#dolores dellamorte

[loustica-lucia]

DATV — Dellamorte Legacy

Dolores Balazar & Illario Dellamorte's legacy <3 (From eldest to youngest: Alfonso, Francesca, Cornelia, Vergil & Dante) Don't mistake their cute face with their personalities, they're all trouble makers and it's only gonna get worse as they grow up lmao Alfonso the chill, lazy dude who just want to enjoy the benefits of being in a noble family without the consequences and the duty. Francesca the trouble maker, running away with the Egrativi House/Jacobus/her cousin twice removed lmao. Cornelia the fashion diva. The twins are like Devil May Cry Dante and Vergil... but without all the murder attempts, at least, they FAIL them when they try. 😂

[gxldencity]

"Would you talk to me? Your voice is a comfort" "I'll tell you a story of a charming rogue who stole the heart of a hapless hero"

[matmatto1]

NINNA, NANNA PILLOLINA

Tanti auguri a me,

tanti auguri a te,

ninna,

nanna pillolina,

non sei innocente,

né carina.

Ti chiedi come sto,

dal mattino alla sera?

I gesti si ripetono,

per non impazzire,

non pensare.

Tanti auguri a me,

tanti auguri a te,

ninna,

nanna pillolina,

non sei innocente,

né carina.

Ti prendo,

non mi ricordo più il dolore,

metto le cuffie per non sentire le parole,

l'ipocrisia che cade dal ciel in giù.

Tanti auguri a me,

tanti auguri a te,

ninna,

nanna pillolina,

non sei innocente,

né carina.

Un regalo inappropriato,

di cattivo gusto,

mal pensato,

sarà uno dei paragrafi nel libro, a dire il vero,

non rappresenterà l'educazione,

esprimerà solo la maleducazione.

Tanti auguri a me,

tanti auguri a te,

ninna,

nanna pillolina,

non sei innocente,

né carina.

Sono un artista in continua mutazione,

cambio così velocemente,

aspirando alla perfezione.

Sarò forte,

sarò perfetto,

sarò come l'angelo maledetto.

Tanti auguri a me,

tanti auguri a te,

ninna,

nanna pillolina,

non sei innocente,

né carina.

Le conseguenze indelebili,

del trauma profondo,

complesso,

scattano ad ogni associazione

e non mi sento più al sicuro,

da nessuno,

nessuna parte,

neanche da me stesso,

bloccato nell'ascensore con me stesso.

Tanti auguri a me,

tanti auguri a te,

ninna,

nanna pillolina,

non sei innocente,

né carina.

Pillole amare scorrono in gola,

il veleno che avanza non lascia parola.

Io ho scelto l'arte,

come dono fatale,

ma sappi che tutto è uguale.

Tutto è noioso,

insignificante,

la gioia dura forse solo un istante.

Tanti auguri a me,

tanti auguri a te,

ninna,

nanna pillolina,

non sei innocente,

né carina.

Tanti auguri a me e non a te.

Da adesso in poi,

il karma non sbaglierà

e giustizia divina manifesterà.

Tanti auguri a me,

tanti auguri a te,

ninna,

nanna pillolina,

non sei innocente,

né carina.

Il pensiero ossessivo mi stringe il cervello,

un eco che urla:

"Non sarai mai più felice, pillolina.

Sarò il tuo cancro.

Invaderò la tua realtà,

espanderò le mie mutazioni,

con velocità."

Tanti auguri a me,

tanti auguri a te,

ninna,

nanna pillolina,

non sei innocente,

né carina.

Parole su parole,

incise nella mente,

tradotte nel libro DELLAMORTE.

Le lettere scorrono,

leggi,

rileggi,

non capisci,

fantastichi e impazzisci.

Tanti auguri a me,

tanti auguri a te,

ninna,

nanna pillolina,

non sei innocente,

né carina.

Ogni azione è d'ispirazione,

per creare l'arte,

darle vita all'emozione.

Sarò ancora più forte,

sarò la perfezione,

rappresenterò la tua imperfezione,

aprirò le porte dell'inferno,

per questa occasione.

Tanti auguri a me,

tanti auguri a te,

ninna,

nanna pillolina,

non sei innocente,

né carina.

Quando il mondo si sgretolerà,

sarò lì,

a guardare senza parole.

Non proverò emozioni,

compassione,

empatia.

Sarò lì a osservare,

pregando la morte di ritardare.

Sarò lì a leggere il libro DELLAMORTE,

all'infinito,

fino all'attimo predefinito.

Questa poesia, intitolata "NINNA, NANNA PILLOLINA," rappresenta un potente sfogo emotivo, una confessione poetica che intreccia esperienze personali di violenza, trauma e resilienza. Nasce dall'esperienza di essere vittima di abusi di varia natura, psicologici ed emotivi, che hanno lasciato segni profondi e indelebili.

Uno degli eventi scatenanti è stato un regalo crudele ricevuto per il cinquantesimo compleanno: una lettera di sfratto. Questo gesto, impregnato di ipocrisia e insensibilità, ha rappresentato il culmine di un accumulo di dolore e di ingiustizie. La lettera è simbolo della mancanza di empatia e dell'indifferenza che caratterizzano certi rapporti e situazioni di vita. Un dono amaro, "di cattivo gusto," che diventa il fulcro di una riflessione sull'ingiustizia e sulla maleducazione di chi lo ha inviato.

La "pillolina" menzionata nella poesia è una metafora per la dipendenza, sia fisica che emotiva, da qualcosa che aiuta a sopravvivere: può essere una medicina, un'idea, un'abitudine o un meccanismo di difesa. Tuttavia, la pillolina non è "innocente né carina"; è un simbolo ambivalente, che allevia il dolore ma al contempo perpetua la condizione di sofferenza. Essa diventa il filo conduttore di una ninna nanna distorta, un canto ossessivo che non porta pace ma che accompagna il protagonista nel suo viaggio tormentato.

La poesia si snoda tra immagini di dolore, alienazione e resilienza. Si parla di blocchi psicologici ("bloccato nell'ascensore con me stesso"), di un senso di insicurezza onnipresente e di lotta contro i pensieri ossessivi. Tuttavia, emerge anche una ricerca artistica, una trasformazione personale che cerca di canalizzare il trauma in creazione: "Io ho scelto l'arte, come dono fatale."

Il messaggio finale è ambivalente: da un lato, c'è la consapevolezza dell'imperfezione e della fragilità della condizione umana; dall'altro, emerge la forza dell'arte come strumento di resistenza e rinascita. La poesia non cerca di abbellire il dolore, ma di trasformarlo in un mezzo per comprendere e accettare, senza mai perdere la speranza nella possibilità di una rinascita spirituale e creativa..

La poesia è un'opera originale dell'artista Matjaž Dellamorte

ex Matjaž Borovničar

La poesia fa parte della serie delle poesie dal libro Poesie della Morte.

[loustica-lucia]

DATV — A Little Wicked

No one calls you honey when you're sitting on a throne

Illario Dellamorte & Dolores Balazar [OC/Not Rook

1h doodle

[loustica-lucia]

DATV — Dolores Balazar Dellamorte💘

Here's my latest Dragon Age blorbo:

Dolores Balazar — the woman who'll steal Illario Dellamorte's heart after Dragon Age The Veilguard events🥰 Her brother was the Second Talon, Dante Balazar, but she was too young at the time to be eligible.

Firm, unflinching but with a charming side~😳 I picture her like a mix of Teia and Caterina's personality, knowing how to lead with a calm mind, calculating her moves. But with a grace and "femme fatale" allure that makes her truly fearful.

[loustica-lucia]

DATV — Wicked Game❤️♠️

Illario Dellamorte & Dolores Balazar[OC]

A lil doodle before going to sleep <3

[loustica-lucia]

DATV — Some thoughts about Illario Dellamorte

It's so funny to me how some people wonder how we can like a character like Illario Dellamorte… as if Loghain, Anders, Solas, Blackwall and SO many other characters who did mistakes and hurt people they loved didn't have fans, too 🤔

Grey characters, my misunderstood beloveds😔

To me, all he did wasn't for greed or power. At least not only. He wanted the attention. The recognition of his peers. All the things he never got from Caterina.

It doesn't excuse what he did to Lucanis, but it explains how he got there. He's just an idiot who wanted to be loved. He wanted to be admired. To see what it felt like to be the first choice and not the "forever second", for once.

When you grow up with nothing else but rivalry in your life, you learn how to survive and fight for it.

He just went too far. But that's how he's always been taught… 😔

In Lucanis' questline, you can see how much he loves his cousin — his brother — and how the love Illario so desperately wanted from Caterina existed, but from Lucanis.

Now that his ego is crushed and the other Crows will remember him as a traitor, he might realise it.

Some OC x Canon specific thoughts:

With Dolores Balazar — my original character who'll soon be his wife — I like to explore the hurt/comfort themes around this man.

The way he's fought his entire life and doesn't know how to properly love. With Zara, it was a toxic bond for power.

He wanted to be the First Talon, to fit Caterina's expectation and receive the attention he seeked his entire life.

Dolores Balazar is Dante Balazar — the former Second Talon —'s younger sister. She refused to take over his role, since she was very young when he got killed in "Eight Little Talons" (Tevinter Nights), afraid more Crows would try to kill her for it, since so many Talons died from intestine wars.

The duality of his story with hers, yet both seeking attention through different means, is so interesting to me.

She's a "fashion designer", making the uniforms and outfits for the Crows, designing hidden pockets for their poisons and knifes, making them as practical as fashionable. Dress to impress kind of thing. That's how she seeks attention.

They knew each other for a while before DATV, since Teia was in a relationship with her older brother, and they got along well. And Teia is very close to Caterina.

But she only ever saw him like a greedy and pitiful man, not looking past that "bad boy flirting with everyone" façade the whole time.

Seeing him at the Villa Dellamorte, kneeling in front of every Houses, defeated by his own ego, changed her vision of him. That's how she managed to see more to him than what others gave him credits for.

He's still an asshole, he's still problematic. But he's more human than just that.

He's been hurt by the way the Crows are raised the same way she did.

They both have wrongs to repay, both have struggles to fight, inner battles to win and things to prove to the world

But now, they're not alone. They're loved.

[loustica-lucia]

DATV — Dolores Balazar's Atelier🪡

I designed Dolores Balazar's Atelier in Treviso!🪡 I really love using 2D plans as a base for backgrounds like this! It makes it easier to keep things in the right scale and where each things are supposed to be in the room in perspective!

[loustica-lucia]

DATV — Dolores Balazar

Another quick doodle I made earlier <3

[gxldencity]

People on twitter seem to like this so behold a thing that I just I had to get out of my system.

Dolores gasped as Lucanis's—no Spite's teeth sunk into her lower lip. He pulled back, his calloused hand cupping her cheek tenderly and so much like Lucanis. Dolores could not help but lean into it, to seek comfort.

Then he bared his teeth, stained with her own blood. There was not a whisper of her lover behind those purple eyes.

"What's wrong? Isn't this how flesh loves flesh?" Spite cackled.

[gxldencity]

"Rook has personal beef with blood magic so you can't play as a blood mage"

[gxldencity]

all I do with photomode is take pics of my rook making lucanis's enemies explode after he does a little cut

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5, 9, and 18 for Dolores and Lucanis <3

5. Do they have different cultural backgrounds (e.g. a Rook who was raised in Antiva with Harding who was raised in Ferelden)? If so, do they ever share parts of their culture with each other? If they're similar, how do they celebrate their culture together?

Not me having Best American Girl in their playlist alfmsd

Yes and No? Like Dolores is Trevisan born to a wealthy merchant prince family and spend the first 10 years of her life in the city. Her family's estate is actually just a few blocks away from Villa Dellamorte and Caterina and her Lola Josefina are besties 💔 (as in they're the only two people who tolerate each other after so many decades). In a better timeline where Dolores wasn't sent to the Circle, she and Lucanis would've been in the same social circle. (I have that AU brewing in my head where Dolores and Lucanis are closer in age and did grow up together hehe).

Dolores's family is Antivan-Seheronese so her the household she grew up in wasn't typically Antivan. For one their house doesn't have the common Antivan architecture, favouring styles from Seheron or a style that's common in Antivan cities that have a large diaspora Seheronese community (like in Treviso I suppose). They also don't have their meals in courses and in more than one occasion, eat with their hands on a banana leaf.

But also....Dolores hasn't stepped foot in Treviso since she was 10 and Antiva in general since she was 17. She's 28 now and has considered Minrathous her home for many years. It wasn't by choice at the beginning but she has grown to love Minrathous, warts and all :). She honestly sees herself more as a Minrathous citizen than an Antivan one and through her time in Minrathous, she has adapted to the culture well (beyond the accent ig). She prefers spiced tea over coffee and loves the occasional boiled coffee even as an energy booster. Dolores also is used to all the magi-tek going on in Minrathous that she forgets things like candlehops and bright neon lights that automatically turn on and off at the correct hour don't appear outside of Tevinter.

Through this all, Dolores manages to keep up with her Seheronese culture, more so in Tevinter actually bc of a bigger diaspora community from Seheron. Her guardian, Charon Aeneas Mercar is 2nd gen Tevene born Seheronese. His family fled from Seheron to Tevinter after Par Vollen retook it. In between learning how to be a proper Tevene citizen, Dolores learn about Seheronese culture from Aeneas and practice the language with him.

But man Dolores longs to return to Antiva. It may have chewed her up but that is still home.

With that being said, food is very important to both Dolores and Lucanis—their ideal date is just cooking together—and it is one of the ways they share their cultures with each other. Dolores has learned to make Lucanis's coffee just as he wants it and even got some recipes from Caterina to try out. Lucanis adapted some Seheronese Tevene dishes to make for Dolores (he makes paella with coconut milk, sticky rice and turmeric now hehe)

9. Does your Rook bring them out often? How are they like on the battlefield? Do they banter much?

Lucanis hasn't had a day's rest since Dolores picked him from the Ossuary. She brings him out all the time. Mostly bc she believes in his skills and they do synergize well lmao. Dolores is a Death Caller and all Lucanis has to do is to make a tiny little cut and Dolores will make all of the cells in their body explode.

Exhibit A:

But alfkldk at the beginning they didn't coordinate well. It's only after Dolores stopped bickering with him that they started working together well.

Their banter goes from Dolores one-sided bickering that sounds like she's yellning band Lucanis's one sided yearning to Lucanis making her laugh through his corny jokes to cheering each other on and being quite affectionate with each other.

18. When all is said and done, where would they like to retire together? Is marriage in the cards for them? Children? Pets?

Yes yes yes 🥺. Lucanis actually proposed to marry Dolores on the morning after the final battle. He didn't even have a ring but he didn't need one to ask for her hand in marriage 🥺. Dolores said yes ofc and Lucanis got her a nice ring a few months later. It's not his mother's opal ring bc that's just....she was wearing it when she died.

It would've happened the night of that final battle but they were uhhh busy. Liwanag was also conceived after the final battle 👀 and it's why Liwanag is more Fade sensitive than most, including mages.

Speaking of which, yes they'll have two mage daughters, Liwanag and Marielle. I made them both in the CC. As you know, Liwanag is more Fade sensitive than most people, like she can hear and talk to Spite. Meanwhile, Marielle is a dreamer.

The point of all of this is that Lucanis is surrounded by his mage wife, his mage daughters and Spite.

I still dont know where I want Dolores and Lucanis to settle. Otoh, it'd be nice to be in the Dellamorte House but otoh....retiring in Dolores's family estate in Seheron and raising chickens and pigs 🥺

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ur Caterina Dellamorte u have a lead on a person who could rescue ur grandson and here comes a woman who looks so much like ur bestie 💔 when you first met Josefina Alvaros nearly 60 years ago with the same sunken "I want to ruin the world" eyes except she's an elf, has a Tevene accent and also a mage and she says her name is Rook but Illario calls her Dolores and didn't Josefina had a granddaughter named Dolores? Didn't she send her to the Circle all those years ago?

wdyd

[gxldencity]

the Crows conditioned florentina to resent her family, telling her that being with the Crows is a lot better than being stuck in the Circle unlike her cousins, Dolores and Dante. She could go outside and breath real air. She should be thankful that First Talon Caterina Dellamorte of all people allowed for her to be recruited. Nvm that she experienced solitary confinement as punishment from her superiors for making a mistake or that they broke her hand far too many times and the lashings. Or that she never made real friends with other recruits bc she may end up killing them during her training.

So basically cult behavior