#don't be afraid to inbox me in case you want to talk about this stuff

[i-yap]

Batboys x quiet! reader(who is not quiet in private)

( some of the reasons for the quietness is a bit traumatic so uhh warning)

Dick grayson -

opposites attract is possibly my favorite trope ever. And that is exactly what you guys are . Not exactly golden retriever x black cat though people who didn't know you guys well assumed such .

Dick would get exhausted spending forever being charming and charismatic for even the most extroverted of people get tired when they had to manage multiple superhero teams, a detective squad and the whole batfamily.

You were silence, peace serenity almost..until you weren't. Grayson was worried about this relationship in the start, after all you guys were really different. He was afraid you were going to be annoyed by his sunshine self, and that when he isn't feeling like talking, the conversations would go silent.

But you really are so different when comfortable with someone, and its tough not to trust and drop your shield with grayson.

It took him by surprise slowly seeing you open up and show your weird side. It somehow made him cherish it more and even want to show sides of him that only you got to see.

When he asked you why you weren't like this with everyone you said " My parents had a habit of talking over me, sometimes outrightly not hearing me speak at all. No matter how loud I spoke..i wondered if they couldn't hear me...if anyone even wanted to you" "why me then?" asked dick , "you're nothing like my parents, I know you care" and he does..he really does. He won't ever let you feel like that every again. He will make sure everything you want said is heard, and if not he will burn it into the skyline

Jason todd

he appreciated it, a quiet person in public. He hated being in public, he hated the buzz the noise the push the touch of humans around him. He felt strange

till he feels you hold his knowing you felt just as strange as him. Leave the gala and walk around the library , one earphone in each ear listening to whatever you wished to play.

Pulling you close in crowded areas- was it for you or for him? Glaring at anyone who dared tease you about your quietness. A single glare usually does the job but don't worry ...other ways exist too.

He loves that when you two are alone, you are a completely different person. It makes him feel special, like he is the only one who understands you. Because you're the only one who understands him.

When he asks " well I guess I never felt like people liked what came out of my mouth.. my humour too dark, my words too dumb and I didn't make sense. So I stopped trying" don't worry about being cringe..he understands you completely

Tim drake

he is intruiged. How do you pull such a perfect facade. How does one look so poised and collected with those rich assholes and so wild and untamed with him?

He could never really perfect the act the way you did. He's seen you grow up, but somehow its like you were born with two people living in your brain.

If you're this mysterious to your childhood lover, how does anyone in the world even think that they could know you, both versions of you.

Dont get me wrong, he loved it, A mystery he never could solve, not even with your help.

" Teach me your ways master" "I remember you wanting me to call you that last night..oh no wait it was si-" "shut upp" "fine ill tell you timmy boy, I just believe those rich stick up their ass puppets don't deserve to see all ..this.." "what about school kids, friends , teemates-" "I don't need anyone to get me as long as you do"

He will never get it, even if someone engraved it into his skin he wont understand everything about you , you'll always be the case he couldn't solve.

AND WE ARE BACK BICHES , send in requests and stuff, inbox open again blah blah I'm feeling much better now but I might push angst stuff more

[muppetears-stuff]

I love Warren but he is high key lost potential and it makes me so sad. His character doesn't have the best writing and has some pretty bad dialogue lines for no reason. Also we don't lnow anything about Warren besides the fact he loves science, movies, and has a crush on Max. Most major characters in the game have a backstory of some kind....except Warren. For god sakes, we get to talk to poor Taylor and learn about her sick mom, but there's net zero info on Warren His character is already very bare bones effort, the fact the devs caved in to procefielders and fucked him up even more to make them happier makes me livid. I stand on my belief that Carlos Luna was sabotaged. I also think there are other LIS1 characters who are lost potential like Brooke, Courtney, Stella, Dana and etc but that's a story for another day. 💀

Me when devs ruin a completely good character with so much potential to appeal to the bigger part of the fan base

NO, BUT FR, I was so mad about this yesterday that I ranted to my older bro about it, and I'll do it again‼️

Long rant, you don't have to read if you don't want to ^^

I just wish we got so much more and to see more of who he was because he is so sweet, and I would've loved to see that more. It infuriates me to no end, knowing that the devs doubled down and appealed to the larger part of the fanbase, giving him fewer appearances, stating that he is a "stalker" in canon. I haven't read the comics but I I'm pretty sure they butchered his character there too.

I get that this game was important to many people, ESPECIALLY in 2014, because of the main female character getting the choice to romance her also female friend, that was super important and still is!!! But it's also not good to completely wipe another character, also stated as Max's best friend and another romance option and just. Giving us the option to hug or kiss him?? I'm not a big grahamfield-er either, but they had a lot of potential if they didn't completely ruin Warren's character because people didn't like him. There's still people who do??

Carlos Luna was definitely sabotaged, I reblogged a post talking about it. Here :3

I would've loved more depth to his character, even though it's really nice to read between the lines and make up some of my own things, I'm super afraid of going off of canon but like. There's barely any canon character to go off of so I can make up my own shit as I please- /pos

But I would've loved some dialogue of him worrying over having to study, and he probably shouldn't be out and about, gives us the feel that he pressures himself too much even if he's already doing his best and is one of the highest achieving students at Blackwell. Would've loved to see him being a bit mischievous at times after being exposed to Chloe, I firmly believe he'd be easily influenced and change his personality for the people he hangs out with without knowing. Which adds more depth!!

But ahhhhhh, I'm sorry for all the rants, guys😔😭 I don't want this to be all of what my blog is but everyone has a little hate/dislike in their heart and for me,,,,is assassinations of good characters. Whether literally or within writing. In Warren's case, it's both. I love sharing my art with all of you, but I still love it when you guys interact and send stuff in my inbox. It makes my day😭💖 This is not me telling you to stop because I kind of like ranting/raving about my favorite characters<3 so thank you ^^💖

Byeeee ^^

[atalossofwords]

YOU TASTE THE SILVER - IvanTill WIP (PART 1)

Hi y'all. The brainrot took me with no warning, and I've written 5k for these two just the last two days. I've no idea how much I'll write, but I'm going to squeeze the serotonin for as long as I can lmao

Anyhow, this is a streamer/actor AU that somehow evolved into a sugar daddy AU. Till is a streamer, and Ivan is a famous actor who found him when he was a small streamer and fell in love; he's been sending donations for a good while now, but they've never communicated outside of it.

Until Till opens his PO box and Ivan's need to spoil Till is too much, at least. Then all bets are off, and Till finally starts thinking more about the stranger who keeps sending him gifts. I have a basic outline for it all, but I'm going with vibes first, since I mostly just want to write them and torture Ivan.

I'm going to be posts little snippets of what I've writer so far over the next few days, so please don't be afraid to come to my inbox to ask about them!

This was inspired by this fic! Check it out!

Till wasn't the most famous streamer there was. Not anything near that, actually, though he thinks he does well enough.

He has an established fanbase, almost 500k of them, he's sold some merchandise and collabed with some pretty nice people. He likes streaming, varying between his songwriting and recording processes and any new video game that catches his fancy.

When he started, he didn't think he'd do this for a living. He probably wouldn't be able to afford it, being a struggling musician as he was, for once.

He couldn't blame his comfortable living situation solely on one person, no, since that would be incredibly inconsiderate of the rest of his fans, but this one Navi person definitely funded Till's move from his old apartment mostly by themselves.

Case in point.

NAVI (TILL'S ATM) DONATED $100: Hyung, how's the new house?

Till reads the donation out loud, ignoring his chat going a little crazy over Navi's donation. By now, Till is used to Navi only ever sending messages through donations. He'd be so flustered, in the beginning, and worried enough he almost disabled them. Luckily Hyuna talked him out of it.

"It's going well. As everyone can see, my studio isn't done yet," he says, gesturing behind himself into the empty expanse of freshly painted wall. At least he'd painted it black already. "but the rest is going okay. I'm really sorry for the week I had to take off, everyone."

He quickly scams the chat, his heart feeling warm as all the people watching rush to reassure him that it's not a problem, he should take care of himself, and how glad they are he managed to move from his shitty rented apartment.

"Actually, I have some news for you all." He scratches his neck, a nervous habit, and looks to the side. Hyuna convinced him to do this, so he knows it's something streamers do, but he can't help being anxious about it. "Since I moved, and this place needs some decorations, I was thinking of opening a PO box and doing an... what's it called? Unboxing?"

The chat is going crazy, he can barely keep up, oh god. He feels his cheeks heat.

"An unboxing live and then decorate my stream setup with some stuff I get. Would you guys like that?"

His chat is a mess of "yeses" and incoherent screams, and Till can't help but smile a little. He's got to say, he's looking forward to this.

The following weeks are a bit of a mess. He streams less than normal, still setting up his new apartment; he goes with Hyuna to buy electronics she swears will make his streaming better.

Dewey, his brother, goes with him to buy a new shelving unit and help him set up all his new furniture. Isaac is strangely fixated on saying Till needs rugs and other things, otherwise his apartment is "just a place, not a home, bro", apparently.

He checks in with his PO box frequently, each day more excited by all the packages he got. After two weeks he announces on twitter he'll be closing the PO box in a week since he wants to be able to open all the gifts on stream and he's already got a good amount of them.

The day after his announcement, he goes to pick up any new packages to store in his living room since he doesn't want to burden the office workers and finds a package that makes his stomach twist in itself.

It's a large box, clearly packed by hand instead of the usual post-service stamps. And it has a large sticker reading "FROM: NAVI" on it.

Till doubts anyone would use the name to get his attention, since he does treat all his viewers equally, so this really is from Navi. He wonders what is in it, since Navi clearly has money to spare and intends to spend it on Till.

"It's probably a maid dress." Hyua says, helping him lug it all to his apartment.

"It's not!" He splutters, mortified. Hyuna raises an incredulous eyebrow. "It's probably snacks, or something like that. Navi's said they travel a lot." That, somehow, just makes the eyebrow twitch higher.

"You remember what your viewers say?" She asks, hip-checking his door open. He follows, frowning a little. He always remembers what his viewers say.

Navi, obviously, since they only talk in donations, but also a few other regulars. Kirby has an older sister they're sharing the computer with; Siren started learning the guitar because of Till, and is doing well for himself; Jaewoon – with the username Till's Merch Overlord – draws and is currently suffering through art university, BonBon who has a one-year-old and listens to Till while doing his household chores.

"Yeah? I mean, there's only so many people who regularly chat. And out of those, a good part are my mods." He says, shrugging. He knows Hyuna pays someone to mod for her, but Till didn't think he'd need a mod, since he never expected to get so many views. He kept going without mods for so long that the most active members of the community ended up auto-modding the rest, at which point Till just reached out and asked if they wanted to mod, and now he pays them for it because he felt bad otherwise.

(Of course, Navi isn't a mod. They'd fit Till's criteria, but they never chatted normally, so it was kind of hard to ask.)

"Aaah, you're just too wholesome, heartbreaker." Hyuna says, sighing, the old nickname that still makes Till confused coming out with a teasing lilt. She waves him off before he can say anything, though, plopping the box on the couch and grinning at Dewey. "Hey, this one you'll definitely want to check!"

Till rolls his eyes as his brother 'oohs' and 'aahs' over the package, Isaac peering over with a pocket knife ready to pry it open. When Till mentioned opening a PO box, he insisted on checking the gifts beforehand, just to make sure they were all stream-appropriate and, most importantly, not dangerous for Till.

He was grateful his brother cared, but he was less amused by the teasing and hint-dropping they'd been doing over the content of the packages. He leaves them to it, moving to the kitchen to get some much-needed coffee.

Looks like Isaac bought bungeo-ppang, so Till fills a mug and picks one, nibbling at it and looking into his fridge. He should go buy more food, but there's a seven-eleven right across his street, so he almost never bothers stocking up. He does need to get more tea, though, since he dislikes drinking water, and for reasons unknown, his chat enjoys it when he drinks on-stream.

He finishes updating his list and walks back to the living room, where Dewey has already closed the package back up, but is holding a small parcel in his hand, frowning. Hyuna looks over as he approaches, a complicated expression on her face.

"The rest of the package is fine to open on-stream, but I think this one might be best off-stream." She says, and the lack of any teasing or barb makes him worried. She must've read that in his expression, because she grins. "Do you happen to know why this Navi person likes you so much? I wouldn't mind getting some of these myself."

Till can't help but scowl, snatching the parcel from Dewey's hands. He doesn't know Navi, not really, but they're still one of his first viewers, and they do kind of give Till a lot of money.

"Keep your hands away from my viewers, hag." He has to move fast to escape her grab, which soon develops into a little keep-away with the parcel, soon ending up with Dewey on the ground howling with laughter as Isaac tries to haul Hyuna off him, curled on himself on the ground to keep the parcel to himself.

"Ugh, you brat! Just open it!!" She exclaims, sitting down on Dewey's lap, making the older man yelp. Till huffs, but sits up to analyse the gift.

It seems to be an envelope, like many of the letters he got, but there was something inside of it, making it weirdly bulky. Till folds it open, tipping the envelope so whatever it is can fall on his open hand, and stares.

There is a pair of... earrings, on his hand.

Diamond earrings, to be precise.

That the fuck.

Till stares at it, then peers inside the envelope. Nothing weird falls out, like a damned credit card or pure gold, but a little recipe with the return address of a high-class jewellery store makes itself known. The rest of the envelope contains a certification for the damned diamonds.

Till curls up back again, head in his hands, groaning. His face is so hot you could cook an egg in it.

Navi got him diamond piercings because Till complained once, months ago, that he wanted to switch out his piercings but didn't have the money for it.

"C'mon Till! You didn't tell me you had a sugar daddy!" Hyuna jeers, and from the hiss and yelp, Dewey just dropped her. The sound of them bickering – Hyuna insisting this Navi person has to be after Till's virtue, and Dewey being insulted by the thought of someone going after his little brother like that, plus Isaac googling the store to throw fuel on the fire – is enough to distract Till form his own freakout.

He sits back up, his face still red, to study the piercings better. There are six items in total. One is a simple diamond stud, a tiny and delicate stone, probably for his second hole. A pair of bigger stones, with four elongated asymmetrical spikes, making it look like a shining star, probably for his first hole. One's a series of round stones inlaid together in a belt, forming a hoop, for his helix piercing. The final ones are two silver loops, delicate and silver, for his double auricle piercing.

He thinks if he puts any of those on, he's going to spontaneously combust.

(Later that night, after Hyuna and Isaac went home and Dewey crashed on his couch, Till locks his bedroom door and tries them on. The pair of star-shaped earrings go on both ears, the tiny stud on his left, alongside the helix, which he takes a while to get on since it is so finicky, he pierced it himself with a safety pin in high school. The hoops go on his right, looking a little lonely with just the earring, remembering Till that he really wishes he had money to get a constellation on that ear.

He's wearing a simple white shirt, ready for bed, that slips off his shoulder to show off the simple moon covered by clouds on his clavicle, clashing with the TILL tattoo he has over his neck. He turns this way and that, watching the diamonds shine, and feels almost bad for using them.

Why did Navi send this to him? What did Till do, to deserve something as delicate as this? He's not the kindest of people, he's kind of an asshole actually, all shouting and side eyes. He's not the kind of guy that can properly appreciate such nice jewellery, not the kind of person that should be appreciated like this.

Still. The diamond shines against his skin, the silver compliments his white hair. He takes most of them off, only keeping the simple snake bites. He doesn't want to somehow dirty up the diamonds.)

part two

[maochira]

HIIII im back!!

Sooooo... im a person who struggles with crying like- i can't whether i wanted to or not.

SOOO when im stressed i can't even cry to feel better ( cuz crying can release tension and stuff ) and generally im (kinda?) depressed in a sense where i feel numb, lonely and like theres a void in my chest.

( above is for example and kind of a vent😅 )

Basically, the request is coaches as dad listening to your feelings or thoughts abt feeling empty and (MAYBE??) wanting reader to see a psychiatrist/therapist?

Hi! I think I know very much what you feel like regarding the emptiness :'] (except that I cry a lot and very easily and my emptiness often comes with a pressure in my chest.) But please remember I usually don't like people venting in my inbox. I'm okay with this one tho because it connects to a comfort request so I see it more as an explanation than a vent <3 (but I don't want to encourage others to vent to me more in the future.)

Characters: Noa, Chris

Tags: gn!coach's child!reader, reader is a teenager, comfort

Noel Noa

-even though you haven't told him until now, he has noticed something's been off about you for a while

-he didn't think it was something serious because you inherited a big part of his personality regarding being rather cold

-so when you tell him about it, he's a little shocked to find out how bad you've been feeling lately and he feels guilty for not noticing it earlier

-he sits there for hours to let you talk about everything that's on your mind, but he realizes he can't help you enough

-so he decides to try to find a therapist for you. He knows waiting lists can be long, so on the next day he calls and writes emails to every therapist in the area and lets you be put on the waiting list

-and while you're waiting, Noa makes sure you know you can always talk to him. He also tries to be less cold so you can feel more comfortable about sharing your problems

Chris Prince

-he quickly noticed when you started to feel worse, but he decided to wait a bit just in case it gets better on its own

-he trusts you to talk to him as soon as you feel too bad, so to not pressure you, he doesn't ask you about it

-but he realizes you're only getting worse and still not telling him about anything, so he thinks you might be too afraid to open up

-Chris decides he has to be the one who approaches you about this, so he calmly asks you to be honest about how you've been feeling lately and he wants you to let him know as much as possible so he can help

-but the more you tell him about how you feel, the more he realizes you need professional help. So he asks if you want that and obviously you day yes

-Chris helps you to find a good therapist who is helpful to you. He always reassures you if you don't fully click with a therapist, you need to tell him so he can look for a new one

Taglist (sign-up link): @kaineedstherapy12 @zyuuuu @luvcalico @truegoist @vanitasbrainrot @toruden @mafuyudonutt @weichspuelertrinker @acacIa @chaosinanutshell @kermitslefteyeball11 @futuristicxie @bluelock4life @https-archangel @depressed-bitchy-demon @kaiserkisser @userwithlotsoftime @yellowelectroslime @0rah-s @deerangle3

[bewitched-bullet]

You won't reply to me but I have to say something as well. They deleted their posts because followers (I'm one of them) explicitly asked them to delete them. You can check his blog to see.

I honestly feel you are creating so much hatred out of nothing. I am even afraid to show you my identity, knowing you will come after me if I do. Only because I have a different perspective on it all.

Didn't this whole discussion start with the supposed toxicity of the Sherlock mod? Who was trying to prevent an RPer from leaving? That's precisely what he did to John, according to John's posts on his blog (you have to read between the lines), perhaps to Mycroft even (dunno for sure). But who knows for sure they did? Isn't it logically that you beg someone not to leave because you want to continue what you're doing?

I saw the last post on the John blog and was quite moved. He always sounds like a very reasonable guy, unlike Sherlock, unlike you guys on here. Sorry.

So, we ask you to stop this crusade. I will also ask my friends to send you a message just in case. Stop it. You are hurting people who don't deserve it.

*le sigh*

I'm afraid you haven't been actually paying attention if you think I can see his blog. After our conversation in a comment section, the John mod blocked me. Which I posted about.

If you have read all my posts, etc you would see that I've answered every single ask except two. Even the spicy ones sent by Harriet mod as themselves and as anon and the 3 by the Mycroft/John mod as anonymous. Even, when John sent basically the same message 3 times (my inbox, ask, and tagging me (as John) ((which can be considered harassment)), I never "came after" them. Not like they have for most of the other mods, including ones OUTSIDE of their rp group.

Isn't. That. Interesting.

So, no, I'm not going to "come after" you for being polite and expressing yourself.

Now on to the good stuff.

So the John mod will flip-flop on what they strongly believe, on a whim, for a stranger.

Take note on that.

Looks like you are referencing the post Dump made? Allow me to remind you (which isn't my responsibility btw) what you are talking about if you are. Dump said that (paraphrasing):

"...consult-sherlock begged me to stay. They all contributed to my decision to block JOHN, SHERLOCK, AND MORIARTY."

If you want the exact verbiage, go look for it. It's in the tag "a scandal in tumblr".

We don't know the nature of the begging. And we can't ask the source because they specifically said to LEAVE THEM ALONE. Begging, is not inherently wrong? Not sure what you're insinuating here. Maybe you are assuming how they were begging was wrong? If you have any insider information on this I would very much be interested.

If you call avoidance, deflection, refusing to break character on a concerning issue (referring to when this was just about the fishy miscommunication) as "Reading between the lines", that's a personal problem for you. All that I mentioned in this paragraph are all red flags. Very red. On fire, red. And no one can help you see these till you're ready. That's why so many people stay with OBVIOUSLY (and sometimes not so publicly obvious) awful partners that mistreat them, why we excuse our (our as in as whole, not saying you and me specifically) abusive parents behavior, or side with an abusive government(s) that sanctions genocide.

As for being reasonable...I am reasonable. Till I'm not. I will never be reasonable to bullying/abuse. Especially when it involves little kids and old people. I will go fucking feral. And with this situation, after the pretzels John clearly twisted himself into, the PUBLIC harassment of Greg, yeah, for sure, I'm more in my feels in this. That being said, I haven't lost all rational thought. Cuz these are grown adults that are involved and feral me isn't needed.

I can easily adjust my stance on a situation don't have all information on. Because I'm intelligent like that.

Remember the Amber Heard case?

Thankfully, I could wait till a public court case to see all the evidence presented in an organized manner to make my judgements.

(cuz it's fucking hilarious)

However, so many people were upset at being "wrong". Ooooor they doubled down in their previous beliefs DESPITE the clear evidence. Its ok to change your views as new information and actual facts come out.

This is called critical thinking. (Side note: they were both abusive to each other but it's clear who "started" it. Reactive abuse it still abuse though, y'all. And if you see this in yourself, recognize it, get help, and you can improve. I believe that all people can become better versions of themselves...but that's because I can't squash the optimism that lives deep down inside me)

I'll keep this simple: there's no crusade. Just presentation of evidence, my knowledge, conclusions, and feels.

I'm rather allergic to holy wars that justify murder and genocide.

Oh? You're going to ask your friends to message me to stop? You mean you're gonna recruit people to try and bully me into submission? Gonna harass me if I don't do what you want? Gonna jumpstart your own foray into abuse?

Be careful, it's a slippery slope. And once you start sliding down it, it's incredibly hard to claw your way back up.

Side note: I'm not going to be anyone's brain, legs, fingers. All of you can think for yourselves, can find the info yourselves, and type things in yourselves. The information is there. Stop being lazy if you actually want to know

[quietimtryingtostudy]

So worried I won't crack JEE , giving first attempt in JAN 24

Dear anon,

Let me tell you something- right now, you've got time. It may seem that a whole year has gone, and you've only got one year left, but listen- you can still very much do this. To give my own example, if I had practised even a bit more, I'd have been getting decent marks in my mocks. You reap what you sow and all.

Right now, try to let your worries go, alright? There's going to be plenty of worrying later on, like, oh I don't know, 7 days before your JEE Mains second and last attempt (yes I have mine in april, after a week. Haha).

You've got this year, and you can still do wonders in it. Push yourself only as far as you can be pushed, remember to not stay in your comfort zone. Pull up your socks. I'm being very honest that even if you feel like you're the dumbest person in the whole entire world, you can still bring a huge change in your performance simply by practising hard.

The thing about JEE Mains is that it's not an impossible paper. It's just frightening to think of, which is why it is important to give mocks before your actual mains, to get rid of the fear (Deep Waters haha)

Your worries are natural. I used to freak out more about my JEE in 11th and 12th than I'm doing right now when I'm so close to my second attempt.

Seriously anon, just practise hard and work on your weak/not-so-strong areas right now, while you still can, okay? Give it your best try to manage both CBSE and JEE preparation side by side, as both are important.

Practise is key

Clear your concepts and keep up with the syllabus in your classes as much as you can

It's okay to socialise less if you feel it will help you to improve your performance, but don't go about isolating yourself. Stay in connect with your loved ones (friends and/or family), and don't be afraid to pause communication for a while when you believe you need to focus a lot.

PYQ's are an efficient way to know the type of questions asked in any and all exams.

Practise is key!

Also. A little PSA. Not cracking JEE Mains is not the end of your world. IIT's and NIT's, though reputed and prestigious and all that, are not the end-all-be-all for engineering colleges. Yes, the fee is lighter on the soul than private colleges, and there's also the self affirmation. But. The self affirmations will still be there if you just work your hardest and give it your best go.

(A little tip- absolutely do give the first JEE attempt as it will have lesser number of candidates than the second attempt so a higher percentile will be easier to achieve)

This has gotten so long lol.

MAIN POINTS DEAR ANON:

work hard

practise a LOT

clear your concepts and try to keep up with your classes as much as you can

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF (this gets you halfway to completing the JEE experience)

keep some breathing exercises handy just in case things get stressful

have some counselors/mentors/teachers/trusted adults that you can talk to about your academics, your schedule, your performance, your mental health

PRACTISE 💪💪 You can do this!

Not cracking JEE won't be the end of your world or life. There's many many opportunities and paths still that you can take (you can even text me for some info about stuff if you want)

Give yourself this one year to do your best, to give your hardest effort- at the end you'll have that feeling of content that you did what you could, and you did good

My dm's and inbox is always open too, for anyone wanting to talk about this stuff (though I'll most probably be properly active after my upcoming JEE mains)

Hope this helped, anon!

[tmnt-obsessed-ace]

Okay, an Ask about ur fic(s), because u want that, and I want to, so why?

So, for ur "Lost But Never Found" fic (only answer if you can and/or if it isn't spoilers ofc), I see that when u made that post tallying up Indigo's kill count (man, I both love Indigo's high kill count, but also feel bad, because like you said, Past Leo would be horrified by how many he has killed. And when he does get his memory back, while I still he will more likely to kill even then, he is probably going to feel quite guilty and stuff about what he has done), you mentioned that only people he hasn't killed are 4 I think when he first started off in the Battle Nexus and Leo and Splinter (damn Leo, just killing every one of his opponents. I could imagine people would be really afraid to fight him due to that and just his look and just him in general), and I am wondering is there any particular reason why he didn't kill those 4 people in the beginning of his time at the Battle Nexus?

I am guessing he was still trying not to kill at that point? But if that is the case, I do wonder what caused the switch/flip to him being utterly merciless in his fights (man, Rise Leo probably got quite lucky to have met 2012 Leo before his fight w/ him. 2012 Leo got lucky to meet Rise Leo b4 his fight too though)??

P.S.: I also just wanted to ask if you got my two Asks talking about ur fics basically (you don't have to answer them or anything if you don't want to. Plus, it was just mainly me talking about ur fics is all after all)? Just asking, because I am curious if u got them or if tumblr made it/them disappear.

Double P.S.: Good luck with the driving/driving lessons!

First of all yes I got those two asks they sit in my inbox so I can constantly absorb serotonin from them :)

And second theres actually 5 people (well yokai) that Indigo didn't kill. 7 if you were including Rise Leo and Rise Splinter.

Three of those five were his first three opponents in the nexus, before the memory wipe. He was just trying to knock them out with minimal damage which wasn't very exciting for the crowd. In fact his hesitance to kill is what drove Big Mama to have his memories wiped.

One of the five he didn't kill because he straight up LOST the match. He was almost strangled to death in that match. This was early in his post memory wipe Battle Nexus career.

Now the last of the five he originally spared is actually the very last opponent he fought before the memory wipe. The last person to see Indigo before he lost everything.

Who is that person? Well thats a massive spoiler so I can't say. What I will say is that when those two meet again, several months post battle nexus when Indigo is starting to regain his memories (not whole memories, just tiny bits and pieces...mostly the trauma though) It will make Indigo do something VERY stupid.

After all he is still Leonardo, and when he gets so extremely pissed off he doesnt think about the consequences, the massive risks he is taking.

And just like when he tried taking on the Triceraton Armada alone in a tiny scout ship in season four, it will have near FATAL consequences.

[fluffy-critter]

I know we don't talk or anything, but I just wanted to say...I've known you for damn near a decade now, and I always feel graced by your presence as a mutual. You started out impressing me, and you keep doing it--just, like...your entire *you*. You're an incredibly creative, interesting, smart person, and you make neat things. So...thanks for being my friend, if that's okay to say! And, uh, if we're friends. Social media is an endless paradox of awkwardness.

You're great, Fluffs, please always know that. And thanks again for the Miri rec!

I'm never sure what to do with asks like these because I have to make a decision:

Do I answer privately and then lose it from the inbox forever?

Do I answer publicly and feel weird about displaying something that feels like it was meant to be sent in private?

Do I just hold onto it forever, unacknowledged, so I always have something very nice to see whenever I look at my inbox?

In any case I always am happy to be reminded that there are people who are positive about things and aren't afraid to say it, and it's also a great reminder that I should be more willing to tell other people how much I appreciate them.

In particular I like how much you're always sharing positive stuff and putting it on my timeline, and bringing attention to wholesome art and important environmental things.

So anyway I went with option 2 this time (after much deliberation). Thank you.

[natasha-in-space]

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[salt-is-a-terrible-currency]

I’ve been staring at the screen since I got home from work, wondering what the hell happened during the day. It seems as if anon hate has started nestling its way inside the Heathen army. Now I’m going to get this out and then I’m going to lie down in bed and actually do some of the reading I’ve been meaning to do for more than a week now. For real this time. Below the cut there’s a summary of what I experienced at the hands of bullies, school staff and other adults between the ages 6-16. As always, you’re welcome to inbox me if you want to talk about this kind of stuff.

10 years of my life where people threw things at me, spat at me, told me i should kill myself, threatened me with various things if I didn’t do their homework. It would be nice to say that everything’s good now and that I have thick skin. Don’t get me wrong; most days are good days but for me it would be a lie to say that I’m not still deeply scarred. Between ages 13-16, I didn’t really sleep that much. Had a rather complicated relationship with food. At the same time, I was part of a group called Kamratstödjare. Basically, we were a about a dozen or so students that were elected to help with preventing bullying. It turned out a lot of those elected were bullies themselves. I really didn’t like going to the weekly meetings and I wanted to quit. At the same time I could tell that I was making a difference. Especially for two girls from one of the other classes. I followed them to meetings with the staff, sat with them in the caféteria, lost my temper at anyone that said something mean about them. It seemed like I was much better at standing up for others than for myself.

When I was 14, our biology teacher told my class that the school board had sent a few people over to conduct some interviews and such to see how the school handled any potential cases of bullying. Guess how I excited I was? I had a lot of names and “incidents” to bring up now that someone would actually listen. Then we find out how the interviews will be conducted. 2 kids from each class, randomly selected from the name lists, will all be simultaneously called into a classroom and then asked questions about whether they’ve seen anyone get bullied. Because nothing makes a bullied kid open up more than being questioned by a bunch of strangers in front of 30 other kids, right?

When I was 15, my only real friend and I got locked into a room that we’d been using to do our math assignments. We couldn’t do them in the classroom because our classmates were throwing things at us and the teacher did nothing to stop them. They barricaded the door with chairs and stood outside laughing. My friend and I were also in the same eligible health & PE class. I liked sports, I still do, and I know I’m pretty good at it. I was quick and people tended to underestimate me because I’m small. My friend was good too, better than me acutally. She had all of my quickness plus strength and made a great team captain. That didn’t matter though. We were not allowed to do stretching exercises with the others, we had to go off into some corner. Any pass to us when playing soccer, floorball etc was just a mistake. After 1,5 year of this I switched to arts and crafts. At first I felt guilty for leaving her behind with those people. Then she told me that they stopped bullying her as soon as I left. Conlusion: I drag people down with me.

When I had just turned 16, and graduation day came closer, my only real friend asked me if I’d be going to the party. What party? I asked. Turned out that our class had been planning a graduation party and literally everyone but me had been invited. I never went to a party until a few weeks before my 18th birthday and I must have asked the girl who invited if she was sure I was actually welcome about 10 times.

When I was 18 one of my teachers at my new and awesome school gave the class an assignment which, for a variety of reasons, meant that I had to go to a meeting with my biology teacher from when I was 14. This biology teacher was also sort of the head teacher / mentor whatever for my class between ages 13-16. I wasn’t thrilled to be alone in a room with her but I had good grades and I wanted to keep it that way. So I did the assigment. Afterwards, she wanted to have a little catch up chat with me. And she told me what a good class we were. How kind we were to each other, how no one was left out, how she had talked to a teacher from another school and bragged to him about how nice and well-behaved my class had been. And I’m sitting there trying not to cry as I’m thrown right back into what was undoubtedly the worst 3 years of my life.

When I was 19, everyone in my class was required to give an oral presentation as part of our final examination. The topic: anything we want. Anything. I chose bullying, thinking about what a relief it will be to finally talk about it openly. And the teacher tells me that it’s too personal. I didn’t have to change topic but I did have to reframe it so that it was about statistics and about how a specific organization conducts their preventive work.

When I was 20, I got promoted to a sort of “assistant manager” at my seasonal work which meant that I had a certain amount of power over a handful of the people that bullied me. Don’t worry, I didn’t abuse it or anything like that. But the combination of that and having other people tell me that they liked working with me, that I was good at my job, felt pretty damn good. Though not as good as watching the bullies get reamed out by the manager because they sucked at their jobs. 

Anyway, my point with all of this is that I am beyond tired of all this bullshit, all this hate. I won’t accept this sort of behaviour and neither should anyone else. I love this fandom so frikkin much and I want it to stay a safe, warm and welcoming place.

Oh, and to anyone who might read this and go “Well why are you posting this if it’s difficult to talk about? Just keep it to yourself!”...Here’s the thing; I’ve had more people than I can count tell me that I should just move on and not think about it. But it’s been 7 years and I am still not “over it”.Just pretending that it never happened is not a very good copig strategy for me. And even if I was over it, there’s countless of people who are experiencing bullying and sweeping it under the rug is not an ok thing to do.

Rant over. Time for bed. Be nice to each other.

[delusion-of-negation]

Alright well as a Christian I'm supposed to forgive you but it's NOT gonna be easy. You, that pervert guy and that pedo tranny Dasha are EVERYTHING wrong with the world right now. It's YOUR FAULT our society has no morals. Congradufuckinglations you've made a girl with anxiety depression and BPD cry :)

forgive me for what, exactly? what did I specifically, only me, do?

because I don't remember doing anything bad to or with you, I wasn't involved in any group chats, I didn't spend time with you nor attack you. honestly, as far as I recall, I've said more about you these last few days, and all of that has been talking about finding out who you are, what happened, and what can be done to help end this mental break you're having - a mental break you seem to think justifies bombarding people with slurs and insults.

if you're gonna start forgiving me for shit I didn't do, then I'd rather you start by forgiving me for killing the dinosaurs, demoting pluto, and creating the coronavirus with stolen lab equipment.

dasha isn't a pedo, you dumb fuck, and falsely accusing people of being attracted to kids isn't gonna cure you of the alleged trauma of being a dumb kid who thought you'd make buddies in the anti-feminist community and then it turned out they were just as fucked as any community, and you got hate and made enemies.

we've all been through that shit, but the rest of us get therapy and move on with our lives - if I'm not blowing up the inboxes of people who tortured, sexually assaulted, starved, and beat me as a toddler, a child, a teen, I think you can handle not harassing people who knew someone who knew someone who said some mean shit in your tumblr inbox. when you're afraid of someone who actually hurt you, you don't make it your life's mission to antagonise people tangentially related to them to put yourself back on the radar of the people who actually dislike you - or, in case I need to spell it out, I don't buy your claims about your reasoning one bit.

I think you're being a pathetic attention whore who knows none of the people you're messaging - ace, dasha, etc, and now me - could or would do a single thing to hurt you, you know we're not what you claim, so you feel safe slinging whatever insults your tiny brain can conjure up, so that you can scream about how sad you are and get validation and comfort and requests for forgiveness from people nice enough to care about your temper tantrum. or more backlash and argumentation to fuel your persecution complex.

and you're too pathetic to even think of anything imaginative so you resort to ace's username, dasha's trans status, false allegations, and now you're trying to use the fact that I advocate for mentally ill people as a way to get at me - it's hollow and low effort.

I've tried to be nice the last few days, tried to say it sucks that stuff happened, that I hope you get well, etc, and all you've done is get worse and worse to people in their anons, I'm tired of trying.

as a "christian" (which you barely even are, you're just a wanna-be evangelical fundie fuck repeating what the big names in that area disingenuously vomit out), you're supposed to believe that forgiveness comes from god, that mortals are not called to judge on his behalf - and it's a damn good job because you'd be throwing people in hell for passing some guy on the street who's cousin once sold a spliff to someone he didn't know was seventeen.

while we're on the topic, I was raised around dumbass fucked up catholics (if you couldn't tell from my aforementioned childhood experiences), and you've got every single red flag for "fuckface who's only religious to justify being a fuckface" disease.

buddy, I'm a zombie, I know brain-dead when I see it, and you're on a whole new level of it. so cry more. your mental health issues make me feel sorry for you no more than mine made you not want to send this anon. or, in case I need to spell it out again, I don't give a fuck, you ain't special, I've got a list more than ten times as long as that and I'm not here using it to justify calling people slurs.

sucks that you're sick, but you're not gonna get sympathy points when you act like a slimy little wretch for days on end. I get it, being ill makes you mean sometimes, I've been there. still not my job to be your daddy and tell you to go eat some pasta and chill.

and I wish society had no morals, I wish I was giving it none, I wish I was half the amoral influence that you give me credit for.

I'm sick of puritanical, pseudo-religious, over-moralising of every insignificant aspect of our lives - we don't get a moment's peace from being asked to weigh in on every allegation in the news, every company's practices, whether it's okay to listen to some guy's songs, if your thoughts can make you a terrible person, the politics of other countries, the backlash to the backlash to the backlash to the backlash to some celebrity's baby name, whether some rando is "really trans", and a youtuber's mental health issues.

at this point I would gladly trade it in to be a four year-old chimney sweep in victorian england engaged to my cousin, fuck it. at least my aunt-mother-in-law in that world wouldn't believe in chemtrails and couldn't even spell problematic. it'd be total bliss.

in summary, I don't want forgiveness for shit I didn't do, especially from you. I want you to grow up, you bitchy little cunt.

[kedreeva]

I saw the notification dot appear on my inbox and I thought oh no a message. and then I thought, but wait, it might be Delightful!

You should do some of your work!! I'm proud you did 3 more pages. I am also struggling to write my nanowrimo stuff, but I will keep going today on faith that you will join me and do some work.

There's not water in the eggos?? They're bread! As for the chicken, well. Listen. it's breaded, and frozen. I microwave it for like 2 minutes to warm it up, and then I stick it into the toaster for a couple minutes, so that the outside is crispy!! That way I can have chicken for my salad or whatever without having to turn on the whole oven. Also we got rid of the toaster oven because I set it on fire a few times. On the bright side, I know how to use a fire extinguisher now.

It's just a little one with a few friends! hmu on discord if you wanna come join in (Kedreeva#4912)

They're baby!!! We should get baby steve and jonathan.

PLEASE IMAGINE. Smash some ideas together. Steve meets Jonathan when they're Little, maybe 8 years old or so, because they'd both been feeding the same stray kitten. She's a few months old, but Lonnie won't let her in the house and neither will Steve's parents, so they've been spending their allowance/neighborhood chores money on cat food and she's just been traveling through the woods between them eating at both homes.

One night Jonathan sneaks her into his room for the night because it's getting colder now, and Steve gets worried because she doesn't show up, so the next morning he puts on a backpack with a container of treats and a drink for himself and granola bar, and he sets off into the woods. He catches Jonathan playing with her out in the woods where his dad won't catch him, and confronts him about Stealing My Cat. They figure out what actually happened, and agree to coparent the cat, but they sort out who feeds what, and both of them always leave water out. When Lonnie leaves and Joyce gets a dog to alert them in case he comes back, the cat stops coming around to Jonathan's. Steve assumes full care of her from then on, and they stop talking. Jonathan's hurt; it's not his fault his mom got a stupid dog. Steve could have at least called him (Steve HAS his number, Jonathan gave it to him in case something happened with Princess). Steve's parents won't give him the phone.

So they fall out. They don't talk anymore. They grow up. Steve becomes a real dick in school, Jonathan becomes a real loner.

Monsters drop from the ceiling, and Jonathan takes his hand without thinking. Steve jumps on command. They wind up at the hospital, but things calm back down. They tentatively start to talk again, and Jonathan works up to ask whatever happened to Princess, and Steve is surprised, and tells him nothing, she still comes by nightly, and since his parents are out a lot, he lets her in the house. She sleeps between his legs under the covers.

Does he want to come see her?

Takes him home that evening, and they sit on the couch until the sun is nearly set, and Steve rockets up to no cue Jonathan can tell, except when he looks, there's Princess at the backdoor, waiting. Steve picks her up and she shoves her head under his chin, and he puts her down in Jonathan's lap. She gives his fingers a little sniff, and seems to remember him, rubbing her face all over his hands.

And it's a couple of years later, when Vecna's dead and Steve has volunteered his house for D&D night partly because Dustin begs and partly because he wants to see more of Eddie, and Jonathan stays after bringing Will and El and Dustin over, and Nancy stays after bringing Mike and Lucas, and the three of them sit outside on the deck and Princess curls herself around the legs of the chairs and curls up in Nancy's lap eventually.

And that's when Max and El come out, and El looks sick at the sight of the cat, and everyone thinks she's afraid of it, until she hesitantly explains that cats hate her and that she hurt one before. Jonathan assures her Princess won't hurt her, and makes space for her to come sit next to Nancy, and El lays a hand softly on Princess' side where it rises and falls in sleep. Princess mrrps without lifting her head and begins purring like a little motorboat with El's hand still on her, and El just starts crying.

And Jonathan hugs her and looks at the others like ??? and Max sits where Nancy had been when Nancy stands up with Princess, who wakes and doesn't seem to mind being cradled like a baby in Nancy's arms (no one would mind this, ever). And they manage to calm El down, and El asks if she can hold Princess, and Nancy slips her into El's arms and Princess butts her head against El's jaw and purrs and purrs and purrs and El cries a little bit more, but she's smiling.

ANYWAY.

but listen..... you should write it...... for me

But listen....... it would be sUCH A PRETTY PICTURE. if all u need are pencils I will SEND YOU pencils and u can draw me dyspraxic!Steve being taught to play by Eddie, who is patient and smiling sweetly at him.

also, sorry to break it to ya but you're in the club now. suckerrrrr

Oh Steve's hand on his hips is the Mom Stance he uses when the kids are being insufferable. GOd I can't WAIT for you to get to the part where Steve adopts all the kids and they adopt him back.

I'm sorry about Will. He does not catch a break until the plot starts ignoring him. Hoping that changes in season 5!!

I hope that you're able to get some sleep, I took the night off yesterday and slept for like 10 hours straight. turns out I didn't take my iron. SIGH.

I look forward to your S2 ranting :)

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Here's Why Sherri Shepherd Says Sex After 50 Is 'Amazing'

Like they say, with age comes wisdom and it can also come with confidence. 

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Aug. 24, 2022 03:00PM EST

Sherri Shepherd is proof that age ain’t nothing but a number. She has had a storied career in entertainment as an actress and comedian. Now at 55, she is readying her very own talk show in the fall after successfully guest hosting The Wendy Williams Show while Wendy was dealing with health issues. In an interview with Yahoo Life, Sherri talked about the positives of getting older.

“I'm at the point where I don't mind saying no,” she said about being over 55. “Older to me is not a negative. Older is a positive. When, when Captain Sully landed that plane in the Hudson River, he wasn't 30 — he was older. There's a lot of stuff that you get when you're older and I've learned to forgive more. I've learned to not let people bother me. So older is really a plus and don't let anybody tell you it's not.”

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Like they say, with age comes wisdom and it can also come with confidence. However, in the talk show host’s case, she has always had body confidence and felt sexy no matter what size she was.

“I always like my body. I like my body when it had rolls on it. I like my body when my stomach is tight,” she said. “You know when you're not at your best weight, when you're not at your best health. So I've never not loved my body, but I knew when I wasn't operating at optimal efficiency.”

The mother of two has documented her weight loss journey on social media. In June 2021, she revealed that she lost a total of 55 lbs since focusing on her health. 

“I got lingerie in a size XX, XL, and I felt sexy. I have lingerie in a size medium, and I feel sexy,” she said. “Sexy is not the way your body looks sexy is how you feel inside.”

Sherri then proceeded to talk about how her sex life has changed since being in her 50s. “Sex after 50 is amazing. You know why?” She asked. “Because you take your time. There's no Energizer bunnies going on after 50. After 50, you know what you want and you're not afraid to say it.”

The actress’ self-titled talk show is set to premiere on Sept. 12.

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[gisellelx]

I've got to object HEARTILY to Esme being Jewish. Domestic abuse is anathema in Jewish culture (with the exception of *maybe* some very very fundamentalist sects), and it's canonical that her parents knew Charles was physically hurting her. I don't care what time period we're talking about, Esme's parents would have taken her home and she would have recourse to a divorce. That headcanon is not awesome, it's extremely culturally tone-deaf.

Oh you have decided to come into my inbox to talk about someone else's headcanon. Well, strap in, anon, this is going to be a semi-long post because there are four separate things this ask makes me want to talk about. tl;dr--this is interesting and useful, so why not direct this comment in a thoughtful manner at the OP? First, let's talk about headcanons. Headcanons are what in the trade are called backstory. They're the stuff that you, as the author, know about your character which may or may not end up on the page, but which should influence what does end up on the page. When you're talking to the writer of a source, there is a "right" and a "wrong" headcanon because the author actually does know what they had in mind (or at least, they should; I happen to think that is often not the case for Stephenie Meyer). But when it comes to fans reading between the lines, making up their own headcanons to guide their own engagement with characters? There's no such right and wrong. There're some things that are better supported or less supported, either by canon itself or by history/circumstance, of course. We can agree or disagree on them, or argue about why one makes more sense than another, but when it comes to it, we aren't the originators of the canon so unless they're running contradictory to the canon, they're not "wrong" per se. Second. Esme as Jewish. This is a piece of Twi Renaissance fanon with which I happen also to HEARTILY disagree. While I happen not to be Jewish and don't know this particular piece of information you've offered, anon, there are two big reasons why I think her being Jewish is a nonstarter: one, the Jewish population in Ohio was very small in 1911 and mostly in Cincinnati, which was the largest city at the time, not Columbus. It was also very insular--a Jewish family was not particularly likely to horse-and-buggy it to the city to see a doctor. I agree, the way Esme's parents behaved is much more consistent with Protestant, Calvinist Christianity, which would make a ton of sense for the middle of Ohio at the turn of the 20th century. I've never fully fleshed this one out in my head, but I'd be leaning toward Methodist. The second reason I disagree with it is that it strikes me as very unlikely that Carlisle would be open to marrying a Jewish woman. This is a rant suited for another day, but please never mistake my curiosity for Carlisle's character as a blanket condoning of everything he is and stands for. He's quite racist, which we see in canon, he's pretty misogynistic, and he doesn't experience much contrition for the ways his actions harm others. The religion he was raised in would've taught him to be derisive of Jewish people, and the circles he moved in thereafter would not have offered very many opportunities for him to change his mind. So I am starting from a base of assuming that Carlisle is pretty anti-Semitic. I think he probably woke up on this front around the Holocaust. These things are actually why I find him so compelling--he's pretty deeply prejudiced about a lot of things and it means he has great blind spots I can exploit as a writer. Okay, onto thing three. So why would I reblog something and tag it with my "awesome headcanons" tag when I don't agree with every single word? Because it's interesting and fun and sharing fan content makes the world go 'round. And consistent tags make it easier to navigate old content. But shouldn't I be really clear that I don't agree with that one part just be sure that no one mistakes it for my idea? Well, imagine if every headcanon or meta someone shared was followed by a bunch of reblogs of people going, "Well, actually I don't like this part even though I agree with most of these..." this place would stop being fun real quick. I lived through a time in this fandom when fic authors told their readers to go fuck themselves in their author's notes, when people created whole blogs and livejournal communities just to anonymously make fun of anyone whose fic was remotely popular, where it was seen as totally acceptable to drag people's

personal lives out in the open and mock them for whatever personal thing they mentioned having done in service of you know, just being human and talking about their lives.

That sort of constant fighting makes you not want to engage with other people. Most of us just took our balls and went home. So I'm not going to do that to another fan because I enjoy being a fan with other fans. This is also the same reason I don't spend a lot of time going "I know you all love calling Esme Jewish but I disagree because this this and this other this"...like, that's just not fun for anybody, even if I can support my position well. I will quietly hold my own headcanon over here and I'm going to not jump on somebody else about theirs.

But what if the thing somebody said actually could be unintentionally harmful? Am I telling you to just shut up about that? Part four: your very odd decision to anon into my inbox about headcanons from someone else. What you've offered here is really useful information, because as you point out, it suggests something negative about Jewish people (an already marginalized group) that isn't true and therefore is harmful. So here's a much more useful way to address that. Rather than going anon into the asks of a person who reblogged it, which doesn't get you anywhere, you could choose to either thoughtfully engage the OP, or you could reblog it yourself and say, "You know, this particular headcanon is actually problematic. You may not know this, but domestic violence is actually very frowned on in Jewish culture and it's very unlikely her parents would not have taken her back in. That they didn't suggests she's not Jewish. To suggest that she is Jewish would ascribe this untrue awful behavior to Jewish people which, given the extent to which Jewish people were and are still persecuted across the globe, is a thing you don't want to do, even unintentionally in good fun. So I just want to make you aware." The latter is probably the better option, in part because then you'll ascribe your own blog to the comment, and people can know it was your well-supported point. You'll then allow yourself room to let the OP rebut directly about why they followed that particular headcanon in the first place and what they think of your critique of it. But since it's not actually my headcanon, and one I don't actually hold, I'm afraid you've come to the wrong place. Thanks for the soapbox, though.

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

Hi I just wrote an anon asking you about your opinion about Black Swan rehearsals being withheld based on your post about it from today (I think?)

I would like to kindly ask that you to not post it if that is ok. I respect you but after looking at some of your posts and the discussions on your blog it isn't something i would like to engage with, even anonymously. It was my second time encountering your blog and scrolling down and seeing some of past and more recent posts wrote put me off. This is nothing personal whatsoever. You are entitled to your opinion and you seem like a nice person. But the discussion of certain topics, primarily race to give an example, made me feel a bit alienated. I don't feel great here and I am sorry I didn't know that before I wrote my long anon. Please disregard it.

I have nothing against you. You deserve to speak on the internet and I hope you have all good experiences. However after reading certain things (and seeing some others who engage regularly on the blog), I would like to respectfully, if that is possible, rescind my anon. I am sorry for the inconvenience. We all come form diverse backgrounds and have different experiences and can have certain buttons pushed in terms of past racism and trauma. I hope you can understand this. (And no this is not about the billboard chart stuff at all I promise).

I do still hope you have a good start to your September.

Anon, I will not post your previous ask, because I can respect your choice. It is unfortunate though because you brought up some very good points about my latest post about MMA Black Swan and why additional information could not be revealed that deserved a discussion. But if you don't want it, so be it. But I am going to address some of the things you said here.

If this was your second time scrolling through my blog, it means you saw my other posts, just as you mentioned. Then why send an ask if my blog makes you uncomfortable? Is it such a hostile place that we wouldn't be able to have a conversation? I like to think that I proved that I'm not afraid to post anons or leave the comments on my posts from those who may have a different opinion than mine. I do respect the readers and those who stumble on this blog and I try to be as respectful as possible, even to those who do not have the courtesy to do the same. In the matter related to the race topic, that was something which also made me uncomfortable because I do not agree with people demanding me to reveal information about myself. I cherish my privacy and I let my posts on different subjects on BTS do the talking. I believe that is enough for a reader to understand how careful I am, how I do the research, while still maintaining the right to offer my own opinion, even if it's something that some people do not agree with.

I'm also aware what blog you are alluding to. I do not appreciate messages that try to subtly mention issues they have with other bloggers. If that is the case, I don't see why it has to end up in my inbox. Why don't you and others strike a conversation with that blogger, instead of doing it behind their back? Trust me, it's better to take that kind of action, see what they have to say, instead of choosing to do this. The person engaging with my posts always brought a valuable, respectful insight into whatever topic that was discussed on my blog and I will always appreciate the people willing to do so because we can learn from each other by having a mature discussion.

[lesbiancarat]

Oohh tis me, the anon that sent the long message about superstar pledis. I am back but this time on the topic of paid content lol

So for a long time I have been a bit surprised we don't see a specific account for svt, that does paid content. Sure you have say like17subs who do alot of hard work to give us subs for content thats mostly free and you may see a kind soul pop up to give us paid content every blue moon but its not like say bts (I know I shouldn't maybe mention bts but they are the best group to go off for examples) with bts, the fandom has a pretty solid network for people who do this. Mainly there is one big one, originally there was two but the first person who went by miintae, closed down. For one at the time they were the only ones responsible for posting paid content like yearbooks, concerts, vlive content, etc but also their difference was they also were an archive for older and even rarer bts content. So many fans like myself who were new to group, found her account super helpful! Welp that sadly had to end because bighit found out about her account thanks to many fans reporting her account and took her down, twice even. I think this and also the stress for constantly having to upload made her leave for good and took down all of her content so I read your reply about how its best to be an archive account. Not really bevause you will STILL get bad apples coming to you for this.

So what is the best solution? I really don't know. For bts I think because since at their close of their career, we have seen accounts pop up for paid stuff so it is sort of established per se that we will see that so you don't see that much fuss (I mean you do, I saw it when bts were on fancafe and fans were saying not to post stuff bc its not ok and we could get bts to stop posting. Never happened lol. We even see it now where fans make it a big deal) so for svt I don't think we saw that and thats why it might be trickier for someone to start this up. Especially now that pledis is with bighit and they have gotten VERY strict over stuff like this. To me, when fans complain about people sharing content makes me scream bc you do realize not everyone can afford such things? They cost money and sometimes these content isn't something that can be watched where they are from because it isn't available in their country or simply they don't want to spent the extra money for whatever their reasoning is. This doesn't make anyone less of a fan, its why fans who CAN support their favs with paying stuff, help balance out things. The company doesn't loose money and fans can enjoy stuff (granted sometimes some paid content is wild like the bh new years event? Why would anyone pay for that?)

Anywho i apologize for annoying you and the people that follow the blog for svt updates lol. I like discussing and yeah cx

ooh thats interesting. dhfjfh i don't mind u bringing up bts for things like this bc it's always interesting to hear experiences from other fandoms bc while kpop fandoms have a lot of similarities and crossovers where u can sometimes make generalizations, it's not always the case. and i always compare things Carats do to toppklass (toppdogg fandom) bc that's the main other experience i have too dhfjfj

but yeah it's doesn't surprise me that the account(s) posting a lot of paid content eventually got reported and taken down, i think all or most kpop fandoms are similar in that aspect bc there are so many capitalist bootlickers here OTL but it's interesting that there were armys that tried whereas like u said, there are only Carats who will upload paid content once in a blue moon

and yeah to be clear I wouldn't be surprised if even an account uploaded archived paid content still got reported either, i just think it might stand a better chance at lasting longer than an account uploading new paid content

i do wonder if any Carats will try at some point in the future, but i don't think it's likely especially bc, as you said, bighit is getting super strict with it. i already saw one account on twt that was planning to stream in-complete but backed out bc they were afraid of getting sued. + just the culture of how anti-pirating Carats are. which yeah I totally agree on all your points about why anti-pirating is dumb lol

but yeah I'd kill to have an account/archive with all of svts paid content all in one place

and lol i actually like talking about this stuff too! i just try not to go out of my way to talk about it bc a) i tend to write a lot when I do and that takes a lot of time and b) i try to keep my blog mostly positive for both mine and my followers sake dhfjf although I'd put the pirating stuff in a more neutral category than purely negative, at least in this context where were mostly talking about logistics dhfjf

also anon if you're planning on popping in my inbox more in the future and you want to give yourself an emoji or nickname so I can tag u just let me know! (u just can't use the 🌙 emoji bc that's taken by a different anon! also if u opt for a nickname nothing ship related or inappropriate, etc :3)