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[bashzzey]

Happy 1st anniversary, Downpour DLC!!

[cherry1sblog]

I don't understand why people are Soo butt hurt about asking for Ni-ki smut yeah it's a little weird cuz he's JUST turning 18 but they don't have a problem with making stories like that about anyone else's in the group and we basically watched them grow up too just cuz they weren't AS young as Niki doesn't mean they weren't young not only that but some of the smuts they write about the legal line is even more disturbing and disgusting then just simply asking for a slightly suggestive story for Niki seeing as teenagers (not me tho lol) are doing way more and nasty stuff at even younger. And about that thing with the older members like people literally ask for disgusting smut stories all the time like the members watching you and one of them do stuff or I EVEN SAW A NON CON REQUEST THAT SOMEONE ACTUALLY WROTE AND WAS PROUD OF BUT THEN WHEN SOMEONE ASKED THEM TO WRITE ABOUT NIKI NIT EVEN SOMETHING THAT BAD THEY SUDDENLY HAD A PROBLEM WITH IT and someone had asked Ni-ki to be included in the non con thing and I understand being uncomfortable with that but why even write it about that situation in the first place coming from someone who's been sexually assaulted and abused and harassed and taken advantage of multiple time even before I was 8 by people I thought I could trust like multiple of my one of my brothers (I have 3 brothers so one of my brothers) friends and my cousin and someone who was walking me home a classmate and even my brother who let his friends do that to me THAT is disgusting teenagers do nasty inappropriate stuff all the time and none bats an eye but suddenly it's a famous person and there's a problem not saying people sexualizing him is good or ok or not bad I'm just saying there's a double standard it shouldn't be OK for them to write about the other members just cause they are legal it still kind of weird to sexualize them the way people do . Like I can't eleven open tumblr without seeing MDNI and some inappropriate content about them that I don't want to see JUST because I follow enhypen tags or tags like enhypen x reader (even though I mainly only read Niki x reader) AND I'm one year younger than Ni-ki and my bday is the month after his but that's not important what I'm trying to say is that I have like a huuuuugggggeeee crush on Niki like I'm in love with him I swear (not literally I just have like an enormous humongous crush on him) and I don't think that it's that wrong to have feelings that normal teenagers feel (I'm a virgin so I've never done anything) but what I'm saying is it's WWWWASAAAYYYYYYY more weird to ask tobbe non con by the legal line than it is forbme to ask for something like a story where the reader and Ni-ki make out or some (I'm not the one who asked for you to write after he turns 18 just defending you from the people who have been dogging you for no reason when they probably read TONSS ON THOUSANDS Of WWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY WORSE AND MORE DEMEANING AND DISTURBING DISGUSTING THINGS ABOUT THE OTHER MEMBERS AND JUSTIFY IT BY SAYING THAT THEY ARE LEGAL? LIKE COME ON NOW AND THEN THEY HAVE THE NERVE TO MAKE IT SEEM LIKE THEY'RE SAINTS WHEN THEY ARE DOING THE SAME ABD EVEN WORSE TO THE ITHER MEMBERS JUST CAUSE THEY'RE "OF AGE" like seriously a A NON CON REQUEST AND THEY ACTUALLY WROTE IT? that's like not ok especially considering people actually struggle and go through that the double standard is CRAZY LIKE INSANE they don't have the right to look at you when they write and read stuff like non con or sleep stuff that basically just r*pe fics

I know I went on but it's crazy how people will dig you and make you out to be the bad guy when they're doing the same if not worse stuff

You ate all of this up I’m so sorry about what happened to you but your a really strong person and I appreciate what you wrote you couldn’t have said anything more fucking true people are so blinded it’s actually fucking crazy literally everything I wanted to say you summed it up

[not-so-allegiant-general]

 It’s meeting the Strakiller time! Let’s welcome Poe Dameron in today’s part!

 Previous parts: MEETING 1| MEETING 2 |MEETING 3

POE DAMERON

The pills did help him sleep through the nights. It was almost disturbing. And he kept this ridiculous eating schedule because there was nothing better to do. And yes, well .. The guard was annoying.

"Hey Hugs!"

"Why? Why did you volunteer Dameron? Give me one reason" Poe chuckled while putting a nutrition shake and ration bar on the table.

"To torment you of course."

"Of course." Poe smiled and sat down in the chair.

"To be honest.” he started slowly. “You saved my life. I still don't know why. It's not changing much for your case, as you exterminated the whole planetary system but... Well, I would be dead, and Fin, and Rey probably, and... Ah well lots of people, right... And I just wanted to see you."

"For what?"

"I don't know. Really. And now we are condemned to each other." he said cheerfully.

"What a wonderful plan General Dameron. Exceptional. " Hux sneered, grabbing his bar. Poe cleared his throat.

"It's actually... Colonel, now." Hux blinked trying very hard to keep his composure. " Kriff you, laugh already. I know. Everyone is laughing at me. I am pffasking army disaster."

Hux smiled, biting his lip and looking at Dameron. But he didn't laugh. He pressed his back to the wall.

"Why did they demote you?" Poe sighed and shrugged. 

"Per usual I guess. Not following orders, not keeping my mouth shut when I should have, not listening to superiors."

" No.” Hux smiled “ Who did you pissed off?" Poe rolled his eyes.

" One of the Admirals. I...objected to his order. I guess..."

"You guess? What order?"

"I shouldn't speak to you about this Hugs. It's… you are a prisoner."

"Indeed. What damage can you do by telling me that? I guess you didn't tell anybody else because they killed the mood with their laughter. So-called friends right ?" Poe crossed his arms looking at him.

"He... they, an RR Army. The Senate has them, us, to claim some of the FO mines and shut them for good. The point is these mines they want to shut... "

"Are the only source of income for people working there on their home planets. They want to shut them, but they are not offering alternatives, aren't they? Just close them for the good image of freeing people but not helping them at all. " Poe dropped his eyes to the ground and nodded. " Seems like you just said the truth straight into their eyes and someone didn’t like it.” He glanced at his ration bar. " And you know what will be next right? Upset and angry people. Riots. Mutinies. Battles. And they will send you there." He murmured looking at Poe

"If you are trying to prove that the FO..."

"I am not trying to prove anything. We lost, First Order was eaten by corruption and Snoke, and all this dark side nonsense. It had to go. I just..." Hux sighed and shook his head "Alright... I guess I am just trying to tell you that you are too much of a good man for this job" Poe snorted amused " They will send you there. And you will have to shoot people that are fighting for their rights." Poe shook his head and stood up pacing the room. 

"There has to be a way to stop this."

"You know where this idealism will lead you? To the courtroom."

"Shit, you are good at talking.” He froze looking at the redhead. “I think I have to go. Otherwise, you will talk me into believing that you are not that awful"

"Oh, I am not that bad, for a genocide that is."

"Oh yes thank you for that, Hux." He sighed, covering his face with hands and sat down. Hux was looking at him and sighed.

" Aren't you a rebel Dameron? Do I have to tell you what to do?"

"What do you mean?"

"Well? Your saint republic is not working as it should. Start rebelling."

"Alone?" Hux snorted.

"I can guarantee that there are plenty of people not pleased with this"

"They will... Throw me out of the army."

"I was under the impression that the army is not really at the top of the list of your priorities. It's this or not looking in the mirror anytime soon."

"Can you...? Look in the mirror?"

"Oh yes. I can. Without any problem" he answered. "Looking is not much of a problem itself. The problem is what is staring back at you." Poe glanced at him. 

“And what is staring back at you, Hux?”Armitage sighed, eating his ration bar. He never had a problem with mirrors. Or... Maybe more correct would be to say that he had it since childhood. Because every time he looked in a mirror, Brendol Hux stared back. He put down a wrapper. 

“A monster.” he said, looking at the pilot.

Next part: MEETING 4

[faelwenholdsthelight]

Rules: shuffle your 'on repeat' playlist and post the first ten tracks, then tag ten people.

Tagged by both @doomedgirls and @orkestrations so I guess I should participate lol

1. Mars - sleeping at last (this comes as no surprise, there's always at least one sleeping at last somewhere haha)

2. Daylight - David Kushner (I've been obsessed with this one since the first snippet on clock app)

3. A Reason To Fight - Disturbed

4. Throne - Saint Mesa (one of my favorite songs)

5. Broken Vessel - Christopher Larkin (don't come for me, I just really love the hk soundtrack)

6. When it's all over - RAIGN

7. When I'm Gone - 3 Doors Down (this band remains my answer when asked my favorite band. I love so many others but 3 doors down will always have my heart)

8. Neptune - Sleeping At Last (yes I know, I have a problem haha)

9. Until I End Up Dead - Dream (a new obsession song, I could listen to his voice all day haha)

10. In Your Love - Tyler Childers (I many have listened to this song on repeat for nearly a week. I love it so much, I can't even explain. Beautiful gay love song while being gorgeous country music of the old style, yes please sign me right up. Combined with the Appalachian roots of the song/video/singer? I will love this song till the day I die.

Anyways this was both fun and an incredible callout haha. Thank you for the tags. Tagging a few but whoever sees this and wants to participate is welcome! @the-13th-battalion @plusultrachaos @theghosthybrid

[squeakintothevoid]

I decided to stop lurking and actually post my thoughts somewhere because of my man Larry here, who shared his reaction to "The Sound of Silence" covered by Disturbed. I've listened to the original by Simon & Garfunkel before but didn't pay much attention to the words. I mean, it's just that memed depression song, right?

What folly! I have failed ye, Simon & Garfunkel! But Disturbed's video made me pay attention to the obvious message:

“This is a song about the inability of people to communicate with each other"

—Art Garfunkel

Okay, I get the point. Now, if I may, I will disturb the sound of silence (ha) to share my own thoughts while I was listening to the song:

[Verse 1] Hello darkness, my old friend I've come to talk with you again Because a vision softly creeping Left its seeds while I was sleeping And the vision that was planted in my brain Still remains within the sound of silence

Let me give you some context about my life. I have social anxiety. Or did, I might not meet the criteria anymore. But woah boy, did I have social anxiety. I mean, sometimes I'd try to speak and simply could not make a sound. That's how paralyzing my fear of speaking was. I know now that this fear came from being ignored as a kid plus a heaping of religious trauma. Growing up, I'd hear some teachers or friends say it's okay, just say what you want, be yourself. Sure, whatever. I didn't really believe them due to not being noticed very much the rest of the time. I thought: I don't even have anything to say and if I did, why would I risk telling anyone? But that positive messaging still seeped in my brain somehow where it remained dormant.

[Verse 2] In restless dreams, I walked alone Narrow streets of cobblestone 'Neath the halo of a street lamp I turned my collar to the cold and damp When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light That split the night, and touched the sound of silence

Of course, I still had thoughts and emotions to say even though I kept them inside. At age 10, I thought I was like a wise ninja, only speaking when necessary, but really I was emotionally stunted and always afraid. I slowly learned how to socialize though, but real progress was made when I started gaining confidence and trust in myself. Mainly because of movies and music. And the few solid people I could trust in my life.

More context about me: I was raised Mormon (Latter-day saint). So like, in a cult. Or a "high-demand religion" if "cult" is too much of a buzzword for ya. Anyway, I ended up attending BYU, a Mormon college that will kick you out for not conforming to their strict "honor" code. I was understandably depressed while I was there. Except I didn't understand why at the time.

Then my eyes were stabbed by the neon light of Freddie Mercury.

For real though, Queen, among other artists, helped me see that I felt stuck, and that the next step on my hero's journey was to break free from Mormonism and my parent's expectations (and somehow not get expelled and homeless at the same time). To have confidence in myself and keep myself alive.

[Verse 3] And in the naked light I saw Ten thousand people, maybe more People talking without speaking People hearing without listening People writing songs that voices never shared And no one dared disturb the sound of silence

So now I was aware of how sinister and blatantly false Mormonism was. In a university full of devout followers that will tattle on you. Followers only talking about what they're allowed to talk about, and anyone who stands out is shut down. Everything seemed so platitudinous and hateful now. Man, I wasn't ever thinking for myself before, was I? I knew there were other people at BYU in my situation, because they said so on reddit, but I didn't dare make my thoughts known to anyone in person.

[Verse 4] "Fools," said I, "You do not know Silence like a cancer grows Hear my words that I might teach you Take my arms that I might reach you" But my words, like silent raindrops, fell And echoed in the wells of silence

Simon speaks like a prophet. In Mormonism, you have a prophet that claims to be speaking the words of God. So like, you gotta listen to him or go to hell. Actually, Mormons don't really have the same idea of hell as mainstream Christianity, but you definitely won't get into the special VIP top level of heaven if you don't shut up and obey the prophet with exactness. Prophets give you commandments. Prophets tell you to give all your time, talents, and money to the LDS church. (Although they only enforce giving 10% of your income.)

But Simon isn't really speaking to tell you what to do and not do. He, like most artists, is trying to reach out to you. To emotionally express himself and encourage others to do the same. It's a refreshing idea of what a prophet could be. He's calling us fools not because we are sinners, but because he wants to share what he has learned. His writing isn't to make a cash grab (I think lol), but catchy music that can be echoed in the background tends to get the best sales.

[Verse 5] And the people bowed and prayed To the neon god they made And the sign flashed out its warning In the words that it was forming And the sign said, "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls and tenement halls And whispered in the sound of silence"

Most people see the "neon god" line as a critique of consumerism, and I wouldn't disagree. It's sad that television and music in many ways raised me better than my parents, that the religious texts that promised me spiritual awakening didn't have shit on Freddie's whimsical ballads. But these "neon signs" are what saved me, no matter how cringe that sounds. I wouldn't be as daring to make real world connections if it weren't for media and the internet.

Following fandoms, lurking on tumblr, sending superwholock memes to my friends, watching stupid youtube crack videos, staying up late just vibing to the music I had. These are my prophets. It's sharing all these little pop culture things that culminated in me finally realizing that I'm alright as I am, even with my cringe hyperfixations. That maybe I can slowly learn how to speak my truth and say with a newfound sense of confidence that I do want extra ketchup. Or that I'm rejecting my parent's one true religion.

It's all good now, I never got expelled nor disowned as I feared, but I'm still healing from things. I can't say I'm a beacon of self-confidence either (right now, I'm worried this whole post is too long and pretentious). So if you took the time to read this, thanks! I know tumblr can be a hellscape of a site but I appreciate y'all. It's our little ramblings that get us through the day when we feel like nobody understands us. Here's to the whispers in the tenement halls!

Yes, I did shoehorn a spn gif in my first tumblr post, what are ya gonna do about it?

[pyr0-kai]

I Became A Cryptid Hunter

(Original creepypasta | Horror)

Part 1/?

Word count- 999

Constructive Criticism welcome!

     My name, and some other information has been redacted for my safety, but my code is 675. When daylight is out, I work as a veterinarian, and I typically handle euthanasia. I suspect that might be why the government, or whatever secret service this is chose me, for how I've delt with the death of non-human creatures. Some of my mutual friends say I don't have a sense if compassion, but I do, just not for these creatures.

On the other hand, during the night, I get tasked with handling cryptids that escape containment, or disturb the public. The public cannot hear more than rumors, or else the chance of fear and fleeing is large. I deal with creatures, not panicked humans.

How did the government discover me, as just a regular veterinarian? I have no Idea. But one night, I was just sitting on my couch watching my favorite movie with a drink, and then something knocked me out. When I awoke, there was a band on my wrist, almost like the one most domestic birds have. The wristband has "675" engraved. Also on my nightstand was a cassette player, with a unnamed cassette inside. I was suspicious, but I still hit play.

The audio began,

    "𝘉𝘦𝘦𝘦𝘱 Hello, [REDACTED], 675. This message was made and delivered as a cassette for both yours and our protection. Though, If you are hearing this on or before May 25, 2024, there is a special task for you. Priced at $3,000. A werewolf pack has been spotted approximately 5 miles from the exit of [MY TOWN]. Underneath you bed, is a locked gun case. The code is the number given on your wristband. Inside is a revolver, and 6 silver bullets. Underneath the gun is a silver plated bowie knife, incase things get too close. It's best to aim for the alpha, and Largest of the pack first, the rest will flee, and another will finish them off if the wolves flee. If you choose to do this task, you will officially become a member of [REDACTED] Corp. We see your skill, and think this job would be a great fit, we need eyes on [MY TOWN], the stronger the beasts, the higher pay, and more weaponry you will receive. Thank you, [REDACTED]. 𝘉𝘦𝘦𝘦𝘱"

    Understandably, I was confused and concerned. Although I did reach under my bed, I grabbed a few dust bunnies and food wrappers, but way in the back was in-fact a case. It was cold to the touch, and locked with a code. I did what the tape said, and the case unlatched. A shiny new revolver, loaded, sat inside. I picked it up, cold to the touch. As I held it, I contemplated the task I was offered, and those who offered it. 3,000 bucks is very tempting. But how would I received it? How did these people find me, ir get in my house? I went into a restless sleep, contemplating the choice and questions at hand.

     The next evening I was watching the news, because I had lost my remote that morning. The was a breaking news segment on a man being attacked by a abnormally large dog, or suspected wolf. But I knew what it was. Where I live is far from wolf habitat, and not even dogs like saint Bernard's make bites that large. I contemplated the revolver and 3 grand prize. I couldn't let anyone else be attacked.

     I put on some old thick clothes from out of my donation pile, grabbed my keys and the weapon I was supplied. My car is a wrangler, she Is strong.

     I parked in an old beat up parking lot as close to the outskirts of [MY TOWN] as I could. i took a long look at the full moon, until I heard a deep guttural howl, and about 3-4 more join in. A sound that could bring metal music to its knees. Thats when I knew it was time. Just follow the sound, but don't disturb it.

     Then began my trek into the nearby trees, being careful to avoid sticks, and anything to make a disturbance to the sounds these werewolves we're making. As I got closer, deep black, gray and brown fur patches entered my sight. As I saw the ears of a large, deep brown beast standing on its hind legs, arms outstretched and snout in the moonlight, my gut said it was time. The case opened oddly quietly, but I held the weapon, aimed imbetween the beats ears. I began to remember what I've learned from the gun ranges, and tv shows ive watched, closed my non-dominant eye, prayed that was the alpha, and shot.

"𝘉𝘖𝘖𝘔"

     The wolf I amied for came crashing down ontop of another, two of them scattered away, and one noticed me and ran. With shaking hands I shot once. Miss.

Shot again.

Miss.

Third shot landed right through its heart. Blood painted my face, some nearby trees, and the rock I was leaning on. I quickly wiped my face. Grabbed the gun case and ran. Ran like I never have. I eventually made it out, but not before tripping on a branch and busting my nose. Luckily my car was within eyesight. The door slammed so loud, and tires squealed as I dashed out, but It was amazing.

     The clothes off my back from the previous night were just trashed. Last night I took the hottest shower possible. Laying in bed, I checked my phone, eyes barely fighting to stay open. But there was one single notification, paypal.

"𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘥 $3,000, 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 [𝘢 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘰𝘮 𝘯𝘶𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴] - 𝘛𝘢𝘴𝘬 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦."

     My eyes lit up, just before I passed out completely, probably from adrenaline, shock and tiredness. Teh next morning, on-top of my phone was another cassette, this one labeled.

"675 - 𝘛𝘢𝘴𝘬 𝘛𝘸𝘰"

[mattsuchan]

fic read list (under construction)

(semi fic rec ? its all the fics that i've read)

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STRAY KIDS

bang chan

1. paris (1950s au, actor au)

2. non ducor duco (historical au, gang au)

3. the phantom (vampire au, historical au)

4. the eclipse (cop au)

5. from grace (demon au)

6. free fall ; one two three (mafia au)

7. supercut. (established relationship au)

8. chan + plushies (established relationship au)

9. [untitled] (college au)

10. domestic disturbance. (detective au, fwb trope, fake marriage trope)

11. good enough (established relationship au)

12. my house (ceo au, established relationship au)

13. [daddy issues - the nbhd] (... yeah 🧍)

14. [11:23 pm] (idol au)

lee know

1. business proposals (ceo au)

2. who are you (detective au)

3. strawberries (tattoo artist au)

4. misfits. (punk au)

5. youngblood (college au, f2l trope)

6. expectorate. (mafia au)

7. "go back to sleep." (established relationship au)

changbin

1. weight on my shoulders (social media au)

hyunjin

1. backseat driving (racer au)

2. back in time (time travel au)

3. it's knot you (soulmate au)

4. forward in time (time travel au)

5. define it (f2l trope)

6. don't wanna be friends. (pornstar au, f2l trope)

7. the duke and i (bridgerton au, f2l trope)

han

1. reverse corruption (?? au)

seungmin

1. getting to first base (highschool au)

ot8 (headcanons mostly,,)

1. when you wear their clothes

2. cockwarming

TOMORROW X TOGETHER

yeonjun

1. hasta la vista (1989 au)

2. how he deals with you being a brat (fwb trope)

3. today is the day (time travel au)

4. [untitled] (badboy au)

5. break time (college au)

6. back and forth (roommates au, s2f2l trope)

7. making out for the first time (established relationship au)

8. sober thoughts (f2l trope)

9. summer rain (summer camp au)

10. loved. (social media au)

11. pose (model au)

12. bambi (1920s au, hitman au)

13. [untitled] (established relationship au)

14. you're fucked up but so am i (revenge au)

15. seesaw (social media au)

16. the story of us (social media au)

17. 10:20 am (college au)

18. wheresoever you go (established relationship au)

19. dancing with your ghost (ghost au)

20. sneaky link (college au)

21. playboy (model au)

22. till' the end of summer (college au, ALSO MY FAVORITE SERIES OH MY GOD)

23. the art of (mis)communication (bf2e2l trope)

24. punishment (?? au)

25. you see love is a game (and i still want to play) [college au]

26. make a wish (?? au)

27. see the stars (established relationship au)

soobin

1. perfectly perfect (highschool au)

2. clingy much? (werewolf au)

3. game over (college au)

4. one last present (established relationship au)

5. mr. choi (neighbour au)

6. down the aisle (wedding planner au)

7. paper hearts (1980s au)

8. [8:23 pm] (neighbour au)

9. 17:53 (established relationship au)

10. 2:30 am (strangers au)

11. stuck on you (social media au)

12. new rules (idol au)

13. little bunny (idol au)

14. 33 (best friends pining trope)

15. saint (highscool au)

16. [10:33 am] (established relationship au)

17. d r a m a (social media au)

beomgyu

1. you're the one that i want (college au)

2. voices (soulmate au, s2e2l trope)

3. the prince and the jackal (fantasy au)

4. journey with you (fantasy au)

5. silver nights (social media au)

6. listen before i go (social media au)

taehyun

1. beverly hills (e2l trope)

2. when the ice begins to thaw (fantasy au)

3. underneath the golden sun (guardian angel au, soulmate au)

4. hero (social media au)

hueningkai

1. 7:12 a.m. (hybrid au)

2. long live the king (royalty au, f2l trope)

3. princeps caeli (fantasy au)

4. thank you, barista boy (college au, barista au)

ot5 (headcanons mostly,,)

1. reaction to you receiving a lot of anonymous love letters

2. what he'd call you

3. reacting to having a small s/o

misc.

1. cat & mouse (college au, fwb trope) ; jaemin

2. demon days (demon au, college au) ; san

3; doll (?? au) ; sunghoon

4. smoky aura (neighbour au) ; johnny