#don't even get me stared on the whole mysaria thing

[theroguequeen]

what I really liked about the fight between rhaenyra and daemon was how there were glimpses of their younger versions while showing that both have changed and that rhaenyra becomes more confident in herself.

Younger rhaenyra was trying to hold daemon close while deep down knowing that at that time he was not able to give her a stable relationship and older rhaenyra knows that she is still able to breathe and to function even when he is not there because she had to do it for years. Don't get me wrong, daemon loved rhaenyra back then, he always did but he struggled with his desires and wishes and everytime he would really have to commit to her he left, not because it was what he wanted to do but because not leaving would mean he would have to open up and I think most of the time it was easier for him to tell himself that the circumstances were just not right and that he maybe was scared of having something real to lose this time.

That man tried to escape, tried to drown the what if but still was haunted by it every day while rhaenyra feeled like he abdomend her all over again and tried to build something on her own, becoming a mother and stood up everytime she was pushed down. And with the time passing I think she was able to find some clarity for herself, becoming more confident in what she really wanted. After harwin death and the funeral she was very clear in her words to daemon and it was similar in the fight they had, she was straight forward and she was not afraid to speak up and show her anger and disappointment.

And even younger rhaenyra was not afraid to hold daemon accountable like she did when she came for the dragon egg or at the wedding night when she straight up was challenging daemon. Most people around daemon would never speak to him that way or dare to openly disagree with him but rhaenyra always knew how to approach him. Younger rhaenyra was already really direct and confronting and some of that was shining through when she said "you're pathetic" while still struggling with the memories of all the times daemon just left, abandoned her. Daemon on the other hand did leave after the fight but it's still different, not like when he was suddenly gone after the funeral or the times when left her in the brothel or at the wedding because this time he stayed long enough to really show what was going on in his mind and rhaenyra really hit his weak spot with questioning his loyalty and making clear that she is not trusting him fully even so I think that deep down she knows that he would never try to take her crown. She knows him like no one else does and she was clearly struggling with her memories of him leaving, of him not letting close enough to get behind the wall that he builds around him. This was not him leaving her and just going as far away as he can. He was leaving full of anger and grief and being hurt by her words but he straight up goes and gets his armor and doing everything he can to strengthen her claim. He is hurt and not able to verbally express all that his boiling inside him but he goes into action, fighting for his wife and family and in a way trying to show her with his actions what he right now can't show with his words: that he is worthy of her trust and that he would burn down the world for her. He is not abandoning her he is still there even if he is not right at her side and I would bet her words and her face are haunting him every minute of the day. Their fights were never about the love they have for each other. It was never a real question. It was always there.

This was a fight between two people who are deeply struggling to deal with the grief and the feeling of betrayal and daemon pushed this even more with the whole blood and cheese Desaster because he was so driven by the idea that if he does something quickly that maybe things would change and that he could do something to take some of rhaenyras pain. This fight was not a break up or cut to their bond. They were communicating and daemons does not do that often and you could still feel the love between them. Yes daemon was aggressive but still there was something soft in it when he touched her face and in the way the looked at each other. Daemon was desperately need to feel rhaenyra because he felt like she was slipping through his fingers and it seemed like he was fighting so hard with himself no to just kiss her or scream "Yes I know I fucked up but why don't you see how much i love you?"

Matt and emmas acting was absolutely phenomenal. And this is still daemon and rhaenyra and they were both in a way so vounerable and open and I would be more alarmed if they didn't had that fight because this showed they are still so connected with each other.

[ronni-right]

For the school thing??

their breath hitching whenever the other gets a too close

feeling crushed when that action is taken as a sign of discomfort, and they watch them walk off

High School AU

Note: if you don't like cliches and/or school AU, just skip this

Thanks for request and I hope you like it.

There she is, coming through a door with Laena, looking like a vision even wearing khaki pants and multi color shirt. And it’s like a Pavlovian conditioning to think “damn, she is cute”' whenever he sees her. It’s been 11 years since he has known her and his reaction to her hasn’t changed. He wonders will it ever change? And he hopes it will. It’s nothing but a school unrequited crush on a girl he has no chances with. And next year he is leaving for college, leaving Westeros, California behind. He will have a new life, somewhere far far away from her and he won’t think much of her as he probably won't see her much in the years to come. His feelings for her will slowly disappear, leaving just a memory when he will think about school. But it won’t be anytime soon. So his second thought after he sees her at the party at Mysaria house “What is she doing here? Shouldn't she have stayed at home and relaxed after the accident at the sports ground?” 

He shouldn’t care. They aren’t friends, just a boy and a girl, who attend the same school and have a small circle of common friends and activities.  

He shouldn’t care. 

He cares anyway. 

He stares when she doesn’t look. 

And Daemon knows she stares back at him when she thinks he doesn’t look. 

Girls like her and boys like him … It won’t ever work between them two. She deserves someone who can give her the whole world right now and for the rest of her life and it’s not him. 

Maybe in the future, when he is wealthy enough and she is single … 

He doubts she will be single after she finishes school and enrolls into college with all old money boys. 

Daemon just knows it. 

He is standing by the window alone, with a beer in hand, and turns away from Rhaenyra as she greets her girlfriends moving from the door and more inside the living room. Maybe he should go and join his buddies from the team, they are having fun in the backyard while he just stands there, brooding a little because of the reasons he can’t figure out. 

“Daemon.” A feminine melodic voice surprises him. “Hey.”

And he immediately turns around, knowing this voice like his own. 

“Hey.” His hand immediately goes to his hair, messing with them, it’s her nervous habit. 

Her blue eyes are like two big ocean pools, prettier than any ocean, dragging him into their depth every time he looks into them. 

“I …” Rhaenyra starts, licking her lips and nervously tugging at her rings on her fingers, “I want to thank you for your help… That you caught me and I didn’t fall onto the ground.” 

She was so light in his arms, like she weighs nothing. Daemon isn’t the most bulky guy, but he is strong and she is small, more than a head lower than him but with curves in all the right places. And maybe it’s not time to think about that, as he isn’t in the privacy of his own room. He coughs and tells her, with his head lowered: 

“Nothing to thank me for.” He briefly smiles at her: “After all, I just have good reflexes.” Good that nobody knew it wasn’t just his good reflexes, as he sensed something was wrong with the way she moved and he was able to catch her because of that. 

Rhaenyra wants to say something, but a bunch of people, girls and boys, passes behind her, all of them already unsteady on their feet, and to avoid being grazed by them, Rhaenyra steps closer to him, her sweet scent envelopes him and he really wants to breathe her in. He inhales sharply, looking at her face, and his breath hitches. It always happens with him when she is around. Not that she is around often like that, this close to him. And she notices it, his reaction to her, of course she notices how his breath was caught in his throat and how he looked at her, but he doesn’t expect her to say: 

“Sorry.” Rhaenyra whispers, avoiding to look at him. “I didn’t want you to feel uncomfortable. It’s just pretty crowded,” she trails. “Anyway, thanks for help and bye.” And with that, Rhaenyra gives him a small awkward smile and rushes from him like he is a plague.

Daemon doesn’t bother to correct her. Someone like her has nothing to do with someone like him. It doesn’t matter that it hurts to watch her go like that from him, to her own circle of friends. 

Well. It’s for the best.