#does this need a warning idk its not a serious drawing sooo

[forwardrussia]

notice me senpaiiii

Now available as stickers!!

[revengerevisited]

i found this vanqua fic the other day, it’s only a couple chapters but i like it so far. :3 it does have a ‘creator chose not to add warnings’ label though, so please be cautious. also baby-xemnas aka kotbysleep (nsfw) aka nekokat42 (also nsfw) is a much better vanqua artist than me so please check him out. X’D (heads-up those twitter threads are way longer than you think so make sure you see eeeverything~).

anyway, more wip art below the cut, plus my endless rambling (i talk about 18+ topics, just a warning)—

i’m still working on venqua week and i’ve got 2 more prompts to go, one i haven’t started yet and one i’m halfway done with—

~aaand yeah i’m re-using it for a vanqua pic too... X’D am i lazy, or just resourceful? you decide. ;P

but yeah, both of these pics will have an 18+ version as well. i admit i’m super anxious about posting it next week, as i’ve seen just how absolutely toxic fandom is on twitter. like, you thought tumblr was bad? i’ve spent the last few days preemptively blocking literally hundreds if not thousands of antis just so i can feel a little safer posting my content without some asshat calling me a pedo or telling me to kill myself over cartoons. XU i somewhat worry that i’ve accidentally blocked some people who were just joking around and weren’t actually harassing anyone, but it’s just so hard to tell sometimes. if i’ve accidentally blocked anybody here, just let me know so i can unblock you. :3 (idk why that sentence came out so sinister sounding but i’m legit being sincere X’D).

but seriously, idk when fandom suddenly got such a stick up its ass (around 2016-17 from my guesstimate) and decided aging-up a fictional character by a year or two is such a crime, but i guess that’s just the state of things. :T i could draw vanitas as a centaur or make him blond or whatever and no one cares, but aging him by one year? suddenly big problem! yeah, right. XP like, i know i said every character in kh is 17+ as of khmom (ignoring any weird timeline retcons of course), but heck i could make an honest case for the wayfinder family all being adults. hear me out—

it’s been 13 years since bbs, right? and for 12 of those years, aqua was in the realm of darkness, terra had some awareness while being possessed by xehanort, ven experienced some of sora’s life when he was in a coma, and vanitas was almost certainly in ven/sora’s heart as well, so all four of them could be said to be 31, 33, and 29 respectively. it’s not like their character models were any different when they were young teens as opposed to older teens, so can we really be sure they’re not all 30~ by now? heck, since ven is from the age of fairytales i could say he’s 1000 years old if i wanted too! (psst, it’s almost as if these are all fictional characters living in a fantasy world with time travel and whatnot and their ages are completely arbitrary numbers nomura made up on the spot, numbers which he has retconned before! :P).

now i don’t actually think they’re that old, but if people are gonna hassle me over a goddamn 2-year age difference, i might as well say fuck it and have fun with it, right? ;P it’s not like antis even know what the canon character ages even actually are, like when they try to say that skuld is underage when (assuming she’s subject x) she’d be around 28~ by now, or axel and saïx’s age. (maybe i’ll draw some saïx x skuld art and watch the antis lose their minds. ;P it wouldn’t even have to be nsfw to rile them up).

anyway, i do admit i’m feeling a little burned out on art recently. XP i’ve been trying to get one art piece out per week plus venqua week, and yeah it’s kinda taken its toll. i know this really isn’t anything anyone wants to hear, but i’ve been kinda thinking of moving away from fandom projects to work on my own original work. now, i’m not saying i’m abandoning a heart and a half nor anything as drastic as that! but i have spent like 2 years of my life on it just to get to the halfway mark, and i’m not sure i can spend 2 more doing only that.

i’ve got an original story idea that i’ve been working on-and-off on for the past 7 years or so, and i’m thinking of going back to it again (it does need a pretty big re-write). its main pairing is actually pretty vanqua-ish, now that i think about it. like, imagine the realm of darkness but instead of the heartless it’s infested with demons, and the main characters are the demon-slaying duo of a serious yet kindhearted half-angel and a feral, snarky half-demon. i even aged them up from 14 to 18 so none of my potential fans have to suffer the same anti bullshit that i have. XP

what else can i ramble about... oh, i got these super cute pins for christmas! :D the heartless is by xkirakira, and vanitas and aqua are by maxxmerch. they’re just so cute! X3 i hope everyone had a merry christmas and a happy holiday! i’ll see you guys later. ^3^ 

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*looks around sheepishly* ó3ò alright... confession time. spoilers for a heart and a half for the rest of this post—

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sooo~ i’ve kinda hinted at this before, but yeah i’ve always planned on adding a sex scene to a heart and a half; when i started writing back in 2018 i hadn’t realized how hostile fandom had become compared to only a few years ago, and it worries me that some readers might drop the fic because of it, or be angry with me over the underage aspect. :(

idk, i could go on about how i just wanted to explore every aspect of a romantic relationship, or how other disney/square enix characters married or had kids young (ariel, sarah hawkins, héctor, claudia strife, possibly jasmine), or how attempting to apply real-world rules to a videogame fantasy setting is inherently silly and pointless, but really it’s just ‘cause i love vanitas and aqua to bits and i just wanted to write a cute and funny mild sex scene between them (this fic is rated mature, not explicit, so much less graphic than confection affection), and at the end of the day they are just fictional characters, after all.

i guess all i can hope for is that i’m a skilled enough writer to pull it off in a believable way, and that my audience won’t be too put off by it. >_> i know vanitas and aqua have technically only known each other for about 2 months so it might not be ‘realistic’ for them to go so far into a relationship so soon, but i think it’s important to remember that ultimately this is a romantic fairytale, and other canon disney couples haven’t seen nearly as deeply into each other’s hearts as vanitas and aqua have (and this video also helped me feel better about it).

i also wanted to finish that nsfw venqua fic i started a few months back, it’s set just before the mark of mastery so yes ven would be 16. i suppose it’s a way of testing the waters to see what kind of reception i’d get (hopefully positive) before i get to that part of a heart and a half. i was also thinking of including some of the uh, ‘keyblades as erogenous zones’ aspect from this terraquaven fic as well... w-why are you looking at me like that?! it’s funny! *sweats nervously* o3o’

in all honesty, i’m probably just overthinking all this (which, knowing me, is almost a guarantee >_<) and i should just *ahem* let my heart be my guiding key, and just write what i want to write without worrying about it all the time. i just get so anxious so easily... buuut that’s not really news to anyone, now is it? ;P well, i think that’s the end of my endless ramble, thanks for reading if you got this far. X’D and i really hope i didn’t actually upset anybody about a heart and a half. ;_; i just felt like i needed to vent a little, but don’t worry about me, i’m doing fine. anyway, i really should stop typing and get back to work on venqua week, sooo... bye! X3

[thesilencebeforeastorm]

| A Dead Girl's Portrait |

Characters: Ignis Scientia, Dahlia Rose Scientia, Mystery Person (read to find out lol)

Genre: Angst

Trigger Warning: None

Word Count: 1,057

Tagging: @vundis-scientia @fscottcatsgerald @jojopitcher @its-lunafreya @xylianna @arcticblade @dianett-e

Previous Chapters: Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3

Chapter 4 - Mystery Woman

 When I got home, I decided that now was the perfect time to use my art kit and forget about that dreadful funeral. I sat on the floor in my room and placed my art kit on my lap. As I opened it, I was in awe. The oil pastels and paints were sooo beautiful and left me mesmerized. There were so many colors from red all the way to black. Oh how I wished I could've used them in real life for better things instead of trying to close an open wound. My hand traced along the kit just like my dad did and I sighed at my thoughts. I used art as an escape but now, all I wanted to do was escape this nightmare. I knew this wasn't a dream but everyday, I hoped that this was a lingering nightmare and that I would soon wake up.

 I wanted to start working on my wall for my dad since it was what I had promised to would do. I thought about drawing my dad at the funeral but I didn't want to draw such a sad memory so I focused my attention on drawing a pinkish, redish Dahlia with my oil pastels. Satisfied with the idea, I pulled out my sketchbook and got to my craft. I kept drawing and drawing, putting all the wonderful colors together into one magnificent masterpiece. After some time, I had finished so I got my tape and taped it too my wall. Taking a step back, I was amazed with how well my drawing came out.

 I heard the door unlock, assuming it was my dad so I didn't go check on him. I already knew what he looked like and how he felt so I wanted to leave him alone. It wasn't until I heard a knock at the door that I stopped. Wondering who it was, I put my drawing and art kit away, careful not to leave anything out of place and walked down the hallway to eavesdrop. Hmph, eavesdrop. Who could see me? Unless it was that woman.

When he opened the door, I focused all my attention on who could be there.

“Hey”, a woman said to him, though I still couldn't see who it was.

“Aranea", my dad said with a sigh. “What brings you by?”

Aranea? How come I've never heard of her?

“The king and your pals told me to check up on you. Thought you wouldn't mind me stopping by.”

My dad simply hummed in response. Seemed like he didn't want her there.

“So, are you gonna let me in or what? Can't keep a girl waiting y’know”.

“Of course, my apologies", he said and let her in. That's when I saw who she was. Crapppppp it's the woman from the funeral. She'll spot me. I have to hide somewhere, I thought to myself as I had behind the wall in the hallway. I still wanted to hear why she was really here.

“Sorry to what happened to your little girl. Well, she wasn't really little but you know what I mean”, she said to him.

“It's alright", my dad responded.

Aranea started to look around the apartment, studying everything in my house.

“Nice place you got here Specs”, she told him.

Specs? Since when does she call him that? Only the king and his friends do.

My dad only hummed in response again. Seeing she wasn't getting him to say much, she started looking around more, almost as if she was searching for something which my dad took notice of.

“Looking for something Aranea?”, he asked her.

“Yea, your bathroom. Mind telling me where it is?”

“Down the hall, to your left", he said.

Shit run. Now she's really going to find me.

I ran into my room and hid in my closet, trying my hardest to avoid her. I wasn't too sure if she could really see me or not but I wasn't going to take any chances. Every footsteps she took down the hallway made my heart beat faster and harder. I tried to keep my breathing noise at a minimum so she wouldn't hear her either. I peeked through a crack in my closet door, waiting to see if she would walk in and just my luck, she did. I watched her open the door slowly and look around to then my closet. She observed it carefully, eyes and ears open waiting for anything and then she spoke.

“I know you're in there. I can see you".

Please please please go away. I don't care if you see me, I don't want you here.

“You think you're helping, but you're actually hurting him", she said.

I'm what?

“What are you doing?”, my dad asked as he walked in my room, startling Aranea.

“Shit, don't you know how to warn someone when you're near?”, she said.

“I asked you a question", he said firmly. “Why are you here?”

“I wanted to see what her room looked like. Talented kid if you ask me".

Ignis sighed again, avoiding looking around my room. I knew that by her being here, it would only cause him to come in and hurt him more. Make her leave.

“I think it's best if you would leave", he said sternly. Me and him knew her stay was long overdue.

“Right. Uh well I'm here if you need anything so you know where to find me”, she replied.

“I think I'll be fine”, he replied as he moved to the side to walk her out. She then took one last look at my closet and walked out.

Finally I was able to breathe out. Any minute longer and my face would've turned blue until I passed out dead. Shit, bad time to say that.

As my dad was going to walk out my room, he took one look at the wall and stopped in his tracks.

“This.. wasn’t here before?”, he asked himself.

He seemed confused, wondering if his mind was playing tricks on him.

Wait, he can really see the drawing??

I was going to step out the closet to see if he could notice me too but he quickly took his attention away from my wall and walked out, closing the door behind him.

No don’t go…

 Author's Note: Guysssss what should happen next? I have a serious writing block and idk what to do. I want to have Aranea help Dahlia somehow but to do what? All suggestions will really help!