#doesn't help either that fortpeat ARE them

[theresoneicouldcallking]

love in the air 1x13 (2022) / love sea 1x10 (2024)

[motelroomjesus]

love sea ramble

Lord, I just finished ep 8 at nearly 5am. I'm fuming 😭😭😭😭

Spoilers ahead btw

The beginning of this ep was so fun and sweet! Showing the love blooming even more from Rak's side and showcasing Mut's budding sweet uncle-niece relationship with Meena. We got Vi walking into Rak's own house calling him a slut endearingly and we got to watch more of how the friendship works between them, so honest and blunt and all about the friendly banter. Sooo fun. We even got a little steamy in the middle when Mut got jealous and presumably fucked Rak so good he really did forget about every other man. ViMook stans even got a little make session as a rewarding precursor to the lesbian angst we will inevitably have to suffer.

And then Rak's fucking dad shows up. 💀

That man is the most dastardly of leeches, a waste of oxygen, he has never made a positive impact or impression on anyone or anything he's ever disgraced with his presence. The fact that he used Meena to scare Rak and his sister and made sure she knew it and made her feel guilty for telling the adults in her life that he was stalking her. The fact that he delights in his son's suffering. When he confronts Tongrak and he gets so scared he freezes up and drops and cracks his phone and you can see his father turn up a smirk. I HATE THAT MAN 😭 Like if he were real and he turned up in front of me there would be felonies committed. GOD, even Rak's bitch of a cousin doesn't like him. She just knows he's evil enough to hurt his own son. I'm like lowkey distraught with how much I hate him. 😵‍💫

Preview of next ep didn't help either 😭

Congratudolences (congrats and condolences) to Mahasamut in the next ep. He now knows Rak cares for him so much so that he would give it all up for him, but that also means no more contract, no more relationship. Crazy work waiting for us next week, I will most likely cry.

Edit: I got so caught up in hating Rak's dad I didn't even touch on how Tongrak fully submitted to Mut in that jealousy love scene, and to me that was another indicator of how far Rak has fallen for Mut because Rak knows he could've easily gotten Mut off of him and gone about his day because he's the one in charge and Mut respects that. Crazy work. luv u fortpeat.

[loveisonlyforthebrave8]

okay i'm weirdly intrigued by this idea you mentioned about your ship pairings and i want to know about a few you mentioned in particular, vegaspete/kinnporsche, bellarke (girl u good?), fortpeat/prapaisky, firstkhao/raysand and if you wanna explain a few others feel free

HA! I really thought that post was just gonna float off into the tumblr ether never to be addressed again.

okay, so. i don't really know how to explain it in further detail other than to say that pete can go off and make out with porsche, or arm, or some rando and i'd be like, cool, go baby, you do you. but if vegaspete were even just a thought in vegas' head and he goes off and fucks someone else i am claws out, will fight you to the death motherfucker. anyone comes near vegas and i will literally poison them myself. it makes me jittery knowing he was such a slutty slut before pete. it's almost like i'm jealous on pete's behalf. but i guess it also doesn't help that i know probably half the men he fucked before he probably didn't even want to fuck. and that makes my head hurt. i know it's not rational. but it's where my brain goes sometimes.

and yet kinnporsche is the complete opposite. kinn is a slutty slut before porsche and i am all here for him slutting it up even when kp were getting their flirt on and trying to 'forget about their night together' i was all for him trying to rough up that little twink. but if kp is just at the looking but not touching stage and porsche goes off with someone else i'm gonna rip the other person to shreds. male? female? idgaf, i'll come for you.

bellarke. HA. am i good you ask? oh. i'm barely clinging onto my sanity. but bellarke was so much fun before it all went to shit. my bisexual queen clarke could fuck whoever she wanted (except finn because ew girl) and it did not bother me one bit. i shipped the fuck out of her and niylah, oooft. but the moment bellamy got with someone else i wanted to rip their throats out with my bare teeth. do not get me started on blecho.

fortpeat and firstkhao (i view these differently because they're real people and not characters so it's not necessarily about them being a couple, more who they are partnered with)

fortpeat. some BN and FP fans might have me destroyed for admitting this, but i would fucking murder to see peat and boss being paired up for at least one project. i think they'd work so fucking well together and their chemistry would be FIRE. but the thought of fort being paired with someone other than peat makes my tummy hurt. prapaisky might actually be my only exception actually. i don't like the thought of either of them being with anyone else.

firstkhao are the same. i've seen first paired with multiple people and i am OBSESSED with that boy. he has chemistry with literally everyone. he could flirt with a tree and i'd ship it. but the thought of khao and anyone other than first makes me sad. but their only friends characters have already started having the affect on me. i want to see sand being a slutty slut and making his sex money and making ray jealous. but the thought of ray and anyone not sand is making me antsy.

i dunno. it's a weird thing my brain does with ships/pairings. there are no rational thoughts behind it. my brain just decides one of you is okay to be a massive slut and one isn't allowed within ten feet of someone who isn't the person i want them to be with.

[curious-about-dramas]

The Heart Killers EP10 - (text) reaction

I both love and hate that this is episode 10 already.

It feels like it lasted longer - and I think it's because the episodes last longer and I feel that they are packed of things happening (it is also possibile that I may be in too deep).

But the fact that it will end in 10 days now is so sad. JoongDunk and FirstKhaotung are respectively my first and second most liked Thai CPs, and this was from before this series. And I usually really like P'Jojo's vision and also we're out of high-school/university. I feel like I'll never get another series that has all these ingredients, that I love so much separately, all together.

I'll enjoy it as much as I can.

PART 1 / 4

They didn't show the kiss in the ocean at night from the last EP, but they showed the one on the boat LOL. Fandom sure has eagle eyes and JoongDunk will always be joondunking.

I just saw a tag with PORSCHE written on it - like seriously, Fast & Furious, Harry Potter, and now Porsche with edits requested on Twitter using One Direction songs … have you literally created this show for me specifically, P'Jojo?! You also got my 2 most favorite CPs in all of Thai BL (my 3rd being FortPeat which is not GMMTV).

The boyfriends are still trying to change the brothers' mind, this time with real words unlike EP6. The outcome is the same though. Sigh!

Also part 1 is 24 minutes long … I love that it's longer than normal.

"Don't jinx it, dude." He literally took thge words out of my mouth. It's kinda obvious that all the talk from Fadel & Bison was mostly for Style, because Kant looks much more defeated and surrendered; also, is that some stubble on First's chin?

I like that they're doing research on their own, to find the truth … but why mother, Bison?! Please, Fadel, do it on your own.

New identities - the lawyers photos? Yep, the very same. BTW I recognized Joong from his voice alone (just like my 1D boys; but also, please help me).

Why do I get the feeling that those 2 company names are very much tied with them specifically? The music's also changed. I was kinda waiting for either Fadel or Bison to pull the gun on Ruerat as soon as Bison pocketed the check. I guess they want him to know first.

Oooh, our sweet like crazy phycho Bison. See, this I was expecting.

"Who sent you? // It doesnt matter who sent us! (…) Why did you kill MY parents?" Oh sweetie! He's too emotional because it's his parents; you wouldn't think he's actually a professional cold-bloded serial killer.

Oh, he knows Lilly! Interesting. I kinda hate that I've read the novel at the moment. I think they will keep this part as is, so basically I've spoiled myself.

Fadel was soo sexy pulling that gun from behind his back, ngl. I get you now, Style, I really do.

Ooh, ok, this is slightly different then, Lilly worked for Ruerat. But then how is he involved the parents' murder? Because if she worked FOR him, then she killed FOR him. Right? So, don't trust Mother, absolutely, but also kill Ruerat.

I think more answers are needed though; kidnap anyone? Oh, so this is why Fadel is so frustrated in this abandoned place with Bison.

"What even was real?" -- good question. It's all different now, who's supposed to be their target. Also, why aren't they followed again by a shooter? Why was Fadel shot at only when with Style? Joong looks so young though with lighter colored clothes, he doesn't look like Bison's older brother here, although he's still behaving like one.

Bison is really easy with blaming Mother, she has been suppressing him all along with being a hitman, so I guess it's easier for him to believe Ruerat. I see Fadel is more hesitant. Maybe learning about a certain someone disappearing 2 years ago will help him decide? (But also, I hate that he still has to learn about that. I wonder if it's this episode or next.)

"Should we kill her? She taught us to kill bad people. What she did to us was beyond evil." Yeah, karma's a bi*ch.

I see Fadel still trying to contain psycho Bison, but he is at a loss for words. He looks like he couldn't tell left from right.

Yeah, she knows them really well. They will have to think outside the box on this one. Again, my novel spoilers mind aargh! I've never regretted reading a book, but with this one I'm very close, really. the novel was so short and simple compared to the series, but the main points of the story are still the same, that's why I feel like the novel was basically drama spoilers, nothing more.

The boyfriends at the same restaurant as in EP6, still talking about the brothers' last mission. This time they really cannot do anything.

That is a staged kill, right? Also, it is kinda funny projecting murder proof photos in a normal conference room in a normal business building.

Aaaaaaaaand there's the spider web tattoo. Mystery solved.

Keen learning what is the only way out of this life doesn't look promising. But who knows? If he really isn't that good with guns …

Babe is back! My guess is all those novels he's reading are what's making him so romantic.

Bowling all alone, watching others be together … oh, Kant. It's a memory, Bison jumping in Kant's arms!

Ooh, look at little Bison hiding behind the courtains. Did he mean to show himself or did he have bad luck with Kant turning at just the perfect moment?

"Nothing hurts more than not seeing you." Ooh, looks who's being cheesy and romantic! Good job, Kant!

I wonder why he's not telling Bison and Fadel about the police and whatever evidence those have. Like, Kant is/was sure the brothers would end up in jail, so why isn't he telling them these things? Still, I love his determination in helping Bison.

Man, Dunk is flexing so much with those 2 tyres, LOL. He said Fadew, right?

He's saying the exact same things as Kant … it looks the same as in EP7 when Fadel & Bison went after Style & Kant after learning that they were the snitches. Mmmh.

PART 2 / 4

"When I'm in, I'm all in, body and soul" while smirking at Fadel. Ooh Style, please never change! I was wondering in the 1st part why there were so little quotes that I wanted to write down -- it's because Style was missing from most of it.

"I'm not saying it to be cool, I'm saying it to be yours." Ahahaha. I guess someone REALLY missed Fadel, missed bickering with Fadel. KantBison just laughing on the side, so beautiful.

Bison is leaving Style to Fadel. I mean, it makes sense, but also, poor Fadel. Although this division of chores feels interesting - Style has seen Keen twice already; well 3 times if you count the thrift shop, but then he didn't see his face. Maybe this will trigger some memories?

C'mon brother-in-law, it's just you missing. -- me translating Kant

That is not proper hitman investigation behaviour, Bison! I love it. Although, he hugged Fadel to death when he was teasing him about having a boyfriend, so I guess it's standard Bison behaviour. Exactly, focus, guys! Also, did they steal a real taxi?! I mean, Kant can, right?

FadelStyle are so suspicious, it's sadly funny.

Why didn't Fadel mention that Keen shot them before?! Style almost gave them away … again. They were making a lot of noise, especially in an empty place like that. What kind of place is it though? Like, how is Keen the only person eating there?

That kiss was soooo smooth, it's Kant's turn to not be serious on the job. Cunning First looks interesting.

Style trying to be unconspicuous while wearing RED screams so much Bison. At least it's not a crop top, right? Please use the fire alarm behind Fadel and not try with room service or some other stupid idea, Style. Cunning Dunk doesn't look nearly as interesting as First … and i'm kinda betting there's a reason for that.

Absolutely, equal rights for men and women - and to me it creepy from both. I am not a fan of "Stifler's mom" kind of adults.

And I just can guess who is a young, handsome caddy. What?! Mother doesn't fall for it? Smart lady.

First looks so tall near that other lady. He's helping her very much like how he helped "Shorty in red" in EP1, right? Is Bison jealous on the side instead of hiding?

Style looks so smart with that outfit. Dunk's gonna kill it as Kamin, I just know it. They've gone with room service, of course. At least it's not Keen who's answering. But also, isn't Fadel aware that Keen knows Style's face? Why risk it like this? Ooh, look at me being right.

PART 3 / 4

So, so far we've had Bison, then Fadel, and now Kant playing "hosts". Will we get 4/4, like we did with the bum grabs? I mean, fair is fair.

Bison being far all by himself, while trying not to be suspicious is kinda funny. Lilly seems really good at being vigilant, wonder how she doesn't recognize her own son.

Fadel is kinda provocative, maybe thinking he knows Keen, mmh. Also, watching FadelStyle kneeling on that red carpet/whatever - I mean 3 bows and they're married, according to period Chinese dramas, vey fitting since it's Chinese New Year today.

Ooh, see, GPS on the car, I knew it! Thank you for confirming it.

Right, because Keen was also an orfan like Fadel and Bison. Ok, I dig it. Still, I don't understand then -- were they failing at stalking … on purpose? Was the goal to actually recruit Keen or is this just a way out? Fadel is too calm, Style too. OMG, look at Style - good job!

Ok, so I know this is a BL, but like everyone is gay here. Keen's boyfriend, Fadel's boyfriend, Bison's boyfriend - I mean Mother, you sure knew how to pick them.

So, the simplest theory then - Mother had him killed, Keen knew, but by how's he's telling it, it doesn't feel like he had anything to do about it. I do find it weird then that Fadel wasn't more suspicious about his ex ghosting him.

"Do you love him more than your Mother?" A good question, indeed.

Style got his little revenge kick. Good for him, he's got to live with a scar too, now.

PART 4 / 4

Where is this abandoned pool though? Both Fadel and Bison know it. Also, abandoned, but there are lights and electricity, oops.

The police is still mysteriously missing. And it's missing since they escaped the hospital. Didn't the captain realize Kant is back? And if he/Kant is back, after either kidnapping or being kidnapped by Bison, then maybe he knows something?

"Put this on me." Ooh, he still has it. Ok, he recovered it, but still. It is meaningful for them.

And now Titanic - so many western references. So this makes Bison Rose, right? Well, he loves red, so it's very fitting. EDIT: someone on Twitter mentioned that both FK weren't even born when Titanic came out, ouch.

"I prefer reenacting another scene, though. // Which one? // The one in the car." Yes please, Bison, we haven't had an NC scene since forever, especially between you and Kant. Kissing every single finger, so sexy. Also, FirstKhaotung can kiss, man. I gotta check something though, let me watch it again. Yeah, missed opportunity, but still very much 1000/10. EDIT: why do I even try, really. I should know by now I am blind. Thank you, random person on Reddit for pointing out that this is (finally) a full blown kiss, tongue and all (55:05). You go, Bison!

I love how it's Kant leaning on Bison here, trusting him, (role?) playing with him. This is what I appreciate most in M/M -- they're both men, there is no woman, which means there are no gender norms and/or social prejudices to be bestowed on them. They get to choose how they want to live their love, in everything, every single time.

Fadel is mourning his ex. It's fair. He thinks he's scary and let's be real, it's true. If we - normal people in real life - were to meet a hitman/serial killer I don't know how many would still stay, how many wouldn't be afraid. Style is not the norm.

The way Fadel looked at Style for a moment, like asking - Are you really still here? Why? "I don't want to have any expectations just to be disappointed." I mean, given his history and his job, it's the sanest way to live.

Yeah, the fact that he didn't even suspect his ex disappearance is … a bit odd. I guess he trusted very much the people that knew about him, like Mother and Keen, but not his ex. I do wonder if Bison knew about him. Two-ish years is a long time though, he probably knew.

Joong is crying so beautifully here … oh sweetie. "Please just leave me." What?! NO!!!!

I love the absence of music, it's just JoongDunk now. Again, like in EP5. And Style is saying the same things as in EP5, just this time Fadel also sees that Style knows what he's saying because he knows the whole truth and it very much still on board.

He really is Fadel's soulmate 100%. I love that they found each other, it's amazing to watch.

That hug, man … yeah, I'm crying too.

And the preview - confronting Mother, ok, I like this, but why does it look like she's about to cry? What is trying to pull on them? Oops, I called the police apparently. Also, why are they all wearing -- those colors are too dark and too serious, even Bison has red and black. "Why not just get married?" Yeeees, absolutely, say it louder Style's dad. Two proposals then? So the lovey-dovey is next week, not this one. I do wonder if there's some time skip - it changed to abruptly from police stopping them to being in love and talking marriage.

[forkaround]

BL Awards: Catch Me Sobbing Category

Sad things are just as important as the not-sad things and thus...

Scene that has me sobbing for whatever reason.

(BL Awards: At the end of an amazing year of absolute chaos in the world of BL. I come to you with my favorite moments of the year divided into categories that would not make it into any respectable Award show. But this is Tumblr. You know what you signed up for.)

Parpai reading from Sky's journal (Love in the Air)

I don't want to discuss the ethics of this and mileage varies for every other person. But this had me sobbing to the point my mother yelled at me for crying over fictional characters. It's how both of them are hurting. It's about Sky not wanting to open up. It's about Pai being confused and hanging over Sky's words. Pai doesn't know what happened, to Sky in the past and to Sky now and he can't accept that Sky would say all those things. Fort and Peat were acting. Truly in their Oscars bag. I remember holding my breath as if I was underwater throughout this scene. Uff.

Sky not crying and Pai crying in his stead (Love in the Air)

(I can't find a gif for the specific line.)

Who knew that not crying was worse than crying? This scene knocked me off the face of the earth. They are both reeling and the emotional intelligence Prapai shows here, god, another writer, another actor could have made this so much worse than it was. But in Mame and FortPeat's hands this was beautiful. It's gentle, it's mature, it's taking care of Sky before Pai can go around smacking people/taking revenge. But that was not the goal of this story. Revenge tel lene gaya. (revenge goes to buy oil. kinda like revenge go to hell.) This is about grace, this is about healing. I have never seen a narrative like this dealt with such gentleness and keeping the characters 'not-broken'. idk how to explain this. Gun gets everything that is coming to him but in this moment it's not about him. It's about SKY.

GAP: Mon being confused by Sam and crying

Something less intense. I feel for both our girlies. Sam is constantly going hot and cold and that is so taxing for everyone around her especially Mon, who has loved her since she was a kid. tbf Sam doesn't know this. And Sam is herself so tragic. Never expressing who she is and what she wants leaving for those around her to interpret her intentions. As much as I feel for her though, I can't see her as a decent boss.

Triage: Tin goes into a coma and Tol is reading to him

I did not expect this to hurt me as much as it did. I can't quantify even now why I love this show so much. But after the POV switch something about this show just fit. I was going to be so mad if they ended up unhappy. I was barely starting to get comfortable with BLs and their happy endings. And then this hit. It didn't end unhappy but I sure thought it would. (Also the clock tower kiss is just something else)

The Eclipse: Every AkkAyan scene towards the end

There are so many gifs/scenes where this boy is crying. First must have had quite the month crying over and over each episode. He is so stuck in his circumstances, in his own head about what's right and wrong. Brittle things. And you see that with how he is caught in between Chadok and Ayan.

ChadokDika story

Dika didn't deserve it. That's it. (tbf Chadok didn't deserve it either.)

(There's many different ways to kill the one you love / slowest way is never loving them enough)

180 Degrees Longitude Passes Between Us

Literally everyone is hurting on this show and hurting everyone else. And it all just HURTS. I can't fully put a bad guy/good guy label on any of them. It's so complexly human. So simply human. So beautifully human and so pathetically human. Seeing my own family in this show didn't help. Mol can't move on from her past. Inn can't see the future. Waan can't live in the present. Them always being on a different wavelength keeps hurting and I think some part of them recognizes this. The ending doesn't help. It's realistic. It's hard. And it hurts. This show is just:

The surety that no matter how much it hurts it would end happy help enjoy the angst so much better. I didn't have to worry someone might end up dead or they might not end up together. (there are exceptions to this, as you can see)