass from those jerks, after all."

"Whatever you want, my angel," Harry replied. He looped his arm through hers, guiding them towards the exit with a renewed sense of confidence. "I'll even let you pick the fanciest place in town - on one condition."

Y/N eyed him suspiciously, "What's the condition?" she asked.

Harry leaned in until his lips were brushing her ear, voice dropping to a murmur. "You have to wear that leather bodysuit you mentioned…"

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p.s. : if you ever get bullied, please stand up for yourself! bullies are just jerks, they're insecure people who thrive off on calling other people out. please never feel like you're alone, talk to someone.

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Hey sweet hera

First and foremost you are my favorite blog from loa. You’re so sweet, smart and iconic and you’re like the only blog I want to send an ask to.

Do you have tips on how you would deal with difficult circumstances? I read everywhere on twitter etc you should have a life and that you should also enjoy your 3D, but to be honest my dream life is completely different from my current life. Things are currently going wrong on every level ( outgrow friends, break up with sp that I'm still in love with, studies that I don't like to do, family problems,…) so I often fall back on my imagination and focus on what I do want (through acceptance and feeling), but I just get triggered so hard constantly. Do you sometimes do breath work or mediations to calm yourself down?

it's just like some bloggers ( not you ofc) do like the law is super easy, but some people have suffered from depression for years (like me), are lonely etc and it just makes it harder to persist. Sorry about the trauma dump

-

I mentioned in my pinned post that I have no experience with difficult circumstances so I might not be the best person to ask about related matters. Nevertheless, since you chose me to turn to, I'll advise you to the best of my ability and I apologize in advance if I display ignorance.

About manifesting in difficult circumstances, here are some points worth remembering:

Thoughts and emotions do not manifest. You are neither and you are above them.

Let yourself be sad. Cry it out and don't force yourself to be anything else. Don't fight with how you feel.

Take it easy on yourself. Nothing can "ruin" your manifestation, it's okay to waver.

It will not be like this forever. So many people have been able to do it and you will be no exception. It's going to be okay.

Whenever you feel like the 3D is too much (and if you are able to), take some time to yourself and sit alone, meditate, you can even recite some affirmations to yourself as a self-soothing technique. Sit in silence and remember that you will get out of this. When you feel calm, go back and face the world. Do this as many times as you need to.

Go to bed every night feeling fulfilled. Bring yourself back to that feeling and fall asleep with it completely clouding your mind. That feeling will follow you into the next day. If you get into the habit of doing this (persist), you will find yourself caring less and less about the 3D.

Have faith and don't give up. Remember that you deserve the life of your dreams. Please don't give up on something you rightfully deserve.

[stilljuststardust]

Hello, I've been reading you and blogs related to manifesting for a long time. Actually, it might be silly to ask this, but I am very triggered by the concept of revision. I want the mistakes I made in the past (which I now see as mistakes) to be completely erased from the minds, thoughts, and everything of the people involved. However, I don't see those people in real life anymore, they are far away, and I won't be able to know for sure if they have forgotten. I feel bad, full of fear and anxiety because I think about the possibility that my mistakes might have some consequences. Yes, I think I need to hear it from you one last time. Is it possible for something embarrassing I did in the past to be completely erased from people's minds? And which method should I use? Thank you in advance.

* "I'm sorry if my English is bad, it's not my native language. It's difficult to find manifest blogs in Turkish."

Hey lovely let me preface this by saying I know how you feel I was a disturbed/deeply embarrassing teenager. Please don't soak in your shame it doesn't do anything but make you hurt 🤍

Usually when giving advice I tell people to ignore anything outside of themselves (aka the 3D) because they alone decide what is true in their reality. What you see as an obstacle I see as an advantage, you have no way of knowing whether or not the 3D has conformed and that's a good thing! It means at the moment you're the only person you currently interact with who is resurfacing the memories and that means there's nothing outside of you telling you it happened in the first place.

Loa asks that you think as if it has already manifested, and since you have nothing in your 3D that can trip you up all you have to do is forgive yourself and affirm it never happened.

In fact how do you know they haven't forgotten already other than the fact that you assumed so?

As for methods I would try to reframe these memories as a weird embarrassing dream. Everytime it comes up you think of it as if it was a weird dream you had and not your actual past. It was just a nightmare it wasn't real.

And you can just affirm that it either didn't happen or it was only ever a dream. Then you operate from that state of mind. You create reality so if you say it didn't happen it didn't.

Let go of the shame. It's ok, it didn't happen.

Persist persist persist.

Shame serves no purpose in your life, replaying it in your head only serves to reaffirm it. It never happened.

Once you decide you have something be STUBBORN that it has already manifested regardless of what you see in the 3D.

Recommended subliminals and aff tapes:

Revise past negative events

Have your desires by morning

Edit:

I realized after posting that since your native language isn't English you'll probably have better success with a subliminal made in your native language. It's probably hard to find one in Turkish so I recommend making your own if you can❤️

[hellsmouthhq]

HELLSMOUTHHQ EVENT: SPECTER.

what is haunted but another word for grief?

it lurks in the back of your mind without remorse. this isn't new to you. it's always been attached to dread, anytime it peeked from the dark you tried to think of anything else. in those small and far between moments it's truly gone, that's when it hits the hardest with it's terrible reminder. you can't let me go. difficult to ignore and impossible to forget, haunting and persistent. why couldn't they let you go? or, perhaps, was it you who couldn't let go of them? for the words that had never been spoken, for the blood you shouldn't have shed, for the i'm sorry's that couldn't be heard.

for all you couldn't forget, the apparitions were new. they were vivid and varied, nothing like you'd experienced before. a voice that should have been long quiet whispering the words you always feared to hear, a face that was once unmoving and cold now in the corner of your eye, the mangled corpse of your regrets suddenly at your feet instead of far behind you, the thoughts you never dared to speak suddenly written on the wall. all it took, however, was a blink. a singular blink and it was all gone. chopped up to a dream, a hallucination, the manifestation of ever churning guilt that suddenly burned more prevalent then it ever had before.

unbeknownst to you, or any of the supernatural among your ranks, these visions were far from accidental. in fact, they were heavier on those who carried the burden of guilt deeper then the rest. perhaps it was because they had less power to cause turmoil, but humans weren't haunted at all.

maybe it's the hellmouth, you think, or maybe i'm losing my mind.

NOTES.

ooc;

this event begins 10/01/24.

part 2 will drop 10/18/24.

conclusion will be 10/31/24.

while this is classified as an event ( at the time being ) it's something in the background rather then forefront. some muses aren't experiencing these visions at all, or to the same extent.

the specters needn't be the sole focus of your characters unless you wish it to be, and feel free to continue on threads without it's presence.

your muses could theorize it's the hellmouth's influence but there is nothing concrete for anyone to find just yet.

perimeters;

it's important to note that any specters are not necessarily built in reality, but your muses impression of it. a specter blaming them for something doesn't mean the actual person blames them, only the muse thinking they do.

any specter your muse experiences isn't something that remains any longer then a 'blink and you'll miss it'.

muses could conclude it's a manifestation of guilt or unresolved feelings rather then assuming supernatural based change.

the specters aren't something that could have a physical effect on your muse unless your muse brings harm unto themselves (ie; breaking a mirror, trying to punch a memory, etc).

humans are the only beings are not affected by specters.

the severity of the impact ties directly with how deeply your muse feels about the corresponding event. it could be a voice in the wind of someone they loved or the sight of all their victims in a bloody heap.

while guilt is the umbrella factor, it needn't only be about actions that were regretted. it could very well be about how relationships ended, hurting the people you loved, not having been able to save someone else or even regretting the person you have become. some regrets could even be about lack therefor of, something awful you've done that you should regret but don't.

optional task;

the specter:

why does this specter haunt your muse?

the why:

what caused this action? was it something they didn't even think about when it happened? a spur of the moment choice?

the impact:

what were the repercussions this caused? were there any at all? if not, how does your muse feel about it? (this doesn't necessarily have to be a bad thing).

the alternative:

what would be the result if they hadn't done this? or if they did something else entirely? what if they weren't there that day? was it worth it?

[bucketfullofstrawberries]

How do you personally keep going with motivation? Do you just ignore the bad stuff?

Ooh, what a wonderfully unexpected question!

(and to all those who want to, please, keep them coming~)

WELL!

Personally, I do have my own ups and downs when it comes to motivation towards things! One of things, of course, being art. I've actually only recently managed to break free of one of those dreaded art blocks- eugh.

Sometimes I do tend to struggle to get back into the gist of things if my motivation seems to slip. It can be difficult! And sometimes there's nothing you can really do about it but wait. But let me tell you this;

Side projects do you wonders. Just little doodles even!! Nothing big. DEFINETLY nothing fancy. If you're working on a big project, you don't want ANOTHER big thing PILED on top of that! But small little side projects & activities keep your brain active with variety - instead of sending it into a bore & drowning out the motivation you hold so dear with the same task that eventually becomes mundane and unenjoyable. Don't want you making yourself miserable, now do we?

For example, recently, I just finished a reference sheet for one of my idiots, Edgar. I'd been planning to do for a while - It'd actually taken me a good amount of time to gather the motivation to DO so, but when I started I didn't just stick to that the ENTIRE way through.

I made sure to have fun with it. Take breaks if I needed them. Pace myself. And draw on the sidelines. Just some silly things. Nothing too "demanding". I actually kept them on a separate page to show later on! Here: ~

Now, I'm not always brilliant with advice or explaining myself.

So to try and put it simply: Keep yourself entertained and don't force yourself into something that'll drain you! That'll just make you feel less inclined to keep going! The mind works weirdly that way. And some people may think & work differently!!

But that's how I, personally, trudge through it. Persistence, Variety, Breaks, & making sure not to push yourself TOO hard to the point where it's become frustrating. That's the last thing you want in a low-motivation situation!

And most importantly, Enjoy it! Enjoy what you do! If it's not enjoyable, then you should shake things up a bit! Have fun, try things out, do things differently! Art, and this is my personal opinion, you may think differently and that's A-OKAY!!, should be a hobby, a passion. Not a chore! So don't make it one!! Don't put that pressure on yourself.

If the motivations low, then it's a no-go!! Build yourself back up to it slowly, don't force yourself into anything!!

That's all I really have to say about it! If anyone wants to ask me questions like this I'd be delighted to try my best to answer in full, or at least to my best ability-!! 🫶

[minimalist-language-learning]

My language learning journey

Hi! I'm Anja, a language learner and manga artist from Germany. This is my first post here, so I think I should start with some information about myself:

I speak: German (native), English

I'm currently learning: Japanese

Paused languages: French, Russian

Other hobbies and interests:

creating manga (you can find my artist accounts here)

reading manga (mainly shonen)

nature

video games (e.g. Assassin‘s Creed Origins / Valhalla, Ghost of Tsushima, Cyberpunk 2077, Control)

reading different kinds of books

history & archaeology (especially ancient egypt)

For those who are interested, here is a summary of my ups and downs as a language learner:

How I improved my English unintentionally

English is not my native language (I'm sure I make mistakes ^^;). I learned the basics at school which means: vocab lists, grammar rules and exercises, listen to English spoken by non-native speakers (teacher and classmates) and only sometimes by native speakers (audio CD). I had no access to novels, websites or other interesting things in English. And I was fine with that. At that time, English was only a subject in school.

After graduating, I became interested in Japanese. I found some german online forums where other learners of Japanese shared their experiences. Unfortunately, most of the users were very narrow-minded. They persisted, that their way of learning is the only "right" way. I never liked black-or-white-thinking and so I left these forums.

I've found a more open-minded forum and some blogs. These were in English, but I came across many different ideas and methods. It was a bit difficult at first because I never read "real" English before. But I concentrated so much on the content, that everything else became secondary. 

At this time, the new episodes of my favorite TV show weren't available in German. So I watched them in English even though I had nearly no experience with listening to native speakers. There were things I couldn't understand, but I didn't care. I was able to watch this show quite comfortably which was all I wanted — reaching a high level in English was not my goal, after all.

Watching my favourite show, reading articles about interesting topics or reading novels in English were never learning activities to me. The purpose was to learn something other than English or to simply enjoy the content. The language was only a tool, not a study object. 

While doing this, I never thought "So many unknown words… I should use Anki to learn them". After learning the basics at school, I just started reading and listening and ignored most of the unknown and unimportant parts. Only when I felt that I really need to know a certain word I looked it up. These texts or videos weren’t study objects. After reading/watching them I moved on. Without realizing it, English became part of my life. 

Today, reading and listening to content in English feels natural to me. There are words I don’t know and I make mistakes, of course, but I'm fine with that.

The learning mindset is actually a learning barrier

In the case of Japanese, I always tried to understand as much as possible, looked up many words, put sentences into Anki and things like that, because many methods recommended that. I thought that otherwise my Japanese won't improve.

Ironically, even after so much hard work and after trying out so many methods and techniques my Japanese was by no means as good as my English.

I was stuck in a "learning mindset" which made it difficult to just enjoy the content as I did with English. I wasn't able to focus on the content. All I saw were unknown words and phrases. It was like a curse.

Don't get me wrong: Good advice is useful, of course! When I come across an interesting approach or tip I try it out to see if it works for me. But my mistake was to believe that I only had to follow someone else's way of learning from A to Z and I would get the same results in the end. It never worked this way.

That's why I encourage everyone not to follow blindly other methods and their creators. There is no right or wrong. Combine whatever works best for you and trust your own intuition. The most important thing is that you enjoy what you are doing.

Combining minimalism with language learning

After worrying so much about language learning, methods and my Japanese, I discovered minimalism and was completely fascinated. 

Generally, minimalists don't keep things that make them feel unhappy, that are no longer useful or causing distraction. It depends on the person, how their minimalist lifestyle looks like. And this is also true for language learning.

This mindset was a great inspiration for my current way of language learning. I only use Anki to review kanji, for example, because this works best for me. But whenever I use it for vocabulary/sentences, it feels so meaningless to me compared to reading a good book. I can't use Anki for vocabulary longer than a few weeks, but I feel always relaxed when I read a book in Japanese.

That's why I decided to just look up certain words, write them down and move on. Maybe other methods are more efficient, but I prefer learning words in their natural context. This is what I enjoy the most.

How my Japanese improved (finally)

For a long time, I felt like I hit a wall. My Japanese didn’t seem to improve. Then I focused on extensive reading and read several books in Japanese that were not too difficult at my current level (e.g. volume 1 - 4 of 『ハリー・ポッター』 and 『天気の子』 and other manga and light novels).

This helped me a lot to improve not only my reading speed but also my vocabulary. I had so much fun reading these books that I read between 20 and 40 pages a day (sometimes even a bit more on the weekend).  My listening comprehension stagnated for a long time but thanks to reading it now improves slowly but steady.

The more I understand the more I enjoy listening. Lots of reading helped me to increase my vocabulary and to get to the point at where I can process spoken Japanese much faster than before. 

It feels strange sometimes. For a long time, it was normal to me that I understand not more than single words or very common phrases. Listening felt like a waste of time. Now I can roughly follow the story of some audio books, for example. Even small improvements like this give me a big motivation boost!

Switching to extensive reading had also a positive effect on my self-confidence as a language learner. I’m more aware about what kind of content I need at my current level and choose my reading and listening material accordingly. I will read more and more difficult books to increase my vocabulary and to get used to more complex writing styles. It should be a bit challenging but not overwhelming.

Up to this point, I've read 78 books in Japanese so far. 27 of these were novels, light novels or non-fiction books; the rest were manga. According to 読書メーター, I've read around 18.242 pages in total. 

Now

It took me a long time but today I don't care so much about efficiency and speed anymore. I just want to enjoy what I'm doing. I have still a long way to go, of course. But even though I don't understand everything I enjoy reading in Japanese so much! And I hope to further improve my listening comprehension so that I can comfortably understand audio books and podcasts.

My main activity is still reading books and other content but I also do light grammar study now. In my experience, you don't need to memorize grammar rules but a good foundation is important to understand more complex content and to build correct sentences yourself. That's why I think that grammar is not your enemy but a useful tool.

Lots of text, sorry. ^^; I hope it was interesting to some of you.

Please note that I write about what works for me and share advice based on my own experiences. If you have a different opinion or if you use other methods, that's absolutely fine. Do whatever works for you.

From time to time, I'll write posts about my recent language learning activities and thoughts.

[llycaons]

1, 7, 12, 17, 24 :^)

hi ben! the time has come for me to answer this (really bored on night shift)

1. what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?

already answered, but I'd say three more things are my deep love and empathy with creatures of all kinds, my upbringing as a semi-quaker, and the persistent solitude that has dogged me for my entire life

7. what scares you the most and why?

my imaginative answer is space. I rarely have nightmares, but almost all of them have had to do with the terrifying endlessness and vast emptiness of the universe. so disconnected from any living thing! so far away! so dark! so unfathomably massive

my mundane answer is being entirely alone and uncared for when I'm older which is why I'm maniacal about saving right now. also my entire family dying :( I'm much closer with my family than any of my friends so I can't bear to think of a future without them. my dad especially, I think it'll be so hard to see him pass

12. what’s some good advice you want to share?

hm I think there's something really valuable in appreciating the moments of each day. like, mindfulness? trying to slow down and do things with intention to feel more a part of the world and your life and make memories. I really struggle with this because I usually don't have the energy to do anything like that so I pass my days as painlessly as I can but it's less satisfying!!!

17. name 3 things that make you happy

being home and having dinner with my family! I've started enjoying it more after I moved out lol. there's always so much laughter at those dinners.

fight scenes!! there's nothing like a well-done fight scene to get the blood pumping

when I see a very pretty bird!! or a very strange one. or just one I've never seen before <3

24. what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

despite my nervous disposition, inability to cook, and general ignorance of the world, I moved out like I always wanted to! I've been living in a different state for almost three years. I miss home but the freedom is so precious to me I wouldn't give it up for anything and I couldn't have been in this position had I not gone to extremely difficult and time-consuming lengths, and gotten very lucky

thanks for the ask! sorry it got a little dark I've been thinking about my father dying a lot recently I'm not gonna lie. but I really enjoyed answering these <3

[notesbyash]

Hello, there. I don’t know if you answer asks like this, but, please, feel free to ignore it if you don’t. So, I was wondering if you had any tips on how to study efficiently? I keep seeing people (myself included) getting long hours of studying and I just feel it’s not healthy in the long term. What are your thoughts on this matter, though? Would you mind sharing?

Hello anon - I do my best to answer asks, I'm just slow in getting around to them most of time~

Have been turning that question around in my head myself actually, the idea of studying more efficiently. A while back I made this post of practical things that helped me out in undergrad. I think they still hold true, but it also speaks to where I was in that point in life, spinning my wheels and constantly behind deadlines. Not that I'm not still now, but I'm doing my best to stay ahead (though I also have the luxury of fewer classes and some understanding advisors).

I think the things I struggle with the most, and frankly always have, are motivation and balance. At the end of the day, persistence and resolve are more important than personal motivation when it comes to studying; I have a routine and a set place to study, and remain relatively strict with myself about not allowing anything but work when I'm there. But I find that without at least some kind of positive motivation it becomes incredibly difficult to avoid burnout. It seems easier to find that motivation in graduate school; you're allowed to specialize and dive into your interests much more than in undergrad just by virtue of the way it's structured. However, with my program specifically, I'm still forced to take courses that have seemingly no relevance with what I actually want to be doing.

What has helped me maintain some motivation through them has, strangely enough, been customization. Ways to connect with myself and things I love despite having to study topics that I may find tiring to parse. I've personally always had a fascination with 60s era technical reports and documentation, the aesthetic collision of analogue devices and early computers - the world built in Remedy's 2019 video game Control fit me perfectly and has been incredibly influential in my life. I've developed a filing and notation system that replicates the lore collectibles in game; I format my class notes and homeworks as internal memos written to document and summarize technical discoveries, turn my projects into experimental reports. Little things, simple changes, that bring me a little more joy when trudging through confusing material.

This rolls into my next point: balance. The moment I lose myself to just the work is the moment the burnout begins. I'm the type of person to live and breathe what I do in some senses, but instead of letting my interests consume me I've sought to infuse myself into my interests. To cultivate joy in tedium. I've found it important to hold onto yourself outside of academics, to indulge in personal interests even if it feels like a waste of time in the moment. To make those indulgences regular, noting that regularity and frequency aren't always the same thing. A morning cup of tea, a favorite writing pen, a bit of time on a weekend spent watching a show or visiting a local park. Something where you can breathe and truly let yourself rest.

And then, as ever, remember your goal, strengthen your resolve, and move forward from a place of hope and personal fulfillment as best you can.

It's not easy, it really isn't, but I believe in you. Be kind to yourself anon, and don't undercut your own achievements - the little things matter, perhaps the most of all.

[kimkhimhant]

Sorry x

I stumbled across your post while trying to learn about ace experiences (partly because I'm questioning atm for various reasons). Youtube videos on the topic are repetative and don't give as much insight into actual experience, just rebuttles to assumed questions being asked (I had literally no expectations or questions in mind other than my friends as frame of reference and 'Am I ace?').

I still feel conflicted about it all and the mutually shitty tone allo and ace people persistently use with each other. Belittling the validity of everyone's experiences. I don't like how both allonormativity and a lot of ace discourse cordons off or ignores the nuances of human experience.

I've always been literally socialy isolated and hated to the point of people throwing stuff and physically attacking me on the street for existing as I am (autistic) anytime I leave the house, and I've never related to any character that's shared any of my identity with me (stuck to non-fiction because fiction books were like reading the perspective of my bullies). I may not know exactly how you feel and whether I do or not you are still valid.

I was excluded from allonormativity on the assumption by everyone around me that I was ace specifically because of both the conflation of autism and asexuality and the ways both are dehumanised by wider society. People assumed I was ace and were blatantly aphobic and ablist to me. I know aphobia from experience despite not being ace. Nothing I said in that reblog was an attack.

(I'll shut up now)

hi, i appreciate you taking the time to send a message. i had already received some anons over the post i made and it made me extra sensitive, so your tags in particular, with the "complaining about sex on tumblr is like complaining the sky's still blue" or whatever rubbed me the wrong way and felt like it was invalidating my feelings on the matter. thank you for reaching out to correct that.

i'm also autistic and i definitely understand what you mean – the lack of true representation is incredibly alienating and isolating, especially when that isolation is already our lived experience.

i know you saw my response before i deleted it – i don't have issue with there being a lot of allo rep and sex in fandom; my main frustration is that often when there is ace rep where an ace character is sex-repulsed, touch-adverse, whatever, it's depicted as a shortcoming that that character should be trying to overcome. i'm sure you can probably relate, what with autistic characters needing to become "less autistic" to get their happy ending in a lot of media 🙃 it's like there's always something about us that needs to be fixed to suit other people's wishes, and it's exhausting.

i hope you find peace with your own personal identity journey – i know with the asexuality spectrum, it can be really difficult to figure out where you land. (i have known i was on the aroace spectrum since i was 14 and i'm 26 now and still unsure if there even is a label that fits my experience)

anyway, thanks again for reaching out

[nitrorayptor]

Should I call this a thank you post or…?

Pride has always been one of my biggest flaws. It is not easy to deal with this and it is even more difficult to swallow it without vomiting and asking for help, but there are cases in which it occurs and it is in these cases that I needed to take a deep breath, swallow my pride and ask for/accept the help offered – but, it is only with the king Paimon I can do this.

I may have mentioned in the other blog that He is very patient, but we must keep in mind that patience has its limits and it is good not to exceed them. Although, He never denied helping me, He never turned away or walked away and that is something I admire about Him, He believes in me and believes that I can change, and He knows that I will ask for His help to do so. Even though sometimes I put my foot down saying I can do it alone, I break my face and I come back with my tail between my legs and a broken pride (that's funny).

One of the help I received, which I am very grateful for, was Him saving me from something bad that happened to me in the early hours of March 20, 2021. A summary of the situation I live in, I live with a grandmother who is somewhat ignorant, mentally unstable, blinded by the church (it's not even by faith but by the damn church she attends) and who lives with a major protagonist syndrome. My grandmother's problem is attacking other people's faith and religion, believing that only hers is right and that she came into the world with the cause of showing the gospel to 'deviated' souls, this ends up awakening people's hatred for her . In doing so, she aroused the hatred of my great-aunt, my grandmother's sister, and started a small religious war within the family.

As a result, my grandmother only attracts the bad and the worst to our house, and it was one of those days that the bad thing she attracted ended up 'attacking' me – I don't have a clear idea of what word to use to describe it. It was early in the morning, I was on the computer and my grandmother complained a lot about me being up late, I ignored her comments and she went to her room, a few minutes later, I felt as if a pair of hands were at my side. around my neck and gave it a slight squeeze, it became uncomfortable even though I could still breathe, move, etc.

At first, I never pay attention to something spiritual because I'm very much the type of person who likes to take it from both sides before saying whether it's spiritual or not, so I ignored the feeling, thinking it was just the effects of bad nights of sleep and bad food, so I went lay me down to rest. The feeling persisted and got a little worse, because I started to have some difficulty breathing and that's when I realized that it COULD BE something more, something different. At that time, I was less proud, but I still had pride within me and I refused for a moment to ask King Paimon for help, believing that I could handle it alone and that's when I saw that, well, IT DOESN'T WRONG TO ASK FOR HELP SOMETIMES.

I took the sigil from him, lay down again and started asking Him for help, 'singing' his enn and listening to some more relaxing music – the fear wasn't present, but there was discomfort and I felt like I wasn't alone there – until I dozed off. a little. I had a very short dream where I was in my dark room, I heard my grandmother's voice complaining about me sleeping as late as I did earlier and I approached where she could be, it was then that I saw a black shadow with the silhouette of a man , with outstretched arms and open hands come towards me at speed. I was startled, of course, and soon woke up. When I woke up, the feeling of hands on my neck had passed and I no longer felt another presence in the room.

I like to interpret this dream I had as King Paimon showing me what had 'attacked' me. I like to think that He saved me that day and I am grateful for even the smallest moments like that. I am grateful to the great King Paimon for everything and I will be grateful for even more in the future.

It was a long text, perhaps with small unnecessary details, perhaps with things that were difficult to believe (there are small moments that even I don't quite believe, but…), but I like to fill in the things I write. I don't know if this text will be of help to anyone since I wrote it with the intention of thanking this majestic king, but if it helps, I'm happy, I think. Have a good day, a good afternoon or a good night on your spiritual journey.

[thechangeling]

God id literally send all the violence asks if possible but for now ill limit myself to 1,6,8

For now-

Ok I'm assuming this is just in general and not limited to a specific fandom.

1. Which character does everyone always get wrong?

God I could list so many, but the main two that come to mind are Wylan and Ty (both autistic/coded characters hmmm I'm sure that's a coincidence!/s).

Right now I'm going with Ty. A lot if people just don't write him correctly imo and you could argue that's relative, but it becomes glaringly obvious when you change the way he speaks, making it way too formal or way too casual. And yeah you could argue this is me being picky, and yeah I've definitely screwed up the voices of other characters before like Kit. (I have such a hard time nailing Kit's pov and @sandersgrey makes it look so easy I want to bite him/j)

But anyways it bugs me when people dumb Ty down on certain things for the sake of convenience for the plot or make him less competent... again for the sake of the plot and so Kit has to rescue him. He is actually a good fighter and a good shadowhunter in canon! He just doesn't LIKE doing it. He would much rather investigate shit. He hates training but not because he finds it difficult, but because getting an autistic person to do anything they don't want on your schedule is like hearding cats.

Not to mention exercise leads to sweat, and sweat is a sensory nightmare. Also this may seem petty but Ty being bad at math is super important to me. We never get ANY bad at math autistics! So it pisses me off when people try and overwrite that because they're a math gay or whatever or even if they're a math autistic. You literally have tons of math autistic characters! Leave this one alone he's OURS!

Also just the general allistic person writing autistic characters vibes I get from a lot of fics. Either they completely steamroll of his autism and don't even include it in an attempt to not other him, or they play it up in weird and incorrect ways. Or sometimes quite frankly the vibes are just off, and that's annoying because I don't have any constructive feedback for that.

Also what's annoying is sometimes canon is ableist, so sticking directly to canon like the bible will lead to you putting ableism uncritically into your fics. A good example of this is the "nobody ever tells Ty things" phenomenon which still persists in the secrets of Blackthorn Hall. It's a good plot device sure, but ableist and annoying.

6. Which ship has the most annoying fans?

Honestly there are annoying fans in every ship I can think of. But the ones that bother me the most have gotta be Certain spuffy shippers (Spike and Buffy from Buffy The Vampire Slayer) who kind of steamroll over all of the toxic shit Spike has said/done to Buffy and pretend like he is always objectively right about everything he says about or to her. Plus the lack of acknowledging the racism of the narrative in the episode "Lies my parents told me" and immediately jumping to "Spike did nothing wrong!"

Like, if I as a white person can acknowledge how poorly Robin was treated in season 7, then I can only imagine how fans of color especially Black fans feel.

Sorry I know you don't have context for any of this but just trust me lol.

Also the handling of Seeing Red into season 7 was not good imo and a lot of spuffy shippers ignore that. I love their relationship from a narrative perspective and I love analyzing it and what it says about the characters and the story they're in, but I can't interact with a lot of spuffy shippers because they get under my skin.

8. What's one popular fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about?

I don't really know if it's popular but I've been seeing it a fair amount recently. The idea that Ty looking Kit in the eye is romantic or special in some way.

We gotta nip that crap in the bud right now. Eye contact, for a lot of autistic people is not just uncomfortable but physically painful. A lot of autistic people describe it as a burning or stabbing sensation. I experience it like a giant poker stabbing through the top of my skull. Most of the time we do it because we have to, not because we want to.

Of course this isn't true for everyone. Every autistic person is different, it's a spectrum. But Ty is cannonly someone who rarely makes eye contact, presumably because he doesn't like it.

Now unfortunately CC has contributed to this problem by having Ty occassionally make eye contact with Kit or other members of his family in intimate situations, creating this idea that Ty putting himself through pain or discomfort for the people he loves is something we should admire and romanticize. But it's not.

Honestly you could solve a lot of this by actually having Ty's pov, because then you would know how he feels about it.

So yeah. Those are my hot takes lol.

[archaeren]

Okay, call me crazy, but when it comes to character inspiration, my personal feeling is that a lot of these feel a little... Cliche/standard/trope-y, since they're mostly just taking a positive trait and extending it to the point that it can become negative. But people are more complex than that, and sometimes they have traits that are even directly at odds with each other. That's not to say it's not a useful list! As an experiment, I tried moving every negative trait down one slot, and observing the results. Since I had no control over the order, some are a bit random, but a lot of them came up with pretty cool concepts!

1. Bravery - Calculative: A character is courageous in the face of danger but can be cold and overly pragmatic in their decisions. (This one is a straight up badass apparently.)

2. Intelligence - Recklessness: A character is exceptionally smart but often takes unnecessary risks. (Forget about Tony Stark for a second and try to apply this to someone more unexpected. What if this character is a teenage girl?)

3. Compassion - Arrogance: A character is deeply caring but also looks down on others. (This is a fascinating combo. I love the arrogant tsundere brat type that this could make. I already ship him with #8.)

4. Determination - Naivety: A character is persistent in their goals but is easily deceived due to their trusting nature. (This is cute...)

5. Charisma - Stubbornness: A character is charming and persuasive but is unwilling to adapt or compromise. (These ones complement each other pretty well! Imagine a character that uses their charisma to always get their way--and then how their stubborn streak comes out when the charisma sometimes fails!)

6. Resourcefulness - Manipulativeness: A character is adept at finding solutions but often uses these traits to exploit others. (Make this a guy who's even semi-hot and you know he'd have a rabid fanbase.)

7. Loyalty - Opportunism: A character is fiercely loyal but is also quick to exploit situations for personal gain. (This is not someone whose boss I'd want to get on the bad side of. But I'd love to read about them!!)

8. Optimism - Blind Obedience: A character remains hopeful in difficult times but follows orders without question, even when they're wrong. (I'm in love with the precious himbo henchman this one has created in my mind.)

9. Humor - Denial: A character lightens the mood with jokes but often ignores harsh realities. (I feel like this one needs no elaboration. Sometimes you don't realize it's REALLY not the time to try to lighten the mood!!)

10. Generosity - Inappropriateness: A character is giving and selfless but often crosses the line with their generosity. (This one is fascinating to me. Like someone who is really going too far, to the point it makes other uncomfortable? Is it because the excessive generosity makes others feel inferior, or is it because the acts of generosity themselves are actually incredibly tone-deaf?)

11. Patience - Lack of Boundaries: A character is calm and tolerant but often neglects their own needs and well-being. (I feel like this isn't an unusual combo for mother characters and shoujo protags, so let's imagine it being Not That. What if this character was a superhero? What if this character was a teacher? What if this character was the antagonist?)

12. Wisdom - Passivity: A character has deep understanding and insight but sometimes fails to take action when needed. (The default for this one is probably like a wise old wizard character or something that just offers advice but doesn't actively help the main character. But what if this was an active party member/participant? Now it seems more likely that they get so caught up in thinking Wise Thoughts that they don't realize when they should be applying that stuff in the real world!!)

13. Confidence - Cynicism: A character believes in their abilities but is often pessimistic about the world. (Not the most unusual combo, but still a fun one. I feel like we tend to see this with overpowered characters that have become jaded by how their power has skewed their perception of the world. Saiki K is the first that comes to mind for me, but I know there are others Another approach could be to make them confident but not good at what they're confident at! Which makes their pessimism hilariously highlight their own obliviousness.)

14. Honesty - Overconfidence: A character is truthful and straightforward but sometimes underestimates challenges. (Does this one speak to anyone else? This honestly sounds so cute.)

15. Self-discipline - Bluntness: A character maintains strong control over their actions but is often insensitive in their spoken delivery. (This is literally just my favorite best boy, Tanakamigi Chui.)

16. Adventurousness - Rigidity: A character loves exploring and trying new things but is inflexible and resistant to change. (This is a really interesting concept because at first glance these two seem naturally opposed. But what if you could make an adventurous character that always insists on doing things their way because it's how they've always done it? Or is utterly unmoved by learning about how other people do things, despite their adventures bringing them into contact with other cultures, etc?)

17. Empathy - Impulsiveness: A character deeply understands and feels others' emotions but often acts without thinking. (Can you imagine the type of character that deeply resonates with the emotions of people around them--and then impulsively acts on those feelings?? Either in response to feelings they think are theirs, or in an effort to respond to the other person, even if it's definitely not the right time or situation. What if the person they resonate with is an antagonist? This concept is ripe for hilarity.)

18. Ambition - Overwhelm: A character is driven to achieve great things but can become easily overwhelmed. (I LOVE this one, I feel like this character is already super relatable lol)

19. Resilience - Ruthlessness: A character can endure hardships without breaking but is willing to do anything, even unethical, to succeed. (This one is interesting because Resilience is a trait I personally associate mostly with characters on the side of Good, who use their dedication to Good to push through when things seem bleak. It's so interesting to think of this as a more villainous or grey morality type character.)

20. Strategic - Emotional Detachment: A character excels at planning and foresight but often seems emotionally distant. (Not the most unique combo, but I'd also be lying if I said this wasn't My Type lol) I'd love to hear anyone else's thoughts on this!

20 Compelling Positive-Negative Trait Pairs

Here are 20 positive and negative trait pairs that can create compelling character dynamics in storytelling:

1. Bravery - Recklessness: A character is courageous in the face of danger but often takes unnecessary risks.

2. Intelligence - Arrogance: A character is exceptionally smart but looks down on others.

3. Compassion - Naivety: A character is deeply caring but easily deceived due to their trusting nature.

4. Determination - Stubbornness: A character is persistent in their goals but unwilling to adapt or compromise.

5. Charisma - Manipulativeness: A character is charming and persuasive but often uses these traits to exploit others.

6. Resourcefulness - Opportunism: A character is adept at finding solutions but is also quick to exploit situations for personal gain.

7. Loyalty - Blind Obedience: A character is fiercely loyal but follows orders without question, even when they're wrong.

8. Optimism - Denial: A character remains hopeful in difficult times but often ignores harsh realities.

9. Humor - Inappropriateness: A character lightens the mood with jokes but often crosses the line with their humor.

10. Generosity - Lack of Boundaries: A character is giving and selfless but often neglects their own needs and well-being.

11. Patience - Passivity: A character is calm and tolerant but sometimes fails to take action when needed.

12. Wisdom - Cynicism: A character has deep understanding and insight but is often pessimistic about the world.

13. Confidence - Overconfidence: A character believes in their abilities but sometimes underestimates challenges.

14. Honesty - Bluntness: A character is truthful and straightforward but often insensitive in their delivery.

15. Self-discipline - Rigidity: A character maintains strong control over their actions but is inflexible and resistant to change.

16. Adventurousness - Impulsiveness: A character loves exploring and trying new things but often acts without thinking.

17. Empathy - Overwhelm: A character deeply understands and feels others' emotions but can become overwhelmed by them.

18. Ambition - Ruthlessness: A character is driven to achieve great things but willing to do anything, even unethical, to succeed.

19. Resilience - Emotional Detachment: A character can endure hardships without breaking but often seems emotionally distant.

20. Strategic - Calculative: A character excels at planning and foresight but can be cold and overly pragmatic in their decisions.

These pairs create complex, multi-dimensional characters that can drive rich, dynamic storytelling.